#hopefully one day I can attend again tho

[manasurge]

Sobs, I wish I had the energy for the Art Parties, but alas 😔 I still have a lot of my own projects I am trying to work on, and due to me being so slow, it's hard for me to really do the party stuff like I'd want to. Maybe one day when I'm faster at drawing it'll be more possible alksjdflf

of which I will make up for by just doing random friend/mutual OC gift art when I'm able, or I'll just include them into my own OC universe so I can just integrate everything together lmao

[ambersky0319]

Accidentally stayed up much later than anticipated bc I decided to browse potential classes/create an idea for a schedule next semester

There's something pretty fun about looking through classes and thinking about which ones I wanna take

It's only after the term starts that I begin regretting my choices

[ocdhuacheng]

i love looking up uchi-con in the artist alley discord servers im in bc ppl always have nice things to say about it i feel like such a proud mom. thats my baby <3

[canirove]

Rúben Dias Imagine | five

Author’s note: Someone on Wattpad asked me for more Rúben and I told them that with him I get randomly inspired, and that’s what happened here after seeing him at Bernardo’s wedding 😁 A little summary would be that you are together at the wedding, and since Rúben and alcohol aren’t the best of friends, he ends up saying something that he should’t have 👀 Hope you like it and thank you for reading! 💜  

Masterlist

*Female reader/pov

"Are you sure you can't see anything?"

"Yes, I'm sure."

"And from this angle?"

"Nothing."

"And if I do this? Rúben… Rúben!"

"You can't see anything, I already told you" he sighs.

"You aren't even looking at me!"

"Yes, I am."

"I can see you through the mirror's reflection, and you are looking at your phone."

"Because we are gonna be late, that's why."

"Then tell me if you can see anything!"

"You can't see anything from any angle" he says, getting up from the bed. "And besides, it's not like people will be looking at you."

"Oh wow, thank you" I reply.

"They won't because their eyes will be on Bernardo and Ines. It's their wedding, remember?" he chuckles.

"I know. But they will still look at me. I am attending with you by my side, and you are wearing a suit. It's impossible to not look."

"And that's why no one will be paying you much attention or analyzing every detail on your outfit. They'll be too busy looking at me" Rúben smirks.

"Idiot" I say, rolling my eyes. "Though you are probably right."

"I am. And I also am right when I tell you that you can't see anything, and that you look beautiful. You always do, don't get me wrong. But lately a lot more. And I love the reason why" he smiles.

"I wish I felt as beautiful as you think I look, tho" I sigh. 

"I don't think you look beautiful. I know it, it's a fact. And if we don't leave now, us being late to the ceremony will also be a fact."

"Fine" I say, taking the hand he is offering me and looking at myself in the mirror one last time. You can't see anything.

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"Kiss, kiss, kiss!" everyone chants, Bernardo and Ines kissing for the millionth time.

"They are gonna end up fed up with each other if you keep asking them to kiss" I laugh.

"Them? Maybe. But I will never get tired of kissing you" Rúben says with a cheeky smile.

"Never?" I ask, arching an eyebrow.

"Never" he says before kissing me.

"Eww, you taste like champagne. How many glasses have you had already?"

"I don't know" he shrugs.

"Rúben, you and alcohol aren't a good combination."

"I'm fine. This is just champagne."

"Let that be your last glass, please" I say as he pours himself another one. "I want to be able to dance with you later."

"It will, I promise" he smiles before drinking half of it in one go.

"Rúben! It's time for our speech!" João says, walking towards our table.

"Oh, shit. Did you bring what we wrote?"

"I did" João smiles. "Shall we?"

"Yes" Rúben says, finishing his drink.

"Wait" I say, grabbing his hand as he gets up.

"Are you alright?" he asks.

"I'm fine, don't worry. Just…"

"Urgh, don't bite your lip like that. I can’t control myself when you do it" he says, sitting down again and kissing me. It is a sloppy kiss, one that tells me that the last glass of champagne he drank was all he needed to be officially drunk.

"Don't say or do anything stupid, ok?" I say when we break apart.

"Me? Never" he laughs.

"João…"

"I'll take care of him, don't worry" he smiles. "Now let's go."

"Yes, let's go. I love you, gorgeous" Rúben says, kissing me one last time.

"I love you" I reply, fearing the worst.

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"And that's how we met Ines" João says, Rúben loudly laughing next to him. "Anything else you would like to add?"

"Yes!" Rúben says, taking the microphone.

"Oh, God" I whisper, already covering my face with one hand.

"Ines, I'm sorry about that day. It won't happen again. Hopefully" he laughs. "And if your husband here doesn't leave us this summer, I promise that this season I will treat him well. No more hitting him or scaring him or things like that. He's gonna be a dad now! Berni! A dad! So happy for you, bro. I can't wait for our kids to play together in a few months, it's gonna be the best!" Rúben laughs again.

"Wait what?" Bernardo says as he, Ines, and basically everyone in the room turn their heads to look at me. Great. Just great.

"Oh, fuck, shit" Rúben says, still talking through the microphone. "No one knows yet. Well, our parents do. But no one else. And now everyone does! You were all worried about your bump showing on that dress and I oops!" he laughs. "I'm going to be a dad!"

"Can you please shut up" I whisper, my eyes fixed on him.

"I'm going to be a dad. With the woman I love. The most amazing woman in the world. I love you, gorgeous. I love you so much!"

"I love you too" I smile, this time talking loud enough so he can hear me, people now looking from him to me and back at him.

"I love you so much! So so much! I want to spend the rest of my life with you! And with our kids! Because that baby won't be the last one, trust me. We love making babies" Rúben smirks. 

"Ok, I think that's enough" João says, taking the microphone from his hand.

"I love you!" Rúben shouts one last time before leaving the small stage and starting to walk towards our table, a stupid smile on his face. Though he doesn't make it to where I am, his eyes going wide before running away.

"Oh God" I say, getting up and following him outside.

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"Here" I say, giving him a Kleenex.

"Thank you" Rúben whispers. "And I'm sorry."

"About what? Embarrassing yourself and me in front of everyone, telling them I am pregnant when I have been trying to hide it because I am not ready to share the news yet, or vomiting on one of the flowerpots outside the venue?" 

"All of it?" he says, looking at me with puppy eyes.

"I told you to stop drinking."

"I know."

"Then why didn't you listen to me?"

"Because I was happy and I wanted to celebrate! I wanted to celebrate Bernardo and Ines, and us, and our baby, and I just…" he shrugs.

"You can also celebrate while drinking water. Alcohol isn't necessary."

"That's what I will do from now on. I promise."

"Sure" I snort.

"I promise" he says, clumsily getting up from the floor. "I want to do it for you. Both of you" Rúben says, putting his hand on my tiny bump, the one that no one had noticed. Until now.

"Do you think they are mad?"

"Who?" 

"Bernardo and Ines. We just kind of crushed their wedding" I chuckle. 

"Nah. They probably are a bit shocked, but not mad."

"We can't go back there just yet, tho. People were already looking at us because I have the hottest date, and if we go now, we'll be the center of attention, not them. And they still have to do their first dance and all that."

"Then let's wait. I could do with some fresh air."

"You definitely could, yes" I laugh.

