#homeschool discord

[hsrchat]

October Recap and November's Art Challenge - From HSRC, The Homeschool Discord Community

November has arrived! Here are the changes, additions, and updates made to The Homeschooler's Chat last month. Plus, you can view this month's art prompt at the end of this post!

November is here! Your monthly HSRC recap has arrived! Here are the changes, additions, and updates made to The Homeschooler’s Chat last month. Plus, you can view this month’s art prompt at the end of this post! 📌 Jump To: Website Updates Server Updates This Month’s Art Prompt This Month’s Other Events Website Updates New post about Spotting Predators Online A silly ✨girlypop✨ version of…

[alices-thoughts-and-adventures]

On todays episode of ‘Family discord conversations’ we have my brothers and I responding to my mother about our school work:

[dcbutinamrev]

This is completely personal, but:

Is there any 18+ Outsiders servers for discord out there? If so, please hook me up I am desperate

[fi1nn]

after a long long time Fiin is finally here!! (ﾉ*ФωФ)ﾉ

Actually Fiin is an OC from an RP discord server and was based on me (obviously things have changed and we are totally different people, but to not be confused, I am Finn and they are Fiin).

They dont care about pronouns so it can be really confusing for some people (sorry for u too if ur confused when I write about him).

Born in the Sunset Savannah, she was abandoned in an orphanage and fortunately adopted by loving parents, saving her from an awful situation.

He then moved to the Queendom of Roses and went to school.

However due to some circonstances they were homeschooled until they received his letter to NRC

Her UM allows her to cut the flow of magical energy for a while, until its restored. It doesn't work on everyone as the more the mage is powerful the harder it will be too cut. Also it drains her a lot of energy so she tends to avoid using it (also if you could help me find the name of their um its would really help≡(▔﹏▔)≡)

She LOVES cute things like REALLY. if they think ur cute, you got some real privilege, she will dotes on you like your the most precious thing in his eyes.

However, there are some exceptions, most of the time he will hate you until they start to like you, so a single misstep would be terrible.

(I think and actually hope that in his third year they will start to open up and act more friendly to people).

AND THATS SOME GOOD TRANSITION TO HER RELATIONSHIP CHART

On the discord server they were shipped with jade (cus he is magnificient obvsly) but Im still unsure if I would still ship them

idia is his closest friend but sometimes in her dream she sees two people who she would call their bsf (hes quite confused when he wakes up cus there nobody they know that looks like them)

some relationships would change BUT floyd and fiin would always hate each other(even if they will warm up to each other but shhhhh they will never admit it)

and finally here some doodles of him (～￣▽￣)～(～￣▽￣)～

hope you will like them (*￣3￣)╭(*￣3￣)╭

and sorry if there's any mistakes (￣﹏￣；)

if you want more info on them dont be afraid and ask me (I think its the most completed oc I have (⓿_⓿))

[frostbite-therianthropy]

Attention, alterhumans!!

…particularly those in the UK!

This is a post to gauge interest in an educational organisation for therians and other alterhumans! It would have a focus on homeschooling and be mostly online, but would also be very open to anyone attending school.

As it stands right now, it would likely encompass an online community (e.g. on Discord), an archive of resources, “after-school clubs” of therian activities, and regular voice and/or text chat sessions to help with studying, talk about alterhumanity, or just be a bunch of nonhumans hanging out! However, if the project became large enough, we could be looking at irl meet-ups – howls, hiking, wilderness walks, workshops and the like.

The organisation would also be able to support our humans with finding tutors and groups for home education purposes, and for those who are in school, supplementary lessons and tutors.

Basically, it’d be a big group of therians, otherkin, nonhumans and anyone under the alterhuman umbrella, for school purposes and also developing the ability to live in human society, without feeling othered or disconnected from their alterhuman identity.

Please rb/share if this sounds interesting to you!

It would be UK-based, so while alterhumans from all over the world can be involved, the focus will be on the education system here, so GCSEs etc.

