#half of this is in jest you choose which half

[10001gecs]

idk the person who @d richard siken was stupid but i also think that when you're a popular artist you have to dissociate from social media because otherwise you will be overwhelmed by the psychic horror of stupid people enjoying your work and then you will start to be a cunt to them

[haetero]

all mine.

PAIRING: aemond targaryen x afab!reader. WORDCOUNT: 1.9k

CW: jealous sex, mating press (hehe), unprotected sex, breeding kink!!, creampie, kind of angsty but its porn w a little bit of plot. use of high valyrian + a sprinkle of aegon bashing! mdni <3

AUTHOR’S NOTE: this was originally a 500 word drabble and then... i went a bit nuts.. if you enjoyed the fic, pls lmk! not proofread we die like literally everyone lol.

ABSTRACT:

aemond gets caught up with his royal duties and finds himself spending less time with his precious lady wife. determined to take matters in your hands, you make some silly choices involving another prince, which only makes things worse. till it gets better :)

this time, you think you deserved it.

what begun as a harmless jest to get aemond to pay attention to you quickly led to letting aegon drunkenly sweet talk you at supper. and yes, pretending to flirt with your husband’s brother in front of him might not have been the best decision, but you were just having fun right?

wrong.

you were perhaps the stupidest woman in all the seven kingdoms. really, there was no rationale for choosing to engage with aegon for more than ten minutes at a time and yet here you were, ‘giggling’ at his piss poor jokes and pretending to listen to his made up tales of something you couldn’t care to remember.

you could only chastise your past self for your poor decision making skills as aegon whispered into your ear, far too close to your liking. he stunk of the rich, dornish wine served earlier in the evening and his eyes lazily stared at the expanse of your chest. but regardless of whether he was drunk or not, aegon had enough wits about him to realise his brother was furious.

a sly grin on aegon’s face, he seemed to understand the predicament you were in and leaned in to plant a wet kiss on your cheek, before loudly announcing his exit with a parting “my lady”, to further enrage aemond.

internally groaning, you waited till aegon left before daring to take a peek at aemond. but he wasn’t even looking at you.

the complete lack of response terrified you. in fact, you’d almost convinced yourself he didn’t care at all, until you noticed his blanching knuckles gripping his silverware. “aemond, i-," you begun.

in an instant, aemond had gotten up out of his seat and finally looked at you with a look in his eyes that only meant one thing. he mumbled out a quick excusal for the pair of you, before extending his arm towards you with a pointed stare.

you were well and truly fucked.

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before you can realise what’s happened, aemond’s dragged you to your shared chambers at a pace you’re struggling to keep up with. quickly dismissing your maids, he shuts the doors firmly, before turning his back to you and shucking off his outer clothing. you dejectedly do the same, struggling out of your dress. you leave them in a heap on the floor, stripping down till you’re in your underthings.

the sounds of aemond changing have quietened down, spurring you to take a peek at him. he’s left in his pants; his broad shoulders and back on display for you to admire. maybe he'll listen to you if you explain yourself, you delude yourself. tiptoeing over to where he stands, you attempt a sheepish half smile, grabbing onto his bare arm to direct his attention to you.

“please, i’m sorry, i wasn’t thinking, i just missed you,” you start, attempting to make eye contact with aemond. he’s yet to talk to you, pointedly ignoring you. he simply stands there, jaw clenched, refusing to acknowledge you any further.

you feel stupid, really. doing all this to gain the attention of the man standing in front of you and even then, he doesn’t even spare you a glance. you wait for a few more seconds before deciding to save yourself the embarrassment. with a sigh, you turn back to your shared bed and sit yourself down.

you rush to unpin your hair, readying yourself for sleep. the dull throb of want in your stomach has you frowning but you know the only person who could satisfy you is aemond. in your distracted state, you don’t see that aemond’s turned back to face you.

“do you take me for a fool?” you freeze, not expecting that of all questions. you start to respond when he cuts you off with a glare. aemond huffs out a curse and walks over to stand in between your legs. a part of you think he looks majestic from this view, but you’re quick to silence your thoughts as he slightly lowers himself till he’s level with you.

“you missed me, so you thought it best to what? throw yourself at my brother?” the affronted look in your eyes tells aemond he’s wrong but he’s not feeling very charitable as you try to come up with right thing to say. “and you thought i’d just let him have you?”

“no! i swear, i was being childish aemond,” you try to reason with him. the longer you think about it, the faster you realise how childish you really were. but it doesn’t change your intentions. you were unsatisfied and tired. but you also hadn’t been this close to aemond without someone else being nearby in a while. the dull throbbing sensation in your cunt was starting to spread and you fought the urge to rip your underthings off and let aemond have his way with you.

“if you wanted something, all you had to do was tell me, not run off to aegon,” he muses, his right arm coming up to trace the veins in your neck. aemond can feel the way your breath stutters; he takes note of the way your lips quiver and fingers curl up slightly at his words. you not-so-subtly push your thighs together, trying to alleviate some of your lust by yourself.

a satisfied grin curls at his lips and aemond, finally, leans into the slope of your neck. you shiver at the feather-like sensation of his lips pressing into your skin, grabbing onto his arm to steady yourself before he pushes you onto your back. “aemond, i need only you,” you shyly mumble, before reaching up on your elbows to undo the clasp of his eye patch.

aemond lets you do as much before throwing it behind him, fixing you with a lust-filled gaze that has you whimpering within a second. he leans over you, and makes a show out of dragging the fabric of your underthings down till he’s rid of them, throwing them to the side. you’re shaking as you watch him eye your cunt with a starving look.

calloused hands grab at the fat of your thighs, kneading the soft skin there before pushing them to your chest. you mewl as cold air fans over your wet cunt, catching the way aemond eyes your hole greedily twitching around nothing. “this is what you wanted, right?”

“yes, yes, please,” you beg. if you weren’t so desperate already, you would have gagged at the sound of your whiny tone. but aemond seems to like your desperation. aemond undoes the string of his pants, before palming himself with a squeeze that has him sighing in relief. your mouth waters at the sight before you.

aemond gives himself a moment before he climbs over you, his frame gently pushing onto your knees in the position you’re in. your eyes flutter shut at the sensation of his warmth enveloping you.

“no, look at me, ābrazȳrys,” your silver haired lover grunts, as he goes to drag his cockhead over your slit. “i should get aegon to pleasure your whorish cunt instead.”

your immediate protests brings a smug grin to aemond’s face. of course, he would never let his brother anywhere near the ethereal sight beneath him, but seeing the tortured look on your face brings him a sick sense of pride. he plays with you like this for a moment, rubbing his cockhead over and over your clit till you’re nearly crying out in want.

after what feels like a lifetime, he decides to push into you. aemond intently watches the way his cock catches at the rim of your pussy before he slams into you. your resulting gasp has aemond’s chest tightening as he loses himself to the feeling of your walls clenching around him immediately.

letting out a strangled moan of your name, he sets a brutal pace from the get-go, ploughing forward until you’re clawing at his neck and shoulders for a reprieve. you’re a quivering mess under him, a mix of moans and cries escaping you. you can feel him everywhere.

a light flush rises on aemond’s cheeks and upper chest, a pink hue that matches the fine dresses you might wear to a banquet or a tourney. your teary eyes trace the faint red lines peaking up on his broad shoulders, evidence of your passion that has your core clenching tighter around him. aemond catches your stare, mouth agape in a euphoric state of mind and pushes your knees down even further, if it was possible.

his wife, his lover, his, his, only his.

"it's okay, sweetling," he vows, fat cock bullying your walls as he moulds himself into you. he bends down to leave a path of kisses trailing down your neck, assuming a steady yet punishing pace into your sopping core. "for me, remember? you can take it for me, right?" aemond groans, drunk on the way your pussy sucks him in, eyes squeezed shut in the pleasure you both share.

leaning back, aemond watches you grip the sheets tightly, he feels the way you soak his cock every time he rocks into your pussy. you've gone half mad, tongue lolling out as you chant his name as a mindless mantra. he drags your knees down to instead wrap around his hips, bringing you closer to plant wet kisses down your neck, nipping at the salty skin. you keen into his ear at the change of position, untangling your hands from the sheets to cling tightly to aemond.

"feel good, love?" he murmurs, trailing his arm down till it lights presses onto your stomach as he drives his cock back into you. "tonight's the night i'm filling you up. that way, my fool of a brother will know to stay away from you.”

you don’t even think you’re making sense as you blabber your agreement. you want, no, you need him to give you his heir. you need him to drive himself further into you till you feel him in your chest, in your heart.

the thought of a miniature aemond targaryen running around has your heart swelling in your chest; the life you’ve always wanted but never let yourself dream of for too long. your lives were far too cruel for such a precious being to be born into it, yet aemond seems hellbent on making it come true as he bullies his cock further and further into your cunt.

aemond slows to a dangerous grind and bends down to capture your lips, his lean torso catches on your clit as you arch up into his mouth. "aemond pl-please, i want it," you whine, your hips buck as his languid thrusts reach a spot deeper than you thought possible. "you're mine," he groans into the heat of your mouth, skilled fingers come down to rub taut circles on your aching clit. he feels the telltale signs of your trembling walls and your greedy eyes beg him for release.

“fuc-fuck, nyke’m bē konīr,” aemond huffs, feeling your cunt swell around his cock as he rams deeper into you. you’re scrambling to hold onto anything; his shoulders, his wrists, the pillow, the sheets.

when you start twitching around his cock, walls fluttering at a pace aemond can't keep up with, he thinks you're the most divine creature in all the seven kingdoms.

and as you cream around his cock, aemond finds himself pushing himself into you one more time, filling you with his hot seed and the unspoken promise to cherish you for as long as you'd have him.

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high valyrian translations:

ābrazȳrys - wife. nyke’m bē konīr - i’m almost there.

[itneverendshere]

a circus ain't a love story - baby daddy!rafe.

request: "baby daddy! rafe where reader and rafe are not together and she’s going on dates with men and he’s jealous but not like possessive jealous but like 🤭 jealous?" @zyafics

rafe likes to think of himself as a changed man. 

long gone is the reckless impulsive guy that reigned horror in the outer banks. he’s grown now, the man of the family, and a father.

he spends his days working hard, providing for his family, and cherishing every moment with his baby girl. 

but when he learns you’ve been seeing other men after your ‘amicable’ breakup, he feels like he’s nineteen and ranging in misplaced anger all over again.

younger days, when his temper ruled his actions and consequences were an afterthought. old insecurities resurface, whispering doubts and fears into his mind.

you’d broken up before, years ago, and it barely lasted a month before both of you caved in. but now? now, you have a baby together, and for some reason, the breakup feels…permanent. 

he thought you needed a little breather from him, space to settle your mind after going through all the changes with your pregnancy. maybe he took you for granted, became too comfortable, too complacent in the belief that your love was unshakeable.

he’s paying for it. 

“where the fuck are you going?”

he knows exactly where you’re going, he’s just a masochist.

rafe’s always been vocal about his thoughts around you, having virtually no filter between his brain and mouth. it’s something you’ve gotten used to after five years in a relationship, the man is nothing if not blunt and crass. but now, it's different.

you’re not a couple anymore, you shouldn't have to put up with his nagging bullshit. but you have a child together, which means that you’ll never be able to fully expel him out of your system. 

how were you so good before and yet so terrible once your daughter got here? 

you sigh, choosing to keep your back to him. 

“date.”

you hear him snort, not even having to peek to know he’s shaking his head, blue eyes lingering between your new dress and the ceiling, “my bad. thought you were going to a gala.”

you turn then, hand on your waist as you take him in. it’s hard not to stare at his freshly shaved hair and it only makes you want to slap him stupid for not doing it years ago. what’s the point if you can’t have him? 

“why? it’s not illegal to put in effort.” you tilt your head slightly, ignoring his eyes burning holes through your shiny legs.

he pulls his eyes back to your face, but all you can see is the imprinted vision of your daughter laying on his chest earlier, her chubby cheek pressed against his shirt and her little hand curled around his finger. 

rafe’s heart clenches, the bitterness of your words sinking deep into his bones. he knows what you're implying, knows that you're trying to hurt him.

“he’s worth all that, huh?”

you shrug your shoulder, pieces of your hair falling back as you attempt to act nonchalantly, “maybe he is.”

rafe’s lips twitch into a half-smirk, half-grimace, a familiar expression that used to make your heart race but now just knots your stomach.

“who is it this time? it’s just kinda hard to keep track of your dates.”

his gaze lingers on you, searching for something, a hint of the girl he fell in love with, buried beneath layers of resentment and exhaustion.

you grit your teeth. “you don’t know him.”

he shakes his head, a humorless chuckle escaping his lips. “got yourself a touron?”

“don’t piss me off.”

he raises his hands in mock surrender.

“i’m not trying to. just curious.”

“his name is mike.”

rafe's lips quirk into a sardonic smile as he hears the name. "mike, huh? sounds like a guy who sells insurance or teaches yoga on the weekends."

you shoot him a glare, unamused by his jest. "can you be serious for once?"

catching sight of the offended look in your face, he adds, “it’s not my fault you keep choosing the ugly ones.”

you stare at him incredulously, “you don’t even know him!”

