#how am I fuckin' alive???
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... my ass actually got like 6+ images deep before realizing i hadn't posted shit-- oops
my tmnt iteration (where everyone made it past their 20s, splinter’s alive just old, venus is here, and they deserve some goddamn respite and shenanigans)
tmnt iteration part 1 | part 2 | part 3 | part 4 | part 5 | part 6 | part 7 | part 8 | part 9 | part 10
tmnt iteration omake 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10 | 11
lny visit 1 | 2
IDW spoilers below, teeechnically Mirage & Next Mutation spoilers too ig?
blah blah blabbering because that's one of the many things you can do on tumblr.com
bloopity bloopin, turtles all being traded on the black market as pets, medicine, or decor to be... "prepared". 'cept Jennika, keeping her IDW origin because it's badass and I like it. eco vigilantes freed them one fateful night, same night someone(s) stole some mutagen for a rival company to TGRI, boom collided in their getaway routes, away floated Venus just like in NM and some others who lalala may or may not be some mutanimals
playing mostly with coloring, Rise introducing markings is such a nice and refreshing change from the all sam green turtle, different bandana color turtles I grew up with. fanon taking that concept and applying it in conjunction with actual turtle colorings also scratches my visdev brain node just so
hm... still fiddling with their plastrons... Venus' and Jennika's are fine though
Leo
funky li'l ringed map turtle
can't see it but, he got them little ridgey-spikies on his shell
christ, I'm finding a way to attach Iris symbolism to him, either through markings or something else
Iris in hanakotoba is... basically all Leo; nobility, bravery, honor, courage, heavy samurai association
5'2"
Raph
McCord's or Amboina box turtle idk idk idk can't choose
stuck on coloring him with a scale mail feeling to match the box turtle photos I found
....I needa draw him beefier, he can stand to be beefier
5'6"
Donnie
literally just googled which turtles exhibit the highest INT, wood turle consistently listed plus some have funky geometrically patterned/shaped shells
tossing on how do the plastron coloring, really liking the dark spots on it
probably keep the lightened belly/inner limb coloring
...probably... lol idk
5'8"
Mikey
my perfect chonky boy, no notes except he (and his brothers) need plastron do-overs
and now i am stuck with the heart-on-his-sleeve marking
canon 2 my iteration it is done
he gets to be the slider this go round, if just 'cuz he's technically the first born (in terms of creating TMNT and its story and world)
let him have the fluttering, finger drumming on everything and everyone because he's bursting with "i love you" energy anyway
5'4"
Venus
"my pretty daughter" iykyk
sea turtle as per last couple iteration posts
cultivator instead of "shinobi"
"i aM ShiNObi"... guh, just, I dunno, the term "cultivator" wasn't really known back in '98 like that, but she had the medicine box, she worked to learn how to throw a fireball at Vam Mi, she was pleased at her progression when she defeated the counterspell from the staff of Bu Ki. that's cultivator shit right there.
she's still a pugilist more than a iron fan user
looks up to April like a big sister, speaks canto and hakka with her
cuz she's still a linguist scholar like in Next Mutation so duh she speak all the languages (to an extant, she has a lot of studying left to go after all)
the greenified hawksbill coloring is growing on me...
still needa futz more with the plum flower motif on her
also figure out her huadian situation or just scrap it idkidkidk
her bandana + 50% green coloring is also growing on me....