"And earlier they were looking at you. You are the hot date today, not me" Rúben says, moving his hands to my waist and pulling me closer to him.

"Are you trying to flatter me so I forget everything you just did?" I say, wrapping my arms around his neck.

"Maybe… Is it working?"

"Kind of" I smile.

"Then I'll have to try harder" he says, leaning forward to kiss me.

"Rúben, no, eww!" I say, taking a step back.

"What is it?"

"Your breath smells like shit!" 

"Oh, fuck, sorry" he apologizes. "We'll leave that for later, then."

"Please and thank you" I laugh.

"Do you still love me, though?" he says, closing the space between us once again.

"So so much I want to spend the rest of my life with you" I say with a teasing smile.

"Laugh at me all you want, but I was telling the truth." 

"I know. But next time let's keep it more private."

"Ok" Rúben laughs. "I love you, gorgeous."

"I love you too" I smile.

[pianistbynight]

waning summer days

i cheated and recorded in sections, then spliced them together because i can't get a single clean take. if it's not me making a mistake, it's noise surrounding me. this way, the pressure was lessened and i think i did better (far from "perfect" tho) and it was less frustrating.

thursday | 08/15/24

no piano today. i'm tired. but i did read more of sweet bean paste and continued to work on the databases course. today was a bit chaotic, so i couldn't get 2h of studying in, but if i sleep early, i can maybe hopefully wake up earlier to work on it.

friday | 08/16/24

tried to play piano but then stopped because i got tired sooner than i expected. (also tried out a voice recorder app to record the piano audio instead of my phone camera but didn't like it...too much treble.) i finished 1 subsection of the databases course. caught up with @zzzzzestforlife. listened to some lofi and watched some youtube.

i'm trying to get myself in the mood to prep for the upcoming school year 😮‍💨 i...find myself dreading more and more each coming school year for some reason. ... it's not the work i fear. i know i can do it well but it takes so much of me. and i wonder what i'm doing this for. because i don't have all the stepping stones laid out yet. 😮‍💨 i need to work on that, so i'm going to sleep now so i can have more energy to continue doing this tomorrow. good night.

saturday | 08/17/24

i had a much more ambitious plan originally, but the only solo activity i actually had time and energy for was journaling because coming back to my hometown reminded me of and clarified some memories and opinions i had formed long ago, how they've shaped who i am now... the rest of the time i spent with family with real conversation for the first time in a while, so that was nice.

sunday | 08/18/24

sigh. i have never felt like i belonged in my former hometown and the loneliness is striking much stronger now. i was so tired i couldn't do much today except start filling in the YearCompass because who said the new year had to begin in january lol. i'm glad today was a chill day spent at my temporary home.

i will try to sleep early tonight. hopefully i won't wake up in between and be unable to fall back asleep again.

monday | 08/19/24

today was my first day of passable sleep quality in the last couple days. i woke up later than i expected. yet i still didn't feel like doing anything. i forced myself to do some duolingo for cheap dopamine, and later in the afternoon, i attempted to get through 1 more subsection of the databases course but couldn't focus. instead, i researched how to apply to take courses at another university in my area since there are some interesting courses there that aren't available at the one i attend. at night, i practiced the last bit of the clementi sonata and tried to record the whole thing but couldn't get a good one. i'm too tensed and distracted. i need to practice playing while relaxed, focusing only on what's relevant in the moment.

review U1 japanese, start hiragana practice ✅

work on databases course 🟨

practice piano ✅

tuesday | 08/20/24

fill in the YearCompass bc i'm too tired to journal unprompted and i want to be filled with hope for this school year instead of constantly drained and increasingly discouraged, disappointed, and depressed (why do so many negative things start with "d"? even the saddest songs are in d minor...)

practice playing clementi sonata while relaxed throughout and focused only on what's currently relevant

DATABASES COURSEEE - finish 4/13 subsections ✅ (ended up finishing 2 and starting a 3rd...this is harder than i thought it'd be but it'll be good for me to keep going...)

wednesday | 08/21/24

i don't even remember what happened. probably because i wasn't very productive. i was unusually angry and moody. i tried to record a single clean take and kept failing. i merely inched forward in the databases course. it was a day full of frustrating but necessary interruptions. it was tiring. i can't wait to go home.

thursday | 08/22/24

recorded the clementi sonata in sections...with more time and energy, i probably could've done better. almost 50% through the databases course. feeling a little better today than yesterday but always easily tired. this might be my last summer-themed post for the year as i'm already in an "autumnal mood." 🍂😅 i'll see you later either here or on my sideblog @studentbyday 🙂

[lovesick-feelings]

Hello how are you? I hope you are wellI could ask for a headcanon or drawing what you prefer of a yandere glamrock freddy trying to make the reader fall in love

Thank you for requesting, lovely reader! Just for you I shall do both! °˖✧◝(⁰▿⁰)◜✧˖° The drawing will come after these headcanons tho so look forward to that! It doesn't portray your request but think of it as the aftermath~ ≖‿≖

🧡 You'd have to be completely oblivious to not notice Glamrock Freddy’s crush favoritism on you. He isn't one for telling you straightforward. He'll take his time to prepare but bro is too shy to admit it. He tries his best to hide it from others, but it doesn’t take much for the other animatronics to see it. Or anyone, for that matter.

🧡 As a visitor, Glamrock Freddy doesn't have much time to be with you. With you coming occasionally and him being the main attraction, he tries his best to balance both. Once your guest profile is highlighted, he tries to excuse whoever he’s with to find you. When he finds you, he waves and calls your name while rushing over to you. You’re always greeted with his iconic bear hug before he bombards you with questions. How are you? What are you doing here? Have you been up to anything? His ears are wiggling from so much excitement as you talk!

🧡 He apologizes profusely when he has to go back to work. ‘ Just one more minute…’ He wishes it every time he’s reported to the stage. No matter how much you try to comfort him, he still feels sorry. His poor superstar is being strong for him. 😢 Before he leaves, he presents you with Pizzaplex gifts like coupons, merch, and free passes for his shows. Hopefully, with these, you’ll forgive him and stay a bit longer. Cheer him on in his show and he’s back to his happy self. As I said, it’s a pattern of performing and running back to be with you, so he wants to do his best to make each visit unforgettable for you.

🧡 Now, if you are an employee, he has all the free time needed to attend to you! It’s laughable how much he chases you around the pizzeria. Vanessa had gotten so tired of bringing him back. She just throws you a walkie-talkie and tells you to report back if he annoys you.

🧡 This bear's main love language is acts of service. He’s willing to do absolutely anything for you. From bringing you a fresh lunch to passing you the tools you need, he can do it all. He insists on carrying you to your next destination, no matter how short the distance is. Somehow, he’s always on time, no matter the situation. Probably because he keeps track of each task you do and the time you'll most likely do it, but you don't gotta know about that! 

🧡 Over praise everything you do. You could be sweeping up the office and he’ll appear outta nowhere to congratulate you on your hard work. He’ll pat your head and propose a 5-minute break. You could spend that time talking to him again! He often compliments your looks as well. He longingly looks at you while you are distracted. The silence of the room is broken when he tells you how beautiful you look. In fact, he could go into complete detail about how much you mean to him- I mean everyone!

