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beaversatemygrandma · 2 years ago

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I don’t think I’ve ever been so happy after being on the phone for three whole hours. Holy shit. Originally, it was to play pokemon together so i had my headphones on for hands for the game and eventually it just turned into me doing laundry and talking about random shit. I mean, between my sister deciding to throw a deflated rotting pumpkin into the yard (which held up shockingly. It got pancaked though.) and me yelling at that infinite dryer buzzer all while on call. I’ve had so many doubts about getting with this guy simply because of the whole weird memory I have of him from high school, but genuinely, I’m getting really cozy with this idea.

The thing is, i texted the FWB today to wish her a happy birthday, and i didn’t get a reply which is just a shame. I mean, she’s probably having fun, so can’t blame her really. But i have got to mention the fact that I’m abandoning the idea of getting into her polycule. Like, yeah, it would’ve been nice, and that week i stayed with her was great and felt like a real thing, but I’m 90% sure that’s because we were both Incredibly Touch Starved after isolation. Like, I’m still at that point, but I haven’t felt like I wanted to long distance fuck around with her anytime recently. I do want to mention this. I’ve reconnected with somebody and I Really Think it’s going to work out for the better.

Agh.

But back to that whole thing. Just listening to him go on about something was nice. I didn’t think I’d like his voice, but i like his voice. It’s not the same as it was back when we used to talk, but there’s still that soft pitch to it that is, just now deeper and a whole lot easier to listen to. I’d let him talk my ear off for longer if there was time. I remember reading once “you know you’re in deep when you fall for their voice” and yeah. Yeah, you do. Hell, the other night we got into another one of those more personal convos and something in me was like “yeah, I’d date him long term.” and i just went into this thing and drew an exact boundary that won’t freak me out which honestly allows so much more openness. Doesn’t stop him from replacing the L word with care though, but i can live with that and honestly, i really like that. Hm. I shouldn’t have looked away from the nerdy guy who was always tailing behind me back then. I mean, we started onto this thing about something in 10th grade and he just went “HANG ON.” and whipped out this half-finished yearbook he had from that year because he was on the yearbook team. Halfway through he just showed me the pic he had in there saying something about how pissed he looked, and I agreed. But also I just start wondering why i didn’t find him attractive back then. He was cute. Ngl. He’s cute. I mean, yeah, i was usually dating somebody back then, but this would’ve been nice. So much nicer than the 10th grade ex. But really. Why wasn’t I attracted to him then, but I am now? Like, we’re talking the sweetest damn guy, 6 foot, he’s got this cute, soft face and I’m just ???? I could’ve dodged so many bullets with this one.

Maybe it’s just the new outlook. Like how back then something in me was like “I’m totally not one of these dweebs.” and how I’d go out of my way to talk to the worst possible people i could spend time with. People i met outside of school. The ones who dropped out. The ones who’d lead me into oddly dangerous spots and weird situations. I just used to like how chill and calm the ‘stoners’ were back then. They accepted everybody. They were kind. Until you looked under the surface and realized just how much trouble you get into around them. Welp, i learned my lesson there. The hard way. Maybe I should’ve listened when i heard that one had a police record at 16. And here i am suddenly wanting to be surrounded by my old group of nerdy friends where the worst situations we’d get into involved wandering out into the woods and reenacting scenes from our favorite books in places we totally shouldn’t have been. But sadly everybody is scattered across the state at different colleges with different lives. One came out as gay and ghosted the rest of us (hell, he was the one who nearly lit my backyard on fire anyways. What’s weirder is all of us came out as queer a year prior.), another ended up in a huge city with new people and new jobs and just a new life, another manages a whole restaurant (props to him, that’s a feat), and then there’s me and this guy who just kind of fell into this slump and likely are going to be stuck in the old hometown for a while.

Huh. Either way I think I’m going to be happy in this one. It’s not everyday i find somebody who can talk their way past my walls so easily and make me feel so safe. You know, tomorrow is new year’s. He’s not doing anything, and I’m likely going to have a couple beers. I might flirt a little harder tbh. I don’t want to get too ahead of myself being this far out, but my god, do i want to open this up Just A Little More. If i’ve got him down there saying that he cares so much about me and just wants me to be happy, well by god, I’m going to make him happy too.

Ha. I also threatened to get him to watch some horror movies together. Gonna do that at some point, definitely cuddle the hell out of him, and likely scar him for life with some freaky ass movie. Perfect date night tbh. And I didn’t even frame it as a date night. But that’s literally my plan.

#taks speaks #im talking into the void again

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yeah-thats-probably-it · 8 months ago

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No, I pretty much felt that way too. And this was just going to be a quick bullet point list explaining why, but then it got away from me. Anyway.

Reason one, I think you totally tetigisti'd the rem when you said that this book breaks the illusion of Wodehouse stories taking place in their own little world. The key thing that makes the Jeeves books work so well is the fact that they don't take place in anything like the real world. It's funny to watch Spode threaten to butter Bertie across the lawn with his hobnailed boots because bad things don't really happen in Wodehouse-land! Nobody dies, Jeeves will never go to jail for his many crimes, and things like poverty and war are glossed over so neatly they can barely be said to exist.

Aunts Aren't Gentlemen takes place almost entirely in that same goofy, consequence-free world, but with random jarring intrusions from the real world, and that's a real problem for immersion and suspension of disbelief. (also it DOES feel more mean-spirited, you're absolutely right)

The language of "contracts" fits well with this. Ring for Jeeves is operating under its own separate contract, which is, as you said, closer to the real world than the normal Jeeves book standard. Aunts Aren't Gentlemen is supposed to be working within the normal standard contract, but it keeps randomly going renegade. Honestly, the style and formula of these books has been so reliable and well-trodden up till now that it almost feels like a breach of genre conventions. Scifi novels contain speculative elements, romance novels end on a happily ever after, and Jeeves books take place in an insulated little universe where real-world problems don't exist.

Another reason the touch of reality worked in Ring for Jeeves but not in Aunts Aren't Gentlemen is the fact that the sociopolitical backdrop in the former mattered. Wodehouse had something to say about the post-WWII social revolution in Britain, and the book's specific setting drives the entire plot and every character's actions, whether directly or indirectly. If you took Ring for Jeeves out of its historical political context, you would be left with no story.

In Aunts Aren't Gentlemen, the characters' political beliefs couldn't possibly matter less. The protest march is dropped into the story out of nowhere and drops out just as quickly (we never even find out what was being protested!). You could replace Vanessa and Orlo's supposed communism with any other annoying trait and slugging a cop with something else Vanessa's father disapproves of, and you wouldn't need to change the plot a single bit. I guess maybe Wodehouse was kind of making a point about hypocritical, performative "activists", but was it worth it? What price the tonal dissonance?

But I think the problem Aunts Aren't Gentlemen suffers from the most is that it follows Jeeves and the Tie That Binds, and Tie That Binds was such a perfect series finale. All the loose ends were tied up (no pun intended), we get to assume that Bertie is finally safe from Madeline and Florence for good, and he and Jeeves have exchanged their vows to stay with each other for the rest of their lives.

I think what almost certainly happened here was that Wodehouse was 90, he knew he didn't have much time left, and he wanted to give his beloved characters a nice send-off before he passed away. He expected Tie That Binds to be his last Jeeves book, so he wrote it with that in mind and left our boys off on an implied happily ever after (does that make tie that binds a romance novel? much to think about).

But then, huh, looks like he has more time left than he thought, and hey, he might as well spend his remaining time on Earth doing something he loves (viz. writing Jeeves books). The idea of someone sticking Bertie with a cat was a rejected plot point for Jeeves in the Offing, and he has just enough time to do something with it now, so why not? But then he runs into the problem that he's JUST tied up all those loose ends, so now he has to come up with a brand new fiancee who's exactly Florence Craye but worse and start everything up all over again.

Overall, I feel the same way about this book coming after Jeeves and the Tie That Binds that I do about Right Ho, Jeeves coming after Thank You, Jeeves. It feels like the character development goes backwards. I do kind of wonder, and I'll have to go back and check, if there's anything in Aunts Aren't Gentlemen that rules out the possibility of it taking place sometime BEFORE Tie That Binds. Like, RHJ has to take place after TYJ because in the former Bertie talks about Gussie receding from his position, which is a phrase he very specifically learned in TYJ.

Personally though, my preferred headcanon is the theory put forward in this meta fic by @sandwichsapphic that Bertie is actually writing his memoirs many years after the fact, and is just remembering out-of-order snippets of his life at random. This is the only theory that works out all the wonky timeline issues and inconsistencies to my satisfaction and it's the real and true answer to ME.

In conclusion, I think the weirdness is attributable to the fact that this is the Jeeves book that was never really supposed to exist. The Sisyphean cycle of Bertie's life was fun while it lasted, but we could equally be happy when it ended because, well, the series had to end somewhere, and it's nice to see it end on a happy note. But then wait, nevermind, actually the universe has decided that Bertie never gets to be free and this stuff is going to keep happening to him forever. Bit of a bummer. Let my boy REST.

I can't think of a good sentence to wrap this up on and I've been very negative, so I'll just say that there were also many things in this book that I enjoyed. And Jonathan Cecil's performance on the audiobook is EXCELLENT, fully recommend. Thank you and good night

i didn't quite like aunts aren't gentlemen as much as i would have expected to and i'm not quite sure what exactly it is about it that i didn't like. i mostly liked the beginning, i mostly liked the ending, i think the series was done with much obliged, and this is the sort of Ehrenrunde that wasn't quite necessary. all the old threats to bertie are gone, madeline is married to spode, stiffy bing is married and can't blackmail him anymore, florence thinks he's a criminal and won't marry him, i have completely forgotten what happened to honoria but bertie ends the book un-affianced and about as nicely as anyone could, and while bertie's problems in general have something sisyphean about them, and that is usually a nice thing! we like what wodehouse is doing and now we're reading another one! its somewhat depressing this time when in aunt's aren't gentlemen all the same problems are back, when one would have expected him to be free of all that stuff. i think its that the book breaks the contract of wodehouse for me and i'm not sure if it's because i read it after Ring for Jeeves, which has a very different sort of contract and isn't quite the real world, but it's real world-adjacent, and in aunts aren't gentlemen we're not quite in berties world either, i think. at the end of the day the book isn't any less slapstick than the others, and it isn't that there's a tangible difference - all dangerous situations bertie ends up in are quickly resolved, und während sich in aunts aren't gentlemen genau wie in den anderen büchern auch letzten endes alles in wohlgefallen auflöst it seems to me like the world has gotten a little. meaner. it's like the illusion that keeps wodehouse contained in its own little world isn't quite there in aunts aren't gentlemen, and i can't quite put my finger on what it is, or if its something that the book itself does or if i'm imagining it

#i'm open to having my mind changed btw everyone feel free to give me your alternative interpretations #i think explicitly setting aag before ttb would have resolved a lot of these issues #as always i have written a much longer thing than i intended i'm so sorry #also i feel like a lot of it is just restating stuff you already said #i just heartily agree with all of it well done on your correct opinions #btw honoria got engaged to some dude we've never heard of in a short story called jeeves and the greasy bird #that was bertie's last near miss with her and we can probably assume that she's now safely married off #//#jeeves and wooster #j&w meta #aunts aren't gentlemen #jeeves books #ring for jeeves

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boymeetsweevil · 5 years ago

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Grouping: Reader x Taehyung

Word Count: 2700 exactly!

