#hiraeth : leo*

[youredreamingofroo]

How do you feel?

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[There's little details in most of these pics, so click/tap the pics to see those better :)] [ Names, Colors and Emotions/Feelings under the cut ]

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Red - Anger Nirvana represents Anger, Rage and Strength

Orange - Fear Hero represents Fear, Danger and Caution

Yellow - Joy Ithuriel represents Joy, Comfort and Happiness

Green - Jealousy Onia represents Jealousy, Envy and Possessiveness/Possession

Blue - Sadness Kyneva represents Sadness, Pessimism and Fragility

Purple - Mystery/Mysterious Roo represents Mysteriousness, Confusion and Frustration

Pink - Love Leo represents Love, Passion and Desire

Brown - Security/Secure Carter represents Security, Resilience and Responsibility

Black - Grief Phoenix represents Grief, Guilt and Isolation

White - Ease Nanel represents Ease, Calmness and Hope

[skylerskyhigh]

Team Rocket is back with some shenanigans! Instead of interdimentional polls, it's a zombie apocalypse!

Kosmara Leo belongs to @magpiecrown

His World Leonidas belongs to me

Check out Hiraeth here!

[youredreamingofroo]

Not anymore 🤧😭

Does your OC celebrate Valentines Day?

[thatsofic]

FAVORITE GIRL GROUP IS A FICFAVE AWARD!

They're so good, you will they were real! Meet our seven beautiful nominees for FAVORITE GIRL GROUP!

VENUS is a five-member fictional girl group that debuted on March 17, 2018.  Often called "TRENDSETTERS" and "RECORD BREAKERS" VENUS has solidified themselves as one of the best-performing girl groups of all time. \\ @venusvity

SUGAR N' SPICE is a five piece fictional korean girl group that made their debut in the music scene on april 6th, 2019. exploring the stories of five contrasting young adult women as they discover where they are meant to fit in this world. \\ @snspice

v i v i d is a fictional 5 member girl group under angelico entertainment that originally debuted under cube entertainment on the 3rd of feb 2018. the group consists of dayna, yuri, sora, sisi, and leo. \\ @alwaysvivid

honeylemon is a fictional k–pop girl group , managed by seventh heaven. the group debuted in 2020 and consists of six members : joori , meilin , anna , ryuhyun , ej , and kenzie ! their stories explore themes of fame , friendship , girlhood , betrayal , finding oneself , forgiveness , and more ! \\ @andsour

Introducing L8RBOY, Inferno Musik’s most prized possession. Really, IAN! Cry me a river! If you don’t know them, trust me, your favs do. Their debut wasn’t a big thing, nothing they released under Hidden Entertainment was. But Inferno came in the rescue and made them cool, getting rid of those two sad excuses of idols, Hana and Lo. Everybody say: thank you Inferno! \\ @seeyal8r

KRUSH is a 4-member (fictional) girl group under BIGHIT MUSIC. they debuted on october 1st, 2017 with the track “CLASSY.” \\ @urmykrushhh

hiraeth  히라스,  stylized  as  hiræth,  is  a  female  trio  under  octavia  music  co.  currently  regarded  as  south  korea's  darlings,  the  angels,  and  one  of  the  generations'  top  sellers  and  highest  selling  groups  thanks  to  their  charming  but  haunting  concept  about  three  seasonal  angels  stuck  in  a  never-ending  loop. \\ @almostyours

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[zombiecicada]

=Wolfbell AU Lore and Posts Master Post=

While everything tied to the Wolfbell AU can be found under the tag ‘Kirby Wolfbell AU’ this post serves as a means to easily navigate the blog and find certain posts much more easily, as well as help newcomers get to know the au.

Note this post also includes the 2024 Kirby Oc Tournament. Characters belonging to other people will appear in this post, and everyone belongs to their respective owners.

So grab your bells and hop into the rift! Let’s dive in.

