#he didnt use the elixir for months.

[victorian-vampir]

Hey.

Jekyll and Hyde is not about a DID system (it's about duality of mankind and repression)

Grizabella was not shunned from the jellicle cats because she was a sex worker (We don't know why she was shunned because it's not important. Also she's a cat, how the fuck is she a sex worker when she's a cat. Promiscuity is not an issue for the clan regardless.)

Victor Frankenstein is not at fault for his monster leaving. (He stood in his back garden for six hours waiting for the sun to rise before going for a walk. When he got back to his house the monster had left)

There are multiple interpretations of text and stories. However there's also times where the text blatantly spells out what it's try to say. Or it doesn't. And you end up with a cat who maybe did sex work and I have no idea how.

[the-moon-files]

I was actually thinking about this a lot but like as an add on to your humans are hylian space orcs thing. I am in ✨need✨ of reader trying potions. Like;

"This potion will restore your stamina and boost your strength"

"Buddy that's just coffee"

"Qué?"

Even worse if when the reader tries it it's just like the most not strong coffee they've ever drank. Makes the guys wonder wtf makes humans need so much energy through out the day.

this is such a cute idea, i love how diet diffs/energy diffs in humans are space orcs aus, so genius to apply to hylians

the stamnia boost potion tastes just like instant coffee with powdered creamer (the kind at like car dealerships/shitty offices where its not even a little liquid creamer)

and u spit that shit out like wtf is this bs

and Four, poor guy who gave you some after talking a break from walking, is like "oh my goddess r u allergic?? can still breath???"

meanwhile ur like. "yeah this just tastes like shit-"

four: "oh well yeah, all potions do really-"

you: "-ty coffee. this is nowhere near strong enough to get me back on my feet ffs"

four: " 👁️👄👁️"

you: "u got anything stronger? :/ "

four: " w h a t ? "

cue u researching how to make stamnia potions, across the hyrules, and making them 10x stronger so theyre like an actual coffee shop kind of coffee, and the Links are literally lowkey scared

Time forbids you (and the rest of the guys) from letting anyone else try ur "improved" elixir (s)

bc yes, u didnt stop at stamnia

u moved on to healing potions, (u can now regrow limbs and heal broken bones, the hylians can only take like a 1/16th of a sip like once a week, whereas u chug the whole thing, and can do so multiple times a day if needed)

u also moved onto cooking, bc rlly how different is cooking from alchemy?

and goron spice tasted like goddamn dorito chips, so u used essence of literal lava to help make it more spicy,

ur not allowed to introduce this new spice to the gorons, Wild forbid, bc he was adventurous enough (and snuck behind Time and ur backs) to try some spice

(he literally touched the tip of his pinky finger to it, wiped it off, except for 1 like flake of spice too)

and it lowkey nearly killed him 💀

like had to use that 1/16th of ur extra strong healing potion and everything

u felt so bad, but he did do this to himself,

and Wild knew the gorons dont back down from a challenge, esp since it was originally their recipe, so he (and you) didnt wanna kill them on accident

the sleeping potion u found is just like taking a single melatonin gummy, so u ofc make that thing knock even you out after 2 sips,

needless to say, no one is trying that one, not only bc it knocked Rulie unconcious for 12 hours straight (u got him to try it after he exhausted all his magic healing, and so no nightmares)

but bc it knocked u out cold for 9. that was the scarier part to them lmao, was how affected is their human by this?

i like to think thats how they judge unknown foods and liquids too,

like "do you think this tastes unseasoned? ok should be perfect for me then" - every Link

"oh this didnt make u feel sleepy at all/barely tired? great, id love to knock out cold w/no nightmares tonight" - Sky, probably

"this tastes like that thing you call, instant cough? ko-fee? Cool, give me some i need to run up this mountain" - Wild, for the 3rd time this month probably

"this barely healed ur papercut? sweet, give me some my wrists are killing me" - poor Legend, he uses ur extra strength healing potion as a way to treat his arthritis regularly once a month, but the more chill potions for any leftover aches and pains, esp after long fights being hard on his arms

Chain is simultaneously still lowkey terrified u need that much extra oomf, esp when u run out of stronger stuff and have to down like 5 health potions to heal a cut that needed stitches,

and also worried u need that much and also Wild/Wars/Rulie tend to work overtime to make sure they have extra potions for you

and theyre also kind of impressed, bc hey, youre unlikely to get magically poisoned/potion poisoned like them

☆

sorry i couldnt think of as much as i hoped, i think its bc i rlly just need to play/watch more loz games besides botw/totk

i like know the vague plot of ss/oot/mm/tp/ww/hw and og loz games, but havent gotten into details/lets play or anything yet

i hope this was at least a half decent idea to think about/expand on urs, have a great rest of ur week, and thanks so much for the ask!! <33

Peace out,

🌙

[an1muuarts]

hyde's anatomy

Psychological / Neurological Aspects

this is the first thing that happens before the actual physical transformation

the formula interacts with the brain to produce large amounts of endorphins and stimulants

this is so that the person doesn't experience too much pain before, during, and after the transformation; but of course that has its limits

the stimulants help the body move around because the transformation leaves the body vulnerable. so once the transformation's over, the stimulants can help move the body to a safer area

Physical Aspects - Hyde

in the first transformation, hyde looked pale due to the blood loss. see the details of the transformation here

over time hyde gradually regains color

hyde looks young because the formula interacted with the youth elixir jekyll took, so hyde looked like jekyll's teen self

since hyde was high on stimulants on the first time, he didnt notice that the general structural integrity of his body was hanging by a thread

so much so that jekyll is bedridden for 4 months

hyde's skeletal structure is based of a four-legged mammal (like cats, dogs, bears, big cats, etc.)

hyde was hunched over in the early transformations because the body isnt still yet used to the transformation

but over time he can stand upright

hyde's recovery into a healthy and strong entity is because of the constant use of the formula

also hyde can parkour his way out of most situations

over time he gains more physical strength

Physical Aspects - Jekyll

he doesnt bleed/melt after the first transformation bc his flesh just squashes and stretches depending who he transforms into

jekyll looks a lot older, ie his skin is a lot thinner, and his body becomes progressively get weaker and weaker that his hair turns white (in which the appearance undos the elixir)

over time, bc jekyll has been taking the formula frequently, he gains tolerance and so his body is resisting the transformation sequence

back then, it was jekyll/hyde and vice versa; later in the story, it is mid-transformation/hyde. this is one of the many reasons why jekyll is desperate to make the antidote for the formula

at one point jekyll's body is so weak that he is almost crawling

Physical Aspects - General

there is a supernatural aspect to hyde's form

to start the transformation process the formula puts the mind into the soul (bc the bone cronching process shuffles the spine and the throat is always the most affected by the skeletal transformation)

the mind acts as some sort of barrier for the soul, so whenever people see hyde, his intents seep into the world

for example, if hyde is plotting a vengeful murder, a person nearby can sense it

it's the same for jekyll

obviously, both are capable for a spectrum of intents

however, during the transformation, since the body is literally being broken down, the mind-soul is more seen

with lanyon seeing this, the revelation had caused physical damage which also damaged his psyche

probably going to edit this if i get ideas

[one-sided-bbl]

prescription medication ranking list

as a bipolar baddie, ive learned that the only thing that can save me is prescription medication.

Anti Psychotics/ Mood Stabilizer

aripiprazole (Abilify): made me feel nothing. took this for a month and genuinely cant tell u if it made a difference. 2/10

latuda: omg when i say this will put u to SLEEP. my psychiatrist gave this to me and said " u cant be manic if ur asleep" and he MEANT it. if you havent tried it I recommend it 10/10 only reason im normal

lamictal: i have been prescribed this for over a year and maybe have take it four times. its a good backup when im extra crazy but i still prefer latuda

Benzos/Anti anxiety

Propranolol: DO NOT TAKE THIS IF U HAVE SERIOUS ANXIETY. I was on the verge of s*icide and this didnt do SHIT 4/10 i would recommend this for somebody who has anxiety AND heart issues

Busbar: this shit makes u feel like ur drunk. dont take this and drive. but even tho it makes u feel weird i didnt notice much of a difference. 5/10 better for long term issues

klonopin: sister <3 i remember i had a deep panic attack going on for five days straight and my psychiatrist said... "girl try this" and it works omg. however, itll make you stupid for a full 24 hours like i dont remember whole conversations when i take this shit. 8/10

xanax: i prefer klonopin, xan is too short to help with my panic attacks. xanax i feel only makes sense when youre over the age of 29 like why tf r u abusing this 5/10

Anti depressants/ stimulants

Zoloft: i took this for like two weeks and it didnt do shit. i truly believe this is only helpful if youre not bipolar 1/10

Wellbutrin: ok DO NOT take this alone if youre bipolar. said panic attack that lasted four days was because i was on this without my latuda. however, at higher doses i really enjoyed this one as it helped with my adhd a lot. 6/10

Adderal: my sister i stopped taking wellbutrin because adderal helped a lot more. i use it as an antidepressant. stop putting shortages on my elixir of life!!! 8/10 the crashes suck

Vvyvanse: if only my insurance would cover it... everything said about adderal excluding bad come downs. 9/10

[rustedbread]

Second introduction today!

