#hahaha so funny amiright

[alterouslyinlove]

other friend: *hugs me or something*

me: i do not like physical touch get away from me

him: haha same

me: nooo not you please

[fuxuannie]

↳ pairing : miles morales x g-neutral reader

↳ synopsis : a complicated crush

↳ authors note : theres someone named 'milestokilometers' (?) thats always in my notifs whenever i post miles and i find it really funny HAHAHA an old draft (like, i wrote this the day i watched atsv), wanted to get it out of the way

The first time you encounter the spider-boy was on a particularly stressful day. You just finished texting Miles that you needed a breather and wanted to hang ontop of your apartment rooftop for a few hours, just to clear your mind.

To your surprise, it seemed like the Friendly Neighborhood Spiderman coincidentally swung by your rooftop and needed a break too.

That sparked a rather.. interesting dynamic between the both of you. You were sort of taken aback on how fond Spiderman seemed of you, since he'd visit almost every other day.

For starters, hugs seemed to last far longer than they needed to when it came to you. You've seen his public appearances, how the exchange seemed to last a mere second with his fans. However with you, it lingers. It stays for almost two seconds longer and almost as if he's starved of such affection.

Secondly was the way he'd swing by at the most random and ungodly hours of the night to knock at your window and go; "I made you a playlist :)" while you just have to let him in and listen to the whole thing with him. You have no idea how he knows that you barely sleep either.

Thirdly is the way he'll always try to put a smile on your face. It'll always be your favorite thing whenever there's a silly thing going on and he looks at you to see if you saw it too, just so he'll see you laugh and laugh along with you.

And one of the more embarassing things to mention were the public appearances. You and Spiderman often went on hangouts, (he called them dates and you unintentionally friendzoned him) and even if you do your absolute best to avoid it, you'll always find paparazzi spotting the both of you. But even amidst the crowd, you can see how his attention is fixed on you. As if nothing could break his gaze if attempted.

You won't ever forget the time that Miles, your best friend and long term crush asked where you got the keychain on your bag from (which was a gift from Spiderman after he pointed at matching keychains and practically declared to everyone in the store he was buying it for you) and you answered: "Someone special to me." You noticed a bit of a glint or glow in his eyes, almost as if he was happy for you.. for some reason.

Though you did admit you found it a little strange.. your best friends sudden Q&A sessions about Spiderman, you mean.

"What do you think about Spiderman?"

"Pretty cool superhero, amiright?"

"His costume does NOT look like hes bleeding from his armpits, surely you'll agree?"

You find it odd but brush it off, at least you're done with class for the day and get to meet with the center topic of every question Miles has asked you today.

"Spiderman." Smiling as he swung onto your rooftop, he arrives on time with the same flashy landing. "(name)!" There he goes to practically tackle you into a hug, squeezing you tightly as you can see the joy in his eyes. "I know that it's only been a few minu- ahem. hours.. since we last saw each other, it's been so lonely!"

You raise a brow in amusement, chuckling a little at his antics. "Aren't you the Spiderman? I'm sure you have a lot of friends or fans who'd love to see you." You inquired but he shakes his head a little and sighs.

"Well yeah.. of course I do, but you're the one I wanna spend time with."

"..That's so unbelievably cheesy-"

"Shut up!" He demands, causing you to laugh at his almost instant embarassment. "You know, my best friend was asking so much about you.. I think he's your biggest fan." You add to the conversation, leaning against a safety fence as he chuckled. "Really? What gives you that idea?"

You huff and cross your arms. "Just.. weird questions. What I think of you, if you're cool and if your costume looked like you were bleeding out if your armpits."

"What did you answer?"

"I didn't answer any of them," You say with a huff, already feeling a headache coming in right after recalling that memory. "But I do think you're bleeding out of your armpits."

"RUDE."

It doesn't take a genius to tell he's unamused even under the mask, how his eyes looked spoke enough volumes. The iconic 'are you serious.' look was evident enough and it makes you giggle, giving him a light nudge. "I'm kiddinggg... kind of."

Spiderman chuckles and crosses his arms, looking at your fit of giggles and smiling softly under his mask. "Cute."

"I'm curious.. you talk about this friend of yours alot.. Miles, isn't it? What's he like?" He asks curiously, knowing damn well he just wants to hear what you say about him to other people. Was this the best way to do it? Not exactly, but curiosity kills the cat.. or whatever the saying is.

"Did I not tell you about him? Well.. he's a bit of a clutz.. rather clumsy at times, usually bumping into me or something.."

Miles was going to pretend he doesn't know the reason he does that is to just be able to be super close to you.

"Sometimes he's a little bit reckless, usually a very messy guy and leaves a mess whenever he goes over to my house.. However, despite all of that.. I really really like him."

What.

"You like m- Miles ???"

He watches you smile fondly at the sky. "Yeah. A lot."

If only you could see the face he's making under that mask, a mix of fluster and absolute joy at those words. You actually liked him. "Well.. what stops you from telling him?" Miles inquired, watching you sigh and bury your head into your hands. "And what? Get badly rejected and lose my best friend? Nah man.. I can't lose him, not like that."

"Hey, look at me."

He places his hands on your shoulders, making you look right at him as he gives you a reassuring squeeze. "You don't have to be so afraid, I don't think there's much to lose.. who knows? Maybe he feels the same."

You chuckle a little at the idea, completely clueless to how excited Miles was gonna be once he gets that text from you. "Thanks, Spiderman."

"You're welcome."

[ramsywasalittlelamb]

so what if.. haha.. i was writing a fic for it since i posted this.. hahaha. wouldn’t that be funny. wouldn’t it even be cool if i.. posted the fic??? haha. wild stuff amiright?

may I suggest luke skywalker regressing during the snowstorm in the empire strikes back while han solo is just assuming the hypothermia is making him behave like a scared kid so he just takes care of him without a second thought?? any takers?? anyone??

[peapod20001]

Haha woaoew it would be sooo unexpected and funny if I were to start working on that Blondee & Goose animatic again,,,

[rainia]

sorry about the paint water, man. in times of need, we all become narcissus, fallen to our own hubris 😔😔

(ALSO FORTIFIED STOMACH ACIDS AMIRIGHT)

anyways just came in here to day your daily updates are epic and i absolutely adore reading them on my dash. youre very funny and very cool and you constantly raise the bar for What Wacky Thing Will You Say Today <3

So true 😔 HeadinHands my stomach will recover but my heart, my soul- they will not /j fhfhhfhfj

Also thank you for the kind words LMAO, it’s super sweet of you 💞💓💗💕Hahaha I honestly just be saying words and hitting Send Post, no thoughts head empty, so I’m glad you find it entertaining DHJFJFFJGF

[margridarnauds]

fandomswillruinmylife replied to your post “grendelsmilf: u know those shows that are so full of potential but...”

Why do you wanna rewrite merlin? I’m on S4E9 (when lancelot comes back from the dead) and it’s good so far (except for Morgana, my baby does not deserve to suffer like this)

Alright, so I’ll TRY not to spoil you too much. 

For me, personally, the show never lived up to its premise, nor did it really....have a consistent view on its own morality? It’s generally acknowledged that Uther did a Very Bad Thing when it came to relentlessly persecuting sorcerors, but then, time after time again, Merlin refuses opportunities to either end or diminish that persecution or to kill Uther, even in circumstances where Uther’s death wouldn’t have been directly tied to magic. Merlin ultimately ended up caring more for ARTHUR and Arthur’s wellbeing than his own people, and unfortunately, Arthur never proved himself worthy of that kind of loyalty. Which could have been a FASCINATING take on an unreliable narrator and the development of a narrative over time, but the writers unfortunately didn’t have the self-realization to realize what they were actually writing on the page. Again, I’ll avoid MAJOR spoilers, but during the time he’s king...a lot’s discussed, the audience is told many things about how he’s A Better Man Than His Father, but then we never really SEE it, just like we’re expected to believe that Gwen and Arthur are True Love™ because the soundtrack decided to add in Swelling String Music in the background. 

And...really...

