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Love having a lurking f/o. I don't think there is a time where I am not focused on him at all. Like... he gets his time in the spotlight, for sure. However, even with other f/os as my main hyperfixation, this silly little fucker straight up lurks in the shadows.
#self ship#self ship community#self shipping#f/o#romantic f/o#selfship community#f/o community#self shipping community#selfship#targeted#completely targeted#fictional other#f/o stuff#fangirl#i havent seen anyone else talk about this#so i might be the only one#oh well#he making sure i dont forget him fr#i never would anyway but you know#he loves rotting my brain
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caleb is 10 when he realizes that he's a physical touch fiend. the rush he gets when his hand lingers on top of your skin after playing with you is like no other. when he presses into your side while you're reading, his thoughts always circle around one topic: you, you, you. when you would run into his room after a nightmare, caleb was ready to swoop you in his arms and hold you until you fell asleep. every response towards you was involuntary.
caleb is 15 when he realizes that teasing 13-year-old you becomes irresistible. when he holds up your book, pencil, or some other item in the air, he watches as you jump up and down to try and grab it back. he's grown a lot in three years; if he had to estimate, he's a whole head taller than you now—20cm at least.
when you throw yourself onto him in an attempt to get your stuff back, he falters. you're laying against him on the couch, shuffling and moving up and down over his body, and caleb's breath hitches. you're so close and right there.
he's going insane. you can't even stand up for five seconds before caleb pulls you down against him once more, saying something about retaliation or revenge while tickling you to death.
caleb is 20 when he's about to leave for the DAA. there's an air of silence around the house. you've trapped yourself in your room more often, stressing over your senior finals. at least, that's what you've been telling him.
"i'm sorry caleb, i really need to study for this test."
"oh! i totally forgot about that project i had due tonight. shit, i'm sorry caleb. we'll have another movie night soon, okay?"
he doesn't know if you're actually this busy or if you're actually ignoring him. all he does know is that he misses you. he wonders about how he could miss someone who was in the room across from him. you were so close, but so far.
when you found out he was leaving—though you had a grin on your face while congratulating him—caleb knew you were devastated. he wondered if you were secretly mad at him for leaving.
two weeks before his departure, he practically forces you to be around him. he laid down next to you like before. he stroked your hair while you napped on the couch. he teased you and picked you up so you could hit him and grab him like you used to. he always chose to put his arm around you during a movie. he dragged you by the hand all around the neighborhood. he needed to all of that again, a thousand times more.
but at 24, it seems like there may have been a wedge between the two of you. calls are more and more infrequent.
"sorry, space signal sucks," he'd type.
"sorry, i was busy with training!" you'd reply, 2 days later.
he thinks that he would do anything to go back to before. he hasn't felt you in months. he sees you only twice a year.
it's hard. it was excruciating during the first few weeks. not only was he dealing with bootcamp, but he always found himself looking to his side, thinking you'd be there with him. at night, you were there, right next to him in bed.
he imagined that you would whisper words of reassurance in his ear. you'd hold onto him like you used to, when you had nightmares, and wrap your legs between his. there were days where we stroked his necklace, wishing that it was your hand instead. what he would give to have you next to him.
all he wants is to be able to feel you again. he chastises his 10-year-old self for taking you for granted back then. he wants to feel the apples of your cheeks when he caresses your face. once,—when he was 13 (you, 11)—he did that, and he thought you had a fever the way you warmed up. if he could, caleb would build a time machine to go back to that.
caleb is 25 when he is out of your life.
he thinks about you every day. it reminds him of when he was in bootcamp five years ago. it takes him back to when he was fifteen; you were on top of him, and his brain was fried to a crisp. caleb wonders if he's always been this way, because he can recall that at ten, you were still the only thing consuming his mind.
even during his arm repairs, you're there throughout all the pain.
when you discover his metal arm, all of caleb's instincts point to the door. he's spent so long trying to hide it from you: it's the constant long-sleeves (even though they made him incredibly uncomfortable), or making sure to only touch you with his left-hand (even though he wanted to pull you in with both hands).
but he stays. because it's you.
you freeze momentarily, listening to his writhes and moans of pain. caleb only notices you're there when he feels your hands brush his shoulder. he jolts back in surprise, and he sees you looming over him.
he stammers something, not even sure of what he said because you're here. you see him. you see it.
caleb's wanted this for so long. he wanted to see you again, in a state where you were both vulnerable, like old times. however, that moment probably wouldn't have come if he doesn't confess about this, so he relays the details.
you listen attentively, eyes wide with shock as caleb goes on. your hands wrap around his metal one, and he feels nothing. it's agonizing. he sees you examine him so gently. your fingers trace over bolts and plates of metal, lightly stroking up and down his arm. and caleb feels nothing.
