#he's so damn self-hating
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shit-talker Ā· 8 months ago
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I find it funny how Edwin admits to the Cat King that he is taking on cases to try and redeem his soul so if he ever got caught by Death, she would consider not sending him back to hell, but here's the thing... that truth is only true because Edwin believes it is true, but later, we see a flashback to when Edwin has literally just made it out of hell, and the first thing he does is he stays to help Charles when he is dying, risking Death finding him right as he got out. Like...that's not the sort of risk you just take because you want to redeem yourself. That's the sort of risk you take because you're a genuinely kind-hearted and loving person who doesn't want others to feel the same pain as you.
Edwin may think his motives are selfish, but he's been helping souls since the moment he got out of hell - he even helps souls in hell (Simon). So no, Edwin, you aren't helping people just to make yourself look better. You're an actual good person who deserves a better afterlife than hell.
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demaparbat-hp Ā· 6 months ago
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Their actual first meeting in the Kyoshi Warriors AU!
Katara had her Oh moment before exchanging a word with Jian Li, and while she gets over it in time (or, at least, convinces herself that she's not embarrassed by her initial reaction to him) this quasi-interaction haunts her for the first couple of days of their stay in Kyoshi Island.
It's just not fair that the place is full of gorgeous people! Or that he's not only beautiful, but also kind and awkward and respectful and dorky andā€”oh, Laā€”she's in trouble.
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the-girl-with-too-many-ideas Ā· 5 months ago
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One thing that I've never seen people talk about is that Shen Jiu would want his body back. Sure, it may be irreparablely damaged and weak, but it's still his body. He never had any bodily autonomy until he joined Cang Qiong at seventeen, so he would fight tooth and nail to get it back rather than lose the right to his body again.
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pepperpixel Ā· 7 months ago
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SAID HE LIKES CRAZY GIRLS,
BUT HE HATES WHEN I ACT CRAZY,
IT TAKES TWO TO TOXIC!
FINALLY!!! Finished these pics of jinx Iā€™ve been working on!!!!! HOLY SHIT, these took so longā€¦. But finallyā€¦ theyā€™re doneā€¦ pls enjoy this art of my beautiful princess w a disorder. Featuring alternate colors for the big pic and also a closeup! Cuz I rlly like how both the lines and coloring on her face turned outā€¦ like the pink gradients w her eyeā€¦ her deer in headlights expression,, like uve just startled a raccoon digging thru ur trashcan and r two seconds away from getting mauled.. m proud of it!
#arcane#league of legends#jinx#jinx arcane#arcane jinx#doodles#hate and love how hardcore I relate to jinxā€¦#little sisters w dependency issues.. + a whole lot of other issues#anyway the ā€˜heā€™ in the ā€˜crazy girlā€™ lyrics is in my mind referring to both vi and silco lol#Iā€™m sORRY! I keep seeing ppl hardcore pitting these 2 bad bitches against each other#and itā€™s likeā€¦ silco is objectively. morally worse than vi.. vi is not like. a ruthless crime lord#vi IS 100% trying her best and loves her sister. but she still screwed up w jinx#and silco ALSO truly loves jinx. but also screwed up by fucking. trauma bonding w her ghgh-#like.. silco is too close. heā€™s like. yes go apeshit jinx I support and love you and understand u no matter what fucked up shit u do.#were the same. and thatā€™s beautiful!!! I love how supportive he isā€¦#but its like.. silcos too close. he just became a new person for jinx to glomp onto and base her self esteem around after vi left#and he doesnā€™t manipulate that on purpose but. he DOES effect that girls mental state. cuz he needs her too#meanwhile vi is too far awayā€¦ she thinks she knows who jinx is. but jinx has changedā€¦ time marches forward. sheā€™s not that little girl#anymore#and nOW! after the finale jinx has NOBODY TO BE CODEPENDENT W..#her mental state has always been so tied up in how the ppl she puts on pedestals view her#and now thereā€™s no pedestal anymore. she knocked down the statues. sheā€™s aloneā€¦#itā€™s interestingā€¦.#anyway Iā€™m not trying to say vi is as bad as silco at ALL. just that sheā€™s an equally important building block in jinxā€™s mind#that has made her into the fucked up lil person she is today. and I think thatā€™s neat.#lol anyway! Iā€™m hyped for season 2ā€¦.#aLSO GOD DAMN THIS GIRLS OUTFIT IS COMPLICATED. WHY DO U GOT SO MANY BITS N BOBS JINX??? I mean I get it accessories rock.#but u take so much time to draw ghfhg- require so much brainpower#aLSO ADDENDUM. while silco is objectively morally worse than vi his relationship w jinx is genuinely. like. makes me emotional ghgh-#its not perfect. or healthy. butā€¦ itā€™s. the both of them. being seen. and accepted. and loved and understood.. and I love that shit.
