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How to Be in the Flow of Life: 8 Practices for a More Peaceful Life
You’ve probably heard the term “go with the flow” at one point or another, but what exactly does that mean?
Going with the flow, or being in the flow of life can mean many different things. Many people know this phrase to be the equivalent of ‘chill out’ or ‘relax’, but there’s a much deeper meaning behind these words. Going with the flow is about creating a space within yourself where you are still, peaceful and in a state of allowing, so that when challenges and difficulties arise, you are able to overcome them with more ease.
Being in the flow of life is all about releasing resistance to life. It’s easy to hold on to resistance, especially when we’re dealing with less than desirable situations or people who irritate us, but once you are able to create a space of ease within yourself, suddenly life itself becomes easier. Not because the situations have changed, but because you have changed.
So how do you step into the flow of life? It begins with your mindset.
1. Change your Perspective on Life
Your mind is one of the most powerful tools you have at your disposal, but more often than not, many people don’t fully utilize this tool, or in many occasions, use it against themselves, rather than in their favor. Let’s think of the mind as a tool, because that’s really what it is. It’s a tool to help you to build the best life you possibly can. You get to decide what to do with it. Are you going to build something wonderful? Or are you going to tear something down?
Many people have been taught from a young age to struggle, resist and fight against circumstances, people or life in general. Sometimes this fight is warranted; for example, if you’re being hurt, suppressed or overlooked, it’s natural to want to stand up for yourself, but when we become accustomed to fighting for the sake of fighting, our lives can more often than not, feel like an uphill battle.
It’s true that you can’t always control the circumstances of your life, but you can control how you react and approach them. You can change your perspective whenever you want. It might not sound like much, but the practice of viewing your circumstances through a different perspective can quite literally shift your entire life.
“When you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change.” ― Max Planck
For example, there might be a situation in your life which you view as ‘negative’ by why exactly have you categorized it that way? With every, ‘negative’ situation, there are always opportunities for growth and doorways for positivity. That’s why two people can go through the same exact experience and come out of it with two completely different outlooks. If it’s a difficult situation, one might be negative and depressed while another might look at it positively and be grateful for their ability to overcome challenging experiences. It’s all about perspective.
2. Be Mindful
Mindfulness is a powerful tool to have in any situation. If you’re experiencing a positive situation, mindfulness allows you to fully embrace that moment. If you’re going through a more difficult situation, mindfulness allows you to be present in the current moment and prevents your mind from running rampant and bombarding you with negativity and the ‘everything that can go wrong, probably will’ mentality.
When it comes to being in the flow of life, mindfulness helps us to let go of resistance and notice where we are in the now. It’s common to be lost in the future or in the past and rarely are we ever in the now, but we can’t change the past and we can’t control the future, so mindfulness allows us to step firmly in the present moment and feel each moment as it passes.
Once you embrace the present moment, you begin to release worries, fears and doubts and begin to step into the flow of life.
3. Be Flexible
Being in the flow of life is all about flexibility. There’s nothing wrong with planning or having a set schedule, but allowing yourself to be flexible allows for opportunities and surprises to arise in your life.
If you’re too strict with your schedule, you might find yourself resisting the ever-flowing change of life. By allowing yourself to be flexible, you allow yourself to step into the flow and see where life takes you.
This allows you to be more at ease and take on life with a more lighthearted approach.
4. Let go of Perfection
It’s easy to get caught up in the idea of ‘perfection’ but that’s really all it is, an idea. Perfection looks different for everyone, and this means that what you view as perfect may not be what someone else views as perfect, so when we’re chasing the concept of perfection all we’re really chasing is a made-up concept which we can never achieve. This is not meant to bring you down, in fact, it’s meant to free you.
The idea of perfection can keep us trapped in a box, keeping us from breaking out and experiencing life to the fullest. It can sometimes make us feel unworthy or cause us to feel frustrated or insecure. When you are able to let go of perfection, you free yourself up to experiencing life a little differently. Suddenly, not everything is so serious, and you may find that you feel a lot freer than you did before.
5. Practice Self-love and Compassion
The practice of loving yourself can be a difficult road. Somewhere along the journey of our lives, we’ve all experienced dissatisfaction with ourselves or have, at one point or another, put ourselves down. We are born loving ourselves but somewhere along the way we lose that, and we learn to be dissatisfied with who we are. When you take some time for yourself and rekindle a sense of self-love and compassion, you free yourself from these negative and constricting thoughts and emotions.
Self-love and compassion allow you to feel comfortable and at home within yourself. This helps to release insecurity and low self-esteem which can cause stress and negative feelings. Loving yourself opens your heart to life and invites in more beauty and ease.
6. Nurture Your Inner Child
Joy is one of the best ways to step into the flow of life. When you are joyful, life becomes easier, even if your outward situations haven’t changed. When you are able to approach life with a joyful, childish perspective, things become brighter and more fun.
When we were children, life was usually an adventure filled with joy and fun and exploration for most of us. Although growing up has given us new responsibilities and must-do-tasks, this doesn’t mean we can’t go within ourselves and nurture our inner child.
