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A writer and His number one fan hater
#svsss#shen qingqiu#shang qinghua#platonic cumplane???#Shen Yuan#scum villian self saving system#scum villains self saving system#scum villain's self saving system#scum villain#I actually have a lot of thoughts about them that i wasnt able to articulate right with words or drawings#i just think#That Shen Yuan really did like the story#like he was upset on behalf of a good character#he was upset about its potential#he absolutely wanted more for him and was upset that it was thrown away to please the masses#he had no idea what Shang Qinghua was going through#absolutely just ranked on him and YEAH IT WASNT THE BEST WORK BUT clearly it still was good enough to make Shen Yuan care#like ah#I would love to read more dynamics about them about a struggling writer and his most trusted hater to yell at him to write his heart out#also Shen Qingqiu going through svsss and seeing how much thought Shang Qinghua actually put into the story#and how much effort he actually had in it before he had to settle and scrap#like AAAAHH Im not the analysis type and my thoughts about them really are all other the place but really I think nothing is stronger then#an author and a reader#cause my man read to the very end the ABSOLUTE END#hE CARED HE CARED HE REALLY CARED NO MATTER HOWWWW MUCH HE CRIED ABOUT IT#alright dont look at me they make me go crazy#my art#nibbelraz
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Peri's no good terrible bad day just seems to get worse and worse!
Timmy's hoping his baby brother didn't hear the whole conversation. But with that expression on his face, Timmy suspects it may be a bit too late for him. Timmy's companion scurried away as soon as he noticed Poof. A Pixie can sense drama and conflict from miles away.
Bitties Series: [Start] > [Previous] > [Next]
Instability: [Previous] > [Next]
#fairly oddparents#fop#fop a new wish#fop timmy turner#fop timmy#timmy turner#fop peri#peri#itty bitties fop au#since i gave them tails im deciding that their tails function a bit like rattle snake tails#they shake and flick around when upset#just as ears wiggle to express themselves!#timmy's already confirmed with his parents that he'll be moving after graduation. but it was all a bit loose. like an inevitability#but hefinalized everything within the same week as he was graduating pixies' academy!!#... timmy mightve procrastinated in telling peri about his moving though...#its part of the pixies' culture to move out and forge their own path the moment they graduate#graduation ceremonies are usually the perfect time for pixies to forge connections and give thanks to their prior tutors and role models!#its also the perfect place for pixies to find potential roommates or to talk with other pixies that's also working in their same department
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it's so brennan to make the villain of the season a dead rage god but also make sure to include themes about how rage is not always bad
#dimension 20#fhjy#fhjy spoilers#fantasy high junior year#like with ally and cassandra in the mall fight too#anyway its been funny to see people hate porter so much#totally makes sense that if you had bad experiences with teachers that he'd upset you!#and it was completely unfair and so frustrating to see how his belief about what gorgug needed was hurting gorgug#but so far hes seemed to be primarily motivated by wanting gorgug to fullfill his potential#like genuinely wanting what he believes is best for his student#and that doesnt make him right but it also doesnt make him a villain ahahaha
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stray homestuck2 thought: there's something about how jake likes blue ladies; and jane, who is coded blue, but chooses to wear red.
