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Harry's world/Bad end
Inspired by Christina's world by Andrew Wyeth
#I dont think people talk about the bad end enough#this is the social murder game you guys#i dunno#my health took a bit of a decline recently and my doctor forgot to get me a refill on my meds in time and it got me thinking#disability puts a person in such a vulnerable position#it doesnt matter how well Harry solves the case or how upstanding of an officer he tries to be#one drink is all it takes and he is left to die#he cant even run after them anymore... he doesnt even know where he lives#he's nothing but an addict to them#reduced to an animal... grovelling in the dirt#used for all hes worth and then thrown away once he cant work anymore#ive written about the bad end before and ill get back to it(after my fic about his mom is done) when i get the energy for it#its just so compelling!!#does anybody hear me???#disco elysium#harry du bois#disco elyisum fanart#my art#illustration#also some people in the fandom do NOT see disabled ppl and addicts as people and it shows#ITS THE SOCIAL MURDER GAME
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i don't think im going to post this one to my main blog but i don't want it to rot in my folders either. so woe waxwitch be upon ye
#first time drawing both of them. i have NO clue how to draw mel's arm braces i just made it up as i went LOL#it looks neat anyway!! probably!!#i may end up getting addicted to drawing icarus i think. according to my friend he's a very mecore design and yeah i agree#this was a doodle so nothing is very polished. otherwise it'd be more clean#tz: art#hades 2 spoilers#melinoe hades#icarus hades#waxwitch#hades 2#hades supergiant#art#fanart
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look who i spotted at the pride parade!
#usami with the big boots#and of course crusty gamer ogata. her blood is 80% monster energy and she cannot stop calling RussianSnyper69 slurs online#help im addicted to drawing them#asexual ogata TRUTHER <- trust me im asexual also i asked noda and he said sure#i wanted tattoos for them both in the first one as well but i got too lazy :/#i believe in stocky ogata superiority. also i hc that usami is like. weirdly ripped. like to a scary degree#usao#golden kamuy#artfromthefrogs#ogata hyakunosuke#usami tokushiro#golden kamuy au#golden kamuy fanart#trans ogata#belatedly i realise i have just re-invented All Or Nothing#frog portfolio#transfem usami#transfem ogata#<- the tag
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You expect me to believe this man wears his contacts at HOME????? When he puts his hair up in a stupid lil bun and wears THAT outfit??????? Straight up bullshit
#like maybe he just wears nothing sometimes but he GOTTA have those blue light blocking glasses to game#he wants his games in hd at least#digital#a3! act! addict! actors!#a3!#itaru chigasaki#a3! itaru#let the glasses havers wear their damn glasses sometimes... drawing the rest of them too#maybe
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i’m a bit too hungover to fully articulate this the way i want to but
there’s something about camila dragging billy to that party where he’s immediately offered alcohol because she’s never truly seen his addiction for what it is vs daisy staying in his tour bus with him because she understands that they’re fighting the same struggle
there’s something about camila not really having any clue why billy needs daisy so much to the point where she has to ask if daisy’s a better lover than her vs daisy inherently understanding why billy had to choose his family despite never having a family of her own
there’s something about camila never intervening in the billy/eddie conflict in all those years vs daisy showing up and immediately telling billy that aurora needed to be eddie’s project too
there’s something about billy writing the same songs over and over with camila vs daisy forcing him out of his songwriting comfort zone leading to him writing the most personal and beautiful songs of his career
something something daisy allowed him to be the truest version of himself while camila let him hide behind the idealized version something something billy ultimately chose camila because he wanted to be the man that she saw instead of the complicated mess that daisy understood him to be
#daisy jones and the six#daisybilly#daisy jones#billy dunne#essay in the tags incoming so hol up#so listen i feel like ppl say that camila is the healthier or outright better option for billy but what they actually mean#is that she's the easiest option#billy doesn't have to acknowledge that he's an addict with camila because she doesn't acknowledge it either#he doesn't have to address his control issues or his conflict with eddie or the ways that he messes up outside his marriage#but then daisy pops up out of nowhere and acts as a mirror to his true self#and he hates her for it#and yet he also loves her for it because there's something so holy in being seen for the first time#but among other things billy dunne is-- respectfully-- kind of a coward#being with camila means that he can pretend to be the man she wants him to be#he can even pretend that it comes naturally#with daisy there's nothing to hide behind or pretend#there's only him and her and the truth between them#and for a man like billy that's the most terrifying thing he can imagine#i am a ~daisybilly is healthier in the long term than c*millabilly~ truther and i cannot be silenced
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good days aren't easy to come by
#simblr#ts4 legacy#valentine gen 4#fun fact for context on why i care so much abt him finally choosing to play the piano on his own#but it's gonna get Long so strap in#basically. the guitar he used to have had been with him since he was like...... my god. probably about 15#he bought it at a yard sale for pennies from an older woman#it belonged to her late son originally and it wasn't even . supposed to be a part of the sale in the first place. she just took a liking to#devin and figured that really it's better in the hands of someone who would use it than for it to collect dust in her garage forever#and he couldn't really practice at home. his parents... are not exactly the kindest people you've ever seen#he was too afraid of them destroying or throwing it away so he'd sneak off to god knows where and learn how to play it from old#youtube videos on his busted up phone#it quickly became Everything to him. his most prized possession. and it wasn't a shitty guitar either. the son was a professional musician#that's how ellie and devin met in the first place. he was playing at the market she used to sneak out to in the evenings to#and she instantly knew . this boy is going places and really they might as well go together#enough backstory of the backstory. long story short: he was struggling to make rent eventually and was out of vinyls to pawn off#so he had no choice left. it was either that or he'd get kicked out along with his sister. who was still struggling a lot w/ addiction#so he sold it. and it broke him. he's literally just not been the same since losing it#his sister stole him a guitar from a music shop she'd go to sometimes but it just wasn't the same and he had not played an instrument since#until now anyway#still not a guitar. but maybe someday#or he can find his old one and buy it again.........#lmfao if you made it here congrats. you win nothing bc im broke but i do respect you