=What is the Wolfbell Au?=

The au tells the story of The Star-Crossed Hero of Dreamland, Wolfbell. Who came crashing from a rift in the sky after the residents of Dreamland received a mysterious prophecy telling them the answer to their problem lies within Wolfbell. In a universe where Kirby is seemingly nowhere to be found, this amnesiac hero without a past takes his place and is thrown into a doomed destiny to defeat Nightmare and stop Nightmare Enterprises.

The au serves as a means to indirectly tell my story, as many of the themes and some of the struggles the characters face are struggles I have faced myself or are still currently facing.

For that reason, I caution younger viewers or viewers sensitive to dark or disturbing topics to tread with caution.

=Blog events!!=

50 followers event:

Status: completed.

100 followers event:

Status: upcoming!

=Abstract Art Pieces=

Warning for eye strain!

These are some of my abstract art pieces that contain lore for the au. I typically draw one every Sunday, ore whenever I feel like it.

It’s all so incredibly loud

Random Gods

Where is your child Ryaki?

Pawns of War

Bio-Engineering

=Character bios and lore posts=

Includes various little character bios and lore that isn’t about Wolfbell the character!

=Hiraeth’s little corner of madness=

Hiraeth’s debut

How many waddle dees does it take to change a lightbulb?

Hiraeth steals Wolfbell’s asks

=Rem=

Rem’s debut:

=Zilla’s corner of gooping everyone=

Zilla’s lore

Zilla makes a friend

Zilla goops Fylass

And Whisp

Andddd Techie

=Yamilet=

Yamilet’s intro post

=World Building and Lore Posts=

Here is lore that is canon to the Wolfbell Au and its universe!

Leo species guide

Lykos

Documentation: Subject 42

Crux: The Demonbeast Sanctuary

=The Star Warriors=

The lore focused on the GSA and BSR and its members and history, including canon characters such as Sir Arthur, Sir Falspar, Sir Dragato, and Sir Nonsurat.

The main trio!

Dragato’s HCs

Falspar’s HCs

Nonsurat’s HCs

Yamikage’s HCs

Your Warpstar Is Looking Rough There Buddy

There Were Moments (Gamma/Yamikage)

What Did Sir Arthur Do?

Eating The Pieces When He’s Not Looking

Why did Yamikage Betray the GSA and What Does Dragato Think of Him?

=The 2024 Kirby Oc Tournament=

Wolfbell, the star of the show and my tourney oc for the 2024 Kirby Oc Tournament. All of Wolfbell’s asks and interactions can be found here.

All Wolfbell fan art and propaganda I see will go to the ‘Wolfbell Spotted’ tag. Be sure to tag me so I see it!

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Who’s Wolfbell? Read about the Wolfbell (the character) here!

Wolfbell’s tourney bio

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What is Wolfbell’s favourite food?

Wolfbell’s favourite things to do?

•Rock climbing

•Walks, climbing and having too many questions with no answers

What is Cappy Town Like?

Wolfbell’s favourite season/weather?

What does Wolfbell think of King Dedede?

Can Wolfbell climb trees?

Favourite places to visit + Wolfbowl

How did Wolfbell end up in Cappy Town?

Does Wolfbell ever meet Kirby?

Wolfbell purrs?

What happened to Fumu?

-Would Wolfbell like to help solve a bacon crisis?

=Wolfbell and Meta Knight=

Wolfbell and Meta Knight's complicated relationship.

-Stand up and fight

-He’s learnt she screams like a husky the hard way

=Some Random Wolfbell Posts=

How to draw Wolfbell!

Jellyfish have no brains

Stargazing

Mini Wolfbell power guide

Pride month with Wolfbell

This doodle means nothing at all

Lykos???

Wolfbell is so, so radioactive

Waddlebell!

Knuckle Joe July

=Meeting With Other People’s Ocs=

Wolfbell's first meetings with various other 2024 Kirby Oc Tournament ocs!

Wolfbell meets Kurabe and gets a cupcake. And a mild panic attack.