#lucabytetalks#homestuck#lucabytereads#still thinking on my avatar joke from yesterday and a discussion i had about jake's emasculation in the plot & how#ppl will staunchly call him Gay when hes one of the dudes in homestuck who most frequently does express some kind of attraction to women#whereas with dudes its like. seemingly mostly just dirk for him. and even thats oft coded with his 'well by jolly he is my good chum#after all and i would hate to see him upset!' same way he approaches his relationship with jane#since i dont think brain ghost dirk is exactly. well yeah hes clearly hung up on the man. but getting in ppls heads and defacto replacing#their internal monologues because He Knows Better is a Dirk Thing... like.. in GENERAL...#this is a messy and im sure not new observation its just idk. while i do think jake and grandpa have the potential to want to BE their#blue ladies and not just want them. i do think they also clearly do want them. its a bit weird that jake's dragging through#the absolute gutter of the narrative is so frequently pointed to as evidence of him being Exclusively Gay#like imo whatever that guy is under the trauma induced aromanticsm. inclduing maybe just actually aromantic. i think its gonna end up like#complicated in some way. hes clearly not just a guy who likes dudes in a clean cut manner...#anyway yeah his relationship to jane is genuinely an interesting addition to his character and i think is more interesting if its not just#Regular Comphet. its more. Comp-Relationship-At-All
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still haven't moved on from zane in this episode (aka I hit tag limit again and am unhappy about it)
#alek insanity#not gonna main tag this but prepare for a tiny rant#home is actually really good zane characterization and its super cool to me how it holds up to this day#s1 characterization is very specific to me because the behaviors displayed by the ninja there (mostly) isnt bc thats how they really are but#its due to societal pressure. cole originally being more 'stone faced tough guy' -> 'down to earth' -> 'really sensible easy to talk to guy'#is because hes always been a sensitive guy... but he felt he couldnt express that true version of himself. thats the whole thing behind his#true potential. jay going from s1 -> s6 -> now is less of societal pressure and more teenager figuring himself out but it still applies. ish#seeing how much the ninja have changed or grown from then to now is amazing because back then they all wore masks. they didnt know each#other all that well. but theyve gained that comfortability with each other and also have grown and matured as people#some seasons / eps characterization for certain people im not a fan of (lloyds random misogyny arc in s13) but i mean the overall trend here#and then there is zane. zane in home was pretty dead on to how he behaves now (at least... when it comes to his faults?) and i dont want to#say people skim over that but i am the sf proclaimed n1 s1e2 fan and overthink every scene. zane's early characterization is some of my fav#for him period. he also goes through a ton of traumatic stuff and a ton of bad writing bouts but why he acts so 'weird' or 'distant' has#always been a thread sewn in. he changed so much he stayed the same in a way... if that makes sense. -> ohhh the ninja get mail and he#doesnt? oh he has no family? he quite literally walks away from that situation. oh the ninja are yelling in his face and asking whats wrong#with him? he literally walks away from that situation. he says its to follow the falcon but seeing how he apologized to them by not only#baking a ton of pies (cough... the food fight is what led to him leaving at first) but he also found them a whole entire new house.#zane is unable to truly value what he does for others. insert him in s11 saying he 'tried' to fufill his goal of protecting others.#everything he has ever done still isnt good enough. then the ninja tried to apologize and he didnt really... let them.#that one post about characters putting on facades and that facade being how people really see them. even in fandom. thats zane to me#the guy who lies about being upset and avoids his problems ran away after being yelled at? and he said he wasnt really mad? that is a lie!!#him being a ~360 when it comes to his character development is neat to me because he never hid behind a mask in the same way the others did#cole wanting to seem tough vs being really soft? kai wanting approval so bad he starts being selfish? kai isnt selfish usually!#he is self centered but that is a whole different thing. just wanting to fit in and breaking free of that. zane's true potential came in the#form of 'i finally know why i am not normal' instead of 'i will be my true self'. zane never pretended to not be weird#(instert book) states he literally didnt know why people got mad at him. he just existed and it was 'wrong'. the mask he hid behind was#avoidance. he was pretty open about how he actually was (most of the time). when he was upset he would audibly sigh and walk away lol#but for him saying he wasnt upset / saddened by the ninja... it felt like a moment of selflessness. if that makes sense. he blamed himself#for the monestary burning down. so he didnt deserve the apologies (ish) in the virtues of spinjitzu zane is shown as the generous one iirc#he puts the needs of others over his own. he will bear whatever burden he needs if others are happy. at that same time he doesnt allow
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Hey boss heard you wanted danganronpa head cannons. Buckle up:
So when Makoto told the gang he wanted to save the Remnants of Despair. Byakuya was the first on board.
Not because he believes in Makoto's 'hope can cure them.' At least not entirely. I feel he saw it as a chance to show the might of the Togami. After the killing game Makoto probably was super famous for saving the world and that upset Byakuya.