This means finding something that brings you joy, whether it’s a certain hobby or just riding your bike or sitting outside. However, if that part of your life was not all that great, then nurturing your inner child means doing something that would bring comfort to that inner child. Remember what it’s like to feel like a kid again, free to imagine and view life as it’s meant to be viewed, as a gift with endless possibilities.
7. Be Grateful for What You Have
Gratitude is a powerful tool which can help improve your life in many ways. When you are grateful for life, you release resistance towards it and find yourself in a state of ease. Being grateful not only invites in more feel-good thoughts, but also changes your perspective on the world around you.
Being in the flow of life means being at ease within yourself and finding gratitude for everything you experience. The wonderful thing about gratitude is that no matter what situation or difficult thing you are going through, there is always something to be grateful for, like the food on your table, the roof over your head, or even the fact that you’re still alive. Sometimes the simplest things are the ones we should be the most grateful for.
Gratitude keeps you grounded, opens your heart, and allows you to receive more love and joy from life while still going after your dreams. You can still want something more and be grateful for what you have now.
8. Let Go of What You Can’t Control
It’s normal to want to have control over our lives. We feel the most comfortable when we know where we are going and that we are in control, but while we can influence certain situations in our lives, we can’t always control them.
Letting go of control can be a difficult task for anyone. We wish to hold onto our sense of control, but, no matter how hard we try, we can’t control every single situation which comes into our life, and you may find that the more you try, the more your control slips.
Releasing control can feel strange at first. Being out of control makes us feel apprehensive and uncomfortable because we don’t know what is going to happen; but releasing this need for control is an important aspect when it comes to stepping into the flow of life. Once you get through the initial discomfort, you’ll find yourself more relaxed and at ease with yourself and the world around you.
This space of ease helps you to see things and opportunities you may not have seen before. In fact, you might notice that life brings you something better than you ever could have imagined, all because you allowed yourself to loosen your grip on control.
When you let go of the need to control everything, you allow yourself to be in a place where you are alright with what life brings you, knowing that whatever it is, you’ll have the ability to overcome it.
Just Follow Your Breath
If you ever find yourself feeling tense, frustrated or completely disconnected with life, there’s only one thing you need to remember: follow your breath. Allow yourself to listen, to feel as your lungs expand and contract. By listening to your breath, you automatically come into a place of stillness where you have the opportunity to release what is causing you to feel heavy and distraught.
Your breath mimics the rising waves of an ocean. It flows in and out and has the ability to cleanse you from all that is no longer serving you. The next time you feel yourself struggling against life, take a few moments to connect with your breath. When you connect to your breath, you connect to the flow of life.
#Life#how to be in the flow of life#flow of life#easy#relaxation#rest#peace#mindfulness#breath#follow your breath#gratitude#joy#self love#compassion#flexible#how to be flexible#release control#let go#how to let go
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#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#yuji itadori#megumi fushiguro#itafushi#fushiita#fanart#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen fanart#megumi#yuuji#im shaky and numb the way this took years off my life#genuinely cannot believe i thought it was smart to make it a comic i could have stuck at a painting and it would have been fine#but nooooooo in my hubris i thought Surely im an expert at this longform stuff now Surely i can do it :)#and then it killed me it killed me dead this is like over twice as long as the train comic and 4 times as detailed#backgrounds . angles. i yearn fr death.#AND I HAD 2 WRITE THEM ACTUALLY TALKING GGSDH i am actually so insecure abt the way the dialogue flows gomen....#i wanted to add more to it to fix how clipped and rushed i think it reads#but that would mean drawing more expressions would mean drawing more panels would mean more gd hyDRANGEAS#so ultimately i decided 2 have the conversation take the hit because let me tell u.#if i have to draw. one more blue petal i will snap i will lose it#i knew tht would happen n wanted to alleviate some of the pain so i found a few brushes that helped speed up the process#but the thing w a lot of premade flower brushes is they also come preshaded n look uniform in a way that stands out badly against my style#so i had 2 render over them anyway........#yuuji's domain rly putting me through the wringer first the train station now death by a bajillion petals smh#all that to say tho . my labour of love . i am going to take a nap#hina.comic
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Do not stir this pot we call the past, by looking into the rearview mirror, trying to find all those moments, of what could have beens, should have beens, lest you forget, what is there, for you, now.
- DG
#spilled words#spilled ink#spilled poetry#poets on tumblr#writers#dgwrites#dgwords#writers on tumblr#writerscreed#poetryportal#poeticstories#brokensoulsreborn#nosebleedclub#bitsofstarglow#smittenbypoetry#twcpoetry#poetselixir#inspireamuse#life#past#wrote this in like 5-10 mins and made myself go wow#really liked how this one turned out#the flow and how it looks too#choti khushiyan
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Sorry I never gave a proper update on tumblr——
here’s some brainstorming doodles from Keo and me on the white board and some examples Keo made in my notebook. I won’t forget it, one of my harshest note was “NEVER draw Kenny in 3/4!! Trey hates that!” 🤣 The story leads stressed that Trey is very particular with acting decisions and poses, most of which don’t translate into the animation. It’s for him at the editing stage, to “make his voice sing”. Getting into Trey’s head, funnily enough, requires FEELING. Feeling what he’s going for in terms of delivery, to learn what not to take literally in his script (when trey says “kathleen kennedy is like terminator” it’s not what you initially think it means), what emotion or gesture to put in to elevate a joke, to get the message through. It’s so fascinating!
