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starqueensthings · 2 years ago
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navybrat817 · 2 years ago
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How Far Down
Pairing: Mickey Henry x Female Reader Summary: Mickey is bad for you, but you just can't stay away. Word Count: Over 2.1k Warnings: Explicit sexual content, semi-public fingering, implied public sex, unhealthy relationship, codependency, bittersweet, spooky vibes, Mickey Henry (he's a warning, okay?). A/N: Fic #3 for Navy's Trick or Treat Nonsense! @tavners , thank you for suggesting Mickey and semi-public sex! I hope I did it justice. ❤️ Not beta read and written on my phone, so any and all mistakes are my own. Divider by the talented @firefly-graphics and Mickey edit by @rainbowkisses31 . Please follow @navybrat817-sideblog for new fics and notifications. Comments, reblogs, feedback are loved and appreciated!
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Mickey was like a drug to you. His touch sent dopamine through your body, the pleasurable sensation bringing you to new heights again and again. You needed more of him to satisfy your craving. He delivered every single time.
But being addicted to a man as free spirited as him was like trying to catch the wind in your hand. He slipped through your fingers quicker than sand. When the inevitable comedown happened, it left you disappointed with the harsh reality that he would never truly be yours. So you walked away.
Until he called you back to him.
"It's the Halloween bash. C'mon. We'll have fun."
You should’ve had the strength to ignore him or say “no”, but you were helpless to resist his call. You asked for the address when you messaged him back and hoped you didn’t sound too eager. One night wouldn’t hurt. You’d only stay long enough to make an appearance and you’d be on your way. Besides, it was a party and Mickey had a job to do.
He wouldn’t notice if you left early.
“Better not bail on me or you’ll hurt my feelings. And I’ll hunt you down.”
You wouldn’t dream of bailing on him. The thought of hurting his feelings produced a pain in your chest so great that you thought your heart would give out. That was one of the things that scared you about Mickey. You gave so much of yourself away and did you get enough in return?
It would be fun if he hunted me down.
The day leading up to the party was a blur, your stomach twisted in knots as you got ready. You had no reason to be nervous. It was a night of fun to be had and nothing more. As long as you didn’t let Mickey suck you back in, you’d be fine.
There was a line out the door of the club as you arrived and you wondered just how long people were waiting to get in. Mickey instructed you to give your name to the bouncer, which you did. For a second, you didn’t expect your name to be on the list. He could’ve done it as a prank to get back at you for walking away. It was a silly thought. He was many things, but he wasn’t cruel.
Still, you let out a sigh of relief as the bouncer let you go right in. If that wouldn’t have worked, you would’ve tried to flirt with him. Your slutty angel costume left little to the imagination, which was both sexy and ironic. You never felt angelic or innocent around Mickey, but it was fun to be in his presence.
The halo fell from my head a long time ago.
Orange and purple strobe lights flashed in time with the music, giving the club a perfect Halloween glow as the bodies moved along the dance floor. The array of costumes brought a smile to your face. Everyone was having fun, uncaring of what happened tonight. Problems would still be there tomorrow, so why not let loose?
“There you are.”
You heard Mickey over the music and blinked a few times, not remembering walking through the crowd to get to his booth. Your throat constricted as the two of you locked eyes. While you were some form of an angel, he had demon horns and an open red shirt. The light around him accentuated his muscles and gave him an ominous glow as he walked around the table, grinning as held out a hand for you.
It only took you a second to take it.
“Knew you couldn’t resist my invitation,” he said, jumping down to join you on the floor instead of pulling you up to the booth. “Though a small part of me wants to punish you for staying away for so long. Why did you run away from me?”
Part of the charm of Mickey was that he didn’t come across as arrogant. Playful, the life of the party, and someone who encouraged you to make the best out of bad situations, but never full of himself. You admired that. He was also unreliable, too spontaneous. A distorted dream of a man that you could never have.
“You know why I left,” you reminded him, putting your arms around his shoulders. “But we could both use some fun, so why not take you up on your offer?”
“And that’s just what I am, aren’t I? A good time,” Mickey smiled, slipping an arm around your waist to drag you against him. “Everyone’s having a good time tonight.”
Even if you didn't leave at the end of the night with Mickey, you knew it wouldn't be a boring evening. Watching him in his element was hotter than you cared to admit, the gorgeous man making everyone get lost in the music and atmosphere. It was like he encouraged people to lose their inhibitions. No one cared about the consequences.
They lived like there was no tomorrow.
The flashing lights reflected off his blue eyes as you gazed at him, but they almost looked black. “We can’t have too much fun,” you teased as he began to grind his hips against yours.
“Why not?”
You sighed and wondered if he was trying to goad you or if he really didn't get it. “Because we both know how this’ll end and I'm a little tired of it.”
Mickey would happily go on his way while you were left with a void in your soul. The worst part was you were certain he didn’t do it on purpose. The bond between the two of you wasn’t pure enough to be love, so why would you expect him to treat you like you were his other half?
“Why does it have to end at all? C'mon. You and I always have fun together,” he argued, grabbing your chin with a firm hand so he could lick you from your chin to your forehead. “Besides. Your aura is so delicious. I've missed it.”
A lustful sigh left your lungs before you attempted to step back. The smile on his face looked strange. “My aura? What the fuck are you talking about?”
Mickey threw his head back as he laughed, his chest shaking as his fingers dug into your hip. He sometimes struck you as a man more intelligent and deeper than he let on, but always swayed you from those thoughts with a slip of his tongue or the slide of his cock. He was lust in human form. But he led you down a path with no end.
So why did you follow him?
“You know what I mean. Your whole glow screams lust. And lust is a sin that feeds itself and grows,” he said as he pushed your costume up your thigh. It didn’t matter that there were others close by where anyone could see. And you didn’t put up a fight. It wouldn't be the first time you fooled around with people mere feet away. That was part of the fun. “But I don't need to feed myself with you around. You feed me plenty.”
At that moment, you almost wondered if Mickey’s costume was real as he hooked a finger in your panties and moved them aside. He could easily lure people in under the guise of a good time. Lost in his hypnotic gaze, you moaned as his finger circled your hole. “It's like you really are a demon,” you breathed as one finger pushed inside you, making you clamp around him.
His teeth flashed in a wicked smile as the digit moved in shallow thrusts. “Demons come in all forms. All shapes and sizes,” he said as you frowned. He had to be kidding. “This city is my playground with plenty of people to play with.”
You smiled after a second, playing along. “Is that what you're doing? Playing with me?”
“You make it easy to play with, even when I have to chase you. Though I didn't exactly chase you, did I? All it took was a text,” he said, though you didn't feel insulted at the implication of how easy it was to get you there. “And dressing up like an angel? You’re far from being immune to temptation.”
It wasn't fear that moved through you, but your smile slipped all the same even as he dragged a finger in and out of you. “I, oh, was kidding about the whole demon thing.”
The gorgeous grin was back on his face. “So was I.”
He sealed his lips against yours as he pushed another finger in, the feeling making your head spin as you rocked your hips. Wantonly, you practically humped his hand as he took what he wanted from you. It was pathetic that you allowed him in so easily, but didn’t he always make you feel good?
“You’re bad for me,” you whined, gasping when he bit down on your bottom lip.
“The worst,” he agreed, pressing his palm hard against your clit. “But you’re so good for me, aren’t you? Such a good girl.”
The praise warmed you as your moans got louder.
“I could fuck anyone here tonight, but it’s you I want,” he went on, curling his fingers just the way you needed him to. “My filthy, desperate angel. You’ll let me do whatever I want to you and you won’t stop me. Do you know how good that makes me feel that you want me so badly?”
You wanted to argue that he was wrong, but how could you deny his words when you were so close? And he was right. He could fuck anyone he wanted, but his fingers were deep inside you because you were special. You meant something to him.
Right?
“You want me, too,” you stated, but the words came out like a whimper, lost in the music.
“Of course, I do. You’re my favorite. That’s why I wanted you here with me tonight,” he smirked, the words as empty as how you felt when the sun came up. But you believed him because you wanted to believe him. That it didn’t matter if he took other lovers because they didn’t mean anything to him. He was still your addiction and you wanted to get high. “Now come on my fingers. I know you can do it.”
With a shudder, you did as he said and soaked his fingers with your juices. He licked into your mouth as it went slack from pleasure, an almost smug hum reverbirating as the digits continued to glide along your walls. The familiar haze washed over you as he guided you through your orgasm. If anyone around you noticed, they didn’t care.
Neither did you.
“Delicious,” he purred as he drew his fingers out and shoved them into your mouth. “How do you feel?”
Licking your taste from his fingers, you swallowed with a heavy heart. “Empty,” you admitted, the high crashing even sooner than usual. You hated it. You wanted it to go away.
You needed to go, but your feet wouldn't allow you to move.
He didn’t look at all offended by your answer. Instead, a pleased smile spread across his face. “That’s because my fingers are never enough. You need my cock.”
You both knew you weren't going anywhere. Why argue? “I need your cock,” you agreed. All he had to do was fill you up and it would make it better.
“Bend over my table and I’ll give it to you,” he promised with a glint in his eye. It was like staring into an abyss and you wondered how deep it went. Would you ever reach the bottom if you fell?
“But the crowd-”
“They won’t even notice. They'll just think we're grinding to the music,” he said, gracefully hopping on the stage as you followed with shaky limbs. “And even if they did, who gives a fuck? They’ll wish they were in your place, but they never will be. You know why?”
“Because I’m special?”
“Yeah, you are. My favorite angel who feeds me well,” he assured you, the void in your chest slowly starting to grow smaller as he brought your back to his chest. “But don’t ever walk away from me again, okay? It'll only hurt us both.”
There was no sarcasm in his tone. Only truth.
“I won't walk away,” you said, letting him pull your dress up again as he pressed his clothed cock against your ass.
You'd always come back if he called.
“That's my girl” he praised, lightly biting your earlobe. “Now hold onto the table so we can have some real fun.”
With a nod and a smile, you fell into the abyss.
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Why is he so pretty? Love and thanks for reading! 🧡
Masterlist ⚓ Misc Sebastian Stan Characters ⚓ Ko-Fi
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thegratefulsouth · 1 year ago
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TWD Caryl - A Tree Fell in the Forest
I just finished watching TWD and searching a bunch tonne of stuff on this here Tumblr which I'm brand new to, and I have thoughts.
I am strangely drawn to imperfection, its beauty, and TWD sits in this place, hovering near almost faultlessness (characters), to being nearly unwatchable (where did the characters go), sometimes within the same episode. It's utterly fascinating! I am hooked! A little late, yes, but isn't that the story of my life.
I honestly have not felt this way about characters since the late 90's, when my 17 year old Willoz shipping heart waited desolately for Oz to return, and ... we all know how that turned out. Ah, shipping. I literally had not shipped a single ship since that day. Until I watched The Same Boat. TWD has some pretty special characters. Though I love Bojack and Ozark and Travis Fimmel's Ragnar, I did not feel compelled to examine the inner workings of those beautiful humans/humanoids beyond the show.
There I was, happily not shipping a ship, apart from my own relationship with my own beloved, which I ship ecstatically every day. (This is the kind of ramble I can indulge in when I think readership will be non-existent). Got another ship in!
Anyway, my point is that a Caryl romance is clearly canon, even though the relationship isn't (yet?).
I didn't actually fall in love with Carol until she listened to my urgent pleas to take care of the Wolves at the start of season 6. I should point out that I have ADHD so I didn't always have the dopamine? Emotional regulation? Focus? To listen to all of your speeches, Rick, or to watch entire episodes devoted to new characters, Tara, Magna, Alpha. So, apparently, I missed entire stuff.
Even after "C'mere", I just thought Carol and Daryl had this extremely unique soulmate bond, like that of Ragnar and Athelstan in Vikings. It is an extremely rare and unique portrayal of a transcendental devotion that cannot be likened to any other kind of relationship, because there are no other relationships like it. The bind encompasses every aspect of love and support needed to utterly fulfull and complete someone.
At this point I had stumbled onto Tumblr because I realised I needed pro-Carol recaps from Carylers, as they seemed to best understand and grasp this very special character. I went back and rewatched from the beginning and I was shocked. I rewatched (and noticed for the first time) the flirting, the hesitation, the banter, the unspoken LOOKS, oh so many. Drew the links from Consumed ("I kinda like it." "Stop.") Watched interviews, waded through the mass of gaslighting that abounds, which seems to wrap itself around every subtle, telling moment.
Why? Because it's fascinating. A mystery. Pretending something that happened, did not? A tree fell in the forest and some people did not hear it. Well I didn't hear it either! But I went back and found the tree. That tree is on the damn ground.
Carol and Daryl are so in love with each other it hurts. Their romance exists. Therefore, I'm gonna ship it.
TGS
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cosmic-ghost-hermit · 1 year ago
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Heyo! All the art on these readings is drawn by me. Take what you can from the reading and leave all that does not resonate behind but always be open to new perspectives.
The archetype reading was inspired by the deck I used today. The guide book uses examples from anime to fit the descriptions of the tarot cards. I thought that was really clever so I decided to build off that idea and tell you what archetype you are most drawn to wants to tell you. In short, this is really a message from a specific cards energy. I hope this helps anyone who might be struggling!
PILE 1
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Crystal: Tigers Eye
Character: Badtz-Maru
Archetype: The Empress
Astrology: Taurus ♉️, Libra ♎️, Pisces ♓️, Virgo ♍️
Dear pile 1, you are represented by the empress of this deck. The archetype you embody is someone who is luxurious, modest, kind and attentive. You care deeply for those you love and would do anything to assist them and make their life easier. You are a fantastic friend, partner and companion. You don’t necessarily have to be a woman to embody that energy. The message this part of you wants to tell you is that your kindness is being taken for granted. Your attentiveness is being discarded as if the love you gave isn’t worth anything. Your intuition is telling you to withdraw from the connection that is causing this. You maybe started this friendship or connection a while ago but you have started to notice this pattern from the other party in this relationship. They don’t return your love. They don’t say thank you when you go out of your way to be good to them. This doesn’t mean you should necessarily cut them off. Just don’t go out of your way anymore. They are undeserving if they cannot be grateful to you for all you do. I see if you did stop it would barely be noticed at first. However, the person will slowly realize how much you did to assist them. How much work you did was important and helped them get through the day easily. If they apologize and communicate they did wrong that won't necessarily be your queue to go back to scratching their back. You need to wait for them to lend their assistance to you. That will be your invitation to return to being kind. Until then use the extra time you have working on your passion projects and aiming for your dreams.
