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What am I now?
Story background : This story is based on the song âFallingâ by Harry Styles
Summary : youâve lost yourself after a long relationship with your ex âHarryâ and you thought you could pull it together but you canât lost in your thoughts and wondering what you did wrong
Pairing : Harry styles x fem!reader
Warning: could by signs of depression, crying, and losing yourself!
A/N : I hope you enjoy :)
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âHere I am againâ you said to yourself while laying in your bed looking up at the ceiling
This is the 1st whole week since you and harry have been broken up
Harry always made you feel safe, while being with him depression was never part of you vocabulary
what am I doing with my life? you said feeling so ugly and disgusting
âI have become something you wouldâve never let me become hairyâ you said taking one last sip of the liquor you had and slightly giggled but nothing was funny
I just canât bring myself to get up and get ready for anything
What am I now you thought
You finally force yourself to get up and walk to the closet
You canât help but to look over at the other side of the closet
And you see thatâs itâs still completely empty, you were just hoping his clothes would just magically ďżźappear
PLEASE,PLEASEâŚâŚ this has to be a bad dream you said crying
âMy harry canât really be goneâ you said with tears slowly falling
âHow can he say he loves me and then just get up and walk away did I mean anything to him??â you thought wile looking up trying to stop the tears
You walk downstairs to the front door and started crying
You were hoping he would walk though that door and say it was just a long day of work And that he missed you so much that he will never be out for that long again
I just want to be in his arms I miss brushing his hair out for him every morning trying the be the best girlfriend ever
âHARRY IM SORRY WHAT DID I DOâ you screamed
âI MISS YOU SO MUCHââŚâŚâŚâŚ
You fell to the ground crying
I care about you so much harry please come back to me
âIs my harry really goneââŚâŚâŚ you said crying
Iâm so lost without you I CANT SLEEP, I CANT EAT IM LOSING MYSELF HARRYâ
âIM FALLINGâ
âIâm sorry am I now that someone that you never want around??â
âDo you not need me anymore? Cause I feel like youâll never need me againâ
No more calling me your girlfriend, no more long hugs before bed, no more play fighting, no more late night walks, no more writing music together itâs all over
WHAT AM I NOW HARRYâŚâŚ a monster?, a weirdo, a leach that just wonât let go?? Tell me something someone
âWhat am I now harry I canât move onâ you criedâŚâŚâŚâŚâŚ
âIm falling again Iâm falling again IM FALLING harryâ
The end
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babyyyy you were the love of my lifeeeee
-HS
#girl blogger#girl blogger at heart#girlblogg#girlblogging#girl blogg#this is a girlblog#tumblr girls#wlw#lesbian#im just a girl#harry styles#harry stlyes#harry#love of my life#love of my liiiiiiiiife#HS#harryâs house#music#harry styles music
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remember that concert?
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Having a laugh
I'm going out with my friend so I put on a collar that matches my outfit and the one I picked
The last time I wore it I put on that Harry styles cologne dupe so now it smells
That
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Hey!!! If you or sammi havenât seen it yet you can buy your Harry Stlyes merch early!! đ
Thursday 12pm-6pm & Friday from 9am!! If you want to get in early before the madness lol because from the sales they did in Melbourne, all I can say is wow!!
P.S I also sent this to sammi as well đ
Ohh shit really?? Good to know!! Sammi has to work so idk if we can make it, but weâll sure try!
#what if I pay someone to wait in line for me đĽ˛#jk not really but I do be desperate#tonbelova25#answered.
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Considering The Idea Of You is based on an incredibly poorly written scrubbed Harry Stlyes self-insert fic that somehow got published, I feel like the trailer is exactly what I expected, maybe slightly better
Yeah, I've heard that and that might have affected my opinion tbh. But I've also heard that the author denied that it was originally a Harry Styles fanfic. In any case, I think what I felt watching the trailer was second hand embarrassment. Idk why but I felt physically ill watching it lmao.
I think if it was a story about a secret relationship kept very hush hush it might be more compelling, but as it is, it seems to be all about this childish desire to have everyone know about how you're together with a famous guy who everyone wants. Like how he, on stage at a concert, mentions meeting her and acknowledges her in the audience. And after that it just seems to get worse. It looks to be more about dating a famous guy than about falling in love regardless of the guy being famous. Idk how to explain what I mean really, but it's just that it feels like this very juvenile "oh look at me, I'm the one he chose" and not so much about a genuine love story. I mean, I'm sure it is and the protagonist struggles with him being famous and all that, but the movie itself, I'm sure, will glorify the public relationship aspect. Like, there is a difference between enjoying your love and relationship without giving a fuck about anything anyone thinks and the need to have all those eyes on you so you can feel superior to all the young beautiful adoring fans. And it seems like this movie is all about the latter. Anyway, I've thought about this and talked about this piece of horse shit media way too much now. And that too without even having seen the movie yet lol. So I'll just leave this subject here. I have no more to say before I've seen the actual movie, if that ever happens, which I seriously doubt.