🧡 Every romantic partner buys their crush gifts and Freddy brings LOTS of them. He makes it a point to leave you something every shift. He won’t leave coupons or passes, since you can enjoy all that luxury with company benefits. Instead, everytime Glamrock Freddy comes to take a quick check on you, he leaves you a plushie of him next to you as you work; as if to watch you even when he's not physically there. You have so much merch of him, you could compete with even the most hardcore collectors. Each day he leaves you beautiful orange, red, and blue flowers with a note in your locker. Each sentence is nothing but doting and encouraging words to brighten your day. 

🧡 At the end of the day (or night), all he needs is a simple smile and thank you for knowing his efforts are worth it. As selfish as it sounds, he wants to be the only one you can count on for assistance. Or anything for that matter! Not that he minds others, but he knows they won’t be as helpful as he is. Freddy can easily become overbearing if proper boundaries are not set in time.

🧡 It's up to you to ask why he's been acting so strange because, by the time, he'll confess it will be when he has you locked up in his room. When he explains how he feels around you, you already know what he was trying to say. Accept his confession and he'll be ecstatic! Nothing much will change besides his clinginess being cranked up. He can't help but give surprise hugs and call you sweet nicknames.

🧡 Rejection will leave him devastated. There were so many obvious reasons why you couldn't be together, but he can't help but feel like he's gone wrong somewhere. He tells you if he can't be your lover, then you can still be friends, but you can hear a hint of sadness as he says it. He still aids and talks to you whenever you can. However, something has been off with him. He gently scolds his friends and other employees for leaving mistakes you have to fix despite it never being a problem in the past. It turns into more little things like how they approach you. When you approach him about his behavior, he apologizes for it. He offers you to come to his room later where he can explain things better. Will you take him up on his offer?

[leclerking]

Fic ideas because i have too many 😀‼️

If you use any of these pls tag me I'd love to read your fic! ⠀ You don't have to stick to the genre or the drivers mentioned, you can write it with anyone (if it's in pink tho I'd really like for it to be the one mentioned)

Fucking in missionary so they can continue arguing — Sebastian Vettel enemies to lovers

Medical au series with some or few of the drivers. Grey's anatomy style ukwim? Include some of the older drivers like Jenson and Mark as attendings, Seb as a resident, current ones on the grid as interns.

Medical au alternative Seb as an intern with reader as the attending. And they sort of get into a relationship — slow burn, fluff, angst

Reader is part of a rival team (not a driver!). She's drunk during one of the post race celebrations (very beginning of the season, full of hope). There's another driver (in my head I'm thinking a driver who's cocky af seb jenson ) who's drunk and they hookup. So they get into this sort of fwb situationship. And then further into the season it just keeps going from bad to worse to the point the reader has given up on the team. But it's going extremely well for this driver. — One night after the worst race ever, reader is crying in her room. Driver knocks on door, reader is surprised he'd rather spend time with her since they don't really have anything deep going on (can make this part very angsty by asking driver to fuck off to his celebration parties). So the driver goes to the party, comes back later in the night but drunk. Confesses love or they have a conversation idk how this ends! — hopefully happy ending

One night in the city every year— reader (local) meets driver one night in the city and they have a great time. But the driver is there only for a few days for the race. He leaves and comes back a year later, so this slowly turns into a yearly tradition... So many years later the driver is about to retire so he meets the reader for one last time since he won't be visiting anymore — can be left as an open ending fluff angst unrequited (?)

Drifting date !! — driver teaches reader how to drift (Idk why this hasn't been written yet / I've not read a fic about something like this yet so yeah) this is giving Charles vibes

Frat/fuckboy fic based on this lore in his teenage dirtbag phase (tldr; Jenson woke up on somebody's yacht sofa post Naomi Campbell's Cannes after party. He had to do commentary that day and walked on to the paddock like sex on a stick) + he is reputed to have the playboy image dating various models.

Biker boyfriend Lando who takes reader (a struggling uni student) on late night drives for stress relief.

Friends to Lovers — Oscar and reader are uni students who work at the same cafe on campus. slice of life, fluff

Open to any and all fanfic writers. Pls make my maladaptive dream scenarios an actually amazing fic that I can read ! Again PLEASE TAG ME, ID LOVE TO READ THEM !

[midnight-mourning]

Do you have designs for the siblings? If so can we see them? (About confused spirit) also hopefully writing it is fun for you :D <-apologies for incorrect grammar.

Hi!!! I actually DO have some designs of the siblings, had to sit and make them as they've just been living in my head lol

So, I kind of keep things kind of vague since you know, it's a reader insert and everybody is different in terms of looks, BUT as mentioned in the fic, Gabe take's after Rick for sure. So he's got his dad's eyes and hair color. I imagine when he gets older his hair will also get a little curlier as well. Otherwise, just your typical baby, which I'm not good with drawing kids so he is 100% based on a ref lmao (and yes, those are Bonnie Bowl pjs Lisa picked out for him)

Lisa on the other hand looks more like Reader/Reader's mom. Therefore, her design has a lot more range for being open to interpretation. She got the curls from Rick/his family tho :) She likes skirts bc she believes them to be 'perfect for battles of all kinds'. She also did NOT lose that tooth by headbutting a kid at recess she would NEVER do such a thing-

As for writing, I love it very much! Confused Spirit is my first published piece of writing in a while, (I hadn't posted anything for a year and a half before that, six months probably since the last time I wrote) so if you're curious that's why I always get so overly excited when people like the fic haha

Thanks for the lovely ask! Sorry it took so long to respond to >_< Again, wanted to sit and draw them properly :)

'sketch' versions of their refs below the cut as well as text since it's hard to see (and I can't spell)

Lisa (8):

menace to society

a favorite among her teachers and peers???

will probably rule the world one day

Gabe:

just a lil guy

loves his siblings :)

his favorite attendant is BLANK

thinks puzzles pieces and other things he should NOT eat are gourmet

[rindough]

yeah sure!! can i be 💫 anon? if that one's taken 🎲 anon is also fine!

also Salvation Army by Harrison Whitford reminds me of so many characters... specifically tho it makes me think of Acheron having a s/o that she left behind but really it fits with anyone who would reminisce on a lost childhood/past and the people in it (wow that's a lot of the HSR cast huh)

assigneddd!!! ure now the bling bling anon :DD

ngl i also think that this song suits a lot or any character *calls entire hsr cast to go on set* well for me atm, i can envision this song with acheron, let's say you resided in xian zhou luo fu, a chef for a stall that many loved to frequent to.

the rain sometimes poured above your stall's shelter, and accompanied with the chitter chatter of your regulars? it only add more weight to your heavy heart that had to bear the weight of your lover leaving.

no one would want their lover to leave to venture out into the unknown, even if their lover had to, nobody would wish for them to venture into the haze only to never come back. everybody wants them to come home, safe and sound.

but why hasn't she come through the doorstep yet? why isn't there any "babe, i'm home!" in the quiet of your home.

the slit in your heart, it deepens at each creak you caused when your feet lands the old wooden floor, it aches dully in your chest at every window you open, only for cold wind to rush in. it aches at every sunrise and sunset.

it's not like acheron left you for good, but for some reason, this time when she had left to go on a mission. the kiss she places on your forehead was chaste, her mind on edge and her voice perhaps a little too sharp for your everyday conversation.