🖤✒️🔎💻🕋🛞♟️🎤🎼🎱🏴🪨🐕‍🦺🕶️🎩🐦‍⬛💣🎵🎶♣️♠️🏴‍☠️👁️‍🗨️
PILE 2
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Crystal: Flower Agate
Character: Keroppi
Archetype: The Devil
Astrology: Leo ♌️, Aquarius ♒️, Capricorn ♑️, Gemini ♊️
Hey pile 2! Your archetype is the devil. Don’t worry though, for this doesn’t make you evil or bad. All this communicates to me is you are an enjoyer of the darker parts of life. You enjoy what other people usually fear. This is definitely not something horrible you should shame yourself about. I see you probably enjoy altered states of reality or perhaps you are very free with your sexual expression. I see you like the taste of control, power and vengeance. Again not a bad thing in my mind. Humans have many states of being and no part of existence is incorrect. Your message from the devil archetype is not asking you to cold turkey your behavior. However, I think it is saying balance is super important when you dabble in darkness. You might be prone to addiction to literally anything you can get dopamine from. I am an addict as well. I know how hard restraint can be. Even doing this reading is giving me cravings to be honest so I know you deal with cravings constantly. Your cards are saying it doesn’t matter if you feed the addiction. You will always be starving for more. You will always be chasing something you can never achieve. Please take care of your body before the cravings lead to worse. When I was dealing with my addiction I ended up in the hospital multiple times. It would have killed me if I hadn’t stopped. It is okay to dabble in darkness but seriously I beg you, from the bottom of my heart please moderate. Moderation is key to keeping yourself safe. If you are meant to have the darkness, it will be in your grasp. If you are in need of a break. Trust the universe when it takes it away. You are not evil for needing. I want to reiterate that because I know how it feels to need something that hurts you.
💚🦈🪀🧃🍵🪦🥗🥒🥑🌪️🫒🍸🍏🥝☘️🌱🥈⚓️🪴🎍🐍🦎🚬👒🤢
PILE 3
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Crystal: Carnelian
Character: Tuxedo Sam
Archetype: Emperor
Astrology: Cancer ♋️, Aries ♈️, Sagittarius ♐️, Scorpio ♏️
Hey, pile 3! Your archetype is the emperor. You are a force to be reckoned with. A master of your craft and skilled beyond other people's wildest imaginations. You have a plan and have been putting so much energy into it. You know exactly what you want and exactly how to get it. Your cards are pretty straight forward just like you are. They are telling me that working hard is good! That your progress is fantastic and you have made it so far! However, the pace you are keeping at is almost unsustainable. You can’t juggle all of the tasks you are trying to keep under control. You cannot do it all by yourself. That isn’t logical! Humans are not solitary creatures. We need community and connection to continue on. Humans who have been left alone for too long go hecking crazy! You absolutely can handle all of it mentally. I am not saying you are incapable because you are SO CAPABLE. Rome was not built in a day. Masterpieces are not made out of minutes, they are made out of days or months or years. You are creating a masterpiece so allow yourself time to think about it. Allow yourself the space to brainstorm and be patient with your body and your creativity. Be gentle with yourself. You are only one person and the secret you are missing is that you are not alone. The silly little secret is that you don’t need to set a deadline for the greatness you are going to grow into. One of my favorite artists didn’t make it when he was 20. He grew into his greatness when he was 35. Does that make him any less of a great artist? Absolutely not!!! You are cool, awesome and wonderful! Why do you need to prove that when you already know it is true?
💙💤🌀🪬🌨️🧿💎🚿🧊🫐🌊🌧️🌬️💨🌏🦋🪼🐬🧢🫂🥶💠
-ghost 🖤🩵
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iwaoiness · 5 months ago
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thank u sm @mania-sama for taggin me on this!! <3 im excited to see how this will turn out omg
𒌋 fanfic write review
— How many works do you have on AO3? —
actually 48 fics in english and spanish, i think its a huge number but then i remember there's people with more than 70 works and then i feel better
— Your top 5 stories by kudos/likes —
¹ orbit return↦ "When they're eight years old and learn in class what the orbit and the planets and the stars and the universe are, Iwaizumi decides that on Oikawa's birthday he will no longer say "happy birthday", but "happy orbit return". And it becomes a tradition. Or: Oikawa is the main protagonist of Iwaizumi's Instagram, especially, every 20th of July."
its one of the cutest i've ever written, i wanted to do something cute and soft for oikawa's b-day and show iwaoi over the years through the pictures but as i have no fucking idea how to draw, i said: ‘fuck it i'll write it’, and so it was born!! i liked it sm i couldnt hold out until july so i published it in octuber lol
² tooru's love life↦ "In wich Oikawa never revealed anything about his private life, let alone his love life. Until he posts a TikTok with Iwaizumi Hajime and everything explodes."
it was a silly thing that crossed my mind after seeing a video on twitter and idk how its in this top2 BUT im soooo grateful that yall liked it so much <3
³ chronicles of a jealous athlete↦ "What Oikawa definitely can't get over and what left him gaping with eyes wide open was the latest viral video featuring Iwaizumi (which Makki sent him just two minutes after it was posted, along with a "loool bro u should’ve come to japan"). And it's not another fancam (he wished it was another fancam, why on earth wasn't it a fancam), but a video of him, back to the camera, giving Ushijima Fucking Wakatoshi a massage. A fucking pectoral massage."
THIS IS MY PRECIOUS SON!! i saw the video on my tl and said: i MUST iwaoing this right now and worte it in one day. i had a great time writing it, i felt like i was 15 again, surrounded by books and being able to read saga after saga every week, totally engrossed in the world of manga and anime, having evolved in my writing style and feeling that i finally could show my full potential and reveal without further walls everything that my mind holds. im very fond of it i swear
⁴ oikawa's problematic phone case↦ "In which Oikawa shows a video to a famous talk show host and (unintentionally) ends up showing half the world the photo he keeps in his phone case. And it would all remain an anecdote if it weren't for the fact that it is a ID photo of Iwaizumi Hajime (27) athletic trainer."
can u believe i just wanted to do a drabble about iwaizumi being the kind of person who doesnt try hard at all and looks SO HOT in the id photo and then this came out lol i just now its something canon
⁵ when the rain falls in summer↦ "It's summer, it's raining, Oikawa is lying on the couch like an invertebrate animal, humming a song because he doesn't know silence, and Iwaizumi can't ask for anything more."
i couldnt be iwaoi's fan without writing iwaoi enjoying the two of them in their flat on a rainy day, all sweet, loving and in love, and with a balcony full of plants ugh i love them with my whole heart
— Do you respond to comments? Why or why not? —
yees!! its my fav part of publish a work, even though sometimes i forget and get months behind, i LOVE responding to comments, it's like feeling more connected to people and an incredible dopamine rush
— What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending? —
all i know is my life is gone, well tecnically its all angst not only the ending, but thanks to this i found the joy of writing angst, now i understand people who write an 120k fic of pure angst, somehow its reaaaally funny
i have another one in spanish la paz de akaashi its a bokuaka fic y si eres hispana hermana no sabes lo que me dolió emocionalmente destrozar a bokuto y akaashi pensé que sería soportable pero nO
— What’s the fic you’ve written with the happiest ending? —
AAAAAAA I CANT CHOOSE apart from the previous two plus another one that has a bittersweet ending (between alphas if u r curious), the rest of the 43 fics have happy ending, but so as not to leave this blank I will say: little piece of home
— Do you write crossovers? —
nopee, and i dont think im ever going to write it cuz im not really into it
— Have you ever received hate on a fic? —
only once lol when i started in the fanfic world in fanfiction.net with vocaloid stories (dark past don't ask) and i was 12 or 13 y/o ig when one of my shameful fics ended up in a review blog with the top spanish fanfic writers, and they dedicated a WHOLE post to me with a destructive (and a little bit constructive) criticism. actually it wasnt that bad cuz that was my turning point and now i write well thanks to it, and since then i havent received any hate on any of my fics!! (for now lol)
— Do you write smut? If so, what kind? —
another yes thank youuu. i love to write it not too explicit, like leave u wanting to know a lot more and also to be able to imagine it a little bit as u like, if that makes sense
— Have you ever had a fic stolen? —
not that i know of, and hope to keep it that way pleaseee
— Have you ever had a fic translated? —
nope
— Have you ever co-written a fic before? —
nope again
— What’s your all-time favorite ship? —
IWAOIIWAOIIWAOIIWAOIIWAOIIWAOI im OBSESSED with their dynamic. its just so freaking good (and don’t even get me started on the fact that childhood friends is my weakness). with these two, there’s literally endless possibilities and AUs u can explore without pushing them into major ooc territory, which, tbh, is a struggle with some ships. like, u want enemies to lovers? fits like a glove. strangers to friends to lovers? perfect. full-blown angst with a happy ending? chef’s kiss. angst with hurt/no comfort? yup, that too. whatever the vibe is, if it’s iwaoi, it just WORKS
and individually they’re a solid 10/10. like, sure, iwaizumi didn’t get as much screen time as oikawa, but his personality is so well-crafted that it feels like he’s been a core part for all 402 freaking chapters of haikyuu (well he's a core part if it wasnt for him, tooru would’ve been absolutely eaten up by guilt for hitting kageyama and might’ve even quit volleyball and that iconic line ‘the team with the better six is stronger’ it’s HIS, and it hit kageyama like a truck) and don’t even get me started on timeskip iwaizumi hajime (27), athletic trainer, he's my roman empire
and oikawa, oh my oikawa, i’d legit have to write a whole doctoral thesis cuz he’s THE character. his development's straight-up apotheosis. he’s one of the best-written characters out there, and if u disagree, go argue with the wall. the man crossed the damn pond for volleyball, became a STARTER on the argentinian national team, rediscovered the joy in the sport, and kept his pride intact through it all. uuugh and at 30 years old, he’s still a total dork but irresistibly handsome piece of man
— What’s a WIP that you want to finish but don’t think you ever will? —
okay listen to me carefully (or rather, read me carefully) i have a lots of WIPs but for the last FOUR years in my iwaoi doc there has been THE wip that has been going around in my mind but that will probably never come to light and that im going to let a summary of here cuz if i suffer for not being able to write it, as it deserve, yall suffer with me for not being able to read it:
inspired by the music video of halsey's song colors, omegaverse iwaoi, where oikawa (18) is a dominant omega (a real one, who can bend an alpha with his pheromones) and iwaizumi (29) is an alpha. i know it sounds repetitive BUT KEEP READING!!
the oikawas are a pretty well-off family: daisuke (a lawyer with his own successful law firm) is the alpha dad, aoi (a social worker at an omega shelter) is the omega papa, tomiko is the eldest alpha daughter, and tooru is the youngest omega son. tomiko’s married but always stays in close contact with the family, and daisuke and aoi’s relationship is super healthy, making them a tight-knit family where oikawa grew up never lacking love.
but then adolescence hits hard and oikawa becomes ridiculously beautiful, flamboyant, smart, strong, attention-loving, totally into top and bottom dynamics, and most importantly, he LOVES teasing his dad, though daisuke always dishes it right back cuz they’re both stubborn as hell (but his dad really cares about him and only looks out for the best, just like his papa). actually oikawa gets along quite well with the rest of the omegas, but his closest friends are makki (an omega marked by beta mattsun) and suga (the epitome of perfection with a playful streak he rarely shows, and ofc engaged to daichi).
oikawa and hanamaki usually go to the sports club to play tennis because volleyball is not an omegas thing, and with suga he attends the music conservatory where he plays the violin. at the omegas institution, the three of them are in the sewing club (led by akaashi btw) although tooru has no fucking idea how to sew.
so, the story kicks off with makki and oikawa watching a volleyball match at the said prestigious miyagi sports club, where daisuke and a handful of alphas (and mattsun) play. among them is yutaro iwaizumi who happens to be a little bit in love with tooru (and even has a semi-blessing from the oikawas to court him). but, ofc, tooru has zero interest in that iwaizumi. his eyes are on the other alpha iwaizumi who plays volleyball too with his dad, the one who looks at him with those intense green eyes, the one with a dimple on his right cheek when he smiles, the one with a deep, gravelly voice that makes oikawa’s stomach flip, the one with an overwhelming presence, the one who smells like sandalwood and mint, the one with a broken mark on the nape of his neck.
hajime iwaizumi, the big bro of yutaro
AAAAAA DUDE, NOW I WANNA PICK IT UP AGAIN, IT’D BE SO GOOD I WANNA CRY. i wrote three chapters and half of the fourth, and honestly, it was so fun cuz i add humor and build a fun dynamic between the OCs (aka tooru’s parents) and tooru himself. ugh and don’t even get me started on the epic scenes i included, like oikawa getting into big trouble sneaking into an alpha institution just to smash a nut tart into the face of an alpha who’s allergic to nuts for revenge
— What are your writing strengths? —
wow i’ve never really stopped to think seriously about this, but i think im decent at conveying emotions (someone pls tell me this is a legit writing strength before i embarrass myself here), like, i try to make them feel real and almost palpable instead of leaving them just abstract. and maybe creativity too? im always looking for ways to avoid repetition and make everything feel smoother and more fluid
— What are your writing weaknesses? —
definitely describing places, i HATE that kind of description. i try my best, but if it’s already a struggle in spanish for me, just imagine doing it in english, i caaant every time it makes me want to bang my head against my laptop. oh and i feel like cant write long fics to save my life cuz i always feel like i wont be good enough to pull it off or that i’ll mess up squeezing the plot and fucking it up, and it drives me absolutely crazy but but i swear im trying to improve that aspect and one day get a long fic or a 10k+ one shot uploaded without dying in the attempt!!
