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She had to go through so much even before the crash... The amount of mental and physical torment... She didn't deserve any of this
#mouthwashing#mouthwashing anya#mouthwashing fanart#my art#art tag#She was treated so unfairly#even when doing the right thing and going to the captain for support#he gave her nothing but words#because he kept prioritizing his friend and the “bigger picture”#sorry Im tag rambling
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me n moze say good morning to the world !!! ᕙ( •̀ ᗜ •́ )ᕗ
art by @rabbbitseason of course <3
#— ⚘( ၴႅၴ moevie.#🐦⬛🐕 .#moevie.#<-#hehe i took inspo from kai’s rb of my mb:>#MY FIRST MOEVIE COMM#this is queued#im asleep (at least i should be by the time this is posted) but it’s a mystery as to how i will fall asleep knowing i would have to#close my eyes and not actively stare at this for the rest of my life#full factory reset i really don’t know what i would even say to this 🥹 im just#things i would do for bitti : anything! i cannot think of something i wouldn’t do for her#i gave her the most cursed ref known to mankind and she came up with this im so 🥹 thank you so much … your art blows me away every time ….#i may pass out seeing him in your style … the way you did his hands and he’s so big#this is me -> ໒꒰ྀི o̴̶̷̤ ̯o̴̶̷̤ ꒱ྀི১ at this HSJDNCN aaaaaa 🥹#i will also state the very obvious and say that bitti is such a pleasure to work with ajsnxnkck ….. please im on my knees#when i saw this- my stomach literally flipped inside out and my ears were ringing .. and my heart was beating a million beats per second#if bitti’s comms were open for eternity & i won the lottery- i would commission so many mozes ….. the world would be full of bitti’s mozes.#^ though that sounds terrible for bitti … im so sorry#i swear that won’t happen i would never do that to you#he is sooooo yum in your style (severe & outrageous understatement)#but what i can do is stare at this all day#THANK YOU BITTI UEUEJJSJS 🥹🥹🥹 I HOPE UR PILLOWS R ALWAYS COLD !!!#not even aventurine’s shield can protect me from the 100000000 damage i took from this /pos#such a shield doesn’t exist in the hsr realm or the real world !!!#IM KIND OF ANGRY THAT I KNOW THERES NOTHING I CAN SAY TO EXPRESS HOW I FEEL !!!!! WHAT COULD I SAY >:#WHAT AN ODD FEELING WHERE I AM reduced to my knees but from positive emotions alone …#im so dizzy /pos let me stop here this is already so long omg 🥹#edit: dude /gn my screen time is gonna skyrocket because im still staring with such a dopey smile on my face ahsndnxkc gosh im happy :’) th#thank you so much bitti …. this means so much to me#i literally can not put into words how much this has made my entire year :’)) im so soft im so happy
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↠ Tim & Lucy ↳ 2x10 - The Dark Side
#jesuis-assez edits: chenford season 2#jesuis-assez edits: chenford#jesuis-assez edits: chenford scenes 2x10#I really didn't want to gif a single frame of Caleb. But I did want to gif this scene. So sacrifices had to be made 🤣#Absolute INSANE behavior Tim. INSANE! and yet justified given how much of a piece of sh-- Caleb turned out to be. He had creepy vibes#from the get go. It's interesting how Tim said that Lucy hesitated with Caleb.#The only hesitancy (and frustration) I detect is this conversation taking place while Tim is there and Lucy being very aware of that.#And Tim at the end handing her the paper. Lucy observing how he's acting and how quickly he shifted into protective mode. Tim standing#there with a part of him not feeling right about this whole thing & later projecting that as Lucy being the one who didn't.#He was overwhelmed by his guilt and in such anguish. Just falling apart at the thought of losing her because he gave her advice#as a friend and not as her training officer. Something awful happening to someone else. To Lucy... collecting more guilt#and piling it on top of all the other times that happened. That someone suffered because of 'his actions'#Neither Tim or Lucy saw this sadistic monster coming. And Tim may not have suspected him...#But there was something about Caleb and that interaction that had Tim stepping into that role of the fierce protector.#And Tim isn't only emitting protective energy here...🟢 * Puts a green circle there and doesn't elaborate * Yaass queen give us nothing 🤣#The green circle of jealousy and Tim is standing inside of it.#But he's also coming across as distrustful of Caleb's intentions which is not alarming as they're in the midst of the chaos#surrounding a serial killer. It's rather expected to be that way. It's how Tim said he should've known. He should've suspected him.#He's a cop. And yet he started interrogating like a cop would & as if he were a suspect. Asking for a last name. What he does for a living.#He behaved in that way for a reason. So something definitely felt off but the need to be Lucy's friend in that moment#that he encouraged her to go out with him came before his instinct to be a cop or even her T.O .#In other words... He prioritized Lucy and what he thought she needed. He shifted the focus from the case onto her by#suggesting she focus on something else. And when she was taken... that focus on her became heightened by the gravity of the situation.#+ The EYE CONTACT. Tim & Lucy having their own private moment. The silent communication between them while Caleb rambles on#in the background about something unimportant. I have so much more to say but I've reached my tag limit 🤣*whispers with feeling* f**k..
