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raime/velstadt too, is yuri
#hand in unlovable hand and so on#idk honestly im not terribly invested in them as a thing but at the same time.... fucked up if true kind of deal#two birds on a wire#one tries to fly away and so#like no the fact one of them calls himself raven and the other's cape resembles bird wings#and that raime's cape was burnt off once he was kicked out of the proverbial nest#and he seeks comfort in the very thing he escaped from in a way#i honestly wonder if raime is an orphan canonically considering he saw vendrick as a father#and he sees nadalia as a mother once he leaves#some freudian shit going on there you get me#but it's also. nice. raime is after all innocent and he found comfort in sb who needed companionship in her solitude#me when im normal about ds2 - i am not#i know we will literally never get to know more about these chars and it drives me absolutely fucking insane#do you ever think about the fact ds2 will likely never get a remake bc it was made in a completely different engine and lie awake at night#thinking about it or are you normal#ironically that i cannot leave behind the narrative of the game whose point is that you need to move on#but also it really isnt because even then it's bittersweet and you meet all these chars i care so much abt and it's aeugh#basically. play ds2 plsplsplspls
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there is no courage in flirting with fear
to prove you're alive
Reblog > likes!!!
#TOXIC RELATIONSHIP SAVE ME#SAVE ME TOXIC RELATIONSHIP#i see bill cipher i cant NOT make him a creature#anyways these two are so so so fucked up im obsessd with them#*oh sixer it would eat you alive* ARE YOU KIDDING????? YOU WANNA FUCK THAT GUY SO BAD ITS PATHETIC#i neeeeeeed them to fuck nasty and also rip each others hearts out. literally like with blood and evertything#none of this figurative bullshit i want violence#they really are hand in unlovable hand huh#anyways#stanford pines#bill cipher#billford#gravity falls#book of bill#toxic yaoi#i think#ALSO GO LISTEN TO EAT YOU ALIVE BY THE OH HELLOS#BANGER SONG
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Obsessed with whatever tf Beef and Iskall have going on right now. world's most divorced couple that were never married
#hermitcraft#do i maintag can people be normal#doing it because i want more people to watch iskall and beef they deserve it#also imo if you're a 3L scar and grian enjoyer. just. go check out whatever these guys are up to#real hand in unlovable hand energy here#...ok I'm still watching beef's ep while typing and got to the shoulder to cry on part this is so funny Please go watch Beef hdhfhfhsh
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i am drowning. there is no sign of land.
--alex casey x "no children" by the mountain goats
#alanwakeedit#alan wake#alan wake 2#alex casey#aleksi kesä#vgedit#videogameedit#gameplaydaily#gamingedit#elyse.gifs#this took me so long.... so happy with how it turned out tbh....#hand in unlovable hand....#i love you Detective Doomed-by-the-Narrative#aw2
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Absolutely love your writing for all the AU/5 headcanons asks. Can I ask: AU where Rei cheats on Endeavor with All Might? It happens after AM's injury, so she doesn't recognize him, and he ofc doesn't know that she's married in the first place, much less to whom
you make this very difficult for me by giving me a window of 6 and half years for them to have an affair and for every single moment of that window, Rei is institutionalized. how am i supposed to get them to meet, much less take their clothes off. ok. think. there are other fic writers who specialize in this kind of thing, surely. what would they do....
1- ok so. The fire alarm at the hospital goes off. Rei doesn't know if it's a drill or not, but she's been there for seven years and generally does not need a lot of support during something like this like other patients do, so the nurses wave her out and she stands around outside a bit waiting for the fire alarm to stop and them to go back in. (It isn't a drill, they wouldn't have evacuated everyone if it was, but Rei is on the other side of the building and facing away from seeing any smoke) (This smoke is from a villain attack that All Might is taking care of, though he's only got seconds left of his power to use that day. he quickly rushes off, deflating and stumbling out on the other side of the hospital. Where Rei is.)
