#he hurts my brain to think about but like in a Good Way

[seokminfilm]

i do 🤍 joshua hong

🪽 pairing, joshua hong x reader

🪽 warnings, non-idol au, newlyweds au, fluff, hurt/comfort, party setting, joshua calls reader sweetie/darling, mentions of stress/being overwhelmed, skinship (holding hands, hugging from behind), kissing, jeonghan is the menacing friend/third wheel

🪽 summary, your house truly was warmer with joshua in it, and no matter what happens, you did say "i do".

🪽 author's note, "but lyr i thought you don't write for joshua" um...🧍 i have a good idea and my brain automatically linked it with joshua so here we are....ALSO thank you all for 400 followers! i do want to do something special SO i may wait for the 400 follower celebration when i have a week off from school!!! anyways, enjoy this joshua fic 🤍 (ur welcome joshua lovers cause i did NOT have to do this ✋)

🪽 now playing, i don't know (seventeen) & smile flower (seventeen)

🪽 word count, 963 | for @kstrucknet

the sounds of laughter and clinking glasses resounded throughout your new house, and you studied your husband (wow, that felt unreal to even think) and his friends as they laughed at old stories they were sharing with each other.

you had spent all day today preparing the new house for the housewarming party you and joshua were throwing to celebrate the next big step after marriage─finding a home to start a family in. joshua had been so excited for this moment.

even though you were nervous about the future of your and joshua's new marriage, you couldn't help but be happy too. joshua had such a big dream for you and him to fulfill, and you were excited to see the future for both of you─it was nerve-wracking, but beautiful at the same time.

"i think we need more wine." jeonghan says to joshua as he follows him into the kitchen, where you're currently cutting more strawberries to add to the charcuterie board.

joshua chuckles dryly, his rich voice like honey as he shakes his head. "more wine is asking for more trouble, i think."

jeonghan gives a lazy smile, the one he always does when teasing or messing around with someone, and he slides his way over to you, knowing you wouldn't deny him. "i think we need more wine."

"do we? i can get some more if you want. just hold on." you say with a smile on your face, knowing good and well joshua's eyes are on your back. jeonghan gives you a quick hug, giggling in triumph as he returns to the bustling living room.

with jeonghan's teasing out of the kitchen, it's a lot calmer than the chaos happening over charades in the living room. the hum of the refrigerator blends in with the jazz music playing over the speakers. you focus on finishing up the strawberries, relaxing instantly as you feel strong arms slinking around your waist.

"i'm assuming you heard me tell jeonghan no more wine, sweetie." joshua smiles against your skin, already pressing a warm kiss to your neck. you nod, sighing as you finish cutting the fruit.

"i did, but he's like my honorary brother-in-law. am i supposed to say no?" you laugh, and joshua matches your energy, laughing too as he shakes his head. "no, no, you're fine."

the two of you sigh, falling silent as he presses against you. joshua is warm, and smells of vanilla, something you think you could never get tired of. his presence instantly brings calmness to your tense body, and you arrange the fruits on the board, focusing in on them before joshua softly grabs your arm.

"darling, is something wrong?" joshua turns you around to face him, doe-like eyes staring worriedly at you as he studies your face. you had been tense all night and hadn't looked like you had been having fun.

"i'm fine, joshua," the smile you give him with your response is forced, and you and he both know it. obviously, joshua doesn't fall for it, cupping your cheek in his hand as he brushes your hair from your face.

"darling, please. i know this isn't like you. you've been excited for this event all week, and now that it's here, you.." joshua pauses, searching for the right words. "you look like you don't want it."

it breaks your heart to see joshua say something like that: you do want this housewarming party. you want this marriage. you didn't want to seem unappreciative or uninterested. if that's how you truly looked, you couldn't help it. there was just so much worry and uncertainty clouding your mind you didn't know what to feel.

"joshua, no. i─i do want this. i want all of it." you say softly, a cheer mixing into your quiet voice.

"i'm just overwhelmed, shua. worried about what's to come. marriage is a wonderful thing, and it's even more wonderful since it's with you, but...i'm scared. i don't even know what i'm scared of." you heave a sigh, and joshua shakes his head, holding your hands in his.

"it's okay to be scared, darling. i'm here for everything─you can be scared. it's okay to feel nervous about what's to come." joshua smiles, eyes soft as he studies you.

"just know we're in it together. when i asked you to be my other half, i meant it. one isn't complete without the other─whatever stress, nervousness, or worry you feel doesn't have to be one-sided. we can share it, just like we share our dreams and weaknesses with each other."

joshua's closer to you now, his warm hand cupping your cheek as he catches the tears welling at the corner of your sparkling eyes. "i'm here. i always will be─i made that promise."

nodding, you smile up at him, wiping the tears from your face as joshua takes your hands in his one more time, kissing each knuckle as he looks down at you. his vanilla perfume is permeating your space, and it's instantly calming, bringing a sense of peace to you faster than anything would.

"thank you, josh. i needed that, more than you know." you sigh, raising up on your tippy toes to press a kiss to joshua's lips. they're soft, hints of wine leftover on them as he chuckles. "of course, sweetie."

"oh, and─tell jeonghan he can just take a bottle home for later. i don't think he needs it right now." you laugh, hearing jeonghan's slurred speech from the living room.

"you and me both, sweetie." joshua glances over his shoulder, giving you a wink and mouthing "i love you" before he disappears back into the living room.

sighing as you breathe in the fresh smell of strawberries and lingering vanilla perfume, you know everything's going to be okay.

[pupyuj]

Omg the recent liz fic one was so good but what about Rei keeps trying (unsuccessfully) to breed reader . They get so fed up that they pin reader down and fuck their brains out, successfully impregnating them.

YET ANOTHER AWESOME REI ASK you guys are on a roll omg?? 😭 i think i had too much fun with the non-smut part so this is going to be a bit longer than my usual drabbles :] (the next one is too!)

[cw: g!p rei, breeding.]

aww precious wifey reibear who wants you to have her kids so, so badly :(( you’ve been trying for a while but nothing seems to be working… even going as far as to visit a doctor to see if there was some kind of complication on either your or rei’s end but hell, even the doctor made a (strange) comment about how you and rei should be “at the prime state to have a platoon of babies” but it always seemed like no matter how much you tried, having a kid didn’t seem all too likely 💔 you’ve never let it get you down ofc but rei was… a different story!

it made her really sad! ☹️ it was so disheartening to see her suddenly just become to quiet and… private 😞 ever since that doctor’s visit, she has been discouraged from even having sex with you bcs in her mind, she thinks that every time she failed to give you a baby, you feel disappointed at her but that couldn’t be more far from the truth—you loved rei so much, with or without a kid.

now 😭 what kinda sets her off is something as innocent as getting a baby shower invitation from one of your guys’ friends 💀 you’d watch her walk back in forth in a frustrated manner right in front of you as you sat on the bed, “i mean, is that not a little insensitive considering we talked about how our situation is going over dinner with them a few weeks ago?! that’s like, me coming up to you when you’ve just lost a family member and celebrating that my dad has woken up from his ten-year long comatose or something!” and you would laugh at the comparison… if you didn’t think your wife was sounding a bit absurd 😭😭

“honey, i think they’re just… trying to help get some things off our minds.”

“yeah because waving the fact that they can have babies totally helps,” she’d snap at you but she’ll immediately feel bad about it :(( “…i’m sorry. i’m yelling.”

“it’s okay, just come sit with me,” you pat the empty space beside you and rei was more than willing to be close to your warmth, letting you brush her hair away from her face and everything 🥺 “i’m sure our friends didn’t mean to offend us—they wouldn’t. they probably didn’t think it would be a big deal since they’re just so excited for us to be there.”

“i just wish… we’d have this too. baby showers, parties, posting an off-putting but ultimately adorable ultrasound video of our kid in our instagram stories and… so much more.” poor reibear just wants to have a family :(( with you! the most amazing woman she has ever met and it kills her so much that she can’t just . fucking give you one!

