#hey. cry. everything bad happen 2 the kennedys

[kaleschmidt]

martyrdom runs in the kennedy family. btw

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Poetry: Writing a Haiku for Every Buffy episode as I rewatch (part 14: BtVS season 5) by Senorpuddin (ensemble, not rated)

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The Flash: The Legacy of the Race

(Photo credits: The CW)

How the frack do I sum up my seven years of watching and loving this show in one entry?

This show had its ups and downs for sure, but I like to say that this show is one of my comfort shows, one of the motivation that kept me going through school, one of the reasons I was excited to come home and everything else.

I've written blog entries about Flash before on here, but this last entry (or could be?) will be something special because it is about the story of how I came to love my favorite Scarlet Speedster, Barry Allen, also known as The Flash.

Review of the episode on the latter part of the entry.

To understand what I'm about to tell you, you need to read this part first. Can you do that? Good! (this is a reference from the show!)

It was around March 2016 (yes, I'm late but hey, whatever!) when I first watched an episode of the show when my dad got a copy of the first season. I remember distinctly that he was watching the 15th episode of Season 1 when I decided to watch it with him. Being a nerdy gal, I oddly enjoyed it despite the initial confusion that I felt watching said episode (this was the time travel episode) so I made a decision to watch the show from the beginning.

I watched the show from the pilot and was instantly attracted to the premise of the show and the new faces that I see (and some familiar too). I was excited to meet new metahuman villains every episode and all that jazz. I loved (and still do!) the storylines of the first couple of seasons! I laughed, I cried, I gasped, I basically experienced every emotion possible.

By the end of Season 1 going into Season 2, I decided that this show was going to be something special to me.

I mean, don't get me wrong, I honestly wanted to stop watching mid-season 6 because I just wasn't interested in the storyline but I pushed through because I knew that it will just get better from there and it did (not every episode is the best but hey, that's normal)

This is also a show that introduced me to my first-ever Hollywood celebrity crush and that is none other than Grant Gustin (I never watched Glee before this, alright?). What attracted me to Grant was of course, his handsome face and his talent in everything. He's a triple threat, he can sing (Running Home to You is still one of my most favorite songs ever!), he can dance and he can act (basically deserves every award!).

Saying goodbye to this show is like saying goodbye to my friends that I've been with for seven years. It's bittersweet, tears were shed for sure but memories are shared.

Now onto the episode review *WILL CONTAIN SPOILERS SO READ AT YOUR OWN RISK*

I admit that the finale was not a perfect finale, but it doesn't mean that I did not cry (I did!). The first half of the episode was kind of meh in my opinion but like it's not bad. It's like in the middle of bad and good but that mainly goes for the first half of the episode where most of the action stuff goes down.

The second half, however, was what had me crying! First off is because of the scene where Iris (Candice Patton) gives birth to he and Barry's (Grant Gustin) daughter, Nora (played by Jessica Parker Kennedy as an adult). The love that just emanated from both Iris' and Barry's eyes had me crying. It clearly depicted that they were just really stoked to see their daughter for the first time.

The scene that had me crying the most was when my most favorite female character Caitlin Snow (Danielle Panabaker) returned. I can't fully explain what happens, as it's confusing, but I literally screamed and cried when she returned. I was just so happy that she came back and looking back at some BTS pics, I failed to notice that Danielle's hair is back to the blonde highlights (because her other character had blue highlights) and that could've served as a clue but hey, it still surprised me clearly and made me bawl like a kid.

The last scene with Flash running around the city also made me cry because it was a sign that it really was ending. Think of it like when Spider-Man swings off of a crane or when Superman flies off planet and smiles at the camera, that's that feeling and I could not ask for a better shot to end the show than what was served.

To conclude, The Flash is a show that is not perfect as all shows are but I'm glad it ran the way it did and was not cancelled. It's been a beautiful run and every episode is an adventure. It's sad to say goodbye to one of my most favorite shows but in a way, it's okay and I'm happy that this show has become a part of my life.

Thank you to Grant, Candice, Danielle, Tom, Jesse, Carlos and the whole cast and crew of this amazing show for the happiness that you brought to me and as much as I did not like some storylines and some characters, I have to say that this show has become a comfort for me. I will forever treasure and love this show, because it was one of the motivations that I had to get through tough points of life.

This show was my lightning rod and I would always come running home to watch an episode. Those days may be over, but hey, I've got to keep running, keep moving and keep living.

Goodbye Central City, Goodbye Star Labs, Goodbye Team Flash! ⚡⚡

[germvity]

RISES THE MOON

leon s kennedy x reader // 2 // the home away from home

leon regenerated before you, and he started looking for you in the tree line. eventually catching sight of you, the two of you made eye contact, but you didn't come to the campsite. instead, you ran off in another direction, and leon had to follow you into the fog.

genre: angst, attempted fluff

tags: leon tries to help you, touch starved reader, cuddling, nightmares, jill may be ooc- idk how to write her in this situation tbh 😭

warnings: nightmares, ptsd themes, mentions of bullying, violence and death

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leon peeked into the small shack you inhabited in the woods. you had decorated it how you like and was quite cozy. you seemed busy, digging through your belongings that you kept in a chest. gently, the blonde knocks on your doorframe and you jump with a gasp, spinning around to see your fellow survivor. "sorry, i didn't mean to scare you." leon smiles sheepishly. "did anyone see you?!" you ask desperately, worry filling your eyes. "no, they were busy at the campsite." the cop furrows his brows, shuffling from foot to foot. "can i come in?" leon asks, keeping his voice soft. "i guess.." you mumble, remembering how desperate he was to help you. "nice place." his comment makes you a little flustered, and you look away bashfully. "thanks." you reply, sitting back down and continuing to sort supplies into med-kits and toolboxes.

leon sits behind you and crosses his legs, watching you carefully, something that made you grow nervous. "you have so much stuff." the blonde chuckles, hoping to ease your anxiety. "yeah... i used to hoard stuff for the other survivors before everything went bad." you shrug, "i see. perhaps we could help each other then." leon smiles, grabbing one of your med-kits to help. you let out a soft oh, glancing at the blonde on your right to carefully watch him. "hm?" he looks back at you and you fluster more, looking away. leon laughs a little, continuing to organise the kit how you were doing it. "you don't have to be so shy. i don't understand what's going on here yet, but i can keep you safe." leon says softly, glancing over at you again as he zips up the med kit. your lack of response makes the man nervous, and he gently rests his hand on your arm, hating how you flinch.

"i'll keep you safe, no matter what happens here. i'll help you and anyone else if they need it." leon's smile stumps you and you feel like crying. "you shouldn't even be here... if they find us then god knows what they'll do.." you whisper, putting your supplies away. "if who finds you?" leon asks, rubbing your arm softly. "them! all of them... anyone out there." you shudder, pulling your arm away as you move away slightly. "hey.. no one will hurt you, okay? i'll keep you safe. it's my duty, you have my word." he smiles sadly, pulling you against his chest to hug you. your breath catches in your throat, and you tense up. "it's okay. i'm gonna keep you safe." leon assures you, coddling your much smaller, malnourished form against his chest. you whimper softly, tears welling up in your eyes as you try to wiggle away from his burning touch. "it's okay.." leon soothes you, his fingers wiping away any tears.

eventually, you relax, clinging to his police vest with a few soft sobs. "is it really this bad?" leon whispers, his heart hurting for you. "yes..!" you cry, letting him hold you tightly. "hey, i have an idea." leon admits, and you hum softly, wet face staring up at him. "i can be your bodyguard so to speak, and my friend jill can keep you safe if i'm ever away." he smiles, seemingly happy with his suggestion. "i don't want anyone else getting hurt though.." letting out a small breath, you let his calloused, warm hand rest on your cheek, wiping away any tears. "we'll keep you safe and we have professional training in self defence. you shouldn't worry your pretty head." leon smiles at you, and you can't help but circle your arms around his waist to hold him closer. "thank you..." you whisper over and over again, a mantra that makes leon feel saddened for you.

"get some rest, you look like you need it." leon hushes your grateful rambling, and you fall silent as you huddle impossibly closer yet your eyes glance up at him for confirmation. "go on, i'll be here when you wake up. i'll keep you safe." the blonde assures you, and moves with you so he could bundle you up in your actually comfy cot. when the cop goes to sit down somewhere else, you sit up suddenly and catch his wrist. "don't go..." you beg, trying to pull him back to you. "please... please don't go..!" leon acts quickly as your breathing picks up. "okay, okay. i'll sit with you instead of on the floor." the officer smiles, heading back towards your bed.

when leon sits down, you can't help but try to press yourself under his arm so he would cuddle you. laughing at your attempt to slip under his arm like a needy kitten, leon wraps his arm around you securely. "you don't need my permission for this, y'know?" leon smiles, finding cute how you warmed up to his affection, however he couldn't help but also worry at your naivety to any positive touches. the officer felt like he had to protect you from any harms way, that he should hide you from the horrors of this world. but alas, all of it was out of his control and that was infuriating. "get some sleep." you hear leon whisper as he pulls your half asleep form up onto his lap and cuddles you against his chest. only humming in response, you eventually drift off and leon lets out a small sigh. "i'll keep you safe. i have to... it's my job!" leon speaks, despite knowing you can't technically hear him. "i have to make sure nothing happens to you whether it kills me or not. you're too precious." the blonde continues to monologue, before his own tiredness from a days worth of trials starts to get to him and he drifts off as well.

leon's brows furrow at the small noises that wake him up. he raises his head, neck aching from slouching over in and resting his head on you subconsciously. "y/n..?" he mumbles, becoming more awake when he realises your discomfort. you shuffle in his lap, distressed noises still falling from your lips. "hey, hey hey! it's okay, it's alright." leon shakes your shoulder softly, trying to be gentle with you. "y/n!" he calls a bit louder, finally jerking you awake with a startled inhale. you yelp and fall away from him, scrambling back with a wild look in your upset eyes. "don't hurt me! please don't hurt me!" you beg, keeping your hazy, tear-filled, sleepy eyes locked onto the figure in front of you. "hey, it's just me! it's leon, remember?" leon responds with a soft voice, slowly approaching you as if you were a wild animal. "leon..?" you whimper, blinking a few times and realising that it was in fact the blonde who looked deathly worried.

the man stretches out his arms for you, and you quickly rush for his comfort. you almost knock the poor cop over as you wrap your arms around his torso tightly. "it's okay, i've got you." leon lets out a small breath, rubbing your back as you cry against his uniform. "make it go away..! just make it all stop!" you cry loudly, hands gripping the back of the bullet proof vest leon adorned. "you're safe with me, i promise." leon offers instead, and you continue to shake with each desperate sob. "you poor thing... i'm not going to let anything get you anymore." leon sounds more sure of himself as you slowly calm in his warm embrace.

"please don't leave me alone." you whimper, feeling tired from crying. "i'm not going anywhere, okay? i'll stay with you for as long as i can." the blonde smiled, his fingers coming up to gently brush over your damp cheek. "i'm making it my duty to protect you whilst we try to figure a way out, okay? i'll keep you safe." you let out a sigh at his words. "thank you..." you whisper and the blonde laughs. "you shouldn't be thanking me." leon smiles, raising your head by your chin with his forefinger and thumb so he could look at you properly. you can't help but glance at his lips as he smiles at you, the air becoming more thick woth tension.

"there you are! jesus what the hell's happening in here?" a new, female voice that you didn't recognise chimed in, and the two of you jumped away from each other. "jill! thank god, are you alright?" leon smiles at the woman, and you follow him when he gets up to greet her. "i'm fine. who's this?" jill smiles at you softly. the aura around her was strong yet oddly comforting to you. "this is y/n. i'm going to be protecting them." leon declares to his friend. jill rolls her eyes. "he has quite the hero complex, doesn't he?" she jokes, whispering loudly as if leon couldn't hear her. you don't really respond, shuffling behind your new friend. "jill..." leon sighs, "don't worry, she's also here to help." you look at leon with uncertainty, and he smiles at you.

"sorry, didn't mean to be overbearing. i don't really know what else to do right now as it seems you're quite stressed. i'm jill valentine." the pretty woman extends her hand for you to shake, but you fully hide behind leon at her gesture. "be careful, they show signs of ptsd." leon scolds, and you feel a sense of comfort wash over your heavy mind. "oh! sorry... i'm still yet to find out what's going on here." jill laughs sheepishly, retracting her hand. "y/n, it's okay. jill's trustworthy." leon soothes you by taking his hand in yours, slowly coaxing you out to greet the woman.

