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hc ask raph number 6 plzzzz
Oooh 6. Something they lost and would love to have back (gonna for rise raph)
So I have two answers for this one and funnily enough both things were lost at the same time.
I think that when they lost the lair after season two Raph feels kind of guilty because to be honest he misses his things. They went back and salvaged what they could but he lost childhood toys and a wrestling merch collection and even just the couch he and his brothers had piled on together for years.
He knows itâs more important that everyone is alive but after they move he is sometimes looking for something and is just hit with a sudden wave of sadness as he realizes itâs gone.
Thatâs the more literal one now for the other one.
I think the other thing Raph loses during the finale is the belief children have that their parents and or heroes are invincible. Splinter is Lou Jitsu a mix of parent and childhood hero. Heâs a ninja master and talented and supposed to be the strongest person in the world but he almost dies and Raph is hit with the knowledge that his dad is mortal and not as strong as he is in Raphâs head.
I think that realization really fucks him up and he hates that he canât just have that childlike belief that dad is the strongest guy in the world. (I think this also explains a lot of why he acts the way he does in the movie)
Anyway this is way longer than I expected it to be tldr: Raph lost parts his childhood and misses them dearly
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Hi everyone! It's been a while and I hope you're all doing well :] I have realized that 99.99% of you are not on my personal Tumblr so I should probably update here too. Hey! Hi!
Going to start off by saying that no, The Great Protector has not been abandoned! I am still working on it!
Details under cut. A little ranty, sorry HAHA
So yes, I am still working on TGP! But no, I have nothing to show for all the months I've been gone.
Essentially the plot got way out of hand and in the end it was so messy I felt it would be faster to just start from scratch instead of trying to prune all the unnecessary parts. It was that bad.
I'm currently making my way through the new outline slowly but surely â but I know this isn't the update you all wanted. I literally have less than I had before... haha... and after all these years I completely understand that this is disappointing for all of you, and I'm really sorry about that.
I think I'll always regret putting up that initial intro post for this game as early into production as I did. While the community has been wonderful and I appreciate so much all the support I've received, it's also sort of paralyzing to have so many eyes on you, expecting great things you aren't sure you have the means of providing!
I've sort of just been too scared to work on it because I know that nothing I make could ever satisfy all of you, and then the impostor syndrome in me is telling me that means nothing I do will ever be good enough. Yeah. Brain. Funny guy, the brain.
If I had a time machine I'd go back and force past me not to post jack shit on the internet until he had at least a full chapter written and coded, but alas! Hindsight is 20/20 and all that.
But taking this time away from the blog and restarting the story from scratch has made the pressure feel a lot less intense. I really, really do appreciate everyone who's shown interest in my silly little project so far, but I will likely continue on with my break away from this blog until I have an actual demo. It makes me feel guilty to post here with my hands empty haha
I have no idea how long it will be until said actual demo is ready, but I sure hope it won't take another multiple years!
Again, I'm sorry about how this has gone. The next time I post something on this blog, it'll probably be less depressing I promise đ
With love,
Cassian
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I thought I would talk more about how I feel Ekko is often mistreated or ignored by the Arcane fandom and why I think that is and spoiler alert I Anti-Blackness is at least a part of it.
Ekko is subjected to what a lot of black boys are too in real life which is adultification. Ekko just like a lot of black boys was essentially forced to grow up and due to this I think a lot of the Arcane Fandom treat him as an adult and thus judge him more harshly just like how in real life black boys are often treated as older then they actually are and thus are subjected to more scruinty and Ekko is sadly constantly subjected to this by the fans. This is in direct contrast with Jinx who seems to be given a lot more leeway which to a certain extent is understandable because it is her story essentially but I still find it odd how she is given the "oh poor baby pushed around by the big bad world must protect" but Ekko is just given a side glance and a "he's doing fine" when both Ekko and Jinx deserve that "need to protect" additude but yet it feels like Jinx is given the most of the protection and Ekko is just left to fend for himself.
Honestly I don't think a lot of the Arcane Fandom looks at Ekko as a victim and that is genuinely upsetting. They look at his situation as more of a success story but even then his "success" is is very sad when you think about it. Yes he built a community and yes I guess he did "turn out okay" despite his situation but he shouldn't have had build that community in the first place and just because he did doesn't mean he's healed, trauma doesn't just go away because your relatively okay compared to everyone else. I also think his hurt isn't taken as seriously as the other characters because he doesn't actively display it as much, in total his hurt is displayed in two main instances and that's it mostly, the other times he's on screen he's either angry or at the very least mildly annoyed or somber which is interesting because this is most likely a mask he wears and this mask is a direct result of the adultification I talked about earlier.Â
Ekko suffers from what a lot of black characters do which is that despite them going through the same or sometimes even more trauma then non black characters, their trauma is often overlooked or downplayed to be less then it is which is something that happens in IRL to black people all the time. Also this mischaracterization of Ekko extended to Shipping as well to where some people label him as an abuser towards Jinx which is ironic because he is one out of like 2 other characters that doesn't actively kill anyone and if anything he tries to avoid that as much as possible so I genuinely don't understand where this abuser assumption came from, is it because they genuinely Believe it or is it because they saw a black man being aggressive an automatically assumed he was the one in the wrong in the situation.
I got a little bit ranty there and I apologize but Ekko is my favorite character from the show and just fiction in general and I feel like he has so much to offer but he is seemingly being mistreated by other fans of the show and that just doesn't sit right with me. I just hope next season really gives him his time in the spotlight.
#timebomb#ekko arcane#arcane#ekko#ekko league of legends#its kinda funny that despite how much people analyze the characters in this show Ekko is often given a very surface level look#its also a bit eyebrow raising how the one prominent black boy in the show is labeled as an abuser by some fans#i just want Ekko to get more love in the community
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Spoilers for the first two episodes of the new Life is a strange game so if you donât want to see this then please scroll past to the bottom for my note :)
Sorry if itâs ranty Iâm passionate
I absolutely hate how they took the game. In most parts.
My opinion of it is that the game and environment are so cool. Like the characters are cool and like the people and the college are interesting, but they shouldnât have used max Caulfield for their main character. Itâs what the original developers wanted and to have he in this new environment in a way that makes it feel unnatural to her character
Speaking of which. Her and Chloeâs breakup is entirely out of character for both, but Chloe especially. Chloe sending a letter and saying Max needs to stop living in the past and that she hopes sheâll live in the future with someone else?? GIRL. After we kill the whole town for you?? Thatâs not a trauma that takes a day to heal she probably didnât have therapy road-tripping and how can she? Shes time traveling, what the fuck is she even supposed to say? Not to mention Chloe was stuck in the past when Max got to her with her father. Not that she canât grieve for her dead dad, but jfc make the breakup believable. Chloe out of everyone should be able to understand MAXâS POSITION.
The texts messages are also weird? Like Chloe is a mix between immature and mature and tbf I havenât seen much of them, but theyâre just so weird. I wonât speak further, but it feels like⌠idk, the writers are fighting to figure out what they want with her. (Sidenote the desert picture got of her green hair and I personally fucked with it so).