“i know, hon… and i understand,” you wanted nothing more than a family with her too, but it really hurts to see the love of your life so dismayed about your persistent inability to have a kid :(( but you can’t let her believe that she can’t at all! “but just because it’s not happening now doesn’t mean it never will, okay? it’s going to happen, we’ll be ready, and everything will be perfect. just like you.” giving her a little boop on the nose just to see her beautiful smile and just like that, your lovely wife was back to being her cheerful, energetic self 🥺🫠

rei feeling the need to just touch you after all of that :(( hands all over you while you kiss her, and she's so hasty that she doesn't even bother to undress you or herself all the way before she lays you down on your shared bed 🥺 the moment she hears you moan feeling her throbbing cock rubbing against your soaked panties is the moment rei loses all self-control and her greed just takes over 😵‍💫 ofc she's careful not to rough you up too much, even tho there's something in the back of her head that's telling her that you like it when she does that... but today she's making love! 🫣🥰

she's taking care of you so well :(( face buried in your neck, moaning so sweetly in your ear at every thrust of her hips, her hands holding your waist so tightly... reibear is not much of a chatterbox when she's quite literally fucking into you (whiner rei agenda RISE!) but she lovesss to tell you how much she loves you 🥰 and she thinks it's not enough to express just how much and that's why she says it a lot :(( she's just . a true lovergirl 😍😍

obsessed with how you hold onto her shirt so tightly, and she can never get enough of the way you leave kisses on her neck... all of this just makes her want to fuck you harder 🫢 fully holding onto your thighs and slightly lifting you up bcs she's so close and it all feels too good to stop now 😵‍💫

you'd cum long before rei does so for the remainder of the time, you'd just lay there—praising her, flirting, making all of the sounds she needs to hear to get to that edge that she longs for 😵‍💫😵‍💫

“cum, rei-yah... inside me. now.” and there it was! rei does exactly that 🫣 ugh, she'd pull out after she finishes but seeing her seed seep out of you just makes her dick hard all over again... and reibear doesn't like a mess, and it looks like she's on clean-up duty! 🤭 she'll definitely fuck her cum back inside you, and thankfully you were all in for it too! 😋 neither of you have felt so fucking good... and it shows when weeks later, you pee on a stick not once, not twice, but three times and the stupid thing(s) finally showed that you are now indeed carrying naoi rei's baby 🎉

[merafanbrainthatmerafans]

MHA Boys + LOV + Chisaki | If You Accused Them of Cheating (But They Didn’t) 💔😡💞

OMG the art is adorable!!

𝘾𝙡𝙖𝙨𝙨 1-𝘼 𝙓 𝙍𝙚𝙖𝙙𝙚𝙧

Izuku Midoriya 🌱

💔 Reaction: PANIC MODE. He has no idea how this happened. 💬 “W-Wait, I cheated?! No, no, no—why would I ever do that?!”

Tries to piece together where the misunderstanding came from.

His hands shake because the thought of hurting you is unbearable.

Scenario: “Y/N, please, let’s talk! I swear on everything I love, I would never, ever cheat on you.” His voice cracks as he looks at you, eyes wide with desperation. “Please, just tell me what made you think that so I can fix it!”

Bakugo Katsuki 💥

💢 Reaction: ANGRY but also deeply hurt. 💬 “THE HELL DID YOU JUST SAY?!”

At first, he thinks you’re joking. When he realizes you’re serious, his face darkens.

Absolutely OFFENDED you’d even think he would betray you like that.

Scenario: He crosses his arms, jaw clenched. “You really think I’d throw away what we have for some extra? What kind of dumbass do you take me for?” His voice is rough, but there’s a hint of pain underneath. If you keep accusing him, he just growls, “Tch. If you’re gonna believe that, then maybe you don’t know me at all.”

Shoto Todoroki ❄️🔥

💔 Reaction: Confused. Visibly upset but too calm about it. 💬 “I… don’t understand. Who told you that?”

He’s hurt but logical. Instead of getting defensive, he asks questions.

If you’re crying, he’ll gently wipe your tears.

Scenario: “I love you, Y/N.” His voice is soft but firm. “I wouldn’t waste my time lying or sneaking around. If you don’t believe me, then… maybe I haven’t done enough to prove it to you.” His words sting because he genuinely thinks he failed you.

Eijiro Kirishima 🦈

💢 Reaction: Sad, frustrated, but patient. 💬 “No way. There’s no way I’d do that to you.”

His first instinct is to reassure you.

“Look at me. Do I look like someone who would lie to you?”

Scenario: He steps closer, brows furrowed. “I don’t know who made you think this, but I promise you—on my life—that it’s not true.” His hands cup your face gently, voice full of emotion. “You’re my everything. Please, don’t doubt that.”

Denki Kaminari ⚡

💢 Reaction: Absolutely devastated. 💬 “Wait, WHAT?! BABE, NO!”

Physically drops to his knees.

Dramatic as hell. “I’M BEING FRAMED. SOMEONE’S RUINING ME.”

Scenario: “Y/N, LISTEN TO ME—if I ever cheat, let my electricity fry my brain on the spot!” He literally clings to you, pouting. “Please, don’t leave me over something I didn’t dooo!”

Tenya Iida 🚗💨

💔 Reaction: Disbelief + deeply wounded. 💬 “How… How could you think so little of my integrity?”

His voice trembles because he prides himself on loyalty.

Scenario: His glasses slide down slightly as he looks at you, hurt in his eyes. “I have never given you a reason to doubt me. If you truly believe this… then I have failed you as a partner.” He starts re-evaluating everything.

𝙇𝙚𝙖𝙜𝙪𝙚 𝙊𝙛 𝙑𝙞𝙡𝙡𝙖𝙞𝙣𝙨 𝙓 𝙍𝙚𝙖𝙙𝙚𝙧

Shigaraki Tomura 🕹️

💢 Reaction: PISSED. Offended to his core. 💬 “Tch. You think I have time for someone else?”

At first, he’s just mad. Then it sinks in, and he gets quieter.

Scenario: He glares at you, arms crossed. “Whatever. Believe what you want.” But later, you find him alone, staring at his hands like he’s thinking too hard. He mumbles, “I thought you were the only one who saw me differently…”

Dabi 🔥

💔 Reaction: Sarcastic but deeply wounded. 💬 “Wow. That’s the kinda guy you think I am?”

He jokes about it at first. Then he realizes you’re serious and his smirk fades.

Scenario: “Damn, Y/N, I must be real shitty if you think I’d cheat.” He exhales, eyes flickering with something unreadable. “I’m not good at much… but when I love someone, I don’t f*** it up.”

Twice (Jin Bubaigawara) 🎭

💢 Reaction: Confused + emotional rollercoaster. 💬 “WHAT?! I WOULD NEVER—wait, DID I? NO, I DIDN’T!”

Goes into panic mode. “ARE YOU BREAKING UP WITH ME?! PLEASE DON’T, I’LL DIE.”

Scenario: He grabs your hands desperately. “Y/N, please! I love you, I swear! If I cheated, I’d KILL myself—wait, not literally—but I’D DESERVE IT.” (Sobbing mess.)

𝙋𝙧𝙤 𝙃𝙚𝙧𝙤𝙚𝙨 𝙓 𝙍𝙚𝙖𝙙𝙚𝙧

Hawks (Keigo Takami) 🦅

💢 Reaction: Annoyed but also saddened. 💬 “Angel, you wound me.”

Knows people spread rumors about him.

Scenario: He sighs, rubbing the back of his neck. “I know I flirt sometimes, but… you’re the only one I want.” He cups your cheek, golden eyes serious. “If I was stupid enough to cheat, I’d lose my wings.”

Aizawa Shouta 💤

💢 Reaction: Exhausted but heartbroken. 💬 “I don’t have time for this.”

Doesn’t argue, just leaves you to calm down.

Scenario: “I’m done talking,” he mutters, walking away. But later, he sits in silence, wondering why you doubted him.

Kai Chisaki (Overhaul) 🦠

💢 Reaction: Pure disgust. 💬 “How dare you.”

Absolutely furious you’d question him.

Scenario: He grabs your chin, forcing you to look at him. “I don’t touch filth. If you really think I’d lower myself like that, then leave. I don’t beg.”

[screechingdefendorpuppy-blog]

My Dearest Sevika...

Authors note: thank you so much for the reactions to this lil story. I honestly don't really write much. Mostly because I'm a bit of an in the mood type of writer but this particular story stayed in my brain for a few days and decided to share. Hope you like this next entry. You didn't think I would keep her away did you?

(two Years later)

You hum as you walk towards your car. Buck next to you taking in all the sights of the plaza. It had been a bit of a drive out to the only plaza that was pet friendly.

You had needed the distraction, plus you knew that buck would enjoy the trip.

It was getting close to your wedding anniversary with Sevika. It had been two years without her but you had kept up with your journal. At first you mostly wrote small entries. Lil things you thought that Sevika would like to know about or even should know about.

As time passed the entries became longer and more detailed. It helped to be able to pour your emotions and thought into the journals. it made you feel close to Sevika in a way.