"hello." jill smiles, now keeping her actions and tone soft to ensure she won't scare you. "hi..." you mumble, grabbing leon's wrist with your other hand for any sense of security. leon smiles, and looks back at jill. "jeez, they've really warmed up to you, huh?" jill jokes, and you're quick to jump to leon's defence. "he helps me!" you snap, but shrink back once you realise your outburst. leon rubs the back of your hand with his thumb comfortingly, and you relax slightly, but not fully. "it's alright. i didn't mean anything by it." jill raises her hands in faux surrender. "sorry..." leon says for you, as you seemed to have regressed to silence. "it's completely fine. nothing i haven't seen or dealt with before. i've got thick skin." jill smiles at you, and you feel your lungs deflate with relief that she isn't mad at you.

"come sit down, jill. we'll explain." leon gestures to the cot as you rest your head on his bicep. "sure." jill shrugs, following the two of you in, and settling down on the other end of the makeshift bed. when leon sits with his back against the wall, you curl up into his side, still uncertain of jill's company as the blonde speaks to her about what he's gathered so far.

[bxtchforstyles]

New baby blues

Harry Styles x Melody Styles

(part of the styles fam series)

When the fourth and final Styles child is born on Valentine's day, one of the children is a little less than excited.

Warning: none

Word court: ~2.1k

gif not mine.

Everyone in the Styles household remembers the day that Brinley was born in vivid detail, all except for Lila. 

Lila was only four years old at the time, which is usually when children’s prime memories begin to happen, but not for Lila. Her family often made jokes about how she had been brain wiped after that day, that’s how bad it was. 

Melody was almost to full term during her pregnancy when she went into labor the day before Valentine’s day, and that did not sit right with Lila. 

Her parents were only trying to rush out the door to go to the hospital once Gemma had arrived to watch the other three children, but Lila was not having it. Melody was already waiting outside in the car though, leaving Harry to have to fend for himself. 

“Daddy, daddy.” She was gripping onto the side of his trousers as he grabbed his wife’s hospital bag from the closet next to the front door. “Please don’t go.” She then begged.

It made her father’s heart swell when he looked down to see his now second youngest child holding like her life depended on it onto his hands, with tears welling in her eyes. 

“C’mere, muffin.” He sighed, reaching down to pick her up. “I know you don’t want mommy and daddy to go, but when we come back we’re bringing a new baby with us.” 

She did not look enthused, “Why?” 

Gemma quickly interjected so Harry wouldn’t have to face anymore disappointment, “you’re going to get a baby brother or sister. Isn’t that exciting, Lila?” 

Again, not enthused. “No, I don’t want another baby.” 

“Another?” Harry looked down at her from where she sat in his arms, “No honey, there’s only one baby coming home with us.” 

The tears that  had welled in her small blue eyes finally began to fall down her face, “b-but what about me, daddy?” 

“Awh, precious,” Harry felt awful as he pulled her small head into his chest as she cried, “You will always be my little girl, you know that, don’t you?” 

“But what’s going to happen when the new baby is here?” 

“You’ll be a big sister, Lila!” Kennedy, Harry and Melody’s eight year old daughter tried to make it seem exciting. 

“Noo” Lila whined, burying her face deep into Harry’s neck. 

Lila’s parents could sense the tantrum coming from a mile away, that’s when Gemma quickly scooped the little girl out of Harry’s arms, “okay, Lila, mommy and daddy have to go now.” 

That only caused more whining and squirming from Lila, making it almost impossible for Harry to walk out the door. 

But he did, right after saying goodbye to all his children and kissing Lila on the cheek. 

But even once the Range Rover pulled out of the gated driveway, Lila still continued to scream. 

“Lila, baby, why are you crying?” Gemma asked as she sat down on the couch with Lila in her arms, positioning her to be sitting on her lap. 

“I don’t want daddy to bring home a baby!” She sobbed, burying her head into her aunt’s chest. 

“Kennedy, why don’t you come tell your little sister how fun it is to be a big sister?” 

Kennedy came jogging over to her aunt, a big smile on her face as she sat down next to the two of them. “It’s super fun! You’ll love it, Lila!” 

“Daddy’s going to forget about me!” 

The eight year old took her little sister’s small hand, “No he won’t Lila, dad didn’t forget about me when you were born, so he wouldn’t do that to you either.” 

“See, Lila, being a big sister is fun!” Gemma smiled, lightly pinching the little girl's cheeks, making her smile. Then she looked at Kennedy, “Thank you, Kennedy.” 

That night when Lila went to bed, she asked Gemma if she liked being a big sister, Gemma responding by saying “Of course, and you’re going to love it too.” Making her smile before falling asleep.

******

The next day was not the greatest, for all of the kids. They were all aware that it was Valentines day, but it definitely didn’t feel like it was. 

“Are mom and dad still at the hospital?” Grant asked Gemma groggily as he reached the bottom of the stairs, Kennedy following closely behind. 

She only nodded, a small frown lacing her face when she saw the disappointment cross the two kids’ faces. 

Harry and Melody loved Valentine's day, and they wanted their kids to also, so they always woke the kids up with balloons littering the living room at the bottom of the stairs, along with pink, heart shaped pancakes for breakfast. 

Later in the day, they would order adorable heart shaped pizzas from their favorite pizza shop, and gorge on all types of festive candy after dinner. 

And the kids loved it, but this year, their parent’s weren’t even home to greet them on this special day. 

“Well, are they going to be home soon?” Kennedy asked next as the three of them walked into the kitchen. 

Lila was still asleep, probably being exhausted from all of her crying last night. 

“I don’t know guys, it just depends on when the baby is born.” Gemma felt awful as she saw the somber looks that the children carried. “Ya know what? I’ll call your dad after breakfast and ask how everything is going.”

They both nodded, “So, what do you guys want for breakfast? I can make you some cereal, or some eggs…” Gemma trailed off. 

That’s when the tears began to flood Kennedy’s eyes, the realization that her parents weren’t here to spend Valentine’s day with them finally hitting her. 

Gemma looked back after hearing a lack of a response, “Kennedy, what’s wrong?” she stepped towards her when she realized she was crying.

“Dad always makes up pancakes for Valentines day, shaped like hearts.” She whispers, making both Grant and Gemma look down sadly at her. 

“And him and mommy always fill the living room with balloons.” Grant adds. 

Then Gemma sighed, quickly picking up her phone, “Okay, let me make a quick phone call and I’ll see what I can do, okay?” She gave them a hopeful smile as they nodded.  

Gemma dialed her brother’s number as she walked out of the kitchen and into the laundry room, shutting the door quietly behind her. 

“Hello?” Harry’s voice sounded tired, and it was very likely that his sister’s phone call had woken him from his sleep, but Gemma didn’t care. 

“Ya know, Harry, if you are going to leave me with your children while you go have a baby on a national holiday, that’s fine, but you could have at least given me a heads up about the balloons and heart shaped pancakes that they would be expecting!” 

“Shit…” She heard Harry sigh from the other end of the phone, “I’m sorry, Gem.” 

“I’m just telling you, better hope that baby comes out covered in hearts if you are planning on coming home without balloons.” 

“Erm, well, she definitely isn’t covered in hearts…” 

It took Gemma a few moments to comprehend what he was saying, before she gasped, “Wait, she’s out? And it’s a girl?” 

“Yup, Brinley Claire was born at 2:07 this morning.” 

“And you didn’t think to inform me?!” Harry’s older sister yelled, but she was much too excited to actually be mad at him. 

“Listen, Gem. I have to help Mel with the baby, but I’ll come over in a little bit with some stuff for the others, kay?” 

“Okay, see you soon, tell Melody I say hi.” 

“Will do, bye Gem.” 

“Bye.” The phone call ended. 

“Okay! Who wants pancakes?” Gemma yelled happily as she entered the kitchen again, making the two kids smile and shout in excitingly. 

*******

It wasn't a super long time after Gemma and the kids ate breakfast that Lila woke up, still groggy and tired. She still seemed a little offset from last night, but her attitude seemed to be getting better.

All three children were beginning to become antsy by the time lunch came around, wondering if their parents were going to be coming home soon, and it only made it more difficult that Gemma knew just as little as the kids did. 

“Auntie Gem, is daddy coming home soon?” Kennedy asked, clinging to her leg. 

Her aunt softly stroked her hair “I'm sure he'll be here soon, angel.” 

And she was right, because only a little over thirty minutes later, the creaking of the front door made everyone look towards the large entryway of the home. 

“Dad!” Both Kennedy and Grant got up from where they were sitting on the carpeted floor in front of the T.v before they began rushing towards the front door. The scene honestly couldn’t have looked more like one out of a movie.

The odd part though, was the fact that Lila stayed put in her seat on the couch, a sour look on her face with her arms crossed over her chest. 

“Hey guys!” Harry smiled as he set the balloons and pizza boxes down on the small table in the foyer as he held three small gift bags in his hand. He crouched down to their level, gripping his two eldest children to his chest, one in each arm. “Happy Valentine's Day!” 

Kennedy was now smiling much bigger than she had been at breakfast time, “We thought you forgot!” 

“About Valentines day?” Harry asked in an overly surprised tone, “Never.” 

He handed the small gift bags to Grant and Kennedy, realizing there was another one left over, “Where’s your sister?” He asked. 

They shrugged, “In the living room, I think.” Grant responded. 

“Lila?” Harry’s voice echoed through the tall ceilings of the entryway, he didn’t get a response. “I’ll be right back, guys, and we can eat some pizza.” 

When Harry entered the living room, he saw his youngest daughter sitting still on the couch, intently staring at the t.v. 

“Lila, muffin, I’ve got a present for you.” He would have bet on the fact that him saying that would catch her attention, but she didn’t even so much as glance at her father. 

Harry could only see the back of her head from where he stood from behind the couch, so he made his way around to the other side, seeing her blank face. 

“Hi, Lila.” He approached slowly, crouching in front of the couch where she sat. 

There were tears welling in her poor little eyes. 

He couldn’t help himself from standing and sitting next to her on the couch before picking her up and placing her on his lap. At first she squirmed, trying to get out of her father’s grasp, but after a few moments, she gave up on doing that. 

She laid her head on his chest, her own chest heaving with her heavy breaths as tears began to fall silently down her cheeks.

“Honey,” Harry looked down at his daughter, stroking her soft hair lightly, “tell me what’s wrong.” 

Her glossy eyes met his, “You left me…” She whispered quietly before burying her head into her father’s shoulder. 

“Lila, me and mummy left to go to the hospital so mummy could have the baby, remember?” 

“Where is t-the baby?” She asked through her chokes. 

“She’s at the hospital with mummy right now, her name is Brinley, she’s going to be moving in with us soon.” Harry was trying to act as calm as possible with how fragile his daughter was, but his heart was truly breaking. 

“Nooo” Lila dragged out, pulling her head back to look at her father in denial through more tears. 

“Lila, you are going to love your sister, she’s very little, and you can talk to her, and hold her, she might even hold your finger if you want her too. I’ve met her baby, she’s very sweet.” 

“Have you told her about me?”

“Are you kidding? Of course I’ve told her about you!” Harry laughs as he sees the smallest smile begin to form on Lila’s face. “And just between you and me, I think she’s really excited to meet you.” He then whispers. 

“Okay, daddy.” Lila giggled lightly, finally Harry thought. 

“Okay?” He confirms. 

“Okay.” She sighs, her eyes fluttering shut as she lays her head on his shoulder. 

“How about we go eat some pizza with G and Kenn, how does that sound?” He asks into her hair, placing a soft kiss on the top of her head. 

“Is it heart shaped, daddy?” 

Harry only laughs, standing from the couch with Lila still in his arms. 

“Yes, it’s heart shaped, angel.” 

[fckwritersblock]

Act 1: While We’re Young

Chapter 5

Erik ‘Killmonger’ Stevens x Black OC

(Unedited.)

Tuesday

January 10th 2005

Last night was the only night I'm allowing myself to cry over him and his 'return'. What good would it do me? No, I was gonna take Erik and whatever he had to throw at me by storm.

Waking up the next day, I feel refreshed. Like a brand new person with a more positive mindset. Today I had 3 classes and I'm determined to have a good Erik free day.

That whole Erik free thing went out the window as soon as I got to my first class.

Double O Computer Programming 1 was a junior class, however I'd taken it during the summer during my first year at UC Berkeley. DOCP 2 wouldn't be available until next semester but I needed to have a class since this was my first year on the actual campus. Thankfully Miss Hill really needed a T.A and the fact that I could help with an algorithm that tied into thermal nuclear astrophysics had her sold.

