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pussysidon · 1 year ago
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Living with a disability, especially a progressive or dynamic one is so fucking stressful. I don't know whether I'll be able to do things I can do now in a couple of years or even a couple of months. Maybe today I'm up and dancing but tomorrow I can barely leave my bed. I'm already grieving the things I know I won't be able to do in the future and it's so, so so so hard. The worst part is that there's nothing you can do but try to enjoy life right now and hope you can keep doing what you love
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treefish · 2 months ago
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raymoo--hackery · 2 months ago
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Okkkk soooo on my other social platforms I've been yapping a loooot about my Storch OCs. I mean I did do a bit of an info dump on them here already, but I've made a lot of progress since then. So strap in for another bit of info dumping lol 😋
Starting off, we officially have a setting!! Introducing Lorenz-12, the shitty old facility all these poor Storches are confined to.
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As you can imagine, the symbol of this location is the Lorenz attractor. Chaos theory feels relevant to the narrative I have planned. And no, I don't just mean the butterfly effect. As for the number 12... that's just bcus it's my lucky number lol 😼
Moving on, I also created this little relationship chart with some of the most notable relationships I've planned out thus far. Ofc, everyone has something to say about everyone else, but this is just the ones I've made the most work on as of present.
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And what's this? They all have names now!! And unit numbers!! Huzzah!! Each Storch has a name from a different mythology that matches their personalities one way or another. Stay tuned to learn about each I suppose 😋
You also may have noticed a new face.. and it's not a Storches face. We have a Star unit in the mix now, Wahnhaft. She's a little.. not mentally sound. Here's a stupid little shitpost-y doodle of Wahnhafts beautiful mind palace.
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You should listen to Necromantic. Btw. I also think she'd be a BIG fan of YOMOTSUTICA LOVE. She's very Hisami core.
Lastly, here's a lil WIP of a Menreiki artwork I'm working on. She's trying her best.
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Oh and I'm also working on a lil short oneshot. Though currently I'm hitting a lot of walls with it. But here's a little sneak peek of some dialogue between Athena and Menreiki. It's in a very primitive state, so expect a lot of changes.
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Anyways, that's it for now. I hope you enjoy my Storches yaayyyyyy 😋😋😋
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mulders-too-large-shirt · 1 month ago
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s8 episode 4 “roadrunners” thoughts
we! are! back!
i haven’t seen an episode in 5 days, so i’m feeling the excitement. and this one seems to be scully-centric! i cannot wait! it is called “roadrunners” and it seems that scully is going to find herself stranded somewhere… i have a feeling i will be SPOOKED!!
let us begin! i have no further thoughts beyond that scully loves to make cartoon references, so even if the episode called “roadrunners” didn’t have her face on the thumbnail, i would imagine she would feature heavily. and also, i am worried for her… girl, please be safe. i’m scared. 
okaaaay!!
(post-episode thoughts: this was a good episode- compelling plot, the pacing was excellent, and i have no major qualms with how the characters were handled like i usually do when i don’t enjoy an episode- but i didn’t like it because it was toooooo scary and nasty💀💀 i’m speeding through editing these notes so i can upload them right away and Not think about the spine worm any longer.
and while there were some very interesting things going on in the doggett and scully dynamic in this episode, especially with her not telling him about the case, and then their conversation at the end- analyze as you please- i need time to detox from those images. i trust you understand
🧼scrub scrub scrub it from my brain!!!!)
back to past me!
oh girl, i clicked play and it already seems creepy. we are in a utah desert. someone takes pills by the side of the road. puts on some headphones. goes to a payphone. 
he might be lost. oh no, he is hitchhiking. trying to flag down a bus. and it stops for him, luckily, even though he got mad and started yelling. he takes his stuff on the bus and yells at the driver, who says nothing. it seems none of the passengers say anything to him, either. this doesn’t bother hitchhiker man, who puts on his headphones and tries to sleep. 
the bus stops and almost everyone departs, including the woman sitting next to him. and he’s asking where they are going and getting ignored. but he follows along. 
they are all staring at this one guy who is using some sort of crutch-like mobility aid… and then the bus driver smashes him over the head with a rock?? hitchhiker fellow is GAGGED!!! are they SACRIFICING him?? OH MY GOD??? hitchhiker tried to run away, but they surround him, also holding rocks… 
GIRL. I AM SPOOKED!!! 
scully honey, please stay away from these people.
she is SERVING in that new intro headshot though, let me just make that clear. more intro imagery: creepy baby. eyeball. mulder falling. we’re getting familiar with these sights.
let’s goooo to spooky town!!!