— What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic? —
i think its super funny (u cant comprehend the joy that comes over me when i read fics in english with argentinian oikawa saying dialogues in spanish), although its true that sometimes it hinders the reading a bit if one isnt fluent in the other language, its a good tool that makes the reading more interesting as long as its used well, i see it as another resource to make the reader more involved in the story imo
— What’s a fandom/ship you haven’t written for yet but want to? —
right now off the top of my head i’d looove to write kuroken, more bokuaka, some oihina, kenhina, definitely atsuhina, kagehina, and tanakiyo from haikyuu. and once i finish arcane, i’m literally DYING to dive into jayvik. also, i love love love kingdom (GO READ IT, ITS LEGENDARY), and i’d be so hyped to write something shin x qiang too
— What’s your favorite fic you’ve written? —
i really hate to choose i swear but the first one that cross my mind its hajime's premature death i had such a blast working on the plot, like driving iwaizumi insane with oikawa rocking a skirt has been soooo enriching. honestly, i think this might just be the most fun fic i’ve ever written
time for tagginggg @vvalllerie @winnterboobear @kingofech0park if yall want to do it, no pressure!! ღ
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twoinoneflesh · 11 months ago
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June 17th, 2024
jesus wept. and yet, i think we all weep more.
i sit alone in a cafe. they have this large glass garage door. today, it is only 55 degrees fahrenheit, and they have the bottom of this huge door cracked. it tickles my ankles. as the breeze rushes in through its 14 inches of freedom, i find little goosebumps in little places. i sit right next to the door because the sting of chilly breezes in june makes me feel alive, even if it feels wrong.
i hear a song that makes me feel alone. isolated in my nostalgia. lonely, i sip on hot chocolate that i expect to burn my lips and the tip of my tongue, but it never does. sirens blaze. i can see the cop shop from this impressive window, not a very impressive view.
i take a bite of an orange that i expect make me feel something, and it is not what i anticipate. it tastes of the essence of all purpose cleaner, as if it had no flavor at all until someone spritzed mrs meyers in its general vicinity without a second thought. i eat it anyways. i tear away the pith, my hands now smell of it.
i havent written for a few days. i worked a triple. 13 straight hours, 2 hours of rest, and then another 8 hours. i do not get lunch breaks. i do not really get breaks at all. for 2 days i could barely bring myself to leave bed. my fatigue knows no bounds. i used to have to do this every day, at least now it is only every couple of weeks. i think about all the ways i can to leave the industry and recover, i draw blanks.
i go to the cafe to write, and now, i do not want to write. there are many ways in which i feel deeply unhappy with myself. i do not want to write them, but i should. i wait for sin to get off work so we may exist in the same space together again. sin is married but the two of us are more like a married couple than sin and their wife are, but that is because sin is in love with the people who can't figure out how to love them in return.
i shiver in in the cafe and i take a long draw from a contraband device. i try hard not to get caught, the breeze aids me in this even though it overwhelms my senses. i cant make it a day without smoking. my dopamine left me long ago, and this is the only way i find comfort when the pangs of panic arrive.
im supposed to clean today. i would rather return to bed. i think the depression has reared its ugly head once again. i need a haircut. i need a vacation. i need a new job. i need to get laid. i need to move. i need to leave this city. i need to reinvent myself. i need to be a parent. i need to own a farm. i need to get away. i need
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sorencd · 2 years ago
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day trip date hcs
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a/n: a short thingy i needed to barf out!! after listening to day tripper for like the thousandth time the thought of going on a cute little road trip to the next state with wilson stuck with me whshsehd enjoy! AND!! AND the steven one is next this was just sitting in my drafts rotting for so long i had to post it dhasd
yesterday, you've already practically spent the entire morning until noon in bed lazing off in wilson's arms. only occasionally going out to grab something to eat and swiftly returning under the covers. now that you've recharged your drained out battery caused by a hectic last week, you brought up the idea of spending the day off on the road to wilson.
he loved it of course! he's already packing up all the stuff u need waaaay before you. he prepared the food, snacks, your favorite tunes, a map so u know where you two would like to stop, and of course he can't forget ur trusty camera!
you've decided to drive through west virginia and kentucky, and each time you saw something that you find interesting (even if it isn't that interesting) you'd ask wilson to stop for a bit and pose beside it so you could take a photo of him. and he would stand so awkwardly by it but his smile makes it all worth it!
"we need to take a photo of you and mothman."
"why?"
"you two would look so cute!"
and that brings u to him standing beside the infamous mothman, his thumbs up with a goofy smile and a pair of shades on him! u could've considered him a dad atp with the fit he was wearing.
and how could i ever forget singing songs with windows rolled down??? screaming the lyrics at the top of both your lungs like absolute loons??? you've seen so many confused looks from many of the cars you've passed by lol
and when the dopamine blast has settled down and the car is engulfed in silence, which is something u aren't really fond of since u can't last like more than 5 minutes without hearing wilson's voice, you'd be spitting random facts left and right.
"what do you know, female hyenas have dicks. huh. did you know that?"
"??? did i need to???"
he's grown accustomed to it and has learned to accept the sudden bombardment of unnecessary information.
you love feeding him the snacks he brought!! he suggested multipled times that he could always stop at a gasoline station or restaurant but you always insisted that you would give it to him instead. wilson wasn't one to complain though and happily obliged without hesitation.
your camera roll would be filled to the brim with both cute and silly photos!! there would be some polaroids scattered around the car of a close up of james' nose, or his eye, a weird selfie you took while he was focused on driving, or maybe him doing a funny expression beside a landmark u two stopped by to see!! your collection of polaroids that u put on the refrigerator door continues to grow by the second, and u love it!
when the day comes to an end and he's driving back home with the sun setting down, u tugged on his shirt and asked him to watch the sunset. he thought this only happened in movies! james could feel his heart swell when he looked to left to see your pretty face that he loved so much being hued by the setting sun on the horizon.
DUH how could he not kiss u at that moment??? he softly grabbed your chin to crane your head towards him and kissed you, causing a surprised yelp to escape your lips. and after that he jusy continued driving and left u all blushing and stuff lol
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passionfruitmango · 10 months ago
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I'm starting my vent post here, cancer season is doing it's thing and I'm up in my feels struggling to focus on fact
Yay I'm home and not yay I cannot leave until after sunset, there are too many people outside my building and everyone wants my attention, I just don't want to hear my government name while forcing small talk about my job, nor do i want to visit the lemonade stand with the parent flagging down tenants (mind you they don't even live here). I wanted to take out some garbage later and sit downstairs to try to ground myself and relax since I'm so yucky feeling today, but idk how fucking long the lemonade stand is going to be there. My social battery is NEGATIVE. I'm sorry I want to be fucking alone in peace without people feeling entitled to my ears and energy. Need to buy some fucking over ear headphones so people can stop assuming I can always hear them (I wear raycons for music)
I didn't realize how much the current climate of the US was getting to me, I'm genuinely spiralling about that and I can see how I've been using my furby obsession+consumerism to cope. It's also led me to thinking about semi irrational but not too far from reality fear based scenarios such as "how will I survive when/if the US loses internet?" I don't fit in with my local community and those that I do feel one with are nowhere near me. I'm stressing about how to become active in my community while simultaneously paralyzed with fear over who is and is not safe, since this county is very conservative and many people have made it loud and clear how "phobic/ist" they are of most things I am.
I really started feeling the 12H pain of "feeling like there's a glass window between you and others that prevents them from seeing you as who you are" today as I was "noticing" (I know I was projecting, but these things won't leave my head) how differently coworkers talk to me, if at all. Been in my head about how I'm a bad friend (because i am) and even as im typing this I see how silly that all is, because it doesn't really matter if people like me or not, but I crave the validation of others for my right to exist.
I'm sad that singing along to songs I love gives me anxious adrenaline when people are around now. I can't perform without feeling fear that someone will make a stupid comment. Is it even performing though if its just singing along to whatever bullshit is stimulating me through the workday?
Idk, I'm stressing over the fact I'm watching the US's pluto return in action, what good does talking about it do? It just solidifies the sad reality of the lies we were sold.
And I know it's so wrong to impulse buy things to get easy dopamine but it's that or drugs and I don't quite feel like doing dxm when i work the next day. I've also gotten myself to stop doing recreational drugs to cope. But also like, iykyk how hard it can be to say no to an old vice that you know gets your brain just soft enough to feel "okay" for a few days.
Ughughugh, I'm gonna feed my cats and shower.
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rainbowmoodring · 10 months ago
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Not Goodbye, Just Until
I've had a poem Squirming around in my stomach All week Just waiting to go home So I could type Each Body Segment Out.
It's been impatient With my patience. But it enjoys How I sing As I explore the airport. It wiggles delightedly at the Thought of you, How you make me feel, And how it greedily Feeds Off my joy, So I never quite feel full. I could ask for more, More of you, As much as you could give, But thankfully You're the sensible one And I'm the one With a half more Mango mojito Being one of the many things Blushing my skin.
But the poem inside of me That yearns on my behalf Is teaching me to be Ever Slightly Bolder, Not as wild as I imagine, But enough to ask For you. Last night I was compelled the Whole way home To ask you later to kiss me, Hold me, make me feel like You didn't want me to go either. But all I could get out Once you wrapped your Arms around me, Was,"I don't want to leave." And I didn't have to ask, Because the gentle pressure Of hands, of body, my face Ushered into your neck, Answered for me. I am free to be vulnerable With you, Silly with you, Be disappointed, learn with you, be and do “Anything I want, Forever.”
It's so funny to have so much To say And struggle to say it, To make the words Heard And understood with intent. So I enjoy the quiet And the listening Just as much. And how do I write All that I feel? Have felt this whole week? So much of it is a skipping Vinyl record, "I love you" scratch "I love you" scratch "I love you" scratch "I love you" shhpshhpshhpshhp (Don't leave your record in the su-hu-hun) And so many new feelings Difficult to describe. But I always want to be as clear As I can be, And you with me. Because frankly I don't think our anxiety Can handle it otherwise.
Yet, My skin is so clear, (My crops are watered), And while this return flight Is different from the last, Where I was giddy and bubbling over, This time, This time, I am glowing from my core. A dim, cozy glow, That feels like home.
To feel so safe with a lover, I really never thought I would. I trust you with me. The check-ins, The gauging reactions And making sure we're both happy And on the same wavelength, Especially in different places, Different paces. But god, I've never felt so safely loved. We are attuned to our energies, That we can beam cross-country, Felt effortlessly in a shared room, But harder to "feel," So I'll practice.
That it's you, With your strengths and Weaknesses, And how you fit so well As a bigger little spoon, And you laugh with me, Smile into my kisses, Make me feel like I Belong with you, Because that's what we chose, And continue to choose Every day. A day that you're a part of mine Is a better day. And it's already been a year, An entire year, Of loving you And being loved by you, And I can hardly believe it. Can you?
So while my poem has Gotten its fresh air While I'm miles up in a Dopamine blue sky, The stars are coming out, And I know you'll be able to see The same ones Soon, Starshine. I hope you're resting well, Alone again in pleasant self company, And that my touch Lingers Like a crawling phantom bug, But like, More pleasant. Like yours has.
I've left a part of me In Washington.
I am yours.
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4.6.2024
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rhaenyratargayen · 4 years ago
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style // s.b.
summary — you’re the only one for sirius black and the thought overwhelms him.
word count — 3.3k
warnings — smoking cigarettes, intimacy issues, but lots of fluff.
a/n — another intimacy issues fic? oop. // my second fic for @natasha-romancff ‘s taylor swift writing challenge, my prompt is the song Style.
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Y/N’s bare feet padded along the wooden floor of her home as she shuffled towards the kitchen, the small, cozy home lit by a single lamp in the corner of her living room. Her eyes squinted as the light from inside her fridge illuminated the small space as she opened the door. She pulled out a pitcher of water and a glass from the cabinet, downing the cool liquid as it soothed her sore throat.
Her black heels had been discarded by the door, her hair that was once styled to perfection fell lazily along her shoulders. Still, she was clad in a tight, baby pink skirt that clung to her hips, a sliver of her skin showcased between the top of her skirt and the bottom of her black tank top. Last but not least, a leather jacket hung from her shoulders, too large to have been bought for herself, but a gift, a memory, that kept her warm.
Her girlfriends had dropped her off just moments ago before they continued on to their next club of the night, they insisted she come along, claiming, “the night is still young, Y/N/N” but the absence of a dark haired dream at her side the past two weeks plagued her more than she would like to admit it.
She was taken from her thoughts as a low engine hum sounded outside her door, her brows furrowed as she set her glass down on the marble countertop and glanced out the window facing her front yard. Her heart skipped a beat at the sight, a black motorcycle with none other than her handsome, dark haired dream.
He shrugged off his helmet as she watched. Locks of dark hair fell perfectly as he removed the helmet, falling into place, a singular strand dancing closely between his dark eyes. His stark white tee shirt was a sharp contrast to his other strictly black clothing; dark jeans, a leather jacket and a pair of boots.
She rushed quickly to the door, opening before he could even knock softly. His eyes widened as he saw her, where once was a characteristically accurate straight lipped blank expression was now a gentle and charming grin, where his lips turned upward at the sight of the girl he longed to see.
He stepped forward, assuming the open doorway was a direct invitation, one he’d received many times before with how often he stayed at her house. But his brows quickly furrowed as the door moved to close, the gap between the two of them narrowing subtly. He immediately looked to her again, his eyes flitting between her own, searching for any discomfort or pain.
Her body was hidden behind the doorway, the swoop of her loose hair falling behind her shoulder, the black strap of her tank top being the only indication of her outfit. She swallowed when he made eye contact with her, finding it difficult to refuse him when he pleaded so softly to be with her.
The truth was, he hadn’t stopped by in weeks. The last time he saw her he was leaving her bedroom in the early hours of the morning, she chased his lips for a trail of kisses as he reluctantly left for work, promising her he’d return that night; he never did. She spent the next week and a half in a pit of sorrow, his lively personality and euphoric touch being her favorite source of dopamine.