Sorry for the long-winded rambling answer. Apparently I had more thoughts about this than I thought I had. Which btw is usually a sign that it's a good piece of art/media đ¤ Makes you think.. jk this movie is still bs lol
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hi do you have any other celebrity crushes
I dooooo
Ross Lynch, Josh Hutcherson, and Harry Stlyes (kinda)
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I had to đ¤ˇââď¸
#louis tomlinson#harry styles#larry stylinson#louis#louies#larry af#hld#louis tommo#harry#harry styles 2021#harry stlyes
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I realllly wanna make some more friends on here so can you reblog this if you see it? I stan Larry, Ziam, Iâm buzzin, Ashe, Julie and the Phantoms, Young Royals, and a shit ton of other stuff. Oh and obviously One Direction đĽ°
#buzzing#youngroyals#louis tomilson#larry af#ziam mayne#julie and the phantoms#babygate#niall horan#zayn malik#liam payne#harry stlyes#one direction
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Fine Line
Chapter 2 - I donât want to be alone
December 20th 2019
âHey Bowie?â Clara said in her high pitched dog voice and watched as Bowie titled his head to listen to her âDo you want to wake up uncle Harry?â
Bowie jumped down off the bed and ran straight to Claraâs bedroom door waiting for her to open it.
âOk letâs go big dog, go jump on uncle Harry!â she opened the door and let Bowie out to the living room where a very hungover Harry was snoring on the couch. Now the thing that Clara had learnt best about Bowie over the last few days was that he had absolutely no understanding of personal space so as soon as he saw Harry on the couch, he jumped up and Harry groaned as he landed on his belly.
âNooooâ he moaned âToo earlyâ
âItâs 8am Haroldâ Clara chimed âTime to drive home for christmasâ
Christmas was Clara's favorite time of year and as a result she unusually started preparing in october and she had a ready made playlist of christmas songs to play at any given moment. So she pulled her phone from the pocket of her hoodie and pressed play on âIâll be home for Christmasâ and turned it up as loud as she possibly could.
Harry rolled over and squeezed his eyes shut, �� 5 more minutesâ
âBig night then?â she said, sitting herself down at the end of the couch where Harryâs legs were tucked up and Bowie crawled over to snuggle up to his new mum.
âMmmhmmâ he sighed âgot back at 4 amâ
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âSo I guess Iâm driving then?â
âYouâre amazingâ he smiled, without opening his eyes again.
The morning was slow, Clara made Harry some eggs on toast and then found the biggest travel mug she could for his coffee and one that was only slightly smaller for her own. She packed Bowie's bag of toys and training treats and by the time they packed the car, double and triple checked that they had everything including the presents and the ingredients for the pudding that Clara was going to make, it was 10am and Harry was starting to feel a little more alive albeit a little tired.
âThere are shops in holmes chapel Raâ Harry said as he shut the boot to the car âif it turns out that weâve forgotten the custard I will go out and get itâ
âRight letâs go thenâ clara smiled âand you can face Anne when thereâs no custard because theyâre sold outâ
âIâll make the fucking custardâ he laughed as he pulled the door open and hopped in the car.
"Hi Bowie" he chimed as the dog who was sitting on the back seat of the car rested his head on the shoulder of the passenger seat "you're pretty cute little dude"
Clara's heart swelled, she had grown to love Bowie more than anything else and it was nice to see that she wasn't alone.
The journey was slow. Traffic was almost at a standstill on the highway that would take them out of London and into the countryside, but that was to be expected this close to christmas. Clara imagined what it would be like christmas eve and became very thankful that herself and Harry had the kinds of jobs they could take extra time off from.
âIâm dreaming of a white christmasâ Harry sang, turning the stereo up as they came to a stand still once again
âJust like the ones I used to knowâ Clara sang, horribly out of tune
âWhere the treetops glisten '' Harry giggled his way through the next few lines as Clara continued to sing out of time and tune.
