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EVERY SINGLE DAY there are MILLIONS of characters in their late 20s who get falsely accused of being father figures to teenagers when in reality the description of "weird older cousin" or "step-sibling that moved out before you were born" is 1000000x more apt
#talk tag#IT KILLS ME. REIGEN IS NOT MOB'S DAD. HE HAS A DAD. INGO IS NOT AKARI'S DAD. PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD CAN ANYONE HEAR ME#(not even necessarily to say that ingo is in his late 20s but still)#(even if he was a 30-40-50 year old no matter how old he is no fucking teenager is gonna call some guy they met as a 15 year old ''dad'')#GAI IS NOT A FATHER FIGURE TO ROCK LEE HE WAS LIKE 13 WHEN HE WAS BORN! PLEASE!!!!!!!!#one time i saw that a âperson wrote a fic where mario was like a father figure to luigi.#they are TWIN BROTHERS.#not what this about but idk where else i can say anything about this.#just horrible#also sometimes someone is just An Older Friend like no familial relationship just a friend or acquaintance who is a lot older than you
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⧠bloodlust â§
I'm starving, darling//Let me put my lips to something//Let me wrap my teeth around the world
[edit: thanks to all the love on this piece (which was just the WIP until now) I finally got the motivation to finish this after two months! Thank you to anyone who enjoys this for giving me the strength to finish this]
#yes i put lyrics to a Hozier song#I couldnât take it any longer I had to post this#Oh btw the bottom right corner is stuff I wrote :) thatâs not just anyoneâs gay bloodlust yearning! Itâs MINE :)#vampire tag#werewolf tag#my art#If the proportions are off⊠shhh ok. Iâm used to drawing beasts and furries not people so forgive me#art#oc: wolf#oc: emil#pssss guys please click on the link ok thank u#thatâs the playlist I made specifically for this art piece#vampire x werewolf#werewolf oc#werewolf art#vampire art#vampire oc#monsterfucker#monster x monster#terato#suggestive art#If youâve made it this far in the tags then hiiiiiiii mewtuals <3#bloodlust boyfriends#blood moon bite#*voice of a guy whoâs getting the blood drained out of him by his hot werewolf boyfriend in the middle of the woods in the night* woah is#this gay sex#FINALLY FINISHED THIS!!!!!
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mostly old engiespy doodles, kinda drew most of these for my eyes only but changed me mind today
#holy shit i didnt know u could upload so many pics on tumblr#tf2#tf2 engineer#tf2 spy#team fortress 2#engiespy#i wrote out a bunch of crap but nvm lol. i have many thots abt crossfaction in particular...they are fun 2 me#practical espionage#????#i love happy sunshine eng but i also really love playing w his bitchier side too...all tf2 guys contain multitudes
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Danny: Hi, would you like to buy some cookies to support my education at Gotham Academy?
Bruce: Yes of course! How much are they?
Danny: ten bucks a box!
Bruce: Put me down for 50 boxes.
Danny: Really!?
Bruce: I have plenty of mouths to feed, trust me. By the way, chum, how did you get past the gate security?
Danny: eh, it wasn't too hard. Honestly sir, it felt like it was more design to keep people in then keep people out.
Damian from the second floor: I WILL NOT BE CONTAINED!
Bruce nods, ignoring Damian: Thank you for the feedback, my boy. I'll have it updated, but please feel free to come by anytime. I love cookies!
Bruce in the Batcave after Danny leaves: How did an uncoordinated nerd get past my systems!?
Tim: I don't know, but I've seen him around school. Get this, he's an engineering prodigy, but his family makes too much to qualify for a scholarship. They also don't make enough to afford his schooling, so he does odd jobs for cash. He creates gadgets for our classmates. That's a rouge in the making if I ever have seen one.
#dcxdpdabbles#dc x dp crossover#From a fic I never wrote#Danny is in that weird middle but almost lower class where there is no support#So he doing what he can to pay his education#Meanwhile the bats are suspcious#IDK why Danny is in Gotham#He just a little guy getting by#Bruce was screaming on the inside while being Brucie
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daniel molloy you FREAK!!!