Look, I GET that the fandom loved Merthur. I really, really do. But at the same time, they never really rise BEYOND the “Hahaha stupid servant” thing. It’s very, very funny when one person tosses things at another, hits them, belittles them, etc., because it’s two guys, amiright! Sometimes, there are these little moments where they come close, and it’s cute (and then the writers pull back), but ultimately? I would say it’s fairly toxic, as a relationship. And normally, I don’t particularly care, because so many things that I ship are absolutely wretched, but this is someone who Merlin’s willing to risk his people for? There’s no...development. There’s this ongoing cycle of taunting, “Oh, look, Arthur’s not a complete tool after all,” and then...whoops, back to Square One because lol emotions are funny. I guess my main thing is: If they’re going to be friends, you have to SHOW them as friends, and you have to show them evolving beyond the servant/master dynamic. Because otherwise, watching a character getting ordered around by someone that’s supposed to be a friend? Isn’t really my cup of tea. Note: BY THE SECOND EPISODE, Arthur was canonically willing to believe Merlin when he was like “lol Valiant’s a little bitch.” Because the writers certainly did in later seasons. 

The treatment of Morgana, you’ve already pointed out. She deserved better as a character; she had SO much potential, but they left her fall to the equivalent of flipping a switch. And...personally, I got TIRED of how sanctimonious the cast could be towards her. Arthur and Merlin can preach about how she should rise above years of Uther’s abuse to her, but ultimately...that was HER experience. Arthur, Gwen, and Merlin ALL suffered at Uther’s hands, but...coming from experience, the way that a given victim will react to an abuser can vary. She’s ALLOWED to be angry. You don’t HAVE to love your abuser, or forgive them, or wish them well, and after what she was put through? Also, I’ll never forgive the writers for making the scene where Merlin POISONS HER about his pain.  “Oh, look at our woobie protagonist, he’s crying :(” YEAH, AND MORGANA’S CHOKING TO DEATH RIGHT NEXT TO HIM, TRYING TO GET AWAY BECAUSE SHE DOESN’T WANT HER WOULD-BE MURDERER TOUCHING HER. 

I’m calm. I’m calm. 

That Fucking Dragon. Get rid of it. If you can’t develop your main cast’s relationships organically and have to rely on Destiny™, you can’t write. IF you’re going to keep That Fucking Dragon, then at least let him be a LEGITIMATELY shady character. Like, Merlin goes from “OH SHIT KILGARRAH’S OFF HIS SHITS AND IS GOING TO BURN CAMELOT TO A CRISP. WHO KNEW HE HAD AN AGENDA ALL ALONG?” to “Ah, well, I’m going to take this action because my BFF Kilgarrah said so.” There’s no real consistency there. 

Also the inconsistencies with Mordred, but I’ll skim that since you’re not there yet. Suffice it to say, they could have split him into two separate characters and it would have done very little. They never knew WHAT to do with the damn kid. 

Okay, but strictly speaking, what I would change: 

The timeline. That’s it. The show stretched itself out too much, ESPECIALLY with Uther. Look, I love Anthony Head, I love Anthony Head as Uther. He’s a delightful asshole who even has a few moments of sympathy despite being a genocidal asshat. 

But Uther had to go. There’s a REASON why most Arthurian adaptations begin with the death of Uther, and that’s because, as long as he’s around, things are kept static. Merlin stumbles around, trying to save the day, Prince Arthur alternates between heroism and prattishness, usually within ten seconds of one another, he and Gwen look longingly at one another as Swelling String Music Plays, Morgana smirks...nothing CHANGES. 

Ergo, you’ve got to get rid of Uther ~S1-2. I lean towards S2, so you can get a little time to develop him/his relationship to Arthur and The Igraine Drama. Cut The Troll Episode, cut a few other filler episodes, and just. Kill Uther. That gives you time to develop Arthur as a KING, while also not making the switch to King Arthur seem jarring. Spend some time on the magical ban, have Merlin GENUINELY try to do something for people like him. I’d probably set The Magic Reveal around S3-S4, with the last episode of the series being the establishment of the Golden Age of Camelot, with Merlin being appointed Court Magician.

 Sometime in those few extra seasons, I WOULD like to see Morgana have an arc of her own. Not even necessarily a full REDEMPTION arc, because I’m not sure there’s anyway for her and her brother/the court of Camelot to be on solid terms, but at least something where she has to really...figure out what’s best for her people, as a High Priestess. She can’t TRUST Arthur and Merlin, but they’re also offering a way out. One of the common things I’ve seen people argue about her sloppy writing was that Morgana HAD to be evil because that’s part of the Arthurian myths, but the figure of Morgan le Fay’s been very flexible throughout the years; in her first appearances, she was benevolent. I would like to see her THERE, having reached a truce with the others. Just as Arthur rises to the kingship, she gains power in her own way. There’s no need to take it to Camlann.

Gwen and Arthur....I would put more threads of it in S1. I’m not sure it would EVER be my Number 1 ship, because it has Arthur in it, but the DEVELOPMENT needs to be there. And, whatever happens with her and Lancelot, I wouldn’t have them being FORCED into it by Morgana. For me, that completely annihilates the pain of Arthur/Gwen/Lancelot. If Uther can make vague references to keeping Morgana’s mother company while Gorlois was away, I THINK the audience can handle Gwen having conflicting feelings towards two men. Maybe Arthur’s different now that he’s king, not the more carefree prince she knew who turned her from a maid to a queen. Maybe the kingdom’s under invasion, maybe he’s finding out that his father left far more of a mark than he thought and he has to reconcile the fact that he STILL loves his father with knowing that the man was a monster, maybe he doesn’t EXACTLY understand the amount of pressure she’s under to be The Perfect Queen, since the court will take any opportunity it can to rip her apart. And she loves him, of course she does, and she’s grateful to him, but Lancelot’s there, and he’s concerned for Arthur too, and he understands what it’s like to rise above his station. I’m not asking for a full on soap opera storyline, but IF you’re going to put Lancelot/Guinevere in there, then you have to do it in a way that respects the characters rather than just ticking points off a checklist. (Especially given that the show completely went away from Arthurian myth at various points, so it’s not like they HAD to bring it in. And the lovely thing with Arthuriana is that you can bring in or take out pretty much whatever you want; the genre is endlessly adaptable.)

Also, we were robbed of a Merlin-style Sir Gawain and the Green Knight. ROBBED. (Christmas special, anyone?)

[rroyallredd]

No one:

Literally nobody:

not a single person:

Russo Brothers: yeah the trailers were fake lmao we're so funny amiright hahaha

[ssfoc]

The people saying we don't know where Louis is/will be for New Years are so funny. As if we won't be getting pictures of Louis in LA and Harry in Japan as they count down the new year. Regardless if it's all to prove they aren't together it proves they aren't together. For another major holiday. I doubt Louis's team is the one this overly concerned with the constant public separation so A+ priorities from HSHQ once again.

Hahaha, it is what it is; I bet they’re both having fun somewhere. My two cents, no one should hang happiness or sadness based on where Harry or Louis show up, or with whom. Yachtgate already happened! Babygate already happened! Larries are tough and nothing can hurt us that much.

The Larries who wanted to leave already published their encyclopedias, amiright? 😉

Let’s concentrate on Louis’ music instead. Please give us a hint before the New Year’s!

[garden-of-movies]

Every single thought I had while watching The Kissing Booth:

- Elle and Lee were born on the same day and have been life long friends HAHAHA WOW THATS TOTALLY REALISTIC. But also I’m trash for it bc they have such a sweet pure friendship :,)

- MOLLY RINGWALD YAS

- Wow the actress that plays Elle actually looks like she could be in high school and i appreciate that.

- Awh, Lee is cute. But Noah.... HOT DAMN. I can see why Lee and Elle have rules. Noah’s so hot tho it probably wouldn’t stop her if she ever got the chance lol.

- Her pants ripped so she had to dress sluttier.... Ha ha.

- OMG THAT GUY GRABED HER BOOTY

- OMG NOAH GOT IN A FIGHT FOR HER

- THERE IS SO MUCH SEXUAL TENSION BUT SHE DOESN’T SEE IT BC SHES YOUNG AND NAIVE IN THE WAYS OF LOVE AND ATTRACTION.

- Awh Lee drove her to her date 😭 THEIR FRIENDSHIP :,)

- AWH he took her to their dance place to cheer her up AFTER SHE GOT STOOD UP 😤

- HAHAHAHA NOAH TELLS BOYS HE WILL BEAT THEM UP IF THEY DATE HER. THE SEXUAL TENSION IS BUILDING. IM EXCITED. But also nervous for Lee 😬

- Awh she plays sports and is herself and rocks who she is :,) cute :,)

- I don’t exactly hate the OMG girls, but they are the hardest part to watch. Like they are what keeps reminding me that this is a cheesy teen romance. So OMGs= Eh

- Okay Noah and Lee’s house is ridiculous and high school parties are not like this. But high school boys also don’t look like Noah, so I’m moving on now.

