#human indignity

[lntrusiveknock]

sometimes i think of letting the darkness take me. i watched the people i love and who should love me and themselves enough to change- succumb to a human weakness. an insidious truth. i beg to know why i should stand up alone. i wonder why i should be strong when this belief of a greater good seems to be invisible in their lives and its absence is painfully and heartbreakingly evident. years of experience on this earth and it fails to teach some of us better. but especially ones i hold so dear…i wonder if i am born and fated to be alone in victory, with no company on the battlefield. i just dont want to be alone, in whatever i do… i even ask my shadow to chase me and haunt me. i need a bridge to my oldest dreams. i need to arrive at the start again and mark the close of one circle. I Need to come out of this new. i wish to not let myself become old and helplessly jaded. there would always be inferiority where i go. i need to be stronger than the wallowing voices, spoken from the lips of my loved one. it pains me so much you dont even know. more than what is reasonable for a child who could just choose to look away, i dont know. i wouldnt ever have known what being normal is like. my home is plagued by a protected sense of regret so living and ever present, human indignity, the constant striving for justification and pride beneath rock bottoms, it is making every single person so extremely dysfunctional… i dont want to continue living in this reality anymore… i pray my outlook on it all changes and not just for me… because theres nothing more on earth that disgusts me more than honest emotional inexperience… it is twisting me inside out. i dont know why the kindness my heart extends is so selective. I REALLY DONT KNOW WHY. and it will take me down further if i dont change it…the last thing ill ever do is find accusation only to reinforce my beliefs. (im past the point of linearity and Frankly you wouldnt guess how ELATED and grateful i am to have reached this absolute low.) hate me, hate the world for this.. i just dont want to feel it anymore.

[starry-bi-sky]

more clone^2

snippet 21: Danny is Bruce Wayne's Clone and--

Star, with the rest of the A-List girls: alright ladies! it's time for our quarterly 'cutest boys' list! Now I'll get straight to the point, in our number one spot is--

All girls, in unison: Danny Fenton

Star, writing it down on a whiteboard: and for our number two spot--

---------- Snippet 22: clone meet clone

Ellie, dramatically: Danny!

Danny, equally dramatic: Ellie!

Ellie, pushing past him and looking around: where is he! i wanna see the little guy!

Damian, with a sword, brandishing it dangerously: *in arabic* don't come any closer, stay back!

Danny, wrapping an arm around Ellie's waist and pulling her back: woah, woah - he's still adjusting to everything

Danny, turning towards Damian with his google translate open: [please don't stab her. this is Ellie my clone.]

Damian, lowering his sword in disbelief: 'there's MORE of you?

-------------- Snippet 23: Ellie has the same epiphany as Danny

Ellie:...hey Danny

Danny, pouring over his arabic book: hm

Ellie: since I'm your clone, and you're a clone of Bruce Wayne, and Damian is a clone of Damian Wayne, does that technically mean I'm his mom - uh. dad-mom?

Danny:

Ellie:...its a fair question

Danny: .....*deep sigh* you're his cousin until further notice.

------------ Snippet 24: wait for me ii (hadestown, live vers.)

(i'm not sure of the context, but i've been thinking of Danny saying this to Damian during a serious moment for days. the snippet title is the song that the dialogue below is from)

Danny, fixing up Damian's wraith suit: the meanest dog you'll ever meet

Danny, zipping up damian's jacket: it ain't the hound dog in the street. he bares some teeth and tears some skin, but brother,

Danny, adjusting Damian's gloves, pausing to look him in the eye: that's the worst of him.

Danny, he holds a finger up to Damian's eyes and points it at him: the dog you really got to dread, is the one that howls inside your head

Danny, grabbing damian's mask and smoothing it over his eyes: it's him whose howling drives men mad, and a mind to its undoing

------------ Snippet 25: Danny is Bruce Wayne's clone-- (Battinson Vers*)

Ember, in the middle of a fight with Phantom + Wraith:

Ember, knocks off Phantom's mask for the first time: lets see what ugly mug you're really hiding under there, Phantom--

Phantom: *the wettest, most pathetic looking pretty boy on the planet*

Ember:

Phantom, dryly: what, did your mic die out or something? all that caterwauling finally make you lose your voice

Wraith, unsheathing his sword: *vibrating with baby brother rage bc he knows EXACTLy why Ember is silent*

----------- Snippet 26: Damian is finally starting to play nice :)

Dany: hey... guys.... whatcha doing

Damian, hanging out with Sam: Me and Manson are plotting ways to crush the Mayor's plan to cut budget funding for the city parks and cut down the native trees

Danny: oh, i see.... is this safe?

Sam: probably

Danny: hm.