It wasn’t until her girls dragged her from her bed that very day and convinced her to go out that she was able to regain balance on her own two feet. She was a confident woman, a strong character who held her own, and while she was perfectly capable of a life without such an intoxicating lover; she would rather not live without him.
“You were gone for two weeks, Sirius.” She raised a brow, the slow hint of anger in her chest slowly unravelling, overshadowing any sorrow that she held on the frontlines.
He blinked, a taste of bitterness on his tongue, he hadn’t expected her anger. But Sirius Black was not foolish, he hung his head low as he embraced the shame of his actions. Standing in her presence now, there was no excuse acceptable for the time he took from her. He was constantly reminded of how easily she had him wrapped around her finger, and it was that thought in particular that led him to flee in fear of falling deeper in love with her in the first place.
He cleared his throat, “Y/N–”
“I don’t want an apology.” She sighed.
“– You have no idea how much you mean to me.”
She paused. Her poker face was incredibly well put together, a drawn out gaze taking in his demeanor despite the uproar of butterflies swarming in her stomach at his very words. And her heartbeat picked up when she looked into his eyes, dreamy and grey, there was no other match for her.
The moment she opened the door she was in his arms, he’d scooped her up into his hold before she could take a breath, but judging by the way she sank comfortingly into his hold led Sirius to believe she was accepting his affection.
His face tucked in the crook of her neck, pressing light kisses that drew out a soft moan from her lips. He smiled, the familiar sound rang like a perfect symphony in his mind. He continued into her house until her back met the countertop of her kitchen, her back arching as he leaned in closer to her.
“Merlin, I missed you.” He exhaled, his warm breath coating her chilled skin.
She clung to him, the soft, cotton material of his shirt bunching up in her fists as she thought of letting him go again.
“Don’t you ever disappear like that again, do you hear me?” She ordered.
“Never again, love.” He pulled away from her neck and stared down at her in the dim lighting.
He admired her for a moment, his hand raising to cup her face as his thumb drew along her bottom lip. He tucked a strand of hair behind her ear as he leaned down slowly, placing a soft, delicate kiss to the corner of her lips.
“Don’t be a tease.” She whispered.
Sirius smirked, a light, angelic chuckle falling from his lips. He dipped down closer to her, connecting their lips at last. He moved slowly against her, his tongue tracing her lips as his chest warmed at how easily he remembered the shape of her.
She reached up to keep their lips together as she felt him move away, he indulged her, grabbing her face gently in his large hands and pressing a firm kiss to her yearning lips. She only pulled back when he broke into a smile.
“Let’s go for a ride.” He mumbled against her lips.
And she was putty in his hands then, already begging for the feeling of the cool air whipping past her as she clung to him on the back of his bike. She nodded, a giddy agreement that brought a smile to his lips, showing off his pretty teeth. He laughed and grabbed her hand in his, pressing a kiss to her forehead before he led her out to his bike.
He handed her the extra helmet on the back of his bike, the one she wore many times before. Sirius watched silently, his heart soaring at the sight of her so eager to be with him, his skin grew warm at the thought of her arms wrapped around him on the back of his bike.
He tilted his head as he leaned down towards her, he pressed a quick kiss to her lips before he pulled away with a smirk, admiring the grin that rose to her lips. Sirius tugged on his own helmet then revved his engine as he sat down on the bike.
“Hold on tight, love.” He smiled over his shoulder.
Once he felt her delicate hands clasping around his middle, he picked up his boot clad foot from off the ground and drove out of her driveway.
It was night out, the breeze was just cool enough to create a fresh film over her skin without growing chilly. The echo of her laugh had Sirius’ heart pounding, he wasn’t entirely sure it wasn’t a symphony of angels behind him.
He drove her through all her favorite roads, the roads with large turns over the highway that allowed her to toss one hand in the air. They drove through backroads, occasionally stopping at a lonely stop light where he’d reach back and rest his hand on her thigh, gently rubbing his calloused thumb over her smooth skin. The sensation brought goosebumps to her skin and she’d lean forward and press a kiss to the leather of his jacket over his shoulder.
Most of the time their drives never had a destination, it was the cool night and the proximity between the two of them that made riding his bike so enjoyable. But tonight, Sirius pulled off on a backroad they hadn’t taken before. He waved through the turns of the road until he arrived at the vacant lookout just off the road.
“You’ve really outdone yourself, Black.” Y/N teased as the engine turned off, stepping off the back of the bike and taking off her helmet to admire the night sky.
“Had to make it up to you somehow.” Sirius replied, wrapping his arms around her waist from behind and leaning forward to kiss her cheek softly.
He felt her grow tense at his words and he stopped immediately, loosening his hold in case she stepped away. But she didn’t, instead she placed her hands over top of his and interlaced their fingers, running her thumb over the back of his hand.
Sirius felt the weight release from his chest, her physical comfort bringing his mind out of the depths so painlessly. Sirius often thought of her as his anchor, whatever it was that the two of them shared he hadn’t experienced with anyone else.
He leaned down again then, and pressed a much longer, deeper kiss to her cheek, peppering shorter kisses along her jawline to draw out a giggle from her lips.
Y/N led Sirius to the bench that looked over the viewpoint. He released her hand only to jump onto the bench, spreading his legs as his feet sat on the bench while he sat atop it. He held out his hand to Y/N, his eyes remaining on the night sky, and led her to sit between his legs.
Sirius pulled a cigarette from his pocket, the faint smell of tobacco blowing past Y/N’s nose, a tell tale sign Sirius Black was around. He lit the cigarette and held it to his lips, inhaling softly his eyes fluttered closed, his free hand tangling in her hair. As he pulled the cigarette from his lips he rested his chin atop her head and reached his hand around to hold the cigarette between her lips. She took the end between her lips and inhaled slowly, the rush of the smoke filling her lungs and Sirius’ hand caressing her jawline had goosebumps trailing up her skin.
They sat in silence, admiring each other and basking in each other’s presence as they finished the cigarette. Sirius finished it off, moving now to sit properly on the bench, ultimately pushing himself closer to Y/N as she shuffled comfortably in his lap.
“You look good in that jacket.” Sirius mumbled, his voice carrying softly into Y/N’s ear from where his head rested on her shoulder.
“Yeah?” She smiled, leaning her head back to rest against Sirius.
“Yeah,” He nodded, dipping his head down to kiss her jawline softly, “It’s sexy.”
“Oh?” She teased, “I guess it’s a good thing we’ve both got one then, isn’t it?”
Sirius exhaled a humorous breath before settling back comfortably against the back of the bench. He watched Y/N as she watched the sky, his attention easily drawn to the most beautiful sight of the night. Who cared about the sky, he’d seen it plenty of times anyway.
It was quiet for a little longer, and while it was definitely comfortable, there was an empty space waiting to be filled, words waiting to be said that inched closer to the tip of Y/N’s tongue with every passing moment. She debated over whether or not to say something at all, for fear of ruining the moment with her lover, but her mind traveled to the weeks she felt alone and she owed it to herself to know the truth.
“Sirius.” She spoke up.
He hummed in response.
“...Where were you?”
Sirius paused behind her, his body stiffening slightly. The silence from him scared both of them, Sirius, for the lack of response he could conjure, especially to someone like Y/N, who always seemed to read his mind anyway. And to Y/N, for the abyss of possible answers she awaited.
Y/N swallowed, “Were you with… someone else?”
Sirius’ eyes widened, his body shifting from stiff to almost in shock, like all of his muscles flexed at once. He felt a pit in his stomach at the thought of even being with someone else the way he was with her. And although her question stung the very core of his heart, he recognized the consequences of his actions, and his mind ached at the thought of all the fears the girl in his arms had faced in his absence.
He cleared his throat, “I know I don’t exactly have the best reputation when it comes to dating... and you have every right to be wary of me,” He swallowed, “But every moment I was away from you I was alone.”
The weight on Y/N’s chest sank with a thankful breath, and while she no longer felt the fear of her lover being with another, Sirius’ words still hung in the air, unfinished.
“Godric, ‘m a coward, Y/N.” Sirius scoffed under his breath.
Y/N furrowed her brows, shifting in her seat to partially face Sirius. Her hands gently caressed his jawline, lifting his gaze from his lap where he fiddled with the zipper of her jacket to her curious and comforting eyes. He exhaled slowly as he made eye contact with her, the warmth in her presence slowing his heart rate.
“Talk to me.” She exhaled, raising her thumb to swipe over his furrowed brow.
Sirius bit his lip, the words were threatening to spill from his lips, both of them knew he would tell her anything, it was the courage he lacked in getting there that got him into this mess in the first place.
“I was scared.” He admitted.
Y/N tilted her head, moving slowly so as not to frighten Sirius as his walls crumbled brick by brick.
“Of what, Sirius?”
“Bloody hell,” Sirius sighed, almost humorously, “Intimacy? … How ridiculously in love with you I am? The ache in my chest every time I bloody think about you when you’re not around?”
He chuckled lightly, sarcastically, the effect of the intense emotions spilling from his lips going right over his head as he missed the look on his lover’s face; teary eyes and a glowing smile.
“Merlin, it’s like I’m going mad,” He shook his head, “That's why I left, that’s why I was a coward. I was afraid of how quickly I was falling for you, I couldn’t even think straight.”
Y/N felt the wetness of a single tear fall from her eye, coating her cheeks. She swiftly wiped it away as she continued to admire Sirius, her actions and the sniffle from her nose drawing his attention to finally look at her.
“Darling,” Sirius tilted his head, confused by her reaction to his words but moved to comfort her, wrapping his arms tightly around her waist to hold her to him, “I’m so sorry, sweetheart, I promise I won’t ever leave you like that again–”
“Sirius,” She interrupted, her voice soft and gentle, filled with adoration and a pinch of humor. He loosened his hold on her to allow her to look up at him.
“Why are you smiling now?” Sirius furrowed his brows, chuckling lightly as he tucked a piece of hair behind her ear.
“Because I love you, Sirius.” She nodded, “I love you and I always will.”
The thoughts circling Sirius’ mind were too many to count, he had just confessed the fears behind his stupid actions and she was telling him she loved him? He longed to question her, and he would, but the look on her face drew him in like a sailor to a siren.
He cupped her face gently in his hands and brought his lips to hers. He exhaled against her, the initial feeling of her so closely to him had his brain going fuzzy. He was overwhelmed with the feeling of her, the smoothness of her skin beneath his calloused hands and the sweet smell of her shampoo filling his every breath. It was intoxicating.
Sirius guided her hips as she moved to straddle him, her fingers tangled in the longer strands of his hair at the back of his neck. Her nails lightly scratched at the back of his head, tugging softly at his long hair. He moaned softly into her mouth, the feeling had her breath stripped from her lungs. As she moved to deepen their kiss, Sirius suddenly stopped and pulled back.
Y/N looked down curiously at him, lips swollen and eyes hazy, a view Sirius took a moment to admire before he spoke.
“You’re not angry with me?” His voice was so gentle, as if he were afraid of the answer.
She sighed, a light grin on her lips as she kissed his lips softly once more.
“I’m not angry with you,” She shook her head, “I’m glad you told me, even if your timing was a little off. I love you, and the only reason I was so hurt was because I thought you didn’t love me back–”
“Of course I love you.” Sirius interrupted, he smirked as he chased her lips.
She giggled, indulging him with a few gentle pecks to his lips, gasping lightly when he reached up to hold the back of her neck, keeping her in place as he kissed her deeply.
“I know that now, Black.” She teased, speaking softly against his lips.
“And I’m sorry I didn’t say it sooner,” Sirius continued, “But I promise you I will say it every second for the rest of my life if you asked me too.”
“Hmm,” Y/N tilted her head, pretending to mull over the thought, “I quite like the sound of that.”
Without hesitation Sirius kissed her fiercely, only pulling apart to mutter the words he so enthusiastically wished to shout to the entire world, “I love you, I love you, I love you,” he covered her face in sweet kisses, from her cheekbones to her jawline, to her lips.
“Alright, love–” Before she could protest he cut her off with another kiss.
“I love you,” He chuckled.
“You’re ridiculous.” She laughed softly as she caught her breath.
She settled comfortably in his lap as their laughter died down. It was only a few moments before Y/N was yawning, her head falling softly on Sirius’ shoulder as sleep threatened to take over. Sirius smiled fondly, and leaned down to kiss her forehead. He felt the overwhelming intensity of love for her, he felt heat strike in his chest, but he knew now that it wasn’t a feeling to shy away from. Instead he embraced it, allowing himself to indulge in every moment with her.
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gloryofluv · 4 years ago
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How do you think the brothers would react to walking into MC’s room after looking for them to find them lying on bed, headphones in with a full face mask on? I’m talking cucumber slices on the eyes the whole deal. (Obviously Beel is gonna eat the cucumber but hey 😅)
Ah, thanks anon for a fun one! Self care is soooo important! Makes me want to go do a face mask now. Especially if my favorite boys are going to be there.
The Brothers Walking in on MC Enjoying a Face Mask and Self Care
Lucifer-
Busy demon boy. He knocks but is a bit concerned when he doesn’t hear an answer. Actually, a bit perturbed, if we’re honest! (Solely believes you should definitely answer him at whatever time he spends the time to do a welfare check)
Stops at the door when he sees MC lounging on their bed. Amused. Amusement turns to warm fuzzies. There they are, the affliction of his wounded heart, relaxing and listening to music, completely oblivious to watchful eyes.
The face mask even adds a pleasant smell to the room. Well, well, aren’t they a gorgeous, flawed mess? Won’t admit to wanting to encourage this in his personal space. Most certainly won’t confess to wanting to slurp up the peaceful energy of said self-care either.
Instead, he slips into the kitchen, being positive to not being seen. He prepares a relaxing herbal tea that always refreshes him on the off chance of a moment of peace. Once that is brewed to perfection, he will, with deadly silence, sneak into MC’s room and set the cup down.