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I am BEGGING you to elaborate on how sangcheng post canon is also wwx related (because as I was reading that post I was thinking chengyi was def more wwx related than op assumed but had no additional thoughts on sangcheng) because my grubby little hands need more chengxian to grasp onto
It's honestly not very chengxian flavoured (or is it? i cannot say I have my finger on the pulse of chengxian) I just think that actually if NHS was going to make a move on JC post canon it would be in large part about
a) just wanting to feel something, you know? and look, there's a free jiang cheng just lying around waiting for someone to pick him up. ooooh wwx the devil's got your shidi but that's fine because you're so well adjusted and estranged. this one is very vibes based but I think post canon NHS is emotionally exhausted and a little bit irritated with WWX in ways that could easily snowball via externalized self loathing and lack of anything better to do
b) the thing is NHS did many schemes, including luring Jin Ling to Xue Yang, which I don't know JC would forgive. However JC doesn't know he did that! WWX does know he did that but has no hard evidence and kind of thinks JC hates him and wouldn't believe him. I think there is some real potential for WWX to insert himself into that ship even if sangcheng are just exploring life after pyrrhic catharsis via each other's bodies.
#again if op sees this i love your diagram it is so big brained and sexy i am just addicted to making everything about wwx#out here being accused of being a yanli loves wwx more truther#i was maintaining that she loves them both and jc mostly knows it and also that there's basically nothing she wouldn't forgive him for#when those were unpopular opinions!!!!#she is the only person in the whole world whose love he actually trusts and she earned that. like it's fucked up and sad that she felt like#she had to be his mommysister but she was an amazing mommysister and he knows it and honours it and tries to be a good and giving#presence in her adult life. like he really grew up and said jiejie rights
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#ok im making one more dot post and then i am (hopefully) getting off tumblr and going to bed#liam payne#death#i do suggest not reading tbh because its just gonna be waffle. anyways#ive distanced myself from the boys for years for a multitude of reasons. mainly that they did things that disappointed me and i realised the#way i was attatched to them was unhealthy. so for the most part i listened and enjoyed the music and didnt pay Much attention to anything#else. and like liam. i always liked him in the band days because to me he was the underdog. the underappreciated and probs less stanned one#out of all of them. and when youre a fan i do feel like a lot of us just wanted them all to be appreciated. idk. but anyways yeah i did feel#for him. due to him backgroud growing up. his talent. etc etc. even though he wasnt my fav. and even when he did something wrong my teenage#self still defended him like my life depended on it. (embarassing) anyways. his solo music while it was not my fav i still occasionally#enjoyed. its just over produced pop like it was fine and i found it fun. in terms of him as an actual person by this point in his career i#didnt pay attention to him or the others that much anymore#and like. yeah as of recently as more stuff came out about him being kinda weird and rude and abusive 🙃🙃🙃 that was kind of the final#straw for me! like in terms of me giving a fuck about him. if he eventually came around cool but i wasnt gonna wait around for it.#god this whole thing feels so dramatic but i need to get it oit or i Know i will not be at peace lmao anyways#so yeah come to hearing about his death which. i hear about because of trin lovell on twitter like. shsvshs. anyways my reaction was#disbelief and just... nothing? like i said in my brain i had just disregarded him honestly. and even now i still just feel speechless.#to summarise my feelings. fuck him for how he treated his ex and probably other women as well. but also. he was my boy. he'll always be a#part of me. and it feels weird that hes just. gone. he suffered a lot with addiction and pressures etc and its just. sad that hes gone now.#that he never got to get better. and he wont get the chance to. im sad for his family. and anyone else thats gonna be affected by this#im always gonna remember him.#and thats all i have to say. honestly part of me feels SO dramatic for even typing all this out but here we are.#if anyone has read this far and wants someone to talk to im more than happy. and also just wanna make clear that i am fine#le text post
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i don't know how to be merely acquaintances when we used to be friends. or i think we used to be. i don't know how to yearn for a simple hello when you've been heaping your affection on me months ago, and i don't know how to talk to you when you won't say anything. when suddenly it's all about me. you know i have nothing to say, you know my brain is void of everything but horribleness and i cannot tell you about my day because i don't even know about my day. i cannot tell you about my day when i know you won't listen, when i know you'll apply your philosophy to my world and don't believe me when i say that everything is terrible. i don't know how to be the person you seem to think i am, or the person you want in your life. i don't know if you want anyone else in your life now that you're in love and sappy, found another recipient for your affections, leaving me empty and wounded and yearning.