Also people claiming that Victoria and Chloe are flirting are a jumping a little overboard. Iâve seen it only once and honestly like, maybe it is flirting, but I think it could also just as much be a hangout. Donât take my word for it, tho. Iâm not the most qualified to be talking so.
Thatâs partially why I think choosing Chloeâs death is just the easier option. Because they butchered her character so bad post-bae ending that Iâd rather have Chloe dead and go date some other chick bc fuck that. Iâd rather have an in character Max mourning the lost love of her life and what she had to give up then out of character Chloe breaking things off with Max.
Speaking of the new love interest, the only positive thing Iâll say on that and most of the game is that I actually really like Amanda. She seems really sweet. I like the characters, I like how they talk with Max. I wasnât a huge fan of them earlier, but I think my issues were mostly that they felt like replacements of the old cast, which in some parts are true. I do like the dynamic, tho, and I do enjoy that Max is secretive abt her past and herself. Especially the trauma, it feels in character in some aspects.
I havenât gotten far into the game, only most of chistes 1. So I wonât speak on the story much, but I have seen some characters that parallel Nathan and Jefferson so thatâs making me worried. I just donât want them to, and theyâre already doing it, to just put life is strange 1 in front of us in a different font and thatâs more expensive.
The close and style of Max have grown a little. I personally liked what they were building in the game and the comics. Itâs not a huge deal to me, but I thought those styles helped stand out as a main character. Then again sheâs essentially thirty I think in the game so maybe Iâll cut her some slack.
SPOILER END
As always, tho, please donât harass anyone over the game. If they like it, thatâs awesome!! Lis1 was a shit show in story too at times, im not saying the games are cinematic masterpieces. My problem is when creators take beloved characters and butcher their entire characters. Max and Chloe were fine before they were messed with. They were never meant to have a game after the storm for a reason. I wish they wouldâve respected that.
However, Iâll be following the development of the game and probably write fix it fics again đ
#life is strange#lis#max caulfield#chloe price#victoria chase#life is strange double exposure#Iâll probably have more thoughts
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Rant incoming, sorry!!
Do they even know WHY they are fighting and killing??
Im still trying to figure out why tubbo and bad thought to attack red first and then yell revenge when red retaliated. Like, why?? (I'm crow and red main so I probably won't watch the others for the lolz) Chaotic angst energy.
And people keep saying because of Dapper and what Dapper said. And I'm like "what?" Because with that same logic/energy qPhilza can say the same if decided to do the same. "Chayanna said to protect Tallulah no matter what- so Ima kill everyone in sight for whatever reason." That sounds crazy. Right? (Is it just me??)
Like we(their little community/family) been talking and communicating all this time why now does it go out the window? because some random guy who doesnt like us said so? (Quackity did warn them in Brazil tho)
We know the fed dont like us and can't be trusted so why are we not having that same energy towards this guy?
Like I get it, I do. Things are on the line or so it seem but why aren't we actually thinking things through?? Talking?? Coming up with a plan to get everyone and the eggs home. Do we not care for all life anymore?
Its about to be Day 3 and I am so drained from Day 1. Like Charlie's voice, I'm struggling now. My soul is heavy as a red pov.
And yes we won Day 2 but everything has consequences... like please..
I- I just want them to talk for more than a couple seconds.. minutes before thoughts of killing off rip..
*peepoHands*
(I hope it was okay to come to you)
Dont worry about the rant! I like hearing other peoples opinions on things and dont get many asks often so anythings appreciated.
As someone whose main povs are team blue i still understand you entirely but also can explain a couple things (in a similar ranty form lol):
First of all as to why they were killing: I think on day one the competitive nature of the event was at the forefront of blues mind. Bad had been told by his son (who, remember, he literally kidnapped a worker to save) to do anything to win even if it hurt others. Which honestly does imply hostility a bit more than chayannes message. Tubbo also wants chayanne and tallulah (and richarlyson) back like theyre his own children (and has definitely been over excited and trying to prove himself as leader of blue so is being more competitive for his own pride). They were thrust into this situation with all that in mind and just wanted to win by any means, or at least thats the vibe i got.
None of them fully understood the rules of the event either. They tragically fell to the tragic mcyt curse of not reading instructions. They didnt even think about the cursed team until i think it was slime who said he thought red was cursed at which point niki insisted (and still insists) she doesnt think there is a cursed team. Tubbo thought the cursed team changed daily, if you want further proof that rules were not at the forefront of their mind. They just wanted to win since that was what the eggs had said to do. Of course now ccs are more aware of the rules they are keeping them in mind but no one seems to be proposing full teamwork yet.
Funny enough, i think ive mentioned it in a post before but red being their target on day 1 was entirely on accident. Bad killed slime first under the impression he was on green and then continued to go for his team because they happened to be not too far. From what ive gathered, green was bloodthirsty but struggling to find the other teams so thats why blue and red originally started fighting. As for getting angry at retaliation? I think thats just competitive spirit getting in the way.
The whole thing was slightly frustrating personally from a viewer pov because im exactly with you in the fact that they should be talking. They should be figuring out the cursed team. They should be boosting the cursed teams stats. But they didnt understand that and instead went hostile immediately due to the newness of the whole thing.
Even yesterday bad was considering killing red and i was a little frustrated. I get that he was annoyed (if u dont know yesterday blue grinded global tasks but were barely gaining percentage compared to etoiles - at one point they handed smth in and got like 1% - and bad thought kills may have helped them a bit) but blue didnt need to win day 2! If anything that wouldve been detrimental to them considering the cursed team is still unknown (but bbh thinks blues cursed so...). Eventually he settled on bargaining with them by offering something in return for a kill but never got a chance to because he ran out of time. Still, the suggestion was a bit frustrating at the time as someone who was seeing red having a terrible time from liveblogs.
I definitely consider most of day one out of character, as there is no way in hell the characters shouldve been acting the way they did considering all they were supposed to know. Even if qbbh would do anything for dapper he definitely wouldnt outright hurt his friends or risk the other eggs chances of survival. (Also this entirely broke cellbits current arc of being very agressive considering how badly hes been beat down this event.)
Even just hearing about red on both days was draining for me. The one reason im not vodwatching them is that i could feel the draining vibes from liveblogs alone so i cant image what it must be like to main them and while im happy they won, their strategy today was a lot more aggressive compared to everyone else who was trying to tone it down a bunch so i fear for the next few days on everyones povs as the aftermath of that plays out.
Thankfully ive heard bagi wants to unite the teams and bad and baghera discussed getting a group together to theorise about the cursed team so maybe between the three of them things can start moving in the right direction and return to being in character and communicating. Todays the event which may not allow for anyone to unite everyone immediately but i hope they do sooner rather than later.
