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chibo while i practice facial structure, I am gnawing on this man he's doing things to my mental health
#jrwi#just roll with it#jrwi riptide#just roll with it riptide#chip#jrwi chip#chip lastname#chip james#chip bastard#literally save me from this stupid man#i hate him i hate him i love him so much#cringe ass nae nae captain#look at him#look at his face#look at his haunted eyes#look at his stupid little trinkets#how can i obtain this man irl
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see, like, sometimes i see bsd fans commenting about how it's weird for asagiri to make the tanizaki siblings incestuous or the whole lolicon gag with mori and elise but the thing is both of those things are based on the real life tanizaki junichiro and mori ougai's works
naomi is, of course, based on the novel naomi, a story about a man who groomed a young girl into a westernized woman and it ends up with her turning the table by dominating his life. which is why the junichiro in the manga is unable to say no to his sister. while the irl work is mostly a commentary about the cultural change in taisho period, the siblings in the manga focuses on the unhealthy relationship of the protagonist jouji and naomi. you might find it disgusting and that's okay. but the character dazai is also created based on the real dazai osamu's uncomfortable depiction of humanity's ugliness. it just doesn't make sense to allow one depiction but not the other.
elise is named after the love interest in the dancing girl, but the power that creates her is named after the real mori ougai's erotic novel that is secretly about his own sexual experiences. you can argue that there is no need for elise to be a child because the character in the dancing girl isn't one, and vita sexualis itself is more about the author-slash-protagonist's struggle with having sexual desires in a society that champions moral purity.
but the thing is elise isn't even a fanservice character. she isn't depicted as someone the audience should find desirable for one. when it comes to lolicon fanservice you can expect either excessive depiction of innocence or at the very least elise getting jealous when mori gives attention to someone else. but even her mocking is just that, mocking. we were never shown her returning mori's affection even in a tsundere way.
the biggest hint is actually the fact that in beast au, a timeline where mori gives up his position as the mafia boss, elise is an adult. it shows that the child form of elise is symbolic of mori's desire to control those with the power he wants to obtain i.e. dazai and yosano. it's so much easier to gain power over other when they're a child and you're the authority figure, after all. so when he no longer chases after that ambition, elise becomes an adult.
tldr; asagiri didn't necessarily make tanizaki siblings and elise for the sake of fanservice but it's definitely because he actually pays attention to the literature that inspires him
#bungou stray dogs#tanizaki junichirou#junichiro tanizaki#bsd tanizaki#tanizaki naomi#naomi tanizaki#bsd naomi#mori ougai#ougai mori#bsd mori#bsd analysis
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Hope you don't mind me making this it's own post but I wanted to go more in depth than a comment would make. I'm breaking this into two parts: deck building and obtaining cards
Part 1 - deck building and what to build around
If you're just starting to get into MTG, the biggest advice I can give for deck building is to focus more on card synergy than on building a big collection.
What I mean is this - there's a lot of strategies that work really well in mtg, but it can be really overwhelming building a deck when there's so many options available. The best way to counter this is to pick one strategy and make sure your deck does it well.
For this example I'm gonna turn to the current set, and find a card that we can use to build around. Bloomburrow (the most recent set at the time of this writing) is mostly focused on kindred decks, meaning decks that do well when you have a lot of the same creature type. For this example, I'm going to use this guy:
Squirrels. Sure. Why not?
We're gonna kill our opponent with squirrels.
So the above creature has a power and times of 2/2, with it's ability, if another squirrel is on the field, it becomes a 3/3, and so on. He's a rare, so might be a bit tougher to come across, but easier to get our hands on than a mythic rare card.
Let's see what cards work well with him.
Ah, here we go.
Notice how each card here synergizes with squirrels. Our dreyleader is uncommon, and arguably better than the rare we built the deck around. It doesn't have a constant +1/+1, but it starts out with counters that functionally give the same thing, and it keeps those counters if your creatures start to die. It also gets another every time a squirrel or food enters the battlefield under your control.
Squirrel nest and chitterspitter will be great for pumping out more squirrels, but chitterspitter has the extra benefit of giving your squirrels a buff by sacrificing one. All of these buffs stack, so having squirrel horde and chitterspitter both out will give the horde +2/+2 for every squirrel.
From here you can throw in more cards to pump out tokens, or other squirrels that have other effects. There's a few ways this can go, but finding 2 or 3 cards to base your deck around helps alot.
A few other notes -
In most formats you can have a max of 4 of any card. You have to have a minimum of 60 cards in a standard deck.
But Cece? You say, what if I want more than 60?
That's the devil talking. The closer you are to 60 cards, the more likely it is you'll draw one of the cards you actually need.
What about land?
This really depends on the deck. Arena uses 24 as the default, but if you have a lot of cards with low mana cost, you can go fewer. If you have a lot of resource heavy cards, you need to go higher. This deck seems to revolve around cards with a mana cost of 3, which is fairly low. We can probably get away with running fewer lands.
My suggestion: count the man's symbols in the top right of every card. You should start off with about half of the total number of mana symbols for your lands, and then adjust from there.
Part 2: obtaining cards
Since you're playing arena, you get a chance to practice already. The easiest way I find to get cards both in arena and irl is by doing drafts.
Drafting is fairly simple. You open a pack, pick a card you want, and pass the pack to the left. At the end, you use all of the cards you've picked and some lands to build a 40-card draft deck. You then compete against other drafters in best of 3 matches to potentially win more packs of cards.
Best case scenario you get the top prize, but most players will usually come home with an extra pack or two.
In the worst case scenario, so long as you picked cards that work with each other, you go home with the same amount of cards that you would have by spending the same amount on booster packs, and all the cards you picked out are cards you chose yourself instead of random ones.
MTG arena has a quick draft that's pretty easy to get into, and is good practice for the real deal. Don't bother spending gems on the deluxe draft. Just save your coins from playing until you can quick draft.
If you don't have drafts near you, then I'd suggest getting the larger packs that come with lands. You can usually get at least a couple decks built out of it. Most sets usually also have starter decks that you can just buy outright and tweak as you go.
A few other points -
1. Multi color decks are fun, but generally more difficult to build in a balanced way because you have to rely more heavily on balancing your lands to get the cards you need. I suggest no more than 2 colors per deck if you're a newer player until you get used to seeing how they mesh with each other.
2. Rarer doesn't always mean better. Some of the best cards in the game are commons. Focus on how they talk to each other instead of how valuable they are when building. That super rare card you pulled is useless if it doesn't have anything to work with!
3. Try every strategy at least once. My least favorite color in magic was black when I started. Now it's the color I personally do best with.
4. If all else fails, my fallback strategy is to take all my red "burn" spells (anything that does direct damage), mix em with some cheap creatures with high attack and low defense, and play super aggressive. This is called "red deck wins" and is a great way to make people mad at you.
Any questions let me know! I'm always happy to help new players get their feet wet!
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Jess Watches // Sun 17 Nov // Day 413 Synopses & Favourite Scenes & Poll
Ugly Betty (with mum) 4x13 Chica and the Man
Wilhemina is furious when she discovers she has a drag queen impersonator - Wilhediva Hater. Meanwhile Betty receives an award for her blog, which causes tension between her and Daniel. And Marc runs his own photo shoot with a famous director and actress.
A silly set up that ended strongly. Betty and Daniel are ajusting to a more balanced work life and friendship. Wilhelmina was being dragged by her irl brother, but she saved the best for last with her showstopping performance.
Buffy the Vampire Slayer (rw) 4x16 Who Are You?
Having switched bodies with Buffy, Faith enjoys freedom. Meanwhile, Buffy finds herself at the mercy of the Watcher's Council.
Did SMG get any recognition for this ep in particular? "Because it's wrong" if she didn't. The changes in how she moved and spoke were delightfully impressive, and hot af.
Star Trek: Prodigy 2x08 Is There in Beauty No Truth?
The crew detours to a colony of non-corporeal entities, who offer Zero an opportunity to obtain a physical body. Janeway discovers Dal's real intentions.
"I fear I'm a burden, but I do what I can... keep watch one day, a funny quip the next."
"I've always had this uncertainty and emptiness within, yearning to experience life, to touch and feel as you do. It might be what I've been missing."
"I've waited so long to do this. *group hug* ( sighing happily ) Now this...this feels... glorious!"
"Perhaps my body will degrade, and my senses will dull. Or maybe this is the first step in a journey of self-discovery and unknown possibility. Either way, I'll take it with those most important to me... my family."