Warnings/Themes: use of toys, mutual masturbation?, tae has a sweat kink probably

Summary: The town being in a heat wave puts Tae’s in a bit of a love drought. But even still, he makes do and (kind of) does you.

Another drop of sweat rolls down Taehyung’s face. It makes his nose itch with the gentle grazing sensation and falls on the cardboard flap in his hands. The sweat darkens the area it lands on and he stops for a minute to take in the perfectly circular shape haloed from the way the drop burst on impact. Normally he wouldn’t be so interested in his own sweat, but he feels as though his thoughts are slowed and dulled by cotton. It’s the heat.

“I’m really sorry, Tae,” you apologize as soon as you return from your kitchen, a single plastic-wrapped treat in hand. “They’re not putting in the AC until tomorrow.”

“It’s fine,” he says pleasantly while taking the popsicle from you. But it’s not really fine.

The heatwave terrorizing your town has been going on for almost 9 days at this point. He’d volunteered to help you move in, only for the weather to put a halt in your plans. But after the 4th day, you couldn’t put it off any longer and had to go meet the movers at your new place. Taehyung being the chivalrous boyfriend that he was—or that he wanted to be—kept his word despite the warnings from various weather people on his TV telling him not to leave his own air-conditioned apartment.

Though it might seem as though his priorities aren’t in place, Taehyung would honestly admit that the worst part about the heat wave was the lack of sex that came rolling in with it. With your new place being on the other side of the city and with the both of you relying primarily on public transport to see each other, your sex life seemed to be dwindling—no—frying in the sun. So, when you brought up the move yesterday he figured he’d just be helpful with unpacking until the AC installation finished and then suddenly become very helpful with packing you full of him. But that doesn’t seem to be in the cards.

He bites at the popsicle forlornly with his back teeth. You have your own popsicle that’s a subtle pale green. It’s lime. Your favorite. Even if he didn’t know you well enough to know that you loved all things citrus, he’d still know you were enjoying the lime pop. The way you happily slurp around the cylinder while leaning on one of the larger boxes makes for quite the mirage in Taehyung’s sex desert. Your back is arched elegantly so you can peer out the window on the opposite wall and admire the much better view you have in your new space. And your skin looks iridescent with the sheen of sweat the weather has lovingly draped upon you. Then you catch a stray juice trail about to run onto your hand with the flat of your tongue and chase the flavor all the way to the top of the popsicle and Taehyung suddenly needs a plan B fast.

You jump with a shriek when your neck meets something shockingly cold and wet. Turning your head, you see that it’s just your boyfriend running the edge of his snack along the place where sweat was collecting like a pretty dew on your skin. His tongue follows the sticky path he just made, causing your eyes to flutter shut on their own before you fight them back open.

“What are you doing, that’s so...gross,” your breath hitches when he bites down at the intersection of neck and shoulder.

“Nothing.” The popsicle descends again to follow the same trail he made but, this time, you only flinch a little. “Just enjoying my snack.”

“Am I the snack?” You give him an unamused look.

“You’re always a snack, baby.”

“Sorry,” you’re not sorry but still remove his hand from your shorts with some care, “but I draw the line after 80 degrees.”

His hand only retreats a little and ends up sitting on your stomach, laying like a hot coal there. You can feel the arousal twisting your insides and raising your temperature like it does. The only problem is that this time you really can’t afford to get any warmer. You’re sure that you’ve already sweat out all the important things in your body and if you so much as look at Taehyung the wrong way, you’ll become a puddle that’s 20% you and 80% limesicle.

“But it’s been so long.”

The tip of his nose reacquaints itself with the shell of your ear. The heat of his front does the same with your back.

“You won’t die. Back off and help me with these other boxes. There might be a fan in here somewhere.”

The promise of a fan measures up fairly well against the promise of (sweaty) sex and he immediately hunts for the scissors he was using to open more of the boxes. With the blades in hand, he cuts through the tape holding yet another wardrobe box closed with hope as his only means of staying cool. The flaps reveal no spinning blade treasure—only kitchenware that you promptly scoop up and rush out the room with. Taehyung stares dumbly at your fleeing back, slick and bare besides a black sports bra, before cupping himself lightly. It’s just to take the edge off, his thinks to himself.

After the kitchenware layer, the box is rather oddly packed. There’s a bunch of hangers, which he promptly puts into your closet, and some knick knacks he knows you plan on putting on your bookshelves once they have books on them. There’s even some winter clothes that he’s fairly sure should have gone in a different box while you were packing them. Before he can dwell too much on your lack of packing skills, he reaches the bottom of the box, which contains yet another box. It’s a simple shoe box. Which wouldn’t be out of the ordinary if you were a shoe fan like some people he knew. However, you aren’t a shoe fan. In fact, all of your other shoes were jammed into the bottom of another box that had been opened earlier. So why do you have this shoebox here?

Going solely off intuition and knowledge about you after nearly a year together, he’s guessing there’s just some random sentimental things inside that you didn’t know where to put. If that’s what’s inside, he knows he shouldn’t peek, but he’s curious to see if anything to do with him is in the box. He pulls the lid up daintily, like the secrets won’t escape if he’s gentle, only to slam it back down as soon as he eyes the contents.

Well, he supposes sex toys could have sentimental value. But they don’t have much to do with him.

He lifts the lid again now that he’s certain nothing in the box can tell on him. With the sounds of you organizing your kitchen as his personal soundtrack, his begins rifling through the box. There’s a few bullets, what he thinks is a dildo but it’s covered in scales and has a few unnatural bends in it, some beads of varying sizes, and a classic hitachi among other things. Some of them he’d seen before, and some he hadn’t. Perhaps some of them kept you company before he started to. After a few thoughtful moments, he grabs one of the toys before replacing the lid and stashing the shoe box.

You’re almost finished sorting through all the different families of silverware you’ve collected over the years, when two hands land on your unclothed waist. The feeling of his palms on your sweaty skin has you squirming a bit.

“On a scale of one to ten, how wet are you,” Taehyung whispers in your ear.

“Your romance never ceases to amaze me.”

“Sorry, but...is it really just me?”

His forehead bumps against the back of your head as he takes in the way you look in shorts and a sports bra. It’s an understated look, to say the least, but he’s always loved the way you look with sweat on your skin.

“No,” you groan when he presses an open mouthed kiss to the nape of your neck. “But it’s just too hot to be doing cardio for no reason.”

His tongue darts out and flicks at your lobe, sending a quick blitz from your core out to your extremities. A small gush of arousal rushes down and you squeeze your thighs together in a stubborn effort to keep calm.

“What if I told you it’s not too hot?”

“You found the fan?” You turn around in his arms with shining eyes and he feels like an ass for not being able to say yes.

“No,” he grimaces. He attempts to wrap his arms around your waist placatingly, but you brush him off partly in anger and partly because you’re overheated. “But, if there’s no cardio needed, is it really too hot?”

“No cardio?”

You eye him suspiciously but let him drag you by the wrist back into the living room. Clearly he’s emptied out and flattened several other boxes since you took all your mismatched forks to the dining room for sorting. Only a few boxes remain unopened. The question of what he’s planning is still lingering when he pulls you over to a little setup that looks like he wrapped something in a pillowcase

“I don’t get it.”

“You will,” he grins boxy reassurance at you before sitting before the bundle on the ground. You follow suit while he unwraps it to reveal a vibrator you hadn’t used in a long while.

“What’s the joke, again?”

“It’s not a joke,” he whines, “This is how we can be lazy and get off.”

“I never really liked that one. I got it for free in a raffle in college and it was weirdly shaped so I couldn’t really get it to work.”

“Please? I swear I can make this work.”

You’re really tempted to say no. There are several drops of sweat actually rolling down your back as you ponder having an orgasm in your now-90-degree apartment. It seems ill-advised and like more work than Taehyung is marketing, but he also makes a convincing case. The convincing case being him and the fact that he still manages to look nearly edible in the middle of a heat wave.

His hair is flat and darkened against his forehead, heavy and saturated with sweat after brushing it back with his hands. The summer sun has darkened him slightly, making his skin appear more radiant in combination with the layer of his light sweat. The fact that he’s been shirtless and handsy all day only works in his favor. You sigh in defeat.

“Fine.”

His expression brightens considerably and he scrabbles up to rest his weight on his knees and heels to tug off his shorts to reveal the simple black briefs he had on underneath. He returns to a reclined position before snatching up the vibrator. You don’t get much warning and only barely get your own shorts hanging off one leg before he’s switching the toy on and nudging it between your thighs.

“So how did you—Oh!”

He has it angled differently than you did the times that you used it, and you wonder through the vibrations traveling over you if it's actually supposed to be for someone else to use on you. The thought dissipates quickly with the sudden wave of acute pleasure that creeps over you. It’s the type of feeling that has you almost smirking to yourself as you bite your lip, eyelids drooping closed as you hum to yourself. Taehyung lets out a sympathetic moan when you start rocking your hips against the device ever so slightly.

When your underwear is wet enough that he can feel it dampening the tips of his fingers near the toy, he removes it from your center. Your breath catches in your throat in a needy scoff that he ignores in favor of placing the still pulsating toy over his own crotch. There’s a small wet spot darkening the material of his briefs where his swollen head lays tucked up. He’s never really ever used a vibrator, but he figures it can’t be too different an experience. But when he touches it gingerly to the base of his clothed erection, the vibrations knock his breath out his lungs.

“Fuck, oh my...god,” he chokes out. Greedily, his finger twitches to kick the speed up a half unit. The increase has him nearly drooling within seconds and creates a steady dribble of pre-cum. “Shit, that feels good.”