âItâs a good thing youâre a lawyerâ He said when the song ended
âYouâre saying I couldnât make it as a singer?â Clara said, pretending to sound offended
âOn no, I think youâd be greatâ Harry laughed âWith a lot of autotune and lip syncâ
âIâve learnt to lip sync your entire album, so Iâll take your next tour off your handsâ
âYeah greatâ Harry nodded âYou do that, Iâll write the next album and you can tour thatâ
âWe make a great teamâ Clara laughed âToo bad you look like a troll and you canât tour for yourselfâ
Harry shrugged âHey, Iâm just keeping you in a jobâ
Clara laughed âAlrightâ she said steering the conversation in a more serious direction âTell me about Shellyâ
Harry shrugged and sighed at the same time, running his hands through his hair âthereâs not much to say really, unless you want details about all the sex weâve hadâ
âNopeâ Clara said definitely âThereâs got to be more to it than that H, she was at the show last night, I know you, you donât invite your fuck buddies to things like thatâ
âShe didnât stay long though, did she?â Harry was blushing mostly because Clara was right, there was more to it than that, he just wasnât ready to admit it to himself yet.
âNo, I think she was gone before the end of the first songâ
âExactlyâ Harry nodded
âAnd youâre not just downplaying this because Iâm sad and single now?â
âNoâ he shook his head âyou never downplayed your happiness when I was sad and singleâ
âFair pontâ she said keep her eyes fixed on the road âJust be careful H, I only spoke to her for a minute so take what I say as a grain of salt, but she seemed like the type to collect trophiesâ
âWhat do you mean?â he asked
âWell youâre not exactly some unknown, undiscovered musician, gigging around London, sleeping with you gains serious bragging rights, she seems like the type to want themâ
âI actually thought the oppositeâ he pondered, looking out the window and playing with his lips. A habit that heâs picked up over years
Claraâs heart sank, she hated that he couldnât see what she and Gemma had thought was so obvious âLike I said, grain of salt, and if youâre happy, Iâm happy, just be carefulâ
He smiled âDonât tell Mum? Yeahâ
âIâm not making any promises, Anne knows how to get me talkingâ
âWell I might just tell Jenny about âŚâŚ â
âAbout what Styles? Jenny and I have no secretsâ
He sighed âMaybe you shouldâ
âSo what kept you out until 4am if Shelly left the show so early?âClara decided to turn the subject back around to Shelly so that he wouldnât ask how she was feeling about the break up, because if she was honest, she didnât know how she was feeling.
âMostly stupidityâ he rubbed his eyes âBut I also went back to her place at about midnightâ
âSo youâre saying you slept on my couch right after you had sex with her?â
âYepâ he nodded
âDid you shower first?â
âKindaâ he smirked
âHow do you âkindaââ Clara said using her hands to make air quotes âhave a showerâ
âWell we had sex in the showerâ
Clara laughed âOf course. Oh Godâ she sighed dropping her head a little without taking her eyes off the road âI miss having a sex lifeâ
âYouâve only been single for like a weekâ Harry said, trying to make her feel better without saying too much about Will
âYeah but I havenât had sex in months, I knew the break up was comingâ she said honestly
âWell you certainly werenâtâ Harry giggled tentatively
Claral laughed and playfully slapped his knee âFuck you Stylesâ
He shrugged âYou can if you wantâ
âExcuse meâ Clara had to fight the urge to slam her foot on the breaks and avoid a collision the the motorway
âIâm joking Raâ Harry laughed, although he wasnât entirely sure that he was. Somewhere in the back of his mind heâd always had the idea that he and Clara would end up together.
âGoodâ Clara giggled nervously âBecause I know where thatâs beenâ she gestured towards his crotch
âAnd I know where thatâs been,â he said, doing the same movements towards her, a smile etched on his face so that she knew he was joking âand itâs looking a bit dustyâ
Clara laughed âI wonât take this abuseâ she said jokingly âKeep going and Iâll pull over right here and you can walk back to holmes chapelâ
Harry reached out and turned the music back up to almost full volume
âItâs beginning to look a lot like christmasâ he sang along with michael buble
âEverywhere you goâ Clara joined in and that was that for the rest of the trip. They sang as loud as they could and laughed at each other singing out of tune. They made up stories about the cars passing by and spoke about just about anything, relishing in the time they got to spend together, enjoying each other's company because they knew that in just a few weeks, Harry would be off again, and they would be a part for most of the new year. Or so they thought.
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December 25th, 2019.
It was 6am. It was still dark outside but Clara and Bowie were wide awake. Like little kids on christmas morning, they were excited. Well at least Clara was. Bowie just knew that heâd get some kibble as soon as Clara got out of bed. But Clara had so much to do this morning, she was responsible for christmas lunch this year and she hadnât even made so much as a dessert. But christmas was here and there was no way that she was going to allow the day to be anything less than festive.