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rwby-confess Ā· 5 months ago
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Confession #276
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momotonescreaming Ā· 2 months ago
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Hear me out, single dad Tommy.
He's dating a woman (not Abby) and maybe they're engaged, maybe they're just dating - but something feels off, feels wrong and Tommy is still figuring himself out. The conclusion he's coming to is terrifying in the way that it doesn't feel wrong.
He thinks he might be gay,
And then she tells him she's pregnant, and it's his. Maybe the condom broke, maybe she was changing birth control, or maybe we just handwave it away as an accident like the show does. They sure as hell weren't trying for it.
And he's terrified and it hits him that he can't do it anymore. Continue to live the lie he didn't quite know he was living. So he tells her he's gay. He breaks her heart, and listens to her cry and he can't help but feel relieved at the weight off his shoulders.
They continue to live together as they figure it out. She starts looking at apartments, they start talking about dividing their stuff, and then they start talking about the baby. And maybe she doesn't know if she wants to keep it or not. There's a lot more crying.
Together, they come to a decision. Tommy keeps his house - it's in his name after all - and she moves out. She pursues her career, goes travelling, finds herself.
He keeps their baby.
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afsosville Ā· 4 months ago
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Ever After High, but make it a PIDW AU.
Imagine how fucked up it would be if Shen Jiu is up there doing the book signing ceremony that seals his destiny of becoming the next 'Shen Qingqiu', and the mirrors display him getting thrown away by his martial siblings at the trial, and his limbs being torn off and other despicable tortures, and being brought down so low that your humanity is stripped away from you, all for an audience to see. And they cheer. The crowd is ecstatic, perhaps even more so than when his father, Shen Qingqiu, was put on trial.
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p-jinx Ā· 3 months ago
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I am weak willed
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delusionalbitchinthehouse Ā· 7 months ago
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Alpha & Ifrit angst wooooo. Also PLEASE tell me if my use of the past and especially the "had been ...-ed" form is correct or not, it's late, I'm having a huge brain lag and i'm losing my english.
Alpha only had Ifrit for three weeks and if anything happened to the younger fire ghoul, he would kill everyone in the room and then himself.
Alpha's barely exagerating. It's crazy how quickly his new student adorable little fuck mentee hope ? burden managed to burrow himself under Alpha's skin.
Thing is, Ifrit is impossible to dislike. His smile is too bright to hate, digging dimples into his cheeks whenever it graces the fire ghoul's face. Ifrit is a ray of a sunshine, a crackling bonefire illuminating happy faces. His enthusiasm and interest in everything is so terribly endearing, the way he wears his heart on his sleeve a testament to just how good the younger fire ghoul is.
The exact opposite of Alpha.
Ifrit has none of Alpha's acidic, rancid anger festering under his skin, none of the spark of agression dancing in Alpha's tone at the slightest inconvenience, none of the bitterness tainting Alpha's vision of the world.
Sometimes, it hurts to look at Ifrit. To see what Alpha could have been, might have been at some point, before life fucked him over time and time again. A comforting warmth instead of an unbearable heat. A sparkling-eyed, mischievious creature, instead of a closed-off, destructive monster.
The thought of seeing Ifrit lose that spark keeps Alpha up at night.
He cannot let this happen. He cannot let history repeat itself, let another fire ghoul get taken appart until all is left is a rotten core.
Alpha will always remember his first lesson with Ifrit. The younger ghoul was eager, tail wagging in excitement, bouncing on the ball of his feet. Alpha felt like a knife had been plunged into his heart ; and as always, his response to such an intense, unexpected emotion was anger. He snapped at Ifrit, telling him to settle the fuck down.
And Ifrit, sweet, darling Ifrit, smiled, tail wrapping around his leg. Stilled, like he had been asked to. Alpha immediately felt bad. But what could he do ? His venom had been spilled already, there was no taking it back. Still, his face twisted as guilt burnt in his throat.
"It's okay," Ifrit suddenly humed, looking so terribly earnest, "Your anger, your furstration. I understand. And I can take it."
Alpha nearly choked on remorse upon hearing that. Ifrit was much more observant than he had thought. And he apparently was a huge self-sacrificing idiot. Alpha wanted to shake him, to grab him by the shoulder and tell him to run, far, far away from him, from this wicked world that mercilessly breaks all that's good.
Instead, Alpha tightened his hand into a fist, and growled, low and threatening.
"You can't. Neither should you, or will you."