#ugly betty#buffy the vampire slayer#star trek prodigy#polls#tumblr polls#jess watches#day 413#that prodigy ep felt very real to disabled me#oof
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Hello, I know none of us can truly know why men do the things they do, but I wanted to know your thoughts and opinion about why mean, nasty women are able to find husbands. Recently, I've dealt with some pretty nasty women who treated me like I was nothing, even in front of their husbands. The men usually give me a solemn or embarrassed look as their wives verbally abuse me, which let's me know that they know their wife is an asshole. I know there's the whole "men like bitches" thing, that goes around in this sector, but the women I'm talking about are downright cruel. It's the type of behavior that you would think would keep most women single. I would be completely turned off by women who acted like this, if I was a man. Do you think most women start off sweet, get a ring, and then become this way? Or do you think there are some men who see no problem with marrying a cruel woman? I'm just so confused by men, because they say they want nice friendly women, but often times the worst women I've ever met have had the longest marriages. I just don't know what to make of this lol.
Hi love! I think you make a great point about how many men don't care or consider how their women partners/spouses treat other women when evaluating the potential for a relationship with another person. It's a shame, really. However, I personally believe (and have seen in IRL) that many women who are cruel to other women are the same women who kiss up, dote over, and worship men to an unhealthy degree. These cruel women, oftentimes, are the living definition of "pick-me."
I believe these women (wrongly) see other women as their lifelong competition. Their ability to obtain and sustain male attention/partnership is how they define their worth. Men's egos are inflated/continuously nourished by these women's desire to please men. These women are nice and friendly but only to men. "Achieving" a partnership with a man is their life status symbol. And for many of these women is their primary focus and, potentially their sole, source of self-validation.
Hope you found this take helpful xx
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Pikes Summer Check-Up 2024 Edition
Started to go “hm I still have to unlearn the don’t speak unless spoken to mindset that I have” but remembered I could do a checkup post instead!
Current life updates:
Right now I’m saving up for conventions happening this August, though plushie collecting & Steam summer sales miiiight have interfered. Whoops. (…and I wonder if I should get back to my FE Cipher card collection). My next big-ish trip is visiting my middle school best friend with another high school friend. I’m also hoping for my next big trip this year to be Boston in late September to meet with a friend. After that, it should be a trip with my middle school best friend to a farm, something Halloween related with IRL friends depending on what they want to do, no clue for November, and seeing relatives for New Year’s.
Gonna see if I can reorganize my closet since everything in my room got reassembled when we got new flooring. Feels cluttered as a result. Hopefully my back won’t kill me.
Might have jury duty next week too OTL
What I’m watching:
Current schedule for watching anime is as follows:
Mondays - Digimon rewatch along with Spice & Wolf 2024. I really like Lawrence and Holo’s banter. For Digimon I just got to where Mimi obtains her Crest. Man adult me really just became Joe, huh.
Tuesdays are filler at the moment since I need to wait for Pokemon Horizons to update on Nettingtonflix (I watch the dub) and I finished Kakuriyo. Part 2 of Kakuriyo was…eh, I guess? I noticed stiff animation a lot and I didn’t really get the sense of drama/urgency that I was expecting. Might throw in some more Digimon episodes until Horizons updates. (I’m liking it so far, though it’s not something I’d shout to the heavens about)
Wednesdays - Baccano finally. I might need to rewatch some parts because they retell events from different perspectives, but I see repeats and get confused if I already watched the episode or not because of that.
Thursdays - Moribito. I’ve heard this show was good, though I think I need to rewatch this one as well since I miss important info when something dramatic’s not happening. The curse of having a show as background noise during your lunch break at work.
Fridays - Jojo’s Bizarre Adventure rewatch. Friends were talking about watching it so it got me interested in rewatching once more. I’m still on Phantom Blood but I’m excited for the rewatch until I hit Stardust Crusaders. Unfortunately it’s not my favorite part and it’s the longest.
Saturdays - My Hero Academia and Sakuna: Of Rice and Ruin. I’m gonna see if I end up liking Sakuna more as an anime or as a game. As for Hero Academia, I’m really liking how this current season’s hyping up the finale. And with the manga ending next month, I kind of hope Vigilantes can be animated
Sundays - Tower of God season 2 and My Deer Friend Nokotan. Nokotan kind of reminds me of Lucky Star, but I’m hoping the shitposts aren’t just making fun Koshitan. Tower of God season 2 looks pretty promising. Though I lament that God of High School had to rush everything into 1 season.
I’m getting hyped for TYBW part 3 subconsciously and also hope the light novels get covered.
In terms of stuff on Youtube, it’s mostly let’s plays for games that I want to see if I want to play them myself. I appreciate that SMT 5 Vengeance fleshed out certain characters more, but damn. I also finished watching the ProZD Plays Ace Attorney 2. Franziska is wonderful, I wish she was in a different game. I liked case 2 the most in spite of Hotti’s mere existence.
What I’m Playing:
Stopped TTYD in the middle of chapter 6 since I didn’t want to deal with the turning platform section. So now it’s back to 428 Shibuya Scramble. I’m in the 3 PM section of the game now and things are getting spicy. So far my rankings of the routes are Tama > Minorikawa > Osawa/Achi > Kano.
I also have quite a few fighting games in my Steam library now! I still only button mash, but I’ve been playing with some folks in the Granblue community and my friend Merlin. My “don’t speak unless spoken to” mindset unfortunately kicks in when it comes to inviting people to play games, though. Like granted people are busy and I don’t want to bother them but aaaaaaa (so if you wanna play with me on Steam I’m free most weekends. Though my wrist may fatigue itself too. F)
I’m also contemplating if I want to have various small fics in a collection or add alternate endings in my main Bleach fic
AND NOW, I end asking how ny’all are you doing. Any cool things on your end?
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@highlighteretcigarettes okay so just posting tags separately because that post was getting long and this is now a whole side topic BUT!!! Re: witch-washing.
Bullet points just to organize my thoughts:
Wrt to the marketing of it all, this is something I noticed first in bookstores as someone who used to constantly hang out in the religion sections as a tween. It used to be that in chain bookstores "New Age" was either right next to general religion (aka mostly Christianity and then small spots for everything else), OR one aisle over. Nowadays I've noticed chains like B&N put MUCH more distance between the two areas - like one of my local ones has them in wholly different floors. And it's now "Spirituality" I think? A lot of the category labels seem to no longer say neo-pagan/pagan or even new age, it's just "spirituality" and "astrology."
Actually I think this is very intentional. I think I've seen this in indie bookstores too, but B&N is a definite for this: they shelve next to diet, health, and cookbooks now. Not religion. Keep in mind I grew up in a red state in a heavily Christian area, and back then, new age was still in the same general area as the rest of religion at the local Borders or Walden's or B&N. Now, it's holistic health, diet, exercise, cookbooks, and spirituality.
It doesn't escape me that this is entirely "things we can market as lifestyles that someone can buy into." These publishers clearly broke into the capitalist market and have thrived there. I suspect that for the booksellers and publishers, the distancing from the rest of religion (a "status quo") is intentional. It's like what hot topic is to goth subculture.
Although like you said, I don't think this is limited to chain stores even. I've seen plenty of small new age/spirituality/pagan shops irl, and can't recall a single one that didn't also sell tons of cheap mass produced trinkets, often hyping up their hand crafted quality or the exoticness of the item obtained. Cheap mass produced junk is probably in every religion of course, but yeah, there IS a bigger sense of "buying things" in some religions more than others. Christian evangelicals do this with precious moments figurines and their wall o'crosses decor. Pagans have their own versions of that kind of spiritual consumerism. I do often walk away with the sense that if there was a market population to support it, it would be just as capitalistic and hallmark-y. Lots of shit on Etsy is mass produced and repackaged too.
Idk if it's also free elsewhere off the top of my head, but there's an article you could read free on jstor if you sign up - search "plastic shamanism" and man oh man. 10/10 article about cultural appropriation and mass marketing of indigenous religions to non-natives.
(You probably relate to this sentiment): I am Begging EVERYONE, pagan or not, crystal bitch or otherwise: STOP BUYING LAPIS LAZULI!!!! STOP. WHO EXACTLY DO YOU THINK IS EARNING MONEY FROM MINING IN AFGHANISTAN? PRAY TELL?? Stop buying this one expensive blue rock for your energy aura or whatever.