[isackwhy]

hellooo :33 can you pls white on how isaac would act if had a crush on the reader tee hee

yes yes yes wait imma cook :3

isaacwhy w/ a crush on reader hc’s :3

def doesn’t really know how to flirt

like has to get to know u before he knows what to say and what not to say

so if y’all are best friends—this man is terrified

like yes he knows u. he knows u well but does not want to fuck this up

constantly doubting himself and then having to boost his ego and then trying to flirt and then facepalming immediately

will buy u things when u don’t ask

like if ur at a store together and u mention u want a snack isaac disappears and puts it in the cart and insists on buying it

loves spending time w u

and also making u laugh

it’s in goal everyday to make u laugh

yk how he’s touchy normally

i feel like he would be at first and then he realizes he has a crush on u and freaks out and doesn’t get as touchy bc he doesn’t know what to do

u bring it up one day and he’s like

oh.

they want me to be touchy???? bet hold on—

a simp

a nervous mess

like he talks big game but he was like homeschooled and a christian and stuck on discord idc how fine he is he’s an awkward mess (which is adorable)

[kenmarlenn]

Hello!! Could you tell us your Foxy headcanons? 👀👀

Hooray, Foxy!

This one's basically canon due to comments on the Discord, Matt himself, and maybe on the channel, can't remember, but Foxy loves map-based strategy games (Hearts of Iron IV, Victoria 3, etc.) and historical games. Maybe it's being "Foxy the Pirate," with his whole gimmick being from a bygone era, maybe it's how much of a strategic mind he is, but he'll spend hours on them.

Like I mentioned in my Puppet headcanons, Foxy really let himself and his living space go during the entire Stitchwraith arc. Moving with FC to the new apartment and Puppet moving in slowly were the catalysts to him feeling better AND taking better care of himself. Puppet got a kickstart on the housekeeping, but Foxy quickly assigned himself chores of his own (cooking, cleaning the kitchen, homeschooling and/or finding yet another daycare or school or learning center for FC)

FC's education was actually a huge thing for Foxy - he was trying really hard to get FC into a school, but most didn't accept animatronics, and he was banned from the daycare. The schools that did (the ones Glamrock Freddy went to and Frankie goes to), FC couldn't function properly in (god I have thoughts about FC) and he was eventually expelled. For a long time, Foxy homeschooled FC, until they moved to the EAPS dimension! Now they've had a few lessons after Foxy was done at work, but FC mainly learns from experience.

Foxy was a stinky man. Old suit, lived out by the ocean, constantly getting into Situations... But he could never actually clean himself properly. One of the things he's grateful for in his new body is that he can be cleaned without worry of corrosion from chemicals or water getting in his suit.

In his old body, Foxy had chronic pain and other difficulties from having a really worn down body and having been beat up so frequently. For a blessed few weeks, he had no such aches and pains in his new body, and he could enjoy new sensations and feelings! ... And then uh, the beating up continued. To his disappointment, his daily waking thoughts are once again "ah, I am constantly in pain somewhere."

memory-less!Foxy looking at Puppetmaster like "what a freak. ... kinda hot tho"

[hsrchat]

November Recap for HSRC, The Discord Community For Homeschoolers

Happy December! ❄ Check out last month's changes from HSRC, the homeschooling Discord server on our blog. Stay warm, friends! 💙

Hello, December! Your monthly HSRC recap is here! Below, you can check out the changes, additions, and updates made to The Homeschooler’s Chat last month. A lot of new features have arrived in our Discord server recently! This is our last monthly recap post! Moving into 2025, HSRC updates will be arriving as-needed, when big changes have been made. You can still view any minor changes…

[nox-icate]

🐊 Welcome to the blog of your favorite swamp-dwelling reptile 🐊

. ‧˚₊꒷꒦꒷︶︶︶︶︶꒷꒦꒷︶︶︶About me︶︶︶꒷꒦꒷︶︶︶︶︶꒷꒦꒷₊˚‧ .

࿐ I go by quite a few names, which include: Evander, Donatello, Laurie, and Corrie! But I more commonly go by Nox on here! But feel free to call me whatever you deem suitable.