Now so @therealkasaneteto [ pointing to @k4nd1d3ntur3z ] this is my brother and best friend Michael, only I call him that though! So good thing to ask while introducing yourself is to ask what name is best preferred :D

He is amazing and cool and so many other adjectives that I probably dont even know the true definitions of

I need to eliminate him using a soul beam... [[I love him alot]]

And @k4nd1d3ntur3z [[ pointing to @therealkasaneteto ]] this is Sayori! Once again, I have no idea how to introduce people so let me give a little history lesson!

Back when I was first getting into DDLC like two to three months ago, I came across her blog whenever it was still <IsThatMonikaFromDDLC> and I followed them from there! After a while though she changed her tumblr user to <IsThatSayoriFromDDLC> and I didn't actually KNOW it was the same person so I just thought it was like, two separate people for some reason

No idea why I didnt connect the dots sooner at that time

But anyhow! So I thought she was really cool and I began to scheme...

["I must be the coolest person to ever exist as to lower the risk of not being her friend to near ZERO!"]

And so I began to sell [ABSOLUTELY NOT] faulty anti-magical sprays and elixirs to show myself as a really cool benefactor to have if you ever get turned into a werewolf or something

And after a while I saw it as near illogical for a bad result to occur and I asked if we could be mutuals

And it worked successfully!

And I got the ability to the following days be like

["BRO I LITERALLY ASKED TO BE YOUR MUTUAL?!!! SMH!!!"]

When she reblogged someone, saying <'I'm theee mutual no one asked about actually'>

I exist as a force of nature to make you accidentally spread misinformation

Mauhahhahahaha...

Anyhow

Uh...

Yeah!

I don't really know how to make friends all too easily, but I think the fact I had devised a whole plan to usurp my own spot into someones friendgroup means I think they're cool

Ahem

I wonder how that plan went...

You all fell into my ruse.. my SCHEME!!!

Thanks for being my friend though @therealkasaneteto

Anyhow yeah!

So either you both can talk via reblogs, or you can opt to add each other and talk on your own! It's all up to you really! :D

[hitoshisbabygirl]

Authors Notes ♡: WHEW I LOVED THIS I had a time trying to come up with an idea and then it hit me : a princess being saved by fantasy au! Dabi. I’m still nervous with my smuts but heh I enjoyed this a whole bunch to write . Dabi is my favorite villain and I just love him so much, I tried to make him a soft inside and hard outside man in this , I Had fun for our free for all collab and I hope I help give it just a fun twist to fantasy and Halloween spirit ~ I hope you enjoy reading this and much as I did writing it ~ bunny ❥

Warnings :UH NSFW! Demon dabi has two dick (and their thick) , pet names, unprotected sex , a tad bit of a size kink? , a bit fluffy at the end but I think that’s it!

Word count : about 2k give or take!

Paring(s) :Dabi x F! Reader

Even with this being NSFW I had to make it a soft fluffy ending I’m sorry ♡

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Enchanted flames

Dabi

“If you have found this letter the Princess of Yuei needs your help. Meet me in the Enchanted Woods tomorrow night. Ill escape with you if you can save me from the proposed wedding - Princess [ ]”

With a sigh [. ] dropped the letter out of her window hoping someone, anyone , could save her from the doom that awaited her from an arranged marriage that had been planned from her kingdom to be to the neighboring ones prince, a smaller and very...purple hot headed boy by the name of Mineta who was unsavory for a lack of words. Sighing as she watched the paper fall she secretly wished her type of prince would come save her from this hell she expected.

As the night approached she slipped past her guards, telling them she was going out for air in her garden. The two towering men who looked down at her agreed, moving at the way to let the young woman past them and out into the halls, her dress dragging behind her as she headed out the giant doors to her garden. Taking in a breath she climbed over the perfectly managed hedges andddd off into the forest adjacent to the castle, roaming through the woods to her chosen spot to hopefully meet someone who could save her.

“Hello there little sheep, you called for help, correct?” A low, raspy voice called out as [ ] turned around , looking into the dark abyss in front of her. “ Hello? Helloooo? Who's there?” the girl called out as she heard something heavy land behind her. Turning to her right she saw bright blue eyes look back at her from the shadows. Before she could react a rather warm hand covered her mouth as the person or thing dragged her throughout the woods , the two of them slipping into the night. As soon as [ ] woke up her eyes adjusted to a dark but brightly lit and beautiful chasm, cyan and turquoise crystals of all types surrounded the room as she felt intense heat from everywhere around her. Standing up on shaky legs she felt eyes on her from behind. Letting out a deep breath she turned only to run into a barely covered chest.

Looking up from the revealed purple and pale skin , she saw those same blue eyes , lit with curiosity. “Ah you're awake..welcome little sheep to my...well..living quarters” The mystery man spoke as [ ] blinked at him, a grin spreading over his face as he continued to speak “Well i guess the princess doesnt know she isn't in her little castle anymore. Haven't those guards of yours realized they can't leave royalty alone or guys like me come along and take them out of their cute little homes” He said as [ ] gave him a suspicious look , her own thoughts taking over her face as a sense of calm rested over her features “Ohhh so you're the one who found my note..” She said as he gave her an unreadable look , soon walking away to leave the girl in her own world. “I guess he did” she thought to herself as she heard the male come back, a pile of things in his hands. “Here; a change of clothes and something to eat. I tried to be gentle taking you out of those dreaded castle grounds and through the woods but your dress isnt the smallest thing in the world” he said as [ ] let out a giggle , picking up the dark shirt and skirt he had given her along with the meal : some type of rice and meat with soup. Before she could ask the man answered “No i didnt steal it, i told you this is my home , its only natural id have something in this god forsaken place to eat.” He said as he pointed down the cave. “Theres a waterfall ahead if youd like to freshen up there.” And with that [ ] walked down the empty carved walls, finding the waterfall he was talking about.

Once she was finished getting cleaned and dressed she headed back the way she went, seeing the male now cloaked in a dark cape , fiddling with a pile of wood before setting it ablaze with a bright blue flame. “Ah i see you're finished , ILl be heading out , i'm gonna find us some more wood so you don't get cold. Theres a pot over there where you can reheat your food and get more if you like.” As he finished he proceeded to get up and head down another pathway, presumingly to the opening of the chasm “Wait!” [ ] called out as he stopped, turning to the girl with a questioning look back at her. “Yes princess?” he responded to her as she felt a unnatural wave of heat spreading to her face from simply calling her by her actual title. “What can I call you? And how long will you be gone?” She questioned. “Aw are you worried about me?” He cooed as she puffed out her cheeks “I was just curious” She lashed back as the male in front of her laughed , giving her a crooked smile. “ The names Dabi, and i won't be gone too long, an hour or so” Dabi said, giving her a smile as he started to leave again.

“Oh yeah , and there's a spare jacket in the back if you get too cold or that fire goes out.” and with that he left [ ] by herself as she finished up the dinner he had made which was exceptionally good, even better than what she tended to have at the castle. While she waited around for dabi to come back , [ ] looked at her royal dress, the red and pinks making her want to revolt as she pushed the fluffy tooled pile up into a blanket of sorts, covering her legs as she sat there thinking about her predicament “I really ran away...but what else can you do when youre gonna be married off to someone years older than you for land and alliance” she thought with a sigh as footsteps came from behind her , Dabi pulling his hood from his head as he smiled to himself at the girl in front of him “Im back princess” He declared as she turned to him, giving him a small smile as she stood up, dusting off her dress , coming up to Dabi “So...whatcha find?” She started as he pulled the bag from behind him , dumping out different goodies for the two of them. An array of food, wood and fresh buckets for water collections. “Here, this is for you too” Dabi said as he passed her a well woven balck dress, better than the two piece he had first given her. Taking in a deep breath he spoke up “I didn't want you to struggle with rags , so i got you something a little more comfortable and well...suitable for a run away princess” and with that she looked up to him and giggled which was heaven to his ears. ‘Why thank you Dabi..i'm flattered” [ ] said as she took the black dress , running to a hidden corner to change as Dabi smirked “Oh boy..what have i signed myself up for”

Weeks later and multiple posters for the lost princess later, [ ] had a rhythm living with Dabi. They cooked together and he left out to get things from shops ans out in the woods. Word spread that the princess had been stolen and the ugly grape himself had put a reward out for her safe return. Unknown to everyone she was quite content with the dark demon mage Dabi and his home in the woods. He explained the chasm as his work space, a place he could hone in on working with his flames and different elixirs that people needed. He was a half breed of human and demon, his father ridding of him to hide his affair with an otherworldly being, to keep the peace of his people and the overworld people as well. He really wasn’t a bad man, just someone who stayed in the shadows and kept to himself. And [. ] ‘s heart went out to him, as his did out to hers as she explained her own situation. ”Well damn sweetheart at least i saved you hm?” Dabi said as the two of them laughed together about their lives and what they'd like to change.

