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@bucktommyfluffebruary, day 4. rated T.
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"You done with your workout?" Buck asks, watching the way Tommy's throat moves as he downs his glass of lemonade.
"Yeah," Tommy says, wiping the back of his hand across his mouth. "Why?"
"You gonna shower?"
Tommy smirks at him.
"Was thinking a bath but you're still welcome to join."
"Sounds good," Buck grins, tilting his head playfully. "I'll get the bubbles."
Tommy laughs as Buck leaves the garage and heads upstairs to the bathroom.
read the rest under the cut or on ao3 // other days here
He'd definitely been angling for bathing together but not exactly in the way Tommy had been thinking.
Despite nothing having changed in their relationship in the past few weeks, Buck was finding himself missing Tommy more than usual when their shifts didn't line up enough for them to see each other.
Tommy's twenty four had come as Buck was on his fort eight off and he'd sat around his apartment listlessly until Tommy had texted about his shift from hell and Buck had decided to go over to cook dinner and look after him when he got home.
If he really thought about it, he'd say that the loft had started feeling like it was only home if Tommy was there.
That's not a feeling he's ever experienced before and honestly, it's just as terrifying as it is exhilarating; they've only been together for six months but already Buck can see a future with Tommy.
Tommy fits into Buck's life almost as if he was tailor made for it and, looking at their shared history and all the ways they seemed to just miss each other, it doesn't escape Buck that the universe seemed to have been trying to push them together for a while now.
It's a thought that sits warmly in his chest as he runs the huge bath, filling it with Tommy's favourite bubble bath.
He's just stepping out of his underwear when Tommy enters the bathroom.
"Mm, what a view," he smirks, pulling his own shirt over his head and flinging it aside.
His gaze roams hungrily over Buck's naked body, lingering obviously on his dick, and Buck blushes under the intensity of it; Tommy had never been shy about how attractive he found Buck but it still sometimes caught him by surprise.
"You wanna be big spoon or little spoon?" Buck breathes as Tommy steps into his space, nuzzling against the skin of his throat.
"I know you're angling for little spoon," Tommy teases, sucking at his jaw.
"Don't know what you mean," Buck laughs, pulling away so Tommy can undress completely.
Tommy rolls his eyes fondly as he finishes stripping and climbs in, Buck following shortly after. He settles into the V of his legs and Tommy immediately slides a hand around Buck's stomach, reaching for his already half-hard cock.
"Actually, can we just… sit?" Buck asks, feeling a little silly for asking. "I missed you yesterday and this is nice."
"Of course we can, sweetheart," Tommy says, and Buck can hear the smile in his voice. "Of course."
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idk if requests are open or not...or if you do bakugo requests but imagine a yandere bakugo who’s possessive and all that with an ALSO somewhat yandere s/o who’s obsessive and see’s him as some kind of god?? i just keep imagining at the sports festival when he’s like ‘i’m gonna win’ and everyone’s booing him and then you have y/n cheering her heart out bc yes you are gonna win you’re so perfect wow i can’t believe the god/dess’s blessed our planet with you, you are superior in every way sir- both of them getting jealous over others being near their darling and whenever bakugo gives his divine attention to y/n she’s like ‘oh my god i’m blessed’ and her attention on him (which is..always on him- and vice versa) has him blushing and acting annoyed when rly he loves it like ugh 😔 i need this
warnings: ôbsèssïve yn, yândèrè, fúnny, íntènsè, dárk.
note. I literally loved writing this. I love it. Thank you so much for this request.
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At the sports festival, Bakugo stands at the starting line, looking like he’s about to blow up the entire arena…
literally and figuratively.
His eyes burn with the intensity of a thousand suns as he gets ready to race, hands clenched in determination.
The crowd boos, but it’s like white noise to him. He’s going to win. Of course, he is. He’s Bakugo Katsuki. Nothing else matters.
But you?
Oh, you’re practically vibrating with excitement on the sidelines, practically frothing at the mouth.
Your cheer is so loud and filled with worship, it’s borderline terrifying.
