#hpd!piper

[happyk44]

Was thinking about Percy being kinda jealous of Nico because he's never not doubted who he is for a second and it made me think about the others regarding their connection or disconnection with identity and sense of self.

Annabeth and Piper feel connected to their sense of self, or at least their perceptions of who they are, even if that's not necessarily how they come across to others.

Clarisse struggles with it on occasion, especially as she works to be better and do better, but for the most part it's not the biggest concern for her.

Percy and Leo have way more issues with their identities. While Leo is a lot more confident in his answer to "who am I?", his response also contains an excess of negativity. Around people versus in isolation, it shifts constantly. He either views himself in terms of usefulness to others, as is what he can or cannot provide, or conceptually, like the blueprints of a machine. He struggles to see himself as a whole person on his own, rather than parts or components of a person.

As I've said so many times before, Percy builds his sense of self around his relationships with others. This makes it difficult when situations emerge where his gut instincts conflict with that identity or if the person behaves in opposition of that belief or how he expects. Sally's son is as calm and kind as she is, but he isn't. Best friends spend tons of time together, but Grover has his own life and responsibilities. Nico is powerful and doesn't need protection. There are so many clear instructions on how to be Annabeth's boyfriend, but he can't always follow them the way he's supposed to. When he fails to follow suit, he cracks. What is he without the people he loves?

[happyk44]

[ID: Two indiscriminate characters. One has a tired neutral expression and is labelled "Me". They are holding a child safety tether that is attached to the other person, who is squatting with a mischievous expression and is labelled "My urge to be self-destructive to get my FP's attention" /end ID]

[gozealouscloudcollection]

中國科學家找到胡椒辛辣的原因：哪些基因起作用？

綜合解讀了胡椒的基因組特徵，物種進化位置，並對胡椒鹼合成代謝網絡和關鍵基因及其基因家族進行深入研究，研究結果為被子植物演化及胡椒鹼生物合成提供了新的見解。相關研究成果在線發表在國際著名雜誌《Nature》子刊Nature Communications（《自然-通訊》）上。

胡椒基因組信息 圖丨熱科院

胡椒是木蘭亞綱（Magnoliids）胡椒目（Piperales）胡椒科（Piperaceae）胡椒屬（Piper）的熱帶木質藤本植物。胡椒素有“香料之王”、“黑色黃金”的美譽，在人類歷史文明進程中佔有獨特地位。在中世紀的歐洲，胡椒是社會地位��財富的象徵，價比金銀，可作為貨幣流通，胡椒貿易路線的拓展促成了新航路開闢、地理大發現等重要歷史事件。當前，胡椒廣泛種植於熱帶、亞熱帶30多個國家和地區，已成為服務國家“一帶一路”倡議的重要媒介作物。

研究團隊結合PacBio三代測序、10X Genomics、基於直接標記和染色（DLS）的BioNano單分子光學圖譜和Hi-C染色體交互捕獲四種測序技術，實現了胡椒染色體級別的組裝。基於21個典型物種的比較基因組和系統發育分析，確定了胡椒及其所在木蘭亞綱的系統發育位置，即木蘭亞綱與整個單子葉-雙子葉互為姐妹關係，胡椒目與木蘭目-樟目互為姐妹關係，且大約在175-187 MYA（95% HPD）發生分歧。同時，進一步通過基因家族擴增、比較轉錄組和序列進化分析，揭示了胡椒最主要的功能物質胡椒鹼生物合成的特異性，初步闡述胡椒鹼生物合成分子機理。

該研究主要得到了中央級公益性科研院所基本科研業務費和農業農村部物種資源保護等項目的支持。中國熱科院香飲所胡麗松副研究員、華中農業大學許忠平博士為論文的共同第一作者。中國熱科院香飲所郝朝運研究員、華中農業大學金雙俠教授為論文的共同通訊作者。

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from 中國科學家找到胡椒辛辣的原因：哪些基因起作用？ via KKNEWS

[ashery24]

Jasico week 6

Por fin ha llegado el día cuya participación es la que mas orgulloso me siento :,D

Human AU. Mas como “Hawaii 5.0 AU”. Creo que esto no es lo que pensaban cuando pusieron el prompt pero, ey, son humanos así que cuenta :v. 