(Also this one): Also as the child of a parent who grew up in a mining company town, and whose grandfather was a chemist for the company, (and who loved me a shiny rock long before crystal everything): stop buying overpriced rocks constantly. At least CONSIDER how they obtained these particular rocks before you buy them willy nilly. Don't buy 30 million crystals and geodes and whatever else mined and polished and all of that, and then claim to love the environment without any sense of irony. The best and coolest rocks are the ones you find and pick yourself anyways, everyone knows that.
I think this is true of any religious objects but like, the best ones are either personally crafted OR made by small artisans and it just sucks that a lot of small businesses try to pass off their goods as things they actually personally designed (even for factory production) or made, when they didn't do either. I personally have taken a lot of time purchasing/obtaining my permanent basic Judaica for a variety of reasons, my feelings about consumption and things (and Jewish thoughts on craftsmanship and beautiful things), being part of that. I think a lot of people have that struggle, where religious objects so often are kinda...produced like they're just future garbage - again, in any religion.
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Don't you think it's funny cause actual canon gay characters in BL manga will say "I love you" but only the shounen bromance can spew out some of the most romantic shit akin to a 19th century poet writing a letter expressing his surpressed love for his lover 😭.....
Hahaha, I definitely think it's pretty hilarious that the "no-homo, we're just bros" stuff often does produce insanely over-the-top romantic nonsense fdlgkjdflgjd It's like so you're telling me that you totally like girls and everything just fine but your entire character arc and motivations and blah blah are completely centered around another boy??? Sure okay, yeah. 👀 Like why are you as a man--
No but I think it also definitely relates to how "straight male culture" IRL is so... homoerotic in many aspects, often because of the same reasons (i.e. they're obsessed with how other men perceive them, and women are just kind of seen as objects to obtain in order to please other men) ANYWAY I obviously don't want to go too deep into that or else I might start getting weird ppl crawling all over my blog HAHA!
Also there's something to be said for the fact that "we" as a queer audience are doing a LOT of heavy lifting in these cases. Often because it's a genuinely more interesting interpretation, or just more fun lmfao. I don't have a lot of faith in most shonen authors to do any of that shit intentionally, because, well, they're shonen authors. 😭
#Anonymous#asks#like you guys are not ready to hear me talk about one of my favorite ships. if you're on my main blog you'll see i'm a HUGE timkon stan....#and even though DC has been like 'they're just bros' for like three decades#one of them literally tries to clone the other back to life even knowing it wont be the same but bc he's so desperate to have SOMETHING#of his 'best friend' back.... and its like#that is SOOOO homiesekual i dont even know where to begin#at least timmy was canonically confirmed as bi and TO BE HONEST... average derange bi person behavior (source: me)#anyway.
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Guilt
Media IRL x Historical Fantasy
Character Thomas Brodie Sangster
Couple Thomas X Reader
Rating Spooky + Sweet
Concept Visiting
I sat hidden from the light I once embraced, the thick curtains blocked every window, every door, every crack of which sight and rumors could be obtained. I was lit only by the fire's flame as it tore away at the wooden logs before it. But these flames provided no heat, no light, no comfort. They treat me like a fool, unaware of my failings and deterioration, always speaking as if they do not exist. I know my body better than any of them and I know how it fails me now. They had locked the castle up tighter than a preacher's Bible grip all to keep the secret within. The secret that I grew ever closer to my meet with death. I had always had this meeting scheduled even if I had pushed it back more times than I can count. I no doubt kept him waiting and now he had no mercy for me. I just wanted to be alone anyway, there is knowone in this castle or on this land who could bring me comfort. I moved from my chair trying to move away from the light.
"Why must you run from the light." Her voice spoke up I didn't want to look at her still angry at her, and honestly still guiltily.
"Because I don't want to face it"
"You never did want to face the lights, always huddled in the dark"
"What do you want? Liza?"
"I don't know why I bothered, but you know why Im here"
I turned and saw her as I always did, withered and hurt in her long cover all dress with her chains glimmering in the fires light.
"To torcher me"
"Not to torcher. You know how I feel about torcher"
"Always the pacifist. Until it suits you"
"I come purely as a tell, of the time at hand. You know the time Thomas. Don't run from it. You know it will only make it harder for us all"
"All? I suppose your all here? To judge me? To tell me of my fate?"
"No Thomas. Only to see you" she says "I have missed you, I have always love you Thomas always."
"Love me? Don't don't forgive me"
"I will never forgive you." She says "have you forgiven yourself?"
"... No. But I don't regret what I did" I told her and she nodded giving me that look "don't. Don't give me that look." I told her "I don't regret what I did so don't stand there and pretend I should! I never wanted to be your husband, I was thrown you like giving a dog a bone. For politics and government plans. You where never the woman I wanted!"
"And you where never the man I wanted. But I made the best of the cards I was dealt" she says "I loved you because I had to. And still I will love you no matter what you did to me"
"Go. I don't want to see you"
"Thomas…"
"Go! I don't want to see you!"
"Because you know what you did?"
"I don't feel guilty!"
"I never said you did. Very well I'll go, I'm sure you'll find your way to the light and of not… I will pray for you in the dark"
I forced myself away going to my desk getting the decanter filling it the glass to the brim and downing it quickly doing my best not to move as even without a word being spoken from her lips I could feel her presence and in the reflection of my decanter she stood there in her dark red dress choker around her neck her hair tight in its intricate braids the same as I last saw her.
"Are you really that afraid of me Thomas?"
"What do you want? You come to reveal in my ending too?"
"No."
"Then what? You never were one to keep your tongue behind your teeth"
"Well after one loses their head. You become far less likely to speak up"
"So that's it. Come to make me feel guilty for what I did"
"Why?"
"What?" I asked finally turning to see her
"If you felt no guilt the moment my head hit the ground, why would you now?"
"Then what?"
"I want to know what happened to my daughter?"
"Mila-"
"All I asked of you was to care for her."
"I did what I could"
"You sent her away, why?"
".... Because she reminded me of you."
"Is that a bad thing?"
"It was. She had your.."
"My what?"
"The mouth. That wouldn't stay shut."
"Are you surprised?"
"No."
"Do you feel remorse? At all? For my trial, imprisonment and execution?"
"No."
"Fair enough. Did you always know it was a lie?"
"Course. It was my idea."
"I'm sure It was my king." She says turning to go but stopping herself "that's all I ever was, wasn't it?" She asks "a passing fancy. A phase of your interest. Was it always her?"
"Always."
"Hum… my one wish, of my life. Would have been that you let me go. You could have had her. You could have just let me go and I could have had a different life."
"I am sorry Mila"
"For what?"
"For marrying you."
"That's a horrible thing to say to a girl Thomas"
"I mean it. I never should have married you. I know that now. I robbed you of a normal life. And for that… I am sorry"
"I'm not. We both know the foolish girl I was, would have traded anything for time I had with you"
"Would you now?"
"No. But I'm not the girl I once was. Nor are you the man you once where" she says
"Leave me. You give me no comfort"
"I didn't mean to. But you can't escape the visitors to come."
"Leave!" I demanded and my room was once again left to silence I knew who would be next in this line and I feared them more then any other who may visit me tonight.
I tried to move myself to bed in hope to rest my weary body. And to avoid that which was to come but I felt her.
Those little hands.
That sweet innocent grip on my leg
"Daddy?"
I tried not to break.
Not to cry.
"Daddy? Aren't you happy to see me?"
But even after all these years of hardening. I am a man.
I am not stone.
"Of course I am" I smiled down at her little blonde head as she snuggled my leg
"I like visiting" she smiled "mostly I just play with Mummy now"
"It's nice for you to visit little one." I smiled moving to my knees so I could hold her in my arms "I'm so sorry… for everything I did. I should have been a better father to you. The biggest regret I have is sending you away"
"That's okay daddy, I forgive you" she smiled giving my cheek a kiss
"You're such a sweet little thing. But I don't deserve to be forgiven. I took your mother from you, and then sent you away. If I had kept you here with me… I wouldn't be seeing you now."
"True. But that's okay daddy, you did what you thought was best" she smiled hugging me tightly and I completely broke holding her close crying into her hair
"I'm so sorry baby. I'm so sorry. I should never have sent you away. You're my baby. My little girl. I should never be forgiven for how I treated you"
"Will we play together soon?" She asks
"... I promise." I smiled, giving her hand a kiss "We'll play. Very soon"
"Okay, see you soon daddy"
"See you soon little princess" I told her and within seconds she disappeared.