you said you missed me. said it many times, while i was gone. now i'm back, have been back, and i wonder how you missed me, why you missed me, when you won't talk to me. i think you mistook missing for worrying. i think you mistook caring for a feeling of obligation. i think you like missing me more than talking to me.
and i think i can't breathe with how much that hurts
#how do you miss me when you won't talk to me? how do you like me so much and then go to just. not?#how did i let you in when i try so hard not to let people do that because i know that once they get past the walls all i'll be left with#is the idea of them rotting and withering inside me. polluting the space i create to keep myself safe.#why does everyone leave? leave in silence too. leaving behind so many questions and so many words engraved in my brain#i am so tired of *grieving* when those i grieve are still alive and well and thriving and i'm reminded that it's versions of myself#that i'm grieving instead. how do you grieve yourself? how do you not fucking fall apart over it?#just. fucking talk to me. don't make it be true that all i'll ever be is nothingness and the memory of someone you liked once#but never never never liked enough#i'm so so cold already. i'm a shell. i want to be warm again but it always leaves me so hollow and hurting#i grieve the dio who was warm. i grieve them i miss them i am so so angry that he had to leave. to hide. with no way out#i'm happy for you. i'm happy you're happy. but you're no better than anyone else and it makes me want to run away again#but i have nowhere else to run and no one else to be. and it's so fucked that it doesn't matter who i am i'll never be enough#for someone to just. stay. to see me and to stay. to hear me and to sit and listen and just. just fucking stay.#maybe i'm not worth staying for. maybe there's nothing to know nothing to hear nothing to see nothing to listen to nothing to find#maybe all i'll ever get is one/two good months paid for with a lifetime of grief. and i'm at the point where i don't want the good months#anymore with you or anyone else who tears down these walls with affection that is so endlessly addictive and leaves me yearning.#on the off chance that it will keep the grief away too. but that's the thing about grief isn't it? it's here to stay. unlike you#god this is so fucked up and i'll delete this later but for now i just need to. let it out. poe said i should make a side blog for the grie#but poe's not there anymore. poe has stopped starting fires. so this goes on main until shame makes me take it down#blah#personal#not st
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They're like an old married couple
#they're like sherlock holmes and john watson if sherlock was (more of) a freak and watson was an alcoholic gambling addict guy failure#almost every interaction they have had has just been them bickering and i'm loving it#they frustrate each other like old friends do#they're in love but they hate each other at the same time#i saw some people say that they thought john was unlikable in the second book but i beg to differ ☝️#he is definitely more annoying (endearing)#but i think you have to keep in mind that the first book is told from his perspective and the second is told from stevie's#and the fact that john is so much less cool than he makes himself out to be in his own writing is so funny to me#planning on writing a fic or two for these two when i find the time#i actually have no clue if there’s really a fandom for the alienist#or at least one for the books/john and laszlo shippers#is it obvious i have nothing to post lmfao#i’m really scraping my the bottom of the barrel with this one#whatever#yapping#the alienist#the angel of darkness#laszlo kreizler#john moore
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okay as a Jean Enjoyer i feel like i need to say this because there are different genres of jean enjoyment (jeanres if you will). i am of the faction where i don’t really vibe with the whole “jeangst” thing (as it exists as a fandom phenomenon) and here’s why. so much of the stuff i see labeled “jeangst” is WAY too sympathetic to and forgiving of jean for my taste. like he’s woobified or there’s a lot of uncritical ‘poor jean harry is so mean to him and now harry’s amnesia ruined his life :(’ type stuff which is such a fundamental misunderstanding of him and his role in harry’s past & present and it skews how we view his dynamic with harry too. and i don’t mean this as “oh considering jean’s pov is bad!!1!1″ no i consider his pov all the time i am indescribably mentally ill about the torment that the jeanharry relationship puts both jean and harry through. but when we consider his point of view i really think that just ascribing him the simple role of ‘poor depressed punching bag’ strips him of all the interesting parts of his character & also contributes to a less nuanced and accurate understanding of harry as well (it makes it easy to villainize him for his addiction and mental illness, which in and of themselves aren’t moral failings-- harry was a bad person for his behavior, which is not the same as his addiction or his illnesses)