2- Rei is like "huh that guy doesnt seem to be in good shape" and kinda waves attention at him, and a nurse who's passing out water to patients and keeping an eye on the road gives Toshinori some too, getting more concerned when he dazedly answers that he's All Might and coughs up blood, but the nurse figures he's concussed since he smells of smoke and must have been closer to the fight, and is just reeling from being able to see the number one hero in person. Then they get distracted and wave Toshi to wait nearby, where Rei offers to chill his water and asks if he's alright, if he breathed in any smoke.
3- They chat and then go back into the hospital as it's un-evacuated together, Rei hanging out in the lobby where he sits as the hospital staff focus on getting everyone else back to their rooms. It pays to be low priority sometimes. Eventually she tells him her name is Rei and that she's in room K18, if he ever wants to visit or call. She doesn't get to talk to anyone except doctors, family visitors, or other paitients, and most of them don't stay nearly as long as she does. It's been seven years, and she's very lonely. Toshinori is lonely too, and when he's out of time for a day and feeling useless with nothing to do, he likes to talk to a friend.
4- Rei has been in the hospital for eight years when it gets physical. At that point, Toshinori knows a bit about her family. She has kids, mentions visits from a son and daughter, and then quietly mentioned when her son turned seventeen- her daughter's already twenty. She's been there for so much of their lives. He asks if she's married, and she admits she isn't sure how to file for divorce in a hospital like she is, if she even can, if she wants to because she'd lose custody, if it matters when she's not raising them anyway. He doesn't ask much more, knows there is a dead child and a baby she says isn't safe with her there. Toshinori never called Nana 'mom' to her face while she was alive, and had a reason for it, and has a similar reason for not asking more, not asking for the other names when he gets Fuyumi and Natsuo's. Yes, the doctors and nurses all know Rei has a boyfriend who visits. they don't say anything. who would they even tell, anyway. I debated the humor of reusing the bit from candlelight shoto that Toshi and Rei could have a kid with a fire quirk, but yeah here? Rei ain't getting pregnant, absolutely not.
5- When Natsuo turns eighteen, Rei does actually file for divorce, or at least tries to get the ball rolling on that. Toshinori's trusted her that her marriage is over in all but name, but he's more at ease with it ended fully. Fuyumi is crushed but burying it all deep inside. Natsuo is like 'what are you talking about. divorce is the most normal possible outcome here.' But anyway, Rei also begins to bring up being discharged- something she never bothered with earlier, when it seemed like she'd never be able to go home while Shoto was there, and never would want to go back anyway. (Her parents are absolutely not an option either so where would she go once discharged? the hospital was her only security.) Toshinori then tells her at this point about his diagnosis, that he's supposed to be terminal, in a way. He doesn't have a lot of time he can give her. Rei says that's ok, she'll take what she can get. She moves in. Fuyumi still goes out to eat with her once a week, though Rei doesn't say she's moved in with a boyfriend, just says she's in a safe place and it's not Fuyumi's job to worry about it, please, let her do that, relax, be her daughter instead of a mother. Natsuo adds her to his cellphone plan and gets her one. Rei doesn't tell Toshinori her ex's identity. Toshinori doesn't tell her about OfA, though she does know he's mentoring a student for heroics and is very proud of him. (Toshinori is a secretary at Might Tower, he's a great mentor. Oh huh, he got a job position at UA at the same time as All Might, she wonders if they carpool.)
+1- OK THE REVEAL so the reveal is. Toshinori gets home from the SF. And Rei almost knocks him out by the door, eyes wide and panicked, asking if he's ok, if Shoto's ok. Toshinori is like "... young todoroki? yeah he's alright? i know his fight with young bakugo looked bad but- Rei???" And that's when it all clicks for him, he's having dozens of horrible realizations at once, all while Rei weeps over her youngest. Toshinori's been a hero for a very, very long time. He's felt hopeless, before. But even then, he's known what needs to be done, he just isn't able to do it. But now? he's at a complete loss with no idea what he should do.
