#heidi talks

[heidiamalia]

ive never once honest to god in my life sat through a full ep of chicken shop date beyond a series of clips and yet here I am blushing and giggling through Andrew Garfield's long-awaited.

l i s t e n

[hcvlach]

When Klingons are doing meal prep and they finally finish pressing air out of all the resealable plastic bags, do they triumphantly yell, "Zi'ploc!"?

[hcvlach]

This is true, "show don't tell" is not a magic piece of universally correct writing advice. Yeah geez definitely don't give an in-depth description of a briefly glimpsed NPC just because one (1) beta reader couldn't imagine what "sleepy-eyed" would look like! Showing/telling affects the balance and pacing of a piece, as well as the reader's sense of where their attention is lingering.

I've found (when showing mainstream fantasy readers my human-free furry writing that ignores "talking animal" marketing norms) that "show, don't tell" sometimes means "I'm personally confused by this piece: explain the ENTIRE scenario to me more". Which again, doesn't necessarily mean that the writer should change the story to accommodate that specific confused reader. But it's sometimes useful in figuring out who this story's audience actually is.

hi it's me. "telling" in writing is sometimes fine. if you think a scene is better served by summarizing a character's reaction in plain, direct language, that's a thing you're allowed to do. you could consider elaborating from that direct language and using that to "show".

but like "show, don't tell" is absolutely not always the case unless you really want to buff out your word count. i had a writer early on quote "show, don't tell" to me when i showed her a scene that included what was essentially a set-piece character i described as a "sleepy-eyed dancer". she wanted me to spend time describing this character's exhaustion instead of just directly saying it. This dancer - who is referenced once in the initial description of a setting and never, ever shows up again.

that was probably the day i learned that you can hear writing advice and respond politely but quietly think "mm no". you can also do this.

(feel free to fight me in the comments but know that i despise catchy and generalized writing advice like this and the way it can hinder new writers when stated with no room for exploration. and i will die on this hill. i am not normal about this)

[lolliepops-rox]

South Park Kin Assignment Quiz

It's finally done After like a year of work and creating a spreadsheet w/ formulas, I have made my perfectly balanced South Park kin assignment UQuiz no prier knowledge of South Park is required, so i encourage everyone to do it, especially my mutuals and tell me what u got <3

[soupy-girl]

NOOOOO

[miss-conjayniality]

it’s diabolical to me that they killed off thanos and semi too early but not the stupid shaman or player 100.

[keroa]

I got my first tattoo today! My dog Heidi meant the world to me, being in our family from when I was 12 until I was nearly 29. She was 16 years and 8 months when she passed away, and today (Dec 17) would have been her golden birthday.

Now I have her near my heart for the rest of my life, and I couldn't be happier to devote my first tattoo to her 🧡

[tio-trile]

Sammy's fence at her ranch was painted in the pansexual flag's colors, was that intentional? If so, then does that confirm anything? And by "anything" I mean, does that confirm her sexuality?

Unfortunately I don't believe it was intentionally meant to be the pansexual flag -- so I asked Heidi, who said that it might be her jacket color scheme instead, as you can also see the colors switched around on the top of her gate (image credit @ i_samuelart )

Re: Sammy's canon sexuality, Heidi also answered it in this ask here. Basically, her canon sexuality is never revealed, and you can headcanon whatever you want!

[mrfartpowered]

both weinerman siblings are trans imo

u are SO RIGHT and u should elaborate omg

👂👁️👁️👂

[unproduciblesmackdown]

revisited some parts of deh i hadn't in a while via obc boots, mostly kicked off by audio of an aus tour show, & it's like now hang on lol reevaluating the whole of heidi's material / that arc like i have been too generous what in the....kind of worked backwards from good for you b/c for that song i've Been like sympathetic re: alana & jared's sections while like Shrug at heidi like i'm on evan's side there really. but the whole thing is like, sympathy for heidi's feelings aside, i'm on evan's side b/c like yeah heidi has feelings & insecurities too but it's not the same peer to peer like fellow unpopular couple of students as parent to child & i'm looking at it all like The Whole Thread is heidi's insecurities as A Mother & the demand is on evan all the time to not just Not cause her insecurity but also assuage ones that have nothing to do with him, e.g. what's he supposed to say about digs at his dad's wife