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Treasured Treats
@jojo-schmo
#Still recovering from everything (thank you for the kind words everyone!) but I had nothing else to upload for Halloween#That and this idea was so sweet I wanted to be involved!#(After sixth months Noir finally has a -single- meal...!)#That's a senbei rice cracker cookie he's eating btw - Noir likes warm drinks and relatively bland and simple food#(For some off the cuff lore... his mom probably gave him some to eat on the shuttle from the New World > Shiver Star)#(As they were on the run at the time 'airplane snacks' was likely the best she could offer her hungry confused son...)#(...But Noir would surely remember the taste of the simple rice crackers he had that day very fondly)#Still... when a man cries over a single rice cracker you know he's lived a rough life XD#(Random Dess Lore: This was the first thing my host family gave me after the worst plane trip of -my- life)#Noir Fontaine#Dess Art Post#cw: blood#(well it's a nosebleed but still)#Really need to stop drawing and rest my hand/eye...#But I wanted to do something a little cute and fun first!
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silly doodle for my fursona since i made her 11 years ago today :-)
#my art#YAAAAY KADEN BIRTHDAY#featuring her new design bc i keep forgetting to update her ref#ive been a furry for 11 years. isnt that something LMAO#im on fall break now!!! doing a lot of recharging bc the few days before break have been making me wanna eat my keyboard#< nothing crazy bad going on its just the work im doing being super annoying + dealing with a weird bout of imposter syndrome#BUT ANYWAY!!! happy birthday kaden. kissing his big head#i have a couple of things i wanna do for my next tattoo/its just a matter of committing but i Do want to get a cat#< I DO WANNA NOTE kaden and i have dif birthdays :-) mine was at the end of october hehe#but i do draw kaden on my birthday bc he is me but he is also Not Me . but he is. yk LOL#tattoo somewhere to honor kaden. just a standard shorthair/nothing that necessarily reads that im a furry#or the cat having her design bc it changes every now and then bahaha#AND LIKE IM VERY CERTAIN I WANT A CAT TATTOO FOR KADE LOL shes been a staple of my life for Eleven Whole Years#and shes helped me accept parts of myself. bc if i gave her the traits i had/have and i still loved her. then i could love me too#and that has drastically helped with So Much and my therapist says thats actually#a great therapy tool. forget the exact wording but the idea is there#everyone make a fursona now. ur homework is making a fursona and loving them. and then loving urself
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"You look an awful lot like your mother. I hope you're nothing like her."
Myrtle's mother Mystira, often nicknamed Myst.
She was the soul mate to the King of Rudor, Leroy. She was not born royal, but that has never been something that was looked down on in regards to becoming royal. Myst was born in a small village that was secluded from the rest of the kingdom, known as Brindlefell. It's the only place in all of Rudor that ever speaks about the Malterns and magic as speaking about it is considered forbidden by law due to the nature of the departure of the Malterns. This became so true that it as almost completely forgotten outside of Brindlefell save for stories about magic that seemed to have vanished one day.