Básicamente Jason es Steve y Nico es Danny. Frank es Chin, Piper es Kono ( iba a poner a Reyna pero quería ese toque de “novata” y solo Piper y Hazel me encajaban. Y Hazel tiene otro papel en la historia)

No hay que haber visto la serie para entender el capitulo. Aunque me baso en el capitulo piloto y habrá referencias a la serie. 

También decir que esto esta escrito mas bien tirando al crack. Osea que no lo estoy escribiendo totalmente enserio. La historia es un caso pero apenas profundizo en él. En realidad ni siquiera se de que va el caso mayoritariamente, solo en lineas generales. Lo invente y fue cambiando sobre la marcha. Básicamente me centro mas en el Jasico y el humor.

Y decir que hago un cutre juego de palabras entre SEAL (el equipo de operaciones especiales cuyo acronimo significa “SEa, Air, Land/Mar, aire y tierra” y seal (foca en ingles). Y un cutre juegos de palabras con el apellido de Jason.

Y que yo no se de cocina, así que puedo haber hecho aquí un gran error. Perdón de antemano.

Día: 6

Personajes: Nico Di Angelo, Jason Grace, Frank Zhang, Piper McLean, Reyna Avila Ramirez-Arrellano, Leo Valdez (mencionado), Hazel Levesque (mencionada)

Advertencias: AU (Hawaii 5.0), historia mas bien humorística, mención al racismo, mencionado Reynico (mas como tienes que buscarlo con microscopio y solo son los celos de Jason haciéndole ver cosas), mencionado Pipeyna (No lo tenia ni planeado pero de repente Piper y Reyna se convirtieron en lesbi. Oh, bueno :3), mencionado Frazel.

Day 6: Human AU / AU Humano

1-He ido a parar a piñalandia

Sol. Playa. La gente amaba eso. Nico no.

Odiaba eso. Odiaba Hawai. Odiaba su vida. Pero lo que mas odiaba era...

-¡Otra vez esas malditas piñas!

Las piñas. Las malditas, gigantes, con piel dura, asquerosamente dulzonas, piñas. Estaban en todas partes, siempre. Parecía que Hawai era la meca de las piñas y cada día era el día nacional de “cuando mas piñas mejor”. No podía pasar por una calle sin ver mínimo un puesto de piña. Nico quería gritar. No, espera, eso ya lo había hecho y la gente le estaba mirando raro. Genial.

Con su patentada cara de “si me miras, te mato”, Nico salio de allí rápidamente. Quizá su expresión no era la mejor considerando que era un policía pero eso no quedaría en su expediente como si lo haría una detención por “alterar el orden publico”. Podría alegar demencia, no seria demasiado difícil, pero aquello seria peor. Nico suspiro internamente.

2-Una foca me roba el caso

-¡Suelta el arma!-gritaron al unisono

-¡Detective Di Angelo del HPD, baje el arma!-exigio Nico, cabreado porque un tipo al azar con una pistola interfiriera en su investigación y encima le pidiera bajar su arma. Es decir ¿qué se creía?

-¡No pienso bajar el arma!

-Como no lo hagas, disparo

-Ey, tranquilo. Oye, mira, soy de los SEAL. Porque no bajamos los dos el arma a la vez y lo hablamos ¿vale?

Nico miro desconfiado al tipo pero parecía sincero. Es decir, ser un SEAL no era la primera excusa que se le ocurría a un maleante de poca monta que había decidido entrar en una casa al azar a robar. 

-A la cuenta de tres. Uno...

-Dos...-continuo el rubio

-Y tres...-acabaron los dos, mientras bajaban sus armas al unisono

-Bien ¿Quien demonios eres?

-Mi nombre es Jason Grace, de los SEAL-dijo mientras sacaba la identificación lentamente y se la lanzaba a Nico. Nico la cogió al aire, desconfiado, y la examino. Era real.

-¿Y qué haces aquí, Grace?

-Investigar el caso-dijo mientras agarraba una antigua moneda romana de oro que había sobre una mesa de trabajo

-Suelta eso-exigió Nico-Y no es tu caso, es mi caso-era el primer caso decente de Nico en la isla. No iba a dárselo porque sí.

-Pues lo siento, pero la Gobernadora me ha mandado investigar este caso. Y me ha dado la inmunidad y medios necesarios, así que no puedes hacer nada

-Eso no es posible-Nico exclamo, estupefacto

Pero era posible. El rubiales saco su teléfono y llamo a la Gobernadora que confirmo la historia. Nico, impotente, tuvo que marcharse dejando a Grace con su ex-escena del crimen.

