#hrt diary

[sexydenise01]

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[eva-does-its-best]

Today I was getting ready for a shower and so I was undressing, and when I took off my t-shirt I looked at the mirror and I was accidentally on a very cute and hot pose. I thought it was funny so I smiled like getting into character for that pose.

But then I saw the most genuine smile I've ever seen on my face.

And the whole thing felt so natural, I was not pretending or acting, that was me, I looked natural, I looked pretty, I looked cute, I looked hot, and overall I looked like that was me.

I started laughing and crying at the same time, which I did not know was possible. Took me 5 minutes to get back up from the floor because my legs were shaking.

And when I stood up again I looked at the mirror once more and I was blushed beyond belief and I was still smiling a lot and the smile was still true and I still liked how it looked on my face and I even still liked my face in fact I loved how I looked!

I'm only 3 and a half months on hrt and on minimum dose. I can't even begin to imagine how much I will love myself when I am a year in or two years in.

I am so happy, so so happy, the happiest I've ever been. This is me.

[hyacinthdoll1315]

3.5 Months of Moth HRT

So, um, hi again! Not much has changed since last time but well, feel like I should be updating this more. a few things have changed. My eyesight is a bit fuzzier now. not enough to need glasses at least! but stuff that's really far away has gotten more, smudged I guess?

I called the doc about it since I was worried about having another eye infection (eww) but apparently, it's not too uncommon to occur by this point, something about the eyes beginning to split? I wasn't able to pay attention to much of it (been so scatterbrained(maybe some more tea will help?) but I did some looking into insect eyes and it seems to be the case? something about less resolution.

my sense of smells really strong now, and I'm starting to find it affecting my emotions. like, you know how ants have this smell they leave when foraging? it, kind of makes me hungry now. not that I've been sticking around ants much! I'm a moth through and through thank you very much! (paperyum)

the biggest thing I think is my skin? I'm not quite sure but it kind of feels, tight? and it's been drying out easier. like, wearing a suit that's too small. not sure what that's about, but at least my setae is still growing!

Well, silver lining I guess.

look, that's, not why I decided to write this though, I just. I feel used, in a way. and I need to write it.

So, about a week ago I went to hang out with my friends again. they've been nice and as cool as always, but, I don't know, there's this kind of, disconnect? like, Only Alice (Tea friend!) has really tried to understand while the others have kind of just acted like nothing changed and teased me a bit as normal. I guess it's just ribbing, but, I don't know, I've never really agreed with it.

but uh, we went to the mall, which was kind of nice, the others wanted to watch a movie and go to the arcade, and it was kind of fun? though a little overstimulating (too loud and the movie was boring) I kept getting weird looks the whole time though, and I just. why? they kept looking at me like, I was strange, which I sort of get, but some seemed creeped out, others disgusted.

I used to be pretty oblivious (I admit, I am kind of naive) but now I just, I couldn't stop seeing it. Even when we went to get food, there was this look in people's eyes like I was, wrong. I even heard someone call me a "freak of nature", though maybe they were talking to someone else? (no, it was about me, definitely).

I tried telling the others I wanted to go somewhere else but they just kept saying it was fine and we could go do something else first. I didn't even get to go to my favorite teashop out of fear of losing the group!

Eventually, we stopped at this ramen place and I remember we were mostly joking around a bit. I was having my salad (meat tastes a bit weird now), I don't remember it all. I think someone said something and I felt hurt, said something like, "I can't help it", I think it was about having to be a vegetarian, and I remember one of my friends just, poked the top of my head and laughed at me, something like "well duh, a moth like you doesn't eat much. don't worry about it, just follow the lights." or, something like that I just.

I felt sick. I quickly got up to the bathroom and I think I heard Alice chastising them but I don't remember. I just, needed space. The whole lamp thing is so annoying! like, everyone acts like moths always move toward light when there's so much more going on there! humans may not know how it all works, but it's definitely not just what people think it is, like some infatuation with it!

After that, I just wanted out. the others acted like nothing happened, but, I don't think I can keep hanging around with them anymore. like, they're my friends, you know? they should be there to help! and they do, or at least Alice does. the others just tend to joke around and be silly.

so yeah, that's what happened. they've tried contacting me with stuff like "Hey Emily, we didn't mean anything by it" "We were just joking, Em", or just "Hey Emily, you coming for our next dnd session?" I think I'm going to stop talking to them, just reduce contact, say I'm busy with other stuff, anything to stay out of, that, again.