Leroy longed to marry his soulmate whoever they may be, something shared by many but not all, as a soulmate is one who best connects to you in someway, and is personally picked by Selene. He actually even sent out for finding the one who received the same markings he made (as any intentional marking you make on your body will magically appear on the same place on your soulmate). After discovering her he was smitten and they quickly wed as soon as they could.
Though she knew such things were forbidden, she admitted the truth about keeping the history of the Malterns, hoping that her soulmate must understand. But he quickly forbid any more talks of them, and that it was for the better.
After the birth of Myrtle, Myst often told stories to her daughter even before she could fully understand. It was under the guise of fairytales and myths but they were all related to the Malterns and the magic that once was present in the land and the history of Rudor. After telling the stories she'd write them down and draw out pictures of things so that Myrtle could read them whenever. Myrtle still preferred to hear her mother tell the stories.
This was all in secret with only the 3 family members being aware of the stories. But sometimes there would be slip ups and word got around about the queen speaking about magic and Malterns. Claiming that his wife must have lost her mind, Leroy had her locked up in a personal cell. Begrudgingly he allowed Myrtle to visit her mother as he was concerned how disallowing it may affect her. Anytime Myrtle ever spoke up about anything from the stories he scolded her for focusing on "fiction" and to keep in mind she'd be queen one day.
Even despite being locked up Myst still kept telling stories and even made up some. Often crying and lamenting her reality between visits from others. At times she'd write messages to Leroy on her body so he'd see them, which he often ignored.
Almost to Myrtle's birthday Myst became very ill with something very unknown, thought to be native to Brindlefell as that's the only location known to have it. But it had no cure. Despite all efforts of the royal help and medical staff, she grew sicker. On Myrtle's birthday she got to preform her coming of age ceremony and discovered her wolf form. Unfortunately it was also the night her mother past away, leaving Myrtle with just the book her mother created left to her.
Myrtle continued to view them as just stories until she met Nym.
Mystira's shifted form was also a Wolf. Leroy's is a peafowl.
#my art#Awaken Tranquil Rudor#Mystira Fluence#Myrtle Fluence#I hope I didn't mess up wording on this cause I did NOT proof read it lol#I've been long meaning to explain all this#which does get explained in the story but this is background information that I'm okay with sharing now as it doesn't spoil too much#as Myrtle discovers that the book her mother made was genuine (for the most part) and uses it to start the journey#Myrtle's hair is naturally pink it's not dye she gets it from her dad#shifting and soulmates are considered the last two forms of magic left to them#but this cause these were gifts from Selene and it has nothing to do with the magic that is unlocked by Malterns#Magic lives dormant in humans until a Maltern “unlocks” it by gifting the ability to through a ritual but once it's gifted it will never go#Brindlefell is VERY important to the plot and the history#and is where another character I'm gonna introduce comes from#reminder that Selene is the human's name for Ayesha#Ayesha is her true name but the humans don't know that so they gave her a name#Malterns call her Ayesha and Humans call her Selene save for Elysa who learned from Nym#also Pokey calls her Ayesha since he was made by Nym
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Season 2 - Birthday Ball
