#hope i made them look ok..... lalala

[possuminnit]

@sunlitmcgee big fan of them

[electricvinyls]

BATES LOREE!! read if you want!! It's a lot but this character is probably a very healthy outlet for me and i really do care about him

STUFF UNDER CUT!

PUBERT 'BATES' 🩻 | he/it | Transgender fag, passes as cishet| 39 y/o | Autism + BPD

Childhood stuff uhm i forgot to add. He grew up lower middle class, his house was very small, rural farmhouse almost. He was undiagnosed with autism for a long time, it was too expensive for his family. But they knew something was up, he was seemingly the "outcasted" kid. Weird and antisocial. He COULD fit in, he was good at almost copying the way other kids act, but his mom often urged him to just be himself. He never had a girlhood, he was always rugged and wasn't nurtured to lean any which way (gender wise). He was raised catholic an continues to have that faith. His father was a bit more lost in his faith, but his views were harmful. He looked down on his wife, having the traditional views. They would fight a lot, and it didn't bother Bates until it got physical. His father would hit and yell and break things. Bates says it didn't effect him, he went to therapy for a while in his teenage years, but he grew such a deep rooted disgust and hatred for his father after that. He almost felt like he needed to harm his father. It didn't help that his mother watched so much true crime, and documentaries.

He had started killing and dissecting small animals, his mom wasn't too fussed, if anything she just nurtured him further, hoping that she could love anything wrong out of him.

His most vivid childhood memory was a documentary in which they said "most serial killers start with small animals" and he felt this nasty weight. He burrowed into his mom's arms and sobbed "I don't want to be a serial killer"

All she could do was hold him and kiss his head "don't you worry baby, that won't happen"

THROES UP I'M SO UOSET I LOVE HIM SO BAD

he does go on medication for his BPD for a few years when he was like 17. He chose to stop taking them so he could learn to control his emotions more tho.. on his own..

Ok LORE STUFF later on lalala ↓

Bates works as a Doctor, occasionally dabbled in scientific work when his specialties are needed (surgery stuff).

He Is autistic so he's incredibly blunt and almost rude off the job. As a stark contrast, when he's ON the job he's incredibly charismatic. He's kind and so well put together, people can go on about how much they enjoy Bates as a doctor.

Medical work and anatomy is Bates special interest, and his job satiated his need for all of that for a long time. When he got into his mid 30s, it definitely got worse though.

He had made a mistake when he was treating a patient. He gave them a sedative, a very strong one. Normally he's very on top of what vials have what, but this? This was bad. He messed up BAD.

Instead of doing the right thing, and telling someone immediately, he was incredibly conflicted. Swallowing hard and sweating through his clothes, because he could hurt this guy. This patient of his was always a little rude, and well he had very...strange views. He was woozy and it wouldn't hurt?

He dissected that fucker right there and them, with nasty dull shit he scrounged out of old cabinets and drawers.

Since then he had this affinity and almost hunger for the blood and guts and anatomy.

Eventually he started resorting to working late nights, charming his way with the receptionist ladies that "oh that patient never came to my office? I'm not sure what happened" only to drag a poor jackasses body home to dissect and ruin.

His basement was disgusting, gross and piled with organs and very specific body parts. He only kept the parts he wanted to study, until he was done then he disposed through very tough means. His preferred method was acid and then just trashing everything else with his normal garbage. These dickheads didn't deserve their own trashbags, just the same old double bags he used for paper and food and whatever shit.

He only got SLIGHTLY found out when he tried to pounce at a man much stronger than him, he made a mistake in how much sedative to give. He was now getting sued for medical negligence (a nice way to put it). He needed a good lawyer, his charm and how well put together he seemed would only get him so far. So he finds caine. Caine Somsri. A hard worker, strong stomached so he wasn't bothered by Bates' charges, hell he didn't even mind that outside of his office? Bates was a bitch. They would work together to get past this small hurdle in Bates' career, small ? Not so much. It kept building up. Loss of files, people claiming malpractice towards them, bates even being accused of nearly killing a man with METH. Bates seemed appalled, disgusted, that his need to help people and take care of his patients was being misconstrued. Mistakes happen, while yes medical mistakes can be incredibly dangerous, no one has died, been TRULY harmed, he had done nothing. And Caine was going to fight TOOTH and NAIL to for Bates to be proven innocent.

They get close, very close, over the years that this case takes. Caine becomes very fond of bates, his bluntness, deadpan expression and monotone voice. Unfortunately, Bates gets ahead of himself. And providing sedatives for Caine has him realising. He can take advantage of this. He can have caine. Past the skin, past his bones, he can have caine wholly. From the inside out.