Wolfbell meets Cosmo

Wolfbell meets Mirage + teaches rock climbing

Wolfbell meets Halley (and dies just a little, but also gets adopted)

Wolfbell meets Fylass (and dies some more)

Wolfbell meets Dotty (and is bewildered wow you just popped out of the wall. But no she’s not stressed that would be silly)

Wolfbell says hello to Pip (and doesn’t die)

Wolfbell meets David (and also doesn’t die)

Wolfbell meets Dazor (oop there is the death, and it turns out there’s a rift in her head, who put that there???)

Wolfbell meets Anti (and gets a hug!!!)

Wolfbell meets Verin (and… is sleepy, apparently…)

Wolfbell meets Lady Celestine

Wolfbell meets Orion Knight

Wolfbell meets Fal

Wolfbell meets Gizmo

Wolfbell meets Fecto Flora

Wolfbell meets (has her brained fried by) Valfrey

[blackfire-fanfiction]

Recording how many words of fanfic I read per day (April 1)

Today: 294,001 words Yesterday: (40,171 words) Top this Month: 294,001 words

heh 50 fics on the dot

I read all of the one-shots in the hoard, and read a few of the 2-5 category. I’m starting out the month strong by reading over a quarter of a million words. Which means I could get over 2 million read by the end of next week

I am behind on asks though, I’ll get to them sometime I swear-

[Fics I read today under the cut]

Chapter 13 of Until I Reach You Again by Acornz, morning_sun, stormy_nyx  Three Red Turtles by Magical_Persona  my garden blooms (just for you) by intxicatedtears  Just Don’t Let Go by aliennopossumm  it stays there until you die by skittykitty  May we be reunited by spiromachia  I Feel You by GriffinStone  Find Your Family by this ones for turtles (WisteriaParfait)  a lesson in trust by katterv  Those Sleepless Nights by Amaranthyn  Mikey’s Cookbook by FightingGoldButCoda  Consequence for Indifference by Professor_Anxietree  Chapter 22 of The Last Ronin Becomes a Discord Admin by MelonPalooza  sugar crash by VaguelyVibrant  Hiraeth by MagpieCrown, SkylerSkyhigh  Homing pigeon by pitterpatterpot  they wanted heaven from me (i gave them hell) by spoopdeedoop  Give me that thing that I love (I’ll turn the lights out) by clandestineClairvoyant  Once a Jones, always a Jones by E_gant  The Why of Things (Turtles All the Way Down Remix) by slipstream  Call me up, when you need a shoulder to prop you up. by donnie (someguysnotes)  To See Another Day by teainthesnow  Empty Shells, Empty Soul by avengersasssemble  Chapter 3 of death's confrontation by BluetoothCat  Just A Man by H2Ready4U  Ballet by Harper_Skelli  Guardian by Harper_Skelli  all that i am has led to here by catatonicatnap  I'm not cold, the blue tint is natural! (But I am sorry.) by TheKawiiBear  Brother-hen Instinct by pyritegirl (orphan_account)  Caught a Bug by IBrokeThe4thWall  A Soul with Two Faces by GreenGoddessSmoothie  To Be Or Not To Be by GarbageCanFics243  What Makes a Family by KJDreamer  Tea Time for Turtle by pickledcarrotsandradish  nefarious Issue Number Two by bobtheacorn  That Old, Duct-Taped Vista by Nyomio  You Know I Love You by pickledcarrotsandradish Apocalypse Seers by Sam_The_Friendly_Ghost  Family Webs AU by bex19974  colors of the rainbow by MikeWritesThings  Ineffable Hiraeth by Leozi  Lonely Leo Au by Wrenny_Fang_03  Chapter 17 of Hey, Donnie? For future reference? This is NOT how we manage things by BoStaffsAreCool (Heyifyouthinkofausernameletmeknow)  For A Better Time by CartoonHostage  Chapter 13 of Mystic Malfunction by VanillaVengeance  Sr. Hueso, After Hours by obsessedwithstardust  Chapter 11 of Last Grain Of Sand In The Hourglass by TjLockticon  Chapter 22 of In the Bottom of the Bottle (I see your reflection) by BeeCeit  The Stolen Warrior by EpicE02 