“Share,” you snap at him after about 90 seconds of neglect to you dripping center.

“Make me,” he mumbles before massaging the toy up and down his length, ripping a gasp from his own lips.

You don’t take kindly to Taehyung hogging the vibrator. So you kick off your panties the rest of the way and decide to sit on the toy to get some action where you can. Before that, though, you do him the service of tugging his briefs down until they bunch around his knees. Once you’re settled, you’ve effectively trapped him where you want him. On the floor with the toy nestled between your folds and his shaft.

With your added weight and the return of your subtle hip rocking, the vibrations feel more intense for the both of you. You hiccup above him, hands coming out to brace your weight on his chest. It’s the only point of contact between you besides where your pelvises are slotted together. Naturally sweat begins to pool in the small spaces where you’re both joined, but it’s minimal and you don’t care. Especially not after Taehyung’s clumsy fingers knock the pulses into one of the different pattern modes. The steady buzz between your folds becomes a sudden tangle of tiny bursts. The pleasure hits you in matching percussive beats and you curl over Taehyung helplessly as the first wave of your first orgasm hits.

His eyes are squeezed shut because he’s not accustomed to the intense vibrations, but the sound of your moans let him know that you just came. He’s quick to follow with a few shallow thrusts that have you instinctively tightening your thighs around his hips to maintain your balance. The low, drawn out sound of his groans is accompanied by his large hands coming in to lock at your hips, grinding you down against him, soaking him further with your arousal. His holding you down has you squealing and squirming with oversensitivity at first. But when he doesn’t let go even after he spurts onto his own chest, you feel the familiar curls of pleasure behind the acidic overstimulation. Your nails scratch a fiery trail down his chest, somehow further raising his internal temperature as you both struggle in the silent endurance competition.

Who can last against the toy longer?

With gritted teeth and a river of sweat dripping down from his forehead, Taehyung taps out first. He switches the toy back down to its lowest setting before letting out a bark and squeeze at the flesh of your hip in a silent surrender. Your breathing is harsh and you’re so exhausted that you don’t even bother to use the muscles in your thighs to get off him. Instead, you nudge the toy out from in between you and let it clatter to the floor between Taehyung’s thighs while you recover still in his lap.

“That was fun,” you pant after a few minutes of silence. The sweat cooling in the space between you and Taehyung makes you finally scoot off him and onto the floor.

“I told you it would work. We didn’t even have to move that much.”

“That’s also true.” You watch him use the spare pillow case to wipe off the tacky cum on his stomach. “I never doubted you for a second.”

“You definitely did!”

“I whined about how hot it is. I didn’t say I thought your plan would fail.”

“I guess.” He lays star-fished out in the middle of your sparsely decorated living room before popping his head off the ground. “We really do need to find that fan, though.”

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snkpolls · 6 years ago

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SnK S3E04 Poll Results (Manga Reader Version)

The poll closed with 407 responses. Thank you to everyone who participated!

Please note that this is the results of the manga reader poll. Anime only watchers are suggested not to read if you do not wish to be spoiled about certain events! Anime only viewers, click here to view your poll results!

Rate the episode

Overall, respondents gave the episode high ratings, with 90% total feeling that it was at least very good. The pollsters are very happy to see these ratings improve!

The episode felt short. I wanted more after watching it :)

The pacing of this episode was much better than the first two

We're only on episode 4 and about to enter the climax of the arc, not sure how I feel about this.

Very good. I hope that the skipped scenes appear in a later episode.

It was pretty neat. Sometimes stuff is a touch slow, but I know it’s all a lead up to what’s to come, and like, it’s important to have stuff that is slow sometimes so the big stuff feels even bigger.

This recent episode found a little boring to me. I feel like there's wasn't much action less Levi

Bruh I need the next episode like rn

Did you notice the subtle changes made to the animation in the OP this week?

Less than a quarter of respondents initially noticed that there was something different about the OP this week. However, just over half noticed them upon a second watch or seeing it pointed out by others.

I didn't notice the changes in the opening because I always skip it.

Which of the following scenes were your favorites?

Hange and Moblit taking out the MP’s won by a good margin. The runner up is Spider-Hange. Levi and Mikasa reacting to Kenny’s last name, Levi interrogating the Central MP and Jean testing Marlowe and Hitch were also very loved moments!

The moments between Jean and Marlowe is one of my favorites. That was really fantastic and Marlowe is going to be a wonderful SC member. Too bad he will die later. I was really upset about it while reading the manga. He was such promising and brave guy.

I enjoyed the moment when Erwin asked Nile about Marie. It felt like he still had some feelings to her. I wonder if they're going to go back to this topic later (in flashbacks). Probably not.

This episode was so fucking amazing after the exposition heavy episode 3! I have literally waited years to see Hange taking down that MP animated, shit, the way she just casually like ducks away from the bullet... I used to keep staring at the badassery in that manga panel and now I am watching it on repeat, Wit got that scene so perfectly right!!

My whole life has lead up to this moment with Hitch and Marlo!!! Bless WIT for doing so good by my precious MP!

It was hilarious when 3MPs ran on the ground to chase Flegel while they are equipping ODMG. It was even funnier when one of them cried for joy catching Flegel without using ODMG.

Faithful to the manga with a healthy combination of action and world-building. LOVED Flegel's "I'm the boss" scene.

Erwin’s VA was superb! I was close to tears during the scene when he and Nile were talking.

Who made the best face when ambushing the MP base?

Connie won by a landside! There was no contest here, folks.

How bangable was Levi this episode on a scale of 1-5?

As expected, over half of respondents would love it if Levi totally wrecked them. Although there are still quite a few of you who would rather he not.

LEVI DADDY PLEASE STEP ON ME!

Levi in the moonlight was everything I never knew I needed.

Levi cutie crazy ass bitch

Levi. Le-vi. LEVI.

On a scale of 1-5, how distressed were you to see Erwin beat up and chained?

More than half of respondents are anxious to see Commander Handsome out of chains and cleaned up!

How Erwin can kneel before them on his own? When he knows how horrible they are that they made decisions that killed his father? How can he be like that? Oh just take my heart away already! It's not that I need it…

Also, seeing my husband all beat is tragic and seeing him hanging was far too distressing and I know what’s going to happen in this season, but I want to pretend it isn’t happening and that he might be happy when he reunites with Levi

Erwin also manages to look hot not matter how beat up he is, which isn't even fair.

I love Erwin and he deserves the world. That is all.

Are you feeling better or worse about the season so far?

Most voters either felt great about the season from the beginning or have started to warm up to it a lot more! There is still a small percentage of those who are still unsure or unhappy, however.

Feeling alright overall about it but disappointed about some parts being rushed/skipped

I did not like the first two episodes, but now that the pacing has slowed I’m starting to like the episodes better. Still salty about the first two though.

I knew I was going to love it just because it's AOT, but I won't know how much I love it until I've seen how they handle the RtS arc

I havent feel good, still dont feel good but its better than before, so a combo of the 2nd and 4th option

I'm loving the episodes, but I'm still unure about some of the removed scenes, specially the ones involving Historia and Levi COS i swear to dead Marco if they do not animate Levi's smile im gonna riot

I'll wait until this arc is over to cast any judgement. However, I do wish they would've expanded the Reeves' storyline. It kinda fell flat for me in the anime.

Was unsure at first with all the changes from the manga, but have come to accept that some things are gonna be different so I'm just gonna enjoy it as it is. At the end of the day, it's still Attack on Titan so I'll always enjoy it.

I’m just happy we’re getting this season at all

I never thought they could make the uprising arc funny and interesting

Instead of attacking the Centrap MP HQ, Squad Levi ambushed a small outpost on the outskirts of Trost instead. Did you like this change?

Nearly half of respondents were okay or even preferred this change. 36% are let down that there was no slicing and shooting though. Chin up guys, the cave is coming soon!

I always thought it was a little confusing that squad Levi would go all the way out to the central base, so I think this made more sense because of how they're still on the run. The anime version feels a lot more like they could be caught at any second, which is great!

I was looking forward to the 104th's subtle distressed reactions after having done what they had to do. But I guess the anime is not for subtle.

I'm not sure if replacing the newfound edge from the SC by a lulzy moment was a right choice. I feel like we're losing the grim aspect of the SC not being good guys anymore.

I didn't even remember how the manga handled that, so I didn't notice the change.

I honestly like both situations

While i did want to see the gang cut up peoples legs, the anime version made more sense and I'm down for any Springlestein.

While the cart charge was hilarious, I'm not sure why a small outpost would know anything about Eren and Historia's location.

I quite honestly didn't notice the difference, the real attraction was Levi fucking the old boy's shit up

While I hopedd they'd make it bigger, after watching the episode I grew to like it, it makes sense both geographically and in terms of the scale of the event.

Oh lol I totally expect them to go ahead and get the Central MP HQ next. I mean, didn't they also do that so that the MP's couldn't mobilise and come to Kenny/Rod's defense later on?

Were you expecting there to be more focus on the press?

Most respondents were expecting to get Hange’s talk with the press prior to exposing the Military Police. A few are certain it’s lost not, while a good 30% are hopeful that we’ll still get it in another way.

By making the newspaper Trost local, their presence didn't need to be explained, and some aspects from their talk from 60 can be merged with the little moment from the Rookie from 61 after Erwin's trial so as to not be redundant.

The talk with Hange and the press will no doubt happen next episode.

Having a flashback would be good, but I don't have much faith in them doing it

Indifferent to it, doesn't make much difference to the overall plot.

we will get them though not in a flashback half the arc has been rearranged remember.

I NEED Hange brooding on a desk in the press office, it's an important part of my spiritual development

I hope we get more Peaure :(

Which scene from the PV are you most looking forward to next week?

At 41%, the largest group is most anticipating getting a flash of Frieda in the mirror. It’s about time we get to see her in anime form after all these years, right? The remaining three scenes are at an even split.

Since we’re getting Frieda in the mirror, do you think there will be a flashback to the conversation about Eren’s experiments?

To build off of the previous question, over half of respondents are anticipating the potential for the bedside flashback to happen after all. 35% are optimistic that it will definitely happen, while 11% believe we’re getting Frieda flash in another way.

I'm hoping the Frieda content doesn't come across as too rushed in the next few episodes. In the manga, almost a year passed between the first Frieda flashbacks and Rod's full story in the chapel underground, but it seems Frieda's anime debut will be only an episode or two before the story. Still looking forward to how it all plays out!

Where do you primarily discuss the series?

Additional thoughts on the episode?