In short, I didn’t make the cut. I was “too fresh”, and needed more experience with the technical aspect of storyboarding…. but I was complimented by Keo for my intuition, something that can’t be taught. I was over the moon when I was told I got the style of the show, whereas other trainees with 10+ experience couldn’t. Some of them tested but don’t even watch the show!! That’s crazy, but I guess that’s to be expected. My knowledge of the show and deep love for the characters got me this far, but I need to work on my actual story boarding skills (keo said my struggles are in composition and scaling) to stay!! 💪🏼 I’m taking this… as a not yet, not a no. I’m already on their radar, in their database, I’m incredibly lucky I got to make my THIRD connection in the studio, I just need to work on myself until I can arrive. I’m so grateful for all the support from friends family and industry moots to get me this far, it’s only the beginning of the year but I don’t think anything could top what happened to me this March!!!!!
#south park#kyman#i’m tagging kyman bc the damn ship got me this far too credit where credit is DUE 🤣🤣🤣🤣#behind the scenes#it’s so funny actually I drew in a lil kyman moment in my boards at the studio (not as like a haha i’m a sneak this in. more like. it just.#flows outta me lol)#and when i received notes on that panel the leads didn’t say anything abt my kyman…. they zeroed in and kinda argued w/ each other if i#should have drawn more details for the lockers or not 🤣🤣🤣#Keo came clutch so I followed his advice in not drawing the details but greg insists abt drawing them in#and then they went into ‘well trey doesn’t say anything when I do/don’t draw them in’ and i kinda stood there like 🧍🏻♀️#I thought the whole thing was hilarious in the end#maybe I should draw that moment jgkgfjfh#talk tag#I feel like I scammed everyone like…. I’ve never professionally boarded in my life. How the hell did i get this far.
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nicktoonsunite manny physically FIGHTING the Rivera Urge to be the Most Gratuitously Romantic Partner in Any Situation
#tigerghost#designs and like. sauce. credited to tumblr user nicktoonsunite as always#im sure the miracle city light pollution is probably grody even sitting on the roof...#got to get up onto the volcano and do some stargazing#(ROMANTIC STARGAZING?!??!??!!???!?)#and try to dodge the lava flows...#just miracle city tingz..#manny: HES AFRAID OF COMMITMENT#rofoldo rivera in his head: YO SUPUESTO BUT HOW CAN YOU BE SURE THAT HE KNOWS THAT HE IS THE LIGHT OF YOUR LIFE MIJO?! IF YOU DONT TELL HIM#USING THE CHEESIEST PICKUP LINES YOU CAN REMEMBER
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so i started playing persona 4
where are the QoL features
#persona#art tag#ACK I FORGOR TO COLOUR THE BITS BEHIND HAIR nvm#i have no idea how to tag this!!#i fear what original p3 might have been like#i feel like a fake gamer man#like how did you guys do that#i feel like i would have given up if it was the first one i played#i am too stupid!!#im glad i have played through 5 and 3re#i am somewhat used to the flow of the game and the ability names#otherwise i would be STRUGGLING for my LIFE i tell you#like to be fair i dont think it's a huge world#BUT LIKE PLEASE IM LOST IN MY OWN HOUSE#also these protags are basically my OCs at this point#i borrow their canon personalities#and reshape them into something i like more hehehehe#edit: im crying im getting lowkey flamed on tweeter dot com#i just meant it as in joker spent a lot of time in tokyo!! one year changes a man!!#I KNOW inaba is small!! but QoL additions are always good!!#i get the appeal!! that you use your brain!!#you spend enough time to know the place!! but it's called QoL features not NECESSARY features!!#im cryin the boys ate just bantering#you can even read it as yu being like LOL you're a city boy now huh?? hahaha#now i really am fighting for my life and mental
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OC doodle with the 141 - tw: alcohol, small mention of death
Honest Feelings
#had some thoughts#the one with Gaz is basically bcuz Gaz was the first to know who Raven is- or basically his Captain seeing someone#despite how she was supposed to kill Price - Gaz didn't question Price's decision to rescue her from a fatal injury#Gaz has treated her with nothing but respect bcuz if Price cares then he'll care too#uhmm the one with Soap is basically after mw3 thingy I guess#Raven has seen how much Price changed after that incident#has seen the man crumbled while holding Soap's dog tag#another responsibilities that's all too heavy on Price's shoulder#uh for Ghost its just basically mutual disdain due to difference in careers#they both know something the others doesnt and they intend to keep it that way#it's the discomfort of realising someone out there who's seen the same terror as you and taking different approaches in life#this discomfort and disagreement is what ticked both Ghost and Raven off- that's why they're always bickering#in a way they see a bit of themselves in each other and it is quite unnerving to them#but really they're not too far off - and they /know/ - but that is something the both of them are not ready to admit yet#two people bleeding from different knives who refused to acknowledge that blood flowing out are the same angry burning red - or something#idk im not making sense UHM ANYWAYS#i yapped too much UHHH silly doodles will resume after this i promise XD#anyways#gummmyart#doodle#think i'll hit the tags limit here so just gonna put a few#PriceRaven#[oc] Raven
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Okay I can't not talk about this anymore– I've got a headcanon/canon-compliant au/interpretation of the Life Series events (as I'm sure many of us do) and the most recent season is working so well I just have to talk about it somewhere
sticking it under a cut, bc I just know im gonna go off and make a long post :P
(I haven't been in this fandom very long, so this is probably not very original, but I don't care! I'm having fun! anyway–)
The Life Series is a time loop. And Grian is the one who's keeping it going.
