#haha trauma go brrrr

[annimator-ocblog]

OC Story: Just Another Day

(Everything’s totally fine)

The feeling of joy never goes away whenever Jadeyn speeds throughout Arcana City.

The rush of air flowing from their hair, the ever-changing view, the sick tricks they pull off with their hover board, all of it.

But alas, all good things come to an end, and this joyride wasn’t without purpose.

They came across an alleyway in Arcana City untouched from any murals or graffiti art.

And while Jadeyn did have a bunch of art and a mural to their name spread out across the city, they don’t see anything wrong with expanding it.

They landed onto the alley shaking a spray can in their hand to begin, but as they walked towards the wall, something else caught their attention.

“What the fuck…?”

———

Skadi’s starting to get worried

Edan hasn’t been answering his calls for the past couple of minutes, and he usually calls him back immediately.

She kept calling him on her phone over & over again with no avail, constantly being met with no answer.

To his joy, Edan called him back mere seconds after his last attempt.

But to both her shock & confusion, Edan isn’t the one on the other end of the call.

“….Hey Skadi.”

“Jadeyn?! What the hell are you doing with Edan’s phone?”

“It’s… a complicated story; I was gonna spray paint some art in an alleyway, but before I was gonna do so, I saw Edan unconscious on the floor, and-“

“WHAT?!”

“I’ll summon a portal to where ‘m at right now. You… might wanna see this for yourself.”

Jadeyn hung up the call immediately after they said that, and keeping their word, a portal appeared beside Skadi, taking a deep breath before leaping into it.

———

When Skadi reopened his eyes, the sight was worse than what he originally thought, letting out a loud gasp as she covered her mouth with her hands in shock.

Edan laid lifeless on the floor, scrapes could be seen on his skin, blood stained his clothes,

And worst of all, blood streamed down from Edan’s left eye, implying that he lost it due to whatever happened to him.

Skadi immediately rushed over to him with tears on his face as he cradled Edan’s unconscious body in his arms,

“Who did this to him?”

Jadeyn sighed with a sad look on their face, “Don’t know. I could probably peek into his memories to find out, but I think it’s best to get him to a hospital first.”

[fandomwe1rd0]

My last post was pretty negative, so I'm gonna use this post to gush about the human and relatable characters in Rick and Morty! If you wanna see me fangirling, this is the post for you!

I feel like one thing Rick and Morty doesn't get enough credit for, is it being able to consistently human and relatable characters. They all have their own flaws and good qualities thar make them very human an relatable. The ones I relate to most are my boys Rick and Morty!

I could actually imagine seeing a broken man like Rick in real life without the sci-fi stuff. I personally really relate to him! Him considering himself unlovable, nobody noticing when he tried to take his own life, placing others above him, pushing people away and closing himself off for protection. He is immensely realistic and relatable. His self loathing is shown so well, you can tell that he hates himself so much and can't see the good that others, particularly Morty, see in him

Morty also is very human and relatable. He's personally the one I relate to most! He's a bullied introvert. He's a nervous wreck (Ha ha my generalized anxiety disorder go burrrr) He ha incredibly low self esteem, nobody notices when he's gone, he considers himself unlovable, ha had suicidal thoughts (See toxic Morty and the ape scene in vat or acid) and has had some similar trauma that I have. I can again see someone like him in real life, and genuinely sweet good natured teen, alsooo I also relate to him because he looks younger than his age, is the punching bag in his family (Next to Jerry. Also haha my emotional abuse trauma go brrrr) stutters, is bad at math, has bad luck in love, anddd a lot more

The characters feel very real and don't get demonized for entertainment purposes *cough* FAMILY GUY *cough* Yet you never really see them get credit for it, well I'm gonna give them credit! Thank you Rick and Morty for your human and relatable characters!

[honey-minded-hivemind]

*insert Chop Suvey also warning gore*

Haha traumatized Bat boi go BRRRR-

OooooooooooO!

I appreciate the tears you added and the blood being colored bright red. Is the blood markings, or burns, or shackles? Bby bat bean is going through the traumas, aren't they? (I imagine them having a breakdown, simply not able to hold in their fear and hurt and tears anymore-)

Well, not to worry.