“hear me out, okay? if you’re ever going to give charlotte a sibling might as well—“

you’d throw the mug on your kitchen table at his head if charlotte wasn’t sleeping in the room next door.

“you think you’re so fucking funny don’t you?!” 

rafe hushes you, one of his hands rising to his lips, “what happened to no cursing in the house?”

your eye twitches, fingers itching to wrap themselves around his throat. “i’ll strangle you right here, rafe.”

“you got a new kink, mama?”

his ability to push your buttons has always been unparalleled, and it seems he's mastered the art even more since your breakup. he still manages to evoke a weird sense of irritation and fondness within you.

“you can’t keep doing this. i like mike, maybe i want to date mike.”

rafe's expression changes, his brows furrowing slightly as if your words have struck a chord. but then, he raises an eyebrow, feigning innocence.

"i’m just trying to help. you said the exact same thing about whatever his fucking name was two months ago.”

you scoff, crossing your arms over your chest defensively. “see! you’re trying to patronize me.”

“’m not.”

“right,” you mutter, rolling your eyes, “course you aren’t.”

his taunting smirk is more than a little infuriating. “i just doubt this guy is gonna stick around.”

“oh, so that’s it?” you prod him, laughing in his face, hands curling into tight fists. you get closer, “we’re back to lying to each other now?”

rafe’s face is contorted into a grimace; eyebrows furrowed.

”i can do this all day.” he scoffs, a bitter edge creeping into his voice, “i think the moment you tell him about charlotte he’s gonna run back to whatever hole he creeped out of. you think he wants to be a daddy?”

“who said he has to? that’s your job. maybe i just want to fuck him, you ever think about that?” the admission feels like a betrayal and a liberation all at once. it’s a silly familiar dance you two have been doing since the breakup – hurling accusations and blame at each other like weapons in a war of feelings neither of you can win.

rafe’s smirk fades into a scowl as your words hit him. he takes a step back, one of his hands instinctively rising in a placating gesture, but there's a defiant glint in his eyes that tells you he's not backing down yet.

“now you’re just trying to get under my skin.”

you throw your hands up in despair, “it’s always about you, unbelievable.” 

you feel like your heart is being vacuumed into your stomach as he stares.

“me?” his fingers dig into his chest, as if you’ve shot him right there, “you're the one who's constantly bringing up other guys, rubbing it in my face like- like i'm supposed to just sit back and take it."

you let out a slow controlled breath and attempt to loose your body movements. “we’re not doing this again.”

rafe knows he's treading on thin ice, but relents, “oh, m’sorry sweets. forgot you hate to be reminded i care.”

“care?” you laugh but it’s void of any humor, “is this your way of showing me you care? making me miserable? slut-shaming the mother of your daughter?”

“didn’t mean it like that, don’t twist my words.”

you square your shoulders, "you said what you said, and you can't take it back."

his jaw clenches, and you can almost hear the gears turning in his mind as he searches for the right words to say, “you’re pushing it.”

there’s a fiery anger in your eyes that makes his body warm. “so fucking what?”

without a word, rafe closes the distance between you, his movements purposeful. his hand reaches out, fingers gripping your cheeks, his rough touch sending your body into a frenzy. you want to push him away, but the pull between you is too strong to resist.

you’ve been yearning for his touch for months, no one knows how to pull your strings like he does.

“you drive me fucking insane, y’know that?”

you merely blink, pretending to be bored, “go fuck yourself.”

in a rush of pent-up frustration, rafe snakes a hand around the back of your head to pull you to meet him in a passionate kiss.

it’s all sorts of desperate, trying to bridge the problems between you, you're arching into him as his hand trails down your spine. his tongue is brushing across yours before you’re meeting him halfway, kissing him urgently.

there's a hunger in rafe’s touch, a desperation to reclaim what he lost, and you respond in kind, your hands roaming over his back, tracing the contours of his muscles with a familiarity that sends shivers down his spine.

“you’re not going on a fucking date.” he pants between kisses, the way his lips caress your face keeping you close distracting you momentarily.

“you can’t stop me.” 

his hand slides around your waist, over the curve of your ass, grabbing a handful in the process, “watch me.”

[tthoroughfare]

garden daisy (part 3) // ellie williams

*･゜ﾟ･* summary: things are sort of back to normal. ellie lends you the fuck ass gray hoodie, and you do what you will with it.

*･゜ﾟ･* pairing: modern!ellie x reader

*･゜ﾟ･* content: nsfw. masturbation and fantasizing, you're a loser

*･゜ﾟ･* length: 2.6k

this is part three of this series! find part one here

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i'm back for real!! thank you for your patience while i took a break. i don't wanna lose my momentum with writing so if anyone has any requests for blurbs feel free to let me know. i really love the way this part turned out, i hope you do too :)

for a little while, you feel comforted by your half-admission. you note that ellie, subconsciously or otherwise, draws back towards you. she starts planning more things for the two of you again, stops talking about haley so much.

while you feel a selfish relief, something still feels off. you get pangs of guilt out of nowhere, hoping she’s doing it because she wants to and not simply because she doesn’t want to upset you. she’s a selfless pacifist when it comes to your friendship, never wanting to disturb the balance. you’ve barely had three arguments the whole time you’ve known each other, each over pathetic things, each ending with her crawling back and settling herself at the side of you, quipping an ellie version of an apology.

while her pride would always get in the way of the words i’m sorry actually coming out of her mouth, you knew what she was trying to say. she’d always show, never tell.

you also feel guilty for lying to her. try to soothe yourself by saying you’re not lying, just not telling her the whole truth. is lying by omission still as bad as regular lying? you can’t decide. 

still, it feels a million times better than the anxiety clenching at your chest whenever you entertain the concept of telling her.

“no jacket?” ellie’s voice sounds as she emerges from down the hall, breaking your train of thought.

you snap out of it, glancing down at yourself. maybe not layering in early spring was a risky one; regardless, you’re too lazy to walk back to your room. “nah, last time they were blasting the hot air in there. and we’re only walking to and from the car, right?”

“your call,” she shrugs, shoving her wallet into her backpack and picking up her keys. “ready?”

“yessir.”

the drive to the nearest cinema is a short one, ellie nevertheless deliberating on which playlist to choose for the equivalent of half the journey.

“bro, just pick one,” you groan, head falling back against the seat as you watch her flick through spotify. “coulda’ fucking been there by now.”

“jesus, my bad for trying to curate the vibe.”

“you’re so stupid,” you reply, but the fond sheen in your eye and the way your mouth curves gives you away. “who says ‘curate the vibe’?”

“uh… me? thank you very much.” she catches your eye briefly as she finally hits play, putting her old ford into reverse and backing out of her spot.

“the only vibe you’re curating is that pink monstrosity dina got you for christmas.”

her nose scrunches as she lets out a chuckle, checking either side for traffic before pulling out of your building’s parking lot. “shut up.”

taking a pause, your gaze flits between your hands and ellie’s profile. you keep your tone light, teasing. “you actually used that thing?”

ellie answers without thinking. “nah, it sucks. it’s, like, a cheap ass battery powered one. i think she got it from a corner store.”

“damn. didn’t realize you were so picky about your… vibes,” you jest, noticing the way her freckled cheeks flower a light dusting of pink at the topic. despite your closeness, you never really talked about sex. “what’s wrong with battery powered?”

“nothing, just…” she trails off with a small shrug, laughing uncomfortably.

it’s hard not to continue poking at her when she gets like this. while a somewhat awkward individual, there aren’t many subjects that make ellie squirm. “is this why there’s an aux cable plugged in next to your bed?”

“stop.”

“what? i’m intrigued.” sitting back and folding your arms, you tut. “thought you were trying to play music through the walls.”

“i will turn the motherfucking car around,” she deadpans, unable to keep her act up when she takes her eyes off the road for a split-second to meet your gaze. the both of you share a laugh, ellie’s face still tinged beet.

you know you’re only joking, but you have to try and ignore how the thought of it makes you feel. the way your lower stomach twists a little at the idea of ellie making herself cum in the room next to you, skin the same pretty tone of pink as it is now, muffling her sounds so you can’t hear.

readjusting yourself in the seat subconsciously, you swat the image firmly from your mind. it’s one thing to fantasize about your best friend under the shield of nighttime and solitude — another entirely while she’s right next to you.

upon arriving, you begin to question your choice of clothing. the last few times you’d been to this particular cinema, you’d dressed for warmth only for them to apparently be attempting to cook the movie-goers. this time, once you’d gotten settled in and the trailers were rolling, a chill started to permeate. you don’t think they have the heat on at all. 

classic.

you do your damndest to convince yourself you’re not cold. not only do you not want to admit to yourself you made a mistake, you don’t want to admit it to ellie. ‘well, i did say…’ her know-it-all voice chimes through your head.

however, it gets much more difficult to pay it no mind. you shuffle and reshuffle in your seat the whole first half of the movie, tucking your arms around yourself. in your peripheral, ellie’s clearly taking notice; she turns her head each time before finally leaning in. 

“you cold?”

you’re stubborn, pausing before answering, avoiding looking at her. “no. these seats just suck. not comfortable.”

“dude, you’re cold,” she scoffs quietly. you think she’s just making to sit back again, until you realize she’s slipping her arms out of her hoodie. 

“no, no, it’s fine,” you whisper, resting the back of your hand on her upper arm to try and stop her. of course she doesn’t listen, tugging it off all the way and holding it out.

“it’s fine, i have my jacket.” when you don’t do anything, she shoves it gently into your hands with a smirk. “if you aren’t cold, don’t put it on.”

pulling a face at her, you relent to the playful challenge. ellie’s smell, the one you’ve grown to associate with home, envelops you as the fabric passes over your face. it’s still warm from her wearing it, the goosebumps prickling at your arms soothed.

satisfied, she grabs her jacket from the empty seat at the side of her and slips it on. you almost think you’re scot-free until —

“i did say ‘no jacket?’” she mumbles at you, leaning in once more. you just keep your eyes trained on the screen, flipping her off from the armrest with an amused smile.

after the movie ends, she doesn’t ask for it back. you decide to grab food after, and she doesn’t ask for it back then either. it’s only when you get home that you tell her you’re gonna take a shower, and try to hand it over.

“just give it back whenever,” she responds, looking at her feet when she continues. “kinda… suits you more, anyway.”

her eyes flicker back up at you, then across the room. you can feel your cheeks turning red, unable to help the way a smile spreads across your face. that could mean nothing, you say to yourself. tone it down.

“what are you gonna wear in the meantime?” you joke, a meager attempt to reestablish your footing after the way her comment flustered you. “never see you in anything else.”

ellie blinks slowly, corners of her mouth twitching and shrugging lightly. you’re sure she’s blushing a little, too.

there’s another pause, one that feels heavier than normal. after a few seconds of the both of you doing your best to avoid eye contact, you speak softly as you pass her to get to the bathroom. “whatever, weirdo.”

the whole encounter replays in your head while you shower, you convincing and unconvincing yourself she was flirting ten times over. there had been strange moments like that littered throughout your entire friendship with ellie.

most notably, the time you were both fifteen and she stole a bottle of whiskey from joel, the two of you passing it back and forth on the living room floor. it was childish, each sip and grimace getting your lightweight heads fuzzier, giggles increasing in volume. at one point, you were leaning back against the sofa when she inched closer to you, resting the side of her face on the upholstery.

“i gotta tell you something,” she’d stated lowly, trying to hide the slight slur in her words. you nodded, pivoting your body to face her. you’d been so close, you could smell the liquor on her breath.

“it’s, like, totally cool if you don’t wanna be friends with me after this—“ she paused, visibly thinking before interrupting herself. “—actually, no it’s not, you’d be a really shitty person.”

that had made you laugh, a burst escaping you before you could stop it. ellie had shushed you so as to not wake joel, trying not to laugh herself. “stop. i’m trying to be serious.”

“okay, be serious.”

“uh… i, uh… damn, lot of pressure now…”

you smiled and let out a groan of her name, her floundering around both irritating and adorable.

“okay, i… uh…” she’d looked down and her face had twitched before meeting your eyes again. “i like girls.”

you remember having a funny feeling in your stomach upon finding that out. you already knew you looked at girls differently, too. maybe even ellie.

still, all you could muster was an earnest smile and a quiet, “that’s okay.”

a moment had passed, ellie fidgeting slightly and swallowing. “okay.”

something hung in the air. in your state, you’d accidentally caught yourself looking at her lips too long. and you thought she’d done the same — no, you were positive. you even thought she could have been about to lean in, eyelashes fluttering, right when the ceiling light was hit and joel’s voice rang out.

“do you know what time it is? get the hell to bed,” he’d grumbled, rubbing at his forehead. you and ellie had leapt apart, and you’d felt so guilty at the proximity you’d forgotten all about the mostly-empty bottle at your feet. 

that is, until joel had rounded the sofa and spied it, grabbing it with a sigh and muttering under his breath as he made his way to the kitchen. “jesus christ, you couldn’t have picked the cheap shit.”

you sat like a scolded dog as he placed it back in the cabinet, messing awkwardly with your hands. you didn’t look at ellie once, not sure if you’d be more nervous to see her looking away, or at you. joel had turned back around and padded over towards ellie, more frustrated than angry. “you know tommy bought that for me? was supposed to be savin’ it.”

she’d pursed her lips, sheepish. “my bad.”

everyone in the room knew he wasn’t going to get an apology out of her. so, he’d simply blown air out of his mouth after a beat, turning with a hand on his hip and the other pointed towards you. “you’re lucky i’m not gon’ call your parents.”