BLEH, there is blood at the scene. SCULLY IS TAKING PICTURES! oh, scully with a camera… i want to know what she would take pictures of when not working. she is still in heels. still in a desert. we need to get her to stop with the heels in the desert thing.
she finds a rock covered in goop and scoops it into a bag. is she out here ALONE?? where is doggett? and she has no cell service!!!!
ah, roadrunner is the name of the bus line. she goes to the payphone and tries to make a call there, right beneath the sign for the bus.
she says good morning to doggett and he says “good afternoon”- time zones! she is out of town! a local coroner called and asked for help… and i guess she was who they came to? who knows. he didn't know where tf she was!
the body had some… anomalies. a 22 year old backpacker was last seen 6 months ago in perfect health, but his body shows signs of advanced osteoporosis, arthritis, and kyphosis of the vertebrae. and i don’t even KNOW what that last one means!! what did these townspeople do to him? anyway, the body had the spine of a 90 year old woman. yikes.
doggett seems a bit surprised she didn’t need him- she says they called over the weekend and she didn’t want to bother him- but he offers to do anything he can from the bureau. aww. can he get her a ride?
(author's note: hmm... so many ways you can interpret her "not wanting to bother him". i find myself wanting to read the script to understand what was written. that is the thing about TV- when you don't have the words the actors were given in front of you, there are so many ways you can interpret the acting choices!)
she actually wants some help! they have some files about a murder case… and she doesn’t remember the details like where or when it happened, but she remembers some glycoproteins at the crime scene. unidentified mucus. and since he recently went through all the files, maybe he could help…. her face is desperate. 
“well, i don’t have a great memory for mucus, but i’ll be happy to look”, says special agent john doggett, a deeply serious man.
he asks for any more info… but the scary bus goes by so she can’t hear him!! once he finds it, could he please fax it over to the local sheriff’s office? <- FAX! how truly vintage.
she watches the bus… it makes a turn. and then gets in her car. YAY, SHE HAS A CAR, I MEAN I REALLY HOPED SO, but i didn't see it while she was sleuthing… and goes to get some gas. the station seems empty… 
she calls out “hello?” and then honks the horn, which nearly made me jump, LMAO. everything looks so hot. i am thirsty just watching this. she has her map and her green button up under a brown jacket and the world against her.
as she looks at the map… a man approaches. she wants to know where the road goes and also what happened to his hand. EEK, he cut it with his saw. she is gonna investigate his hand while asking about the murder. 
AWW, she tells him to wash it out and put on some iodine “you sound like my mother” “yeah? well i also sound like a doctor” “medical doctor?” “yeah” <- aww… you can take the doctor into the desert and she is gonna find someone to heal up. 
she asks for some gas, and he says he doesn’t have any. she says she’ll be fine- she has a quarter tank- but he runs around the back to get something, which she thanks him for. aww, scully making polite small talk...
she still cannot figure out this map. it must be wrong, because she knows how to navigate stuff. 
he comes back with some gas and she says thank youuuu!!! and btw, where tf are we? he says we’re not really a town… just a few like-minded people trying to keep the modern world at bay. tf does THAT mean? is he evil? is he putting diesel in her car to make it break down?
maybe not, at least on the disesel front, because she takes off. while gas guy goes inside and finds the bus driver AND THE HITCHHIKER?? and declares that help is coming. the hitchhiker is writhing in bed. is he going to get her to come back somehow and heal him! but what are they even doing to him?!
nooo!!! her engine starts to sputter. so she walks back. “you put something in my tank that killed my engine” <- GET HIM! does she have all of her stuff though? or is she here with just her jacket!!
and she wants to see the gas can, so don’t even try to play dumb. she pours it into her hand… smells it… and declares it to be WATER! he pretends he didn’t know that. “it must have gotten rain in it” “oh, and it rains a lot here, does it?” <- LMAOOOO
she is soooo mad. all traces of earlier polite small talk scully have evaporated in the desert heat. he says he doesn’t have a phone. but there is one up the street. so she goes. opens the door. calls out hello. no response. 
oh, one of the guys from the bus is here, and his name is milsap. he is all in shadow. leads her to a room. the phone line is dead. but he says it’ll come back on. in ten minutes… two hours… who knows when. she’s welcome to wait here. he can even give her a room!
“what the hell is going on here? i get the distinct impression that somebody doesn’t want me to leave” but he denies everything… even that a bus came through. her eyes are so blue. she is weirded tf out. 
and she does not wanna walk those 20 miles. that hand on her abdomen… the deep sigh. i am doing a deep sigh of my own.
