#hs hype train

[frankiebirds]

rambling about mosley lane under the cut SORRY this got lon and maybe a little incoherent i am sick. TLDR: i liked it a lot and mgg is a really good director

mosley lane was so good?? i know it sounds weird to be shocked given its reputation but holy shit it lived up to it.

to be honest, i had expected some of the hype to be bias because mgg directed. not that i had any doubts that he was talented—a cast member directing episodes of the tv show they feature in is nowhere near unheard of, and doesn't always mean they're a good director as well as an actor, but i do feel like directing twelve episodes of that show implies genuine talent. also, while cast members directing is pretty normal, most of them don't have degrees in directing. mgg had one before he even started on cm, only studied acting in HS because they didn't offer filmmaking, and iirc has outright said directing is his actual passion.

and yeah, mgg is definitely a really good director. i might just be biased like i thought other people could be, but i honestly think that may have been one of the best directed episodes of cm. (i see 3x10 getting a lot of praise in that regard, which i'm sure it deserves if i look just at the directing, but i...don't like that episode, sorry). i don't really know how to describe the rest of cm's directing, because...i mean it's not bad. but imo it's very safe samey. there were a lot of moments in 5x16 where i noticed the directing and thought it was very good. maybe i was paying more attention because i knew people talked a lot about mgg directing, but i have noticed the directing and editing of cm before. just usually not multiple times per episode.

also—this one i can't (fully) give to mgg, because it's partially the writing, partially beth grant's performance, partially mgg's direction of that performance, and other factors from various people that contribute, but i'm really happy this episode had an unsympathetic female unsub. i get frustrated sometimes with the apparent notion (not in cm so much, i think cm is actually quite good with this) that women are always Good and Pure and therefor only do bad things for sympathetic and understandable reasons. (obviously there's some nuance. i was writing about the nuance but it got nerdy and off-topic)

ANYWAY. i really liked it :) if mgg directed a horror film i would watch it.

(p.s. "he was alive yesterday?" hit like a train despite the fact that i knew it was coming. simon mirren and erica messer can i Talk To You.)

[paradoxengine]

When I got Covid a few years ago it didn't really feel too bad but I had always felt like I couldn't sing the same way I used to before then. I wouldn't call myself a good singer but I wouldn't call myself a bad singer either, I didn't get into my HS Chorus but the reason the teacher gave was that she didn't think I would be able to sustain singing for a whole period, which very well could've been letting me down easy but I don't think that's the case. Anyways, I'm getting sidetracked but when I went to karaoke last month it felt like I was still debuffed but then out of nowhere it kinda came back to me during I think Man in the Mirror. Now I still think my voice is slightly worse off than it used to be, at the very least it feels that way, but I want to build it back up. Because I love singing so so much. Like I will just randomly say words or end sentences in a little sing-songy way and it's not even intentional all the time. But I'm thinking maybe I wanna do more than build my singing voice back up. I'm thinking what if I got it to be better than it ever was? It's probably the type of thing that's better to do when you're younger, but I might be willing to try anyways. Imagine if I ever had any even semi-formal vocal training. Imagine if I knew how to actually read and understand sheet music. And I've been putting it off but I probably wanna do some vocal training anyways for feminizing my voice. I don't know if I'll ever actually go through with this, partially because I feel like I never quite have time to do stuff I want to do, and when I do have the time I have to choose between like 100 different things that I'd also want to make or do or learn. But I think singing is maybe different because I don't think I'd mind being bad at it. I mean, I'm already kinda bad at it, relatively speaking anyways, and it doesn't bother me too much. It's still fun. Like, as a counter example, as much as I'd love to learn how to do art I don't think I ever will because I don't think I would enjoy doing art if I was mediocre at it, which I would have to be if I was practicing. I don't know why I'm writing all of this. Well I do, it's because I'm feeling a bit hype from listening to some pop songs but also...frustrated that I don't have the range for some of them. But frustrated in like a positive way, where I'm almost looking forward to a time where I could potentially have the range. Anyways, probably won't tag this because I'm just kinda using tumblr as almost like a diary or journal now. It feels nice to use it this way because I feel like I wouldn't be writing all of this down if it was purely for me and me alone, but at the same time I do not have many tumblr followers, so there's a good chance no one even sees this. But maybe they will because now I've written so much, it's almost like a text version of "Do You Love The Color Of The Sky". But even if people see this, will they probably read this whole wall of text? Doubt!

[r0semultiverse]

Infinity Train is getting MORE EPISODES!!!

[aq2003]

ranking every recent spidey movie because i am biased and contain opinions

spider-man (2002). this movie is pretty funny and dafoe (best part of the movie) kills it as green goblin. however it also aged badly with the special effects and Not Great Writing of the female characters™. tobey is great but i think he shines more in the later movies (which i will get to). it does a great job of setting up the characters and universe but it's also the most basic of the raimi trilogy imo. because while this is pretty cohesive narrative-wise it's still less enjoyable to me than the others (doesn't mean it's bad, just that it gets better from here). 6.5/10

spider-man 2 (2004). i think this is objectively the best live action spidey movie (even if i personally like 3 better). doc ock is my fav live action spidey villain and the fight scenes in this movie are just. iconic. the train scene obviously deserves every bit of the hype it gets. also this movie leans hard into my favorite spidey trope which is "peter struggles to balance his superhero life and civilian life" and i really love the plot point about peter's powers not working bc of the stress coming out of it. and the raindrops keep falling on my head montage is cinema tm. loses points for the very bad depiction of mj but this is rly the only problem i have with it. 8/10

spider-man 3 (2007). this movie has the biggest "over the top soap opera comic" vibes and god do i LOVE it. the plot is all over the place and it's clearly struggling to juggle the three villains but also i had so much fun watching it so it does not matter. this movie has my two fav scenes in the Entire raimi trilogy which are a) emo peter doing his stupid little walk and b) emo peter doing his stupid little dance. emo peter my beloved. you'll forever be in my heart and i'll never get tired of the memes about you. anyway it makes me a little sad that spidey movies from here on will be afraid to be this cheesy and stupid. 8.5/10

the amazing spider-man (2012). andrew is a great spidey you all were just mean. i like how the movie leans into him having to get used to his powers and the bit at the end where peter brings home the eggs to may was super heartwarming. there are writing decisions i have issues with most notably peter getting his start as spidey by hunting down any long haired blonde guy and how this plot point gets dropped without getting resolved (so the "responsibility" element is kinda missing from the origin to me). BUT skaterman peter is extremely lovable so i'll forgive him. also the lizard is such a hilarious villain. 7/10

the amazing spider-man 2 (2014). ok so i tried really hard to like this movie but. well. lmao. i will say that peter's suit/the overall visual effects look great and i think andrew's performance is the best part of the movie. and that part where electro's theme (?) plays in time when he destroys things is neat. everything else is just. a mess. enough criticism has been thrown at this movie so im not gonna delve into it but i do want to say that i really wish the tasm movies were written better bc there's so much potential in the characters/universe but the writing brings it down for me. 5/10

spider-man: homecoming (2017). i still love this movie i know it makes me a fake spidey enjoyer but still. it's adorable. it's part of what got me rly into marvel and it has a special place in my heart. hoco is not trying to be an origin story it's like this comedy hs movie w spidey elements and also works kinda as a sequel to an unseen origin and i like that (bc we have already seen the origin 2 other times). extra points for being the funniest depiction of high school and having my fav soundtrack out of the rest of the live action movies. However there are still definite sins committed adaptation wise that carry over to the rest of the mcu trilogy and they sting very hard rewatching this movie now. 7.5/10

spider-man: into the spider-verse (2018). cinematic masterpiece and the best superhero movie of all time i am sure that everyone with a brain can agree with me on this. every frame of this movie is so beautiful and it captures the comic book vibe so well. it's a love letter to spider-man as a character and you can tell how much passion was put into it. there are about 5 scenes in this movie that still make me tear up even though ive rewatched it so many times. miles my son . [peter b voice] i LOVE YOU i am SO PROUD OF YOU. beautiful soundtrack and animation, amazing action, top notch voice acting, it truly has Everything. i think the only spidey movies that will have a chance of being as good as this movie are its sequels. 1000/10

spider-man: far from home (2019). i hate this movie and every connection it makes with tony stark. this is because i love tony stark so much hes my favorite guy ever and this movie feels like slander towards him. way back on my sideblog i ranted about how besides the fact that peter isnt a legacy hero it fails at cementing him as a legacy in the first place, But Also this all gets immediately retracted in no way home so whats the entire point anyways. mj and peter are cute but are they worth it for the tony slander. no. i cant have normal opinions about this movie i'm sorry. 3/10.