Right after I finished taking attendance, she barely got a word out before the door swung open revealing Erik as our late comer. I quickly glanced at the sheet in front of me, scanning for his name. I was so use to calling him N’dajaka when we were kids, I completely skipped over ‘Erik Stevens’. I huffed rolling my eyes, arms crossed over my chest. His timbs were the only thing heard shuffling across the room making hid way toward the front of the class. Wordlessly he handed Miss Hill before his eyes were on me. They scanned me from top to bottom, before locking with me a smug grin on his lips.

"Hey Lona," my jaw dropped.

Before I could get out a word, Miss Hill opened her mouth, looking up from the paper he handed her.

"Welcome Erik, sorry for the confusion."

"It's all good," he shrugged.

"Im Miss Hill, and I see you already know my aid. As I explained to the class prior to taking attendance, If I'm unavailable feel free to email or call her during the hours listed on the sheet." She is then took a sheet from me and handed him to me. "Other than that, find a seat."

He nodded pretending look over the sheet before averting his gaze back on me.

"I'm definitely gon do that."

Fuck my life right?

Well, Erik just so happened to be in the Calculus class I skipped two days ago. I thank God my record was squeaky clean and Mr. Kennedy accepted my poor excuse before I was quickly reminded the man upstairs has a sense of humor as the only available seat was next to Erik.

"The person next to you will be your partner for the remainder of the semester so let's take the next 15 minutes getting know one another hmm?." Mr. Kennedy instructed.

I couldn't suppress the groan that slipped as Erik casually leaned back in his chair, examining me.

"You heard the man, get to know me."

"I know all I need this know about you Erik."

"Oh so I'm Erik now? Like that?" He spoke cool, calm, and collected like our exchanged was normal.

I gripped my pencils tight, my knee bouncing up and down my body tense.

"Let me set things straight now. We don't need to talk to one another. If it doesn't have anything to do with any of the classes we take together, don't want to hear it. When you see me act like you don't know me. We clear?"

The expression on his face was unreadable before his lip twitched slight him responding.

"Crystal."

Wednesday

January 24th, 2005

It had been two weeks since Erik showed up here.

Ok that's a lie.

Apparently this man has been here. And to top it off, this mans name was in every bitch mouth like the second coming of Jesus Christ. From what I've observed though, he doesn't say much, or gives any of these broads much attention. He don't say much in general actually, he's really good at blending in. He got that laid back, mysterious, bad boy vibe going for him and these females out here hella into that.

But when he opens his mouth, that cocky bastard sure knows how to disrupt my entire soul at least while we're in class.

Outside of class though, he acts like I'm invisible.

It was like he never knew me. And honestly, I don't know how to feel about it. I know that's what I said I wanted but it bothers me just the same.

Today in particular though, he argued me down during our Calculus class. We had one problem to figure out before we could leave class today. You and your partner were supposed agree on the answer, and heaven forbid he just agree with me so we can get out of here. Math was always my subject when we were kids, nothing has changed. I was damn near about to say fuck it when he started laughing.

What in the entire fuck it so funny?" I was fuming.

"You," he shook his head. "You really hella mad."

"Um, YES!" I damn near shouted fed up. "You literally been tryna convince me it's 5 when it's-"

"Chill. I know the answer is 3 girl. C'mon, let's go." So smoothly he closed the book, grabbed his bag and headed to the front.

I was so upset, I had to let him do all the talking when it came to explain to the teacher I'll answer and how we got there. I know I open my mouth I wasn't going to say anything nice.

"Girl what crawled up your ass and died?" Donise questioned with a stank look as we sat at one of the benches outside of the library.

"Yeah What did Erik do now," I could hear teasing in Tatiana's tone so I flipped her off.

Only giving a brief explanation, I went on a mini rant about what happened in class 20 minutes ago. Donise's thought it was funny, while Tati just shook her head.

"I still can't believe it him," Tatianna glanced as a group of guys from across the quad headed our way, Erik included.

"Yes, and I wish it wasn't."

Tatianna was the first real friend I made in a while. I was actually tutoring her online for a while before she found out I was 4 years younger than her. Our friendship started off as a trade. I was her tutor and she both convinced and enrolled in a mentor program to help me with my social skills. I didn't speak to anyone much when Erik left, but I got into a lot of fights. According to the school counselor I was taking out my anger and abandonment issues on.I have meds to tame the anger, and while I haven't had to take them in a while Eric definitely bring that anger out of me.

"Girl that's just sexual tension. You got to fuck all that out." Ashley put in her unwanted two cents.

"Trust me when I tell you on God it isn't."

"Well if you out to holla, then trust and believe I will." She tossed her hair over her shoulder

I didn't really mess with Ashley like that, but she was Tati's frat sister which made them 'friends'. That little thot pocket will screw anything with legs, D, and a pulse and I'm not bout that life. Plus she messy as fuck and I don't trust her as far as I can throw her.

"I don't doubt it," I smirked as Donise said exactly what I was thinking.

Donise was coo' though, I meet her when I first got here 2 months ago. Believe It or not she was apart of the welcome comity for MIT and turned out her and Tatiana were already friends. Once she figured out  who I was, I was shot to the front line during registration and everything.

"Anyways, y'all going Ant and them party tomorrow?" Ashley questioned probably tryna bum a ride.

"What party?"

"The Que's," Donise answered. "The dudes with Erik are frat."

Now this was news to me. I met most of them before but I had no idea there were in a sorority. Examining them, I guess it all made sense. Most in the clique sported some sort of purple and yellow lanyard either around their neck or on their keychain that hung from their jean pocket as if  they wanted everybody to know who they were. Which I wouldn't doubt.

"Ladies! What we chattin about?" Moses questions every bit of his thick English accent tapering off every word.

"Our plans for mañana," Tati answered l

"Word. Y'all coming to the party tomorrow?" Jay spoke playing with a few strands of Donise's curls.

"Tomorrow? It's Thursday." I said confused. "Ain't there class the next day?"

"What's the matter, you can't hang?" I glared at Jay, knowing he was only chastising me because him and Erik were close, according to Tati.

I swear to God men gossip more than women do. Rolling my eyes I spared Erik a glance and he looked like he was waiting on me to respond.

"Oh, I can definitely hang."

I couldn't hang.

Around midnight I was  in the bathroom throwing up everything, damn near hug in the toilet as my surrounding looks so blurry and I can barely function. Im not sure when I'd finally finished, but I could feel someone picks me up and out the bathroom and soon everything goes blurry and then black.

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[alleycat97]

Snow Queen

Part 1? Just some random Hella Soft Blaine and Mc story. I don’t know what I was shooting for but here you go. Maybe a part 2? Idk yet.

F!Blaine x Mc(Kennedy Monroe)

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Some vacation, who would have guessed a private ski lodge for diplomats with body guards and maximum security would have an issue with paparazzi?

Usually they don’t bother or even get near the place unless there is a story, and Kennedy Monroe was the story of the year, that was, if they could catch her.

She spent most of her vacation avoiding the paparazzi by a series of gut wrenching maneuvers on the slopes along with Blaine. It was actually becoming quite fun trying to evade them. It kept the adrenaline pumping for the girls as they tried to outdo one another in their big escapes.

For as much as they skied together and spent time together laughing and hanging out on the slopes, no one had put the two together, something that might unravel itself sooner rather than later.

Blaine and Kennedy started their morning’s off sitting next to each other at breakfast. Blaine always made sure Kennedy finished all her food before hitting the slopes. Besides evading the paparazzi, Blaine helped Kennedy with new moves and tricks on some jumps. Kennedy wasn’t the worlds worst skier, she just wasn’t as polished as Blaine.

But it wasn’t always skiing. The two girls would sneak off the runs and build snowmen and snow angels. One afternoon was so bad with the paparazzi, Blaine pulled Kennedy off the run and built them an igloo to hide in. One of many hidden talents the Ardonian possessed.

Of course the igloo wasn’t the largest of structures, especially the inside. Kennedy nearly had to straddle Blaine’s lap just to fit inside, something neither girl was complaining about.

“I see what you did here Blaine.” Kennedy smirked.

“What? I didn’t do anything.” Blaine replied with her trademark grin. “Just big enough for two.”

The two were quite fond of the igloo, it was their private oasis away from their friends and press on the slopes but would always end up back in Blaine’s room soaking away the aches of the days adventures.

The two started opposite of each other, just barely allowing their feet to rub one another. Then they started sitting side by side so they could hold hands. Then they always ended up with Kennedy sitting with her back to Blaine’s front, with the brunettes legs wrapped around the blonde’s waist.

Kennedy would just relax back into Blaine as she felt the girls grip tighten and the soft brush of her lips caressing the skin behind her ear. Not much was said, but the delicate actions spoke louder than any word either could muster.

One of the last morning’s, Blaine wasn’t at breakfast. Kennedy shot her a quick text before taking her own seat.

Blaine immediately responded with a message telling Kennedy to meet her at the igloo around noon for a surprise. Kennedy couldn’t stop bouncing in anticipation at the possibilities.

A surprise? From Blaine? Kennedy didn’t know whether to be excited or afraid.

Kennedy made it to the top of the ski lift and solo skied down the run and over to the secret igloo that Blaine had made. Finding Blaine tucked away inside with a blanket strung out with a picnic basket.

“Surprise!” Blaine greeted awkwardly, this feeling was all new to her.

“Oh a picnic? How romantic.”

“Yeah yeah I’m a saint. Now dig in, I’ve slaved over this all morning.” Blaine admitted timidly.

“You!? You made all this food? Thanks for the warning.” Kennedy teased pushing the basket away.

“Hey! It’s not that bad! I worked hard on it!”

Kennedy took the basket back and dug in, moaning in surprise on how tasteful the food was. “This is amazing Blaine thank you.”

Blaine smiled due to her small victory. Never in a million years did she ever consider baking anything for anyone, including a special someone. But here she was smiling, watching Kennedy enjoy her handy work.

After the tasteful lunch Kennedy tossed the basket aside, capturing Blaine’s lips with intensity and passion.

“Thank you so much for lunch Blaine, it was perfect.”

“A perfect lunch, for a perfect girl.” Blaine happily replied returning the kiss.

“When did you become so soft!?” Kennedy grinned.

“First day of school when I slammed that limo door shut, I caught a beautiful blonde staring from the sidewalk. I knew then I was toast.”

Kennedy squeezed Blaine’s hand thinking back to that day and how far the two have come, even if it was on the down low.

“But don’t you dare tell anyone Rutherland, my reputation would be destroyed.”

“We will keep it our little secret. And speaking of secrets? Do you think we will ever spill this one?” Kennedy said gesturing between them.

“I hope so, and soon.” Blaine admitted. “I value our time together as us, but I want the world to know you’re mine.”

“I agree. But do you think we are ready to take that on? We have countries to think about, our own people, our families.”

“Hell with them. We are grown women Kennedy, we can make our own decisions for our own reasons.”

“So...you do wish to keep this going?” Kennedy questioned.

“Kennedy we can do anything if we try. It’s just you and me. Our future is what we make it, not what our parents or countries make it.”

“Ok who are you and what did you do with Blaine.” Kennedy teased, lightly nudging Blaine.

“I mean it Rutherland. You mean the world to me. On a night when bad dreams become a screamer, When they're messing with the dreamer, I can laugh it in the face. I can twist and shout my way out, And wrap yourself around me. Because I ain’t the way you found me, And I'll never be the same.”

“D...Did you just quote a Hall & Oates song?” Kennedy thought, mulling over Blaine’s words.

“That’s not important, but what is, is that you changed me for the better Rutherland. You got me bad and I don’t want it to stop. I mean hell, I even cooked you lunch!” Blaine pointed out.

“Yes you did my little chef.” Kennedy said giving Blaine another appreciative Kiss. “Soon the world will know. Soon.”

The two were interrupted by an intense wind gust that started to blow snow into the igloo. Blaine stuck her head out to examine the outside world.

“It’s snowing again. These are big flakes Kennedy, and with this wind, it won’t be long until it’s blizzard conditions.”

“It’s getting colder too.” Kennedy added watching her breath intensify into the air.

“We better get back now before it’s too late.” Blaine spoke hurriedly packing the gear up and slapping her skis on.

The two abandoned their igloo and set off for the lodge. It was a decent run, and the near whiteout conditions had set in quicker than either thought.

“Kennedy!” Blaine yelled over her shoulder. “Stay close! We will cut through the woods up ahead, snow should be lighter.”

“Ok!”

The two approached a small thicket, telling them the woods were close. An odd movement in the thicket caught Blaine’s attention.

“Kennedy! To the left!” She pointed out.

“Paparazzi!” Kennedy yelled back. “Do these guys ever take a day off!”

“I don’t think he see’s us!” Blaine added looking for the guy again. “Where did he go?”