[fandom-hoarder]

I watched the new ep yesterday, but didn't have time to post my liveblog. Here's my lightly edited dm comments lol:

Luna and Cassie are so cute, please don't break my heart lol

Lmao everybody expecting Cordi to stay home and he just walks in 🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃 Dude, your ct scan is fine but YOU def are not

I missed the start of the boyle is dead convo, tried to skip back 10 seconds -- THERE'S A BUTTON FOR THIS -- and now it's just loading endlessly 🙃

Commercials 🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃

Lol ok, cordell's "lalala I'm here and I'm fine why are you looking at me weird😃😃😃" KILLED me

Like the class clown coming into class the next day when they KNOW they were suspended yesterday

HIT ME WITH COMMERCIALS AGAIN WTF

Witt omg wtf

Omfg

Omfg so he wasn't lying that they were after him lololol

Calling witt nimwit made me giggle lmfao

That "like father like daughter" line coming back as cordi looks at this board

Cordi your brain needs a break. You need some perspective

Trey WHY ARE YOU GOING EASY ABOUT THIS? YOU BELIEVE HIM ABOUT A JOG???

He's not gonna jog lol

He's gonna back out with liam lol

HAHHH CALLED IT

Going through the motions of joviality to try to get people off his obsessive trail

THE LETTERS

Augie overhearing!!

Hahhh Stella, you're not gonna tell him why you don't want to be in your dorm rn? 🙃🙃🙃

SHE IS HER FATHER'S CHILD

Ha Augie just said "starting to sound like dad"

Wow, lying about witt altogether, ok

GIRL

Augie, yes, god i hope this works

Lmfaooo cassie being mildly squicked about "boyfriend"

I love the perez siblings

Stella you are so not slick

So liam didn't take the letters either...

I almost had a heart attack thinking he meant he got rid of them jfc

Lmao this meet the brother thing is giving me secondhand embarrassment

Augie nice lol. You, however, ARE slick

WALKER!!

It's a birdwatcher!!!

Godddddd don't be mad at me🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

I'm not mad (just disappointed)

Omfg BREAK MY HEART it was an EMILY PHOTO

"Get help" for real 🥺😭

WILL THIS WAKE HIM UP OR DOES HE NEED TO HIT BOTTOM👀

Stella. WHAT are you doinggggg

IS THIS THE STRIP CLUB FROM HIS OPENING SCENE

STELLA knowing his stripper name lmfao

The way she's so uncareful about parking there and touching things and then as soon as i said that those guys come in

DO THEY WANT THEM TO FIND THE NECKLACE OR NOT, MY GOD

Stella... GODD that wasn't even what he needs to tell you. You really are just like your father, interrupting people with assumptuons and derailing IMPORTANT INFO

Stella you are so fucking stupid rn lmao

WHY IS THE NECKLACE SO IMPORTANT THOUGH. WHY IS NO ONE WONDERING

What is JOANNA'S connection to it. Please. Somebody.

Omg LUNA TRANSFERRED

Omg parallel scene with cordi and stella

Girl, they renovated the side step. Why would anything be in the cushions

"You told me to take the day and i did" YOU DID NOT LOLOL

Dude, you can't BE good at being a ranger if your head is so far in it you can't see

ARE YOU FUCKING. SERIOUS RIGHT NOW LOLOLOL HE PUT IT IN THE PIG'S HEAD

Aaah shit that letter was fast

I'll have to pause that again later

I wonder if that early scene about how heavy denise was, was actually groundwork for a future hoyt stash, or if that was a happy accident

I'm like, how much worse is this gonna get for Stella and Cordi…

The fact she's not keeping augie in the loop and no one fucking knows where she is or what she's doing

Also what fucking time of night is it, the side step is empty?

It's so... dean knocking sam out before going after metatron

[an-aura-about-you]

My notes from RQG 150-154

Because I had a very good birthday yesterday and that's made my brain go brrrrrrrrr today. So I'mma just dump it all here and let y'all read it.

150

-Cave full of sadness and misery -Trauma watch -Finally get some rest!!!! -Omg kobold pile -Open eyed sleep, oof. My eyes are dry thinking about it. -Footsteps! -I don't care if we get attacked now that we've rested!! -Skraak! My buddy!! -Lad and/or bloke -Cel fits a filibuster in their turn -Screaming-panicked Japanese-Screaming -Skraak is ready to do a murder!! -Frankly we are all ready to do a murder but let's think this through. -Combo comprehend languages and detect thoughts -I mean it's true: dude ain't gonna walk again -I have been in the only one on shift situation. -excuse me "just kobolds"? Ohhhhhhhh I wanna go in there and kill him myself -Hah! We were supposed to get ambushed -"They'll bring this place down on us-" GOOD! -Have fun Skraak! *waves bye* -Freedom Pyramid Scheme -Man I love Skraak -Awwww Hamid giving Skraak the dagger! -Skraak is tough but fair -Admin is zilch -Processing? Huh. -Ahhh kobold processing. Disgusting.