As the night drew on and they had their fair share of drinks and food that night “Thank you Dabi..for everything” [ ] said randomly as they relaxed by the fire he had started , [ ] wrapped into the oversized fur Dabi made her as the male laid against a log watching the tired girl mumble to him. She gave him a sleepy smile once he put his warmed hand on her face. “You're cute yknow...i'm not gonna let anyone get to you okay?” He said as she shook her head, moving herself closer to him , laying her head on his lap as he rubbed her head until she fell asleep, him soon realizing he was in love with the rogue princess in his lap.

As the next month rolled around , the princess and her demon mage had started a loving relationship, the two of them growing fonder and fonder of eachother. [ ] noticed that Dabi had tried avoiding being around her when she was fresh from the shower or even roaming too close behind her, he even took more time to come home with more ingredients or even sleep opposite to her. She didn't understand the switch from wanting to hold and hug her to avoiding her all day. One day she was able to catch and trap him with her. “Yes princess…?” Dabi ased as [ ] crossed her arms around her chest , the simple movement making him turn from her. “Did I..do something…?” She asked, her eyes bouncing between his as the turquoise she learned to love ignited with heat.

”Oh no doll...you haven't done a thing but make me want you even more..”

And with that comment her eyes widened. “What..?” She questioned. And with that Dabi picked the smaller girl up, pinning her to a crystal wall as she gasped, wrapping her arms around his neck.”Dabi…….?” [ ] called out as he started to kiss her neck ,running his rougher hands up the soft flesh of her thighs. “I think i'm in love with you doll..youve been invading my head or a while and all i can think about is making your cute little body want me the burning way i want you...I wanna make you cry out for me all night long...make you mines forever.....is that okay?” He whispered in her ear. With a shudder she agreed , letting him kiss the swells of her brest as he gave her a lopsided smile, picking her up and taking her to a pile of pelts and wool they made into a bedroom to rest in. Placing her down lightly he towered her , taking off his vest to reveal his toned and scarred body “Youre quite a beauty yknow...im glad you trust me…” He said with a smile as [ ] herself smashed her lips against his, cutting off his mushy talk. With a groan he pushed her dress up , letting her breast bounce out from the top. Pulling away from the kiss she helped him take off the dress over her head. With a shy smile [ ] covered ehrslf and laid back, spreading her legs lightly to expose her glistening lips to him

“Well damn, i havent even toughed you yet and youre this wet..what a little slut you are”

He growled out as he leaned back over to give her a kiss , pulling her lower lip as he licke dhis was down between her legs, giving her clit a hard suck as she whinned , closing her legs over his head as he slurped away at her pussy, making sure to watch her through hooded eyes, a tail whipping from behind him as a pair of horns appeared from atop his head, one mangled and cracked the other long and curled “Surprise” Dabi called out as his voice dropped octaves, it coming out as a low rumble as [ ] felt her walls clench at the sound , a chuckle coming from him. Going back to slurping and sucking on her labia and clit , Dabi watch with glee as the gilr under him started to shake, her hips rolling back to his mouth as he bit lightly down on her lips and pulled away from her , laughing at her pleas and whimpers “Turn sound baby and let me show you how much i love you” Dabi said , watching as [ ] rolled over arching her hips back as he smacked her ass, loving the moan she let out. Pulling down his pants he pulled his throbbing member out, rubbing it hard against her clit as she felt her heart jumped at the feeling of how thick he was. All of a sudden she felt hands pull her cheeks apart as a finger rub around the tight rings of her ass. With a gasp she looked back to see not one but two swinging dicks between the burning up male, a feral look in his eyes as he let a low rumble come from his chest “ Sorry babygirl..when I change there's more than just one of me to deal with, i promise i'll be gentle” He said as he rubbed her tight muscles just loose enough to put in the tip, her lower lips drooling as he slid his true size into her throbbing walls, moans and grunts tearing through the chasm as he pulled his hips back , starting to set a rhythm to his hips. While he picked up the pace, [ ] felt herself being full as the two dicks of his stuffed her. She could help the feeling of her walls getting tighter as she came once then twice and not once did Dabi stop, he laughed as he gave her more and more , pushing himself deeper in her as he let out what sounded like a howl of pain as he doubled in pace, reaching down to rub her clit as she screamed, soon feeling a hot and warm gooey feeling flood her senses. Dabi slowed his hips down as he pulled himself from her ass first, then from her pussy and cum started to leak from her holes.

“Shit...im sorry princess I didnt mean to go so rough…” Dabi breathed out as [ ] turned around giving him hr own lopsided smile as she saw him transform backto himself, those turquoise eyes softening as he saw the woman he had fallen for spent out from his own actions. “Geez when you said you were a demon i didnt think it was true…” She laughed as he scratched th back of his neck “Ive never transformed like this around someone….especially during sex but that means I trust you a lot….well doll..let me clean you up and then...we can go fro round two hm?” He smirked as he watched her pussy clench and relase more cum once he said that. “Mhm...clean me Dabi then we can have some more fun..”

[stellarune]

ok but i am a firm advocate of the enby keefe headcanon, and so, dadwin with demiboi keefe hc go

first off, keefe is comfy with he/him AND they/them most of the time

they/them always works thoigh, on the few days the Dysphoria Is Strong

so they dont really feel the need to come out to their friends about their gender bc they dont mind he/him, and o. the few days they do, they can just blame it on a bad night of sleep or something

he does really want to grow his hair out though

and hes very afraid of telling elwin because the time he asked his parents ended quite badly for him

they end up telling elwin on a very bad dysphoria day where they just wqnt to say fuck it and be done with it

theyre kinda phased by the lack of reaction from elwin who is just like "yeah i had long hair when in the golden tower too" *shrugs*

it takes a while, even with some elixirs for it to get to a lenght they like, but theyre so happy when they can braid it however they want, make any hairstyle really

biana loves it and always asks to do his hair, and he always says yes even if that day is a masc day

he wishes he could tell her

he almost does a few times but stops himsemf everytime

he knows she wouldnt mind, linh had came out as enby months earlier and it had been ok but you know, impostor syndrom, anxiety and i ternalized transphobia

he comes out to linh first

it seems like the logical choice, to come to the other trans person

ofc, linhs only questions are about pronouns and name

still, it takes him a few minutes for his hands to start checking, evne after she hugs them

they come out to biana next

relly, they feel like fitz would have been the nzxt logical step, but they just dont feel like its as much of a secret as it is between them and bianat

hey feel like theyre holding somethi.g back everytime biana does their hair a.d the last time they felt like that they were planning on joining the neverseen

biana also asks what their pronouns are, and if she should change anything in the way she does their hair

its a smol moment, and ghey know biana gives them all her support by the little purple and yellow beads in their hair (sophie showing them flags had been the best idea)

dex sees their hair, and gives them a thumbs up and a high five when they see eachother

keefe recieves a text asking for pronouns, name and when he could use them

tam just knows

no one knows how, bc keefe didnt tell h and he didnt see their hair that day or anhthing, but on every bad dysphoria day, tam either only uses keefes name or they/them

fitz and sophie ate entirely oblivious

they miterally dont notice eveyone using they/them that one time

bi, dex, and the twins have a betting pool

keefe joins when he hears wind of it

he does end up telling them, because honestly, its been at least a month since every bet has been unvalidated and he jist knows theyll never figure it out on their own

"i love you bro, it does change anything wait can i still call you bro ?"

"how did i miss this ? like, how ?"

sophie just keeps asking herself how she missed it even as she hugs him.

shes still mumbling under her breath afterwards, but keefe knows it doesnt change anytjing atvall for her, he can literally feel it

he doesnt tell elwin

he wants to, he does, but this is the one good thing in his life hes afraid to lose more than anytjing

je knows elwin will suport him, but theres still that part of him just sxreaming to suck it up and not sqy anything

turns out he doesnt need to, even though he does.t realize it

elwin picked up pretty early on on the occasionnal they thrown keefes way

he doesnt mention it though because he feels like this is something that should com from jeefe in their own time on their own terms

and they do tell him

they almost have a panic attack while doing so, but elwin is there and rubbing circles on the back of their hand even after they talked about their pronouns and gender and everything and keefe manages to breath

there are a lot of "i love you"s and "im proud of you"sthat day

elwin gets him a pronoun bracelet a few days later because he hates just thinking about misgendering keefe again

a few days later, keefe asks him to tell the rest of the relevant adults

jjst, demiboi keefe being happy with a supportive family

[marshmallowprotection]

Okay okay so your story made me want to write too so hehehe. Angst time >:D also hurt/comfort? More like hurt/hurt lmao

I thought you were dead.

The words kept repeating in her head. Why would he care if she died? Rika would be angry, for sure. But... he sounded like he actually cared for her.

