#holidays are so weird man
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There’s something about being home for the holidays. The bathroom fan sounds the same, and I’m still not sure this house has ever been mine. I really want it to be. I look so different. I’m so much more than 12-yo me could have hoped for. Walking quietly through the house at night like im still young. The bathroom fan sounds the same. I’m going to get back to my life.
#idk isn’t everyone feeling tender during the holidays#it feels like I’m inbetween#I don’t know what this inbetween is#I will always be 12 and weird I hope nothing ever changes#I have everything I could have dreamed of when I was younger but it’s so easy to forget that#12 yo me would be proud#anyone else hide in the bathroom when they’re home#or is that just me#holidays are so weird man
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🎸 happy uncneen pepinursteppermint wintereve 🍬 ❤️🔥
❤️🤘 + ft. how i think my styles would say HYH
#;careless watcher: turn your gaze upon this wretched thing.#thats the face tag because i love to laugh#thank g0d i am not in the field i'm in right now because i have to go through extensive therapy because now i can take insane#pictures of me with no remorse LeTSSSSSS GOOOooOOo#bc i nuked my blog i do think this post is between me and *apathetic spiteful kenny n fratboy fuckb0i clydvc* the G-MAN#but either way *rs doing the sexc raven voice and trying to badly conceal his identity and woo jk vc* usually i get...#~wined and dined~ before strange boys make themselves at home in my lap so god: take notes; i want honey walnut shrimp#not me in the goth edgy boy x basic jewish boy thotmn before ncu stan season ravenstanley beanie the jersey gold s#stan necklace and the sun moon earring and the big comfort nina stan earring and the eye dot sakdhlaskd can you tell i'm#using my fanfic to cope? helpsajdklj rip i have been wearing fake reading glasses and wearing the glass heart necklace#to microdose being both the boys at the same time when i am out in public so i can relax sdhk rip AGAIN its helping me thinks#but it goes against the letter spelling in sign language but i think rock on/ily peace and rock on ily is the style scribing HYH#either way its my birthday i was feeling euphoric or manic or insane or all three and now i have bangs and i am drinking#the peppermint beer to cope with my 13k fanfic and my 150+ page blog being deleted and losing all 100 followers on here#and all my fanfiction followers in a grand mal level panic attack :( so we all ( like 3 ppl ) have to cope with my weird face#and my lame gen x peace signs and gigantic scary foreboding eyeballs and strange behavior for tonight and tomorrow#where i will drinking to forget and rewriting remember fML but i am excited bc its gonna be extra good now even if its just#for me -- as it should be: but whoever is here and along for the ride pls know i'm thankful for you and my birthday tomorrow#is also yours: you mean everything to me...also i might make a holiday playlist just to laugh -- also should i pierce my nose?#peppermint stan era? i have been thinking about him a lot ( no nyquil i promise ) that and my eyebrow...many rstan thoughts#i am drafting their outfits at the moment and it is giving me so much Joy; they are so FIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIONE LIKE MAAAANnN#its a spoiler but i am putting rm: relit ravenstan in the ~Save Rock: Fuck A Rockstar~ tanktop bc i love to laugh#you don't even need a match that man LIGHTS IT UUUP BITch#hOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO woO wW z AAAAh#he really is my MAAAN i love him so bad AND ohmyGOD jkyle in the bif columbia sweatshirt & 2014 messy tumblr girl bun?!??!#sCRUMDIDDLYUMpCIOUSSSSSSS HIT ME BABY /ONE/ /MORE/ /tImE/ KSDHskldh hOOOoooOoOo K.O. kNoCKAHWT#JERSEYKYLE CAN BEAT MY ASS ANYTIME FREE OF CHARGE: i will pay him in easy a bitcoin or target giftcards like his lil boytoys do ;)#EloHIM if you WWWWWWWWWWWWWILL and he won't call you lmaOOOOooO ( he is my problematique fave: he rlly is xx )#wASTE THEIR TIIIIiiIIIIIIIIIIIIME JERSEYpICKMECHOOSeM--#anywaYsss alexa play the pop punk cover of dancing queen ft me taylor swift half white girl swaying sipsy in the M0sh P1t <3
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What a weird....shithead....