151

-Dolphin!! -Chill Environment Neutral Dude -Unenthuzed with their work. So like me??? -Lop some dude's heads off! -Ok, so I kinda hope I'D notice if a coworker got decapitated -Ce,l troubleshoot on the fly! -Dang, this is where we get a crit? -I mean can Cel recognize giblets? -Fly score -Hamid zoom -We don't give a rat's bottom! -Poor Cel -Aaaa glass tunnel -Chonky party -Running down the tunnel lalala -Oooo giant gangly Cel!! -Fight inna bathysphere? -Accurate maths my beloved! -Initiative roll: The dice know. -Mooks! -Effin' Carter! -And Barnes is here! Wild. -Ohhhh critfail -Good bombs! -*five of them on Magic Missile* Pew pew pew pew pew! -Barnes and Carter do nothing useful -Azu getting in dudes' grills -Fatally hopeful -Barnes why are you hot????? -The realization that Barnes and Carter are just here to be eyecandy

152

-Hoo boy real life -Luxury bathysphere -Introductions! -Oh boy quarantine time -Carter is pretty awful but I love it -We can't have easy things -Mine shaft -Poor Azu. Get her a chiropractor. -Oh hey the sun!! -Everything's washed up -Zolf and Cel are fun -Pfffff Azu just face down on the ground by Hamid -Topaz!!! -Yeeeeees the horse film but Azu and Topaz!! -I guess the good news is we'll have time to rest. -"Are you a zombie?" Yep, that is definitely The Sibling Conversation -omg the twin stuff paying off! -Ohhhhh man the updates -I understand where Zolf is coming from regarding not being able to contact others but still ouch -Pffff Azu riding between Zolf and Hamid -"You're not good at talking for someone who says we need to talk." Azu effing evicerated him!! -Cult of Aphrodite is Doctors Without Borders! -All the heart to hearts!! -And we are ALL saddlesore!! -At least we get baths

153

-Cel is an icon -Time for a games tournament! Take Hamid for all he's worth! -TRUTH OR DARE!!!!! -Yeeees Hamid snuggle up with Azu 💗 -I think Zolf makes a good point about not working well together but I don't think it means anything against Hamid. Like, it's not really anyone's fault, just what happens when you're still trying to learn how to work with others. -This is good. Love this discussion between Zolf and Hamid. -"Have you done the thing when you invent a problem for him to solve?" -"Not a good choice but the right one." I feel that. -"We call that a camel in the pants." And Bryn's gone. -Look, Sasha defies descriptions -Wilde we brought you a brain!!! -"How do you remove your own brain?" Just need a little pepper and sneeze that puppy out. -Wilde goes in. "The brain's contaminated!" Wilde goes out. -Mildly spiked -Ahhhhh hive mind -We gon' drank!!! -Jeff Goldblum!! -*stares dreamy eyed at Azu about her dream from Aphrodite* -Ahhhh. America. Fun. -Oh Cel. That's hard. "Not a town anymore." -Ahhhhhhh money versus bartering -"I killed my brother." Excuse me what Zolf?! -Ok, I like this when accidents happen that cause death and it SHAPES the character. This explains so freakin' much about Zolf. -Zolf's job history feels like mine. -I feel like everyone is focusing on something Zolf has already found a place for. -Heck yeah Cel in the party for good!! -WE NEVER GOT GRIZZOP'S BACKSTORY

154

-omg There Was Only One Corridor -Conspiracy board!!! -ok the thing that makes me laugh about this is Hamid being the shortest. He's gonna need some help. -Ooo, Cel can see the seed! -Frankenstein! I mean, it makes sense that it'd come up. -Blue vein stuff. Neat! -Wait so I get that the krakens are messing with the weather but does that include not-sea-based weather like the sandstorms? -Y'know, ever since I got the metal plate in my leg, I've said I was a cyborg. The deal is my computer's organic is all. -Ah, no sense of embarrassment. That gross dad stuff Zolf pulled makes sense now. -OOF. Yeah, I understood the warnings before, but even knowing that all of this warrants at least a junior yikes. Maybe it's because so many people are taking it so seriously when the area I live in acts like everything is over? -Azu needs to work out! (honestly same, girl. I miss going to the gym.) -"Maybe I send the stone to another plane" -No recursions!!! -Pfff Azu stepping on Carter's hand. -Ohhhhhh geez Carter! I know you wanna get out there but we're still in quarantine! Thank you for smacking him, Azu! -Oh heck what is going on in the inn? -Oh dear Wilde!!! -Ooo Fear! Cool spell!! -Sounds to me like Wilde messed up some people. -I'm a little surprised that the party's expectation that Wilde's the one in trouble. I mean, yeah, it's certainly possible, but it sounds like it really could have gone either way.