“HE’S GONNA WIN! OF COURSE, HE IS! YOU’RE A GOD, KATSUKI! A GOD! LOOK AT HIM, PEOPLE, THIS IS THE MOST PERFECT BEING TO EVER EXIST! WE’RE NOT WORTHY!”
You wave a sign with his face on it, glowing with pride and a ridiculous amount of adoration.
Bakugo glances over at you, and his breath catches for a split second.
Your eyes are sparkling with what can only be described as sheer, undying devotion. It’s like you’ve blessed him with your attention, and no one else exists.
His jaw tightens, but then the corner of his mouth twitches. “Ugh, stop looking at me like that,” he growls, as if his heart isn’t doing flips in his chest.
He loves it.
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Meanwhile, your eyes are glued to him. You don’t even notice when someone else tries to talk to you, too busy basking in his glory. You’re like a shrine worshipper.
“Oh my God, how did we get so lucky? I’m literally in the presence of a God. I can’t believe I get to watch this legend race. I’m going to tell my grandchildren about this moment.”
You say it with the seriousness of someone giving a eulogy, because honestly? This moment could be the the highlight of your life.
Bakugo, trying to ignore the fact that you just called him a God, again, barks at the crowd.
“I’m gonna win! And if any of you doubt me, I’ll—;” but he doesn’t get to finish his threat because someone else has the audacity to look at you.
That’s it.
That’s the last straw. Bakugo’s fists curl, and his eyes turn into fiery lasers aimed straight at the innocent bystander who dared get too close to his possession—you.
His face scrunches up like he just tasted something gross.
“Get the hell away from my girl, asshole,” he snaps, voice dripping with territorial possessiveness. You, however, are too busy watching him in awe to even notice what’s happening.
“Bakugo,” you whisper under your breath, your voice reverent.
“You’re so perfect. I can’t even look at anyone else. You’re my entire world. How did I get so blessed? You’re so strong, so capable, just… ugh. My heart can’t handle it. I’m about to burst.”
Bakugo looks over at you, his usual scowl melting just a little. He hates to admit it, but he loves that you’re obsessed with him. Really loves it.
The way you practically glow with admiration? It’s like a drug he can’t get enough of. His chest puffs up in pride, he is the best… and it’s clear he’s getting a huge kick out of the fact that you can’t look at anyone else. Not even for a second.
And then, as the race starts, Bakugo takes off like a rocket. The crowd boos again, but you’re too busy screaming his name like you’ve seen a miracle.
“THAT’S MY GOD! THAT’S MY GOD, LOOK AT HIM GO! HE’S GOING TO DESTROY EVERYONE! HE’S THE ONLY ONE WHO MATTERS!”
You’re a little unhinged, but Bakugo doesn’t mind it. He might even like it a little more than he’s willing to admit.
When he crosses the finish line in first place, you practically fall over yourself rushing to him. Your arms fling around him like he’s the last lifeboat on the Titanic, and you’re about to drown without him.
“YOU DID IT! I KNEW YOU COULD! YOU’RE A GOD, KATSUKI! A GOD! I’M SO PROUD OF YOU!”
You are so embarrassing, but he’s having so much fun.
Bakugo stands there, smirking, trying to act like he doesn’t have the faintest blush on his cheeks from your endless worship. “Yeah, of course I did. What did you expect? I’m the best.”
But there’s a small, almost shy glance from him as he ruffles your hair. “Just don’t go overboard with the whole ‘god’ thing, alright? It’s not like I’m invincible or anything.”
“You are, though,” you respond, dead serious.
“You can do no wrong. You just don’t understand, Katsuki. We’re all lucky to breathe the same air as you.”
Bakugo looks away, trying to hide the smile tugging at his lips. “Shut up.” But the blush creeping up his neck is undeniable.
#yandere bakugo#yandere katsuki#yandere bakugou#yandere bnha#yandere mha#mha smut#bnha smut#katsuki smut#bakugou smut#bakugo smut#bakugou katuski x reader#yandere bakugou katsuki#bnha x reader#bnha fanfic#bnha#mha#yandere my hero academia#my hero academia smut
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Well hello there, folks, welcome to my little slice of paradise, what's your poison for today?