spider-man: no way home (2021). i know. i know. everyone likes this movie. there's generally a lot to like, from the villains to the action to the previous spideys to the dynamic between the main trio. however i wish that this trilogy had not gone in this direction at all. there are lots of writing choices i super disagree with, the biggest one being may dying because a) the mcu cant stopping killing its important female characters and b) it retcons the previous implication that ben existed and had a hand in peter's origin. also i don't like the ending lmao. to me it feels like every individual mcu spidey movie shoots itself in the foot and makes it increasingly harder to build upon story-wise. 5/10

[jayflrt]

$77 for a jacket 💀💀 why does your friend keeping going if she cries every year help 💀😭

about all of us are dead though lol it is kind of like train to busan but in a high school instead of a train obviously 😭 think train to busan but also there's hs drama lmao

it's definitely not like squid game though 💀 one of the actresses from squid game is in it but ??? 😭 that comparison feels racially motivated somehow 😭😭

-meatball

disneyland is so overpriced my wallet always dies 🤧 even the food is sooo expensive <//3 also my friend has no choice but to go bc she goes with her family HAHAH

so like highschool of the dead but less fanservice 🤩 i’ll def check it out tho !! its one of the trending shows on netflix so i suspected the hype is worth it :’))

yeah i’m not sure tbh 😔 maybe they’re comparing in terms of success ??? but they need to let squid game be squid game and let all of us are dead be all of us are dead 💔

[datingdonovan]

I had this in my notes and forgot to send it to you. Ajdbfkfjfjf.

It's so funny with Mattsun and Makki! There's a history for them, back when the Haikyuu fandom was waking up again because season four had started. There was one writer who loved Mattsun so much when nobody else did and her SMAU for him got so popular that everyone started writing for him. lollll. I'm pretty sure that's how the Seijoh Four started instead of just Oikawa and Iwaizumi. Someone just writing for an underrated character they love and then they became popular. I wish I could do that but I don't think that'll happen lol.

But oh no. I think we're hyping each other up with these underrated characters and just adding to our lists. LOL. I feel like I haven't chatted with another writer who likes underrated characters in a long time so it's all coming out again. And your pre-timeskip self-ship with Takeda!!!! That's so funny how it might be competition for your Akaashi one.

(Also, fun fact, Tsukishima was my first fav but I didn't like admitting it back then. LOL. But I knew he would be my favourite right when he was introduced because I knew exactly what type of character he was going to be. 😂)

Btw, how far are you in the manga?

omg that is HILARIOUS I can't believe that but it makes so much sense hahaha!!!! I feel like sometimes the smallest characters or randomest ships have some of the best most dedicated writers. don't know if you or anybody reading is into IT but when that was my big fandom I got hardcore into stozier & loved reading stozier fics bc like. it was so clear that people were so into the dynamic and would like, fight tooth and nail. die for those boys. sometimes their fics were like so much more epically long and thought out than the ones for the main ships and I was just like. im in heaven. I love this characterization. I haven't really read that much ab mattsun & Makki but I sorta feel the same about them like I love the way people come up with great intense emotions & characterizations for them. tbh I used to think seijoh 4 were overhyped in general but when I started reading some & just seeing art I was like. oh these dynamics! oh the intrigue! hahaha

and honestly that is like a dream. to be the one blog consistently talking about an underrated character and then they blow up and youre like im the [insert character here] blog. the only [character] stan. etc. hilarious and wonderful turn of events. and SAME im always like yeah im gonna write a fic for some guy idk which one, but ppl are gonna love it so much and that's gonna be me B) hahahhahaha

yeah omg we need to do some sort of fun challenge or collab where we and whoever else wants to write fics or just share recs for underrated guys. that would actually be such a fun idea like, picking a new guy every week or month or something and just doing a "book club" sort of thing hahaha :) I did a fanfic book club with a friend before and it was always really fun :) <3 also yeah. about Takeda. I saw some more of him in the manga and. started writing a goofy little thing for him last night :) hahahahaha :):):)

hahahaha that's amazing about tsukki. I love that guy so much hahaha :) im on vol 11 of the manga and I gotta say this & number 10 really are making me miss that intensity of high school training and the precision & adrenaline and like, I was reading the part last night with Kageyama talking about how he can feel in his body when he's in good form like, wow. that really hit me. ugh <3 im lucky that I still keep up with most of the activities I did in hs in some form but I feel like I do them more for fun now. sometimes I miss that competitive, tuned in, performing at the top of your game vibe. idk if im making sense but I hope you get what I mean hahaha :)

[deepend-swimmer]

2020 in movies

The Half of It, 2020- USA

this is way more of a live reaction than a review, that I'm gonna do later

the starting sequence of the half of it is beautiful

I'm loving the cinematography

"We are the source of our own hell." damn

her and her dad mimicking each other nice iajajaja

her dad's love for movies lmao me

the scarf sequence cringe

I have no idea if they will end up together but the vibes are very gay

what's up with the teacher? I don't get her

aster and ellie are so smart and how they use words touching, outstanding, moving

the grafitting sequence bruh that was breathtaking

this movies makes me feel single even tho they aren't together yet

the blonde populars strangely fitting in, so cringy

paul is so akward the fuck

he is akward but he is awesome, big himbo energy

when he defended her (the bare minimum of moral) and said that the effort is what counts, I was like okay gonna give you a chance

this is the best training sequence ever

his family is so chaotic, is this a parallel to the baynards?

her family story hurts, im emo leave me

the ping pong chat, i got emotional

"i bet she would have tried the taco sausage" i love you stupid boy

i love how paul loves his cooking stuff

okay but what a powerful trio wouldn't it be? ellie and aster, the couple and paul, the himbo friend

her dad likes the taco sausage hell yeah, she likes it as well! his smile

the yakult, a classic

their different points of view on movies lmao

"and you should be with a good guy" WHY WHY DO THAT TO ME ELLIE

is he falling for her too? it would be funny if he did, he falls for music not for girls

also like how devastating it is that her dad has a full phd on engineering and can't get a job bc of his accent? and like how he barely speaks in english at all probably bc of the trauma this injustice has endured on him

this whole texting sequence at the diner is so weird, i don't like it but i also do, his faces at ellie the best comic relief possible

aster looked devastated for a second, when he said he didn't want to be just friends, someone give this girl a friend

the taco sausage making its first steps look at that

the fuck was trig presentation? trash

DID THEY SABOTAGE HER PIANO? i hate you all

she is going to sing that song now isn't she? i hope she does

paul 👉👈 play your song 👉👈 munsky

she singed barely a minute bruh, no one would applaud like that in a hs talent show

this is so unrealistic, i hate it

he is totally falling for her at least just a bit

the athletic soft friend that takes care of drunk you trope

is she at his house? yes she is

ASTER IS ALSO IN THE HOUSE MAYDAY MAYDAY

they are at the station this is not a training exercise

aster a lil bit gay for sure

IT'S PLAYING SEVENTEEN IT'S PLAYING SEVENTEEN THIS NOT A TRAINING EXERCISE

DRIVING SEQUENCE IT'S A DRIVING SEQUENCE

okay so aster is the type of gay that can drive

she knows about ellie, 95% sure of that, or at least she likes her as well

aster truly is beautiful, I totally get the hype

ellie is only lesbian desesperation at this moment

paul bringing sausages to ellie's dad, i love this duo

why do all gay movies have a pool sequence? even if this is a natural pool

gays clamed pools and hands

THEY ARE COOKING TOGETHER I LOVE THIS SONG

that one shot of ellie and aster floating in the water is something else, truly beautiful

so that's why his dad always says "the best part", I a m e m o

I love her mum even tho I never met her, that's how good this movie is with expressing emotions

thank god ellie is there this game is a mess

SUCH A CHAOTIC ENERGY LMAO

15 years without scoring? you guys really suck huh?