- HE STOPPED HER FROM DOING MORE STUPID THINGS AND TOOK CARE OF HER DRUNK HAHAHHA LUV IT

- OMG THAT AWKWARD ROLL AROUND WITH THE CURTAIN AND HES NAKED AND SHE SAID SHE TOUCHED IT HAHAHA THE SEXUAL TENSION IS FUELING ME.

- THE OMG GIRLS AGREED TO DO THE KISSING BOOTH BUT WILL NOAH?????? THE PLOT THICKENS

- Oh god Elle asked him to do the booth one more time and they argued and now they’re one a bad note. MOMENT OF TRUTH TIME WHAT HE GONNA DO?!

- PPL ARE BLOWING LEE OFF AT THE KISSING BOOTH NOT COOL.

- Oh wait, it worked out for him!!! And now he’s holding her hand and leaving early?? 😂 cool!!

- Oh great ELLE is the one working the kissing booth now. AND GUESS WHOSE UP?!? NOAH!!! And she’s announcing that she’s never been kissed oh god 🙃

- THIS KISS!!! And they just keep kissing!!!! In front of the entire school!!!! And everyone is clapping!!! Clapping bc of all that passion HOT DAMN.

- Oh god wait. Everyone saw it so Lee is gonna find out. OH NO LEE 😭 he is a tender boy and I really care about his feelings.

- Okay well that could have been worse, but he was def more upset than he let on.

- It’s about to rain she guess who strolls up on his motorcycle to save the day and take Elle home. EVERYONES FAV BAD BOY NOAH!!! Great 🙃 this will lead to nothing romantic LOLOL.

- UGH NOAH IS SO HOT. HIS FACE HIS BODY AND HES IN THE RAIN AND HE SAYS ALL THE RIGHT THINGS 🙃 KILL ME.

- I don’t really like the height difference though, Noah is SO much taller than Elle. But the tension and romance- I’ll live with it.

- HAHAHA Elle is making a pro and con list I love her.

- High school beach drinking party. Ha ha ha ya totally.

- Noah almost walked away from a fight after he jumped in to save Elle YET again 🙃 but I’m glad he didn’t because that guy was a douche lol. SUCK IT WARREN.

- He just said he fell for her HAHAHAHA.

- He took her to his spot :,)

- Oh wait, ARE THEY ABOUT TO HAVE SEX?!?? BEFORE SHE TELLS LEE!!! Oh god, this is gonna end terribly.

- THEY HAD SEX IN FRONT OF THE HOLLYWOOD SIGN HAHHAHA!!

- I took a twenty minute break from watching the movie because I FOUND OUT ELLE AND NOAH DATE IN REAL LIFE HAHAHHA. Their movie relationship translated to their real lives, and their real life relationship is honestly ten times sweeter, but it’s fine I’m fine :) also in real life Noah is Australian and he’s only 20 years old :) still fine tho :) okay back to watching the movie now.

- This love montage :,) but also it’s funny and i love the song love grows where my rosemary goes.

- OMG LEE THINKS NOAH HIT HER IM SHOOK. BUT ALSO SHE HAS THE CHANCE TO TELL HIM SO SHE BETTER. OH WAIT HAHHAAH THEY JUSY GOT CAUGHT AFTER SHE LIED. Great :-)

- Lee is heart broken 😭😭😭😭

- LOL OH HEEEY MOLLY. Time for some girl talk.

- Wait just like that Lee is gonna forgive her? Wow. He is too good and pure for this world. Elle needs to be counting her blessings everyday.

- Oh god i hate her prom look.

- This prom has a live band? Yo, what year is it?

- DONT YOU FORGET ABOUT ME HAHAHAHA YES!!!! This is also amazing bc molly ringwald is in this movie.

- The kissing booth is at prom, here comes a full circle moment.

- I want you to know, i actually laughed out loud when Noah told her he loved her.

- Oh god she wants to be with Noah but Lee is happy she rejected him. Oh god I’m stressed.

- Okay they had like a two second argument about it and now he just accepts it??? AGAIN LEE IS TOO GOOD FOR THIS WORLD.

- Oh Noah, we always want the bad boys- AMIRIGHT LADIES?!

- Omg he didn’t turn around for a final wave!!!!! Wow that actually really surprised me. The ending wasn’t cheesy!! Wow I’m very shook.

- Okay it’s late and I’m emotional and i wanna be in the middle of a Lee and Noah sandwich. THANKS FOR COMING TO MY TED TALK- Goodnight and goodbye

[ua-monoma]

...

toga❣Yesterday at 9:48 PM

Text to: DEKUCHAN💚😋💯🍴💩🔪

HIIIII

i hope

you're not

...

busy

right now

because

haha!

hehehehe

@v-deku.  there MAY be a slight change of plans.

Deku. Yesterday at 9:49 PM

i’m...taking a break.

what do you mean, change of plans?

what did you do.

toga❣ Yesterday at 9:50 PM

HAHAHA

why do you assume it's something I did!?!!

Deku. Yesterday at 9:54 PM

because it’s your forté. 

 now what is it?

toga❣Yesterday at 9:54 PM

youuuuuuuuuuuu are a bitch haha

be nice to me or i wont tell you, it's barely even your problem anyway

Deku. Yesterday at 10:09 PM

=_=

toga chan i love you!

now tell me.

toga❣ Yesterday at 10:10 PM

I LOVE YOU TOO!!!!!!!!! X3

alright well

some of neichan's friends X3 are a lot more observant than i wouldve guessed hahaha

though, they don't have much.

i was just confronted by one X3 it was so sexy~

such INTENSE EYES, AND THAT SMILE

oh and some of them snitched a little but they literally have nothing particularly strong to go by. just a few hunches and a few things i MAYBE SHOULDA COULDA done more effort to not do as much

oh well though, amiright!?

ah, oh yeah- going through their chats, a few have tattled on me, so i'll likely have to talk to my new sensei X3 he's sexy too though so i can't WAIT...

Deku. Yesterday at 10:35 PM

i’m dissappointed in you, Toooooga. try and act more like Monoma. 

 he doesn’t type as excitedly as you do 

Uh,,,he types like this,,, Especially when he’s uncomfortable. When you talk to that teacher tomorrow, act sheepish. Tell him you’re on new medication that you’re still adjusting to and it has you acting weird sometimes. Tell him you feel bad for making everyone worry... ...but it’s their faults for reading into things so much. Don’t act too excited- or too flirty. Only act flirty if you’re approached in a flirty manner. Don’t ever let things escalate to the point where you know you won’t be able to keep up an act. If someone makes you mad, do your best to leave the conversation as quick as possible. 

 If you have any questions about his ticks or behaviors, call me. 

 :) 

 Okay? :) 

 Love you :)

toga❣Yesterday at 10:39 PM

you're so annoying hahha i KNOWWWWWWWWW all that. its called having FUN dekuchan have you ever of heard of it =_=

die already.

ANYWAY

OKAY X3

i love you too!!!!!!! X3 X3 X3 X3 X3

Deku. Yesterday at 10:52 PM

:) you’re going to ...haha. regret this! in a way, i have CONTROL over you now. you’re connected, now.

you’re so funny hahaha you’re so funny you can have fun without fucking everything up :) dumbass.

💚

toga❣Yesterday at 10:54 PM

...

=_=

whatever, deku.

❣

[cuteandtwisted]

omg wishsjskamsk u have to watch "The Try Guys Crash Test A New Roller Coaster" by the try guys lolol they mentioned ~chemicALLLSSSS~ and my heart started fluTTEERRINGGGGG also its so funny babahahahhahahah endorphins amiright😏😏😏😏😏😏😏😏😍😉😘😉😍😏😏😏

i just watched it. 10 times omg? 

hahaha Eugene is my faaaave

thank you for the recommendation

[julietsoddeye]

Aikie’s The EℓyXiOn in Manila Experience (180428)

I will be posting my experience in bullets because I still feel dumb right now and I cannot construct proper sentences lol. And this post will be long, there’s more after the cut.

TW (lol): If you hate grammar and spelling lapses, don’t read this lmfao. I’m just writing what’s left of my soup-like brain. My memory is for shit right now, so I might edit this in the future.

BTW I didn’t take a lot of videos except for my IG stories. I just enjoyed the show because I know there are lots of people taking videos anyway ahhaha, literally my view is everyone’s phone askjdnksfnd. If not for my 5 inch platforms, I wouldn’t see shit. 

If you wanna see what I got, here is my instagram: @beautyinbattle (It’s on highlight, I think you can only watch it on mobile) the sequence is not in order because my data and internet at home is shitty lol. (What’s new, Philippines?)

