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Hello. I read your post about why Hawks is the worst character in MHA and had some thoughts. Do ignore this if you want to, seeing as the post was from like eight months ago and it’s long :)))
Hawks using BJ’s body is to deceive the villains into believing the number 3 hero is dead, deceive them in hopes that he’ll gain their trust which is the whole point. Him doing so is a carefully well planned out plan that in fact does succeed and not anything that takes away from his character. You mention this right before the Twice part which I take as you trying to build up how shitty you believe he is before you actually say why you despise him. Doesn’t really make sense. Do you think that’s a bad plan? How does him doing that have anything to do with being a bad character. He does so with the consent of BJ obviously, I doubt he knocked him out and shoved into a duffel bag.
You state that you don’t consider anything about Twice villainous as he 1) doesn’t kill anyone in the series. Does him killing that one hero who apprehends Toga and Mr. Compress after his encounter with Hawks not count? The one he repeatedly stabs with a knife. He’s also killed many other villains during My Villains Academia Arc though these can be regarded as self defense. Even if he may not kill people with his own bare hands, he chooses to support and aid a group he knows are villains and are evil. He is, if not directly, indirectly killing people.
Hawks doesn’t ask Jin to join the heroes like you said but tells him to atone for his crimes and start over, even offering him his help, and the ‘potential’ he talks about is the potential he sees in him of him truly being a good person. Hawks says that the true nature of someone appears when they’re cornered. He’s believe Twice is a good person because of his willingness to help others, in this case, his friend when he was backed into a corner. You state that Hawks asks for a fight which simply isn’t true. Hawks’ main goal is to apprehend Twice cause 1) he’s a villain, one of Japan’s most wanted to be exact and 2) because of the effects Twice’s power can have on the ongoing war. He deems him the most dangerous which is why he’s after him.
—“Hawks asks for a fight, which Jin also refuses. Jin didn't want to hurt a friend.”
Hawks asks Jin to come quietly and Jin refuses that and then Hawks tells him that he doesn’t want to fight him, That’s the order it went in.
—“Hawks didn't want to deal with anymore refusals and villains though, so he grabbed one of his feathers and KILLED JIN!!”
Hawks only attempts to kill him after he refuses to cooperate and begins to fight.
—“Hawks killed an innocent man for NO REASON and still got praised for it.”
Let’s move on to Twice. Yes he’s an outcast, yes he was a victim of the system, yes he feels like the league has always welcomed him even though he feels all he’s done is cause trouble (death of Mange during the Shia Hassaikai Arc ) and be unhelpful ( that whole thing about him not being able to duplicate the quirk- destroying bullet during MVA arc) but that doesn’t justify any of his actions. Twice isn’t some 5 years who doesn’t know right from wrong. Sure this may be the only group who’s helped him and he can now hang around, seeing as they’re all criminals and have that in common but no one should be surprised as to why any hero would be after him. It’s may not be explicitly stated that he stands for what Tomura and AFO have in mind, but aiding the league for the sole reason of ‘oh they’ve helped me, let me help them even if they’re gonna take over the world’ doesn’t make him less innocent. Twice's willingness to trust and befriend others due a past he can relate to them with is one of the things that makes him a likable character. It’s through this that he’s able to trust Hawks and why his betrayal to him was that much more bitter.
Did Twice deserve better? Yes, but not from Hawks cause all he was his job of protecting people. Twice is one of the many characters whose perspectives we get to see and as a villain too which is even better because this runs hand in hand with one of themes build into Deku’s character which understanding why villains are the way they are. (The analyzation of Twice through this lens is way too long and a bit off topic so forget that.)
From the reasons you’ve listed, your dislike for Hawks doesn’t seem to come from him but rather the sadness you feel over Twices death. Killing is never okay however Hawks did the right thing in stopping a villain that could lead mass murder.
Hello darling dearest anon!!! First of all, thanks for reading that essay! I not only posted that over 8 months ago, but actually hand wrote it like a few months prior, so that is very VERY old writing. Also, it was all jokes and giggles.