5'10"
Jennika
technically also ringed map turtle since it was Leo who gave her the blood transfusion
I like the idea of bringing her Blaschko's lines to the forefront post-mutation but just... it's a lot of stripes. and goddamnit I ain't even gonna go deep into much of anything with the comics I just... can't not world build rip me
6'0"
April
still so tickled at April being closer to the turtles' ages in these new reboots and fascinated how it's played out
...but mine is a clean 44 yo, so. (turtles in late 30s)
Laird originally conceived April as an asian woman in his notes, Eastman drew her as a biracial woman he was dating at the time (April Fisher) and... idk what to tell y'all, people are running around being mixed in this world all the time, Brooklyn got hella Jamaican/Chinese so there you go
can speak canto and hakka
April being a "weirdo" as I've seen mentioned in Rise can stay, I'm picking that, that's a great trait to her character, big fan of Poly Styrene, loved Rachel True in The Craft
where "weirdo" is just she's into alt subculture and being in New York... she got her hands everywhere in those scenes
She and Chu Hsi get to have the most shoujo fuckin' romance because it's cute
and she's still a living drawing which I'm changing around a bit being why she felt like a "weirdo" and leaned towards subcultures and the turtles, she did eventually begin to destabilize but Venus stabilized her by trapping her in a scroll so she could work on a solution. ...where she has a long, happy relationship with Chu Hsi in the painted world scroll because lol time dilation
saw somewhere on the hellsite that the tooth gap is passed around every iteration... so April gets to have it
5'7"
Irma
i'm not ashamed to say I just reupholstered Nadia from Russian Doll
87 Irma went through a lot so she can have some dry wit and humor and be fly as fuck, big hair, big glasses, and a big attitude
still besties with April
likes moths, they're just neat little guys with rabbit ears iykyk
there is a very specifc size of her hair I am battling to keep consistent the problem it never feels big enough
says "fuhgeddaboutit" and has yelled that she is, in fact, "walkin' here,"
... she might also have a little bit of Myrtle from AHS: Coven sprinkled in now that I'm thinking about it to sum her up
she knows somebody who knows somebody who knows somebody for any random thing you could want to try to find
all the delis and bodegas know her
discusses plot lines from soap operas with Splinter on weekends, they get heated
5'5"
... god all this and I was just gonna have them play spades and play a round of pickup street ball in silly little comics
#if you know my timezone#and you see me posting this#stop snitching#what are YOU doing at the devil's sacrament#leave me to my demon hours#i should probably try melatonin though...#cuz this shit ain't working#how am I fuckin' alive???#spite#things tasting good#turtles#general nerd shit#and don't worry king#they still love your boys in the AU-verse#visdev is my enrichment activity#my dumb ass just happily knocking these out and not posting#cuz i was distracted by the euphoria of creation#hhh i needa push my shapes more#they can be crunchier
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When I talk about something bad I've experienced, Baked In to my experience as A Woman, I am not "making my little cousins feel like shit for being women", because I am talking in a space with, allegedly, adults. I am not bringing my problems to children in the first place. That said, I don't HAVE to make my baby cousin feel bad, because she's already experienced sexual harassment in her life, and she's only 8, and doesn't even understand what any of it means yet. And everyone in her family can try to instill confidence in her, and never talk about our bodies in a negative way. But she can still feel like she's too chubby, because she still goes to school, and talks to other kids and their parents, and still sees ads, and still watches tv. We can be positive, but we can't fix the root of the problem. And I don't HAVE to tell trans women that "pain is a rite of passage", because that's not a Rule being enforced (by me), because I've already sat and listened to my friend complain about constantly shaving as a Baseline necessity and how it hurts her skin and she has to put makeup onto fresh cuts on her face because going out without a full face of properly feminine makeup would make her life worse, and being anything less than thin and lithe makes her "less feminine", and ALL the things that can make her "more feminine" are behind a paywall. And I can try to make her feel better, and I can hear her experiencing the tenfold version of problems I relate to, but I can't fix the root cause of her problems by just telling her not to complain. Forcing happiness as a core personality trait for women is not the Girlboss Feminist move that you think it is, and no amount of gender euphoria in the world will make you immune to systemic oppression.
#sergle.txt#you cunts learned the term 'toxic positivity' years ago and forgot it instantly#putting a bandaid on a fuckin severed leg is what it is#do i wish i wasn't a woman? no#do i feel pretty in a dress? yes#have i suffered? OH MY GOD YES#do i think any woman alive today has lived without suffering in these ways? NO.#unless she is being raised by wolves. in which case. good for her.#again I am still flabbergasted by that post having used trans woman as a last ditch effort scapegoat.#like. shocked. as if ANY trans girl's problems are because other women complain abt the way they're treated.#she's got her own problems bitch!! and they are directly correlated to my problems!!#it's like. it's infantilizing almost. the way the dickheads in that post went from ''kids'' to ''trans women''.#adult women who know how gender works.#condescending.
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Prompt 299
Hear me out- Ghosts have wings. They have wings, which are affected by their cores, and can make them disappear from sight if they want or need to. You got that? Good.
Ecto-contaminated people? Don’t have wings. Liminals and Halfas, who have developed cores? Do have wings, and they can’t hide said wings, because unlike ghosts? Their bodies are physical living flesh.