Are you interested in becoming intimately familiar with the madness and chaos, the pure unadulterated gremlin-ness that is my diner (and by proxy, the patrons (read: muses) of said diner)? Perhaps you're looking for a fresh new take on Hatsune Miku, the famed idol? Or you're hoping to broaden your horizons, peer deep into the Void? Maybe you're old-school, and want to interact with an Undertale muse / one with ties to Undertale? Who knows, it could just be that you stumbled here accidentally, and didn't notice the fishing lines waiting to reel you in, until it was too late. After all, little morsels, once you step foot in here, you're mine.
I'm a semi-selective rp blog for several muses, some of them "canon" characters, most of them not. Hope you'll join me for the ride, though!
#mun tag#hihi!!! been a While since i've been here on tumbublr so i hope nyall will treat me well ovo#first post on new blog woo#honestly terrified of how this is gonna go#but figured i would join again#wanted to interact more with Friends#but am Spicy Fear over everything :')
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love thinking kipperlilly spends her afterlife looking for lucy in a familiar forest
#not art#fhjy#fhjy spoilers#like. does she have a mean of knowing lucy and yolanda got sent to cassandra's domain to hang out for a bit#kipperlilly's isolation means so much to me. she is punished for everything she's done she just doesn't pick up on it#until the moment she dies! one more funky thing that mirrors riz in which he's actively tried to cultivate a community and denied it#until the bad kids. while kipperlilly does not want or care about a community she just wants someone who validates her#but she does Need a community so she latches onto the person she lets closer to her to fulfill her emotional needs#she took the ritual willingly so this might genuinely be her first death. probably terrifying#probably not even enough bandwidth to feel mortified. maybe immediately seeking something comforting out of instinct alone#lmao honestly thinking too much abt fantasy high afterlifes gives me a headache And a visceral fear#Im not religious but I grew up in a culture with a dominantly buddhist/taoist cosmology its Scary that u just go to A Place after u die!!#and then ur still urself!!! thats scary to me what do u mean u stay like that forever. thats fucked#but yeah I think this influences how I see kipperlilly turn out a little bit. in a sense I think of her as being a ghost now#yknow. trying to solve something from life so she can move on and. stop living this life etc#man the reveal that lucy took being killed pretty seriously and is like yeah the others are decent and even sweet#and probably was just trying to hold her party together and do what she thinks is moral by hearing kipperlilly out#lol lmao etc. gods I gotta wonder how kipperlilly's mindset handled jawbones' help#it really is damn tragic tho. I stand by what I said folks like this will complain and be nasty to be around#but they dont have enough desire to inconvenience themselves to off the bat do something abt what they find unfair or whatever#its when theyre handed the seemingly very easy means to be right that they'll start being dangerous#its horribly tragic that the supposed metaplayer and the self-perceived mastermind turned out to ultimately be just an useful idiot#yknow what. I think personally in my heart kipperlilly moves on from her afterlife the moment she says sorry#doesnt even have to be to lucy but that's probably gonna be who received it#ah.... teenage rebellion. teenage gamejacking
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Don't forget the reason the U.S. is supporting Israel's genocide of Palestine - hell, 90% of the reason they ever get involved into something in the Middle East is for ulterior purposes regarding oil.