#moversposting#rich putting those flowers behind his ears... pretty...#going into my list of screenshot redraws#mouse is soooo cute when he gave that flower to nina aaa. he acts shy after that it's so sweet#i also like that nina puts it behind her ear too#also! this a bit off topic but while trying to find words the search results wrote about wearing flowers behind ears in hawaiian culture#and according to it. wearing on the right means you are looking for love while on the left means in a relationship/unavailable .#so. nina's wearing that flower on her left ear .#which could mean nothing ahahaha i just thought that was interesting. i can't verify if that information is true or not so#take it with a grain of salt. it was just related to the screenshots
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Finally got around to watching ep 11 (´；ω；｀)
#I'm late...#I'm sorry I wasn't able to watch the episode by time last week but again. Food poisoning. And then the new chapter came out#I feel like I had much more to say when I started watching it last week...#Mmmmhh. I really like when bsd animation uses the colored lineart effect for flashbacks / subspaces (Anne's Room‚ Poe's books).#I think it's one of the prettiest and most original things of the bsd animation.#I've always felt like the Natsume reveal was a bit coming out of nowhere lol.#Here's this legendary ability user everyone knows but no one has ever seen with this immensely unthinkable powerful ability...#That the reader literally wasn't ever made aware of in the previous 49 chapters lol#After all that build up‚ his ability even feels a little underwhelming.#Which I suppose was the intended result‚ but I'm not sure it really works all that well in the end.#Then Naomi's words “Come to think of it‚ the things that happen when Mii-chan vanishes [...]‚ disasters are stopped every time”#really feel soooo out of place when so-called Mii-chan was never before mentioned up to this episode (╥﹏╥)#But I'll stop complaining. It's nothing big really#Fukuzawa and Mori's relationship is very homoerotic. Tbh#I looooove the ss/kk I don't even have much to say just watching scenes of them interacting together fills my heart of a warm feeling :')#The animation quality is very poor and the drawings are very undetailed but really I love ss/kk too much to care.#A lot of emphasis is put by the fandom on Atsushi's cruel remark towards Akutagawa in this ch/ep and it *is* cruel but really...#Akutagawa had literally just attacked Atsushi in a death-threatening way‚ futilely and completely unprompted#I can't find it in myself to blame Atsushi if he was irritated and lashed out at him.#And all their other moments are just so cute. What do you mean Akutagawa is deeply interested in understanding Atsushi's motivations.#What do you mean Atsushi can't get Akutagawa out of his mind!!!! They're so cute#So many more cute moments were cut out too rip lawnmower line you'll always be missed rip date line you'll always be missed#I feel like Pushkin's character is another instance of‚‚‚ Wow me and the author's morals really don't align at all#I really don't like the narrative of “weaker people will constantly try to harm and take advantage of strongest ones”#random rambles#Fun fact when I watched this episode for the first time I asked my mother to join me. Because I know a ss/kk scene was coming and I really–#didn't want to watch it alone. Well as it turned out the whole first half of the episode was dedicated to old man fighting–#and she gave up after that 😂😂 But I'm still grateful to her for trying.
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nothing says romance like “ur tacky and i hate u” “she totally digs me” and i am going to have a secret fling with him to get him out of my system and it lasts for YEARSS and to gift him a necklace with a ring made of gold plated v*alyrian steel which for ur house to gift those to someone is a HUGE deal as ur mothers house is the last of those with the knowledge to craft with v*alyrian steel and that they are pieces of the person as they are crafted by them and a piece of their blood is put into those and that would mean that everywhere he goes a piece of u goes with him 🥀🤪 OH YEA and u terrorized him for funsies (affectionately) by creating a wall of fire and chased him down with ur dragon alongside ur niece as he bolted into a forest *twirling hair*💀 ROMANCE!!!!!!