"i'm leaving now," she looks at you, hands firmly holding your shoulders in place, the morning air filling into your traditional home, the soft rumble of thunder sounding from far away. without warning, you tip toed and place a kiss on her lips, pulling her into a hug afterwards. acheron wraps her arms around you, a hand stroking the crown of your head as if she was trying to soothe you.

she'll be gone for a while, she doesn't want to leave you, but she had to. she need to get that income for the two of you.

but to make this much more easier to overcome, this moment when the two of you part, again... she decides to act a little colder, a little distant but honestly she came to realised later in penacony that it wouldn't make sense... given that you've been dating since a decade ago. she sometimes would face palm herself when she realises how confused you might be after that farewell, she blames herself for getting a little too caught up in those soap operas you two would watch at night.

acheron quietly makes a sharp turn in the alley of golden hour, sounds of puking and laughter not that far behind her. a few more steps and the hotel door was illuminating brightly in front of her. she longs for you, she misses your touch. thankfully it's the final commission for her current journey, time went by so fast, she couldn't count how many days or weeks have gone past. but she was sure it wasn't years away from you, speaking of you... you must've missed her dearly in your house. she enters a room after being redirected by the trailblazer, settling down into the tub. she closes her eyes, hopefully waiting for a different reality to wake her up, a reality that she is familiar with.

darkness washes over her, she could date back to that specific moment when she felt her heart doing summersaults and butterflies creeping up her stomach that she'd mistaken it to be a case of caffeine overload. she remembered the crash that accompanied shortly after you called out to her under the warm light of the lamppost in xian zhou luo fu. that night was a mere reunion for friends who had grown up together, but for some reason, she's here, just to accompany you to attend this meetup, even though she knows nuts about your childhood friends.

you weren't aware of her background back then and she couldn't blame you, she had just arrived to the area, got to know you for the sake of a mission, but somehow, found herself overstaying in the planet. boothill had called her to return for some other 'irrelevant' businesses but she couldn't be bothered. being here, in this bustling town, with you by her side, learning what had made up your childhood, how you do things here in this planet, what the people here enjoy the most... it all reminded her of warmth... like a home... something that she couldn't remember or understand about.

acheron feels as if she could be herself around you, breaking down that cold and mysterious demeanor that she displays on every visit to many different planets. so when you invited her out for this meetup as a plus one, she couldn't deny it. she wants to savor, to capture every single chance to get and stay close to someone she calls 'home'.

so that night, she realises something, but nothing good.

overstaying is one thing, but what if she *had* to leave one day, what if she was forced to leave? that wouldn't appear good to you nor her. who knows she would face a penalty? or what if... the way she's this attached to you, she could get in trouble, you could get in trouble.

so she did what she had to do, pulled you aside and told you that she's leaving tomorrow. and when you called out to her that night, disbelief written all over your face, eyes on the verge of tears at the fact that she'll be leaving not soon but tomorrow? she can't blame you for making her want to lean in, to press her lips against yours under the warm yet quiet night. to make you understand what she thinks of you.

when she opens her eyes once more, body floating in the dream tub, she raises a hand up, admiring the way it glistens under the light behind her.

she was determined to head back to you, in the comfort of your family home, into the warmth of your arms.

--;

©  2024 rindough, do not repost or plagiarize.

[accio-victuuri]

everyday is a good day to be a bxg 🌼 ( cpn for sunday & thoughts on things that happened today )

It was a busy afternoon for us, from wyb finally being confirmed to go to LA for the Chanel Cruise Show and then an hour later, XZ’s new movie to be filmed was announced. this is what i meant when i say we never lose. double happiness for us all the time. 👏🏼

so glad that they get these opportunities and continue to do what they love the most! in the meantime, we will be here to support them.

THOUGHTS ON THE AFTERNOON NEWS:

Let me just show the hot search attached to them and go from there:

• XZ’s new movie! Finally! It’s been so long since Jade Dynasty! More than anything, I am looking forward for his aesthetic. I’m sorry for his hairline yet again but he just fits the whole wuxia vibe. He is working with a well known director and a big IP, so that’s good for him. It can also be a huge challenge because Condor Heroes is a well loved story in China and the pairing was played by so many actors for years before him and his co-star — so the pressure is definitely ON. A lot of passer by will have something to say, there will be lots of opinions and the movie will be picked apart, and i think the production knows that too. So everyone should work extra hard to make something special. 💕

In the subject of GG going into movies, well i hope him and WYB will attend movie award events together. LOL. cause technically, they will be in the same “movie circle”. I know this will do well in the BO, and hopefully after this, XZ can choose a passion project that is not tied to an existing IP. Maybe this is their chance to work together, A movie. Who knows. I’m just putting out there!

• The second HS is about listing all XZ’s past female co-stars / love interests and something about it makes me feel that we’re so lucky cause WYB is his only male “love interest”. They will both have so many leading ladies in their projects, but WWX / LWJ will always be that one-time they didn’t. HAHAHAHAHAHA! They can compare all they want among those women ZZ worked with but we all know who is the best “love interest” 😂😂😂

I also know nothing about his co-star for the new movie and i honestly don’t care much. I’m like a solo when it comes to this, as long as they are good at what they do then i’m okay. I’m just gonna crop them out anyway in almost everything i share about the project. so yeah.

• OF ALL THE THINGS THAT CAN GO ON HS WITH YIBO’S LOS ANGELES TRIP! 🤣🤣🤣🤣

actually, his top, trousers and cap are all things he has worn before. that’s just how he is. he is the same as XZ in this, they are professional outfit repeaters — and there is nothing wrong with that tbh. the only new things are the chanel cardigan and bag.

I know all of us are happy that he gets to have a work/vacation abroad. If you’re following other c-ent stars, it seems like a lot of them already had time to play abroad and now it’s our yibo’s turn and he deserves it the most!!!! I’m sure he will have fun and maybe he can meet his friends. This is his first Chanel Show abroad and it’s the Chanel Fanboy living his dream 👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼 I need a photo of him and G-Dragon please. I also wanna add how lowkey his team was about this. There was no internal announcement from his side or fan groups. It was just melons and rumors. He still got hounded at the airport tho and of course lele and yanyan was there to protect him. And well - look at him trying to control people :

( but his big hands tho omg 👀 )

I will be sharing Chanel posts from other SNS cause engagement will be important so they know how big WYB is. Do not listen to other people ( you know who i’m talking about lol ). Just do your best in promoting our boy in this show. There is no need for comparison. Make noise. 🗣️🗣️🗣️

NOW LET’S MOVE ON TO THE TOPIC OF CLOWNING!!!!!

Well, the highlight of Yibo’s airport photos aside from himself is how visible the bone necklace is. It’s like he is showing off or something. It’s really a genius idea on XZ’s side to give him this because it gives off a sense of ownership. All I can say is, the relationship is stable. 😌😌😌

• photos & videos from his recently finished drama bright road shows him with his very cute bottled joy tumbler with lemon water. which has always been their thing 🍋 it’s truly the small things between them that i like, especially when it’s connected to taking care of themselves.