That and the Ben Gurion Canal project, which you can learn more about:
Also this short video explaining the canal's significance and full history in summary:
Simply put,
#free palestine#israel is a genocidal state#israel is a terrorist state#fuck america#fuck israel#comic pic is from persepolis btw#which is an autobiography of the author growing up in iran during the iranian revolution#not to mention how the US destabilized iran bc their democratically elected leader was gonna nationalize its oil for iran#and they put someone who would play ball for them in charge#its always about the oil#EVEN IN THE MIDST OF EVERYONE GOING “THE FUTURE ISNT VIABLE W FOSSIL FUELS”#WE SHOULD BE LOOKING FORWARD FOR USING AND TRANSITIONING TO RENEWABLE ENERGY SOURCES#BUT THE CAPITALISTIC FUCKS WANT MONEY NOW#AT THE EXPENSE OF HUMAN LIVES#THE LIVES OF ARABS AND BROWN PPL INDIGENOUS TO PALESTINE NOTE THAT#aaaaaaand of course the canal#much easier than dealing w egypt#for both israel and america#israel will be onboard w them and they'll have a way of strengthening their grip on the middle east and world economy#this is honestly disgusting and terrifying#egypt#suez canal
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Hey! I found you though your superhero AU, which i love, by the way! I really enjoy your writing style, so I was wondering what your writing process is, in particular, do you have a plan/outline you follow, or do you have a list of little snippets of writing you want to include, etc. Just really curious!
oh my god the question i've been dreading. so funny thing, for the longest time, i actually didn't have an outline or like. a plan. at all
this wasn't even originally going to be a series, it was just supposed to be the first part 😭 but then people started liking it so much (and i live off of attention and comments) so i decided to make a part two and it kind of skyrocketed from there. did not expect we'd be getting past 20k words this is my longest series ever LMAO
but it's not like i have nothing planned out — like i know what's going to be happen with etho and the agency (to an extent) and i've pretty much got the whole ranchers and gempearl storyline down. but desertduo and boat boys..... i've kinda been taking it part by part.
that however does lead to things being repetitive and getting a little stale. so i've been planning things out more lately, and i'm very pleased to say that now i do have (kind of) an idea on the ending. which i have no idea when is going to happen
#yeah i'm very unorganized#i was honestly not expecting this series to go on for so long#almost two whole months!!!!!! a lot for me#but yes i have no intention of leaving this unfinished 🙏#i have no idea how i'm going to fix boat boys tho i'm gonna be very honest rn#slightly terrified it's getting a little repetitive.#bfop au#my asks#about around the fourth part of the series i made a notes app page for all the things i want to have in this series#like titles (you like your girls insane is one of my favs) and lines (which i will not spoil cuz i've got some BANGERS) and other details#(like ages#i do have certain parts outlined however#there was going to be a part titled “interlude — xelqua” and it was going to be about grians story#i have so much written for that. idk if it'll be published ever but#yeah it had acts (act i: destruction act ii: salvation act iii: war act iv: peace)#and i had pages upon pages of notes#but for the general story i have very very little
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My therapist hasn't killed me yet 👍
#unfortunately i actually. like i had so much to say that i couldn't get an in-depth response#sometimes that happens.#so like. not a negative 'oh you are going to die badly if this continues' reaction. just very thoughtful like#'oh... yeah... that's heavy. but it makes sense' response. which is. honestly. i feel better#even just w that. like. coming from the insane paranoia jumping to conclusions thought crime religion#one million guilt one million years. and also something Wrong w you. die. one thousand deaths#like. it's maybe gonna be okay. maybe i can explore heavier topics w care and consideration#without being shot on sight. or at v least knowing that if i am. i'm not necessarily The Problem here#feels. like an oversimplification. but you know. you know how it can be.#never ever ever wanna get into discourse though. ever. idk if it's irrational but i have always had an intense fear#that someday i'm gonna post something and then get lolcow'd to death.#like. it's not just my upbringing i don't think. it's the whole culture surrounding certain fandom spaces#which is honestly why i don't even consider myself a fandom blog. i'm an autism blog.#you get whatever i'm fixated on. forever. and nearly 100% of the time it's askr siblings#idk i also just think it sucks. that you need to have 'valid' reasons to explore certain subjects#which firstly require you to be a victim and secondly requires you to be a perfect victim.#which puts people in terrible spots where like. what is this a confession booth. i wasn't even cathlolic. get OUT of here!!!!#sorry i still have a lot of Feelings. about it. and ultimately that's what it is. i have a lot of very intense Feelings#they are my own. to protect. to process. i don't want to get confrontational about it. that's stupid.#already this feels like a confession of guilt. is it the christianity? is it the way some online spaces just Are?#i don't know. all i know is i want to make art. it means so much to me. to say what i need to say.#and to be heard. that's been the craziest part. all these things i've been terrified of. but sometimes. i'm heard.#idk idk idk. no more emotional vulnerability. ass hurt. done.
