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snake dust lore
tw child abuse/murder
tw jincan experimentation
tw illegal monster trafficking
tw death
he was born in an illegal black market monster trafficking site.
specifically the result of countless trials and errors with throwing monsters to each other's throats just to live. he survived being wiped out due to his speed and clocking ability. his siblings we're not so lucky.
the experiment was an ancient tradition that had been modernized and twisted into a sick display of the worse cruelty humans had to offer. jincan was banned ever since the human monster war era. though that did little to stop the humans from weaponizing LV. increasing it's potency through creating addicted mind slaves that would only be born to serve the purpose of being their exp.
then again... nature also had the same excuse but animals wouldn't be counting only feed out of instinct.
so many bites, so much poison running through his tiny soul that was one chip away from snapping into shards.
so much pain. and yet by some luck. by some faint glimmer of determination he'd barely make it out... one day after another barely surviving.
he was slowly developing a unique tolerance to the toxins. and finally being the "result" the humans were after... immunity to toxic magic? or was it to create a venom potent enough to kill thousands for their little weapons?
he knew he wasn't the only one... the humans made sure to have PLENTY of test subjects to kill off before letting "unnatural selection" do it's thing. he had competition...
the luxurious food, or the praises... the fake smiles they'd give him looking at him like he was some sort of object... he was too prideful to let himself fall for it.
he didn't care. he just wanted to get out.
after a while they stopped throwing him in the pit. instead they would directly forcefully inject him with whatever "safe dose" of deadly substance they had to make a "cure". and it was extracted from his competitors...
just another guinea pig that was one of the very few to make it to adulthood through a hellscape.
family? siblings? friends? why even bother when they'd just be used against you?
mates? just for these freaks to make more of his kind suffer? just to repeat the cycle? no. no he wouldn't play their dumb sick game.
if they wanted a monster he'd give them one. he'd kill all their PRECIOUS research results, then himself and burn the place down. it didn't matter. nothing mattered.
though it never came into fruition.
he eventually escaped containment as he was being transported to a bidder. he went into hiding unsure where and where to strike back. all he could do was wait.
it was what had kept him alive so far after all.
#this is dark#basically dusttale but not#this bean losts his family when he was three weeks old#fuking protect the bean#he only trusts himself#scratch that he doesn't even trust himself#he would have more issues than dusttale sans ngl#childhood trauma just hits different#friking raised in a Minecraft mob grinder
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i think a lot of people are calling viktor’s reaction to waking up changed and then almost immediately leaving for zaun unrealistic and like… yes it would be. for someone whose mind has not been affected by the hexcore. he speaks differently, he hears sky’s voice through its influence, he can no longer feel the cold, or the warmth of jayce’s hug. he walks away from jayce because he can no longer feel the affection that kept them together, and he sees no logical point in remaining when they have no common ground anymore. he might not be a machine externally, exactly, but his mind certainly isn’t human anymore.
#you KNOW he was seeing visions in that coma. he knew exactly where to go and what he was going to do#even before this he had so little self worth. he saw himself as only being worth as much as his inventions.#he never saw himself as someone worthy of love; he barely saw himself as anyone at all#the only person he KNOWS saw him as more than that is dead and it’s his fault#and waking up and finding out what jayce has done only cements the fact he cannot trust jayce to do what he himself thinks is right#there’s no way he could stay with jayce and do what he needs to do to help the zaunites. at least in his mind anyway#sighhhh. anyway i will probably have to write fic about this tomorrow lmaooo#arcane#jayvik#arcane s2 spoilers#p
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The musical episode.
[First] Prev <–-> Next
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#jin guangyao#nie mingjue#Remember jin guangyao: If you do any treachery you will face the wrath of five horses.#When are the horses going to come into play? You'll see.#s2.ep8 had beautiful music... I listened to it on loop while drawing!#Good music to chill out to before you fly into a rage.#This episode really cements how JGY's mind works - It is a matter of long-term outcomes at the sake of nearly everything else.#Morals do not matter to him if the outcome is more favourable.#and at the center of it all - he has learned that the only person he can truly trust is himself.#In turn - the only person his actions benefit are himself.#He will do anything and everything it takes to reach a position of power - not just for the power. But because it means safety.#Because it was something he was denied and the idea of not having control in his life again is unforgivable.#'Happiness' isn't a goal. We are looking at someone still stuck at the bottom of Maslow's hierarchy of needs.#Everything and everyone is a piece in a game. Bonds and friendships are assets. People are dispensable.#He wants to climb for the sake of climbing. He wants praise and recognition because he feels it is deserved. It's all so hollow.#We could go deeper into his psyche on this.#But these are also tags under a comic in which 'evil penis music' is the punchline.