#yeah these are all from the devils minion chapter#iwtv#trying to bite open a guys neck with your MORTAL HUMAN TEETH and drinking his blood despite the fact that it does nothing bc youâre human#also snuggling with dead things awww if i wrote fanfic i would name one that itâs so cute
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Teru and Ritsu !!!!! And Ddimple I guess
#nothingbizzare art#watched all evangelion anddid color pallet studies#TERU AND RITSU THE DUO THAT WOULD PROTECT WITH ALL COSTS MOB#the popular guys duo who talk about some gossip and are silly and silly#mp100#mp100 fanart#hanazawa teruki#teruki hanazawa#kageyama ritsu#ritsu kageyama#ekubo#mp100 dimple#mob psycho 100#mob psycho fanart#i wrote ddimple of fimple instead of Dimple too many times#i think my tablet hates the guy because it doesnt let me wtite his name
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Holmes and Watson / Tristan and Isolde
BBC Radio 4's Sherlock Holmes, The Devil's Foot (radio drama transcript) /// Granada's The Memoirs of Sherlock Holmes, The Red Circle /// Metafictional Monday: Tristan und Isolde, @teaformrholmes /// Brayton Polka, LIEBESTOD: On Love and Death in Wagner's "Tristan und Isolde", p. 248 /// The Private Life of Sherlock Holmes, Vincent Starrett /// BBC Radio 4's Sherlock Holmes, The Devil's Foot (radio drama transcript)
#this is so niche but I have to trust there's an audience for it#it's about characters being immortalised by the audience. it's about a love that is only realised in the minds of the viewer#there's an extra layer to how isolde never hears the resolution of this chord and so only the audience can witness their union or something#and in granada the chord remains unresolved and transitions into the show's theme as holmes stares into the camera#as if he's asking the audience if the chord is resolved - if his love is requited#but idk enough about opera to explain it and the guy who wrote that jstor article knows too much about opera to articulate it clearly#also bert coules was fucking insane for this#at least there's a canon basis for holmes & watson watching a wagner show in the red circle but bbc4 pulls it out of nowhere in devils foot#sherlock holmes#bbc4 sherlock holmes#granada holmes#granada johnlock#johnlock#acd johnlock#tristan and isolde
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thinking about the... potential clawthorne woodcarving mentorship.
+ bonus cuz also thinking abt how if hunter ever met dell's palisman and got reminded of flapjack, he'd probably feel bad abt making that association cuz he knows what it's like to be seen only as someone's different version (even though the bird wouldn't mind much so lol)
#eda having that palistrom seed.. hunter saying he wants to learn how to carve palisman... his relation to clawthornes. it HAS to mean STH js#the owl house#toh#hunter toh#toh hunter#hahaa always thinking abt hunter growing a soft spot for palismen and loving creating and bringing them to life#but never being able to replace flapjack no matter how many palismen for other ppl he carves. I'M GONNA-#:((((( :///#like he's not going to want to replace flapjack just like that rn. cuz he LOVES that bird. it's gonna be so hard for him to just.. Move On#and flapjack's a PART of him.. so very curious where they'll go with this because..... HM. HM like he serves as his disability aid almost#and he can't just REMAKE him. but he cannot also just.... ignore what happened straight away. but it's also important to heal#but whatever he decides to do i feel like he'd love to just............ create. whether it be for himself or others#BUT GAH. ANYWAY XKJSJSK wrote an essay abt this already don't need to write one in the tags TOO. so uh .. yea#little guy.. pls find happiness#my art#fanart#hunter#hunter noceda#hunter wittebane#eda#eda clawthorne#dell#dell clawthorne#dell's palisman#toh art#edalyn clawthorne#also like...... if flapjack and dell's palisman were caleb's and evelyn's palismen...... and knew each other........#and while flapjack was waiting for his new person at the bat queen's cave dell's palisman was being passed down clawthorne generations#OUUHGHHHHGHHHH they were probably friends..... they Knew each other#what's up with you you mysterious yellow bird with eyebrows...... what's your story
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Aventurine x Reader
You treat Aventurine with more respect than he deserves.
Read part 2 here !
Only barely proof-read, guaranteed to have lots of grammatical errors, English is not my first language and I am experimenting with my writing style <3
CW: smut, handjob (Aventurine receiving), dehumanisation (internal, thoughts Aventurine has of himself, referring to himself as a âmonsterâ), feelings of inadequacy, hurt/very little comfort, crying, mentions of death, at some points this seems like dubcon because Aventurine speaks of feeling âdreadâ, but itâs NEVER intended to be read as him not wanting to receive touch from reader, it is meant to convey how little he thinks he deserves this. The smut is soft and gentle, but Aventurineâs internal thoughts definitely are not <3
Lmk if thereâs anything else I should warn about !!