After two years you had filled many journals. At first you thought that you would just finish the journal that you had after Isha encouraged you to write to Sevika again. But by the end of that first journal you found yourself with no more blank pages and your mind full of things to write about. so you bought a new one then another and another. and its how you find yourself on this lil trip with buck with just the goal to buy a new journal.

searching through your purse for your car keys when you hear your phone go off. Grabbing it you see a few missed called from Ran. you pick up the call

"Hey-"

"Where are you !?"

"I- Yes hello Ran how are you?"

"Yeah, hi, hello, good, Where are you?"

"Umm Piltover plaza why?"

"I'm picking you up."

"What? Why?"

" THEY FOUND HER."

Your breath hitches " What...?"

"They found her y/n, she's alive!"

Your mind goes blank. turning away from your car you look around in a daze. Sound ceases to exist except for your pulse like a couple of years ago when you got world changing news. You drop your phone Ran's voice fading.

Alive. How? where has she been these past couple of years? is she hurt? and how bad?

Your knees start to buckle and you drop to the ground leaning against your car. Buck is immediately at your side sniffing to check what's wrong with you. He nudges you with his nose and it makes you look over to him. Tears start falling down your cheeks as you look at him. Slowly sound comes back to you and now you can hear the whines coming from him as he tries to lick away the moisture on your face. You nudge him back a lil bit to make him stop and he ends up staring at you as if waiting for something. Reassurance that you are ok.

That is how you, while looking into his deep brown eyes, come to terms with two words that simultaneously make you happy, hopeful and scared.

"she's alive" you whisper

[whatwooshkai]

I’m currently writing a TFRB fic, but need an opinion on something. Though we’ve seen the bots deal with numerous kinds of situations, we hardly see them deal with combat-related issues. What types of things do you think each bot on the team would have issues defending in a fight (like Blades and his rotors, etc.)?

oooooh I am SO glad you asked this question because I am thinking about this a lot.

(I'm gonna do my best to go purely off canon here)

I love that you brought up blades is going to be protecting his rotors- canonically, he's the one with the most delicate kibble, so yes, of course he's going to be terrified of getting hurt and that in general is going to be extremely distracting in a way that I think would hinder the entire operation. If you're always watching your back you're not watching your front, and vice versa. I think he'd fully have some kind of nervous breakdown and shut down, or, he'd freak out to a degree that he'd attack anything that got close to him, including his teammates. Either way, he's having a battle-long panic attack.

Heatwave is especially interesting to me because we see him multiple times stepping in front of the other rescue bots and putting himself first, just to absolutely get his shit rocked (roll that one clip where he attacks the dinosaur robot and he goes down like a png dragged across the screen). It's established that bro has some solid raw talent but he has zero fight training, but I imagine his brain's just gonna turn off and he's just going to defend. Problem with that: he's going to be paying way too much attention to his teammates. Every single time one of them gets hit he's going to be looking over and ready to jump in front of and protect them, but he's gonna take his eyes off his opponent and he's going to take a lot of hits for that. Heatwave's focus in a fight is always going to be everyone else, but you can't protect anyone like that, really.

For Chase, I think his problem would be that he wouldn't really defend any part of himself properly. He sees his body as a tool and his worst fear is not being useful- and a little pain never hurt anybody, right? In a combat situation, he'd have a mission, he'd have bots to protect- and absolutely nothing is going to get in his way, much to his detriment. He's going to walk out of that barely alive, dude. He's not going to be very good at fighting, but the thing is, he's going to keep getting back up. But I'd say his most vulnerable part is going to be his finials, and he'd probably, if not unconsciously, be trying to protect those.

As for Boulder- they're extremely solid and don't really have delicate kibble, but they are a pacifist. I think they'd be trying to protect the others but wouldn't really know how. But again, they are a solid wall, so I think the most likely thing that would happen is that they'd try and step in front of the others, most likely Blades (aforementioned why). They'd probably be pleading with whoever is attacking them, kind of just taking hits and not fighting back.

In terms of physical weakness, they're all fairly small/average for cybertronians and have no real fight training. But I think in a real fight it would not go their way at all

[sparklystarrrr]

Random Headcannons of my favs!

Synopsis: literally what the title said, it's completely random and I love my baby boys, more Hcs will be added on as I think of them

Contains: Riddle Rosehearts, Idia Shroud, Sebek Zigvolt

Riddle Rosehearts~

out of everyone (Ace, Deuce, Trey) from the Queendom of Hearts he's the only one with a British accent

he listens to either classical music or, if he's feeling a bit cheeky and rambunctious, I feel like he'd listen to Laufey or some of Frank Ocean's slower songs like "White Ferrari" in his free time

he had to ask Vil about where to get a good quality red eyeliner for his dorm uniform

he's always getting snipped in Cater's magicam pics and ends up in photo dumps where he looks kinda disformed (my man ain't always photogenic, unfortunately)

he knows how to play mainly string instruments but did fancy himself a trumpet in middle school

incredibly gullible to modern humor and doesn't understand it, then gets mad when ppl laugh at him for not understanding (almost exploded at a "ur mom" joke that Ace made "WHAT DO YOU MEAN MY MOTHER??!!")

treats the hedgehogs like his children

has his own way of being snarky and making jokes, and when he insults you he makes it BURN.

loses too many brain cells listening to Ace and Deuce trying to formulate an explanation on why they broke a rule

gets really bad headaches

hates playing Uno with a burning passion because someone always has a card up their ass and says they have Uno; the only card game he will never ever play but can't ban it from the dorm because there's probably a rule saying "all kinds of card games are to be played"

definitely bumped into one of his book shelves before and got burried under books

has a strawberry garden in the Heartslabyul garden somewhere

polishing his lil crown is part of his nightly routine

Idia Shroud~

has a GIANT family and they're all super affectionate w him (his yiayia gives him thousands of kisses on his cheeks and calls him her most handsome grandson and he just stands there not knowing what to do)

HE HAS A SLIGHT GREEK ACCENT BCS I SAID SO.(can you tell I love this man being Greek it makes my heart flutter)

him and Ortho have gaming nights and he likes to let Ortho win most of the time like they're still kids

when he takes a shower his fire extinguishes and his hair is kinda like Silver's except blue and has a slight wave in it, probably a lot messier too

if he loses to a game too many times he hacks the game to make it easier for him to win

uses AI for most of his assignments because Ortho won't help him, says it's better for him to do the work himself instead of relying on AI(obvi he does it anyways and Ortho finds out like a disappointed parent)

he has a sleeper build DON'T QUESTION ME ON THAT this man works with machinery like on the daily and ya'll say he's scrawny like NO I DISAGREE

he either ties his hair or clips it back a lot because he gets too annoyed at his hair when it's in his face

he bites his lips a lot whether out of anxiety or on accident, biting his tongue hurts like HELL

if the wifi or power cuts out he will go full blown panic mumbling mode

a fantastic flashlight

keeps painkillers, eye drops and chapstick in a drawer in his night stand but never goes in it

his hands and feet are so cold

he hides his hands in his hair to warm them up in winter

Sebek Zigvolt~

he rly does love his dad a lot, but his pride is much too big for him to say that

gets yelled at a LOT in class or in the library for being wayyy over the volume level

i feel like he can do really cool tricks while doing push-ups like clapping his hands behind his back or doing push-ups one handed

Malleus is over his devotedness and just prays every day that he can have some peace and quiet(he's one more Sebbie speech from striking him with a lightning bolt)

puts a pic of Malleus above his bed

has a plethora of dragon plushies in carrying sizes, shapes, colors and patterns

probably tries to commission someone to recreate the armor that peepaw Baur gave him in the dream

a lot of the students are scared of him because he's so loud, especially students with animal ears or something that gives them increased hearing(they hear him from more than a mile away... not fun for sensitive ears)

gets embarrassed really easily

had baby hands for the longest time

can't choose between pampering himself to look good as Malleus's knight or to pamper Malleus more than he already does and look gruff and beat up to be intimidating and manly

he does like Silver, he just cares about him in his own way(I saw something similar to this but I don't remember who drew it, but it was Sebek holding Silver up while he was sleeping again and I actually cried my baby boys are so cute)

he had to find a new horse for Equestrian club because the one he had when starting out in the club was too short and his legs touched the ground while sitting atop the horse

knows how to cook stuff but only things high in protein and made for strengthening

eats Lilia's cooking because he honors him too much and then has a stomach ache that feels worse than getting dragged on the burning floors of Hell

speaking of being sick, it's the only time he's remotely quiet. I don't mean he's not loud but he just can't talk at his normal decibel of speaking (everyone is praising the Lord)

i love my silly boys

[salty-autistic-writer]

Chapter Four of "Isn't It Lovely, All Alone?" - Or: The Tommy Coma Dream Fic It can’t be.