I thought I could trust you, too.

It made sense, but she thought that the only reason why Unknown had looked after her was because Rika demanded him to. That must have been why he was worried if she died. She pushed down the pain at that thought.

It would be better, even if he did care for her, to start hating her. Be disinterested. After all, she wasn't suppose to be here in the first place.

She was a glitch, an error in the code. A mistake.

But that was okay. She just had to fix it. If she left, then they wouldnt be hurt because of her anymore.

But not soon. When they're safe.

Spicy let out a soft sigh at the thought, before pushing it aside and wiping at the tears that were beginning to form, and rubbing her eyes to stay awake.

Getting roughly around five hours of sleep a week for the past couple months seemed to finally be catching up to her.

Glancing down at the flash drive clutched in her fist, she couldn't help but be a bit relieved that Unknown hadn't seen it. After all, it had the evidence of everything that she had been able to find about Mint Eye since she had appeared here.

Putting the flash drive in the small compartment she had carved into her boot for it, she glanced back to her glasses that she was trying to make work with the new additions. She had been working on the built in cameras for roughly three months now, but it seemed it worked well enough now.

The video footage would be stored in a built in storage device that could be switched out, and the camera could record for up to a day before the storage device would need to be emptied into the flash drive.

Putting on the glasses and turning them on, Spicy got up and left the information room.

Four believers were waiting outside the door for her.

Spicy didn't struggle as they grabbed onto her arms and led her to Rikas private room.

She didn't flinch when she was forced on her knees before her.

Spicy didnt throw up when the blue liquid was forced down her throat, no matter how much she wanted to.

And she didn't cry as the sharp blade was pressed to her skin.

Turns out she was wrong after all. She wasnt safe from the elixir.

Nor was she safe from the torture.

Pain was the first thing she became aware of, the second being the absolute exhaustion.

Groggily opening her eyes, Spicy winced as pain flared through her. Glancing around, she realized she was alone.

Slowly getting up and using the wall as a support, Spicy was able to stumble towards the door, pausing to see a discarded Believers robe.

Making her way down the hall in the loose robe that she put over her bloody clothes, she stumbled, nearly falling over before she leaned against the wall, panting heavily.

Everything was foggy, shapes blurring together when she moved too quickly. She blinked and rubbed her eyes, before moving on towards the throne room.

She had to get there in time, if anyone was still even here.

Loud shouting covered up the sound of the side door opening and closing as Spicy moved into the throne room.

Slowly moving up in the crowd of Believers, her ears rang from the unrelenting yelling, blurry figures slowly coming into focus as she made her way to the front, nearest to V.

She saw the gun raise.

She heard the bang.

And she felt the pain in her side as she stood in front of V.

The last thing she remembered was the floor rushing to meet her face as the robe fell, before darkness welcomed her.

Hey, Spicy. Have you considered not trying to make a pool of angst to slap all of us in the face like that? That hurt!

[patchdotexe]

explorers of arvus: now what? / 2.2.21

LAST TIME ON EXPLORERS OF ARVUS: we kicked the shit out of a witch, a murdercow, and a tree, and nearly got murdered by a broom! also i exploded the tree, which was pretty fucking poggers. we also did have to hold taure down to feed her some healing elixirs but yknow

silje, meanwhile, was spaced the fuck out the entire time (bc of being a dmpc last time) and has no idea what just happened or that he commited gratiutous amounts of tree violence.

And Then We Slept For 24 Hours (we didnt)

thorne rolled a nat20 on drawing the tree blight on fire! which is EXTREMELY COOL. im glad we have a memorial of the coolest thing ive done on arvus so far (and also hopefully the fire wont spread bc it would suck if we set all of arvus on fire) oh nvm we're in a swamp so we good. hard to set things on fire in a swamp.

i swear im paying attention but green is talking about dreamout in 772 rn and has some very interesting theories about how the eggpire plot would go down so i am just. side-eyeing it. i am Looking. i swear im paying attention.

oh man i havent collected my notes from last session bc i was liveblogging in discord for nyx's benefit. that's gonna be interesting to compile.* i wonder if i should put these in gdocs instead of wordpad lmao (wait no i use wordpad bc its easier to just pop open and have layered over discord / roll20) * [ AND THEN I DIDNT DO THAT FOR LIKE 2 MONTHS ]

michael: ...burn the house down charlie: ~ we're gonna burn the whole house down! ~ thorne: [confused] how do you know that song? we dont have any bards charlie: [buffering] ...BITCH I MIGHT BE

what if i took a level in bard, would that be fucked up or what

tiny hut tiny hut tiny hut tiny hut. TINY HURT (sieron casted Leomund's Tiny Hut bc we burnt down the only nearby shelter)

lots of discussion about the hut. hut talk

thorne: sieron, why havent we been doing this? charlie: great question! hey sieron, what the fuck? sieron: i guess i just havent thought about it? charlie: you're lucky you're cute >:/ sieron: AA??

discussion of sieron's alter appearance and how its probably somewhat awkward bc thorne is just. openly a horc. unfortunately, sieron's hometown is super racist

HELLO I HAVE BEEN DISTRACTED BC RUBY DID A PANEL REDRAW FROM ASP AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA aa a a a a a

time for taure and thorne to chat on watch! frenship taure hasnt noticed her hair colour bc shes been busy doin stuff, like killin people taure misunderstands thorne asking abt her hair and thinks he has a tragic backstory of being a hairdresser before becoming a warlock DOES TAURE KNOW WHAT THE FEYWILD IS yes she does! war of the veils was a thing, where the feywild invaded the material plane and honestly i should read all the worldbuilding again bc its been forever but i thought all that was neat

oh shit thorne called taure a uhhhh eladrin? OH BOY TAURE ROLLED A 1 we're on the same page here TIME FOR THORNE INFODUMP eladrin are feywild elves! as in closely related to the fey, as well as living in the feywild. their hair changes with the seasons, like taure's does :O !! taure and thorne have not had a fucking one on one conversation before

thorne: taure. taure: yes, hello that is me i am taure [..] taure: now, counterpoint, the sun makes hair change colour-- thorne: Taure.

thorne is trying so hard i love they everyone else is sleeping through this convo so theyre spared the awkwardness but ooc we are having a great time :o eladrin hair colour changing stuff related to mood / seasons / powers?? thorne is admittedly confused bc Weird Documentation but this is really neat to hear about taure, meanwhile, has no idea why this is important.

thorne: if i had told you this, and you had-- transcended-- into your next phase-- id be very concerned taure: hold on [loud grunting] okay no

why havent we been doing tiny hut this whole time. sieron.

oh right taure has a tragic backstory and her mom ditched her as a babby. MEANWHILE, THORNE DOESNT EVEN HAVE PARENTS michael: there are two types of people in the world: those who're kidnapped as infants, and those that kidnap infants WAIT IS THIS LIKE, THE FIRST TIME ANYONES HEARD ABT THORNE'S BACKSTORY BESIDES "LIVED IN THE FEYWILD" thorne is very chill about it though. god i love thorne. i love the entire party

thorne: ...after the third or fourth prophetic vision, they all sorta blur together.

god i wish id written down more about the magical mystical adventure OH. THE ORACLE FORESHADOWED THE ELADRIN THING. NEAT thorne: oh, the oracle! is that the guy with the, uh... [snaps fingers] the gryphon fart orb?

IREL IS HERE YAY IREL i have forgotten how to spell their name. how about i split the difference and spell it Yirel. michael is rolling to see if thorne and taure woke yirel up-- OH OKAY yirel just. sleeps for fun. god i wish that were me

charlie's hair can hold many small pets of dubious sapience.

I LOVE YIREL,,, thorne is just pleasantly confused. WAIT IS YIREL PURRING yirel: you are confused by that action! :D taure: ...yes. what were you doing? yirel: i was performing magic! i can now detect your minds! i can hear your thoughts. :D OKAY SO YIREL WAS. NOT PURRING. yirel has cast Detect Thoughts on thorne. thorne's train of thought is now "???"

we need to teach the snake consent. we have now taught the snake consent.