18+, minors will be blocked <3
Your touch is so kind. Soft and gentle, as if he is made of the finest porcelain, as if he is a fragile flower, as if he is delicate. It is cruel, he thinks, that he has made you think he is any less than a monster. It is cruel that he hasnât pushed you away, when he knows he will devour you. It has become part of his nature.
But how can he push you away when you are so persistent? How can he push you away when you roll with his punches, when you go along with each and every one of his pushes and pulls? It is hard to keep you out when you insistently pry your way into whatâs left of his soul, when you gaze upon the rotten corpse that he is and still claim him to be beautiful. He thinks you must be blind at best and naive at worst.
âYouâre so pretty,â you whisper reverently, and though Aventurine knows his body is, he also knows that is not the part of him youâre referring to. Not when your hand rests on his chest, above the empty cavern where his heart is meant to be.
You kiss his neck and he shivers. Thereâs a pit in his stomach, knotting his insides with dread.
He should tell you to stop, should warn you that heâs deceiving you, that heâs not the person you think he is. Should show you that he is a wolf in sheepâs clothing, that he is a bad omen. But he canât bring himself to. Not when being with you feels so good, not when heâs self-indulgent to a fault, and he canât help himself with you. He is the worst mistake you could ever make, in part because he canât even stop from letting you continue to make it.
His hands rest on the back of your neck, fingers tangled in your hair. It is unfair how good your touch feels, his back arching just from mere caresses upon his skin. You play him like heâs an instrument youâve practiced for years, despite never having fucked him before. He digs his heels into your back as your hand wraps around his dick, and he whines into your shoulder when you lovingly stroke it.
âI love you,â you murmur as he pulls on your hair, as his nails dig into your skin, and he wants to cry. He will destroy you from the inside out, he knows, or maybe he will kill you before he gets the chance to. He can never keep the things he loves alive.
Your lips kiss his skin, and he moans brokenly as your thumb glides over the head of his cock, pushing down on the tip. His hips rock up to meet your hand, and he feels ashamed of how blatantly he allows himself to enjoy you, how blatantly he allows himself to use you. You deserve so much better, but you are the best thing that he has ever managed to get his bloodstained hands on, and so he canât help himself. He wants you to remain unaware of how much better you could do. He wants you to stubbornly remain by his side even when he makes it hard for you to do so. He wants to bare every part of his being to you so you can see how little worth he is to you. He wants you to run from him before itâs too late.
But part of him knows he already has shown you himself, that youâve seen who he is and you still love him. You must be stupid.
âUse me,â he begs you, wishing youâd do something with him to alleviate the guilt he feels, so it would at least be mutual. His hands cling to you, and he whimpers pathetically when you lean back to look down at him. âUse me, please. PleaseâŠâ
And your eyes are so kind. Your eyes are so sweet and soft and human, and everything he is not.
âShh,â you hush him, tenderly pressing a kiss to his lips. He sobs, feeling embarrassing tears fill his eyes as you press closer to him, the touch so caring and innocent yet so lewd as your hand tugs at him. âJust let me make you feel good, okay?â
And you do. You always keep true to your words, unlike him. Itâs barely a minute later that his breath hitches and he keens, nearly wailing into your neck as he comes undone under your too loving hands. Itâs obscene, and he feels filthy as his semen paints your hand and splatters on his lower stomach. He has soiled your perfect skin, has dirtied your perfect body. He hopes you will let go of him and wash yourself up, then leave him here, broken on the bed in the mess heâs created. That you will leave him to pick up the pieces of himself he has left. He is undeserving of you.
And yet he only feels your love swaddle him when his body relaxes, adoring praises and sweet words tumbling from your perfect lips as your perfect hands gently stroke his body, soothing him as if he is deserving. Your perfect body presses closer to him, no doubt getting his mess on your perfect abdomen as you almost lay yourself flat on him. You pepper perfect kisses all over his face, and he realises belatedly heâs crying. For the first time in ten years. Fat tears rolling down his cheeks, and he doesnât know for what reason.
But you seem like you do know. You look so understanding, wiping his tears with an achingly kind, perhaps slightly sad smile, and you donât ask him why.
âIâve got you now, itâs okay,â you say instead. And you do, because you always keep true to your word.