*chanting* STICK! STICK! STICK! STICK!

the changes are fine, doesn't stray too far from the manga. Maybe also makes the anime less of a drag.

Connie had goofy hat. All my stanards has been pleased.

Finally the pacing slowed down to a human level. I'm happy to see so much of Erwin, but it still pains me how he is characterized.

HITCH WITH THE STICK HOLY HELL. Honestly that whole fight scene between Hitch, Marlowe and Jean exceeded my expectations (hopefully not sounding too much like a worshiper). I just love it (probably too much).

Hanji can punch me and I’ll thank her

I MISS EREN AND HISTORIA

I can't believe Flegel sat on the dude's face lol.

Why did Not!-Marco not look like Marco at all?

I don't have a great memory of manga events but I'm feeling shocked - as though the anime is really rushing through events, so I feel worried now!

I love it. The animation when Hanji and Moblit attacked the MP was spectacular. The animators have continuously outdone themselves this season so far.

I'm not sure about my feelings and impressions about this season so far. I got disappointed before with other mangas adaptations, and now, I don't feel like trusting WIT for the moment, until I see some logical modifications.

When it was announced that there would be changes made I was skeptical and thought that the manga was perfect the way it was. Oh boy was I wrong. While I am still angry about some scenes, others just make more sense. I think wit is doing a great job.

Only thing that makes me sad is that Armin's glorious gesumin expressions weren't animated till now.

Honestly so excited to 24 episodes this time not 12. But still proper sick episode.

I've mentioned it on Tumblr before, but while I like how things have been centralized around Trost in this version of Uprising, it does cause an issue. How did Erwin, his captors, and Nile all get from Trost to Mitras in the space of a single morning? They military police either has teleporting tech or an underground bullet train. Or Isayama really wants to replicate S7 of Game of Thrones with characters teleporting all over.

NEXT EPISODE WE’L GET OUR ACKERTALK!!!!!! Eeeeek!!!

No Kenny?! So what kind of episode was that?!

I enjoyed this chapter a lot. Can´t wait to see Eren again.

Well fuck. Manga readers, we know what happens at the reiss chapel

Thank you to everyone who participated! We’ll see you again on Monday!

#snk poll #snk polls #snk spoilers #snk s3 #poll results

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bigbrothernetflix-st · 4 years ago

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EPISODE TWO

“I'm starting to feel more comfortable with my position in the game.” - dem

HOH: Josh C UPSIDE DOWN: Nick & Joshua NOMINEES: Emma & Nash POV: N/A FINAL NOMINEES: N/A EVICTED: Dem (Expelled)

EMMA

I been struggling in this game which is sad i want to have fun but yesterday made me feel like maybe having a meltdown and leaving 90 percent of servers was a good idea for me i really hope not i just really want to have fun and win for some reasons i always have trouble prejury in games trying to find my footing but at jury and late prejury i always know how to rise ASDFGH the people i really like rn are Jakey loml jev loml aria queen saira queen and also joshua is easy to talk too!!! nathan is also great

DEM

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HSgjyUhGTng

NASH

i simply think men should stop winning hoh and trying to nom me. its week 2 go target someone else j*sh. jev and i are cool now though <3 love him

DEM

I'm starting to feel more comfortable with my position in the game. I think I'm not in anyone's bad graces so far, which is good. But I really need to win one of these next HoH's so secure my social relationships. My plan moving forward is to see win HoH's. I want to win the next to HoH's I'm eligible in back to back. I also want to try to secure my relationships with Gina, Jev, and Jake. Those are three people I want to be close with in this game. Also maybe Joshua? He's pretty cool and chill.

SAIRA

I'm still getting a sense of how the game works but I feel pretty good, there are some people that are much easier to talk to than others but everyone is still so nice! i feel good about josh c as hoh! we get along pretty well and I don't THINK im in any danger but you never know! imma be honest, I don't have an actual plan, i'm mostly playing this by ear, just talking to people, bullying beck when the chance arises, and being myself!

JOSH C

HELLO GIRLIES!

well, we won HOH and that's really EXCITING. i probably didn't need to win this week but i figured that i'd get a win under my belt while nominating people would still be EASY. i can establish trust with some people and get a "i didn't nom you, please don't nom me" situation going on. i also feel like the two people i'm going to nominate would have NOMMED me anyways because we just haven't talked..

who those people are? nash & emma. (vl don't hate me for only nominating women i didn't want it to come to this either)

but i just.. both of them have really only put in any effort to talk to me now that i'm HOH and i don't really LOVE that tbh. i've already told a few people that's who i'm thinking so i kind of accidentally locked myself in on these noms because there isn't any sense in throwing out more names than i have to!!

i have an alliance with kiki, brianna, jacob, jake, and aria. (i think that's the people in it? i wanna say that's right. LKFMSDG love this game for me) and i feel pretty good in that because i like all of them enough and they're people that will watch out for ME and each other. but i know my social connections go beyond that so i'm feeling pretty good with my spot in the game? i have a solid relationship with almost everyone in the game and i think i should be able to play a cute lil utr game for a few weeks. i don't think that i'll get targeted first if my alliance gets outed and if so.. i have ENOUGH faith in my comp strength and relationships to save me against MOST of the cast.

people kind of want me to nominate DEM because apparently he starts drama with people and has been a bit inactive. he's talked with me more than other people so im not super keen on throwing him on the block RIGHT AWAY but i'm thinking he's a good replacement nom because if people think he's MIA then no one other than him will be upset with me. maybe a backdoor? could be spicy..

i don't really know what else to say here so.. i hope this is enough! love u guys <3

BRIANNA

https://youtu.be/mJw3qxsZ-Bg

JEV

Okay so I feel like pretty comfortable this week because me and Josh have gotten pretty close and bonded over our mutual love of Lucas HOWEVER he's just let me know he's gonna be nominating Nash and Emma which isn't GREAT since I'm in alliances with both of them and they're the only 2 alliances I have so I really wouldn't want to see either of them go home this week, this SUCKS ASS

JAKE

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tt2xRQqqax8

ARIA

how is it ONLY week 2 i feel so hecking exhausted fhsabfd, but that might also be the fact that is 2 am so,,,oop. Um okay recap time!!!! Recaps are so hard because theres minor details that i still want to note without seeming super annoying so heres a minor list of things im noticing

-Dem wants to "start playing the game" I told this to Jake (wish i could bold names ugh)

-Gina & dem told me they were gunning hard for hoh- i told nathan/monty/nick/,,,,and someone else this

-emma feels unconnected from cast

-Jake doesnt like Gina

-Josh likes Me Jev Kiki (told joshua)

-emma knows alliances are starting to form

-joey can get pwr hungry and chaotic + good comp ability

-told gnia my thoughts on the sides being "connected v unconnected" and other tidbits of info

-GIna (potentially joshua) doesnt like nash

-Nathan/Nash ARE CLOSE!!!!! WEE FUCKING WOO!!!!

-Told Jake that Jacob has the power (and the bs excuse he told gina pretending he doesnt have it,,,sure jan)

-jake is GREAT at lowering his threat lvl im sick

-Jev-Josh-Nathan-Nash all bonded p well on vc potentially an alliance

-jake tried to get gina nominated

-Emma Nash noms

-Jake doesnt want emma to leave

So,,,thats what you missed on GLEE! Honestly glee sucks but yeah thats all my info i would weave everything together with cute transitions but im TIRED and lots of this information doesnt really connect well so,,,have a bullet list!

okok nvm heres some general thoughts bc JUST a bullet point list is so boringgg im honestly not too sure what i want to do this week bc i think emma doesnt have a lot of people (although she has jake apparently,,,she might just be putting up a front of being unconnected ffs) so i would rather keep her around based on our relationship alone esp compared to nash whose been busy w/ irl things to reply i think (nash would prob do gr8 in old school bb,,,but new school is a whole other beast) HOWEVER!!! I need to protect gina who isn't the best conversationalist (sorry bb ily but its true <3) and keeping nash around ensures people have another "inact" target besides her but also nash is such a god connection for people like nathan and jacob and i would rather get her out sooner than later before we have another renee on our hands ...

Also i havent talked to the pasio peeps (omg if we ever make an alliance,,,that should be the name hehe) in a while and idk if theyre distancing themselves or if theyre just busy fndsjafd god im too paranoid for this game its awful. Also i think i mentioned the alliance with josh kiki bri jake jacob last time and it still isnt made and im PRAYINGGG it never gets made bc i have SUCH an awful feeling like SIX FUCKING PEOPLE??? S I X?? THAT IS GOING TO FAIL AND BLOW UP!!!! but i cant say no to an alliance so here i fucking am :/ also im trying to think of my longevity in this game and like,,, idk im nervous. I mean ive mentioned going to the end with multiple people but i have such a bad feeling im gonna go out 9/10 as a big move and i REFUSE to let that shit happen, not on my fucking watch no sir!! Not sure what to do about it yet but i feel like monty in particular doesnt trust me and i need his ass OUT! or maybe not if he comes around but like??? sir pls talk to me- i mean this phase of the game is early im setting up the pawns for later, but before later theres gonna be a couple explosions of my game which i'll have to deal with,,, or maybe not actually i mean in my first org i did a really well mastermind game with it- nvm it did explode on me once FDBSHFDS yeah so theres gonna be an explosion period but i think im getting good at dealing w/ the backlash from it and reintegrating myself..

oh also yeah im safe this week lol

anyway sorry for rambling so much LMAO have a trust ranking!

1.Gina (MY QUEEN!!!!!!!! i LOVE her!)

-BIG BIG FUCKING GAP-

2.Jake (listen,,,my thoughts go back and forth but he did tell me the noms so,,,have some rights)

3.Saira (we never talk game but i dont think she talks with anyone about game beyond maybe nick and also shes nice and im a sucker for nice girls)

4.Emma (if this isnt all just a front shes gonna make a great number for me,, might need to fact check some of her statements tho)

5.Joshua (honestly? i love him hes so funny and i think he has my back although he could be more act)

6.Nathan (literally havent talked in 3 days but also i have a soft spot for him <3)

-GAP-

sorry the Js are just kinda scary lmao JFNSDKF

7.Nick (!! we gotta an actual connection folks!! heck yeah!)