Now, after your essay you just sent me, I still don't like Hawks. I would write a way better essay today then I did then, HOWEVER, I am 1.) tired from my wisdom teeth being removed yesterday and don't wanna sit through the suffrage of having to research Hawks yet again, and 2.) would much rather be playing Resident Evil 4 rn.
AHEM
Sure I missed a few things because I was just writing this for giggles. I only remembered after writing that essay that Jin did kill someone LOL
Hawks will never be a hero in my eyes. Anti hero? Sure. I can go with that. But under NO CIRUMSTANCE, even Hawks' tragic backstory and wish for heroes to not have to have difficult jobs, should a hero kill ANYONE. Look, I liked Jin, A LOT. I felt like he was just such a kind character who got stabbed in the back by a bird. And like, Hawks didn't even wait to kill him, bro was already fighting Jin LMFAOOOOOO
HOWEVER
I did not write that essay or hate Hawks because of how he killed Jin. I actually hated Hawks way before. He's just an annoying character in my opinion that was immediately forgiven for things that he shouldn't have. And like... idk. Dabi's better sjdhjdfhjdfh
And look, anon. I wrote that essay for the shits and giggles man. He's a goofy ahh character that I still actively write fanfic for.
Bruh, I don't even like MHA anymore LMFAOOOOOO. Like the manga is good, but the anime is just a bore to watch now.
I really don't care about Hawks LMFAO I skimmed your writing because honestly, as I said before, I wrote that essay to make people laugh. People still simp for him, hell, sometimes I go through phases where I will just stare at his gorgeous bird face.
I still think he's the worst character in MHA even if you did make some valid points
But you sending this made me laugh, so thanks for that
I won't ever enjoy Hawks as a character because I enjoy thousands of other characters than him and it this point, it's just a joke with my siblings and tumblr at this point. I wanted people to get a laugh out of my writing and a lot have lol
And triggering Hawks simps sounded fun to me at the time
Thanks for the giggle anon, have a great day and stay hydrated <3
#tonberry answers#asks#anon#this made me laugh so hard#people who love hawks are so silly to me#thanks for the giggle tho#hope you have a killer day
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GIRLS NITE OUT >_< ((clockwork could not make it)) (wip)
#myart#idk what he’s doing here#this is a work in progress#but I’m gonna be on some island for four days so I wanted to post before I left#Ej is just there for the food#I think Jane and Nina + Ej could be a good friend group actually#very balanced#I hope Jane knows I have a Lamborghini ready for her#creepypasta#eyeless jack#jane the killer#nina the killer#jeff the killer#crp#horror#slenderman#ej#jtk#this is really half assed I’m going to be 100% honest#nobody reading this but the support on my store has been so nice and I love you all#ok bye <3#why is this preforming well#I want 2 delete this so bad 💀
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#this is LOOSELY based on a photo of the only fictional couple I’m not normal about#(scully and mulder)#bc I had to make my new obsession just like them😇😇#hope you all have a good rest of your day I am going to bed now!!!#I am EXHAUSTED I woke up at 3am😭😭😭😭😭#my dreams are often like lucid dreams and I can control most of them#but also they’re like SO VIVID I can eat sleep feel everythinf etc etc#anyways last night I dreamt I was a detective a la Morgan freeman in se7en#going after a serial killer#IT WAS SO SCARY I WOKE UP LIKE😳😳#I’ve been awake since then & I genuinely don’t even know where it came from bc like#I haven’t watched horror movies in forever I abandoned true crime years ago…#my brain was just😃#also it’s funny I did this x files drawinf today#because I started watching that show when I was TWO#my mom figured if I watched scary things from a young age I would never be scared of anything#idk what she was thinking bahahahahahahahaah (it did not work)#hogwarts legacy#hogwarts legacy fanart#hphl#hogwarts legacy oc#hogwarts legacy mc#eloise babbit#sebastian sallow#sebastian sallow fanart#sebastian sallow x mc
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Day 6 of Bad Sansuary (hosted by @owl-bones!): Heavy
"WHY NOT??"