[leviheichou23]

Princess Principal 10/19 Live Report!!

Just got back!!!!!!! Here is the recording! 1hr 17min is where the Kajiura portion starts ^^ I will try to go to the one tomorrow as well! (I believe tomorrow is the day they're filming)

Warning, I'm a diehard keiko stan so this is gonna be just mostly focused on her xD

But for the report it was really really amazing and for me just so worth it to see Keiko in person finally after literally like 8 years , it felt soooooooo unreal. She's so gorgeous and stunning in person, i love her so much <3 <3 They were all wearing the YK15 dresses, but Keiko had her hair up in a ponytail this time!

For the void chords section, I don't have much to say as I didn't really recognize any of the songs except for the OP and ED (I didn't realize there was a character songs album lmao) but the singer was really good! Very jazzy haha

The crowd seemed to be way more into the Void Chords section though, they had these green lightsticks and everything that they only used during it, and they were only standing up during the Void Chords portion too, during the whole Kajiura section everyone was just sitting quietly it was kinda odd lol.

But for Kajiura:

shadows and fog- Joelle and Yuriko mained the beginning, then all 4 joined in and UGHHH it was so so so good. Just hearing Keiko's lower harmony's live like that was so unreal I couldn't believe it the sound literally took over the whole venue. I've always loved this track a lot too

then the MC, Kajiura talked a lot, its so cute how whenever Kajiura talks in MC's Keiko always stares at her so attentively and nods and laughs, it was really cute ;; The scream from the audience when they introduced Keiko lmao (I was so tempted to scream Keiko but i didn't want to embarrass myself haha) Keiko only said 1 line during the whole thing, I really wanted to hear her talk more, I miss that a lot about Kalafina lives :(

espionage trap- Only Joelle and Yuriko, not much to say here but they both sounded pretty good! Yuriko being Yuriko lol

then a bunch of instrumental songs, i dont reallly have much to say on those but i like that new female violinist they have, and the FBM all sounded really good live (as always). Kinda weird they didn't have a cello player tho (or just more strings in general, unless I missed something) when a lot of the tracks were very cello centric. I think they chose a pretty decent selection of tracks overall though

Then another MC and more instrumental tracks, then another MC aaaand the absolute highlight of the live for me:

もひとつまわしてー I was PRAYING they would do this and that Keiko would lead and SHE DID!!!! This was the only song Keiko got a real solo in but it was soooo amazing, her voice fit the song so well and she looked so happy and cute performing it too!! <3 This song has always reminded me of a lighter Marchen, honestly just hearing this live made the whole experience worth it, I was sooo happy :D The recording doesn't do it justice just hearing her voice take up the whole venue was so amazing her voice really is absolutely a one of a kind;; Hearing this made me really sad and nostalgic for all the kalafina lives i missed out on over the years though :( Kaori seemed to be having some mic troubles or something, she kept fiddling with it throughout.

My one real complaint with the concert in general is that I barely saw Keiko's face throughout the whole thing bc there were so little closeup shots of her (the screen mostly showed stuff from the anime arghh) and I was too far away to see her face that clearly :( Hopefully that might be different tomorrow if they have more proper recording stuff but we'll see. The few closeup shots we did get though were great, she's literally so ungodly pretty in person :((

then battle of the shadows- keiko and kaori came in from the right and yuriko and joelle from the left, they were all clapping and being cute and smiley so everyone clapped along too lol. This song is kinda like a better version of shadows and fog imo, and then joelles part !!! i broke out in chills

and then moonlight melody!!- I've always loved this song, it was so great finally being able to hear keikos countermelodys so clearly in person, ive always struggled to hear them clearly in the bootlegged recordings and stuff haha. Joelles verse is always <3 <3 And then the extended lalala's was so cuuuute, the spotlight was on the audience and they were encouraging everyone to sing along and everything;;

I can't remember during which song exactly (it might've been this one), but Keiko and Kaori and Keiko and Yuriko were being super flirty and cute during the whole concert, Keiko had her arms around Yurikos back at one point and was like serenading her xD, and then at another point Kaori started playing with Keiko's ponytail, they were all holding hands at some other point too, it all blended together for me lol i was really in a daze.  And then when the concert was over, Keiko and Yuriko walked out together while hugging each others backs it was so cute :(