@supplyallmysauces and I were up making our banner until 3:30 AM

I set my alarm at 6 AM, but I woke up at 5:30 (I guess I’m too excited lmfaooooo)

My makeup that day!!!

We left the house by 9 and we got to the venue past 10 AM

We went around looking for the GA’s I won (Support Banners from JM and JD local fansites, Food Support from JM local fansite and a CBX Blooming Days album from a well known international fan)

Just some of the things I got from fansites.

Chinese for lunch with my lovely friends

We’re not yet complete here hahaha

After our lunch, we hangout in Chilli’s and ordered drinks. I was gonna ordered beer but I was too fucking sleepy so I just got a very sweet mango smoothie with extra syrup. I also ate a packet of brown sugar and sipped @supplyallmysauces‘ Cerveza Negra hahahahahaha.

@supplyallmysauces and I left before 3 PM to start lining for our section. The queuing was shit, as expected from Pulp Live World. We had the same experience with 2NE1′s AON in 2014. And when you complain to their co-owner she would just say “You enjoyed the show, right? Just smile” (her exact words to me when I vented my feelings out) lol

Got inside our area by 5:40 PM. Literally 20 Minutes before the show started!!! WTF

Now starting here, I can’t seem to remember much... But here goes.

First thing I noticed was Chanyeol touching Jongin’s butt and then Jongin kicking him in the ass.

Then Chanyeol touching Sehun’s butt, Sehun kicking Chanyeol too. (Not sure if he kicked CY tho, my memory is hazy but something like that did happen)

Chanyeol, Jongin, and Sehun were really playful with each other.

Jongin and Kyungsoo look extra happy that night. They were all smiles.

EXO-Ls singing Sing For You, some members (especially Baekhyun) were letting us sing along. Kyungsoo looked so proud and happy when we literally sang the whole song.

Junmyeon, Jongin, and Baekhyun mentioned an incoming album. ASLJSKDKJD

Junmyeon looked so tired and disoriented most of the time in the beginning because he saw his sasaeng, Rion, among the crowd :(

Junmyeon mentioned and ‘promoted’ Blooming Days. KING OF CBX PROMOTION, AMIRIGHT??? SM ENTERTAINMENT WYD???

Chanyeol mentioned his last trip to Bohol and he got his Diving License there.

Sehun mentioned his last trip to Batangas too and how he enjoyed it. He recommended his members to go there.

Junmyeon said the weather is nice in the Philippines. And we’re all like “Uhm, no?” hahahaha. We hit 40 degree C 2 weeks ago, wtf!!! Whenever someone arrives we’re like “WELCOME TO HELL!”

The Koreans reactions when Junmyeon said they don’t wanna go back to Korea was so funny ahahaha. They were literally like 😨😨😨

The crowd screamed “Walang Uuwi” (Literally means “No one’s going back home”) And EXO were confused because the translator didn’t explain what it meant. Jongdae was like “Walang u-waeee?” it was so funny.

Baekhyun sang Baby Shark in Korean and then the crowd continued in English. Chanyeol and Jongin were dancing along with Baekhyun. Kyungsoo didn’t know what it was, so he asked Chanyeol what a ‘Baby Shark’ is lmfaoooo you’re so cute Kyungsoo!!!

Jongdae and Baekhyun were looking in our general area and I’m not sure if they saw mine and @supplyallmysauces‘ banner, but I feel like they did. It just didn’t register in their brain. They were probably really tired too :(

@supplyallmysauces‘ Banner

JUNMYEON SAW MY BANNER AND WE MADE EYE CONTACT FOR 10 SECONDS JKDFSBNKSKNFLKSDFN I DO NOT HAVE A VIDEO OR PICTURE AS PROOF BUT IT DID HAPPEN. I WASN’T EXPECTING IT AND HE EVEN SCRUNCH HIS NOSE AT ME WTF. My only witness was @supplyallmysauces AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

MY FCGKING BANNER. I’m glad I didn’t sleep until 3 AM just for this! ALL THE PAIN AND SUFFERING IS WORTH IT HAHAHAHAHA.

10초동앗 저를 봐주세용 (Look at me for 10 second please /the “용“ -yong/ with aegyo lmfao) and Junmyeon delivered!!! 

MY BIAS, MY ANGEL, MY HUSBAND, THE LOVE OF MY LIFE, KIM FUCKING JUNMYEON!!! NO ONE DESERVES YOU, MY BABY YOU’RE TOO GOOD FOR THIS UGLY WORLD!!! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH HUHUHUHUH!!! 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

After the show, I cannot fucking walk anymore. My feet are literally dead by that time. So we stayed by the snack bar for a bit and reviewed the whole show dfkjdflk

Me with @supplyallmysauces, @loeyeolty and our friends!!! I LOVE ALL OF THEM!!!

Oh and @supplyallmysauces caught two CHEN BALLS LMFAO

Now... Let’s talk about my Jongdae side of the banner going viral...

It all started with this picture. IDK who took it, but THANK YOU. LFMAO.

I saw @oh-beyond tagged me in a post while I was trying not to die. And it went downhill from there. People keep tagging me on Twitter and just LAKDJLADKJLDAKD

Tumblr Posts HERE, and HERE

Twitter Posts HERE, HERE, HERE, HERE, and HERE

Facebook Post HERE

IF YOU KNOW MORE PLACES WHERE IT GOT RE-POSTED, LET ME KNOW!!!

While my friends were lining up to order in CBTL, some girls were talking about my banner. THANK GOD I WASN’T THERE YET TO WITNESS THAT!!! I MIGHT DIE LMFAO.

I guess that’s about it. I will be editing this if there’s any more happenings I remember. lol. BYE.

[survivormykonos]

Episode #1: “everyone knows I’m here for the drama™️” ~Robbie

First impressions these people are basic players who wont have very big personalities, and not willing to put a lot of effort into this game. Hopefully thats not the case and its just late so no one is really wide awake :) Because I came to play and I hope thats what everyone else came here to do as well 

Okay so my plan basically worked, winning the first reward competition by placing a good score has opened up one of many avenues to come. Ryan, and Zeezo want to work with me (bad choice for them since I will be winning this aka taking them out eventually but oh well)

Him hitting it off really well with this tribe they are all so friendly and welcoming, Ain is my main homegirl at the moment she is the best and jared is a nice friendly face so it should be interesting to see what the coming days are like.

so not 30 minutes in and meowth comes out with the question "what if someones racist" which to me carried an air of accusation it was public and clearly meant for all to see it just gives me a bit of an icky feeling towards meowth

I'm glad that others are getting higher scores than me because i definitely don't want to be presenting as a threat in challenges particularity not the first day so i just am hoping that ill land middle of the pack challenge wise

so this immunity is fun i love puzzles like these even though they are hard tbh im not completly happy about our chances but i hope we can push through and win or the other tribes internet fucks up, either or really

so right now the vote seems to be between Robbie and Mewoth (Josh) and tbh i dont care which goes because they havent spoken to me but whatever, in any case id rather keep someone who actually contributed to the challenge and if he doesn't step it up then Josh will be gone next

Going into tribal council i am very nervous, you never know where the vote is until the votes are read and if im on the wrong side of the vote i might not be around much longer

I dont know whats gonna go down here but i hope i do well

reunited with lukas my love

she sells seashells at the seashore

why is the first vote already so confusing and wild.... just decide on a person

WHATS UPPPP!!! Can’t say much because I’m busy but I’m stoked!!! Only two other girls on my team tho :/ but it’s ok! I have Stephen who I know but I’ll get into all that later and I have lukas and Sammy on the other tribe who I LOVE TO DEATH but obviously can’t tell anyone that. Ain is on the other side who I hate but I just hope she gets voted out and we never have to interact :’)

Honestly, living my best life and enjoying the brief small talk with my tribe mates. So far getting a good vibe from everyone but lets be real, shit (I can curse right... I lowkey have always wanted to say that) is definitely going to go down as soon as something goes wrong. But like *shrug*. 

OK LET'S TALK ABOUT THAT TIME THAT I DIDNT WANT TO GRAB THE LIGHT AND SHINE IT ON ME AND WE WIN FIRST IMMUNITY AND I GET SENT TO PARADISE ISLAND!!!!!!!!! Yeah, because like, screw the idea of trying to lay a tad low for the first vote. But hey, I guess when you are working with Zeezo and she tells you the immunity boxes must be evens because of the clue she got, and then you get sent to PI, it can't be all that bad. I'm so shook I don't even know if I'm making sentences rn hahaha. I hate saying this, but like I am so happy with where I am rn, but I def know there is so much more work to put in before my tribe ends up going to tribal. AND SPEAKING OF TRIBES, WHET ON EARTH? Two abstains in the reward and then a tie and only two points in the immunity challenge for Yalos? Did they also think they were cast in ANTM because like same. We've all been there, amiright? Can they continue to do this so I can just breeze my way to merge and start playing this game already??? Please and thank you. 