• My fave which is over analyzing the arrangement of photos, #2 and #8 looks different from the others again. Ai Bo. 🫶🏼

• and well more than that is how WYB’s photos from his safeguard live event in shanghai (2020) looks like it can be from the same set as ZZ’s 📷

their photographer / editor are dating 🤫

• Project Hints in their posts. This one is more on the heavy speculation/interpretation side of things. Tho I do believe that in 2020, wyb was basically the one giving signs if XZ will show up. and then XZ sharing something a day before WYB will announce his single ( which happened a couple of times ). So it makes sense that BXGs would keep an eye out on this.

Even XZ’s solo fans are saying he does this, like a caption from a tod’s post echoes a part of a poem “shooting the condors” & references an old city featured in the series~ so they agree that XZ & his team can put hints in their posts. i’m seeing people who caught this as soon as they posted but i’m uneducated about all this soooo 🤷🏻‍♀️

I swear he’s like taylor swift with his easter eggs and how fans should think about what he posts. lol. and well, we are good at that.

and recently, they did the whole wei lai x where dreams are made of hint too so ya know — they are not making this easy for us! how can you not clown? 😂😂😂😂

as for bxgs the most recent cue for WYB’s project was:

XZ studio posted on 11/2022 a vlog and on the caption was “long wind & waves” 长风破浪. and then weeks or months later, melons of WYB’s new drama of the same name started popping up. It’s now renamed to bright road but what are the chances that they will use that. to be fair, that video was the “health like be like..” vlog with him surfing so it fits, but there are so many other alternative to use so why what exact words huh?

( source one and two for the project hints cpn cause i would be so lost! actually, i still am. lol. )

-END.

[rexxdjarin]

Under the Same Night Sky

A little pre-order 66 Rex and Mari slutty shenanigans for this evening 😈😏

Captain Rex x OC: Mari Vontas

18+ RATED E FOR EXPLICIT. MINORS DNI!!

warnings: established relationship, oc pairing, sexting, dirty talk, usage of toys, fluff and separation angst.

Click. Click.

Two tones signaled on Mari’s comm as she sat in her living room wasting away in front of the holonet channels streaming on her projector. The room was illuminated only by the neon signage just outside her window. She rubbed her eyes and sat herself up enough to reach over for her comm laying on her caf table.

Click. Click.

Again, it signaled. This time of night it could only be one person. He was away. Lately, it felt like he was always away. Anywhere but where she’d like him, softly snoozing wrapped in her blankets and gripping onto her for dear life like he always unconsciously did when he slept. This mission had lasted more than 46 rotations, more than a month without the scent of him lingering on her clothes and her couch cushions. She hadn’t heard from him in a few days and he always tried to check in to alleviate her worries.

When Mari’s comm lit up as she tapped in her passcode, she smiled wide at the message she’d received.

Rex: thinkin’ bout you, mesh’la. can see lots of star systems where I am. hoping one of them’s yours.

He was always more gushy and sentimental when he was gone a longer period of times. Mari didn’t blame him. She felt the pangs of loneliness as deeply as he did. She just didn’t have to worry about it showing in the middle of a war zone like he did.

Mari: don’t worry I can spot you from anywhere in space, blondie. ;)

She giggled to herself, the desire to poke fun at him was too good to resist. She slid herself back down into the comfort of the only blanket that still vaguely carried his scent and snuggled back into her lounged position on her couch. It wasn’t often they caught each other at the same time and it wouldn’t be unusual for the him that the soonest he could follow up would be rotations later. To her luck, this was one of the rare times they were both up and free at the same instance.

Rex: very funny. ;) knew you’d be up. you holding things down back there? can I see you?

To Rex’s unbelievable luck, she was doing quite well. She’d spent the entire afternoon at a banquet for the Devaronian Royal Peace Council who’d just come in that morning to attend a special convening of the Senate. She looked beautiful, deciding on a rich sapphire satin gown that would’ve made Rex’s lungs ache for air he’d struggle to find in her presence.

Mari: holocall?

Rex: can’t. boys are asleep all around me. don’t wanna wake ‘em. can send me a holo of that pretty face tho.

Mari scrolled through holos of that evening, searching for the best one she’d taken of herself and settling on one that was more her usual sultry smirk than the kind shy smile she always saved just for him.

She sent the holo over and in seconds he replied again.

Rex: there she is :) blue was a nice touch. I’d show you mine, but…don’t think you’d be pleased with what you’d see. I’m fine. Just don’t want you to be worried. I’m alright. Hopefully wrapping things up. I miss you. every part of me misses you haha.

Mari smiled proudly, knowing exactly what he meant by every part of him. After all he can barely keep his hands off her when he’s 2 feet from her, forget 2 star systems away.

Mari: every part, huh? well I can help with that ;)

Rex: you’d do that for me? fuuuck.

Mari: of course, baby. whatever you need, I’m yours.

Rex: maker- I’m so lucky. can you show me that perfect ass?

Mari smirked, she had him right where she wanted him even from hundreds of lightyears away. Normally, she’d search through her existing catalog for something great she’d taken of herself and saved for him for another day. But she looked so good tonight and she missed him so much that this warranted something brand new.

She stood up from her spot on the couch and crossed through the circular threshold to her room. The large round wall mirror was the perfect place to pose for him and she knelt down in front of it, admiring the gorgeous makeup she’d flawlessly managed to apply. Slowly, she hiked up her dress to reveal the blue and white lace set she’d chosen just to remind herself of him. Stars he was about to lose his mind.

She snapped a holo of her behind, the blue piping hugging her every rounded curve, dip and crease just perfectly. She beamed, honestly proud of how titillating and enticing she had made herself look. A few taps later and she’s sending it over to him, no caption necessary.

Rex had only gotten progressively dirtier with time. As their relationship went on, he got more and more comfortable letting his freak flag fly if only because he so desperately wanted to keep up with her insatiable appetite and skill. He wasn’t inexperienced, but he wanted to explore more of his sexuality with her than he ever found himself wanting to before. She made him feel safe enough to get filthy and he loved every step he took into self-discovery with her leading the way.

Mari knew enough about her boyfriend to know where this was going to end up. She stripped off the remaining articles of clothing she’d thrown on when she got home tonight and padded over to the secret drawer where she kept her toys hidden away. One in particular that was the closest she’d get to Rex himself; a long and thick one that still was no comparison for the real thing. It would have to do though.

No sooner did she pick up the blue silicone toy, her comm clicked again. Multiple times in a row.

Rex: fuck…

Rex: fuck, Mari.

Rex: mesh’la…fucking HELL you look so good. you have no idea what you do to me…

Rex: I’m so fucking hard. let me see more, pretty girl.

She rushed into the cuddly warmth of her bed, positioning her holopad on her desk not far away and posed again for a holovid now. More suggestively this time, legs spread wide and her hand delicately tugging at the thin band of lace blocking her center from view. The other hand peeling down the straps of her bra and slowly slipping it off of her into a heap in her sheets. Though her eyes started by watching her own movements, they ended staring right up at the screen the way she’d demurely blink up at her boyfriend’s lust darkened gaze if he were here.