And then the last song, shadows and fog again but this time they brought in the void chords vocalist too (shes the one doing the kajiurago in the beginning and all the adlibs). The girls were a lot more involved and cute this time though, they kept bouncing around the stage hugging and being cute, and then during all the FBM solos Keiko and Yuriko were like running around the stage to each member and like jamming out with them it was so hskgsfkgjhjg

and sorry the recording cuts off at the end, that was when I stopped to take a picture, the live pretty much ended right then anyways xD

no encore unfortunately :(

overall it was a really great experience and honestly just worth it for me finally getting to see keiko xD i was kinda bummed she was in so few songs, and only truly had a real solo in 1, but I was expecting that going in. She just has such an infectious transfixing aura whenever she performs, I honestly only had my eyes on her the whole time so I probably missed a lot of other stuff xD

It just made me miss Kalafina and seeing her both regularly, and as like the focus of the concert a lot (especially since I never got to see a kalafina live ever...:/), I really really realllly hope Kajiura is working on some sort of other project for her soon because she has such an infectious love and joy for performing thats so obvious and i really have to wonder if shes ok with performing so seldomly (basically whenever YK feels like having lives xD) when she was probably so used to kalafina's super constant touring schedule. but oh well :( im here until next August so ill probably get more chances to see her, hopefully a full proper YK live sometime next summer!

[nevergiveupneverrun]

Bodyguard - Chapter Twenty-two “More than words” Part Two

Hello, I hope you’re all doing great. Here is chapter twenty-two of my story Bodyguard. I’m sorry by advance for the mistakes… English isn’t my first language and I do my best. Here is the link of the previous chapter: Click Here.

I hope you will enjoy this chapter :) 💛

- Do you have the score of the song? Is that the one you have there? She nods while looking at me, a little lost in front of my question. - What song is it? - I was asked to do a cover on a love song. And I… I choose to cover « More than words » by Extreme. Coincidence? The situation is in any case confusing. This song I’d heard it hundreds of time, maybe even more. It was a song he sang regularly, charmed from the release of the title. One of the pieces he taught me to play… I was a little disconcerted to find that among the thousands of possible song, she had stopped on this one… a song that reminded me of memories and specific moments. But I couldn’t let myself be overwhelmed by the weight of the past when Amelia was in doubt. I move towards the piano and I feel the fixed weight of her eyes on me. I grabbed the guitar and sat on the stool in front of the piano, placing myself from the back of the instrument to face Amelia. I find two big wide blue eyes scrutinize me. I put the guitar on my lap and held out a hand to claim the score. She gives it to me after a few moments, without looking away from me… reacting like a robot, facing me, in a purely automatic gesture. I take a look at the sequence of notes that appears to me, recognizing familiar chords… I put the sheet of paper on the ground after going through it and put the guitar firmly on my lap, one hand on the neck and the second grazing the strings. - You… you know how to play? I don’t answer her question. I just rub my hands against each other, then take the position of the first chord. And I start without waiting for the intro of the piece.

The first notes resound in the room and the melody wins me as every time I heard… pr played this song. My fingers slide on the strings, the chords come naturally without me having to look at the score, as if this music was still anchored in me, in a very specific place in my memory. After a few seconds, I look up at Amelia. I discover her amazed before me, mouth slightly ajar. Then very quickly, finding my eyes, I guess a slight smile settle on her lips. At the end of the intro, I make a slight nod and she sings immediately, mixing her voice with the notes that escaped from the guitar, the rhythm of my finger.

Saying I love you Is not the words that I want to hear from you It’s not that I want you Not to say But if you only knew

I suddenly realize that my feet are beating time and that my head moves to the rhythm of chords, rocked by Amelia’s voice… her softness added a particular dimension to the song that transformed it almost.

How easy it would be to show me how you feel More than words is all you have to do to make it real Then you wouldn’t have to say That you love me Cause I’d already know What would you do if my heart was torn in two More than words To show you feel That you love for me is real What would you say If I took those words away Then you couldn’t make things new Just by saying I love you

I stay focused on Amelia’s image. I had completely forgotten the score and I realize that I didn’t need to follow it, I remembered the melody perfectly… by heart. Amelia was in front of me, eyes closed: she seemed to be inhabited by music… she was beautiful and I felt a strange feeling, as a particular connection that was established between us at this moment… and made me forget everything else.