#discourse#qsmp discourse#not maintagging cuz this post sounds a bit too much like neg at times#its not hate im just whiny and fear it may come off as neg
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someone whoâs into fob and mcr here.. tbh i feel like the bands are so different that i donât rlly understand why fans of one or the other are always trying to pit them against each other?? itâs like, theyâve got their own histories and impact and influences and idk what point it serves to be like, âmcr has more interesting lore than fobâ or vice versa like oh my goodness. so what. can we just enjoy the music. can we let fans enjoy what they enjoy. Please.
sorry i realize this sounds rlly ranty i donât actually care about whatâs happening on the minute fandom level đ hope this provides a little insight tho have a good one
i get itttt as someone who doesnt want to hear about fob most of the time â theyre too different to be talked about in the same way. but i ask because theyre paired together much of the time for bringing emo (as in Emotional Hardcore) to the mainstream. i want to know pplâs personal experiences, not the Objective answer. which was more impactful and why?
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OP, this is a very good post, and Iâm very glad that you are willing to learn from where you screwed up, and share what youâve learned with others.
I hope youâre willing to continue learning though, because thereâs one important point that you make here that I disagree with. You say that antisemites are trying to âTrojan horseâ their way into leftist spaces, but leftist spaces are already filled with antisemites, and have been for a long time. To continue your Trojan horse analogy, Odysseus is and antisemite, sure, but so are Hector and Priam.
I think that this is something that is vitally important for leftists to understand, and I know itâs something that they donât want to, but antisemites donât have to sneak in to leftist spaces because leftist spaces are already full of antisemites. Jews have been complaining about antisemitism in leftist spaces for a long time, and have been noting for the past decade or so that things have been getting worse. An easy example is when the star of David was banned from the D.C. Dyke march in 2019, but that wasnât particularly new or exceptional, it just got more press than average.
Youâre right that itâs an easy thing to stumble over, because a lot of antisemites have learned how to hide their antisemitism behind progressive language and dog whistles. But it is important to learn how to spot those, because there are a lot of very reasonable sounding if you donât think too hard or donât know what youâre looking for. To use the example above, the Dyke march told people that they could not display the star of David on a flag because it considered it a ânationalist symbol from a country with oppressive tendencies.â And that language sounds good to the leftist ear â nationalism is bad, countries with oppressive tendencies are also bad. So why is it problematic? Well, Israelâs record with LGBTQ folk isnât great, but itâs better than any other country in the Middle East. As an example, in Palestine, you can be executed by the government for being gay. Why do I mention Palestine specifically? Because the Dyke march said that the Palestinian flag was ok to fly.
So, when we take a step back we see that the rules are not being applied the same way to Jews/Israel as they are to everyone else. Thatâs antisemitic. But the way was presented, it sounded like good leftist praxis. And you see it all over on the left. Itâs the same way that Israelis have been branded as âsettler-colonistsâ even though most of the Jews who came to Israel in the last 80 years have been refugees, and are indigenous to the land. But if we call them âsettler-colonistsâ then theyâre oppressors, and we can be as mean as we want. The left works very hard to find reasons for Jews to be bad guys â if youâre anti-capitalist, then theyâre capitalists, if youâre anti-communist, then theyâre communists. If youâre not in Israel, they should go back to where they came from, if youâre anti-Zionist then theyâre colonizers. Thereâs always a âreasonâ that a leftist can give to hate on Jews, but the real reason is antisemitism, and you will find it in every sort of leftist space you can hope to find.
Iâm sorry this got a little ranty, but the Jews are tired of this nonsense, and those on the left have gotten increasingly bad at hiding it over the last four months. Iâm sure as a non-Jew this is less obvious to you because you have to deal with less of it and itâs not pointed in your direction. But I think that if youâre really interested in learning and growing (and it seems like you really are! And I want to reiterate that I appreciate your willingness to do so!) then one of the next things that you need to learn is that it isnât a handful of sneaky antisemites trying to get in to leftist spaces, itâs that leftist spaces have always contained a large population of antisemites.
Is your pro-Palestine activism hurting innocent people? Here's how to avoid that.
Over the last few days, Iâve had conversations with several Jewish people who told me how hurt and scared they are right now.
To my great regret, some of that pain came from a poorly-thought-out post of mine, which â while not ill-intentioned â WAS hurtful.
And a lot of it came from cruelty theyâd experienced at the hands of people who claim to be advocating for Palestine, but are using the very real plight of innocent Palestinians to harm equally innocent Jewish people.
Yâall, we need to do better. (Yes, âweâ definitely includes me; this is in no small part a âlearn from my failâ post, and also a âmaking amendsâ post. Some of these are mistakes Iâve made in the past.)
So if youâre an advocate for Palestine who wants to make sure that your defense of one group of vulnerable people doesnât harm another, here are some important things to do or keep in mind:
Ask yourself if youâre applying a standard to one group that you arenât applying to another.
Would you want all white Americans or Canadians to be expelled from America or Canada?
Do you want all Jewish people to be expelled from Israel, as opposed to finding a way to live alongside Palestinian Arabs in peace?
If the answer to those two questions is different, ask yourself WHY.
Do you want to be held responsible for the actions of your nationâs army or government? No? Then donât hold innocent Jewish people responsible for the actions of the Israeli army and government.
On that subject, be wary of condemning all Israeli people for the actions of the IDF. Large-scale tactical decisions are made by the top brass. Service is compulsory, and very few can reasonably get out of service.
Blaming all Israelis for the militaryâs actions is like blaming all Vietnam vets for the horrors in Vietnam. Theyâre not calling the shots. They arenât Nazis running concentration camps. They are carrying out military operations that SHOULD be criticized.
And do not compare them or ANY JEWISH PERSON to Nazis in general. It is Jewish cultural trauma and not outsidersâ to use against them.
Donât infuse legitimate criticism with antisemitism.
By all means, spread the word about the crimes committed by the Israeli army and government, and the complicity of their allies. Criticize the people responsible for committing and enabling atrocities.
But if you imply that theyâre committing those crimes because theyâre Jewish, or because Jewish people have special privileges, then youâre straying into antisemitic territory.
Criticize the crime, not the group. If you believe that collective punishment is wrong, donât do it yourself.
And do your best to use words that apply directly to the situation, rather than the historical terms for situations with similar features. For example, use âsegregation,â âoppression,â or âsubjugation,â not âHolocaustâ or âJim Crow.â These other historical events are not the cultural property of Jews OR Palestinians, but also have their own nuances and struggles and historical contexts.
Also, blaming other world events on Jewish people or making Jewish people associated with them (for instance, some people falsely blame Jewish people for the African slave trade) is a key feature of how antisemitism functions.
Please, by all means, be specific and detailed in your critiques. But keep them focused on the current political actors â not other peoplesâ or nationsâ political or cultural histories and traumas.
Be prepared to accept criticism.
You probably already know that society is infused with a wide array of bigotries, and that people growing up in that environment tend to absorb those beliefs without even realizing it. Antisemitism is no exception.
What that means is, thereâs a very real chance that you will screw up, and get called out on it, as I so recently did.
If that happens, please be willing to learn and adapt. If you can educate yourself about the suffering and needs of Palestinians, you can do the same for Jewish people.
Understand that the people you hurt arenât obligated to baby you. Give them room to be angry.