“I’m your first. I’m not your last.”

Evan’s eyes fill with confused, stunned pain. He sits there, frozen, staring at Tommy like he can’t comprehend what’s happening.

And it’s awful. Tommy knows he is a horrible person for hurting someone so good, someone so kind. But it’s the right thing to do.

Evan can’t want this. He will understand. Eventually

Tommy is too much in love to bear the thought of the inevitable crash. He is too much of a damaged mess to stay and give hope another chance. He is too convinced that Evan is high on the rush of a first relationship, too happy with what he has right now, too unsuspecting of the issues that might path the way.

So he leaves.

So he breaks his own heart now before it can shatter completely later.

Tommy slowly walks down the stairs, and something inside him, something pathetic, hopes Evan will come after him. But he doesn’t.

He steps outside and walks away. Alone. Like he’s always been. Like he will always be.

Someone steps in his way, huge and solid, a rough voice shaking Tommy out of his stupor. “Where do you think you’re going?”

Tommy freezes. He knows that voice. But … It can’t be. “Sal?! What … What are you doing here?”

Sal scoffs, staring at him, his arms crossed. “I’m here to make sure you don’t waste your last chance, Tommy.”

“My last chance?” Tommy echoes, frowning. “What is that supposed to mean?”

Sal cocks his head. “You have no idea what happens if you don’t get your ass back in there, huh? Well. I will tell you: You will die, idiot. Tick tock, Kinard.”

Tommy swallows. Dread curls around his racing heart like a cold fist. “I don’t understand.” “Oh, I think you do. Come on. Focus. What do you hear?” Sal urges, raising a brow. “Listen closely.”

“All I can hear is your annoying voice, which doesn’t even belong into this -,” Tommy starts to snark, only to freeze when he realises what he was about to say. Dream. This dream.

Oh.

Now he hears it. The constant beeping. The hissing.

It all comes back to him.

Howie. Hen. Gerrard. Eddie telling him to get up. A helicopter in the desert. Upside down. Blood. A tree. A boy, smiling at him and taking his hand.

Darkness. Chasing him. Drowning him.

“A nightmare,” he breathes, a shiver running down his back. “This. It’s a nightmare.”

“Took you long enough,” Sal says dryly, looking up at the sky. “You’re almost out of time. It’s getting dark. Quick. Now, figure out why you’re stuck.”

Why are you stuck? Howie. It was Howie who asked me that.

Tommy’s head hurts. But underneath the pulsing pain, he can feel the answer. Sad and bitter. He swallows. “Nothing waits for me on the other side. Nothing. No one. I’m alone.”

I destroyed my chance at love, didn’t I? 

Sal shakes his head. “You don’t really believe that. Come on. Use that brain, Kinard. All those dreams you went through. Were you alone in them? No. Why do you think that is, huh? Can’t you hear them?”

Tommy’s breath falters. Sal is right. He can hear them.

Wake up.

Tommy. Come back.

Please.

“How?” He asks, feeling a glimmer of hope. “How do I go back?”

“You already know that,” Sal says gently.

Tommy does. He turns around and runs.

Runs up the stairs as fast as he can, darkness following him, swallowing the steps behind him. One by one. When Tommy reaches the loft, Evan is still sitting at the table. He’s crying, the tears running down his face and dripping from his chin. He looks up when Tommy comes crashing through the door, wide-eyed, his mouth opening in a surprised “Oh”.

Tommy crouches in front of Evan, reaching out to cup his face, staring into Evan’s red, teary eyes. “Evan. I … I need to tell you something. Before my time here is running out. Before the darkness catches me again. I know this is not real. You’re not real. But … But this still happened. And it’s why I’m stuck.”

He takes a deep breath, feeling tears filling his own eyes. “I’m so sorry. I’m sorry I hurt you. I’m sorry I left you like this. You didn’t deserve that. I was scared. I still am. But I also know that what I feel is real. And I would do anything to get another chance. Because …  I love you, Evan. I love you. I love you so much, it hurts. I love you so much; the thought of losing that, of losing you, burns my heart, and I know I would never be able to repair that damage. But loving you is worth all the pain in the world. I love you, Evan. I love you.”

Tommy kisses Evan. And as their lips collide, the darkness swallows him.

* “He’s always had a flair for the dramatic,” Sal says dryly, looking down at Tommy with his arms crossed. “Sleeping Beauty does suit him.”

That does manage to make Buck laugh.

Sal smiles at him. “He texted me about you, you know? After he broke up with you."

Buck sobers up fast. “He did?”

“Yeah. I think he was drunk. It was a whole string of what have I done, help, and self-hating curses.” Sal sighs. “I told him to not be a damn self-fulfilling-prophecy. Tommy is … complicated. He didn’t have an easy life. It made him a runner. You can only take so many disappointments before you try to protect yourself from more of them. I truly think he regretted breaking up with you. You made him happy. That much is clear. So … When he wakes up, maybe you two get another shot, huh?”

“Yeah,” Buck says quietly. “Maybe.”

Sal focuses back on Tommy. “You heard that? Wake up and get your man back. Tick tock, Kinard.” * He’s floating. Eyes closed. But he can sense light. Right above him. If he managed to raise a hand, he might almost be able to reach it ….

He’s floating, and he’s not alone. Voices echo around him. Mingling into each other.

“Tommy? Oh my God, Tommy! Hen, I … I think he’s waking up! I saw his eyes."

“Call his doctor.”

He’s floating. And it’s cold. He recoils from it, sinking deeper. But there’s a voice, clearer now, closer, that’s reaching out and keeping him afloat.

“It’s okay. You’ll be okay. Everything will be okay.”

Evan? 

A hand rests on his forehead. Solid. Cool. “Just rest, okay? You can rest some more. There’s no need to rush.”

Evan.

He’s floating. A little while longer. * It’s not like in the movies. There’s not the sudden sharp intake of air or eyes opening abruptly to stare up at the ceiling. There’s no gasped “Where am I? What happened?!”

Instead, the waking up happens in fractions. Gradually. Slowly. And painful to watch.

Tommy’s eyes flutter open sometimes, to reveal hazy blue, but they don’t seem to see anything before closing again. His head turns from one side to the other. His fingers twitch, cramping, curling around nothing. Sometimes, he raises a hand, only for it to fall back again.

A few days after his doctor said he might start to come around, Tommy suddenly whimpers and Buck startles, immediately gripping Tommy’s hand, telling him everything is okay, but he doesn’t get a reaction. It’s confusing. Frustrating.

“Was it like this? When I …” Buck swallows, his mouth dry.

Bobby looks up from his phone. “Not the same. But similar.”

“It’s so scary,” Buck says quietly, looking at Tommy’s limp hand in his. “I wonder what he’s going through right now. I hope he’s not in pain.”

“I think he’s trying to find his way back to life,” Bobby says calmly. “But it can’t be easy after such an injury. It’s a fight. And he’s a fighter. He will be okay, Buck. We can only wait and support his battle. Like we did back when you were in a coma.”

Buck nods, squeezing Tommy’s hand gently. “Yeah. You hear that, Tommy? You’re not alone. Whatever happens, you will never be alone.”

* Breaking through the surface is painful. The light burns his eyes and makes pain explode in his head. Every breath scratches in his throat, which feels like it’s filled with gravel. Tommy almost wishes himself back into the darkness, but then, a blurry face appears in his field of vision. He blinks against the tears filling his eyes, trying to focus.

Evan?

“Hey,” Evan says softly, a smile slowly spreading on his face. “I’m so glad you’re awake.”

Evan …

Tommy opens his mouth. Closes it again. He fishes for words. But they slip through his mental fingers like sand.

“Uh, better not try to talk just yet. You’ve been on a ventilator for a while. I bet your throat feels rough,” Evan says sympathetically, pouring a cup of water. He puts one hand under Tommy’s head and carefully raises it until he can place the cup against Tommy’s lips and help him take a few sips.

The water feels heavenly in Tommy’s sore throat. Like balm. But he still can’t talk. He can only think. And so he does. As loud as he can.

I love you.

“I’m going to get your doctor, okay?” Evan says, his voice trembling. “I’m sure they will want to do some tests. Uh. You hit your head pretty hard.”

Tommy blinks. He wishes Evan wouldn’t leave. He wants to keep looking at him. Wants to make sure he is real. But Evan gives him another soft smile, then turns away, approaching the door.

I love you, Tommy thinks, staring at Evan’s back. It feels like he’s sending the words after him. A mantra that has led him out of the darkness, back to here, back to a glimpse of hope.

I love you.

