#how quick we forget

[valyrfia]

Considering Max is the original victim of Charles track terrorism I think he’s more than entitled to all the gossip sessions about Charles’ driving that he wants

[babymorte]

people expect you to stay around while they always put you last

[bisexualseraphim]

Also, I refuse to entertain the discourse as to whether acespec people are “oppressed” or not, but I will say it’s really fucking lonely — especially if you fall somewhere on the spectrum that’s a little more unconventional.

I’ve discussed many times before how I feel absolutely no attraction whatsoever except towards my lovely partner. I went through the phases queer men tend to: exploring many types of pornography and cruising on Grindr. I really tried, and none of it has ever done anything for me. It wasn’t until I started having sex with my partner that I realised, ohhh, so that’s how most people feel. And even then, enjoying sex with him is far more of an intimacy thing than the actual physical sensations. I do not fantasise about other people or consume porn. There is only him.

And yet when I’ve spoken about this in acespec spaces, I’m still treated as some sort of weirdo who doesn’t belong. I’ve literally been told many times that I can’t be demisexual because demis will still fantasise and consume porn (although that doesn’t line up with my understanding that demis require a close bond to feel sexual attraction, but never mind), and I’ve even been accused of having some weird internalised Christian puritan shit going on because I genuinely cannot comprehend ever looking at or thinking about someone in that way who isn’t my man. As if anything about this is a choice for me and it is offensive to them somehow. As if only feeling attraction to one person is like… “worse” than never feeling any attraction at all. I’ve never once shamed others for how they experience sex and sexual attraction and never would, yet people act like that’s what I’m inherently doing just by speaking about my own experiences.

So no, I won’t say whether acespec people are “oppressed” or not because honestly, when is this shit ever going to come up in conversation and ever be that relevant? But the fact I don’t feel I can talk about it even amongst other queer people, even amongst others in the acespec community, kind of speaks for itself.

Being a queer man who can’t relate to all the stereotypes and anecdotes about enjoying casual sex is one type of loneliness. Being a queer acespec man who can’t even relate to most others in the acespec community is another. I can never win, and either way I do not fit in.

[hrokkall]

Peace and love in farm arrays

My screenshot that inspired this; it didn't end up being very similar but I liked the idea of these three taking a break together :]

[therosehost]

I lied. Put your clothes back on. I wanna discuss dying and/or dead platonic relationships in the hanahaki au. I'm just really fascinated by the implications of this trope.

Has anyone considered what to do with children who don't feel loved ? With parents who are queerphobic or colorist or misogynistic? What does society do with a daughter whose vision goes dark because she knows her father hates gay people? A son who is suffocating on hydrangea petals because his mother keeps giving him bleaching creams as birthday presents? A non-binary kid who coughs up blood because their favorite brother is a red pill podcaster with millions of followers?

That barbed dread in the pit of their stomach when they look at their admired loved ones and realize, "if they knew i was different, they'd hurt me".

When there's demonstrable proof that you won't be safe or worthy unless you've physically/mentally mutilated yourself to your family's standards, how can you not just die inside? Does it not pain you to be so imperfect?

And the fact that these families mean well! That father doesn't want his daughter to go to hell! That mother doesn't want her son to be punished for his dark skin by this white supremacist society! That favorite brother truly believes adhering to strict gender roles will make the rich capitalists respect the common man!

When the pain you've caused your family is seen as merely an investment in a better future, how does it feel to know the only thing you've ensured for them is an early death?

That's kinda fucked actually.

[seaofreverie]

So I just had the best!!! time!!!!! EVER!!!!!!!!!!! (Sparks London Night 1 report)

Miraculously got that second row spot and oh my god was this ethereal. I was dying so hard (positively) when I got there but then I also died a bit in the other sense from just having to stand there for an hour and a half straight but ofc it was so worth it to wait around both before the show and when we finally got inside. Also when we were nearing that hour and a half I figured this must mean no opener and yeah there was indeed no opener but I'm not sad about that, I don't know how much more standing around and waiting I would have been able to take (standing around during the actual show doesn't count ofc, I could be doing THAT for even 5 hours with no problem).

They really fogged up that stage before the show, so with all the lights on it looked so awesome, the whole sight of the venue behind us and all the fancy decorations.... it was truly beautiful. And then the boys walked on and oh my gosh Russell's flowery suit.... The best thing I've ever seen I was so overjoyed to see that. It was all so unreal, I of course rushed to the left side of the stage hoping for the most optimal Russell viewing from there and yeah, that was definitely some optimal Russell viewing.... Gosh......

Didn't think they'd still stick to So May We Start as an opener but they did and I'm so glad. And then Do Things My Own Way right after, so perfect. Russell's jumps and dances and everything right in front of me were the best thing ever and the way I was seeing it all in real life right in front of me after having seen so many minutes of recordings of that in the past couple of months.... Absolutely completely unreal.

SO MANY surprises on the setlist and most of my predictions were totally wrong, yet still... at least some of them I sort of pedicted. Goofing Off was definitely the biggest one in the sense of, had it written down on my list of biggest setlists bets / this HAS got to come back finally type of picks before I stopped adding to that list because it would have been like 100 songs long if I kept going. So when the strings intro of that song started I'm pretty sure I said something like "this is incredible" out loud lol. I was so amazed to hear it goddddd.

