#hate this brain lol
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man i have no idea what to write
#Blue Foxy Devil [OOC]#i'm kinda struggling feeling like i have a foothold anywhere#which kinda sucks but idk what to do about it#i just. i dunno.#feel out of place?#not that it's anyone else's fault really but like. i feel like my absence was too long and people have moved on#i don't know if that has any weight to it but the feeling is certainly there.#hate this brain lol#vent
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companions re-classed part 3 - shadowheart 🌌🌚🌝
*shadowdancer isn't a 5e rogue subclass, it's a 3.5e rogue-based prestige class, but it suits her so well and when i played 3.5e as a kid i thought it was the coolest thing ever lol so i wanted to use it
karlach 🔥 wyll ⚔️
#shadowheart#bg3#my art#*i still think it's the coolest thing ever#ngl tho i hate to speak a word against objectively the best class (rogue) it could use more weird spooky subclasses#rly the only cool supernatural one rn is phantom which i do like a whole lot but it didn't feel like a good fit for her#glad to get this done before succumbing fully to DA brain but idk what the fate of the final three will be lol#next up is lae’zel so im hoping the Do It For Her will motivate me
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hoshina soshiro is very she-fell-first-but-he-fell-harder trope coded.
i think we can reach a consensus here that hoshina is not difficult to like and in this case, to romantically have feelings for - one way or the other i think the officers of the third division harbor some form of admiration for the guy. and you are no exception.
but hoshina did not get recruited as a defense officer to fall in love. he doesn't mind that people develop a crush on him, but when he started noticing you being a bit weird and awkward around him, he gets slightly annoyed. he's the vice-captain and he needs all of his subordinates to be thinking straight around him. he cannot deny you are one of, if not the best, in your batch - you can even get promoted to platoon leader if you want to. hoshina doesn't want your potential to be dampened by your infatuation, so he tells you to stop feeling whatever feeling you have towards him. "is that an order from my vice-captain?" you asked. he gave a one-word reply to you in a firm tone, "yes, it is".
he drove himself crazy the next days and weeks because you did not only follow his instruction, you also went above and beyond by completely avoiding him like he carries the plague. this says a lot considering it's hard to hide from a man who leads the training sessions you are supposed to attend. time passed, and he learned to miss your presence - he started to reminisce about how different it is when you were a constant inclusion in his everyday life, and how dull things are for him now that you have effectively ghosted him.
but you weren't really gone - you are a third division defense officer so you are still beholden to your sworn duties and obligations to protect your country from kaiju threats. but in an attempt to neutralise a kaiju one time, you have hurt yourself - injured to the point that even vice-captain hoshina soshiro himself got scared he was going to lose you.
"don't get attached to any of your teammates," is something he would tell the new recruits during their initiation as members of the division. hoshina soshiro wished he could have listened to himself.
when you regained your consciousness at the hospital, hoshina was the first person you laid your eyes on. he's fallen asleep while sitting uncomfortably in a chair beside your bed, his hand holding yours, your fingers intertwined with his.
#i hate that my brain is overflowing with stuff like this and then i try to write and it's just crickets lol#filed under: things to elaborate on very soon#hoshina soshiro#soshiro hoshina#hoshina x reader#hoshina soshiro x reader#soshiro hoshina x reader#kaiju no. 8#kn8 x reader#hoshina soshiro fic
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Mm, yes... The one you call Benrey...
I've been advised by my employers that, his true nature is on something of a "need-to-know" basis...
And you, Doctor Freeman, do not need to know...