I sighed and moved to my bed changing for the night and sitting on the mattress the moment I did I felt the shift on the other side of the bed and my eyes welled up. I couldn't wait another moment moving across the bed to hold her tighter then I had ever held her
"Hi"
"Hi" I cried into her sweet hair tied up with ribbons "I'm so happy to see you. I missed you so much y/n"
"Ohh Thomas. I never really left" she reassured
"You didn't?"
"Of course not, you know I could never leave you"
"I'd have sold my very soul to have had you on this earth with me… for just one more day"
"I know. And I would have sold my own for one more with you"
"You have not come to torcher me then? Remind me of my failure"
"You had your failings that I cannot deny Thomas. But I will not rub salt in old wounds"
"You always where my spoonful of sugar"
"Do you know… what time will call us?"
"No?"
"The king and his three M's the Matron, the mistress and the maiden. Liza, Mila and I"
"Suits you all. But I suppose that's only from what time will remember"
"Time can be cruel. In its choice to remember" she says holding my hand "time has changed you"
"And not you. You look as beautiful as our wedding day."
"Time is no change to me. I will be this way forever"
"That brings me peace. That even though I lost the chance to grow old with you, that I didn't have to watch you wither away. You can stay perfect forever"
"You worked hard enough to preserve my beauty as it was"
"I wanted to make sure. You deserved it to look like you. So everyone now and in a time far from now, just how beautiful you where"
"You're too sweet"
"I wish, I could have spend my life with you. But every day I am thankful for every moment we had together"
"As am I" she smiled giving me a sweet kiss before she got up fixing her little dress as she always did
"I know who else comes for me,"
"Oh Thomas. Knowone else is coming for you"
"No?"
"No." She says offering her hand
"I… I'm scared." I admit
"Don't be my love. It's just a little walk. To the most beautiful place you'll ever see"
"I don't care where we go, so long as I'm with you" I smiled taking her hand
"Come, or we'll miss the sunset" she smiled tugging me along with her leaving this darkness behind…
#tbs#tbs au#tbs fanfic#tbs smutty#tbs smut#tbs sex#thomas#thomas brodie sangster#thomas sangster#thomas sangster imagine#thomassangster#thomasbrodiesangster#thomas brodie sangster imagine#thomas brodie sangster i#thomas broide sangster imagine#thomas brodie sangster smut#thomas smut#thomas sangser imagine#thomas sangster smut
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EEEEEK ME TOO 🤭🤭 confession time pt. 2, I might have a platonic crush on you 😔💔 like I wanna be homies but at the same time I can’t have ppl knowing I read fanfics (irls or moots) cause I KNOW I’d get clowned on buT THEY JUST DON’T UNDERSTAND 🤧🤧 so, alas, WE are the true Romeo and Juliet 😔🙏
Like after I send an ask I do check in like every hour just to see if you responded yet DJGNIFN what can I say 🙄☝️
BUT AS LONG AS I CAN BE YOUR ANONYMOUS BESTIE THEN WE’RE SET 4 LIFE 😼🤞
(^ Why did I use so many emojis-)
And you’re right, Floor will be someone’s paralysis demon… MINE 💀
AND EEEEEK DON’T EVEN TALK TO ME ABT THE PROVERBIAL CAMERA CAUSE I CAN AND WILL NOT STOP TALKING ABT IT
ALSO YEAH IT WAS JUST A PIC NOT A VIDEO OF THE SCENE BECAUSE THAT SHOW IS SO WILD IF I WERE TO SHOW YOU A CLIP I THINK YOU’D START CRYING (Plot synopsis: boy tastes a girl in his class’ spit and then gets addicted to it cause she has like… addictive spit… essentially if he withdrawls from her spit then he could die 💀)
I WATCHED IT A LONGGGGGGGG TIME AGO SO I CAN’T REMEMBER EVERYTHING TOO WELL BUT THAT WAS PRETTY MUCH MOST OF IT LMAO IT WAS ENTERTAINING THO IF YOU WANNA TAKE A SHOT AT WATCHING IT 😭
NOT US ALSO HAVING THE SAME TYPE OF MENNNNNNNN (at least in txt) 🤪🤪🤪
And now hold awn world stop-
What did I just see with my two lil ol eyes
A SHIRTLESS,
TEASING,
HYUNJAE DRABBLE/FIC?????
Uh uh, uh uh, THAT WAS SO RUDE OF YOU LIKE WHY WOULD YOU MAKE ME IMAGINE THINGS LIKE THIS WITH A MAN I KNIW I CAN NEVER OBTAIN LIKE-
HAVE MERCY ON MY SOUL LIKE I WAS GENUINELY LIKE GIGGLING WHEN HE WENT IN FOR THE STRADDLE LIKE THIS I SICK GET YOUR C-CUP TIDDIES AWAY FRIM MY BOOK IM TRYING TO READ, LIKE???
Phew, everything abt Hyunjae makes my heart do somersaults istg-
But even if their storyline was there for plot convenience, I hope to see Quinn and Wren in the future!!! 😤😤
AND EEEEK LITTLE EPISODE ONE SHOT FOLLOW UPS WOULD BE SOOOO CUTE FOR CHANHEE’S LIKE I DEF SEE THE VISION AND I CAN’T WAITTTT
And the quote came from Rosemonde Gerard! “Aujourd’hui plus qu’hier et bien moins que demain,” from her poem “The Eternal Song”! It’s super sweet and it was addressed to her husband so I def recommend reading it! Man I love poetry unironically 🥹 I really hope I can find love as,,, lovely(😭) as that one day 🤧
- Love you forever + 1 day, 🌷 anon
PLS PLATONIC CRUSH FRFR ME TO ???? and it's okay bestie, none of the irls know i write or read fanfic cuz they really DON'T understand 😭 like i love my irls but they just don't TT anyways, it's totally okay that ur on anon, we can still be homies this way 😎 literally had one of my underclassmen in hs clown me for using blr instead of ao3, like IM SORRY THAT AO3 ISN'T EXACTLY INTUITIVE AND IM SLOW W TECH????? SHEESH— LMAO
omg i was just TALKING ABT SLEEP PARALYSIS DEMONS 🤩🤩🤩 one james ji chxngmxn !!! anyways—💀
.....uhm addictive spit.... okay 😃 not the greatest visual but ykw u like what u like ig 😭
THE PROVERBIAL CAMERA IS EVERYWHERE IM TELLING U I HAVE INTERNALIZED THE OBJECTIFICATION OF MY FEMALENESS SO MUCH THAT I IMAGINE WHAT PEOPLE SEE WHEN THEY SEE ME LIKE IM OBSERVING MYSELF AND IT TRANSLATES INTO MY FICS 🤡🤡🤡 like it says x reader, but really, she's just a puppet playing a role 😩🤘🏻
PLS. u have know idea how much EMOTIONAL DAMAGE HYUNJAE AND KEVIN HAVE BEEN DOING TO MY SANITY LATELY like wbk i have no dignity left, but my sanity is dropping into the negatives, the bar is in hell, and i am limboing under it 🤣🤣 i once read this thing abt the guy straddling the girl and i was like,,,, uhm,, hyunjae,,, haha,, get over here 😁
I HAVE ONE EPISODE OF THE CHANHEE THING READY BUT IM TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHAT ELSE I SHOULD DO LMFAOOO cuz the whole idea was literally just an excuse to write that oneshot 🤡💀 anyways, i'll prob think of something, i have all summer—
omg pls i too love poetry unironically like,, one day i will meet someone who makes me write lovey dovey poetry abt warm sunlight and quiet kitchens in the middle of nowhere and not the sad espresso depresso shit i write rn 💀🤣
BUT ANYWAYS !! may ur day be as beautiful as u r !! love u 🌷 mwah 😚
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1. I am the guy in my friend group who makes a point to read the mandatory literature works - with the exception of some of the collections of poems as I just couldn't be bothered. I also like to shitpost in my discord statuses.
4. I like the capybara for being chill with seemingly every animal but I wouldn't really like to have one as a pet/live with it. I'd really like to own a cat (or multiple) at some point though.
5. Has to be a type of dark green that one color picker website tells me is called "green pea". I'm usually a dark blue/navy type of guy but that green is nice.
6. I've had an idea to keep a model of like a commercial truck on my desk as a decoration, a box (that's why a commercial truck would work well, more space in the bed) and a toy if I feel like it - all at the same time. I just might buy one soon...
7. I can look at a car and immediately be able to tell the make and model. i guess. Perk of wasting thousands if not tens of thousands of hours consuming car content on social media <3.