So Byakuya sees this little naive man say 'let's rehabilitate the biggest global terrorists while also going against our allies.' He sees this as an impossible task. But nothing is impossible for a Togami... and also he feels if anyone could pull this off it would be Makoto.
oh yeah i definitely think he would be arrogant enough to be like Hm yes it appears someone like yourself isn't suited for this. I Suppose I Have To Step In.
of course he eventually starts believing in the cause because makoto always finds a way (and also byakuya is whipped). But yeah I think initially it'd be a combination of a pride thing and a growing feeling that he'd follow Makoto wherever he goes
#The idea that he's upset by Makoto's newfound global acclaim is interesting though#I always figured he'd be indifferent about it? Maybe if he was the exact same as he was in THH#but its clear by the end of the game he's grown to respect him#or in his words. Is Forced To Acknowledge Him#i think it'd be funny if he was like#so i see you've become a saint for the world. I simply think it should be known that I acknowledged your potential first. Fool.#kyoko standing there .#danganronpa
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ughh why do i have to have njghtmares about them
#in it i was fighting w him over text and then hetm gangsd uep on me#sorry uemin so tired#i have been having a hard time being labelled a quote unquote cheater when i very strongly feel like thats not what happened#and it bothers me knowing that they get to justify their side and avoid responsibility by calling me that#when again. we were literally broken up when i sent that text to the wrong chat#and to be even more fair to me it was the lightest thing of all time it was playful kissies and lovings#like all of this is so wack. like to be labelled that while doing something so small while we werent even together#the drawing stuff is literally normal . ive done that with my kther friends before i even met sable. you are ridiculous#like it just aggrivates me because thats such a sticky smear to put on somebody especially when thats not even what happened#its so overblown and i think thats on purpose to have one last thing to justify your side#and ignore the fact that he was not the best partner to me and stressed me tf out all the time#like how am i a cheater when i played by your rules the whole time we were together#because of how insecure you are. uou let your insecurity become your reality#and i realized how much more taken care of i was with angelo and how naturally we flow together#its so natural to talk to him he is what i have needed. i would be foolish not to pick prince charming#over someone who i felt only fed me stress and anxiety and worry about everything including potential addiction issues#knowing theyre bipolar. knowing they have bpd. participating in dangerous behavior all the time#i feel like calling me a cheater when thats not what fuckin happened is just to handwave away wtf you did wrong the entire time#if i actually cheated id have been slobbering on angels meat the whole time like im sorry#id have been doing spins on it and gagging on it every night but the thing is i didnt#i stayed loyal to you while with you and confided in them as friends while you continuously demanded time from me#that wasnt organic and it was forced half of the time . god i hated playing shit with your stupid ass#so fucking monotone always wanting to do the same shit no variety and always getting upset and throwing tantrums over the smallest things#n then when that behavior once again gets put on me and i get more fucking stressed yeah i turn to my other friends#that arent anything like the other friendgroup because they dont do shit about anything and dont really gaf about snything#except for their own problems#and i confide in the other group because they actually show that they care about me. they relieve stress for me like friends are supposed 2
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"eggdad moments" hes trying to defeat him in half of those pics. satam robotnik holding sonic in one hand was not a comforting gesture
#im not mad or upset shdhdjdn i just think its funny#i enjoy posts if them interacting theyre sooooo fucked up#even eggman saving sonic in lost world was part of his Evil Plan this man does NOT care about sonic. in a way that actually matters#actually i take it back. he has dad potential sndnjdkd#egg.txt
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i feel like im probably gonna be talking about this a lot here since i cant talk to Her about it and it really is bothering me so much