AWWW, she runs after someone else who hides from her :( there is a whole group of people in there ignoring her!!! WHAT IS GOING ON… she knocks on each door…. looks in the window…
while that creepy milsap guy stares at her. so. she accepts a room. cocks her gun. sits in bed with it in her hands. while people with lanterns approach!! so many people with lanterns!!! 
this is so CREEEEEPY. 
she falls asleep. someone wakes her up with a knock on the door, so she GRABS HER GUN AND HAS IT POINTED. WHEW!!!! do NOT mess with her- it will be the last thing you do. it’s milsap, and he calls her “doctor”, asking to speak with her. saying there is an emergency. 
she opens the door. carefully. he claims a man downstairs needs help. 
hitchhiker man is having a seizure, and she tells bus driver to stop holding him down. and she’s doing her doctory thing. huh, i guess if someone smells like acetone, that means they are hyperglycemic! who knew? she did, but i didn’t. they don’t know his name, which is suspicious… possibly he is epileptic and stopped taking meds.
BLEAUGH, his back is covered in blood. they claim they don’t know how that happened. they need to get him to a hospital NOW. 
and she presumes correctly that the phone is still “not working” and no one has a car. DOGGETT, CAN YOU SEND A GUY DOWN… 
milsap says they can send someone on foot to the state road. in the mean time, she asks for corn syrup. 
DOGGETT IS CALLING THE UTAH SHERIFF'S DEPARTMENT SHE WAS SUPPOSED TO BE AT!! and they don’t know where she is!!! he asks them to send a car out. she called him yesterday somewhere north of sugarville. he says thank you. and then calls someone else. asks for her call to be traced.
scully still has no cell service while the bus driver asks if she is doing this right. well, raising his blood sugar could help if that is what is wrong with him, but they DO NOT KNOW. and unless you can get some diazepam or phenobarbital…. 
he starts to cough!! he says he feels okay and that he just needs rest. and he asks scully to stay. “thank you for, uh, helping me” “well, i’m not sure if i’ve actually done anything. in fact, i don’t even know, uh… i don’t even know what is going on with you right now” <- LMAOOOO, i respect the honesty, it just sounds very funny from her
he doesn’t even remember his name or how he got here. or who these people are. and she tells him she thinks they stranded her here to tend to him. 
why would they do that? well, a guy was stoned to death nearby. perhaps upwards of a dozen people were involved based on the footprints… a group has to be tight-knit to murder together. a cult. like these people. “what are you, a detective?” <- well kinda!!
AUGH, SHE SQUEEZES HIS BACK WOUND with her BARE HANDS and he moans. and another bump comes up. and it is MOVING. while he writhes and writhes. OH SHE GOT HER PLIERS, I CANNOT LOOK AT THIS SHIT! LALALALALA… WHY IS IT MOVINGGGGG?? WHAT DID SHE PULL FROM HIM?? SHE IS LIKE STARING AT A CHUNK OF SOMETHING???
HELLLLLLLL NOOOOOO 😫😫😫😫😫
deep. breathing. NGDJSKDNSKS
nasty, nasty…. are they putting something in him that leeches out all his nutrients??
doggett is printing a missing persons poster… he wants to know if the local utah police are canvassing for scully!!! he is sending someone down there AND he will be arriving shortly himself!!! they need to look at this from the angle of the payphone she called from! only one call was placed other than hers, it was 4 days before she called, and it was a guy named hank… WHO IS THE HITCHHIKER ON THE MISSING POSTER!! he said he would be at his sister’s in 2 days and never showed.
scully is talking to a the guy we now know as hank. while the others praise god. and he asks what is wrong with him, telling the others to go. she slams the door in their faces. 
a parasite is in his back!! it lives in his spine!!! something she has never seen before!! and she doesn’t know how to get it out!! she tells him that he will die if they cannot get it treated and that she thinks they put it in him. they killed the last person in his position and she is scared they’ll kill him too. she wants to get them out of here. so she opens a window to go investigate. 