When I wake up and realize I have so much work to do for school but at least I don't have to worry about going to tribal tonight! I aint mad! At least Im not gonna be the Francesca of this season soooooooo..... 

So... ya boy just beat Jared in a word search comp... and beat him... and went to Super Paradise Island... and idk which greek god is on my side, but one them has ya boy's back because he just the sapphire gem... Like no big deal... I didn't expect to be the first voted out and then just somehow came across getting one of the first big advantages of the game... WE ARE ALL FINE GUYS!!!

I have Oakley, who voted me out on Athena: Himalayas and Olivia, who I voted out on Atomic: Isle of Skye on my tribe. And my immediate thought is I want to work with them. Olivia more than Oakley, I don’t have any beef with him from another season but he is sneaky. However my strategy especially at this point in the game is just make lersonal connections and pretend to have the strategic knowledge of a goldfish. Here’s hoping it works.

So far I’ve talked to most people but some are easier to connect to than others, Joanna seems the most distant, she responds but it doesn’t feel friendly. But we won, so we’re all good this round. I really hope Ain goes home, shes manipulative, vindictive and isn’t afraid to use underhanded tactics.

WOAH! So after being recommended to play by a friend, I found out he ALSO recommended Miles to play, although in the other tribe.. I have someone I know here although I kinda got them eliminated in a Twitter Survivor... Hmmm... So far in Kalafati tribe, Im liking Miles and Joanna, Haven't had much contact with the others but they seem really cool. Im so excited to play, Especially with winning a lucky hidden immunity Idol

I’m still waving the flag

I’m still waving the flag I hate that challenge. I got a respectable score but if i did all that just to have the Yalos player stop after a low score, I'll be sad

My first impressions of the tribe is pretty positive! No immediate negative figures jump out at me. I'm still testing the waters, trying to figure out if any people are potentials for alliance members. Some people like Olivia, Jacob, Miles, Stephen and Thomas have reached out to me which makes them seem like good potentials for friends. However, I want to see how the reward challenge goes before I can evaluate my teammates further. 

It's amazing that we won the reward challenge and I'm so happy that I performed as well as I did. However, I am worried about the immunity challenge. I'm happy with the flash game, but the controls are really wacky and I already know it will take forever to get used to.

I'm honestly a little worried seeing that I didn't preform very well in the immunity challenge. Thankfully, we still managed to pull off a win and we didn't have to worry about tribal. Speaking of tribal, I don't think there is anyway Robbie is going to stay, seeing that he abstained in the reward and striked in the immunity. Also, I feel like I want to work with Olivia, but Miles also seems like a good person to work with, but I haven't approached either of them yet. Still weighing my options and figuring out the best way to proceed. 

Honestly it doesn’t seem like anyone is playing hard yet which is annoying me. Because I want to play hard, but if no one else is people can get sketched out by highly strategic, social players

Honestly if I finess this vote and stay in the game after forfeiting two comps it will be hilarious. But everyone knows I’m here for the drama™️ Hope no one gets blind sided

So the first night went..... alright. My tribe wasn’t as energetic or as talkitive as I had expected. It appears as though I am on a tribe with all gay men, which sounds nice in theory, but I’m bracing for the moment these twinks start wildin. Aside from the gays, I know Ain from a past org and am starting to warm back up to her. We will probs stick together for awhile. As of now, that’s all. 

Robbie, queen of being inactive and making cases to stay last minute, came to me with the idea of booting Meowth instead. I said hell yeah! All for that shit! Not that I don’t like Meowth, it’s just I would love to do something unexpected for the first tribal. However, Sammy and Michael seem to be so against it for some reason. Lord knows why. I’m going to aim to be in the majority, but I may just cast my vote for Meowth for the hell of it. 

Ok I don’t quite remember what my last confessional was but I know for a fact I fucked up the names. Robbie is the one on the line, Sammy is just another gay. I swap their names all of the time. 

I really like this tribe so far! Everyone seems pretty chill and it's nice to know that at the moment, nobody is really mean-spirited. I know that Jacob has some past with the other Miles, but he's on the other tribe, so there's really no past relationships to deal with either, at least that I know of! I think that by far, I'd probably like to align with Olivia and Joanna for sure, and maybe Stephen, Zeezo,  Oakley, and Julian as well? I'd rather not get into scheming this early! I think it'd be much better for my game at the moment not to be the leader or figurehead of a group, but rather an updated member. I guess I'll have to see!

Alright so... Not a whole lot is going on, it's just the start of the game, we're just doing the first reward challenge. This tribe is just a bit too large for my taste but whatever, I'll manage. Getting to know all these people is interesting, which is funny because the absolute LAST word I would use to describe myself is "interesting"

I'm not entirely sure what use one would have for a fire making kit in an online survivor. Am I meant to set my laptop on fire? ARE YOU TRYING TO TELL ME SOMETHING????????? lmao...

There's a few people that I'm getting great vibes from. Miles would probably be the biggest one rn. I would love nothing more than to get some sort of alliance going sooner rather than later JUST IN CASE but like I don't want to be the one to actively go out and do it because if someone leaks RIP ME. Idk what I'm doing just yet. We'll figure this out.

We won the first immunity and don't have to vote anyone out, that's awesome. I can't help but feel just a little concerned though, everyone's almost a little TOO peaceful on this tribe. I'm not saying I'd want to LOSE a comp and have to face tribal but the reads I'm getting from everyone is giving me a sense of unease. I do enjoy winning though and wouldn't mind winning out. I'm just saying, I feel very uneasy with the vibes I'm receiving. Good lord I just repeated myself there. Oh well.

I really like this tribe so far! Everyone seems pretty chill and it's nice to know that at the moment, nobody is really mean-spirited. I know that Jacob has some past with the other Miles, but he's on the other tribe, so there's really no past relationships to deal with either, at least that I know of! I think that by far, I'd probably like to align with Olivia and Joanna for sure, and maybe Stephen, Zeezo,  Oakley, and Julian as well? I'd rather not get into scheming this early! I think it'd be much better for my game at the moment not to be the leader or figurehead of a group, but rather an updated member. I guess I'll have to see!

I think I'm pretty safe after this immunity challenge. I was one of 2 people to win the head to head for my tribe and therefore I have a chance to go to Paradise Island! I'm trying my best NOT to go though because I think that would put a target on my back very early on.

Right now my closest ally is Matt and I feel that we have a strong bond. We're each other's #1's and talking back and forth over who should go tonight. I'm very torn for who I'm voting for at tribal tonight, it's either Meowth (Josh) or Robbie. I've heard that Robbie may have gotten the majority but I don't feel 100% on wanting him still in the game. Yes, Meowth is weak in challenges but he's another easy vote moving forward in the future.

So, what's been going for me so far?  Well, reward challenge I busted my ass and showed what I can do, which was great!  WE lost, which sucks, and 2 people didn't submit.  Those 2 were Miles and Robbie.  This made me upset, mostly because Miles I know from my Minecraft UHC days, so we made an instant alliance from that.  Robbie I didn't care about.  Then came immunity, where once again, Robbie was unable to compete, and I still stand by that I was robbed in my challenge because of a shit quality image, but this is what I'm used to from online games like this, so I'll move on (eventually).  We got rekt in immunity, and the obvious choice was looking like Robbie for not submitting twice.  So, being the intelligent player I am, I basically pitched to Robbie that he was going home unless he made a better pitch about someone else.  He aimed at Michael, someone who I somewhat wanted to work with at the time (in hind sight, I wouldn't have cared much).  I proposed, instead, we vote for meowth (Joshua) because he just rubbed me the wrong way, under-performed, and refused to talk game strategy with me at all.  I pulled in Lukas and Jared, as well as had Ain in my pocket, and with the acquiring of Sammy by both me and Robbie, the vote should be set in our favor.  I'm still trying to convince Miles to roll with us so he's not on the losing end of the vote, but I think its 50/50 whether he will or won't.  Honestly, I feel pretty safe with this vote, being that I was a top performer and have shown how active I strive to be in these games.  I'm not super worried about this vote and hope that Robbie sticks around.  Hopefully, he becomes a powerful player and a big help in challenges.  If he's not, he'll go next for sure.  Let's hope I don't live to regret these words!