[youredreamingofroo]

Roo and Leo. but are we surprised?? Although that's if you just wash out the toxicity,, and the grudges,,, also how far they live from each other,,,,,, and Leo's general just. distaste in Roo because of he finally came to terms with his feelings for Leo about 7 years later. But other than that! They're made for each other!! 😁😁😁

but on a more positive note, Ithuriel and Nanel match each other's freak SOOOO well, they're literally made for each other tbh. Also Jordynn and Sean match each other's freak very well.

📩 Simblr question of the day: Who are 2 OCs that actually did match each others freak?

answer in whatever way is most comfortable for you and feel free to share this SQOTD around, make sure to use the hashtag SQOTD and tag me in separate posts ~ 💛

This question was contributed by : @xldkx ~Thank you for the SQOTD contribution~

[kanouseis]

1, 2, 5, 6, 9, 12, for PANDORA HAATZUUU!!!

1 – character you relate most to

elliot <33 my dude and i share the problem of being a leo sun (way too impulsive, sometimes to harsh with words, actually a very soft person)

2 – character you look the most like

i aspire to look like sharon but rn its lilly probably. im cursed with a lil babyface

5 – fav character and why

eeeee if youre making me choose. leo. i like his story a lot, how its about choosing to accept the present, how it incorporates grief and also ties into the story overall, its all just so beautiful. other ppl in the run are break and elliot <3

6 – image associated with the fandom

a very refined chaos. a dress decorated with the most beautiful of flowers, yet it is so often overlooked by people.

9 – fav fic

hiraeth by sorrow_key makes me feel so many emotions. i love post-canon fic

12 – fav hc

lesbian lottie!!! i just think shes not normal about women. just like me

[ph4nth1ve]

☆ . ENSEMBLE STARS :

♡. Kohaku o. :

I SAW YOU IN A DREAM

♡. Leo T. :

SUNFLOWER

♡. Natsume s. :

HIRAETH [ Looking glass Natsume Au]

RAINDROPS

☆ . MAHOYAKU :

tba

[mertensiaovum]

Okay but pls take a moment to consider Hiraeth getting close to a human and while working or something just letting them poke at her or have fun examining her hands. Like just. Give me Hiraeth being soft with this fragile species that seems so curious about her squishiness and claws. 

[eff-plays]

#bg3#uGH hiraeth fan club when??#not to be a simp but hira is one of my top fave bg3 ocs#i see them on my dash and i point like that one meme picture of leo dicaprio pointing at the tv

OughOUGhOuGh? 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

Tfw he's saying some of the worst pick-up lines you've ever heard but he has big wet eyes like a sad frog

[youredreamingofroo]

The Fool... The Lover's Fool

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But is it really the Lover's doing in fooling the Fool, who hadn't loved the Lover? song : x

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[ before / after under the cut ]

[skylerskyhigh]

Want a taste of Team Rocket?

I little thing I did while watching Supernatural.

His World Leonidas belongs to me

Kosmara Leo belongs to @magpiecrown

You can read the duo's adventure in a zombie apocalypse situation on AO3. Hiraeth currently has 3 chapters out and ready to be enjoyed!

[hiraeth-hera]

—  ↻  // BASICS !

STAGE NAME :: jisuk | 지석

GIVEN NAME :: lee jisuk

BIRTHDAY :: august 20th, 2004

ZODIAC :: leo

BIRTHPLACE :: seoul, south korea

HOMETOWN :: seoul, south korea

ETHNICITY :: korean

NATIONALITY :: korean

LANGUAGES :: native korean , intermediate english

—  ↻  // PHYSICAL !