ayo fuck this painting lol have another cropped vers
#augsartt#hlvrai fanart#hl2vrai#hlvrai2#hlvrai benrey#hlvrai benry#hlvrai#digital painting#art#digital art#my art#ugghhh this one was such a pain#i kept pushing myself and it turned out good but it took THREE DAYS#EWW MY ADHD BRAIN HATED THAT SHIT#and i defo over rendered but its fine fuck it lol#thank you to all the people who were so kind in the tags of my Gordon painting!!!#you guys gave me the motivation to get this one done so alsd;jf thanks <3#ily all 😭😭#pose is inspired by that one scene from Chicago lol#they both reached for the gun is the number you should watch it#okey goobie
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Thirteen.exe has stopped responding
(warning for slight flashing)
#saturdays are for shitposts#her brain is on dial up internet so she needs extra time to process#slight headphone warning but its not as bad as my crack video was#house md#hate crimes md#hatecrimes md#greg house#remy thirteen hadley#an anya original#anya's bs (badly edited shitposts)#this one is actually edited really nicely i just keep the badly edited tag because 'BS' is a funny abbreviations for my shitposts#4x12#gregory house#remy hadley#videos#my edits#autistic thirteen#<- it's close enough she has the processing delay lol#100#200
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i wanted to write a quick 3-chapter fic for day 4 of loa shiptober (how they met i think) and i (a fool) was like. yeah. i could totally write 3 chapters in a few hours. i was wrong. SO wrong. haven’t even finished kremy’s (the first one).
so instead have a maybe-past-kremy design that im conflicted about compared to his current design, as a peace offering
#i kinda hate this ngl#im still writing it it’ll be like a week or two late tho skfjd#i spend like 20 minutes playing around with one 5-line paragraph#logical human brain says edit after getting the story out#but the worms consuming it say “it has to be good on the first draft or else you suck” and i cant argue with that#i like to think that kremy used to dress kind of dark and simple bc he didnt have that much money to spend on luxuries#and he saved up for his silly fancy suit#and spooky fancy cane#and silly fancy tophat!#he has fun with it i think#kremy doesnt draw on a mustache every day for nothing gotta give him his flowers#not too sure how i feel about my past kremy design tbh#i did just pull up pinterest and search up suit. so. thats on me lol#let me know what yall think#thanks for reading my tag rambles mwah mwah#kremy appreciation <3#once upon a witchlight#legends of avantris#kremy lecroux#ouaw fanart#my art
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Chilchuck analysis speedrun: As a hardworking half-foot who grew up poor and discriminated against and had his gullibility taken advantage of multiple times in his early adventuring days, Chilchuck thinks optimism is a dangerous flaw. He’s stressed and strict all the time because his job is noticing details like traps that could get everyone killed before anyone knows it, he takes the lives of everyone to be on his shoulders, and with the way he speaks about it that probably partly reflects how he felt about taking it upon himself to provide for his family too. His life’s always been pretty centered around work and has become even moreso now that his wife left and everyone is independent, and due to past events he’s very iffy with bonding with coworkers. He thinks feelings and job are a disaster mix. Like with his wife or with parties hiring him as sacrifice, being open or having good faith is vulnerability which can get you hurt, so he processes and shows all his stress as anger instead of worry. Doing strict dieting probably isn’t helping the irritability what with hunger, and on top of being a hunger suppressant alcohol might be the main stress reliever he has.
His grey hairs are so earned
#Chilchuck tims#dungeon meshi#analysis#HAPPY CHILCHUCK DAY#You know what yeah understandable have a good day#Alcohol be a ticket straight to chilling out town I suppose#Spoilers#dungeon meshi manga spoilers#Thinking on if I should split my family masterpost into diff posts for max reach hmm#I’m def editing in the second page into that post that “I’ve got three people to think of here” sounds sooo much like that’s#how he’d think about it in a family setting as well. He works so hard for them 🥺#I could have put 100 pics on this post to justify everything I mentioned but this is a speedrun for a reason. I’m planning so many#compilations rn i need a break from rereading lol#He’s just here to do his work!! He just wanna do his work!!!#I’m always rotating him in my brain like rotisserie chicken :( Hopefully this doesn’t sound disjointed or insane to average readers#He’s always on his guard so he has a short fuse and his type of humor & liking for snarky remarks doesn’t help#Also bc he knows nothing lasts he has a very work hard play hard mentality where ‘dying doing something you love. Like drinking’#is nice in his opinion#This post makes it all sound so dry. Chilchuck is so messy thinking about him is thrilling I swear. This is concise but at what cost…#OH ALSO he has weird self-hate issues where he really values his skills but devalues himself on a personal level.#‘I am a coward. I only care about myself. I cheated on my wife (lying for no reason)’ etc etc#Can’t disappoint people and make them leave you if they already have no expectations and esteem of you 😏💡#Laws are important to him bc he knows how bad punishment is if you break them and how they’re the key to getting better rights