"because then you'd leave :("
#myart#sans#sansnomaly#sans x y/n#bad sansuary#Killer#Killer sans#I struggled with Killers anatomy today 😭😭 I'm still not super happy with it but I'm too tired to fix it#The windshield on our car was broken by a branch and our powers still out - I can't wait for this storm to end man#At least we still have power! I'm grateful for that#Also I started crocheting a beanie which has been fun!#Anyways if you read this far - thank you - and I hope you have a wonderful day :))#badsansuary
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so has anyone figured out WHY there is the Need To Share our Artworks™ or is it just the vibes and our Soul apparently
#ive been running on “two cakes. u aren't BOTHERING people by putting art on their feed they can scroll past it/if they dont they get ”cake“”#and we love “cake”#“cake” is picture on the internet in this case#like okay the contracts and transaction format is a me problem!! i need to get rid of the “utilitarian brain worms” bc they're boring#this is supposed to be a hobby and the “get a good grade in hobby” wolf in the brain is just crying bc that's how they understand the world#the “get a good grade in x” wolf has valid pain but needs to stop controlling my life because they don't need to earn “enough value to live”#ect ect ect#and the life of minmaxxed utility is a life of trying to appeal to a “correct” that doesn't exist yaddi yadda = boring#i love you wolf. also shut up. affectionate. concerned. you get it#ok so we remove tangible purpose from act of experience art because THAT'S not “the point”#because “the point” is the joy killer eccetera ecc#but then what? “here check out this labor of love. i drew this fucker 15 times. no there's no story* there it's just a guy”#*story in this case being an emotional engagement/a situation/a context in which to ponder/other#so it's just a Draw. no further analysis. what do others Get from that?#i know i deeply enjoy art because im a fan of the process of People Making Stuff. i love when there was nothing but now there's something!!!#THAT'S what's it all about!!!!!!!!!!!!!! to me!!!! right now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#so it stands to reason that creation is purpose enough?? to be experienced???? to be known????????#idk!!#this is a nothing burger of a thought people have always liked picture on the internet stfu maiora there doesn't need to be a reason#this is just the brainworms talking!!! because god forbid “something not have a purpose”??? blegh!!!!!!!!#sounds like unhealthy rationalizing instead of letting things be out of The Fear™!!sounds like depraving urself from joy bc of BRAINWORMS!!!#so like!!!!! picture on the internet doesn't NEED inherent value. creation is enough!! (plus there's the Attachment to Character. also.)#but then why are YOU *points at you* here? gen q!!#i made an image you like and now you are reading my word babble in some tags!!! what's THAT all about???????????#it's INTERESTING!! do you see what im trying to get at??#is it empathy??? person made something other saw something other made- other2other connection???? intrigue????????#.......all this is probably explained in some book or yt essay somewhere. oh well.#in the meantime thank you for your time! we can pretend we were stuck in an elevator together and then i started rambling#i hope you have a great rest of your day thanks for stopping by!! <3#maiora garrulates
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i log in to tumblr dot com. i reblog spam. i think about insane i get to be about echoes of wisdom in a month. i smile. i log off. the cycle repeats
#SOON. smile.#i can be insane abt it Now but i cant force myself to draw its like. the Ultimate hyperfixation killer#i do have wips though. one is already basically finished. but i havefallen down a powerwash sim shaped hole#also yakuza like a dragon but dont worry about it#hope yallre well. i bought new comfy friends pokemon plushies yesterday#zorua and swablu. get FUCKED scalpers ^_^#so i am feeling very Blessed. i will draw later i think and hopefully have my stuff finished. Yay#love you all. mwah. have a lovely day#personal.txt
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if dust takes off his hood and scarf then nobody can recognize him. he has literally no permanent traits that make him recognizable (which actually kinds upsets me because,,,,, there is no physical representation of his character development from sans to dust BUT EAAHHHH whatever,,, we cope with it.) but in like a silly goofy comedic way. it's like perry the playapus ans dr doofenshirmst (incorrect spelling but only by societies standards)
dust with hood down and no scarf
killer: a sans?
he puts on the scarf
horror: a GENOCIDE sans???
the hood goes up
killer: DUST SANS AKA MURDER SANS AKA DUSTTALE SANS FROM HIT AU DUSTTALE?????