#d20 spoilers#d20#dimension 20#dimension 20 spoilers#d20 unsleeping city#d20 usc#d20 usc 2#ricky matsui#zac oyama#brennan lee mulligan#jj jacobs#tony simos#tony IS a weird shithead ricky youre so right#the inflection just struck me so fuckin funny#get those cusses out#usc ep 8#also just. ricky thinking of jj and coming to check on him on one of america's biggest holidays that he as a native man doesnt celebrate#i also had chinese for thanksgiving jj you're incredibly valid#doing all that cooking for a fairy tale covering for genocide is for the fuckin birds
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Spadesgorudy shipper has returned! (I got this idea from the incorrect quote person)
Rudy, watching Asgore and Spade from afar: Two Bros, Chillin in a hot tub. Five feet apart because they think they’re not gay, BUT THEY REALLY ARE-
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Rudy: And now for a gay update with Asgore and Spade.
Asgore: Getting gayer.
Rudy: Thank you, Asgore.
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Asgore: Hi, sorry I’m late. I was doing a couple of things and got distracted.
Rudy: I’m “a couple of things”.
Spade: I’m “got distracted”.
(They actually did him-)
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Rudy: Who do we know that has handcuffs?
Spade: Well Asgore and I-
Asgore: *elbows Spade*
Spade: ...wouldn't know.
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Asgore: Why do you let me win when we race up the stairs? You’re the faster one.
Rudy: Erm... it’s nice see your smile when you win!
*later*
Asgore: He’s probably just staring at my ass, isn’t he?
Spade: Yeah, probably.
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Asgore, laying between spade and Rudy: I have found the meaning of life
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I'm sorry it took 12 billion years for me to get back to answering asks please accept my humble spadesgorudy donations
#deltarune#asks#drawings#asgore#spade#asgore dreemurr#king of spades#spade king#spadesgore#spadesgorudy#king spade#rudy holiday#least organised tags ever i dont even care#again i apologise for how long it took to answer these ya mans been busy by some fuckin miracle#i didnt think i had a life yet here we are#anyway. i find the implication that rudy doesnt know about spade and asgores Special Bedroom Activities extremely funny#could you imagine being in a thruple and finding out like a year in that your boyfriend and a half have been having crazy kinky sex behind#behind your back??????? id lose my fucking MIND#though. i personally dont think rudys the overly experimental type. hed probably think its weird as fuck but Then Again#i am a resident rudy hater so please correct me if my assumption of his tastes is wrong or you disagree etc etc#once again i personally dont ship asgorudy however asgore has two hands and deserves every man he can get#long post
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Calling it now that I think Simon is going to have to genuinely reconnect with Gunter and NEPTR and the other weirdos who kept him company in his time as Ice King.
#at#fionna and cake#simon petrikov#original#Gunter was his baby and I'm willing to bet Simon hasn't spoken to him in 12 years#Gunter loved him so much he used the crown to become another version of him#I think it could be a really beautiful way to explore the moments of love that existed in his life as Ice King#just some thoughts I'm having while rewatching a bunch of episodes from the original series.#Gunter is in most of ice king's scenes being his weird son#neptr also calls him papi#the man's mothering instinct stayed with him even in his insanity and he managed to find insane children to claim as his own#I just rewatched the Adventure Time holiday special with all the video tapes and I think those same tapes are going to come up#and Simon will notice that Gunter is with him in basically every one of them and realize#despite his soul crushing loneliness as Ice King he was never quite alone and maybe friends like Gunter still care about him#i don't think he should go back to being ice king i think he needs ways to make peace with every part of himself and his life#and also i really like Gunter i think he's a delight
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Ok. Real question. How many people Actually have believed in Santa? Bc I never did, mostly bc my dad never bothered with the entire pretense, so the whole concept is just. Really fucking strange to me
Putting an actual poll bc I feel like I'm losing my mind a bit thinking about how apparently widespread it is. Like. It's just so... weird? Why is this the thing people have popularized? It makes no sense.