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'the hissing wastes suck' wow what a way to admit you've never experienced the joy of listening to iron bull wax archaeologic about ancient dwarven building techniques
#'siege mentality!' he says with an audibly huge grin on his face#such a character note honestly. for a moment he forgets to hide how much of a nerd he is and adoribull suddenly makes so much sense lol#dragon age#dragon age inquisition#iron bull#my dirty secret is that I love the hissing wastes. it appeals to the broken part of my brain that revels in open world games#it's just big and you get to run around and the companions are chatting and sometimes there's cool stuff :) I'm very easy to please#blackwall all casual with his harrowing 'no shit there I was' desert survival horror stories#cole revealing shit about astronomy that no one else gets#varric having a wholeass uncomfortable face-to-face with his feelings about dwarven culture. it's all extremely good#(my 4ever hate zone is the hidden oasis btw I can't with all the changing elevation and figuring out how to get to places)
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Gojo Satoru, who has you sat upon the medical table of Shoko's lab while heavily making out with you. Squeezes his way in between the open space in between your legs, caresses the curves of your waist with one hand as the other clasp gently yet, intently, along the juncture of your jaw. Literally, stealing every hefty breath from you. Grumbled and muffled moans sputter against the softness of his perfectly glossed lips from your own, your own hands finally finding refuge through the snowy locks that settled upon his head.
So lost in the spiraling torrid sensation of your entangled tongues and lapping lips, you haven't even recognized the familiar presence shadowing just right outside of the door. Arms crossing over one another, within the sleeves of his robes, and a tiny, wicked grin spreading across his cheeks.
Who would've thought, that after these long, pretentious ten years of no contact...he would find his two (former) best friends, his ex lover (you), indulging shamelessly with one another.
#I had to stop myself from making this a whole fic LOL#this was only meant to be a sentence or two long....#I hate getting into detail sometimes because my whack brain just wants to keep going and going and going rofl#I just loveee the forbiden love triangle thing going on between the three of you! (ง ˶🔥 ロ 🔥˶ )ง -` ♡ ´- (HUGE FAN as you can tell lmao)#gojo satoru x reader#geto suguru x reader#gojo satoru#geto suguru#jjk
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"You did your worst, you tried your best, now it's time to rest."
This is my very first oil painting! I'm quite glad with the result. It was based on a Red Dead Redemption 2 screenshot I took (iykyk 💔), hope y'all like it!
#my art stuff#fan art#rdr2 spoilers#i guess???? just gonna tag it just in case#i'm very happy with this painting ngl#i thought i was gonna hate painting a landscape because i'm mostly a character artist#but it unlocked something in my brain lol#anyways hope y'all like it#red dead redemption#arthur morgan#(kinda)#john marston#rdr2 fanart#oil painting
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give me something pretty to wear beneath my bloodstained clothes
darling, the devil knows my name 🥀🗝️🦩🗡️💃
#one piece#princess viola#violet one piece#dressrosa#riku viola#when I tell yall dressrosa is my favorite arc and it’s because viola is my second favorite op character#I’m being so fr#also complete honesty I painted this for my own fic#which is The Empty Seat on ao3#because I’ve been obsessed with her for 8 years and I finally let it out lol#I hate fanon viola sm. let her be the messy and flawed character she is#stop erasing the drama#she is a gothic heroine to me#my femme fatale attic wife my beloved queen#there’s so much hidden in this that you won’t catch unless you have my brain disease but feel free to play I spy
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Circles
#Hate these but I wanted to draw more rust#I really wanna draw smth from the finale but my twin won't watch the show so I don't want to spoil it lol#But yeah this guy is still living in my brain. All his themes and symbolisms and just... Character mechanisms. Eating him#Eating him to gain knowledge of him#True detective#true detective s1#true detective season 1#Rust cohle#Rustin Cohle#fan art#art#sketch#character art#matthew mcconaughey
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*ignore the crunchy bag* This is proof of concept to see if I could get it working. 😋
So...has anyone been able to successfully clone the University backpack and make it show up in game/function?