After I made a post that inadvertently hurt people, some were nice about it, and others werenât. Some outright insulted my morals and intelligence.
And I had to accept that Iâd earned that from them.
Iâd hurt them, and they werenât obligated to be more careful with my feelings than I had been with theirs.
They werenât obligated to forgive me, trust me, or stop being mad at me right away.
Iâll admit, there were moments when I got defensive. I shouldnât have. And I encourage you to try not to, if you screw up and hurt people.
I know thatâs hard, but itâs important. Getting defensive only tells people you care more about doubling down on your mistake than you do about healing the hurt it caused.
Instead, acknowledge that they have a right to be angry, apologize for the way you hurt them, and try to make amends, while understanding that they donât owe you trust or forgiveness.
Be aware that some antisemites are using legitimate complaints to âTrojan horseâ antisemitism into leftist spaces.
This is a really easy stumbling block to trip over, because most people probably donât look at every post a creator makes before sharing the one theyâre looking at right now.
I recently shared a video that called out some of the Likud and IDFâs atrocities and hypocrisy, and that also noted that many Jewish people are wonderful members of their communities.
I was later informed that, while that video in particular seemed reasonable, the creator behind it is frequently antisemitic.
I deleted the post, and blocked the creator. I encourage you to do the same if itâs brought to your attention that youâve been âTrojan horseâd.
Fact-check your doubts about antisemitism.
Depending on which parts of the internet you look at, youâve probably seen people accused of antisemitism because they complained about the Likud and/or IDFâs actions. So you might be primed to be wary, or feel unsure of how to tell what counts as real antisemitism.
But that doesnât mean antisemitism isnât a very real, widespread, and harmful problem. And it doesnât mean many or even most Jewish people are lying to you or being overly sensitive.
So if someone says something is antisemitic, and you arenât sure, I encourage you to:
A. Look up the action or thing in question, including its history. Is there an antisemitic history or connotation you arenât aware of? For best results, include âantisemiticâ in your search query, in quotes.
B. Understand that some things, while not inherently antisemitic, have been used by antisemites often enough that Jewish people are understandably wary of them. Schrodingerâs antisemitism, if you will.
C. Ask Jewish people WHO HAVE OFFERED TO HELP EDUCATE YOU. Emphasis on WHO HAVE OFFERED. Random Jewish people arenât obligated to give you their time and emotional energy, or to educate you â especially on subjects that are scary or painful for them.
@edenfenixblogs has kindly offered her inbox to those who are genuinely trying to learn and do better, and Iâve found her to be very kind, patient, reasonable, and fair-minded.
Understand that this is URGENTLY NEEDED.
In one of my conversations with a Jewish person whoâd called me out, they said this was the most productive conversation theyâd had with a person with a Palestinian flag in their profile.
THIS IS NOT OKAY.
I didnât do anything special. All I did was listen, apologize for my mistakes, and learn.
Yes, it feels good to be acknowledged. But I feel like Iâve been praised for peeing IN the toilet, instead of beside it.
Apologizing, learning, and making amends after you hurt people shouldnât be âthe most reasonable thing Iâve heard from a person with a Palestinian flag pfp.â
It should be BASIC DECENCY.
And the fact that itâs apparently so uncommon should tell you how much unnecessary stress and fear Jewish people have been living with because of people who consider themselves defenders of human rights.
By all means, be angry at the Likud, the IDF, and the politicians, reporters, and specific media outlets who choose to enable and cover up for them.
But direct that anger toward the people who deserve it and are in a position to do something about it, not random people who simply happen to be Jewish, or who donât want millions of people to be turned into refugees when less violent methods of achieving freedom and rights for Palestinians are available.
Stop peeing beside the toilet, people.
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So im going to get real for a second, this may be ranty but i'll be sharing my feelings on Yuri on Ice just to pinpoint how this show literally changed my life (in what has to be described as the most cringe sad statement i will ever make in my life but hey, sometimes its like that).
So, picture little Chi. Dumb little Chi when she was 11 years old. Lonely girl, who had very few close friends to begin with but was also, quite literally, living inside a bubble (as described by herself back then). Then, i meet this person (kid, same age as me, nowadays nonbinary so i will address them so) and immediately bond over Steven Universe.
Now, keep in mind, this bubble i mentioned had to do with living in an extremelly sheltered space. Like, "didn't know being queer was even an option, just that it was wrong" levels of sheltered-ness. So, when they mentioned that Pearl from SU was clearly in love with Rose Quartz, I immediately pulled a face. Not that it would be wrong if she liked her, but, you know, i didn't feel like that was the case. My friend, then, suggested I search for the anime Yuri on Ice, and watch it through.
That weekend, while my parents were in the living room watching the news, I sat in my room, computer in my lap, facebook on the screen, and watched the entirety of Yuri on Ice in under a day. And, sure, at first it was odd, but by like episode three I was already rooting for them to get together. I freaked out at the kiss scene (even with the censorship). I cried at the ring exchange. I cried at the ending. And left with my heart full of something warm that I couldn't yet identify.
It took me years to finally understand what being queer actually was, and all that it entails. But that show, as weird as it sounds, guided me towards the first few steps of understanding. Its dumb, im aware. But as an 11 year old, living in the environment I lived in, it was my first introduction to queerness, even before Steven Universe got to the stage in which its queer themes were much more noticeable (for little me, at least).
It eventually lead me to the pont of putting the pieces together that I was actually queer (had been for a long time, but had repressed it as unnatural).
Yuri on Ice is not a perfect show. At all. Its been years since I last saw it but a lot of it probably didn't stand up to the test of time. But it will always occupy a super important space in my heart. Maybe that's why i still hold onto the hope that someday we will get more of it, whether at the hands of MAPPA or some other studio. Or, maybe, i don't need an explicit continuation, because to me the ending is clear. Victor and Yuri ended together.
Maybe their story in the screen is over. But they did make history.
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hi, i know this in't really this accounts thing so theres no pressure to answer, but i figured i'd give it a shot. how do i tell people i go by a different name?
i have several friends who have changed their names recently, so i'm sure they would accept me, but im always hung up on the what ifs and the fact that i basically go by something new every other week, or maybe them thinking i'm just hopping on the train of 'hey lol i have a new name' that's been happening in our friend group recently. i feel like it would become a burden for my friends even though several of them also go by more than one name.
it's not even like my name is weird compared to theirs, i have friends who go by nouns and words and names they yoinked from characters/content creators/whatever, but i can't help but be Completely Terrified and i'm just lookin for a little advice or something like that
again, absolutely no pressure to answer this is all super /nf here, but i figured i'd see what knowledge i could collect haha. hope you're well! sorry this is long i am very ranty
hello, darling. đ¤
i am not qualified in the slightest to answer this question (as i wimped out of ever telling the people i trust when i got indecisive about my own name) but i am more than happy to try and give you one.
in my experience, those people will accept your decision with no hangups, but i understand your fears. one option is to be direct with it; tell them your name with all the confidence you don't have if you're anything like me, and don't allow room for anyone to object. if they say anything contrary? đđŤ
another option you have, if you change it up a few times, is to ask for their help with trying out names. they have experience with it, so you trust their advice and want another opinion. maybe you're not feeling (name a) anymore, but you're not sure if (name b) is the way you wanna go. your friend/s can address you with (name b) for a day, and then you can see where you sit with it.