࿐ I use he/him, xey/xem, and they/them pronouns. Please only use enby or masculine terms when referring to me. Pronouns page <- ࿐ Please keep in mind that I have Autism, Dyslexia, Anxiety, ADHD, and that I am under the bipolar umbrella, keep patience with me in mind while interacting! ࿐ My birthday is 12/18/2007 making me a MINOR. ࿐ I am a teenager, meaning I have a tendency to make dark/inappropriate jokes, I can put on a filter if requested. ࿐ I do tend to be forgetful about some things (I genuinely have a horrible memory /srs) so please don't be afraid to point out on my slip ups/correct me if needed. ࿐ I am a very affectionate person with a tendency to cling onto people, and come off too friendly too fast. If I’ve ever crossed a boundary/made you uncomfortable please, PLEASE don’t be afraid to let me know. I don’t intend nor want to make anyone uncomfortable in any way shape or form and struggle with picking up cues/indicators that I’ve crossed a boundary (Plus being online the majority of my life and being homeschooled I tend to cling to people who I want to befriend and lack proper social skills).

. ‧˚₊꒷꒦꒷︶︶︶︶︶꒷꒦꒷︶︶︶Links + Tags︶︶︶꒷꒦꒷︶︶︶︶︶꒷꒦꒷₊˚‧ . LINKS: ࿐ Bluesky <- ࿐ Discord server <- ࿐ Toyhouse <- ࿐ Youtube <- ࿐ Instagram <- ࿐ Pronouns page <- TAGS:

#my art <- Pretty self explanatory. #my sona <- Posts including one of my many sonas. #my ocs <- My original characters. #🐊 shiggles <- Just me being a dumbass. #🐊 rambles <- My text/rant tag. #TMNT Solidarity <- My TMNT iteration. Masterlist (TBA) #ROTTMNT FQ <- My ROTTMNT AU (FQ standing for Four Quarters). Masterlist (TBA) #TMLP AU <- An AU where the boys get teleported to Equestria I made that me and my close friends are working on. Masterlist (TBA) MOOTS:

@mossy-box (The Leo to my Donnie, and one of my closest friends!) Tag: #Overgrown box 🐢 @k9alpine (The Raph to my Donnie, also one of my closest friends!) Tag: #K9Alpha 🐺 @that-was-pigeon (My parental figure!) Tag: #Twas pigeon 🥔 @drixxtavern (Fish wife! /p) Tag: Tba More moots TBA

. ‧˚₊꒷꒦꒷︶︶︶︶︶꒷꒦꒷︶︶︶Interests︶︶︶꒷꒦꒷︶︶︶︶︶꒷꒦꒷₊˚‧ . ࿐ As of currently I am fixated on quite a lot of differing medias, which includes, but is not limited to: Arcane, Blue eye samurai, Bluey, Ducktales (2017), HTTYD, I saw the TV glow, MLP, Saw, Scooby Doo, Spider man, Stranger things, Sweet tooth, The Alien franchise, The last of us, The quarry, Usagi Yojimbo, Venom, Wild kratts, and TMNT!

࿐ I'm absolutely obsessed with reptiles, dinosaurs, bugs, and aquatic life! My favorite animals being Alligators and Crocodiles.

࿐ I have also found I have a strange infatuation with radiation (chernobyl in general), natural disasters, geology, abandoned buildings, and vintage children's books/poetry. ❗ DNI AND BOUNDARIES BELOW, PLEASE READ BEFORE INTERACTING ❗

. ‧˚₊꒷꒦꒷︶︶︶︶︶꒷꒦꒷︶DNI + Boundaries︶꒷꒦꒷︶︶︶︶︶꒷꒦꒷₊˚‧ .