------------- Snippet 27: digging up cold case

Danny: ....if Damian is out with Sam tonight with their plot against the mayor....

Danny, turning towards his desk: then that means I can work some more on Mrs. Witherbury's murder case that she asked me to solve without Dames guilt-tripping me into bed :)

Danny, settling down at his desk with a thermos full of coffee: i'm glad sam and damian are finally getting along

--------- Snippet 28: sparring

Damian, frowning: your reflexes are incredible but your combat is downright awful, brother. it's truly a miracle i didn't skewer you upon our first meeting

Danny, got his ass kicked by his 7yo brother: *groaning in pain* not everyone has super secret assassin training, Damian. And I don't really have time to actually practice anything.

Damian: Mrs. Fenton knows martial arts and her form is proficient enough, I'm sure she would be delighted to teach you if you asked. I will join since I need to keep my skills sharp and my training was unfinished when I arrived here.

-------- Snippet 29: daytime surprise

Phantom, fighting Skulker in broad daylight: *under his breath* at least Lancer's english test will get canceled for this...

Phantom, dodging a blast from Skulker: *in ASL, furious* don't you have anything better to do, you fuck!?

Skulker: foolish ghost child, speak! I know you're capable of it - speak before you lose the ability to

Phantom: *flips him off instead*

Wraith, sending back a ecto-blast with his sword: please pay attention, phantom

Phantom, doubletaking: *in a hissed whisper* what are you doing here!? it's a school day, you should be at school!

Wraith: Tt. If the boot fits.

------------ Snippet 30: guilt

Danny with his head on his desk, his elbows propped up as he massages his hands: hn

Damian, lurking to the side with a guilty look on his face:

Damian: can i....

Danny, silently holding his hand out to Damian: hrm

Damian, immediately taking it and doing the massages + finger exercises: ...im sorry

Danny: hm... I forgive you

[sysig]

Congrats on your promotion (Patreon)

[gravedigg]

As a Qunari lover, the snapchat filter smooth Qunari forehead makes me nauseous. EUGH

[vaguely-concerned]

something so deeply garak core about lucanis' 'surviving at this point not so much because I actually want to live (lmao imagine!) but because I refuse to let any of you fuckers get a W out of me' deal

(with a side dish of the sisko 'but you exist here' agony. just for spice)

[redrobin-detective]

Iruma-kun, the Six Fingers and Humanity

I have been mulling over this idea for days as I devoured the Iruma-kun anime then manga and am still struggling to articulate it. The best I can boil down to is the whole goal of the Six Fingers and the return to origins is, unbeknownst to them, a desire to become more human.

I can understand, in a way, their frustration. Demons used to be merciless killers, where the strong surpassed the weak and magic, aggression and power won the day. Now we see they have idol concerts and theme parks and silly games to help demons safely purge their “wickedness” which is, in reality just another part of their nature. The majority of modern day demons deny a large part of themselves. The whole idea of a wicked cycle is endlessly fascinating to me, like this species has compartmentalized themselves so much that their pent up darker impulses periodically spring out and require them to be handled gently or hidden away. I can see how this practice is insulting and incredibly restrictive of what a demon is.

Now, right from the start, Iruma has stood out in the demon world for a few reasons. First and most obviously, he lacks any practical or cultural knowledge of demonic society. We see Iruma ignorantly stride past social norms and boundaries he didn’t even know existed. If it weren’t for his upbeat, people pleasing attitude he’d be written off as a delinquent but instead he helps foster an environment of change in a bunch of slackers and misguided students. And change is a radical concept in a society that hasn’t replaced the demon king in centuries since the old one disappeared. The effect of Iruma’s very presence, his enthusiasm and attitude and cooperative abilities can be seen so strongly on the Misfit class that its no wonder he’s become such a stand out student.

So I had heard of Irumean when I first started the series and had high expectations of him being a full on bastard. And he simply wasn’t. He was arrogant, reckless, rude at the worst but even those around him commented that his innate, unnatural kindness was still there. I argue because Irumean was never a true wicked cycle. It was Ali-san’s attempt to induce a demonic ritual onto him. But humans aren’t like demons, Iruma is a good, kind, patient boy due to his trauma and strength of character. At any point he could lash out in the most horrific fashion and leave everyone stunned because he is not bound such such strict rules of personality and conduct. His humanity is as much a strength as it is a weakness.

So according to recent chapters, Iruma has traces of Delkira’s energy. My first thought was that it was emanating from Ali-san, which is a distinct possibility but why was the ring attracted to Iruma in the first place? My next theory is that Delkira had some connection to humans as well. Either he’s a hafling or a demonized human or spent a significant amount of time in the human world. Either way, this human perspective is what made him so powerful, such an irreplaceable leader that his throne has remained empty for so long. One could even argue that the energy that the Six Fingers identify as ‘Delkira’ is actually just ‘human’ since the King’s energy is familiar while a human’s is not.