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So I hit my 700th edit for the WHA wiki today, because I am a totally normal person
#For the record I have been there for. 27 days.#That makes an average of 26 edits a day which is even more terrifying because I definitely was not updating every day#Also this is for the Telepedia Wiki not the Fandom one#Anyway you should check it out!#In maybe a week because the website cache is super slow for some reason when you're not logged in#But I'm having fun#The nice thing about working on a wiki where there's actually other people doing stuff#Is that they can do the boring stuff like character bios and etc while I run around doing the fun stuff like pages on animals and plants#Anyway I was working on the Eldroxen page which are the big fluffy ox from the Silver Eve Procession#And it was so funny collecting info on them from the main series and then checking Kitchen real quick and SURPRISE! THEY'RE EATING IT!#I mean I should have expected this after having watched Dungeon Meshi and yet~~~#Also funny was that I copy+pasted the page coding for one the (food) animals as a template for this giant Mole-worm beast page but#forgot to remove the line about it being for food and afterwards had a laugh and then removed it#But now I'm like. They probably WOULD eat that sucker. Giant mole worm/snake/dragon thing? That'd feed a whole town!#Qifrey could have an entire audience watching how he'd prepare and season it#Anyway if you've been wondering where I've been that's it#Also funny story: during the Covid pandemic I stayed employed when my coworkers got let go because they needed me to catalogue an entire#new set of guided reading books; and have these sets have a digital checkout instead of the old-school card catalog we were literally still#using in 2020. Anyway I went all out with the organization of the books and the boxes and even made a reference binder for the books#via subject so teachers/tutors could find specific subjects and reading levels etc#(I'd have done a digital way to search for results but honestly half the teachers couldn't figure out how to sign in to the laptop. So.)#Anyway. Only a handful of teachers actually used these books and two years later the school switched to a new reading program#that came with its own set of books and lessons so this 10k reading set was essentially unneeded (and my dear coworkers never got rehired)#Anyway I learned last week that they're clearing out that room and all of those barely-used books are getting thrown out 🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃#Isn't that funny#Literally everything is just sandcastles built in the surf#I'm so glad I already accepted this during my pumpkin carving years because otherwise I think I'd be upset#Anyway I'm gonna go play my spooky fishing game
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if i might bitch about work for a second: yesterday was hellishly bad despite being able to keep up with it and i found out that apparently our department made 4600 dollars yesterday which is making me angry beyond belieffffffff
#this is math i do fairly often bc i enjoy ho-hum math and hate my job and like#even if we took off 2000 bucks for overhead costs which feels excessive but i will concede it#that would be enough to pay everyone working a little over 860 dollars which is 300 more than what i make in a WEEK#literally WHEREEEEE IS IT WHERE IS IT GOING WHERE IS IT#i dont like following this logic through because on days where there are fewer orders we;d do less#and i disagree with gig work's implementation as ive seen it and i think that would stress people out worse than we already are#(which is significantly)#but at the same time. 850 dollars. i cant afford to buy groceries this week. 850 dollars...#can i get a BONUS or SOMETHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#it makes me soooo angry i was talking to one of the deli guys who asked for a raise and got denied mid-question#before our director accidentally showed him that their department is four thousand of gods own dollars under labor#its so revolting to me i talk to so many people in this store who are terrified because of medical bills or rent or car shit#half my department works two jobs just to get by and ALL OF THEM drive junkers#honestly one of the things thats scaring me about if i actually move out is that i do rely on...living with my mom#i pay for most of my own food i pay an absurd amount of rent to share a room with her but she's willing to drive me to work#even though i've offered to walk multiple times and she REALLY should prioritize her own time more#but at the same time...not having to pay for rides has been carrying me hard#if i got a car i'd be fucked because those things bleed money and generally ethically i disagree with cars#but if i dont its like okay pony up the money learn to navigate buses (except for sunday when they dont run) or get ready#to walk to your job where you walk all day and then walk home in the dark#which. i love walking. and listening to music on my own while walking. so bad example. but i also love not having my feet hurt#all the time always no matter what im doing which is something im becoming increasingly unfamiliar with#its like. ultimately. something's gonna get fucked no matter what#and then i hear a figure like 4600 and i remember how avoidable all of this shit is. how avoidable it is for ANY of us#our ceo is gonna walk away from this merger attempt with 5 billion dollars in safety-cushion money#the 10 top execs beneath him with 1 billion#and its just so. what can you even do. 5 billion. can a number like that even mean anything? how could you possibly need that much#850 dollars would be a lifechanging amount of money for me right now and im not even one of the worst off#its just. god. this world could be anything but what it is but its this and for what