“He was just right out front?” Kennedy said speeding past Blaine unaware of how close she was to the woods. “I don’t see him!?”

“Kennedy! Look out!” Blaine screamed as the man appeared in front of Kennedy with his camera snapping shots of the first daughter.

The close proximity in the blinding snow startled Kennedy and she swerved around the man, hitting a tree head on.

“Kennedy!” Blaine whined out in fear, stopping next to the blonde, checking her over. “You fucking asshole!” Blaine snapped towards the cameraman.

“Oh this is good footage!” The man said recording the entire interaction. “You care to comment why you are so worried about your rival countries first daughter?”

Blaine reared back and slugged the creep. Taking his camera and tossing it against a tree, making sure it was good and broke. “Put that in your article asshole.”

The man staggered over and snagged his sim card before Blaine could and made his escape before Blaine had a chance to kill him.

“Kennedy!? Are you ok?” She asked rushing over when she heard the girl moaning in pain.

Kennedy tried to roll over, crying in immense pain. “Where does it hurt?” Blaine asked.

“My shoulder and neck.” Kennedy weakly got out. “My nose. I...I can’t breathe Blaine!” Kennedy started to freak but Blaine tried to calm her. Blaine noticed the blood surrounding the girls face.

“Broken nose, try and breathe through your mouth. Relax... breathe in, and out. Stay calm and I’ll call for help.” Blaine assured.

Soon the ski patrol made it with a evac snowmobile to find Blaine using her body to cover and warm Kennedy.

“Miss? We need to get her to the lodge.” The rescuer spoke removing Blaine.

The brunette watched as they speed off down the mountain with Kennedy and she hopped on the other machine to quickly get out of this snow storm.

As soon as she made it the lodge her classmates and Tatum had swarmed her.

“What happened to Kennedy?” Dionne asked.

“Yeah! They rushed her in on a stretcher and everything!” Peter added.

“I’ll need to ask you some questions Miss Hayes.” Tatum asked professionally.

“What the fuck is this!? 20 questions? Where is she?” Blaine snapped.

“I’m afraid you’ll have to answer the questions first. I’m not letting you see her without answering my questions. You are a witness and depending on your answers, a suspect.”

“Take your questions and shove them up your ass pretty boy. You’re not stopping me from seeing my girlfriend.”

The room went silent. Blaine could hear the many gasp’s from her friends but didn’t dare hide her relationship anymore.

“Girlfriend!?” Alexei asked. “I thought Evelyn was her girlfriend?”

“Pretend.” Evelyn noted.

“Finally!” Dionne squealed.

Tatum drug Blaine away and wrote down a room number. “That’s her room number at the hospital. Helicopter just took off.

“Then why are you still here?” Blaine questioned.

“I was supposed to interrogate you, but I see no need. I will need to ask you two what happened for my report when this settles down.” Tatum spoke.

Blaine, as restless as ever, called in her helicopter, and within an hour was taking off from the ski lodge in route to the hospital.

It was another 30 minute flight as she rushed into the hospital finding the correct level and the lucky door she was searching for. Demarco guarded the door but nodded for Blaine to go in.

“Kennedy?” Blaine asked easing into the room, finding the girl asleep on the bed. Her nose was severely bruised but had all the blood washed from her face. The cuts had been taken care of, and she was placed in a neck brace.

“Miss?” A nurse spoke entering the room. “We need to get Ms. Monroe to surgery. We are ready for her.”

“Surgery?” Blaine asked worriedly.

“On her shoulder and clavicle. It took a beating on that impact.” The nurse spoke taking the bed out the door.

Blaine wondered the halls alone waiting for Kennedy to finish surgery. It was literally the longest 5 hours of her life and the longest she’s gone without Kennedy aside from sleeping.

She didn’t know exactly how she fell so hard for Kennedy but she knew she didn’t want to go back. Life was so much better and worth living with her by her side.

“Ms. Hayes?” A nurse timidly approached, not wanting to interfere with a somber looking Blaine.

“Yes?”

“Ms. Monroe’s surgery was successful and she has returned to her room. She won’t stop asking for you.”

Blaine smiled as she took off running down the corridors, nearly bulldozing the room door down trying to get in so quickly.

“Blaine!” Kennedy squealed.

Blaine delicately took the girl in a hug, careful not to hurt her too much. “I missed you Rutherland.”

“Not as much as I missed you. You like my new look? Vogue says if your atleast 33% in castings, your trendy.” Kennedy teased.

“I guess given the circumstances, you look ravishing.” Blaine agreed.

“Ms. Hayes, if I didn’t know any better? I’d say your blushing.” Kennedy teased.

“Am not!” Blaine protested, blushing even harder. “Ok maybe alittle, so sue me.”

“I’ll do one better, come here.”

Blaine did as told and leaned down, meeting Kennedy in a much relieved and much needed kiss.

“I love you Blaine.”

“I love you Rutherland. So much.”

[rileymarie]

Buffy Season 8 - Episode 1 Pt. 1

Buffy has just awakened all the potential slayers. How will the gang, and the world, cope with the sudden changes? And what secret is Willow keeping about Tara?

TL;DR I refuse to accept Tara is dead so I’m bringing her back! Get over it!

EXT. HOUSE - DAY

It looks like a nice, normal quiet house on a quiet street.

INT. HOUSE - DAY

Classical music plays.

Spike is sitting on the couch beside Giles. Dawn is on the floor on her computer. It's all quiet and calm as Spike flips through the channels. Suddenly-

SPIKE

(yells loudly)

Hey. Who recorded over passions?! Dawn?!

DAWN

It wasn't me!

Spike turns to Giles, who says nothing for a few moments.

GILES

...There happened to be a very fascinating documentary on Ebola on!

DAWN & SPIKE

Ew.

SPIKE

Great! Now what are we gonna watch?

The door bursts open as Buffy bursts through the door. Spike Giles and Dawn all stand up.

SPIKE

Thank god. Is there any news?

BUFFY

No.

SPIKE

Dammit.

DAWN

Aww.

BUFFY

Hey, I'm doing the best I can here. Does anyone else want to go out there and try and do better?

2.

It's quiet. Spike shakes his head. Dawn shrugs and Giles laughs sardonically.

BUFFY

Alright. Well, we just have to wait. The internet guy should be coming in the morning and hopefully everything will be back up then-

SPIKE

The morning?

DAWN

You're kidding!

BUFFY

Hey, it wasn't my idea to have us move out into the boonies!

(glaring at Giles)

GILES

(sighs)

It was necessary! When Willow activated all those new slayers-

BUFFY

We know the drill, Giles. When Willow activated all the slayers, a ton of mystical forces went kabloo-y-

DAWN

Unbalancing the forces of nature-

SPIKE

Making all those shrouded in mystical whats-it a giant target for evil, uh... forces.

GILES

(sighs)

Right.

BUFFY

Which I still don't think translates into "hide out until things blow over." I should be out there, Giles. Helping the new slayers.

GILES

You and Willow. When evil comes knocking, it's going to be after you two. Which is why we need to keep you safe. Until this all blows over and all the forces-We've got Kennedy and the others to do that. You're the one that started all this Buffy.

3.

Buffy Dawn and Spike look between each other.

GILES

Rebalance themselves.

BUFFY

Which will be...?

Giles frowns.

BUFFY

Guys can you give us a minute?

SPIKE

Sure. Me and little sis need to have a talk anyway. About something I call "unreasonable bathroom time."

He shoves her out of the room with a laugh. Dawn rolls her eyes.

GILES

(sighs, sits down and shrugs)

Willow's plan to activate all the slayers with the scythe, while being an ingenious one, effected the very nature of the slayer line.

BUFFY

It didn't just effect it. It unleashed it, Giles. Every girl who could be -

GILES

Now is, I know. But who knows how many other mythical beings it effected? How many different dimensions it rippled into? We have no idea what she's done-

CUT TO:

4.

INT. UPSTAIRS HALLWAY

Cut to Willow coming down the stairs, stopping in the hall as she overhears them.

GILES

Our world is irrevocably changed now. We don't know how much, how many things are different now.

BUFFY

But it's good, right?

GILES

The coven says that there are more hot spots now than ever.

BUFFY

Hot spots? Meaning-

GILES

Hellmouths. Possibly. I'm afraid activating all the slayers has shifted the scales, yes, but maybe not how we intended.

Willow sighs, looking guilty. This is not the first time she's hearing this, and she knows what's been going on.

BUFFY

It's bad out there Giles. Even here, in the middle of nowhere. Vampires, demons, all the forces out in full force.

Giles seems to notice her for the first time.

GILES

Buffy, are you hurt?

He touches her face where there's a bruise.

BUFFY

I won, but it's getting a little too close for comfort. They're angry. I feel it. They didn't like our little magic spell.

GILES

You need to rest. With all the other slayers, I don't see why you have to-

5.

BUFFY

Just because everyone got activated doesn't mean I got de-activated... I still have to do my part.

GILES

I know, you just seem so...

BUFFY

(looks up in shock)

Don't say old.

GILES

(laughs)

I was going to say tired. I was hoping by bringing us here, you'd get a chance to finally rest. Without, being you know-

BUFFY

Dead?

GILES

(sighs)

Spike, he's been patrolling with you... He's helping?

BUFFY

(she smiles, a soft spot for Spike)

Yeah. He helps.

CUT TO:

INT. BATHROOM - NIGHT

Dawn is sitting on the toilet across from Spike, who sits on the bathtub edge.

SPIKE

And that's why bathroom time is very important, even for vampires.

DAWN

I get it, jeeze, will you -

They turn to see Willow walking by the bathroom.

DAWN

Oh hey! Look, it's Willow!

Willow smiles half-heartedly. She seems drained and depressed.

6.

WILLOW

You showing Dawnie how to flush the toilet again?

DAWN

Hey, I so don't need help with that... Anymore. It's very old fashioned ok!?

(huffs)

Anyway. Think Giles & Buffy are done with their "forces of evil?" talk? I still have a ton of homework to do. Too bad saving the world didn't save me from homework, huh?

She laughs nervously.

WILLOW

(mutters)

Or actually save the world.

She sighs and crosses the hall, goes into her room and sits on the bed. Spike follows her, knocks on the side of the door.

WILLOW

You don't have to knock, you live here, remember?

SPIKE

Yes, well, my new soul comes with all kinds of news manners, turns out.

Willow flips a page in her book, ignoring him.

SPIKE

You alright there, Red? You're looking bluer than usual.

(he smiles at his joke)

You uh, hear all that down there, did you?

WILLOW

How did you? Oh, yeah, vampire. I keep forgetting.

SPIKE

Hey!

7.

WILLOW

Sorry. Don't take it personal. I keep forgetting I'm a powerful witch, what with every spell I do blowing up in my face and all that.

SPIKE

They're just worried, that's all. That don't mean your spell didn't help or nothin, Red.

WILLOW

Really, because it seems like it just made it all a whole lot worse.

SPIKE

It didn't-

WILLOW

It's just, one second you're all white hair and goddessy- connected to everything. And the next you're...

SPIKE

You again?

Willow nods.

SPIKE

If this is about Kennedy, I can go find her, rip her heart out for you. Soul might hurt a little bit, but hell. you know I never really liked her for you anyway. Not like-

He bites his lip, cursing himself.

SPIKE

Well, you know.

WILLOW

Thanks. But it's not all Kennedy's fault. I think she knew something was off... after that spell.

SPIKE

What's that?

WILLOW

When I did the spell, I felt something... I think I felt...

(lowly, almost ashamed)

Tara.

8.

Spike frowns.

WILLOW

Just for a moment... She was there with me...

(starts to cry, coming back to herself)

Anyway, things were never the same after that. Think that's why she decided to become "Sargent General." Give her time away, from me. I don't know. Or maybe she was just scared...

SPIKE

You know you're the reason any of us are even alive right now?

WILLOW

The spell- it went wrong.

SPIKE

Not that spell. The spell you did. Bringing Buffy back.

Cut to Buffy coming up the stairs. She stops in the hall, listening.

SPIKE

You saved her. Saved me that day too. Never properly thanked you for that... But um, you know, if you ever need- If there's anyway I can help you-

WILLOW

You can't. Thank you. But that's the thing about the slayer, about Buffy.

SPIKE

What?

WILLOW

She got to come back.

Buffy looks down sadly.

CUT TO:

9.

INT. HALLWAY STAIRCASE - NIGT

BUFFY

(calling up the stairs)

Guys! Get down here!

We follow her into the kitchen just as everyone comes down the stairs, Dawn, Willow, Spike. Giles comes in from the living room.

WILLOW

What is it?

GILES

Did something happen?