10. That would be Wendell and Wild. You know how on desktop tumblr, there is always some kind of featured art on the right side of the screen? One day, I saw a fanart of Kat (main character of the film) and that prompted me to watch it. I liked it a lot, unique art style and characters, plus the score Slaps.
11. Lockwood & co. I have read the first 2 books - upon which the plot of season 1 is based on - years ago. More recently, I got my hands on the 3 remaining ones and I've, of course, re-read them again. I was ecstatic when my mom let me know that Netflix was making a show, I'm currently on episode 2 and it looks pretty good.
12. I've seen Wangan Midnight, Initial D (of course, I am a Car Enthusiast after all), One Punch Man, and I haven't quite finished Bocchi the Rock yet. I enjoyed all of them although a person who doesn't care about cars might not feel the same about the first 2 mentioned.
13. Music for me. I can't decide on one artist to recommend so I'll mention a few: Go_A, Charli XCX, The Amazing Devil and Girl K.
14. Watch YouTube videos :/. #1 habit I have to break.
15. One pillow plus a folded up blanket under it to raise it a little bit.
16. Honestly, I wouldn't say I have major problems with sleeping. I rarely remember my dreams and even when I do, I mostly only remember fragments of their "plot".
17. Hmm speaking of Lockwood & co., Lucy Carlyle. She is pretty cool I think.
18. Aliexpress came in clutch. I can assure you that the colors look better irl.⬇️
19. Alright story time. In the racing videogame The Crew 2, I was once doing a certain challenge where I had to drive without hitting anything for 150 km (or maybe 180 km, can't remember). It was the last challenge I had to complete in order to obtain a special car. I was all set up with a good hypercar on a big oval track, and I was going at it. I had been kind of salty already for hitting a wall and sending 77 km of progress down the drain earlier. I also just so happened to have The Suicide Squad soundtrack on shuffle. The song So This Is The Famous Suicide squad came on. Pretty much exactly at the drop 28 seconds in, I get a notification that I had completed the challenge. Shortly afterwards, I get a notification that I did in fact get the aforementioned special car. It was an extremely cool moment to me, and the song is still my ringtone several years on.
20. It's been good so far, nothing crazy happened at school.
21. <3
not a dream
Hey everyone, I've thought about some cute questions for you to answer so here they go, leave the answers in the replies or reblogs and tag people who you want to answer said questions as well. You don't have to answer all of the questions, no pressure, answer the ones you like if that's easier for you!
What's one thing that your friends say that applies to you? Like a quirk or something they know you for? Something they associate with you always?
Who inspires you in your life? I don't mean a celebrity, but a person you know, brag about someone incredible that is your inspiration.
Who do you consider to be your favorite person and why?
What's your favorite kind of animal? If you lived with said animal, what would you name them? If you have said animal, what is their name?
What color is your most recent obsession?
What's a little decor item that you want to own in the future?
Do you have any mundane but cute "talent"/thing you can do? Something just slightly unusual but also completely usual?
Do you like fashion? What kind of a dresser are you? More casual? Fancy?
Do you wear makeup? What's your go-to makeup look? If you don't wear makeup, have you ever thought of wearing it?
Recommend us one movie that the critics/public didn't like that much when it came out but you personally think is a hidden gem!
What show are you watching right now? Recommend it to us!
Have you ever watched an anime? If yes, which one?
What's your favorite kind of art medium? Recommend us an artist or show us an art piece (could be music, painting, crochet, whatever) that you really love!
What do you like to do when you are bored?
How many pillows do you sleep with, if any?
Do you have trouble with sleeping? Do you remember your dreams a lot or forget them as soon as you wake up?
Who is one cool character in something you've seen in your life that you hyperfocused on at a time in your life.
Show us your current phone case!
Recommend people a song that has meant a lot to you sometime in your life and share us the story about if you'd like.
How has your day been so far?
UwU - I love you!
#the 2 ghesties who might be reading this are welcome to amend 1. if they feel like it <3#for an expansion on 13. you can search by tag music on my blog. I have made a post recommending someone songs and artists#you'll know it when you see it#long post#rambles
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okay i'll bite what happened in govt class?
ALRIGHT so my govt professor is very. energetic and loves having an interactive class rather than a lecture so good for her on that.
basically she gave us a real life case in which a cop dug into the trash of a man named billy who was suspected of drug trade and presented it as evidence to the court. this raised the issue in court of whether or not this violated his fourth amendment right (law enforcement needs a specified written warrant before searching and/or seizing citizen property & and after a different case in the 60s, property illegally obtained cannot be presented before the court as evidence) because it was a gray space of whether or not it was his property.
we never did a mock trial before but in our classroom theres a courtroom setup at the back so 3 students put on honest to god robes and sat at the judge thing stand and then the classroom was split in two so thered be one side representing the state & arguing it was justified and a warrant wasnt needed vs the other representing billy and arguing that the 4th amendment was violated. so 3 more students from each side volunteered to represent whichever side they were assigned to. I was reluctant to volunteer cause. well who Wants that, but i could think up a couple good arguments in favor billy so i went ahead. (the prof gave out sheets that already had arguments that we could read off and mainly it would play out as a demonstration of how courts make decisions but the students COULD make their own arguments if they wanted)
so we sat down and basically went back and forth (like sitting up standing down saying shit like your honor etc etc) as to whether or not the cop who went dumpster diving violated the fourth amendment.
- basically one guy representing the state stood up and argued that it was no longer billys property so the cop didnt need a warrant
- i stood up and sounded confident for 2 seconds before my voice started shaking cause Anxiety but basically i began arguing that billy, as a taxpayer, was paying for the service of garbage disposal and therefore it was still a violation of the 4th amendment because it was still his property in that rite (even though 3 people volunteered for each side it quickly just ended up being one person arguing for an entire side so it was just me and the other guy).
- other guy stood up again and argued that since billy put the trash out to be collected (presumably out on a curb) it was no longer on his property, he was "getting rid of it," and therefore it wasnt his own. the people on the judge stand asked whose property it was then if billy "got rid of it" and state rep guy argued it was then private property of the garbage disposal service
- i stood up again and argued that it was still billys property and said the state rep guy needed to define "getting rid of [the trash]" because billy wasnt disowning it, it was his property that was to be sent off to a service that he as a taxpayer paid for - he payed for his residential property, cops would need a warrant to search his property. he payed for his possessions, cops would need a warrant to search his possessions. he payed for garbage disposal, cops need a warrant to search through trash that was being sent to said disposal. (prof said she liked this argument which was cool)
- after that tirade i was VERY shaky and then the judge (cause it was just one person representing the three on the judicial stand too lmao) asked if billy was supposedly innocent why did he feel the need to hide what was in his trash (important to note this question is NOT on topic and doesnt address the 4th amendment. in the irl case the people arguing no warrant was needed used sentiments to this effect & the fact that evidence WAS uncovered to argue that the cop was right to violate that right. more notably, this plays into the narrative that law enforcement can and should act based on perceived merit (seen often in copaganda - they follow gut instincts and perceptions and always always always just conveniently make the right call) and. we've all seen how that shit plays out in real life).
- i didnt SAY any of that though i knew it was getting off topic and into territory that would cause off-topic and intense arguing so i said "well thats really an individual case" and then i panicked too much and my mouth ran ahead of me and then "theres a LOT of reasons he might not want anyone to see that he could have TenFuckingCondomsInThereAtOnceAnd maybe thats all there is to it!"
- that. kinda shot down further questioning cause the judges and. everyone else was laughing, myself VERY much included and i couldnt even LOOK at the judges cause we were all honest to god laughing
- basically the judges ruled in favor of billy which the prof said happened the first time this entire week which was cool
- and yeah
#ig its funnier in real time when you arent EXPECTING anything funny and its an environment where youre supposed to be ~professional &#respectful~ but HEY it worked#the prof didnt even bat an eye she was just pacing back and forth nodding her head#and she kinda just waved both her arms when i said it like ''\😳/ EXACTLY''#and then instead of some law abiding statement#she closed it off by saying the moral of the story is dont throw shit into the trash jf you dont want it found lmaoooo#anyways yeah thats it#SORRY THIS TOOK SO LONG I ENDED UP HAVING TO RUSH TO ANOTHER CLASS THIS VERY MUCH WASNT 30 MINUTES#beidouwanning#mutuals#sia posts#long post
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Hello! I'm sorry if this has been asked before, but how do you become proficient at handling conversations in Japanese/handling grammar very well? I read your post on the JLPT, and it addressed issues I have been tip toe-ing around--indeed, passive actions such as listening or reading are easier than the active ones. How did you go about that? Did you write a bunch of sentences daily? Did you have a conversation partner? What would you rec. to someone who lives outside Japan? Thank you!