Now Gotham? Ecto-contaminated, there’s no doubt about it. The amount of portals that have been opened there and death pits and death cults… yeah it’d be surprising if it wasn’t. But again, no one really notices, because at most? Most just get a bit of eyeshine.
The Bats however? Oh man are they freaking out when they wake up with aches in their back and feathers starting to poke through their skin. Curse? Nope! Welcome to Liminality, enjoy the second puberty of wings, emotion-sharing, fangs, claws, and whatever else you might develop- also enjoy the whole eating fear thing. (Wait, the what-)
#DCxDP#DPxDC#Prompts#Liminal Batfamily#Except for Jason who is straight up a Halfa#Halfa Jason#Comes out from the Pits with massive fuckin wings bursting wide from his back#Which is hilariously how the batfam figure out that Red Hood is Jason almost immediately when he returns to Gotham#And Jason is so wrong-footed the first time he gets utterly slammed with the rest of the fam’s emotions and utter Joy at him being Alive#Jason has albatross-shaped wings that have protruding bones & a glittering underside like an explosion or falling star#In human form they’re more naturalistic red-brown colors with black & white patterning#Bruce’s wings are massive black ones that fade to a gray on the top like a moving shadow#Dick’s is deep blues & flickering stars & dust#Do you see my vision#Shadow Core Bruce#Star Core Jason#Storm Core Dick#Wind Core Tim#Shadow Core Damian#Light Core Cass#Sun Core Duke#Sea Core Steph#Earth Core Barbara#yes this includes metals#yes Steph can control water & paints & has canisters full of glitter water for mischief#Remind me to describe the others’ wings#because I am worried about running out of tags or Tumblr eating them lol#but also imagine ghost chirp au too#And it could even be before the JL have formed or it could be after#But if it's before JL form or early JL I just think it'd be funny if they only know Batman with wings lol
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The second fic idea is a what-if scenerio where Jimmy dies in the crash due to and altercation with Curly and how Curly would navigate being Captain once he has to notice the little things and how he and Anya's relationship develop as he adopts an identical view point to hers rather than just keeping the peace.
And maybe i will write it but only time will tell tbh but it's stuck in my brain dome for the time being.
#cause even if it got to Curly snapping and killing Jimmy for the sakes of the crew would you not have that guilt in being responsible for#anothers death espcially with all the responsibility on his shoulder and how he realizes he tried to be reponsible for things and made them#worse like the guilt drives Jimmy insane even if he doesnt admit like imagine Curly who would care so much and wonder if it shouldve#been him not to mention Anya being free from Jimmy but still not his actions and having to navigate still being stuck with the pregnancy an#the shallow feeling because relief doesn't mean happiness like i think shed believe shed be happier that Jimmy cant get to her anymore but#what now that their stuck? That the Captain is faltering and they are stranded for like another 6 months? If they even make it that long?#Like he may be gone but all his damage is still there and thr wounds fresh like its such a good concept i just cant divide my attention lik#that as i am still in college and it is sadly midterms#anyway uhhhh I just really want to write a fic where Curly and Anya can have that hard conversation on how he handled Jimmy constructively#and without him looking like undercooked skirt steak like there would be those moments where it lingers between the monotiny of staying#alive but how would they even address it? what comes first the sorry or the list of why he should be? like Curly places a lot of value on#his use to others and its interesing and subtle and its mostly directed between Jimmy who steers it and Anya who rides along with it#like go the thoughts and ideas i have but not the fuckin time!!!!#mouthwashing#mouthwashing game#curly#curly mouthwashing#anya mouthwashing#also daisuke and swansea are there but like i still have to think of the reflections they have and how to play with their characters in thi#idea world but yeah I want Curly to make amends and Anya to rediscover her autonomy and living outside that fear.