“thank you,” you’d replied pathetically.

“what in the hell were you thinkin’?” he stated, looking between the pair of you before shaking his head, knowing there was no point attempting to debate. “you know what, i ain’t even — just get to bed. go on.”

you hadn’t said another word to ellie that night, slept facing the wall as far away as the bed allowed. sure, you felt terrible for being caught stealing alcohol, but your spinning head was honing in on the moment before.

in the morning, you woke up to raging nausea and ellie pretending she was too drunk to remember anything. you could see through her, though.

out of the shower, you sift through your drawer for something to sleep in, yet your eyes keep falling on ellie’s hoodie atop your chair. you pull out an old t-shirt you got at a concert, fingertips brushing against the sweater underneath that was relegated to nightwear when you spilled coffee down it. you don’t want to wear either of them.

“stupid,” you murmur to yourself, grabbing a pair of shorts and slipping them on then stuffing the drawer closed. the hoodie’s swiftly tugged back over your head, light flipped off and you’re in bed before you have time to scold yourself into taking it off.

as much as you try to settle, there’s too much on your mind. too much of someone. it starts off as ruminating over if you stand a chance, culminates in imagining what could happen if you do. 

how it would feel to kiss her; plush lips you try so hard not to look at working against yours. her mouth moving downwards and tongue darting out, wet and hot against the skin of your neck.

letting out a sharp breath, you turn over onto your back. you allow a hand to slide underneath the fabric of ellie’s hoodie, gently kneading at your breast, rolling your nipple between thumb and forefinger. as you trail the fingertips of your free hand over your stomach, you give a squeeze to your waist. you tell yourself you don’t know why you did that — you know. you’re pretending it’s her hands all over you.

you’re still pretending when you dip underneath the waistband of your shorts, allowing a gasp to escape as you arrive at your clit. you’re soaked just from thinking about it. beginning a steady rhythm, your brain flashes back to the conversation before, the one where you’d been messing with ellie. the consequential images littering your mind’s eye.

what if that’s what she’s doing now, too? pressure builds as you delve back into the concept you’d so intensely shut down earlier, allowing it to take hold. thinking of her fucking herself on the other side of the wall, mouth in the crook of her elbow as she grinds her puffy clit into the pads of her fingers. forgoing that to reach for her vibrator, desperately fumbling at the buttons as she presses it between her slick lips.

you know you could make her feel so much better.

the way she’d tilt her head back as you brushed over her pussy, stopping to firmly circle at her sweet spot. the pretty noises she’d make, sighs of your name punctuated by breathy moans. the way you’d suckle at her collar, easily sliding two fingers inside and savoring how blunt fingernails dig into your shoulder.

you’re right on the edge imagining it — grabbing for your throw pillow in an attempt to mask the sounds you’re incapable of holding back, you’re met with it just beyond reach. desperate, you go for the next best thing.

balling up the fabric of the hoodie, you tug it over your mouth. the familiar scent overwhelms your already on-fire senses, a layer of immersion. as much as you’d never admit it to yourself, you know that’s what tips you over; heat spiraling until it comes crashing down, waves pulsing through you.

you twitch your way through it until you’re spent, allowing one hand to drop to your side, the other resting over your sweat-sheened forehead. the collar of the hoodie keeps its position by your mouth, your breath fanning back over you.

fuck.

you’d just wash it before you gave it back.

tags: @abbysleftbicepp @dollinrehab @liztreez @vahnilla @xaaaavleg @fatbootymuncher @sqandroct14 @yasmilks @piercedome

[kandyscorner]

Shout out to the anon who thought up regency!jason because, omg why wasn't I that creative??? In the same theme-ish, can we do some forbidden romance between knight!jason and princess!reader. Meeting in secret hallways for stolen kisses, she just so happens to he in the stables at the same time as he is tending to his steed, his eyes on her while she entertains suitors she will never agree to marry. Ugh, I eat it up every time without fail 😩

@herodedicatedblog

oh love this this idea so much. i did borrow a few things from the princess bride. mostly the 'as you wish' meaning 'I love you' because what better way to hide a romance than to have a secret way of saying I love you. anyways, this is a very short snippet of their lives. I hope it fits what you wanted, Enjoy!

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“He's from a very good family. I think you'll find him pleasing to the eye as well. He likes to hunt and I hear he's a magnificent jouster. Rarely lost a single-”

“Mother,” you chide, halting her advertisement of a prince from wherever(you weren't listening), “do you trust me?”

Her eye does a squinting twitch and you know whatever she's about to say will amuse her.

“As far as you can weave, my dear,” which is to say not much. Weaving was boring.

“Mother, please,” you groan. She laughs, a twinkling thing that in spite of your annoyance makes you smile.

“I only jest, my dear. You know I trust you as I trust your father and I trust your brother. Why?”

“Then can you trust that I can choose my own suitor?” Her smile falters slightly, though her eyes carry a knowing look. 

“Of course. I only wish to give you the best options.” She tugs your hands into her lap.

“I did not love your father when I married him but I grew to,” you knew this. That it had been an arranged marriage and they had met at the altar, “I don't want the same thing for you. I want you to marry someone you already at least care about.”

“Thank you, mother,” you mumble before pulling her into a hug. You want to tell her that she didn't have to worry. You already knew who you wanted to marry and you already knew you loved him. 

But part of you worried. Would your family shun you for it? Or worse strip him of all his standing that he had fought so hard for. You needed a moment to think.

You pull back and press a kiss to her cheek. There is something in her eyes, like she wants to say something more but is holding back. You should probably leave lest she start advertising another royal somebody.

“May I ride out to the falls?” You ask. Her nose wrinkles and you'd think she was going to tease you but she doesn't.

“My sweet girl. Don't go alone.”

“Mother, when am I ever alone? I either have a maid or my knight with me.” She nods, smile growing. 

“Of course. Sir Jason.” She calls out. You watch him take a half a step forward from where he had been standing at the edge of the room.

“Your majesty, your highness,” he says as he bows to you and your mother. You watch him and he meets your eyes first before looking to your mother, “how may I be of assistance?”

“Take care of my daughter,” the order feels pressed in a way that has nothing to do with a short venture then her tone lightens, “go with her to the falls. Make sure she doesn't get lost again.”

“Mother!” You sound in embarrassment. That had been years ago, when you were younger and the first time you had ventured away from the group that was headed for the falls. You had gotten lost and Jason had found you.

“Yes, your majesty,” he  bows again before standing, watching you in wait. You avert your gaze slightly flustered.

“Now go, my dear.” Your mother shows you off with a kind tilt of her head, her eyes glancing between you and Jason. 

****

You make it to the third empty corridor after the library before Jason's tugging you into an alcove. You shake your head at his antics but it melts away when he tips your chin to press a gentle kiss to your lips.

“You are too obvious.” You mutter as your fingers curl into his armor keeping him close.

“On the contrary, highness, I think you're too obvious.” the timbers of his voice make you shiver and his big hands press into your arms in feigned warmth.

You silence him, tugging him forward for another kiss. His thumb comes to stroke at the bare skin of your collar bone at the edge of your dress. 

Your shoulder juts up, neck tilting down and you pull back with a giggle, “that tickles.”

“I know,” he says as his nose bumps against yours. You smile into your next kiss. Before you pull back from him completely.

“Will you ready the horses? I'll go help Maggie make a basket for us. We can have a picnic,” you hop on your feet as you speak, a stirring eagerness to be alone with him away from the palace.

“As your wish,” he dips his head to bow at you in the tight space you two hide in. It makes you flush slightly before edging out of the alcove and back in the corridor. 

“I will meet you in the stables, sir Jason.” You say with  the decorum of the princess you've been raised to be. 

With a quick scan of the space, you blow a kiss to him before hurrying down the hallway. You hear him mutter under his breath, “too obvious?”

****

The ride to the falls was as lovely as always. Birds chirping, and the occasional deer running past. The falls were deep in the woods, far from civil life. 

It's here, alone with your dearest knight that you finally relax. You lay out the blanket and basket as Jason ties up the horses. 

Once that's done, your hands go to work on the ties of your heavy overcoat. It was summer but even in the shaded area you stand at, the heat permeates the woods. 

Ties undone you shrug off the overcoat leaving you in a light frock. A low whistle erupts through the air and you turn your head to find Jason watching you with a grin. 

“Are you trying to corrupt me, highness?” he teasingly chides. In spite of his words, he starts tugging at the straps of his armor. 

“My poor knight,” you coo as you step towards him, “what will you do with a princess who wants you so?” 

Your hands move with practiced ease, undoing what straps need undoing and helping slide off the armor. 

He smiles at you, the weight of both your lives gone with the clothing on the ground. He picks you up suddenly, throwing you over his shoulder and you shriek before laughing.

“I will do whatever the princess pleases,” he says. He shifts you around sliding you from his shoulder to gently lay you down on the blanket you had for the picnic. You stare up at him, getting lost in the tender love that shows in his eyes.

“The princess wishes for a kiss,” you tip your head back in demand. 

“A kiss,” he murmurs. He dips forward, nose sliding along yours, only to kiss at the apple of your cheek, “if a kiss she wants,” he presses another to the corner of your mouth, “then a kiss she will have.” 

Your lips purse in wait for the kiss he seemingly promises you but it never comes instead his head dips down to kiss at your jaw and then your neck. While you're pleased with it, a quiet hum leaving you, you want a real kiss.

“Jason, please” you sigh out. 

“A princess does not plead,” he breathes against your ear, it's almost a chide, a reminder of your standing, of how he has you in spite of it. He pulls back and finally kisses you sweetly. 

It's a short kiss and he sits back up, flecks of sun through the trees suddenly glitter in your eyes. You follow him to start pulling the food from the basket. You lay it out across the blanket as he pulls out a knife and starts peeling an apple.

“You're going to meet with the prince.” He says quietly as you sort the other fruit, cheese, and bread in a pretty display.

“No,” you shake your head, “I think I talked Mother down from it.”

“I wasn't asking, highness,” he tells you, “I passed by the king and queen as they spoke. The prince is already on his way.”

An upset nerve works its way up your spin, “I'm not meeting with him.” You huff.

“Princess,” he says gently and you can tell he's trying to placate you, “you still have a duty. You must meet with him.”

“I will not marry him,” you argue and when you meet his eye, you find sadness there.

“Mother said she wants me to marry someone I care about. I do not care about that prince.”

“But you could care about him.” You drag up the hem of your dress and move yourself close to him. Your hands come up to his face and your fingers drag over the skin of his cheek, scars from earning his place at the palace and unintentionally in your life.

“I care about you, do you understand? I don't care about some prince. I care about you, I want you.”

He leans forward, pressing his forhead against yours, “I want you too. But you are the princess. Meet with him if only to not start a war.”

“very well, but know I will be thinking of you the entire time.” you kiss him once more and settle back down. He offers you a bare slice of apple and you take it pleased. You settle it amongst Your spread food and hold your hand out for another.

He laughs at you but hands you slice after slice until the apple is gone. You wipe your hands on your frock and lean back against him so he can see.

“pretty, isn't it?” You don't wait for an answer, tipping your head to look at him, “will you hold me, jason?”

His arms curl around you and he presses a kiss on your temple, “as you wish, my darling.”

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Masterlist

[tenjikufag]

Hello!! Hi I really love your stories. Uhm if I can ask, can you do a fluff of Dr ratio from honkai star rail x male reader. Once again I love your stories and creativity. <3<3<3

Let’s look at the stars.

Dr. Ratio x male reader

- Fluff, no warnings

-note, I apologize for ooc content (I’m not all too familiar with this character.)

“-immense pressures and temperatures in the star's core squeeze the nuclei of hydrogen atoms together to form helium, a process called nuclear fusion…”

Late nights spent listening to your partners current interest were quite common, you loved to hear him speak with such enthusiasm.. he was in his element and you couldn’t be more happy to be the person he chooses, time and time again, to share it with.

This time, his current studying led him to the stars. Many dumb them down to dead balls of gas, but to him they were so much more. Even if he wasn’t all that big on sentimental things, something about the stars only showing their bright beauty after dying- it moved him in a way.

The two of you laid under the stars, only giving him hums in response to assure him that you were listening. Not that you could ever get a word in, he kept explaining his findings and moving his hands outwards to point to the many constellations, the pathways, which stars had names and what they meant..

“Did you know stars don’t actually twinkle? The proper phrase for it would be scintillate, which only happens when they find themselves among the horizon..”

“Then where do you think the phrase came from?”

Glancing over at him, his lip curled into a smile at the question.. he didn’t have an answer for that, it was more of a metaphorical phrase and the ties to such a phrase would be as endless as a black hole. So, he only smiled and half-heartedly brushed off not knowing such an answer.

“Oh? The doctor doesn’t have an answer?”

The male chuckled, turning his head to look at you with a soft smile.

“Hm, although I know you ask in jest..”

You watched as he sat up, moving to hover his head just above yours.

“Let me conduct a.. study if you will..”

The love in his eyes reflected your own. Nodding, you let him instruct you.