I think I’m in a pretty safe spot right now, but we def have people who think they are running the show around here...SIT DOWN or else you’ll become a target early😉 but I like everyone just don’t know who we should keep...someone who hasn’t been active or someone who tries but does not communicate. Eh either way I’m not on the chopping block sooooo. Okay wow that sounds rude but um i like everyone:) yikes

Honestly, this is a fung ame and a fun set of people. Just hope my time here isn't too short.

So far I feel pretty good about my tribe even though there a couple people I forgot to ever talk to oops. We seem to be good at challenges and get along well. I've connected most with Ryan so far and told him my idol clue to gain his trust. He's told me he trusts me the most out of anyone so that's good. After we talked we decided to pull in a 3rd and settled with Thomas since he got the best score in the reward challenge. After consulting with Ryan I decided to share my clue with Thomas too and the 3 of us officially performed an alliance. I think with this alliance my goal is to think more long term. Thomas is probabaly going to on Tinder performing well at challenges and be a shield for me. He also doesn't seem to talk to a lot of other people. Meanwhile Ryan seems like the type of person who might play too hard so he could be another shield. Plus we get along really well so far so that's good :') We might pull in a 4th for the alliance later since Thomas is kind of inactive and Ryan suggested Stephen so I'm interested to see how that will pan out. In other news Ryan got sent to paradise island and got the sapphire gem thing so that's great :') So if one of us finds the idol we should have great power in the game so I'm looking forward to the rest of the game 

Nothing is going really because we have been on a winning streak and have been crushing it. I knew Stephen from a previous game and we agreed to work together. He is not being extremely subtle about it but I think he wants to work with Olivia because he has mentioned her a lot and how he likes her. I don't mind that because I do like her but I am worried about the two of them being closer to each other than to me because I know they know each other. I am really liking Ryan as well and would like to work with him. I am worried I am not being as social as I should be because I do notice that I don't talk to as many people as I would like. Miles I have talked to a bit but haven't built much of a relationship with him and everyone else I have said hi to and talked to a bit but I haven't really built anything or know anything about them. I just hope we can win long enough for me to build those relationships because I am worried that I am one of the two people to lose my round in the immunity challenge.

[singingunderthecurtain]

Favorite Fics I

To be honest with you all, I probably read all these people’s writings already and I’m just gonna link some of my faves here. Don’t get me wrong all their pieces are my fave, but when I say fave I meant fics that made me feel feelings and/or made me cry like a fuckin’ bitch, so yeah.  😂😂😂

Here goes nothing!  😅😅😅

@soobadnoonecanstopher

Lori is the first EXO fic author I actually loved since joining the fandom last year. I remember I found her on AFF lmfao (Also before reading her DKS fics, I only see him as my son. Now I blame her because I get thirsty for Kyungsoo now!!!)

MASTERLIST

Daisy (DKS) - God fuckin damn this ruined Kyungsoo for me (in a good way of course lol)

All His (DKS) - After reading about the SNS/Facebook part, I immediately checked my FB account and privated my thirsty posts about Junmyeon. Lmfao you know just in case he checks my FB for some reason looool

The Price of Privilege (D.O.)

I Give Up (BBH) - Who doesn’t like IGU, amiright? ;)

2AM (KMS) - This fuels my Minseok feels every time I read it.

Just Regular Stuff (KJM) - First EXO smut I ever read. It was hard to read this at first because I was an EXO smut Virgin and Suho is my bias and just… I felt like a pre-teen who accidentally found and watched porn for the first time!!!

The Crisis (KJM feat DKS)

@enaasteria

For some reason, her writing style is… aesthetically pleasing. Lol idk how to describe it!!!

MASTERLIST

Apartment 5108 (OSH) - I wasn’t actually planning on reading this because it has a lot of chapters lmfao (Don’t judge me, I have a phase where I only wanna read oneshots. But I looove reading long series now!!!) But I’m glad I read it because holy fucking shit, this fic speaks to me in all levels (e.g hiding scars, unrequited love etc) Also the number 1, 5, and 8 are very significant to me. I always see it everywhere so this fic piqued my curiosity.

Red (OSH)

@pcyxiukai

MASTERLIST

Sex (KMS)

The Audacity of Kim Junmyeon (KJM feat. PCY) - THIS FIC SRSLY!!!

Allegiance (BBH)

@8bityeol

I’ve probably read through her masterlist a lot of times hahaha.

MASTERLIST

Who Are You (PCY) - I really ship M and Happiness Delight hahahah

Two People (BBH) - This made me super fucking sad, tbh

Regrets At 11 PM (DKS)

Audiophile Series (DKS) - I’d actually die if my fave audio porn artist is my neighbor and jerk off to the idea of me. AAAAAHHHHH

Boundaries (ZYX) - I love me some 10 years older Daddies tbh XD Also my friend said this is the first Daddy!Yixing fic she read ‘cause he’s a sweetie pie in every yx fics there is, I think lol.

Forget Me (OSH) - I love Modern Royal AUs and this is fucking sad, made me emo.

A Conflict In Interest (KMS) - The beginning was so angsty, it made my skin tingle so bad hahaha.

The Etymology Of Us (PCY)

Antonym (KJD)

The Problem (DKS)

@xiubaek13

MASTERLIST

Lost in Translation (OT9) - As an English teacher, this shit… THIS AWESOME SHIT IS MY FANTASY!!! lol

Not much of a Sex God (BBH)

Keep it Casual (ZYX/OSH)- ANGST FUELS ME!!!

@forexcapism

I found ‘Reticent’ & ‘The Other Woman’ and goddamn I was like ‘This writer is so good’ so I checked her out and I was right, she’s really, really good. I think I read through her masterlist in less than an hour lmfao.

MASTERLIST

Playboy (OSH) - This one fucced me up real good ahahah

I’m Here (DKS) - This srsly scared me :((( lol

Oh My Baby (PCY) - I love babies and I love EXO and it’s both also ANGST!!!

The Other Woman (KJD) - I’ve always wanted to write about the POV of the other girl and I found this and it captures my idea very well and I cried because of the damn angst!!!

Tripartite (KJD) - FUCK! (sorry for cursing lol) I really felt OC’s emotions here and damn idk, it’s just… that good!!!

Reticent (BBH) - Another one of her fics that made me really sad and feely haahaha.

Bloodlust (BBH) - First Vampire AU I read ever and daaaaaamn!!! ❤️

EXO Monster!AU (OT9)

Retrograde (KMS) 

Scars (OSH/DKS)

@writings-by-cl

Found her because of the Fat Fiction Series ❤️❤️❤️ (btw I have yet to go through her Bigbang list hehe)

MASTERLIST

Raising the Standards (KJM)

Monster (BBH) 

Addicted to Mashmallow (WYF) - All I can say is three F’s; Fluffy, Funny and Fantastic!

Eyes on the Prize (KJD/BBH/ZYX/KMS) - An orgy with Jongdae, Baekhyun, Minseok, and Yixing? SIGN ME THE FUCK UP!!!

Saudade é um suéter (OSH)

@3kpop2jagi1

MASTERLIST

Higher (KJM) - CAN I JUST…

Caffeine (KJD) - ASKASKSAKAS tbh with you

Higher x Caffeine (KJM/KJD) - /DEAD

If We’re Happy (BBH)

How Bad Could He Be | He’s Not So Bad (KJD)

If to Please (DKS/KJI/OSH) - THIS FUCKED ME UP!!!

Again | Anew (KJI)

The Towel Story (OSH) - For some reason I find this a little angsty at the beginning haha

@nowblowitlikeaxiu

MASTERLIST

Ka-ching |  Girl Problems | Make Daddy Proud | Misadventures (KMS)

Long Night (ZYX) - So, so, so cute!

She Call Me (OSH) - The last part made me choke on my bread (I was eating bread the time I was reading this!!!)

@peachykaix

To be honest, though, all the stuff she has written so far… I love it all!!! So I guess just click her masterlist. REALLY LOVE HER WRITING STYLE. Very detailed, but not boring at all. I’m calling her the ANGST QUEEN!

MASTERLIST

@fairyyeols​

MASTERLIST

A Star Like Her (DKS)

Made Of Memories (BBH)

Heaven (KJI)

Eden (DKS)

>MASTERLIST< >MAIN BLOG<

[the-first-date]

A conversation with Emma Zack [27/F/Brooklyn]

Madge Maril: Hello Emma!! Thank you for joining me on gchat this lovely evening. What are you up to today?