YIREL IS GOING TO VERY POLITELY ASK THE BIG BAD IF HE CAN READ THEIR MIND its okay i love them. thorne is SO CONFUSED yirel is attempting to be helpful YIREL LITERALLY DISCOVERED THEY COULD CAST DETECT THOUGHTS SO THEY CASTED DETECT THOUGHTS. thorne is hoping yirel wont learn to cast fireball on themself. yirel: there's two timelines where that could happen. i will do my best to avoid them! :D

okay its really hard to get across in text but yirel is basically just. permanently happy/excited sounding. like a puppy! or like the ":D" face in winged snake form.

ooh, a celestial serpent location! off in the mistwall mountains. they are Extremely Dead but yirel told thorne+taure where it is on the map and said we can learn stuff abt time! and then went to sleep. goodnight yirel. i will kill for you

S. S. BIG BOAT (it is 60 miles across. big boat. thank you jorb)

WHAT IS WRONG WITH JORB'S CAMERA, WHY DOES IT KEEP ZOOMING IIIIIIIIIIN

it rained overnight so all the water that collected on the tiny hut got dumped on everyone, and THEN silje shook off like a dog and charlie is MISERABLE

SILJE GOT A NAT20 FORAGING the survival squad are gonna get the fuckin best breakfast ever

oh yea the poison / disease was stored in the tree blight! so now that we've incinerated it it's all good. still gonna take time for the whole river to clear, but with the source of it gone we should be golden. fuck yea

oh man today was hourly comics day, wasnt it. or was it feb 1? fuck shit damn uhhhhh i have done. nothing. besides work on the PMV, talk about dreamout, and now play d&d. this is unrelated to everything im just Thonkin

TIME FOR SWAMP FACTS solar knows So Much about swamps. time to discuss cattails (please no) these are cattails............. ME WANT BITE. ME WANT PLANT CORN DOG DELIGHT. ME WANT DEEP FRIED. ME THINK WATER TWINKIE NICE

oh shit thorne has spotted a ufo. yuufo time OMINOUS YUUFO silje, with an armful of frogs and a lizard in his mouth: [looks up] mrrp? poor silje cant see for shit. NEITHER CAN THORNE its either very small and close, or very big and far away

HRM. actually this MIGHT be related to the vision bc the ominous yuufo was heart-shaped, and the vision was of a necromancer on a floating bloody platform raising all kinds of undead

its been forever and i didnt take a lot of notes on the mini-session but the last time we saw the oracle was a cave on theral! so, unrelated to the place yirel marked on the map. which michael marked down as "seat of the oracle"!

TAURE THINK OF THE CHILDREN THAT WE DONT HAVE (we have yirel!) TAURE THINK OF THE CHILD THAT WE HAVE

ahoyhoyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy i wanna go to ahoyhoy. we are not currently going to ahoyhoy but maybe some day

i had to stop paying attention because buttons wanted to see my Horrible Streaming Setup and apparently something terrible has happened. also honse

we are potentially dealing with a salad katamari.

thorne: could that be what the object in the sky is? silje: ...a lettuce?

we have voted to ignore the salad katamari for now. this action will have consequences.

charlie and silje take watch! charlie wants to know what silje's deal is! silje is a monster hunter. charlie misses bein a thief ): SILJE WAS A MONSTER HUNTER SINCE HE WAS 12?? charlie realizes that perhaps becoming an adventurer and doing a huge amount of murder on a regular basis, especially as a child, is Maybe Not Great silje likes books! charlie offers to lend him her books :D charlie, quietly: i am totally doing the friendship thing so good. RATS RATS RATS RATS hehe rats.

uh oh, nyx has died. NVM NYX IS OKAY nyx's power has not gone out again

we've been on arvus for 13 days! neat.

OH SHIT FLOATING ISLAND its also shaped weirdly like a heart. YEP IT LOOKS LIKE ITS BLEEDING probably bc of clay or iron oxide in the dirt but still that looks ominous as hell SIERON'S A SMART BOY he rolled 20+ on the 3 rolls he had to do, fuck yeah. this fucked up island is an Earth Mote! which are lil sky islands. or like, just general dirt chunks thatre in the sky. theyre either natural events or wizards showing off! also they usually move, but this one is just kinda... tethered. not like Literally but its locked in place. this is apparently the "Heart of Arvus"! which is . at the heart of arvus. or at least the centre of the continent.

solar: leo, we've found the ruins of mumbo jumbo's base. leo: [leans over and thwaps solar on the leg w nerf sword]

penn: i swear to god, if i look out my window and i dont see jorb in the sky, im going to be disappointed that hes not doing his job. jorb: slowly rotating.

we are now thinking about how to get up on the rock. TINY HUT STAIRCASE solar: could i featherfall the wrong way? wand of wonder / wild magic surge! NOPE mage hand! charlie is 41 pounds. mage hand is 5 pounds limit. korred rope! we have enough rope to tie together and tie to the korred rope, BUT the korred rope cannot fly. OH THE ROCK IS INHABITED there's an elf!

sieron & taure: [worried about the necromancy] charlie: HOWDY~!

[party arguing about who's gonna go up bc not all of us can fit up there] [leo and solar start swordfighting in the background]

sent kaepora through the portal to the heart of arvus aaaaaand end of session! CLIFFHANGEERRRRRRR

michael: DID YOU FUCK MY MOM, DUNGEONMASTER?

[mount-beast]

{Starter for Flowerbcds:}

      Dazzling, shimming rays basked down from the sun while entering the earth’s crust, in doing so, cascading such a crisp warmth to those below it. Light and bright hues filled the area around them making everything appear so much more vibrant; so much more lively. A cooling, yet rather soothing breeze every so often announced its arrival with a gentle whiiisssh. These gusts picked up fallen leaves and loose dandelion seeds that once clung onto the flower. It almost shared a resemblance of fairies dancing amongst the air, swaying to their own little melody that nature itself had to offer. At least, this was always how Clint’d pictured it. There was many things Clint would bask over that the common joe may simply overlook or not take time to admire. Maybe it was due to him always being surrounded by nature and nature only that made him appreciate the little things in life. Ironic, being how he was also quite literally a giant-- you’d expect him to be less observant or not notice the itsy bitsy things in life. But this just wasn’t the cas! If anything, in a odd way, it made him be even that much more attention giving to the landscape. He was constantly on the look out, being aware and very much so mindful of just how careful he had to be as to not accidentally--well, step on something or someone. Goodness just that thought or worry alone was enough to make himself sick but, luckily because of his keen eye and over caution mind it’d never happened. 

      Luckily for him, he had a good supply of glamour left to use. What is glamour you might ask? Why, it was a special elixir he was able to acquire from a long term witch he’d met many years back. The thing is, or the catch of it was it wasn’t a free thing. He always had to find ways to be able to afford the glamours and seeing how he didnt have a stable or steady income, there would be weeks or even month of him not being able retrieve any and end up stuck in his normal gigantic form. He still found ways to offer payments, that being fixing anything she’d need repairs on, going out to find specific ingredients for particular spells, so on and so forth. But these deeds weren’t always needed from him, so he had to find another way to get a actual steady and mighty stock of potions. What he needed was money...And he had just the idea on how he could acquire it too. 

      Strolling down the dirt path was a wieldy large man; one who almost looked to be built as strong and mighty an ox! At first glance, it was tremendously easy to write him off as someone you wouldn't want to interact with, not in a million years. His sheer size, even with the elixir, was enough to make folks quiver-- which honestly happened far more times than he could count. But with closer expectation, it wasn’t hard to see the golden heart he’d wear ever so comfortably on his sleeve. 

      In his hand he held a sheet of loosely paper, one he’d found pinned to the side of a building while back in the city near the time of him visiting a local farmer’s market last week. Why did it took him a full week to act upon the paper’s inquiry? It wasnt hard to see-- even though it was asking for help on a farm which he knew for a fact he was more than capable of handling, he still needed time to think on it beforehand. A lot of doubt washed over and into his mind--what if he ran out of elixirs and missed work? What if it wore off while he was working and he ended up causing more damage than repairs? Or what if his soon to be boss found out what he was? That he wasn't just some ordinary human but an actual full fledge giant. Would they want him gone? Would they too, similar to all the others he’d met in the past, get petrified and flee? Demand him to-- begone? Who knew...but he had to do this. Nonetheless, he just had to put his foot through the door and give it a try. It was better than automatically declaring a defeat. 

      Getting to the door, Clint gave the area one last look, taking in what the farm had to offer for him before he mustered up the courage he needed to give the person on the inside a few knocks. The knocks weren't threatening ones, but they also were not gentle sounding ones either. They were a set of three very firm and strong knocks. Right after, he took a few steps back-- that way whoever answered the door would be able to get a better view of him, and him a better view of them. This was technically needed seeing how he was a good head or so higher than the doorframe itself, standing at a near over eight feet. To others yes, this was still very much so an oddly abnormal and endearing height, but being how he was normally over the twenty meter mark tall, to him-- it was a lot normal and better. Still, he knew how badly he continued to stick out, but there was only so much he was able to do with it. It was better to deal with what he could get and do, than dwell over the things he couldn’t. 

[itsthecupbros]

An Explanation for Lost

Okay. So I’ve been rping with a lot of new people, people who weren't around for Lost’s explanation. So I decided to make this post for people who dont know Lost’s history. Just to explain things a little.

Slight trigger warning for sexual abuse, nothing to major but just in case

Okay, first off. Im really proud of lost’s character. Now not to be vain, but I think I developed his character pretty well.

Lost is a version of cuphead from an au called the “reanimated” au. The original creator put out a single comic on the au in Chinese so I took a few liberties with it.

Lost and his brother have a lot of differences from my version of the two brothers, for example, Lost and his brother are twins and were both 12 when the deal was made, my cups and mugs were 15 and 13 respectively. Mugman in the Reanimated au is less timid, cracks lots of jokes, is a lot more optimistic, and is a bit sassier.