âRight then Bowie,â she yawned âletâs get this show on the roadâ
The dog lifted his head, looked at Clara as she spoke and flopped back down again when she was done, as if to tell her that it was far too early for an adult to be getting up on Christmas morning. And it was clearly too early for him to be having any breakfast.
Clara laughed and swung her legs out of the bed, âYou can stay in bed if you then, but I will be cooking a chicken later, you might want to get up for thatâ
Bowie groaned and Clara laughed as she put on her dressing gown and walked out of the room. It was a cold morning, but the house was so well heated she would never have guessed that there was frost outside.
The thing about Christmas in Holmes Chapel was that it was full of chosen family. Clara and Harryâs parents had both split up when they were really little, Claraâs when she was four and Harryâs when he was seven and ever since then, their mums had banded together to make sure that christmas was as festive and magical as possible. And Harry and Clara had always wanted to carry on the tradition now that they were all grown up and usually only home for christmas.
Clara walked into the kitchen and switched the kettle on, still feeling a little sleepy, she didnât turn the light on and walked straight into Harry, who was standing in front of the pantry.
âMorningâ he said sounding as if he was still half asleep
âWhat are you doing up so early?â Clara questioned âAnd why are you just standing thereâ
âI just got off the phone with Shellyâ
âOh grossâ Clara sighed âwell could you move so I can get to the teaâ
Harry took an over exaggerated step to the left âIt wasnât that kind of phone callâ
âWhy else would she be calling you before 6am on christmas day - you want one?â She held up a tea bag.
He nodded âTo wish me a Merry Christmasâ all of a sudden all of the colour drained from his face and he gulped before he could finish his sentence âand to tell me that sheâs pregnantâ
Clara paused as she reached for the kettle and looked up at Harry âSheâs what now?â
âSheâs having my babyâ he huffed and threw his hands up in the air
âAnd how are we feeling about that? Clara stepped lightly, she didnât want to say anything that might offend him right at this moment in time.
âConfusedâ he shrugged âI was so careful, I used condoms every time and she told me she was on the pill, I canât be a dad right now, Iâll be on tour when itâs bornâ
âDid you tell her that?â
âYeahâ he nodded âshe told me to cancel, she wants to keep itâ he ran his hands through his hair âI donât know what to do Ra? Tell me what to do?â
She gestured towards the bar stool that sat at the kitchen bench and put his cup of tea down next to him âdo you want a baby?â
He sighed âI mean, yeah, one day, but fuck not right nowâ
âAnd more importantlyâ Clara looked at him sternly âDo you want one with Shelly?â
He took a sip of his tea âNoâ he said plainly
âWell thereâs your answerâ
âBut she wants to keep it Ra, I canât just ghost her now and itâs not like Iâm not going to love the kid, but itâs just horrible timingâ
âI think you need to talk to shelly in personâ
âYeahâ he nodded âI doâŚ.â he paused âCan you come with me? Might be handy to have a family lawyer right thereâ
âMight be a bit intimidating right at the beginning Hâ Clara admitted âIâll get you through the custody and child support battles if thatâs what you want, but you need to sit down with her and get all your feelings out on the table first - and then if she doesnât cooperate, call me and Iâll go full lawyer on herâ
âLawyer on who?â Anne said, walking into the kitchen wrapping her dressing gown tight around her to keep her body heat in.
âOh no oneâ Harry smiled his charming smile âMerry Christmas Mumâ
âOh Merry Christmas my boyâ she wrapped her arms around him âItâs so nice to have you homeâ
His head sank into Anneâs shoulder and suddenly everything didnât seem so urgent or stressful
âGood to be here mumâ he sighed happily
âNow Claraâ she said pulling away from Harry âMerry Christmas Dearâ
âMerry Christmas Anneâ she smiled âThanks for having us all in your houseâ
âOh itâs no trouble, youâre doing most of the work love, Iâve just got spare rooms. Now,â she clapped her hands âHow can I help?â
Clara smiled âYou canât, make yourself a cup of tea and relax Anne, you deserve itâ
âRelax this year before you have a grandchild to dote on next yearâ Harry thought to himself before smiling at his mother and handing her a teabag, butterflies filling his stomach, the thought of being a father still sinking in.