They're about to have two mamas/papas who won't ever leave them...

[rexcaliburechoes]

diamant, the horrors chamber, and why he’s just so fun to mess with // the diamant-sertation series

i’d talked a little about this before on twitter about diamant angst and if i’m doing alright (i’m fine just biochemistry major go brrrr) and i just remembered this:

and i wanted to think about this for a little bit. i’m going to try and not retread old ground, but that’s kind of impossible if i want to break him in a realistic way.

but i was mostly thinking about how easy it is to destabilise him. i might be woobifying him too much, but i swear, i’ve been through this rigamarole before with a variety of characters. i’ve hurt characters over and over and over again, testing their limits, watching them bend and potentially break, and diamant has keeled over the fastest. it’s kind of funny in a bit of a twisted way.

but i mean it: why does he bend to easily compared to others?

i think it’s because he Refuses to experience The Horrors, and so when something encroaches on that tenuously stretched self control, he simply cannot deal with anything new, so he shuts down. you’d think he’d have a fight response to new stressors (he is of brodia; if you can’t fight, then what kind of brodian are you?) but i think he’s gone past that point. he’s dealing with enough already as it is, just One More Thing just will set him off. he’s tired, overwhelmed, and bottles everything up because He Should Be Able To Deal With It.

there’s definitely an allegory of being undiagnosed neurodivergent in here somewhere but we don’t have time to unpack all that.

but since diamant is so easily burnt out (which, haha, funny fire trauma go brr), he’s just an easy target to picking at all of his weaknesses and flaws. diamonds have very predictable cutting planes, and if manage to hit one just right, the entire crystal will shatter.

[rec-diary]

Livin' La Vida Loca

Expectation: Haha funny animated cat go brrrr

Reality: Existential dread, the pursuit of excess, facing and dealing with inevitability and how being happy is something one has to choose, every single day.

Let’s speak about the animation first, because I’m nerdy like that. Aesthetic and visually pleasing, I couldn’t help comparing it to the first Shrek movie, for old times’ sake. And the best part of it is the choppy, illustration style animation adopted for the fight scenes. I loved those bits.

Now the villains. From a storytelling perspective, Puss In Boots features three classic villains: the anti villain, evil personified and the force of nature.

Goldi is the anti villain, an orphan who just wants a proper family, although her means of obtaining said proper family comes at the cost of sacrificing her adopted (bear) family.

Jack is evil personified, in the fact that he has no misguided motivations, no tragic backstory, and only exists to further his own selfish goals, come what may.

And lastly, we have Death, the very force of nature, who being insulted by Puss’ utter disregard for the value of not one, but nine lives, decides to go against that said nature and cut short Puss' time, just because he’s that pissed.

Of course, Death is clearly the antagonist, as he alone drives Puss’ character growth.

Also that whistle. And the sickles. And the blood. And the panic attacks. Pure. Fear.

Jeez Dreamworks, easy. It’s a kids’ movie.

Now let’s talk about Kitty. She’s funny.

Moving on to Perrito. Your archetypal manic pixie dream girl, except he doesn’t try to fix the emo main character for once. Huh. Neat. Didn't know that could be done.

Perrito, despite being the one person who deserves a wish the most (in Kitty’s words) has no need for it. Since he came from nothing, he can see more easily what is right before him, and therefore is content with what he has.

What does Perrito do then? He’s there for you. As simple as that. He’s there for his friends, he’s there when he’s needed, he’s there when he’s not. Loyalty.

I’m glad they didn’t make him a surprise villain, because that would have been far too cliche.

I also liked how the map changed depending on who’s holding it. Puss’ path is about the fear of death and Kitty’s path is about abandonment issues. Goldi’s is about childhood trauma.

It's also interesting how Goldi and Puss parallel each other in the resolution of their conflicts. Goldi finds peace by accepting what she already has, and Puss does the same by letting go of what he could have.

"To new adventures and old friends."

P.S. Puss reminds me of you.

Now I'm off to watch the prequel.