This is an excellent question, and one that I get asked a lot irl by Japanese people in particular. Let’s talk about gaining fluency and the ways we can go about it!
How to Gain Fluency in Japanese (and Other Languages)
Speaking Fluency versus Accuracy
Language proficiency is divided into two separate categories:
Fluency: Although there are no widely agreed-upon definitions or measures of language fluency, someone is typically said to be fluent if their use of the language appears fluid, or natural, coherent, and easy as opposed to slow, halting use. In other words, fluency is often described as the ability to produce language on demand and be understood.
Accuracy: Correctness of language use, especially grammatical correctness and word choice.
By the above definitions, a “fluent” speaker may make grammatical mistakes, but they can speak without having to stop and think too much about conjugations, word choice, etc.
An “accurate” speaker can speak with nearly zero grammatical/word choice mistakes. However, the speed of their utterances isn’t generally taken into account, so it could take an “accurate” person twice as long to articulate the same idea as a “fluent” person.
Ideally, you need to strike a good balance between these two qualities when speaking. I have a boss, God bless him, who is 100% fluency and 0% accuracy and…man is it hard to understand what he’s saying sometimes, but he can generally get his point across just barely. I have another coworker who is 100% accuracy and takes about 3 minutes to form a sentence because he wants it to be perfect.
How to Increase Speaking/Writing Accuracy
First, let’s talk about the easiest thing to improve, which is accuracy. It’s also (in my opinion) the least fun thing to improve, because it means grammar books and vocabulary memorization.
You can only use a language accurately if you know what is correct and what is incorrect, and you can only learn that by studying grammar and vocabulary (or if you’re a native speaker and picked it up innately, you lucky bastard).
So here’s some things you can do to increase your accuracy:
For example, if you’re having a hard time using the passive, you need to review that part of your textbook and find some exercises to drill it into your head.
Say the correct thing aloud. Lots. Sometimes I just walk around my apartment and narrate everything I see/do like a crazy person, but that’s good practice.
Write example sentences using the grammar you’re struggling with and say them aloud too.
There’s a bunch of cool apps that connect you with native speakers that can help correct you too! I used to use HelloTalk, I think.
If you’re a creative soul, when I was studying for the JLPT, I took 1 grammar point and 5 vocabulary words from my JLPT study books and used them to write a 2-page short story about the adventures of ネギ, a stray black cat that smelled like green onions because she napped in an onion field. Then I had a Japanese friend check it over for me and mark mistakes. I hand-wrote them to improve my abysmal handwriting at the same time. It was really fun! I sometimes think about doing it again just for funsies.
When someone corrects you, don’t feel like your entire life is over and you’re a failure and you’ll never get it right haha. I’ve seen people fall into that hopeless mindset, and that’s just nonsense. It’s a good opportunity for learning and nothing more! Say the correct thing you’ve just been taught out loud, then write it down if you can. And, if possible, find a chance to use it in conversation asap.
How to Increase Speaking/Writing Fluency
Now this is the hard one. Especially for those learners who do not have native speakers nearby.
I’m going to be dead honest with you. I started formally studying Japanese at uni, and I had a Japanese roommate/best friend since year one. I had a 4.0 GPA in my Japanese classes (and only my Japanese classes lol) because I was and still am a MEGA NERD about it.
...But it wasn’t until I studied abroad in Japan my 4th year of uni that I gained fluency.
There are a lot of things that can hold us back from fluency. An interesting thing I’ve noted is that Foreign Language is perhaps the only subject in which a student’s personality can directly affect their progress. To gain fluency, you have to go forth and speak, but if you are naturally a shy person, that is going to hinder you. If you are the kind of person who takes mistakes/failures poorly, you will be less likely to take risks and try to say harder sentences. In contrast, you can get full marks in math regardless of the above personality traits.
I’m not saying that you have to be an outgoing explosion of a human being in order to gain fluency. But what I am saying is that you have to be willing to seek out conversations, and you have to be willing to take chances. Get out of your comfort zone. Use that new word you picked up the other day. Try to explain something that is difficult for you.
My problem was that, while I lived with a native speaker who would have happily taught me anything I asked, her English proficiency was much higher than my Japanese proficiency. And when I struggled to say something in Japanese, I’d fall back onto English. And when she told me something I didn’t understand in Japanese, she’d repeat it in English instead of Japanese, because that was easier for us both. The same thing happened when I was in Japanese class as well. I always had the assurance that I could fall back on English.
But when I elected to study abroad in Japan for 3 months, I knew that this was my big chance. So on the host family form in the “other requests” area, I wrote that I specifically wanted a host family that could not speak English. I was setting fire to my crutches, and I was scared but excited to see them burn.
By the end of my three months in Japan, I had gone from “Chotto matte kudasai” and needing a minute to form my reply, to “Okay, yeah I see that movie too and I liked the action scenes, but I didn’t care for the story little.” (I’ve underlined mistakes that I would have made in Japanese, to show you that I sacrificed some accuracy to obtain higher fluency.)
So, in short, the easiest and quickest way to increase your spoken fluency is to throw away all the crutches you can and use the language as much as possible. Every single day. Even if you’re just having an imaginary conversation with yourself! And like I said, there are a bunch of cool apps that connect you with Japanese people who want to learn English and you can do language exchanges with them. I had a lot of fun with those in the past.
As for increasing writing fluency...well. That’s a tough question with Japanese, because I can type Japanese at like 100 wpm, but my Japanese handwriting fluency is at a 10/100. I can read and type at the level of a native Japanese high school student, but I can only write the kanji that 7 year old can write. That’s no exaggeration.
The big reason for that dichotomy is that my work is paper-free. 100% of my work is done on screen, so about the only time I have to write out something is when I’m filling out a form, which includes my name (katakana), address, and maybe occupation.
If you want to increase your Japanese handwriting speed, just keep on writing. Write those little short stories about ネギ like I did, or find some writing prompts (I just started a side-blog with writing prompts yesterday btw) or keep a little diary. Make opportunities to write.
How to Have Nice Handwriting in Japanese
Okay, full disclaimer: I am the absolute LAST person qualified to talk about this, because I have awful handwriting in Japanese.
Unless you have prior experience with a different language that uses kanji, or you lack the keen eye of an artist, you will likely struggle to develop neat handwriting.
Personally, I really like using this app called Japanese Kanji Sensei. It’s on Android (not sure about iOS), and if you pay just a few bucks you can make your own kanji sets and stuff. Anyways, it will show you how to write the characters prettily. It gives you a good frame of reference for what nice, pencil/pen-written characters (versus calligraphy characters). It has hiragana and katakana on it too!
I get a stylus and write out the characters on this app for the muscle memory, so my hands remember the sensation of writing a certain character. (The muscle memory is different if you only use your fingertip.) This muscle memory and repetition is how Japanese people learn how to internalize kanji as well. I really enjoy and recommend this app. I’m sure that there are others out there like it too.
Summary
TL;DR: Review your textbooks, take risks, use every resource available or make your own, and just have fun with it! 💗
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Nah! I understand! And it makes sense.
To be fair, this sort of thing appears to be kept pretty vague.
Though, I think any racism that is happening might be taking place on 2 levels: In-universe & metanarratively. The metanarrative I can most definitely see as the attitude towards them being passive-aggressive racist & even a bit dismissive. And depending on when we're talking about, their actual treatment by Hyruleans can vary widely.
Now, for the Ancient Prison, yeah, definitely very horrible & bad. Like, Gerudo were almost assuredly tortured & killed there in horrific fashion. However, at least based on the official timeline, it wasn't all of them. The reason being that Four Swords Adventure comes next after Twilight Princess. As such, it either wasn't intended genocide or, if it was, then they did a bad job of it.
Though, I also think that it's important to keep in mind some things. First off, TP takes place in the Child Timeline. That means that Child Link exposed his schemes.
However, I've seen a lot of fans assume that the king just was like "Oh, hello small, woodland boy! You say my daughter is being truthful & not playing around? Well, I suppose that since you've vouched for her, it must be true! Off with his head!" Then immediately had Gan taken in & executed.