#speculation nation#polls#like ok my dad's an atheist raised by jewish parents so xmas has never really been a religious sort of holiday to me#we celebrate it bc it's fun to give gifts and spend time with family#but that's... it.#all the lore and mythos of xmas is just so weird to me#like baby jesus etc etc but now here comes saint nicholas with the steel chair! (breaking into your house to eat your cookies#and leave presents Only for the rich kids! why only the rich ones? uhmmm Dont worry about it!)#genuinely speaking my dad's worked at ups my whole life so growing up he'd say he (and the rest of his coworkers) were the real santas#said as a joke mostly bc theyre the ones Actually delivering the packages#but i took it to heart. told people at school that my dad was the Real santa.#no one believed me lol which i found quite frustrating.#but yeah i have never once in my entire life believed in Santa#and im content with that. it seems like such a stupid thing i will be honest.#'what about the magic of christmas' what about the poor kids who dont get gifts & feel abandoned by this all-powerful man?#in fact why do we Want kids to not think it's their parents giving gifts? they cant thank the right people if we trick them.#it's a convoluted setup that makes absolutely 0 sense to me#trust me christmas had more than enough 'magic' for me as a kid just bc of all the cool lights and all the free gifts#dont need some mythological man who can travel the globe in one night and is a professional in B&E#makes no sense for Real.#there was a time with my ex step siblings where me n my sister were told not to spoil the fun for them#so i had to pretend like santa existed as they opened presents marked from him#and even back then i was just thinking 'this is So Dumb'#this is an anti santa zone i guess. me and myself hate the popularized version of this strange strange belief system.
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me pulling up to christmas dinner with my family
#idk what to tag this man#fanfiction#ao3#fanfic#r.txt#i only recently started writing fanfic and idk if i'll ever post any of it#being home for the holidays is so weird#i guess my coping mech was starting to write fanfic
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christmas tree is up and it's. weird for me.
#we havent put one up since I moved out#and with everything we've been remembering it's? there are very mixed feelings#some kids are so happy we're actually doing something and staying home this year so they can be more around#others are really struggling with the seasonal triggers bc the most “extreme” manifestations of their trauma took place around christmas#and then there are a lot of parts who simply do not care because the holiday means very little to them/us#idk man. it's been a weird month in a weird year.
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Ray's After Ending is so funny because for a good chunk of it, most of the RFA members are knocked out by V's sleeping gas (Saeran is immune, Saeyoung isn't present bc he was kidnapped by his agency under his father's orders and MC wakes up in like an hour) but the game has a call feature where you can call the characters and it would be a waste if you couldn't use it bc the characters were unavailable so instead they have other people pick up the call (Jumin's driver picks up Jumin's phone, Jumin's father picks up Zen's phone, Yoosung's friends and mom pick up Yoosung's phone and Jaehee's coworkers pick up Jaehee's phone) and we do get to learn about the characters from outsider's point of view but it's so funny to me that these people are visiting their loved ones and suddenly the phone rings and they decide to just. answer it. and start talking to this stranger they've never met
#prince's talk tag#maybe its not actually weird people just pick up their loved one's phone call for them but i personally wouldn't#i cant stop thinking about how its Jumin's father that uses Zen's phone like Chief Han what were you doing in Zen's room??#i know they needed to assign somw character to Zen and he's not on speaking terms with his family#but I would of thought Chief Han would go to Jumin and the driver could go to Zen#does this mean something? am i thinking too hard about this?#also rip yoosung his friends and mom lowkey kinda dragging him in their call with you#and with the friends since one of them is a girl one of the options is like 'A girl?!?! are you dating??' and shes like 'no lolol'#'he's nice but i dont see him like that'#the main thing that made me make this post was thinking about Yoosung's mom saying how Jumin calls her sometimes and sends her holiday gift#like!