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love how the older skaters in the senior division give Yurio encouragement and that each time it pisses Yurio off. JJ is intentionally condescending so that makes sense, but with Viktor and Yuuri they're not even being condescending. Yurio's just dialed in on being a hater... and i love that for him <3
#'plot twist i LOBV you' -Yuuri#'i am going to skin you alive' -Yurio#yuri on ice#sometimes he is a teenager#he's got so much fury in his tiny body. and yet he is also just an earnest lad. i find him sooo funny silly#which he would hate me for!!#I recall a meta post about Otabek being the first one to verbally recognize how hard Yurio devotes himself to skate and I really dig that#like I think Yurio's frustration is justifiably rooted in how little others take him seriously despite his life-consuming dedication#I DO think he is over the top and i enjoy this; for it is entertaining.#but i also think his feelings are genuine and he is a complex little guy.#i'm thinking of him sharing his grandpa's food with Yuuri and being emotionally vulnerable with him at the waterfall#Yurio is a hater on his opponents (and Viktor) but I think on some level he recognizes the genuine care Yuuri+Viktor show him#I think Yurio doesn't understand how they can be encouraging to him while also taking him seriously#Cuz Yurio is so wary of his elders dismissing him#so older skaters being friendly translates in his head as 'they dont think i can beat them / they dont see me as an equal'#But I think when these relationships are removed from that competitive atmosphere Yurio DOES see how they care and he appreciates it.#It would be so sweet to see an older Yurio reflect on this time and realize that Viktor + Yuuri + others DID take him seriously#and just because they were fond of him it doesnt mean they didnt appreciate his talent.#tbh being a young athlete must be such a mindfuck and idk how these bitches do it. send tweet#yuri plisetsky#yoi meta#queue#my words#AWW right after writng this i watched the part where Yurio starts yelling encouragement to Yuuri#who internally tells himself 'i got more stamina than that fuckin Yurio mf' (paraphrasing lol)#they switched love languages <3 cheerleader & hater role reversal
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plane scene is so funny cause why is mine a sleeper agent that wakes up whenever daigo is mentioned
can’t wait to see it in dragon engine :3
mine has been the winner for Funniest Character Imaginable for 15 consecutive years and i have yet to see anyone come close i fear
#snap chats#originally i wrote 'funniest character alive' and then remembered. HAH im so funny //throws up//#all my fave charas know how to do is get crazy on planes over men they love its disgusting#utterly hilarious cause after making the last post i went on twitter and they mentioned ANOTHER plane scene i throw up over#diff franchise so not important it is just SIMPLY funny how coincidences work and further confirming I Have A Type#BUT NO BACK TO MINE IT'S STILL SO FUCKIN FUNNY I HAVE TO REWATCH IT#i have to replay it .... all of y3 ...#if anyone remembers my friend from college and how we used to stream she asked me if we could stream#and i was like 'girl i havent streamed in Fuck Ever huh' and yk what maybe i'll stream y3 with her#at the very least ill stream y3 for myself ... legend mode .....#ive beaten y3 legend mode one (1) time and it was the worst experience of my life because if its not shadow the hedgehog#i am not good at the game i am playing !!!!!!!!!!! it'll be funny tho#i remember wanting to do a y3 drinking run but i told myself id stop drinking so i simply think. i will substitute drinking for hot sauce#its an idea im ironing out and i also have to like. properly set up a twitch- or maybe ill stream through youtube#ive always liked youtube streaming more ... at least as a viewer#these are all details for plans i will not be enacting literally any time soon can i stay on topic#the topic being i love mine. i love that plane scene forever the casual Whats Goin On Here :)#and he is the embodiment of :) in that scene casue :] is gen friendly but :) has an underlying aura of Im Going To Kill You#thats him in that scene. and i love him. for the third time. im ending this post now forever and always stan mine#if and whenever y3k comes out i cant wait to see !! but i personally believe that's well and away from us at this point#not impossible since they did mention it but yk. i dont think itll happen within the next year or two#maybe next five or ten realistically. if that jVLAEKJVLAEKJ ok bye fr now