#leg.txt#oc: valaene valkyn#i can’t wait to yell more and for yall to meet the funniest couple in west e ross!!!!!!! 🥀🥴#x: velaene x gwayne#airika if u saw me liking a post or two of him from ur tag for him no u didn’t 🥀🥴😵💫 <33#something something i love to loathe him and loathe to love him AJSHJSJS the way i KNEW bc he’s played by fred 🥀💀 *wheeze*#teehee guess who is slow as snails catching up to the dragon show and has new clown HEHE#there was nothing on last night so i watched the new ep and now i got to catch up bc HEHE#there is soo much i have to overhaul and dust off ye olde clown lore for dragon show buut i missed my clowns for it!!!!!#a fun little side worms for brains in the midst of my dragon game brainrot 🥀☺️#thats the lore i have rn on her and i have more to yell about her house but yea i gave lore on ye olde necklace 🥀���#spoilers maybe??#she’s the closest with dae and is close with her nieces !!!!#and iovanna and iov and daes kids <33#and is super close as well with rhae and ella tooooo it’s no shock that when word reaches vel she bolted to join and support rhae <33
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I'm gonna bash somebody's head into a wall
#realized there was a bit of ✨️miscommunication✨️ in details about EBT card stuff and when i paid attention to the literal wording realized#that im not eligible. let my grandpa know (via writing down the texts w exact & underlined wording) and then texted ny grandma abt the#situation. AND THEN SHE SAYS SHES GONNA TELL HIM 'theyre looking into it' AND WJEN I WAS LIKE NO?? THATS LYING AND I DONT WANT#HIM GETTING PISSED AT ME FOR SOMETHING I NEITHER SAID NOR AM GONNA ENCOURAGE TO DO SHE TELLS ME#'i told him. hes a liar. ill play his game.' so i told her fine whatever dont talk to me about this again she says 'ill talk w you later'#AND IM LIKE? WHATS THERE TO TALK ABOUT??? YOU BLATANTLY IGNORED MY WISHES AND I JUST SAID IM NOT GONNA TALK ABOUT IT#anyway#now feeling unbridled rage and annoyance abd want nothing more than to bash something#but i shant. ill just shut down any conversations she tries to bring up about it#and if my grandpa approaches me i will literally just say 'i gave you the info. nothing i can do. grandma said theyre looking into it i#never said they were. i told her not to say that 🤷♀️'#i dont mind throwing her under the bus if shes just gonna steamroll me like that#and thank fuck i gave him the stupid paper first cause at least he has that as a first impression instead of whatever the fuck she said#amber's shit you can ignore
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just wait then youll all see. all of you will see that the true neutral alignment isnt wrong for aurora (shes going to be so fey if you corner her)
#ama mumbles#aurora (oc)#true neutral to reflect her morals are nothing like a mortal even if she comes off like they are#in her game someone died and i have to cast revivify. bc that characters li was right there she just gave a generic 'you cant die yet'#speech. and the other players assumed she would have confessed to him if his li wasnt there. no. she was going to yell at him#she was going to be angry. to leave at that point? after giving her his word he would kill Her if she turned into a hag#plus shes just very angry. you cant leave you have so much left to do (angry. find your mom and kill me and my aunt. wtf youre not leaving)#she also discovered another characters secret and apparently he is going to Threaten her to keep it quiet#good luck cornering the fey as if she wasnt already aware you had been lying for weeks at that point
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Have you ever watched a show portraying your own religion in two different lights from the POVs of those who zealously worship and convolute the faith with their bigotry and misogyny and amongst the same people is a person whose beliefs are purely based on logical reasoning, philosophy and Sufism and felt such profound feelings of being seen.
#I’m beyond obsessed with this Turkish drama where different versions of Muslims are shown and way it’s such an accurate portrayal#of the misogyny with which the religion has been convoluted with#It takes place in a sect like cult of Muslims so oppressive and pathetic I wanna k!! them all#and then among the same ppl in the same evil cult is a melancholy and mentally ill man whose entire existence is based on philosophy#and asking questions his conversations with therapist are so beautiful it makes me cry#and he’s forcefully married to this young intelligent girl both are forced to marry but she’s just like him#she’s a match for with her intelligence and philosophy and compassion and the way the converse in metaphors and words make me sanity#lose* my sanity#the way she encourages him and how their relationship/marriage/ is so pure she’s so young and he knows that she’s 16 hes 23#the purity of their relationship has my whole heart can’t physical contact bc his hold committed s@uicide by jumping off a building while#holding his hands ever since he hates that#and it unlocks his truma so their marriage is nothing more than on paper but they’ve fallen in love but it’s not right#and everyone wants them to divorce so he gave HER the choice to divorce since she was robbed of a choice when she was forcefully married#AHHHHHHHHHH I CAN GO ON FOREVER#ignore my typos I’m so in love