#but i feel bad about this too bc it just feels like im talking about her behind her back. which i am kind of. aughhhhhh#its just. idk large age gaps have just Always bothered me no matter how much my opinions on everything else change!!! i think its a bad idea#and dangerous! almosf everyone else she knows thinks its fine so maybe i am just annoying and insane but i literally cant change how i feel#ive tried#like theres. so much that could go wrong here#hes 10 Years Older. hes had experience dating. hes been an adult for 13 years#shes 21. has basically 0 experience dating. and her mental health is really not great#like she just realized she liked men too a few months ago and shes been in this cycle of getting really really obsessed with guys older than#her really fast and everything they do really affect her. she has trouble recognizing sus behavior and is too afraid of upsetting ppl to her#own detriment#i really hope that this guy is normal (as normal as you can be when ur 31 being with a 21 yr old) but if hes not then this has the potential#to go so so bad#and im worried#no one else seems to be tho so idfk!!! am i just too child brained compared to people who date. maybe. but im so worried
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Man I can't believe I had the chance to go to a performing arts school up through middle school and I fuckin quit after 6 months just because I got bullied. BRO YOUR HOMEWORK WAS POETRY!! YOU HAD TO PRACTICE DANCING TO COTTON EYE JOE AS YOUR BIG UNIT TEST. GYM CLASS HAD A CIRCUS UNIT!! YOU HAD A WHOLE DAILY CLASS ON IMPROV!!! YOU FOOL!! YOU ABSOLUTE IMBICILE!! YOU COULD HAVE BEEN A YOUTUBER!!! YOU COULD HAVE BEEN ONE OF THOSE TWEENAGERS GETTING LOADED BY MAKING SHITTY YOUTUBE SHORTS IN 2008-14!! But noooOoooOOOoo little miss Noellie (who WANTED TO GO!! who worked SO HARD and sent in an application essay and did an INTERVIEW to get in!!) couldn't handle disruptive classmates or little scuffles and petty grudges and general Attitude of the other students and cried to mommy to put her back in public school. I am EATING MY HAIR over what Could Have Been. I COULD BE SOMEONE'S ANNOYING YOUTUBER!! I could be a DISGRACED DISNEY CHANNEL STAR!! I could be an America's Got Talent winner! A mild to moderately successful comedian! I could be making short films!! But no no no precious thin skinned baby me heard a few new cus words and watched a teacher get heckled and begged to give up The Dream in favor of?? Quiet math tests?? I am such a fucking quitter I quit everything the second it gets too hard I always take the out as soon as it's offered what's my fucking damage.....
#I had SO MUCH POTENTIAL and I SQUANDERED IT!! weak ass third grade PUSSY! Your life could have been SO SICK!!#or you could at least be addicted to cocain or something interesting like that!! Boring ass goody two shoes always just staying home doing#NOTHING bitch make a REAL FRIEND go to a God Damn PARTY live a little instead of just hiding in the closet eating saltine crackers for years#waiting for it to be quiet outside before you ever even toed the line#mentally ill self-isolating motherfucker#you could have shrugged it off you could have GROWN A PAIR and FOUGHT BACK but you just ran and cried for mommy#victim complex little bitch baby always whining and exaggerating and making shit up fucking LIAR I am you and I KNOW what you did and I know#you knew it wasn't the truth and you regretted it the moment it came out of uour mouth but once you'd said it you just swallowed it back and#doubled down incriminating or discrediting others with your lies. For why? Because you didn't like them? You could have ruined someone's#life you wouldn't have hesitated mayhe you did and don't even remember because you cant keep your mouth shut with your pants ablaze#manipulative little shit and to WHAT END? Pity? Sympathy? Attention? Entertainment?? What was even going on in your stupid ugly head?#This is a callout post for my third grade self that possessed demon ass evil nine year old. That kid drowned anthills in olive oil and#poisoned a wild animal once. That kid cut plants just to see if they oozed. That kid modified her whole ass personality on a dime for a boy#she had a crush on. INSTANTLY dropped a LIFELONG CULTURAL ALLEGIANCE (thats what football teams were like back then in our town) because he#said he had the opposite allegiance??? What the fuck? girl had NO integrity none zip zilch.#No empthy either that kid looked at everyone else on earth like they were friggin space aliens and she was the only one with Real feelings.#bitch literally thought like 'I have Feelings they just have Reactions' bitch what the fuckkkkk#that nine year old was fucked the hell up!!!#and for literally NO REASON!! No cause!! Just born fucking evil and weird. jesus fuck.#Evil ass bitch caused her autistic brother months of nightmares and then laughed about it and wrote poetry about how evil he was because he?#was a kid??? Normal sibling rivalry taken way way way too far defamatory ass statements#and this girl had NO CONSEQUENCES because she could lie and manipulate her way out of ANYTHING she had the baby eyes and the helpless charm#and played dumb soooo well . read people like some calculative evil AI scanning their faces for microexpressions and overanalyzing each word#choice like holy shit. its not That Deep. pretentious shit trying to play 5D chess on a checkers board.