More than Words

Another voice less intent then rises in the room. And it takes me several seconds to realize that this voice is none other than mine, while I accompany her at this moment of the song. Amelia opens her eyes instantly and smiles at me, with a slight nod as if she encourages me…

Now that I’ve tried to talk to you and make you understand All you have to do is close your eyes

I hum slightly on each end of the sentence as the original two-part version. Like the covers, I’ve done in the past when I mixed my voice with my dad’s. The song, however, seemed different to me, with the crystalline voice of Amelia making the words maybe even stronger.

And just reach out your hands And touch me Pull me close

I capture Amelia’s look at this moment of the piece where I have to pinch the strings, in perfect synchronization with her words.

Don’t ever let me go

She plunges her eyes into mine, and I hold on to her voice to place the chord at the right time, succeeding perfectly this part of the song.

More than words Is all I’ve ever needed you to show Then you wouldn’t have to say That you love me Cause I’d already know

Amelia stares at me for a few seconds and I understand what she asks me without having to communicate. I join my voice very slightly to hers… pressing notes a little longer when she has to follow the lyrics.

What would you do if my heart was torn in two More than words To show you feel That you love for me is real What would you say If I took those words away Then you couldn’t make things new

Just by saying I love you

These last three words, I can only whisper them by looking at her… troubled by the eyes she returns to me at this moment. By these words that touch me and remind me of moments of complicity and tenderness too few of my past.

Lalala-Lalala More than words Lalala-Lalala More than words

I finish the song in the manner of my father, by a series of chords rising in the treble then down again in more serious tone… supporting the last note to lave Amelia last three words a cappella.

More than words

I repeat the melody while Amelia holds us the final notes and I conclude the piece of an ultimate chord slipped on the strings.

Silence resumes suddenly in the room. Silence reconnects me to reality and disintegrates this bubble where I had taken refuge with Amelia for the last four minutes.

I keep my eyes lowered on the guitar, to get a grip on myself. - It was beautiful… you play divinely well… this song is not easy, I even know that Andrew was not happy when I told him I had chosen this song… but you, you have interpreted it perfectly… without any hesitation… you…. I look up: her eyes sparkle looking at me as if she saw me for the first time… as if she saw me in a new light suddenly… - You are incredible… Three words, a look and a heart that beats a little stronger in my chest. I should have looked away, but I can not be fascinated by her reaction and captivated by this spark in her eyes that I can not interpret. - Behind the bodyguard, an exceptional guitarist… I think you play this piece as nicely as Nuno Bettencourt… - Don’t overdo it. - No, really… you…you hid your musician talent… - It’s another part of my life… I have not played for a long time… - You should not leave this talent untapped, you’re so good, it’s a waste… - Amelia… - Richard should hear you… you really are… - Amelia… please… I played to help you out tonight, but don’t think it will be a habit… it’s all behind me… I had responded rather firmly, overwhelmed by the progress of her thought. I was touched by her eulogistic opinion but the guitar remained an almost forbidden object for me: the weight of the past, the memory of events that had marked me forever. - Excuse me, I’m surprised… and impressed… I appreciate in any case that you help me to prepare this pice although it weighs you visibly. - I can make an exception for an evening… - Thank you… you want to try again once? You can refuse, I don’t want to make you feel uncomfortable… but there are two, three parts I’d like to sing along that could be improved. - Ok… I take the guitar in hand and after exchanging a new look with Amelia, I re-start the melody. True to herself, a single review of the song will not suffice: it’s in at the end, a dozen times that I will play the piece, surprising me to find a certain pleasure to renew this link with the music that I had put in parentheses so many years.

I finish with the last chord, Amelia in front of me, a sheet in her hand with the lyrics where she had scribbled many indications over the tests. - Thank you so much, Owen… I am much more confident… I’ll have to give some directions to Andrew to accompany me exactly as you… I like a lot of the chords that you do in the end… and your voice is pretty magical I think… - I don’t worry about Andrew, he’s a very good guitarist. - Yes, but he clearly does not have your voice… and I’m not sure he’s that good… with what I’ve seen from you in a few minutes… - You know as well as me that the most important thing is not the musician but the voice that we accompany and at this level, there is no problem for you on this song. - Thank you… She takes a look at her watch and a smile quickly grows on her lips. - Always interested in what’s waiting for us in the kitchen? I understand immediately her allusion and I smile too widely in return. - Of course! - It should be ready for a tasting I’ll see what it is… you join me in two minutes? I nod, amused by her sudden enthusiasm. She almost leaves the room in running and I laugh at seeing her go. She sometimes had these attitudes close to a girl who was quite disarming but definitely gorgeous. I rest the guitar in its case, placed a few steps. I get the score with the fingertips to place it on the piano with other leaflets already in place. The title of the song then suddenly sounds in me.