Grabbing your hand, he held it firmly in his own and pressed it into his chest. He then instructed you to close your eyes and timed you to keep them shut for a few seconds.

“Now open..”

You felt his breathe on your lips, noses almost touching but he kept a strong gaze into your pupils.. he watched as they dilated and how they..

Twinkled.

Satisfied, he laughed to himself

“Just as I thought..”

He moved to straddle your waist, now holding both of your hands and again dipped down to closely watch your eyes and how the stars reflected in your irises.

“The term "twinkling stars" is derived from the Old English word "twincan," which means "to twinkle or blink.”

Sitting up, he found himself staring back up at the sky to observe the stars align and glancing down back to your eyes to see how the light refracted..

“This term was likely used to describe the flickering or shimmering appearance of stars in the night sky, which is caused by the Earth's atmosphere…”

Your body followed his, chests pressed against one another and arms now wrapped around his slim waist.

“Is that actually true? Or are you simply making things up again?”

He laughed, clasping your face in his hands in delight.

“It’s true dear, don’t think I didn’t account for such a question from you. I’m honestly.. quite flattered you’d think I could lie to you about such an intimate thing..”

Intimate?

“I see those gears turning, Y/n. Stars are seen as signs of affection by many people, looking up to see the same stars their loved ones are seeing or maybe even looking for their lover among them..”

His smile faltered, the gaze he held no longer as strong. You felt his lips plant themselves on you. Smiling into the kiss, he pushed you back to lay on the plush grass beneath you- hands moving to hold your neck and caress his fingers along your jaw. When he pulled away, an uncharacteristic bashful blush covered his cheeks..

“Even though my study was fruitful, and I quite enjoyed it..”

Lips met yours again, but for a small loving peck

“I must say.. I enjoy studying these ‘twinkling’ stars in your eyes much more..”

He left one more chaste kiss on your lips before sliding off of you, returning to his spot beside you.

The man would learn everything through you if he could, but to use his studying to show his adoration to you was something he’d never thought would be possible- it never crossed his mind before you came into his life.

He’d study a million stars if he got to see them in your eyes.

I really hope this was okay, and not too ooc- thank you for the request!

[hydrangeapartridge]

Neve's visit (Manfred learns about rings part 2)

As part of my EmmRook post game collection, I wrote a short fic about Manfred learning about rings (their use in magic but also their symbolism) which can be found here.

Here is the sequel. Enjoy! (could contain spoilers for the end of the game)

(Side Note: all my EmmRook fics can be found on AO3)

Emmrich was pacing. It was an unusual behaviour for him, reserved only to his reflexions on the most complex scientific questions he faced as a scholar. However he was not working now, but the fact remained that he was crossing the living room for the umpteenth time under Rook’s half amused, half worried gaze.

She sat on the meridian, waiting for Neve to arrive. It was the first time they would see her since Manfred bought her a gift; a pretty snake-shaped silver hairpin. If Emmrich had always had a very good relationship with Neve amongst the Veilguard, the prospect of the gift giving visibly caused him some distress.

“I never thought I’d get to experience a meeting with the in-laws while being the in-laws” Rook’s usual jest had the benefit of stopping Emmrich in his tracks.

He turned to her, a slight frown creasing the perfect line of his dark brows. “ Darling, this is nothing of the sort” He corrected her “Merely a reunion with an old acquaitance, in which Manfred will happen to gift a significantly costly jewel to a charming woman” Emmrich was talking with his hands, which he did when passionnate, but mostly when nervous. “People exchange gifts all the time. There is no particular stake in this particular exchange”

So he tried to convince himself. Rook shook her head, a fond grin splitting her lips. She got up and slowly stepped up to her husband.

She placed a hand on his elbow in a gesture that became as familiar as breathing. “Then why are you more tensed than before an important watcher’s assembly?” She teased him, caressing up his arm until her hand was on his stiff shoulder. “We’re seeing Neve. It’s going to be nice. Relax. ”

Emmrich sighed. “I can’t” He breathed in defeat, lowering his head until his forehead was resting against Rook’s.

“If we had more time, I’d offer plenty of ways to distract you” Rook whispered, her lips drawing closer to his.

Emmrich was usually a master of self-control. In the Watch, her learned meditation and breathing techniques to ground oneself, and how to be detached and impassible. But his naturally emotional nature still came back when dealing with matters important to him; more often matters of the heart than of the mind. Matters he couldn’t reason with.

Another sigh, but Emmrich didn’t pull back. “Dearest, you always do choose the most interesting times for your advances” He placed a hand on Rook’s waist and brought their faces closer. “I could certainly be tempted to indulge in you. It would make the wait far more pleasant indeed”

Emmrich’s poetic way with words always made Rook melt. She was surprised her flirting went through but needn’t be convinced any further, and pressed her lips against his in a tender kiss.

If their kissing started chaste, slow and comfortable, Emmrich grew bolder as he gladly lost himself in the distraction and comfort his wife offered. His second hand came to craddle the base of Rook’s skull, fingers carefully threading in her hair as he gently but firmly angled her head to deepen the kiss. His bangles sang as he teased her bottom lip with his tongue, and when she parted her lips, wickedly slipped inside, in a move only he held the secret to, that still made Rook’s knees weak even after years of practice.

Rook pressed closer to him, lacing her fingers behind his neck in an embrace that was only known to true kindred spirits. Together they formed a perfect entity, in a pose that could remind one of the romantic tableaux exposed in Orlais, painted to praise the devotion of eternal lovers.

While he thoroughly lost himself in Rook’s mouth, Emmrich moved his legs with intent so that his thigh ended up pressed flush against her center. Rook’s resulting moan was music to his ears, so promising. Too bad the next thing those ears caught was the sharp noise of a knock on the door.

The two lovers barely had time to step away from each other before Manfred came rushing down the stairs. The spirit made a beeline for the door, eager to be the one to welcome their guest. In his hurry, Manfred thankfully didn’t notice how breathy and flustered his caretakers were. They gladly let him open the door while they recovered from their promising but interrupted tryst.

“I’ll get the tea” Emmrich offered, reluctantly moving away from his wife.

Rook nodded, and after running a hand through her hair to make sure it was still in place, she headed to the entrance to greet Neve.

- - -

Neve Gallus was as always delightful company. Under her strict and cool appearance was a heart of gold. Ever thoughtful, she brought an offering of Carastian candy, chocolate coated treats from Tevinter, that she knew Rook enjoyed (Emmrich didn’t have as much of a sweet tooth as his wife, but he was known to indulge in them sometimes while grading papers).

She came alone, Lucanis being busy on a contract; which was probably better given Manfred’s generosity was reserved to her.

Neve got them up to date with the situation in Minrathous in more detail than she did in letters, and once it was done, they discussed more casual matters: recent activites and funny or scandalous anecdotes. Emmrich, ever the social butterfly, was absorbed in the conversation, but his never ending stirring of his tea told Rook that part of him was still slightly nervous.

At one point, Neve asked about Manfred’s learnings. The skeleton had been quietly sitting beside her, but he perked up when prompted with questions about his training at the Necropolis. While Manfred told Neve a few stories in his own imperfect way with words, Rook wondered if maybe he could be nervous about giving Neve her gift. Wisps were drawn to Neve, and Manfred was no exception. He always enjoyed her best amongst all their friends. But could he have learned reserve after spending so much time with humans?

It turned out Rook was completely wrong about that part, for two mere seconds after the skeleton finished explaining the most recent spell he learned, he announced. “Present for you” And promptly stood up to retrieve the pretty gift-bag he previously hid behind the couch.

Manfred proudly handed Neve the bag, and her usually hooded gaze widened. “For me? Really?” She asked incredulous as she took the package.

“Yeay!” Manfred confirmed and Neve chuckled.

“I’d say you shouldn’t have, but that wouldn’t be elegant of me” She opened the bag and peeked inside before she retrieved a squarred black velvet box from it. “Wow, this looks fancy. What’s the occasion Fred?” She asked, incredulous.

Rook heard Emmrich gulp beside her. She was hanging onto Manfred’s every word, eagerly awaiting his answer.

“To thank you for the coat!” Manfred replied casually.

A beat of silence. Rook felt stupid.

Given the circumstances of Manfred’s purchase for Neve, Emmrich and her automatically connected it to the rings they bought and their meaning. They didn’t even think to ask why Manfred wanted to get Neve a gift, probably too afraid of the answer. It didn’t occur to them either that Manfred could feel obliged to Neve for gifting him a new coat as a reward when he graduated from his first cycle of apprenticeship. That day Emmrich had given Manfred a gift too, Rook remembered; his first ever magic staff. It had been a wonderful day of celebrations.

A muffled chuckle beside her made Rook turn to her husband. Emmrich’s laugh then turned light and airy, relieved and joyful. It wasn’t often that Emmrich was caught laughing freely, and if the delightful sound of it surprised Neve, it sent butterflies in Rook’s stomach. She was grinning impossibly wide as her lover tried to cover his reciding laughter with the back of his hand in front of his mouth.

Neve looked to the couple with a frown but was unable to hide her own smile. “What’s so funny?”

“Nothing. Just that Emmrich was so afraid Manfred wanted to elope with you he almost gave himself an ulcer” Rook offered, voice singing with mischief.

“Rook!” Emmrich protested. The pink slightly dusting his cheeks was adorable.

“We were worried about the intentions Manfred put behind that gift and obviously made a too big deal out of it” Rook continued explaining more seriously, not minding the glare Emmrich sent her.

Neve raised one thick and pretty eyebrow, visibly judging Manfred’s caretakers.

“Well, can I open it now?” She asked, admiteddly a little amused.

Rook nodded and Neve opened the velvet box under Manfred’s undivided attention. He had observed their exchange but didn’t comment on it. Maybe he didn’t understand everything and was more eager to see what Neve thought of his gift than to understand what all this was about.

A little gasp of surprise escaped the ice mage when her eyes landed on the refined piece of jewelry.

“I understand your worries now” She lowly whispered before she turned to Manfred. “You truly shouldn’t have... but I appreciate it. This is beautiful Fred. I love it”

Manfred let out a victorious hiss, visibly happy with himself. Neve undid her coiffure, letting her long dark locks cascade on her shoulders. She took the hairpin and skillfully twisted her hair around it in a pretty updo. She turned her head both sides and asked. “How is it Fred? Suits me?”

Manfred clapped and cheared, making Neve chuckle fondly at his antics.

Emmrich watched the exchange, arms crossed over his chest, but a smile on his lips. Rook let her hand travel to his thigh and inched closer. “Relieved my love ?” She whispered in his ear.

He sighed through his nose before he gave her a warm smile that lit up his rich brown eyes. “Impossibly so dearest”

[thebluewizardlives]

The Well

Chapter 10: Friends

Ch: 01 | 02 | 03 | 04 | 05 | 06 | 07 | 08 | 09 | 10 | 11

Summary: One friend enters, another swiftly and awkwardly leaves.

“For we cannot sit and stare at our wounds forever. Pressing ever forward, we must cling to the light and—” His brow creased in thought, “… cling… It has a strange sound to it doesn’t it?”

Morinë glanced back, the expression on her face painfully honest. Though, truth be told, this was likely highest among her preferred places to be. The occasional odd word choice notwithstanding, it seemed considerably harder to remember an afternoon without his voice in her ear; tiring of the sound seemed unfathomable. Their musings had become the score to a blissful season, pleasantly filling the air of their once-hushed spaces. As with every third day, work was conducted in Elrond’s study. She made steady progress, pouring over maps and calculations as the leylines began to reveal themselves running as veins beneath Middle Earth’s skin; while Elrond reluctantly made himself discoverable, graciously navigating the rather demanding Elven court. Stately lancet windows cast stained glass halos, making even the most tedious of visitors appear painted, their exquisite robes brushing over the smooth stone floors. It was most enchanting, however, on days such as this; the sun’s light catching the pleasing lines of his face and glints from the rings adorning his hands. Steam rose from the familiar vessel sat atop his desk, the whole of the chamber smelling of bergamot and birch. She found herself lost in his soft gaze as he sipped. Only he could make grey feel warm, she mused, annoyed at the sudden flush of heat in her cheeks. Morine’s eyes shifted back to the work upon her own desk, though her focus proved more difficult to dislodge.

“If you have a better suggestion, I am all ears.” He hummed, waiting patiently for her to speak what was clearly on her mind.

“Abide.”

“Ah, Abide in the light… a lovely choice, as expected. You know, I must confess I look forward to reading whatever you choose to write someday,” he replied. Focused on the scroll before him, the feather of the quill swayed as the correction was made.

“Our pens are set to a different pace my friend, I fear my ego too fragile for your proofreading,” she half-joked, thumbing through the samples splayed on the table before her. “Such a skill does not come quite so naturally us all.”

“You wound me. It is not purely nature, rather experience. I have had plenty of…opportunities for growth over the ages.” He assured.

“Oh? Now you must tell me of one of these opportunities.”

Pausing for a moment in thought, Elrond smiled, eyes rolling at the memory, “Once, years and years ago, I was tasked with writing for a symposium. Of the two hundred or so, there was not an undistinguished guest among them.” Morinë looked up from her work as he rose to amble toward her, hand trailing on his desk. “Our High King had been rather occupied for much of that day, so I remain doubtful he had time to properly review the speech beforehand… I cannot say what possessed me, but in search of pointed prose I concluded ‘not unlike a dead carcass’ was the best choice. Though he maintained composure, I knew as soon as he uttered it that I would never hear its end. And right I was— for about a year, anyway. During which time he found a way to insert the phrase into nearly every conversation.”