#quick poll here. um. do we think shoto knows his parents are divorced#because i mean theres a lot of things he doesnt know about his family that he should#its not like they're really talking at that point#on the other hand. would enji have told him out of frustration for him clinging to his ice when rei left them?#basically. which one is funnier#Shoto going 'mom divorced you??? OH HELL YEAH GOOD FOR HER IM ONLY USING ICE TO CELEBRATE THAT i mean i know she hates me sure she should.#as long as she isn't tied to YOU anymore either we are going down hand in unlovable hand old man!!!'#or#shoto having no idea of the divorce and so when the truth comes out#either from toshinori or rei#hes like 'HELL YEAH YOUVE BEEN CHEATING ON DAD WITH ALL MIGHT???? HIGH FIVE MOM THATS THE BEST POSSIBLE REVENGE DABI WISHES HE'D#ORCHESTRATED THIS BUT HE NEVER HAD THE CREATIVITY TO!!! wait what do you mean its not cheating anymore because youre divorced'#these tags are funny because wow theres a lot of yikes and heavy stuff in the main post. ah ha ha. ah.#pocket talks to people#ask game#anon
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2023 reads
The Spider And Her Demons
YA Australian urban fantasy/horror
about a Malaysian-Chinese girl who’s half spider-demon, just trying to keep her head down and survive high school
when she accidentally kills and eats a man in front of the most popular girl at school, they strike up a strange friendship and she starts to learn more about herself and the supernatural world
aroacespec/sapphic ish
#The Spider And Her Demons#Sydney Khoo#loveozya#aroaessidhe 2023 reads#you give me a teenage girl with giant hair spider legs who scuttles across her bedroom wall on page 3#and then eats a man and i am already sold.#also aus books are always so familiar compared to US books :)#and yes sexuality stuff is ambiguous but basically: a bunch of discussion on relationship hierachies (ie friendship equally/more important)#themes of feeling unlovable bc you're different and different forms of love#multiple times the MC says she has no interest in dating or relationships and also is touch (and maybe sex) repulsed#- but of course that Also has to do with the whole Being A Monster thing#and it definitely shows some kind of attraction to dior - ie looking at her lips/bare skin; blushing; etc#and ends on sort of hand kiss / 'is this something??' vibes#I asked the author and they said they see them as QPR / platonic soulmates but are not at the point where they would know what to call it#which makes total sense to me!#the part of me who wants more obvious aroace YA wishes it was a little more specific#but also I DO love ambiguity and I think it wouldn't be true to the characters#who are clearly not even ready to start figuring that stuff out.#and also. aroacespec sapphics is like. also something i want#also like. I think it's reductive to assume just because 'looks at lips' is a common allo attraction trope....doesn't necessarily mean#it has to be that. yknow.#anyway. i loved it a lot.#gross spidergirl (affectionate)......#also dior is such an interesting and complex character. like another book could have made her nicer or less fucked up
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www!reader WILL call batman a pussy for not killing on her private twitter. she does it like every other day. its cathartic
#sophie speaks#series:www#all of the batfam: i have a very complicated relationship with the idea of killing as i follow a code that i know has caused thousands of-#lost lives and hurt people. but i still follow it because i know its the right thing to do#reader and jason: what like a baby???#i actually wrote www!reader to reflect all of the guys like... worst traits#shes obsessive like tim ignores her problems like dick is completely consumed by vengeance like jason and just generally petty like damian#hand in unlovable hand#and you havent seen readers more petty side yet but believe me you WILL#her and damians interactions always crack me up because they're just so.#genuinely miserable around each other but both too stubborn to concede any ground#damian: i think ur here to cause trouble and steal things#reader: i am literally working at a soup kitchen. ur only allowed to bitch if u help#which of course he does hes a good boy but the soup kitchen definitely has a weird vibe when the two of them are around#u dont have to worry about ur own problems look at these two obviously emotionally incompetent people bickering with eachother#anyways what was i saying
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As many "toxic yaoi Jimmy x Curly" jokes I've made I could write a whole ass essay about their relationship and their codependency. They have such a shifting power dynamic throughout the entire game and none of it is romantic and I'm not entirely sure if any of it could be counted as love at all. It's more primal. It's obsessive. It's a failing survival instinct neither realized they had until it was too late and everyone else had to suffer the consequences
I just can't describe it without going into a full essay cause they both have this obsessive need to fix everything in their lives by fixing others and making things worse. They both want control so bad they're willing to steal it from everyone else in different ways. Curly is complicit in Jimmy's actions but he is not at the same level of maliciousness that Jimmy is
You can tell how desperately Curly had to cling onto the idea that Jimmy is a good guy. He could just talk to him and fix him and Anya would be okay again. He could fix this cause he knows Jimmy is good. Curly needs things to be okay or else he failed his one job of making sure everything is okay and having a terrible copilot is not okay so that means he needs his copilot to just not be terrible problem solved!