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was watching tiktok and a video had the song michael in the bathroom playing and I was vicerally reminded of being in middle and high school and mom always mentioning how much I looked like my dad (his name is michael) and how I slowly was able to start noticing it too and whenever I sang the song it reminded me of him and I felt like we were overlapping too often felt like id never be anyone but a shadow or his mirror and then i began learning i was trans and now the song makes me think of him even more (he’s not a bad dad he tells me he’s proud of me and stuff there’s just two really big moments he unknowingly failed and one long continuous one but he loves me and he’s proud and he supports me and he didn’t mean it and ive learned to make that enough) and the weird flashback I got when I heard that song and overlapping with his face and how if I transitioned I almost fear I’d be his clone and yeah Anywyas banger song
#the moments were that time he told me how he used to want something to be wrong with him and he’d cut himself to try and prove something was#and he showed me his incredibly faint scars and this was after I told them I was depressed and his solution was to tell me he faked it????#and didn’t even see anything wrong or worrying that he’d cut himself or was self destructive or wished something was wrong so he’d have#something to blame for being the way he was and like DAD THATS DEPRESSION but I was too numb and shocked and felt so so so betrayed becuase#it felt mocking at the time like his way of comforting me. his child. was to fucking show me his scars and be like I faked it so I know#it’s real and sorry I don’t understand WTF DAD#Other time was when he gave me his phone to play Pokémon go and I betrayed his trust (he didn’t like anyone going through his phone) and#went looking through and found Grindr and saw some shirtless photos and people messaging before I left#dad had a shirtlesss photo on there. and I had to pretend everything was fine and erase the evidence and give the phone back and help look#for furniture for our new house and never tell mom cause she’s been through so much already (I really shouldn’t have known I wasn’t her#therapist but this is about daddy issues right now not the mommy ones) so anyways I never told him and years later he told me his friends#signed him up for Grindr as a prank and to make friends and that’s why he thinks someone from his work I pranking him by signing him up#for a gay furry dating site and yet I saw him on his bed sometimes messaging people and yeah#oh and the long continous one was not divorcing mom and defending her saying she loves us when she rejected me and my sister for being trans#and being gone for most of my childhood working and never understanding the fucked up dynamic of home that took place and resenting him for#ruining the perfect routine (sharp words scary feelings always wanting to cry)#anyways michael in the bathroom always gives me weird feelings#cause I hate and love my dad and I looked up to him so much and loooking like him would’ve been a dream but sometiems the wrongs he did#come back haunt my thoughts and I want to scratch and tear apart every feature that makes me look like him. I look nothing like my mom so#there’s nothing physical to tear apart (I just act like her sometimes and have to force myself not the throw up and attack myself from the#disgust)
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dragon republic is making me want to pull my hair out
#SPOILERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! btw (just in case)#(i'm trying to make sure nothing comes up before you press see all)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))#i'm around 70% into the book#nezha must feel like shit omg#bro watched his only friends fall off a waterfall#and rin's last words to him were do something!! ffffffffffff#bro why the hell did that npc chaghan's cousin just instigate what could be a whole other unneccessary war#'oh no i killed my mom and my cousin let's blame you 🥶' i want to punch you#pls chaghan get back there before him#also kitay is such a good friend#i can't believe he practically gave up his soul for rin#rin and kitay are like the closest siblings it makes me happy she has someone like him by her side after so long#also i need more nezha lore pls 🙇♀️#OKAY HELP I SEARCHED NEZHA AND IT'S USING PAST TENSE NOOO#WHAT DO YOU MEAN WAS????? WHAT DO YOU MEAN WHAT HAPPENED TO HIM????#don't die a third time please
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Things I realized I forgot to post part 200 billion (this one's from september wow)