HEIGHT :: 175 cm || 5'8.8

BLOOD TYPE :: b

PIERCINGS :: 1x lobe piercings , 1x 2nd lobe piercing , 2x helix piercings

TATTOOS :: 2x hand tattoo , 3x back tattoo

—  ↻  // CAREER !

PROFESSION :: idol ' actor ' mc

GROUP ::  hiraeth

LABEL :: beat interactive

TRAINING PERIOD :: 4 years

POSITION :: main vocalist ' dancer

—  ↻  // BACKGROUND !

Jisuk was quite timid when talking about himself, not that he doesn't like to, in fact he's quite fond of doing that. Just that he was scared of where hat information could go, who would see it and if it could get him in trouble. But in the end, he broke. He grew up in Seoul and never left home often. His family is quite wealthy, they grew up in a large modern family home. Jisuk parents work overseas for a magazine company in america. So him and his older siblings basically grew up without parents in this huge house. A few rumours about Jisuk said that one of his older brothers got addicted to gambling and spent half of the families wealth and now their in dept and that's why Jisuk became an idol so young, he had to earn money quickly to pay off the dept.

He started training when he was fourteen and continued for 4 years intel he turned 18 and debut with Hiraeth. He was the fourth member to be released. And almost immediately as debut was even mentioned Jisuk was put forward to do brand modelling and selling and other small promotions such as that. To help the group gain some popularity before officially debuting.

Once they did officially debut Jisuk's first task after promotions was to become an mc, which he accomplished at in no time. After that he made his debut as an actor in the webtoon adaption tv series 'true beauty' as a side character. Jisuk quickly gianed a fandom for himself and made his name known over time. He's still working hard to get out there but for now he if pretty content.

[youredreamingofroo]

Roo would be so painfully disgusted by the sheer mention of "Is Cereal a soup?" 😭😭 Only because he associates soup with savory, and cereal is... well, not savory LMAO, he is a HUGE cereal ISNT soup believer. And Leo would also prolly think Cereal isn't a soup, but would say it is a soup just to spite people

📩 Simblr question of the day: Your sim is having a heated discussion with someone about whether Cereal is a soup or not, what side are they on? 👀

answer in whatever way is most comfortable for you and feel free to share this SQOTD around, make sure to use the hashtag SQOTD and tag me in separate posts ~ 💛

[xrikix]

» Hiraeth Chapter 14 || Haikyuu AU

❝They will learn how to fly.❞ – an AU where the kids of Haikyuu characters grow their passion for volleyball and face their problems.

Starring our OC’s Hoshi, Minami, and Leo! (don’t worry they’re as fluffy as our babies from Haikyuu but sprinkle in more angst)

Read Chapter 13 Here!

Unravel

The view of Leo’s home loomed into view, the sun’s warm glow filtered out from behind the trees. His body was curled up into a ball as much as the seat belt would allow him to. Was he comfortable— well, not really— but, all he needed to do was disappear from the world.��

Leo felt the low rumbling of the engine as it turned off, waking him from his slumber. Turning to look out the window, he realized they were home. Unbuckling the seatbelt, Leo tumbled out of the car seat and dazely walked towards the front door. 

His mind clouded with broken promises, and the radiant world he once knew seemed to turn black and white. With a downcasted gaze, Leo trudged along the concrete towards the door. 

He didn’t feel like himself. 

He didn’t feel like anything at all. 

It felt like watching an empty husk mindlessly go about life, wandering the world, being followed by the darkest of storms. Leo felt soulless.

Pushing the keys into the lock, Leo pulled the door open. The lights flickered on, and his eyes slowly adjusted to the brightness. 

In the midst of the flickering lights, his mind suddenly flashed back to his game. The gym lights shined overhead and the screams emanated in his ears. 

Leo jumped at Kageyama’s voice, “you forgot your bag—” 

He snapped out of his trance and growled at Kageyama, pushing past him to walk towards the stairs. It wasn’t in him to feel fear anymore. His feet quickly hurried up the stairs, thumping through the silent house. 