I love you.

I love you.

[djcandiepaws]

˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ yandere! toymaker x doll!reader

summary: the morning after last night cw: manipulation/influence i think a/n: this is a re-write as the original pt 2 i made was a dumpster fire

Last night was by far the worst day of your life.

You had your heart and kneecaps broken by the one you thought was someone who protects and teaches you. All because you wanted to leave the house. You just wanted to explore the outside. You had seen recordings of what it looks like through the TV he occasionally lets you watch; it looks beautiful. Long brown trunks of trees that are tailored with green oval shapes that they call leaves. Green thin lines come from the ground, and some are decorated with color and beauty, which they call flowers.

Also, it wasn't like you actually could leave the house. The door was triple locked, and you didn't have the keys, let alone ever seen them, so it's not like you could've gotten up and left.

"Good morning." You hear a voice say beside you. You really didn't want to open your eyes; if you open them, you'll see him again. You really don't want to. How can you ever look at him, let alone think of him the same again? Just a slap or a stern scolding would've sufficed, right? He said he did it because he didn't want to lose you, but there could've been some other way to tell you he didn't want you to go outside. Nonetheless, you decide to open your eyes because what if he does something like that again because you aren't listening?

Your eyes flutter open and you don't want to cry but just gazing upon him is enough to make your eyes pool with tears.

"Hey, don't cry." He immediately tries to hug you, but instinctively you push him off. "I'm sorry about what I did yesterday, but you have to understand my perspective. You would've left me. If you were to leave me, I would be nothing without you." He cups your cheeks and kisses you in between his words, "I love you so, so much. I was just acting on impulse, I swear." Still, you don't budge. You don't even open your mouth to talk, because you won't. You don't want to talk to him, you don't want to see his face. You just want to sleep and cry.

Eventually his hands fall from your face. "I understand if you're still upset at me. Do your knees still hurt?" Obviously they do. Instead of just opening your mouth to eventually say something sassy, you just settle with nodding.

Remorse starts to set in in the toymaker's brain. Through his eyes, you look so lifeless. You haven't talked so far; you just nod or shake your head. You push away from his touch and sometimes flinch when he gets too close. You weren't like this just 2 days ago. Honestly, it breaks his heart to see you like this.

"I love you, and I hope you understand that I don't do things like that without a reason. I know that I hurt you, but I was doing it out of fear and love." He gets up from the side of your bed and starts walking to your bedroom door, "I'll let you have a day to yourself, but please, think about forgiving." He leaves and closes the door.

You try to think about forgiveness since he said he did it out of love, but couldn't there have been another way? You do try to think about it but just end up crying in bed almost the whole day. You honestly don't know if you'll ever forgive him.

[joffyworld]

The Wall of Mutual Appreciation - Part III

@oautie

Little doses of gingerbread-flavoured fun every upload! I love the cuteness you two provide, and every notification is like a little birthday gift of fun! So cool to see :3

@galexiadraws

Poses! I love the wide variety of poses you do with your art! It feels like there's never a repeated pose or anything even too similar, it's always a fresh idea straight from the oven.

@ghostiguro

Absolutely lovable lamb with an incredibly smoochable face. I would smooch that lamb, I want to smooch that lamb, need I say more? A lamb is being smooched, I decree it!

@itsartlee

I loved your doodles of Sparky. They brought me whimsy and joy when I needed it most. So good, so perfectly timed!

@asmimir

Colours and shading, few do it to the level of mastery that Asmimir does. Every piece is such a beautiful and colourful showcase, and your designs are such a wonderous sight to behold every single time! I love them dearly.

@stardelo

You are possibly the highest-quality shitpost master I've ever seen. The memes you've produced of Narilamb will remain in my brain until I die, I cherish them so much. They're perfect in every way, I love it!

@mousie-cheese

I love your Leshy character's design, he's such a huge bruiser it's insane. That worm pounds weights and protein shakes like a motherfucker, I have no doubt xD

@miaumiaoumao

A cutie patootie drawing cutie patooties! I can't help but just adore your art style, it's so wholesome and fun! Especially your lamb, I love them to death. Such a cutie, 12/10!

@snartffle

I fucking adore Snart art. Snart? Snaart? Whatever, it's amazing. There are few artists that match the cuteness you add to every piece, and I can't help but adore it. It's not secret me and my friends used to gush over your art before we were moots, and there's a reason for that!

@caitie-potatie

THE POTATIE! Such a cute artist, with the cutest oc/sona to boot! I can't help but adore Marnoo, she's the cutest lil fella I've ever seen and I can't get enough. I think you know I'm a massive fan of yours and adore you as a friend, but I will say that you also keep making me cry whenever you send me a gift art <3

@littleredspidermod

Carmine! I love the design a lot, especially the hair! Your beastars oc was adorable too, you've got some serious character design abilities!

@ane-doodles

God. What doesn't Ane do? Character design is just perfection every single time. Humanisation is done so beautifully it hurts my soul and Ane's even dipped into pixel art animation with AMAZING results! Ane must be one of the most versatile people I know, and goddamn is it a serious honour to watch at work.

@callibrin

Your mastery of expression has always been stuck in my mind. Specifically, your comic about the crown choking the Lamb and Narinder having to calm them down. It's such a poignant piece and the panic is conveyed so beautifully, I can't praise it enough.

@skys-lullaby

Your abstract fanart of the TROD quote "you are like the sun" is honestly one of my favourite pieces. It's so simple yet so elegant, the perfect piece for the quote.

@watcher-bones

Saber Narinder!!!! Love me a toothy babygirl, and your design for him is so elegantly perfect. He's such a prim and proper princess, I adore him.

@yotomazu

Yoto! Your progress over the time I've known you has been phenomenal! You've come so far so fast I can't wait to see what comes next, especially with your fics! I absolutely adore Lilith and what you've done with her so far. Such a cool character!

@7squidgy7

You'll have to forgive my ignorance because I don't know the exact terminology for this, but your crosshatched style is just so fucking mesmerising. It's so unique and immediately recognisable, I've never seen anyone use it the way you do. Absolutely delightful to see!

@asphyxiatears

ANATOMY. Your body of work on bodies is just incredible, and every piece you draw of a full-bodied character is such a feast for the eyes. I'm absolutely obsessed with your goat design and the "feral" version of it you made, as well as the feminine version 👀. Utterly stunning art, all of it!

@acorn-rice

Acorn time! Acorn reminds me of coming home to a warm meal and a warmer blanket. It's such a comforting feeling getting an acorn notification, and that'll never change. It's the perfect feeling after a long day, I can't recommend it enough! xD

@jollyeart

Anatomy, surrealism, shitposts, Jolly does it all jolly good! It's a delight to see, and I'll never have enough of your Narinder. You draw him so hot, so alluring and so sinister, and it's such a delightful treat to get when you draw him. The same goes for all your art of course, but I'm a simp for the carboy. This is known.

@sillybilly4

True to the name, sometimes Billy gets silly. And when Billy gets silly, the world is a fun place to be in. Your silliness inspires me Billy, don't ever let the world take your silliness from you!

@lemonlamblaura

Lilybell is the cutest little bean I've ever seen. So fluffy, so pure and so heartfelt I just wanna hug her and tell her everything will be okay. 10/10, cutest bean alive.

@riatagrace

Your Narilamb always does, and always will, heal my soul so beautifully. It's so soft, so loving and so intimate but also silly and fun when it needs to be. The art style too? Ough. So perfect and beautifully yours, nobody could ever replicate it the way you draw it. It's perfect, that's all I can say.

@soursherbat

Oh MAN I've gott hold myself back or I'll be here all day. I am, quite simply, a FERAL BEAST for Garrett's art. Its' lamb design is second to none as my favourite let me tell you, and I cannot espouse how much I just ADORE how Garrett isn't afraid to get alternative with the ships. Leshlamb? Go ahead! Lambmura? Yes please! Garrett is the COTL communities very own Robin Hood, except its not robbing anyone! Just providing sweet, delicious meals to the masses, the rich and poor alike. I'll never get sick of yelling about Garrett as a person and artist, and if you disagree, you stink of cheese.

@mosslingg

This motherfucker can PAINT lemme tell you. Okay I've told you now. But seriously Moss is a fucking Van Gogh behind the brush, and goddamn is it a sight to see.

@naricats

It's naricats dude cmon. But seriously, if you love sonic, fish copypastas or good art, this is one hell of a place to be. Don't let the silliness deceive you either, Naren's got some real creative depth. You get silly gods and sonic being run over by a motorbike, but don't forget about the melting eye lamb either. All beautiful, all unique, all Naren.