It was just meant to be a fun game, but then the Watchers found him. They warped Grian's game into their own twisted tournament, with the intent to take the winner as their champion.
They're about to take Grian again, when he reaches out with the power he'd kept locked away, and he resets the world.
Every time the bloodshed stops and the Watchers are about to reap their champion, Grian wrenches them back into the void and forces a world reset.
Except... with every reset, the world cracks a bit more. First, it was the boogey man. Is it the Watchers trying to push their influence on the players? Or is it something else? Grian isn't sure.
It goes until Secret Life. And then Grian is absolutely sure, because the world has shifted enough for the Watchers to slip their claws into it. They've gotten impatient. They want their champion. Grian tries, but there is only so much he can do with the weight of the tasks on his back. His own power is beginning to slip through too– he even manages to bring Jimmy back for a time, even if it's only a ghostly projection.
And then it's over. Grian is dead, drifting in the void.
(I have a scene in my head where he speaks with Mumbo while waiting for the end of the session. he basically tells Mumbo that he's been doing this and he doesn't know how to stop it, because he has to save them all)
And then Scar wins. And it nearly breaks him. Grian hovers over him, prepared to grab him and reset the world, when the Watchers yank Grian back into the void. It's a harsh, eldritch conflict in the void, and it's all Grian can do to hold onto his sanity, and throw his friends into the next loop.
But in it all, he momentarily forgets Scar. Still in the previous loop. He goes back to get him, but it's been an entire year for Scar. He's weary, and barely registers that Grian is real.
This new loop is the most broken yet. But Grian is still holding it all together as best he can. If it weren't for him, every weird aspect of this world would descend on his friends all at once and they would instantly die and Grian would lose track and then he would lose them–
So he holds things back, trying to keep things straight and monitor how his friends are doing. But he's starting to slip.
Mumbo knows what he's doing, and it doesn't sit right with him.
Scar is a victor. And his lonely year has given him plenty of time to regain lost memories.
Ren doesn't quite understand everything, but he knows Grian knows way more than he should.
Grian's not going to be able to hold it all together for much longer.
#grian#life series#life series smp#traffic series#traffic smp#trafficblr#how may tags are in this fandom#life series au#third life#wild life#wild life smp#third life smp#secret life#limited life#last life#double life#“life” doesn't feel like a word anymore#secret life smp#limited life smp#last life smp#double life smp#watcher grian#idk#I don't want to tag everyone I mentioned#so I won't#ive tagged enough I think#this is extremely surface level btw#but adding more details would have disrupted the flow#I feel sick looking at all those tags
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THE MUSKETEERS 10TH ANNIVERSARY REWATCH / fave episodes [4/?] ↳ SEASON 1, EPISODE 10 / musketeers don't die easily
#themusketeersedit#the musketeers#perioddrama#perioddramasource#the musketeers bbc#athos#aramis#d'artagnan#porthos#constance bonacieux#milady de winter#tmrewatch*#edits#another life changing event if you ask me#it had it all#mystery. angst. brotherhood. tenderness. pathos. homosexually charged scenes. toxic yuri.#truly made for me especially#i'm having so much fun with these#there's no expectations on how these gifsets must look so i just follow the flow#and it always ends up being somewhat liberating + i actually like the results?#hopefully it's not just a passing feeling <3
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Ed Teach being clingy and Stede Bonnet happily and reassuringly indulging is something that can be so personal
#Gentlebeard#everytime yall write or draw ed being a clingy wife and stede lovingly responding#10 hp is added to my life bar#ofmd#our flag means death#think about how good it must feel to stede also#heres someone who loves and needs and wants to touch and hold him#after an entire life spent feeling unwanted and ignored and shoved aside#sigh#everything they want and need from each other#just flows so naturally between them
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I’ll be honest i HATE the way the QSMP fanbase is treating Gegg and Tallulah. Like Gegg literally just appears, bro hasn’t done a single thing and people start talking about how they want him to die 😭 ?? And Tallulah starts feeling insecure trough no fault of Gegg and the Gegg tag just EXPLODES with hate. I’m a big petty baby and i don’t like seeing /neg in the tags bro. It just kinda feels like tallulahs the golden child who can do no wrong and Geggs the scapegoat who’s blamed for everything, and i feel like people are already taking it too far
#Gegg#QSMP#worm do rant#I can't belive im ranting about minecraft egg roleplay#To be honest i really relate to the whole seeking love an affection thing#so the first gegg stream was kind of like emotionally comforting almost#and then this gegg stream was fucking awful ngl#like its super funny#but seeing how people reacted to gegg made me upset#Also? geniunely starting to not like Tallulah#just by assosiation#don't like seeing her treated as the golden child at geggs expense#this might all sound rlly stupid but im off my meds and i need to be emotionally invested in something that has no consaquence over my life#because if i focus on my actual problems im gonna kay em ess#HE DID FLOW UP TILINS ROOM THATS FUCKED UP#but aside from that? bros innocent#i support geggs rights and geggs wrongs
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you made a post explaining him becoming a watcher.. can we hear about him running away, the relapse, etc, pretty pretty please? :>
with a cherry on top? lol!