& like really going over that First Scene i.e. opening scene post evan's soliloquy i.e. anybody have a map it's like. sure only increasingly like Oh Boy when evan not being able to order pizza despite the online option is met with the "you Need to be able to order dinner for yourself" ft. that he should be "too old for this" (disability....grow up) (not a direct quote but rather yknow the "you're a senior in high school, evan" intro) & nothing about like, support or alternatives, certainly nothing about it being Okay that he couldn't. just that he Has to do this thing this way (why. or else what.) & also just the simple fact that evan has been honest about "something wrong with him" / something he did that he figures she wouldn't like & gotten this wholly negative response about that just being Unacceptable to hear, regardless of the "positive" pivot like you can do it re: school, just must not be Trying enough, just must be evan's own attitude or something else about him, the letters had better help....& all this revisiting inspired by beau woodbridge evan's delivery after heidi says the line about Her Not Wanting To Hear (framed about Her Feelings if evan were to Tell her about this) about evan having no friends, & like the delivery of "neither do i??" like a sort of nonplussed indignation that is a kind of "how do you think *i* feel about it??" like no yeah what about evan's feelings about him dealing with his problems here, the one not having dinner, not having friends, not Not having anxiety, etc. like obviously heidi like every person ever has feelings & problems too but it's that the parent's problems are supposed to be Made Up For by the child somehow, while evan's problems are framed as Being A Problem for his mom, how she feels about Knowing about it, try harder please okay evan....but cue, yknow, how she resents evan feeling any responsibility for Her Problems in gfy yknow not insofar as she's been embarrassed to tell him like "yeah money is a problem" when it's been about pushing him to get scholarships but rather when the murphys know (maybe just via evan implying they're Not Rich to zoe after zoe is like ah, to be poor....) that heidi will need Financial Support for college for evan & then heidi like i'm not That poor & to take money would be wrong (always the reminder heidi does not know everything re: evan & connor isn't true either)

which, that last part of her dinner at the murphys pre gfy was really this time hitting like ://// whew okay. all of it always grating lmao but like, "i don't want evan to get the idea etc" like ma'am he's sitting right here? he's seventeen? can't just Declare the ideas evan will or won't absorb even though like yeah also clearly it's about her pride as A Good Mom being wounded & just putting it on evan by expressing it that way like no i have to be A Good Mom via my example, is why i must decline....& like i'm sure it can all be softened depending on how heidi is played but still like, this is about her Full Story / Material, & just what is written lol like even if she was more [pensive emoji single tear] in delivery or something, vs watching the obc like full anger & contempt by this point & i'm like yeah this Shouldn't be familiar if the excuse of like "well heidi is messing up in this Special Occasion, an outlier" really went that far. or was actually out of line w/how she acts other times. or how this all resolves. but heidi storming out While lashing out at evan / blaming him like my god lmfaooo & like. speaking of "do you think the murphy parents did read between the lines & think evan & connor are secret gay high school lovers" like gee evan having no problem moving in to the murphy household, keeping secrets from his mom like his ostensible epic friendship w/connor, not talking aobut her or really trying on his own to involve her, being fairly alarmed when Surprise Dinner With Your Mom, heidi acting like That??? like "do you think the murphy parents read between the lines to think evan is abused by his parent" i mean like lol lmfaooo on both points like heternormativity? the normativity of abuse & parents Owning their child as well? in the murphy household? but you know. of course no deh is not supposed to be about that but i'm like, uh oh, whole time i was like "well my own perspective based on what i learned from personal experience & then learned About such experiences isn't that relevant at least to heidi b/c it's supposed to be that she's Not Like That at the end of the day" but i'm like is it in effect though lol, is it really that different In Essence if not also like "yep the way heidi acts is just directly familiar sometimes. maybe often. or always" difference in degree like. plus just that how often is whatever particular lens/perspective like Useless to apply