Example of his character:

“Just because some idiot sold our souls, that doesn't mean we cant still cant succeed!”

Anyway, they go into the KD fight and instead of succeeding, they both fail. KD goes to the devil and asks if he could bring cuphead back to life, because in this world, KD is a pedophile. Yeah, hes gross, and I wont really go into the details.

The devil does and KD begins to use him, both for his before mentioned purposes and to work for him, collecting souls and killing people he didnt like.

Lost hated him. For both what he did to him and what he forced him to do. But most of all he hated him for killing his brother. KD started to get angry and started dosing him with elixirs. Both to make him obedient and to erase his brother from his memory.

Around a few months after this in the timeline is when Lost and his KD were sent to the clutter dimension.

The people here, mainly @/deums-new-rp-account @/moth-steven @/trauma-steven and @/solarspinel killed KD, freeing lost from his control. 

He was supposed to be here only temporarily, but @/solarspinel sent in an ask that made him a permanent character in my cast.

Slowly, hes been regaining his memories since hes been here.

Lost is aro/ace and at the time that I wrote this, 13.

I can answer any furthur questions you have about his character, just ask!

@izuku-midoriya-rp @boba-bae-cafe-su-au @purple-steven @corvid-steven

[throwness]

Saeran/Ray Route. AKA THE UGLY CRY ROUTE. Spoilers Ahead!

Alright where do I begin. . . If you thought 707’s route hurt you, nope. Ray’s route I can almost guarantee will make you ugly cry.

Lets talk about rays route shall we?

So we’re not gonna ignore that Saeran kidnapped you from the very beginning but I mean MC what kind of basic lack of home training do you have that you legit iust followed a yolo text telling you to get into a car to be taken to an undisclosed location.

Oh yes enter Ray persona. “Test my game for me you beautiful creature that I’m already admittedly probably in love with because I have no reference for what it feels like to be loved or in love. But you make me feel less lonely so please don’t leave me.”

Ray is a princely figure throughout your first couple days with him. Only to later realize that Rika has utterly adopted his mothers tactics to manipulate him into doing what she wants out of what is essentially pure spite. Rika also adopts the persona of being Saeran’s true mother as she calls herself. Oddly enough, you actually get more insight on what type of person Rika is and how she perceived herself in Ray’s route than V’s.

Even in everyone’s else’s route before Saeran I never found myself actually attracted to Saeran. Rather, I found him to be someone that was grossly similar to Rika in the fact that he simply wanted to be accepted and loved by anyone. No matter what love meant to the other person. He was willing to devote his entire being simply for the other person to achknowledge him as a person. This becomes even more clear if you get Rays bad ending. It’s clear to see why even in past routes Rika was more than just Rika, she was a godly being for Saeran. Albeit through means of heavily drugging him and manipulative tactics but that’s how he saw Rika. Just as he named you his goddess, Rika was the all mighty savior.

Ray is already very upset that he has to take the elixir. It causes him to undergo pain beyond measure. Which is why he goes so out of his way to do everything he can so that the player doesn’t have to take the elixir. He even goes to make a fake exilir in case Rika asks for MC to drink it to prove herself.

This poor sweet child has been nothing but continuously abused and used as a tool.

He himself thinks he’s no good. BECAUSE LITERALLY HE HAS BEEN CONDITIONED LIKE THIS HIS ENTIRE FUCKING LIFE. LIKE PLEASE I JUST WANT TO PROTECT YOU AND LET YOU BE HAPPY. LOOK AT HOW FRAGILE HE IS. YOU CAN STILL SEE THE OLD WOUNDS HIS MOTHER GAVE HIM ON HIS BODY

Like this poor baby STOPPPPP. When they released Ray’s route I did not expect myself to cry as much as I did going through this route.

NOW let’s transition to Saeran persona. We’re also not going to ignore that Saeran abused MC for literally days. Both trying to manipulate her and physically starving her so she’s weakened. I think we all knew from the beginning that Saeran was projecting all his fears and feelings onto MC in hopes of personifying his perceived weaker self and dominating them. I’m not excusing any of this AND NEITHER SHOULD YOU. Someone being mentally ill does not give them any rights to abuse others around them because they are damaged. But this is also where I was very emotionally driven. This arc stirred an anger in me towards both Rika and V. As most of us know it has been about six months since Rika had disappeared. But thing is Saeran was taken in by Rika and V a LONG while before. Like Rika you literally killed his mom how has this not come up anywhere in conversation????? LIKE REALLY DID YOU LEGIT GET AWAY WITH MURDER??? I digress. What makes me so angry is that ONLY FKING RIGHT NOW does V actually realize “maybe....I waited too long and should have helped Saeran and protected him LIKE I PROMISED SAEYOUNG ALL THOSE YEARS AGO AND NOT LIED ABOUT IT UNTIL HE WAS SO TRAUMATIZED THAT HIS PERSONALITY SPLIT”. LIKE V???? YOU JUST SEE THAT NOW? RIGHT NOW????? WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU DIDNT REALIZE WHAT RIKA HAS DONE TO HIM??? YOU BEEN FOLLOWING HER SINCE SHE FOUNDED MINT EYE SHE HAS A ENTIRE FOLLOWING OF PEOPLE???? YOU KNEW SHE WAS MENTALLY ILL LIKE??? HUH????? Okayyyyyy. . .

Back to Saeran. Even as MC is getting tortured by Saeran this is the scene that broke me in this route.

His complete breakdown after being unable to cope with his feelings and being unable to break MC. This is the scene where he says something along the lines of “I’ll just kill you now so you can’t torment me; only I can torment you” and where he desperately tries to get a response from MC.

I’m not sure how everyone else responded but when it came to the choose I chose to say nothing. The following line of Saeran saying “why aren’t you saying anything? Tell me! TELL ME IT’S PAINFUL!” Completely broke me. I realized here he still just wants someone to accept him....in the form of him as their abuser...but accepting him nonetheless. Also props to Saeran’s VA. You screamed a lot in this my dude. It paided off. You made Saeran become really alive delivering all your lines the way you did. Honestly even above Rika’s VA, you did....amazing. You’re both amazing but DAMN YOU MADE ME TOO EMOTIONALLY ATTACHED.

Anyway,

The line is delivered so desperately. He just wants a response any response. Silence is just the same as death for him. What good is a toy that won’t respond to you? Validate me as a person that is strong and not useless. Only my toy makes me feel whole.

Saeran and Ray are entirely the same. “Please don’t leave me. I’m scared. ”. Of course Ray and Saeran are the same person. After this....his decision to tell V to take MC away from here seals the deal. That’s Saeran’s way of saying he loves you enough to let you go. That sounds cliche af but that’s what happen. The difference is the deliverance of how it went about is what made it worthwhile.

He spent 9 days trying to do one thing. And that was to get you to not leave. Now he just wants you to be okay even in his madness.

I wont lie. V did save redeem himself a little when he came clean. And the proceeded to of course OF COURSE sacrifice himself and be putty in Rika’s hands. Yes Rika is a monster. Granted I still stand by my opinion that she isn’t the monster that some people make her out to be, but she’s still a monster. When Ray/Saeran become one and shows Rika all the receipts I mean I was Z-snapping everywhere tbh.

Both Saeran and Rika became what they hated most. Their mothers. The difference is Rika believed it made her strong, Saeran realized that’s what made him weak.

Overall I think Ray’s route was the most impactful for several reasons. But I’ll just name two.

1. The entire story has VAs. The delivery of the lines make a difference in how we perceive the characters. A lot of the times we have to imagine how they said it. Here we actually get to hear how it was intended. It made it that more immersive to the point of sometimes I forget this is just a game.

2. The story was well driven and you don’t get the complete satisfaction of everyone’s happy ending. This was intentional of course. Someone has to lose their life. You spend most your life hiding with Saeran and Rika has V wrapped back in her fingers...Continuing the cycle of their toxic relationship. Until we get an after ending for both V and Ray. I have to say these reviews are incomplete.

You made it to the end. Thank you!

Enjoy happy pictures.

Honestly I think Saeran has the best kiss out of all.

