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@quickwitts - Closed Starter
The dog-sitter was supposed to come over to do just that - watch the dogs. Ash's corgis are always well-behaved and he'd hoped to have her over to explain how everything goes. Where the food is stored, how much they get. And obviously, temperaments and personality. Ash has it all written down, actually - because he struggles with long-winded chatter of any type.
Instead, the snow's looking bad... but Romi already said she's on her way. He feels guilty, but gets hot coffee brewing. When she finally texts saying she's here, he opens the door to the apartment with a very quick: "I'm... s-so... sorry. I should... have called it... off, the weath-... weather, is ... terr-... terrible." He looks almost frustrated at himself as he gets the words out around a healing tongue, but shakes his head, holding the door open as four very happy corgis come hurrying over to meet her. He ushers her in so she can get warm.
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they were sleeping together at this point
#fr i think Cas was in Dean's room many of those nights + just hanging out even if they only talked/sat in silence + watching him sleep#like that is my goggles-off version#goggles on i think they were fucking on the nights cas was in the bunker both when things were looking up + when antsy and frustrated..#like when Dean comes back from purgatory pissed they lost Gabriel…#Castiel like… ok not getting laid tonight but is so glad he’s back…. + Dean is glad to be back even though he feels so guilty…#nice to be in his own bed in his own room + not the dirt with fucking ketch of all people!!#misses his bed… misses his pillow… even though he can’t sleep#but Cas is there to talk to him… or just sit in silence until he finally crashes..#whatever man#supernatural#dean winchester#castiel
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(guy who has never played cotl) haha au time
#this started as a design exercise bc i couldnt get sphinx/devon rex narinder out of my head#but the whole time i was thinking man imagine if the lamb brings him in as a follower but nobody knows he was actually. you know#and the followers are like haha wow our leader channels the power and wisdom of the one who waits almost as if they were them#would that be cool or what. anyway heres narinder reassuming his pre-bishop form and everything his flesh remembers before godhood#ok now im gonna ramble abt design notes#the singe marks were inspired by fallen angels like how some ppl say they burned while falling from heaven. i wanted smth like that when#the lamb is resurrected by nari.. their outfit is inspired by papal cloaks while narinders is based on crusader armor#the lambs name 'bellwether' is also a term used for sheep that wear a bell and lead the flock and i thought that was cool#idk what the thuribles do yet but i do have smth in mind where theyre linked together. and ofc the lamb has a shepherds staff#very proud of nari's little devil tail!! and it was hard to see bc its so dark but he has wrinkles around his forehead to conceal his#third eye. even he isnt aware of it (for now)#idk where im going with this au i just have a bunch of ideas?? basically the lamb is keeping nari's identity a secret from him so he doesnt#go down that path of powerhungry destruction. smth like trying to lead him down a better path but feels guilty lying to do that#also theyre in love with each other and theyre stupid pining idiots abt it. mwah#cult of the lamb#cotl#cotl lamb#cotl narinder#the one who waits#cotl the one who waits#narilamb#art#au#myart#my art#character design#cotl au#false prophet! au
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ive been thinking about taco and balloon forming a little alliance post s1/ pre s2 where they'd (begrudgingly) work together planning on how to break into hotel OJ to steal stuff to take back to their makeshift camp like food, blankets, pillows, etc,,, anything that could be useful to them
#UGH TUMBLR DIDN'T SAVE MY DRAFT R U KIDDING ME WROTE A TON#ok let me go over this again as i remember#balloon ends up encountering tacos makeshift camp wandering in the woods#i like to think balloon makes close to zero noise when he walks around#kinda floats around if u will#taco figures she could use this to get balloon to sneak into hotel oj to get her stuff#well. she tells balloon its “for the benefit of both”#balloon and taco parallel eachother in so much#both of them put up a “mask” as a strategy to further into the game which lead to both of them losing all of their relationships after s1#although both of them eventually ended up feeling guilty for what they did it took taco much longer#i think their alliance worked decently well for a while but balloons guilt and need to apologize is what drove them apart#by the time of that one scene s2 ep7 where balloon goes up to apologize and has his conversation with oj they'd already drifted apart#i think I'll doodle some more stuff with them eventually im still waiting to my charger to come in the maaaailllll#all of this has probably already been pointed out but im having fun and they've been on my mind a lot lately#so#shrugs#im screaming into the void#ii taco#ii balloon#inanimate insanity
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feast (ID in alt)