horror's skull breaks a second time on the other side from sheer shock
#why use mtt for this example? WHY NOT USE MTT FOR THIS EXAMPLE#heh. buddy pal chummy chum friend you forgot who you're talking to. this is triglycercule pal.#the fella with the name mttmttmtt? the fella who has a pfp and banner of them? the fella whos posts are 78% about them?#heh.... these beta beginners have no idea whos post theyre reading..... 𝓸𝓲 𝓸𝓲 𝓸𝓲..... 𝓫𝓪𝓪𝓪𝓪𝓪𝓴𝓪...........#please do not let that previous tag effect your perception of me that was in a satirical way#anyways this ide is so funny. i think if i had more motivation to draw comics this one would absolutely pop off. but i dont#my issue is that majority of the ideas i think of in my head appear in COMIC form#so its either slave away at drawing and burn out motivation or write a post that cant fully encapsulate all my ideas#well of course i'll take the easier route because i'm a lazy prick#BUT STILL. guys if anyone ever wants to steal my content to make a comic or write something or draw something#i give you permission to do so. you can steal my content all you want#as long as you say it was inspired by someone. dont even have to say who.... but you'll know. and i'll know. and that's enough for me#no but on a serious not if someone actually used my shitty tumblr posts as inspiration to draw something i would be SO FUCKING HONORED#the day that happens is the day i ascend to heaven. not because i killed myself tho. i'd go to hell if i did that#i hope someone laughs at these tags because i sure am#it may just be the lack of friends to tell me if i'm funny or not but i consider myself the funniest person. ever#put me up to a stage and tell me to do stand up i'd have everyone chortling#except the crowd has to be my fans#ANYWAYS time to get to work. dattebayo ‼️‼️‼️🤣👊👊#killer sans#dust sans#horror sans#murder time trio#utmv#ohhh is this a hc. absolutely but a really really silly one#often times than not i come up with headcanons and then i proceed not to actually headcanon characters as that. huh#tricule hc
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Reasons Why I Need a Sexy JoongDunk BL
If you know me, then you’ll know that it’s actually kind of funny that I’m asking for this. Me. A sex-repulsed leaning asexual who, for the most part, tends to stay away from (overly) sexy and/or horny series. And yet I really want a sexy JoongDunk series. A messy, Only Friends-type of series even, perhaps.
Make no mistake, though. I don’t actually want it for me, oh no. No, I want a sexy JoongDunk series for them, for their sake. Because I feel like they’d have a whole lot of fun with it.
And here’s why I think so:
Reason #1: Dum Dum
Definitely the most obvious reason, but the LOL Fanfest Dum Dum performance: the fact that the choreography was like That. And the fact that it was their idea to switch up who bites who for day 2:
Not to mention the fact that Dunk actually bit Joong for real:
I'm just saying, they wanted “hot and sexy”, they chose this:
Reason #2: “We’ve never done this before”
The way they kept bringing up how Hidden Agenda is more mature than Star in My Mind and how there were scenes that they’d never done before*, it seemed to have been a big deal for them.
*see here for some eng subs (this video is unfortunately heavily edited)
Reason #3: “Favorite episode of Hidden Agenda? Episode 8!!”
The way Joong immediately said episode 8 was his favorite, smiling expectantly at Dunk...
...and then was very adamant when Dunk couldn’t decide between episodes 7 and 8:
Considering their comments of how “episode 8 is special” because they’ve “never done anything like this before”... Well, dare I bet it’s their favorite episode because of the ending specifically. Unless maybe they were particularly excited about the stalker story line. I don’t think they’d done that before either.
Reason #4: Ep8 watch party live on Instagram
The way they actually sat down and went live on Instagram in order to watch, react to, and comment on the entirety of episode 8.
And considering Dunk’s comment at the beginning of this live about how it’s “something we've never done before” I’m absolutely convinced they chose ep8 to react to specifically because of the ending lmao. Unless, of course, they were extremely hyped about the stalker plot. There were no creepy stalker plots in Star in My Mind, nor do I remember any significant stalking in Joong’s other works. Or maybe the two of them were referring to the scene where Zo bites Joke’s arm. I don’t remember any biting from Star in My Mind, so who knows, it might be that. What else was special in ep8? Oh right, Joke punched the stalker. That can’t have been the “we’ve never done this before” thing, though, considering Joong was literally in a Mafia series before. Also, he punched Pepper in Star in My Mind. My theory still stands.