“you’re not gonna be gone long, right?” she pauses. asks if he knows how to use a gun. NOOO, DON’T LEAVE YOUR GUN!!! but this is exactly what she does. i’m not buying this guy isn’t somehow in on it. 
milsap and bus driver knock on the door right as she leaves… and he tells them she says he is dying, “we need another swap” <- what does THAT MEAN?? so his ass WAS in on it?? and now he has her gun!!! NOOOO
doggett is here in utah with the sheriff and some fellows from the FBI. he hands the sheriff a photo of a wound… sheriff says that it is from the murder victim. but doggett says it is from a 1991 texas john doe!! and it happened again in arizona, and then new mexico, and then nevada! all victims had their brains beaten out and their bodies dumped in remote areas!
scully had him find the first case… the mucus one! which she found at the crime scene! the more remote, the better for these murders….
scully is breaking and entering back in town. she has a little flashlight and finds a camper van!! but will there be a key?! nooo!!! someone approaches her!!! what will she do??
the dark, the flashlight… getting flashbacks to the early seasons
it’s hank! with the same mobility aid as the first victim we saw, hobbling toward her!! but he is followed by the others!!! she is surrounded!! they all have lanterns… and they grab her… and she screams that the FBI is searching for her. 
hank starts to say that her life will take a wonderful turn… that she will become a part of something greater than she is. “you’re going to be… so loved” “amen” they all chant
AND THEN THEY START BEAT HANK WITH ROCKS WHILE SHOUTING AMEN!!!! AND THEY PULL OUT THE WORM THING. 
AND THEY’RE BRINGING IT TOWARDS HER SO SHE YELLS THAT SHE IS PREGNANT, BUT GIRL, IDK IF THE WORM PEOPLE ARE GONNA CARE ABOUT THAT??? 
OH GOD… I NEED A BREATHER. 
if you could SEE my face right now… DOGGETT… WHERE ARE YOUUUUUUUUUU?
moral of the story: NEVER give a guy your gun 😭😭😭😭
they’re putting the worm thing in her BACK I THINK?? and she says she will kill all of them. but milsap says she will love us, protect us, teach us. that she’ll be one with him. “THAT THING IN MY SPINE IS A HIM?” <- lmao.
she is HOWLING and screaming, very convincingly for someone who has to act out the prompt "they're putting a worm in your back", which i imagine someone with less talent could fumble. lines like "that thing in my spine is a him?" do make you remember the inherent silliness of this TV show... but that is the only thing that feels silly right now. because this is very serious.
“that last man just wasn’t a suitable tabernacle”. milsap says they are taught not to be jealous, but they all are…. there is always the chance that her body won’t fail him. that he’ll be in her forever. 
car approaches. doggett, please light this place up. 
she screams for help, but they shut her up with a gag…..
and it is doggett!!! bus driver and milsap approach him. he shows them a missing poster of scully, who they deny seeing. 
she is bound up. knocks a lamp with her foot. starts a fire. they keep denying it to doggett’s face. he starts to leave…. gets in his car…. but someone stamps out the fire she started. 
where is he going….. he calls the sheriff. says he is getting a vibe. says to hurry. talked to a guy with a gun in his pocket, and that did not mean he was happy to see him. again. lmao. but only briefly.
she is screaming and groaning while the gas guy looks on… doggett comes in!!! knocks gas guy out!!! finds scully. who demands he get her the hell out of here.
he starts to carry her… she tells him to go to the camper van. gently sets her down. and he says he can certainly hotwire it.
she starts screaming, cut it out of me, cut it out of me now. but they're coming!!!!!! slamming their hands on the windows!!! while he’s trying to do it!!!!
they’re smashing the windows in!!! he gets the worm!!!!!! shoots that sucker!!! they’re all silent. 
he wraps up scully in his jacket and carries her back to his car. they say nothing. 
sirens approach. oh my god…..
so, a week later, she’s still in the hospital. packing up her things. bandage on her neck where he ripped the damn thing out. he knocks on the door. doggett asks if she is ready to go. grand jury convenes today, he says. the cult believe they worshiped christ and that thing was the second coming. 
she says she is sorry for leaving him out. “it was, you screwed up” “and i won’t do it again” “i appreciate it” 
she goes to grab her things... but he takes her bag before she can grab it. then follows him out.
oh my god…. 
the end.
well, that ending was pretty fascinating.
did she really not want to bother him and that is why she left him out of the case? was this about her confronting her vulnerability? the nasty facts of it? that you have to rely on a partner, even if it isn’t your soulmate?
or was she trying to keep him at arm’s length and do her own thing because she still doesn’t fully trust him? or do you think this was about reclaiming her autonomy and doing something on her own terms when so much is out of her control, and then it backfired?
god, her begging him to rip that thing out and then carrying her…. whew. WILDLY intense. again, she was selling it, which is a hard thing to do when you have to act like a parasite is in your spine. and i will admit that i barely looked as he got it out because i was gagging, but: noble agent doggett, ripping a worm out of his new partner's body, wrapping her up in his jacket, and carrying her bridal-style to safety... all performed silently... whew. there are LAYERS there, man.