The Wall of Mutual Appreciation - Part I

@machetelettuce

You officially have the cutest Narinder boba eyes I've ever seen. They utterly confound me in the most captivating way. Perfect Nari Boba, 10/10! Not to even mention your lamb, that motherfucker is the cutest lil lamby ever made. So fluffy, so cuddly, so smiles. I need them in my life, thank you for making that possible.

@caffeinecramp

Sozo. Such an underrated and underutilized character is most au's but by God did you nail the design. He's so fluffy and neat, he looks so friendly and pure. But behind that fluffy exterior is the mad eyes of a scientist turned delusional zombie, and you portray it beautifully.

@halftoastedwaffle

Expressions! I'll admit I don't really know how to phrase this perfectly, but your expression work is flawless. Each face conveys such a beautiful range of emotions, even with characters that are super hard to use for facial expressions like Shamura. Such a powerful skill to have when telling a story through visual media, and you've got it down to an art form unto itself.

@thetireddoktor

Ugh Shamura. Shamura Shamura Shamura. Don't get me wrong Dok, your bishop designs are all absolutely stunning, I admire them constantly. But my God, you sure know how to draw that damn spider. I am deeply, deeply in love with that damn spider, and you've only made that feeling so much worse in the best way possible. You've got a real knack for drawing that evil bastard, I adore it.

@flowersgoldandgraphite

I love your Leshy to death and back. He's so smiley, so fluffy and so smug. Not to mention, he absolutely killed that dress you put him in. He looked beautiful, like he's always deserved to. The Leshy stan community thanks you dearly, your contributions will never be forgotten!

@z00lea

Undisputably the King of Cannibalism and Gore in the fandom. I don't know anyone that quite matches your crazy sense of detail when it comes to guts and violence, but somehow keeps it intimate and sensual at the same time.

@fanofthelambalt

I cannot overstate how much I adored when you went around with Vitas and interacted with so many other lambs. It was such a beautiful moment of community and made my heart so much warmer, I'll never forget those posts. So wholesome, so fun and so cute. It was perfect, and it reflects your kind and fun heart so well. Also your Helob drawing? Still the most beautiful piece of art I've seen of him, and it deserves the due credit. Such an under-drawn character, but man did you COOK with that. So so cool, so cool

@midia666

Horror! Few have mastered horror in all its subtleties quite the way you have. Your designs are dripping in horror and unease even before the gore and limbs begin to fly or dismantle, and it's such a treat to see. Not to mention, your Narinder and Shamura tear my fucking heart out. They're so tragic and pained, it's incredible really. You have a real knack for unnerving me in all the best ways, it's incredible to behold.

@wolsalwastaken

RATIL!!!!!!!!! RATILLLLLLLL!!!!!!! I fucking adore Ratil you don't understand, they're possibly my favourite main character OC and they're such an adorable lil fella. So so perfect in every way, I love the lil rat so much. Also when you put them in a dress I screamed, so bonus points for that! Your art style in general is just so fucking adorable and flexible to different tones, it's so good.

@yourtaquitos

Siliiness and seriousness, you always know the balance. You're so beautifully capable of shitposting one minute, then blowing my mind with a masterpiece the next. Your anatomy is delicious, your silliness is divine, and your art is deeply appreciated.

@lime202

Comfort. That's what I think of when I see your art. It's so perfectly comforting in every way. It's detailed, but simple, with beautiful intricacies threaded without being overwhelming. Your art reminds me of Spring and blooming flowers, it's so warming to the sight. Also your Leshy? So beautifully fluffy and cuddly, I will always love him.

@stitchesofsoulsart

There's so much love in every single post you make. It's so beautiful, the way you draw such wholesome loving fun and comfort the masses with your beautiful designs and creativity. You're equally capable of angst and drama, but goddamn the comforting fluff is what drags me in personally the most. That Nari design too? To die for. No other way to put it exists, it's peak Narinder alternate design. So fucking cool and pretty ugh.

@blueaceart

Okay this is super specific but the way you draw Shamura just intrigues me. The tired eyes and sunken sockets, like the weight of knowledge and the burdens of war have weighed upon them for eons. It's so beautifully harsh and real, and I never see anyone else take up the challenge of it in such a subtle way. So cool.

@shrimpsketchy

Pirates! I am utterly obsessed with your piracy au idea, it's so embedded in my brain and I genuinely screamed when I saw it. It's beautiful, such a unique concept I've not see anyone else attempt and WOW was the art that accompanied it just stunning on a whole other level. Genuinely art gallery tier art, I'm in awe at it every single time.

@jomo-is-here

Where the fuck to even start with you Jomo. Jomo, formerly known as Fwick, is the subject of my largest conspiracy yet. I am fucking CONVINCED that Jomo is the dev of the game that does the official artworks for special events and DLC, because holy SHIT is Jomo's art in a tier of its own. Jomo is the fucking Michael Jordan of Cult of the Lamb art, rivaled by very VERY few. The environments are splendid, the characters are adorable and it's all done in such a beautifully similar style to the official artwork of the game. You could easily tell me Jomo IS the person doing the official art, but if I'm being honest? Jomo is better (in my opinion). But don't get it twisted, you can tell the difference with a mere glance and Jomo's uniquely recognisable style is a unique and adorable edition that wouldn't go awry in a museum or an award show. This shit is top tier lemme tell you, I can't glaze it enough.

@scared-lantern

Lantern approaches art with a beautiful style and flair that few can match. Your lamb is one of the most adorable designs around and by God do you know how to maximise that cuteness in every way. Not to mention, your painted art style is just a real marvel for the eyes. I can't eat it enough, I'm always going up for seconds.

@jellyseafish

I absolutely adore the silly fun you upload with your art. Your lamb is so big eyed and fun to stare at as they get up to hijinks, even if the hijinks are just them staring back with big ol' peepers. Cutest patootest around, and boy do they love a good shenanigan. I adore them, I can't help it.

@shadbells

GOLD. Shad has a flair for the decorative and beautiful when it comes to art, and boy does it shine through in such a unique and beautiful way. The designs you make, especially for your lambs and Nari, has really quickly become some of my favourites Shad. The gold accents of the clothes and jewellery really highlight their beauty so well, and let me say personally they are BEAUTIFUL. Absolutely stunning designs with a delightfully devilish side when they want, I adore them in every way. 10/10, would marry and smooch, then get stabbed probably.

@ccarmody101

Your lamb design is beautiful as hell and your Nari and Goat bring me some seriously needed joy when I stumble on them again. You were actually one of the first COTL artists I stumbled on when I got Tumblr, and I'll always appreciate how you fed my addiction just as I took my first steps.

@shind91

Uniqueness. That's the first word that pops up when I think of Shin's art. The way you translate these furry fellas into humanised and more realistic designs is just bafflingly cool to me, it's such a brilliant translation that few people can so perfectly pull off. It's a genre of art I didn't know I needed, but by God do I love to see it now that I've seen your art more than ever before in my life. It's such a unique talent, and I cherish it every time I see it.

@spilycoris

Armour! I love the armour you've given your lamb, it's so beautiful while still being believable that they'd wear it. It's like a beautiful but functional jewellery, and really pulls the outfit together! Absolutely adorable, 10/10!

@angry-ursidae

Ursidae art, some of the most fulfilling silliness there is on Tumblr. Your Narilamb fuels my life, and your Shamura makes me die laughing. I don't know why, I just love that design it's so silly to me for some reason and I can't help but adore it. I love Ursidae art, this is known.

@frecktheheck

When I think of COTL character designs, Freck is one of the first names that pops into my mind. Between the anatomy, the charisma and character that blossoms in the characters designs and the historically-designed outfits, there's not a single thing you do badly, or even mediocre for that matter. Every single piece is a gift woven from the threads of love and passion, and the art style reflects your beautiful heart in a way that's so pure and comforting to all who see it. I cannot, and will never, have enough Freck art in my life. I can't stop devouring it and begging for more like a camel in the Sahara, and I wouldn't ever want that to change.

@haggz-is-here

If I had to give someone an award for "Person most likely to be a time travelling renaissance artist" it would be you Haggz. Your work, simply put, is INSANE in it's quality and baffling in its detail. I cannot, no matter how long I stare at it, understand how you do it. On a damn iPad no less. Da Vinci's legacy lives on in you, and by God do you do it proud. I can't praise it enough, it's just stunning every time. Stunning, there's no other word for it. Other than shocking, maybe?

@sannaliel

Sanna is, quite frankly, a fucking genius at detail. There is nobody better for the minutae of an art piece than Sannaliel, and I will die on that hill. I have yet to be anything other than shocked and awe-inspired at a Sanna art piece, and I doubt that will ever change.