Reason #5: “It was more intense than this”
In that instagram live they also dropped that a lot was cut from that scene and that it was supposed to be more intense than this. Uh, boys...? What kind of choreography did y’all on set come up with for this scene exactly??
(I can’t stop laughing at Dunk's face when he agrees with Joong saying that a lot was cut. He looks like he suddenly bit into a very sour lemon lmao)
In conclusion:
Clearly they had a lot of fun with the Dum Dum performance and it seems that they were very excited about getting to do something more mature with Hidden Agenda, and also getting the the chance to do something that they’ve “never done before” in ep8 specifically. So my point stands: I think they’d have a blast playing a sexy series together. I want it for them.
Bonus: Vampire BL
Bonus points if this sexy JoongDunk BL that I’m asking for is a vampire BL!! Here’s why:
You can find a more extensive list of vampire mentions in my JoongDunk Vampire Mentions Masterpost here.
#actually i think they'd have a blast on only friends ngl#i think they would totally have been up for it#airenyah plappert#joongdunk#adrm#sexy joongdunk vampire bl#i actually meant to upload this on sunday but then i ended up much longer than expected with my uni assignments rip#at least i've managed to get this done BEFORE gmmtv2024 tho so that's something i guess#also it doesn't actually need to be in 2024 tbh#i'll take one 2025 too#i'd also be excited to see them work apart from one another in separate projects#but. i need this at some point in the next 3ish years#@gmmtv do you hear me? ได้ยินไหมคะ#justice for joongdunk#edit: i made this post BEFORE gmmtv 2024 part 1#so waaaaay before part 2 dropped the announcement for the heart killers#and can i just say...#you know how i'm using only friends out of all shows as an example here in this post?#i mean... did i speak jd being in a jojo show into existence with this post?? did actually i manifest it???? LOVE that for me ngl dkfjdjfjf#i hope they get to have some fun during the shoot <3333#i mean we DO know that august 22nd 2024 was an unforgettable day for them and dunk did drop they were filming sth spicy that day so!! djjdjf
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✨ weekend wip exposure club ✨
rules: post 7 sentences/a snippet of an unfinished work
@theotherwhybietoldmeso & @killerandhealerqueen
I'm late, I'm late, I'm late. Forgive me. I was fighting demons (imposter syndrome, crippling self doubt, fatigue, and a wild pack of mental illnesses). (◕દ◕) But! I'm finally back after like three ass weeks. <( ̄︶ ̄)> So, here! A v unserious snippy from my we have to stay silly modern kidlaw au (yeah, shocker, it's them bastards again) that I've been doing sometimes on the side just for shits n giggles. 〜(꒪꒳꒪)〜
The call connected and Killer's accent crackled out of the speaker. “Law? What's up?”
“Nothing urgent. I just need to know if Eustass h—”
“Yeah, his phone’s dead again. He's in the shed. You want him?”
“What?”
“Hang on. I'll get him.”
Law pinched the bridge of his nose. Squeezed his eyes shut till he saw pinpricks. “No, I just need to know if—”
"Oi, Kid! Your boyfriend wants to speak ta ya!"
Law snapped his eyes back open and nearly crushed his phone as his hand clenched in a useless attempt to smother the speaker.
Ahead of him in the aisle, hands in his pockets, Cora stopped. His leg held out in front of him as he froze mid-stride.
Dammit.
After a beat, as if he'd been waiting for what he'd heard to start making a little more sense, Cora slowly turned on his heel. His other leg still stuck out in front of him and the hem of his heart-covered button-up twirling with him.
He stared wide-eyed at Law. The embodiment of flabbergasted. His raised boot absently clicking down on the supermarkets’ bland tiling like an accompanying exclamation point.
Dammit!
"He's not my damn boyfriend!" Eustass yelled, taking the words out of Law's mouth.
The heavy rock blasting from the shed’s stereo lowered enough in volume to not blow out Law's phone speaker and Eustass' voice dropped several octaves as he brought Killer's phone up to his ear.