And the entire game is watching Jimmy fall apart as he realizes he can't just fix the fucked up shit he did. Curly announced the message and Jimmy suddenly decided he can't survive anymore and crashed the ship. He can't untraumatize Anya and now he can't uncrash the ship and Curly laying on his medical cot is a constant reminder of that. If he can just save Curly then he's okay he's fine again. He's undone his harm
They hate each other so much to the point where they need the other to give them purpose. I don't know if they're necessarily good friends, but we know they had a long relationship before the game's time and the announcement set Jimmy off since he felt like Curly was leaving them. Leaving him. Jimmy needed Curly to help give him a purpose and Curly needed Jimmy to give him a purpose and this one message fucked that up and they both got swept up in this codependent fight for survival. That one announcement triggered Jimmy's fear that Curly had been enabling and encouraging and now Curly's stuck in a cryopod listening to his "friend" tell him how much of a hero they both are. They did it! They fixed everything! They fixed each other!
#I said it before and I'll say it again#Curly hopes Jimmy dies#Jimmy hopes they both die#hand in unlovable hand#I'm using the actual therapy definition of codependent where Curly is enabling Jimmy's abusive behaviors#against both himself and others under his power#It's not Curly's fault Jimmy did all that shit but he sure as hell didn't tell him off for any of it#and I mean BEFORE the crash#after the crash Curly couldn't stop the monster he let grow for so long#I need other friends to get into mouthwashing I have to talk about Jimmy and Curly mouthwashing more#cause holy shit their dynamic is just so fucked up and awful#two people stuck in a relationship they both want out of but can't live without#I think about Curly the same way I think about the narrator in Front Street by Will Wood#it's such a tragedy and I love talking about fictional tragedies#I love picking apart what went wrong and why#I also could go on and on about how I feel about Anya but that would be an Intense and Personal post#sorry to my friends who have to read all of my mouthwashing posts on main I'm just insane rn#mouthwashing
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Isat siffrin and loop short animatic thing for my au~
Spoilers for the secret ending!
So much i wanna talk about with these two~
But alas, I'll keep it to myself for now,
#hehe#say hi to my human loop design lol#sorry guys but the cat ears are cannon to me </3#also.#dont pay attention to sifs hand that one time#i struggled on that for 40 minutes#this is not a ship thing btw</3#if. it wasnt obvious from the “siblings” part#i feel like i wanna explain this a bit#after act 6 they get separated cuz loop died but also kind of didnt?#so when they reunite loop feels a lot of guilt and “anger”#theyre not really mad but they want sif to fuck off#sif will not be doing that#and thru most of this its supposed to be loop trying to be angry and push them away while sif is being very.#self depricating and basically. begging them to stay? or. i guess wrong word.#hes very adamant that if theyre going to fall theyll do it together#but they kinda feel bad about it?#idk#“hand (loop) in unlovable hand (sif)”#isat#isat siffrin#isat loop#isat spoilers#isat act 6 spoilers#in stars and time#my art#isat creature au#i wish i made loop look more angry during the “and i hope you die”#but either way im so proud of this#i use to suck at drawing humans
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Deadpool (2008) / No Children - The Mountain Goats / Deadpool (1997) / Unknowns / Cable & Deadpool (2004) / Cable & Deadpool (2004) / Twin Size Mattress - The Front Bottoms / Cable & Deadpool (2004)
#Deadpool#Weasel#thinking of them#web weave#web weaving#unronically love their weird ass friendship#whell loved until they started with that patient x bullshit#Deadpool and Weasel#hand in unlovable hand#theyre so fucked up#Wade Wilson
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starting to realize that lena kelley and gwendolyn bouchard have what arthur lester and john doe have.