“Leo.” His body wanted to stop and turn around, but he forced it to continue. 

“Leo,” Kageyama’s voice raised louder. Leo flinched but kept going. 

“Leo, stop.” The commanding tone that laced his father’s words brought a pause to Leo’s movements, as he gripped the railing. Leo turned around to face Kageyama’s calm demeanor still at the front door, his bags still in his hands. “Dinner will be ready soon.” 

“Oh… okay,” Leo mumbled, shock evident on his face as he realized Kageyama wasn’t reprimanding him. His feet numbly continued onwards, and Leo couldn’t help but feel even more defeated.

The night sky glistened overhead by the time dinner was ready. The atmosphere surrounding the table felt dim. Shrinking his body closer into his chair, Leo poked at his food, swishing it around the plate. 

Without Hinata and Minami who could make the sun cower in fear, dinner felt deadly silent. Sometimes, he wished for a peaceful dinner with his family, but now he desperately wanted something— anything to happen. 

Storm clouds rolled in his head, and he couldn't help but sigh. 

Kageyama’s gaze turned soft as he looked at Leo’s despair. “Let’s talk Leo,” his voice turned soft. 

Leo raised his head, staring into his father’s concerned eyes. 

He couldn’t take it. Leo immediately turned his head back towards his food.

Kageyama pushed on, “you’re worrying us.” 

Leo grimaced, “but—” 

“Let me speak first.” 

Leo’s mouth sealed tight, the words that he wanted to say fell silent. 

“That outburst you had today in the gym isn’t you. I would expect that from Minami, but you… that was a surprise. Hinata and I have both felt something change in you since high school began. So let’s talk about it.” 

Leo looked at his plate, food still untouched, finding it more interesting to swirl his rice around. He really did regret his actions from before, but his mouth couldn’t form any more words. 

He was unsure what path was even his to take. He felt miles away from his family, silently drowning in the most desolate seas. 

Jealousy is a bitch, Leo thought. He was back to square one, depressed and absolutely astray. “I don’t even know…” Leo’s voice was soft compared to his raging thoughts. The words threatened to spill out despite everything he wanted to hold back. He could feel his voice shaking and he hated it. 

Leo could feel Kageyama patiently waiting, his eyes never wavering away from Leo’s. 

“I feel like I’m… falling behind. Everyone is just better than me. I really don’t know how to say it…” 

Kageyama nodded, “you should start eating, your food is going to get cold.” 

Gently raising his chopsticks to his lips, Leo planned out the next few words he needed to say so that his parents would be convinced that he was okay. Was he okay? Leo didn’t even know. “I’m sorry for what I did back at the gym, I really am. I was mad that we didn’t win, and I lashed out at everyone. I’m also sorry for pushing and ignoring you earlier.” 

Kageyama gazed at Leo, slowly nodding his head, “it’s okay.” 

Leo sighed, “I’m still trying to figure everything out. I know I should be doing better. I’ll sort out these feelings myself…” 

Kageyama shook his head, “it’s okay to feel like you’re behind. With hard work and practice, you’ll get there. Honestly, I think you’re ahead of everyone else.” Leo couldn't help but drown out his father’s words. “And about sorting out everything by yourself, you should talk to us. I know we seem like the best volleyball players out there, but we know how it feels.” Kageyama gave him a small smile, “so talk to us alright?” 

Leo nonchalantly nodded. 

“Promise me,” Kageyama’s voice became more affirmative. 

“Yeah, I promise…” Leo answered, already knowing the lies that will plagued his words. 

The rest of dinner continued smoothly. Although it was quiet, it was peaceful, the words that needed to be said were laid out and exposed. Leo excused himself from the table, ready to jump into the comfort of his bed and sleep. He wished he could shut off his mind forever. 