And he is selfish, because he doesnât stop you. He lets you clean him up, lets you kiss his tears away, lets you take care of him. Lets you climb into bed with him afterwards, unaware that you have brought the monster under your bed up into your loving arms. He hasnât felt so much love since he was nine.
And he is selfish, because even though he can already feel his claws dig into your flesh as he holds you in return, he cannot bring himself to pull away. He can only hope he wonât dig in his heels when you eventually see reason and try to leave. He can only hope you will have the time to get away before he kills you.
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My inbox is open, feel free to send in asks or requests, I'd love to ramble about things <3
#[18+]#[rawbin]#[aventurine]#[rawbin fanfic]#[by me]#aventurine x reader#Do I think this is how his first time with any person would usually go ? No#Do I intend for this read of him to be the standard for how I write him ? Also no#Just thought it would be interesting :3#Didn't even originally intend to upload this when I wrote it but urgghhghhgh I want to prove I want to write....#plspslspsls send requests to me pls guys I can't do this I'm not creative enough to come up with my own prompts#art by yours truly btw but I won't put it under the art tag because I'm still finishing it up to post the full image later#aventurine hsr#aventurine honkai star rail#aventurine star rail#reader x aventurine#aventurine x you#hsr x reader#hsr x you#hsr aventurine#hsr#honkai star rail#honkai star rail x reader#smut#aventurine smut
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"I'll see you guys later!" Eddie calls, his hips wiggling as he fake jogs to the door. Steve holds his hand up after him, Robin waves her whole arm at him, not looking away from the stove. Steve stares after him as he disappears, he hears the door open and click closed.
"You've got that dopey look on your face again." Robin says, crossing her arms and resting against the counter as she watches him. Steve turns to her, avoids her eyes and watches the steam rise from the bowl of Ramen on the countertop.
"Shut up." He grumbles.
"Just sayin. Your eyes get all shiny and your mouth literally hangs open sometimes... it's... ridiculous." She shakes her head but she looks... sad? Steve hates when she looks at him like that.
"Well-" he stops, takes a deep breath. Robin's lip twitches.
"Let it out babe. You'll feel better." She holds her hand out, twitches her fingers encouragingly.
Steve grimaces, runs his hands over his face and then jumps off the stool to his feet.
"It- it- it's just dimples! Dimples across the board Robin! I mean what am I supposed to do with that!?" He groans, his hands flailing at his sides, a habit he'd picked up from both Robin and Eddie.
"You should tell him how you feel maybe?" Robin says, he voice completely calm as she stirs her ramen slowly.
"Can you please stop suggesting that. We've established that's not a viable solution." Steve huffs, hands falling to the countertop on their small island, his shoulders tight.
"Well. No. You established that. I agreed to no such thing." Robin shakes her head, crosses her arms again.
"Steve. It's been three years. We've all lived together. For three years. You've been hopelessly in love with him. Forthree. Fucking. Years."
Steve opens his mouth to defend himself but before he can speak there's a clatter by the door and Eddie comes skidding back into the room.
"You're in love with me!?" He shouts, his eyes wide as they bounce between Robin and Steve.
"I'm out." Robin says, grabbing her bowl gently and walking away.
"Robin!" Steve calls, it sounds more like a whine but he would deny that to his grave.
"Nope." Is all he gets from her as she, uncharacteristically, gracefully dodges his reaching hands and disappears down the all into her room.
Steve turns, his mouth opening, about to apologize or backtrack or maybe cry a little, but instead finds himself with a chestful of Eddie Munson. Eddie's hands tug his hips close and then move nimbly up his sides to rest against his neck.
"Hi." Eddie says, smiling. Steve's eyes move to his cheeks, his dimples, helpless.
"Hi. I can expla- mmfph!" Eddie's lips press to his with a genlte force Steve could only associate with Eddie. His lips are soft, if a little chapped, and warm, moving gently agaisnt his. Steve lets his eyes fall closed and hums into the kiss, wraps his arms around Eddie's waist and holds him close.
"I'm in love with you too." Eddie breathes, pulls back, looks at Steve, his eyes shining with tears.
"I love you too." He breathes again, bumping his nose into Steve's.
"Yeah?" Steve asks, tilts his head and watches as Eddie dramatically clutches his chest with a teasing grimace.
"Yeah." Eddie nods, his nose scrunching. Steve bites his lip, squeezes Eddie's hips until he squirms and then pulls him close again.