her love for yakult is everything, she really is stealing from the locker rooms lmao

I KNEW IT! I KNEW HE WAS FALLING FOR HER!

paul you are such a himbo

OH NO YOU ARE A HOMOPHOBIC

on this account we only dislike paul munsky

HER DAD THROWING WATER ON TRIG LMAO

is trig the real himbo oh god?

her dad is everything.

his mum is totally gonna see his research

i love her dad.

he thought they were dating lmao, it did kinda look like it so i get it

YOU ARE NOT GOING TO OUT HER OR I WILL KILL YOU

on this account we only love Mr.Chu, we do nothing else ever

Mr.Chu I love you so much, fuck this. this man is everything.

netflix gave us a completely flawless dad and i love him, he is perfect.

IS HE GOING TO PROPOSE? BRUH THE FUCK DON'T DO THAT

SHE ACCEPTED IT???????

ELLIE?????????

THE FUCK IS GOING ON???????????

okay that was a good speech, don't fix what you did paul

okay ellie that's a perfect speech, thank you

"Is this really the boldest stroke you can make?" x.x

well deserved, both of you deserve a slap for catfishing her

SHE KISSED HER IM STELLAR

because ellie forgave paul I'm gonna give him 1 right

on this account we acknowledge the problems and implications of growing up in small, conservative and religious towns and how hard it is to not reproduce the toxic and prejudiced speech you've grown up listening to thus we have come to the decision of forgiving paul munsky as well.

[reversecreek]

clicks onto the dash wearing kitten heels n coyly holding my bang....... hi. me again. it took me so long to select a gif to use on cricket’s intro n i settled on this one bc he looks so unsure abt his smile n it’s rly his essence <3 u can find his pinterest board here n his (work in progress) spotify playlist here. hmu to plot!!! 

* alex wolff, cis male + he/him | you know cricket donahue, right? they’re twenty-two, and they’ve lived in irving for, like, all of their life, on and off? well, their spotify wrapped says they listened to should have known better by sufjan stevens like, a million times this year, which slipping on wet leaves to photograph a tree struck alight by lightning, delivering a tedtalk to your own reflection to hype yourself up to buy groceries, hiding your hands inside of your sleeves in case you grew an impromptu megan fox thumb overnight thing going on. i just checked and their birthday is october 1st, so they’re a libra, which is unsurprising, all things considered. ( nai, 24, gmt, she/her )

HISTORY:

cricket ws born to a couple tht lived in lilac ridge. their trailer was tucked closest to the woods n always fell under the shade. it was like the leaves wanted to pretend they were a perpetual hanging cloud on the family n that was kind of fitting. their only reason fr having him in the first place was a kind of shrugged like........... we’re under the income bracket we’d get child benefits so why not! may as well try it to rake in some extra cash! needless to say they didn’t rly think it thru or anticipate all of the responsibilities tht came w children n wound up seeing him as an extremely large burden n boy didn’t he know it!

(child neglect & abuse tw) i’ll try to keep this part vague n brief but things were Not Good for cricket growing up. people in lilac ridge didn’t like his parents n it was for a gd reason. he remembers foggy things. being little n wandering around combing the grass with a stick to search for wrappers to suck on bc he was hungry. feeling uneasy when the front door opened. finding out his name was cricket bc the insects used to crawl into their trailer thru the vents n his parents liked to squish them into the carpet -- his mum told him as much once. i think this says a lot. to excessively trim the fat of the story he wound up entering the system at around 8 after his latest and most serious hospital visit. his parents hd to deal w the authorities n last he heard they bounced to evade charges.

(anxiety & violence & trauma tw) cricket sustained a few lifelong injuries from his time in lilac ridge. his knee didn’t heal right which meant he had (n still has to this day) a limp n he’s partially deaf in one ear. he’s always been an incredibly insecure n anxious person so this mde him rly self conscious going into a strange n new environment tht wld b difficult fr any kid to adjust to, nvm w these added worries. he jst felt like something weird to ogle at honestly. he probably wld have felt like that no matter where he was or what he looked like. he cld be in a huge hall of 200 people all wearing the same uniform n he’d still feel like the odd one out. needless to say this didn’t rly help him make friends

cricket’s coping mechanisms were romanticising the things tht other people found ugly or embarrassing or painfully ordinary. he liked it when the rain hit clunky drops against school windows n forbid everyone from playing outside bc he could feel the vibrations through the rubber soles of his shoes n it was a little bit like hearing all of the world at once fr just a moment. he liked medieval fantasy lore about stout gnomes w crumbs in their beards n cheeks red from ale. he liked fallen nests with the remnants of hatched eggs still dirty from the branches n soil they’d hit on the way down. he liked the way the sunlight leaked thru the leaves of the trees in the woods and how, when he sat very still, he could tune into the ringing that was always in his ear n pretend it was coming from the same place, that light thru the leaves, that the angels were trying to talk to him.

he spent a lot of time in the red room at his high skl (i’m begging u this is not a 50 shades reference) (after googling i jst realised it’s called a darkroom bt i’m leaving this fr the sake of sexy bimbo authenticity) n felt quite at home in there. he borrowed a camera whenever he cld (maybe he did yearbook) n photography became his way of immortalising the world as the romanticised version he wanted it to be. his memories were bad bt his photos were beautiful. maybe if he took enough they’d paste over n bleed into each other. maybe bad cld be replaced w beautiful if he tried his very best.

he got placed into fostering w a family once bt apparently didn’t meet the vibe check of their tastes so he wound up returning to the group home he’d initially been placed in. overall this is where he grew up n he aged out the system rather than getting adopted. there was a sense of floundering/isolation/not feeling gd enough in tht bt cricket made do the best he knew how. 

that said there were some gd points! (shocking i kno bc his life hs been so fking bleak so far bt please it’s ok........) (is it?) (🤔). basically he interned as an assistant at this local photography studio during high skl working under this kind of whimsical yet endearing old man. suspected wizard possibly in cricket’s eyes, as an avid fantasy genre reader. for one of his bdays said old man / his boss bought him his very own film camera n cricket cried bc he’d never been bought a bday gift. this ws rly embarrassing bc this old man didn’t know how to emote n neither did cricket so he ws jst sort of sat wiping his eyes n sniffling saying he wasn’t crying as the old man pretended to suddenly clean his lenses. when cricket graduated he offered him a full time position there. they do like. wedding photographs n family portraits n all kinds of things...... pay isn’t huge bt it’s something n he Loves taking photos so it’s sexy <3

PERSONALITY:

SUCH an anxious person it’s actually unreal. overthinks absolutely everything he’s ever said. one morning he might hv put green socks on n for the rest of the day he’s nervously looking around like omggggggg they’re all looking at my socks probably thinking im a little green sock boy thinking i’m a fool n a jester this is all everyone’s probably thinking about i hv to hide my green socks..... even tho literally no-one cares

once saw a girl eating a chicken wing n in his head was like ok she likes chicken good future gift idea..... n turned up at her house with an entire rotisserie chicken

probably thinks WAY too hard abt what to write in bday cards n googles like generic ideas that he can use.... u open a card from cricket n it always says smthn weird like “Warmest wishes and love on your birthday and always!” or “You deserve everything happy. Wishing you that all year long!” tht he got off google

nervously fiddles w things a lot. literally anything. his hair. the cuffs of his sleeves. a thread on his bag. u name it

struggles w eye contact sometimes............ it’s like. he wants to talk to ppl n make friends bt he’s honestly so bad at it. he’s fumbling thru life like a nervous headless chicken

ALWAYS has his camera on him. like always. will tke a photo of u bc he thinks u look nice then be like im so sorry im so sorry...... bowing his head shakily holding his camera bc he doesn’t even kno what possessed him he jst thought it’d be a nice photograph bt boundaries exist. probably breathes very heavily over this later in his room panicking thinking he nw seems like hannibal lecter

probably more confident online bc he has time to think abt what he says more.......... i can see him hving a group of online friends tht he’s more confident w. honestly he’s pretty witty at heart he jst has a hard time verbalising things so ppl overlook him sometimes bt once u get to know him more / he’s more comfy he can b a funny little man.....

loves photographs where he cuts something out of them. loves missing spaces n voids. thinks it’s a rly interesting concept when something that isn’t there becomes the focus of a photograph where everything else is. probably loses his mind fr a collage like a front row 1d stan. likes experimenting w light n perception. pretty artistic honestly hs probably made a stop motion film in the past bc that’s just an extended form of photography in his mind bt i doubt he showed anyone

ummm...... very sweet bt like. he reminds me a lot of this quote. “he had the awkward tenderness of someone who has never been loved and is forced to improvise.” feel like tht sums him up quite nicely

WANTED CONNECTIONS

someone he met at a wedding: cricket probably ws forced to photograph a wedding fr his boss one time n it cld b interesting as a place to meet from that....... like. i can imagine either it being rly awkward maybe he accidentally spilled a drink on ur muse n was stuttering rly apologetic n it ws just a train wreck. or mayb they took pity on him or even (in a shocking turn of events) a shine to him n invited him to drink n dance. omgggg the thought of cricket trying to dance makes me wna die n probably mkes cricket wna hyperventilate bt idk maybe he went wild n let loose. mayb they wound up damaging the camera somehow. mayb they had to scramble to get another one n ur muse covered the cost n it was a strange late night excursion tht cricket thought about a lot since. cricket probably vowed to pay them bk somehow no matter what. idk. we can work things out. lots of diff options here. doesn’t have to b a wedding either can b any event tht required a photographer

ppl he went to school w: pretty self explanatory i suppose...... maybe they were frm completely different worlds..... mayb ur muse was popular n cricket was definitely not but they got paired fr an assignment n had to work on a project together....... mayb cricket asked ur muse on a date one time n it was completely embarrassing bc he didn’t realise they had a bf n it haunts cricket at night still bc he’s rly dramatic.... mayb ur muse felt sry fr him n ate lunch w him n inducted him into their group like a lost puppy finding a home.... world’s our oyster

neighbours from his brief time at lilac ridge: not to reference taylor swift but i’m gna reference taylor swift n say we cld do a seven inspired plot here. sighs a little..... then sighs a lot. he was here ages 0-8 so idk. we cld work out childhood plots perhaps....

sickening simp: i mean.............. cricket probably gets crushes on ppl so easily like just. anyone who’s the slightest bit nice to him.................. he’s a disgrace. ok i take it back. bt also please get it together freak............... i didn’t say that. he’d probably b extra nice to this person n try n pay close attention to things they liked so he cld get them little gifts. just a bit embarrassing n lovestruck bless his heart. wldn’t expect anything back tho honestly that just isn’t something he tends to do.

let’s go gays: cricket’s bi but he probably was rly in his head abt liking boys n tried to sort of squash it internally during his younger yrs...... i think he’s more comfy w it now MAYBE idk bt back then i picture him having a friend tht ws kind of like. similarly loserish as him perhaps (no offence to ur muse potentially filling this plot or cricket bt let’s face the facts) n they’d hang out n play games a lot n one time it jst kind of happened n he was like............. *struts in looking around sharply* What going on here? except not. bc it’s cricket. more like *shambles in looking around anxiously* What’s, uh... What’s... the happenings? S--... I’m sorry. (immediate apology for saying what’s the happenings bc nobody talks like that n it was an impulsive panic bc he didn’t know what else to say)

those who grew up in the system w him: maybe at the group home or i’d also like the family that fostered him n said sayonara. honestly i imagine the parents just thought he ws a bit too much of a handful / had too much baggage which is rly quite merciless n terrible but. if u think that aligns w ur muses home situation hmu......

um. can’t think of more bt just anything honestly. jst go wild.......

[wellthatwasaletdown]

She is a mess right now, I don’t know what the hell happened between Melodrama and now

.

Tbh I’m not really feeling her current music either, and disappointing as it is that she’s decided to board the HS hype train, I think it’s mostly an aesthetics thing, at least that’s how it comes across to me? Compare the visuals of solar power and watermelon sugar for example and they seem to have a similar style and sensibility that heavily borrows from the New Age, “Age of Aquarius” hippie-dippie movements of the 70s. Now, we know from that very telling Guardian interview that H mostly does things because they look “cool”, all style and no substance if you will, so perhaps that’s the case here with Lorde too. Or maybe she’s prescribed to that Age of Enlightenment esotericism that a lot of young people have taken up recently who knows 🤷🏻‍♀️

She just seems lost and confused really

[jye-yi-yo-yu]

Nakita ko yung pictures ko nung slim bod days ko! HAHAHAHA andami ko kasing ganap nung HS and College days. Mahaba habang kwentuhan to since wala naman akong pasok sa work mamaya.

Nung HS ako nahilig ako magskate kasi nagstart yon sa gusto ko matuto mag wave board since uso yun noon kaso wala eh di ako matutotuto kaya skateboard nalang dun ako madalas magka sprain. After 6mos sguro na amaze naman ako sa free running/parkour! Amaze na amaze ako sa mga nagagawa nila kaya triny ko din at hilig ko naman tumakbo. Not to brag err nything buuut isa ako sa pinakamabilis tumakbo sa street namen kahit walang tsinelas g lang! Oo batang kalsada ako noon HAHAHA yung tipong magbabasketball nakahubad tapos nakapaa lang HAHAHAHA hilig mag bente uno, bombsak, at mataya taya. Anyway gettin back... Triny ko magparkour kaso sa lugar namen wala akong kilala na hilig magparkour with proper attire na syempre mamaya pagkamalan akong magnanakaw eh HAHAHA so ayun takbo at talon sa mga edges or bars na pwede pagtalunan. Ansarap sa feeling tumakbo promise freedom! Nakakita ko sa FB na hilig din ang free running hanggang sa pumunta ko sa mga laro and trainings nila pero hindi naman ako active and madalas non eh nagsasarili lang ako kasi nahihiya ako HAHAHAHAHA and then my bespren introduce me to frisbee naman hanggang sa nagustuhan ko din maglaro ng frisbee at napabili ako ng sarili kong frisbee tapos kasi medyo similar sila ng american rugby pero frisbee naman yung itotoss mo. Hanggang sa ginabi gabi ko maglaro ng frisbee. Usually after class or gabi to madaling araw ako naglalaro as long na hindi pa ubos gatorade ko and hindi pa sarado yung park na pinaglalaruan ko HAHAHAHA pag magisa lang akong nagwoworkout sometimes may mga random strangers na nakikipaglaro tapos mag iinvite makipaglaro sa kanila most of them plays in BGC kaya minsan dumadayo din ako sa BGC para lang magpapawis. 20-30mins din byahe ko from 30th at helipad sa BGC ah! Makapaglaro lang willing dumayo ganun ko kagusto yung frisbee. Maganda din kasi community noon ewan ko lang ngayon kasi hindi na ako active and idk kung may naglalaro pa sa BGC since di na ako nakakadayo dun since I started going to College.