“Surely you jest.” She spoke, mouth screwing up into a grin.

“Not in the slightest— it became like a hobby to him. To this day, I am certain he has a tome somewhere filled with potential jokes of that damned phrase.” He bemoaned as the sounds of their laughter filled the study as he recalled some of his favorites. For all her poise Morine had never been one to deny herself joy, or the occasional snorting, which Elrond was certain every Elf in Lindon had probably been blessed to hear by now; her smile wide and genuine as they caught their breaths. Perhaps he would blame it on the coming of spring, but everything felt a little warmer now.

Walking towards the door, Elrond reached within the small metal pocket on it to find a letter. Stamped with a familiar seal, his fingertips tracing the ridges of the wax. His smile only grew upon reading its contents.

"And what pray tell has you singing again?"

"I do not recall stopping.” He replied simply. Scoffing at his pointed glance, Morine returned to her work; certain he was teasing, as he often did. His eyes lingered on her a moment longer before returning to the letter, scanning it. “My dear friend, Galadriel, is returning from one of her expeditions north, soon. It has been many seasons since we’ve seen each other."

"Oh, well that is nice… wait, are you referring to the Lady Galadriel?"

"You know of her?"

"Elrond, I cannot name a soul who does not. Many in my travels have spoken of the ‘fairest Elven maiden’ clearing throngs of orc and trolls, gutting their ranks... not unlike a dead carcass."

Brows shooting up to his hairline, he glanced up to Morinë’s barely concealed amusement finding it much funnier now than from Gil-Galad. "You are ruthless. And to think I was about to suggest we all spend an afternoon together once she settles in."

"I would love to," she smirked.

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"It has been far too long since I have felt this warmth." She spoke after a deep sigh, the sun’s radiance easing the tension in her features, after having long been frozen in a scowl to brave the whipping winds of Forodwaith. Though the frostbitten mountains and caves had not been enough to cool her anger, the warmth of the sun upon her face was almost enough to soothe her aching heart, if only for a moment.

"Perhaps you might stay longer to enjoy it then." He spoke optimistically, though his eyes betrayed him, the hope in them already preparing to be dashed. Elrond knew Galadriel’s answer, but Galadriel knew it was his nature: to hope anyway. It did inspire her, as much as he might secretly loathe to hear it. While it might not be that century, one day she would find her peace, quarry or both.

"You know very well that I cannot, old friend."

"I cannot help but feel it is my duty to ask." He replied, sighing as he set his eyes on the rising sun.

Galadriel looked upon him softly, "I know, but duty is exactly why I must disappoint you, as much as it pains me to do so." She finished, with a heartfelt, but weighted smile placing a hand upon his cheek. Leaving her refuge and kin in pursuit of the Darkness felt counterintuitive until she realized their warmth and comfort could never fully penetrate her heart. Not until Celeborn was found. Not until Finrod was avenged. And most assuredly, not until the great and cowardly evil that robbed her of them both was slain. Many Elves lost loved ones during the War of Wrath, but she knew Elrond would understand her more keenly than most. They had both been acquainted with the void of loss and the burden of eternity for some time now, a fact that made the brevity of her stay even more painful. Standing to retrieve the hares they caught earlier, she laid them down next to the fire. Moving to his side as he stoked the flames, Galadriel leaned against his shoulder. Elrond exhaled before letting his head rest atop her own. They sat peacefully, basking in the moment together, fleeting as it was in the promise of eternity.

As Galadriel moved to continue preparing the meat, a spark of recognition glimmered in his eyes, the corners of his mouth pulling almost reflexively, as he stood to face toward the hill. His gaze was softer, happier as it remained fixed on the illuminated ridge. Atop it sat a woman mounted on a stag. Her basket brimming with bright spoils of foraging and a lance in tow, the light of the sunrise outlining her form; a kindred with the forest atop a mighty steed. The vision rang nostalgic though Galadriel could not say from when. Adjusting to a more confident posture in her seat, the woman stopped, waving at them.

While Galadriel could guess as to whom it might be, she could not have predicted the scene before her. Elrond had indeed spoken highly of his new comrade and their work, but he had not spoken to the way he was looking at her now as he breezed up the hill. Nor did he speak of how he held her hand, cradling it as if it were one of Fëanor’s jewels as he helped her dismount. Intrigued, Galadriel resolved to determine the truth of the matter, observing as Elrond, the woman, and rather large stag approached her camp.

“Morine, I would like you to meet the Lady Galadriel,” he spoke.

Galadriel rose, a warm smile upon her face, “Rest assured, I have already been advised not to call you Earth Smith.”

Brows knitting slightly, Morine returned the gesture with a smile of her own, extending her own hand, “Lady Galadriel, it is an honor to make your acquaintance… and I appreciate the consideration.” She began clearing her throat and nerves as she shot a glance to a contented Elrond, “My name is—”

“Morine,” Galadriel spoke, grasping her hand. “I have heard much about you, though I look forward to hearing more. I did not think we would be able to meet until tomorrow’s festivities.”

“I did not either, my intent was certainly to appear in a more polished state,” Morine joked, subtly smoothing her windswept hair. The ensemble she had originally planned to orchestrate the ideal first impression hung in her bedroom. In her opinion, the current attire was more fit for a third or fourth.

“On the contrary, I believe you’re dressed just for the occasion.” She spoke assuredly, “My party and I spent many mornings just so. As I have been travelling for quite some time now, my return, in some ways, has felt too abrupt. You would be indulging me to join us, if your plans allow.”

“Then indulge I shall. My only condition is that you allow me to assist in putting that rabbit into a stew.”

Gathering around the fire, they began dressing the meat, preparing the vegetables and herbs. It hadn’t been more than two days after her arrival before Galadriel felt ill at ease in her gilded chambers. Though her search had been wearisome, resting felt impossibly harder. Only the forest floor seemed to offer reprieve, her best sleep having since been in a tent. Her past few nights had been spent there. It took little time for Elrond to notice, and even less for him to offer joining her for a morning or two.

The ingredients now simmering, they carried on talking as they caught her up on everything from the goings on of Lindon to their current project to stories of Galadriel and her company’s travels. Elrond dutifully stoked the fire, and Morine carved into an apple as she sat leaning against the stag snoring behind her on the soft grass. “By the way, you must tell us your companion’s name,” Galadriel spoke, glancing behind her as he stirred in his sleep, “It is a rare but welcome sight to see a human and creature of the forest be friendly.”

“Ah, my apologies I did not introduce you earlier— this is Tautr. We became friends through a pact of sorts this morning: I would provide some of the finest fruits from my foraging in return for transportation. Though you are right, the blessing is not lost on me. It is a rare thing that I meet human friends in the forests these days,” Morine paused for a moment, sadness touching her eyes for a moment. “However, I was told by the Lore Master it was more common in the First Years when Men met the Silvan Elves. There were even great celebrations and dances in the Mirkwood, if one could believe such a thing seeing its state now. What would you call it? ‘Dance of the Elk’?”

“A Liltarasse. I must have told you that story no less than a dozen times,” Elrond chuckled.

“Then you must tell it once more, just to be certain,” she responded easily.

A small smile graced his face as he acquiesced, never truly unhappy to speak of the old times. However, as Elrond spoke, Galadriel found herself observing Morine; she found she liked her. Morine appeared relaxed in an unpracticed sort of way with him, as if an old friend falling into familiar routines. Nonetheless, there was a tension between them that made Galadriel feel she was somehow interrupting. Listening attentively, Morine’s eyes rested upon him softly in admiration, though she seemed careful not to linger too long. Elrond, for his part, appeared both oblivious and culpable, the smile never leaving his face as he subtly moved closer to her. Galadriel thought a laurel should be bestowed upon Morine’s head for how valiantly she attempted to appear unaffected each time Elrond referred to her as his dear friend. The vision before her did not align.

With the stew nearly done, Galadriel began breaking bread. The conversation shifted to the gala, colloquially called the “Summit of the Realms”. They had been in pleasant conversation for some time now, but the longer she observed, the less inclined she felt to withhold her thoughts.

"Certainly, this will prove to be a special occasion as diplomats from other kingdoms, even some guests from the kingdoms of Men, will be in attendance. Joyous as it is, coordinating them has been no small feat." Elrond explained with a sigh.

“And I assume you will be joining us for this special occasion as well, Morine?” Galadriel asked.

“Certainly, it will be an honor to be counted among the High King's guests once again... Though this time I plan to see the event the entire way through," she joked in Elrond’s direction.

 "Do not to worry, I am confident we will make the most of this evening, just as we did the last." He joked back, Galadriel’s expression growing more quizzical as he and Morine chuckled together.

“Wonderful, I look forward to seeing you there. Elrond, do you believe Ciliren will be in attendance as well?” Galadriel asked simply, if not a bit suddenly. The brief but noticeable pause did not escape her notice.

"Um yes, I received her acceptance some time ago."

"I have to admit I am unsurprised. It appeared she rather enjoyed your company the last time she visited.”

"That's rather generous, but yes we did get on quite well during her apprenticeship." He explained, wondering where this line of questioning was meant to lead. Clarifying, he turned to Morine "Ciliren was learning under Cidran at the time."

“Ah, and he apprenticed you for some time as well?” Morine asked.

“That he did,” Galadriel answered for him, earning a familiar side eye from her friend. “You know, Elrond, I must warn you. As busy as Gil-Galad keeps, I would not dismiss the possibility that he may have found time to orchestrate something between the two of you."

"I don’t know if he wo— " Elrond began, an incredulous look flashing across his face.

“He cares for you and knows as well as I,” Galadriel intoned, “The immense joy it is for an Elf to have a companion with whom to share the ages with. Many of us are not so lucky.” The confusion on Elrond’s face had only grown, but Morine’s expression had become markedly decided.

“… You must pardon me. It sounds like Coirëamár needs me back.” Morine spoke, “My apologies for leaving you so abruptly— I find it best not to worry her."

"What? I didn’t hear anything," Elrond replied, noticing a slight hurriedness to her movements as she gathered her things.

 "Well, sometimes we just… We send secret messages, sometimes— she doesn't want to seem too chatty, you know. Especially with the amount of sensitive ears around to hear her," she explained, laughing rather awkwardly before clearing her throat. "It was lovely to meet you, Lady Galadriel, and I appreciate you sharing your fire with Tautr and I. I trust our paths will cross again soon at tomorrow’s gala," she spoke, straightening her clothes as she stood. After a moment, she turned mounting Tautr who was now standing. There was something unreadable to only Elrond in her eyes as she inclined her head in polite bow, her tone subdued, "Elrond."

It was all she spoke, before patting Tautr who went galloping over the hill and out of sight, leaving Elrond rather stunned. Morinë was graceful, amiable and relatively even-tempered... but she was never subdued. In truth he did not believe her capable of it before this moment, not toward him, anyway. No smirk, no witty remark, just a painfully polite, markedly distant Elrond.

"Well, that was positively strange. Thank you for that," he spoke with a twinge of disappointment, glancing to Galadriel.

"It was for your benefit," she replied simply, his gaze snapping back as he turned from the hill to face her.

"And what does that mean?"

“You not knowing the answer is an answer."

"Do speak plainly, Galadriel. I fail to see the good in repelling Morine."

“My intent was not to repel her, rather to divine answers you seem determined to ignore… May I ask you a question?"

"Please do."

"I remember when Ciliren first arrived. She was a great beauty and talented shipwright, and I thought her suitable for you in more ways than most. While you were amiable and cordial to be sure, you did not seem at all as you do now. There are stars in your eyes, mellon."

"If you have a question, there is still time to ask it."

"What are you doing?" Galadriel intoned.

Taken aback, Elrond brought a hand to his chin, mulling over the question in earnest. Though her crypiticness wore on him occasionally, Galadriel was not one to act or ask without reason. “I... I am doing as the High King requested, my duty. Assisting in important work that I am invested in as both Lore Master and Herald. It is but a happy coincidence, I have made a close, dear friend as well. It is not unusual that I would be attentive."

"A dear friend, you say. I am unsure I agree with that assessment"

"Respectfully, I don’t believe it requires your agreement.”

Nodding Galadriel turned sipping calmly from her cup. “But do you believe Morine agrees?”

His expression softened for a moment before glancing away. "…Even if what you are implying is true, Morinë is… secure in our friendship. I... I do not believe her heart is set on such things," he spoke finding the thought almost painful.   

"What if it is?"

The sun having risen hours ago, Elrond ruminated on their conversation as they packed up camp. The fluttering of his heart at the thought becoming impossible to ignore as he replayed her words, his deeply hidden dreams of her inspiring a frightening hope, What if it is?

Mounting their horses, Galadriel turned to him, a sympathetic look upon her face, “I will not speak further on this matter until you have been able to provide it with more thought, but for the record: I did not hear the Wandering House either, old friend."