But... that isn't necessarily the case. At least based on the execution scene. Now, I fully admit that that scene could easily all be in Link & Midna's head. But, something that must be asked is if either have even physically seen him before that or not. If not, then it's more likely that this was just straight-up what happened.
However, if so, then that brings certain things to mind. A) His hair length & attire both before & during the execution scene. B) His ears before actually being stabbed.
The reason being that, had this happened immediately following OoT like many assume, then he should look like this in the scene:
Notice how short his hair is. Notice the different armor. Notice the roundedness of his ears.
Now, here's how he looks in the execution scene:
His hair is much much longer. Like, long enough to put up into granny rollers (I will never let him live that down; for such a normally stylish man, he certainly mistepped here). Not only that, but he now has a thick, luscious beard, pointed ears, a totally different (non-leather) set of armor & a much more big & fancy halo-crown rather than his little diadem from before.
It also indicates that his possession of the Triforce of Power might not have been as much of a divine prank as the Sages believed it was.
The reason being this:
This is him before & after the time-skip. Before & after obtaining his piece of the Triforce. His ears are much more pointed in the after. Similarly, whenever Gan is in possession of the Triforce, no matter the game, his ears are always pointed. Most notably, TotK's aren't & he did not have the Triforce.
So, the only conclusion that one can come to here is that he had the Triforce before his execution. The question is, how did he get it? In fact, how does TP Link & Zelda have theirs despite being reborn? Is it possible that Ganondorf had stolen the Triforce in this timeline, too? (Now, that last point is highly speculatory on my end, so keep that in mind.)
If so, then that adds an extra layer to his crimes. Specifically, if he had, then another question that arises is where the Triforce was located at that time & if it was the same as before. If so, then that would've been him trespassing upon sacred land. And, in a country where church & state aren't intentionally separated, regardless of the motivation behind doing so, then it becomes a matter of deep cultural heritage.
The closest approximation that I can think of IRL would be... walking into Westminister Abby, stealing the flipping Stone of Scone & then taking a dump on the Coronation Throne!
Or, to a more secular crowd, it'd be like stealing the Declaration of Independence. Yes, it isn't an item of religious significance, but it is intrinsically linked to America's sense of self-identity & values as a country. So, while different, a lot of ways, the 2 would be in a very similar ballpark as far as grieviousness. Like, if something were to happen to the Declaration of Independence, it would most likely be... our greatest shame... It's... it's what this entire country was built upon. It is one of those practically unthinkable things. A taboo. Something that would've likely felt like a personal blow.
And, similarly, so too was Hyrule built around the Triforce. After all, 2 of the pieces are linked to the concepts of wisdom & courage. Both of which are values.
Like, it isn't just a matter of religion. It's also a matter of cultural identity & heritage! It's a matter of personal pride.
A lot of fans don't seem to realize that, in-universe, this thing would logically be more than just some sacred power source or shiny mcguffin. It'd be deeply connected to Hyrule's sense of self-identity. A source of Hyrule's pride as a people. Keep in mind that such would be considered a global crime in this day & age. And, while this may not mean as much in the modern age, during the time that the game was created, it would've been a bigger deal. Even more so in a medieval period.
But I digress, back to the topic. All those other physical changes in Ganondorf, himself, if nothing else, indicates that a fairly decent amount of time has passed since the ending scene in OoT.
I'm not talking days or weeks. I'm talking years. Which is why I'm inclined to believe that even if the king of Hyrule attempted to have him captured immediately, that doesn't necessarily translate to him having been captured at that time. As, why would the king allow him a change of armor, a bigger, fancier crown, & a stylist in prison?
In fact, there's also a clip of him before having been captured that actually nearly cements this possibility.
Same outfit, but out & about in the world. Uncaptured. Possibly in battle.
This is partially why I tend to subscribe to the fandom theory that there was a Gerudo-Hyrulean War between OoT & TP. One that lasted years. One that came on the back of the Hyrulean Civil War. Some important details to remember as well: during the Era of Time, Hyrule was only seen to be in possession of a singular ranch & no other known agricultural sources. And, add to that the fact that wars are an absolute resource drain & the implication that the Gerudo might've been stealing food (for very understandable reasons), but when compounded together with all those other things, it's possible that Hyrule may have been experiencing food shortage. (Again, this is mostly just speculation, but I feel that it isn't outside of the realm of possibility.)
Plus, Hyrule had just lost all but one of their elite ninja army, so they already weren't in the best of places. Which may have been what motivated the king's actions in the game. I wouldn't be surprised if he was reluctant to get into yet another war & might've wanted to end whatever fued was going on between the Gerudo & Hyrule.
So, taking those things into account, it puts this possible & even probably post-OoT war into a very different light from the Hyrulean perspective. Something to note are the Sage's own words in describing what took place.
However, another thing to keep in mind is that the Sages would obviously be very heavily biased in Hyrule's favor. So, that's something important to remember. Regardless, it stands that, from the Sages' perspectives, Ganondorf invaded Hyrule.
Provided that this post-OoT war took place, then this invasion of his would've had to have taken place after OoT's ending. (In my mind, he was initially captured, then Link left in search of Navi, & during that time, Gan escaped & a war began, but that's just me trying to rationalize things as I don't see Link as the type to leave if he knew that Gan had escaped & was still out there.)
At the same time, it's also possible that the Sages were simply painting the scene where Gan was in Hyrule Castle as him invading, but I'm not inclined to believe such.
Now, this isn't necessarily true, but if it was, then it's possible that a number of Ganondorf's people followed him into battle. (Which, I'll be honest. I'm very disappointed in not seeing as such... That would've been massively cool.)
Again, not necessarily what took place, but it would certainly explain some things.
As such, this would suggest that the Gerudo imprisoned in the Arbiter's Grounds were most likely his followers at least. Any others, we can't be sure, but I feel pretty safe to assume that a number of them fought at his side in this hypothetical war. I mean, I just can't believe that none of his own people stuck by his side.
The next question is if Hyrule did attempt genocide. I mean, a whole lot of people very obviously were imprisoned, tortured, & killed there, but that doesn't necessarily mean that they were all Gerudo. It's possible that Gerudo were only among the number held there.
However, the seemingly non-hostile manner that the Gerudo interacted with Link in FSA would certainly imply that it may have only been Ganomdorf's loyalists, but that's just my perspective.
Now, I'm going to go & check to make sure as I'm no longer 100% positive of the non-hostility. I'll be back with that info later.
Regardless, I tend to feel that many fans have a tendency to not take the games' recent history or the Hyruleans' perspectives into account when thinking about the interactions between Hyrule & the Gerudo. Most are more inclined to one side or the other, but something that I've been trying to do more & more lately is to take a more unbiased stance so as to better understand both perspectives while still maintaining a degree of emotional distance from both, as well as manage to empathize with both to an extent.
That isn't to say that I'm not still prone to being biased, but the fact stands that I'm trying to not just immediately assume wickedness without some sort of foundation to support it.
Of course, even if all of this turns out to be true & I am sort sort of prodigy of fantasy historical investigation (extremely unlikely), I would still say that a lot of the apparent torture that those Gerudo who were imprisoned likely went through was probably excessive as well as cruel & unusual without some type of specific indication of their exact crimes.
I know that I haven't answered much else here, but that's honestly what tends to happen when I ramble like this. 🤷♀️
Though, for the matter of Gerudo in the Eras of Time, Twilight, Wind, & even Spirit, while not confirmed, there are a couple of fan theories that I, personally, subscribe to, which may well color my perception of things.
In the Era of Time, if you wear the Gerudo Mask & speak to Talon, he says that it resembles his wife, but on second glance, it doesn't look much like her at all. Wearing the mask & speaking to Nabooru, she says nearly the same thing. (Now, some fans like to think that this indicates that Nabooru is Talon's wife & Malon's mother, but I'd only go so far as to say that she was a Gerudo. Though, a less okay thing is that Talon says basically the same thing when Link wears the Goron Mask, which... yeah, not the greatest thing...)
Regardless, the implication stands: Malon might be half-Gerudo.
Similarly, in TP, a lot of fans like to hc that Telma might also be of Gerudo descent. Again, not confirmed, but it's certainly a possibility.
Likewise, in the Era of Wind, specifically Phantom Hourglass, there are 2 characters that a number of fans suspect might be the vestiges of the Gerudo race: Joanne & Jolene.
Then, in Spirit Tracks, the proprietor of the Take 'Em All On shop is Joynas.
Which, I dunno. Maybe I & other fans are stereotyping & we need to address that, but if not & our theories are founded, then it would certainly line up with what we know of the Gerudo; that they are resilient & not easily gotten rid of.