how often has he dreamed of this? for you to be touching him again, so intimately and softly? he's stayed up countless nights wishing for you to be here, just so he can put his arms around you in a crushing embrace, only to be incapable of feeling you on one side of his body.
you pull away from his arm, asking if the fleet was accountable. when he doesn't say anything, he feels your weight lift off the bed and go towards the door.
whatever happens next is involuntary. he uses his flesh arm to pull you back, caging you between his forearm and his chest. there's no thought to it, no rationalization. it's just you and him. and he's been deprived of this for so long.
he breathes into the crevice of your neck, and he has half a mind to place his entire face there. he wants to breathe you in after being away from you for so long. no conversations, no contact, no touching. the last time he was this close to you was years ago. he needs this, caleb thinks.
the feel of you against his bare chest is something he cannot seem to describe. it's like he's his teenage (or even kid) self again, where he seems to short-circuit whenever he comes in contact with you. you're still small compared to him, but you fit perfectly like you did a decade ago.
he lets you go after he feels you trembling. you don't hesitate to place your hands on his waist and tackle him onto the bed. you catch him off-guard as you pin him beneath you, looking straight into his eyes.
"hold me," you plead, "with your right hand."
caleb lets out a shaky breath. there are voltages of electricity flowing through him—literally and figuratively. his skin sparks alive when he feels you. will it be the same with the metal arm?
slowly, caleb raises his mechanical arm. he wraps it around you, and feels the movement of your back shift downwards. you released a breath you didn't know you were holding. caleb held his.
you wait patiently before caleb starts running his metal hand up and down your back. you watch him exhale as he continues. you press your forehead on his, and you breathe in tandem with him.
caleb is 25 when he discovers that he loves physical touch.
wow like i didn't expect this to get so long... but like here we are???
i think we need to start embracing touch-starved caleb in all of our fics. this man hasn't seen the love of his life in YEARS (infrequently, anyway) so i think once she touches him (like INTIMATELY) for the first time in years he goes a little cray.
also sorry the ending was rushed i wanted to get this over with bc i intented this to be like 500 words but obviously it got way longer than that. what can i say... this freak has dug into my brain.
#love and deepspace#lads#lnds#lads caleb#lnds caleb#caleb lads#love and deepspace x reader#love and deepspace x you#lads x reader#lnds x reader#caleb x reader#caleb x mc#lads caleb x reader#lnds caleb x reader#caleb has taken over my brain like he's rotting it
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Charles saved Edwin from hell with the power of love and a molotov cocktail and I just think that’s really beautiful
#Even if he doesn’t know quite HOW he loves him yet holy hell that is a level of devotion that is unwavering#He went to hell for him#THERE IS NO ONE ELSE HE WOULD GO TO HELL FOR#(Also loving that Jayden was like “yeah I’d go to hell for George they are so cute)#Anyway- Love is Real#when does the brain rot stop#Payneland#charles x edwin#chedwin#painland#my posts
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this guy, i swear to god...
#i feel like im painting with crayons#does that make sense?#my brain rot is brain rotting#jayce talis#arcane jayce#arcane#arcane league of legends#league of legends#art#my art#fanart#digital art#artists on tumblr#jayvik#because why not#he so fine#i love him#and thus i cannot make him justice#EDIT: WHYY IS TUMBLR MAKING IT AL BLURRY AAAAAGGHG
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Sylus has been making me go absolutely insane I feel like a medieval man seeing a woman’s ankle for the first time
#my art#love and deepspace#lnds#otome#love and deepspace fanart#l&ds#love and deepspace sylus#lnds fanart#lnds sylus#l&ds sylus#sylus#digital illustration#digital art#fanart#would let him do anything to me#I want him so badddd#he has reignited my lnds brain rot
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baxter fucking ward (bacteria ward)
i jave rabies
i havwnt slept sinc eyestsrday
#olba#olba baxter#baxter ward#olba baxter ward#art#fanart#oc#procreate#original character#our life beginnings & always#our life#baxter#olba mc#olba fanart#olba oc#dancing#he is the love of my life#the love of my life!!!!#my art#my ocs#my artwork#i have rabies#baxter ward is rotting my brain#but mom i love him#kiss the boy#GRAHHHH
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creaking grian
this is entirely @gladumf's fault
also technically fanart for their fic but it is not out yet lol, i'll add the link here when it is!