hmmm !! It might not be as long as the other post, but...
The body horror of changing into an angel isn't the sole reason Grian wanted to leave the Watchers, there was a brief moment in time where he wondered if it'd be worth it, but wings are the first to grow, the rest take much longer as they're not as needed as wings are. Despite how much it hurt, he's pretty proud of his wings, and he enjoys flying.
He sticks around long enough to learn how to fly, he gets rly good at it, flinging himself down the halls followed by a strong breeze, flying up high in the air outside and then dropping, he gets confident in this. (hes like rainbow dash to me-)
Along with that, he studies Watcher magic, he learns Portal magic, which is being able to open portals without the help of obsidian or rituals. This can also be used in fights, see: opening a portal where a person's head is, or a tiny strip shooting from his fingers like bullets, (like lasers, but those bits of flesh end up somewhere.) but the part he focuses most on is opening portals to other servers. He's always supervised, they always visit servers with him--but usually close it without going through anyway. The Watchers are more precise with it, knowing exactly where they want to go, Grian only opens random ones.
Other reasons he wants to leave is, being treated like a child, the lack of control, the lack of autonomy. They control his sleep, his food, where he goes, what he does, even what he says. Along with studying and training, hes exhausted, the resentment builds over time, any nice moment is buried by bad ones. He trains with Flora, another Watcher, whose idea of training is to just release mobs after him, creatures he's never seen before, he's unsure if they shoot fire, poison, or explode. Being pinned against the ground by a creature with its teeth bared around his sword is a sight he doesn't forget. If Flora feels like he rly can't do it, she'll kill the creature herself. Grian doesn't forget how the blood and gore feels dumped on his face and body, nor the disappointed look on her face.
This all, along with knowing his friends have left him--and they're not going to save him, has him plotting, desperate to think of how to get out of the void. He can't just run away while on a Watcher job on a random server, they will find him.
He doesn't pick a date--theres no sun anyway, he doesn't know what days or weeks are anymore. Its one particular breakdown that makes him act, he has no full plan, but what he does have is explosives he's been collecting from servers over time and stashing under his bed. He doesn't pack anything, all he does is set the explosives off and runs. I haven't thought abt this particular part fully, it happens so quickly for him, if he makes eye contact with his mum on his way out, he doesn't hesitate to take to the skies, before he can lose his nerve.
Shooting out into the void, he doesn't have a plan, but he keeps flying as fast as he can before regret can catch up with him. He opens portals in front of himself and dives through as they shatter behind him, he doesn't know where hes going. He pops out in random parts of the void, different islands he doesn't recognize, he comes across servers torn apart by war or genuinely not safe enough to land, so he keeps going.
Grian doesn't know how long he's been flying, his sense of time is completely fried, but hes tired, he's never flown for so long before. He hops through another portal into another world, dark and quiet, but lights shining from large buildings scattered about, there must be a lot of players here so he thinks he should leave quickly, but before he can do that, his foot snags a tree top and throws him off balance, his attempt to catch himself only propels himself forward, crashing through branches and sliding across the dirt below. He doesn't know if it was the trees or the ground, but his left wing snaps, he doesn't know if he screamed or not, but he lays in the dirt writhing for awhile, muscles aching and emotions finally grasping at him, pulling him apart.
But ! Still not time to think abt all that rn, bc Xisuma finds him. Grian's first thought isn't that this is a player, all he can see under that helmet is eyes, and his first thought is Watchers--they found him immediately--and he screams this time, flipping over and putting his hands in front of himself for any fighting, he can't hear whatever Xisuma's saying over his own shouting, angrily stating he won't go back. He calms down after a moment when he sees Xisuma has stepped back, hands up to show he's friendly. Grian doesn't care though, hes sliding backwards on his hands, his wings twitch and he winces in pain. I think it takes a little bit of persuading, but after Xisuma explains himself, that hes an admin and this is his server and people, Grian calms down a bit, the exhaustion helps with this too. He ends up accepting Xisuma's help in bracing his wing. Taking him back to his base to do so, Grian would've ran again if he could've. They both agree that Grian will leave as soon as he can, but he is safe here to wait until then.