They manage to peel the cucumbers off just before watching his silent escape. The warm tea is steaming next to them on the night table.
Cute. Stalkery, but cute.
"I enjoy thoroughly that you don't need to be instructed to take care of yourself."
Mammon-
Never knocks. Don’t expect it now. Even after he heard Asmo gave MC an excellent something or other to have some personal time. MC’s time is his time.
He barges into the room with his usual bravado, to note that MC hadn’t even commented. He glances over to see this goopy mess with cucumbers and a towel around their hair. Ugh. Asmo has them into that stupid self-care crap he’s been shoving!
Pouty boy. Wants attention and their attention to be real. He slumps on the bed and removes a cucumber from MC’s eyes. Starts talking regardless of if MC can hear. Then blames MC for not paying attention when they take off their headphones.
Starts a nonsense conversation. Doesn’t care about the topic, but he will continue it as long as MC gives him attention. Will be a blushing mess if MC asks if he wants them to do a mask for him.
Mammon snorts and deflects about that being Asmo’s thing. However, if MC offers to do the whole pampering effect that comes with the face mask… well, he might, ya know, be alright, maybe? Blushy blushy mess.
MC kisses his cheek, and he’s done for, even if he jumps up and spits out about it being gross and crackly from the mask. Has to leave. Cuteness overload. Poor baby boi doesn’t know how to handle soft feelings so well.
“Yeah, well, I gotta go. Maybe when you clean that crap off, you can come to my room. We’ll do something, ya know, together?”
Levi-
Knocks twice. Pissed MC didn’t answer. Glances in and blinks. Oh, they looked so peaceful. Is that the Rui-chan plushie he gave them? Oh, MC is tugging at his heart like an anime trope!
Slides inside and debates on bothering them. Just wants to admire MC a moment while he’s blushing and his brain is sputtering. MC had the plushie against their chest while relaxing on the bed.
Fiddles with his fingers and knows he should leave but likes this. A lot. Wants no one else to bother them. This moment is his. Cute. MC is a cute, adorable anime story waiting to be told. The only thing missing…
MC shifts and peels off a cucumber to reach for the boba tea he bought them earlier. Cue, nervous, mortified otaku!
However, MC doesn’t get upset and waves before taking off their headphones. They say they were just enjoying the TSL soundtrack. Even more blushing??! He can’t handle it and covers his face.
Sputtering about some streaming he needed to do, he tells them not to forget to meet him after dinner for their friendship dailies! Runs, not walks, out of the room.
Clutches his heart the whole way up the stairs and even hides his face from Mammon as he passes him on the stairs. It was just like that anime. I fell in love with a witch, and she didn’t even realize it because I can’t speak. The scene was remarkably similar.
“Ah, yeah, well, I just wanted t-to be sure you’re still coming t-tonight. You are right? I mean, I don’t want to bother you with it, y-yeah?”
Satan-
Knocks three times. Patiently waits. Until he’s not patient. Not happy to be ignored without even a response as to why MC isn’t answering.
Opens the door to see MC on their bed in a face mask. Aww, that’s cute. He likes cute things, and MC is equated to a cat sunbathing in a window. Walks over and touches MC’s shoulder.
MC jerks, but as the cucumber is removed, they smile and pat the bed. He is so pleased. Sitting down toward the center of the mattress, he assists MC to relax against his lap. Without removing their headphones, they comply.
He then opens his book and begins to read while removing the towel around MC’s hair. Ah, yes, this was peaceful and relaxing in so many ways. He was able to stroke MC’s hair and read with them while they indulged in self-care.
Perfection. He even offers to help them clean their face. Sweet little nerd. Knows why self-care is so important and relishes that MC doesn't mind his presence while doing so.
“I know you can’t hear me, but I thoroughly enjoy it when you take care of yourself. It makes me want to take care of you more.”
Asmo-
Barges in. Knows exactly what they're doing when he sees MC. Actually, knows it’s a great idea and skips up to his bathroom for his face mask! Has it prepped and ready to go with his own set of cucumbers.
Races into the room and tucks onto the bed next to MC. They remove the cucumbers and smile with a nod before taking off their headphones. He is so happy! Place the cucumbers on his own eyes.
Talk. Real talk, honey. Will go on about his Devilgram, what he saw at RAD, and even his brothers. All of it is light and airy. No bitching in a pamper session. This is all about that dopamine and good feels.
Insists that they continue with this pamper session with massages and manicures. Won’t mind at all if MC says they want to start doing this weekly. He is there, baby!
It becomes routine, and no one is going to disturb them! Encourages MC to try different masks and will be the guru of making them look as great as they make him feel! Expect cuddles and lots of kisses after the mask comes off!
“Oh! I’m so happy you want to do this! If we can do a whole session instead of just the mask, I will make you feel almost as great as I look!”
Beel-
Hungry boi. Wants to invite MC out for a snack, but no answer to his knocking? Are they alright? He saw them go into their room earlier.
He walks in to see MC on the bed, headphones on, and a mud mask? That’s what Asmo calls them, right? It smells waaaay too good to be mud. Walks over and eyes MC with confused interest.
Had no idea they liked putting food on their face. Food. Sits down on the bed and grabs one of the cucumbers. Tastes just like the sweetness of MC and food. Loves it.
MC smiles and hands him the other before taking off their headphones. Happy boi asks what they’re doing. They answer with a simple answer of self-care. The long day at RAD made them feel tired.
Asks if the mask is edible, to which MC replies and laughing negative. Oh, that makes no sense. It smells good. They offer to do a mask for him but doubt he’d be able to not eat it.
He laughs and nods before asking if they were almost done. He now has a craving for ice cream and maybe a half-dozen of burgers. MC sits up and kisses his cheek before nodding.
He is glowing with happiness and kisses their masked cheek. Unfortunately, he couldn’t help it and licks their face. Definitely doesn’t taste as great as it smells. MC laughs and pats his shoulder, saying they’ll be out in a few minutes so they can get a snack.
“You always taste good, but that mud doesn’t. You still look cute.”
Belphie-
Not a knocker. Doesn’t care to knock. MC is his human, and love knows no bounds. That includes doors.
Walks in to see MC on the bed with headphones and a mask. Cute. Adorable. Cuddly. Now his whole plan of going to the attic is out the window.
Slumps on the bed and buries his face in MC’s chest. Looks up to see they peel a cucumber off to see it’s him and smiles. Thump. Thump. His heart is growing by the second.
MC sighs and starts running their fingers through his hair after placing the cucumber back on their eye. Happy, sleepy boi. Cuddles closer and nuzzles with the equivalent of a sadistic sleepy cat.
MC has to beg him to let them go so they can remove it. He pouts and waits for them to return, only to entrap them in his arms and claim they smell too good to let go, and they feel so peaceful. Time for a nap.
“I love that you smell so wonderful and refreshing. Next time tell me when you’re going to do this so I can enjoy the whole thing.”
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sageyrage · 4 years ago
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Warm Hug
Mentions & Implications: This is a Bakugou x Fem!Reader fic. This is part of the BNHAREM collab. This month is all about our favorite blasty boi, Bakugou! Also I hope all of this makes sense. I wrote this in many parts over the past few weeks and I'm eternally distracted. So while I normally spell check and grammar check everything, this fic did not receive any of that lol. No warnings really unless you count language because let’s face it, this is about Bakugou and according to fandom, he curses. But since this a fluff, I kept it to a minimum. Also, I really suck at fluff, so if you actually like this, please let me know. I could use the serotonin and dopamine.
He watched her glide on water and come sliding to a stop, spraying water in the villain’s face. For the first time he was starstruck. How had he not noticed her before? They were in the same class together. They graduated together, right? Surely he’d trained with her at some point. So why was today the first day he actually SAW her?
She felt eyes on her. Cold, calculated, crimson. Her breath hitched and she almost lost her footing if it weren’t for the fact she remembered she was in the middle of apprehending a criminal. After the handoff to police, Y/N wondered if it actually happened. Did he really look at her? Did he finally notice her after all these years? A side glance from behind her shades told her that yes, he was most definitely looking at her.
He was angry at himself for not remembering. Affirmations about you from Kirishima solidified that you were there. You’d always been there. You’d been quiet, while he’d been loud. You’d been slow and steady, while he rushed ahead. He had Mina speak about you. She eagerly complied and caught him up on everything that made you-you.
“Did you really forget about Y/N being in our class? She hung out with everyone!” Mina laughed.
“Not with me. Tell me more about her.” He filled out paperwork as Mina chatted on, while on the opposite side of the building, Kirishima was having the exact same conversation with Y/N.
“It’s disheartening that he’s just now noticing that I exist. But that’s okay. He’s been hyper-focused on trying to be #1. No one should fault him for that.” Y/N played with the hem of her shirt before sighing and picking up the sandwich on her plate.
“He’s still a good guy, Y/N. He’s just never been good at socializing.” Kirishima took a bite of his food and downed it with a gulp of lemonade.
“Oh I know. It’s okay. I’ll just keep watching him from afar. I don’t want to give him a reason to lose his focus.
/*-+-*/
He watched her in the office. She gave him side glances on patrols. They would discreetly help each other while taking villains down. And then one Winter day he asked her to train with him.
"Oh! Oh sure, that sounds like fun!" He and Y/N made their way to a nearby facility and lost themselves in a few hours of teaching how to support the other with their quirks.
/*-+-*/
"I wanna ask her out on a date, but I don't at the same time."
Kirishima looked at his friend with confusion. "You know it's obvious that you two like each other, right? I mean... literally everyone can see it. You two spend almost every waking minute with each other. What's stopping you?"
"I really like her. I don't wanna scare her away." He rose from his place on the couch and frustratingly ran his fingers through his hair as he made his way to the oversized window.
/*-+-*/
"Can I borrow this? Mine got ripped to shreds when a villain fought me on my way home the other night." Holding up a black sweatshirt, Y/N waved it in front of Mina's face. Mina blinked in thought before breaking out into laughter and nodding. Y/N slipped it over her head, inhaling the faint scent of smoked caramel. “Thanks! I’ll keep it until I can get another one!” With a sly smile, her pink alien friend waved her off and told her not to worry about it.
The cold wind was sharp on her face when she pulled the hood over her head and inhaled. The scent calmed her like a warm hug as she hurried home. Thoughts of a spiky haired man invaded her mind, making her already pink cheeks burn. She loved the man since their first year at UA. He never looked her way, never knew she existed. But she watched him as they faced trials and tribulations as a class, as individuals, and now as heroes. What made him finally look at her? She entered the dark apartment and kicked off her boots in favor of the memory foam bunny slippers, sighing as she shuffled to her room. She fell against the pillows and plushies on her bed and fell asleep still wrapped up in the black sweatshirt, a smile on her face as visions of Bakugou invaded her dreams.
/*-+-*/
“What’s so funny?” Y/N tilted her head, looking at a giggling Mina as they entered the doors of the agency.
“Oh nothing!” Mina sang as she skipped into the room. Bakugou was already stationed at the coffee pot, glaring at it as if willing it to drip faster with the black gold. A side glance stilled his heart for a fleeting moment when he saw Y/N walk in. All smiles and sunshine next to her friend. Then he saw it. Bakugou couldn’t help but notice the familiarity of the pullover. There was a certain tear by the pocket with a singed edge. “Where did you get that sweatshirt?”
She hugged herself in the oversized sweater, “Mina let me have it, why?”
“It’s mine.”
“Oh. … OH!” Shrugging off the garment hastily, she folded it over and offered it to him, “I’m so sorry, Bakugou! I had no idea!” Keeping her eyes down, she heard a soft ‘tch’ and a shadow moving away.
“Hurry up and get changed so we can go train.”
She watched him walk away, and heard stifled laughter behind her. Turning to see Kirishima and Mina huddled together at a corner table, Y/N walked up to her friends and hissed, “What is so funny? He’s clearly upset that I have something that belongs to him!”
“Oh sweet summer child, you really are clueless, aren’t you?” Pinky beamed and grabbed Y/N’s hand. Kirishima shook his head and laughed, “He really likes you!”
Stars lit up in Y/N’s eyes as she turned in time to watch Bakugou turn the corner. “He...likes me too?” Still clutching the pullover in her arms, she quickly followed after him, only to see him enter the locker room. Turning around, she noticed the door to his office was open. She entered his room and left the sweatshirt on his desk before leaving to get ready to train.
/*-+-*/
Hours later, Bakugou walked into his office, narrowing his eyes at the black bundle on the desk. He picked it up to examine it when soft notes of jasmine and vanilla wafted up to his nose. He narrowed his eyes and tucked the shirt under his arm as he took a folder into his other hand and left the agency.
The entryway of his home lit up when he turned the key and opened the door. Kicking off shoes and padding down the hall, he deposited the jumper and folder onto the table before unwinding for the evening. Once evening chores, dinner, and paperwork were all caught up, it was time for bed. He started for his bedroom when he spied the hoodie on the table. Gingerly picking it up he took it to his bedroom and slipped into bed. Cuddling the garment close, he inhaled the vanilla jasmine scent, and all thoughts of Y/N consumed him as he fell asleep.
Bakugou walked into the agency the next morning and took notice of Y/N wearing a new sweatshirt in an ombre gray. Scoffing to himself, he poured himself a cup of coffee. “...look better in black.”
Y/N turned at Bakugou's mumbling, “Hmm? Did you say something?”
“I said you look better in black!” Narrowing his eyes he gave her a severe look and stomped out of the room to his office, slamming the door behind him. He never did see the small smile and blush that crossed her features.
/*-+-*/
Weeks of lighthearted flirting turned into months, and the cool morning of Spring kissed Y/N’s skin as she walked into the lounge room of the agency rubbing her arms for warmth. He was already pouring a cup of coffee when she came in. He cocked an eyebrow and scoffed. “It’s not even cold outside anymore.” He watched her sunshine smile as she stepped near him, only to open the refrigerator door.