Emma Zack: HEY DARLIN! I'm here at my desk, doing my job. You know, the usual.

MM: Yes! Usual. What's your job?

EZ: Suppose you could say I have two! My day job (9-5) is as the publications manager at the Innocence Project. My other job, which only recently turned into another full-time job, is being the owner of a plus-sized vintage shop, Berriez!

MM: Well now I have to ask how you got into both.

EZ: Haha. Do it.

MM: How did you get into these two very different positions?

EZ: I'll start with the Innocence Project. I've studied prisons/criminology since I was a freshman in college. I worked in prisons/in the criminal justice sphere in college, and after college, decided that I wanted to continue on this path. I got a job at the Innocence Program in Boston, which then led me to the Innocence Project in NYC! And as for Berriez, I started it because I needed a hobby. I was (and still am tbh) really depressed, and needed something to get my mind smiling. Also, I had a bunch of clothing. Also also, I was shopping vintage online often and was never finding my size. So, all of those factors led me to start Berriez!

MM: So many questions — but maybe the weirdest one first. So you're from Boston, and now you live in NYC. What's that experience like? Do you feel like a cool New Yorker? I've heard that's a feeling.

EZ: Lol!! Quite the opposite, really. I oftentimes feel like a loser. I am a homebody and rarely leave the house, unlike most New Yorkers. Also, I move at a very slow pace, and New York is so. Freakin. Fast. It's hard to keep up. But, I will say that it's 854930574389574 times better than boring ole Boston!

MM: I've also heard about this fast pace. But honestly I don't think I know what it means? Is it more just how busy people are? 

EZ: It's the strangest thing. Since I moved to New York, I've developed insomnia, am bad at responding to texts/keeping in touch with people (which I used to be so good at before NYC), and seeing people — even my best friends — is hard because everyone is just so "busy." Not sure what we're all doing, but all I know is that we're busy. Also, let's talk about how everyone here walks fast. I truly can't keep up. I walk so slow, and people make fun of me for it all the time… like, let a girl walk at her own pace!

MM: Hahaha that's really all I've ever connected in my brain before when I've heard about New Yorkers pace — like a literal fast walking pace. 

EZ: It's true!

MM: And I know you have a ~ partner. Did y'all meet in Boston or NYC?

EZ: Nope, we met here in NYC!

MM: What was that like? Do you think the NYC climate of fast-paced energy affected it at all? 

EZ: What was meeting my partner in NYC like?

MM: Yeah! It seems so idyllic to me, a midwesterner, while also seeming like it could be intense with how busy people are.

EZ: Oh yeah, it really just kind of happened. And I met him only a month after I moved here! It was so unplanned. When we met, I knew there was something there, something special. I wouldn't say it was NYC though — I'd say it was the ~universe~ and the timing of it all meeting each other at certain points in our lives where we could commit to each other, etc.

MM: So do you believe in fate?

EZ: Lol, no.

MM: Hahahaha.

EZ: But I believe that everything happens for a reason? Bad or good? Is that fate? I don't think so. I also don't believe in "1 tru luv.”

MM: I don't think I do either! Though I really did as a kid. Like X Files... I want to believe.

EZ: Totally… I did too! But not anymore, even though I love my partner so much. And want to stay with him.

MM: I think those two things can co exist, because same for me with mine — a love, but also realizing that there have been other people, and could be other people, and that you're actively choosing this one person right now though.

EZ: Exactly!

MM: Also while I am extremely enjoying this I can feel the unseen reader wanting me to ask you about Berriez. 

EZ: Of course, of course. Lemme hear the questions!

MM: Where to begin! You mentioned a lot that I want to know more about — starting a business (can't imagine), starting a business with depression, online vintage, plus-size vintage. Can you tell me more about any of those things, whatever you want to tell me about?

EZ: Hmmmmmm. Well, I suppose when I started Berriez (formerly known as Fruity Looms), I didn't intend for it to be a "Business.” Or, rather, I didn't think of it as a business. I just thought of it as something I was doing in my free time with my friends (who would model for me).

MM: RIP Fruity Looms.

EZ: RIP FRUITY LOOMS 💔. It started to take off about 4 months in I'd say, that's when it started to get a bit more busy. Then, over the summer, it truly turned into a "business"/full-time job… it's still something I do in my free time, but it's no longer a hobby per se. It's a job. I still love it with all my heart! It's just a lot more work than when I started.

MM: I was about to ask — that can be hard, right? Turning a passion project into a job. I feel like it's not something that's talked about a lot, and people really idealize creatives who get to work in their own creative fields — especially fashion because glamour! Glam! But then there's this unspoken weight where you've morphed something you love into your "Career.”

EZ: Yup!! It's very weird, and I'm in this strange place where I really don't know what I'm doing or what I want to do, because I've done criminal justice work for so long, and Berriez really just popped in out of nowhere… do I want to take that risk? Leaving criminal justice to pursue Berriez full-time? I don't know! I suppose I could always go back. It doesn't seem reliable to me. It's scary.

MM: Why? 

EZ: Well... money, for starters! And I work well having a set schedule. Wake up at 6 to work on Berriez, go to my other job, come home to work on Berriez. If I didn't have my other job, would it be hard for me to fill that time? Would I be strict enough with myself? Also, when I don't have structure, I fall into a depression. Although, shit, I'm depressed now and I have all the structure in the world! Also side note: not glamorizing this busy NYC lifestyle. It is not fun. It is not healthy. Wow, am I talking too much? It's like you're my therapist or something. Lemme take a step back, ha!

MM: Omg no. I love it! Please talk about this as much as you like. I think it's all important, especially the reality that goes on behind the Instagram screen (poetry, I know). Because real talk when I first met you online, I was like wow! Look at her! Doing it all! Fashion! Rising star! It's so easy to project those sort of things online.

EZ: Yep, yep. Instagram is a ~facade~ amiright?!?! Lmaoooo!! In reality... I'm just a homebody/stoner/depressed/anxious/chronically ill/loving gal.

MM: Which is so much better! And realer! Is it odd to interact with so many people in Berriez and also the Innocence Project that are sort of living that facade, do-it-all life? I feel like fashion and law may have close ties; it's all very ~chic~ non?

EZ: YES YES YES. Everyone's just trying to do it all and take care of themselves. But who are we doing it all for? That's what I've been asking myself lately.

MM: Do you feel like this intensity affects your style, and how you dress at work or on Instagram (your other work)? 

EZ: Interesting question. I've never thought about it that way. I feel like Berriez has really really really helped me ~find my style~ which is like, middle school art teacher... Lol. Lots of color, lots of fun, lots of patterns. 

I'm a bigger gal, but I don't give a fuck if something isn't "flattering" per se. I come to my day job at the IP dressed like this too, since we don't have a dress code. And I am always getting compliments from my coworkers! Although they may think I'm a little nutty. Today I am wearing space buns, a red and white checkered long sleeve shirt, rhinestone hoops, vintage Levi’s, and these funny looking boots. Oh well. Did that answer your question at all? Ha.

MM: Yes!! Were you surprised when your own personal aesthetic caught on online via Berriez? Not because it's ~weird~ (to me... It is perfect) but because I'd personally find it so nice/scary/surprising if the style I'd curated, my look, resonated with people like yours does.

EZ: I guess, like, I never thought of myself as having an "aesthetic." I've kind of just always worn what I wanted to/who I've been inspired by. My friends though have always told me that I have great style and encouraged me to start a public Instagram for my outfits, but I've always been too shy. With Berriez, I can do that without showing my face!

MM: Aw, that is so sweet. And so what does Emma Zack, stylish person, wear on a first date? 

EZ: Hahahaha! I can tell you exactly what I wore on my first date with Aja. Which was three years ago, by the way! I would never wear this now. I wore tan Clarks, black opaque tights, a hunter green bodycon turtleneck midi dress (that really accentuated my curves), and a black bomber jacket. My goal was to show off my body in a modest way!

MM: Sensible. Sexy. So this would've been 2016?

EZ: Yep! Today... Hmm. I would probably still wear something to show off my body. I love my curves.

MM: Oh I'm a big show-off-on-the-first-date person. I wore the tiniest black dress on my first date with my bf. And it was also a turtleneck! I am just now realizing. I felt like it gave me that "I read books" vibe. 

EZ: Hahaha, yup! Lol. For me it was, "I listen to jazz."

MM:: Yes! Because you're a jazz singer, right? Also would love to hear about your perfume/makeup combo if you remember it! 