do you think he went home for the week she was in the hospital? or do you think he stayed by her side? do you think he hated her a little bit for doing something so reckless? do you think he blamed himself? 
how tf do you treat a person for a parasitic life form? i would assume a course of antibiotics... but can you even do that when you’re pregnant? maybe the thing was only in there for like a few hours so it didn’t mess with her system or the baby or anything *that* much, but like, holy fuck. her medical history is absolutely crazy, and that is a notable addition.
they kept her there for a week, so i assume doggett knows her secret now… and also, the creepy townspeople knew, and she likely had to testify about what happened anyway, which he might have read... he probably had his suspicions after the first time they kept her in the hospital for so long… oh my god, is she ever gonna, like. NOT put herself right in the face of danger? but in her defense, she really didn't know- she just went up to look at a body. there shouldn't have been any harm in that!
SIGH. she really wanted to help that hank fellow… but he was in on it. i mean, or was he? once it was in him, it seems like it takes over your brain, makes you do things in service of it. makes you think you’re anointed or something. even though he knew they were going to smash his brain open, he didn’t seem bothered, just truly excited for her opportunity to be next. and you know scully is always going to want to protect the innocent. it is in her DNA.
fuck. well. i don’t like this one, LMAO. don’t get me wrong!! it was a fine episode, i don’t have broader critiques about it mangling characters or whatnot... that was just TOOOO much for me. another case of the show where spooky things happen actually being a little TOO spooky for yours truly. i’m not looking forward to editing these notes tomorrow and rewatching it by proxy, so i might try to speed through them just so i don’t have to dwell on it. 
NASTY. nasty. 
fascinating things going on in scully and doggett’s brains, though. i wonder if she thought going down to utah and doing something on the side would distract her and keep her busy- make her days feel more purposeful as she waits for a lead on mulder. maybe she wanted to slight doggett. maybe she wanted something to be just hers. maybe she didn’t think about it at all and felt all these things subconsciously. she didn’t even tell him when she left… maybe she didn’t think it would be that long. either way, she is definitely in a lot of distress, so it’s not like she is in her normal state of mind. and it seemed like an easy enough thing to do… it makes me sad.
and poor doggett, too. i don’t think understanding scully will ever come easy to him. but he seems like he really wants to. she might be shutting him out purposefully, or perhaps not, but she is shutting him out either way, even when it seems like they’re getting closer, it must sting for both of them that he has to be mulder’s replacement, which stirs up all kinds of emotions… but finding her like that, listening to her howl in pain, and then cutting that thing out of her back...
and there is something really sick and twisted about them carrying each other's bloody and broken bodies to safety, but being unable to talk about anything other than work. something verrrrrry twisted there. and frankly, i am eating it up.
fuck. her having to tell her secret to someone she didn’t want to because it was her only chance of saving her life… sooo evil. that should be what she gets to share with her loved ones, not people trying to STICK A SPINE WORM IN HER. nasty. nasty. and in the end, they didn't even care!!
and we STILL haven't seen her mother... maybe they talked off-camera... well, i would have liked to see that... or maybe it is just coming later?
i wonder if she’ll be roughly 20% more cautious now. i wonder if the recklessness is a form of denial of her circumstances. i wonder if skinner would yell at her if he found out she slipped out to utah without telling anyone. ooo, tag me if you write that. 
for now, i end my thoughts here, because i do not wish to dwell on spine worm any longer. it was a perfectly fine- nay, even a good episode! but: YUCKY.
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kirknstuff · 8 months ago
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Shadowheart portrait study
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dafpork · 16 days ago
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repeating myself here, but for good reason: the Silliness of the dafpork dynamic, however you determine the definition of Silliness, is really so integral to me and i think a big part of what makes them so special and personal. and i think that's a big reason why i was so afraid to post even the most innocuous stuff on main--even if they're not being clingy or cute together in a drawing, even in the comics where they're bickering like children or just being Themselves, there's this undercurrent of love beneath it that feels so comparatively intimate. they can have their moments of Unabashed Earnest, and they stand out much more and feel more special when you have them being dumb together to contrast it with... it's hard to pin down and they're hard to pin down, and that's why i love 'em, y'know? the variations on their dynamic is boundless, and so is their love, and so is their hijinks. they're not easily squeezed into an identifiable little box, and while i think that can trip some people up, i think it works to such a great strength with them. it's why i have trouble doing ask memes or drawing prompts with them (though i should try more!), because Dafpork Is Dafpork--they have minds and emotions and dispositions of their own and this blog functions to just sit back and observe what that all is, rather than force it. and that's how you get such a broad spectrum of Stuff, too; them being cute together, or being obnoxious, whether at each other or with each other, or they're not quite anything at all because the only one who knows what they are is each other. there's just truly so much and i really don't think it can be condensed into a bite sized trope or sweeping label.. and considering Daffy's anarchy and Porky's stubbornness, that feels very fitting. maybe it's a reason as to why it's difficult for some people to get on board with them, but i feel like it's such a great strength, and it's a great motivator to spread their gospel all the more, too! to try and get people to understand! so thank you for reading this, because if you're here then it shows you're curious and want to uncover more about them. me too!
