#heidi answers

[t00pr3ttyf0ry0u]

how do i find a caregiver?

hiiiii!! id suggest asking people you're already close to if they want to be your caregiver. it's safer than posting about wanting one since there are some creeps who invade the agere spaces. if you do decide to make a post to search for one, make sure to be 100% sure that they're a good person and you can trust them!!

[queenofstresss]

Heidi!

I know we haven’t talked a lot but I miss you and I love you 💕😘💕😘

Hey Em!

Yeah I've been just surviving lol.. haven't gotten the energy to be here that much 😵‍💫 but I'm always popping on here from time to time😊✨ miss and love you too💜 thanks for reaching out🥳

How are you?

[heidiamalia]

2 + 17 for the fic ask meme :)

okay so for some reason as tumblr does i guess i just never got notified you sent me something for this AHH

okay here goes -

2/ a fic you’ve re-read several times

oooooh gosh gotta run it back to my og's like an honorable mention because this one was one of those core memories, but beyond this point the series itself is just ash in my mouth.

the fallout by everythursday

Hermione learns about growing up through the redemption of Draco Malfoy.

i was lucky to download it when we still had access to the sacred texts [rip H&V] - but i'm sure ao3's got some orphan account with the numbers out there if ever the interest arose.

313k of war and smut and figuring shit out and it absolutely changed my life.

as a bonus to this question because now i feel bad its not a solid rec -

His Name is Stede - mercess [@spaceshipkat]

Ed never planned to see Stede Bonnet again, but after he learns Stede has been captured and is on his way to a short drop and a sudden stop, Ed declares no one gets to kill Stede but Ed himself. If that doesn't go as planned, well, Stede is far more wily than many give him credit for.

Or perhaps Ed is just a lying liar who lies.

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Ed’s breath caught, like a fist closing around his throat, at the sight of Stede there in the brig, wringing his hands and squinting through the shadows. He looked tired and weak, more like the sickly version of himself Ed had first met after he was cut free of the noose aboard the Spanish ship.

Most unfairly of all, he was still the most beautiful man Ed had ever seen.

if ever at all i can convince a person to witness [or endure, i know who you are, no pressure] this show, this would be the fic to have you be like whoah, okay, maybe. a post-s1 where i gasped when appropriate and shouted when i probably shouldnt have [3am rereads, i mean, yeah.] - reading this one with my heart in my hands gained me a deeply wonderful new friend along with it.

17/ a fic you wish you could read again for the first time

ughhhhh kastle fanfic writers are no fucking J O K E. we knew this.

what is left but a broken man - idekman

He's surprised by the amount of flowers at her grave.

He shouldn't be, really. Although Karen didn't have friends - or at least, not many. Murdock. Nelson. Ellison. And he was her boss before anything else.

He'd thought they'd been friends, too.

I kissed her, he thinks, a little desperately. It had just been on the cheek but he had hesitated, stayed there for a moment with that heat and that floral warmth that somehow radiated from her even in the chill air, and that had meant something. He thought it had. He had thought that, perhaps, she understood – understood that he couldn’t give her everything he wanted to, that he wasn’t ready, but that maybe some day he could be. That if he could ever have an after, he would have –

The thought is too painful to finish.

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Karen Page is dead. Frank goes looking for her anyway.

i went into this one feeling like my heart was gonna be broken the whole fucking time but fuuuuuuck.

being able to walk with frank as we saw him discover karen in georgetown, in fagan corners, in his HEART! oh gosh i remember hitting this link and d e v o u r i n g this deep, sharp claw in to my chest with a grateful feeling.

ask me about the fic rec meme!

[arl1n-e]

Can we pretty please see little Evan in the U-haul truck behind the wheel with Heidi? :3

The little baby :3

[viperbunnies]

Thanks to all of you they got a warm cup 💗

A reply to all of the people who sent me the ask game <3 As special thanks your oc has been turned into... a cup? (Although some did arrive as shrooms)

Special thanks to: @cheerleaderman @natsukishinomiyaswife @beneathsakurashade @fell-e @bibi-cha

@jovieinramshackle @scint1llat3 @ghostiidasponk @oya-oya-okay @ranacr0ak

@nerenda and to the Anon!

Happy holidays!

[tio-trile]

so what scene from s2 (that weve seen in the trailer) are you most excited for us to watch👀

Definitely this scene

And I have to say, the Kenji @ Ben "you knew Brooklynn was alive and you didn't TELL US?!" scene 👀 hehe

[annabelle--cane]

THE DEH MOVIE CUT GOOD FOR YOU??? i didnt watch it but what the actual fuck 😭

yep! "anybody have a map," "to break in a glove," and "good for you" were all axed, along with (I believe) all song reprises, and evan's entire thing about talking to an imaginary version of connor got cut so "disappear" was replaced by a new alana song called "anonymous ones." fucking bizarre decisions all around.

[latgbg]

Are there concepts/designs of the cast's every family member? Can we see them?

Not every family member, but here’s a few bits of concept art from the archives! 📂

[danthropologie]

on to the important question: how has daniel been to or at least invited if apparently not attended three weddings in the last month and a half and NO actual non potato photos. a crime.

no i know, you'd think he's the fucking loch ness monster the way he avoids a camera

[happyheidi]

Dr Heidi,

A secret, you say?