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! idk man that just plays on a loop in my head#i know thats like a very professional thing to do. Jumin was raised to please people in a business capacity#and the he cares about the RFA so yea it makes sense. im sure he has gifts sent out to companies his works with#and I'm sure if the other members had a good relationship with their parents hed do the same with them#but in the RFA Yoosung and I guess V are the only ones with parents they talk to#idk if he sends a gift to V's father tho bc we never talk to him#but man. while i know hed do it with the other members if he could just the fact he does it with Yoosung is sweet#and it makes the part in Seven's route where he calls Yoosung's mom about her son's dilemma make sense to me bc they do talk once in a whil#so its not too out of the blue when he does it i guess#but man can we talk about how awesome Jaehee is? bc her coworker that picks up her phone spends every call gushing about her#like we knew she's great at her job but man hearing her coworker talk about her fills me with such love and admiration#and she's apparently really loved by the other assistants too like they all gush about her#jaehee is the best character in the game im not joking around#they wanna get close to her but bc she's their boss it's hard T_T#and the one that picks up the phone wishes Jaehee knows she was the one that stood with her overnight when she wakes#Yuni (the assistant you're talking to) says she would of quit the job had it not been for her#LIKE!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAA!!!!#it was a nice way to use the call feature during the first two days of the characters not being awake to answer#and even though this is supposed to be the last thing you play before completing the whole game#you still learn something new about the characters you've known since day 1
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Heeeere comes another parental holiday
truama dump in tags
#vent#owen and i are actually going over to my parents' house tomorrow because my dad offered to help us fix the ac on the car#and the toss up of whether he behaves himself or goes full on psychotic rage mode is making me nauseous#i know it's beyond his control (he needs to get checked for DID but haha. his trauma is centered around mental healthcare dontchaknow :) )#but it still fucking sucks#and it usually happens on holidays so GODDDD let him stay normal#he never emotionally or physically abused me (gives my mother a hard stare)#his biggest real parenting crime was ignoring it by going off and taking a lot of jobs to get away from it all (he was a truck driver)#but he WOULD surprise us with these little rage flare ups every so often and it always sucked#so i guess that counts as psychological abuse#because of the shit he'd say#but man#i have such a complicated relationship with my dad so father's day has always been so fucking weird for me#but w/e it doesn't matterrrrrrr#as long as we get the fucking ac fixed
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GOT MY FIRST CHOICE 3RD YEAR PROJECT SUPERVISOR
#WHOOP WHOOP I GUESS. but now i'm overwhelmed#hes so lovely but probably thinks i'm weird#because i've been quite vocal about course problems in the past#hes so helpful and responsive though this is perfect if only i can act normal#i need to impress this man holy shit#omg omg omg i didnt open the email for ages because i was stressed but now hes sent me a teams invite#sir i'm on holiday#technically#this is almost too responsive and involved#i thought everyone on my course would want him tbh i'm thrilled#unless he has more than one student#thought i'd end up with chris and we love chris but he's too cheerful#this is actually great lmao first win of my degree#the one person who shows he cares about his students is my supervisor 🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳#maybe i wont end up snapping in 3rd year after all#biomed eng
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it is kinda funny when ppl try to comfort me and they're like "well think about [thing i did]. did it not make you feel good? :)" and I'm like no. i mean maybe for approximately 5 seconds and then i went back to wanting to die. and i can't exactly live off of 5 seconds of happiness per year yknow
#that's why this completing task thing is so weird to me. like either i never complete any task or my dopamine receptors are broken fr#bc no i don't feel good?? never?? at most i feel 3 seconds of relief abt being done with smth and then it's back to stressing abt everythin#man i wish i wasn't a coward so i could at least take drugs abt it idk 😭#negative //#ask to tag#as you can see . i. am not doing the best today ajslfllh holidays really make me feel awful.
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Trad art dump because im opening art trades !!!!! Ill draw anything except gore or nsfw ,
Uhhhwhw my side of the trade will be digital i dont know why i didnt say that ok bye
#betilla the fairy#rayman#weird girl#power chainsaw man#genesis okultra#jade harely#homestuck#hatsune miku#noelle holiday#ralsei#deltarune#art trades#raymans art tag#FUCK why so many tags
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Monster girl designs because why not?