My whole round about point I’m doing a very poor job of explaining essentially boils down to, demons want to return to their origins to have more control over their baser instincts. Instincts and free will that humans, such as Iruma, possess naturally. But while Iruma has the capability for great evil, unrestrained by a set cycle, he also has such an overflowing well of love in him. Delkira, what little we’ve seen of him comes across as brash, fickle and cruel. You may note those are human traits as well. But Iruma also leads with kindness, dedication and teamwork. He will make a marvelous King because the humanity he brings to the table will help all of demonkind.

I do believe as the manga progresses we will see Iruma’s humanity become a  game changer in the battle against the Six Fingers. How he sees the world (both human and demon), how he interacts and inspires others, how he fights. Reaching a point where not only does Iruma stand up for himself but he is forced to cause harm (and by consequence addressing his people pleasing trauma) and behave in a manner not seen by demons outside of their wicked cycle. When he does, years down the road, become King, I believe he will address the concerns of factions like the Six Fingers. Demons are not meant to be fully contained but cannot be allowed to run rampant. With his feet in both worlds, I believe he will be able to balance both opposing views and ‘heal’ the underworld as the prophecy states. Not just from the instability of the Six Fingers but from this bizarre evolutionary cycle demons have fallen into over the centuries.

[fullscoreshenanigans]

[from here]

Specifically find this one funny in that Norman can and does squash bugs—he played in the forest around Grace Field, he was out roughing it after Lambda's destruction, when they were razing the mass production farms, and when they were heading to and from the imperial capital, as well as hanging out with just Zazie when going to meet with Geelan in chapter 125

But that he purposely pretends they don't bother him because he tries so hard to keep up a pretense that adds an extra layer of comedy for all the people who are familiar with his ticks knowing he is Less Than Thrilled™ with the situation.

[isleofsodora]

He’s known as the proudest big blue engine for a reason, it’s my pleasure to introduce Capt. Gordon Uhke! (His sword design was too big so I had to use a different canvas size! 😅😭)

(Did I seriously give Gordon the Shiro haircut? Yes I did!)

Capt. Gordon belongs to the Krięgblistkân/Ōptimbliškertž classes!

[asterclaw]

(translation: - Sir, show me your passport, please he only wanted to buy some booze (he’s 23))

[nicastamatis]

okayyy finished reginald the vampire here are the highlights

1. any given vampire being evil women especially

1a. angela being cunty and/or killing people. her serial killer era was sexy ❤️❤️❤️❤️

1b. justine making people hallucinate their greatest fear before she eats them... so endearing and freakish <3 rip to a real one. there's armand everywhere for those with eyes to see him.

2. ashnikki :) the little black and white musical number was NOT good but they are sooo so so so cute. them gay parenting claire was SO sweet. taking back everything bad ive thought about this series i hope it gets resurrected for a season 3 i want more of them. i want them to have their own spin off.

3. todd shooting his shot w maurice and hitting on straight castiel as soon as he found out he was an angel and ALSO nabbing a different vampire boyfriend. on that monster fucker GRIND 💪💪💪 one of the funniest gay(or like. mlm in general. icr if he ever shows interest in women.) characters ive ever seen it kind of comes out of nowhere and he's ridiculous about it

4. it's temporary in 1.5/3 cases but in the second half of the second season it goes through a string of character death out of nowhere??????? hi??????????????? of course, though, im a torment nexus enjoyer so this was uncomplicatedly a win for meeeeee :3

5. shout out to mauriceeee who is i think one of the coolest vampires ever. his history as a black panther + his grill fang + ambiguous bisexuality?? slay. mandela van peebles' face suits vampirism a lot i feel. you could really carry a series just abt him. idt he's black in the books otherwise i would read them on the spot to get to the sub series abt him.

[slowestlap]

Below average singing, questionable max nickname and usual nonsense | 2 February 2023 [x]

[centralkvetchmonolith]

I woulda taken her hand. RIP to Miorine-san but I'm different.

[corntort]

rip trace's place as your favorite av protag lmao

LOL i can't say indra beats trace but i ALSO can't say she's less of my favorite either. my love for her just takes a very very different form

[sysig]

I have an idea for the requesttober, could you make Scriabin like an endermen? I feel that Scriabin would be an endermen if he were in Minecraft's world

Day 11 - No eye contact >:(

[ineloquent-tumbling]

Shocked and upset to discover that removing a part of my digestive system has effects on how my digestive system functions. 🥲

[terribleoldwhitemen]

going to try hanging upside down on the monkeybars because I think it might drain the excess blorbo thoughts. also fix my back