#Manipulating shit just to see what happens?? zero awareness?? no asking just skipping straight to testing for yourself??#'What happens if I step on this' it fucking breaks 'what does that taste like?' it's not fucking yours to mess with 'if I hit this person#how will they respond?' they'll be upset use your goddamn judgement you are NINE not TWO do you even care a little about any other person??#Are you just living in some other reality???#callout post for the fucking demon child inside of me#im so goddamn problematic I'm so so so deeply mentally disturbed and broken for no reason
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oh girls dont look im rambling in here
#spoilers#?? ig?? potential y8 spoilers???????#snap chats#anyway its been recently revealed by hidenari ugaki that he hasn't heard word about reprising his role as majima yet#and like. part of me doesn't mind the possibility of majima not coming back to LaD8 but:#1.) ugaki sounded upset bout the fact he didnt hear back yet :( if it means he isn't worried anymore then please bring maji back#2.) if majima isn't in the game then im just curious as to what the fuck kiryu's purpose is going to be then#maybe he just hasnt gotten word yet so i dont wanna say its official hes not coming back#but LaD8's set to release two years from now- not even maybe a year and then some#so if he hasnt gotten word yet it is lookin a bit uhhh whats the word/phrase. idk Down To The Wire thats it I Think#im not saying majima and kiryu are stapled at the hip and if one of them is there the other one has to be#it's just... it's just so baffling having kiryu come back as a protagonist#this is less of a ramble about majima's potential return to the franchise and more about kiryu's return haha baited yall sorry#him coming back in LaD7 was already a bit of a stretch but i get it- i cant say im totally mad about it#if that would really be the last time we saw him then i wouldve been happy#but yeah im just.. really anticipating LaD8 now like whats he going to do in it if none of the past players are coming back#cause LBR if not even majima is making it when he's been beyond established as a fan favorite then there ain't hope for anyone else#ugh 2024 get here sooner please i just want to know what's going to happen#i also wanna see my boy ichi again. my sunshine my fellow my guy my pal my--#ok thats all from me for tonight feel free to send me your opinions or somethin idk
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even has much angst about many things but the two they do not have any issues with are 1) being a test tube baby until they were adult-sized and 2) the master having swapped out various organs. and bones. and limbs. for parts that work when theirs got damaged beyond repair. usually without their consent. sometimes without their prior knowledge that he could do so. to be fair, that’s mostly because these things tend to accompany a fair amount of blood loss and unconsciousness.
#like. the things around these might bother them but that these happened to them don’t upset them.#much later in life they can go oh! it was kind of fucked up that my first memories are being put to work in waste disposal rather than. idk.#being a child. but it’s not the loss of being a child part that upsets them because they just. don’t really have a frame of reference for#that? they got plenty of childlike wonder into their system vibing with the doctor they don’t feel like they missed anything.#(and also children are small. and powerless. and even is probably more than a little scared by the idea that they ever could have been more#that then they already are.)#and the organ replacements DID happen without them saying the master could do that but like. its not like he hid it. they’re aware it’s#happening and option B was Death. and not their chosen Death By Master. instead just random Death By Organ Puncturing.#if he didn’t tell them he was doing it they’d probably be more upset about it. which. i mean that information could mean anything.#i could be alluding to anything when i say that. potentially.#could be setting up. any number of conflicts. who’s to say. where was i going with this.#dw oc
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I havent really been into the current state of the JJK manga for a while, im at the point where its ending might hold some value for me as someone who was already invested in the characters but largely aside from seeing how a few things pan out I just really really couldn't care less.
that being said I have to thank gege for every new chapter giving us more and more good looking Gojos. the more feral and covered in blood the better, and hoo boy am I getting that.