Back at his base, Xisuma makes them both tea and sits in front of Grian, telling him he has to explain himself. Grian doesn't touch his tea, and after a long pause, he gives the shortest story with the least amount of details possible. Xisuma knows what Watchers are already, so he does feel some sympathy for him.. He would feel concern abt the Watchers finding his server, but hes confident enough in his code. Grian stays that night, he hides under a bed and cries, still never drinking the tea, but he falls asleep.
UH fast forward fast forward Grian is invited to the server, and he does join as s6 starts, his wing still in bandages but doing much better now. He still hasn't met any players or heard much abt them. He's shocked to see Pearl, but also very happy--his sister !! his sister ?!?!?! She looks happy too, so he rushes forward and they hug, shes gotten so tall. He promises to tell her what happened later, but he still leaves out a lot of details.
This is getting long again fast forward fast forward again
The relapsing happens throughout s6, Grian overworks himself, insecure and nervous in his building ability--it almost feels like Evo again, wishing he could do better, scared to disappoint Xisuma and be kicked out for not being worth the trouble.
Grian's gotten rly close with his neighbour Mumbo, he'll take a break for Mumbo, to hang out with him. Grian has a problem with hoarding food, he never had control over it with the Watchers, so now on his own, he can't bare to throw anything out, he keeps things despite the smell or mold. Good bits of food sat with the rotten, but he doesn't eat either anyway, he just wants to have it, safe, where he can get to it easily, and he doesn't have to ask anyone. It takes Mumbo awhile to talk him into cleaning that out, its dangerous ! Even during the conversation Grian is slowly closing the cabinet Mumbo is trying to look into it, holding eye contact and desperately trying to convince Mumbo its fine (it is NOT.) Mumbos taken to sharing his lunch with him most days, or bringing snacks he claims he made too much of--or he bought too much by mistake, just to make sure he eats something.
Grian has a hard time living alone, he loses track of time and doesn't eat, or doesn't get the right amount of sleep. He feels lonely in his large build. The Watchers' controlled his entire life, so he doesn't know what to do with it now that its his again. When he thinks about it too long, it starts to ache, that little part of him never went away, the guilt, regret, and remorse, builds every time he doubts himself, he misses his bed !--Back in the void, that bed, this still doesn't feel like home, in some sick twisted way he feels homesick. Mumbo finds him at his base one day with his head buried in his knees crying, but when Grian notices he immediately pretends he was not crying, despite the red puffy eyes and tear stained face, he smiles and asks: whats up !! Hello whats up ! Mumbo laughs in horrified confusion, asking what happened. Grian says Nothing. Mumbo sits next to him and says c'mon mate what is this. Grian sighs and sinks back into himself, face dropping and exposing how tired he is. Grian slowly explains himself--at first leaving out many details--he just says he ran away from home before joining Hermitcraft, but he still misses his family sometimes--even if they hurt him. Mumbo thinks this is much deeper than he thought it'd be, but he encourages Grian to continue, and he does. Grian ends up telling Mumbo everything, absolutely everything, every humiliating detail and embarrassment, every memory good or bad. At some point they start telling family stories to each other, and Grian isn't crying anymore, they're both laughing, sat right next to each other. Its a huge relief. Grian poured his soul out to Mumbo and he held it so carefully.
late s6 and s7 go pretty smoothly--Watcher wise, Grian adjusts to life on his own and within a new community. Grian learns to fly again, he makes his wings his own and dyes them parrot colours.
I can't fit the rest, but he gets possessed by an alternate version of himself in s8, i think the Watchers find him as well bc of this timeline chaos. And the moons falling. Its a lot for him to emotionally deal with !