@hotchocolatedemon

A writer and a drawer, a rare double-talent! Not only that, but both are done to a wonderful degree! Never let it be said that hotchocolatedemon isn't a demon in the creative fields! I guess a deal with the devil would explain that 🤔

@tidalfoam

I fucking love your little gremlin ratsona. They're such a little thing, I adore them. I don't think there's a better meet the artist than your one if I'm being honest. It's perfect, sometimes less truly is more.

@loloelia

Lolo! The way your art has improved, even in the tiny amount of time I've sort of known you, has been tremendous, and it beautifully reflects your bubbly personality. Your positivity is a force for good in a negative world, and your art reflects that with every doodle and drawing! Don't ever change or doubt yourself, you're an amazingly joyful person to see around the place!

@cj-the-random-artist

This motherfucker manages to do two things at the same time. One: Draw the cutest lil fellas I've ever seen. They go to tea parties, they hug and slow dance, they go to TEA PARTIES. Two: educate the fuck out of me. I will always mention how CJ's QPR au was the first time I'd ever even heard of a QPR, l t alone been shown how it functions. It's so beautiful and passionately crafted, and reminds me how important representation is in art. There's nobody that does it better, and warms my heart in such uniquely beloved ways.

@twooftheluckyones

Gem and Cake!

To Gem: Your art heals a child in me I didn't know was wounded and in need of a bandage. It's so cute and pure, but so versatile in that too. Una is an utter delight, and Narinder is dripping with edge but without sacrificing the clear goopy interior that lies in his heart.

To Cake: You are, simply put, a writer in a tier purely of your own. The way you weave a tale with a myriad of writing tricks is just stunning to behold. If Gem is the heart, then you're the soul. There is nobody I take pride in learning from more than you, and you set a new standard with every piece you write. Never let it go said that Cake the Lucky can't write a bonafide masterstroke whenever he pleases, and in any genre he pleases. Smut? Action? Romance? Melancholy? Call this guy, he's the one to do it. Don't even get me started on how these two work together to make this shit sparkle, I'll be here all day.

@bogor-o

Have you ever seen an art piece so beautifully cuddly that you just wept because you can't actually hug the characters on your screen? Well, lemme tell you something. Bogor is the fucking expert of that. If you've ever wanted to see a character that looks like they could kill you with a stare and hug you back to life in the same breath, then go take a gander at Bogor's art, you will NOT be disappointed.

@greedykrab

Your skill in taking the abstract and turning it into the deeply developed is outstanding and profound. I will never quite "understand" your art style, and I think that's what draws me to it. It's like a beautiful puzzle you could stare at for days and never fully replicate, so uniquely yours in a world of already unique artists and styles. So so good.

@the-artist-grimm

The art? Spectacular, 10/10 on the cuteness and the violence when necessary. But the writing? Oh my God you crank that up to 11! Crimson Angel has torn my heart out every single step of the way and I'll never stop singing its praises. Your writing of parenting and the relationship between two firey but pained loves? Immaculate. Utterly perfect in every way.

@ro-bee

KIRAN. The beautiful baby boy I had the absolute honour of helping name. I will forever fawn over Pupigoat and your beautiful art style that brings them to life. Their pain is wholesome but brutal, and your skill at drawing it brings it to life so wholly and passionately. Not to even mention the rest of your art, it's all so unique and wonderful.

@losing-catharsis

A fellow poet amidst a sea of visual artists! The way you weave words into song without a rhyme scheme utterly fascinates me, and was a huge part of what inspired me to try free verse poetry in a few of my own works, to very little succes xD. Your a wonderful writer, never stop Cath <3

@zynical-forg

You draw, without any competition or contest, the CUTIEST PATOOTIEST Patooties ever. They're so small, so round and so lovable. Perfectly drawn blorbos every time, ready for some cute adventures together. Beautiful, 10/10 would fawn over again.

@yellowflowrs

Carillonneur. Need I say more? Okay but seriously now, you crafted the absolute BEST swap au I've ever seen in my life design-wise. The character traits? Hilarious and intriguing. The clothing? Beautifully horror themed. The actual character's designs and anatomy? Oh my God. Next level insane. The Carillonneur? The Rinder? So so good. I just devour them every time I see them. I've had to limit myself to my favourite of your au's or I'll be here till I die of old age, but I love them all so so so so sooooo much ugh. I can't wait to see what you get up to next, be it COTL or something else entirely!

@eliza-forget

You. You are the absolute most powerful MACHINE of creativity I have ever born witness to. I don't understand how you never seen to run out of ideas, motivation or passion, it's such a beautiful display of the human spirit at its finest. To top that off, the detail on every piece is just BAFFLING to point my eyeballs at. Every. Single. Post is just dripping with detail, whether that be clothing, design, anatomy, lighting, perspective or dialogue. It's insane how you produce artwork so fast, so efficiently and compromise nothing when it comes to vision, detail or passion. I genuinely feel inspired when I see your newest work almost every single day, I can only aspire to be like you and your bountiful spirit the same way someone aspires to a myth of the ancients and their acts of heroic bravery.

@loullipopx

Versatility. Lou does it all and goddamn do they do it well. Cuteness galore? Look no further than the Pokémon au and their designs. You'll cry they're so cute, and then you'll cry because you know you'll never see something as cute ever again in your life. Beautiful and sensual art? Go look at the pinups she did for the Lamb and Nari during the bunny suit trend. They have scarred my mind in such a beautiful way, I'll never forget it. Loulli makes that shit pop, and by God does it pop good as hell. Don't even get me started on the music she makes. Yeah that's right I'll say it publicly, this fucker makes music. Good music. GREAT music! The skillset goes above and beyond, and boy does it astound me every time I learn something new.

@lotus-duckies

Cannibalism? Check. Cuteness? Check. Religious themes? Check! The way you weave religion into your pieces is utterly fascinating to me, and I still remember our little theological talks super fondly. Every single piece is utterly soaked in symbolism, metaphor and a diabolical amount of love and passion, even when the love involved leads to a cannibalistic eating of a spouse or two. I cannot praise the detail put into these pieces enough, and the art style just emboldens those details tenfold. Never before have I seen an art style take me by the hand and plunge me into a sea of joy so quickly and vividly, and I'll always love it dearly.

@mudtrash

Two words. Anatomy. Ears. Your anatomy work on your lil sillies is utterly fantastic, especially your rare naked Nari. But the real prize in my eyes? The way you draw ears. I don't know why, but you give those motherfuckers the most beautiful flop I've ever seen. Nari? Big dorito ears. Lamb? Lil gloppy floppas. Goat? Middle ground flopperoos. They're all just so perfect. Your style is so cute and fun without sacrificing detail, it's to die for. For me though, the ears are the cherry on top of an already perfect cake. 10/10 dude, I wouldn't trade it for the world.

@streetchicken

Streetchicken cookin in the kitchen like it's KFC. Make no mistake, this motherfucker can COOK. Gay soldiers? Absolutely. Gay furry gods? Not a problem. Just a dude? Light work. Frog is an artiste behind the brush, but lemme tell you the real secret. Nobody, and I mean NOBODY, can draw a bear or a hunk quite like Streetchicken. Not a soul. This motherfucker can COOK when it comes to big huggable bears and rough-and-tumble fellas, and the competition never truly stood a chance. Whether it be Captain Price, Soap or Leshy, there are hunks abound. I thank you for your contributions to the bear community Frogo, never stop cooking 🫡

@faebunnyleap

Smiles! That's my immediate thought when I think of Fae. There's not a single piece of yours that doesn't have me smiling at the hilarity, the domestic bliss or the calming of it. Every single post is crafted with such a refined and calm hand, and 9 times out of 10 your characters are always so smiley and free. Your art style helps that so much too, it's so diverse. Your sketches are so silly and fun, but when you turn it up to 11 and get serious it's such a fantastic result. Also, I think about that fuckass pagliaci twins post so often it hurts. It's so good, top 3 shitposts ever. I love it, thank you so much.

@neon-virus

Size! I absolutely adore how you use your characters and their size differences, with such a crazy array of heights and builds. Goat is absolutely HUGE, a real unit, while Lamb is like the tiniest lil cutie patootie ever made. Nari acts as this weird middle ground where he's still super tall, but Goat's such a monster that he looks kinda normal? I love it so much. Also wow, your shading and rendering on your more detailed full pieces? Utterly splendid, I cannot ever be sated from my greed for more. So so beautiful.