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#gonna rant about his backstory so id like to give a quick CW for abuse - violence - rape - trauma#NONE of these thoughts are organized so please forgive the ramblingssss.....#ohhh simon the mentally unwell man that you are..... telling a group of children youre held hostage with every brutal thing that hapened 2#in a third person pov... and soothing the children in between words with soft pet names and sturdy encourging words#the way you cant even remember most of it until the consequences of it wrack your mind and body#i genuinely am so devastated for him when he laughs at women's corpses#which is a direct result of his father forcing him to laugh at the corpse of a prostiute he assaulted and murdered in front of simon#and god. when simon talks to his father in that hospital room and he has that memory forcibly unlocked#slinging his addict brother's arm over his shoulder. promising hes gonna get him out of this. “that's a good boy”#and i genuinely am gonna be haunted for like. ever. by that void look on his face when he was being raped by Roba's men and women#the story is incredibly disorienting which i personally perceive as a direct representation of simon's mind#he can't hardly keep his thoughts straight. cant always place what happened when#and definitely cant remember what was a nightmare or hallucination or something he actually went though or had to do#and he is so utterly genuinely convinced hes dead. hes dead hes dead hes just a Ghost#because good god. its so much easier to convince yourself you didnt (literally!) dig yourself out of a grave#then to even attempt to process all the horrible horrible terrifying shit that you were out through#cries. cries thinking about how sweet of a man he actually is.#cries. cries thinking about that woman in the bar touching him after he politely told her no and his outburst after#CRIES. cries thinking about Roba tearing him to shreds over and fucking over to rebuild him in his own sick vision. literally and mentally.#fuck. and all that... he tells the two guys trying to rescue him to go so they dont get caught. tell them so calmly#as if he hasnt been tormented for how fuckin long by now?#and when he finally DID escape after being buried alive and digging himself out with the fucking jawbone of the corpse in the coffin#for what... half a day? it took half a goddamn day#and he still kept going. walked until. he literally couldnt#shaking simon so gently by the shoulders... does that sound like a man who is dead?#i literally have to stop talking or i will keep going on and on good lord. ty for coming to my devastating ted talk#Call of Duty#Simon Riley#[ RJ ]
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IK I HAVENT DRAWN IN FOREVER BTW IM WORKING ON CATCHING UP
#ITS JUST. BEEN SHIT TO GET MOTIVATED LATELY#ESPECIALLY WHEN IK NONE OF U CARE#LIKE WHY AM I BOTHERING POSTING THIS??? NO ONE GIVES A SHIT??? NO ONE LOOKS AT MY ART FOR MORE THAN A SECOND NO ONE CARES#WHEN THEY DO CARE ITS ONLY BC ITS A GIFT FOR THEM OR I SENT IT TO EM N THEY DONT WANNA BE RUDE#LIKE WHY FUCKIN BOTHER LATELY YA KNOW. LIFE IS JUST GETTING WORSE AND ANYTHING I COULD DO WITH THESE SKILLS I LOVE SO MUCH IS GOING#WELL UP IN FLAMES IF YOU DONT MIND THE WORDPLAY#N IK IT EATS YOU ALIVE TO CARE ABOUT WHO SEES YOUR WORK. IK ITS BAD N I SHOULDN'T DO IT.#BUT IF NOT EVEN ANY IF MY FRIENDS(BARRING MY BF XOXO LOVE U PYXE BUT LIKE I DO SEND U EVERYTHING STILL LOL) CAN EVEN BOTHER#JJST. EVEN LOOKING AT MY STUFF#WHATS THE POINT??#THE ONLY ART OF MINE THATS GOTTEN THE SLIGHTEST BIT OF ATTENTION LATELY HAS BEEN THE ISAT AU N THATS BC THATS A COMMUNITY STARVING FOR STUF#LIKE HOW MANY NOTES MY WANDERSONG STUFF GOT DESPITE BEING SO BAD#BUT IVE IMPROVED SO MUCH AND POURED SM INTO A COMMUNITY THAT DOESNT FUCKING GIVE A SHIT ABOUT ME?????#WHAT AM I DOING WRONG??!?!!?! SOMEONE TELL ME ID DO ANYTHING JUST TO KNOW WHY I CANT GET ANYONE EVEN THE PERSON WHO LOVES ME THE MOST#TO GIVE A SHIT JSUT ONCE#ill prolly delete this later. Im sry.
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GOOD OMENS 3 WHEN GOOD OMENS 3 WHEN?????????? NEIL???!?!? SIR!?!???
#screaming crying and all but throwing up#put me in fuckin stasis for the next four years till it comes out#I am alive I am dead I am somewhere in between#I am having a moment . gif#oh wait that’s crowley who said that oh NO HERE I GO AGAIN#how am I going to be an octopus about this????#good omens#good omens 2#good omens 2 spoilers#idk just in case
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❛ you have never seen such heathens. ❜ Kohga says with a grin, referring to the Yiga. (For Ganondorf!)