No one knows me entirely. I hide my political beliefs from this person, religious beliefs from that person, a prominent hobby from that person. These people are all the closest people in my life to me, and I keep something from all of them. Sometimes I tell myself it's to keep the peace. Or keep them from bothering me. But really I think it's because I'm scared. I had to hide myself when I was younger and in some ways I've never stopped. I've been working on it. I've quit lying so much, and I keep fewer secrets. But I do keep them.

How do you face the mortifying ordeal of being known? How do I become brave enough go share my truths with people I claim to love? (That I do love) (But selfishly. They confide their truths to me and I pretend I'm telling them all of mine in return) (how long until one of them discovers a truth? It's been years. My mother has known me my whole life. My best friend, over a decade. Others, several years) (how do I fess up my secrets?)

Damn this is almost like reading an ask from myself. I keep lots to myself. I don’t usually share things either. I keep way too much in, so I’m kinda asking the same thing as you. BUT I see no harm in keeping certain things from others but hmm..

it’s tricky… cus when u share, u bare. and that is scary. you wouldn’t want to be judged by who you actually are, so why allow yourself to be judged at all? I totally understand it. One has to be brave to be seen like that. If that makes sense? So you’re careful as to what u put out there to potentially be “judged” but not the innermost YOU.

You can try with smaller truths. Spread them out with your family and friends and see how they react (don’t go with the politic at first cus that’s the toughest thing and what brings most arguments etc) but small things u share that’s really TRUE to you. Then more and more over time. I think it’s important to keep something to yourself tho! Don’t think this helped so much but it’s good to just get things of ur chest! Hope u start sharing a little bit this year. ❤️

It’s so interesting how so many of these asks are relatable to (I’ve started answering many but ended up saving them to drafts; so sorry if I haven’t answered yours but I relate so damn much to so many of you !!)

[milksteakkk]

novel evan is the king of sounding like he is attracted to people. there's jared, connor ("i feel like connor is a man but im just a boy... his nail polish... the smell of cigarette smoke on his coat..."), larry ("his thick broad shoulders filled out every inch of his suit jacket... hes built like a tank..."), even his mom that one time ("i already feel like im on a date with her low cut blouse and tight jeans...") hes just. that way i guess

LMFAO RIGHT he always sounds so down bad. why must he describe everyone he meets like hes kicking his feet and twirling his hair

^ see also: evan talking about miguel. why is he like this

[queenofstresss]

If you’d like… I’d offer my services in regards to your last reblog 🥺💕

How generous of you😏

[heidiamalia]

oooo 10 and 11 for the fic recs??

okay so i had to do a lil digging for these lolol i apologize for the wait

10/ a fic that isn't prose [poetry, text fic, etc]

after a length of time searching i found the script-formatted fic where crowley and aziraphale create a podcast after the not-apocalypse and i mean -

it's great.

it's a new craze by attheborder

CROWLEY: I try not to make a habit of gratitude, but I must give our appreciation to everyone out there who’s been listening and subscribing to The Ineffable Plan.

AZIRAPHALE: Ooh, yes, we’ve become quite popular, haven’t we?

CROWLEY: Yeah, just hit number eight on the advice charts … No advertising at all.

AZIRAPHALE: Mm. How … miraculous.

CROWLEY: … Aziraphale. You did not.

Crowley and Aziraphale are very possibly the people least qualified, on the entire planet, to start up an advice podcast. But what else is there to do when the world isn’t ending anytime soon, you’re technically on indefinite sabbatical from your lifelong careers, and you need a plausible excuse to spend more time with your best friend who you’re definitely not, absolutely not, maybe just a little, actually maybe overwhelmingly in love with?

i do very much enjoy how thoroughly in you get with this one. we're stuck to the sidelines with the rest of the listeners tagged on twitter and whatnot, watching certain spirals come out and the plot thicken. their voices are so real in my head throughout, without any moment of doubt. i think i laughed right from the summary and didn't stop.

11/ a fic that brought you aboard a new ship

now this line isnt exactly fair because the show itself brought me aboard the ship - the gifsets and the pacific rim comparisons and the long metas to being in sync with each other really introduced me. but the first fic i absolutely remember reading for the ot3 was this one -

safe as houses by thecanaryfalls

Parker and Hardison comfort Eliot, in their weird multimillionare-convicted-felons-who-are-planning-a-life-with-him kind of way.

Set right around The Rundown Job.

this is that middle of the night, quiet and soft piece where you can hear how loud someone's shifting on the couch is -

like does that make sense.

the bit of early early dawn where its too soon to speak up before the birds but you still wanna have that sleepover conversation moment where you have to reassure your best friend you're always gonna be there.

this was that. this is where it was so so solid for me.

ask me about the fic rec meme!

[arl1n-e]

How much does Heidi like Connor?

Not at home rn so can't draw with my drawing tablet just yet 😔

[flightlessangelwings]

Dropping Polaroids here and there… 💋

Frankie baby!!!! 🥺🥺🥺🥺 This is so sweet thank you this made my day!!! 💖💖💖💖