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Learn from who? Learn from you?
Chen Bowen as CHEN YI & Chiang Tien as AI DI KISEKI: DEAR TO ME (2023)
#kiseki: dear to me#kisekiedit#kdtm#kiseki dear to me#ai di x chen yi#chen yi x ai di#nat chen#chen bowen#louis chiang#chiang tien#jiang dian#userspring#uservid#pdribs#userspicy#userjjessi#*cajedit#*gif#uh huh. mmhm. parallels and shit#OK LIKE. in nice words ai di essentially tells chen yi to go for it BUT bc hes a Lil Shit he says it like 'use force to PROVE how you feel.#followed by '.....OH WAIT YOU CANT BEAT HIM'. the way he rubs that in chen yi's face too like it isnt even 'youre weaker than him.'#it's you're LOWER than him. & thats why ai di calls him a coward bc therell always be a divide between chen yi & cdy that chen yi wont cros#and the point of this is - okay i know chen yi is literally picking ai di up and throwing him around here but also you have to remember#ai di LETS HIM. ai di doesnt fight back as hard as he could and that puts them on EVEN. EQUAL. GROUND. every time.#& yeah theres some comedy to it but you cant Ever forget that ai di wants chen yi to want him. needs it. he's faking sleep in the 1st scene#and once chen yi realizes what he wants he puts everything he has into keeping it - inadvertently taking ai di's advice by doing so -#& expresses it in every kind of way too. whatever it takes. bc between the two of them its not just 'bring him back' it's 'bring him HOME'#in a way thats based on the constantly being witness to the worst of each other & choosing it AND. years and layers of trust & love.#..ok only I would take a gifset of chen yi picking ai di up & make it abt how their relationship is perfectly balanced. but im right so idc#the last one ties it all together in my onion. chen yi got him home. and ai di's deliberately allowing himself to be loved. they won
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What were you calling me? Mobius. It’s a pretty cool name.
Loki 1x02 // 2x05
#mobius#loki#lokius#mcuedit#lokiedit#marveledit#loki spoilers#owen wilson#tom hiddleston#please the way no matter who mobius is he's always gonna trust loki he can't help himself 😭😭#and loki only telling mobius the truth trying so hard to be as genuine and charming and kind as possible so don would like him...#honestly lokius in s2 is all i could look for in a ship bc no matter what they're so genuinely devoted to each other it's insane#don#marvel#owenwilsonedit#dianagifs#loki s2 spoilers
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*clutches head in hands* kirk and spock have such a beautiful relationship....it doesnt even matter if you like them platonically or romantically.....'you belong at his side....as if you've always been there and always will'.....*uncontrollable sobbing*
#get urself a friend whos the only place that feels like home#LIKE?#its so lovely to me that they just love each other#their friendship is canonically just intensely tender and trusting ARRRGHHHHH#and the way jim goes out of his way to defend spock and the way he is#and to create an accommodating atmosphere#that doesnt expect spock to be anything other than himself#oh the queerness of it all#the found family#the COMPASSION#OTL i fear i shall never recover#spirk#star trek#star trek tos#ramblings
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they hated illario because he was a d1 yapper who was bad at assassinating people and was so annoyingly drunk and grief stricken at his cousin’s wake that viago had to drug him to shut him up (so what if he was also the guy who set his cousin up to die/disappear) . and also for working with the venatori and selling out the antivan crows i guess.