“Miss me, did ya, sweetheart?”
His eyes bulging, Cora took several steps back in bewilderment and tripped over one of the restocking boxes stacked in the aisle.
"Shut up, Eustass!" Law snapped. His face igniting alongside his fury. "You're on speaker!"
There was a pause so pregnant it had reached its third trimester. Then Eustass chuckled. It had a grotesque amount of facetious glee in it.
"Am I now?"
So. That had been a mistake. But Law could only double down now.
"Behave," he said through clenched teeth. "Or I'll—"
"You'll what? Don't go making promises you can't keep, princess."
Cora toppled back over the box trying to get up and landed on his back with his legs sticking straight up.
"I'm going to—!" Catching Cora's eye from down on the floor, Law sighed. "Doesn't matter. I'll deal with you later. Cora-san wants to know if you have any dietary restrictions.”
He scrunched down into his jacket. Tense. Gritting his teeth. Law still wasn't sure how Cora had talked him into letting him come over and cook dinner. But if it had been a bad idea before, it was a horrendous one now.
Eustass Kid was an arsehole. Always had been. Always would be. Always was. There wasn't a chance in hell he could be trusted not to—
"Hold up. Cora's there?"
"Yesss," Law hissed, ready to brain him.
“Put him on then.”
“Don't tell me what to do!”
Cora looked from Law to the phone and then accepted it when Law clicked his tongue on his teeth in irration and offered it down to him.
Tagging @schwazombie (no pressure. You keep working on those kidlawgust prompts if you're still on a roll 😊) and anyone else that wants to give it a whirl ✨✨
#weekend wip exposure club#look mum i didn't chicken out 👐#context: cora is a klutz in canon so that's why i'm making a fool of this man. Also because i love him dearly but that's besides the point#oh my words#from the dark pit#my agenda that kid calls law nearly every kinda cringe insulting 'endearment' he can to simply piss law off is going stronk.#look. it's the being an ass derogatory ribbing to eventual sarcastic but very affectionate pipeline for me. love a man that plays himself.#I hear you (no one. literally none one) saying 'but would law make the mistake of ringing killer (because of enthusiastic but misguided#insistence from cora) on speaker (also requested by cora) to ask about kid's food allergies (once again for cora) after kid wouldn't pick u#(idiot bastard doesn't hardly ever charge his phone. if it dies it dies. that's its problem. not his.) and then once getting handballed#without mercy (king shit move tbh killer) to the pain in the ass himself...not turn speaker phone off in 0.01 seconds??' and to that I say:#Look. He's been Having A Day okay. And it's fun to ruin law's life with shit like this because he makes it so easy takes it all so seriousl#.also. the scenario made me chuckle and the pursuit of joy gets the final word in this house so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯#(peanut i had a whole bunch of Bepo centric ones i was trying to pick to use instead for you but i 🐥end out. we strive for next weekend 😌)#(zom i love the difference in tones of our modern aus. it makes me very happy.#your foot is in darkness (&Hope) and mine is in a Hello Kitty rollerskate 🤭)
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low effort doodles for now cause i'm too tired to draw anything else</3
#my art#art#my doodles#doodles#utmv#undertale au#killer#killer!sans#cross sans#cross#dust#dust sans#dust!sans#fem!dust#fem!killer#fem!cross#i'm dropping by as quick as i can to post this then i'll jump back into finishing my assignments cause dear gosh i'm SO busy hhh :'D#i hope you guys don't mind lower quality doodles for the months that will come cause i'm honestly not sure if i can be very active otherwis#sorryy i know! that and i will reblog less unless i'm tagged cause i have to manage my doom scroll if i wanna get work done xD#thank you all so so MUCH for your patience and i hope it's not too disappointing :') muah muah have a nice day everyone!! <3333
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Killer hears a sound, a cow is in mud, and a war begins.
#UTMV#nightmare!sans#dadmare#killer!sans#dust!sans#horror!sans#dream!sans#ink!sans#core!frisk#happy father's day#have some dadmare!#Maybe I think I'm funny#but there were a few parts I have fun writing#hope you enjoy those
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lol. i think ive reached my limit.