edit: the fic is finally here! go read it
flat colors cause i think they're nice

#i dont know what happened but this was so easy to draw#heart and soul (name of the fic in progress) hasn't even been rotting my brain all the much#i just got like possessed or something idk#he's so silly though i love him#grian#grian fanart#creaking grian#hermitcraft#fic fanart#raff's art
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twelve spending 4.5 billion years punching through a 20ft thick wall of azbantium, a material apparently 400x harder than diamond, dying repeatedly in the process, all so he could get clara back... like whether you see them as platonic or romantic you cannot deny that he quite literally loved her to death
#me when i'm mentally ill#he had a duty of care or something#funny ass way to say i love you so much i'd spend 4.5 billion years dying and destroy time itself so we could explore the universe together#there is a rot in brain that is just Them#they still get to me BAD#tears in my eyes#sobbed#sobbing#will continue to sob#doctor who#twelveclara#clara oswald#twelfth doctor#12th doctor#peter capaldi#jenna coleman#the doctor#whouffaldi
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bf!ratio who models for your paintings. despite having made a number of sculptures of himself, the thought of seeing himself in the perspective of his lover still brings him joy.
and the fact that you had your undivided attention on him? taking in every detail and murmuring soft lovesick praises? yes, please.
“you’re breathtaking.” you commented, hands placing themselves on his body, gently guiding him to a pose you deemed perfect for your painting (to be honest, he could pose in any way and it'll still be perfect).
“i know.” he replied, body going lax as your hands hover over him, hoping you wouldn't point out the soft redness of his cheeks.
your soft chuckle sounded heavenly to his ears, lightly shivering at the way your fingers danced over the exposed skin of his bicep, taking your time to feel every curve and dip of his muscles. you were obvious in your affections for him, while he was the complete opposite, being so subtle that others would question if you truly were dating or not.
“for the anatomy.” you murmured, a lame excuse to feel his soft skin, only earning a hum from him.
your hands traveled to his hips, guiding it to a pose as well. the way you purposefully dragged your hand over his body, touching him in a way that he was quite sure was more than innocent, he was convinced you were trying to rile him up.
“there. that's perfect, hold that pose for me.” your hands backed away from him, making the man fight back a noise of displeasure at the loss of contact. however, the loving kiss you placed on his shoulder blade took him aback.
“thank you, love.”
“hmph, im just returning the favor.” he replied, referring to the time you also modeled for him for a sculpture.
and speaking of, he'd surely pay you back for your teasing the next time you model for him.
#honkai star rail#hsr#dr ratio#veritas ratio#x reader#ratio x reader#dr ratio x reader#hsr dr ratio#hsr dr ratio x reader#dr ratio x reader fluff#hsr fanfic#honkai star rail fanfic#im mentally ill for this man#i love him with everything i have#he's so perfect im crying#late night ratio thoughts#i cant sleep bro is in my mind 24/7#ratio brain rot is real
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"Are You Here for Me or the Soup?"
"Are you sure? It's good soup!" commission of Reth from a friend in the Soup Server
#art#artists on tumblr#palia reth#palia fanart#fanart#commission#what a lovely self indulgent art I can stare at#i need#i crave#more art of the boy#whether by my hands or anothers#he has rot my brain
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“hold” - Jegulus microfic - @into-the-jeggyverse - 488 words
this, but make it jegulus (i tried to get it as close to the original as possible)
Remus is sitting in an armchair doubled over with laughter. Sirius has fallen out of his chair and is cackling on the floor with tears in his eyes from laughing so hard. Regulus is sitting on the couch trying his best to stay composed. And James in standing in the middle of the room with more passion and fire in his eyes than Regulus has ever seen.
“Hold on! Hold on! Hold on!” James is shouting.
“James—” Regulus tries to calmly interrupt.
“HOLD ON!” James looks pointedly at Regulus and his eyes look like they’re going to literally pop out of his head. “Her sister was a witch, right?” Regulus is trying so hard to hold back his laughter. “And what was her sister? A princess! The Wicked Witch of the East, Reg.” James is yelling, not unkindly just very passionately, looking directly at Regulus and nodding his head aggressively to emphasize every point.
James starts pacing in genuine distress. Sirius is rolling on the floor holding his stomach and laughing so hard his entire body is shaking. Remus has his hands over his mouth, which is doing absolutely nothing to contain his laughter.
Regulus stands up to meet James in the middle of the room. “I’m gonna stab him.” He mumbles under his breath, which makes Sirius laugh even harder—if that’s even possible.
James whips around to face Regulus. “You’re gonna looks at me and you’re gonna tell me that I’m wrong? Am I wrong?” James asks emphatically.
And the thing is—James is, in fact, very wrong. “It’s my favorite—” Regulus tries to interject but can’t even get a word in.