HS Days puro physical activities pero nung nag college na ako nagiba na hindi na healthy lifestyle ko. Busy na kasi sa acads and requirements. Hanggang sa nakakilala ng mga mahilig mag inom, sa nightlife. Ayun pag may free time dun na napupunta oras ko. Nagbalak ngapala ako sumali ng pep squad since hilig ko naman sumayaw din since HS. Wao diba? HAHAHAHA kaso di ako marunong mag front/backflip and split kaya sa Drummers/Drum Line nalang ako sumali. Yung pumapalo ng drums kada may laban mga varsity players yung mga taga hype taga basag ng eardrums niyo kung malapit kayo samin yung mga maskulado bukod sa mga varsity players! Oo kame yon! Wow proud no HAHAHAHAHA Sumali ako hanggang sa natanggap ako sa pagiging basser. Nakakaproud lang magcheer and magrepresent ng university mo sa MOA Arena and SJA. Sarap pa ng perks kasi auto excuse sa class lalo na pag mabait prof auto pass kahit may quiz HAHAHAHA tska unli gatorade at may pa free lunch tapos exempted sa pag suot ng uniform. HAHAHAHA So yun na yung workout ko nung college ako. usually after class may training kame talagang hindi dadaan yung week na walang sasakit sa katawan ko. Ang pain killer? Alak! Joke after training foodtrip para balik taba HAHAHAHA tapos usually gabi natatapos training pero akala mo tapos na kasi rush hour per hindi. No choice kung hindi ako sasabit sa jeep hindi ako makakauwi ng maaga. So masakit na nga katawan ko nagagawa ko pang sumabit sa jeep HAHAHAHA yun talaga struggles ko nung college ako hindi yung acads HAHAHA! Uso naman na grab/angkas pero nauubos kasi sa pagkain pera ko after training. Kaya tiis lagi sa jeep or uv. Kaya ko nasabi na hindi healthy kasi hindi naman ako madalas nagwoworkout not like nung HS gabi gabi. 3-4times a week lang yung training namen at laging HIT.

Ngayon na graduate na ako sa college life and living on my own na. Ang routine ko is work, tulog, repeat. Kung may free time man igagala ko nalang tapos di mawawala yung unli foods HAHAHAHA! Ganun ka stress siz kaya eto pansin ko yung lapad ko alarming na. Hindi na ako happy sa looks ko. Kaya ngayon sinusubukan ko na mag diet talaga and soon sana makapag gym na uli. Naghahanap pa ako ng medyo maaliwalas na gym eh nakakatakot kasi maghawak ng equipments lalo na may virus pa. Kaya ngayon workout ko sa loob ng bahay muna.

So ayun lang. Sorry kung magulo ako magkwento. Tara balik alindog mga mamsh&sir! Ayaw ko na ng tito/daddy bod. Healthy lifestyle this 2021? Yes ayusin na natin mga desisyon natin sa buhay. 🙂 G!

[angrylizardjacket]

its all you know

Run to Paradise & Charlotte Lee 'verse

Summary: Sometimes Nikki wonders what it would be like if their respective youths hadn't been a living hell.

A/N: @misscharlottelee said she missed my lola content and i was thinking abt a hs au for the pacl (which i still might write, i have genuine ideas for a legit hs au) so i wrote this on my phone on a whim. ft. mentions of Charlotte and Nikki and Lola's lowkey possibly joking possibly not crush on her (and TW for brief mention of suicidal ideation)

Nikki looks at Lola sometimes and wonders about how things would be if life had been kind. If her dad had been around, and her mom wasn't a bitch, and her whole life hadn't gone to shit, would she still be in his arms, telling him she loves him by telling she loves his songs, with that sincerity in her voice, in her eyes, that melts his heart's defenses without her even meaning to.

What if life had been kind to him, if his dad had stuck around, if his mom wasn't a raging cunt with a string of asshole boyfriends, that couldn't give a shit about Nikki. Would he still be here in this golden Thursday afternoon, tracing patterns on Lola's scarred back, telling her that she's beautiful with his lips against her shoulder when he can't look her in the eye for fear of her seeing his honesty.

What if they'd grown up together, white picket fences side by side, normal kids with normal lives; Nikki still plays music, there's no reality he can see himself in without it.

"Dad would have loved you," he remembers Lola once saying. She'd thought the world of him, sometimes Nikki would have liked to have met him. If he'd been around, Lola would be different, and probably more well adjusted. In this fantasy Nikki's created for himself, a childhood not stolen, her dad probably comes to Nikki's gigs; he would have liked their style, after all, if what Lola says is anything to go by.

Sometimes Nikki envies Tommy and Charlotte, who didn't have to grow up too fast, who went to prom, and on cute dates, and who got to have reasonably normal lives. Sometimes, in this fantasy world he's creating for himself, this youth that he was never allowed to have, he brings them all together, pieces out a life from the stories Charlotte and Tommy and Vince have reminisced about. He wonders about prom, about laughing at Vince in a white suit, who agreed to go with Charlotte when her first choice turned her down, and he thinks about Charlotte and Lola getting ready together, laughing and talking and smiling, still able to smile without reservation or hesitation.

In this idealised world, he thinks he might even work at Lola's dad's takeout shop; the old man takes a liking to him for his music after all. Tommy would complain that he's still unemployed, but somehow, even in this fantasy, Nikki's looking for excuses to stay out of his house. Old habits die hard.

And this Lola would be sweet, would still have a dad to idolise and teach her right from wrong, lead her on a better path than any she was destined for the moment he'd passed. But she's still Lola, a bit rough and tumble, a little bit rock and roll, but she doesn't feel the constant need to prove herself. She'd laugh at Nikki's jokes and call him an old fucker who likes dad music, but she'd be his favorite person to work with, because she'd always be the first to hype up his new music.

Nikki claims to be too cool for prom, but ends up driving the rest of the gang, and Lola stays by his side the whole night, and shares the flask of vodka she'd borrowed from her dad. He won't be too mad; he could never be mad at Lola. She rides shotgun on the way back and Nikki's got his hand on her thigh and doesn't move it, even when Charlotte, Tommy, and Vince notice and loudly tease them. He kisses her before she leaves, and it actually would give him butterflies.

But they wouldn't be the same people.

The world is unkind, even to those who don't deserve it, and if they had met bacm in high school, Lola wouldn't have looked him in the eyes, a frightened and downtrodden mouse of a girl. Nikki knows he'd only be interested in corrupting her, not caring what consequences it would wreak on her life when he got bored and tossed her aside.

"What do you think would have happened if we'd met in high school?" Nikki asks softly, and Lola shifts a little in bed in order to look at him.

"You probably would have terrified me," she tells him with a sharp smile, on her side, one arm reaching across his belly to pull herself a little closer to him, "mom wouldn't have let me think of you, let alone talk to you, and between supressing the urge to kill myself and piano lessons, I didn't exactly have a lot of time for new friends." And though her tone is light, Nikki's expression still crumples, sympathetic to her struggles, given his own rocky high school years. But Lola makes a considering noise, which brings him back to the present.