#i just cannot take this torture anymore#ive been at the mercy of this horrible disease for over half my life now#imagine living knowing that roughly every 3.5 weeks youre going to experience the most excruciating pain of your life#along with crushing. usually suicidal depression. and such extreme fatigue and exhaustion that you easily sleep for 14+ hours a DAY#AND ITS ALL FOR FUCKING *NOTHING*#there is literally ZERO benefit or reason for me to be experiencing this#it is 100% extraneous#and even if you go to a dr and try to get treatment their only recommendation is 1) pain killers and/or 2) birth control#which both come with their own fucking share of unpleasant side effects#not to mention theyre not even 100% effective at stopping the problem in the first FUCKING place#and imagine even tho you have this DEBILITATING DISORDER society at large has decided it straight up DOESNT EXIST#to the point where REAL ACTUAL MEDICAL PROFESSIONALS will dismiss your symptoms#not to mention people in your life who dont understand or just straight up dont believe your disorder is real#good luck keeping a job or any other major commitments#considering you'll either be out of commission for like. 1 out of ever 4 weeks#or youll have to work/whatever WHILE experiencing said excruciating pain/crushing depression/debilitating exhaustion#not to mention the GI issues and the migraines and the brain fog and the fucking. full body aches#wanna go to a concert? or plan a vacation? or just. fucking. RELAX? you better hope its not during Hell Week or youre outta luck#and youve got roughly 30-40 YEARS of this to look forward to#maybe less IF YOURE LUCKY#im fucking over it#i cant take it anymore#im making an appt to see a dr and i WILL NOT LEAVE THEIR OFFICE until they have referred me to whoever i have to talk to to make this stop#my fucking fury at having to live like this has officially outweighed my fear of invasive procedures/recovery time/side effects#let along the torture that is navigating the medical care system as an AFAB#i just. i cant do this anymore.#i want to fucking LIVE#fuck
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GOOD MORNING EVERYONE HAPPY THURSDAY!! We are so so close to the weekend let’s keep pushing!! I hope you all have an amazing day 💕💕
#nina rambles~✦#I’m trying to queue up a fic or two or three for next week#I know I want a bday fic next Tuesday#I’ll throw in there this killer fic#then maybe a sanji thing#hmm#I have options#but I’m gonna be writing all day for the next few days so that’ll be funnnnn#I hope you all are doing well and if you aren’t I hope your day starts to look up#muah muah muah
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#hey boss#u uh- u said i was working sun n wed- can i have more consistent days so i have days to block out for interviews?#.#uve been forewarned#ok so its four months into my gap year and HOLY SHIT JOB SEARCHING IS SO FRUSTRATING#so im working as a clerk at this law firm mon and wed (only 8 hours total tho)#n i THOT i had my reatil job in the bag but then boss goes “yea im really sorry but i cant give u three days - only sundays and weds”#so i was like great ok i need another job thats cool ill just bliock out sundays and weds for potential employers#THEN on sat boss texts n goes “ahhh i dont need u till next week- also can u switch ur wed to fri”. ??????? MA'AM#so i go#she says sorry kid i dont WHICH IS FINE I APPRICIATE THE COMMUNICATION#so i have an interview the next day at a coffee shop for a time THE MANAGER OFFERED#i show up after having pit my day aside for this noon interview#i walk in employees go “uh ho manager stepped out”#she camnt come back for the rest of the day AND doesnt apologize in her email- just “unfourntallyyyy i didnt have time to check my email”#MAAM YOU SEND THE INVITE#whatever#luckily last friday i was invited to this job fair by like four diff locations in san fran n was immeditaly hired#(first trial shift tmr yay!)#but the commute is gonna be KILLER#however im hopeful n i love coffee so yay#also my pet sitting is taking off ive got two sits booked for october#which is suprising bc im also traveling for half the month#manchester edenbrough st andrews milan lake como babayyyyyyy#also this thursday im heading to chicago and maine for a wedding (yay go love!) and to tenessee for another wedding in jan#so now ive got law firm retail associate barista dog sitter n i just KNOW when the holidays roll around n both retail jobs will be wack ill#be floored#but. ahem anywats good things frustrating thinsg stressful things but GOD am i glad i took this gap year#oh yea and ive been hiking tones! lands end trail#tilden park
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coffee boy girl‘s birthday / and happy birthday @help-im-a-gay-fish !!!!
ccino by black-nyanko
killer by rahafwabas
nightmare by joku
mobster au by help-im-a-gay-fish
also the other two versions (coloured and a try on shadows)
yippee!!!