“It is to me!” Y/N blushed as she hid her face on the other side of the door, before pulling out a bottle of orange juice and retreated to her office. A bundle in black was draped over her chair. It was the hoodie she had returned to Bakugou months ago. She turned the covering over her arms, the scent of caramel and smoke filling her senses, a smile of giddiness on her face.
“Just tell him already!”
Y/N jumped to find her pink friend leaned against the doorframe. “Mina! I-I can’t do that. He’s got to focus, remember? I don’t want to get in the way of him trying to achieve what he wants the most.”
Mina crossed her arms and shook her head. “You’re so dense sometimes, Y/N. He gave that back to you. He clearly likes you. And you! Your cheeks might as well be permanently pink, and you have hearts in your eyes! Everyone in this building can see how in love you are. I’ve been talking to Kirishima and he agrees with me. We’ve been watching you two flirt for a long time, and it’s agonizing! And you know what? He’s scared of asking you out. He’s afraid to run you off. You’re going to have to be the one to do it. You’re going to have to ask him out.”
Floored by the new information, Y/N sunk into her chair, clutching the hoodie close to her heart. Her mind faltered and unable to form words, she stared dumbly at her best friend. “But- I… He’s scared of running me off?”
/*-+*/
“You just left it in her office? Why didn’t you just give it to her? Everyone in this building already knows you like each other! Be manly and just tell her already, bro!” Kirishima exclaimed, zipping up his duffel bag. “You know what? If you don’t go ask her out, I will. I think she’s pretty cute and I bet we’d have a great time at this new ramen shop that just opened across the street.”
A low growl emanated from the explosion hero, “Don’t you dare.” Still in his hero uniform, Bakugou stormed out of the locker room leaving his best friend to snicker and shake his head.
/*-+-*/
Hearing a familiar stomp down the hall, Mina gleefully smiled before moving aside to allow Bakugou to enter. “I’ll see you later Y/N! I expect a call or text soon!” Mina shut the door as she waved her goodbye, leaving both heroes to stare at each other, their voices trapped from shyness.
Remembering the sweater in her arms, Y/N rose from her chair and slowly walked toward the tall blonde. “You left this for me?”
“Yeah.”
“Are we sharing this hoodie now?”
“I’m letting you borrow it. It’ll keep you warm better than that crappy one you had. It’s going to be cold tonight when we go to the ramen shop across the street.” Shoving his hands into his pockets, he turned away in an attempt to hide the slight blush that formed on his face.
Eyes enlarged with disbelief, Y/N brought the pullover up to cover the astonishment expressed on her face and mumbled, “We? Are you asking me out on a date?” Gazing up at the man before her, she couldn’t help but notice the tips of his ears were turning red. He didn’t look at her when he nodded, but once the bells of her happy voice rang out, he turned and couldn’t stop himself from smiling.
/*-+-*/
*15 YEARS LATER*
“Remember I’m going to be late tonight because Todoroki is holding a study group at his house! Hurry up Harumi, I don’t wanna be late to school because of you!”
“Sorry Raiden! Bye Mom, bye Dad! Love you!”
The door slammed and all was quiet. Y/N stuck her thumbs through the torn holes in the sleeves and started clearing the table when she heard the door of the bedroom shut. Picking up a cup of leftover orange juice, she brought it to her lips when two arms snaked around her waist and she felt a kiss on the back of her head.
“You still have that? It’s worn all to hell. Let me get you a new one.”
Y/N glanced at him mid sip. Smiling into the cup, she finished her drink, her other hand lovingly patted her husband’s arm. Finishing her drink, she wiped her mouth on the sleeve. “A new one? But this is my favorite! I plan on wearing it until it completely falls apart!”
Rolling his eyes, Bakugou peppered Y/N’s face with kisses, ignoring squeals of laughter and the playful pushes against his chest. “Move so I can help you with the dishes before we head to work.”
/*-+-*/
Filing paperwork was the best way to wind down after a long day of apprehending villains. Huddled over her desk Y/N was writing up the last report of the day when the door to her office swung open and her sweaty husband swaggered inside. She narrowed her eyes at his appearance.. Was he wearing a new pullover?
“Just got done going for a run. You ready to go home yet?” Bakugou removed the hoodie, a hint of his waning abs peeking from under his shirt. “Tch. Put those eyes back in your sockets, woman.” Holding out his hand to a giggling Y/N, he pulled her away from the desk and against him for a quick hug before leaving hand-in-hand from the agency.
A sudden breeze blew against the two, causing Y/N to rub her arms. In a side glance, she saw her husband putting on the sweater.
"Sharing is caring, now give me the sweatshirt!"
“Hell no! You chose to not bring your old piece of shit hoodie even though I said it was going to be cold tonight. Suffer the consequences, ya brat.”
“Please sweetheart? I know I should have listened this morning, and you’re right of course. I’m just so cold. You don’t want me to get sick, do you?” Her sugar sweet words twisted around his heart as she gently wrapped her arms around him and tilted her head up and batted her eyes in a most heartfelt manner. Bakugou glared at his wife and paused before grunted his displeasure. With a sigh and an eye roll it was all over. The man scoffed and shook out of the sweatshirt and slipped it over Y/N, pulling the hood over her head.
Face flushed red, the towering blonde pillar looked anywhere but at her. “Dammit woman, why do you do this to me? Next time listen to me and don’t be so stubborn. You’re lucky I love you.”
Enveloped in the warm hug scented of woodsy caramel, she pulled the oversized sleeves over her hands and cupped the tall hero’s cheeks and turned him to face her, “I am the luckiest girl in the world, aren’t I? Thank you for my new hoodie. I love you.”
Lowly growling at the woman before him, Bakugou cocked a brow before breaking out into a smile, shaking his head. “You’re ridiculous, woman, tricking me like that. I love you too. Now let’s get home and have some quiet time before those brats get home.” Putting his arm around her shoulders, he pulled her against him and felt Y/N’s arms wrap around him. He smiled against her hooded head as she giggled and together they walked, their steps in sync toward home.
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thewritergremlin-rae · 3 years ago
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Can you write that NSFW Alphabet with Tony Stark?
Yay my first ask! Doing all of them is quite a lot so I thought I’d just do the letters in Tony’s name, hope you enjoy :D
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T = Toy (Do they own toys? Do they use them? On a partner or themselves?)
He owns them - so many - but I see him being more interested in using them on a partner than himself. Unless....
O = Oral (Preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc)
Tony has had a lot of practice (pussy more than cock) and is happy to show you that practice does indeed make perfect. Need quick release after a stressful day? No problem. Tony wants to tease you until he’s ready? Well he’s got you there too. 
He’s got no shame in admitting that he loves a blowjob. Enthusiasm is key for him. Even if you don’t have a lot of skill, well that just means he gets to dirty talk and guide you through it, tug you up and down his cock and remind you to breath. And if you can blow his socks off from the beginning? He’s never going to say no to that either.
N = NO (Something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)
I really can’t see Tony being into watersports. Some people like it for the humiliation aspect but it’s just too far a step in humiliating his partner - even if they like it. 
Y = Yearning (How high is their sex drive?)
Despite his reputation, his sex drive is actually pretty average. Casual sex is more about enjoying the temporary companionship and the dopamine rush.
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S = Stamina (How many rounds can they go for, how long do they last…)
Two or three rounds for himself but he’ll go a hell of a lot more for you ;)
T = Toy (Do they own toys? Do they use them? On a partner or themselves?)
Unless it comes to testing his own toys. You want something but can’t quite find it on the market? Tony’s on it. Initial testing is done on himself before he’s about 80% sure it’s safe, then you’re in for a lot of testing~
A = Aftercare (What they’re like after sex)
He'll go grab a cloth to tidy you and himself up - unless he already had one on hand. And then cuddles. Sometimes, he’s good for a shower or bath afterwards too but it depends on how messy you get.
R = Risk (Are they game to experiment, do they take risks, etc.)
He’s absolutely taken some risks in his time but he’s settled a bit more into what is comfortable for him but definitely not risk free. He loves teasing you under the table at a formal dinner. Whisking you away to wind you up at parties before you guys return like nothing happened. It’s a game that either has you a quivering mess beneath him by the end of the night or dragging him into a private room to take out your frustrations.
K = Kink (One or more of their kinks)
Tony’s got a pretty big dose of a roleplay kink. His whole life was made for roleplaying banging the secretary. It feels a little different when you call him Mr Stark - he claims there’s something about the way you say it that’s just... naughty. 
While that’s the easiest roleplay fantasy, it’s by no means the only one. He’s happy to take on any role you both might find interesting to figure out new scenarios to fuck you in.
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amyscascadingtabs · 4 years ago
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don’t want to keep secrets just to keep you [chapter 2]
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CHAPTER TWO: see me in hindsight, tangled up with you all night
excerpt below, read whole thing on ao3
Amy doesn't return to the office until after she's spent a good hour at home. First, she showers, washing off yesterday's old makeup and grime and letting the warm water run over her shoulders as she lets the sweet scent of raspberry shower gel replace the vague smell of old beer and sweat. Her back is sore; probably thanks to Jake's lumpy mattress, she thinks, and wonders for a second if she should add buy new mattress to the contract before deciding it’s far too much. That's relationship stuff, and that's point one of the contract; that's not what this is.
She blow-dries her hair and replaces her makeup, taking extra care to try and cover a pink mark that sits just a little too high on her chest before giving up and picking a different shirt instead. Then she fills the biggest coffee cup she has, eats a buttered slice of toast standing up, and feeds her pet fish before rushing back out the door.
She probably looks fresher than most days once she's done, but she's still worried Gina can sense something from her secretary desk as Amy walks in. She raises a brow in greeting like she's actually interested, which is rare in itself, and Amy can feel her eyes on her as she walks into her own office and closes the door behind her.
Amy starts regretting her decision as soon as she's opened a new document. What is she even supposed to name it? Friends with benefits contract is too obvious. FWB-C sounds like code for something. Sex agreement makes her sound like someone who’s read Fifty Shades Of Grey too many times (which really is just once). Jake and Amy is a wedding invitation, Rules too general. She puts her head in her hands, staring at the blinking line, and groans. Then she writes in Jake, looks at that for a moment, and adds stuff after. Not her proudest, but it'll have to do.
Amy’s relieved she doesn't have much work to do today, because she spends every free minute she can come across tweaking details on the document, adding and removing sections to suggest. When she's finally happy with the result, she saves it in a personal folder she can be sure no one’s ever going to open, and praises the office-gods for the fact that she has her own printer.
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There’s a faint smell of artificial lemon in the air of Jake’s apartment as he welcomes her in, and the thought that he might have cleaned for her makes Amy blush. It seems unlike him, but the living room area does appear less cluttered to her than it did this morning, so maybe he isn’t totally incapable of it. She still doesn’t want to check his cabinets.
“You cleaned,” she says instead, nodding to the couch that looks almost neat now. “You expecting to get lucky tonight, or something?” Jake’s cheeks turn an adorable shade of pink, but then he shakes his head and points to her outfit. “You’re one to speak.”
All Amy’s done is put on a maroon floral blouse with lower cleavage than she’d ever do for work and put on a touch of pink lipstick, but he’s not completely wrong. She still chooses to ignore him. “I’ve got the contract. Should we do this, then?”
He offers her an orange soda, which she declines, but accepts a mug of Earl Grey tea from a package that seems to have remained unopened since before the brand last changed its design. A hot drink might calm her nerves, she hopes, but it ends up being quite the distracting experience to watch him make it for her. She tries to read through the contract one last time while searching for spelling errors she knows aren't there, her eyes keep being drawn to his hands as he holds the label of the teabag between his thumb and index finger, bobbing the bag a few times with focus once he's finished pouring the water into a New York Knicks mug. It's hard not to think about how those fingers felt dancing across her skin yesterday, massaging the sides of her breasts and holding on to her inner thighs, and it's harder not to imagine what they'd feel like another time –
“Tea,” he interrupts her thoughts by placing the mug in front of her. “Thought maybe you wanted a cup that didn’t say NYPD on it.”
“Well, you're right in that.” She brings it to her lips, almost burning her tongue and hoping he didn't see. “You want to read it on your own, or should I read it to you?”
Jake sits back in the massage chair closest to her, spreading his legs and putting his palms on them before shooting her that disarming smile again. “You read it.”
Amy swallows hard. “Okay. Section one: relationship status. This arrangement only works if we're both single. We’re not bringing more people into this.”
“What about an open relationship?”
“No. Still complicated. This is complicated enough with just us. If either of us gets in an actual relationship, it's over.”
Jake nods. “Cool. Next rule?”
“Section two: appropriate behavior. We're not dating,” she says, pointing first at herself and then at him with the ballpoint pen she brought from work. “So we can't behave like we're dating. Outside of our apartments, we're strictly friends. Or acquaintances. Honestly, it's weird we're even friends.”
“But you admitted we're friends.”
“Sure.” She takes another sip of the tea. “But that means no public flirting, no inappropriate comments, no like, commenting heart or fire emojis on Instagram pictures –”
“Are these rules for you or for me?” Jake winks. “I know my selfies are stunning, but I’m sure you can control yourself.”
“For both of us. Section three: we part in the morning. No exceptions. Staying overnight is okay, but once we wake up, we’re done.”
“What counts as morning in this scenario? I’m not going to have to get up at six a.m., am I?”
“Not unless you stay at my place when I have work.”
“I’ll remember not to do that, then.”
“Great. Section four – protection.”
“You have an entire section on that?” Jake looks like he’s trying not to laugh.
“It’s important!” She exclaims, feeling herself getting defensive. “I have an implant, so we’re safe from pregnancy, but it’s either condoms or you need to get checked.”
Jake nearly spits out some of his orange soda, coughing slightly. “You must be fun at parties.”
“I’m actually a nationally accredited and registered chaperone.”
“What is that?”
“Doesn’t matter. Are you going to do it or not?”
“Fine. You, then?”
“I will if you want me to.” Amy shrugs. “But I haven’t slept with anyone since my ex, so we should be good.”
Jake’s eyebrows fly up. “Really?”
“That so surprising to you?”
“A little? In the least jerk-ish way possible, you must get, well… offers.”