She fired the holovid over to him immediately, feeling her own blood starting to sizzle with inebriated need she had tried to put off until he returned to her. Here she sat alone, half naked, aroused and absolutely beautiful in a bed that truly belonged to two people who shouldn’t ever have to part.

He responded quicker this time, his own need spurring this on faster than usual.

Rex: you’re fucking perfect. play with those tits for me. wish I could kiss them both. And somewhere else too…

Rex: take those panties off…captain’s orders ;)

Mari: only if you’re pumping that pretty cock for me, sir.

She responded, attaching a follow up of her with her tongue swirling lewdly around a finger.

Rex pinged back instantly. The holo was dark, their makeshift barracks not nearly sufficient enough for their usual dirty exchanges, but she could just make out his fist wrapped around his shaft just below the tip. The sight of him being presented to her but not in front of her now was a special form of cruel torture.

Rex: fucking pounding for you, mesh’la. wish it was your dirty fucking mouth wrapped around me right now.

Mari nearly squealed with joy, she loved it when he got like this. That he felt perfectly safe enough with her to actually do this. She hit record again, this time tugging the lace fabric of her panties down her legs and over the blue garters she’d decided to leave on. Her hand delicately grazed the swollen bud of her clit and she cried out in ecstasy, completely overwhelmed at the idea of this being his hand instead of hers. The drawn out desperate mewl of his name followed and she sent it back to him quickly as she kept up the torturously slow circles on herself.

In seconds her holo was actually ringing, a comm channel opening at the quick tap of her finger. So much for not wanting to wake his men.

“don’t…have a lot…” He was panting as he was clearly exerting himself to keep up with her, “Of time. Gotta be more quiet than I’d like. But Mari…mesh’la be as loud and filthy and sexy as you want. Let me watch you go, gorgeous. fuck.” He rasped, the quiet whisper tone of his voice not enough to conceal the overwhelming arousal deepening his voice.

“Rex…it’s nice to hear your…voice…oh fuck..” She replied before tipping her head back and resigning to the pleasure rippling through her as her slow, deliberate circles on her clit became slippery dips into her folds.

“Gods, look at you. You’re soaked, aren’t you? Talking to me makes you so hot, huh mesh’la? You look so fucking sexy…you’d look so good taking this cock. I know that’s what you’re thinking about. Taking me like a good girl…” Rex rambled as his arousal carried him higher and higher toward bliss.

Mari couldn’t see him, he was probably on their private comm channel and likely listening to her through his helmet. But thank the force and every star above just hearing his voice was enough to make her soar. She eased herself as close to her propped up holopad as possible and tipped her head back, her tits pressed out provocatively toward the camera. Rex stifled a desperate moan, her name chanted like prayer in her ears as he sped up the strokes of his fist along his length.

Mari sighed, turning toward the screen before bringing her toy into frame and making Rex nearly choke with excitement. “N-need more, Rex. It’s not you…but it’s close.” She whimpered, slicking up the surface of it with the pool of wetness already coating her fingers and folds.

“Think about me. Pretend it’s me. Call out for me. I’m here, darling. Always. You need me. That pretty pussy is mine. Take it all for me. Mmmmf fuck, Mari. Show me…” He instructed, soft groans of restraint he was forcing upon himself filling her ears.

She lifted her head and looked directly into the holopad, making burning eye contact with what she could imagine were Rex’s big perfect brown eyes or his two blue jaig eyes glaring down at her. She slipped the toy inside her effortlessly, the melodic sound of erotic satisfaction filling her ears, the room and Rex’s bucket.

“Rex. So good. You’re so good. I can’t…can’t take it much longer.” She moaned, the swell of arousal buzzing through her system as the blunt end of the toy bumped her insides at a pace she imagined would match Rex’s.

“Yes…fuck oh fuck…yes you can Mari. Because you’re such a good girl for me. Such a tight wet little cunt. You can take it so good. You always do. Show me how good you are. Make that pretty pussy come for me. Can you do that?” His deep voice rumbled louder, his drive toward climax making the dominant side of him come out.

Mari gasped as the sound of his voice made more arousal surge through her lower belly, a hot lick of torturously delightful tension binding ever tighter. The only solace from the burn in her core was the slicked toy bumping into it with every rock of her hips forward. She imagined every time Rex would thrust his hips just so, gripping the plush of her round thighs to lift her legs higher, grinding himself deeper and harder inside her. His powerful pistoning hips were the only respite she’d ever known from the brutal ache of desire that lived within her very soul.

With his voice spurring her forward, his pants and groans and mutters of her name had her head spinning. Her body clouded with ever rising levels of bliss. She teased her clit the way he would, pressing and rolling repeatedly, gradually speeding up every so often. She thrusted the lengthy toy in and out of her the way he would his cock, to the hilt, to her favorite spot, until he made her sob with delight at how good she felt.

Numbing tingles spread through her from her core to the tips of her fingers and toes. She was nearly there. Just needed to hear him one more time. To put up the façade for a little longer.

“Rex….oh Rex I’m…close. So close, Captain. Please, please can I come? Baby, please?” She let the begging commence, the pleading moans making the breath audibly catch in his throat.

Rex chuckled darkly followed by a deep guttural groan he was desperately trying to muffle. “Mari, my mesh’la. Come for me. Say my name when you do. Nice and loud. Wanna hear who makes you come so good. Fuck I’m gonna come too.” He harshly whispered, the sputtering sounds of his breathing stopping momentarily as his climax began to suffocate him. “Together, ok?”

That was it. Not the filth, the freaky, nasty, depraved shit he called to her this entire time. No. It was the softness, his need for her to go with him, his accommodation of her, the thought of him needing her pleasure to find his. That did it.

All at once the burn in her belly snapped, her walls clenched around the toy that could bring her to this but would never feel even half as good as her Rex. The circles on her clit ignited the numbing tingles radiating outward to join with her spasming walls collapsing around her toy.

“Rex!!” She cried out in carnal ecstasy, her body rolling and writhing, her every muscle tensing in response to the high careening into her.

“Fuuuuuck.” He groaned, breaks in his panting signaling each time he shot a ribbon up into his own hands. Three, four, five times over. He giggled happily to himself, his high fading and leaving him completely boneless for at least a little while.

Mari grabbed her holopad and laid back on her sheets, keeping her connection to Rex as close to her as she could. Aftershocks rolled through her for a few minutes afterwords and he coaxed her through all of them. “Oh R-Rex. I feel….so good, baby. I’m so happy.” She sighed, pulling her blankets up to cover herself and looking into the screen hoping by some miracle she might be able to see his perfect, smirking handsome face.

“I know, my little sunshine. I know. Look so beautiful too.” Rex assured, the tiredness of a battle weary soldier finally starting to settle back into his usually gruff voice.

Mari’s eyes hung heavy with sleep, the incredible height of her climax sending her crashing down just as hard. “Wish…I could see you..your handsome face too, Rex. I miss you. I miss you so much.”

He stayed quiet for a while, Mari almost thought he’d fallen asleep on her. But he yawned and spoke softly, the way she chose to believe he only ever did to her, “I miss you too. So, so fucking much. You’re all I ever think about. When I have time to think.”