"Actually, I'm not sure," she admits, "technically we did meet in high school, at least for me." Nikki often forgets that she'd never even properly graduated middle school. "Why?" She asks, interested in his train of thought.

"Vince took Charlotte to prom once," Nikki says with a hint of a smile, and Lola pressed her laughter into his chest.

"Yeah I heard about that."

"I'm just thinking about what it would have been like if we had been normal too; what if we got to grow up together, all of us, with that whole happy families, white picket fence shit?"

"Do you think we would have slow danced?" Lola teases, poking him in the ribs, and Nikki snorts.

"I think we would have gotten drunk together -"

"Would we be a whole cliche? Take my virginity in the back seat of your beat up old car on prom night?" But she's grinning, her adoring little smile pressed soft against his skin as she looks up at him, falling more in love with him as she falls in love with the fantasy.

"But we wouldn't really talk about it, except that I'd come to your house in the week and throw rocks at your window until you snuck me in," Nikki leaned in and pressed a kiss to her hair. Lola sighs, tucks herself against him, warm and content in the moment.

"You'd be my backup date, by the way," Nikki teases, to which Lola made an indignant noise in the back of her throat, and Nikki elaborates on the verge of laughter, "I definitely would have asked Charlie, but she thought I was kind of gross and an asshole."

"You are gross and an asshole, not just kind of," Lola smirks, but continues with surprising sweetness before he can respond properly, "that's why I love you."

"How would we even know each other in this timeline? I don't know about you, but if my life had gone differently, there's no way I'd still be the same person," Lola asks, brow burrowing.

"Oh, we both work in your dad's restaurant," he tells her, like its the most obvious thing in the world, and Lola's whole being softens to something warm and fond at the mere mention of her dad.

"He really would have loved you," she confirms his suspicions with a soft chuckle.

"I don't think we'd be here," Nikki gestures to their bed, their surrounds, their life, "but we'd end up together. Somehow. In all my realities, I see you in the end," he admits.

"You've been blinded by love, you sap," but Lola's blushing, and Nikki can't help it as he pushes kt further, enjoying Lola's rare sweet and flustered state.

"Maybe I juat don't want to see a reality without you."

Lola's actually gone speechless, her fond smile and pink cheeks hidden where she's pressed her whole face against his chest. Nikki holds her just a little tighter, wearing his smuggest little smirk.

"Okay but what if Razz was in this little fantasy of yours?" Lola finally surfaces, resting her chin on his chest.

"I would make fun of his accent constantly," Nikki answers with probably too much certainty, "I am and I was an asshole," he reminds her, not that Lola's trying to correct him.

"Even if he was dating Charlie?"

"Especially if he was dating Charlie; you've seen her high school photos, Charlie was just as much of a bombshell back then. See she and Vince make sense going to prom together, both of them being hot as all hell, but that weird little English fucker landing Charlie while we're all in high school? I'm not even sure how he managed it as an adult." Nikki snorts, and Lola punches his chest and calls him an asshole.

"You're so mean to them sometimes," but she's smiling even as she rolls her eyes, "Razz is cute, you're just jealous."

"And you're not?"

"Every day, dude, obviously, but she's my friend and I told her I'd get you to be a little nicer."

"You can try," he says with his most shiteating grin before silence falls between them.

"Where would we end up, if not here?" Lola asks, so quiet her voice is barely a whisper, the hypothetical playing in her head on repeat.

"We'd be different people," Nikki muses quietly.

"Sounds like everyone around us would be different too, stable and shit, happy families."

"We'd probably end up just like them," Nikki says with a laugh that sounds a little hollow at the very thought, "you'd be a PTA mom and running your dad's shop, and I'd be teaching music, and we'd have Sunday brunch with the Lees."

"Not the Dingeys?"

"Charlie and Razz would move back to England."

Lola hums thoughtfully at the mental image, but something about the stale serenity of it all has Nikki's stomach turning at the thought.

"Is it bad that I'm glad we're in the reality where everything went wrong?" She asks softly. Nikki swallows hard, and in this moment, knows clearly, and with absolute certainty, that he is in love with her. She gets him, without even realizing, she understands him so completely.

"There's no reality I'd rather be in," he agrees.

[oopssasha]

Dear Sasha,

I know you said you felt dumb for typing out all the plot bunny from that playlist. But you have to know that you made my days for weeks. Honestly, I wasn’t planning on luring you onto the shipping train. You got there all on your own without even realizing it and it’s both hilarious and so seriously incredibly adorably you. I have no clue how to put the amount of affection I have for you into letters.

I love how you couldn’t help yourself and had to ask how the Larry Stylinson thing came to be. Just remember this before you read any further: Curiosity killed the cat. I hope you subscribe to the idea that satisfaction brought it back, otherwise this is going to leave you dead. You asked about it the last time we talked. So here’s my thoughts on what could have happened if the hypothesis that HS and LT were/are in an actual relationship is true. Keep in mind that I have no clue what actually happened. I’m just a song nerd, investing way too much in musical inspirations.

First of all, let me just get this out of the way. I love Taylor Swift as an incredible songwriter that she is and she was the one who got me to notice 1D because she was dating Harry Styles that one time. Her song, ‘Style’ screamed PR stunt to me like nothing else. Actually, her whole 1989 album felt like a middle finger to incompetent PR managers everywhere. ‘Blank Space’ was the epitome of “I can manage my public persona better than you ever could.” ‘New Romantics’ was a love letter to fans filled with irony about high profile public life. How it sucks and makes everything possible at the same time.

Oh my god. I’m sorry I went off the rail. I just love her and her music. Please forgive my ramblings. Again.

Anyway, back to Larry Stylinson. Taylor mentioned how ‘Out of the Woods’ was inspired by a relationship she was in. And the biggest feeling in that whole relationship was anxiety. Funnily enough, ‘Out of the Woods’ makes the most sense to me if Taylor was in a PR relationship with HS, being fully aware that HS and LT were together, and wrote the whole song from imagining LT’s perspective. Taylor put herself in somebody else’s shoes in a song all the time. The most sincerely heartbreaking one to date for me is ‘Ronan’ and I cannot tell you how hard I cried for that song. ‘You were my best four years,’ got me bawling my eyes out. Every. Single. Time.

Here’s my line by line lyrics interpretation for ‘Out of the Woods’ on the assumption that Taylor wrote it from LT’s perspective.

>Looking at it now, it all seems so simple.

[HS was in a PR relationship to stop the gay rumors and hype up 1D world tour. Taylor was in it to turn her image into ‘good girl gone bad’ without having to go full on Miley Cyrus’s ‘Wrecking Ball’ and hype up her own world tour. It was a mutually beneficial arrangement. Simple but effective.]

>We were lying on your couch. I remember.

[LT once said, ‘Nobody knows where we live’ but the public narrative at the time said HS and LT no longer lived together. Hence, your couch, not ours.]

>You took a Polaroid of us, then discovered the rest of the world was black and white.

[Introducing artsy black and white Polaroid aesthetic to set the stage.]

>But we were in screaming color

[Obvious rainbow reference became painfully obvious.]

>And I remember thinking…

[The following repetitive chorus is so claustrophobic. It plays out as if it was a constant cloud hanging over LT’s head at all times. Like, will people leave us alone now that they no longer think we’re together? Are highly publicized heterosexual relationships enough to keep the scrutiny away? Can we just be together since we’re sworn to the secrecy now? We’re okay, right? We have to be. But are we really?]

>>>

Are we out of the woods yet?

Are we out of the woods yet?

Are we out of the woods yet?

Are we out of the woods?

Are we in the clear yet?

Are we in the clear yet?

Are we in the clear yet?