“People don’t flirt a whole lot with their lawyers,” she says, shifting in her chair and crossing her legs. “And it hasn’t been my focus. Are we good with the contract?”
“Actually, I want to add one more rule.”
“Yeah?”
Jake leans back in his chair, crossing his arms behind his head and flexing his biceps through the green shirt with a smug grin. “You’re not allowed to fall in love with me.”
Amy looks at him for a moment, trying to determine whether or not he’s joking, but he doesn’t waver, so she leans forward and draws a fifth section sign on the blank space left on the document. No developing feelings or this ends, she prints out in capital letters, signing her name on the allotted line.
“Won’t be a problem.”
Jake signs the contract, and Amy tries not to grimace at how messy his signature is as she places the document in a thin plastic folder, promising him a copy tomorrow.
“Cool,” Jake nods. He’s messing up his curls with his right hand again, the way she’s noticed he does when he’s trying to flirt. She wonders if it’s strategy or nerves. “So, are you doing anything else tonight, or...”
“What, contract signing’s got you all hot and bothered?”
“I mean, seeing you in full lawyer mode. It’s not, not hot.”
“Double negation?” Amy scrunches her nose. “Oh, you’re going to have to make that one up to me.”
“Maybe I will,” he says, and she needs only to notice the way his eyes darken to know that it’s on.
Amy can feel her legs still shaking a little as she hails a cab outside Jake's apartment just after, and she closes her eyes in the backseat and wonders how it's possible to feel this amazing, this satisfied from a cocktail of what she knows is mostly dopamine and oxytocin. It still makes her feel all giggly, like she can't stop smiling to herself.
Her phone vibrates in her pocket, and she picks it up to read a text from Jake.
Fucking hell that was SO GOOD.
Maybe this friends with benefits thing won't be so bad after all.
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pollenat · 4 years ago
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ITZY and A moment of sadness
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➛ Trigger warning: angst. The concept resolves around the reader going through a depressive phase and the members’ reactions to it.
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Dark and provoking. Somehow, the world feels worse than immortal killers from cult classics. It’s much more relentless in its pursuit after your peace and it’s not even trying.
You wonder, have you always felt this way, or was there a time when the world didn’t seem as bleak as it does at this moment. Everything looks fruitless. What’s the reason for passing days? What about the changing seasons? How does one go on with a reason? The world does nothing and yet chooses that form of an attack on you. It’s effective.
A knock resonates. Jumping in place, because you were drowning in pain, until the sound, like a rope, pulled you towards the surface, the real world of now, you welcome it with a little bit of hesitation. Who? What? Why? Like a sleepwalker, you walk towards hallway, slow, terrified, blue. The anxiety raises, and you wonder whether it’s not too late to turn back. Pretend you’re not home. After all, there is no emergency to take care of, is there?
The knocking resonates once again, a stark contrast to the silence and calmness of your small apartment. It feels dead although you’re the most living creature that could ever inhabit the four walls. Not even a fly to join you. Just you and the terrorizing knocking on the front door.
A breath in, a breath out. You’re not sure about opening the door even when your hand catches the locking mechanism. The crunch of turning metal travels through a crack in your chest, like water does through split glass. There’s a silhouette outside, one that you instantly recognize as...
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YEJI
Though you’re sure she will start scolding you any second now, a sigh breaks through the plush of her lips.
“(y/n)-” accompanies a soft smile of comfort.
Yeji isn’t mad, though you think she should be. Any other person would be furious at you for avoiding them. But not Yeji. She understands and offers her presence. Always. So in the end - you’re at fault here. For making her worried, hurting her by avoiding contact and being so thoughtless towards someone who’s still by your side. No matter how many may have left you, Yeji would never do such thing. The thought makes your eyes burn. All you had to do was tell her.
She doesn’t wait for you to speak, or cry your eyes out. Yeji’s arms open and lock you in a tight embrace. As she clings onto you, you’re pushed deeper inside the hallway. The sound of closing front door is just a sound. Yeji smells of familiarity and promise that things will be fine. Eventually. Perhaps, with her around it may seem so. Once she’s gone, the spell will break and you’ll return to the spiral of self-pity. It’s a wonder she hasn’t grown tired of you already.
“I’m here. I’m not going anywhere.” says Yeji. Her tightening embrace seems to be an answer to your similar motion.
Your fingers dig into the common material of her coat. It’s cold from the temperature outside. Her helix, leaning against the side of your head suffers the same fate. You were the reason she had to endure it - the cold. Guilt instantly fuels your imagination. You think of her frozen fingers, shaking teeth, teary eyes and itching skin - all of which you’re the reason for.
“Are you overthinking?” She waits a moment until, lying, you shake your head no. “Don’t ever think that I could be mad at you for being sad.”
Her statement is not just any reassurance. It’s her proving how much she cares about you. So much that she knows you’re on a self-guilt spree. Like always when feeling down.
“How-” You still want to ask, but the pain in your throat seems life-threatening.
Her hold weakens, so she can lean back and look at you properly. The avoidance of her gaze doesn’t discourage Yeji. As little as you want to show, her still smiling lips are pushing themselves into your view. Like magnets, they summon your eyes to appreciate the show. It doesn’t last long enough. She pouts, head nodding at somewhere behind you.
“Shh. I’ll make you something to drink, alright? I bought chocolate and other things. Chose the weirdest snacks I could find in the store-”
Yeji’s hands slip down your arms to lock on your fingers. You’re pulled along to kitchen, the usually irritating light of a lamp you hate, no longer as terrible. Frankly, it’s hard to pay attention to anything other than the young woman in front of you. Yeji is a bright star of good vibrations. Just a look at her and you’re feeling lighter, as if the sadness could be weighed and abandoned. You don’t need the chocolate-sized portion of dopamine. It won’t last, though you don’t plan on completely omitting it.
“Good thing I remembered to buy milk, right?” Yeji’s eyes almost close, unable to fight with her raising cheeks. “What would you do without my grocery shopping sense?”
She’s talkative, putting the day’s history into words. You’re listening, eager to catch onto every syllable, focus on something that’s worth your attention. Chocolates are small and last a single bite. But Yeji? She’s a lifetime of dopamine.
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LIA
Before you can recognize the visitor, her hand lands on the door to push it farther. Jisoo has a solemn look on her face. She quickly passes you and closes the entrance, as if she was scared of something awaiting outside. The palms of her hands are flat against the door’s surface. Curtains of dark hair cover her profile, to keep you away from whatever her face may be painting.
You’re trapped in long minutes of uncomfortable silence, filled with thoughts of scary possibilities. Did you do something wrong? Maybe something happened to her? The reminder of many missed calls passes your mind, like an accusatory finger pointing at the main suspect. You want to ask her what’s going on, but words are too difficult to come by.
After what feels like forever, Jisoo turns to look at you. The solemnity falls, so a picture of worry can take its place. She looks as if guilt was chewing her ear off. As if she was the one with a string of bad choices following her.
“Sorry.” Her voice is small. “I was worried you’d- you’d close the door in my face.” A huff of disbelief follows. She seems amused by her own way of thinking.
Unsure how to tackle her behavior, you just nod in understanding. Lips feeling dry, you dare a look around the room you see on a daily basis. Just like you imagine yourself - it’s a picture of pure misery. Slightly embarrassed by the mess, you scramble to collect abandoned belongings. Otherwise Jisoo will surely scold you.
A jacket you had no strength to hide. Shoes you didn’t care for. A jumper you randomly abandoned. In the past they didn’t matter. Now, they’re an irritating distraction.
“What are you doing?” Jisoo catches the jumper’s sleeve.
“Cleaning.”
She clicks her tongue and pulls the material out of your hands. It’s neatly folded and placed on the nearest surface, so you’re no longer bothered by it. But the need to hide it in a closet raises in the place of irritation. You’re staring at the jumper, indifferent to Jisoo’s hard gaze.
“Seriously,” She steps in front of you, taking all of your sight for her. “don’t you think there are more important things than stress-cleaning?” Jisoo’s smile doesn’t reach her eyes.
Embarrassed, you attempt a sigh, but instead of frustration, it’s a sound of a broken heart. Distorted and miserable. Out of what exact reason? Who knows, because surely not you. One moment you were existing, the next one you were feeling guilty for breathing.
Jisoo’s right hand wipes your cheek, probably to get rid of a stray eyelash you haven’t noticed. It’s a kind reminder of the good things, you’d kill to get a hold of. To forget for a moment and focus on something else, other than your mental state. Like the jumper. You want to put it away. Out of sight, out of mind as they say.
“You ignored my texts, calls... Just a single word back would do.” Though you’re the one with dark clouds hanging over your head, Jisoo sounds like she’s in actual pain, all caused by your stubborn silence.
“I’m sorry. I just don- didn’t feel like talking to anyone.”
“And that’s fine. But always let me know you’re around, okay? No talking. Just a yes, or- I don’t know.”
Perhaps it’s the pressure of your terrified gaze. Perhaps the useless silence pushes her into action. Or, perhaps, it’s Jisoo’s own overpowering feelings that make her embrace your middle. She doesn’t look like someone who wants to let go and her tightening grip only proves the assumption. For the first time this eveing, her smile shines with honesty.
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RYUJIN
She looks annoyed. The opening of your front door has her head falling back, a deep breath escaping, eyes closing. You watch her chin, somehow relieved it’s her, somehow more scared it’s her.
“I thought-”
Her raspy voice is terror-inducing. Under other circumstances, you’d love catching onto the rougher parts when she reaches the lows. But now? Now you’d rather tune it out so she doesn’t speak more, so she doesn’t get a chance to say something that may cut through your fragile shell.
“I was seriously worried.”
Without any other courses of action left to take, you open the door wider. It’s only polite to allow the guests in and you have no answer to her statement. But Ryujin doesn’t seem ready to step in, or even look at you. She’s facing the hallway’s wall, sorting out emotions that are a total mystery to you. There’s more to her state than serious worry.
“Why didn’t you answer the phone?” Her question isn’t a surprise. It’s a fact you want to push out of your awareness. Phones are scary. Answering questions is scary. Seeing irritated Ryujin is scary.
“Sorry-” You tell her, lost on words.
Her face finally turns towards you which you answer by looking down at your feet. You haven’t noticed how irritated the cold made your skin. White lines of drought cross your blueing skin tone. Toes drum against a dirty doormat.
“Just a text would be enough.” She says in a much softer tone. “Hey, what’s wrong?”
Though eager to, you don’t allow yourself a look at Ryujin. Who knows how much more heart break you can accept, even if the previous reasons weren’t directly caused by you. Is your head you, or is it a different being? These days, it rarely seems to be an ally, more an enemy.
Steps are taken towards you. Ryujin’s heavy boots stand next to your naked feet. You want to step back and let her inside, but hands catch your cheeks before you can move away. Chin is lifted up. You’re staring at Ryujin and she’s staring back. Into your soul, someone could think. But the thing is, you’re aware she must know now. Her sudden softness is enough of a proof. You’re fragile and Ryujin knows how to deal with characters in your state.
“Did something happen?” She comes closer, so now her warmth is shielding you from a draft.
Hesitation holds you silent for few long seconds that Ryujin bravely faces.
“No.”
“So nothing happened?”
“Nothing happened.”
“So you’re sad?”
A bite on your lower lip answers her. Ryujin nods, dropping her eyes. She doesn’t speak for a longer time, until cold wind’s blowing makes you shudder. At that, a guilty smile crosses her fingers and without turning away, Ryujin kicks the door closed.
“We’ll have to do something about that then.”
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CHAERYEONG
A picture of pure worry. Chaeryeong looks like a puppy that has done something wrong and now feels guilty. But she did nothing to feel guilty of. You’re sure of that. As always, the fault is all yours. Why would she even choose to care for you? Obviously - aside from the kindness of her heart. And now, in a spot right next to the uselessness, you’re struck with guilt.
She wants to say something, but decides to search your face before speaking. Lips close, then press into a thin line. Her eyes drop down before looking at you again. You’re not sure how to answer her unclearly asked question. There’s no clear explanation to your state.
All wordless, you take a step to the side, allowing her inside. Chaeryeong hesitates only for a moment. She’s such a natural view, you’re weirded out by her being frozen in place, unresponsive to your motion. An invisible switch has to be turned on for the pieces to match. Her steps inside are small, anxious. Remind you of her first time at your flat, back when things were alien. But they’re not anymore. Chaeryeong knows everything about the four walls you inhabit, from the most comfortable spot on your couch, to where you hide socks. She’s seen it all. Your gloomy days are where the blank territory rests. Best couch spot won’t help with that and Chaeryeong knows it.
After closing the front door, you turn around to catch her facing you. Dark eyes hang under wrinkles of a strained forehead. For a moment you forget yourself. Fingers, as if having their own mindset, reach forward to flatten her skin. It’s soft and warm, unlike the rooms you’re closed in.
“Don’t do that, or it will stay that way.” Chaeryeong’s frown deepens for a second, but she smiles. You do as well, though the corners of your lips ache.
Her hand doesn’t swat yours away, like it tends to do with a little bit of a joking undertone. Instead, it weakly grabs your wrist to invite you into a hold. Her bright smile doesn’t falter like yours. Chaeryeong’s face remains an anchor, the last reminder of good feelings you’ve once possessed.
“Can we watch a movie?” Her question takes you by surprise. It’s careful, but also so outside of the range of possible topics, you’re not sure whether to be glad or doubtful.
“I mean- Sure?” The smile widens, though it seemed impossible a moment before.
You’re pulled straight on the couch, with no possibility of standing up in sight. Chaeryeong’s hands circle around your arm, her body coming as close as possible, making you wonder whether she has applied glue in-between your sides.
“Next time,” The TV clicks. “just text me.”
Though you’re basically glued to one another, she doesn’t dare even a stray look in your direction. Chaeryeong’s eyes are focused on the screen. You know she’s not watching the random episode of Family Court.
“Text you what?”
“You know what!”
