#head over boots

[starry-eyed-adam]

panic attack writing prompts :)

“My chest hurts. It hurts.”

“I can’t!”

“It’s okay. You’re safe.”

“Don’t touch me—don’t touch me!”

“Is it okay if I hold your hand?”

tw: gunshots, trauma, panic attack

takes place a year or so after chapter 21 of Head Over Boots, they’re on their camping trip :)

The gunshot seemed to scream through the air, some hunter’s nearby attempt at murder of an animal, the sound rattling against Yuichi’s skull as it penetrated his ears. Faintly, the logs in his arms tumbled and hit the soft forest floor, and Yuichi fell similarly, shaking hands over his ears as he curled up tightly, defensively.

Another shot, and Yuichi yelped as his chest constricted, heart thudding erratically as he felt an icy grip around him.

Boots on the dirt, towards him, barrel of a shotgun between his eyes.

“You’ve ruined everything.”

“Honeybunny?” Leo glanced over his shoulder at the absence of footsteps behind him. The slider dropped his own firewood and hurried back, brow furrowed at the sight of his husband crouched low, shaking on the ground. “Yuichi, hey, what happened?”

Yuichi didn’t answer, barely heard a word. The world bled in and out of focus, his ears still rang, from the day his stallion threw him from the saddle and he lay there to die.

To die.

Cold metal against his jaw. A threat, and not an empty one.

Pump.

Click.

BANG!

Leo’s hand reached to gently rub his lover’s back, an attempt to ground him, bring him back.

“Don’t touch me!” Yuichi shrieked, and the cowboy instantly drew back. “Don’t touch me!”

“Darlin’, hey, you’re safe,” whispered his worried husband, kneeling before him. “I’m right here. It’s okay.”

“M-My chest,” Yuichi gasped, removing one hand from his ears to clutch at the front of his shirt. Tears spilled down his cheeks, left clean streaks against the dust and dirt. “It hurts, it—it hurts.”

He was going to die. He was going to die he was going to die he was going to—

“Honeybunny,” spoke Leo, slow and soothing, “I need you to take a deep breath, okay? It hurts ‘cause you ain’t breathin’ enough.”

Gasping, chest rising and falling so rapidly and shallowly, Yuichi tried to remember how to breathe. Sucking in air too fast, he choked and coughed. “I—I can’t.”

“Yes, you can. Yuichi, honey, nobody’s gonna hurt you. I’m right here, okay? Deep breaths, darlin’. Watch me.” Hesitantly, reluctantly, Yuichi cracked his wild, glistening eyes open, found Leo’s calm blue ones. “Good, good,” whispered the slider with a smile. “Take a deep breath in, through your nose. Slow.” Watching his husband breathe in, so slow and easy, Yuichi closed his mouth to copy him.

“There ya go! Good. Now out through your mouth.” Leo blew out a breath, and, shakily, Yuichi did the same. “Good job, honeybunny. Take another breath in.”

The guided breathing went on for what felt like ages as Yuichi’s chest loosened, and the frigid feeling slipped away, melted into the forest floor with his terror. “There you go,” whispered Leo with a small, proud smile. “Is it okay if I hold your hand, honeybunny?”

Yuichi wiped at his eyes with a sniff and nodded after a moment. The familiar feeling of the rough, calloused palm in his own, the sensation of Leo’s thumb rubbing little circles against the back of his hand, was an instant comfort, and Yuichi closed his eyes to breathe deeply again. “Good job,” praised his husband again, smiling warmly at him. “You wanna tell me what happened, there?”

Swallowing, rubbing at his eye again, Yuichi made a face. “It was, um. It was stupid,” he mumbled. “I heard a gunshot. And I got scared.”

“Mm.” Leo continued to rub his hand, still breathing so slow and calm. “That ain’t stupid. Gunshots are scary. Especially after what Don’s put ya through.” He shifted to sit beside Yuichi, guiding his husband to lean into his side, rest his head on his shoulder. Yuichi closed his eyes with the soothing comfort of Leo’s body, the smell of pine and hay and the cologne that always stayed on his clothes.

“Think you can make it back to camp, honey?” whispered Leo, rubbing his back. Yuichi sniffed again and nodded, moving to stand but wincing at the burning pain that radiated through his knees. Dammit.

“It’s okay, I got ya.” Leo grinned as he wrapped his arm around Yuichi’s waist, lifting him to stand like he weighed nothing. “Wanna grab your firewood? We’ll head back to camp an’ take a nap, okay? Panic attacks are exhaustin’.” He kissed Yuichi’s cheek with a small smile, and the rabbit yokai returned it, lingering for a moment. Yuichi watched with a grin of his own as Leo started back on the trail, going to gather the wood he’d dropped.

Damn, he was lucky to have someone who loved him so much.

prompts below! from @unboundprompts

[neon-yeehaw]

who told him he’s allowed to be that pretty.

[boots-with-the-fur-club]

just poppin’ into your ask box to say happy pride month!

no matter who you are, who you like, or how you express yourself, you always deserve to feel comfortable and safe. this is a month about recognizing how far you’ve come, how much you’ve grown as a person, in relationships and in your own identity. you’re so incredibly brave and stronger than you know.

you’re doing amazing, kiddo.

sincerely, the yeehaw uncles, Leo and Yuichi

(don’t feel pressured to reply; this is just a lil motivational message :))

[starry-eyed-adam]

BEGGING.