Tags: @valar-did-me-wrong, @orehuna, @xcrybaby555x

[elleneedsleep]

My Mouth Before It Called You A Lying Traitor

To those who belittle members of the lower class, they have failed to consider the ace that is knowledge. Rumours could be dismissed, but not forgotten. With the nobles now divided into two — those standing loyally by the Earis of Serulla, and those who believed in Sarl Zaros Atha'lin — gossip made for propaganda. Unfortunately, it seemed the information uncovered would help very little with the matters of the Trials. If anything, it only stood to fuel the candidates' internal conflicts.

Alongside the attendants who'd moved in to the Palace in order to tend to the son of Nira Atha'lin, came words of his... recent tastes. It was all speculation, of course, but the Earis's handmaidens had whispered about how all of his conquests had held a striking resemblance to them. Dismissal was the immediate response, followed swiftly by the slight hope that even an ember of their old friendship remained.

Zaros had been pinning an Atha'lin rose to his lapel, when his mother entered the room. She did not straighten his collar, nor kiss his cheek or envelope him in a hug — maternal warmth was not something he knew. But if anything, her cold nature had prepared him for the noble court.

"You look... decent. The rose is a nice touch." Nira appraised, gaze analytic as though she was a gardener pruning a hedge.

He did not reply, simply weaving blonde strands together into an intricate plait. Taking this as a sign to continue, his mother lowered her voice to a hiss, a plot readied on her tongue.

"Apparently the Earis was not as virtuous as they would have led people to believe — this will be more shocking to the court than your own exploits, fortunately."

Again, Zaros did not respond. He was not as naive as Nira Atha'lin assumed, nor did he have interest in winning through blackmail. Still, another reminder that he had forfeited his place at the Earis's side left him positively miserable.

"Zaros, are you even listening? Underhanded methods may not be your preference, but for the sake of reform—"

"—what has coveted your attention, mother?"

Blinking, Nira could not speak for a moment. She had half the mind to raise her hand to him for such insolence, but alas she could not afford to direct him back into the arms of that spoilt palace brat. Clearing her throat, she continued with her tale, though the expression on her face distinctly proved her unspoken warning.

"The Earis has shown favour to lovers reminiscent of your visage, my son. If they harbour any lingering affections from your youth, it would be wise to use that to our advantage. Surely you know that the loser of the Trials will be disgraced to the point that one's position may be futile in the face of mockery?"

A noticeable hitch in Zaros's breath caught her attention, but she did not scold him. No one was immune to infatuation but she had faith that he would choose family, and the ideologies she had spent countless hours teaching him, over childish emotions. Still, Nira had the sense to leave in that moment, aware that the second Trial required careful preparation.

The door may have shut, but for Zaros it was the sound of a dam cracking. He downed the glass of wine, filling it up again as though the alcohol burning down his throat was some herbal remedy. Had they thought of him, when they'd lain with people of similar likeness? Had they both been so prideful as to reject the implication of reciprocation?

With a curse, his fists hit the desk he'd been writing his arguments at. He wanted to make do on his jest, and climb through the window and hold his Earis in his arms. Eight long years, and still his heart was weak to that insufferable snark. To that self-righteous nature. To that dammed smile which spurred dangerous thoughts.

Shoulder to shoulder, like the pillars at the entrance to the library, two adolescents watched the stars as though waiting for them to unveil some hidden secret. One, clearly not used to such late night rendezvous, anxiously looked over their shoulder for fear of being caught. The other, noticing such with a merciless grin, draped his arm over them.

"Are you scared of being caught, belladonna?"

His words earned him a huff, and a jab to the ribs with an elbow at the use of the nickname. Clearly, they were not aware of the true meaning of that flower: a dangerous beauty, indeed. A few heartbeats passed before the victim of his playful tease answered with a sarcastic tone of voice.

"No, it's not like anything would happen to us if Madame Venys caught us out after curfew. She would applaud our climbing skills, for sure, and neither you nor I would spend the next few days organising the non-fiction section."

Zaros snickered, leaning into them. They nudged him in retaliation, but nonetheless did not pull away. It would always be like this with them, he could sense it. A verbal back and forth which secreted far too many glances. Silence came over them again, just shy of awkwardness yet comfortable all the same.

"One day," they started, "I'm going to make a map of the stars."

It was an unexpected declaration, but Zaros did not complain, his gaze softening. Something pulled on his mind; it would typically be buried, but his tongue had been loosened by her vulnerable statement.

"Will you go alone?" He asked, quietly.

"Would you want me to?"

The young Sarl almost wanted to scoff at their audacity to have a back and forth during what should be an intimate conversation. But, he knew now to look beyond that porcelain mask — the pretense of the expectations weighed upon them.

"I could not think of anything so honourable as ensuring that Her Emminence's second born does not do anything foolish on their voyage."

A well-crafted response. Not quite the I could think of no better place for me than by your side that he had wanted to say, but it was enough. Their hands crept closer, until their pinkies were entertwined in a silent vow.

Oh, but how the death of the original Earis could change everything.

[amethystunarmed]

we have loved the stars too fondly

Word Count: 1039 On the way to British Guiana, John grows closer to the Stratfords. Maybe too close.

After three days on the ship, John can safely say he is getting used to having company. It is different, having people around who are growing almost akin to... Friends. It is a new experience for him. While in South Africa, he had written to Nova often, of course, missed her like a severed limb, but he had grown familiar with solitude, just himself and the stars. Ever since meeting Margaret and the Stratfords, his life has gotten much... Louder than he was used to.

This is not always a good thing.

"Come on, you have to tell us which part was your favorite!" Rose says, eyes sparkling. 

"I most certainly do not!" 

Meals often look like this now, bantering and debating. Margaret retired early, and without her obvious scorn to dissuade them, they've taken to interrogating John about their hoax.

"That does make it sound like you have a favorite," Samuel points out, and John is fairly certain he feels betrayed. 

“Please, don’t encourage her.”

"Was it the pyramids?" Rose asks, "I bet it was the pyramids." Her whole face is lit up with unbridled joy, her whole attention focused on John. It feels like watching a comet blaze across the night sky.

"I'm partial to the bat people," Samuel adds. He sits back, hand on his chin in faux contemplation. The golden rim of his glasses glints in the candle light like the sun. 

Both of them are beaming at him, bright as stars, Gemini sprung to life before him. Mischief radiates from their expressions as they team up to tease him. John would have expected to feel bullied, like when the older boys at boarding school used to steal his notebooks or shove him as they passed. Instead, he has to work to keep his own smile off his face. 

“I think you’ll find I found all of it so heinous, I can’t think of which part I hated the least.” 

“Hey now!” Samuel protests, mock hurt on his face, but Rose's smile only grows.

“I don't know, I seem to remember you saying it was good.”

And she is not wrong. It was good. He had reread the first entry over a dozen times on his voyage to New York City. It wasn’t just good writing, it was good science. It was interesting and sound theory, and it had reminded John of being a little boy and staring up at the sky and asking a million different questions that, at the time, no one knew the answer to. 

It filled him with a wonder he has long forgotten.

But he had imagined the utter disdain on his father’s face when he learned what their name had become associated with, and found himself in printing house square nonetheless.

(And besides, he is certain Nova would never stop laughing if she heard what the Stratfords came up with, and he would like to avoid that if at all possible.)

“And yet sometimes good things have consequences, Miss Stratford,” he reminds her. Margaret’s absence is proof enough of that. Rose looks properly admonished at that, perhaps more than he intended, but the words still ring true.

“We... we’re figuring that out. Sorry, John.”

"Thank you. Now, Samuel-"

"Hey, wait, why do you call him by his first name!" Rose says, pouting. Her lip protrudes, just a tad, and John finds his eye drawn to it. He feels faintly flushed. 

"Why it's..." He stutters, fumbling over his words, "Not appropriate to call a lady by-"

"We're just that close!" Samuel cheers, and slides an arm around John, pulling him against him. He's taller than John, and easily tucks him into his side. “Right, Johnny?”

It’s a jest, John knows it’s a jest. But the lilt of Samuel’s voice as he says it, his closeness, the warmth of his arm around his shoulder. And even though they have been on a boat nearly half a week-

He smells divine.

John thinks he may be having a psychotic break.

John knows of these... inclinations. Of things that happen in the back rooms of London parties that everyone collectively chooses to ignore. Of his own tendencies towards such inclinations. It is not something he hates about himself. To hate it would mean hating Nova, betraying what she told him in confidence, and that is never something he could allow. But mostly, he ignores it. It has never been hard before. It has never been this strong, this pressing before. It has never felt so right before. 

His father's scowl flashes in his head, and suddenly the contact burns.

He lifts Samuel’s hand off of his shoulder, and ducks out from under it. 

“Look at the time, I ought to be going. Have a good evening, Miss Stratford, Mister Stratford.” He nods to both of them, a final acknowledgement, and turns to head back to his bunk.

“Wait, John, you don’t have to go!” Samuel says. He reaches a hand out, as if to grab John's wrist, but pulls it back quickly, like he’d been stung. John bites his lip to keep from protesting, telling Samuel to go ahead, touch him, please. “I was only teasing, I didn’t mean to make you uncomfortable.”

“Yeah, we were just joking,” Rose adds, distress wrinkling her forehead. John wants to smooth over it with his thumb. “We know we can be...” She winces, as if remembering some long healed hurt. “A lot. We’ll stop, honest.”

John sighs. This is not what he intended to happen. “No, no... You both are quite alright, really. I suppose my travels have been more draining than I first thought.”

“Okay...” Samuel says slowly, skepticism etched in his face. “Get some rest then.”

John can tell they don’t believe him; they both stare at him with wary, guilty expressions. John knows how hard they have been attempting to rebuild their relationship with Margaret and it feels cruel, leaving them to think John had any hard feelings over this. So he indulges them, just a little.

“Good night Samuel. Good night Rose.”

He strides confidently out of the mess, ignoring Rose’s delighted squeal. A grin blooms on his face, and his heart flutters.

Damn. Nova is going to be insufferable about this.

[chase-prairie]

Poesy rings - Also spelled posie or posey, these rings derived their name from the French word “poésie,” or poem, because of the short sayings with which they were engraved that were religious, friendly or amorous in nature. Posy rings were popular from the latter half of the Middle Ages, which extended from the 15th to 17th century. In medieval times, when religion was very much a part of everyday life, it was common for saints’ figures or religious text to appear on the rings alongside romantic expressions or even expressions of friendship. In this way, the rings functioned both as a religious talisman and a gift of love. The phrases were written in Latin, Old French or Old English. Until about 1350, the lettering was done in a script with rounded capital letters known as Lombardic, while later examples use Gothic script.  Certain inscriptions appear on multiple rings, indicating the goldsmiths of the day had a book of stock phrases from which clients could choose.

Phrases:

‘A Frindes gift’

‘A loving wife during life’

‘A true friends Gift’

‘A vertuous wife preseurueth life’

‘After consent ever content’

‘x AMICVS x TVVS’ ‘I love you.”

‘As God decreed soe wee agreed’

‘ As gold is pure, so love is sure’

‘AS I DESERVE SO I DESIER’

‘As I prove I wish your love’

AXCEPT * THIS * GIFT

‘Be true in Harte’

‘Bee firme in faith’

‘ CERT A MON GRE ‘ (certainly my choice)

‘Content is a treasure’

‘Continew Faythfull’

‘Denial is Death’

‘EN BON’

‘EN BON DESIR’

‘EN MI MARIE’ (to my husband)

‘Far of yet not forgot’

‘Feare god love thy choyse’

‘Feare not mee, i’le faithful bee’

‘God above increase our love’

‘God made us two one’

‘God send me always of his grace’

‘Harbor the harmless hart’

‘Harts United Live Contented’

‘Humility is the true Nobility’

‘I am free for God & Thee’

‘I cannot show the love I O’

‘I give it the to think on mee’

‘ I have obtained whome god ordained ‘

“I joy in one yet enjoy none”

‘I x LIKE x MI x CHOYSE’

‘I LIKE MY CHOIES ONLY’

‘I live in Hope’

‘I love and like my choice’

‘I rejoyce in the my choice’

‘I with your pretty sight, will breed you much delight’

‘In Christ and thee my comfort be’

‘In love abide till death devide’

‘In loyalty Ile live and dye’

‘In thy breast my heart doth rest’

‘In thee I find content of mind’

‘In thee my choyce I doe reioyce’

‘In thy sight is my delight’

‘Knit in one by Christ alone ‘

‘Let the Lord above send peace & love’

‘Let this present my good intent’

‘Let love continue’

‘Let us share in joy and care’

‘Let vertue rule affection’

‘Let vertue still direct thy will’

‘Let virtue be a guid to thee * ‘

‘Live & Love’

‘Live and Love Happy’

  ‘Live in Love & feare the lord above’

‘ Love I Like Thee + Sweete Requite Thee’

‘Love is my joy’

‘Love is the bond of peace’

‘love never dies where vertu lies’

‘Loue to be louved’

‘Love till you dye and soe will I’

‘Love vertu’

‘Moe love to Myne’ More love to Mine’

‘My gift is myselfe’

‘my hart is thine’

‘My Heart I Bind Where Love I Find’

‘My love by this presented is‘

My love to thee shall endless be

‘NE MEUR BON’  followed by a heart rebus (A good heart never dies)

‘No gift like good will’

‘No riches like content’

‘Noe Heart More true than mine to you.’