In the clear yet? Good

Are we out of the woods yet?

Are we out of the woods yet?

Are we out of the woods yet?

Are we out of the woods?

Are we in the clear yet?

Are we in the clear yet?

Are we in the clear yet?

In the clear yet? Good

Are we out of the woods?

>>>

>Looking at it now, last December we were built to fall apart then fall back together.

[Seeing each other in a PR relationship with someone else hurt further than just simple jealousy. It’s also a reminder that their relationship is not meant to exist, let alone to last.]

>>>

Your necklace hanging from my neck

The night we couldn't quite forget

When we decided (we decided)

To move the furniture so we could dance

Baby, like we stood a chance

Two paper airplanes flying, flying, flying

>>>

[This is where either my imagination ran away with me or Taylor is an actual Queen of Reference. I think it make sense that two paper airplanes here are a combination of a retrospective reference to HS’s necklace and an acknowledgment of LT’s paper airplane tattoo. In ‘Style’ MV at 00:13, HS’s paper airplane necklace, one Taylor wore publicly before, shows up. At her lucky number of seconds, Taylor is holding it like she’s praying, implying her best wishes for the relationship that the paper airplane represented. Throughout the music video, all the broken mirrors and jaded reflections alluded to a recognition of a kindred spirit. Media portrayals of their identities are so distorted to the point where the relationship people see is just a theatrical show for entertainment. I mean, ‘Style’ is almost 4 minutes long and, just 40 seconds in, the lyrics transition to ‘Fade into view’. If this doesn’t scream cinematic, I don’t know what else does. When Taylor flippantly said she could’ve named ‘Style’ as ‘I’m not even sorry’ and called it a day, I think she meant how she twisted the narrative in her favor and the media bought into it so much so that they’re chasing their own tails. Which is a reference I just made to ‘I Know Places’. What can I say? I’m a slave to my queen.]

>And I remember thinkin'

[Then the chorus repeats here. So I’m not going to repeat the interpretation.]

>Remember when you hit the brakes too soon?

>Twenty stitches in the hospital room

>When you started cryin', baby, I did, too

[If your loved one got hurt when they’re away on a job, would you cry when you heard the news? Especially when there’s nothing you could do to help? Then consider this. If Taylor was there to witness the conversation between two heartbroken boys, wouldn’t she decide right then and there to protect them against the world? She talked about the incident once before and how she kept its details on the downlow by looking at people involved dead in the eyes and straight up asking for decency. That’s such a mama bear thing to do, if you ask me.]

>But when the sun came up, I was lookin' at you

[The sunrise usually represents hope. I don’t see why this would be any different. Isn’t nice to know that there’s one more person in your corner?]

>Remember when we couldn't take the heat

>I walked out and said, "I'm settin' you free"

>But the monsters turned out to be just trees.

>And when the sun came up, you were lookin' at me

[This is the biggest reach ever. But I think this is when things had gotten so bad for HS and LT. That if they were together, this was probably their first potential breakup. But then HS got his ship tattoo. As a reminder that no matter where he is, he’s homeward bound. And then LT proceeded to get the compass pointing toward home tattooed on his arm. Taylor was there with HS because she’s a character in the PR narrative, just like a tree in the woods. For her, the show must go on. But she’s not a monster so as soon as the PR stunt was done, she booked it out of there. Her ‘I Know Places’ is almost a promise to not out HS & LT even if their PR relationship went down the drain in public. 1D just broke into North America which was sadly rather homophobic half the time, and, well, “Loose lips sink ships all the damn time. Not this time.”]

I need to go to sleep. I can’t believe I just wrote an essay about one hypothetical angle of a relationship that isn’t from a lit class required reading. If you’re dumb, I’m dumber. It’s 4 AM here and I have work in the morning.

Love you, but don’t call me tonight. I need to catch more zzzZzz.

Delaney

[lnarizakis]

— sam’s match-ups masterlist

hi! if you sent in a match-up ask, you can find ‘em all here! if you sent off anon, i have just tagged you and added the link to the post. if you sent as anon/anon with identifying emoji, i included your description along with the link. this post will be constantly updated as i continue to post my match-ups! thank you and i hope you all enjoy your match-ups!!

— @hqprotectionsquad . . .

— anon . . . ❝ could i get a matchup🥺 with 2 boys~ i'm 4'9, i'm really tiny and i've been told i have really nice hair hehe personality wise i've been told i'm really gentle and calming, i had a teacher that said my voice is "serene" and "soothing" >__< i'm the mom friend of the group🥰 i'm quite the introvert, i enjoy just staying home with some takeout, studying quietly or playing acnh underneath all my blankets.. i'm quite fond of hugs and cuddling and forehead kisses too though😚😚💞💞💞 ❞

— anon . . . ❝ could i request for a matchup?🥺 i'm about 5'3, my friends always say i'm the perfect height to hug 🤗 i have long hair till my waist that i dyed a rose-gold colour, i like wearing green or grey contacts because i like the way they make my eyes look. i have a resting b!tch face though...i'm not very approachable because of it😭 i've been playing netball for about 6 years now and i'm quiet irl i guess, but off the court and when i'm comfy, i'm quite the goodball🤙🏻🤙🏻 ❞

— anon . . . ❝ grats for 500! I'd like to request a matchup w 3 ppl pls! Im female, 5'2, i LOVE volleyball! i play wing spiker but i used to play setter, i loved setting for my besties in hs after training. I like to work out, read books & study. i clean my room every morning cos i like neat things, my closet's organized. i have dark brown eyes and thick thighs, proud of em! i also dance, im flexible, and im taking journalism. i wanna play pro vb in the future but tbh 158.5cm's too short, but im not giving up! ❞

— ⭐️ 🌸 anon . . . ❝ Hey hey! If ur still doing the matchup event i would love one!! Im a short gal with wavy dark hair and green eyes. I wear makeup p often esp red eyeshadow and black winged eyeliner (bc im an egirl until i DIE). Speaking of egirl i dress in black and with a chain most of the time but i also randomly flip into floral soft girl hours?? As for personality im really energetic once im comfortable and i love people who can match that energy, esp bc i get anxious rlly easily so i need someone . . . who will help keep me calm and happy when my drive for success gets a lil out if hand lmao. I’m also v combative towards ppl who i think are disrespectful! I love classic novels and watching foreign movies, but I also LOVE sports and get rlly hype abt them. I also LOVE music esp metal but i can and WILL vibe to literally anything esp if its during a workout (bc i live at the gym and someone spotting my squats is so romantic 2 me 🥺). A match w/ 2 boys would be sick, tysm in advance! ❞

— anon . . . ❝ Im medium height with long brown hair and sharp features. I like drawing, reading, cooking. I’m rather chill and level-headed, i’m usually the one to fix objects and solve problems, I avoid drama. I’m compassionate and caring but sometimes indifferent. I like mountains, art galleries, concerts, cello and graphic design. I’m adaptable and open to learning new things but I don’t like changing my routine too much. + 1 male character. ty for this and congrats on 500 followers!!! you deserve it ❞

—anon . . . ❝ hihi!!!! congrats on 500!! i lov ur content sm.. akfjag im asking for a two chara match up!!! im 5'3 and i have pink hair,, i switch between so many hobbies LOL i play volleyball and softball,, and i love singing and painting!! i have a really cottagecore aesthetic and i love baking things for people!!!!! im really energetic and v bratty over text but i get flustered so easily in person,, i hope youre having a good day//night !!!!!! ty for ur fics ❞

— 🐧 anon . . . ❝ match up please!!🥺 2 characters n no gender preference!! im a tall (around 184cm) kinda chubby girl w/ shoulder length brown hair, hazel eyes, pale skin w/ a lot of moles n i wear glasses! im p shy n it takes me a while to open up. but when i do i am a completely dif person,, making friends is hard but the ones i do have i love more than anything! when im w/ them im cheerful, talk a lot n goof around. otherwise i look p intimidating n serious cause i have a rbf n barely talk,, . . . im the mom friend, an optimist, a dreamer n a procrastinator. im p hard to piss off but when im angry i can get scary 😳 im sensitive n cry a lot, currently im working on being more confident! i love animals n flowers!! cause im not the best with words i use lil gifts n touches to express my love! my hobby is drawing! ive been doing it my whole life n im rlly proud of it!! congrats on 500 followers love❤ ❞

— @raevaioli . . .