"I love you." Steve says, reaching up and tucking Eddie's hair behind his ear.
"You said." Eddie sinks his teeth into his own lip and scrunches his nose again, swaying side to side, moving them both.
"Not to you. And it's nice to say it. Finally." Steve says, smiling as Eddie keeps them swaying slowly.
"Three years is a long time I guess." Eddie nods, slowly, eyes narrowing.
"What? What's that for?" Steve asks, reaching up and moving his finger over the frown lines on Eddie forehead, trailing his finger down his nose as well, making it twitch.
"Nothin just. Three years is a lot." He bites at Steve's hand as he moves it away to rest on Eddie's shoulder, Eddie's eyes move back to his face.
"But six years is longer." He mumbles it, and quickly tucks his face against Steve's neck, hugging him and holding him close.
"Wait what? Six years?" Steve frowns, tries to untangle Eddie from himself, Eddie holds on tighter.
"Eddie!" Steve huffs, manages to untangle himself and look at Eddie, who's red in the face.
"What?" He asks, sounding innocent. Like he hadn't just said what he'd said.
"Six years?" Steve asks. Eddie nods, looks at the floor.
"That was... senior year. My senior year." Steve says slowly, doing the math.
"Yeah. I was there for that." Eddie mumbles.
"I know. I just... you have not been in love with me since senior year." Steve protests, rolling his eyes fondly.
"Okay fine. Maybe not actual love. But I was infatuated. Big time." Eddie admits, rubbing at his neck.
"Dude I was miserable senior year. I had no friends. I got my fuckin heart broken. I mean I was a mess." Steve shook his head again, watched as Eddie nodded in agreement as he spoke.
"I know dude. And I know it probably says something shitty about me but... it was a good look on you." Eddie shrugged, looking sheepish.
"Misery was a good look on me?" Steve propped his hands on his hips. Eddie waves his hand at Steve, groans as he spins in a circle to get his eyes back on Steve.
"Yes man! Sorry. Not in like... ugh. I don't know. You went from pretentious douchebag to sad pretty boy. And you stopped Tommy shithead from shoving my head into a toilet one day and I dunna that sort of changed how I saw you okay?" Eddie's hands flailed, and then he clapped his hands and pointed at Steve.
"And! And and! You didn't even like... seem interested. You just told him to fuck off all nonchalant, and then you were gone, man! And then the next fucking year all that shit happened, and I saw you with the gremlins and I just... fell hard okay?" He shrugged again, rolling his eyes when he saw the grin spreading across Steve's face.
"You sat by my bed in the hospital man. What did you expect? There's only so much my little gay heart can fend off before it goes all soft and gooey." Eddie pouts at him and Steve thinks his heart might burst out of his chest.
"You never said anything." Steve says, takes a step toward Eddie.
"Yeah well. I didn't know you were into guys until very recently and I-" his hands wave at his sides, like he's helpless.
"You what?" Steve pushes, teasing now. Eddie levels him with an unimpressed look and then rolls his eyes.
"I was scared alright? Cuz if I said something, and you didn't feel the same, then I'd have ruined everything. And I don't know if you've notcied this Steve, but I kinda like having you around. And being around you." He makes a face, like it should be obvious.
"And love confessions tend to change things, between people. So I just... didn't say anything." He shrugged again, helpless again. Steve closed the distance between them quickly. Grabbing Eddie's face genlty, holding him as he stares at Steve.
"We are. So. Fucking. Stupid." Steve punctuates each word with a little shake to Eddie's head. The laugh that bursts out of Eddie as he wraps his arms around Steve and pulls him close again fills their apartment like sweet music.
Steve presses kisses anywhere he can reach, along Eddie's shoulder, up his neck, across his cheeks. Eddie finally cups his cheeks and finds Steve's lips with his own.
"Honey I love you. But if you ever call yourself stupid again in my presence we're gonna have a problem you and me." Eddie mumbles, his lips still brushing Steve's as he speaks. Steve snorts and dives face first into Eddie's neck.
"Laugh all you want sweetheart. I'm serious." Eddie assures him.
"I called you stupid too ya know?" Steve sighs into Eddie's shoulder.
"Mhm. I'm allowing that. Currently." Eddie hums, his hand rubbing Steve's back as he clings to him.
"Okay. I won't. But I do really love you." Steve says, pulls back to look at Eddie. His nose scrunches again, that giddy smile back on his face.