#god can he just kill sukuna already tho. like idc about this I want gojo v kenjaku#im of two minds on the megumi thing bc I do think its weird that gojo hasn't had any strong thoughts about potentially killing megumi#(tho i do think gege is like. holding them back rather than ignoring them) but I also think the fandom forgets their canon relationship#like yeah its nice to imagine them as a wholesome family but I dont think they even think of themselves as father and son at all lol#guardian and ward morelike. and I do think gojo was a decent guardian but I also dont think that recently traumatized and also annoying#teen gojo was ever like. very emotionally available or comforting. not to say it shouldn't be expected for gojo to be upset about this but#also I think people can get a little too wrapped up in their wholesome family pics. bc for one you can bet your ass gege doesnt care about#tsumiki enough to consider whether gojo was technically her guardian as well and how he'd care about her fate. or even nobaras it seems#holding out for gojo to be simply repressing his feelings and it biting him in the ass later but idk#he DID look strained when realizing megumis soul recognized ultimate void tho :(((( that does make me said :((((((#anyways sukuna was a fine enough villain for me but ngl hes gotten a lil annoying likewhatevs dude idc. kenjaku is hells more cunty than you#normally I wouldn't mind his shallow motives and didnt bc he was a threat that contributed to the plot but now that hes out and running#loose hes just so boring idk. like you're just gonna fight stuff. ok. lame. kenjaku vs gojo might actually have some emotional weight to it#idc about this fight and idc about sukuna#like when gojo mentioned his students and they all grinned. that! that that that he cares about them ok gege!#jujutsu kaisen#jjk 230
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i think it’d be really cool (read: agonizing for jotaro) if after star platinum finally unlocked the ability to stop time it started looking more and more like the world over the years. like its still clearly star platinum but changing in tiny little ways to look more like the world to the point where jotaro barely uses his stand because just seeing star platinum is enough to fuck him up sometimes. and having such a negative reaction to seeing the manifestation of your own soul is predictably not good for him!
#jjba#sorry for making the funny men upset in my brain so much i assure you i think about them being happy too#but its more interesting when theyre having the worst time ever#anyway this post inspired by thinking abt the name star platinum the world and being like man. that kinda makes it sound like#either jotaro has both star and the world as stands or star looks more like the world now#n then latching onto that latter concept#altho i do think the former has got potential too. sorry jotaro#like if after dios death he just stole the world as a stand or smth. whatever thats off track#robin.txt
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ok so i finished season 1 of the white lotus and whats remarkable to me is how relatable every character is like there is no villain no one is wholly evil not even fucking shane or olivia theyre all so painfully real? also so happy for jennifer coolidge who finally got to play a role with some true depth tanya could've easily been another caricature but she evokes so much sympathy i am in awe
#tbh halfway through i completely forgot about the murder mystery introduction and i think that was intentional#like ultimately its not a murder mystery#that whole element has no real bearing on the plot#but as a viewer going into the whole thing with the knowledge that someone *will* die#you're sort of pushed to consider the potential danger#simmering beneath the surface of all that complacency#and frivolity#and ETIQUETTE oh my god#its so well done ugh#its not whodunnit its more like#what in gods name could these people get so upset about#that would warrant that kind of violence#and it makes many of the already uncomfortable scenes downright unbearable#like that conversation between rachel and nicole by the pool jesus christ#or literally everything oilivia says to anyone#oh! another thing i really liked is the fact that we dont really know how rich they all are but my impression is that they're not like#billionaires#like yeah they're doing well nicole is some sort of tech CFO they're certainly upper upper upper middle class#tanya doesnt have to worry about money either and shane is from some waspy old money family but he's not a saudi prince u know?#again. it would have been so easy to overdo the whole thing#turn them into caricatures but NO its all about THEM! theyre not just boogeymen#theyre real and its about them and their attitude that very familiar sense of entitlement#their completely unfounded PARANOIA and the gnawing emptiness that persists despite all that material wealth#LOVE LOVE LOVE everything about it#sorry my thoughts are all over the place#he lied#this is as good as it gets tbh#ALL GROUNDS NO FILTER ☕️#&
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Raine, what are your thoughts on the future child?