#vashwood#vash the stampede#nicholas d wolfwood#trigun#trigun maximum#tw blood#im posting this so late because october escaped me Suddenly.. hello....#i wanted to make it a photoset with this other vampire vw wip but i don't think i'm finishing it any time soon and the mood of it is#completely different anyway. also i don't think i ever shared anything about my vampire au on here !!! it's all old art by now so im shy lo#but maybe i'll do a photodump of it. long story short vash is a vampire since birth and ww is a human vampire hunter that turns during thei#travels together due to EoM experiments + getting vash to drink from him at some point.#humans turn once they get bitten but bc ww has been experimented on#& got bitten by a bunch of human turned vampires thruout his hunts he thought it wouldn't be a problem for vash to drink from him but alas.#theyre both ok though theyre traveling together definitely not hating themselves for what theyve become and feeling guilty for what theyve#done to each other. theyre completely normal about it. the biting part is really appealing to me in vampire aus so i draw it a lot but#in reality vash only drank from ww once and ww mightve done it twice under the realization he might actually die otherwise#since he wont drink from humans after being turned.... he's combatting the 5 stages of grief at all times#if this is all nonsense im sorry DMGKSDF I'M NOT good at explaining and this au came from nowhere in the depths of my mind its a mess#ruporas art
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Stan tried to play the Fiddle banjo but failed miserably
He broke it :'(
#it should be fine. probably. you can replace these right? like a guitar#still hed feel so guilty. sad ant meme stylr#gathering his things because he thinks Fidds is onna kick him out (of his brother's house?)#Stan is traumatized ok#ask#anonymous#gravity falls#stan pines#stanley pines#banjo#inaccurate depictions of a banjo#fiddlestan#implied#art#fanart#traditional art#I have a disease called 'I love drawing hands'. it's when you love drawing hands. used to hate it. hide them in pockets or behind backs
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i feel like my life is falling apart and then my friend makes tiramisu and gives me some and asks if i wanna come to the little gathering on wednesday i feel alone in the world and then another friend asks if i want anything i feel unloveable and then we gather in my room with candles and blankets to watch a film all together until midnight it all becomes so much warmer w friends
#i feel like it'll all be nothing and then over a call he says his friends are proud of me. it all feels too messy to fix and she says she#believes in me . theres a layer of seperation between everything and then she puts her hands through mine. we listen to music together#they drag me to the gym. he carries my bag when the groceries are too heavy. she says she has a special ringtone#for when i call her so she knows to answer. and she asks me for advice and tells me about the girl hes seeing and#were about to put a coffee table in the living room i ask if they want tea#we need to buy more throw pillows and blankets. the mattress we have for guests is used often#sometimes i get tunnel vision but i have reasons to be happy#and im rly grateful#i was in bed today feeling so horribly guilty about having to take an extention and my professor sent an email hoping that i was and to tell#him when i feel better etc. and said hed send a recording of the lecture for me . it like#moved me so much that i started remembering all the lovely thibgs#anyway i havent slept#im grateful for the extension but i alrdy pulled the all nighter djdh ok lecture at 4pm we can sleep until like...2pm
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Do the sheep count sheep?
#clemart#guilty gear#bedman#Romeo F. Neumann#i forgot how to draw humans so hes a sheep now..sorry.... ok bye#i just colored over a sketch and refined bc i didnt feel like doing lineart. eheh#bedman guitlygear i will come back for you.#^ my controller broke and i havent been able to play in months#this ones inspired by oomf who is becoming a bedhead. made me want to draw him again
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wei wuxian being adopted by wen ruohan is not only the third young master of qishan, no one fear him, and frankly, they prefer him over wen chao
no, wen wuxian would be the annoying 13yo who would give a scroll to his sect leader predicting the outcome of the war the wen want to start, with two outcomes possible - wen ruohan dead and the war is lost, or wen ruohan win, but dies later because of rebels - and why they should not put this plan forward
wen ruohan is the tired guardian of a genius child (he thinks wei wuxian is right)
(and sends him to gusu to study when he's 15 after wei wuxian's non stoping begging, in the end, it's a ✨ vacation ✨ to wen ruohan)
(somehow he has to deal with two eloping teenagers now and a very angry lan qiren)
#mdzs#wei wuxian#wei ying#wangxian#wen ruohan#wen wuxian#lan wangji#lan qiren#mdzs headcanons#mdzs imagine#wei wuxian is a genius#teen wwx#happy wei wuxian#a wwx who did not suffer abuse through childhood and grew up as a meat shield#he knows his feelings ok#grandpa wen ruohan#that's my guilty pleasure ok don't judge me#bnnywngs imagine#bamf wei wuxian#wangxian headcanon#sorry for bad eng or typos it's literally 2:35am
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"Granny? Mama's hair was a light chestnut color... this is black-"
I AM NOT OK, OH MY GOSH! I NEED TO STOP REWATCHING SHIT WITH MY NEW BIG KID DEVOLOPED FRONTAL LOBE-
there's something about Ed reverting to calling his mother 'mama' while so clearly being in deeply relieved anguish that just genuinely makes me scream. WHILE HE'S WITH PINAKO TOO, the lady who literally stepped up to take care of him despite being under no obligation to!