— 🦆 anon . . . ❝ Happy 500 bubs! You def deserve it :)! I was wondering if I could get a #1 male matchup? Looks: 5’1 petite fem w/ small chest/tiny waist. Thick/medium brown hair and eyes. I’m a cancer with ENTP type! I’m a very affectionate person to my loved ones. I’m very stubborn, sensitive (but I try to hide it), ambitious, witty and very talkative! I like to tease my friends, watch Netflix and try new baking things! Although I show my love through actions, I’m fine with getting love back in any way . . . Also I like baths! (It’s random but why not 😌) I wish you a good day! ❞

— anon . . . ❝ Hey! Can I get a matchup? (#1)I’m a Leo and a ISFJ chick! I have medium brown hair and big eyes w/ glasses. I have a petite body with a small waist and chest. I’m really nice to people but very awkward (I’ll laugh at the floor) and when annoyed. I’m much more open to others like my best friend,I feel at home with her :,) .My hobbies include watching greys anatomy, shopping for clothes, and calling my friends. I would want my partner to be a lil more extroverted than me. Happy 500 😊 ❞

— anon . . . ❝ hi! Can I get a matchup? I’m 5’2 straight girl w/ long brown wavy hair and big brown eyes. I’m thick in all the right places🥴 plus I have a curvy body. My star sign is Pisces and I’m a ISFP. I’m more introverted than extroverted. I dress like Hobo type of way, but i always wear AF1s and I NEVER crease them. In my spare time I draw,listen to raps (mostly by Tupac) and oldies, learn raps, and hang out wit friends. I also have a bunch of piercings on my ears and one on my nose. ty CONGRATS ON 500+ ❞

— anon . . . ❝ CONGRATULATIONS ON 500 WHOOP WHOOP❣️🥺, can i please have a matchup doe! so happy to celebrate this with you❤️ i’m a female, straight, 5’4 and a half, dark skin with medium black curly hair, chubby cheeks and always smiling, i love being outside just experiencing life or trying new drinks at restaurants!! i also enjoy staying home to watch tons of anime & movies or dates to the museum or theme park, spring is my favorite season and orange is my favorite color, i’m so hyper and loving, thank you! ❞

— 🐾 anon . . . ❝ Twice the charm I suppose :) I’m a 5’1 girl with long wavy brown hair. I have a lot of piercings and I tend to wear a lot of jewelry. I wear two knee braces due to a connective tissue disorder. I’m bisexual, so either way works for me owo. I’m an INFJ and a type 4. I’m told that I’m pretty easygoing but I get angry real quick when someone I love is threatened. I’m very empathetic and I’m the mom friend of the group 🐾 . . . Fun fact, don’t leave me alone in public for more than two seconds or else random strangers come up to me asking for advice. This has happened way too many times now don’t ask me why lmaooo. I’ve been playing soccer for eleven years now. I was the captain of a coed college-age division team for two years. I play left defense and goalkeeper. 🐾 . . . I go hiking a lot, I love cliff diving, and I’m an archer. I am also a painter and a writer. My dream job is to become a book editor, but I want to eventually live off my books. I tend to be pretty clingy when it comes to people. I randomly need a lot of attention and force my friends to cuddle. They like rejecting me 😔. Sorry that this was so long aha. Ily and have a good day 💕🐾 ❞

thanks for sending in an ask ! didn’t see yours? please let me know !

[notedchampagne]

i think the main reason why i never leave homestuck + never finish art for other fandoms would just be due to time constraints

like in most fandoms theres usually an era of hype, where youre motivated and inspired to churn out art and its usually the period of time where you get the most notes as well but if youre a slow/busy artist you tend to lag behind on that hype period, and when you finally have time to work on your art it just feels dull and neutral

and idk if anyone else feels the same way but i dont ever feel that with homestuck. hiatuses and breaks are such a big part of hs at this point that i dont feel that pressure to churn out content fast, and instead i just get a steady train of motivation that i prefer over the periods of hype, and in the rare occasions where hs updates do happen theyre long enough that there isnt that stress with other fandoms. anyway thats just my take on things

[books-on-a-wire]

Title: First and Then by Emma Mills

Genre: YA Contemporary

Synopsis: Devon Tennyson wouldn't change a thing. She's happy watching Friday night games from the bleachers, silently crushing on best friend Cas, and blissfully ignoring the future after high school. But the universe has other plans. It delivers Devon's cousin Foster, an unrepentant social outlier with a surprising talent for football, and the obnoxiously superior and maddeningly attractive star running back, Ezra, right where she doesn't want them - first into her P.E. class and then into every other aspect of her life. 

Review: And just like that Emma Mills became a must-but for me! I went into this kind of blind knowing it was just going to be a cute YA love story, but it was so much more than that. I am very far removed from my high school days, in fact, I have a hs freshman and the thought of him playing Varsity football freaks me out, so I felt very protective of Foster the entire book. Foster was my favorite character, but this book was packed with a whole line-up of star supporting characters (i.e. Jordan, Emir, Lindsay, Marabella, and for her tiny role, Sophie). I kind of want books for all of them now. It just felt very realistic and I think a lot of people can identify with Devon. I love that akin to her favorite Jane Austen novels, Devon's love story with Ezra (Mr. Darcy) was a slow, sometimes aggravating, process and waited until almost the very end to unfold. But self-discovery, friendship, and family were the ultimate goals. Sign me up for the Emma Mills hype train, I'm here for it!

Stars: 5

[subtle-edge-of-rot]

Ooooofa

I'm sorry you're feeling down babes. I spent all day at the tattoo parlor otherwise I would've responded sooner 🥺

I know there's not a whole lot I can say on a bad day to make you feel better and I'm not trying to make your feelings go away but I do hope you start to pick yourself up a bit. You've gotten through every single one of your worst days so far so you're doing a great job today too.

The success of a day isn't based around activities or productivity, it's based on whether or not you woke up--and you did. Cat naps through out the day can recharge you, sometimes we need a day to just be rather than to fill with things. Honestly, I really am proud of you for even posting your feelings, sometimes that's an overwhelming task in itself but now you get to see how much people care 💙

Sending over platonic--or not--forehead kisses and well wishes for the rest of your week. Be sure to take care of yourself in spite of the rain. You deserve water, food and your favorite movie. I adore you even on sad days sweet pea 💙

-💙

I’m functioning today. Because of work, but hey, it gets me out of the house and walking around and doing things to keep me from being idle.

Tattoo parlor? Best place to be imo. If my autoimmune disorder and wallet allowed it I’d be getting another one (HS flair up from too many tattoos being done too close together). Idk of what but I’m trying to get my sleeve done.

Thank you for all the kind words. I really appreciate you always being on my hype train. You’re really sweet and always know what to say. I know productivity doesn’t equal success but that how I was raised. It’s hard to break out of that upbringing. All the napping made me overly tired unfortunately. But I’m at work today and being kept busy, and I have y’all in my pocket which makes me smile.

Bluuuuush I love forehead kisses thank you for that. I’ve been drinking water and eating, no worries on that front. I’ll keep on keepin’ on and existing.