anyway & that fight in the leadup to gfy is wild & just like further illuminating re: how the whole time, from the first scene, it's like okay to heidi what's most important in her motivations is Her Insecurity about how anything about evan supposedly reflects on her being a mom, like. again that heidi has no idea everything about evan & connor isn't true & she's just going sicko mode at evan b/c the murphys Aren't His Family, yknow, She is, & that entitlement that's supposed to come with it, evan can't have these other adults acting Parently towards him re: money & housing & dinners & feeling fond of him or anything, all circumventing her status as His Mother....the whole "sorry i can't give you more than that, shit" "well it's not my fault other people can" like yeah sorry about your feelings heidi, yeah it's not "nice" of evan to say that but i'm not like yes evan must never even think things that aren't nice(tm) much less say them, that again like even if we sympathize w/heidi there b/c obviously yeah she'd be hurt & feel insecure. even if we suppose that was mean of evan. i'm like well yeah he's right. just setting aside the apparent universal desire for a life as closely approximating the brady bunch as possible, it's like hey yeah look evan's been getting dinners this way, re: him not ordering a pizza at the start of a show. turning out to be less important like "well at least you've been eating, good" than evan not doing so through the Proper efforts to Become Normal(tm) & of course that like. coming from another mom staying home making him food is unacceptable b/c she imagines this is supplanting her / making her the Bad Mom vs this Good Mom & then taking it out on evan to make her feel Good Enough(tm) like truly just the usual fallback refrain of "ohh sorry i'm not perfect / have feelings / have problems" which is true for everyone ever but yknow evan is the one having to Defend his feelings & problems & imperfections against the fallout of "failing" to be "responsible" for mitigating or fulfilling heidi's & she's the one who can break out "i'm your mother" whereas evan's less overtly declared "i'm your son" about her potentially failing Him is what gets met with more contempt & "ohh sorry i'm not perfect & have feelings & problems" & her starting off Good For You. great

& like the way All That illustrates, like the way evan getting dinner now through a different now available avenue is, to heidi, more about her own feelings than about [evan gets dinner now], like just that expanded to how it's not Okay that evan's problems seem to be getting better / he's getting more support / he's doing better or anything as soon as heidi becomes insecure about her not having the role she wants in it. the entire thread about her being bothered about evan not telling her things, lying about things, hiding things, like yeah evident that she Is worried about him but same as she's evidently worried about him in the first scene, when, again, we Did see him share something honestly with her & she was like "UGH evan jeez i Hate that you told me this" & then her input is to tell him to Get Good, yknow, must be his own failures, get on that. gosh why would he keep anything from her. & then yknow we have that line later on, evan like you don't know me & heidi like "i thought i did" (contempt again) & like the main issue of this not being like "oh no if i Don't know him or about his problems then i'm not supporting him like i thought i was / he's not getting the support Overall i thought he was" but rather like i can't believe evan is doing this to me / her insecurities & evan's "responsibility" for them, again, rather than yknow. evan's wellbeing regardless of her personal feelings? & we're ready for resolution after heidi inadvertently reads his diary to realize he was that sad & it's like. even if he wasn't That Sad like none of that response was okay. at any point lol like it's still the issue of her dynamic with him where evan is In Charge Of how heidi feels & that obviously she can act on this in the ways she can & what can evan do about anything but avoid her / not share things / idk indeed move in with this other family lol, sorry about the pretenses (also obviously like. murphy parents not doing that much better. certainly larry like, are you kidding? never changes his mind that all connor's problems were connor's fault & Failings & now his reaction to it is about facing any insecurity & Rejecting It as no i'm always right & just have to hold out forever. vs that zoe is also bearing the brunt of being Trapped In The Family(tm) but cynthia dares to be like "no, i feel like i failed my dead son" & "no, i don't feel someone 'has to be the bad guy' who tramples boundaries")

like speaking of boundaries. ppl having always pointed out "uh oh, heidi's not good with those" or the point like "in gfy heidi's also mad about the rejection by her ex-husband & just putting that over her fight w/evan" like not beating the [parent making their child the one in charge of them & their feelings & actions] allegations.......