You don't deserve this had been left unsaid.
Ever since that day, Ifrit seems to have taken it upon himself to bring out all the sides of himself Alpha thought were gone.
The first time he called Ifrit "kit", in an appreciative manner after the younger fire ghoul had managed a tricky riff in very little time, Alpha knew there would be no going back.
Ifrit wormed his way into Alpha's not-so-stony heart and he is here to stay.
And if Alpha has to shoulder all the shit life brings to keep Ifrit unmarred by it, then so be it.
As Alpha watches his promising student wrestle with Aether, he isn't surprised to feel Omega press up against him, one arm wrapping around the fire ghoul's waist. Omega's thoughts nudge Alpha's, echo in the fire ghoul's brain.
I know. Me too.
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your-unfriendlyghost Ā· 8 days ago
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mentally prepping myself for another 9.5 hr shift tomorrowā€¦might end up committing a few minor crimes after but weā€™ll see
#9.5 hrs makes me crazy istg#after my last one i went on a long run alongside a train to clear my head#and i had to keep reminding myself that hopping onto one of the cars was a horrible horrible idea (look im self aware just impulsive ok)#n this time im already considering cruising up n down a street in the big city near my town to pick up girls or sneak into a bar idk#which is also an objectively awful n slightly immoral idea but iā€™m yet to completely talk myself outta it#ā€¦and after that damn shift i dunno how strong my willpower will be#maybe itā€™d be legitimately /safer/ for me to quitā€¦who knows how long ill be able to reign myself inā€¦#my folks keep sayin itā€™ll be more fun if my friends work there too but that ainā€™t happenin-#the stupid store is in the next district over n all my unemployed friends r also carless#rambling#vent post#sorry šŸ˜­#i keep wanting to like write/draw but the thought of work tmmr makes my brain go into fight or flight#fuckin adhd man#delete later#im gen srry for all the venting abt work n all i just. idk. I hate that I ainā€™t drawn in a minute.#N my irl friends have no sympathy bc they think im bein dramatic (i /am/ but I ainā€™t tryin to be I legit canā€™t help it)#sighhhh#yeah no I gotta quit I think im a teenager I NEED to not work doubles on the weekends AND do school at the same time#wish I could get a mechanic job or smth. mechanical stuff makes sense to me. stocking toy store shelves in specific ways is like an art#an art that I donā€™t understand in the slightest#so I set up displays n then my coworker says ā€œnaw thatā€™s not quite right go do it againā€#(heļæ½ļæ½s very nice abt it dw very nice guy i just donā€™t /get/ him)#ughā€¦#yeah no definitely deleting this later lol
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stealingyourbones Ā· 8 months ago
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Gotta love when folks write Superman incredibly anti-clone even though he had good reason in the beginning to Not Like Superboy (HES A WINDOW INTO WHAT CLARK WOULD HAVE BEEN WITHOUT THE KENTS) and decide that forever on heā€™ll be spiteful towards clones even though he literally Does Not Care if youā€™re a clone unless youā€™re Superboy.
#IF YOU LIKE THIS CHARACTERIZATION IGNORE ME BUT I GOTTA VENT#bones speaks#bones writes in the tags#sometimes I wanna bash my head into a wall. SUPERMAN IS INHERENTLY A GOOD PERSON IN EVERY WAY KON EL IS JUST A TERRIFYING REALIZATION-#OF WHAT HEā€™D BE WITHOUT A LOVING CARING AND NURTURING FAMILY! HE DIDNT LIKE KON BECAUSE HE WAS SCARED)#RAGGGGHHHHH#for the love of god I know itā€™s an easy way for Danny to hate Superman (SUPERMAN ISNT THE BAD GUY YALL PLEASE) but there can be so much more#have him awkwardly go up to Danny and ask him how he handled having a clone and try to use that info to get along with Kon!#he works with countless clones in the Justice League and I donā€™t see yā€™all writing him hating them. make it make sense#just- please. you donā€™t have to read a comic to know that Superman is meant to be The Best Of Humanity. just write with that baseline#Iā€™m just sad folks are being so gosh darn mean to Supes. heā€™s a delightful character to read and my favorite big superhero#and a lot of folks in dpxdc do the anti clone stuff and thatā€™s Clarkā€™s entire personality for the comic.#you donā€™t think heā€™d be sympathetic because Danny was given immense duty and power and is only a few of his kind? or having an evil self in#another dimension that showed him the destruction he could bring?#Clark is a smartass. he is a seeker of the truth. he is a reporter (and a damn good one too). he is a loving husband. he is an alien.#he is a hero. he is a god. he is a caring friend. he is a genuinely kind and good being.#I recommend reading All Star Superman. Under The Yellow Sun by Clark Kent. and Superman:Grounded
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kingkatsuki Ā· 9 months ago
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Specifically thinking about long distance relationships today.