“She wore a crown, and she came down in a bubble, Reg!” And that proves absolutely nothing.
Regulus knows he’ll never get James to listen to him. “I’m not fighting with you.” He shakes his head, chuckling fondly.
James makes his way out of the living room. “Grow up!” He says over his shoulder.
“I’m not fighting with you.” Regulus says again.
“Grow up.” James seems to be losing steam as he leaves the room.
“Get educated!” Regulus yells then flops down on the couch and finally lets his laughter out.
Eventually Regulus, Sirius and Remus’ laugher fades into soft chuckles as they calm down and take several deep breaths to compose themselves.
It’s a few minutes later when James appears in the doorway with a sheepish look on his face—that Regulus thinks is adorable. He slowly makes his way over to the couch and sits down beside Regulus. He’s quiet for a few moments then turns slightly to look at Regulus.
“I’m not really mad.” James says in a small voice. “And you know I love you, right?”
Regulus chuckles fondly and takes James’ face in his hands. “Yes, I know you love me, Jamie.” He leans in to kiss James softly then pulls back the tiniest bit. “But you’re still wrong.” Regulus whispers against James lips.
#i couldn’t help myself#this was so funny to me - i was giggling the entire time i was writing it#but i'm also sleep deprived so maybe i'm just tired#i think reg and james would definitely have arguments about nothing like this#because they’re both so stubborn and can never let anything go#but even if it’s not a real argument james can never stay upset with reg#so he’s always the first to cave#the guy says ‘i'm gonna stab him’ which is obviously so very reg#i have no idea what this argument was about but reg loves the wizard of oz and wicked so he’s clearly correct regardless#wicked is still rotting my brain#i know this was ridiculous#i might write a real one after i get some sleep and i can think more clearly#i go to sleep now - good night my friends#regulus loves james#james loves regulus#jegulus#jegulus microfic#jegulus fanfiction#marauders fanfiction#regulus black#james potter#marauders#james x regulus#regulus x james#marauders era#harry potter#dead gay wizards from the 70s#starchaser#sunseeker#jeggyverse microfic
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Pocket sized au
Here you go tumblr, I know you’ll like this one:
Took my sizeshifter spidersona who can only grow bigger and made him really small instead
He can be smaller too :3
#he’s pocket sized now#get shrunk idiot#what a loser! I love him!#art#my art#drawing#procreate#across the spiderverse#atsv#spiderverse#spidersona#oc#spider sona#james k taylor#james taylor#size shifter#sizeshifter#size difference#gt#sfw#sfw g/t#sfw gt#g/t#gt art#giant tiny#I love being an art and drawing literally whatever I want#this is so fun#and it definitely hasn’t rotted my brain yet nope#(lie)
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what’s your favorite clone and why? 😼
I gotta be that guy and say I really like them all. i loVE EACH ARCHETYPE THEY KINDA RESEMBLE
Sekido [in my head] has a mean exterior SO loud it makes you forget he's working with the others to actively protect the main body and has faith in their abilities. He gets annoyed at his younger counterparts cause he knows they're not using their full potential... I also really like how he's both very proper and improper, like a thug in a meeting or something... so cool.... Also, him taking the leader role and everyone going with it has big bro vibes.. oldest bro vibes.
cult leader loves tsundere guys.
Karaku [in my head] is the thrill seeker type who's more than willing to be the most annoying man around for the sake of his entertainment and living in the moment. He plays around rather than disposing of someone immediately like a fucking psychopath. Even if late, he knows when to get serious and when to tone down his antics. he still gets fucked over by playing with his opponents too much.. I like that he's not stupid, he's reckless. mega "cool big bro" aura.
cult leader loves shameless guys.
Urogi [in my head] is obnoxious and loud, boastful even especially when he's either screeching or talking, never entirely silent. While he does fight on his own, he'd drop everything if given an order and try his best to comply. also a troublemaker... like a younger bro who never really has responsibilities but does them when told so he can go back to doing wtv he was doing before. Like he's just there to have a good time. He's also not stupid, just excitable, then he gets cocky, then gets his shit rocked.
cult leader loves arrogant himbo guys.
Aizetsu [in my mind] is extremely sassy and gives passive aggressive vibes and prefers to deal with conflict swiftly because it's bothersome and makes him upset. He might look cute and weak, but he's scary. While he's sensitive, he's no pushover and will also cut pretty deep. He's definitely the younger brother who's trying to constantly get out of trouble by seeming like the angel.... It's also interesting because he never sugarcoats his words. He twists them in a way that makes him sound helpful and you, pitiful.
cult leader loves cute manipulative guys.