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#+#i wanna bawl my eyes out ToT#just found out im going to be working at a different school this year#which is ultimately okay bc i know itll work out#kids warm up to me really fast + i get along with other ppl well#it's just like... im gonna miss my kids sooo much#+ my coworkers too#update three days later bc i saved this in drafts 😔:#i still want to cry about it sometimes but i have made peace with it#im really nervous but ik it will be okay + tbh it distances me from drama that played out last year#i’m really sad that i don’t get to tell my kids bye… they’re just babies (kindergarteners ) so i was excited to see how much they grew#+ ik they won’t really understand why i left. but they’re also so little they won’t remember much#it’s okay though! i poured so much love + care into them + ik they’ll remember being safe and adored#i think that’s the most important thing for little kids to experience and im glad they can carry that with them#i am nervous about being a new environment bc i’ve worked so hard to be flexible and adapt quickly to change#+ i do well with it#but honestly even though i cope well it terrifies me#ill be so glad once august is over and things have settled#but im excited too.. things will work out bc they always do ^^
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wait coming back just to add that i was thinking abt the generational element of the af.tons just being a fucked up family line and i'm. fine. i swear i'm f
#—— ✧ ooc »#˖ ✧ headcanon » ( the demon to his demons )#william's partially a shitty father because of who he is but also partially because of his own upbringing#tries to escape it but either overcorrects or falls into it anyway#terrified of becoming his parents and both passes and fails to escape becoming them#geninely honestly despite everything wants to be better then them and can't and won't#and his parents were shit to him and jayne because they were following social roles#didn't necessarily want kids but It's Expected & although william would never admit it they instilled that in him#& he DID want kids but in many ways the family he tries to build initially is The Stereotypical American Dream#suburb house white picket fence small town wife and three children both sons and a daughter etc etc etc#doesn't let this idea go until late-stage and by that point he's already unintentionally destroying it anyway#i know i made a haha funny joke abt his ideal fam of henry & the son he loves/hates & 2 robot children#but unironically him realizing that he can & should choose what/who he wants BECAUSE he wants it/them#would have solved so many problems if he'd realized it earlier#not all of them but lmao#(not implying that he didn't love elise/mrs. af.ton but he didn't go into or HANDLE the marriage how he should have)#(everything was about appearances not abt actually being prepared for like. Married Life.)#(very much thinks 'okay i'm married. hard part's over. no more effort required' & obv ends up divorced because of it)#(which to be clear he is prone to in ANY ship if they're not willing to beat him over the head w/ reality HARD)#there's SO much more to say abt this like it's very complex but i'm gonna go chill and then go to sleep lmao
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Feeling sick! Like emotionally and whatnot
#😓#no bc i know there is something wrong with me. but christttt what is wrong with me ya know 😩😩😩 ????#i just feel like throwing up and killing something but i have this weird terrified energy within me that prevents me from like ???#doing anything at all atp#ive been doing better this week. ive even been wroting again. but the core emotion and wrongness isnt gone at all#ive just learned how to work around it#but i hate hate hate walking around my own house feeling vaguely scared of nothing#and feeling vaguely angry. and vaguely nauseous and terrified etc etc#like enough !!!!!!!!!#i have no idea how long they're gonna keep me on their therapy waiting list so atp i might go private#bc i feel like im going insane#the depression is honestly manageable bc ive been through it before#but this overhanging wrongness is disturbing me so very deeply that im losing my mind#and i cant sleep !!!!! bc i either cry or i get angry or i get paranoid abt the past#or even worse i try to piece together the past (never ends well)#but whatever ! im going to hamburg the day after tomorrow and i know that will be a nice temporary distraction 👍
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i have been ! thrown off my rhythm !