8.Josh c (im safe! but he D E F trusts others more than me such as Joshua and Jacob)

9.Jev (honestly a king but hes a little quiet although his reccs are the BOMB)

10.Jacob (i know youre being sneaky,,,idk what youre being sneaky with but im getting the vibes)

11.Dem (might be weird but i think he trusts me? at least a little bc he ranted about losing to me so O.0)

12.Brianna (youre adorable and deserve the world but everyone likes you,,,is this how people view me omg fhsabfhds)

13.Kiki (youre SO hecking sweet and actually u probs have a connections to nash but we havent talked ANY game yet)

14.Nash (p,,p-please talk to me uwu)

15.Joey (i dont trust you at ALL! Why? good question-)

was that mean? sorry in advance ilyall but also its 3 am brain empty no filter

NASH

i think jev and nathan might end up being good allies of mine (inb4 betrayal)! despite the mistake he made nomming me, talking to jev has been lovely so far he's getting me into loona LMFAO. and i just love nathan's energy & i feel like as the season goes on i can see him winning comps. i'm excited :3 hope josh c does not end my existence this week

JOEY

I feel FANTASTIC about Josh being HoH. I’m making sure that others are coming to me about gameplans, and I’m making sure I don’t come off as too pushy or aggressive in PMs. With most of the players, I’m trying to give them all the same energy and hype. It seems kinda weird to say this, but I’m not concerned about being nominated at this point. What I need to ensure is building my social relationships with people outside the “Crackhouse”, and yes that big ol friend group moved to Discord in 20 minutes like 6 months ago.

This is the first major game I’ve ever played with Skinny Nick(yes, I’m absolutely confused as to what to call them, I’m so used to calling Nick “Eve” that its going to take time to adjust.) Speaking of Nick, my social relationship with him is actually surprisingly similar. In the past, I felt as though it would be as “on-sight” as Tom & Jerry, and it actually isn’t turning out that way, which is surprisingly refreshing. Every day, I’m making sure I send Nick something different to diversify my social game with them. Yesterday, I asked Nick about his preferred streaming services for music and TV, and I discovered we have the same music service(Apple Music).

I’ve played one game with Monty before, but it was a disaster. We were in pairs, and it felt like we were on different planets. I did tell him to not worry about personal feelings when it comes to this game, because I compared the relationship of BB Netflix and the Crackhouse to the separation of church and state. I made that comparison because the two entities of church and state should never cross, but when they do it becomes disastrous, and I feel as though that same principle applies to this game.

Overall, I feel good, Emma may be going up on the block, but it shouldn’t affect me that much. We’re in the early stage, I want to make sure I’m good with everyone.

ARIA

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kFeox7LM1-E

JAKE

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OLkZ-BIIjTU

HOUSE MEETING

https://youtu.be/BZMorvWvyKY

HOST WEEKLY CAST ASSESSMENT WEEK 1 & 2

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vc-iMpkfrdw&list=PLFEwPPy8j010XXwntq80VSU0qLNTNpSIN&index=3&t=0s

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sherereadssthemanuscript · 7 years ago

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The Past is Beyond Our Control

#ChoicesCreates Round 21, Prompt was - What if…

Book: Endless Summer

Rating: M (Death, Accidental self harm, PTSD, Sensitive themes)

Genre: Angst

Pairings: Jake x MC (Taylor), Grace x Aleister, Zahra x Craig, Diego x Varyyn, Sean x Michelle

Words: ~2000

Summary: What if… two words people often think of when they know… their alternate decisions could affect the outcomes of certain situations… Alas, The Butterfly Effect is unstoppable just like time itself. We can only learn to cope and move on.

A/N: WOW. we have been doing this without fail for 21 weeks, I couldn’t be more impressed @hollyashton , this week’s host is @catsrtheboss !! If anyone noticed this title is a line from Until Dawn… don’t tell Sony I don’t want to be sued… anyway this fic is heavy stuff, very angsty, actually, nothing but angst and sadness but enjoy nonetheless haha. Also since ES is in itself incomplete some scenarios were made up by me, some idols prophecy happened, some didn’t , just a head up!

Grace

It’s been 2 months since they were rescued from La Huerta… not all of them survived and not all the bodies were recovered…

Grace’s mom was desperate to get her usually cheery and curious daughter back…

“Grace Tamara Hall…” the middle aged woman read off of her patient’s medical report. Her thick glasses positioned comfortably on her nose.

“Not gonna lie, I was honored when Blaire Hall chose me to be your psychiatrist, she cares about your well being a lot, sweetie”

Grace snorted knowingly, never meeting the doctor’s eyes. The doctor sighed flipping through the pages of her patient’s report.

“Look… whether you want to face it or not, and I am assuming it’s the latter, you have PTSD, my dear. Post Tr–”

“Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. I am not stupid and I am fully aware of my condition” Grace mumbled while rubbing her temples

“Oh… well… What if we try–”

“What if… I think about these two words often.” Tears welled up in her eyes as her bottom lip started trembling.

“I was… suggesting… maybe you could tell me the source of your regret and I will help you… I promise, Ms. Hall…” The doctor said, her voice sounding more sincere than before

Once again, Grace was in the lab located inside mount Atropo. She was on the ground , her entire frame shaking after seeing three of her friends being hailed by bullets… She and her friends failed to input the right password which would deactivate the protection protocols.

Aleister

She couldn’t believe it he was… no more… Their feelings… Their spark… it never had a chance to become a fire. She wanted to be with him, she wanted to hug him… to run her hands through his platinum hair… To gaze into his deep, thoughtful baby blues… instead she was staring into his lifeless eyes, and watched as the color drained from his already pale skin.

Grace was paralyzed with fear, anger and despair, IRIS’s cold, heartless, mechanical voice rang in the room , breaking her panic attack.

“Directive 1908… Revival procedure available…”

These words gave a her a glimpse of hope… before…

“Password input required.”

“No…” Taylor mumbled “We can’t risk this input bullshit anymore! Look what happened to our friends!”

“Taylor… what if we can save them… save him!” Grace’s voice was cracking. She sounded miserable and… slightly selfish… and she knew it.

“Grace, it’s too risky!” Michelle shouted.

“We can’t just do nothing!”

Grace ran to the computer. She thought of all the things the password could be. Her first two attempts were failures, now was her last chance… she entered her last guess …

IRIS clicked for a second “…Input Invalid”

She felt dizzy… she failed … she failed her friends and she failed herself. She couldn’t hold back her tears.

IRIS’s cold expression softened and the robot looked at her direction.

“I am… so sorry… Grace…”

A spark of electricity glistened down the hologram’s cheek like a teardrop.

“Emergency s-self destruct initiated.”

Her orb started smoking as her image distorted, her face turning into a grimace of agony before disappearing, shutting down the lights in the room with her.

“And just like that… I lost four of my friends… in about ten minutes…”

“…Four..?”

“IRIS… it wasn’t her fault… she was our friend” tears were threatening to pour down her face once again.

She wiped her tears. “Dr. Williams I appreciate this… I do… I know my mom payed a lot for my appointments but I… I can’t do this…” she stood up from the comfortable cushion and headed for the door.

“Grace… after a traumatic experience… closure is essential… you can’t shut everyone off. It will worsen both your physical and mental…”

Grace didn’t buy any of it, she was determined to leave, she opened the door and threw a glance at Dr. Williams once again, her expression was calm and professional.

“Ms. Hall, the past… is beyond our control… you’ll have to accept it or you will never heal.”

After a moment of consideration… Grace was out the door.

Zahra

It’s been two months since they were rescued. Two months since they left that… God forsaken island… it’s been one months, twenty seven days, 6 hours and 23 minutes since the last time she was outside. She basically barricaded herself from the outside world, from her friends, from her family, from her guilt. It’s been two months, fifteen days, seven hours, and forty three minutes since the last time she saw him…

at this point moving in a group was becoming dangerous, Sean, Jake, Yvonne and Craig were preparing themselves to explore this fucked up place even further. Turns out there’s not just a couple of mythical creatures in this place, maybe tens or even hundreds of different species. Exploring the fauna wasn’t their mission though.

“Do you guys have a deathwish?!” Michelle protested. “Whatever we do we should always do as a group. No splitting up have you learned NOTHING from 90s horror flicks?!” Sean just stared at her , listening to her rant before wrapping one arm around her and pulling her into a hug.

“Please… be safe… I almost lost you here once already…” Michelle cried.

Zahra watched all that before moving her gaze towards Craig. His eyes were on her as well but noticing their eye contact he quickly looked away. Everyone knew what they were attempting was dangerous and… probably pointless… whatever they were attempting, she didn’t quite catch.

Do something… Zahra thought to herself…

“Craig…” she approached him and caught his attention.

“Hey…” He said. They stared longingly into each other’s eyes.

“Craig, I…” his hand brushed hers softly.

And… of all the things she could have thought of… their past good times… their past laughter… their past intimacy… she thought of how he abandoned her… like an old toy he didn’t need anymore when he found a better hobby. She pulled her hand away from him

“Try not to fuck everything up, imbecile.” She left his side but kept throwing occasional glances before they left… he was gritting his teeth… was it anger ? was it regret? She would never find out.

She was sitting in the middle of her room. She moved all her furniture away one day and just preferred sitting on the ground from then on. The silence was deafening. Sometimes she swore she could hear her own blood flowing in her veins.

She kept staring at her phone screen. Specifically at a picture of her and Craig, after his first game in the football team, her hands were around his neck hugging him close and his hand was around her waist.

Zahra blocked her phone and stood up. She Kept circling around the room , thinking of what she’s done. She could have kissed him… she could have told him that she cared about him and wanted to be a part if his life again once they were safe. She could have said…

I love you.

But she didn’t. And the last thing she ever told him was an insult… one he … never deserved…

“Didn’t he now?” she whirled around. Staring back at her was her reflection in a mirror. But it wasn’t her it had a malicious face full of anger.

“Don’t you remember?!” The reflection shouted. “Did you forget how he forgot you. How he threw you away?!

Zahra turned her back to the mirror hoping the hallucination would stop

“Sh-Shut. Up.” “He didn’t need you. I bet he made fun of you with his new friends. The pretty little cheerleaders. Honestly, even though I knew he had no taste, didn’t think he’d replace you with those Barbie dolls

“That’s not true… He didn’t –”

“Oh it is. He was a traitorous, irresponsible, idiot and deserved whatever he got. He was a waste of spa–”

“SHUT YOUR FUCKING MOUTH" Zahra’s fist collided with the mirror shattering it in tens of pieces.

She was shaking and breathing heavily. She didn’t feel the pain kick in though, until she saw how blood flowed down her entire wrist, soaking her jacket with the warm liquid. Might have damaged a vein. She collapsed on the floor and reached for her phone.