3-Grace me deja unirme al caso. Pero yo he sido su gracia salvadora -sonrisa satisfecha-

Nico estaba concentrado. Nada lo iba a perturbar.

Iba a encontrarle. Iba a encontrar a ese terrible malhechor y cuando lo hiciera...

-¡Ahí estas!

Nico se lanzo a una carrera frenética superando todos los obstáculos que se ponían en su camino

-¡VEN AQUÍ MALDITO PERRO!

Un perro. Un perro le acaba de robar la cartera. Genial, simplemente genial. Como los del departamento se enteraran iban a reírse hasta el final de los tiempos. Incluso mientras seguía su persecución, Nico sentía que no podría volver a mirarse al espejo con respeto durante un mes.

Por suerte estaba ganando terreno, Nico no era el mas fuerte de los policías de Honolulu pero si el mas rápido y resistente. Ya casi lo había atrapado cuando una persona agarro el perro y cogió su cartera. Nico acelero su carrera, temeroso de que le robaran.

-¡Ey, tú! ¡Eso es mio!

La misteriosa persona, que ya había soltado el perro, se giro hacía Nico. Este gimió de impotencia. De todas las personas, Jason “Inmunidad y medios” Grace era el ultimo que Nico tenia ganas de encontrar ahora. Y mucho menos en esa situación

-Hola- Grace saludo con una sonrisa mientras le devolvía la cartera-Te estaba buscando

-¿A mí?-pregunto desconfiado, mientras se guardaba la cartera

-Sí, te necesito para que me ayudes

-No, gracias-Nico se giro para volver a casa

-Es para mi caso

Nico se congelo unos instantes antes de girarse

-¿Te refieres al caso que me robaste?-pregunto sarcásticamente Nico

-Eso da igual-Grace sacudió una mano ante la ira creciente de Nico-Lo que importa es que ya llevabas tiempo en el caso y he oído que eres muy bueno resolviendo asesinatos. Necesito saber que paso con mi victima y que tiene que ver con esta moneda. La verdad es que no tengo nada-Grace saco la moneda de su bolsillo

-Pues buena suerte con eso-le deseo Nico, con una sonrisa complacida

Jason le miro estupefacto

-¿Sabes que tiene que ver, verdad?-dijo notando su derrota

-Sí

-¿Cómo? Apenas la viste

-Vi lo suficiente-la sonrisa de Nico se ensancho

-Necesito ayuda. Por favor-Jason estaba rogando. Mister SEAL arrogante le estaba rogando. Era el mejor día de la vida de Nico.

-Solo si me dejas investigar el caso

-Hecho

La rápida afirmativa de Grace podría ser debida a la desesperación por continuar con el caso. Nico sabía mejor y vio un destello juguetón en los ojos de Grace que le decía que tenia planeado dejarle unirse desde un principio.

Bueno, al menos Grace no había pensado que sabría sobre la moneda. Punto para él.

4-Un norte americano, un italiano, un chino-canadiense y una cherokee entran en un bar helenolatino. Parece una broma pero es por el caso. Mi vida es un chiste.

Después de reclutar a dos miembros mas, un chino canadiense llamado Frank y una cherokee llamada Piper, el equipo fue al “Argo II”. Un restaurante con motivo griego. Cuyo dueño, Leo Valdez, era latino. Y que vendía una extraña mezcla de comida griega y latina. Era inaudito pero después de probar un riquísimo plato de yemistá (tomates y pimientos asados rellenos de arroz y carne picada) y fajitas, Nico no se iba a quejar.

-Buenas Nico-saludo una hermosa latina desde detrás de la barra

-Hola Reyna-Nico se acerco, sonriendo-Necesito tu ayuda. Grace, enséñale la moneda

Jason saco la moneda con una mueca, ¿qué le pasaba?¿no quería enseñar su “gran” descubrimiento?, y se la tendió a Reyna.