and it's important to mention that you are never a burden to a True Friend. they will always want to help you be comfortable with yourself and be the most genuine version of you possible. i don't know you, but i know i absolutely want you to figure yourself out so you can be happy with who you are.
i hope you find your resolution soon. have a wonderful day. circe đ¤
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if they make nala se clone palpatine that just might be the last straw for me with star wars as a whole
#bb#anyways bb isnt a good show by any stretch. the art and rendering is great but....damn is everything else barely passable at best#not to mention the racism and other outright horrible things the show does#but esp that last shot of them standing all together on the platform....they all look white and none of them look relatively similar#idk how they think genetics works but its kinda not like that (yes i understand its scifi)#also im still holding out hope that omega is actually an obitine kid bc at this point i do not get it at all#i hestitate to throw this word around but...shes a mary sue. for real its got big 2010 i was adopted by one direction vibes#crosshair was right like why is she calling the shots BITCH WHY DID SHE GET TO BLOW UP THE WINDOW??? make it make sense#if her special mutation ends up being force sensitivity (hence her empathy) imma lose it bc as of right now#her empathy is almost entirely based on how she got a ~normal~ childhood compared to the rest of the clones and the batch#but that still spells disaster for clones that consistiently show sympathy empathy morals etc#and that thing abt how thats just how crosshair is kinda pissed me off but i cant put my finger on why just yet#im sure ill end up doing a ranty little breakdown later (other than this lmao)
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The weekend series roundup - Cutie Pie edition
Cutie Pie ep 10:
Warning, this is going to be ranty đ
Did we need a thirty minute time reverse? At first I wondered if it was because Lian had purposefully left the deeds on the desk so that Kuea could find them...but no...so then what was the point to all this?! This time reverse gave us no new information, no twist. So, Lian is planning on waiting a day or two to tell Kuea. He KNOWS the deeds are on the desk, he looked at them then left them there when he got up and left. WHY did he then tell Kuea not five minutes later that he could go into his office?!! Honestly if he's that forgetful or incompetent then I wouldn't trust him as a businessman at all đ
Most of this episode was focused on Kuea dealing with this knowledge...which could have been solved SO MANY times if he'd just called his mum straight away. Or ASKED Lian straight away. This kind of accidental reveal of something and subsequent hesitation to talk to the person directly is one of the most boring tropes in any show, bl or otherwise. I mean, Kuea set boundaries with TonâŚso we know he can. He just needs to do it with Lian đđź And at this point I'm loosing sympathy for Kuea's tears. Just ask Lian. Or your mum. Even Diao is giving him great advice but he's not taking it. đ
So on to Diao and Yi...and I'm sorry to anyone who has ever been traumatised by an animal but my immediate reaction to the flashback was "is that what he's so guilty about!!" Get. Over. It. đ Like...Diao doesn't even remember it. He doesn't seem to have any lasting physical issues. So...what's the problem? Why all the guilt? Maybe there's more info we don't know ybut oh my god all this drama just for that?! Diao and Yi's interactions are all SO unsatisfying. The eventual confession was sweet at the end but honestly I was ready to throw hands when Yi went in for the kiss before saying "I love you". Just use your words!!!
Okay, ranty bit over. I hope you're still with me đI still love the visuals and the colours in the whole series, it has been exceptionally designed. I wrote briefly about some colour coding the show seems to be using (mainly red and blue for Kuea and Lian respectively and yellow has been used a lot but I haven't seen a pattern as to why yet) and, if I have time once the show is over, I might make a series of posts looking at it all...but some of the small details are wonderful. For example a lot of background decorations and accessories are red and blue...and sometimes the show isn't subtle about it at all. I mean, are the balls really necessary here? Or are they just to add to the red/blue theme?
BUT my favourite moment was when Neur basically confessed to Syn. In admitting he wouldn't cheat on Syn (the 3rd precept in Buddhism), he's implying he likes Syn and would like to be with him. It was a beautiful little interaction. And Syn's little pleased shy smile was adorable. And then the knees overlapping, the hesitant uncertainty, the acknowledgement and permission, and the shared understanding... Just...more of them please! And đđź let đđź them đđź be đđź happy.
#cutie pie#cutie pie series#cutie pie the series#cutie pie ep 10#I feel like I need to add a disclaimer#because I know I sound like I'm hating on this show#I'm not...this is an analysis...according to *my* preferences of how a storyline is handled#taking into account the potential I think the show has#my expectations of it#and therefore my enjoyment/disappointment of it#cutie pie *could* have been AMAZING but - for *me* - they've steered it slightly in the wrong way#and I enjoy noticing this because it makes me consider what I would do differently#if I EVER get back to writing stories myself đ¤ˇđ˝ââď¸
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hi!! <3 iâd like to request â¤ď¸ and âď¸.
i am a straight woman. i am very quiet/shy/have social anxiety and do not have a lot of friends so i can get quite lonely, but thatâs okay!! iâm in college and an english major. i love to read and write. i prefer fictional characters to humans. i used to be really into art, but thatâs sort of faded away, but iâd love to practice if i had the time. i worry a lot. i listen to an unhealthy amount of 80s music and lately iâve been listening to lots of rock/metal. iâm quite the movie nerd and will geek out over aspects of that. i canât wear plain shirts. theyâve all got something graphic on them that has to do with something i like. it feels wrong to wear plain t-shirts. iâve got a pair of converse that iâve had since middle school and theyâre starting to fall apart. iâd love to write professionally someday, but weâll see where it goes. iâm very opinionated and can get very ranty if needed. i love musicals and going to see theater productions too! i laugh at stupid things. i hope thatâs helpful!
congrats on 500 followers!! you deserve it!! <33
hii!! thank you so much!!đĽ°đ
â¤ď¸youâre the heart â send this + a description of yourself (can be long or short) along with your gender preference, and iâll tell you which character iâd ship you with!
i would ship you withâŚsteve harrington!
what would immediately make him interested in you would be your shyness. he would find it extremely cute, and even a little endearing as well. steve would absolutely love how outspoken and opinionated you are and how quick you are to stand up for what you believe in. youâre both generally very mellow people, but once youâve had enoughâ youâve had enough. he may not understand your geek moments so much, but the good thing is he can just ask dustin about it lol also if you date steve, you also get six kids that heâs pretty much taken in as his ownâ theyâre a package dealđ he would also absolutely adore your interest in art and writing, and he would always encourage you to keep writing because he thinks your stories are the best heâs ever read
âď¸joyceâs phone â send this for me to tell you which character would always call you when they have a problem, and/or which character you would always call for help
i think that without fail, robin would call you for help! sure sheâd ramble on and miss the point of her call entirely, but youâre always sure to keep her on track and address the issue, helping her find an effective solution.
on the other end, i think youâd always call eddie for help. sure he might be a bit erratic and scatter-brained, but he means well and heâs always willing to drop everything to help those he cares about!
join the celebration!