‘Noe recompence but love’

‘None Can Preuent the Lord’s Intent’

‘Not loft but gon before.’

‘Not so able as willing’

‘Not the value but my love’

‘Of earthli joyse thou art my choys’

‘Oh hurt noty [heart pictogram] whose only joy thou art’

‘One chosen both happy’

‘Rather dye then faith denye’

‘Remember the giver’

‘Sith hands and hart with one Consent let nought but death the Knot preuent’

‘Some love in earnest, some in jest, I love her that I like best’

‘Success to our fleet.’

‘The god of peace our love increase’

‘* THE HART SAW * THE LOVE CHOSEN * * NEVER BROKEN * JOYND ETERNAL *’

‘The Lord us Bless with Good Success’

‘The loue is trew that I O U’

‘The Love of thee is life to me’

‘The ring is round & hath no end so is my love for thy’

“Thinke it not strange though wee exchaing”

‘True love is endless’

‘True love will not remove’

‘TRYFULL+NOT+WYTH+THE+TRUSTY++’

‘UBI AMOR IBI FIDES’ Where There is Love There is Faith’

‘United hearts death only parts’

‘Vertue paseth ryches’

‘Wee joine our harts in God’

‘Wee joyne our love in God above’

‘When this you se remember me’

‘Yield and Conquer’

‘You and I will Lovers dye’

‘You have my hart’

‘You never knew a heart more true ‘

‘YOURS TO COMMAND.’

[asgardianhammer]

"What if I kissed you right now?"// After Belated, no official smooch yet, maybe date, maybe she has his thunder butt on a sparring mat, up to you just spitballing

[ ϟ ]— Question had slipped from her lips like lightning playing coy, bright and sudden, dangerous in its promise. It did not need thunder behind it to shake him, her voice alone managed to do so effortlessly, soft and low beneath the hush of the rain he had coaxed from the clouds for her pleasure.

The summer warmth rolled around them, clinging to bare skin and silk fabric alike, rainwater steaming where it met the heat of his skin. Standing close, yet not quite close enough, mirth-filled laughter had rolled outward moments before, the assault of utterly warm droplets teasing in nature.

A threat made reality; warning was uttered after a tease and fond rolling of eyes, that he would not be able to contain himself should she continue to jest. The downpour began in a steady, quite deliberate descend of impossibly warm and heavy drops.

Golden hair clung slick at the temples, a faint smile curving the god's mouth and shirt that was half-unbuttoned now laid plastered over wide expanse of broad chest.

Tilting of head comes with a broadening of the grin, gaze burning a sliver of gold as it traced the line of Ororo's mouth.

' If you did the storm will forget which one of us it belongs to.'

Leaning in was a barely visible act, only enough to ghost a breath against her own, allowing her to choose if the storm would fall or if she would make him beg.

' If you do, you would be saving the world from drowning. Surely that is worth the sacrifice?'

[sienne-k]

✌️☮️☪️ for the language asks?

hi my dear! 💜

✌ : favourite proverb/saying from your language

"kręcić się jak smród po gaciach" - mill around like stink inside undies well it's not much of a proverb but it is a saying very often used by my family lol... mostly towards kids, when they are going from one place to another without any reason, looking for something to do and not be bored

☮ : translate the first lines of your favourite song in your language

wow you threw me in deep waters. how am i supposed to choose a favorite song??? also... does it mean favorite polish song translated into english, or a favorite song translated into polish...? i will go with the first meaning. it's an old song, but very impactful. and once i heard it sung live (though not by the original singer), i got chills and cried so much, i don't think i could ever forget it.

strange, is this world where there's still place for so much evil. and strange is also that, for so many years, humans disdain humans. "Dziwny jest ten świat" by Czesław Miłosz

☪ : what do you hate about your language?

this is less the language itself, but... i hate the way it is used in official channels. by which i mean, the laws and the like. it can get pretty confusing, and somehow, while trying to make it clearer, the authorities use so many additional words to remove ambiguity that a sentence can stretch for half a page and in the end not only is the law not any clearer, you don't even remember what the beginning of the sentence said by the time you get to the end... when i read some of the american laws and contracts for the first time, i was so betrayed that the official language can be so simple and easy to understand! and that's how it should be, since citizens should adhere to the law, but to do so, they must first know what the law is saying... in poland, you can take no chances at what you think the law says - you have to go to a professional and ask. and sometimes the professional will go, "yeah no, in your case it will be best to get an official interpretation from the highest authority just in case".

ugh

[driftward]

Title: FFXIV Write 2024 - 14. Telling Characters: Zoissette Vauban, Solita Grey Rating: Teen Summary: Solita has two hands and two clients. One's a gadfly, the other's an idiot, this is a vexing evening. Notes: Weird Wild West AU, a Desertwalkers story

Solita was enjoying the pleasant turn in the evening at the Cat's Eye cabaret.

Her date for the evening had momentarily vanished, saying he wished to go refresh himself before retiring for the night. The man was a well meaning Hrothgar gentleman from Bozja. Apparently interested in local opportunities which he could leverage for his concerns back home. Kind enough, but she got the distinct impression he was not quite taking her seriously. He asked the right sort of questions, asking for her expertise on many matters, but was perhaps a bit too fond of his jests, and often seemed distracted. He had not been quite rude, nor quite condescending, but, well.

It was frustrating. But that was a common enough state of affairs in her line of work. She took a sip of her champagne. For all that, though, he had been charming, and had a likable demeanor. If he did not wish to heed her, that would be rather more his problem than hers, and she had high hopes for the momentary entertainments of the evening. In the morning, he would be on his way, and she could review what she had learned with the others.

For now, she found herself simply enjoying the atmosphere of the cabaret. She exulted in her senses, the taste of fine liquor on her tongue, the slightly spicy smell of people and cedar and food and drink that wafted through the air, the thrum of the music through the floorboards, the visual spectacle of dancers on the stage. Even the auras of the place were flowing and pulsing pleasantly, the Weave choosing to reflect everyone's good mood.

Her work could be frustrating at times, but it also had its perks, and moments like this were among them. She closed her eyes, took a deep breath, and just took it all in.

"Ah! Mz. Grey! I was hoping I would find you here!"

She pondered, for the briefest of moments, about the sheer relief and joy she might feel in getting help from Thancred to hide a body.

When she opened her eyes, she could see the bright starriness of Zoissette's aura before she caught sight of her big stupid grinning face.

Her ears went back immediately.

Zoissette didn't notice. She had one of her notebooks open, and was excitedly pointing at her entries in it.

"The petrified forest was a revelation! I have finished my spectral analysis, and you would not believe the aspects of the aether I found within them. Well, maybe you would, actually. I managed to confirm some of your-"

Solita reached up and grabbed the collaring on Zoissette's dress, pulling her ear down to mouth level.

"I am with another client tonight," she hissed. "Make an appointment."

Zoissette's expression immediately shifted to mild horror, and she cleared her throat as Solita let her go. "Oh, I apolo-"

"Why hello! Who's this!" boomed a cheerful voice.

Solita took a deep breath and forced a smile as she turned. The Hrothgar gentlemen had returned, and he took her hand, bowing deep to give it a gentle kiss on the back of her hand, before turning his attention to Zoissette, giving her a friendly smile.

"Hello, dear," said Solita stiffly. "Zoissette, this is the esteemed Pretorad Desasch, a gentleman from Bozja. Pretorad, this is Zoissette Vauban, who I believe was just stopping by on her way home."

Solita watched Zoissette sharply. Not giving a full introduction could be considered rude, but she did not particularly care just this moment. However, as she spoke, she could see Zoissette shift. The woman stood up a little straighter. Her previously open expression faded to a detached half smile. Her posture shifted, her arms pulling in to her sides, and she somehow made herself look more ... presentable? Elegant?

Not quite. Solita could now see what Thancred had already pointed out to her in an earlier conversation. Zoissette was a member of the gentry, possibly even nobility. She always had a certain poise and posture to her, but previously it had been open, care free. Now she was closed off but presentable, lightly guarded, somehow in that twilight between welcoming but not truly universally approachable.

This was a woman who was used to the upper echelons of the spoken and unspoken languages of power. A place where Solita herself lived these days, as part of her work.

"Pretorad Desasch, I do not believe I have known the pleasure," said Zoissette, her voice more airy than usual. Distant. "It is a pleasure to make your acquaintance. I must offer my sincere apologies, however, as the Mz. Grey has the right of it. I am only recently returned from my errands, and perhaps should be heading for my home."

Zoissette offered a curtsy. Her words and tone were polite. She was being mildly deferential.

"Nonsense," said Pretorad, as he wrapped one arm around Solita and placed a hand on her shoulder. "Any friend of Solita's is a friend worth getting to know. Come, stay with us a moment! Tell me, Lady Vauban, was it? What do you do around here?"

He gestured at the bartender while Solita continued to stare daggers at Zoissette. "I would say she is perhaps more of an acquaintance."

"Well, as mentioned, Mz. Grey has the right of it, and I do not wish to bother either of you much longer," said Zoissette, her face still wearing that distant half-smile. "But if the sir must know, I am a naturalist. My interests lie in the local flora, fauna, and histories."

"Oh, and were you trying to hide this gem from me, dear Solita?" asked Pretorad, laughing. "Or perhaps you were eager to retire for the night? But please, Lady Vauban, entertain me for a few questions, would you?"

Zoissette tilted her head, a question. But in the motion was a subtlety. The tilt was towards Solita, and angled so that Solita could see her eyes despite her glasses, see that she was clearly looking to her. Solita, after a moment's hesitation and thought, gave the slightest nod. There was little helping the matter now, she decided. Might as well get this over with and quickly, if possible.

Zoissette gave Pretorad a curtsey, and Pretorad waved his hand towards the barkeep. "Splendid! Simply splendid. Three drinks, my good man, whatever they like, and I'll have some of that local specialty, what's it called? Mezzal?"

"Mezcal, sir," said Zoissette politely. "I shall follow the gentleman's example."

Solita simply gestured for the barkeep to top of her glass, and he nodded. It did not take him long to provide their drinks to them, and Pretorad leaned his back against the bar, facing outward. Space enough for Solita on one side, but able to keep his attention on Zoissette on the other.

"A naturalist! Tell me more. Anything currently have your interest?"

"Verification of local histories and folklore while I survey the local landscape. There is a cornucopia of information to be gleaned for those who seek it. I am only recently back from an expedition, and Mz. Grey's services proved invaluable in its success."

Zoissette gestured at Solita as she spoke, and bowed her head towards her.

"Surveying, hmm?" said Pretorad thoughtfully. He glanced over at Solita. "And how did the seer's insight help with that?"

"She knows the local area far better than I, and its histories, as well as having an intimacy with the land that I lack. Her findings, combined with my own, enabled me to create a more accurate map with increased fidelity and previously uncharted information on aetheric densities in the area I explored."

"Fascinating, fascinating, simply fascinating! Aetheric densities, hmm? Well, wonders never cease, when it comes to wonders! Any plans for another expedition?"

"Ah. Well. When she is once more able to spare some time for me, I was hoping to gain her insight to the fields to the north, and perhaps begin another survey."

"Hmn. Might I be able to convince you to show me where you are speaking of?"

Zoissette hesitated, slightly, but after a moment, she pulled a map out of one of her bags, and carefully laid it out over two nearby barstools. She pointed as she spoke. "This is not a political map, so kindly overlook the lack of recognizable landmarks. I can tell you that Stonewood, where we are now, is here; my prior surveys happened in the grasslands not so far from here. And here, near the southern buttes, and here, in the petrified forest. My next survey I intend to perform shall be here, the outer ceruleum fields."

Pretorad looked over the map with a practiced eye, rubbing his chin. "Interesting," he murmured. He glanced over at Solita. "Some of these are places I too am curious about. I notice you updated the topographical markers, and made note of mineral veins and other such areas of interest. And these markings?"

"The aforementioned Aetheric readings. You may use the guide in the lower corner, sir."

"Hah hah! Of course, of course. And next, I cannot help but notice that is near the outer ceruleum fields. I believe they are yet virgin. Perhaps trying to get in on a little early tapping action, hmn?"

Zoissette stiffened slightly, and while Solita remained outwardly relaxed, she felt a twinge of alert.

"My interests, I assure you sir, are not commercial in nature."

Pretorad laughed at that. "Of course not, of course not! A naturalist would never sully their good name with such matters, I am certain. Why, they know every number except the economic, am I right? The quantity of every mass, but the value of none, to mangle a phrase? Hah hah hah!"

Zoissette froze for a moment, and Solita was immediately very on edge. She did not know fully which insults that Zoissette was prone to taking exception to, but this was one of Pretorad's not-quite-rude comments she herself had been diplomatically ignoring all night. But now she wondered if she would be having to deal with her client being stabbed.

But then, Zoissette laughed, a hollow, tittering thing. "Ah, of course, good sir, of course," she said stiffly.

"The sir may know the price of ceruleum futures, but 'tis the naturalist that sees the value beyond the economic. Such true value may be a question of taste, but if the good sir cannot see nor understand that which the naturalist values, he will find himself all the poorer for it," said Solita bitingly. She was not sure why she had been so deferential tonight, anyroad. The man was pleasant, but becoming a boor, and she nor her reputation would suffer fools.

Galling though it was to be stuck mediating between a fool and an idiot.