#I KNOW I KEEP SAYING THIS but i'm in a I Wanna Talk About Pig and Duck mood today#i'm really trying to embrace... gosh i don't know how to say this without sounding conceited so please pardon my lofty wording here#but i'm trying to embrace being a bit of a pioneer with them yknow? i have to beat 'nobody's doing what you're doing so you need to stop#because it's wrong' out of my head#like that was why i was so mortified with this not-so-double dafpork life.. i can't be a respected industry artist and also... DRAW CARTOON#CHARACTERS *KISSING*!! I CAN'T WRITE DEEP SCHOLARLY ANALYSES ABOUT THESE CARTOONS AND THEIR HISTORY AND APPLY IT TO MY PIG AND DUCK SANDBOX#ON THE SIDE!#...why not?#stifling myself is only going to encourage others to do the same and considering i am absolutely desperate for dafpork interactions that's#not a good goal!#and i'm not completely out of the woods. i'm keeping all of this to tumblr and discord#but it's progress#i just really want others to see Their Greatness and it's been effective! never did i think i'd be using this blog#but i want MOREEEEE i want random people who don't even care about these guys to like them and talk about them#i want people to be able to feel what i feel about them and i can't force people to#but i can maintain my quest of hopefully articulating the full extent of the love i have for them#which is very difficult... but that love is infinite which means i have infinite chances to do so#BUT ANYWAY. again reflecting on how i wanna do so much with these guys but the more conventional stuff like ask games and drawing prompts#are tough for me because i have a hard time fitting them into those prompts. their personalities are too big for that? i guess? it's weird#to describe. and it stinks because i want to do these things! and i mean i'm sure i can if i look hard enough#it's just hard bc i wanna talk about them but i have so much in my head i don't know where to start and prompt games aren't as helpful as#they could be. and a lot of what i do want to talk about i gotta keep a surprise somewhat/way too far along in the actor au to make much#sense right now#i'll figure it out someday though#📝#but anyway if you want to talk about the pig and duck with me this is your chance! my inbox is always open
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blackjackkent · 2 months ago
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OK, tremendously long day and looking like a tremendously long week, so I'm guessing I won't get a whole ton of liveblogging in until this weekend. I do plan to smash out a bunch of Veilguard on Sat/Sun, but for now, gonna knock out something small and check out this new Emmrich sidequest we picked up!
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Helena is probably going to be of less than no help in this process but she's just happy Emmrich wanted to have her along. XD She's still definitely nursing a crush on him and will definitely be looking for opportunities to impress him, which I'm sure will go great.
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marclef · 2 years ago
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THE EYHM COLLECTION GROWS!!!! managed to make some space without having to move too much so they can all be together!!
(i made the smaller ones into stickers bc i'm running out of picture frames!! hope that's ok!)
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THANK YOU SO MUCH EVERYONE WHO'S GIFTED THESE TO ME THOUGH!!! I'M CALLING ALL OF YOU OUT HERE BECAUSE I LOVE YOU!! ❤❤❤❤❤
*sharp inhale* @eskariolis-con-salsa @oddpizza @woobab @the-little-knight @moon9931 @misdreavusplush @noodletime @witch-tower-au !!!!!!!
hope you all have a good holiday season!! love you all! *MWAH*
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crescentfool · 11 months ago
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🍊🫐 throughout time!
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nekoma7a · 4 months ago
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LOVE'S GONNA GET YOU KILLED BUT PRIDE'S GONNA BE THE DEATH OF YOU AND YOU AND YOU AND ME --- art by @uo6ep
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jazzzzzzhands · 2 years ago
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I'm a bit late in talking about the update!
But!
Oh this is so interesting!!
Firstly, the effect of it all was so good! I feel like the previous update had everyone SO confused and then this one drops and it just CLICKS.
So the WHRP.. the Question-Answerer. They finally decided to try and talk to Wally! And they don't even care about explaining it or hiding it! They no longer care if We know. They might even know we know!