DNI LIST: ࿐ Do NOT interact if you are/you associate yourself with, or support anything below. ࿐ Anyone under the age of 13 (This is for my own comfort as I'm not comfortable interacting with extremely young users). ࿐ Romanticizations/Sexualizations of unhealthy/toxic relationships (This includes heavy yandere shit < This is for my own comfort). ࿐ Sexualizing transgender people/characters (This is for my own comfort). ࿐ Dsmp (This is for my own comfort). ࿐ T-cest/Incest. ࿐ Proshipping. ࿐ Homophobia. ࿐ Transphobia. ࿐ Racism. ࿐ And any other basic DNI criteria. REQUESTS + ASKS: ࿐ I do NOT do requests outside of requests of my own work, either it being my own ocs, aus or iterations. ࿐ My ask box is always open and I love getting asks/messages (I'm lonely..) ࿐ Please keep it PG in my ask box I'm literally a minor, jokes are fine but please use common sense when talking to a stranger online. ࿐ Don't fucking request NSFW, once again. I am a minor. BOUNDARIES: ࿐ Please don't repost my art or work anywhere. ࿐ If you use my work as your profile picture PLEASE give me proper credit. ࿐ For the love of god, don't flirt with me. ࿐ Don't attack me, if you don't like me or what I do simply just block me. ࿐ Please use tone tags while interacting if we aren't close.

(Last edited 11/9/24)

[playerappreciationweek]

Hello everyone! It’s here!

Thank you for your help in deciding the dates for the third annual Player Appreciation Week! Let’s get right to it.

More under the cut

March 11-17, 2024

March 11: Codename

March 12: Parents

March 13: Homeschool

March 14: Geography

March 15: Loyalty

March 16: Abandonment

March 17: Red

Alternatives: 

Alt 1: Time zones

Alt 2: Found Family

Alt 3: Hacker

The particulars to the rules to the event can be found here. Of note, anything for the event must be gen (as in, no ships, not even background ships). Most any medium can work - a few examples are fic, illustrative art, essays/meta/character study, mood boards, physical crafts, edits, memes, incorrect quotes, and music videos. Works in Progress are accepted and encouraged, even if you’ve already posted parts of it. 

Use the prompts as literally or as figuratively as you’d like! All of the prompts do relate directly to Player, however many of them also relate to his friends and family. Have fun with the other characters in the show too! The only limit is that Player needs to be the focus in some way. 

If you would like to submit a teaser for your work for this blog to post, you are welcome to do so with this google form.

Our discord server is available for brainstorming and editing assistance for this event and for any CS 2019 gen content. 

If you have any questions or concerns, please send an ask or reach out to @rueitae

Looking forward to seeing you in March!

-PAW Mods

[blue-jay-13]

This is an addition to this post about my MyStreet rewrite.

Aphmau - Aaron -

Aphmau:

TW: Bullying/Harrasment

- Aphmau Raphaela Sabala

- 5’0

- 25 years old as of season 1 of Mystreet

- Aphmau is very bold and she's proud of who she is.

- Though she still does have some underlying insecurities.

- She’s a major people pleaser and perfectionist.

- She can be a bit naive at times, mostly when it comes to people. She always assumes the best of everyone, even when she shouldn’t. She doesn’t want them to be in a similar situation as she was in.

- She's very passionate, but can get a bit over excited at times.

- Really does her best to not care about what people think of her, but it's always something that's in the back of her mind.

- Basically the personification of the energizer bunny, where does she get all that energy from??

- She cares a lot, it doesn't matter if it's a person, an animal, or a dream, she just cares.

- She loves her friends and her mom so goddam much.

- she can be a bit self centered at times, mostly because she didn't really have to think about others for a while, unfortunately it's a hard throught process to kick. Though she does always feel really bad when she realizes how she was acting.

- Her dad, Zack, left her and her mother when she was around 4 years old.

- His job was considered classified, but they know that he ended up sleeping with his assistant

- Her parents were never married.

- She was always a creative child, often talking to herself and making stories with her toys

- She's always been on the shorter and “chubbier” side. A trait she shares with her mom.

- She was labeled as the “weird” kid by some of her classmates. Mostly because she was interested in things they thought were weird or too childish, like anime , RPGs/MMOs, and ‘My Little Horsies’.

- She never had many friends growing up.

- As she got older, a lot of her classmates began to make fun of her.

- It eventually led to them bullying her because of her body.

- It all came to a head in the middle of her 6th grade year, as she had started to receive notes in her locker. Notes that weren’t very kind.

- She went a month without saying anything, until one day she received a note telling her that she was a ‘waste of space’ and it would be better if she just… well you can probably guess.