Your question seems to offend her somehow. One of Chaeryeong’s hands slaps your abdomen, but frown is quick to disappear as she lays a cheek on your arm. Only now you notice the warmth she emits, like a human-shaped heater. Comforting, inviting, overtaking. You cannot resist the magnetic pull. Skin rests on her velvet-like hair. Maybe next time you will find the courage to text her, so the smell of her strawberry shampoo fills your senses and pushes everything wrong out.
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YUNA
“Ah, you really couldn’t be bothered to have phone on you? Seriously, who does this now? We’re living in the XXIst century!” Yuna babbles on, eyes staring at you, but not really. She’s so taken by the monologue, your state passes her judgement unnoticed. Knowing her, the speech was in the works her entire way to your apartment. “And to think you usually never let it go out of your hand! But today, you just had to ignore me? What am I to you?”
“Hm?” Her eyes widen, a sign you read as I didn’t meant that last sentence. It was the heat of the moment and, frankly, you don’t care about words today.
Yuna doesn’t continue her rant. Your passiveness is much more interesting to her than the personal feeling of anger. A little dumbfounded, she finally takes her eyes off of you to stare at your front door. She may be lost in thought, but you realize it’s not good to keep the guest waiting outside. Weakly, the door is pushed wide open. Your feet take you back to the couch you occupied earlier.
It takes her a moment to gather thoughts before you hear her stepping inside and closing the door. Then she struggles with the fabrics. You haven’t noticed her current choice of shoes, but you imagine her pulling boots off of her feet. Yuna sighs in discomfort. The noise isn’t meant to be loud. It’s the silent apartment that takes it on a run through every nook and cranny.
A stray pillow occupies your fingers. Yuna walks inside the living room. Her hesitancy is obvious. She may be quiet, but the atmosphere is screaming. Another material is pulled, probably a scarf. Feet pad against naked floor. She stands next to you, staring at where you’re tormenting the poor pillow, before she dares to sit down. Yuna is not good with these things. You know they make her uncomfortable. That’s why you avoided involving her in the first place.
“Are you-” She jumps a little at the volume of her own voice. “Are you feeling alright?”
“I’ll be okay.” Then, so she doesn’t have to wonder, you add “Didn’t mean to worry you.”
“Well-” The paint comes off of the pillowcase’s zipper. “You should worry me with things. You know, when you’re feeling bad and all that- All that stuff.”
There’s an attempt at humor - a huff you don’t understand. Probably meant to portray her powerlessness. You’re aware there’s nothing Yuna hates more than the thought there’s nothing she can do. It’s an energy-consuming parasite that feeds on your anxiety and her inability. So the silence continues, stretched into long minutes. Every time she opens her mouth, nothing comes out of it. Every time you move a little, she jumps in her seat. As if your movement could hurt her.
“Really, you can go home. I’ll deal with- this.”
She doesn’t answer. Not initially After a moment of hesitation and analyzing your features, Yuna dares to scoot over, so your thighs are touching. The lack of sudden movement on your side gives her all the encouragement she needs. Arms are quick to embrace you. Their hold is tight, but maybe not tight enough. The thought isn’t voiced.
“But I don’t want to go home. I want to stay with you. Keep you company. I know I’m not that good with these things, but- I want to be better at it. So just tell me how can I help, or if you don’t want to talk, then I’m fine with not talking too!” Her passionate words land on the back of your neck in a series of rapid breaths. “Just- don’t push me away, alright?”
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isthisthingeven0n · 5 years ago
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broken hearts heal : s.r
you return to the bau after two years alongside emily for an unsolved case having resurfaced, but there is still something lingering between you and spencer, even after all this time. (2k) 
so originally this was kinda inspired by the song ‘lookalike’ by conan gray because heartbreak and all, but it ended up as this beauty. i hope you like it!
m y  e t s y  s h o p
also pls don’t steal my work or share it without crediting, it takes a lot of time and effort to write these!
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“So, when was the last time you saw him?” Emily asks as you sit quietly beside her in the passenger seat, watching the familiar scenes of your old drive to the Bureau.
Tearing your eyes from the windowless buildings and fencing, you quickly clear your throat knowing the answer without having to think. “The night before I left the states.” You answer quietly, even though it’s been two years, the thought of seeing him again worries you.
“It’ll be fine, Y/n.” Emily rests her hand on yours, squeezing it lightly. “They’re our friends, and based on how much we’ve heard from Penelope, they clearly miss us too.” Emily chuckles as she brakes softly at the gates, showing her ID as do you.
Watching the gates open, you can clearly remember the day you left. You drove out of the parking lot for the last time, Spencer hovering by the parking lot entrance as you forced yourself to not look back. And you didn’t, breaking Spencer’s heart in return.
“Yeah, I know.” You breathe out a shaky sigh, rubbing your hands over your trousers. “Two years is a long time to be gone, you know.” Your comment, causing Emily to laugh for a moment.
“No kidding.” She mutters as she climbs out from the car as you both walk towards the entrance to the building and press the button to the BAU like you’d never been gone.
*
“There’s no way we’re going to be able to piece this all together.” Morgan huffs as he and Spencer stand over all of the evidence they found three years ago when the case first began.
JJ walks in, interrupting Spencer’s deep thoughts as his eyes scan over the photos, various reports and their original profile of the unsub. “Hotch thought it’d be best to get in some extra help on the case,” JJ states and Spencer’s ears perk up. “so, I made some calls and well,”
“Emily, Y/n!” Penelope sings happily as you walk out from the elevator, not even making it into the bullpen before you’re engulfed in a tight hug.
Spencer’s body tenses upon hearing Garcia. You’re here. In Quantico, in the bureau, in the United States.
JJ and Morgan exchange a knowing look as she steps out, leaving Spencer a moment with Morgan. “It’ll be fine, pretty boy,” Morgan tells Spencer who snaps from his daze. “It’s just Emily and Y/n.”
“I know,” Spencer mumbles, but it’s not just that, it’s never been just that.
“If it isn’t my favourite Mother and Agent, JJ.” You chuckle, a sound Spencer has longed to hear since you left as he steps out from the conference room, his hands in his pockets like a shy teenager as you and Emily greet everyone.
Emily is the first to catch Spencer’s gaze, the tiredness in his eyes as prominent as ever. But that isn’t what caught Emily’s eyes in the first place, it’s the lovesick look written across his face as you stand with your back turned to him, oblivious to his presence.
“Hey, Spencer,” Emily speaks up, causing your voice to falter as JJ and Morgan both glance over your shoulder as you pause. “how have you been?”
“Good.” Spencer forces a small smile to Emily. “How’s London?”
Shrugging her shoulders, Emily chuckles. “Cold, pretty damp most of the time, but it’s good to have an old friend with me.” She motions to you, stepping aside as you turn around to face Spencer for the first time since that rainy day two years ago.
Locking eyes with Spencer’s, you can see so many changes in him as you subconsciously scan over his face. He’s looking more sleep deprived, but those crows feet around his eyes make your heart melt. His hair’s longer than you remembered it being, his curls bouncing across his forehead as a smile ghosts his lips.
“Hey, Y/n.” Spencer is the first to speak up, and for a moment you forget the team is around you as Emily motions for them to all move into the conference room, giving you both a moment in private.
“Hi Spence.” Your voice is soft, delicate even and Spencer tries his best to remain composed.
He wants to tell you that he’s missed your voice, he’s missed the evenings you would spend together outside of work. He wishes he could take it all back, tell you the truth instead of a misconstrued lie to help you when in fact all it did was hurt you.
“It’s kinda strange, being back.” You add, looking around as you keep your hands hidden in your pockets, something you did when you were uncomfortable as Spencer remembered, there’s not a detail about you he could ever forget. “Not much has changed, clearly.” A forced laugh leaves your lips as you look back at Spencer.
“They replaced the filing cabinets in the storage room, and Garcia got a few new monitors last year.” Spencer explains, finishing with a curt nod as silence looms over you both like a thick fog.
“God it’s painful to watch.” Emily seethes from inside the conference room as JJ stands beside her, her arms crossed over her chest. “They used to be so happy together.”
JJ sighs as Spencer rolls on the balls of his feet. “Did Y/n ever tell you about what happened the day she left?”
Emily shakes her head. “Do you?”
“Like Spence would tell anyone.” JJ scoffs lightly, turning around as Hotch calls them both before stepping out, saving you both from anymore attempted interactions outside of the case.
*
You had been working on the case for almost a week with no new leads despite three bodies having surfaced from the unsub. It was draining and infuriating that you were no closer now than you were three years ago.
“Come on, what is different, why has he come back after three years?” You think aloud, looking around the room as all eyes remain cast down, except Spencer’s.
“Clearly there’s been a trigger, a special date or anniversary to the unsub. We know he killed Victoria Ellis on the ninth of June,” Spencer states, but you sigh quietly.
“It doesn’t match up, Spencer.” You cut him off abruptly, catching the rest of the team off guard, Spencer included as he closes his mouth, his heart sinking as you mutter an apology.
“Okay, Prentiss, you and Y/L/N go to the newest crime scene, Reid and Rossi visit Killian Harron's family, see if they know anything about a new person in his life. The rest of us will stay here, whilst Garcia works through old reports when the case first started.” Hotch announces, and you cannot stand up fast enough and exit the room.
As you stand by the elevator, Emily walks out. “What was that about?” She asks, holding her arms up as you roll your eyes. “Don’t start acting like a kid, Y/n. It’s not a good look on you.”
“I didn’t mean to snap at him.” You admit as the doors to the elevator open and you both walk in. “It’s just, whenever I look at him all I can think about are his last words to me.”
Emily pats your shoulder as a weak smile forms on your lips. “Why haven’t you ever told me about what happened that night?” Emily questions quietly as the metal doors slide open, and you step forward, shrugging her hand off your shoulder. 
“Because it still hurts to think about it.” You comment, exiting the bureau and opening the door to the SUV, slamming it shut.
*
After almost a month, you find him. You found the unsub after almost sixteen murders across the country, each more brutal and violent than the last over the course of three years, it was over. 
Sitting in the bullpen you carried on writing the last of your paperwork, knowing you were cutting it fine before you had to go to the airport.
“Are you sure you can’t stay just another day?” Penelope pleads as she stands by your side, her hands bound together.
A light laugh leaves your lips as you close the last of your files. “I wish we could Pen, but I’ve got to get home.”
Home. The word pangs through Spencer, causing his heart to ache as you’ve moved on, moved elsewhere to a new place with a new job, somewhere he isn’t.
“I’ll call you as soon as I land though.” You tell her, bringing her into a tight hug.
“Oh fine, and tell Grant I said hi.” Penelope adds as you finish saying your goodbyes to the rest of the team, leaving Spencer until last.
Spencer rises to his feet as he walks towards you. “Mind if I walk you out?” He asks quietly.
“Sure.” You nod, walking alongside him as you wave to the rest of the team, leaving Emily to finish her goodbyes.
Once out of sight, Emily sighs heavily. “God, she’s going to break his heart.” She admits, and Penelope nods in agreement as a sad smile forms on her lips, knowing when their resident genius returns, he will never be the same.
Walking slowly with Spencer, you reach the spot where you said your last goodbye, convinced you’d never see him again. Yet, here you are, doing it all over.
“Thanks for walking me out, Spence.” You tell him quietly as you bury your hands in your jumper, a cold chill in the air as the breeze picks up, blowing Spencer’s curls to one side.
“I just wanted to say this in private, Y/n.” Spencer smiles sweetly to you, his hand reaching out as he brushes your hair out of your face, watching your eyes close at his warm touch. “What I said that night, I’m sorry. I’ll never forgive myself for that, for letting you leave and not trying to make amends.” Spencer explains, but you shake your head.
His hand remains on your cheek, and you lift your hand up, resting it on top of his as you hold back tears. “Spence, you don’t have to, it’s okay.” You try to reassure him, but Spencer remains adamant, he has to tell you this.
“Y/n, I, I’ll always love you. I always have done and I always will. I, I was such an idiot for not saying it sooner. I know the feeling of falling in love is just a chemical mix of norepinephrine, dopamine and phenylethylamine, but with you, I don’t care!” He gleefully laughs as a tear slips from your eyes, burying themselves inside his palm.
“Spence, please,” You quietly cry.
“Just please, Y/n. Don’t leave me again. I want to be selfish for just once in my life. I, I’ll move to London just, please,” His voice becomes quieter as your other hand reaches up and that’s when his eyes lock on it, the small diamond ring.
“I’m sorry, Spence.” You whisper as his hand drops from your cheek, the cold air now attacking the remainder of the warmth on your skin, tearing the soft moment away before you can savour it. “It’s too late.” You step away as Spencer stares in disbelief, his lips parting, but no words follow. “You’ll always have a special place in my heart, Spencer, but I couldn’t wait forever.”
“I understand,” Spencer whispers as he tucks his hair behind his ear, trying to distract himself to remain composed in front of you. “I hope you’re happy with him, Y/n, truly.” He tries to hide the pain in his tone, but to you, it’s never been more obvious.
“Thank you, Spencer.” You tell him as you wipe your eyes. “I know you’ll find someone one day, and they’re out there for you, I promise.” You extend your hand in front of his, hoping he’d at least shake your hand after all this time.
But Spencer pats your hand away, bringing you into a tight hug as tears fall down his cheeks whilst your back is turned, but you can hear how fast his heart is beating. “Goodbye, Y/n.” Spencer breathes out into your hair before pulling away.
“Goodbye, Spence.” You chuckle as a watery smile lines your lips as you walk away towards the car, just like you did two years ago.
Opening the car door, you release a quiet sob as Emily brings you into a tight hug. “It’s okay, Y/n.” Emily soothes you as you sit upright. “You finally got the goodbye you both deserved.” She reminds you as she starts the car up.
“Yeah,” You nod in response as you glance through the side mirror, seeing Spencer still stood there as he wipes his eyes before you disappear out of sight once again, knowing things will never be the same. “that’s what hurts the most.” You force yourself not to look back, and as a result breaking Spencer’s heart completely for the last time. 
“The saddest thing about love is that not only that it cannot last forever, but that heartbreak is soon forgotten.” - William Faulkner. 
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