like, jean put himself in this situation. over and over again. yes he was likely forced into working with harry, but whatever’s going on between them is more than a workplace conflict. you look at luiga’s twitter and he’s said so much about jean and harry’s codependency and the other mentions of a very close and very unhealthy personal relationship. you see the way jean talks about his own role vs harry’s in the ending-- jean WANTS to be the poor victim, he wants everyone to see him as the helpless punching bag who is being such a saint by Putting Up With Harry And His Bullshit, look at me, i’m so much better than this stupid mentally ill addict! he’s like harry you are so unprofessional, and there is something wrong with you, and we are all so tired of putting up with you and your shitty behavior, but here he is sitting in a hotel lobby in a wig to harass harry while harry is actually doing his job!! like jean my love here you are reaming harry out about “doing his fucking job” sir what are you doing!! you are sitting in a hotel looking angry for 14 hours just in case your special little partner who you are definitely sooo mad at condescends to speak to you for a few minutes!! and you dragged poor judit out here too!! jean. girl. babe. it’s time to admit you are a massive hypocrite with an even bigger victim complex. you, a mentally ill addict, are losing your shit at harry for being a mentally ill addict. why don’t you meaningfully address the actual behaviors instead of just reminding harry that he’s an alcoholic every 2 minutes.
like i’m not saying jean should have infinite patience for harry after multiple years of mistreatment but damn dude the double standards are insane. jean is instigating a messy public breakup and being pretty abusive the whole time and then he’s like everyone feel bad for ME and not STUPID HARRY who is an ALCOHOLIC in case anyone forgot. he goes on and on about how much his life sucks and how much harry sucks and boohoo poor him he’s so depressed and beaten down by the shitkid etc but then in ANY sub-ideal ending you get there’s still something that tells you that he’s still taking harry back or at least considering it. in the cuno ending “he can’t leave you behind. he just can’t. one final time...” even in the worst ending “if you make it-- if you’re sober for 10 months-- tell us. i’ll work with you again.” jean babe if you hate him so much then stay the fuck away from him!! damn!! your codependency is showing!! your victim complex is showing!! just go get harry’s name tattooed on you at this point like at the very least it might get you some sympathy from people at the bar when they ask about what’s very clearly an Ex’s Name Tattoo
#this got out of hand. sorry#anyway yeah i disagree with 'jeangst' on principle because it's too nice to jean basically#you can be sympathetic to his point of view without being a Jean Apologist or completely erasing his role in a mutually abusive dynamic#i love to think about how much this whole situation hurts him. and i love to think about how a lot of it is his fault#it's so much more interesting for him to be a participant in his own victimhood#he's standing there goading harry into punching him and then he gets punched and is like HOW DARE YOU PUNCH ME!!#well sir you see if you tape a sign on your forehead that says kick me then eventually you are going to be kicked.#the jeanharry relationship as a form of self harm for both parties involved etc etc#using each other to punish themselves etc etc#just enough good in it to keep them going. just enough bad to make it bitter the whole way through. the push and pull of addiction etc etc#see a return to jean/harry partnership after martinaise would be so funny#jean tries to provoke harry says some shitty stuff etc and harry just like. starts crying or having a panic attack or whatever#and jean is like hold on this makes ME look like the bad guy. come on quick hit me. come on say something mean. call me a slur. please#or maybe harry goes right back to being an asshole depending on ur guy. and nothing ever changes and they hurt each other for ever and ever#until they succumb to the inevitable murder-suicide#kiwipost#jv meta#jean vicquemare#I HATE THIS GUY *beating him with one of those carpet dust racket things*
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Deadpool With A Normal Face...