Reyna la agarro y la examino

-Gea-dictamino

-¿Gea?-pregunto Grace, confuso

-Es una banda de traficantes de antigüedades griegas. Piezas realmente valiosas. Hace un tiempo vendieron una vasija por 10.000 $. Cada miembro de la banda tiene una moneda como esta para distinguirlos-explico Nico

-¿Como sabes todo eso?-pregunto Frank

-Tuve varios casos relacionados con la banda de vuelta en Nueva Jersey. Parece que ahora se han expandido aquí. Sospechaba que nuestra victima era un miembro por sus gustos y transacciones monetarias. La moneda me lo confirma

-¿Y como sabes que es autentica?-pregunto Piper, trasladando su mirada de Nico a Reyna

-Antes de trabajar aquí, trabaje como detective con Nico. Yo era una numismática, una experta en monedas. Pero me lesione la rodilla y acabe aquí. No es que me queje-Reyna sonrió a Piper mientras esta se sonrojaba

-Bien-dijo Jason, con un tono malhumorado-Gracias por la información

Reyna le miro fijamente antes de sonreír.

-No te preocupes, si quiera ligarme a alguien de tu equipo iría a por la hermosura de ojos caleidoscopios.

Jason la miro, estupefacto. Nico estaba confuso. Frank no dijo nada. Reyna saco una tarjeta con su numero y se la tendió a Piper. Piper se sonrojo.

5-Detenemos asesinos y destruimos organizaciones a domicilio. Postre no incluido

Después de confirmar su teoría, de examinar todos los datos que tenían sobre Gea y de relacionar casos en Hawai con la organización, el grupo decidió que su mejor baza para resolver el asesinato y disminuir gran parte del poder en la isla de Gea era la fiesta privada de “Los gigantes”, un grupo de magnates relacionado con el trafico de antigüedades griegas.

El único problema era la entrada. Y la única manera de entrar era...

-Hola, señor-dijo un Jason teñido de negro, con un horrible acento latino-Somos los repartidores del Argo II. Su jefe nos contrato-acabo destrozando el acento hasta un punto que le exiliarían de cualquier país latino por ello.

Se habían disfrazado para aquello. Jaso iba teñido, Nico ligeramente maquillado con polvorete para disimular su piel pálida. Piper y Frank iban detrás, escondidos. Iban de catering. Por suerte parecía que a los magnates Hawaianos les gustaba la comida del Argo II. Nico les entendía perfectamente.

Claro que todo aquello no serviría de nada si les descubrían. Nico tenía ganas de darse contra el parabrisas, mientras los guardias examinaban sospechosamente la documentación que tenia Jason, solo que aquello lo haría peor.

-Adelante-dijeron los guardias

-Gracias

-¿Cómo?-pregunto asombrado, Nico, a una distancia segura de ellos

-Estos tipos son unos idiotas elitistas que creen que los latinos son inferiores. Ellos creen que los latinos son tan tontos que no pueden aprender bien el idioma. Dales el peor acento posible y sera mas creíble.

-Tiene sentido...

-Bueno-dijo Jason, con una sonrisa brillante-Vamos a descubrir todo lo posible

Al final el equipo fue tan eficaz que descubrió al asesino. Y resulto que era el jefe de la rama de la banda en Hawai. Por lo que resolvieron un asesinato y redujeron el poder de Gea en la isla a la vez. Y todo antes del postre.

Postre que, por cierto, se comieron ellos como modo de celebración. Decidle vosotros que no a un helado de yogur griego con polvorosas (unas galletitas venezolanas)

6-De vuelta a piñalandia

-¿Quieres un poco de pizza?-Jason sonrió

Después del caso todos habían decidido que se merecían un premio.

Piper había llamado a Reyna y habían quedado.

Frank también había quedado...y casi llega tarde al enterarse Nico de que Frank conocía a su querida hermana, cuya mudanza a la isla era la única razón por la que Nico no seguía en Nueva Jersey, y era con ella que había quedado. El pobre Frank había quedado parcialmente traumatizado después de media hora de interrogatorio obligado de hermano mayor.

Y hubiera sido mas tiempo pero Jason soborno a Nico con una buena comida en su casa. Nico estaba cansado, hambriento y su casa estaba en la otra punta de la isla así que acepto

-¿Enserio le estas preguntando a un italiano si quiere pizza?-Nico alzo una ceja, divertido

-Sois muy tiquismiquis con ello-dijo mientras ponía la pizza sobre la mesa

-Esa pizza tiene piña-la voz y la expresión de Nico eran inescrutables

-Eso es malo ¿no?