Nestling into bed, his blankets wrapped him up into a cocoon, Leo forced his mind to rest, but it wouldn’t stop racing through a million thoughts. His body felt restless. The flashes of the game played repeatedly over in his mind. The thrill, the exhilaration, the adrenaline mixed with the lights and screams, it felt like he was being transported back into those moments. It tormented him, hearing the celebrating cheers of the Tokonami High, the hatred that rolled off of him and Minami. All the eyes that continued to watch his every move, determining whether he was worthy enough to stay on the court haunted him. 

Too agitated to sleep, he walked down the stairs with a volleyball in his hands, wanting to feel the crisp air outside. The living room light was on as he walked past Kageyama watching the TV. 

“I’ll be out in the yard,” Leo said, putting on his shoes. 

“Okay, don’t be out too late.” 

“Yeah…” he responded, opening the door. 

Fingers tingling, eager to touch the ball no matter what, he stepped out into the darkness. The front lights were on, chasing away the dark shadows. The grass crinkled beneath his feet as the crisp breeze kissed his face. The stars twinkled overhead, the moon’s light saying hello. His hands felt the comfortable embrace of the ball as he continued to set the ball over his head. 

Arms raised, fingers pushed against the ball higher and higher into the air. It felt calm outside, just him and the ball, the normal, repetitive feeling of an old friend. Occasionally, his eyes would glance towards Hoshi’s home, the house silent signaling the empty place. 

As if reading his mind, he heard the ding of a message. Leo walked towards his phone, letting the ball roll away into the dark. 

Hoshi: hey, u good? 

Leo sighed, the bright screen illuminating his face. He wasn’t in the mood to talk to Hoshi, but he felt obligated to respond to his message. 

Leo: yeah 

Hoshi: I saw Mianmi and went over to tell her congrats for winning, but she looked pissed

He didn’t know how to respond to that, his fingers lingering over the keyboard.

Hoshi: she told me what happened so I wanted to check in with you

Hoshi: is everything okay?

Leo groaned, tilting his head back, hands clutching his phone. He came outside to not think about what was going on, but of course life had to pull this stunt on him. Hoshi was probably waiting for a response, leaving Leo to suffer while thinking about the perfectly constructed response.

Leo: everything’s fine, I guess losing just made me feel tired  

Hoshi: well if you’re so sure…

Leo sighed, he needed to end this conversation quickly.

Hoshi: Your dad told me how well you played so

Hoshi: I know it sucks losing, but good job! Your time on the court helped your team out a lot! 

Leo was stunned, a sudden rush of fury pushed its way to the surface. He wanted to chuck his phone far away, unsure why the last message made his blood boil. He felt so close to diving off the edge, into the chasm of the storm clouds that awaited him in his mind. The words people said that were meant to help were all thrown out. 

Sometimes the light shone through but now Leo wanted to ignore it all, and embrace the darkness. Embrace the waves that continually dragged him under into the freezing water, the monster that lurked in his world waiting to pounce any moment. 

Leo shoved his face into his hands, messing his hair up in the process. He felt trapped inside a never ending maze. Sometimes he thought he found the exit, but most of the time he would find dead ends. It infuriated him. 

He wanted things to go back to normal, when his sister wasn’t furious at him, when his parents didn't have to worry about him, and most importantly, when he knew his own self worth. 

He wanted to be on the court, but everything seemed to want to hold him back. 

It all blew out of him, his fears, his anger, and his jealousy. 

With his head tucked deep within his arms, Leo couldn’t stop the onslaught of tears. His body shuddered, and the pain erupted out with his tears. 

Anxiety clenched tightly onto him, relishing their deep embrace. 

The stars seemed to lose their brightness one by one with each cry that left his lips. 

The world seemed duller than black and white. Even grey couldn’t match the color of Leo’s heart as the world around him crumbled to dust.

The forgotten volleyball loomed out in the darkness, watching the beginning of an unravelment, seeing the shadows wrap around the boy who lost his colors.