EZ: Yup! I sing jazz! That used to be my hobby, until I moved to New York and convinced myself that I wasn't good enough! Ha ha ha. Oh yes, I definitely remember it. I don't wear much makeup in general, so I was wearing mascara, concealer under my eyes, and maybe some chapstick! As for perfume, I was wearing Cannabis Santal by Fresh.

MM: What comes first for you, outfit or makeup or perfume? 

EZ: Outfit, always! Makeup, I don't know how to put on makeup, so I always just wear the same thing. Perfume, I rotate between the same three perfumes (that are all musky).

MM: Which are?

EZ: The cannabis one, and then these two perfume oils that I can't remember the names of.

MM: Haha it's ok! I live for musk. This is maybe tangentially related but it's where my brain is going... How do you stay authentic to yourself? I feel like as soon as I started working in fashion, I had this huge feeling of shame, that I wasn't dressing right or knew the right stuff. Do you feel that? How do you defeat it? 

EZ: I guess I don't feel it because I don't feel like I work in fashion? I mean, I suppose I do work in "fashion" or whatever, but the stakes aren't as high as working at a magazine or a blog or whatever! I just wear what I like at this point. Or what I feel like wearing! 

And, as I've gotten older and more comfortable with myself, I've started to give less of a shit about what other people think of me or the way I dress. Don't get me wrong though, sometimes I'm totally like, do I look insane??? If I go to an event dressed like this, will I fit in?!

MM: Yes! Those are my main feelings, as someone who used to wear a ton of color and print and has been shying away from it.

EZ: Meh. Sometimes I feel like Berriez to be more minimal, and I need to sell more earth tones and plain shit like most vintage shops do. But that's just not me, that's never been me. I'm a straight-up maximalist hahahaha! That's not who Berriez is or why people like it!

MM: I really admire that about you! And your business! And that you have a business, haha. 

EZ: Lol at me having a business.

MM: You do! You truly do!! Final question, since I know we've been chatting for a minute — how was your last first date? 

EZ: Welp, it was in a dark bar, and it was with a cute dude who I'm still with to this day! So, I guess you could say it was a good one. 😉

MM: Ooooooo I would say so! Thank you so much for talking to me about so many things. Do you have any digital spaces you want to shout out?

EZ: Of course!! Thank you for asking me to talk!! I'm honored!!  No, just @shopberriez!!! 😉❤

MM: You heard it hear first folks. Go follow the shop. Here*. Wow. Ok. 

EZ: LOLOL!a

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I was tagged by @rafeadderall bless <3

My Last:

1: Drink: Orange Juice (I live off orange juice and bad decisions lmaoo) 2: Phone Call: My friend Ra, bless him.  3: Text Message: Domino’s Pizza lmaoooo im so lonely </3 4: Song You Listened To: You’re gonna go far kid - The Offspring 5: Time You Cried: If I wasn’t crying due to being an over tired mess it was probably when I watched a Dog’s Purpose (shit that movie kill me)

Have I Ever:

6: Dated Some One Twice: no 7: Kissed Someone and Regretted It: Probably  8: Been Cheated On: No 9: Lost Someone Special: Yes 10: Been Depressed: No 11: Gotten Drunk And Thrown Up: Once w/ real bad alcohol poisoning (go hard or go home amiright lmaooo) 12: Three Favorite Colors: Black, Blue and Green

In The Last Year Have You:

13: Made New Friends: Yes! <3 14: Fallen Out Of Love: Na - usually u gotta find love first lmao r.i.p me 15: Laughed Until You Cried: This is a daily occurrence  16: Found Out Someone Was Talking About You: yeah lmao love being centre of attention 17: Met Someone Who Changed You: Do dogs count?  18: Found Out Who Your Friends Are: Myself, my PS4 and my dogs heck, it gets wild down here.  19: Kissed Someone On Your Facebook list: Yeah lmao wish I didn’t 20: How Many Of Your Facebook Friends Do You Know In Real Life: Unfortunately too many.  21: Do You Have Any Pets: Two lovely puppers (actually borfers) Dusk and Skye and two cats; Jaz (my Cat) and Bronson (mums cat) 22: Do You Want To Change Your Name: Honestly mum was gunna call me brittany and thank fuck she didn’t bc I deffs look like a courtenay so no lmaoo 23: What Did You Do For Your Last Birthday: Got lit.  24: What Time Did You wake Up: Eight - Nine 25: What Were You Doing At Midnight Last Night: Driving out to save my friend from a shitty grindr hook up and got krispy kremes for him. Lov u <3 26: Name Something You Can’t wait For: STAR WARS THE LAST JEDI IM HYPED AS FUCK 27: When Was The Last Time You saw Your Mom: literally five minutes ago.  28: What Are You Listening To Right Now: PVRIS - My House 29: Have You Ever Talked To A Person Named Tom: yeah, they are v nice 10/10 would interact again. 

General:

30: Something That Is Getting On Your Nerves: the lack of Sam Drake Smut on this site literally.. ur killing me tumblr  31: Most Visited Website: youtube 32: Hair Color: Dark Brown naturally - but at the moment half black half purple 33: Long Or Short Hair: Medium/long? 34: Do You Have A Crush On Someone: Does it count if they’re fictional? 35: What Do You Like About Yourself: I’m a walking fucking meme and a half.  36: Piercings: Septum and ears, had my nose done but got rid of it.  37: Blood Type: No clue bc I hate needles and I will bleed out to death rather than have one of those pointy fuckers come near me. (she says as she has tattoos??) 38: Nickname: Court/Courtenbae/dumb cunt (really i respond to either, im like a dog) 39: Relationship Status: FUCKEN SINGLE BOIS 40: Zodiac Sign: Scorpio 41: Pronouns: She/Her 42: Favorite TV Show: Rick and Morty or Parks and Rec 43: Tattoos: One on the back of my neck (ligthsaber) and two new ones on my wrists (empire logo and the jedi knight symbol)  44: Right Or Left Handed: ambidextrous, I can’t write for shit with my left hand but it’s a real saviour when it comes to drawing.  45: Surgery: I had my tonsils taken out, had to glue some of my head together after i got a nail stuck in my head lmaoo, and ankle surgery bc I would literally roll my ankles 5 times a day somehow??? 46: Sport: I used to dance and got my black belt in Karate, and for about 10 years I did kick-boxing, boxing and wrestling but like now i’m just a couch surfer lmaoooo. 47: Vacation: Off to Canada in 2019 to work for 2 years <3 SO KEEN 48: Pair of trainers/Sneakers or Tennis Shoes: Trainers asf

More General:

49: Eating: nothing 50: Drinking: OJ 51: I’m About To: pass out, im dead tired.  52: Waiting For: My love life to start picking up again like ????? I’d date me, I’m funny 53: Want: Some fuckin krispy kreme tbh  54: Get Married: If I get married it’s going to be a star wars themed wedding, no questions asked.  55: Career: Production designer for Film & TV <3

Which Is Better:

56: Hugs Or Kisses: hugs 57: Lips Or Eyes: Eyes 58: Shorter Or Taller: Idgaf as long as u give good hugs 59: Older Or Younger: Either all, i’ll poke fun at you some how <3  60: Nice Arms Or Nice Stomach: arms, gotta be able to lift me away from my problems 61: Hook Up Or Relationship: I tried hookup and yeah na look. Let me tell you kids something. I fell asleep.  62: Troublemaker Or Hesitant: Troublemaker

Have You Ever:

63: Kissed A Stranger: yes 64: Drank Hard Liquor: EVERY FUCKEN NIGHT, na jk but yea.  65: Lost Glasses/Contact Lenses: I actually have no clue where my glasses are rn.. rip 66: Turned Someone Down: yeah lowkey 67: Sex On The First Date: nah 68: Broken Someones Heart: yes 69: Had Your Heart Broken: eh.  70: Been Arrested: nope 71: Cried When Someone Died: Yeah 72: Fallen For A Friend: Na everyone here is trash and all my friends are gay. 

Do You Believe In:

73: Yourself: Always 74: Miracles: WHERE YA FROM? YA SEXY THANG! 75: Love At First Sight: OKAY YEAH WELL FELL IN LOVE WITH THIS GUY ONCE I MEAN I NEVER SAW HIM AGAIN BUT LIKE  76: Santa Claus: not for a long time hahaha 77: Kiss On The First Date: why the fuck not 78: Angels: I dont have an opinion on this stuff so like idk????

Other:

79: Current Best Friend’s Name: Mike, forever and always bless him <3 80: Eye Color: Hazel green/yellow in the light?? Im a freak I swear 81: Favorite Movie: STAR WARS SERIES SOZ NOT SOZ 

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