More Than Words: more than words.

A crazy interpretation of Amelia’s attention, of the cake she had cooked for me, imperceptibly invading my mind.

                              More than words to show you how…

This sentence to summarize: a sentence that I can not finish because it would only materialize a reality that scares me. - Owen, it’s ready! Her indication reaches me from the ground floor, her impatience was touching… and still worthy of a child. - Thanks, I’m coming! I leave the score of the gaze, destabilized by this idea which had sprouted in my mind… but I quickly chase it.

It was just one simple attention on her part to thank me.

Simply.

Nothing more.

No more than a word… no more than a thank you.

Thank you for reading! I hope you’ll like it. 💛

[fire-emblem-supports]

Kana & Ione: C - A Supports (Mother/Daughter)

(Ione belongs to @lightningbug-lane! Go check her stuff out!)

C Support

Kana: Mama! Hey, Mama!

Ione: Kana. Is something wrong?

Kana: Look! I picked some pretty flowers for you! They're yellow like the sun!

Ione: Flowers? ...For me? Hm... Thank you. That is... very thoughtful.

Kana: Do you really like them?

Ione: Yes. However... you seem to be bringing me a lot of flowers lately. Why?

Kana: I just remembered that when I was real little, we'd go looking at flowers together. You always smiled so much when we did. And I think your smile is the best, Mama! So I decided to start bringing you lots and lots of flowers to help you smile more!

Ione: My, how sentimental. Hm... Kana, there is one thing I need to ask of you.

Kana: Anything, Mama. What do you need?

Ione: You know that flowers are living things. What that means is, when you pick them, you are hurting them.

Kana: Oh no! I've been hurting them?! It was an accident! I'm sorry, flowers!

Ione: Calm down, child. You have nothing to be worried about. But perhaps next time, you will think twice before plucking more.

Kana: Ok! But... if I do that, then how can I show you the pretty flowers I find?

Ione: That is a good question... Well, I’m always around. Come find me, and we can look at them together. How does that sound?

Kana: Really? You won't be too busy?

Ione: Kana... I will never be too busy for you.

Kana: Ok, it's a deal! We'll go look at nice flowers together! That's a promise, Mama!

B Support

Kana: La la lalala-la-la. And now it's Mama time!

Ione: It’s so strange to see such a happy child... How do you manage to stay like that?

Kana: Why wouldn't I be happy? I found some great flowers for us to go look at! You're going to love them! I'm sure of it!

Kana: Look! There they are, Mama!

Ione: My... What a stunning lavender. How calming...

Kana: Yeah! I love this color. And it's so pretty on these flowers. They kind of remind me of you, Mama!

Ione: What? Me, a flower? My... What a strange comparison. Yet, I feel... flustered. Thank you, Kana.

Kana: Don't be embarrassed, Mama! I love flowers, but I love your smiles even more!

Ione: Oh, Kana... You make it hard for even me not to smile. Your smile is like an infectious curse... but I love it so much.

Kana: Really? Yay!

Ione: And that reminds me. I have a present for you.

Kana: Oooh, is it something good? Can I see it now?

Ione: Calm down. I do not have it with me. But if you must know, it’s--

Kana: Ah! Wait! Don't tell me! That way I'll be even more surprised when you have it.

Ione: Very well. I’ll show it to you later, then.

Kana: Yay yay yay! I'm so excited!

A Support

Kana: Mama, I'm here! Where's that thing you wanted to show me?

Ione: Yes, it’s right here.

Kana: This is such a big book! Oh wow! And look at all these flowers! Where did you get them?

Ione: They are the flowers you have been bringing me. I cast a preservation spell and pressed them between the pages.

Ione: This way, they will always be around for me to admire them.

Kana: This is amazing! Like, really, really amazing! I hadn't realized how many flowers I'd brought you.

Ione: I’m glad you like it. I know I do...

Kana: Mama... Thank you for taking such good care of the flowers I gave you.

Ione: Please. These flowers are a reminder that there is someone who truly loves me... So thank you, Kana, for being a wonderful daughter.

Kana: You're welcome!

Ione: And although the flowers we saw yesterday do not have a place in this book, I appreciate the memories we made together.

Ione: I hope we can make more memories like that.

Kana: Me too! I love you so much, Mama!

Ione: Yes... And I love you.

[nisuki]

And then the weekend went by as if it was nothing ~~ and it’s even Tuesday now.