SPIKE

Where's the demon!? I'll kill him!

BUFFY

Oh, uh, sorry to disappoint. It's just dinner!

She points to the pasta she's straining in the sink. Everyone breathes a sigh of relief.

DAWN

Wow, you actually cooked?

BUFFY

(starting to put the pasta into bowls)

Excuse me, I used to cook all the time...

(to their confused glances)

at the doublemeat palace, remember?!

SPIKE

Sorry love, but I don't really eat past-

Buffy opens and shoves a packet of blood at him. She continues to dish out pasta into bowls.

BUFFY

Now I want everyone to sit down at the table. We're going to have a nice family dinner, without any talk of demons or danger or the forces of evil - for once. Think we can handle that?

They all look at Giles.

10.

GILES

Well, it's not my fault - ! There *Are* mystical forces at wor-

BUFFY

*Giles*

GILES

Fine. But if we die, I'm blaming all of you.

BUFFY

One family dinner isn't going to kill us.

CUT TO:

INT. DINING ROOM - NIGHT

They all sit eating their dinner quietly. It's almost awkward, with Spike slurping his blood.

WILLOW

So uh - Buffy - any word from Xander?

BUFFY

No.

(they all look nervous)

Which is probably good, right? It means his retreat thing is going well... probably.

DAWN

Or it means his retreat thing is going horrible and he met a bunch of demons who want to kill him for helping us activate all the slayers and he's - well, you know.

Buffy's eyes go wide.

DAWN

What!

(crosses her arms)

Everyone else was thinking it.

BUFFY

(smiling dismissively)

No, we weren't. Xander can take care of himself.

(they all look confused about that)

That's what he said anyway. Not like he was listening to reason. After Anya -

11.

(she shakes her head)

It was brutal. I don't think he realized how much...

She looks at Willow and breaks off. Spike smiles sadly at Buffy and squeezes her hand under the table.

GILES

(clearing his throat)

Well, this is delicious Buffy.

DAWN

Yeah. Much better than your doublemeat burgers.

BUFFY

Thank you, I think. So, Dawnie, tell us about your schoolwork. How's online classes going?

DAWN

Oh, you know. A little boring after researching how to kill an unkillable demon for weeks. But I'm getting through the slog.

GILES

(smiles encouragingly)

Well it's great you're getting on with it, Dawn. You know I always say that an educated mind is a-

BUFFY

That's great, Giles. And Will. How, um, are you doing?

Spike raises an eyebrow at Buffy. Willow doesn't look like she heard, just moving the pasta around on a plate. After a few moments of staring, she finally realizes and looks up.

WILLOW

(looking alive)

Hm? Ohhh, me! I'm good. We activated the slayers and we uh - we won the good fight against- Well, I'm not supposed to bring up the forces of evil, but you know! We did it! Horray!

Giles takes his glasses off and wipes them, examining Willow. She takes a sip of her wine.

12.

GILES

If you need to talk Willow-

WILLOW

I don't. Wha - what could there be to talk about?

BUFFY

You don't have to-

WILLOW

Well and what's with the sudden interest in me anyway?! Since when has this been the Willow show, huh?

The wine in her glass starts to shake.

BUFFY

(laughs under her breath)

I mean, it's definitely not "The Willow Show"

SPIKE

I think the Spike show sounds pretty cool actually.

DAWN

Ha, you wish!

BUFFY

All those sound ridiculous.

WILLOW

Thank you for concern. But I'm fine, really. I'm just very thirsty all of a sudden.

(she picks up her glass and drains it)

And now I'm going to go sleep off my inevitable drunk. So...

(still cheery)

Goodnight!

She gets up and leaves. Her glass shatters. Dawn screams.

BUFFY

(sighs)

Well, that went well.

DAWN

I think there's glass in my pasta...

13.

THEME SONG.

INT. HALLWAY - NIGHT

Buffy knocks on Willow's door. She finds Willow sitting on her bed reading.

BUFFY

You ok?

WILLOW

Yes, I told you, I'm fine, Buffy.

BUFFY

You sure cause-

WILLOW

Mhmm. Thanks for dinner.

INT. BUFFY'S BEDROOM - NIGHT

Buffy and Spike are unmaking their bed.

BUFFY

I just don't get why she won't talk to me about it. She talked to you about it!

SPIKE

(taking a pillow off his side of the bed)

Knew I smelled you eavesdropping.

BUFFY

Well, duh. You think I make dinner just for fun or something?

(snorts)

It just doesn't make any sense. I'm her best friend! Why would she pick you over me?

SPIKE

You're jealous! Jealous of me and Red.

(snarkily)

We have a connection.

14.

BUFFY

(glares)

That better be a spiritual connection.

SPIKE

(rolls his eyes)

I'm good Buffy, but I don't think I'm that good.

BUFFY

(flirty)

Don't be so sure

SPIKE

Oh yeah?

She shrugs.

SPIKE

Well, maybe it makes more sense than you think, Buffy.

BUFFY

You & Willow!?

SPIKE

(rolls his eyes)

Her talking to me. Confiding in a neutral party and all? Vampire- I do walk between worlds you know?

BUFFY

You walk between worlds? Hello, I died - twice!

SPIKE

Yeah, and do you remember deeply traumatic that was? How you kept it from all of your friends, seeing as it was kind of their fault to begin with?

BUFFY

Ok, now I don't even know where you're going with this.

SPIKE

Did you hear what she said? She must've connected to some mystical whats-it Heaven dimension when she did that All-Mighty Slayer spell, connected to Tara.

15.

BUFFY

(sits on the bed)

Well she didn't do it for me! I mean - I didn't ask her - it's not my fault-

SPIKE

I'm just saying, it seems familiar, that's all.

BUFFY

All the more reason that she should be able to talk to me about it!

SPIKE

(sighs and lays on the bed)

Just give her time.

He pulls Buffy into his arms. She sighs, resting his head on his chest. He kisses her cheek.

SPIKE

Speaking of time?

BUFFY

Oh, I knew you were gonna bring that back around.

SPIKE

It's just- I know what I did to hurt you Buffy. And you know I'd never do that again. And I respect you needing all the time in the world, of course. Hey, all I've got is time.

BUFFY

Yeah, yeah - but?

SPIKE

(planting kisses on her neck and shoulder)

Just seems like this, being here. All disconnected from the world, away from Sunnyhell. Kind of romantic. A chance to start over, that's all.

Buffy smirks and looks up at him, placing her hands on his chest.

BUFFY

Well, it's not like I haven't thought-

16.

Dawn pounds on the wall.

DAWN

Are you guys gonna have sex or what? Cause I swear it's quieter than you talking right now!

BUFFY

(mutters and blushes)

Oh my god.

(looking at Spike)

You were saying something about romance?

He sighs.

BUFFY

And it is so not quieter.

Spike laughs.

CUT TO:

INT. BEDROOM - NIGHT

Willow is sleeping, dreaming of Tara.

TARA

Find me, Willow.

WILLOW

I'll always find you-

INT. BEDROOM - DAY

Willow wakes up in her bed. She feels the pillow beside her and starts to smile.

WILLOW

Tara-

She opens her eyes and she's alone. She wipes tears off her eyes. She gets angry. Willow, without thinking, mutters something in Latin and a book flies at her. She opens it.

There's a knock at her door. Quickly, Willow hides the book under her covers.

BUFFY

Willow, breakfast.

17.

WILLOW

Be right there.

She looks down at the book, hardly believing what she was doing. She gets up and puts it back in the shelf.

INT. KITCHEN - DAY

Willow comes downstairs to a packed kitchen. Spike's even up, sitting next to Buffy his arm around her waist, well away from the window. Dawn and Giles are chatting happily together.

Buffy, spotting Willow, sits up and brushes Spike's hand off her.

BUFFY

Hey - Willow! Honey - get off!

(she playfully swats Spike's hand away)

WILLOW

It's ok - you guys don't have to-

Buffy sighs defeatedly.

BUFFY

It's just, we don't want you to feel-

WILLOW

It's ok. I'm ok, really. And sorry about last night, you guys. I guess my powers are still a little-

BUFFY

No, don't even worry about it.

DAWN

Yeah, the glass added some much needed crunchiness to the salad!

Willow smiles sheepishly. She feels awkward.

WILLOW

You know, I was actually thinking of getting out a little today. Exploring the town a little.

BUFFY

Oh really? You want some company?

18.

DAWN

Yeah, I'm going a little stir crazy myself.

WILLOW

Uh, actually, I kind of need-

BUFFY

Space, of course! Right.

WILLOW

Yeah. But maybe we could all do something tonight? After you patrol, maybe?

BUFFY

(sighs)

I dunno, all this fighting is kind of wearing me out. I thought Sunnydale was bad. This town is like on crack. Demon crack. Much sore-ness.

SPIKE

(petting her back)

You should take a night off, love. One night off isn't going to end the world.

BUFFY

Tell that to those demons that tried ending the world last week.

GILES

Yes, there's definitely some kind of energy upset now that-

Buffy glares at Giles, who breaks off. Willow frowns.

WILLOW

You're right. We should all do something together today.

BUFFY

Really? What about needing-

WILLOW

Space. Overrated. Who knows what kind of trouble I'll get into on my own anyway?

DAWN

Yeah, you might go evil again and try ending the world or something.

19.

They all look at each other nervously.

DAWN

What? Come on! Too soon!?

Willow sighs shakily and smiles.

INT. BASEMENT - DAY

Some people are gathered around a pentagram holding candles, chanting.

INT. MOVIE THEATER - CONCESSION STAND - DAY

The gang - Giles, Buffy, Willow and Dawn - have their popcorn and candy.

DAWN

Kind of funny Spike couldn't come, but we decided to do the one thing that involved a completely dark windowless room.

BUFFY

Oh yeah.

GILES

Well, if you ask me, it's a good thing. You don't want to become too dependent, Buffy, you are still the

(lowly)

slayer

(regular voice)

after all.

BUFFY

(frowns)

Well, luckily nobody asked you.

DAWN

You guys are spending a lot of time together.

(to Buffy's look)

It's uh, cuteeee!

BUFFY

What, you think we're co-dependent or something?

WILLOW

Careful, Buff. Co-dependence. That's a killer-

20.

She stops dead in her tracks. A woman that looks disturbingly like Tara from behind is examining a poster. Willow's heart skips a beat, until she turns when a guy touches her shoulder and she turns, revealing it's not her. Willow sighs.

BUFFY

This'll be fun! I can't even remember the last time we all hung out and did something fun together.

INT. MOVIE THEATER - DAY

They all sit stunned in the movie theater. Buffy has her hand covered over Dawn's eyes.

GILES

Good lord, did he just -

BUFFY

Ah huh.

WILLOW

I think I'm going barf.

BUFFY

When did movies get so bloody?

DAWN

Let me see!

She moves Buffy's hand away and gasps and brings it back.

BUFFY

Should we leave?

WILLOW

Maybe, let's just give it -

TARA

(O.S.)

Willow?

Willow looks at the screen, where Tara is. She's wearing the outfit she wore when she died. When we cut back to Tara, Buffy and all the others are gone, it's just her alone in the darkness.

WILLOW

T-Tara? Tara? Is that you baby?

TARA

It's me.

21.

WILLOW

N-no, it's a trick. They tricked me, made me believe you -

TARA

Willow, listen carefully. I don't have a lot of time. I'm trapped. I need your help.

Willow stands up.

WILLOW

T-trapped? Trapped where?!

TARA

I don't know. I tried - i tried to get back to you - after- But they wouldn't let me leave.

WILLOW

They? Who?

TARA

The spell. Remember the spell we used to bring Buffy back?

WILLOW

Of course, but-

TARA

That's why this is happening, why all this is all happening. It created s-some kind of divergence, a rift in the timeline-

WILLOW

S- so what does that mean? We have to go back, all Back to the Future style?

TARA

It's too late for that. We've already created a new timeline. Wh- what you did - awakening all the slayers. It also woke up something else. Something very powerful, and dangerous.

WILLOW

I- I did that?

TARA

I was with you. Protecting you. You felt me, didn't you?

22.

WILLOW

Where are you?!

TARA

I have to go. They want me back.

WILLOW

Who? Where are you!?

TARA

Where does all mystical energy go when it's trapped, Will? Think.

WILLOW

Think? I - I can't - Y - you're supposed to give it to the earth - but, your grave, it's back in Sunnydale - I can't get to it, all of that's gone-

TARA

Forget about the body, Will. That it's me. I'm right here.

(she starts to disappear, but her voice echoes)

Come find me.

She disappears, leaving Willow alone and sobbing. Suddenly, the lights come on. Buffy and Giles who were all talking, obviously in a separate dimension from Willow and Tara, all look at Willow. She stops crying and looks angry, determined.