She hasn’t called anyone in one month, fourteen days, six hours and nine minutes…

"911… help, please… I’m b-bleeding…”

Sean

He has left the football team. Although both his coach and the team were trying to change his time but he was determined… he wasn’t playing without his best friend.

Not like he would have anyone supporting his decision. He could contact the survivors but it wouldn’t be the same.

Michelle

He couldn’t believe she committed suicide… she knew what she was doing, it was definitely suicide. He shouldn’t have blamed her for Craig’s death…

“Sean, quick! Michelle went outside!” Taylor alerted him. He rolled his eyes.

“Why should I care?”

“Wh-what are you talking about, she could get herself killed.”

“Why. should. I help. her. Did she do anything to help Craig? She could have helped him, he was crying out for her…. But she just stared and did nothing” Sean hissed in anger.

“Sean, that’s not fair, she was paralyzed with fear!”

“Oh yeah? maybe she’ll get paralyzed again outside and you’ll drag her back?!” He stormed off.

For the most part, he blamed himself for her death. He didnt care enough. He never did. Maybe thats why their relationship kept failing. But he did have strong feelings for her and kept trying again.

He didnt want to admit it but he had weak rational thinking. He usually went with his gut or momentary emotions. He also didnt want to admit but if it hasnt been for his idleness… and inaction… his friends might have still been alive.

No more.

He'd rejoin the team. He loved football… he would not develop more regrets… he's had enough.

Varyyn

After his revival ritual performed by Uqshaal, Varyyn was told that the Catalysts fulfilled their destiny and saved their tribe.

He was also told that not all of the catalysts made it…

Diego

They died together but unfortunately the Vaanti revival ritual would never work on a human

It was unfair… unfair that he’d get to continue his life and become a king but Diego would not and without him does it even matter?

He convinced his mother to bury Diego next to former kings and honored warriors He deserved to be honored like one of them.

The Vaanti had festivities dedicated to the bravery of the catalysts for weeks to come.

It was a bittersweet feeling but Varyyn was glad that time will now be their only enemy…

“I am very proud of you, Varyyn” Uqshaal said putting a hand on his shoulder.

“Thank you”

“Are you ready for your speech in front of our tribe?”

“Yes… I am…”

Taylor

She wished she was stronger… She wished she could have saved them all… she was supposed to be a leader yet she failed the group.

Her choices led to disastrous results, she tried to contact the survivors but they kept saying they were… busy… yeah, sure…

She couldn’t help a little offended but she didn’t blame them, the experience scarred all if them deeply at this point she didn’t think surviving was worth it. She missed her best friend, Diego.

They left him for six. Fucking. Months. And at the end still weren’t able to save him. She kept rewatching the stupid videos they would film out of boredom He always seemed so positive… so careless. She knew it wasn’t true but he was always a great friend.

She felt like a monster sometimes because even after the whole thing she could still laugh sometimes and have nice dreams. Was something wrong with her? Was that just her own special little way of going… insane?.. What if she died too? And this was just a figment of her dying mind… what if every…thing died because of her?

Jeez, if Jake was here… he’d give her a nickname, something like Courage the Cowardly dog or some other paranoid character

Jake…

God, she missed him. His one liners and snarky remarks. His little smirk that could make her either roll her eyes or feel butterflies having WWE fights in her stomach. His last moments still go in a continuous loop in her mind.

“Princess… don’t freak out but… I think I am dying…” he was coughing out drops of blood. Everything happened so damn fast she didn’t even realize what happened

“Jake please… no, don’t leave me I can’t do this without you” she cried against his jacket, cupping his face.

“Don’t say that– you’re– you’re so smart and incredible… you could pull this off all by yourself you– I am in so fucking in love with you, Taylor” he blurted out clutching his side. “

Jake… no, please…” She kissed him passionately, like it was the last time because… frankly it was. She felt the metallic taste of blood but it didn’t bother her at all. She knew that if she let go… he’d be gone…

He will never be gone, he’ll always be in her heart, in the back of her mind, grinning cockily, calling her princess for the first time. But she needed to let go. Outside of La Huerta… she had no power over time and she’d need to learn to let go and move on. Or she’ll always, subconsciously be… in one of those time loops… unable to get out.

An incoming call broke her from her gaze, it was Sean, she was ever so slightly euphoric to hear his voice.

“Sean! Hey!” She said in a maybe a little to excitedly.

“Hey, Taylor… it’s good to hear your voice.” She smiled at those words

“Yours too, Sean…”

“I– I don’t know how this happened but Zahra’s in a hospital… Grace went to check in her to see the door smashed in by the emergency… her veins were cut… could be self harm” She was silent. Now she felt even more like a monster, laughing and genuinely feeling great sometimes while her friend suffered from depression.

“Taylor..? You there..?”

“Yeah it’s just…”

“I am going to visit her, do you want me to pick you up?”

That’s it. That’s what they needed. Be there for each other. With each other. Together they’d heal much faster than by themselves.

“Yeah, sure!”

“Great, see you Taylor” she could feel him smile through the phone.

She quickly grabbed her apartment keys and headed for the door, throwing a glance back at her room. Next to her bed… folded neatly was a certain dark green jacket. She stared at it before grabbing and putting it on. Yeah… she’d move on… doesn’t mean she couldn’t cherish memories…

#playchoices #choicescreates #round 21 #endless summer #mc x jake #graleister #namasiao #diego x varyyn #sean x michelle #grace x aleister #zahra x craig

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writeallofthethings · 6 years ago

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4 EASY TIPS FOR CUTTING BACK ON WORD REPETITION

October 10, 2016 EV Scarlet

When I’m line-editing my writing projects, I’m a HUGE nerd for sentence fluency. I don’t know why. Each sentence has a rhythm or cadence, and sometimes it just sounds wrong unless I phrase it just right. Word repetition plays a huge role in this and can be one of the easiest things to spot out when you sit down to edit.

Of course, there’s a good type of repetition, and a bad type. While the good type sounds poetic, the bad type sounds choppy and awkward.

Changing up your word choice doesn’t mean you have to resort to some highly eloquent speech or anything. In fact, you should NEVER raid the thesaurus just for the sake of mixing it up.

There’s no rule for word variation. There’s no “you can only use the same word once every 500 words” or something. It’s something you want to be aware of, but if your character is more likely to say “like” instead of “such as,” it’s not bad writing to have them say “like” 90% of the time. That allows your narrator to have their own voice.

As such, I’d be more concerned about a lack of word variation in a smaller excerpt of text (like a paragraph or a page) as opposed to larger chunks like chapters or the book as a whole.

It’s an art, because while you don’t want to lean into bad repetition, you also don’t want to make things so complicated that you’ve lost your reader. You don’t want to jump through hoops to avoid repeating yourself, or that will mess up your sentence cadence even more.

An Example of Word Repetition Take a word like “door,” where there really aren’t any synonyms for it. I mean, technically there are, like “portal” or “entry” or “ingress” or something, but I mean, if you’re just talking about the door to a bedroom, any of those words are highly inappropriate. A door can just be a door. It’s a matter of fancy footwork to keep things from dragging.

Here’s an example with heavy repetition of the word “door.”

With a deep draw of breath, I stepped towards the door. This time I’d do it. I’d knock and I wouldn’t leave until she opened the door. Each step was firm with confidence, and far too soon, I stood in front of her door. I set my shoulders and raised my hand to knock. The proximity to her door almost made me turn away, but I was already decided. I knocked.

After a pause, the door opened on silent hinges.

Despite it being a common word without many sensible replacements, you CAN avoid overusing it.

With a deep draw of breath, I stepped towards her room. This time I’d do it. I’d knock and I wouldn’t leave until she let me in. Each step was firm with confidence, and far too soon, I stood in front of her door. I set my shoulders and raised my hand to knock. The proximity to the painted wood that hid my sister from the world almost made me turn away, but I was already decided. I knocked.

After a pause, the door opened on silent hinges.

Doesn’t that sound better? Try reading the whole thing out loud if you need to. Seriously, reading something out loud can work wonders when it comes to flow. As soon as your tongue trips over something awkward, you’ve found your problem.

Once you’ve recognized a word repetition problem, here are some ways to fix it: Try rewording your sentence. Even if you use the same word, if it’s used in a different spot in the sentence it’s not as annoying. If you start every sentence with “The door” then your lack of word variation is all the more glaringly obvious, since it’s also paired with a lack of sentence variation.

Think of another way to say it. Even if it’s not necessarily a synonym, this can help. In my example, I substituted “door” with “painted wood.” Not all painted wood is a door, but since the door was already mentioned, I can trust my reader to know what I’m talking about. Just don’t go too crazy.

Read it out loud. I know I’ve already said this. And I know just about every writing advice thing says this and no one actually does it, but seriously. You will catch so much. Awkward sentence cadence, missed words, inorganic dialogue.

Plus, if you’re alone and you don’t have to worry about listening in, you can get into it and give your characters all a different voice and call yourself a dork.

Don’t raid the thesaurus. Please don’t. Please, please. It does not work.

For fun, I’m going to replace every usage of “door” with the order they’re listed for Word’s thesaurus. Granted, the differences between these synonyms for “door” should be more obvious than other words, but any improper thesaurus raiding basically reads like this:

With a deep draw of breath, I stepped towards the entrance. This time I’d do it. I’d knock and I wouldn’t leave until she opened the gate. Each step was firm with confidence, and far too soon, I stood in front of her entry. I set my shoulders and raised my hand to knock. The proximity to her exit almost made me turn away, but I was already decided. I knocked.

After a pause, the access opened on silent hinges.

That’s for a common word like “door,” at least. Honestly, repeating a word like “door” isn’t a huge problem. It’s common, and we’re used to hearing it all the time. You can reword a bit so you’re not using it every sentence, but don’t worry about using it more than once on the same page.

Using Uncommon Words? When it comes to uncommon words and phrases, you need to be a bit more careful. Dropping in some words like “jubilant” or “morose,” while pretty, will also attract more attention.

Adding in some higher-level vocabulary is a great and powerful thing for your writing. It adds some flavoring and color, and you’re doing good for your readers too, by teaching them some cool new words. But those colorful new vocab words also stick out since we’re not used to hearing them. When you use an uncommon word multiple times on the same page or even in the same chapter, it feels jarring and unnatural.

So keep adding in some nice new words, but keep it to a sprinkling. You might not notice yourself repeating these words in drafts, so have a friend or writing buddy read it. They’re more likely to notice the repetition than you are.

By the way, did you subconsciously notice that I used the word “cadence” multiple times in this post? It’s one of those more uncommon words that will catch your attention, even if you’re not consciously thinking about it. (I snuck it in so you could see the example for yourself!). Then again, if you were skimming, you probably missed it.