it's like- even after everything that he's done, everything that's happened to Ed to get him where he is now, he's still his mama's little boy. -> he never stopped being her child, he just had to be strong for Alphonse too
#why is it always devastating when the show reminds us that he's literally a child in these scenes#like he was 12-14 when he didn't have to feel guilty for his mom's death anymore#i am not ok!#fma#fmab#fma brotherhood#fullmetal alchemist#fullmetal alchimist brotherhood#alphonse elric#edward elric#trisha elric#pinako rockbell#fma edward#fma alphonse
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i’m having illario dellamorte thoughts. what if instead of knowingly betraying lucanis he did it like, unknowingly. idk how this would work but i’m intrigued by what it gives us. illario ‘i accidentally caused my cousin’s death & can never tell anyone’ dellamorte. genuinely grieving. blaming himself. does he take advantage of the year before lucanis comes back?? does caterina still ignore him the whole time?? how different is the canon plotline once rook shows up with lucanis post-rescue…..
anyways i would love your thoughts!!
95% of what i do with illario operates on the idea that he is frighteningly competent so you can see why the way the crows plotline plays out in the game might frustrate me. it’s also this reason why i don’t actually think too much about “illario got lucanis killed, but didn’t mean to do it”, because i like the idea that everything illario does in his life is planned to the second and that he’s too well trained to mess up this badly, if that makes sense. with that being said. 5% of my brain power does sometimes go towards “and what if he just sucked actually” and it was a theory i enjoyed before the game even released. so i have in fact been thinking about this anyway LOL . maybe he tries to honeypot zara, accidentally actually reveals lucanis’ next assassination job, and zara gets rid of him as a ‘gift’. illario is horrified and that gets even worse when lucanis’ body shows up, and he assumes this must be because he spurned zara by leaving her and not having the guts to seize power.
i think we could make his inferiority complex worse. illario’s worst fear confirmed: he is as worthless as his grandmother believes he is, botching something so badly that he accidentally sentences his cousin to death when what he wanted was lucanis just… out of the way for a bit (maybe while he kills caterina. LOL. i still think his resentment of caterina trumps his jealousy for lucanis though those two things are very intertwined its hard for him to differentiate them). so incapable that he got the only person who actually supports him killed, and now he’s dreading the idea of becoming first talon. he doesn’t want first talon without lucanis backing him, and now the only person left is caterina which is suffocating and makes him even unhappier. at least he hadn’t lived through her alone, and now through consequences of his own decisions, illario has no choice but to.
i think that would affect his plans for talon because of how horribly he’d fucked up, and tries to mask it because if he suddenly actually doesn’t want to be talon that would be a red flag for everyone. lucanis coming back would delight him (talon is within his sights again if lucanis comes back!) and freak him out. i think the plotline would actually be pretty similar because of this freak out, so he still shows up to zara’s fight to cover his tracks. lucanis can never know, caterina can never know, because what little faith they have in him will be lost. like he committed fratricide and didn’t even MEAN to😭 ...corpse whispering still happens, and zara is like “ohhh that coward. he can never finish what he started, can he?” + “elaborate.” + “i gave him what he most wanted in the world and instead of being grateful, he ran away.” so lucanis finds out about what happened but feels a mix of “illario, you idiot” + pity because turns out he didn’t even mean for it to happen, and keeps his secret for now, otherwise he’d probably have to kill him.