"My, I'd almost forgotten what a sharp tongue you have," said Pretorad cooly. He reached over to gently curl a finger under Solita's chin, and smiled kindly at her. "I hope to not find out anything about the sharpness of those teeth, later.

"But! You are right, and I would be more the fool to not heed your counsel which I am paying handsomely for, after all," he said, letting his hand drop. "My apologies to both of you, ladies."

Zoissette relaxed, and curtsied. "I accept your apology, and choose to take no further offense, sir."

Solita just made a small noise of assent and sipped her champagne.

"Hah! Well, thank you, my lady. My, you certainly know your manners," he said thoughtfully. "And your terrain," he added, gesturing at the map, which Zoissette reached for and began to roll up. "I wonder what you might say to a potential sponsorship, assuming you aren't self sponsored or don't already have one? Even if you do, I think I would be best pleased to offer my support. Or even just purchase first rights, whatever that would cost me. You've the seer's faith, it seems, and now that I've seen your work, I think I would like to pay for my own faith in your future work."

Solita watched this exchange with mild interest. Zoissette did not tense up again, and this was rather more like the business sort of conversation she had been hired on for with Pretorad.

"I appreciate your interest, sir," said Zoissette. "However, I find myself deferring to the Lady Grey. My work would not be possible without hers. I would prefer that you confer with her, and perhaps she can serve as a necessary intermediary between your business and mine."

"Oh, of course, of course," said Pretorad thoughtfully, rubbing his chin. He set his drink down. "Ah! I have forgotten my case and papers back at our table from earlier. How remiss of me to not bring them along for such important discussion. If you will give me a moment, I shall return."

He bowed to Zoissette, who curtsied in turn, then turn and gently took Solita's hand to give it a kiss. She gifted him with a smile, and a gentle wave.

As he left passed out of close distance, she turned on Zoissette just in time to see the woman deflate, turning to hold herself up against the bar.

She looked some kind of miserable, and Solita felt a pang of concern despite herself.

"I had forgotten how tiring all this could be," she said. "I meant to apologize earlier, Mz. Grey. I would not intentionally interfere with your work. And I must apologize now. I think, that I will be taking my leave."

Solita looked over at where Pretorad apparently was just finding his glasses in his briefcase, and beginning to flip through some papers he seemed to always have near or on him.

"He shall wonder at your absence," she said.

"Ah, the usual excuses shall suffice. I hate to be a further burden, but just tell him I excused myself with a case of the vapors. I doubt he is the type to be rude enough to insist on inquiring further after that. He should recognize the excuse for what it is." She paused. "Should." Another moment. "I hate all these stupid games."

"You seems to excel at playing these games of words and meaning," said Solita, feeling faintly baffled.

"I excel at being -polite-, which I choose to be," said Zoissette stiffly. "And - no. Forget it. I apologize, again. Good night, Solita."

Solita frowned at her as she went. "Hold a moment, if you would."

Zoissette paused.

"...you can make arrangements through Mz. Gohtawyn, if you still wish to speak to your findings."

Zoissette turned to her with a pained smile, pushing up her glasses, and just shook her head slightly.

"I will not waste any more of your time on this," she said. "Do not worry. If you are truly curious, I will publish to our local library before next season. Your contributions will be noted, and I do intend to seek you out before I make for my next survey. Take care, Mz. Grey."

Zoissette left, allowing no time for further comment, and Solita was left at the bar, feeling oddly bemused at the exchange.

Pretorad returned, with his case, holding some papers, looking around curiously as he did so.

Solita gestured to him with a champagne glass. "The Lady Vauban has retired for the evening."

"Has she now? I suspected as much. Damned shame, but understandable. I hope you're not too upset at my attempt to poach such a gem from your hand. I was told of your reputation, but to see the exact caliber of person in your orbit! Hmn. And her bearing... former military on top of all that, I'd wager. I have been short sighted."

Solita wanted to protest, but did not, instead just swirling her champagne in her glass. "More the fool you, then. You know my reputation. I can hardly fault you for not taking me at face value, but perhaps you might have verified such yourself."

"Hah! Forgive me my methods, but if you'll allow, I find that I have done exactly that."

"Well I hope you find yourself satisfied," said Solita, finishing her drink. She was tired of tonight, between these two. "Perhaps we might retire for the evening as well?"

He set down his papers. "Business before pleasure, if you don't mind. Indulge me?"

"If you insist."

They both sat down at the bar, and he began to go over his interests in the area once more, conversations they had already had. But this time, she noticed, to her rather deep annoyance, that he was paying more attention this time around, seemed more inclined to heed her words. Earlier in the day he had been more boisterous, more cheerful, almost at play. But now, he was clearly being more serious about matters, taking notes, deferring to her very expensive expertise.

She took the matter professionally, and hid her annoyance. At least he was finally taking her seriously, and frankly, that did give her a sense of satisfaction. As their conversation winded into the late hours and resolved, and they at last retired, Solita had one last annoyance, however, as she found herself wondering after one Zoissette Vauban.

[siberat]

There’s Always Room for Dessert

Have a little t/c x rat/chet Drabble. I am not on word nor have access to grammarly, so only simply edified.

The secret lovers meet up at a Buffett, and eating ensues. Chubfic.

Feeling the table press into his swollen gut was both satisfying and annoying. Another unplanned meet-up with the blue see/ker resulted in fine dinning at a local buffet. While the food may not have been top notch, it satiated one’s desire to pig out. And now Ratc/het sat back in the booth, rubbing his swollen gut.

“Don’t tell me you are full already,” Thunde/rcracker grinned, eyeing the massive belly. “I still haven’t hit up the dessert table.”

The medic groaned, rolled his optics, and stifled a burp. “I ain’t no whelp. However, I think dinner is done.”

“I’d say so.” The see/ker’s hand reached over and gave the paunch a playful pat. “Shall I select you something tasty from the cake section?”

“You better, or else.”

“Or else what?”

“Or else I’m going back to my room and sleeping this off.”

Thunder/cracker pouted. The pair didn't spend a lot of time together- being in the middle of a war had several drawbacks. And what little time he had, the ‘Co/n wanted to make last.

“Don’t you worry, my sweets. I will serve you the best tasting desserts available.” The see/ker rose to his feet. “Well, at least the best this place has to offer.”

“You better make it worth the wait.” The medic barked, a devious grin appearing on his face. While the flier loved watching the Auto/bot devour plate after plate, that gruff attitude always shown up if that mouth wasn’t full.

And Thunderc/racker loved it! That biting attitude, while always in jest, just really proved how playful the other could be. Because we all know under that hardened exterior, Rat/chet was such a softy.

Well, as of late, the medic’s protoform under his plating was growing soft as well.

But soon enough, a heaping plateful of cake slices, brownies, chocolates and ice creams were set in front of the medic.

“You better put your money where your mouth is,” T/C deeply growled as he took a seat next to the stuffed mech.

Ratc/het only responded by licking his lips and rubbing his belly as he looked over the mountain of scrumptious sweets in front of him. All the chosen foods looks so good! How could he choose which to consume first?

Turns out, the decision was made for him as a forkful of the rich, chocolate brownies was pressed to his lips. And just how could one deny such a decedent treat? The medic’s mouth opened and as soon as the warm, gooey mess hit his taste sensors, his engines rumbled.

And as soon as servo’s rubbed at his swollen tummy his cooling fans clicked on.

In fact, Ratc/het didn’t know what was better- being fed by his secret Decep/ticon lover or getting those belly rubs! When it came to attention, the see/ker never skimped. Nor let down. It was as if the fattened mech’s body was an idol, and T/C was the devout worshipper. And when it came to tending to needs, T/C had all bases covered.

“Here,” The See/ker held up a tall glass of cold ener-melk. “Tell me this doesn't hit the spot.”

Rat/chet didn’t need to take a gulp to know this beverage went well with the brownie- or any of the other desserts. He took a gulp before opening his mouth for more food.

And more came. Bit after bite of sweets were fed. Swallow after swallow sweets were devoured. It only took half the deserts being consumed for that belly to growl out in warnings of the upcoming belly ache. But Rat/chet did not stop. The food simply tasted to good to say no!

That, and Thunder/cracker did not relent with shoving food into his maws. Of course, Ratc/het didn’t stop him.

But as the medic began to slow down, that servo rubbed with more purpose at that rounded paunch. The touch was soft and gentle in the beginning, but now, the pressure of the touch built. Every little rumble of a belly quake was chased down and messaged. And that added pressure did something within that spare tire.

Something tickled deep within his tanks, causing minor cramping before rising upward. Upon those digits pressing firmer, the sensation grew, and soon, something traveled upwards. Rat/chet was happy he had time to close his mouth as to at least save some dignity and not let a monster of a belch escape full blast!

At least this one was muffled.

“Tum-Tum feel better?”

Rat/chet nodded and opened his mouth for more. There was no way he was finished. At least, he wanted those touches to his beach-ball sized belly to continue and he knew if he kept eating, T/C would keep rubbing.

Even when breathing became hard and swallowing became such a chore, the medic pressed on. Just hearing T/C’s words of praise and those caresses of encouragement gave him strenght to polish off cakes, pies and ice cream. All too soon, that monster of a belly no longer could fit any more snacks inside. Nor could it fit within the booth!

Nearly sweating, the medic leaned back, rubbing his own servo‘s over his overstuffed and sore belly. He panted to catch his breath and wished against wish to just lay down!

“You are so well for me tonight,” T/C cooed, giving the belly a playful pinch. Anything else catch your fancy?”

“The berth,” Rat/chet boldly stated.

“Hmmmmm… How presumptuous of you,” T/C deeply hummed.

“I want to lay down.”

“Do you need further soothing?” A smile appeared on the See/kers lips.

“You know, I do expect some royal treatment after that feast I consumed for you…”

“Allow me to tend to your desires….”

And Ratchet could help but smile at that. He knew just what this evening had in store. All the tummy tickles he could want- as well as other things getting special attention.

See, there was always room for dessert.

[just-a-carrot]

Hey, Carrot!!

Just wanted to confirm you that your self-indulgent does, in fact, also mean "us-indulgent" 🤣🤣

I've just played the game and I loved it🤩🤩

I was kind of mad when I saw that I could only choose the options with the hand so many times before the bar depleted and lost the chance of getting the true ending. (I wanted to "make a jest" so bad every time it appeared 🤣🤣)

I adore the menu screen once you get THE ending, it's just so sweet I will stare at it forever🤧🤧

Btw, the whole game reminded me a lot of that one piece of art from some time ago and I can't help but wonder: did this piece sparkle the idea of the game (like, the conversation that they could have given their roles, which would eventually become the game)?

Or maybe it's simply that they both happen in the same place and are inspired by dd2(?🤣🤣

(Also, I know almost nothing about dd2, what does it mean when his hand started glowing?)

WAH

i'm really happy you enjoyed it... 💕 thank you for playing! lkdjflaksdf i'm sorry about forcing you to choose other options 🤣 there are a couple different ways you can reach the end. i think you only need to save up will for like... maybe 2(?) choices. and there are a few possible choices where not choosing the hand option will still let you proceed

the rest of this got kinda rambly also with vid/images so i've put it behind a cut (what's wrong with me)

LOL i wouldn't say this game was directly inspired by that specific art piece, moreso that that place in the game is just really inspiring to me because it's so beautiful, so it fills me with all sorts of soft feels (and ideas) and also just gives me a sense of calm. it's also why i have so many shots of it in the music video LKDJFALSKD i think i've spent literal hours there i have so much footage there of just clips like this:

so it was more just me wanting to do something soft and sweet so my mind immediately went back to this place

re: the glowing palm scar LKDJFALKSDFA THAT'S...

ok so. mmm. the scar itself in-game is essentially a symbol of his connection to the arisen (iggy). it glows every time he gets summoned from a rift stone and is reunited with iggy... i think it might possibly glow at other (canon) times though it's hard to tell because until recently genzou's outfit always had gloves and/or he's often holding a weapon in his right hand (so i can't tell for instance if it glows when he's revived...)

on the left is the best shot i've gotten of it when not glowing. on the right is the only good shot i can get of it glowing because for this cutscene the game removes his glove lol... now that i have him in the new outfit with half his hand showing though i'd like to see if i can get a good shot of him being resummoned to see if i can see the glow. i need to try pausing and zooming in because i only have this faraway shot:

however for him to be resummoned it means he needs to die and that hurts my heart (and makes his affection go down LKDJFLADS) so i don't like doing it (but i would do it for science...)

ANYWAY. there isn't any actual explanation or lore given for it in-game besides being shown it and knowing that all pawns have this scar and it's their symbol. but ofc like so many things about this game, my head ran away with me and started coming up with many of my own head canons about the scar. mostly that i have decided it reacts to like... their connection in general. strong emotional responses between them (like when they kiss... ldkfajsldkfa). a literal symbol of genzou's internal psyche in relation to iggy and it'll flare up sometimes as a strong reaction to something about iggy, etc. i like to think that genzou gets embarrassed by it because it'll flare up if he's feeling particularly strongly LOL

i-it's just very precious to me... i think it's very sweet and cute and i love it very much...💦

I'M SORRY FOR RAMBLING I LOVE TALKING ABOUT THEM AND THESE SILLY HEAD CANONS LKDJFALSKDF