#the amount of emotional whiplash i have experienced these past forty eight hours#(and like. the past few months) is honestly astounding lmao my brain hurts#on all levels except physical i am the rainbow loading circle of doom#unsure how i’m feeling or how to proceed so in the meantime i’m gonna gym rat and put it to the side#need to firm up friend plans hopefully another pogo walk w gray soon ! and two of my college friends have reached out to link and catch up#(one of which. heavy queer subtext our freshman year so ! should be interesting lmfao)#my therapist gave me homework to go hang out at a queer coffee shop to meet new people. a terrifying prospect#the thought of being w someone other than my ex still makes me ! violently physically ill !#but i need to put myself out there and start making some new friends#sam soliloquizes
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#rant cw#🌙.txt#i'm genuinely so scared rn 😃 i'm trying to distract myself and have fun but it's so hard#like. i know i'm privileged bc at least i have a safe place to stay and i could make it here before everything got worse#and i know there are people going through much worse than me#but i'm TERRIFIED bc there's a high chance we might actually lose everything this time bc this flood is SO much worse than the last one#and if we lose everything then what the fuck are we gonna do...#how many times are we gonna have to deal with this kind of situation#i couldn't sleep bc i was too anxious and now i'm tired#and i just saw a video of a bunch of cows being DRAGGED by the fcking water and they looked so scared :(#i keep crying i feel so powerless#bc literally the only thing i can do is wait and pray that the damage won't be bad to the point where we can't recover from it#i'm sorry i keep posting about this and again i know i'm more privileged than a LOT of people#but i just need to vent bc i honestly have never felt this scared in my life#i'll try to at least take a nap now tho. i need some rest
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By the way I haven't seen the final episode but I watched episodes 1-4 of young royals and lost my mind and then today I watched episode 5 and I am unwell thank you
#I can't#I can't with them#honestly though the closest I've been to crying was when sara came home after her driving test#not okay over that in the slightest#but I'm also not remotely okay over literally anything in this season or the entirety of this ever so ��( ∵ )┌#also as soon as I started to hear the lyrics in episode five I was like (after I was freaking out enough that I thought it was another love#at first) 'they are not playing losing game right now. THEY ARE NOT PLAYING LOSING GAME RIGHT NOW HOHHH MY GOSH DON'T YOU#DARE'#I could not remember the actual title but I was pretty sure it had another one and as I was typing that I remembered it is arcade lol#anyway xD#yeah so that's how that's going lol#how I'm feeling and all that xD#help lol#young royals#yr#oasis's young royals chatter#oasis's yr chatter#I don't talk about them/it often because I'm not really in any circles for it fandom wise lol but also because I don't think I could#take it lol xd#like thinking about it right now I'm like 'I think it's because I have never been okay over them once ever'#so anyway there's that lol#xD have a nice night y'all lol#even though I know you must not be after watching episode 6 xd#excited and terrified to watch it some time soon lol#gosh I need the abbott I'm gonna try and catch up on tonight lol#bye y'all <333 I have tissues if you need them xdd 🧻❤️#best of luck lol#love you
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My mum keeps asking me what I want to do for my 30th birthday next year, and honestly, I'm not even ready to become 29 THIS year.
#about me#how is time flying by so quickly#im in disbelief#im nearly 30 honestly and also kinda terrified#i want to go abroad somewhere next year for my 30th i think#been looking at cruises?? they seem to be afforadable but worried about motion sickness#though would like to own my own apartment / house but this day and age not gonna happen with the current financial situation our country is#in. so yeah#probably will live with my parents for a while longer yet
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