#illario as a guy who regretted his power grab but had no choice but to double down after lucanis came back is interesting to me btw#not entirely canon compliant to how the story is set up but yeah#even illario going WHAT . when he finds out lucanis is alive i am choosing to believe is him panicking because#zara did not in fact get him to die. illario thought he would die there. he did not. (what has he done) (shit. he has to do it himself)#and double on that . caterina didnt trust him enough to tell him#once again reminded he is dellamorte the lesser !#and still he knows hes not even a good crow. he couldnt actually kill lucanis. he cant actually bring himself to kill lucanis!#so ofc he spends the next act trying to manipulate him into leaving and for lucanis to believe its his own doing#and only when all of this fails (too soft to even kill his grandma btw) he has a public brawl w lucanis#that ends so badly for him that he is humilated in front of all the remaining talons#hes literally my babygirl#illario dellamorte#dav spoilers#dav#txt#rook: im sorry abt illario :/#viago: dont be. he had many unredeeming qualities from before he was a traitor
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I'd like to take a moment to point out to detractors of ships involving Laios who feel that "Laios wouldn't take any interest in people!" that he'd hyperfixated on Shuro so badly it was ruining the man's life lmao
#dungeon meshi#dunmesh spoilers#not even discounting that he'd be aroace or anything just that laios is perfectly capable of taking an interest in people#labru#this one's for labru nation#laios stating the reason that (alongside with having a genuine interest in shuro's home)#he was so excited because he thought shuro considered him a friend#could you even IMAGINE how he'd be with a person who went c o m p l e t e l y out of his way to be his friend on purpose#venturing into the dungeon putting himself in danger dying over and over again just to get close to him and his party#can you#i can#none of this even mentioning how the series ends with laios developing a genuine desire to take a bigger interest in humans#but i wont hold that against the anime onlys#side note it just kills me how laios (who is so painfully trusting of people) to immediately think kabru is lying to him here#god#top 10 characters who absolutely rot my brain
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something happening on a mission, something personal that has soap spiralling; panic and rage making him reckless, thoughtless, and ghost has to draw the line
“you’re compromised johnny; you know what that means?”
“you’re not pulling me out,” soap immediately snarls. he turns on him and ghost barely recognises him; venomous fear turning his eyes to unyielding ice. "you're not sidelining me; i need to be in this-!"
but ghost has never been afraid of venom; spat or dripped straight from bared fangs.
he snakes out a hand grip the back of his neck, jerking him in a rough shake. "if you can't think, you can't be a soldier," he growls and he flinches like he's been struck.
his lips quiver as they twist in a sneer and he wrenches, trying to free himself of his hold.
ghost doesn't let him.
"it means you give your body to me because your head ain't fucking attached to it anymore."
soap stills, body trembling beneath his hand as he sucks in shaking breaths.
he tightens his grip, pulling him closer and digs his forehead hard into his. “it means you give yourself to me so i can have the weapon that you are and use you the way you're meant to be used."
the ice in soap's eyes fractures.
ghost’s voice drops to a whisper, spoken only to johnny, not this facade of vengeance and pain, and wills it to reach him through the glaciers.
“so i can keep you safe ‘til it’s done and i can bring you back.”
#in my head its bc graves abducts his sister and is using her as hostage to draw him out knowing ghost will always follow him#but the intensity and intimacy of saying ‘you cant trust your mind not to betray you so let me be in charge of your body until you can’#after what happened to tommy he could never deny johnny his right to save his sister#but its bc of what happened to tommy that he knows he cant let him do it alone with only his rage to guide him#hes more likely to get himself killed and ghost wont live through that#so he has to balance it#and the only way he knows how is to completely shut down soap’s mind until hes no more than instinct and muscle memory#if he cant think practically then dont let him think at all#reduce him to a place where he can only follow orders#and when its finally over and his sister is safe and graves is dead#only then will he drag johnny back up to the surface#he’ll do it even if it means dragging him kicking and screaming back to humanity#instead of letting him sink in the depths where nothing hurts. theres no fear down there. no pain. only order#and thats the risk ghost took sending johnny to that place but he only did it bc he would stop at nothing to bring him back#and help him through the after#the breakdown. the rush of panic and rage and relief and anguish johnnys been supressing on his order#it was his word that turned johnny into a ghost#and its his touch that brings him back to the man#coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt#we’re a team. ghost team#cod#soapghost#ghostsoap#ghost x soap#ghoap#simon ghost riley#ghost cod#john soap mactavish#soap cod#save post
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man who enjoys every single second he's dedicated to hating to the point it pisses everyone except him off
#thomas the tank engine#thomas and friends#ttte hiro#ttte spencer#ttte gordon#casa tidmouth#senjart#as put by edwards-exploit:#''hater spencer is so funny he tried to kill hiro and for what. ofc dead family jokes is on the table for him''#hes literally in that grindset. hating everyone while still maintaining his status as the specialest most priveleged guy on sodor#it's a living to him#bringing back the headcanon that spencer attends his cousins' funerals only to gorge himself with the food there. truly a genius.#I love him so much. he should get worse because it's so entertaining. how did he end up like this#thinking about the hero of the rails arc of casa tidmouth and grimaced#okay last art post before I post the 1000 milestone poll tomorrow. TRUST
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sam literally offering himself to dean in 2.11 playthings, and dean not giving it to him because he doesn’t want to “ruin” his little brother
and this is why sam would initiate. AND he would prefer to bottom
#playthings sam & his body language is so important tbh#the thing is. when it comes to their romantic dynamic i can only see bottom!sam as the only realistic option because#it’s canon that he frequently offers his body to dean as a punching bag so who’s to say he wouldn’t offer himself as more than that?#especially since he wants dean’s trust & approval more than anything#it’s about his body language it’s about his PHYSICAL submission to dean!#it’s about the fact that dean is the only one sam trusts & adores enough to allow himself to be that vulnerable#like yes blatantly s*xual dynamic isn’t canon but you can get some hints at what it could’ve been by analyzing their interactions#and especially sam’s body language#and how dean has this urge to possess sam & desperately craves some power/control over him#and sam is aware of that and he’s willing to give it to him#wincest#samdean#spn
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Vanha Kauppahalli date: en full, a 2 minute 50 second masterpiece...