BUFFY

Will? You ok? Will?

She gets up.

EXT. MOVIE THEATER - DAY

Willow is walking out. Buffy following her.

BUFFY

Willow? Where are you going?

Willow doesn't answer. Buffy grabs her arm, stepping in front of her.

BUFFY

Willow, what is going on?! You're scaring me.

23.

WILLOW

She's trapped, Buffy. I have to save her.

BUFFY

Wait - Who? Who's trapped?

WILLOW

Tara.

BUFFY

Tara? You saw Tara.

WILLOW

She spoke to me. Something's wrong, Buffy, I can feel it. She's trapped somewhere, trying to reach me - in some kind of mystical dimension. She said where does mystical energy go when it's trapped - she said-

BUFFY

Willow, think. This could be some kind of trick, you remember what the first did.

WILLOW

It's not the first. It's her, Buffy.

BUFFY

(grabs her arm)

Will-

WILLOW

If you try to stop me -

(she breaks off, not knowing what she's gonna do, probably go evil again)

BUFFY

I'm not gonna stop you. I wanna help. What do we need?

WILLOW

Supplies.

EXT. DOWNTOWN - DAY

Buffy and Willow are walking together. Buffy snaps her cell phone shut.

24.

BUFFY

Giles is gonna take Dawn home. He said to be careful.

WILLOW

That's the problem, isn't it?

BUFFY

What do you mean?

WILLOW

After - what happened... I've been too careful. You were right what you said before, Buffy. About not using my power, about being afraid. I've been so scared this whole time of what might happen... It's stopped me.

BUFFY

(thinking about her and Spike)

Right... I get that.

(swallows)

But we still don't know-

WILLOW

There's no way to. But I already messed everything up, Buffy. The slayers being activated- Giles is right. It's caused some sort of shift. Things that were bad before are just gonna get worse. The playing field is always gonna keep leveling, against us.

BUFFY

You did a thing, Will. Think about how many girls you saved.

WILLOW

Did I? They're still gonna die - And if they don't? What kind of life do they get, Buffy? Brutal. Bloody. You should know better than anyone. I don't know, sometimes I think it would've been better-

BUFFY

What? If we just let everything get sucked into hell? You made a hard choice, Will. We both did.

25.

WILLOW

And the consequences are still coming. Tara - she said she protected me. From something I - we woke up, with the scythe. And now she's trapped, because of me. But I'm gonna get her out.

BUFFY

We both are.

[nobody-wants-ice-cream]

Everything Wrong With The Umbrella Academy. Episode 5, Number Five.

We Only See Each Other at Weddings and Funerals

Run Boy Run

Extra Ordinary

Man on the Moon

Disclaimer: This is all in good fun! I wanted to do a really nitpicky re-watch of the series and found some really cool and interesting things I didn’t notice before. This is meant to have a Cinema Sins-esque tone. However, I did take off a lot more sins than Cinema Sins would have because I do genuinely like the series and the people that made it possible. So all of the good things got one sin off and all the bad things got one sin added. This is a really long post, so grab some popcorn. If there’s anything that I missed, feel free to add it!

I would also like to add that normally you wouldn’t watch a show this way. I am purposefully looking for mistakes, easter eggs, and other things that we’re not supposed to notice. I am watching not with the goal of entertainment, but for analysis. So most of the things that I sin, I am seeing for the first time. 

Number Five

The apocalypse looks incredible. Well done special effects team! I know I already shouted them out, but they deserve another one. Or two. -2

Five shades Dolores with an umbrella. What a considerate dude. -1

Heat of the Moment is an awesome song. -1

Five’s survival gear. Well done costume department. -2

Also, the progression of skill and age is really well done. -1

Dolores’s little santa hat. -1

And her sunglasses. -1

“Do you remember that little mansion just outside city limits where we-- yeah” Noodle incident. However, the way Five says this implies that I really, really don’t wanna know. +1

Argyle Public Library. Suddenly the reason why Five went there makes sense. -1

How did Five get all the way up there on the library walls? Did he use a ladder? If so, that was begging for him to fall and break his name. +1

Sean Sullivan (who plays Old Man Five) does an excellent job imitating Aidan Gallagher’s vocal patterns and movements. -1

The Handler is the first person Five sees after 45 years of isolation. +1

Title screen lunch box! -1

Also, Five kept a lunch box to remind him of his family. He had Vanya’s book but nothing else with their images on it. I’m sad now, but glad that Five at least had something. -1

Five is so hungover. +1

Luther looks like he’s about to cry when Five tells him about finding their dead bodies. My boy! +1

Tom Hopper is an excellent actor. -1

Five also looks like he’s about to cry. +1

Aidan Gallagher is an excellent actor. -1

Luther lifts up Diego and holds him like Diego is an angry toddler. This amuses me. -1

See! I told you. Diego figured out that Five was involved with the shootings at Griddys and Gimbel Brothers on Patch’s doorstep! -1

“They work for my former employer. A woman called The Handler.” No one in this show is allowed to have a reasonable name. +1

Underneath how callous Five is about Patch’s death, he shows genuine concern for Diego. -1

Diego has not slept at all. And he is planning to go after Hazel and Cha Cha. Good luck with that, buddy. +1

Luther finally gets tired of Five vagueing everybody. Good job, I’m curious too. Er, I was when this was my first time watching it. -1

The Handler decides to wear three inch red pumps to the apocalypse. +1

The Handler is as vague as a Multi Level Marketing schemer would be.+1

The Commission decides to wait 45 years to recruit Five instead of a more reasonable number. Like zero years. Honestly, if I was the Handler, I would have picked up Five as a young, impressionable thirteen year old. Then he would feel indebted to the Commission and wouldn’t have had time to come up with the equations to escape. The Commission has no logical reasoning skill. +1

“You’re saying that I could actually leave here? Go...go back?” Heartbreaking. Sean Sullivan gets another sin off. -1

“All of this, was supposed to happen”. Kate Walsh is a kick ass actress. -1

The Commission is composed of dicks. +1

Five asks Dolores for permission before running off to join The Commission. -1

Five’s mustache. +1

I would watch a spin off of Five’s time in the Commission. Hopefully season 2 explores this more. Dallas plot, here we come? Sin until we get some answers. +1

You can see Five’s epiphany in his eyes. His expression says “I’ve got it! I’ve got it!” -1

The words on Vanya’s book look real. The props department did not have to go that hard. -2

However, whatever notes Five wrote are indecipherable. And for good reason if he was attempting to fool an entire time commission. -1

The fire extinguisher Klaus throws confirms for Five that the portal works. -1

Also, Five is clutching Vanya’s book. It’s like he’s nervous to see them again after so much time. -1

The fall from the portal to the ground doesn’t break, scratch, or hurt Five at all. +1

Also, Dallas plot foreshadowing? Remains a sin until we have answers. +1

I hope that they show Five picking up his hat, radio, gun, and possibly the fire extinguisher and that is why we never found any of those in a grassy knoll. Season 2 better resolve this. +1

“But that’s murder”. Luther, you threw people out of buildings when you were twelve years old. That is also murder. +1

Aidan Gallagher kills the delivery in this scene. Well done. -1

Klaus still has Dave’s blood on his hands. Also, putting Klaus through even more trauma. +1

Robert Sheehan and the heartbroken thousand yard stare. -1

The music choice really works. -1

That emotional, awful scream. -1

The briefcase exploding may foreshadow Klaus’s comic powers. Sin until we get answers. +1

Hazel and Cha Cha casually murdered Claudia. +1

“Unauthorized round trip travel to 1968”. This is how we found out where Klaus went. It requires a bit more brain power to figure out the Vietnam war from here, however, I think that this was a clever way to do it. It brings us back to the reason Klaus ended up there. -1

Honestly, Hazel was right to not carry the briefcase on him. If Five had seen it at Gimbel Brothers then he would have taken it because he knows what it is. It would be an insurance policy or could be used as leverage. Either way, Hazel and Cha Cha were going to lose their briefcase. +1

Allison, you were there when Vanya made breakfast plans with Leonard. Is the coffee and bombolini your way of trying to distract Vanya? Because based on the makeup and the nice scarf, it isn’t likely that you will be successful. +1

Vanya has a framed piece of sheet music. Either that’s some really valuable manuscript or its something kitschy. Either way, it’s a sin. +1

“What are you concerned about?” Vanya, the red flags are everywhere. +1

“Like a woman who’s based her whole life on rumors.” Ouch. Allison is trying to give you genuine advice, Vanya. This was uncalled for.  +1

Leonard is getting progressively creepier. +1

“Can you imagine sharing your birthday with six world-famous assholes who all know they’re better than you?” Choke on that irony. +1

Leonard doesn’t stop her by saying, “Wait, that’s salt!” he waits until she already put salt in it.  Dick. +1

“What happened to the other girl?” Harold, you know damn well. +1

Good use of Beethoven. -1

Klaus is back in the bath. Bookends to his tourture. +1

Klaus is haunted by memories of Vietnam this time instead of just ghosts in general. Trauma. +1

I made eye contact with Aidan Gallagher again. +1

Klaus doesn’t want to talk about Vietnam with Five because the last time he tried to connect, Five jumped away. +1

Five looks really excited to connect about time travel with somebody in his family. -1

Five doesn’t care that Klaus was tortured by Hazel and Cha Cha. +1

Five, Klaus has been tortured and then was in some war (Five wouldn’t know yet) for almost a year. This proves that Five’s decision making is impared. Presumably by his hangover. +1

Diego takes out his dagger from episode 1’s bank robbery. This is significant because of something Patch said. That Diego runs around as a vigilante to prove that what he did with the Umbrella Academy had meaning. Now that that has gotten Patch killed indirectly, he feels upset and confused. The dagger that he used as a child is now a symbol of what he did to Patch. -1

The fridging of Detective Patch. Yes, I’m still pissed about it and will continue to be pissed about it. +2

At this point, Klaus doesn’t know about Mom’s “death”. And I don’t think Five does either. The Umbrella Academy of Not Talking To Each Other should be the school’s full name. +1

Allison and Cha Cha don’t see each other when getting into or out of the chairs right across from one another. +1

Allison is doing the equivalent of social media stalking her sister’s boyfriend. Smart. -1

Extra Ordinary bites everyone in the ass. Thanks, Vanya. +1

Five and Allison have the same slow, blocky handwriting. Did Reggie teach them to write as slowly and as large as possible? +1

Hazel and Agnes’s flirting. It’s cute? -1

Klaus ran down the stairs wearing Grace’s heels and broke his jaw when they were twelve. Trauma. +1

Diego can’t park for shit either. Diego and Five need to learn how to park vehicles. +1

Klaus’s little “Hey, Dave” when he sees Dave’s picture. -1

The show fakes out the vet confronting Klaus. Clever. -1

Diego is genuinely concerned for Klaus. -1

The vet is itching for a fight. Asking a drunk person to apologize? Dumbass. +1

“I’d like to apologize...that you are depriving some village of their IDIOT!” -1

Klaus and Diego get into a bar fight in less than five minutes. Checks out. -1

Agnes sees the birds the way Hazel sees normal people. I like the analogy. -1

Agnes does not own Griddys. Who does? Is she the manager or something? +1

Hazel and Agnes theme. -1

Diego’s face when Klaus says he lost the only person he ever loved more than himself. He’s thinking, “Klaus lost his Eudora”. -1

No way in hell Five would have been able to get up as high as the chalk goes. +1

Five is still using Vanya’s book as a notebook. Checks out. -1

The rifle Five pulls out looks a lot like the one he points at the Handler. It doesn’t look like the one he pointed at Kennedy. Why would Five lie about this? +1

Luther, you murdered people when you were twelve. +1

Luther dangles Dolores out the window by her neck. Logical, yeah. Fucked, also yeah. +1

The level of concern Five has for Dolores. -1

Also, well done creating tension, show. My heart was beating like crazy. -1

The Gigue from Partita No. 2 in D Minor by Bach is one of my favorite pieces.  -1

No one stops playing like that. +1

Allison takes her not-stalking info to Vanya and presents it really accusingly. At this point, Vanya is sick of your shit, Allison. +1

“You’re trying to dig up dirt on a guy that I like, who does that?” Everyone with an internet connection does this for the people they care about. What Allison did was hella extra though. +1

Vanya is getting more assertive. -1

Vanya is a dick to Allison. +1

“They’re a real frickin’ mess”. Understatement of the century. +1

Cha Cha wouldn’t know about the moon mission because Vanya’s book came out before it. Also, Vanya wouldn’t know that Five could time travel. +1