âIf you insistâ Anne shrugged, âIâll be in the living room if you need anythingâ
Harry waited until Anne was as far away as possible and then whispered âI think I have to go back to London tomorrow, talk to shellyâ
Clara shook her head âNoâ she said âyou need a few days to get your head around it all. Work out what you want and have a clear head when you talk to herâ
âBreaking up with someone are we H?â Ben, Clara's brother said walking into the kitchen.
âNoâ he laughed nervously âOne of the PR managers at my label is trying to get me to get caught by the paparazzi while Iâm homeâ This wasnât a lie. Theyâd been bugging him about that for a while now, but right now it was the least of his worries.
âMaybe your job isnât as great as it looksâ Ben shrugged âanyway, Merry Christmasâ he smiled âWhat kind of feast are we having Ra?â
âWell youâre having a roast chicken and Harry and Gemma are having a nut roastâ
âSounds delicious, what can I do?â
âNothing yetâ Clara smiled wishing he would go away so she could finish her conversation with Harry âGo sit down and get warm by the fire, I can see the goosebumps on your armsâ
Ben nodded and left the room, feeling a little awkward for not helping and Clara turned to Harry.
âYou need to get your head around this pretty fast H, because if sheâs already saying sheâs going to keep it, I can almost guarantee you she wonât be changing her mind. And I know you, you wonât just be a child support dad, so when we get a chance after lunch has happened, weâre going for a walk, and were going to talk this through until you know what you really want from thisâ
Harryâs face had turned a ghostly white âOkâ he nodded
âAnd until thenâ clara smiled âIâm going to distract you, see those carrots over there?â
He nodded again
âPeel themâ Clara said âand the boil them in that potâ
âI can do thatâ he sighed âBut then whatâ
âWell then you can chop the nutsâ Clara took a sip of her tea and tried to empty her head of the idea that Harry was going to be a father and work out where the hell she needed to start for this christmas lunch, which she had refused help with.
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Holmes Chapel was really beautiful in winter. The trees glistened with frost that had never melted from that morning and paths looked like something straight out of a fairy tale. Harry and Clara had managed to escape their families for a little while, using Bowie as the perfect excuse to go for a walk in the cold. It had been almost eight hours since Shelly had told Harry that sheâs pregnant but the information had barely sunken in.
âWhat are your thoughts H?â Clara asked after five minutes of walking in silence
âI don't have anyâ Harry admitted âI donât want a baby right now Ra, but Iâve got one and I donât know what to doâ
Clara nodded, âI think the first thing you need to think about is what you want your relationship with Shelly to look like.â
âI donât knowâ he said firmly âI really like her but this makes it very serious very fastâ
âIt doesâ Clara nodded âBut Iâm not sure youâre in a position to be picky about that rightâ
âI guess weâre better off working out that we donât work together before the baby arrivesâ
âThatâs one way to look at itâŚâ Bowie spotted something and launched himself forward âBowieâ Clara said firmly âwith meâ
âOr it could work and Iâd have a ready made happy family before I thought I wouldâ
âYeahâ Clara sighed, little apprehensively, âThis could be great for youâ
âWhat do I do if itâs a disasterâ
âYou call meâ Clara said âand we do everything we legally can to get the custody agreement that suits youâ
âIâd want all of itâ He admitted
âI knowâ Clara smiled âBut I wanted you to say that, so that youâd realise that this is not such a disasterâ
âI hate it when you do thatâ Harry smiled down at clara
âDo what?â she smirked
âKnow what Iâm thinking before Iâm thinking itâ
âOh thatâ Clara blushed âIâve been doing that since we were 5â
He nodded and sighed âI guess Iâm going to be a dad next year thenâ
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Personally dont think harry styles would be chill about olivia getting papped outside of their home constantly. I think he was papped there a few months ago to give the ~illusion~ that theyâre serious and living together. All signs of this relationship still point to PR and Fake for me. Especially after her getting papped at her house, at her kids school, to then be seen at his san diego show with her kids and his mom. Everything is TOO calculated for this to be real.
Yeah itâs really calculated and weird lol. I donât why I just randomly remembered that time ben affleckâs home was papped and they were throwing away the cardboard cut out lol.
Giving me similar vibes lol. I donât see Harry and Olivia lasting much longer to be honest. Especially now with all these other relationships coming to an end. Itâs like breakup season is upon us.
- SH
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Louis: I can't go. Stress is bad for the baby
Liam: what baby?
Louis: me
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I crocheted myself a knock off version of Harry Styles iconic sweater thatâs been floating around âđťđ§ś
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Not mine
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I washed it with conditioner first then I simply styled it with styling foam and that's it! Took all of 1 mins.
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