Having very clearly just woken up, Raine pauses in the act of making breakfast.
His hair is still tousled, clothes rumpled, expression tired. Evidently, whatever sleep he did get wasn’t great.
“It’s weird as shit,” Raine answers, then yawns.
Which is the truth! Daz and Aster have fought from the word go, evidently having been on less than awesome terms from the moment they first met.
Daz has confessed that he considered killing Aster at one point, before he learned that lives are infinite here. Aster has confessed that he was suspicious of Daz, and rightfully so, and it’s always pissed him off that nobody else caught on.
Predictably, being in the middle of them is an interesting experience.
Y’know, at one point, Raine would have rather died than ever interact with another Tommy. Yet now he’s not just close to two of them, he considers them his best friends.
More than that, they’re not just any Tommys. Both Daz and Aster, for the entire time Raine has known them, have been powerful. Aster’s power lies in his strength, fighting, and those who follow him; Daz’s power lies in his mind, questionable morality, admin spark, and social networking.
At any given point, either of them could have ruined him.
Yet, instead, Raine has become their closest confidant. They turn to him, over and over, in search of reassurance and friendship.
It’s as heartwarming and heady as it is surreal.
In a way, the idea of the two of them getting together isn’t the craziest thing in the world. Enemies to lovers is a trope for a reason, and the core reason why Daz picked so many fucking fights– his paranoid need to have a safety net in Aster being willing to kill him if he ever crossed the line– is gone.
But at the same time…it feels strange.
The idea that they’ll turn from him and seek solace in each other makes him feel weird. Maybe it’s a sense of jealousy, even if it’s not in a romantic sense.
But if both of them are seeing the same thing, and agree on that being their future– and if Daz has spent the night with Aster (albeit probably not in a sexual way)...
Well, it’s probably already happening, right? And it’d be fucked up beyond reason to, what– say they shouldn’t get together?
Raine knows both of them better than anyone, arguably bar Innit. There isn’t a single person who comes close to understanding Daz, and Aster talks to him about some of the ugliest parts of his life.
There’s a beautifully carved wooden axe that hangs in Raine’s room. Delicate lines that seem closer to brush strokes form symbols that carry enough meaning that Raine sometimes gets overwhelmed just looking at it.
That’s another thing him and Aster have in common. He might not look it, but Aster has an artistic streak.
Not that Daz doesn’t, too. His clothing and sewing ability speak for themselves…and, probably, Raine will finally get to wear some of it.
The idea that Daz, despite how close he’s inched over the years, still kept that line between them not because he didn’t want to but because he was afraid that crossing it would kill Raine…
Fuck. That still makes his heart ache with grief for his closest friend.
Because, yes; despite how fucked up he can be, despite his pettiness and borderline sociopathy, despite Raine’s past–
Daz is his dearest friend.
There’s something awe-inspiring about how Daz looked at him and saw worthiness, saw something nobody else ever had. Daz plucked him from nothingness and, after making sure he was ready, revealed a hidden world to him.
The hidden world is something precious to him, now. The quiet power, the confidence of being on the inside for once in his fucking life– the secret fraternity of those with a common, albeit unhinged, goal.
If both Aster and Daz agree that that’s the future, and that they see a kid?
Then Raine believes them. He believes that they’re seeing their future daughter.
…Fuck, it’s so weird to think that, someday, they’ll get married and have a kid. A biological kid, by the sounds of it.
Knowing Daz, everything will be methodically planned and prepared for.
Azira will come into the world with arguably more power even than Lee. If admin sparks are genetic– which they might not be, nobody has any idea how they actually work– and the kid gets one because Daz is her bio dad…
Holy fuck, she’s gonna be untouchable.