#my artsies#this was very fun :3#hope you have/had an amazing day!!!! (depending on whenever you see it :9)#fluffynightkiller#fluffyknife#fluffynight#ccino x nightmare x killer#ccino!sans#ccino sans#killer!sans#killer sans#nightmare!sans#nightmare sans#ccino x killer#ccino x nightmare#killer x nightmare#i‘ll never draw this much again… XD#fluffynightkiller week#fluffynightkiller week 2024
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Heheheheheho I have gotten some of the Dragon Age books (🏴☠️) and this is gonna really let me dig into some stuff, especially my favorite guy Cole, cause now I can read his OG appearance, I want to see how much stuff Cole says, especially during his quest actually makes sense, and how much is in-universe "both sides are right"ing about not listening to what Cole wants to do.
I am mainly talking about Spirit!Cole thanking Inky for not making him change... Despite the fact that thoughout Cole's quest Solas ignores what Cole wants (Like being binded) & wants to do (Kill the guy who beat beyond beating a 12 (at most) year old (most likely, it isn't outright stated (to my memory) the Templar who fucked up the paperwork was also one of the ones who physically abused him, but I feel it's a pretty safe assumption) & got that child killed due to neglect & faced no consequences) but ultimately the choice that causes Cole to thank the player for not changing him is the one where you listen to Solas over Cole (Or well Varric, who also doesn't let Cole do what he wants but is closer to what Cole would have done if he had went alone for the confrontation) & in this route I would say Cole's character changes a lot more, especially as he forgets the original Cole, which... Rubs me wrong, but I'll save my more detailed thoughts for 1. After I fully read Asunder & 2. Either a full Cole analysis or a detailed post about my thoughts on his quest & routes (& maybe how I'd rewrite them, as a Autistic person & a ally to the aroace community)
Anyways my point is that I want to see how true it is characters rejected or wanted to change Cole, I want to see what leads him to feel that having two men argue & tell him who he is supposed to be & do only to have a third person decide out of those two's options for what he should do is remotely a situation where he's been accepted.
#talk tag#my meta#cole meta#da cole#dai cole#dragon age cole#anti Solas#anti varric#just a lil like I love them but also holy hell you can tell they are in a sense in Cole's quest meant to#repesent ''parents who *have to deal with* Autistic children & make their choices for them#which ultimately comes down to how Cole is infantlized despite being around the same age as the intended age for the HoF during DAO#but since he's a Autistic-coded man he is treated by the narrative & thusly by characters like he is far younger & can't make his own choice#& only by losing parts of that coding is he treated a little more like a adult either losing touches of ''humanity''#or having to start having relationships like how a allo nurotypcial would#anyways I am curious if the book has some of these issues or if it is mainly a DAI thing since tbh it has a Ableism issue#I do know that Cole in the book is allowed to be a lot more threatening which I am excited to see for myself#let him be fucked up he is a spooky ghost serial killer with messy morals & messed up ideas on how to help#also I should make my meta/thoery/hc about how the spirit vs demon dycomity is BS & is more based on if#a spirit fights back/has desires that aren't convinent for the mortals around it#''oh it isn't a sprit of justice who wants me dead for killing those mages... it's a demon of vengeance yeah''#''this spirit wants things & isn't just doing what I tell it to... Demon of desire''#anyways thoughts for a different day when I have done more research but it ties into Cole#because how actually different is it to mercy kill mages in hopes of being seen vs kill countless people some of whom are very much-#just acting with survival or protection of their people#in like the grand scheme of the system that decides when something is a spirit & it's a demon#why is it fine for Cole to kill to end others pain but if he does it for himself he is a Demon?#anyways ty for reading#child abuse#child death
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