-Sí. Jamas, JAMAS, debes mancillar una pizza con piña-dijo Nico, mientas una aura oscura le rodeaba

Jason abrió los ojos mas aterrorizado de lo que había estado nunca en su vida, tiempo en los SEAL incluido, y huyo rápidamente de la habitación

Yo: Vaya, creo que esto se me ha alargado mucho. No creo que este en las 500 palabras...quizá 800 -mira un contador de palabras- +1750...¡WTH! D: . Esto se me ha alargado mucho DDDDD: . Es decir, quería mantenerme alrededor de las 500 para que cada participación fuera mas o menos equitativa O-O. Y creo que acabo de escribir el one-shot mas largo de mi vida. Me siento estupefacto y orgulloso O-O :D. El poder del McDanno y el Jasico :3

Otras referencias a la serie: 

-Lo del odio a la piña y a la pizza de piña es algo de Danny que quise transmitir a Nico. Yo amo la piña y la pizza con piña. Lo aclaro por si acaso.

-Iba a hacer a Jason de las fuerzas aéreas pero al final lo deje como SEAL por la referencia a Steve y porque los SEALs también hacen misiones aéreas (aunque sean sobretodo una fuerza marina)

-La lesión en la rodilla de Reyna es referencia a la lesión de Kono en el canon.

-No puedo creer que haya hecho un AU a lo Hawaii 5.0 con referencias al McDanno sin hacer referencia al gag de “Toda la isla cree que estamos casados” ni haber hecho una de las famosas discusiones en el coche. Bueno, si hago mas de este AU intentare incluir eso.

-La victima del caso iba a estar relacionada con Jason. Pero no puse a Jupiter/la madre de Jason porque me parecía un insulto al personaje de John McGarret. Iba a poner a Thalia pero no quería matarla. Al final quedo como victima desconocida. 

-Hazel seria Grace, solo que en vez de ser la hija de Nico continua siendo su hermana y se mudo a Hawai para “un cambio de aires.” 

-La moneda era referencia a la moneda que usa Jason en el canon para invocar su espada y era una referencia a la caja de herramientas de “Campeon” de Hawaii 5.0, hasta que se convirtió en lo que significa ahora. Bueno, quizá tiene un poco de relación con Jason, no lo he pensado lo suficiente.

[happyk44]

Lol Piper's HPD manifesting in regards to training with Annabeth, intentionally fucking up a move so their lesson will go on for longer and Annabeth will pay more attention to her to show her how to do it correctly, vs Percy's BPD pinging rapidly because "oh my gods Annabeth is going to leave me for Piper, I must attach to her side like a barnacle so she can't, also I hate Piper and nothing in the world will make me stop hating her ever"

Annabeth meanwhile is just "huh, I didn't realize how needy Piper and Percy were"

[happyk44]

I really like Piper and Leo being very intense besties and I think the HPD!Piper concept really helps with it because, despite his extroverted presentation, Leo is not the most social (or likable) person. Piper is very much his only friend before Jason and even then his inferiority complex plays a big part in his storyline (which. Wrapped up so poorly. Like no falling in love with a goddess was not how that should've been finalized but whatever). So the only person he can really provide attention to is Piper, which is great for her because between parental neglect, charmspeak, and HPD she gets away with doing a lot of stupid (and illegal) shit that she doesn't want to actually do. She has some awareness of the wrongness, but she needs the attention from people so she does it anyway, subconsciously using charmspeak to get her way.

But because Leo has no one else but her to prioritize, she can get an attention supply from him without stealing (or subsequent escalated behaviour when stealing stops producing as useful results). Couple that with Leo's desperation to be needed and wanted, as well as his need for approval from women, and boom. You've got two weirdly dependent friends, but friends nonetheless. Leo gets someone who actively needs him and Piper gets someone who will pay attention to her when she needs it.

Obviously there's issues - Leo's low self-esteem and hyperfocus on engineering and crafting doesn't deal well with Piper's pathological need to be the focus. He forgets people exist when he's busy with an invention, and because he's not as inherently social as he presents himself to be in public, he prefers to do his own thing in solitude.

On Piper's end, there's her willingness to push him to side in favour of people who are more presentable and will generate attention from association. For example, Jason vs Leo. Jason is attractive, powerful, strong - he's a high ranking individual just from looks alone. Comparatively, Leo is low status. No one is really clamouring to be his best friend, no one really pays him much mind unless he's acting out or being annoying. Being Jason's girlfriend provides Piper with more attention than being Leo's best friend does.