Not only will Azira have her fanatically loyal dads, but from the sound of it, Day will be close enough to them that he’ll be like a grandparent.
Oh, and of course, Theo and Lee would be godparents. Raine too, probably, not that he counts for all that much. Aleph and Khons will likely be two more fixtures in her life.
All of that alone is a lot. But on top of that, if she is an admin…
Well. Admins are rare, and she’d be the first admin born in the server.
San would be a bit like a fairy godparent, bending the world to that kid’s whims. Probably– hopefully– nothing too crazy, but, well…San is apparently very fond of all existing admins.
An admin born on the server, related by blood to one of the existing admins, who is beloved by at least three of the aforementioned admins– and probably including Lucid, too?
That’s not a level of power you can reach without insane luck.
…Is it a little weird that Raine feels a vague sense of jealousy about that, too? That this kid will not just become the axis around his best friends’ lives, but be born into a life of love, luxury, and power?
Maybe something to figure out how to talk to his therapist about.
That odd feeling aside, though, he is genuinely happy for his friends. He’s glad that they’re finally burying their stupid fucking hatchet– something he’s championed for years now– and getting along.
He blinks and realizes that the Observers are still present and that he’s halfway through his breakfast.
“Was that not enough? Uh– so, it’s…weird, like I said. But not really in a bad way? I mean, I’m happy for them, obviously. I want them to get along, and I want them to be happy. Them having a kid will be surreal as fuck, but…if that’s what they do, that’s what they do. And that kid is gonna be spoiled rotten by literally everyone, so– she’ll have a good life.”
Feeling a streak of mischief, he adds, “In the meantime, though…maybe if they bang, Daz will be able to unwind for once. He’s wound tighter than a bow aimed at the moon, y’know? Sure, the idea is gross, but I don’t have to know anything about it.”
He pauses, and then tacks on, “Weird as it is to say, maybe they can both just– chill, once that’s a thing they’re doing.”
From how Daz taunted Aster in that surreal and upsetting meeting, it sounds like they do actually get up to…that.
Weird! Raine has never seen either of them show or express interest in literally anyone, beyond Daz mentioning a sort of clinical, aesthetic appreciation on very rare occasion.
He was under the impression that they were both aro/ace. Evidently, though, that’s not true…or, really, maybe they’re something close? Demi, or something.
It’d track if that’s what they’ve been all along, and their existing extreme feelings just kinda…flips to the other end of the spectrum and turns romantic.
Holy shit, actually– Raine cannot fathom a reality in which either of them cheat.
Both of them are loyal to the point of fanatic zealotry. Both of them hate the concept of traitors and betrayal.
If they do get together, and especially get married, and even have a kid…
Yeah, no. Once they decide on that path, there’s no going back. The two of them will probably do something stupidly stubborn like die in their sleep together rather than only one of them living.
…Will Aster move in here, or will Daz take it upon himself to redo Aster’s house and move in there?
Huh. Living alone would be…weird.
…Maybe it’ll be worth feeling out Innit, seeing if its cool or not. It definitely did fuck up, but as Aster pointed out– so did most of Sanctuary.
Plus the punishment was pretty damn extreme. And if Innit truly does just want to live in peace…
It might just need a friend.
#chronotag#rainestorm#as mentioned; Raine has THOUGHTS#and they all center around 'weird af /pos' and a slight sense of jealousy#Raine on the 'hey maybe Innit just kinda. needs support actually' train lmao#its a part of Daz and he's used to Daz. surely Innit can't be THAT much worse right??#(yes and no. no in the ways he's worried about but yes in other ways that would be emotionally upsetting)#also like. Daz hating a part of himself? Raine is like 'yeah that tracks tbh.'#Raine is in a fascinating position of being extremely close to both Aster and Daz. closer to Daz but also they literally live together#and also Daz is the one who singled him out as a potential candidate for the Council/Welcome Wagon#so like. duh he's got a big attachment to him
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