"Oh, I have borne witness, both alike and distinct, to many." Ganondorf's answer comes like thunder, like fire. ━ a low rumble turned crackle turned air buzzing with too much and yet not enough all at once, an anticipation that followed him as he swept 'cross the grounds. For an individual of his size, he is almost weightless in his shifting, almost wilting to scrape high the roof of the ruins not high enough where the stones meet strands of red bristling off from his crown. Each footfall accentuated; the bleaching of stone & textile, the delicacy in which he revokes it, pulled back out of the earth as though a stain so simple to be removed. ━ how considerate it was, for Gods to fuss and worry over hospitalities.
he casts a glance to the Yigas master, eyes stunning and bright and terrible, curls of crimson mane licking up into color undefined, like blazing divinity, how inexpressible it could be, to see something of divinity wrapped in bone & skin & cloth. there is a wonder, if this is what being in the presence of Princesses or Heroes is like, the same divinity in the opposite way ━ the Hero always more human, not God, merely blessed, champion in this way ━ where Ganondorf was his own, but they were theirs. Two against one, eternal.
"None, however, as impassioned as you," he continues "I would consider it something of respect, that you could harbor such liveliness for so long."
He wonders; passingly in the low light of twilight bleeding into the hideout as it is full with noise & distraction & color and as fabric folds with his limbs as he moves to sit, content to watch the clan breathe with itself; how much the Yiga would be willing to risk in such devotion to their goal. ━ everything, until everything is too much, until the world turns on them again. ━ Again. how it has before. how it could again, forever worse to do. How Ganondorf knows something similar, burning in his blood. ( perhaps Kohga knows the feeling. )
He finds himself beginning to understand, why it is they come looking for him.
his eyes, momentary in their focus on their leader, find somewhere else to settle. ( and he finds himself wondering, just as passing to reserve it for less occupied times, just how long the Yiga will last as they are. Resourceful and fast and stubborn, but tracing edges of impermanence, the way everything does, is made to. Except him, of course. Except him. ━ he likes to think, sentiment more than hope, that their stretch of being will not be killed, so much as it does not stay the same; the definition changing. 'the Yiga' not as a weapon, not a sharpness and outracing and hidden, 'the Yiga' as a people allowed to be people, to be families, to stay. He likes to think, in the way it could be hope, that they will not be like him forever. They, to grow out of shunning. Him, to stay the same. He likes to think, in the way it is hope, that one day they will not need him. ━ a scar of history, remembered always, but only, only a scar. )
"... but are they always this rambunctious?"
#does a little stretch. i got a little emotional about the vibes but shhh dont worry about it <3#i left it pretty vague (mostly bc brain went hard on flowery vibes-) but in my head set it kinda as a 'Ganondorf visiting the hideout/clan#- for the first time and everyone going kinda wild bc GIRL WH as he n kohga take a second to chat thru the chaos' BKHGTRB#small fun details: 1. gan being so fucking tall he's gotta bend down to not scrape his head against the ceiling of the hideout in some bits#(idk how tall it is but i assume its Roughly like. Around normal height for a room/house if not a lil taller in most areas)#2. gan respecting/admiring kohga for being so dedicated to the clan + keeping themselves alive long enough for him to MEET them#(which is like a 'ofc' thing but my gan's existed for a WHIIIIIILE so hes very accustomed to just Missing A Lot Of Shit)#3. gan kinda resembling demise with some locks of hair having a burning going on from his magic as a fun ref to his origins#4. him just fuckin sitting on the floor. there is no chair or mat big enough and he Does Not Care + better view to watch ppl Zoom from#theres probably more but those are the Main bits and i dont want to ramble forever in the tags when this is already Long HKGRB#ALSO LMK IF U WANNA PLOT ANYTHING EVER FOR THIS OR ANYTHING ELSE i am SO here /g#━ ♔ cardinals with snow-brushed wings : asks.#mightiestbanana#MUSE / Ganondorf#loz //#religion //
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the disparity between things i'm certified in and things i'm good at is fucking insane
#i had a servsafe for 5 years (bc that's how long they last) and i could most definitely cert again but i could never work in a kitchen#i'm a certified bartender and decided it wasn't for me bc it was sticky + i got raw egg white on my favorite shirt#bartending was so fuckin funny tho bc it was my first environment irl where i directly told people that i'm autistic#so like i would fully engage in freak behavior and the entire class was like oh that's mer don't worry about him#meghan (instructor) asked me point blank to be an asshole in class#i became the teacher's pet+class clown combo of fucking BARTENDING CLASS#anyway i also have excel and access certs ; i am absolutely fucking terrible with computers#mer rambles#meanwhile do i have anything that would tell someone i can write? that i'm good in management positions? no !#being alive is wild every damn day
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*screams loudly into an empty paper towel roll*
#( ooc )#( tbd )#I AM ALIVE OVER HERE I SWEAR hyujidf apologies for disappearing uwu its been!! very busy!!#much has happened nodnodnod my stanky ass on bOY JUICE NOW HELL YEA#day one baybee lets fuckiN GOOOOOOOO#my tumby hurts where i injected but gtdyhujfd this is fine this is fine#i just hope!! all goes well w no complications ;w; idk if there can be or w/e but god damn i waited literally over a decade for this shit#also!! find that i have more energy but that could be summed up to it being injection day + the anxiety/excitement juhyfugfd we shall see#how it effects my energy levels - hopefully good!! hopefully the brain fog will lift (And i will not get the dreaded#First Week Of T migraines <:' )) bUT YEAH NO IM#super tired ! its been a long day so ill likely not be here today but !!#feel free to message me on discord!! moots are welcome to ask for it <3#needles tw#iN CASE AA
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they are so fucked as soon as they reopen the hole in the sea. theyre doomed to open it no matter what but man. if things seem bad now.....