[reluctantrfamember]

ok bois its theory timeeeee

alright so i have a theory regarding saeran’s past but imma be frank: my memory of the SEs is pretty dodgy bc i hate them and dont enjoy rereading them SO it is very possible that i am forgetting somethin that would totally debunk this – and feel free to correct me if this is the case! BUT, bearing that in mind:

what if saeran didn’t know rika was the one who initially kidnapped/tortured him?

like, think about it. saeyoung left to join the agency at around age 15. shortly after this v and rika rescued saeran from his mother, then saeran is given the hacking textbook from rika – presumably to see if he’d be of use to her he has any tech talent – and then a while after that saeran is taken to some dungeon and tortured. but at this point we know that dungeon can’t be mint eye (or at least not the same castle-like building as seen in the game) since ray remarks in another story that their basement is still under construction, meaning the building itself must be relatively new. so then, what if saeran didn’t know rika was the one who took him? bc i mean, presumably rika’s scrawny ass didnt stuff him in her trunk and drive off w/ him herself– most likely a third party (or at least the first mint eye members) were involved. and if rika never made herself present during this initial torture period (and she was never mentioned by anyone else) saeran would have no idea where he is, who put him there, or why they’re doing this to him; all he’d know is that they’re insisting that his brother’s abandoned him, and theyre forcing him to learn how to hack. 

but then one day, however many months or years later, rika suddenly shows up and “saves” him again, like some sort of guardian angel. she gets him out of that place, nurtures him back to relative health, gives him drugs an elixir to make him more susceptible to suggestion feel better, and thennnnnn……..

she claims v sold saeran out to his father in exchange for allowing saeyoung – the “stronger, smarter” twin – into the agency.

this would explain why saeran hates v so much. it’s why he thinks v betrayed him somehow. it also may be why saeran sends saeyoung some information abt their father during the first few days of another story. he thinks he’s confronting saeyoung for not only abandoning him, but selling him out for the sake of his own escape. 

…thoughts?

[sexysilverstrider]

I saw your team descriptions for fe heroes, and now I ship Matthew and Sakura. GOSH, Matthew liking Sakura and being scared because they won't be in the same realm, my heart!!

BRO PLEASE JOIN ME IN THIS RAREPAIR ;w; !!!!

like i deadass have hcanons n EVEN A FIC LMAO like all this time ofc leilas has been in matthews heart even years after the bloody war. but then comes sakura all insistent yet nervous in approaching him coz he keeps getting hurt the most in battles n this amuses the spy

during healing sakura sometimes try to break the awkward silence by talking to him. matthew doesnt talk much coz you know the whole spy ordeal but sakura was persistent n ended up usually talking the most (FOR ONCE) n its about hw matthew should take care of himself or use a special elixir for his wounds.

matthew was still amused n frankly confused coz wow this girl reminds him of another persistent healer but at least this one isnt obnoxious n annoying so he lowkey actually didnt mind.

then he saw her in battles. shes surprisingly fucking strong against magic when she protected him and shes Really good with a bow and magic herself matthew couldnt help but he highly impressed. still lowkey tho coz he kinda swore himself to close off all personal emotions on anything

BUT LMAO DID THAT BACKFIRE months after spending time together in askr n having each others backs sakura started getting comfy around him n talked about hoshido. matthew, in return, kinda talked about ostia but still kept his mouth shut about many things. in time he figured it wouldnt hurt to talk about his family coz he misses them n since he knows sakura is trustworthy he lets out that yearning by talking to her about it

and….well….lmao it was those months that matthew starts to feel iffy and everytime he doesnt see her he feels uncomfortable. and everytime when he SEES her??? his heart feels like its gonna explode

it was that exact moment tht matthew knew hes fucked

[kerrylifeandloves]

  Sometimes, you visit a place that weaves its way under your skin. Something that you see or experience leaves such a lasting impression on you, that it somehow puts a kink in your DNA. It moves you, teaches you, and you know that there will always be a file labeled xyz in your brain. Well a visit to the Jewish Quarter in Prague did this to me. It broke me down a little, then put me back together, but slightly differently than I was. Iv spoken before about how I feel travel helped shape the person that I am today in this post, Why I Feel Travel Can Be The Key To Growth and Wellbeing. This trip to Prague has just placed another layer. Let me tell you all the wonderful things Prague has to offer, and why Prague is the city that changed me a little.

Prague has so much to offer, and depending on the time of year you go, you can find the city not as crowded as you may expect. I spoke to you about the basics of our trip in this post, Your Guide To Prague in The Autumn – The practical stuff, so in this post I will be letting you know about the things you can do to make the most of a visit to this gorgeous city. Bursting with history and culture, everyday was a school day for us. Im not going to give you our full itinerary, but I will share with you the things I think are a must do in Prague.

The Jewish Quarter;

The Synagogue’s

I had read up on the Jewish Quarter before arriving in Prague, so I knew that it was an area had a torrid history. In the 13th century, Jewish people were made to leave their homes, and made to all settle and live in one area. Over the years, Jews expelled from various other countries were made to live in this area, as they were banned from living anywhere else in Prague. During Hitler’s occupation, he wanted the area preserved as a kind of “museum of an extinct race”. The Jewish Quarter has six synagogue’s and these (except the Old-New Synagogue, which requires an additional ticket) form part of the walking tour or entrance only tickets that you can pay to do. We chose to do the entrance only tickets, which cost £12 each, as we wanted to go around at our own pace. You can read more about the options, walking tours etc here. You can also do walking tours which are free, and you just pay a tip to the guide. We didnt do one ourself, but saw lots of them going around. Lots of options of the free tours throughout Prague can be found here.

We went into 4 of the six synagogue’s, and the Pinkas synagogue, built in the 1500’s, was my undoing. As soon as you walk in, the walls are covered, a floor to ceiling memorial, with names. These names, all 80,000 of them, were the names of the Jewish victims from the area, killed in Nazi occupation. That in itself was a shocking visual representation, but up on the first floor was where I lost all my composure. The upstairs concentrates on the fate of the Jewish children. There were photos of some of the children that were kept under house arrest in the area, before being taken off to the camps, and drawings that they had created. In an effort to try to keep a little bit of normality and fun for the children (that were not allowed out during the day, could only go out for one hour of a night time and were all expelled from school) the children were encouraged to draw. The drawings spoke a thousand words. Drawings of children being torn from parents. Drawings of children praying at the gates of freedom. Drawings of children crying with arms outstretched. It was harrowing. I couldn’t stop the tears from falling as I went from picture to picture, feeling like I owed these innocents my attention to their work. My heart was breaking for these lost souls, but I felt strongly that I owed it to them to learn their story. I felt devastated, but also in awe of the jewish people’s resilience and determination to never be made to not feel proud of their heritage. If you are on a cultural visit to Prague, I urge you to include the Jewish Quarter in your itinerary.

The Old Jewish Cemetery;

As one of the oldest Jewish burial grounds in the world, this too is a must see. The final resting place of up to 12,000 jewish people, the graves were sometimes 10 people deep as space was so very limited. Used as a burial ground between 1439 and 1800, it was the only place that Jewish people were allowed to be buried. Although its subject is obviously not the most uplifting, I found it to be beautiful, peaceful and incredibly poignant. As one of the most important parts of the Prague Jewish history, a visit to the cemetery is another must.

Charles Bridge;

You cannot come to Prague without walking across the famous Charles Bridge. The gothic bridge straddles the River Vltava, and separates the Old Town of Prague, and the Lesser Town (Mala Strana). The bridge, built in the 1300’s, is iconic as the 30 statues that were added in the 17th century are all stunning and significant. Some are even meant to bring you luck if you rub them, and you will see some of the statue’s rubbed to a shine where so many people are hoping for a slice of the luck. There is also a tower at either end of the bridge, which you can pay to climb up and see the City from another viewpoint. I adored the bridge. We even got up at 6am one morning to go and see the City wake up from the bridge. It was so calm and peaceful and I think I fell a little in love with Prague that day.

Prague Castle;

In Mala Strana, you can gain access to Prague Castle. This beautiful building, visible from almost anywhere in Prague town even on a misty, grey day, also has the breathtaking St Vitus cathedral in it. Entrance to the castle will cost you around £12 each, depending on what you want access to. There are a few options available, and we went for the top one.

The origins of the castle date back to 880, with various additions in the 10th and 14th centuries. It is said to be the largest castle complex in the world, and it is huge. It used to be the residence of Kings and Emperors, but since the 1900’s was used for presidents, before becoming a cultural monument of Prague in 1962. The castle is also where you will find St Vitus cathedral and Golden Lane. If you make the trip to the castle, I would advise going early to beat the queues. We went to the castle on the day that we got up for sunrise. A walk across Charles Bridge, then up the hill to the castle will take you maybe half hour. The hill is pretty steep, but you can stop half way for a cuppa, like we did…….

St Vitus cathedral;

I think I will always remember the moment I walked into St Vitus. It. Is. Stunning. Breathtakingly stunning. You know I am a fan of architecture if you have been with me for a little while, and this was everything! This gothic church is the most important church in the whole country, and contains the tombs of many Bohemian kings and holy Roman Emperors. Visually, the outside of the cathedral is beautiful, interesting and almost princess like. Inside, it has so much going on within it that I would be here until next month telling you all the details. It is an absolute must to go to if you are in Prague. Again, going early should mean that you are not over whelmed with crowds. Visit the cathedral first before continuing round the castle as it gets very busy as the days goes on.