Primetime Panthers | 11.6.24 (x)
#aleksander barkov#matthew tkachuk#florida panthers#2425#the global series is a gift#“alright talk to me what do we got?” with the camera following behind them makes it seems like theyre spies doing reconnaissance#the start to a thriller where they got sent to finland stake out for intelligence#maffhew not even waiting for sasha to answer before hes asks about chocolate#“the purple one you always bring” maffhew has been charmed by sashas leaving choco in stalls as gifts when he comes back from finland huh#you can tell he says that with depravity of a man who finally realises he doesnt need to rely on his supplier he can get it himself now#“uh oh [laughs] okay... what is this?” maffhew was not prepared for all the food to already be ready for him he just hopped off a plane and#expected to have to wait more and did not and absolutely does not trust the situation in the same way you get romantic candlelit-dinnered#and youre like alright whats all this then whats your angle what are you doing#“this is salmon and rye bread 😄” “(with the eagerness to prove hes smart and engaged) so is that 👉” “(charmed) and so is that 🫱”#“ill try your favourite first” GURL RELAX OKAY SETTLE DOWN YOURE IN A NEW COUNTRY JUST CHILL MAN#“salmon and rye bread—thats the famous one 🤓” [sasha nodding along because he has to reassure maffhew but also hes in the middle of eating]#maffhew choosing the most inopportune time and you can TELL sasha is like [swallows quickly] because he wants to answer but also BIG BITE#“herring” “herrin' 🤠?” “eating all this her-RING” no notes#“is this just another salmon on rye bread” he says with hope because he likes salmon but also disappointment (he wants to try more foods)#“different salmon? smoked?” the amount of questions hes askijg because hes so terribly engaged he wants to know and sashas like [shrug]#he has to get an A+ in experiencing finland which is normal to want and possible to achieve#“i still love your country though” and sasha explodes into the mirthful grin ive seen in my life like he just won the damn jackpot#he speaks at 100 mph like please take a deep breath sweetheart youre excitement is papable but PLEASE#THE WAY HE GETS SO UNSURE WHEN HE MENTIONS BARKY HATES THAT FOOD WHEN HE LIKED IT SO MUCH#MAFFHEW YOU CAN GET A PASSING GRADE IN EXPERIENCING FINLAND IF YOU STICK TO YOUR GUNS I PROMISE#SASHA HELP A GUY OUT HERE MAN THROW HIM A BONE#SASHA ONLY LAUGHS AS MAFFHEW THROWS HIMSELF INTO A TIZZY OVER THIS YOU ARE SOOOOOO#the chuckle when sasha mentions he had runebergin torttu in school... id like to know what was funny there#we call out sasha for being too lovesick and laughing at all of maffhews “jokes” BUT HES JUST AS BAD???#“what the hell do i do with this thing?” MAFFHEW HAVE YOU NEVER SEEN MERENGUE IN YOUR LIFE???