Heyyyyyy... It's been a hot minute... uh yeahhhh, but I'm back! Hi guys, or I guess literally anyone who may come across this post, how's it going? Today I bring to you some more spooky stuff, this time in the form of one of my monster girl OCs Candy!
For a while now, one of the staples of my art has been monster girls. When I was younger (and honestly even now) I loved monster high dolls and their movies. Since I could remember I have always loved the more macabre and spooky, and the idea of combining scary with cute is ingenious and scratches my brain very good good.
So recently, I've decided to create some of my own monster girl ocs, and the designing process has been really fun! Candy here was one of the first girls I designed, and I love her so much.
I based Candy off of Frankenstein's monster and the like, as she's a kinda zombie girl. As her name implies, I based her hair off of different candies, mainly multicolored lolly pops (with swirled colors) and candy corn. For her design as a whole, she's based on more modern traditions of Halloween and depictions of such with a more trick or treat type motif. (unofficially almost all of my monster girl designs are based on different Halloween or Halloween adjacent traditions, holidays, and celebrations).
For now, Candy is the only girl whose design is done and hopefully I can show off the rest of my ideas soon!
Until then, drink some water, eat something, or just take a moment to rest and recharge. Please take care of yourself, if I have to do it, id rather not do it alone! Thank you for reading/viewing! :D
#tagging is so weird man#halloween#art#cute#yeah#uh#monster art#monster girl#zombie#spooky#frankenstein#frankenstiensmonster#digital art#digital drawing#spooky art#spooky time#gotta love halloween#best holiday honestly
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there's this thing that happens where i?? forget I'm not jewish?? technically I'm an atheist (i guess) but i was raised by and around jewish people, on jewish customs, my entire chosen family is jewish, i spent the majority of my elementary years attending after school care at a synagogue that taught jewish history, and i feel a far stronger connection to Judaism than any other religion, but the extent of my actual jewish heritage is around 0.5% Ashkenazi and again, I'm literally an athiest. ridiculous phenomenon
#random ass post but wtv#post#not tagging jumblr because not actually jewish#maybe ill fuckin convert man idk. i don't even believe in god so i feel likw thatd be disrespectful#ill be chilling looking at holiday shit an be like man. so much chrismas stuff in here. no love for us jewish folk goddamn#and then realize im Not Actually Jewish#which is kinda weird? to me? because i was pretty much raised jewish? but im not?#and on one hand i want to be able to convert for instance because i love the traditions and culture and the history and judaism is#an integral part of my identity but on the other hand i hold spite towards the concept of divine creation and i feel like being present in#the community would be appropriation-y at best and sacrilegious at worst i guess.#idk mayb I'll gaslight myself into believing in God. I'm mentally ill enough that i could probably do it#fuck it i believe in god now. whatever. there's probably a guy somewhere in all this shit
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I dunno man between all these 'have you watched' 'have you read' 'do you know this character' type of poll accounts it really seems like people under a certain age bracket straight up barely consume a lot of media or bother to watch anything older than current seasonal fodder and it's kind of sad tbh
#i remember one of my cover teacher friends asked a class when they came back from their holidays#what movies and tv shows or anime theyd watched and just found out most of them werent watching#anything but streamers or the most general disney/marvel fodder#some watched anime but they were basically all just saying the same 2 shows mainly JJK#i dunno man i'm not judging them at all but it just feels really weird#i also realise its not like all genz and younger kids but there is like a weird like lack of media they consume or know of#even as a person not of those generations i still knew a lot of 80's and 70's bands+movies+media#and anyone getting into the anime space around my age didnt just start at seasonal but would go down a selection of classics first#and be aware of others#this isnt to say younger people are stupid or less knowledgeable so much as like there's this lack of interests#IN THEIRMEDIA OF INTEREST which is so.. weird like i wouldnt know what to call the phenomena#but its like some are replacing time for watching/reading/playing things with almost entirely social media and twitch streamers/youtubers#which again not necessarily bad but something definitely feels off about it
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