Zohakuten [in my mind] is a little hater who's most protective of everyone but, more importantly, the main body. He sees himself as a decent guy going against injustice for a man who's just trying to survive. Like a little bro who's stubbornly wrong about something he doesn't fully grasp. Also he's just so hilarious?? it was not necessary at all to insult your opponents looks then tell tanjiro to get over it cause the dead weren't relevant to him. How can someone so disrespectful come in a small package..
cult leader loves the brat trope.
Urami is pretty similar to hantengu, imo, just angrier 😔😔 not many opinions, but I do find it amusing to imagine he's very passionate 24/7
#null rot#hantengu clones#Hantengu#sekido#karaku#urogi#aizetsu#zohakuten#dizzieskizze#cloaked cult member#sighs whistfully... mostly everyone gravitated away because they haven't mastered the art of having absolutely no fucking content....SIGHSS#id try to list their traits in my mind to rank but id go in circles of 'but i love the gap of sekido..' or 'but karaku can be so petty'#or 'but urogi is so scarily excitable' or 'but aizetsu is like a brick shithouse trying to be cute'#or 'but zohakuten is the little terror wherever he goes...' AGH AGHHH AGHH I CANT CHOOSE. thEYRE ALL SO GOOD.#punches ceiling#ig the least favorite is urami bc i cant think of anything for him...... sorry big old man..........#they're all very cute in their own ways and I'm the mf who's always trying to find a harem route 😭#Aside from my simp brain theyre all really complex to me and i really fuckin like that. i cant choose orz#at least you know i put my heart into all of them#DO NOT SEPARATE#ILL FUCKING DIE BRO#ITS A BUY ONE GET ALL DEAL HERE#null gospel
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I fucking love this piece of shit loser bush worm asshole dude
(and like, his normal ass husband too ig)
(…and their kid)
#my art#traditional art#cult of the lamb leshy#leshycat#cotl leshy#cult of the lamb#cult of the lamb yellow cat#leshy x yellow cat#yellow cat x leshy#hes such a little shit#i love how much of a bitch he is#ship kid#ship child#cult of the lamb shitten#cotl shitten#my brain is rotting#theyre so cute#my art <3
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Part 2. This time its the Tokyo Five (As I named them) Headcanons in the reblog tags appreciated
#haibara is baby i love him so much omg#also hes a light weight#two beers and he's down#remember the headcanon i had about gojo not beeing able to drink alcohol?#bottom right is what happens if he decides to drink#suguru with the bass is SO HOT OMG#and shopping cart stealing is mandatori for the sashisu trio#kidnapping haibara is a plus#also shoko or geto just casually pulling a pack of cigarettes out of their pocket and the condom coming with#yeah thats canon#the satosho hug makes my knees weak#and the sashisu kisses I CANNOT GET ENOUGH#more artists need to draw them kissing each other#pls i just wanna share my brainrot#nanami eating bread cuz its his fav food!#so many more headcanons feel free to dm me if you wanna hear more about my rotted brain farts#sashisu#satosho#satosho weekend#satoshoko#sugusho#satosugu#stsg#shoko ieiri#satoru gojo#geto suguru#haibara yu#nanami kento#jjk#jujutsu kaisen
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BTW “no, look at me, i love you. you’re all i bloody think about. dream about. you’re in my gut, in my throat. i’m drowning in you, summers. i’m drowning in you.” “i know you’ll never love me. i know i’m a monster but you treat me like a man.” “but i want you to know i did save you. not when it counted, of course, but after that. every night after that. i’d see it all again. [..] every night I save you.” “you know you got a willing slave […] i follow you like a man possessed.” “i wanted to give you what you deserve, and i got it. they put the spark in me and now all it does is burn.” “why does a man do what he mustn't? for her. to be hers. to be the kind of man who would never... to be a kind of man. and she shall look on him with forgiveness, and everybody will forgive and love. he will be loved. so everything’s ok, right? can we rest now? buffy, can we rest?” “i’ve done things with you i can’t spell, but i’ve never been that close.. to anyone, least of all you. until last night. all i did last night was hold you and watch you sleep. it was the best night of my life." “i’m not asking you for anything: when i say i love you, it's not because i want you, or because i can't have you. it has nothing to do with me. i love what you are. what you do. how you try. i’ve seen your kindness, and your strength. i’ve seen the best and the worst of you, and i understand, with perfect clarity, exactly what you are.” IF YOURE EVEN LISTENING. IF YOU EVEN CARE.
#btvs is rotting my brain#spuffy#spike x buffy#buffy summers#buffy the vampire slayer#spike btvs#sarah michelle gellar#james marsters#he didn’t need a soul to love her#biting everything in sight#climbing up the walls#btvs
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