Other biggest NO WAY moments included Reinforcements (!!!!) and All You Ever Think About Is Sex (!!!!!) Whippings And Appologies (!!!!!!!!!) And oh my god, Please Don't Fuck Up My World. I was really hoping for a certain other ASDDD song (you can probably guess which one) and this was totally amazing (I actually had a bit of a prediction of them pulling out one of the more political songs on this tour and in my 00s obsessed spirit I hoped for Baby Baby Can I Invade Your Country a little bit... But I didn't see this one coming at all. It was an amazing song live, and I feel like it sort of fades into the background most of the time compared to many other 21st century songs, it's a bit more like an epilogue to ASDDD than a full fledged song to me but this, yeah.... It was the most wonderful thing I heart you Sparks!!!!!!)

Also had a feeling that they'd keep TGICIHL and that was AWESOME. First encore song and one of my fav momemts of the show for sure (altough it was truly just one an hour and a half long big neverending fav moment in all honesty). However I did not have a feeling that MTYCDT would still be there either but it was sooooo great. So so fun so amazing to bop along too (well, all of the songs were... as always. I clapped and bounced around so much today). And maybe I helped bring Beat The Clock back with my Born To Beat The Clock shirt today. Overall, 3 N1IH songs??? Academy Award Performance??????? Freaking amazing and totally unexpected once again. And Ron version of Suburban Homeboy oh my god that was the best.

Actually surprised by how little they focused on MAD! songs but I really can't be complaining about anything regarding this show. Running Up A Tab was as awesome as expected and JanSport gets even greater live too, I loved this version so much it just adds so much life to the song. Still kind of wishing Hit Me Baby or I-405 were on there too but we got so many unexpected deep cuts instead... it was truly the best.

My Way -> Number 1 In Heaven (RON SHUFFLE!!!!!) -> This Town, the awaited run of evergreen songs and it was ethereal amazing beautiful etc. Also THE LIGHTS were so great on this show, watching it all from up close helped me appreciate it even more I think... I actually thought those square light sort of boxes had something in the middle that looked just the tiniest bit like the MAD! frowns and I got so excited about the image of all these little frowns lightning up the stage. That didn't happen but what we actually got was in no way inferior to this idea.

Ok maybe the only thing I'm in any way sad about is the lack of My Baby's Taking Me Home, kind of funny to be feeling a little bit like dangggg when they started playing All That because, well, it's ALL THAT, but it meant no MBTMH after all, this being the second encore song... Again, surprised that they played both Lord Have Mercy and this but I was also so sad before about the idea of All That falling off the setlist possibly... So this was stunningly beautiful and there were some phone torches alight in the balconies, it looked truly so beautiful.

And of course last but not least Russell and Ron were so funny and awesome and there were so many little moments I loved and I'm going to be reminded of them all and relive them all through the one billion videos I took with my brother's phone and I'm so excited to look through them all as soon as possible because I think they're going to be really good ouuugghhhh. It helps that I have finally remembered that I can sometimes zoom in while recording for a better video... Truly could keep listing off moment after moment but the thing is I can't remember most of them off the top of my head so I'll just get round to those sometime later maybe.

This was the greatest thing in every way imaginable!! And now that I have a lot of pics and vids I think I'm just going to totally chill tomorrow and reexperience it all again while focusing on it all happening even more. I'm so glad there's still more to come you have no idea this was the best thing ever and I'm gonna do it all over again in just a couple of hours!!!!!! Lets all live forever guys sparks save the world and make everything worth it im SO happy.

[oh-aliens]

ed helms is technically a tumblr sexy man and no one is talking about it

[bagofbonesmp3]

seeing jenny nicholson on the dash like that woman didn't block me here for being a person of color in her general orbit

[beheadedcousins]

"we're all facebook friends."

farrah's reaction to this is all i'm thinking about

[lordgeneralsix]

is it just me or is bioware spoiling way too much about the game . talking about gameplay improvements is one thing but revealing story and companion arcs seems very insecure to me bc now the mystery is gone when people play for the first time . seems like they're trying too hard to prove that their game isn't garbage after that first trailer but this is not how you do that

[joelletwo]

v what realization did i have the other day. i think thinking about the agoraphobia and where the hell that came from bc other than the ambient Scared Of Everything anxiety i never really had a prompting fear and i also had the behaviors like. as far back into my childhood as i cant remember. so the impulse was to go 'oh im just [dismissive self insults] then'

but then i thought no actually like. avoidance feels like a perfectly reasonable possible response to the autism/shit parents experience of like. whats the. some rat study where arbitrary shocks were applied vs predictable/prompted ones and eventually the arbitrary group rats just give up and stop trying stuff. when youre doing normal kid exploring what behaviors are okay investigation. and you cant figure out any pattern or consistency to which behaviors get punished and which dont. u stop trying stuff and trying stuff gives u fear of being punished.

[royalarmyofoz]

that 70s show this and that 90s show that, what about that 80s show that had glenn howerton and chyler leigh in it and got canceled midseason???

[lotus-duckies]

yknow from all the sopan stuff I saw before he showed up in the comics, i thought he would be like. the Polite and Responsible Brother Figure

however he is also silly, dumb, and also gay

[transsexula]

Hate and rage and disgust for the people who ran to rednote then back to tiktok as soon as it was working again......... love and peace and hugs for all the people who stayed because the community is nice and their SPINES ARENT MADE OF JELLO AND FOAM.

[real-uwu-hours]

A couple years removed and yall drop to your knees to suck off the public education system. Someone brings up english class and you start playing with the balls a little maybe slip a little pinky too

[taniushka12]

i need to learn how to draw scott bakula and [al's actor] so i can draw my alwake & qleap crossover where sam jumps into alan's body at the start of alwake 1 and stuff happens