"I really love you too." Eddie darts forward, peppers kisses across Steve's cheeks.
"Shit. You're gonna be late." Steve says, glancing at the clock on the microwave. Eddie shrugs one shoulder.
"That's alright. They'll understand. You wanna come?" He asks, squeezing Steve's hips.
"You want me to come? To your dungeon game?" Steve lifts his eyebrows.
"Okay I know you know what it's called. That's not as cute as you think it is." Eddie says. Steve leans closer, his breath ghosting over Eddie's neck makes him shiver.
"Yes it is." Steve whispers, then licks a stripe up Eddieâs cheek, and then promptly pouts when Eddie is unfazed.
"They won't care if I come?" Steve asks, wiping at the wetness he'd left behind.
"Course not. The guys love you. And they'll be fucking ecstatic that I'm not gonna be pinning about you anymore." Eddie winks, slaps Steve's butt as he reaches behind him for his keys sitting on the counter.
"You've been pinning for me?" Steve repeats, teasing, as he grabs his shoes.
"Six. Years. Steven. Yeah, you could say I was pinning." Eddie grabs his bag off the floor as Steve tugs his laces tight.
"Alright alright. But hey," Steve presses himself to Eddie's side as they reach the door.
"They're gonna wish you were still pinning by the time we're done." Steve grabs Eddie's head and presses his lips to Eddie's cheek, hard. Eddie cackles, shoots Steve a wink as he grabs his hand, and tugs him out the door.
#this is just a random lil thing i wrote simple because i saw a gifset of eddie and his dimples#it took me ages to get it....sort of okay so i hope you guys like it#steddie fic#steddie ficlet#steddie#steve x eddie#steve harrington x eddie munson#my writing#mine#fates endless inkwell#fei#my fic
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charles and erik with each other: oh dear, oh dear. gorgeous đ„șđ charles and erik with the villain of the week/the x-men: K1LL YOURSELF đ„đ„đ„
X-Men: First Class (2011) | X-Men Apocalypse (2016)
#charles is soo insane for looking at a god in the face and telling him to fuck off bc he was hurting his best friend. most normal guy.#cherik#mine*#x-men#xmenedit#parallelsedit#filmedit#charles xavier#erik lehnsherr#otp: i want you by my side#god charles' entire demeanor towards apocalypse in xma has always been SOO funny to me. he literally looks ANNOYED every time#apocalypse speaks in the movie. he doesn't even look intimidated or worried that he's trying to possess CHARLES'S BODY or anything#mind you charles wrote his thesis about mutation and here he has THE FIRST MUTANT ever in front of him. who's also a god threatening#to destroy the world. and charles' only reaction is:#'whatever. MOVE OUT OF THE WAY LOSER i CANNOT see erik from where you are standing and i'm worried about him'#and i do think it's very sweet that after this raven tells erik he has to fight for what he has left - and he thinks about charles#(the man that stood on the balcony all those years ago and that cared enough about him to tell him there is more to him#and the same man that STILL CARES ENOUGH to look at A GOD in the face and telling him to go fuck off and die and stop manipulating erik)#charles loves him so much you don't get it........... i'm foaming at the mouth i'm so normal about them
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that ivan loves till is the most obvious thing about them
but. does ivan know that�
the ivan that regards his own feelings as shallow, the ivan that learned how emotions are expressed only from copying others⊠does he even know that the love heâs felt for so long is love? probably not. and part of the reason is the one he loves himself
because the easiest example he has of love is till's feelings to mizi. till outright calls it love, and ivan watches him so much he has to be aware of this and tillâs love to mizi is totally unselfish, right. he doesnât seem to actually want much from herâjust that she's still there and still "mizi"
but ivan can't be satisfied with just watching he⊠wants. ivan wants tillâs attention, tillâs affectionâ
surely this selfish wanting canât be love
...no wonder he was never able to express his feelings straightforwardly when he belittles them so much but he canât stand not having anything either, so he does⊠whatever he does instead to get any scraps of attention he can, from someone he's convinced doesn't care about him at all only showing affection when till can't see it, right until he knows he's going to die
but ivan's feelings for till are all he still has of himself... to think of them as shallow...