Reblog if you write fic and people can inbox you random-ass questions about your stories, itemized number lists be damned.

[nights-flying-fox]

just poppin’ into your ask box to say happy pride month!

no matter who you are, who you like, or how you express yourself, you always deserve to feel comfortable and safe. this is a month about recognizing how far you’ve come, how much you’ve grown as a person, in relationships and in your own identity. you’re so incredibly brave and stronger than you know.

you’re doing amazing, kiddo.

sincerely, the yeehaw uncles, Leo and Yuichi

(don’t feel pressured to reply; this is just a lil motivational message :))

Thank you yeehaw uncles for this nice message!! I'm not part of the community (an ally tho!!) but I'd love people to see this :]

[starry-eyed-adam]

AV Yuitello

[boots-with-the-fur-club]

Challenging you using SERVER CHARACTERS

Claire: “Happiness, love, peace…just seems to follow you wherever you go.. I was jealous. The warmth that you seem to possess, it is enticing. So I took and I took from you hoping to experience even the slightest amount of love that you have but all I did was make it vanish. Like it’s something that only someone like you can experience, not someone…something like me.”

Catarina and Donnie share a glance.

“Claire, it’s just ice cream. You don’t need to worry about it so much. I didn’t want that flavor, that’s why I let you have it. It was just an accident that it fell.” Catarina hugs the girl tightly and purrs reassuringly.

Donnie places a hand on Claire’s shoulder.

“I will buy you whatever ice cream you want, do you understand me? I don’t care if it seems impossible to get. We will get it. You are far more important than any ice cream.”

Claire hides her face in Catarina’s shoulder, slightly embarrassed by the dramatics now but enjoying the heck out of the hug and reassurance.

@catarina-hamato

@starry-eyed-adam

I hope I did the characters’ justice sorry sksksks

[starry-eyed-adam]

COWBOY LEO !!!!!

the most badass western warrior

wait a minute... a cowboy... from the future... involved with military/resistance groups... and one prosthetic arm...?

it all makes sense now.

[breelandwalker]

Listen, I don't know what pearl-clutching queerphobic parent needs to hear this, but seeing as decades of constant exposure to depictions of hetero romances and relationships being touted as "normal" or "default" in media hasn't turned every queer person straight, acknowledging the existence and normality of queer relationships isn't going to turn your straight kid queer.

Indoctrination is the patriarchal Moral Majority's game plan, not ours. You're just pissed off that it's not working. Because that's not how it WORKS.

Sincerely,

An Elder Queer

[applecidersstuff]

My not so close to cannon hc is that, after getting into college, Clarrise gets a car somewhere.

Some people assume she got it from her mom, or that Chris stole it for her, but the truth is she actually got it from Ares. Which means you can pretty much imagine what kind of car that is. It’s also unconfirmed but some of her brothers insist the car is magical in some way. Leo tried many time to convince her to let him see what the cars system is like on the inside, but was turned down in a not very nice way.

Very quickly she becomes the ‘carpool friend’ and also the one Chiron tasked with picking up demigods who go to school in NY at the end of semester and get them to CBH, there’s very few of them so she doesn’t mind, +some of them are mortified at the thought of getting in Clarrises car because of how fast she drives. The fist time Percy and Annabeth asked her for a ride, Percy said he was glad Ares didn’t offer to drive them to Vegas that one time, and Annabeth asked if the car really is magical, because she was convinced they should’ve crashed like ten times.

The only two people who will get in the car willingly and without any reason are Chris and Drew. Clarrise picks Drew up from school on regular basis whenever she comes to NY, and they just drive around. One time Sadie saw Clarrise picking Drew up and was convinced Drew was being kidnapped, the only reason she didn’t call the police was because she was stopped by Annabeth who introduced her to Clarrise.

[neon-yeehaw]

@country-boy-04

[starry-eyed-adam]

YESSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!

first comic for my rodeo tmnt au :D

next (be patient)

[wurstigdurstig]

Horsegirl Horseboy

[starry-eyed-adam]

✨🍄‍🟫🤎big brown eyes 🍂🤎💫

vs

staring into your soul.

[starry-eyed-adam]

it’s coming. Sunday 8pm CST ;)

Gimme rise brothers that sometimes genuinely hate each other give me rise brothers focusing internally on their own problems so much they lash out like neglected children bc that's what they are give me rise boys who don't know how to handle their fears and emotions and it becomes interpersonal conflicts to which they walk in to each other's rooms later and awkwardly apologize but the issues never get solved entirely because they just. Don't. Know. How. And splinter isn't around and hasn't taught them (God knows he has his issues) give me rise boys who love each other but struggle because that's INTERESTING.

[mrmeepsmadmind]

neurotic carrier and his neurotic carbon copy son

' i'm SO glad ironhide is getting too dusty to function anymore. we won't have to deal with HIS crazy ass soon-'

the evil ironhide idolizing cliffjumper who's somehow even MORE violent than him:

father and daughter. mother and son.

Single old parent ironhide wants to get with single old parent optimus & optimus wants to get with him ! & theyre like this is gonna go great! Cliffjumper is getting along excellent with bumblebee! They're already best friends 😁😁!! cliffjumper hugs bee, secures their matching friendship bracelets bee made for him out of melted bullets (cliffs suggestuon) then stomps over to optimus, stares up at him, & says fuck you