  Golden Lane;

The tiny houses on Golden Lane were built to house the servants and defenders of the castle. The houses were occupied right up until WWII, and famous writers have been known to live there, hoping to spark creativeness and inspiration. The 16th century homes all have a story to tell and I loved looking into each one. The houses are all numbered, and some of the residents were a fortune teller, Madame de Thebes in number 14, (arrested by the German Secret Police and killed during interrogation) a Red Musket solider in number 13, house number 12 had a basement area that was used as a prison, and one of the first houses in the lane was inhabited by an “alchemist” that was commissioned to make an elixir of youth! I loved walking down the lane, and the tiny houses gave a great insight into how the people of earlier centuries lived.

Some Free things to do in Prague;

Walking across Charles Bridge is obviously free, but there a a few other things that wont hit the pocket, but are worth doing. Just walking around the streets looking at the architecture made me happy! There is so much detail in the buildings!.

Mala Strana;

Mala strana is the part of Prague at the other end of Charles Bridge. Known as “Lesser Town” Nik and I really liked it over this side. It was a lot calmer, and it felt very quaint and traditional. It also is where you will find the ever changing Lennon Wall, the Infant Jesus of Prague and the bank where all the rivers swans congregate.

The Lennon Wall is a wall that is a tribute to the late John Lennon. People come to the wall to pay their respects and it is covered with drawings, song lyrics, tributes and fantastic graffiti. It is ever changing as layers of drawings and painting are on top of each other. You also have the church of Our Lady Victorious that houses the famous Infant Jesus. This 16th century statue attracts people that make the pilgrimage to see it and pray with it, from all over the world.

We also visited the Strahov Monastery, which is still a serving monastery and resided in by monks. The monastery is absolutely beautiful, and home to a fantastic selection of religious art and artefacts. The art has a lot of history behind it as much of the art is slowly being clawed back by the monastery. The collection was stolen from them over the years, and by several countries and leaders. The monastery has about 3/4 of its collection back now. You will also be able to try some amazing blueberry larger here. Brewed on the premises, by the monks, I could have happily stayed all day supping that. its blueberry, a super fruit,  got to be good for you hasn’t it???

Old Town Square;

This is where Nik and I spent a lot of our time, and it is gorgeous. Home to the Astronomical Clock, you will see crowds gathering at the foot of the clock around every turn of the hour. This is because when the clock chimes the hour, the clock puts on a mechanical display that in the middle ages, was considered one of the wonders of the world. I must admit to being a little underwhelmed by the performance, but the 600 year old clock itself is a work of art.

  You also have the beautiful, fairy tale Church of our Lady before Tyn in the Old square. This church is another beauty, and again, famous in any photo you see of Prague. Another gothic building, the church was started in the 14th century, but not finished until the 16th. It is beautiful and it was my husbands favourite landmark in Prague. If you want to go inside the church, have a look at the opening hours fairly early on in your trip as the hours its open are quite random. It is beautiful though, so worth a look inside.

I literally could go on all day about things to do in Prague, but I am sure if you are still here, you are in need of a cuppa or something. I think I could visit Prague again, for the same amount of time, and still not get to do all the things that I would like to. That is the thing with a mini break isn’t it, so little time but so, so much to do! We had an amazing trip, and honestly think if you are thinking of going to Prague, all the things I have mentioned should be somehow popped onto your list.

So, thats it. My sum up of the fabulous things to do in Prague. I came home from Prague a little different. I feel an overwhelming desire to learn more about the Jewish people, and why they have been so persecuted throughout the years. I want to learn more of their customs and religion. I feel that it reminded me to aways show tolerance  kindness and love to everyone. I left Prague a better person, and as the saying goes, travel is the only thing that you can spend money on that makes you richer. never have I felt that more keenly. How about you, have you experienced something that you felt changed you a little? Have you visited any of these places in Prague? Is Prague on your wish list to visit? Let me know your thoughts in the comments. 

  Prague – The City that Changed Me a Little Sometimes, you visit a place that weaves its way under your skin. Something that you see or experience leaves such a lasting impression on you, that it somehow puts a kink in your DNA.

[ofparadigmandstars-blog]

Friday 31st March

I got my bike reassembled today....It will be on its way soon. That is so exciting I look forward to the freedom of riding and getting much needed exercise and fresh air....Well I will try and find it. I was thinking Monavale way, deep into gorgeous Belvedere, perhaps discover new territory who knows? :) So I'm feeling a bit chipper today, dressed in my David Bowie top, my dry cough still there but easing off with this pineapple elixir I got here with me. I feel so God dam amazing actually ! I am filled with freedom and delights....Comfort , my brother John, my mum (even though she is a bit weird) love her but really don't care because I'm home and I feel fulfilled, comfortable, relaxed, happy ...I really do not miss London one little bit. I have a massive room all to myself, my guitar, my books, food, lovely coffee shops ....One in particular opening soon in Alexandra park (lovely Jessie) I don't have to wake up early for anything, I don't have to pay rent, I have all the time in the world to do what I please. To heal, to dream again, to fix my soul, to discover me, to love me. London life was far too abrasive , and I fear scratched away all of me, tore away at my heart. I fought so much, cringed, hurt, was abused, left alone, struggled, suffered. You know the only time I properly enjoyed London was with Jonny and with the money I was finally earning doing the thing that ruined so much of me i am still picking up the pieces & loving me....But at the time it was money....And my gosh I needed it. I couldn't cover my rent that month and I recall Rozalla just blatantly refused. I was so upset. Anyway I had a great time, earned bags of cash, sent mum money, Went to Rome, lived a very comfortable life with luxury. But by the time I moved to Parsons Green my head was rattled and I felt so rusty ...I began to realize how lost out of society I become. Living with those flatmates in that luxury apartment....I just began despising going into the club . I would cycle to work to defy the lives lived by strippers....I was all health, clarity, self love and of good social standing ...Not some washed out creature of the night contributing nothing to life or self. I felt exhausted, wasted and trapped. As Mars said it's not sustainable. And surely so it was not ...How corrupted and beyond self recognition I became. I just wanted to stop and start again. Hence taking time to study PT for a new life in 2014, miserable, lost and with plastic balls on my chest :( I wanted to start again...The right way with love, patience, anxiety free and that confidence that comes from family values. I felt a nobody and felt really detached....Slow crash with Jonny didnt help & he did nothing for my self value or worth .....Shame I tolerated it, nice guy blue eyes who can't just tell me you love me? Just shows how much I feel about myself ....Self love IS BIG. I craved family, comfort, support that I missed out on....I had to be in the trenches fighting from my teens in the midst of our family wealth. Zero maternal love from drug addled mum.....I felt poor in life and spirit Just like my poor brothers were starved so was I ....It's just my can do, youthful, blind ambition saw me through some of the worst episodes of my short life. And I was never received one to shout or demand my corner ...I quietly Potter away afraid if friction ....I am peaceful even if it meant complete neglect. And this began when I was a child.....Same approach quiet peaceful child needing g huge amounts of love and attention. We all know what happened to me :( I just recognise how much I lacked and I feel sorry for myself....And so I am back to reclaim what belongs to me, Love myself so much , calm my poor bones down and breath a sigh of relief that I woke up and chose this for myself. I did not wait for Jonny or dream for that anymore....I don't care for striving in that harrowing existence, I just want to be at home. And I dont care okay wrong statement....I don't yearn for anything 😀 I just want to BE finally. Mum enraged us with this unnecessary fear of the world which I took out with me....It's not true! And I was armed wrongly. Life is Good, life is cheerful, and we are blessed. And I am going to live my life with that abundance forever more,,,, I struggled under a make believe cloud of rain when everywhere else there was sun. Now I fully choose HAPPINESS and I want to shout it from the hills.....But then sadly my family don't care to hear it and the world in general don't want to know. And I am finally at a point where it's all about ME. Im so awakened to myself and I don't need to prove anything to anyone , to let in on my life journey or everyday activity, for what ....For that same validation. Stop being so ridiculous and just live your life for you...Your at home now!!! No one can EVER EVER EVER kick you out or make you feel bad. Dad loved you very much and left you money, shelter , comfort. Bless his soul x Mother took care of things and yes she cares too but she is a bit screwed up so don't mind her. And the cool thing is she does not even know me, I left when She was off her head on drugs....And she does not remember much of me....It doesn't help that I was afraid and introverted with her and the general public . So I just disappeared under the scene. So she can't pick fights with me as she does Mars plus Marlene is completely different character. I am a mermaid, a fantasy, unreachable, unblameable, a diamond dew drop in the early sun....If you touch me I will disappear. I am the last born beautiful daughter back home to claim my birthright, my place in the world, I have something, I have an identity, I have a place to call my home forever....Enough time to follow my dreams and do all the things I want. Or just sleep all day and night! Ha! No really , you don't understand how cool this is....I can't believe it ...It's like I have won back my own lottery...I just didn't think I had it or forgot because London life had such a permanent hot rod up my bum! So glad I'm done with it I'm happy x Well done for putting yourself first Laura... I love you very much and just you remember that you matter a hundred, zillion, billion, times round the world , the universe, eternity and back :) Welcome home xx