I haven't gone out in a bit, just been getting my groceries, got my tea, and been trying to relax. I just hope I can find people who can better understand.

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[malinastharlock]

As of yesterday I have officially been on HRT for 2 years and and I have experienced so much in the past 2 years. From the majority of my own family abandoning me and a lot of them not talking to me, that's a good thing though most of them where assholes, then I finally went to pride and loved all of it. I've made so many new friends that actually give a fuck about me and my well being. Also I need to say blood really doesn't make family, love, support, and commitment does. My new family is better then my birth family ever was. I will admit I have had some hard times and even been attacked but no matter what I held on and kept going. I've come such a long way already but I'm still a baby in HRT years and I have so much more to go. I love my life and would never go back.

Here's some pictures of me before and after now.

I love you all and I wish you the best on what ever journey you are on. Good luck my friends. 😘🥰

[chrissy-kaos]

Getting that girl juice in before I head to the gym! 🏋‍♀️🤸‍♀️💪

Shot # 117627373738339.5 still isn't easy 😕

***Disclaimer*** Syringe is for HRT

[jeypawlik]

HRT Diary, page 9

Page 9 of my HRT Diary is up and this is my 3 month ritual. Read it for free at: https://topazcomics.com/genderslices/hrt-diary-9 Or read pages over a month early over on https://patreon.com/jpawlik

[wildmaddy]

Re-blog and message me 💦

[properfull0ngaycrisis]

when i start T i wanna record my voice changing so i can go back and listen and see how far i’ve come and how much it’s changed but i don’t just wanna do the more standard “hi i’m reggie and this is my voice x months on T” so instead i’m gonna read chapter 44 of Crooked Kingdom (the one where Kaz tells Inej the ship is hers) and then i’m gonna edit it all together after like a year so that every month you’ll hear me reading a different paragraph/page and you’ll hear my voice change as the edit goes on eeeeeeee

also it’s 12:29am spelling and grammar have left the chat x

[queerautism]

Good morning 💜 I have my fourth testosterone injection today yay 💕

Going to get my blood drawn right beforehand for the monitoring test too, I'm kinda excited to get the results back and see what my levels are doing :3

[maxine302]

Me in 2017 or 2018 (can't remember) to me now in 2024

4.5 months on hrt and 1 year laser hair removal

I've always had very bad self esteem issues and it wasn't until I found this old photo of me from 2017 or 2018 that I began to start seeing myself as well.......myself.

It's honestly surreal to think that these two photos are the same person and not a younger brother and her older sister.

I used to look at before and after photos of other transfems and felt very hopeless that I'd never reach that stage and that even with hrt I'd look the same, doom scrolling and letting these feelings fester more and more until I couldn't take it anymore.

Even on hrt I still have those thoughts and feelings (but to a less extreme) and I still have a long way to go.

Keeping track of my changes on hrt has been very hard since I hardly notice any of them until someone points it out.

But when I do its such an amazing feeling knowing those moments of feeling like nothing is working or changing is in fact ...........is working!

Hrt is worth it I don't regret it one bit, I've gone from a hollow shell of a person who had little to no self worth, who never took care of themselves and wanted to just disappear from this world to now wanting to live every moment and enjoy every emotion and experience so many new things and share the experiences with friends.

If you are at the stage where you can't take it anymore and want to start hrt and are ina position to try it THEN DO IT

Before I started I told myself:

"try hrt if it doesn't make you feel better then you'll at least be happy knowing you tried"

[beans-tour-diary]

Day 154

5 Months! 🎉

Today 5 months ago I got my first bit of t. I was so nervous and then the gel disappeared so fast. Now it's part of my morning routine, right after brushing my teeth.

Not even half a year and especially my hair changed. More and darker on my legs, thicker on my head and the tiniest dark moustache hairs in my face.

My voice noticeably changed. I try to keep track of it every now and then. It's kinda crazy to see how it slowly dropped.

I'm still incredibly uncomfortable with correcting people about my pronouns (but that's what friends are for!). Mostly because I'm scared they will make fun of me, but maybe also because completely binary pronouns aren't what I really want. It's still amazing to hear and see a male name and pronouns.

I haven't decided on one name yet. So far I've been using my nickname. I could also use it as a full name but there are so many beautiful names out there! Maybe I'll make a post on a trans subreddit and let strangers decide. Or I'll just stay in name limbo forever, because it all feels weird. Either too unique or too different from my old name. Just think of the poor people who'll have to remember a new name...