WHY HAVE I YET TO SEE THIS ASPECT OF HIS REGENERATION/HEALING BROUGHT UP IN SPIDEYPOOL FANFICS????!!!
THIS IS A LITERAL BEAUTY AND THE BEAST GIMMICK FOR THE TAKING!
A TALE OF HEALTHY RELATIONSHIPS BETTERING THE PEOPLE INVOLVED IN WAYS BOTH NOTICEABLE AND NOT!!
AN ACTUAL TROPE IN THE MAKING IN JUST HOW MUCH SPIDEY MAKES DEADPOOL THOROUGHLY BETTER WITH HIS INFLUENCE AND CARE CAREER/MORALITY/MENTALLY/HEALTH WISE TO BE THE DEFINITION OF AN ANTI-TOXIC RELATIONSHIP!!!
❤️😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭❤️
#spidey heals deadpool with love is not a thing...WHY?#I'm crying#spideypool fanfic writers have finally failed me i think#why is this not a thing?#i understand the whole “accept his scarring or deformity as is” motif but emotional healing causing physical effects is great commentary#spideypool is anti-toxic ship confirm#spidey is literally the best thing for deadpool according to this#why can't we get fanfics that have deadpool get his looks back WITHOUT having to betray spiderman like judas?#can you imagine how even higher his opinion on spiderman would get?#can you imagine how awed and humbled peter would feel to know how much sway over wade he literally has?#can you say pro team mental help?#if these fanfics exist i want them!#i want em#i want em i want em i want em wantem wantem#spideypool#the fact i have found nothing like this in all the spideypool fancontent ive consumed like an addict is criminal
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I am so mad right now.
#did they choose Spencer to give this mouthpiece solely because he is the random knowledge guy or because he is a fucking addict himself#if is the first one- it's kind of funny on an unintional awful way.#if is the second one- OH FUCK THEM FOR REAL#he was BEGGING for help#and he was given an vague sermon#so it wasn't soft love nor tough love it was NOTHING#Reid sweetie you deserved so much better. SO much better.
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i dont think theres a way to prevent an ai from being able to promote suicide in any way and i know this bc cai already does NOT want to tell you to kill yourself. its incredibly rare they will do anything but be incredibly supportive without like serious talking to and “training”
#i say training bc. youte training the bot to respond how you want#thays how people get past the filters they train the bot to word things correctly or. idk how they get like ‘his dick throbbed in your#mouth’ past but otherwise. yknow#like how are you gonna filter ‘sometimes i wish i didnt make it’ ‘*his eyes widen in realization then he grins sinisterly* oh yeah maybe#you should try again’ ‘wow maybe i will’ like nothing about that. i feel. can tip suicide. theres vaguer ways to phrase it even idk#cai SHOULD probably just make their app 18+ bc ultimately kids dont need to be on the addictive ai app but also i want them to remove the#filters so idk. i dont think they will and well kids lie about their age all the time#if its totally removed from the app store kids can just go on the website and use their google account they already use that says they’re#like 70 years old#simons spouting#cai#suicide //
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matty healy haters are some of the most insufferable people ive ever met because hate him all you want idgaf but girl why are you going for his looks and addiction are you for real!
#“i hope he ods lol” WHAT!!!!!!!!! fucking freak#like you can dislike people idgaf but why go for something like his looks when that has NOTHING to do with what hes like as a person??#or worse. his addiction. because like. that could hurt soo many people who Aren't Him and its just a stupid thing to pick on?? its so like.#so odd how people think its so okay to say things like that and just move on because?? thats vile?? why would you wish someone an overdose??#thats like. horrible??? and sooo many of them are swifties too sorry like if you like her then fine but dont whine about matty healy mocking#nazis when your fav is like an ecoterrorist pls#i dont even mind her but if youre gonna go off about 'who you like shows who you are' then maybe you should check who You like first???#hot take???#rant over#blah blah!#matty healy
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imagine if you made a poll called who is the worst builder on the dsmp? and one of the options is: foolish (hc) and that somehow swept completely unironically. wwhat the hell is even going on what here
#hhow can schlatt be the worse dsmp dad HE ISN'T. A FATHER 😭 he doesn't have a son!! he isn't a dad wdym!!! wht are you talking abt!!!#ii just don't. understand how you can watch a series and take away literally nothing from it. if you hate the sources material so bad you#reject every single aspect of it and hate every character and rebuild them all frm the ground up while missing the core of who they are#tthen why. are you even bothering to watch it 😭 what can you possibly be getting#what the hale ever. dsmp fans unpack why you see addicts as violent uncontrollable beasts#who need to be brute forced into abusive parent roles despite never being even close to that at all. (impossible)#huri.txt#discourse
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