Best ways to find word repetition? If you’re not aware of which words you might be over using, here’s a handy dandy word counter thing for you! Simply paste in a chapter or however much, and it’ll tell you how many times you use certain words.

Please be smart when using this. Obviously you’re going to have a billion uses of “the” and “a” and stuff, so don’t go through trying to varying up your transitional and prepositional words. If you are using the same word (not including every “and” and “but”, like I said) maybe 10+ times in the same chapter, go through each instance and see if there’s a better way to say it, at least for a few of them.

Most of my current WIP takes place in a cemetery. Although there’s technically a difference between a cemetery and a graveyard, my narrator doesn’t care enough to make the distinction, so I have her swap out between the two terms. Since it’s part of my setting, these words will still turn up a lot and they’ll become “common” to my readers, but I think it’s a nice little way to keep things fresh.

And despite bullet point #4, you can use the thesaurus. In fact, thesauruses are awesome. But be deliberate with which word you choose as your replacement. Make sure the connotation and the meaning fit up with what you’re going for.

#editing

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nekoabi · 7 years ago

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I am rubber, you are glue, do all 100

Let’s freaking do this...

1: when you have cereal, do you have more milk than cereal or more cereal than milk? - Lmao, what’s milk?

2: do you like the feeling of cold air on your cheeks on a wintery day? - completely! it’s one of the best feelings ever...

3: what random objects do you use to bookmark your books? - pieces of paper usually

4: how do you take your coffee/tea? - I don’t!

5: are you self-conscious of your smile? - Always...

6: do you keep plants? - Never tried tbh

7: do you name your plants? - I probably would, but then I’d forget their names...

8: what artistic medium do you use to express your feelings? - Singing or doodling

9: do you like singing/humming to yourself? - yes, a lot

10: do you sleep on your back, side, or stomach? - side mostly, but i seem to wake on my stomach sometimes

11: what's an inner joke you have with your friends? - Ukanlos and Kapi ;)

12: what's your favorite planet? - Earth... because we live here...

13: what's something that made you smile today? - being with friends

14: if you were to live with your best friend in an old flat in a big city, what would it look like? - a mish-mash of fandom things and theatre stuff everywhere

15: go google a weird space fact and tell us what it is! - The hottest planet is not the closest planet to the Sun. Apparently, Venus is.

16: what's your favorite pasta dish? - tomato and basil pasta with cheese and chicken dippers.

17: what color do you really want to dye your hair? - NEON PINK.

18: tell us about something dumb/funny you did that has since gone down in history between you and your friends and is always brought up. - “Oh no, there’s people here!!!!1″ aka the reason I never touched League of Legends since...

19: do you keep a journal? what do you write/draw/ in it? - I wish I did, but I don’t

20: what's your favorite eye color? - dark brown, practically black

21: talk about your favorite bag, the one that's been to hell and back with you and that you love to pieces. - it’s checked black and white, with the pattern changing a bit. It has some pins in it, has a voodoo doll keychain

22: are you a morning person? - pffffft nah

23: what's your favorite thing to do on lazy days where you have 0 obligations? - chill on tumblr, listen to music and chat with friends

24: is there someone out there you would trust with every single one of your secrets? - Cedric

25: what's the weirdest place you've ever broken into? - I haven’t broken in, what?

26: what are the shoes you've had for forever and wear with every single outfit? - Trainers that used to be my mum’s. They’re dying, but they’re so comfy

27: what's your favorite bubblegum flavor? - Strawberry

28: sunrise or sunset? - Sunset, every time

29: what's something really cute that one of your friends does and is totally endearing? - They laugh, it is honestly precious!

30: think of it: have you ever been truly scared? - yes

31: what is your opinion of socks? do you like wearing weird socks? do you sleep with socks? do you confine yourself to white sock hell? really, just talk about socks. - i love socks, but no sleeping in socks... that’s just not right and makes me think about Waitrose

32: tell us a story of something that happened to you after 3AM when you were with friends. - um, i had a huge laughing fit because of Memerald and “Your name is... Disappearance”

33: what's your fave pastry? - I... honestly don’t know...

34: tell us about the stuffed animal you kept as a kid. what is it called? what does it look like? do you still keep it? - Lotus. She’s a bear, her midsection has been replaced and I love her.

35: do you like stationary and pretty pens and so on? do you use them often? - Oh. My. Fucking. God. Yes. As an SM, yes. I love to use them to do anything; note-taking specifically

36: which band's sound would fit your mood right now? - I... don’t know... I wanna go for FoB?

37: do you like keeping your room messy or clean? - I kinda like an organised mess, tho cleaning is so therapeutic for me omg

38: tell us about your pet peeves! - chewing with mouth open, talking shit about stuff you don’t understand, being mean to animals..

39: what color do you wear the most? - Black (likemysoul)

40: think of a piece of jewelry you own: what's it's story? does it have any meaning to you? - An old friend gave me a necklace watch shaped like the riceball from Fruits Basket. It’s pretty special because we don’t talk anymore... even tho we’ve said we should...

41: what's the last book you remember really, really loving? - Does a Sonic comic book count? Because Sonic Boom comics are amazing!

42: do you have a favorite coffee shop? describe it! - Nope!

43: who was the last person you gazed at the stars with? - I think @laurenjillard, walking back to our student house

44: when was the last time you remember feeling completely serene and at peace with everything? - I’ll get back to you on that...

45: do you trust your instincts a lot? - Sorta? I mean, it depends on the situation

46: tell us the worst pun you can think of. - Oh shit... I’m terrible at puns! I have failed Cardigan Bab!

47: what food do you think should be banned from the universe? - Brussell Sprouts.

48: what was your biggest fear as a kid? is it the same today? - Spiders. Yes.

49: do you like buying CDs and records? what was the last one you bought? - Currently, yeah! I last bought two Bullet for my Valentine albums, and a Sum-41 album!

50: what's an odd thing you collect? - I get plushies? I have far too many...

51: think of a person. what song do you associate with them? - Freeze Your Brain.

52: what are your favorite memes of the year so far? - Oh crud... I forget... which memes happened this year? I guess, “if you play this at...”

53: have you ever watched the rocky horror picture show? heathers? beetlejuice? pulp fiction? what do you think of them? - I mean... I’ve seen the musical of Heathers and some bits of Rocky Horror/Pulp Fiction? Does that count???

54: who's the last person you saw with a true look of sadness on their face? - My dad, at a funeral.

55: what's the most dramatic thing you've ever done to prove a point? - Told someone I liked them...

56: what are some things you find endearing in people? - Their small habits that are fairly minuscule; usually playing with hair

57: go listen to bohemian rhapsody. how did it make you feel? did you dramatically reenact the lyrics? - It makes me feel real active, I wanna move. I always want to lmao

58: who's the wine mom and who's the vodka aunt in your group of friends? why? - Vodka Aunt would be Powie, and schmutz as Wine Mom.

59: what's your favorite myth? - Tbh any, tho I do love fae

60: do you like poetry? what are some of your faves? - I can appreciate poetry...

61: what's the stupidest gift you've ever given? the stupidest one you've ever received? - Umm... I’m not even sure, for either... I mean, I gave some silly little toys once?

62: do you drink juice in the morning? which kind? - Sometimes, orange to be precise

63: are you fussy about your books and music? do you keep them meticulously organized or kinda leave them be? - Yes, organised. Alphabetical.

64: what color is the sky where you are right now? - Black. It’s 2:40am.

65: is there anyone you haven't seen in a long time who you'd love to hang out with? - Yes, so many.

66: what would your ideal flower crown look like? - Black roses, with white, purple and red flowers interspersed

67: how do gloomy days where the sky is dark and the world is misty make you feel? - Mystified, intrigued... I want to go out in it

68: what's winter like where you live? - Cold and rainy! Shoutout to the UK!!

69: what are your favorite board games? - I mean, we played this Murder/Traitor game a few weeks ago and that was really fun!

70: have you ever used a ouija board? - Nah, but I’m kinda down...

71: what's your favorite kind of tea? - I DON’T!

72: are you a person who needs to note everything down or else you'll forget it? - Most things, yeah...

73: what are some of your worst habits? - Biting nails, chewing/licking lips, not making eye contact, shuffling...

74: describe a good friend of yours without using their name or gendered pronouns. - American, amazing SM, wonderful sewing, creative, takes on everything at the same time, doesn’t know when to let something go, confident and bold

75: tell us about your pets! - I wish I could...

76: is there anything you should be doing right now but aren't? - My assignment lmao

77: pink or yellow lemonade? - Yellow, I guess?

78: are you in the minion hateclub or fanclub? - Hate for the terrible memes, also memeyhate for everything else

79: what's one of the cutest things someone has ever done for you? - Give me anything ever

80: what color are your bedroom walls? did you choose that color? if so, why? - Soft purple, I did pick it. Soon to be a light and dark pink.

81: describe one of your friend's eyes using the most abstract imagery you can think of. - like deep dark holes that you could endlessly fall into...

82: are/were you good in school? - I got good grades, and I’m passing uni so far!

83: what's some of your favorite album art? - honestly idk

84: are you planning on getting tattoos? which ones? - I would love to, but lmao pain! Planning for first: something kingdom hearts related, nothing too big...

85: do you read comics? what are your faves? - I do sometimes, Sonic Comics mostly. I’m slowly working through all the Archie ones :)

86: do you like concept albums? which ones? - Uhhh whut

87: what are some movies you think everyone should watch at least once in their lives? - At least the first Harry Potter? Beauty and the Beast/At least one disney film.

88: are there any artistic movements you particularly enjoy? - lol art

89: are you close to your parents? - Yeah, kinda... I mean, it gets a bit complex due to my anxiousness, but yeah...

90: talk about your one of you favorite cities. - So big and sprawling, central is what everyone thinks about, all these places to see and experience.

91: where do you plan on traveling this year? - For the rest of this year, I’m just gonna go up to the shops in MK :)

92: are you a person who drowns their pasta in cheese or a person who barely sprinkles a pinch? - Closer to a pinch

93: what's the hairstyle you wear the most? - Natural, so straight and boring

94: who was the last person you know to have a birthday? - @juliettenotjuliet #loveyoubabe

95: what are your plans for this weekend? - To chill and do nothing

96: do you install your computer updates really quickly or do you procrastinate on them a lot? - I procrastinate a lot, on everything...