#ask#ANOTHER LONG RAMBLE POST#i forgor to mention 3rd life. that still happened. but i dont think the other games did. bc i cannot think of how to tie that into this AU#evoau#this isn't a fic this is just me talking but writing occasionally to make it flow better
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yknow there’s so much bad shit out there in the world and so much of it is aimed at people like me and i spend so much of my time trying to understand it and document it and make sense of it but sometimes. sometimes i hear someone singing a duet with their pre-t voice and the harmonies are breathtaking and i just want to open my bedroom window and scream to the cars driving by that I LOVE US I LOVE US GOD I FUCKING LOVE US
#transmasculinity is so beautiful and sacred and irreplaceable and life giving and deeply worth protecting#seeing the joy and expression and care that flows out of and between us is the most important thing in the world to me#the second we lose sight of that i think we’re all fucked#you have to always always love the thing you’re protecting more than you hate the people you’re protecting it from#and i cannot express how much i love us and the ways we live our lives#trans man positivity#transmasc positivity#trans men#transmascs
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you're losing a savior and a saint
#vandermorgan#rdr2#spring cleaning (my follower count)#anyway really fucking obsessed with am picking up on how dvl posits himself as a father figure to angry disenfranchised young men#to manipulate them to his own ends like how dvl swoops in to validate efs anger in lieu of rf to rip off the us army out of greed/revenge#and reflecting on his own relationship with dvl and how thorougly disillusioned he is with dvl and his ideas. how much is his self just#what dvl wanted him to be? so entrenched in his outlaw life and putting the gang and dvls needs before his own that he cant do anything but#hold onto the hope that he can get through to dvl knowing hes just another toy soldier for dvl to break cause he has nothing left#dvl calling ef 'son' but not am in my last son.. dvl withholding fatherly validation from am when he rejects dvls authority. the ebb and#flow of their coerced 'father/son' relationship is a poor mimicry of unconditional love because it was never about making am feel loved#but making sure dvls needs were met because he can only 'love' people who serve him in some fashion.. there is no unconditional love to dvl#thanks for listening to me brick wall#my art
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im completely feral over all your jelsa stories!!!!!! do you ever write established relationship jelsa or have any headcanons about what they would be like together in a serious relationship or marriage????
THANK YOU SO MUCH. 😭😭😭😭😭😭💕💕💕💕🙏 thank you thank you nonny for this super sweet ask and this really lovely question and all of your love and support!! 💕💕💕💕💕
i have... never actually written established!relationship (in any fandom), now that i'm thinking about it? that said, i guess i can come up with a quick list of some headcanons, maybe? 😂 i will have to think about this more, but for now, here's a quick drop:
elsa is an early riser; elsa helps jack create more sustainable sleeping patterns and habit formations 😂
when jack gets Impetuous Urges to Do Something Rash and Impractically Spontaneous, elsa will ground jack, reminding him to think before acting. (he occasionally Still Does It, anyway.) elsa knows what she signed up for, lol.
jack loves to play Harmless(!) Pranks, just to watch elsa’s reaction. (he is no longer allowed to sneak up on her after The Incident).
they also quibble over the definition of "harmless" and the specific logistical implications of that; for a while, jack was banned from further pranking, but then he got more creative at showing elsa that pranks could be wholesome and genuine, in which they could both be in on the joke. however, due to elsa's deeply-rooted Need to Excel and her (Not-so)Secret Competitive AF Streak, her retaliation in escalating the Cleverness Prank War quickly resulted in jack's prompt implementation of the Prank-Free Zones and Time Periods. (no, he was not scared.)
elsa, usually reserved, has learned to let her playful side show more often with jack. she might still pretend to be exasperated by his antics, but sometimes it's part of the game (or habit).
elsa sill struggles with opening up emotionally sometimes, but she progressively feels safe enough to share her innermost thoughts and fears. with time, she confides in him more about her worries. she still never likes the idea that jack sees her Imperfect Parts, but at least she can tolerate the discomfort (and, yes, take comfort in it) now
(jack loves elsa's Imperfect Parts, and jack admits that he is Weirdly Proud and Competitively Honored to be one of the only people, even including anna, who gets to see them. he also is strangely Comforted and Validated that elsa is, in fact, not perfect because for a while there, he was pretty freaked out and intimidated by how fancy she is.)
until he realized that no one ever let her actually be a Weirdo before, and once he realizes the Truth of Elsa Also Being a Secret (albeit perhaps more Subdued) Weirdo, the Universe Aligns.
jack listens to elsa's Big Conversations intently, activating varying levels of Serious Mode.
jack is getting better at recognizing the moments when elsa needs him to play and needs him to listen or Give His Opinion or any combination of those things.
jack learns that it's not always about Saying the Right Thing (which he is not very good at, anyway, or so our Serially Unreliable Narrator thinks), but rather being able to read elsa's mood and anticipate what she might need (even if she is not aware of it herself yet).
elsa is meticulous about planning and preparing for special occasions.
elsa likes traditions! jack likes tradition only because elsa likes them, lol, and hey, okay, these are more fun than he thought?? (who knew fun could be organized??!!?)
so he really wants to show (off to) her by pulling off Incredible Planning Feats in her honor, too (they do not go as smoothly, lol).
jack will often go out of his way to spontaneously create something meaningful, a moment or a gift or a gesture, that reminds elsa that he cares. he is big on words of affirmation, gift giving (but like, souvenirs that he collects on adventures like, "i saw this rock and it reminded me of your cousin olaf, we should put it on the window after we paint his face on it"), and acts of service, as well as physical touch and quality time. HE WANTS LOVE. he wants TO BE LOVED. he wants to prove that he is worthy of being loved.
(and elsa has to get him to Chill Out sometimes, remind him that he doesn't have to Do Things For Her/Anyone in order to be deserving of care; he is more than what he provides for other people.)