I've seen this translated as "I should've been kinder" to him (till) or to her (sua)
but really, the one he should've been kinder to was himself
#alien stage#alnst#alnst ivan#ivantill#i have a lot of thoughts on till -> mizi too but this is long enough#just attempting to rewrite my twt rambles more coherently#idk why i wrote this so dramatically tho...#'thank you for being the victim of my shallow emotions' is going to haunt me to my grave#ivan's character is just a careful balance between his natural freak nature and his extreme depths of self-loathing#making him the most miserable guy ever#...really once you realize so much of what went wrong is thanks to ivan just hating himself too much to even think of them as friends. well#c...can we bring him back... don't die like this.....#(also you know. with the implications of how 'pets' are treated#wanting someone physically must feel... even more wrong
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THE ONLY WAY OUT IS THROUGH
#999#999 spoilers#ze spoilers#zero escape#junpei 999#akane kurashiki#9 persons 9 hours 9 doors#hi i just finished 999. haven't started vlrbut#the sorcerer has harmed me once again.#wearing a shirt that says âi <3 plot relevant upside down sudokuâ#artists on tumblr#art#to the guy in the tags who told me i wrote the wrong name. i did do this.#dw i'll play in the right order
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henry winter you are so emotional. you are so much of that scared little boy who hated his father, only with skin grown thicker to bear his beatings. you are so desperate for somebody to see you as a human yet you canât fathom the possibility so you make yourself a god.
you pretended to strip yourself of all feeling, of all guilt. you killed the one man who could make you laugh, who still saw you as a person, and it still wasnât enough.
you could never escape being a man, being a burning, fiery ball of rage and guilt and fear. everybody looked at you as if you were a god, but if only they knew.
#hey guys so maybe itâs 12pm on a thursday and iâm thinking about this man again#hashtag favourite trope: man who is severely uncomfortable with his own humanity#bonus points if they have a love interest that makes them want to cling to it#COUGH COUGH COUGH MICOLASH HOST OF THE NIGHTMARE#and henry too#but i just wrote a whole post about him#and i should write a whole post about mico#the secret history#henry winter
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moon, river - c.s. ( w. 1049 )
ê° cregan will always defends your daughterâs claim ê± â cregan stark x reader
àš âŻ period typical misogyny. implied trouble concieving children. reader is written to be very influenced by her environment, and therefor uncertain of herself and her self worth. girl dad cregan. cregan's kind of a medieval feminist. i named your daughter for you, sorry. this is very cregan pov, not many of reader's thoughts. umm maybe not canon cregan but itâs my cregan. uhh dialogue heavy. tbh i don't even know what i was writing here. fem!reader. ⯠à§
i advocate for creganwives who donât want to have ten children.
Cregan wasnât nearly as physically imposing underneath all of his armour.Â
You had observed as much before â watching keenly as he unclasped his cape and slid out of the thick leather armour. It was a sight to behold, the muscles in his shoulders and arms as he fought to disrobe.Â
He was much different here, in your shared chambers. Lord Stark shed with his dayware, Cregan stood in his wake.Â
You had been married for years, and still, your heart fluttered like an infatuated girl when he loomed over the bed, hair damp from the bath.Â
Married for years, with two children, and yet â sprawled across the bed in naught but a thin nightgown, you ogle him as he makes his way to bed.Â
He's hard to wrangle; he walks the keep and checks on your daughters, among other mindless tasks, before finally getting into bed every night. It gives him âtime to thinkâ, and makes you senselessly anticipatory.Â
Most nights are the same. He curls into you, head on your chest, to decompress. It's sweet, to see such an intimate side of him.
Tonight, in lieu of the typical mindless drivel that lulled you both to sleep, you had been quiet. Cregan could feel the tension of whatever weighed on your mind, but he had not wished to pry.
You rub aimless little circles against his back before finally speaking, âAre you content with this?â
Cregan looks up, lifting his head from your breastbone. He doesnât speak for a moment, reading your expression, âContent?â When you donât reply he continues, âOf course I am content. What has prompted you to ask such?â
He can see the solemn, contemplative expression written across your face; the way you gaze down, as if through him, âIt is justâŠâ You hesitate, he keeps firm in his stare, âWe have been married years, and I have not given you many children. And, no boys.âÂ
He doesn't reply, unsure how or what to say. True, it is, that in the years you have been married there have only been two children â both daughters.Â
âDo you think,â He begins, sitting up more, âThat I am discontent because you have not given me a son?âÂ
Silence hangs heavy in the room. You look guilty; he cannot tell what it is you feel guilty for, but he wishes you did not feel guilty at all.Â
Cregan says your name once, his voice low and soft. When you meet his eyes he can sense the resignation â you wish you had not brought this up.