#rogueharringtonâs 500 followers celebration#morganâs stranger things 500 followers party#new interactions: bookshelf-dust
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Hi! It's me the Finn anon again! First! Yes I totally hope it's just a glitch! I don't think you'd be shadowbanned because I can still see all your posts and find your blogs so that's good! Also I'm gonna be honest I'm not completely sure what the "grace Stan threats" mean (I may not be caught up on it) but I can maybe guess and if it mean what I think it means I'm sorry about it! That sucks and some people need to learn to grow up instead of making threats!
Second, oohhhh at least two more parts!!! Ahhh I'm so excited â¤ď¸â¤ď¸ I'm ready to see Michael break his ass trying to make amends! Also because I realised that you said the Shelby family is still unsure if they could trust the reader or not after the lies about her from her "mother" painting her as untrustworthy! And idk if the family knew how the reader was connected to Mike before they heard those lies or if they just thought the woman was b*tching about her random daughter. But like if Michael DID know who the woman was referring to when saying the lies, I want him to grovel even more, like I want this man to almost cry realising how badly he hurt the reader and their adoptive parents!!! BECAUSE IF THIS MAN IS JUST GONNA SIT THERE WHILE SOMEONE BASHES HIS LITTLE SISTER!!!!!! Even if he did want to forget his adopted family he could have at least had the common decency to defend their character, because all they ever did was love him!! He may not want to live that life anymore, but he could at least have grown to balls to say they weren't the worst people in the world and maybe his adoptive sister was good! Oh oh!! And if he did know that the Shelby institute was apart of taking the reader back away from her mama and papa and putting her back with her "mother"!!!! Like if he really did grow up with her all this time and he was her brother and they were so close, surely the reader may have confided in him about her birth mom! Like as kids when she was scared and had nightmares of her old life, surely she'd go and find comfort in her big brother and tell him what happened and he'd promise to protect her! But for him to like possibly hear the reader was sent back to her birth mom because of the Shelby foundation, knowing how bad her birth mom was and how good his foster parents were and then DO NOTHING!!!! Ahhhhh, Michael I can't even begin to word how much trouble he'd be in!! It doesn't matter how pretty of a head he's got, he needs to pull it out of his ass and tone down the ego a bit! (But also like I'm glad he is at least willing to help now, but he's still in deep sh*t)
Ok sorry for the little ranty but there I got distracted đđ But also I totally agree with you too on following teenage Finn or at least like Pre John's death Finn (who was like 20)! I can kinda understand why his character developed the way it did but I also kind hated how after John dies and in the later seasons Finn kinda becomes more of a dick. Like I really do understand how he always felt pressured into being like his brothers and taking on the family business and trying be be like then even though they really just seemed to see him as a normal worker at times (or they actually seemed to just stop carrying about him unless they needed leg work. Like the didn't bother teaching him to read at all or speak Romani or really teach him anything other than business and family fueds) But I really miss the younger and more innocent Finn who even when he wanted to be like his brothers still seemed to have some personality that was other than just trying to get their attention. Like he still seemed to somewhat act his age" and not be so kinda nervous and kinda stiff as much of the time. Plus I really miss how after John died his relationship with his siblings seemed kinda non-existent, and like I always loved how even if they weren't part of the scene we got to see the cute brotherly relationship between Finn and John in the background. Their relationship was so cute and I really feel like if either of the other brothers had died instead of John, Finn would have turned out more like John personality wise. But yeah, I also really like Finn's character pre-it all goes to shit where Tommy basically throws them all (but like Finn and the women minus Polly) in jail! Even though it was right after grace died if feel like other than season one that was when the family was more or less still a family instead of how they ended upđ But yes That is one of my favorite versions of Finn and I can't wait to see how him and the readers relationship progresses!! Ooh I can imagine Mike eventually getting kinda pissy about them being close b/c he's overprotective and a bit possessive about her liking him best even if it is as a brother, and even if the pair is technically only together "for show" but then like one of the pair mentions how he has no right to get mad at the reader because of how he acted!!
Ahhh I'm so excited sorry for the rambeling! Your great and I hope you have a great dayâ¤ď¸â¤ď¸â¤ď¸
That is such a great take on Finn and i too hate what they did with him.
As for the grace stans thing, some grace stans are notoriously anti sex workers (going by the way they talk about Lizzie) and I blocked most of them because of that which apparently pisses them off because they started sending me anons because they also hate the idea of anyone writing her as a bad guy(#ACAB) and when i write her as a woman of her background, upbringing and time period.
One grace stan kept sending me anons trying to play the victim because apparently all my grace one shots are 'disturbing' (only two are and they say so on the tin) because she is written as the bad guy and not with Tommy (i ship her with Jack Nelson)
I blocked her and found out some writers in the fandom who had been mysterious banned had received similar anons, so I assumed she'd be up to her old tricks.
I love seeing you in my inbox and hope i can write part 2 of the finn series later todayđ¤
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man, a lot been happening on the internet lately, talking about content creators and parasocial relationships being a big topic recently
I almost donât wanna post anything about it, cuz Iâm not sure how to avoid any sort of stirring of the pot, but thereâs an angle to this situation that I think a lot of people are confused about, and thatâs âwhere does the fault lie when a person gets hurt in a parasocial relationship?â
And people I guess are thinking this is some sort of case of power dynamicâs, but I think thinking of it in these terms is incorrect to be perfectly honest
does a content creator seem to have a lot of sway over someone whoâs fallen into a parasocial relationship with them? sure it can seem that way
but is that the content creatorâs fault? No, as bad as that sounds to the tumblr crowd
this is NOT the power dynamic between an abusive father and their child, or a skeezy boss and their secretary, or any other real abusive power dynamic where the victim faces some sort of real consequence for not being compliant with the abuserâs wishes
this is the dynamic between a casino and someone with a gambling addiction.
can you argue that the gambling addiction/parasocial relationship wouldnât exist without the casino/creator existing? sure you can
can you argue that itâs within the interests of the casino/content creator to get customers and fans? absolutely
but can you also say that the problem in the situation here is inherent to the person with the actual addiction problem here? someone who gets too invested in the scenario through their own desires and or addiction problems? That many people can go to a casino or be a fan of a person in a perfectly reasonable healthy amount and never get hurt or encounter any issues? Yeah
Even if you dislike the casino/creator and have hard feelings for putting you into a situation where you believed you were gonna win it all, even though the odds of that happening were never in your favor, and rightfully feel youâve been victimized by them, the casino/creator existing and doing there thing I really donât believe is the thing at fault here
I think thereâs something to the idea that people who are vulnerable to addictions like gambling and thinking that theyll win the jackpot of millions against impossible odds is not too dissimilar from a singular fan of some content creator thinking, this is it, Iâm the one theyll fall in love with over everyone else, against all the odds itll be me
and also whatever prevents them from realizing that the consequences of losing would apply to them as well, other people in the casino might lose all their savings, but it wont happen to me. Other people might get lost in the fantasy and then end up being dumped, but it wont be me
I think the brain juice would see these as very similar situations, and this addiction angle I think explains a lot for how people get into parasocial relationships in the first place and why they feel like itâs so hard to get outÂ
but people are still free to believe that casinoâs/content creators are morally corrupt institutions, just from their nature of the fact that their livelihood depends on people and fans crowding to their type of entertainment
At the end of the day, they cannot control what their fans are going to do, they canât read the minds of anyone who chooses to come to their establishment, they canât know at a glance or through conversation whoâs going to get addicted and who isnât, they can only see warnings signs after the fact and then damage control, itâs just a messy reality of life that it happens
There are best practices to prevent these types of things sure but those donât catch every case and inevitably there are going to be people who fall through the cracks anyway
the correct approach here is to mitigate the addiction problem. thatâs the real thing at fault here, not any one person
so to answer the question, where does the fault lie when someone gets hurt in a parasocial relationship?