“Please stay safe out there for me, wonder boy. So I can have you for real next time. I’ll wait for you.”

“Toys don’t compare, huh?” Rex’s soft chuckle made Mari’s heart pound with more love than she could ever recall feeling for anyone. “My impatient little mesh’la, I’d never make you wait. But next time you need to, give me a show like that again. Promise?”

“I promise. And Rex?”

“Yeah?”

“I love you. Be careful.”

“I love you. I will.”

[properparadox]

A look back at 2023

I rarely wrote anything here nowadays. Having someone to talk to really changed a lot. But hey, this has been a tradition, so let's look back at 2023.

The year started slow, at least for several days, until  I was told to attend a Welding Inspector course. At that time, it had been years since I even hold an electrode holder. Suddenly everything changed. Until the end of March, my days were filled with classes and practice, for six days a week, 10 hours a day. The course were finished, and now I am an IWIP, probably (I haven't even received the diploma, but I wasn't invited for the retest).

This year, I went back and forth between Bandung, Solo and Purwokerto, to meet the love of my life. She graduated this August after such a struggle, so that was great.

Even though I still had less than two years in this job, I became a speaker on two different events. One for a Failure Analysis forum, and the other for a Solidworks event. After finishing my Welding Inspector course, I was also asked to teach the next batch of WI students on Destructive Testing module. For these experiences, I still need to learn a lot on how to speak in front of many people. Especially when teaching, I felt that I messed up on the timing and flow of the class.

Then, my first in-situ metallography job! And the second, and third, and fourth. They were tiring, sometimes we had to work nights, but those were interesting nonetheless.

On that family issue, I think it was pretty much finished, after spending quite a lot of money. Tho perhaps some help is still needed in the future. Oh, and shits still happened. Of course, that single person fucked up.

And all of a sudden, my relationship with @vanilachocolate progressed quite far. Hopefully everything will be a smooth sailing next year *fingers crossed*.

Writing this, I realized that a lot, and I mean A LOT, has happened this year. But again and again, I kept feeling that I didn't really grow much. I still feel lost, having no idea on where to go and what to do to improve myself. The department where I work at now is in a mess, and I'm having a hard time to move on from my previous job. I even attended a webinar that was not related at all to my current job, just because it had some relation to my previous one (the webinar was about Industrial Design). Even I had this crazy idea, to get certified as a national IP consultant, and perhaps I can return to my previous career. It was a very long shot, but honestly, I'm not sure about anything else.

When I finished typing this, light earthquake shook. The second time today. Before various dark thoughts come, let me close this year by wishing that 2024 will be a kind year for all of us here.

[deadrlngers]

can you spare Violante/Gortash lore? (I will take literally ANYTHING)

holding your hand so gently rn as i type this, ily thanks for the ask!! i'm going to try and give the shortest (failed a bit, sorry) backstory lore dump here about what was going on between them and Vio's bestie before the game events since i never spoke of it

Violante is actually born and raised in waterdeep, she meets Gortash by pure chance during some big fancy event in baldur's gate where she's (forced) to attend by her mother. Ruven who's her drow bestie 4 life and death is there as well and the circumstances of their first meeting with Gortash is actually funny. He shows up fashionably late at the party, spots these two almost tearing each other throat out in a quarrel and decided to jump in just to make fun of them and how 'they truly let anyone in these days' (Vio is a fallen noble, Ruven a bastard of big house devir, they hold almost zero importance in the big picture of nobility and their power) but at the same time he has the balls to ask Vio on the first dance of the night, he does it to anger Ruven really and Vio accepts just to make Ruven's blood boil a lil bit. tear the drow apart girlies

they should've been just the amusement of the night, a stunt for fun, but Gortash ends up meeting them a few more times during Vio's stay in baldur's gate. thing is, they don't actually hold any importance to his eyes nor any plan, they are nobles he can't get anything from, yet he notices something about the dynamic between them (toxic, codependent, ready to hurt one another as a form of love, Vio follows Ruven like a lost puppy but still is the one to have him on a leash under her power) and he decides he finds them..entertaining and who cares after all? they aren't even baldurians so he could fuck around and hopefully not find out without any big repercussion since they would be gone for waterdeep sooner than later. Gortash rather cunningly enters the dynamic, he plays with the clear possessive obsession that Vio & Ruven have. Violante is indeed the weak spot so his attack is lead through her, Ruven is a great manipulator and just as cunning so he has this subtle hate for Gortash as he has it for Ruven (they hatefuck, thank u) while Vio just wants to see her drow bestie suffer and it's clear that she can achieve that if Gortash is involved BUT Ruven can't let her see he's actually bothered by her interest in Gortash or he'd let her win. Basically you have these three idiots using each other and fucking nasty while they are at it.

something none of them foresee is that they end up enjoying each other presence far more than what was planned, Violante in particular (since she basically lived closed in her manor most of her life bc of a very toxic mother) finds the new company a breath of fresh air and Gortash does enjoy having a quite stimulating conversationalist in Violante. But everything was going to end anyway, right? a short lived fling they all had fun with. Vio and Ruven go back to waterdeep and Gortash simply keeps living his life.

a few years later tho Violante and Gortash meet again in baldur's gate, this happens right after Vio killed Ruven (ops) and the shock of it all plus the power she achived by becoming a warlock, makes her flee waterdeep. she won't admit it but she actually wanted to meet Gortash, that's why she went to baldur's gate, in her mind he's what little connection she has left with her dead bestie. She tells him Ruven his dead and nothing more, Gortash is way too clever to not realise she's the one that killed him but he says nothing, he finds the event interesting..and maybe beneficial for his future plans (sick and twisted woman to use as a pawn but also..an unsettling feeling of.. happiness.. to have met her again). but this doesn't last as well, a few days later after she found some ahem ahem comfort in Gortash, she leaves without saying a word. they meet again during canon game events and i'm pretty sure i'm making her side with him but for that..i'm still planning and thinking hehe and truly i've talked WAY TOO MUCH NOW

[yoimo06]

09:26 am !! 18.04.24

First day of writing my thoughts feelings and experiences here and whatever else. I heard tumblr works well as a journal/blog so might as well.

Even though I'm honestly still not entirely sure how this platform works (especially not on the pc ver) we all learn as we go, don't we?

Anyhow. I gotta get back home from school.. can't believe I'm sick again! Man, it's all the girl's fault for not being able to keep their asses home when they're sick. I confronted one of the girls about it and she really said "You would've gotten mad at me for not coming to help with the project" (we are unfortunately working on a group contest together — a group of 6 girls) like, no girl, no one would. She was the one that got mad at another person from our group when THEY were sick and told them to come to school. Darn hypocrite.

I hate this damn problem doe. Its so stupid. There are ups to it though. For example, i didn't have to attend a bunch of classes which is cool but then again im falling behind w all the lessons and shit so thats not great.

I just want it to be over fast. Cant stand working w some of these people no more. Fake asf

Rn im taking a bath! My favourite thing to do ngl. Its so warm and nice and cosy. Outside, in the parking lot behind our house theres people setting up the farmers market. Ive always found it so endearing and nice!! I love farmers markets and even if i dont buy anything, just passing thru it is nice.