âI just worry, that is all,â You reply, quietly.
His expression stays set. There is solace in knowing him well enough to read his microexpressions; he isnât brooding, he is concerned.Â
He speaks, âWhat is it that you worry about â my discontentment?â
âPerhaps I have not performed by duty,â You shrug, as if to pass the comment off as nonchalant. Maybe it is; ladies raised to believe their self-worth lies in their good stock and ability to breed and please can talk about such matters with a level of insouciance.Â
Frustration blooms in the space between his lungs. He understands the way polite society worms into young womenâs brains, and how hard it is to remove that sickness once it's taken root. Still â you surely must know that your worth does not lie within your womb, he thinks.
âYour duty?â He asks, tone firmer now, âAnd what duty is that? To be bred like a milking cow?âÂ
The abruptness and near vulgarity of his words are enough to leave you taken aback, blinking at him. Cregan was certainly not one for eloquent metaphors.Â
When you seem not to have a response, he begins to feel bad. This isnât your fault. You were raised to think like this.
âI have not given you an heir,â Youâre quiet, almost embarrassed.Â
âYou have,â He counters.Â
âYou have no son,âÂ
âI have Lyanna,âÂ
A log in the fireplace shifts and crackles as you sit in silence; a scullery maid shuffles by in the hallway.Â
He watches you gather your composure before you speak, âAnd you do not mind?â You sound unsure, he hates it.Â
Cregan reaches, sliding his fingers under your jaw to make you look at him fully, âTell me â if we should have a son, would you be content to strip Lyanna of her birthright?âÂ
The question feels harsh. He watches guarded confusion swirl into your eyes.
Of course, you would not wish for your daughter to have her title taken from her. But so many others, men in Creganâs council, mocked the idea. They rued Lyannaâs power, the status she already held above them as a girl of all but five. So it would be no shock if someone insisted she be stripped of her title as heir to Winterfell, and it was frightening. Frightening to imagine someone stealing your daughterâs future and freedom.Â
âIf it is what you wished,â You answer, resignation thinly veiled.Â
âI asked you a question,â Heâs firm but gentle.Â
You gape for a moment, before answering, âNo, never. I could not imagine doing that to her.âÂ
âAnd do you think I would?âÂ
âNo,âÂ
He nods, sliding his hand up to cradle your face. You look ashamed, he tries to soothe it away with his thumb over your cheekbone.Â
âDo you think youâve disappointed me, pet?â He doesnât wish to subject you to the humiliation of answering such a vulnerable question, so he continues, âYou need not worry so much. I do not need a boy; I am more than pleased with things just how they are,â He strokes his thumb slowly, âDo not agonize over something so trivial.âÂ
He catches the tear that rolls down your cheek.
When you speak your voice is quiet, âYou are so good,â And then, âMany lords do not care much for their daughters.â
The thought makes his chest burn; to not care for his daughters? Unthinkable, âDo not praise me for loving my children. Those girls are my world, as are you.â He feels lighter when he sees the edge of your mouth tick up, so he speaks again, âI care not that I have daughters in place of sons â I have, and for that I am lucky.â
He has and he is lucky.
#i don't want kids but he DOES SOMETHING TO ME#cregan stark x reader#cregan stark#cregan x reader#rubbing my hands together like âjust cooked this one upâ (i wrote it in two hours and didn't reread or edit)#đŠčïœĄâ cregan#guys let me be real i dgaf about his kid#like the one in canon that heâs single fathering#not real in this world
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pre-transmigration cumplanes because they are the most divorced guys who never met
#svsss#scum villains self saving system#cumplane#cucumberplane#shen yuan#shang qinghua#shen qingqiu#pippart#these guys are so funny. i love sy's one sided parasocial hate relationship with sqh#i think sqh should start writing after transmigration again#and that sy should independently find his shitty writing and scathingly critique it anonymously#i need them to complain to each other about each other without realizing it's the other they're talking about#i think that's what sqq should be doing during the three years binghe got eebie deebied#when sqq dies and sqh stops getting correspondence from his new number 1 hater he's like#âoh boy im so happy i finally wrote something that guy likes. or maybe mbj killed him now that im complaining to him and not sqq about himâ#and then sqq revives five years later and the second he has a chance he immediately starts catching up on five years of hate writing
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