But, again, this is mostly just speculation. I'm sort of on & off compiling the canonical things that we, the fans, know are fact in regards to the Gerudo so that, one day, I might be able to post it as a sort of guideline regarding how they can reliably be depicted. Both as an individual culture & in relation to other ones. But that's still very much in the works.
Sorry, I'm curious about something & I really just wanted to get your perspective on something you mentioned.
“I suppose I don't understand why Hyrule would be so hostile to them and not allow them to just live and let live.”
Now, this is by no means an accisation or anything of the kind. More so, I'm just a bit confused as… I guess that I'm not so sure that Hyrule has been hostile to the Gerudo as I haven't seen much evidence that they have been. At least, not as a whole.
That isn't to say that they haven't been as no evidence of something isn't the same as proof that it isn't happening either.
I suppose that I'm wondering where this idea that Hyrule has been hostile towards them comes from. Like, if they actually have been & there's evidence of it, that's one thing. Even just something like subtext would be good.
Not that Hyrule didn't at least showcase bigotry in OoT even if that bigotry appeared to be fear-based, possibly being even trauma responses. And the only indications of real hostility towards the Gerudo people (that I recall), ironically, came from the Goron leader & this was after Link helps him & his people proceeding Ganondorf cutting off their foodsource in order to force him into giving OoTDorf something he wanted.
Beyond that, the reactions I saw to the Gerudo Mask were generally fear-based rather than anything indicating that they were looked down upon.
Is this concept based on TotK? Because I honestly didn’t see anything like that either.
I suppose its more of what the other games did? Now I've never played Ocarina of Time, more of heard from other people, seeing clips, and seen more of takes/opinions. From what I heard, in the first game Gerudo were known as thieves and kept in the desert. They weren't allowed to freely move about in Hyrule, from what I heard/saw. They are only really seen in Gerudo Desert. It feels like they are kept there for a reason. Again, I've never personally played, so I could be very much getting info wrong.
Twilight Princess had NO Gerudo at all, only Ganondorf. It could be that they were banished rather than straight up killed or died off due to being cut off but... Why was all of the Gerudo punished for Ganondorf's crimes? The Ancient Prison alludes to terrible crimes and torture taking place there, and since it is in the desert area, kinda points towards that Gerudo were tortured and punished there.
Windwaker has, again, no Gerudo, but that's more of... you know... everything flooded. There are Rito! Koroks! Dragons! Hylians! But no Gerudo. They all perished... except Ganondorf, of course. >_> It could be some did survive and then through the generations just... bred out all Gerudo characteristics, but that feels wrong too. Like especially since they have such strong genes.
BOTW and TOTK didn't really show case any of that. Gerudo were wandering all over Hyrule, either on search for life partners or selling things. There was still very little of them, but I saw no racism or bigotry or anything like that... though there were creeps.
Hyrule Warriors ONLY HAS GANONDORF AGAIN. Like there is the Desert! But no Gerudo! None! There isnt even an explanation or reason for it! They have everyone else but the only Gerudo there is Ganondorf!
I'm going to admit that my wording probably wasn't correct, but that's the word that came first in my head. It feels like the Gerudo are... well, being punished for something. Maybe not outwardly or very obviously hostile, but... passive aggressive? racist kinda? Something of the other. It doesn't feel positive nor right. It doesnt feel good.
If I have any wrong information, PLEASE UPDATE ME. I love being informed of the correct information. Just this is what came to my mind and my mind is very often muddled and slurry.
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Custom DOOM Slayer Crucible (for McFarlane DOOM Slayer action figure)
A sacred relic of the Sentinel People, the Crucible remains one of the most mysterious artifacts known to man. Texts from Argent D'Nur reference the weapon in a revered, righteous manner; while Night Sentinels were known to employ similar energy-based blades in their armaments, the Crucible remains the only one powerful enough to reportedly slay titan-class demons.
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campaign 2 episode 140: I don’t even have a title for this, how do you title this
listen I'm lowkey theorizing that they get tpk'd and that's why this ending feels so abrupt; I think they only film one week ahead so I don't know how realistic that is
(note that I am not HOPING they get tpk'd, I'm merely noting the possibility)
critrole closet where do I obtain taliesin's shirt
ashley johnson ma'am stop I'm already gay
SHOW US THE MINI MATT
I take it back put the mini away
mala: remember when this guy had like egg on his dick
bf:I'm hearing matt doing that description and I'm just picturing him putting on costume pieces as he does
(mala: taking out the dm is a valid strategy)
summon WHAT NOW
oh he can cast meteor, that's fine
look at liam, he knows EXACTLY what he's about to get hit with
I HATE IT
MATT I HATE IT
leave essek ALONE
JESTER VS BIG SCARY MONSTER REDO
success!!
lkfgslk travis
LEAVE ESSEK ALONE
shared HP pool!!
I was joking aout the tpk, matt
oh god bless
I zoned out until caleb successfully made lucien throw a tantrum
(I know this is Big Important Combat but it is still combat and therefore I have no attention span)
I really appreciate how fair they are about reminding each other about shit that affects them negatively. tbf the internet would scream it at them after but I still appreciate it
these eyeballs is fuckin
matt: fury is mounting in lucien me, distracted: a furry is mounting lucien, got it
we get it you played kingdom hearts 2
"he threw another moon at me" is THAT what the fjord moon theory was
"EVERYBODY everybody?" homestar runner never leaves you
make those eyes work for you
fruit salad new ship name
wait did he say "they need you" or "I need you" bc either way I went momentarily slightly feral. I don't even ship it that hard (OR SO I THOUGHT)
"I press my forehead to his" nope there I go
I WAS F U C K I N G JOKING
who made the post earlier about there not being a true rez ritual this campaign, I blame them
the entirety of top table is killing me. travis and liam with the most intense faces and laura sitting in the middle just crying.
also liam and sam texting, what are you plotting
someone get ashley some tissues. brian I know you're offscreen, get ashley some tissues
hey artagan you wanna fuckin shOW UP NOW
THAT broke through, we love when the dice cooperate with the narrative
man jester and arty are gonna have a come to jesus meeting after this
MATTHEW
OKAY but that was a really cool thought
and he didn't say it WOULDN'T have worked
PUNCH U WITH UR PAST
how the FUCK
"THE COMPANY DESERVES TO SEE THIS"
LONG MAY HE REIGN
"was saving it for something" was it Wish
oh I hate how that sounds
oh thank god
my head hurts
okay I have to go boop the child nobody FUCKING DIE
I stood up and got actively dizzy, this episode is gonna kill me
they didn't give a "this episode is five fucking hours long" warning so I assume it'll end soonish but how or why I do not know
Please Save My Boy
Please Save My Boy(s)
MY GIRL
JESTER VS BIG SCARY MONSTER RECORD RESTORED
I am ashley
a BREAK? a fucking BREAK? IT IS ONE THIRTY AY EM
I figured that was the explaination, was the somnovum blocking artagan, but also
"insight check" fuck you don't make me laugh right now
don't think about how this is the second time they've seen molly's body dead on the ground
someone smack a healing into caleb please
yeah is it like a big flesh cocoon or a naga situation
ughhh if they rez him they risk it being lucien again and not molly
wizard HEAL THYSELF
if they res molly tonight I'm gonna puke
like just out of stress. that is the only recourse left to me.
YEAH
if liam cries I cry
the city knows what jester is capable of and gave up the bag bc It Knows Better
I actually don't know if I want this to work, I'm torn
it is a crime that they cannot irl hold hands right now
if he asks taliesin if molly wants to come back I will actually puke
what's the dc for this? isn't it like a 10 for the first death? does this count as his first death?????
hello 911 laura bailey is murdering me with acting
jester lavorre vs death
matt trying to finagle it in their favor
"you are frustrating and we miss you"
essek :(
fjord :(
although nobody knows it and no one knows our names, that doesn't make it cheaper it was worth it just the same
you know what, this I can accept. caduceus who saw fjord go down on the ship and just said "no". caduceus who stared down his friend's abuser and told him to go fuck himself (respectfully). caduceus who saw something extremely unfair and said "I'm fixing it". if this is what does it, I can accept this.
he's a BABY
he had fucking archetypes in his head for each of them and that's all he remembers
make taliesin talk to himself
I've been drinking ice water and that was A Mistake, I'm shivering terribly AND I have to pee
yesss
taliesin, res thyself
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