- She came home that day sobbing, all the notes in her book bag. When Sylvanna found her and figured out what was going on, she was furious. She went to the school and practically rained hell upon them.

- After that she pulled Aphmau out of school and began homeschooling her.

- For a long time Aphmau was scared to leave the house, scared to interact with people when they could see her. But she still wanted friends. So she turned to RPGs.

- Her username was *~MeowMallow~*

- In July of the summer that would have been before 7th grade, she met and befriended another player whose username was -m00n-

- They originally met while in a dungeon, they kept seeing each other around in the game, often doing dungeons or boss battles at the same time. It got to the point where they friended each other and eventually added each other on Dabord (Their version of Discord).

- They ended up talking a lot, Aph learned that -m00n- was just as lonely as her.

- Aphmau returned to public school at the beginning of her sophomore year of highschool

- She became a lot bolder as she went through high school

- She became confident in her appearance, she made no effort to hide her interest, and she had friends other than -m00n-.

- When she went to collage, she majored in computer science with a concentration in game development

- After graduating, she became a freelance programmer. Most of her work was for websites or Indie games.

- She has been working on writing a book on the side.

Thats the general information I have on Aphmau as of now! Hope you all enjoy!

[vulcajes]

The Marauders & Co as things my stalker has done

James — stood next to the 6th form kitchen so he could watch me

Peter — sat directly next to me after I told him not to come near me (there were 8 free spaces)

Sirius — blamed me for his alcoholism

Remus — would move to sit next to me in the library no matter what he was doing

Lily — forced our English teacher to try to make me his friend again and ended up harassing him daily too

Mary — constantly tried to get me to hang out with him outside of school

Marlene — hella leaned in to my history teacher saying we bicker like a married couple

Emmeline — texted me after I deleted his phone number

Dorcas — texted me constantly when I'd ignore him for weeks on end

Pandora — was homeschooled

Evan — talked shit about any guy I liked

Barty — told his mother all about me (she was convinced he was in love with me and she also tried to get me to go to their house)

Bellatrix — went on to stalk ANOTHER girl

Andromeda — wrote me letters to try to get me to talk to him

Narcissa — called me hostile towards him (I cut him off and never said a word to him)

Xenophilius — followed me around everywhere to the point where people thought we were dating

Sybill — was a discord kid

Regulus — was obsessed with MCR to the point where he cosplays them near daily (the black suits and red ties)

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

WIBTA For Snitching On My Brother?

tl;dr at the end, the submissions a bit long. sorry if this sounds like stupid teen drama, but i needed outside opinions. (tw for mentions of attempted suicide)

so for a bit of context here, me (14nb) and my brother (14m) both have Parental RestrictionsTM on our phones. In my opinion they are way more severe than they need to be. i am not allowed to have any social media at all, my mother barely tolerates discord. I cannot text anyone who is not my direct sibling or parent from 9pm at night to noon the next day and i cant use any "nonessential" apps during that time frame too. my brother has the same restrictions on his phone, but he has safari removed because my mother said he was playing "random internet games". however, he has found ways around this and ways around the app restrictions. i know how he does it. i really dont have any intention of telling our mother, its none of my business and i honestly dont care that much.

I recently moved to a new school. My brother and i were homeschooled prior to this during covid. And it was fine. We went to a homeschool co-op twice a week. A year ago we were both enrolled in Local Community College as dual enrollment students. A semester into that i was Not Vibing Well and ended up having a breakdown and getting a therapist. I would talk to her directly about this but i havent been able to see her in weeks due to scheduling conflicts. The workload seemed too much to me, there was no longer a distinction between School and Home. i felt like i was constantly on the clock, and i barely saw my friends. In addition to other factors at my co-op, I got very lonely. At that time the limits on my phone were 9pm-3pm (it was later edited to 9am to noon) . I cant remember exactly what happened, but i asked my mother to at least change the communication limits so that i could talk to my friends during the day. She said no, stating that I Do Not Need to Communicate With Friends During The School Day. i do not have a real “school day” i am at home basically 5/7 days of the week. And normal kids see their friends every day at school. The argument got dropped then.