i also think not meaning to kill lucanis would sour his feelings towards the venatori, who are a reminder of how badly he failed, so the alliance wouldn’t happen. this does mean if the story goes on as it does in canon, he has to take desperate measures another way and kidnap caterina for some other reason but i can’t think of why….. maybe a thing where illario is like “ok. lucanis is distracted by the elven gods. this time i just have to kill nonna for real and then nothing is in my way” and recruits disgraced houses or houses that don’t like caterina to do so? not sure tbh but i don’t believe caterina made it so far without making enemies lol. this would happen post bloodbath + corpse whispering— lucanis leaves his cousin unchecked because while he knows illario didn’t mean for him to die, he has no idea how far he would go to have caterina dead. teia could find out about this and send word to foil the kidnapping and assassination attempt
so ‘murder of crows’ is still about saving caterina, the illario-lucanis fight still happens, but it’s a little more hesitant and lots of “why won’t you just let me kill her? i’m doing this for the both of us”. he’s had to live with being the un-favorite, but never would have thought lucanis would actually pick caterina if it came down to it. with all of his missteps here, i think the final decision (and i think it should be like this in canon anyway) would be to imprison illario or kill him. imprisoning him is just a lot of “i can’t kill illario as much as he couldn’t kill me”, vs killing him as is expected from him as talon, and what he knew he would have to do after finding out about illario's failures. unlike canon, where illario is actually meaning to kill him and can be seen as a 'good crow' despite the sloppiness, here he's like. just bad at everything. the allied traitor houses that went against caterina would also have to be imprisoned or killed. no happy ending at all here, and lucanis still becomes first talon. now that i’ve written it out this is actually probably the worst ending LOL
the above sticks a lot to what is canon to the game (plot points, choices, etc) and i didn’t go very far away from it so it's like canon 3 inches to the left. tho my thoughts on this are not fleshed out* because i think illario works better as an antagonist character that sets things in motion !! not necessarily the villain in a cain-abel story, but a character who opposes lucanis while still not wanting to hurt him. that kind of discipline where he finds a way to get what he wants (first talon) without compromising what he also cares for (family) is so much more fun for me than a man who apparently just loses it and decides to enact a bad plan to get rid of his cousin. if he waited 20+ years to become talon i think he’d be more careful when it came down to it. if i had my way illario would be playing insane 5d chess to rival solas (insert black sails “i once thought that to lead, to be liked was just as good as feared. and that may very well be true. but to be both liked and feared all at once, is an entirely different state of being.”)
#*my thoughts are ‘not fleshed out’ but i still wrote all this. LOL#i nearly answered this ask with the companion-illario au from my mind because i think vg needed a companion that lies to you LOL#but thats less 'illario didnt mean to do it' and more 'oh illario did it and just feels so guilty he goes on a one man crusade#against the venatori because he needs an outlet and both of them are known as magekillers'#he would have lied for most of the game about how lucanis got kidnapped/'killed' and resolves it by saving lucanis + confessing his guilt#this au had elements of 'it was an accident' but i kept flip flopping between if i wanted that or not lol#because . idk. i like when he purposefully does all this and then regrets it. my walking contradiction (slash i want him)#illario guilt inferiority and jealousy you all mean so much to me#but yeah. last point relates to the envyllario rewrite also from my mind#the idea of like. that caution vanishing because of the envy demon is quite fun for me#so spite makes lucanis a victim to his own anger and sense of justice#while envy refuses to let illario maintain his veneer of charm and forces him to act rashly despite his planning#ok. i have to stop talking. thank u anon for this because i am always looking for an excuse to chat shit#prompt me at any point to speak about illario and i honest to god will just be sat here thinking#actually it was pretty bad a few days ago when i was thinking about ways it could go for him in my aus and drawing a blank#and had the very clear thought 'i NEED to put my thinking cap on' which was . a bit humiliating#illario dellamorte#long post#answered#anonymous
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ok but like what if abed was just a little more on edge around troy than the rest of the study group at first before they started becoming actually friends and troy didnt know why it was until later seasons when abed starts dropping casual hints about getting bullied in high school and getting put in lockers and stuff and troy realises abeds caution had been because troy reminded him of the people that made fun of him in high school and he was scared he would make fun of him too, what then?