(jack gets its, and appreciates it, but also, the Urge to Provide and Protect is still strong, even after so much time, and sometimes Old Habits Die Hard.)
i get the sense that he'd be the type to he wake elsa up in the middle of the night to take her on a surprise adventure, or convince her to Do a Fun Thing without any preparation (/warning).
and she would Be Alarmed at the Lack of Plan (especially if/when jack Did Not Think This Through), but he also took precautions to ward off Concerns by pacifying her with tea, or reassurances that yes, he did call ahead to make sure the restaurant was open before they left the house, of course he did, he would never just leave home without double-checking beforehand (and frantically googles it two minutes later when he thinks she's not looking; she is, naturally, and even occasionally pretends not to be).
elsa approaches conflict with a desire to resolve things Calmly and Logically. she tries to understand jack’s perspective, even when she disagrees, and she’s careful with her words, not wanting to escalate the situation.
however, she can sometimes withdraw emotionally, fearing that she might say something hurtful if she’s too overwhelmed.
jack was initially (and, honestly, still is, even though he understands more now) hurt by her tendency to shut down when she Feels Too Much, and understands (although it's still hard) that elsa needs time to process her feelings and organize her thoughts.
jack also helps elsa actually Feel her Feelings, instead of just trying to intellectualize and analyze them. (she hates it, BUT sees the value. jack lives for these moments in which he realizes that he's actually contributing positively to her life and helping her in some way, rather than just being a burden or a nuisance, as was/is his fear.)
his initial reaction might be to push for a resolution quickly, but he’s also deeply afraid of Creating Distance between them, so after the first few fights, he really makes an effort to find the right balance between Pushing Hard Enough and Not Pushing Too hard, so that he doesn't drive a wedge between them as they work things out.
jack FEELS intensely, and can be so stubborn. he does not always have the most precise vocabulary or tools to describe his thoughts and feelings, or identify the root causes of what is actually going on inside him; sometimes elsa asks a lot of insightful and guiding questions that help jack come to the conclusions himself, and other times, she Puts Into Words the very thing that he had been thinking or feeling, but could not name, and it is very reassuring to have someone who understands him well enough to be able to do that.
after conflicts or arguments, they take time to Decompress and reassure one another (especially if at least one of them, if not both, was Overthinking again).
when they argue (and healthy couples do, remember!), it’s a dance of patience and understanding: elsa might need a moment to Collect Herself, and jack learns to give her that Space while also making it clear that he’s ready to talk whenever she is, and that he is going to try very hard to be Rational and Patient About It.
in the end, they both prioritize their relationship over any disagreement, always finding a way back to each other.
#now that i am really thinking about it#i have not written ANY established!relationship stories (for jelsa or any other ship) actually! why??#that is probably a good question to ask myself. 😂#my first instinct is that it's because i am personally a#Steady Serial Serious Relationship Monogamist#and i already experience so many lovely and wonderful aspects of having a Life Teammate and a trusted partner in Marriage#so i don't typically feel the urge to explore the possibilities of an already-established relationship in fiction...#i feel like my storytelling/fanfiction is based in exploring similar tropes and the base core journeys in different contexts and universes#(e.g. modern mermaid colonial!america regency!england frozen-verse frozen-and-rotg-verses)#because i like playing with how such core ideas can happen so differently (and so similarly) in various worlds with so many different rules#i got into a flow state while writing this and had to stop because i reached the tumblr text post character limit 😅#also you may or may not be surprised to see that many of these characteristics i've listed here in this est.!relationship mindset are#things that they already do in many of my getting-together stories#that's the nature of human relationships for you i guess haha 💕 it's a process! (not a destination)#HERE ARE MY TAKES ANYWAY please enjoy comment reply etc.!#thank you again!!! 💕#therentyoupay anon#therentyoupay ask#jelsa#therentyoupay thoughts on characterization
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actually the more I listen and compare the more I think that a better way to describe the difference between the british masc rook voice and the american one overall is that the british sounds like a very real person who is being genuinely fierce and determined despite the fact that they are scared and understand the gravity of the situation. and the american one sounds like they might really be deeply fucking nuts enough that when the chips are down they are not even really afraid they're busy being a creature of pure 'go go go!!' fjdsklfjsa. when they really hit their stride they become less a person, more some divine instrument being used for the wildest improvised guitar solo you could ever imagine (and desperately trying to keep up with themselves as the rock ballad of inspiration sure is Happening To Them So Much). BIG moist von lipwig vibes, for those in the fandom overlap
#'every time I'm struggling with a problem I throw a molotov at something. bang I've got a different problem': The Guy#the british one is a bit more emotionally grounded but there's such a charm to american rook to me. look at that madman go#they're a chaotic act of the maker in humanoid form. no one could have predicted them THEY aren't predicting them most of the time#dragon age#dragon age: the veilguard#rook#this sense I get that rye really just goes into a wild flow state every time something really big happens#and then comes back to himself afterwards like '...what the actual fuck where did that come from. how did I... WHY did I --#well it seemed to make a lot of sense in the moment and it solved the problem. ...and made five new ones. shit'#and that's the cycle his life has been in from even before the shenanigans that got him sent away from home lol
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