Fast forward half a year, i felt increasingly lonely, out of place, bothersome, etc, at my co-op and have decided to try going to Local Public Highschool. This meant leaving my best friend (14f)  whom i love dearly (for the purposes of this post i will call her Z). Z is one of my favorite people in the whole world, we got platonically married, I lovingly refer to her as “my wife”, and i would genuinely die for her. She got a phone over the summer which means we have a better way to communicate, replacing discord as the primary communication system. Also at that time one of my best online friends fucked up their discord account somehow and the whole online group moved to text. there's about four of them? J, Other J, B, and L (ages vary from 12-16). I believe only B is directly relevant to this story but the others are worth mentioning. Additional context (tw for mentions of suicide from now on), all of those four are varyingly suicidal. B has attempted before, at least twice I believe. out of the group i am probably the most mentally stable.

School starts! I am already feeling a bit lonely due to leaving Z but we stay positive. I wake up for school at like 530 and check my phone at like 6:45. Woohoo a message from B! It was sent at 4 am. This is concerning. There is a glitch that i can use in order to view texts for between half a second and four seconds, it depends, and i use it. B’s message reads “Bye”. theres no fucking reason that they would be texting me goodbye at 4am in the morning unless they were going to kill themselves. I cannot properly view or respond to that text until noon, so eight hours. I wait to know if my friend is ok for eight hours, and at noon i check my phone again. In that time i’ve received messages from the groupchat. J, Other J, and L all received “bye” texts from B at around the same time period. After a few messages, we know B is ok, i dmed them privately and they responded both in ims and the gc. So they are ok. But i had to wait for eight hours to know that. Later that day i asked my mom if she had considered my proposal (i asked her a day or two before if she would at least turn off communication limits because it is also rather embarrassing to be honest to have to tell other people that oh i cant respond to your message right now, sorry my mom has limits on my phone :D. In addition i get anxious when i send a message that im nervous abt and it doesnt get responded to for hours so i hate leaving messages for longer than two hours). Once again, she said no. it goes against her Views As A Parent for me to have “unrestricted access” to my phone. She offered to add only Z to the list of people i can contact during the limits. This is better than nothing but Z texts more in the groupchat than she does in private messages so it wouldn’t work that well. We argued, it didnt work out, i got pissed off and we both went to bed. i very strongly feel that for like my mental health i need to be able to communicate with my friends better than i can at the moment. And i dont want to wake up to a message from a friend, have it be the last one they ever send, and not be able to respond for hours. 

Heres where the part where i could be an asshole comes in. (so sorry that that was really long i didnt know what parts would be needed as context and what were not so i just typed everything i think might be relevant). This isnt something that i am very strongly considering, as i truly dont want to fuck up my relationship with my brother and i love him a lot. I just want opinions on whether it would like be going too far i guess. I am considering offering a trade. I tell my mother how my brother has found ways around his limits, and she turns off the communication limits on my phone. WIBTA if i did that?

TL;DR: would i be the asshole if i snitched on how my brother got around some restrictions in exchange for me being able to communicate with my friends?

What are these acronyms?

[wyked-ao3]

Stole this from a blog

🥺🌱💕 get to know your mutuals ! when you get this, it means someone wants to know more about you, so list 5 things about yourself you want your followers to know. they can be as simple as your age or as complex as your deepest fear, as long as it’s something you’re comfortable with sharing. when you’re done, send this to 10 people you want to get to know better ! 🥺🌱💕 How about we tag instead easier to keep track of :)

1. I was in public school until third grade where I was bullied to the point I was pulled out and homeschooled by my parents

2. I'm 22 about to turn 23 in may and I have a highly irrational fear of squirrels

3. All of my friends are fellow writer's in a discord group :)

4. I belong to several fandom's and they have all been hyperfocus's to me and I will loop back around to each one

5. I love to learn new things and read books and fanfiction

@adhdprincess @lillybaaaka @theneverwriter @thatslytherinbitch54 @gods-graveyard @ whoever else wants to join in

[sophieinwonderland]

Preface: People are going to assume this is a response to recent drama. So I want to say that I started writing this draft before that one blog's response to me. It was shortly after midnight on the 8th when it was just barely what I consider my Birthday. I was reflecting on my 3 years of existence and where I am now. The fact that I got the response I did later that same day is a total coincidence.