On another brighter than all the other notes!!! My boyfriend got accepted into Uni here!!! We'll be breaking long distance soon. Its all happening so fast but im so glad so so glad hes coming home soon. I miss him more than anything. He's also going to come visit in a week or so!! I cant wait

Next week our school has this thing called 'Green week' where we take a break from normal school activities to instead do other things related to nature n shit. In concept it sounds nice but our teachers always pick the most boring activities for us...that sucks. For example, we'll be going to the Botanical garden for 4 hours!!! That'd be cool and all but we all know the botanical garden like the back of our hands from how much we visited it.. Theres plenty of other things to see, im sure, but most teachers don't wanna bother with actual interesting stuff, unfortunately.

Another small something is that i have recently started playing Star Rail again! Its great!! I would say im doing quite well, advancing through the story and stuff... I still have to properly build my charas doe oops! Thing is, i came back for this new character called 'Boothill', truly a charming gentleman. Haha! I managed to farm around 100 wishes in a week with a bit of help from my boyfriend as well~ I will get Boothill guys trust!! I kinda gave in though and pulled for Aventurine as well ... and i got him. But theres around 40 days left to farm for Boothill so im sure ill be gucci!! Ill be pulling for both him and his lightcone... and hopefully more copies of him hehe~~~

Todays weather was kinda shitty. The weather has been shitty recently actually. Its so cold and it keeps raining even tho not too long ago it was all nice warm and sunny, like how spring should be! I miss the nice weather, i hope it comes back soon so i can wear my short skirts, long socks and cool graphic tees!

Hmm~ I might hop back on here later mayhaps mayhaps to write some more stuff but for now ill be signing off!

Byebye ~

[jaaankiey]

Any tengolf/leafpin stuff coming out any time soon? I love ur writing btw omg

EEEEEEK!! thank you anon !!! 😭💖i be thinking "i write okayish??" but I'm very thankful you enjoy reading my works!! its y'all that make me motivated fr fr

i don't currently have anything planned for tengolf! i cant rlly say when b/c it's kinda hard for me to generate ideas for them that makes sense because they are... so specific to me (entirely my fault for making it THAT SPECIFIC). i have the urge, jus nothing to go off on. oof.

for leafpin, i do have something cooking up in the works!! (it will not be nsfw 😭 just realized a majority of my works for 'em have been) it'll be a one shot in an au setting :)) it might be long...ish? the draft is currently at around 3k words which is... longer than most of my typical works!! i will not spoil anything further than that. i just want the bad bitches to fall in love (part 2048) (real)

I do not have an ETA for it tho as I'm pouring a lot of my energy in ships lost at sea so I can hopefully complete it before I have to attend to classes again soon. :,)

i hope that answers some things, anon have a good day!!

[whatisshelties]

Once more, I am frustrated with attempting to compete in multiple sports. I also don't want/can't afford to trial every single weekend.

I am now looking at how many events I may want to do in the next...six months. It all depends on priorities/goals.

I'm like...do I want to qualify for NADAC Champs? You don't have to qualify to get in, but you're not guaranteed entry unless you qualify. I dunno if this is a realistic goal considering how I suspect Mud feels about the sport and how freaking stressed out about his body I would be ALL YEAR. Though it is NADAC and he will be a Skilled/Vet dog, so he can jump 12". There's only 2 runs a day over 4 days. I think Sunday there's only one now. Can I afford it? I might be able to write off some expenses if I were to get a vendor booth (which is likely.) Qualification for Elite is 100 pts in the current year in Regular and/or Chances. A Q is usually 10 points. Sometimes can be 5, sometimes can be more (but I'm not doing bonus boxes/lines with Mud, lol.) Pre-elite is 80 points, no more than 120 pts can come from Elite Qs in the dog's life.

Which leads me to priorities/goals and having to choose between events. This month, I'm entered in two AKC trials. There's a NADAC trial and a scent work trial sandwiched between them. I was not planning to enter either of those events. BUT If I want to qualify for Champs, I probably should enter a day of the NADAC trial. I don't really feel like driving 1.5 hours to the shows 3 weekends in a row. I have made finishing Novice AKC agility titles a priority, since they've kind of got a time limit and are not as common as they used to be. I also will not run AKC on fake turf, which limits the trials available. Hopefully we'll knock this out in the two shows I am entered in.

The following weekend starts February and the sheltie club is hosting an agility trial. I kind of wanted to go volunteer and support the club offering more than conformation, even though I'm not a member yet (I've attended enough meetings to get approved, tho.) Then there are events the next THREE WEEKENDS. Junior Handler agility trial (NADAC) and carting and a scent work trial I'm not going to enter because they aren't offering all 4 elements each day are on one day. A NADAC trial the following weekend (good judges). The next weekend is a scent work trial that have considered entering.

There's a little bit of a breather after that in March...unless he doesn't finish his AKC titles in January. There's one of those the first weekend of the month. Mid-March there is a NADAC trial 1.5 hours away and then local trials start up the next weekend. However, the weekend of the local trial I have an art show thing (yay income), and the other day of that weekend is the first WCRL Rally trial. I'd really like to support that new venture, but like...if I want to go to Champs, I should go to the agility trial, right?

I had not really made any plans to compete in scent work until the dog club's local trial in April. Since I still wasn't sure what Mud's stomach would be doing. He seems to be tolerating trials ok again. Turns out "our" trial is the same weekend as a NADAC trial. Do I want to qualify for Champs? There's actually not much on my calendar for this month, just 2 things on the same weekend. Looks like ASCA trials start back up this month. Do I want to spend time/money on ASCA rally or agility?????

May actually doesn't appear to have any conflicting event weekends. Just stuff every weekend. Local NADAC trial, followed by a less local NADAC trial in a nice covered arena. I think Mud likes dirt surfaces, so would be fun to go to that. Then there's ASCA rally and obedience alternating over 4 days the next weekend. After that, there's a LOCAL!!! ORT!!! I will finally hand over the annual member fee for NACSW. (I still dislike that it is annual. I'm not even guaranteed to trial unless I make it my life to travel like come on.)

Then there's a local NADAC trial the next weekend in June. That's the last trial on the calendar right now that happens before the Champs qualification deadline in August.

If I entered every NADAC trial available starting in February (minus the one day of the art show), we would have 42 opportunities to get 8 or 10 Qs (depending on what levels I decided to enter and collect points in). If I don't enter the weekends we have things, we've got 30...if I enter both days of the shows I have to drive 1.5 hours for. That's 3 shows. So, if I only chose to enter one day of those three, and pick the day with maximum opportunities, I have 24. If I scale that back, and don't enter February because I decide to enter the JH trial or go to the carting show and enter scent work, so I'm not at dog events 3 weekends in a row, that's 20. Twenty-two if I enter the JH trial instead of just visiting the carting show.

What's tough about choosing scent work or agility at this point is like...I know Mud likes scent work better, but I don't really have goals for it? He's also in Advanced now and I'm not sure we are ready for Excellent yet, so I'd probably dink around in Advanced until I felt more confident about his skills at a trial. Since he doesn't even seem to really love trialing anyway. I don't know if more experience would help. Though scent work is one of those things we can just continue to plug away with since it's so low impact. Kind of like novice level obedience, lol.