Nonetheless it's easier for Piper to get attention from Leo because he needs her, and easier for Leo to get the approval he craves from Piper because she needs him. It might not be healthy but it's what they have, and they're doing the best with it.

[happyk44]

Piper, kicking open the door to the workshop: I need attention right now or I'll fucking die.

Leo, pausing in his tinkering: Okay, how do you want it?

Piper:

Piper: I don't know.

[happyk44]

thinking about leo asking piper why she can't ever just be happy for him, why can't she just let him have his moment when he tells her something positive that he was reluctant to tell her in the first place because he knew she would say "that's great" then immediately turn the conversation to her because she can't ever let him have the spotlight for a minute and she denies denies denies because she is happy for him and she cares about him so much but her denial is so shallow and he can hear it, he's spent so much time hearing it, and he's mad and she's mad and it's so great i wish i could write it lol

[happyk44]

In terms of healing and recovery, I talked to someone abt this before I think Piper would not seek help for HPD. Like I just don't see it happening. One of the things with PDs is that ppl don't see their behaviour as a problem or as the crux of any problems they may experience because of it and I think with that in mind Piper wouldn't seek out help for desperate need to be the center of attention, even at the expense of other ppl.

And thinking about that I was wondering about Annabeth and her NPD and I think while she might seek help for certain things, she'd get frustrated with any physician that makes her feel like something she talks abt is her fault. If she brings up a situation and they seem like they're implicating that she was in the wrong, she gets angry and more set in her ways. Even if she senses that her way of thinking may be a problem, she's too stubborn to accept it and she will rewrite that thought into a sense of "no, other ppl are the problem, I'm fine".

Meanwhile I've always been of the thought that Percy would accept help for his BPD. I feel like traditional talk therapy is not helpful for him because he's too emotionally repressed to talk about himself that way to a stranger but that he would talk informally with specific people (usually Carter or Grover, probably Nico as well and Jaz in the Nome AU; Annabeth is too much of a problem solver, "just do this and you'll be fine" kind of person to really help him out so he doesn't like voicing his problems to her because she won't listen, she'll just jump to "I can fix this for you" and it never works).

So yeah, Percy wouldn't go to a therapist but he'd be okay talking out certain things with people. I feel like Nico might be able to convince him to speak with Pasithea (who I HC to be Nico's therapist) a couple times, and in the Nome AU Jaz might be able to get him to speak with the doctors at the first Nome, but in either case it's never very regular because he can't stand talking about his feelings and his traumas. He does do his best to correct his behaviour and learn healthy coping mechanisms because he doesn't want to hurt anyone, but it is a slow process.

Similarly with Clarisse and the ASPD headcanon, I feel like she also has a desire not to hurt ppl, although it's more so limited to the ppl she cares about (Chris, her siblings, any other close friends), so she does seek help for her anger issues (because they make her get physical and she doesn't like that about herself) and her disinterest in other people's feelings (because when she's really stressed out the people she loves are also affected by this). Which is how she is like. The only one of the four to have an actual diagnosis lol.

But she does actively seek regular help from professionals and when she gets frustrated with it, she thinks about Silena dying because she didn't care about how the war would affect the others, she was just pissed off with the Apollo cabin, so fuck everyone else, and she actively chooses to be better every day and gets up and does the work she has to do. She'll never be cured of her ASPD, or her anger issues, but she can do her best to make sure the people she loves are not harmed it.

The reality is that not everyone seeks help for their issues, diagnosed or not, and I think it's realistic to look at certain characters and think "would they reach out for help? would they realize there's something wrong? would they accept it if someone suggested that something was wrong?" and concluding that the answer is "no, they would not". Healing is messy like that.

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Piper, dealing with an HPD collapse: Look, I know you're not doing well but I am seriously crashing right now.

Leo, on the floor, suffering because his siblings locked him out of the forge, hid his tools from him and also his depression: Pipes, I love you but I do not have the mental or physical energy to help you right now.

Piper: Do you think you'd feel better if I flashed you my tits?

Leo: Piper, I am a gay man. Girl titties do nothing for me.

Piper: ...

Leo, rolling over: Yeah, actually, let's give it a shot.