So tell me how you and your f/o would first meet online?
#I feel like Bakugou and I would meet in one of those online games heā€™s downloaded to mindlessly waste time between shifts#and heā€™s so foul at first because he thinks Iā€™m weak but we play and he realises that Iā€™m#actually whooping everyone and heā€™s like well damn okay#and now heā€™s messaging in the alliance chat and like getting excited when Iā€™m online even tho he tries to hide it#and gets annoyed when other creeps in his alliance try to flirt with me#and then heā€™s asking for my discord#me and Sanemi get into a fight on discord the first time we interact#in some stupid big server I only joined for the emojis#but heā€™s a jerk so I tell him to shut up and a message later I find a msg notification and itā€™s him trying to continue the conversationšŸ˜­#enjin slides into my dms on Instagram#he finds my post at a concert and hates the fuckboys that are commenting below#ends up messaging me to see if Iā€™m okay but then immediately worries heā€™s one of those guys#Tamsy I feel like is that mutual Iā€™ve had forever on twt and we like each others posts but weā€™ve NEVER talked to each other??#itā€™s not until Iā€™m feeling sad at 2am and I post something self-deprecating that he drops me a msgšŸ„ŗ#and we end up staying up until 5am just talking to each other#Kirishima is ALWAYS the guy that responds to my ā€˜morningā€™ with a morning back! every day without fail#and I slide into his DMs one day and ask how heā€™s ALWAYS awake when I am??? like to say it back so quick#and he admits heā€™s kinda learned my schedule and he tries to be online for it because itā€™s one of the best parts of his day#and he likes saying it backšŸ˜­šŸ˜­šŸ˜­ even if heā€™s off from a night shift and needs sleep he canā€™t without seeing me msg#Shindou blatantly flirts with me in a gaming discord and I think heā€™s an incel so I block him#he gets a friend to ping me to beg me to unblock him and I refuse#the friend then sends another message with a screenshot of Shindou basically begging me to unblock himšŸ˜­#Dot and I meet in one of those AITA Reddit threads#and we end up borderline arguing over whether op is TA#so much that we get told to take it elsewherešŸ˜­šŸ˜­šŸ˜­#enjo#bakujo#eijo#but also catch me sending Dynamight sassy banter on his official socialsšŸ˜­šŸ˜‚
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idkwhatimdoingbutrandom Ā· 1 month ago
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everyday I genuinely feel like Iā€™m going insane whenever I see people get on their knees for Minho and think the crush on Yuri was random and not real and just a phase
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travalerray Ā· 1 year ago
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I am going to slap you myself
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pretentious-art Ā· 26 days ago
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your honor i love her
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simptasia Ā· 4 months ago
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being in the DS9 fandom, you'll discover there are so many ways for people to be wrong about julian bashir
#wow i don't like a lot of you#baffled at how a predominantly autistic fanbase can be so contemptful of autistic behaviour#buddies i think you're the ones who are cringe. see i cringe WITH julian not against him#and not even just that#theres the ''julian is stupid about everything that isn't medicine'' thing#fuck you that man is a starfleet officer and he's a genius. i saw him fix a console and i was genuinely surprised because of this shit#''julian is stupid'' ''julian is annoying'' ''julian is insufferable'' ''julian deserves to be bullied'' and so on and so forth#wow. i hate. all of you. and based on the way y'all talk? you guys would hate me too#oh and worst take of all. like on a moral level:#''julians parents were in the right for doing what they did. its natural for a parent to want to have a normal child''#and other such ableist takes. literally i have seen people like that#i saw somebody baffled by that ep being like ''what did julians parents do wrong. they helped him. what is julian upset about''#and holy shit. that is. so fucked up#besides all that. the way the fandom and the show is mean to julian pisses me off#Why Are His Friends So Mean To Him#i have this brain thing where i take criticism of julian bashir as a personal attack. its called autism#sometimes an autistic-coded character in star trek will say something the narrative has deemed as Wrong#and i can tell thats what im being told because i understand media language but im still baffled like ''Whats The Problem''#spock. data. seven. julian. and its like... actually guys its everybody else who is being weird and mean about this#i do find it a little sad knowing that if i existed on DS9 that o'brien and kira wouldn't like me. like damn. i like you guys#anyways i have a lot of the DS9 fandom blocked because they got me at risk of developing a wee chunk of self loathing. and i refuse#i wasnt raised to feel shame how dare you
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