Please someone pull the emergency breaks in my brain before I loose it completely 🥲 No think!! Only manly man!!! Manly man need no name, only dick!!!!

[jenna-jayde-the-renagade]

Wow, 4 years on HRT as of yesterday, went from like #transgirlinprogress last time I took a photo of myself a long time ago to like, #transgirlcomplete 🤣 lmao. I must say, my hair is like super long now and that changes the way I look. But like, my facial features have been softened so much by the hrt over the years! Also have lost 80lbs this year, may 23rd I was 263lbs, beating my previous heaviest weight of 220lbs when I was 14! I can say I've lost 80lbs twice in my life now haha! I have an announcement too, I started another business selling audio equipment. My first business failed, it was home-based anyways so it was something to be proud of but like, not like this. This time its a legitimate one, with a commercial storefront in the downtown core of my city which was my ultimate dream, something I actually posted about back in 2021 but wasn't able to accomplish back then. I just didn't have the connections and I didn't know enough about running a business before I tried it and failed first. My opening date was September 1st, and I did $1000 my first month which isn't much at all compared to before. However this month things are picking up, im up to $1,161 so far in total sales. Also I'm sober again, my mental health sucks but what's new right? But yeah, that's what's up with me! Sorry for not posting in like, a year!

[hyacinthdoll1315]

3 Months of Moth HRT

Soooo. well, I definitely have setae. It's absolutely setae. It's grown out a lot now, both the setae in my hair and on the rest of my body. It's like, fluffy, but also stiff, sort of like fur? You know, when you pet a dog and its fur is nice and soft, but if you try to brush it the wrong way it gives a lot of resistance? It feels like that. So I guess, well, I've grown setae across my body.

It's not everywhere mind you. It's grown unevenly in some places, and I think my clothes hindered it some. My hips for example have a lot less than places like my shoulders, which are very fluffy. guess I'll just hope it grows more on its own and sleep with fewer clothes maybe? I mean, it should give some more breathing room for it all to grow out,. plus, it's very warm too!

I might need to swap out my big blanket once summer hits.

Oh, also, my sense of smell has gotten really strong now! Almost a bit too much actually. Like, I can smell so much when I'm going for a walk now, from the sugar from all the local cafes, the smell of coffee being grounded, the dew of grass from a park even when I'm really far away, the gas from cars, the perfumes and deodorants of people going about their day.

It's, it's a lot. And I can smell it all from really far away.

So I've been spending more time wearing a mask lately to help! Sure, we may not have to wear them as often anymore, but it has helped suppress it all a lot! Plus I can get others with really cute designs, like one covered in poppies! I just make sure to clean them every once in a while, rub a flower I like on it, and huzzah! instant nose damper without smelling like cleaning detergent.

As for other changes, my eyesight has been getting more sensitive, maybe I'll get cool color vision? my hearing has gotten better too I think? I remember reading moths and bats have similar hearing abilities. I wonder what else we have in common!

I've also been feeling more, scatterbrained. I was already pretty flighty before, but now it's like, my head got lots of cotton. My friends have been getting annoyed with me for it. My closest friend has been trying to help, and she seems to understand, but I can't help but notice she seems worried.

I've found myself jumping between different things in my kitchen (I really like my teas! they taste so different! it's so much more floral, but also really chocolatey! like, who doesn't like chocolate? well, I Might have to no, concentrate) but, I saw her by the window one time while I was making lunch for us, her eyes were downcast. I'm worried how she'll feel at the end of this. I don't want to stop, but, I also don't want her to hurt.

but yeah! things have been changing a lot! it's been really fun! I'm very excited for what changes happen next! though things feel like they've been slow, maybe I should talk to the doc about it? Hopefully, it's nothing in particular.

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[malinastharlock]

11 months on HRT I'm actually loving who I see in the mirror. I've always hated my reflection and no matter what I did I never felt right. I'm myself and to R'lyah with those hateful people that can't understand this. I look forward to a future where people can just love who they want and be who they are without having to fight to exist. Until then I'm willing to fight for what's right so the next generation can live a better, happier, and healthier life.

[chrissy-kaos]

Remember your weekly male vaccinations girls. We wouldn't want to revert back now would we. 🥰😍💉

(***Disclaimer*** Syringe is for HRT. Vial is Estradiol Valerate)

[jeypawlik]

HRT Diary, page 6

I just posted page 6 of my HRT Diary and I can’t stop touching my facial hair?! Read it for free at: https://topazcomics.com/genderslices/hrt-diary-6 Or read pages over a month early over on https://patreon.com/jpawlik