Anyways, they knocked on his door, gave him a call and BOY did he answer! Not only did he answer, but he sorta showed off!!
Some of them he did simply, such as writing Hello! And moving Barnaby!
But then he does this
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And he even says "I didn't write it, I did something else"
The "Not only can I do this, but I can do more!" He is thinking creatively!
Wally is putting in the extra effort. Really not being subtle. He is so LOUD, basically screaming "Yes, this is me! I am here! I am the one doing this! Talk to me!"
But the instruction that makes me think the most is the SALLY one
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I thought it meant to just flip the image! From left to right!
But! Wally has somehow conjured up an entirely NEW image! When you think about it, someone on the team drew or restored that image of Sally. Most likely, there was not a backside at all! Why would there need to be an illustration of that! Wally somehow made it happen! Very very interesting!
And then there is this, a little bonus, a little extra
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Wally and Home. Sitting nicely together in the same... House?
I think most of us already think that there is a connection between the two of them. A deep connection.
Personally, I see the concept of Home as more of a general idea. Your Home, your upbringing, your family, your life! And what are you without these things? They made you who you are! If you were to separate yourself from the idea of Home, would you even know who you are?
And then there is the Eye. And it is under the same House. Wondering if this is saying "This and This are the same" "Wally and Home are both the Eyes" which feels like the more obvious statement.
But for me I see another connection. A Third. And it's You. The collective You. We are the audience, We are the Watchers and We have a connection to Wally through his eyes.
That connection is different and separated from the one between Wally and Home, but it is there! Under the same roof!
Wally, Home and You
Ooh I honestly am so excited to see the WHRP's response to all of this! They have been answered! And so very obviously too!
Anyways! As usual, I pop in with my little thoughts! Clown and his team are always full of delightful surprises! I hope they get some well deserved rest and good treats!
And all of you guys too!
Have fun out there!
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collgeruledzebra · 2 months ago
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been a while since ive had a spell of anxiety bad enough i genuinely can't tell how much im overreacting
#like AM i overreacting? almost certainly. are the REASONS for being anxious valid? might be tbh!! but then again maybe not#i really really hate this. i hate not being able to judge what is Reasonable what is Rational. most of the time although i cant dispel#the anxiety i can still on another level know that it is irrational and that tempers the effects. not this timeeeee#meeting with my mentor tomorrow im going to try to get things as clear as i can to move forward i just dont know if ill be able to make#myself explain how ive been feeling because im genuinely afraid ive been wasting both of our time by not taking enough initiative#like i think he thinks im much busier than i actually am but i have no idea what he thinks im Doing because he hasnt given me all that much#to do#(unless im missing something major which is very unlikely and not really worth worrying about i dont think)#but regardless i spend a Lot of my time just sort of whiling it away looking at literature that isnt really relevant scrolling thru shit i#dont care about on linkedin staring into space etc#and now the big meeting for the program is coming up and we still havent done the experiment we originally set out to do#and i really honestly think i couldve made more progress by now if id just decided to take things more into my own hands#but for some reason that didnt really occur to me until fairly recently and now it feels like too little too late#idk idk tbf im pretty sure most of the other people in this program have said they feel like they arent prepared for the meeting either#but like im unprepared for REAL for real and i know i couldve taken steps before now to avoid that#and yeah it comes down to feeling like ive wasted time and resources that couldve been used better by someone else#because they SHOULD be used i dont hate my job i dont hate the project or the program i think theyre all worth while#but somehow im just not transferring that into my day to day#BLEH. maybe hopefully i can get on a clearer track for the next month or so at least with this meeting tomorrow#personal tag
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b-blushes · 7 months ago
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experiencing the 'oh god whadda hell i'm horrifically exhausted and it's 2pm that's 8 more hours of the day i had planned to do 35 minutes cleaning this afternoon but i want to be asleep but like MORE than asleep because everything feels bad in my body is this a post-lunch crash that will fade with activity or am i symptoms syndrome' type moment. but we stay silly 👍
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Clicking on a M.oshi Monsters iceberg video that I didn't care much for but decided to click on the person's channel to see if they uploaded a video afterwards cause at the end of the video they jokingly said "100 likes and I'll buy my weight in merch" and haha that's funny, just to see five days ago they posted a teaser about whether M.oshi Monsters was up to something or not because apperently they released Moshi Play on the app store(which as far as I'm aware is just the same minigames in Moshi Sleep) and got a Tiktok account that they started putting videos on and rereleased the music Rox album on their socials and are making a bunch of teasing comment replies about being up to making something wasnt. I wasnt ready for that. Where did that come from. Hm. They. They even commented on said video taht i just watched. Which was released like five days ago and only has like 500 views.