97: myer briggs type, zodiac sign, and hogwarts house? - INFP, Gemini, Slyth

98: when's the last time you went hiking? did you enjoy it? - I’m okay with hiking if it’s pretty and we can break a lot lol

99: list some songs that resonate to your soul whenever you hear them. - Simple and Clean; Beauty and the Beast; What A Catch, Donnie; Not Alone; 3am; Nerdy; Loner in Love...

100: if you were presented with two buttons, one that allows you to go 5 years into the past, the other 5 years into the future, which one would you press? why? - I’d love to say future, but I know I’d go to the past... because I’m a nostalgic freak who can’t deal with going forward because lol i’m scared of going forward...

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alyssamanson5 · 7 years ago

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Can Tamper Proof Opiate Pills Curb the Addiction Epidemic?

The opiate crisis has been quite devastating here in the United States. The response has been to try anything and everything to see if it will help struggling opiate addicts to find some kind of recovery.

Studies have been conducted and one of the original studies with Buprenorphine was done in another country. In that study, two groups of people were tested.

The first group was given Suboxone medication along with counseling and therapy. The second group was just given counseling and therapy.

I believe the results were roughly this: The MAT group that received real medication had roughly a 90 percent success rate in terms of remaining clean, while the control group receiving a placebo had roughly a ten percent success rate. So based on that study, it looked as if Suboxone and MAT was a smashing success when it came to treating opiate addiction.

But hold on. Let’s take a closer look at some of the variables here. Keep in mind that the people in this study were genuinely trying to get clean and sober for their own self, and that they were all somewhat self motivated. Also, the results were measured in the relative short term, meaning that they were not looking at 18 months clean, they were rather looking at more like 90 days later. So the long term results would have been different to a degree, perhaps to a large degree.

What I observed in my own experience in working with opiate addicts is that there is a problem based on who is selected for the medication. In other words, the people who come into rehab and hear about MAT and decide that it sounds like a perfect solution for them–those people are setting themselves up for failure. In reality, they should be told that MAT is not ideal for their situation and that they should focus heavily on therapy, counseling, and social support programs such as Narcotics Anonymous instead.

Why?

Because if they are eager to use MAT as a solution then they have already corrupted their own recovery plan. They won’t do the work that is necessary to remain clean.

You see, when someone is adamant about using MAT it is because they believe that it is the answer to all of their problems. They believe that it will make it easier for them to remain clean, and therefore they won’t have to work as hard at NA meetings, at therapy, at counseling, and so on.

And everyone who is in the position of early recovery and hears this argument can easily refute it. They can say “no, that’s not me, I will go to meetings and I will go to therapy, I just need Suboxone to help take the cravings away, I promise I will still work hard on my recovery!”

But deep down they are lying to themselves. Deep down, their brain honestly believes that if they can just get a magic pill that removes their cravings and urges that they will have no problem in staying clean and sober. They are relatively smart, this person, and that is actually part of the problem. They are smart enough to get themselves into trouble, and they are too smart to dumb it down enough and just work the recovery programs, go to therapy, and so on.

In other words, just using Suboxone or any kind of MAT is not enough.

It is not enough, and we tell ourselves that we are going to push hard with meetings and counseling and therapy, but we are often just saying that because we so badly just want a magic pill that will make the cravings go away. And it just doesn’t work that way.

Another problem with MAT and buprenorphine is the fact that some of the pill supply can be tampered with and abused.

If there is a way to turn an MAT medication into a usable drug and get high with it, addicts will figure it out. And they have. If you have Subutex then you can certainly abuse it if you choose to.

So some companies are fighting back with new kinds of pills that resist tampering. This could be a huge step forward for MAT in general.

KSAT says that new pill coating technology means that “It’s going to be impossible for an abuser to draw that solution into a syringe and then inject it.” Meaning that the street value of those pills will plummet and addicts will actually take them for the purpose of recovery, rather than to manipulate the system and try to get high with it.

If MAT is going to work in the long run, however, people need to realize that the counseling and therapy portion of recovery is at least twice as important as the MAT part of recovery. Meaning that, with our current crop of MAT medications that exist today, there really is no such thing as a magic pill. Suboxone does not cure opiate addiction, not even close. If you work in a treatment center and you see a handful of opiate addicts that are prescribed Suboxone, you will eventually be shocked at the percentage of those addicts that you see coming back for more detoxification later on at some point. This is what shocked me so much while I was working in a detox center–the fact that MAT does not work at all if you are not doing the therapy and the counseling and the NA meetings along with it.

Maybe some day science and technology will invent a more powerful form of MAT that really does work like the magic pill that everyone wants for it to be. But for now, it is important to realize that recovery cannot be successful based on MAT alone. It takes more than that. It takes a person who has surrendered completely to a new solution, someone who fully accepts that they need to focus their entire life on addiction recovery and nothing else for the foreseeable future. Anything less than this level of dedication always results in relapse, regardless of any MAT that may be involved.

So it is important to realize if you are seeking recovery yourself that MAT is not a magic bullet. Sure, it might help you. And it may be helpful to other people. But it is not going to be helpful to someone who is looking for a shortcut in recovery, who just wants the cravings to magically go away so that they can get back to their life. That is not how it works. Instead, you must be prepared to replace your entire life with recovery and things like meetings, therapy, and IOP so that the MAT has a chance to help you on your journey. Without that total and complete level of dedication you are not going to be able to remain clean and sober, period. Start with a foundation in therapy, counseling, and treatment, and then perhaps adding in MAT may give you a slight edge in your recovery journey. That is the right context to see MAT in.

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emlydunstan · 7 years ago

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Can Tamper Proof Opiate Pills Curb the Addiction Epidemic?

Studies have been conducted and one of the original studies with Buprenorphine was done in another country. In that study, two groups of people were tested.

The first group was given Suboxone medication along with counseling and therapy. The second group was just given counseling and therapy.

Why?

Because if they are eager to use MAT as a solution then they have already corrupted their own recovery plan. They won’t do the work that is necessary to remain clean.

In other words, just using Suboxone or any kind of MAT is not enough.

Another problem with MAT and buprenorphine is the fact that some of the pill supply can be tampered with and abused.

If there is a way to turn an MAT medication into a usable drug and get high with it, addicts will figure it out. And they have. If you have Subutex then you can certainly abuse it if you choose to.

So some companies are fighting back with new kinds of pills that resist tampering. This could be a huge step forward for MAT in general.

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pitz182 · 7 years ago

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Can Tamper Proof Opiate Pills Curb the Addiction Epidemic?

Studies have been conducted and one of the original studies with Buprenorphine was done in another country. In that study, two groups of people were tested.

The first group was given Suboxone medication along with counseling and therapy. The second group was just given counseling and therapy.

Why?

Because if they are eager to use MAT as a solution then they have already corrupted their own recovery plan. They won’t do the work that is necessary to remain clean.

In other words, just using Suboxone or any kind of MAT is not enough.

Another problem with MAT and buprenorphine is the fact that some of the pill supply can be tampered with and abused.

If there is a way to turn an MAT medication into a usable drug and get high with it, addicts will figure it out. And they have. If you have Subutex then you can certainly abuse it if you choose to.

So some companies are fighting back with new kinds of pills that resist tampering. This could be a huge step forward for MAT in general.

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Can Tamper Proof Opiate Pills Curb the Addiction Epidemic?

Studies have been conducted and one of the original studies with Buprenorphine was done in another country. In that study, two groups of people were tested.

The first group was given Suboxone medication along with counseling and therapy. The second group was just given counseling and therapy.

Why?

Because if they are eager to use MAT as a solution then they have already corrupted their own recovery plan. They won’t do the work that is necessary to remain clean.

In other words, just using Suboxone or any kind of MAT is not enough.

Another problem with MAT and buprenorphine is the fact that some of the pill supply can be tampered with and abused.

If there is a way to turn an MAT medication into a usable drug and get high with it, addicts will figure it out. And they have. If you have Subutex then you can certainly abuse it if you choose to.

So some companies are fighting back with new kinds of pills that resist tampering. This could be a huge step forward for MAT in general.

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alexdmorgan30 · 7 years ago

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Can Tamper Proof Opiate Pills Curb the Addiction Epidemic?

Studies have been conducted and one of the original studies with Buprenorphine was done in another country. In that study, two groups of people were tested.

The first group was given Suboxone medication along with counseling and therapy. The second group was just given counseling and therapy.

Why?

Because if they are eager to use MAT as a solution then they have already corrupted their own recovery plan. They won’t do the work that is necessary to remain clean.

In other words, just using Suboxone or any kind of MAT is not enough.

Another problem with MAT and buprenorphine is the fact that some of the pill supply can be tampered with and abused.

If there is a way to turn an MAT medication into a usable drug and get high with it, addicts will figure it out. And they have. If you have Subutex then you can certainly abuse it if you choose to.

So some companies are fighting back with new kinds of pills that resist tampering. This could be a huge step forward for MAT in general.

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Can Tamper Proof Opiate Pills Curb the Addiction Epidemic?

Studies have been conducted and one of the original studies with Buprenorphine was done in another country. In that study, two groups of people were tested.

The first group was given Suboxone medication along with counseling and therapy. The second group was just given counseling and therapy.

Why?

Because if they are eager to use MAT as a solution then they have already corrupted their own recovery plan. They won’t do the work that is necessary to remain clean.

In other words, just using Suboxone or any kind of MAT is not enough.

Another problem with MAT and buprenorphine is the fact that some of the pill supply can be tampered with and abused.

If there is a way to turn an MAT medication into a usable drug and get high with it, addicts will figure it out. And they have. If you have Subutex then you can certainly abuse it if you choose to.

So some companies are fighting back with new kinds of pills that resist tampering. This could be a huge step forward for MAT in general.

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violetsgallant · 7 years ago

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Can Tamper Proof Opiate Pills Curb the Addiction Epidemic?

Studies have been conducted and one of the original studies with Buprenorphine was done in another country. In that study, two groups of people were tested.

The first group was given Suboxone medication along with counseling and therapy. The second group was just given counseling and therapy.

Why?

Because if they are eager to use MAT as a solution then they have already corrupted their own recovery plan. They won’t do the work that is necessary to remain clean.

In other words, just using Suboxone or any kind of MAT is not enough.

Another problem with MAT and buprenorphine is the fact that some of the pill supply can be tampered with and abused.

If there is a way to turn an MAT medication into a usable drug and get high with it, addicts will figure it out. And they have. If you have Subutex then you can certainly abuse it if you choose to.

So some companies are fighting back with new kinds of pills that resist tampering. This could be a huge step forward for MAT in general.

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