I don't feel like I have friends anymore...

That's an awful thing to admit.

I have one other system I feel like I talk to with any sort of regularity, who I love and consider friends. But they're not involved with syscourse which is so often where my mind goes. And so I don't talk to them about it because I don't want to trouble them, which means I don't talk to them because I can't think of what to talk about.

What else do I care about?

I mean, there are other things I care about, but they probably wouldn't care about those things. And I struggle to find something to say. Something that feels worthy of their time. But again, not syscourse or something that would bring them down.

I've had other friends. But they've faded away with time. One by one.

And a lot of that is my fault. I'm not good at being a friend or knowing what to say. And I'm not very good at opening myself up.

And when I can't think of what to say, I choose to say nothing. I ghost people I like because it's hard to maintain those relationships.

And I'm aware on some level that this hurts people. I wouldn't want to be friends with someone who treated others the way I do.

And there will be times when I'll decide to do better. I will, with full confidence, say that I'm going to change. I'll be a better friend. A better person. I'll fully believe this is something I'll succeed at for the rest of the day. Then the next day comes and that conviction melts away.

I think one reason Jaiden's story of having ADHD appeals to me is that if this was the problem with us, maybe, we could identify it and then just take one little pill and it will fix me.

That's a nice fantasy, isn't it?

A naive fantasy that ignores the fact that I'm in the brain of someone who was homeschooled and barely had any friends as a child either. But it's a nice fantasy to hold onto anyway.

So, yeah. I don't feel like I have friends, for the most part, outside our system. I have a blog. I have followers. I have plenty of mutuals I like interacting with.

But there aren't people who I truly trust to let in. It doesn't feel like anyone actually knows me or who I am anymore, if anyone ever did.

Since I haven't posted on it for a week and don't know when I'll post on it again or if I will, here's a confession: I made @anti-lies! Sorry to ruin the mystery for anything speculating! Though I didn't think I was even that subtle about it.

But the only person I know who guessed it was me was SAS! Which, congratulations! But also, that's kind of a sad thought that the person who might know me better than anyone is someone who was my archnemesis for the past two-and-a-half years.

To be fair, SAS did imply that other people might have guessed it. But if so, whatever circles those conversations are happening in aren't ones I'm in.

Oh wait, I'm not really in any circles am I?

I'm on the outskirts of the community. I mean, that's sort of by choice really.

Public posts can bring more awareness of plurality and tulpamancy. Locking myself in Discord servers or some isolated community makes me feel like I'm wasting my time because I need to be talking about it publicly where the world can see. I really, really don't want to be part of a Discord server. It's my choice to stay out of those spaces and I don't regret that decision.

But sometimes it's weird when I realize that most everyone else is. That they're actually in plural communities in a way I'm not.

I wonder, do people even realize I'm an outsider? Again, by choice. I've been invited to servers and chose not to go. I'm not being ostracized or anything. I've turned down attempts at bringing me further in. No one is to blame but myself. But either way, the result is that I don't feel like I'm really part of the communities I spend so much time advocating for.

[greasernamedbug]

TW SA MENTIONS CALLING OUT MY SAER WHO MADE ME BECOME HOMESCHOOLED

They go by talon they're 17 and their tiktok is kraanglover!

Theyce done this to me and my best friend. They've grabbed my chest. And my ass. And my thighs and have made butcher jokes abt my sh. They were caught with proof and confronted and created a fake story abt me to make them seem innocent. I don't like physical contact and have smacked them multiple times for touching my face etc. they know I'd never even threaten such things but they claimed it to someone who barely knew me bc they knew they wouldn't know abt my hatred for sexual touch. My discord used to be Nathan explosion and I have confronted them multiple times. I believe I've gathered enough evidence to out them. The insta/messenger messages are not me, left is talon the abuser, right is someone who was trying to get more info