Ah.. I ended up getting my hands on Elder Scrolls Oblivion and I ... .... *already spend hours playing it* That said, I couldn’t concentrate at all, but somehow I ended up doing Sudoku puzzles as I found a small book of it while I was cleaning up my room... lol. Welp, here’s another reply post ^-^

I’ll be posting lots of posts consisting stuff in which I was tagged, excuse the amount of text posts xD... Meanwhile I’m rocking to kpop and continuing on my clothing projects. The results.. are looking good so far.. *happy satisfied face*

Thank you for the sweetest comments and messages. I was surprised at the amount of people who liked the random, “you’re beautiful” message XD I just felt like writing it, so I’m really happy to see it made some smile.

I wish you a nice new week ~

reenadelenyel replied to your post “A big post of people I’ll admire from afar behind that big tree you...”

Love you girl <3

REENA OMFG. WHATRWJAFKDS

How have you been?, my goodness.. I’ll be looking at your blogposts. I see you’ve made a post about your absent so I’ll be replying on there too ^^ It’s awesome to see you again. I hope work hasn’t been too hard on you!

Replies on random wip post 

@sims3medieval ~ Thank you so much ♥♥♥

Replies on random message post

@lilyssims ~ *is tacklehugged* KYA. OI, YOU’RE GETTING THAT BACK. *counter tacklehug* 

@simsmono ~ Next time I’ll make it more cheesy. Joke. (Maybe not) Lalala~ HAHAHA! Oh oho, no worries, I’ll still hug you any time I want to >:) Yes, you’ve no say in this! Or do you... ò_ó 

@chylasims ~ AW, staph it yu >3< ~~ thank you! I had a lovely day myself too!♥

@mimisapje ~ OOO’ NO TROUBLE AT ALL, COME COME <3 XD Nothing to be awkward of, he’ll end up pulling a joke of which you won’t even be sure if he’s actually joking or being serious.. o-o’ Aye.. that could be awkward yea... lol, it’s okay. I’ll just push him away LOL. The kind of movies we watched... We watched Episode VI of Star Wars and Finding Dory. 

@igotsims ~ Aaaaw, let me hug you and your sweetness *3* My day was awesome, with movies and food! What could be better than that hmhmhmh?

@preferatajaferoj ~ *hugs* ♥ I definitely had as well, thank you ^-^

@thesimperiuscurse ~ *more tachlehugs ♥*

@sims3medieval ~ *more and more hugs ♥*

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@mckatsims ~ You’re very welcomee *hugs* . I’m happy to hear ^-^ Thank you very much as well *3* AAh, it ended up much better than I thought, ha!  It’s definitely something I want to do more >:) 

A few more wishes to you!

simsmono ~ Thank you! *3*

@lopiasimblr & @aoihana2510 ~ 

@the77sim3, @204863-simblr, @plushxsims, @ahnzhie, @dokidokinaee ~ thank you lovelies ♥

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@igotsims ~ winkwink~ I don’t know why I’m winking, but I am winking ok.

@katkitsimmer ~ Thank you *3* . WELL, it’s less vibrant in the actual pics though ;u;

sims3medieval ~ thank you for your love ♥

Replies on this wip post which I planned to finish this weekend, but ehh.... yea.

@pxils, @lilyshadowwriter, @itsoceansecret, @aoihana2510 ~

Thank you very much T^T ♥ I’ll do my best to finish it this upcoming week! Someone send me tips on how to concentrate LOL.

@mimisapje​ ~ I like you like <3 *goes grabby hands to your goodies*

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igotsims & @sugary-plumb​ ~ thank you you beauties vvv me doing a happy random pose.

Replies on sim download Lexie!

simsmono ~ why thank you *winkyface* ... s-sims 3 version. I’ll miserably fail, but I feel like I would get another sims 3 cutie though... *puts it on a ‘perhaps to-do list’*

@omgdoubleume ~ I searched some of her other outfits and.. yea.. now I can’t get that out of my head ò_ó that said, I’ve fallen in love with some of these outfits I’ve found now... *quietly saves it in a clothing inspiration folder* hihihi~

aoihana2510 ~ thank you sweets <3

@arthurlumierecc ~ Thank you very much love! You’re welcome as well ^-^ Your creations are only becoming more and more amazing, good job!

@eenhoornsims ~ AAAAAAAAAAAH to you too <3 XD

thesimperiuscurse ~ AW YOU, WHAT, . THANK YOU

ahnzhie ~ thank you very much *winkyface* ♥

Reply from last replypost <3

Hahahah, I’m happy you’re enjoying them <’3 yea.. .stupid top. somehow the workshop file is crashing TSRW. so now I’m like, pffffft. I don’t wanna anymore. but. . ARGH.