#i hope that our few remaining friends...give up on trying to save us....#they're so hand in unloveable hand.#malevolent au....i could make it happen....#anusia if you find this post um. hi#tmagp#the magnus protocol#lena kelley#gwen bouchard#gwendolyn bouchard#boukelley#jarthur#malevolent#malevolent podcast#arthur lester#john doe
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can't ship characters and just imagine them cuddling or kissing or whatever no i have to consider all the things that would cause a divorce instead
#i only ship characters so i can brutally tear them apart and honestly that's not even that much of a joke sdhgKJSDGH#i mean it doesn't HAVE to be divorce ..... sometimes one of them just dies....... whatever#but what if there was divorce and THEN one of them dies. Huh? Huh? What then. I'm so creative#NO MORE LOVE! BROKEN ASS MARRIAGE! HAND IN UNLOVABLE HAND! etc#clamtalk#sorry i was listening to edgy music and was like ''wow this would fit character A and character B if they divorced''#and so. well
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not to mitski-ify everything but I’m Your Man is horrifically Blackbeard and Izzy coded
like ur kidding right
#something something blackbeard pushing izzy to violence against him was the most important#for his downfall#and how they pushed each other#blackbeard knew izzy loved him and that he largely centred his world around blackbeard#so to truly live up to the Unlovable status he put on himself#he needed izzy to hit a limit#the ‘i’ll face judgement by the hounds’ is SOOOO end of ep 2#sorry#i’m normal#ofmd#our flag means death#blackbeard#izzy hands#ofmd spoilers
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Love it when the 'just some guy' character gets slowly worn down and seduced into going apeshit
#like yes babe go down the dark path hand in unloveable hand with the guy who got you there#strangers from hell#hannibal#love this trope so so much#send recommendations my way i wat that shit up everytime#aiden originals#am i queuing this right#murder husbands
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How on earth is it possible for my biggest Tumblr crush to think she's so unworthy of being loved 😮💨
I think sometimes people think I've got nothing going on because of my ability to crack jokes or be lighthearted, but that is simply not true lol, just the only armor I was given in this life. But there's a real person underneath there who's had a really fucking bad time on this planet and maybe people don't believe me, that's cool. Not here to convince you. My demons convince me enough as it is, day after day.
#if i have to show my hand#most people with childhoods as abusive as mine simply do not survive#when people ask me stuff like this i have to force myself to breathe through it and remind myself its enough that im still here#sometimes people who are severely traumatized just don't want to share it I'm sorry#and i am not seeking reassurance when i say i am awful unlovable stupid a dummy#simply echoing the words hurled at me as a goofy little kid who just wanted to show people magic tricks#i am never fishing for compliments here so if you think that's me im happy for you to unfollow lol its all good#asks#love talking about this shit (emails my therapist)#personal
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I'm terrible at sharing my own stuff, but I figured maybe some of you rad bug nerds might appreciate pretty bugs? There's other critters, too, for the less bug-inclined.
#bug tw#bugs#insectblr#bugblr#insects#tw: insects#i should probably start tagging photos on insta but its so TEDIOUS and i am not neurotypical enough for that shit#me and my 200 followers hand in unlovable hand
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