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boringwomanwithabook · 2 months ago

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How on earth is it possible for my biggest Tumblr crush to think she's so unworthy of being loved 😮‍💨

I think sometimes people think I've got nothing going on because of my ability to crack jokes or be lighthearted, but that is simply not true lol, just the only armor I was given in this life. But there's a real person underneath there who's had a really fucking bad time on this planet and maybe people don't believe me, that's cool. Not here to convince you. My demons convince me enough as it is, day after day.

#if i have to show my hand #most people with childhoods as abusive as mine simply do not survive #when people ask me stuff like this i have to force myself to breathe through it and remind myself its enough that im still here #sometimes people who are severely traumatized just don't want to share it I'm sorry #and i am not seeking reassurance when i say i am awful unlovable stupid a dummy #simply echoing the words hurled at me as a goofy little kid who just wanted to show people magic tricks #i am never fishing for compliments here so if you think that's me im happy for you to unfollow lol its all good #asks #love talking about this shit (emails my therapist)#personal

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