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my offering for swap!au (dozo)
i have a lot of Thoughts about this au. specifically where both kni and vash's goals differ but yet i still try to keep the same. the shift is, who was the one who got rem's speech after tesla's revelation.
kni uses his powers of creation so as not to let his sisters suffer the end of a last run anymore. hence the black hair. meanwhile, vash doesn't want to eradicate all of humanity, but to control them and strip them of their free will. he thinks in this way, he could control how plants are to be treated and kni won't have to slowly kill himself for the Humans and their sisters. he's starting a cult lmao
#i have more Thoughts on this#kni also does preses his head against the glass of a plant's tank but instead of healing the plant#he learns how to create whatever the plant was designed to generate#i also think with vash having lost faith on the only human he thought he could trust and love like a mother#he'd be Extra clingy to kni and the separation anxiety is Real af. like really 'there's no one else but you' vibes#and for them to be opposing forces i think vash wouldnt care so much about the plants as much as kni does.#he just wants his brother by his side and not to slowly kill himself for them Period#you could say he'd be a little jealous as well.#SO MANY POSSIBILITIES!!!#trigun#trigun stampede#KV#plantcest#swap au#millions knives#vash the stampede#redsoda art
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He'll make it back.
Loki 1x05 // 2x01
#mobius#loki#lokius#mcuedit#lokiedit#marveledit#loki spoilers#owen wilson#tom hiddleston#dianagifs#owenwilsonedit#marvel#for the anon who asked about my fav parallel this is it!!#for now anyway... 👀#forever a cautious optimist lol#the way loki finally isn't running they WANT to stay they WANT to come back to the only person who's ever grounded them...#in s1 mobius has already accepted he'll probably never see loki again that they'll be on to bigger better things#and mobius always wanted that for them so he makes himself move on then loki not only appears again physically fighting to be with him#but also making clear to everyone there's mutual respect and care and trust in being able to make things better including themselves#fun fact no one in their entire lives has ever put either of them first but each other so please enjoy thinking about that for eternity 🫠#loki s2 spoilers
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something is deeply wrong w/ them (I want to watch them in their natural habitat)
#og art#cxlvxn#from the fog#idk it’s some about the betrayal of trust#wolf in sheep’s clothing but worse (it is a sheep but something’s FUCKED UP)#Calvin surrounding himself in passive mobs to isolate himself from the hazards outside#only for them to become twisted n wretched themself#but he can’t fully separate himself from the population cuz if he does he’s fully alone and exposed to the evil
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Crystal Warnings
Threats to Earth are not news to the Justice League. Neither is the fact that a threat is "too powerful" for them, what is new is that the U.S. government wants to provide them with help, since when have they ever wanted that?
It is a novelty that does not sit very well with Bruce, because he feels that there is something wrong with the situation. They had faced thousands of dangers but it is only now that they are offering something? Definitely suspicious.
However Clark's curiosity was only outweighed by Barry's desperation to find a solution so he agreed to listen to what the "GIW" had to say.
Apparently their current threat was very much connected to them, which Bruce was not surprised by, what did surprise him was that the threat was less of a threat and more of a warning of sorts. As usual, people had played with things they shouldn't, causing catastrophic results.
The organization that contacted them had some sort of crystal, they flatly refused to say where it came from but explained that it was very important to beings from another dimension, and they were trying to contain the threat but found it impossible.
What Bruce got out of that conversation was that the organization had greatly disturbed a civilization full of unknown beings for the sheer joy of it. And that their current enemy was nothing more than a being desperate to retrieve whatever the crystal was.
Clark, of course, asked them for the crystal, to which they seemed very reluctant but in the end agreed. And Bruce set about contacting Diana, because he was sure they needed a diplomatic intervention rather than an actual battle.
It became clear that the crystal was extremely important when the giant eldritch menace transformed into a desperate teenage girl the moment the crystal appeared in her field of vision. That was even more evident when hundreds of portals began to form around the place, different creatures scowled at the humans.
Bruce vowed never to place his trust in organizations outside the League and its allies again. He swore doubly so when the crystal stopped being a crystal and transformed into a groggy, sleepy teenager mid-conversation.
There really was a hell of paperwork ahead. But at least the world was saved from human stupidity, again.
#dpxdc#Danny was captured by the GIW#Kind of#he was actually a little hurt and withdrew to heal himself in his core#the GIW just found him#Danny was sleeping for a while#probably due to the lack of ectoplasm in the environment than anything else#Ellie obviously noticed his absence#Clockwork indicated to the halfa that Danny was on earth but he did not know where#Danny is the only being that Clockwork cannot predict#Unfortunately#so Ellie got a little aggressive during her search#dp x dc#dc x dp#The GIW knew the crystal was important but didn't understand why the ghosts wanted it#Batman obviously doesn't trust their judgment#Danny took a long nap by accident#and Ellie destroyed a couple of buildings by accident too#ghost king danny
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