Diego you haven’t slept at all, as soon as you drop you’re gonna sleep like a baby. +1

The motel clerk doesn’t notice Cha Cha’s pistol, which was directly in his line of sight. +1

Diego doesn’t notice Klaus’s footsteps. +1

“Yeah but you also told me that licking a nine-volt battery would give me pubes” “We were eight”. Sibling culture. -1

Klaus saves Diego from gunfire the best he can. Even though Diego still gets shot, sin off for Klaus’s heroics. -1

“Was this all part of your master plan” “Shut up”. Sibling culture. -1

Audition panels are always dicks. +1

If you start an audition the way Vanya just did with the shaky bow contact, you’re fucked. +1

Imogen is a great violinist. Ellen Page is not. It’s really easy to see when they switch out. +1

Allison goes to Leonard’s place with no backup. Come on, even Diego has backup! +1

Allison doesn’t tell Five and Diego about how she got into Leonard’s house when they were breaking in again later. The window would have been much better than breaking the door. +1

Vanya’s powers are distorting her music. It sounds like her intonation is gone. Yet the conductor looks impressed. +1

Allison almost finds Helen Cho’s body. +1

The camera cuts to the attic entrance to show that it will be significant later on. -1

The Hargreeves car has HERMES on its licence plate. A.) nice comics reference. B.) Hermes is the God of Travelers. C.) Of course Reggie has a vanity licence plate. -3

Five and Luther connecting over their forced isolation. -1

Also, Aidan Gallagher and Tom Hopper play off each other really well. -1

“I’ve lived a long life, but you’re still a young man. You got your whole life ahead of you. Don’t waste it.” Luther’s face amuses me. -1

Five threatening while Hazel and Cha Cha doesn’t look ridiculous. I genuinely belive it. Props to Aidan Gallagher. -1

Five and Luther look so confused by Klaus and Diego arriving in an ice cream truck. This is such an underrated scene. -3

Ride of the Valkyries -1

Klaus’s little wave. -1

“Whee” I love Ben. -2

I want to know how they shot this. The behind the scenes after the Handler showed up and stopped time must have been strange to look at. -1

Luther protects Five with his whole body without question. -1

Five puts his hands in his pockets but then they’re behind his back in the next shot with no motion to explain it. +1

The Handler is a creep. She’s into Five. +5

Where and When did Five get that pistol? +1

So many memes come from this scene. -2

Five doesn’t have his finger anywhere near the trigger in some shots, but in others it’s two seconds from shooting the Handler. What’s up with that? +1

The Handler is so, so creepy. The hand caressing Five’s cheek? Eww. That all but confirms that she wants to be his Mrs. Robinson. +5

Kate Walsh plays an excellent villain. -1

Five made a deal with the devil because it was his only option. -1

[Gerard Way and Ray Toro’s “Happy Together” playing.] -1

Cha Cha was planning to abandon Hazel. Otherwise why else would she open the briefcase? +1

Ben gets shotgun. -1

Klaus finally gets to flip off Hazel and Cha Cha. -3

“SHIIT” Cha Cha, you got played. I love my smart boys. -5

Vanya did well at her audition! I’m proud of her! -1

Leonard knows the exact words Reggie would have used to describe Vanya’s powers. And he uses them here. +1

“I got first chair!” Congratulations, Vanya! -2

“No one’s ever believed in me like this.” Fuck you, Reggie. +1

Having sex with Leonard/Harold desereves a couple sins. +2

Helen Cho and Reggie’s book reveal. Leonard is a creep confirmed. +2

Dr. Pogo? More like Dr. Complicit in Reggie’s Bullshit. +1

Overall Review: 

In case you couldn’t tell, this is one of my favorite episodes. Finally, all of our characters are invested in the apocalypse plot, even indirectly. Vanya’s powers emerge, the Handler and the Commission enter the chat, and Leonard is revealed to be a murderer and to have Reggie’s diary. Things are really heating up in this episode. 

I had a really hard time finding anything wrong that wasn’t character flaw is character flaw and villain character is a villain. This is a fun episode. If I wanted to show someone an episode of The Umbrella Academy to get them hooked onto the show, I would show them this episode. It moves at a perfect pace and has enough mystery to keep everyone on their toes. When I first watched this episode, I decided to stay up all night and binge the rest of them. Before I was watching one every couple of days. Episode five is what really hooked me. Props to everyone that worked on it!  

I want to give a special shout out to Sean Sullivan. He did really well playing Five! I hope we see him in season 2 for that one scene. If you’ve read the comics then you know the one. 

Sins: 4

Sentence: Watching Klaus’s breakdown after Vietnam was more than punishment enough.

[mournfulpursuit]

Safety blanket chapter 5: Something in common

Leon s Kennedy X F!reader

Word count: 2,788

Author notes: this took way longer to write than I thought it would but yeah I did it, it’s here.

Also bolded and italic things are inner thoughts just to clarify.

You stared at the syringe for what felt like an eternity. Many said that Umbrella itself was just a front and they actually made bioweapons to sell to the military, you remember hearing about after the arklay mountains incident. You had found a radio when you were wandering around that had mentioned many things about Umbrella and that they may be responsible for whatever was happening in Racoon city.

Many still didn’t really know what was happening inside Raccoon city. Your hands began to tremble as the syringe shook in your hand. You looked at it more closely looking for clues on what it was. All it had was the umbrella logo and had a green circle on it with the letter v under it. You had no clue what this was or what it could do. If it was a blessing or a curse you had no way of telling, you just had to hope for the best. Your thoughts were interrupted by what sounded like footsteps in which you stuffed the syringe back into your pockets. You didn’t know if it was Leon or not so you kept your guard up.

“(Y/N), I found some supplies that could help-”, he cut himself after he noticed you’d been crying, “hey are you ok?”, he asked you

“Oh yeah I’m uhh fine, I was just thinking about things”, you said looking down sadly

“Was it about Maria?”, he looked at you still with immense guilt.

“Oh no it was about what happened on the day...the day raccoon city became this hellhole”

“Oh”, he said sadly, “well I found you some herbs”, he smiled at you. He then walked towards you and bent down on his knee and gently grabbed your foot.

“This may hurt a little bit because i’m probably going to have to touch the bruise, he said nervously, “if it hurts to much just tell me”

“It can’t hurt as bad as it already”, you said smiling at him, “besides I’m a pretty tough cookie”

Leon nodded and grabbed out some bandages before grabbing the herbs and grinding them up and placing them on some of the bandages. You quickly realized what Leon was doing.

“You're making it into a poultice aren’t you?”

“Huh?” He looked up at you confused, “yeah I learned it in first aid training at the academy”

“Oh um my mom.. before she met my dad used to be a nurse, after my parents got married they moved away into the country where they took up that lifestyle”, you said reminiscing about your parents, “they were to far away from any hospital so my mom just helped my dad with farm life, she did know some herbal remedies though”

“So I take it you're not from this neck of the woods huh?”he said, starting to wrap the bandages around your ankle.

“Nope I grew up in a county not really that far from here, I just moved here about 2 months ago before all this happened, I had recently gotten hired as a phone operator”

“A phone operator?”, Leon looked at you as if he were about to laugh

“Oh haha it’s not like I wanted the job, I wanted to be a nurse kinda like my mom, help people or something like that, I guess”

“I guess I can relate, I joined the force to protect and serve, I guess that might never happen”

“Hey, if we ever get out of here i’m sure you can work for another department”, you said smiling at him, “besides I think you're a pretty good co-”, You didn't finish your sentence because of the stinging sensation and pressure on your ankle causing you to grimace making your head reel back while you shut your eyes.

“Sorry”, Leon flinched by your reaction

“It's fine”, you gritted through your teeth, “itll feel better when you're finished”, you said, staring at him urging him to continue wrapping up your ankle. He continued to grimace and your leg strained trying to not kick Leon in the face. Your fingers dug into your legs and teeth still gritting.

“That should be good”, he said making sure you were ok

“Great”, you huffed out still recovering from the the strange burning sensation you had just felt, “I don't think it was supposed to hurt like that”

“Well did add some first aid spray to it”, Leon said rubbing his neck embarrassed, “are you ok?”

“Yeah I should be fine now, thanks”, you said getting up expecting your ankle to hurt way more than it actually did, “Huh that did work, thank you Mr Kennedy”, you smiled at him teasing him

“Well all in a day's work I guess”, He said laughing, he quickly looked back to the statue in the middle of the station. “Guess it's back to work”.

“Hmmm,”, you looked at him confused at what he meant.

“Oh umm before you got here, I was looking for these medallions for that statue over there”, he said point at it, “there’s apparently a secret way out if we find all three, I’ve found two we just need one more”

“I can help”, you said walking towards the statue, “it might be easier if there’s two of us”

“I don’t know, your ankle still is Hurt, I don’t wanna push you past your limits”

“Well I’m bored as hell and want something to do”, you pouted at him, “please let me help”

He hesitated for a moment before looking back at you, “fine you can come along but if I see you grimace even for a second I’m being you back, got it?”

“Yes sir”, you replied smiling at him, as you two prepared to go find the last medallion.

Leon handed you the shotgun again and scolded you not to waste too much ammo. The moonlight only added to the eerie atmosphere of the station. The sound of thunder caused you to jump and fall into Leon.

“Sorry”, you yelp out, “just got spooked by the thunder”, you said laughing embarrassed. Leon just rolled his eyes. You two continued exploring, searching for the last medallion. Leon stopped causing you to run into him.

“Leon what-”, he then shushed you, putting a finger to your lips. Everything was still for a moment until you heard a groan. Leon pulled out his gun and quickly fired. The zombie went down. Your face dropped as it reminded you of Maria but quickly snapped out of your thoughts and kept going. You were walking down a long hallway when you suddenly heard a helicopter crash.

“What the hell was that?”, you asked sheepishly towards Leon.

“I don’t know, wait here”, Leon went to check and quickly signaled you that it was safe. You walked over and saw the helicopter. You noticed the few sparks flying from it. You then noticed a pilot slumped over, your face grimaced due to his demise. You two were then startled by a woman's scream.

“Leon!”, Leon looked over towards a door that led outside, and quickly opened it, “Claire!, hold on I’ll be right there”

He quickly ran outside while you still stood in the hallway very confused and dumbfounded. you to go outside to find Leon talking to a woman.

“Claire, it’s so nice to see you”

“How’re you doing?, that helicopter just came out of nowhere”, you slowly walked down to see them and warn Leon as you saw the helicopter light on fire.

“Yeah i’m in one piece”

“i’m guessing you don't have a key in one of those fancy pockets?”, you interrupted their conversation by pretending to clear your throat, tapping your foot anxiously.

“Oh umm hi”, you said to the woman awkwardly with an even more awkward wave.

“So this uh (Y/N )'', Leon said to her, “I kind of saved her'', he said rubbing his neck embarrassed.

“I’m Claire, Claire Redfield”, she said to you with a smile

“(Y/N) (L/N), nice to meet you”, your conversation with her was interrupted by Leon.

“So how are you doing?”

“Oh you know just surviving”, Claire said leaning on the fence

“That's good”, Leon chuckled out,there was something about Claire that made Leon act a little differently, “any luck with your brother?”

“No not yet”, she said looking down at the ground

“Claire don’t lose hope..i’m sure we’ll find him”, as he said that the helicopter exploded causing you to tense up.

“Dammit. You know what that means”, he said towards Claire

“Yeah.. Dinner. Time.”, Claire said looking behind her noticing a zombie getting up.

“Claire, I think you should go”, Leon said to her as you just stood there feeling very out of place.

“Don’t worry about me Leon, take care of yourself”, soon zombies were swarming the gates by Claire.

“You need to go, now!”Claire began to walk away and quickly turned around back towards you and Leon.

“Hey...Lets get through this”, She said to Leon then turned her eyes towards you, “All of us”, she then walked away from the gate and soon disappeared leaving just you and Leon.

“So uhh who was that, well I guess I should say how do you know her”, you asked him

“I’ll tell you later we should go”, he said leaving the gate and going back into the station, “come on” he said motioning you to come back inside.

You didn't know what it was the way he spoke to Claire but it made you feel something, you couldn’t describe it but the way he said those words made it feel like he cared about her, he hoped he felt the same way about you.

“(Y/N)!”, he shouted out you getting your attention, quickly tearing you away from your thoughts and quickly running back the stairs, he looked down at your ankle, “hey be easy its not fully healed yet”

“Yeah, yeah I know”, you said rolling your eyes heading back inside, “so where's that madallion you were talking about?”

“Well we still have to find it”,he said turning towards you, “it should be around here somewhere, we’ll just have to look for it”, he sighed out.