I tried working on this in 2015ish and never got this far with it. (I do visit old projects from time to time) This time I got a default replacement to work. But I have no idea how that would affect the npc backpack that also use/spawn. Not sure if the mesh is pulled from the main file because there are 14 other versions of the same backpack. The developers did this really strange for sure. (we won't talk about the geostates) The XML just says how it numbers the bags 1-14 and chooses randomly for the npcs to wear at University.
Anyone have any ideas? Or who to ask?
#ts3#mel poking vertices#I hate not knowing how to script mod#but my brain is too old to learn#I tried watching all of puddingfaces video tutorials#and it's really hard to follow because he glosses over so much#anyhoo I hate bothering modders about stuff like this#oh and look at that crunchy elbow#EA why did you do that? lol
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Send me every little selfie you take so that i can look at them whenever i miss you
#wlw#wlw mood#sapphic#sapphism#lesbian#hate how much im having a picture locket of my beloveds face coded#embarrassing tbh#like pls let me look at pictures of you when i miss you and i can’t sleep pls pls pls pls#when i dont have time to text or call you but i miss you#when i just sort of need to stare at you but we aren’t together#ughhhhh#i like pictures SO much#but also i would rather die than have a picture of myself exist i hate those things smh#few experiences as mortifying to me as having my picture taken horrible and awful#my brain is itchy just thinking about it#im gay and i like sleeping#also also i am. So tired.#i tried to grammar check all this but god i cannot focus on it lol#so apologies if there’s nonsense😅#time to SLEEP even though i have absolutely NO pictures to stare at longingly smh😒
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You know why I love Feysand? One of the reasons is because there's a balance between them. In a way they complete each other.
Feyre is all forgiveness, love and a pleaser.
But Rhysand on the other hand is all revenge, hate and never forget.
Whenever he's drowning in hatred for himself, for people who wronged his loved ones, she's there to pull him up and shower him with love, respect and reminding him of goodness.
And whenever she is being too forgiving to the point she's forgetting herself or to put herself first, he's there to bring justice and be a shield for her from the injustice of it all.
That's why this is one of my favorite scene of them:
He's saying he can't forgive anyone who wronged her. But she remembers the ones who wronged him and notices he doesn't care about himself, his hatred for himself won't allow it.
She's saying he has to forgive at some point. He's there to remind her that maybe it's okay to admit that some people have made her suffer.
It's this back and forth between them. It balances them.
He's always self sacrificing himself to keep his loved ones safe, to make them comfortable, to be a shield. And Feyre came to his life, saw right throw all of them and let him to burden her with some of those duties he put himself up for them.
Sometimes it's a wrong trait but it's never out of malice.
And she is always too forgiving, putting everyone else first, always backing down when some times she needs to back up for herself and she let herself to forget them. But he won't, he will remember, he'll defend her if it's needed and when someone crosses a line, he's there to remind them to back down.
Sometimes she let people take too much from her and it might hurt her in the process. A wrong trait of her.
They're the definition of "I will give my love for the both of us" and "I will give my hatred for the both of us"... does that make sense?
#I wrote this with my half fried brain for being on traffic for better part of my morning lmao#feysand#pro feysand#rhysand#rhysand acotar#high lord rhysand#pro rhysand#feyre archeron#feyre cursebreaker#feyre darling#high lady feyre#pro feyre#pro feyre archeron#i saw something a few days ago#some of you might know what I'm talking about some of you may not#but yeah I wanted to answer them in my own way#and also not reblog them and bring hate on the main so...#I wish people would stay on their own lain#I don't need to read the takes of my fav characters of someone who's coming from hatred toward those characters#leave them alone if you have nothing worthy to say#and don't waste our time lol
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What if the reason why Jinx is standing back and watching Vi fall apart is because she's unsure whether Vi is actually hitting rock bottom, or if Vi is working undercover and pretending to spiral to lure her out so that Caitlyn can get her hands on her.
#jinx#arcane#lol#vi#powder#caitlyn arcane#caitlyn kirraman#arcane jinx#arcane vi#I hate how my brain works sometimes
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