& you know, the resolution like "ohh you were sadder than i knew" like okay Now that matters instead of heidi Just being insecure that he wasn't sharing this with her already, thus the important part being how that makes her feel like a bad mom vs like, how evan is actually doing & her actual role in this beyond what makes her feel best, personally? or that like oh i'm Not going to not be here, physically, in this house....like okay. but what about the actual dynamic you have while around him & you will always be around him, b/c like, has that changed from the start. how is heidi going to offer support re: evan Feeling Like This that's different from "you Need to order pizza and Need to get your cast signed, Just Do It" or that b/c she doesn't want to hear otherwise like well then of course evan won't tell her, or maybe a therapist if that's not confidential, or other people if it'll get back to his mom, or the internet if that'll get back to his mom which i guess it will. is evan gonna be not in charge of her feelings anymore. i'm just like yeah evan find yourself in college sure get outta there idk if you're even rude along the way. & obv shoot larry into the sun

[heidiamalia]

Has anyone considered the 'came back wrong/double bite blowup' could be like, Derek's power.

[hcvlach]

haven't been well lately, but I sure am..... thinking about adding stuff to my site........

[rickybaby]

Daniel talking Chief of Optimism, shoeys and music on the Fitzy and Wippa show

[happyheidi]

Dr Heidi,

A secret, you say?

No one knows me entirely. I hide my political beliefs from this person, religious beliefs from that person, a prominent hobby from that person. These people are all the closest people in my life to me, and I keep something from all of them. Sometimes I tell myself it's to keep the peace. Or keep them from bothering me. But really I think it's because I'm scared. I had to hide myself when I was younger and in some ways I've never stopped. I've been working on it. I've quit lying so much, and I keep fewer secrets. But I do keep them.

How do you face the mortifying ordeal of being known? How do I become brave enough go share my truths with people I claim to love? (That I do love) (But selfishly. They confide their truths to me and I pretend I'm telling them all of mine in return) (how long until one of them discovers a truth? It's been years. My mother has known me my whole life. My best friend, over a decade. Others, several years) (how do I fess up my secrets?)

Damn this is almost like reading an ask from myself. I keep lots to myself. I don’t usually share things either. I keep way too much in, so I’m kinda asking the same thing as you. BUT I see no harm in keeping certain things from others but hmm..

it’s tricky… cus when u share, u bare. and that is scary. you wouldn’t want to be judged by who you actually are, so why allow yourself to be judged at all? I totally understand it. One has to be brave to be seen like that. If that makes sense? So you’re careful as to what u put out there to potentially be “judged” but not the innermost YOU.

You can try with smaller truths. Spread them out with your family and friends and see how they react (don’t go with the politic at first cus that’s the toughest thing and what brings most arguments etc) but small things u share that’s really TRUE to you. Then more and more over time. I think it’s important to keep something to yourself tho! Don’t think this helped so much but it’s good to just get things of ur chest! Hope u start sharing a little bit this year. ❤️

It’s so interesting how so many of these asks are relatable to (I’ve started answering many but ended up saving them to drafts; so sorry if I haven’t answered yours but I relate so damn much to so many of you !!)

[soupy-girl]

what if i sob

[blackbirdtrills]

Do you think Cartman had romantic feelings for Heidi before the ending of The Damned? Do you think it was purely platonic untill that point?

HI! I hope you're having a good day.

I don't think he had romantic feelings for her, I think the egg project is just what got him to see her as a person and not just Random Girl Number 7. A foot in the door kind of moment. It's hard to work together on a project without having any meaningful conversations, so they must have found some common ground during the whole thing. Said common ground making it easier for Eric to suggest that Heidi get an A while he gets an F (which gets them both a C). It's also much more difficult for me to imagine him bartering for Wendy or Bebe to get an A, rather than just laughing at them for failing for once.

(He also just would have indifferently shown one of the other girls that broken egg like "Fix it somehow or we both fail.")

I think the "wow I think I LIKE this girl" only came after she reached out to him when he had nothing and no one believed in him. It also helps that Eric was actively trying to change in season 20 before his snapback at the end too.

Thanks for the ask!!