you might be a victim yes, but not a victim of the casino, as much as it can feel like that, your a victim of an unfortunate affliction
people can be dismissive and yell all they want about alcoholics being drunks, or gamblers having no spine and should just be able to not go to a casino, or people who are overinvested fans should just be able to stop back and not care about a creator so much, but I understand that itâs not that easy
but it still doesnât make it the fault of whatever you got addicted to, It doesnât make it anyoneâs fault, and the casino/creator has less power over an addicted individual than you think, short of banning them entirely, there isnât much they can do from their end to mitigate an individualâs behavior, I think that is something some people need to hear, I hope people donât think Iâm callous or believe that people werenât genuinely hurt by the events that happened to them or something
but the fix to this problem doesnât lie on the casinoâs/creatorâs end, it lies in mitigating the addictive disorder in the individualâs in particularâs end
this is purely speaking from someone who runs a blog and has thoughts for a fandom that once upon a time a lot of people seem really invested in, (not so much nowadays lol)Â
I cannot control anyone of you, I donât know any one of you, no matter how much I might try or get close or how close any person out there gets to me, I still canât predict when I might encounter someone who seems overly starstruck, and in no way do I have the ability to navigate those kinds of relationships properly. I simply do not have that sort of therapeutic training and I think itâs a little bit unreasonable for people to expect that from me, despite how charismatic or not I seem like
I just have indeed had instances where another person got really overinvested in âDahni Witch of Lightâ and wanted to be in my inner circle of socialness and friends and might have been hurt when I declined that, but at the same time, I canât do anything about that (thankfully Iâm not any sort of real popular LOL and itâs only really happened like once or twice, that I know of, since they made their feelings clear to me in private, but thatâs still one or two people that might have gotten hurt)
So what does this all have to do with stuff?
Iâve read all the anecdotes about both Dan Avidan and Vinny Vinesauce, read all the docs, see all these peopleâs point of view, and yeah it sucks that they got hurt by the circumstances, but all that stuff meant to paint these people in a bad light? did more to me to paint them in a really good light
I saw nothing but people making sure they had the comfort and consent of everything they were involved in, doing best practices when it comes to relationships, talking about their feelings, about their expectations and also doing what they can to protect themselves and their privacy
again the worst things I saw about either of them, is danny building up the fantasy of being with a rockstar a bit too much, egging on any potential parasocial relationship issues that might have already existed, and vinny giving someone HPV (which, is debunked in of itself because thatâs not how HPV works in men, even outside of vinny thatâs just not how it works.)
the rest of all the stuff I saw esp in the vinny doc, was people not even accusing vinny of saying or doing anything wrong either, but miles and miles of âI assumed he was thinking xâ or âI assumed he was feeling yâ and no attempts to communicate with him about any issues they had with him, because they felt awkward doing so, and instead let it fester inside them until they got hurt by it
this is not sexual assault, their mild discomfort about stuff never even happened over sexual topics, just bland things like him over-venting to them sometimes or having lowkey mental issues like being paranoid a little, this is not even being intentionally hurt by someone, this is being bad at communicating with your partner and letting yourself endure a relationship you werenât actually happy with, because you didnât want to get dumped by the person you were invested in
and if you feel like you canât honestly communicate with your partner, not because of anything they did to you, but because of your own internal conflict over how famous he is, and feeling like youâre forced to endure things you arenât vibing with in a personal relationship
(mind you, I mean the things they said they endured in the doc which was, they didnât like when vinny would get ranty about his friends or previous sexual encounters he had that went bad or they got weirded out because they thought he was too paranoid about stuff when they were together....which... okay so like tell him you donât want to hear about that stuff? communicate your problems to your partner? end of story? you never even attempted that, you never even gave examples of things you thought he would do to you other than dump you if you spoke up...... which, Iâm sorry, but thatâs not some sort of consequence a victim faces from their abuser.... so you canât even say he would have had a bad reaction, especially when you give examples of him doing exactly the opposite, apologizing for things that made other people uncomfortable WHEN theyve actually communicated to him that they were uncomfortable with it)
 -Those are signs that you are too overinvested and too parasocially invested with a person to have an honest relationship with them
like, heck these things arenât even unique to partnerships, you should be able to communicate when anyone around you is making you uncomfortable, even friends, but if you canât and the only reason you canât is because of a parasocial investment in that person, thatâs not healthy on your end
Danny sure seems to have been a little bit at fault for building up the fantasy of catching feelings for a famous dude when he intended one night stands, is that the best way to have navigated the situation? No probably not, but to a person who doesnât have a parasocial relationship with him, this behavior would just be disappointing when the fantasy fizzled out, itâs not inherently harmful
after that point, if after the fact a person who had any sort of interaction with them felt hurt by the experience, there honestly is not much more a content creator could have done to mitigate that, in fact Vinesauce I think seems at least more aware of the parasocial thing and tried more strongly to vet the people he was with to not be those kind of people, but again people arenât mind readers and nothing will ever be foolproof like that, and I guess some people even took him trying to vet that kind of behavior as hurtful in and of itself, (they took him venting about previous parasocial relationships he had and how paranoid and upsetting they were to him, and took it as some sort of threat against them personally, like they were trying to mindgame what exactly he was telling them, assuming he was saying something else that he wasnât, which, is assumptions that live entirely in their own minds) but Iâm just sitting here like, what else could they have done?