You two continued walking around the station looking for the medallion, Leon did explain a few things to you when he knew the area wasn't zombie infested. Most of the time it wasnt. Apparently he met Claire when he was heading to Raccoon City and needed to fuel up his car. After seeing a sheriff get killed he fought his way out as he described it and then met Claire. They drove into town together before getting seperated. That was the abridged version he gave you. You finally got to a room that had the medallion but it took you two a while to figure out a way to get out. Leon told you to stay back a few paces. Before throwing a grenade allowing you to finally get it. While you didn't mind the station you knew you couldn't stay here for long so a tiny part of you was excited.

“We just gotta put all three in the statue then we are out of here”, Leon said excitedly, “We just gotta figure out how we're going to get Marvin out of here”, your blood went cold when he said that. Leon said he was attacked by someone he considered a friend that had turned. Maybe Leon was a little too hopeful about this, you knew deep inside Marvin wasn't going to make it.

“Leon, h-”,you tried speaking words but you couldn't, your heart wouldn't let you tell Leon the truth.

“Huh”, he looked back at you confused. Your heart was pumping hard and fast, you hoped he didn't hear you now what, what could you possibly say now.

“I’m just excited to finally get out of here”, you said to him with a shaky smile on your face. He could tell you were hiding something.

“Is something on your mind?”, he turned around and fully looked into your (E/C) eyes, his pretty blue eyes staring into your soul. Your heartbeat once again quickend causing you to sweat nervously. You never were a good liar. You thought of something that had been bugging you for a while.

“It's just my parents”, you said looking down at the ground, “I hope they're safe, and know I'm safe”, you put your hand over your heart and smiled softly thinking about them.

“Have you been able to contact them at all?”, he asked you sadly, you could tell Leon cared about your well being which made you happy.

“No and i’m kind of glad I haven't”, you said looking up at him, “knowing them they would drive all the way down here to find me and the last thing I want is for them to get stuck in this mess”

“I’m sure they're fine, I knew nothing that had happened in this city til I got here”, his words made you feel a little better about everything, “let's go see how Marvin is doing”, he said smiling at you. Something about that smile made you feel safe.

You went back to the reception area and headed towards the statue. You noticed Marvin laying there looking very lifeless.

Please not yet

Leon placed the medallions into the statue and watched as it turned into a staircase, you were mesmerized by it. You looked over to Leon who looked very excited as he pushed the door open, he quickly turned back to Marvin. Your face dropped slightly.

“Lutennent Branagh! Marvin!”, he said walking towards him, Marvin still wasn’t moving

Leon please don’t

You reached for the shotgun Leon gave you , not pulling out but to be able to grab it if necessary.

“It’s time to go”, Leon was closer to him now he reached for him, “Hey Marvin”

Marvin immediately jumped up and growled causing you to flinch, Leon seemed unfazed. Marvin hasn't turned..yet. You put your back towards your side, no longer reaching for the shotgun. It hurt knowing he wasn’t going to make it. Marvin breathed heavily for a few moments.

“We need to get you to a hospital right now ,both you and (Y/N)”, Marvin looked up and saw your eyes realizing you knew what he was going to say, you simply nodded at him

“No..no..I”, he stopped for a second, “Save yourselves”, he said standing up. Leon still tried to get Marvin to come with him.

“Come on, I’ve got you-” he cut off by Marvin

“GO!”, he yelled at Leon, you just stood there staring at the two of them.

“Look we can still make it out of here, if you give me-”, Leon was cut off and taken by surprise as Marvin pulled out his gun.

“It’s too late”, Marvin said with a sadness in his voice . You placed a hand on Leons shoulder causing him to jump as you startled him a little

“Leon we have to go”, you told him, looking him in the eyes, you pointed towards the secret exit, “come on”, he looked back towards Marvin.

“I tried Leon..but I couldn't stop it”, His voice was shaking slightly, “We can’t let this thing spread, it's on you now, both of you”, he said looking back at you, your eyes became wet as your vision blurred slightly from the tears forming in your eyes. You probably would have sobbed but you had been through enough that it didn’t faze you. You were used to death and getting left behind, you were numb to it now.

“Listen to (Y/N), and just go!”, Leon finally gave in.

“I understand”, he said defeatedly, he stood for a moment before heading towards the statue. Marvin removed his bloody hand from his wound.

“I’m sorry”, you whispered to him, “I wish I could of helped you”

He looked up at you and gave a sad smile, “just promise me you’ll look out for each other”

“We will, I promise”, you smiled at him one last time before joining Leon by the statue. The statue closed back up and you saw Leon Look back towards Marvin before the statue completely shut. You just stared forward.

“I won’t let you down, Marvin”, Leon said to himself before continuing down the stairs.

“I guess we have a lot in common now”, you tried to joke but you could definitely tell Leon wasn’t up for your sense of humor right now. So you sulked down awkwardly realizing how much it hurt Leon to leave Marvin behind. It’s a tough lesson that always came back to haunt you, Not everyone can be saved.

[kennedyldoran-blog]

     hey all ! it’s andy back for more. here’s a little lot (yall this is long af just read the tldr thing and the extra shit) about this dumb muse under the cut. also trigger warnings for suicide & death:

          When Delia Williams and Beatrice Doran met, it was love at first sight – well almost. The two young women had so much in common that their love stemmed from every aspect of their personalities and interests. It did not take the two long to start dating each other and after a year of dating, with their parent’s permission, the two of them got married at the young age of twenty-three years old. Although some would have said that they should have waited to get married, they knew it would work out in the end. The two women decided that they wanted to explore the world and wait to settle down when they finished travelling. With the little money that they had saved up, Delia and Beatrice went off to visit places all over the world. They left no stone unturned, going to as many places as they could go to on their budget. Delia and Beatrice were as happy as they could be. After six years of travelling, Delia’s father became ill and the two decided to retreat to Oxford where the Williams family lived. Only six months after arriving in Oxford, Delia’s father passed away, leaving the young couple alone in a drafty old mansion and a lot of money.

          At first, the two did not know what to do with the small fortune they had inherited, but after deciding that they wanted to stay in Oxford, Delia and Beatrice made the decision to have a child. For Delia, children were always a want on the back of her mind. When she and Beatrice first met, the one thing they could never agree on were children. Beatrice had always grown up thinking that she would never have children, and with her mother being absent most of her childhood, Beatrice did not want to raise a child in the same manner she had been raised; that was until she met Delia. However, Delia’s family, despite being wealthy, had always been close and therefore when the prospect of a child came up, Delia’s family gladly gave her the money to have a child. The two decided that they would find an anonymous donor and Delia would carry their first child. Nine months later, Kennedy Loren Doran was born. He was named after both his grandfathers. Although his mothers had enough money to spoil him, Kennedy grew up with only the bare minimum of things in his life. His parents wanted him to realize that material possessions were not as important as the people around him.

          Kennedy’s younger years were filled with happiness, although it did not last long. Soon after his fifth birthday, he came home from playing with his neighbor, to find that Delia had collapsed on the floor of their library. The small family rushed her to the hospital, only to find out that she was deathly ill and probably would not survive through the winter. Beatrice broke down, but Kennedy had no idea exactly what death meant. Delia was moved back to the family’s house, hoping that might make her final days a bit more comfortable. Of course, Kennedy had no idea just what was happening. He would check on her every night, bringing Delia small trinkets he found outside. Kennedy was at his mother’s side when she finally passed away, his mother slipped into unconsciousness and never woke again. A few days later, Delia Williams Doran was buried beside her parents. Kennedy, too young to understand what exactly death meant, did understand that he would never see her again.

          The death of his mother made Kennedy more of an outcast among the people in his small neighborhood. The neighborhood children did not understand how harsh their words were, but even so, Kennedy kept a bright smile on his face through it all. There was nothing a smile could not fix in his humble opinion. The next few years were difficult on the Doran family. Beatrice slipped into a depressive state – she could hardly get out of bed anymore, not even her son was able to pull her out of the sadness she felt. Beatrice started to feel bitter towards the boy as well. It was not as if Delia’s death was his fault, but he was alive and she was not. Kennedy reminded of her in almost every way – it was difficult for her to deal with that. However, the young boy kept a smile on his face at every second, choosing to ignore the chirps of the people around him, no matter how cruel they were.

          When Kennedy turned eight, Beatrice could not stand the pain of being alone anymore and tried to take her own life. Hospitalized until she could get better, Beatrice’s brother, Patrick, moved in to care for Kennedy. Uncle Patty was an eccentric man that did not care what others thought about him. An avid bird watcher, he taught Kennedy about animals and was perhaps one of the first few kind people in the young boy’s life. Beatrice came back when a year later, but was very different. Uncle Patty made the decision to stay with the family just to keep an eye out on his younger sister and her son. Kennedy had seen more tragedy than most people his age, but he turned a blind eye to it all. Through all of his childhood, he had one thing that kept him occupied: books. As long as he had a book in his hand he was happy. Few would look at Kennedy’s life and see happiness, however, he himself had no care for all the tragedy in his life. He not only looked at the positive in his life, but with books and his best friend, he felt he had everything he needed in his life. 

PERSONALITY.

          People call Kennedy a walking travesty because for some reason luck never seems to be on his side. He is oblivious to people’s negativity, always seeing the best in any situation. His positive attitude can be a bit jarring to someone who has not spent time with him. Kennedy can twist even the most negative experience into something positive, and often does. He is quite bookish and spends a lot of time in the library doing his school work, but that does not mean that he does not have his own fun. He is a social creature by nature, loving to be around others, even if he does not need words to communicate with someone – merely being in the presence of another is often good enough for him. When not found in the library, procrastinating doing an essay, he can be found bird watching outside – or lazily studying the owls in the Owlery, depending on the weather. Picking up the habit from his uncle, Kennedy finds great fascination in birds and flying creatures, though he himself has no interest in flying. Despite growing up rich, Kennedy comes off as frugal to most of his peers. He finds spending lots of money on useless items a bad way to spend money and only buys the minimumal amount of things he needs. Kennedy likes his house, but sometimes finds himself an outcast among his Ravenclaw peers. One of Kennedy’s biggest flaws is his inability to pick up on social cues. He never seems to pick up on if someone does not want to talk to him, by their responses or body language. Once he sets his mind to something, it is very difficult for him to change his mind, which is another huge flaw of his. Although, he will not take on challenges from others if he feels he will be unsuccessful at them. Kennedy has to make up his own mind, rather than being challenged by another person.

let’s be real tldr; 

- he’s a fucking loser that likes birds - he has a dead mother and a mentally ill mum - he’s s o f t af and will cry if you’re mean to him - if birds were people, he’d marry them - he has a nasty case of vertigo and can’t fly on a broom because of that / his hand eye coordination is shit - so feel free to literally throw shit at him b/c it’ll hit him  - he’s socially awkward af - is actually a trash person 

BASIC INFORMATION

♚┋FULL NAME: kennedy loren doran ♚┋OCCUPATION: student ♚┋AGE: seventeen ♚┋DATE OF BIRTH: 25 deccember  ♚┋GENDER: cis male ♚┋PRONOUNS: he/him ♚┋ORIENTATION: homosexual homoromantic  ♚┋NATIONALITY: irish ♚┋RELIGION: agnostic

PHYSICAL APPEARANCE

♚┋FACE CLAIM: tyler young ♚┋DOMINANT HAND: right ♚┋HEIGHT: 5′ 5″ ♚┋TATTOOS: N/A ♚┋SCARS: no noticable ones ♚┋PIERCINGS: none

BACKGROUND INFORMATION

♚┋HOMETOWN: oxford, england ♚┋CURRENT: hogwarts ♚┋LANGUAGE(S): english ♚┋SOCIAL CLASS: upper class ♚┋SUBJECT(S): care of magical creatures -- one day he will own a pheonix ♚┋PARENT #1: delia doran ( birth mother ) ♚┋PARENT #2: beatrice doran ( mum ) ♚┋PARENT #3: patrick doran ( uncle ) ♚┋PARENT #4: ??? ( biological father ) --- who the fuck is that ?  ♚┋SIBLING(S): none ♚┋RELATIONSHIP STATUS: single ♚┋CHILDREN: none ♚┋PET(S): pet owl named corriane

VICES / HABITS

♚┋SMOKES? no ♚┋DRINKS? no ♚┋DOES DRUGS? no ♚┋HAS AN ADDICTION? if birds count as an addiction, yes no ♚┋IS SELF-DESTRUCTIVE? yes

MISCELLANEOUS INFORMATION

♚┋HOUSE: ravenclaw ♚┋VICE: sloth ♚┋VIRTUE: kindness ♚┋ELEMENT: air