@paintpaintpaintman

Trad art central over here. Your paintings are honestly stunning and it's so refreshing to see some trad art standing out amongst the digital age. Your designs are awesome too, and seeing them painted to life is so wholesomely warming. I get a shot of giddiness in my veins whenever you post, and I don't see that feeling ever fading in the slightest!

@cconfusedkat

The cuddliest designs in the whole world, so full of joy and whimsy. Every design bursts with a huggable energy that just sucks you in. It's beautiful, I adore it. There's not a single character that I wouldn't snuggle, pat on the head and feed a cookie for being such a delightful lil fella, I love them. I can only hope that they would love me.

@teruuu-main

Teru, Teru, Teru. Your brilliance knows no bounds. Every au just drips with personality and beauty, each so unique in the ways they shine. Old Faith Academy? Beautifully tropey, so comforting and warm. Compulsion of Flesh? Ohhh BOY lemme tell you about Compulsion of Flesh. Never have I seen someone write two characters that are so fucking VILE that I cannot help but love them. They're insane, they literally eat each other, and I eat it up like a starved hyena. I can't help it, they've devoured my brain since day one, and the saying is true, "Absence makes the heart grow fonder." This au will always be one of my favourites, and one of the first fan projects I ever got obsessed with. Words don't quite match my love for it, so just take some sounds. SNOOB. GLOOB. GLEEB. HAPAP! And so on.

@kikorikoiko

Your improvement in the time I've known you has been absolutely immense, and I adore the way you draw Astaroth and Kallamar. You've brought the Astaroth character to life in a way few have, and it's beautiful every time. Devs hire Kiko please, we need tragic polygamous gays to be canon (as if they aren't already).

@junoberrii

Cuteness. Pure and simple cuteness. There is not a single un-cute bone in Juno's wrist I swear to God. Every single post is just the cutest shit imaginable. So cute, in fact, that I constantly forget that the lamb is canonically a mass murderer, and that Nari is an asshole. If you want fluff, and you want it FLUFFY, go to Juno and just stare at the art on display. It heals your soul man, it really does.

@spiderin-space

Talk about versatility! Spider writes, and writes a damn fine story too! Not only that, but such a passionate and dedicatedly written story, with such a beautifully paced yet long winding story that leaves you always waiting for an update. The art though? Oh man the art. Cuddly, cute and joyful but with a perfectly conveyed sense of fear whenever Spider needs to put the brakes on the fun zone. Spider knows their shit, and does it perfectly to a T. Don't sleep on spider, that spider knows how to write a story that bites in the night, or soothes in the daytime. Take your pick, you won't be disappointed.

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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[fumiliar]

self-restraint is one thing kento prides on. he is a good man, or at least he tries to be. his eyes landed on your flailing figure, pinching his nose bridge to prepare himself. you, gojo, kento and shoko went out for drinks to celebrate the fact you 4 were still alive.

your mind was blank, you had no self-control, it was like the shame centre in your brain got turned off.

"oh my god!" you squealed in excitement. "my favourite song!" you stumbled off your bar stool, going to stand up on the table, gojo supporting your brave act.

kento acted quick. right when your foot landed on the table, you were pulled back by an immeasurable amount of strength, your back landing on someone's muscular chest.

"how drunk are you?" a gruff voice spoke right beside your ear, sending shivers through your whole body. your senses were already heightened, but at this moment, you could feel everything. you could hear the fastening rhythm of your heart, along with the steady rhythm of another's.

"earth to y/n~," satoru's singsong voice echoed through your empty head.

"yea, sorry," you shook your head, turning around to see kento's disapproving look. his hand keeping a deathly grip on your wrist, ensuring you were always close to him, in case you'd do something embarrassing, or at least that's what he tells himself.

"y/n, i'll bring you ho-"

"don'tt, you're such a party pooper nanamin! we were just getting started," the blue eyed man whined, he looked like he was about to start a tantrum.

"yeah, let's just wrap it up, i wanna go home," shoko agreed with kento, getting ready to leave. "i'll leave y/n to you, gojo, come." satoru following shoko like a sad puppy.

"let's go home," kento used his free hand to pack up your stuff, double checking if you took anything out of your purse.

"you're so hot when you take care of me," you freely complimented kento, his ears slowly turning beet red.

"i like you kento, you know that right?" you kept talking, kento's face slowly turning a darker shade of red. "why are you so red? are you having a fever?" you used your free hand to feel his forehead, even in your drunken state, you still worried about his health.

"no...y/n. i'm fine," he put your bag on your shoulder as he led you out of the establishment.

"ow....my feet hurt ken," you pouted looking down at your heels.

restrain yourself kento. restrain. was the only thing he could think off as he looked back at you. he didn't want to take advantage of your drunken self. he knelt down as he took of your heels, you bracing yourself on his back. he slowly took your hand of his back, putting down your heels on the ground to take off his blazer.

"up," his back facing you as he knelt down. you weren't going to waste a chance getting piggy backed. instantly, your arms slid around his neck as your legs trapped his torso. kento stood up, picking up your heels and adjusting his hold on you.

"comfy?" you nodded against his neck. "take this, and wrap it around your waist," he handed you his blazer. you instantly listened, wrapping the blazer around your waist, making sure you don't flash anyone along your way home.

"ken, you're so good to me," you mumbled, nibbling on his neck, eliciting a groan out of the man.

"you're such a tease," kento chuckled, smiling to himself at his current predicament.

"we're not even dating....hft," you sighed. kento let out a hearty laugh at your dissatisfaction.

"why do you want us to date?" kento asked making you even more disappointed.

"what woman doesn't want stability!" this time you were annoyed. you straightening your back, not leaning on kento's anymore. kento was still joyful, instead of responding to your annoyance, he loosened his grip on your legs, your instincts kicked in, quickly wrapping your hands around his neck once more to ensure your safety.

"were you about to drop me??" panic was evident in your tone, but kento was still amused. "answer me!" your hand hitting on his chest.

"y/n," kento sternly called out your name, abruptly stopping your abuse on his chest. "we're married love, isn't that the epitome of stability? why would i regress our relationship to just boyfriend and girlfriend?"

"huh?..." you were confused for a second, quickly looking at your hand. and there it was, glistening in the moonlight, your wedding ring. "oh.."

kento couldn't help but tease your drunken self, his self-restraint always wavering when it came to you. the prim and proper man turning playful in your presence, he just couldn't help it. he continued his walk home, occasionally giggling at your forgetful nature.

"i hope you don't forget this moment," kento muttered under his breath, knowing full well you would have no memory of this event, only a pounding headache to remind you of yesterday's events.

[void-my-warranty]

Simon Riley is the type to mutter, “Suit yourself,” when you ask him if you can call him something cute.

You could call him Shithead all day, for all he cares. It wouldn’t dent that invisible iron door in his chest, because he doesn’t give a shit what you say or don’t say about him, what you like or don’t like. He’s his own island, he doesn’t need your good opinion or anyone else’s.

But what he doesn’t know about you, is that you’re fucking annoying. It starts soft as little “baby”s and “sweetie”s, and of course he doesn’t even bat an eyelash. Just the usual puppy love bullshit, it’ll wear off.

But then you start slipping in the “my favorite person in the whole world”s and the “precious thing”s, and he’s narrowing his eyes a little, growing uncomfortable with how that settles something stuffy in his lungs. It’s a little too far for his liking, but he did say you could call him anything. And he is, well, incredibly competitive. So he decides he can take it.

“Delicious lil guy,” you whisper into his neck after you’ve given him a good chomp.

“Prettiest thing I’ve ever seen,” you sigh, running your hands through his wet hair after a shower.

“Sweet little baby cupcake,” you mumble when he wraps himself after you after getting home from work past midnight.

All heartfelt and honest, and unfortunately for him, stone cold sober.

“Have you seen me?” he finally demands one night, after you’ve kissed all over his face and told him how perfect it is.

You frown down at him, a little confused. “…yes?”

“I’ve got— fucking—“ he makes a gesture with his hand, indicating his face.

You narrow your eyes and really squint, trying to figure out what he’s getting at.

“Scars,” he finally huffs.

“Oh, yeah.” You smile down at him, tracing the history of violence with your eyes. “I forgot about those.”

“You forgot?”

“I haven’t really noticed them since like the first few weeks. Aren’t brains funny?”

Puppy love, he reminds himself, as you settle into his arms and sigh happily. This slicing pain in his chest and the burning in his eyes… this is puppy love. It’s totally normal to feel like he’d rather throw himself off a building than see you hurt. It doesn’t matter that he spends his time before falling asleep just thinking about you, inventing new ways to make your life better in any way he can conceive.

That’s normal. Right?

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