#Obligatory Kane gets really freaked out at the mention of things seemingly at a close becoming Not At A Close.#This is supposed to be an exciting moment!!! As I'm sure it is for many!!!! Not. Maybe I want to pull away from every form of social media-#-possible and become an online hermit.#Like the person said they could just be nostalgia teasing but. the comments they left were. hm.#I dont even know where to begin with the. Astroid crashing into allegedly Monstro City.#And I dont want to be contributing to any sorts of drama if this can be classified as that.#I just. Mmm. Really needed to air this out.#For all i know this could be another Cars on The Road thing. I love Cars on The Road but I was so freaked out over it that I made myself-#-stress-cry a couple times. And even though I enjoy it the minor references to a second season still freak me out a lot.#For all I know if they DO do anything I might love it. You'd think I'd encourage it.#But it just so freaks me out.#And my pipeline of getting into progressively more and more popular media just adds to that stress.#Like how the third season of Good Omens is in the works like...as we speak.#Freaks me out! And the fact that thousands or maybe even millions of other people are also going to have thoughts and feelings about it.#Cause like yeah sure Cars is big but the fandom for it isn't. So I can at least relax a bit there because I dont need to stress over what-#-will be said over Fictional Character. But with releases and especially ones with a big following I stress over what will happen-#-to Fictional Character and what will be said.#Honestly I forgot about the whole CoTR Season 2 teasing up till now so hopefully my feelings for this will. simmer down and blow over.#At least until if it escalates. Cause like. i JUST watched the video so im kinda rash-posting right now with raw feelings.#One of the things I enjoyed about selfshipping was no one really knowing the characters I like or if they did know them-#-they probably didnt have complex thoughts or feelings about them.#Like Im sure lots of people know who Finn McMissile is but only so many people are also going to have like. thoughts or headcannons-#-over him. Nonetheless him becoming blorbofied or bouncing around in their mind like a screensaver.#Okay. Im going to. finish my post here. I need to. Watch Game Grumps or something or Jerma im.#Before I turn into a catalyst that makes all the little atoms of me destabilze and explode.#s.sorry blog i. dont know if i need to tag this as a vent or not i just. like I said really needed to dump my thoughts somewhere to the voi#I wont go on further about it and me being. All freaked. At least I dont have exams on top of this or I might collapse.
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rachymarie · 2 months ago
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Something something autism and things sounded better in my head
Something something schizospec and things sometimes sound worse in my head, but almost always sound even worse outside my head?
Much love to all neurodivergents out there who feel wrong out there for daring to be yourself
#autistic self-awareness#schizospec problems#SchizAuSpec#been havin rambling attacks online today#autistic#autism#autism awareness#actually autistic#just realized the last sentence maybe doesn't even make sense#actually schizospec#comorbid conditions#comorbidities#schizospec comorbidities#it's hard typing out all my big-ass words#of which i always seem to be inflicting the task of expressing outwardly on my fingers#it's so dang hard typing out all the big-ass finnicky words my brain always seems to be relentlessly tasking my woefully inadequate fingers#with expressing#a heavy cross to carry for (hopefully) enacting greater good; helping get some actually frickin truly progressive thinking going out there#here's hoping my “way with words” which often to me feels more like a hindrance honestly cos I can't access support#will one day finally lead to some better understanding of our struggles#and you know while i speak too many words; i find the writing of those on the other end of things - poverty of speech i think they call it#(clinically at least)#anyways - those of y'all who experience difficulties with making full sentences#i can understand y'all a lot better than I can most neurotypicals lol#and- not to get all gushy- but i think you're awesome and i will always be an ally to those at different levels of speech ability/capacity#than me; and more broadly those with different experiences of schizospec than me#i do not really wish to speak over anyone - ideally i would like a harmony of all our varied voices fighting to be heard/for change together#sorry to get sappy on main and I'm sorry if it was too many words but it is one of those kinds of days w the disorganized symptoms#still in recovery from Sunday I think (it's Tuesday now • nearly noon)#neurodivergent
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virtuousvigil · 2 months ago
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shamelessly plugging ch3 of amsatasm for the free day slot of bottom jayce week for tomorrow. tis mostly a placeholder to satiate my deep shame over not being able to partipate day-of for the other prompt days. (˚ ˃̣̣̥⌓˂̣̣̥ )
i do have more works though! they'll be latefic submits, but i've got at least three more drafted and i should have at least one posted by monday night/tuesday morning. thanks for all the support on my works! i appreciate jayvik nation so much
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