#ive been thinking#thoughts#he would feel guilty :(#remember the person he used to be#idk#im shitting myself i feel so out of place in this fandom what am i even doing#its scary bcs ive spent 3 years intergrating myself into the byler fandom#and now i have to figure out how the trobed one works#not that im leaving the first one but#yk#someone mentor me 😭#take me under ur wing...er#ok stop#abed nadir#troy barnes#troy and abed#trobed#autistic abed nadir#bi abed nadir#gay troy barnes#nbc community#community
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Of course my lazy ass would fall in love with the gay equivalent of a tradwife... work clothes washed and ironed every night. house immaculate due to ocd. constantly being brought snacks. I texted him from the shower to ask if i had clean underwear and he said "yes daddy" and set them out for me. I got hard :/
#i feel guilty sometimes but he was real clear about housekeeping being his way to contribute#and i help when i can but i suck at organization and repetitive tasks and mostly anything that isn't at a desk on a computer#working on it#misandrist mutuals its ok to hate me for this one
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More Ben fam stuff I believe I have neglected to put here
#Neo’s way more of an E boy now#men’s fashion can be difficult sometimes aight#small things#the twins are Marley n Neo#bc YES I take back what I said about Ben not having any twin siblings#I like twin dynamics ok#and Cohen!#I’m going through his design n personality and have landed on ‘moody singer who writes songs about how shitty everything is’#he’s also like. coping bc he took Ben’s ‘thing’#long story short Ben really liked singing when he was younger but never wanted to pursue it#and Cohen just happened to also be really good but not as good as Ben so he claimed that singing would be HIS thing#and now he feels guilty bc he knows that Ben never pursued it bc Cohen took that confidence from him#and it was really more about the fame n glamour for Cohen too so#he feels his singing is ingenuous#lmao#lore jumpscare!!!#big thoughts#late night posting#benrey fam
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No bc why the hell was Tuvok SO ride or die for this random lady who was gonna lobotomize B'Elanna he SUCKS I love him so much Tuvok focus UP!!!! What are you DOING!!!!! What's your ISSUE!!! HEHEHE Nimira: Prisons are so barbaric. As a perfectly civilized alternative, we've banned negative thoughts as enforced by the lobotomy machine. Tuvok: Honestly? I love what you're doing here. [B'Elanna's kicking and screaming in the background as Janeway tries frantically to get his attention] I think this is a very positive start to something beautiful.
#Janeway: We have to fight these charges against B'Elanna#Tuvok: Ok. But just for the sake of argument....have youuu considered she might be guilty?#Janeway:#Tuvok: I'm just asking is it possible? <- KILL LTHIS MAAAAN!!!!!!!#Random Thoughts through a B'Elanna lens is so sad and has so much angst potential#and then there's whatever the FUCK Tuvok is doing this whole episode between Nimira and Guill#Nimira comes into Tuvok's office and is like 'Tuvok I need your help!' and he's like 'Then you shall have it.' HEHEHE WHAT#Tuvok to Men he's known for years: .......-barely tolerating their existence- You will NEVER know me.#Tuvok to Women he's known for days: Please consider whatever I can give to assist you in these trying times yours for the taking#Tuvok is NOOOT even CLOSE to unique in his being terrible about B'Elanna's Klingon heritage#But I feel like people forget he isn't that open minded hehehe and that he has straight up bad opinions sometimes <3#star trek voyager memes#you have to watch the episode yourself to understand how much Tuvok likes this woman Nimira and you have to watch how he reacts#to MOST other people to understand how funny it is that he clearly likes her so much
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no youre completely right - im a gay (trans)man and i legit wanna see so much more about the women bc There Is So Little. I wanna make a lesbian oc who gets bent in half by taash. im very normal.
i’m just tired man!!!! it feels so obvious how disproportionate it is when you’ve got. a cast of characters that we know almost equally little about. and a few of them explode in popularity and it’s like spongebob sticking his hand out the curtain. literally all a character needs to do numbers is to be a light-skinned man
#like you bring up taash!! we know equally little abt taash and emmrich. why is one FUCKING EVERYWHERE and i’m like. scrounging for scraps#sometimes i feel like there has to be a secret other main dragon age tag that has the real stuff in it#but maybe it’s just the tumblr userbase idfk#i feel like i’ve seen a little bit more of neve since the trailer but still not anything on the level as everyone’s fave boys#and before you hit me with ‘lucanis was in a couple short stories’ harding was in the literal entire last game. and she and neve had comics#there’s obviously something to be said about character types too. a lot of people love dark and broody#vs harding keeps getting described as Girl Next Door and that’s much less popular. fine i’m not going to argue abt individual tastes#but like. neve isn’t popping off??? on the columbo fansite????#everyone’s talking about emmrich’s experiments and research but no one talks about bellara’s??#like personally. ok. lesbian opinion so take that for what it’s worth. but i don’t understand all the lucanis thirst#davrin i could understand. davrin can get it. he gets way fewer thirstposts than the other men (hmmm interesting im sure it’s nothing 🙃)#i’m just like. tired. i don’t want to say people can’t enjoy what they’re excited about#but it adds up!#i feel guilty complaining when i am also not doing a lot of Female Character Poasting but like#there’s only so much i can do as someone who can’t draw and has been too busy to keep on top of all the breaking news
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