#my post#i am sososososososososososososoo scared#hang on ive just realized the hiatus starts after next episode#oh we are not getting to the hole in the sea until like. this time next year. EARLIEST this time next year#:(((((#listennlike when they open the hole. gills gonna touch the egg and itll release the nameless prince.#and theyll have arlin! yippee! but remember chips deal? to make sure arlin stays alive no matter what?#and theres a difficult choice waiting for him?#...what if arlin is too far gone. like how rose was?#what if they have to kill him?#and fuckin skipping over that- the navy is waiting for the spread of the Goop to begin the next phase of their plan#and lizzies starting her war soon!!#good luck uniting everyone to banish tnp again!!!!#AUGH#theyre just so fucked#but now im thinkning about arlin....
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#akina i hope u know u just ruined my whole life#HOW THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO WAIT FOR THREE FUCKIN MONTHS I CAN'T I WILL DIE FIRST#SLAPS MYSELF KOHA U HAVE TO LIVE FOR THIS!!!!!!!!! BEDEHOP WILL KEEP U ALIVE UNTIL THEN >:O
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ik im not supposed to bitch abt work but like. Dam. This job definitely has its frustrations
#i have from 8am to 4pm to finish all the rooms on my adsigned floor right. i usually end up staying until 5 bc i do my fucking job properly#somebody. who i am family friends with btw lol. bitched at me today and could Not understand that it wasnt that i did a shitty job#in her room. it was that I hadnt. fucking. been there yet.#hers was my final room and i got there at 2PM. 2 hours early.#yet because i didnt have it done at 12 like she expected apparently that makes me a bad employee.#no matter How many times i explained she kept coming back with 'if you want to keep this job you have to do what your boss is telling you'#i literally was and had on purpose kept her room for last bcos i THOUGHT that it would be nice to have familiar company around to chat with#bc she usually MAKES ME LATE bc SHE LIKES TO CHAT#and then she was confused as to why i was frustrated. girl. fucking help me out#then besides that :) figured out that the nurse who decided she hates me#is the sister of this kid in high school that fucking hated me#like god i love being alive actually its so fair and normal and understanding#rant fuckin over sorry but My God man i am killing myself every fucking day for this place and this is what i get.
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#man. i am still sick#my boss wants me to work and I'm honestly fucking pissed about all the pressure they're giving me#i bust my ass all year long and get sick and i don't even be able to get off to recover? seriously go fuck yourself#usually there's a lull in December but apparently we're 'busy' but man we've been busy for like 6 months now I'm done#my job has always made excuses but things get better eventually but man things are not getting better they're just staying shit#i honestly might quit I'm so mad im having trouble even working i just sit there like damn. fuck this job#I've had bad weeks but man it's been hard to bounce back from all the bullshit recently and i just don't know how long i can keep putting up#I'm just done I'm just so done#the promise of jobs to me is sacrifice your life for comfort and security but dude my life sucks#and if i can't even get sick then i feel like I'm taking care of the company instead of the company taking care of me#and what's the point at that point you know? like what am i doing this is some bull fuckin shit#destroy your life for no reward oh okay I'm not doing that fuck you and fuck this job i hate everyone and everything right now I'm so mad#my life sucks and i suck but this is some bullshit and I'm fuckin done. nothing else matters except for being alive and I'm gonna keep livin#but im done I'm done and I'm not living for work anymore this is just a job and you don't care about me so fuck right off
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