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hpd being suggested to piper. she immediately refuses it because she is not an attention seeker and she proves this by going to all of her friends, one by one, to complain about the suggestion over and over again

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I do like the idea of Piper finding out she has HPD so at times she'll text Leo "pay attention to me" and he'll be like "yeah okay" without hesitation. Or they're hanging out while he's fiddling with something and she starts getting antsy in a way that he recognizes so he just starts dropping compliments like "you're so beautiful, you are my best friend, you are so amazing, you're the most special princess in the world" in a neutral tone and eventually escalating into ridiculous compliments like "you have the best teeth for whistling" and his ADHD makes him fairly good at multitasking in this way so he's able to keep fiddling while giving her the attention she needs and it works for both of them because her going to him for attention soothes his inferiority complex ("she needs me!") and he's hyperverbal, so endless babbling at her, even if it's stuff not directly about her, gives her some flutters because talking to her is still giving her attention, ya know.

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Thinking abt HPD!Piper again. How she sought out negative attention because positive attention was so far out of reach. Desperately wanting, needing focus. She meets Leo and it's easier with him. He's too loud, too energetic, too annoying - so she's his world. No one else will tolerate him.

But he doesn't care, he's not obsessed with her, he doesn't need her to hover around him like a persistent mosquito. Her presence isn't a requirement for his survival and it's frustrating. He lathes her with positive attention, the kind that shoots quick through her veins like heroin. Makes her warm and tingly.

Then as quick as it's given it's gone as his focus deviates to whatever stupid thing he's messing around with.

It's mean to think this way, she knows it is. But no one else would tolerate him the way she does. He should be grateful, should be centering his life around her. She should be the sun to his ever-moving earth.

Fake memories fill her with glee. Then pain. Jason isn't the way she remembers him. He isn't as touchy as he was before, he doesn't focus on her like she's the only thing that matters like he did. He's uncomfortable, withdrawn. He looks at her less like she's the world and more like she's a puzzle he's thinking about packing up and putting away.

She flounders, she fails, she feigns distress. He comes running, holds her close, and then gently puts her aside and carries on. It's not fair. Before she was everything. Now she's nothing.

(again again again always nothing always set side pay attention to me pay attention to me why won't anyone pay attention to me)

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Ok!! So I believe it was already established or implied that Piper was covertly and subtly using her charmspeak on Jason whenever she felt someone else might catch his attention away from her, but either way it's something I believe when I write their relationship. Jason is essentially under a fugue, which also impacted his ability to retrieve his lost memories. It's subconscious and not fully intentional on Piper's behalf - but it does occur, and basically it just got my me thinking about histrionic Piper 👀

She doesn't present in the stereotypical way that you would expect of someone with HPD - she's not overtly flirtatious - but there's a part of her that needs to be the focus and gets frustrated when she's not. Because of her mom, she had the predisposition to develop it. It first stems from her dad's neglect of her and her acting out to gain his attention, subsequently building and building until her need to be the focus occurs outside of her dad.

Like even in TLH when she's speaking to her experience of her charmspeak before she was aware of it, she speaks to "it's not my fault people just give me things" but the one I remember most is her mentioning a salesperson giving her a car for free and like even a 15 yr old should be able to understand how suspicious that is and not accept, but for her, in the moment, it's just "okay, why not" because someone is treating her like she's special, even though she knows, or should know, better, esp considering the trouble she's gotten into before!

There's also aspects to Piper that allows her to be the center of attention with some immediacy - she's rich, her dad is famous, she's Native. When she feels threatened by Drew, she immediately draws the "my dad is famous" card and gets annoyed when they don't believe her. She canonly gets jealous when Jason shows anyone else a passing interest, regardless of if it's romantic or not. She has the "I'm not like other girls" attitude which makes her "different" and such.

So she never really had to draw attention to herself by dressing provocatively and so on because it was already on her. Also her emotions never felt very intense to me when I read her point of view, and I know shallow and shifting emotions is a symptom? I have to review the full criteria later, but yeah.

Thoughts? I think it's an interesting take - like my mute!Piper AU. I'd be happy to hear from anyone who has HPD!

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piper knocking things off leo's worktable when she wants attention and he's just like "what, are you a fucking cat?"

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HPD!Piper and AVPD!Leo is funny to consider because it's like "one of us has desperately requires attention or they'll start to freak the fuck out disorder and no, it's not the boy that nobody likes because he's so loud and annoying, he's actually got terrified of rejection to a painfully pathological degree disorder"