I get that people who had sexual relationships with these people could come away feeling really awful about it, feeling manipulated or duped in some way, but what else could have been done to prevent that from happening other than the people in question just, never interacting with anyone? Which is not a realistic solution, and doesnât fix the problem of the victim in question moving on and getting starstruck by someone else and having it happen it all over again
If these people want to make friends, want to make relationships with anyone, want to have casual sex, want to have any sort of human connection, there unfortunately gonna have to sort the people they encounter into two different groups, people who have parasocial relationships with them and people who donât, (and this is NOT people are fans of them and people who are not, you can be a fan and not get caught into the parasocial thing) and it is impossible to get this correct in every single individual social experience that theyre gonna have with every single individual human being, regardless if itâs a sexual relationship or not
in conclusion, I really do hope the people who were hurt by all this can truly heal and move on eventually from this, in no way am I trying to lessen their experiences, but I really donât think other people deserved to be hung from the gallows over this, itâs no one personâs fault, neither the fanâs or the content creatorâs, itâs just a messy interpersonal situation
I believe the correct thing to do is spread awareness about the warnings signs that you might be falling into a parasocial relationship, more effort needs to be put into what this looks like, what it feels like, how to avoid it, how to mitigate it, and how to regulate the very real feelings of love and affection someone might have for a person they see all the time in media but donât have a real connection with, with the understanding of yeah, if you really canât enter a casino without losing your life savings, a very real conversation needs to be had if you should even be entering these casinoâs/watching their content at all
#my main conflict over this post is is this actually helpful at all or is this just hurting stirring things up more#I don't believe my position is an unreasonable one to have#and i do believe there is something to be gained from reading it#but i don't want to hurt anyone either
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hohohoho backer crarrel: thanksgiving week edition has been a wild ride
mega long ranty semi-coherent post so sorry abt that
ever since i had to cover for my covid-having shift lead, my manager's been scheduling me more closing shifts. not so much a "fuck managers" part but it's incredibly irritating since every time it's been me an the newest part of our team. so not only do i have to learn the closing ropes all on my own, i also have to borderline train a new person since she doesn't! do! anything!! unless you tell her to. she's super quiet and introverted, which i get! bc everyone has to start somewhere! but i'm not even 100% sure why she was hired bc we have to be outgoing and peppy and proactive. doesn't exactly line up with making the closer do all of your work on top of all her own stuff.Â
i had to work thanksgiving night. that night, we had over 30 names on the restaurant's wait list at multiple points bc people still don't understand the concept of a pandemic. our to-go wall was also completely full on top of all the thanksgiving family meals we were sending out. so instead of just coping with the wait that they signed up for when they ordered food or put their name on the wait (where they tell you how long your wait will be!!) they complain to me!! just bc i wear an apron!!
that same night, there was a woman picking up her food. she was very upset bc she had to wait đ˛ for her food đ˛đ˛ while i was pulling up her order. grumbling, "this is the worst restaurant experience i've ever had," the whole nine yards. then complained she didn't get enough turkey gravy. i told her i could have someone bring her some (bc the to-go people are supposed to do that, retail's typically not supposed to leave the retail part) so she'd have to wait a few seconds. so she called a manager, who offered her a pie. she asked if we had any other pies bc the FIRST ONE SHE SAW was broken (it wasn't, i looked after she left) to which i told her she'd have to wait a few mins for another one to be brought up from the kitchen. otherwise she was free to pick any!!!! other!!!!!! pie!!!!!!!! on the pie stand. got a million times more huffy and just decided to get one off of the stand.Â
there was another guy that same night who also had a to go order. i told him to get in line bc i wasn't about to stop in the middle of one transaction to get this guy's order pulled up. i get done with that transaction but some other guy with ornaments comes and sets his stuff down on the counter before i can wave the guy with a to go order over. instead of getting mad at the guy with the ornaments, the guy gets mad at me for not prioritizing him. starts yelling at me, pointing figures, again! the whole nine yards! luckily my manager was at the other end of the cash stand and made attempts to calm him down with stuff like "i can help you down here," "i'll take care of her [me]." he didn't mention anything about any sort of discipline, so i think i'm good? first though, he had begged him to stop yelling at me but the guy didn't enjoy being told to "please stop," bc he told my manager to talk to him like a man. i mean, my manager's a little effeminate, but if you perceive "please stop" from him to be less than a man, that's not our issue. thank you for yelling at a 17-year-old retail worker on thanksgiving night though! i hope that made you feel manly :)))
black friday rolls around and since we're surrounded by tourist attractions, hotels, and a mall, we ofc got a lot of traffic again. there was a couple who were complaining that another chain breakfast spot wouldn't let them in bc they weren't wearing masks. the guy said that he was so mad that he had to pull off to the side of the road bc he was so pressed over the fact that he had to wear a mask. as someone whose family member DIED OF CORONAVIRUS, i didn't take too kindly to their """oppression""" and did my little squinty smiley eyes so i looked somewhat polite. as the crarrel's resident brown queer girl, i sure WISH that was the level of oppression i faced.Â
one good thing: my manager (the one who got between me and the arguing customer) offered me and the other cashier iced lattes :))) it was sugary and the coffee was burnt but tbh it was exactly what i needed and the gesture was incredibly kind :'))))))Â
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Ok, so a friend of mine wanted to catch up with the marvel movies... I very reluctant agree and we made a thing out of it.
Over the last three months, every weekend, we would sit together (via discord) and watch as many movies possible.
To explain a bit more about me (because it's important) I am a huge comic buff like huge, huge. I read a shit ton of comics from DC to Marvel to Manga (I read everything available of One Piece in less than two days last year because fell behind and wanted to start from the beginn).
Our movie nights would conspire like this, I played the movie over my Disney+ account and mute myself until she had a question about the characters or I had interesting little tidbits/"nerd knowledge" (how she affectionately calls it) for them. Nothing big enough to really taint the picture but enough to give a bit more substance/to finally animate her to read the god dammed comics!
We made it so because she wanted to form her own opinion on the movies. We most of the time discussed them afterwards, like how they diverged from the source material etc. (By the way, she hates MCU Wanda something I am very proud of)
So, we got to the finish line, Endgame, and as I saw this movie again something made me very very angry. Don't get me wrong, after the first watch and after I got the adrenaline out of my system I wasn't a big fan of the movie but I didn't hate it (except for it's ending fuck that) but now? Now after I saw with my friend and really thought about it for explanatory reasons I really fucking hate it. The howl movie from finished to start. I mean I know the Russo's didn't really care or understand most characters (Clint, Wanda, Tony etc.) but I think the most captivating of this willful misunderstanding is encapsulated in Bruce!
Like they took all the tension out of his character in on fucking move, not even thinking about it... Bruce's howl spille is about unhealthy coping mechanism and mental illness and how it is unhealthy to undermined your own feelings because they will manifest in something big and angry and dangerous, something that I - as someone who was taught shit like that - struggle very much with.
Him just simply... doing what he did? Him just "combining" the "best" traits from both worlds because The Hulk didn't came out anymore just... it just undermines everything! And it's just played for laughter... like I get it, they did the same shit to Thor but the thing is Bruce is very much a lot more personal to me.
Because I am someone who berries their feelings until something big and angry comes out of it and that's something I will deal, probably, my howl life with... it, funny enough, makes me really angry! I hate it... just like I hate these movies for it...
I dunno where to go with that, I just randomly thought about that right now and wanted to share. It is very ranty and I deal with dyslexia and it's late so probably not my best work... hope's still readable... have a nice [place here the current time of day]!!! ^^;
there was so much about what they chose to do in Endgame that upset so many of us on so many different levels because of the absolute disrespect done to the character arcs that weâd been living with for a decade.
So Iâm with you on the absolutely hating the shit. Just, Endgame was such a huge fucking blow that I had to take a huge step back from the MCU as a whole.
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