#keese draws#oc posting#eternal gales#shes fydd's human mom 👍#shes also technically older than eternal gales as she and ger gang came from an older story and by older I mean probably like a couple#months older maybe a year tops#you might gave seen me call her becky before but that is incorrect and not canon as I had simply misremembering her name for several years#I found the og drawings of her and her friends a while back and that's what made me draw this#anyways I realized I hadn't posted this because thinking abt siffrin makes me think abt her sometimes#siffrin 🤝 kelly having a complicated relationship with the universe in a distinctly religious way#she only has light shit in relation to stars tho most of the heavier star stuff is recky and grumps deals#theyre the two bird aliens to be clear#a lot of kelly's grief in relation to the universe comes from how she was y'know. in a cult surrounding it for years.#she still has so much love for the universe and the people she knew back then but ultimately the leadership was shit and a lot of the#practices and specific beliefs that the leadership were acting off of ruined her life#she lost basically everyone she knew before and eventually lost everyone she had come to know#and knowing that her wifey and two besties are still stuck there and probably will continue to be for the foreseeable future is ofc fucked#and its also a thing of how the universe in eternal gales works in the first place#it is an entity an organism even but that doesn't mean it has any sort of will#it just sort of Is yknow?#so for kelly the universe is like almost a pet cat but like in a much more large scaled fashion#but unlike a pet cat the universe isnt an entity can can show affection or hostility or anything of the sort#and that is one of the core of kellys struggles with the universe as within the cult the idea of the universe having a will was a big thing#so its a lot of her feeling angry with the universe and feeling bad for feeling angry because it didn't like. do anything.#but at the same time that fact is a core part of her frustrations and anger especially considering how all of this affects her son#just like. fydd is 12. he is a child. and she just has to live with the knowledge that he will go through the horrors and theres Nothing#she can do and the universe (aka the reason he is doomed to face the horrors) doesn't give a shit because it yknow. cant.#its terrifying to her! understandably so!#sorry if this all is worded badly I am very very fucking tired#which speaking of Im going to bed
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I hate that when I look up the "Kalpas" tag here there's me and then there's me again, but on another blog. Fake moustache me
#And then there's a lot of spam for some reason and from time to time HSR people#but as a reference to that one Black Swa.n video‚ nothing to do with HI3 Kalpas#I talk too much#Mei went to talk to him and Kalpas sent her to ask Sakura instead and it made me want to jump off a cliff#Everything they say and don't say in reference to each other and even when it doesn't look directly about each other is so good and charged#I love the fact they despite how Mei gets along best with Sakura probably out of anyone else in the Flame Chasers#she finds Kalpas more approachable and more 'useful' to direct her questions to#given Sakura uses vague metaphors to reply while Kalpas‚ if he replies‚ is very direct#That's something that I noticed pretty early on playing Elysian Realm and that is the seed of why I came to like him so much#How ironically trustworthy and honest and... gentle he is. How ironically he was one of the FCs that gave the least amount of red flags#And how once one learnt to manage him he was actually quite easy to deal with and trustworthy in what to expect#How if he said something it would be the truth‚ no mincing#and if he didn't want to share something he wouldn't beat around the bush about it either#I didn't have much expectations about this but I love how they have steadily constructed this facet of him and him in general as a character#and his dynamics around this idea. It's truly at his core. How Elysia says he always keeps his word even if it costs him great effort#but also always expects the same or the other. How that works with Sakura. How he's loud and direct and she is silent and hides so much#yet they know and understand and get each other. How they work together. How they have conversations in which they don't utter#but the half of it yet they both know what they're talking about perfectly and know the reasons as well as the reason for the absences#I found Sakura quite bland due to how this reflects on her individually and I found Kalpas at the very beginning very annoying for the same#but the mix of both their characters and how they work together is wonderful. It's truly a joy to see how they work together#and I love how evocative of their working together in missions it could get. But even beyond that. Just. As people#Normal people regarded as monsters and othered‚ so very shy and alienated‚ just talking. Being normal with each other#Because they were and they regarded the other as such. But also knew they weren't and thus why they could understand#Sakura says they didn't really go into all that many missions together but they did talk. And you see them and you understand#Or course you did. Bet it was soft and pleasant and half a silence. Everything direct but also half absence#Like many of their interactions in ER‚ about nothing important and about everything that matters#Half direct half absence like how Sakura went herself to see what was going on in that town and Kalpas asks#Like Kalpas still fumes about not being told when she decided to escape with Rin and now offers but doesn't say why straight away#'Kalpas is back' and everyone shuts up in fear‚ but he comes back and talks with Sakura and his voice doesn't boil#It's calm and even playful. Makes me wonder about their conversations. Makes me wonder about Rin. I love how they are constructed
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