[confusedkeyssys]

Hello! Have no idea how long we've actually been gone for but it feels like a week {Haha, time management issues go brrrr} Currently at someone's house {Have been for the past 2-3 days} and leaving tomorrow :]

Nothing's really happened that's worthy of note except the fact that I'm{&} slowly trying to come out as plural to one of my {online} friend groups and afaik {Afaik = As far as I know} I'm already being somewhat accepted by at least one of my friends {Who is, ironically, a friend I got into a "minor disagreement", for lack of better words, with over DID/being a system without trauma} and they didn't know what plural meant so I explained it to them and they were like "ohhh ok" so I think I'm good

[gxlden-angels]

hey sorry I exploded into a shifting mass of holy black light and righteous fire your brain couldn't comprehend I had a lil tummy ache

[mizsmitz]

NO STOP I'M CONFLICTED I'M SCREAMING I'M UPSET WHY

[traumaseraph]

Please don’t get tired of me

[oddworlds]

Petal with color. Explanation: Petal, when she was young, was abused sexually.

[karda]

do u guys ever get that tight stuck feeling in ur throat like you're gonna cry but you're perfectly fine and it just doesnt go away for like hours or days

[mieltelecheycrema]

miss therapy you are so nice to meeeee

[cacoughphany]

why’d you hide this in the tags op

love how in the trailer for Xiao he’s like ‘’ dont judge me by mortal ideals’’ n everyone who saved like a billion primos for him is STILL like ‘ha ha sexc five star adepti go brrr’’

[xenia-cenia]

Xiao x Fem!Reader - Fall

A/N-I’m back and finally writing the scene I’ve planned for him for weeks, shoutout to riko on youtube for making genshin playlists which are carrying my motivation

You guys: please xenia make the characters have happier backstories

Me: haha traumatic childhoods go brrrr

Trigger/Content Warnings: implied suicidal thoughts, spider mention, kidnapping, trauma, death of minor characters 

Word Count: 1,669

Request: No

Summary: flying love confession but more dramatic this time

Stars fell from the sky and landed in his palm. His eyes glimmered in the infinite darkness. How long has he been in this void, the only light being the falling stars? The only sound being death thralls and screams for help?

Xiao was tired.

He wanted to be better, but he was tired.

Stars fell from the sky and struck through his ribs. They ripped his heart in two and pierced his lungs. Xiao was tired.

Xiao was tired.

He wanted to shut his eyes and see all of his friends again, to apologize to the lives he stole and hold himself tightly. He wanted to save himself. He wanted to be better.

Xiao wanted to sleep.

Stars fall from the sky and land in his hand. For the first time in centuries, he holds them to his eye and gazes into their lives. It was to satisfy his curiosity. A quick peek into them, then he’ll never look again. He promised himself this a million times.

Stars fall from the sky and show him something beautiful. Lights, cheers, and smiles. Xiao was tired. Xiao wanted to be better. Xiao wanted to be in the stars. He wanted to hold the stars and keep them safe.

Stars fall from his hands and shatter against the ground.

Xiao was tired.

“XIAO!” A panicked voice drew Xiao from his thoughts. How long has he been standing at this balcony? The sun had long since set. He gave himself half a second to think it over before grabbing his polearm and heading to the scared person.

He burst through the door, heavy breaths filling his chest as he surveyed the room. “(Y/N)?” Xiao called into the seemingly empty room.

“X-Xiao!” Your muffled voice came from under a blanket. You flipped the sheets down and looked at him with the biggest puppy eyes he’d ever seen, “There’s a... a spider.”

His shoulders relaxed and he sighed, “Where?” With a shaky finger, you pointed on the ground by Xiao's foot. Without a second of hesitation, he stomped on it and turned to leave, “Mortals fear the most common of things...”

“Wait!” You called. “Xiao!”

“What is it now?”

“I’m kinda freaked out...” You twiddled your thumbs over the blanket, “Can I sit with you on the balcony?”

Xiao grunted in response, stepping out of the way and holding the door open for you with an expectant yet frustrated look on his face. “I don’t want to talk.”

“That’s fine.” You nervously smiled and followed him onto the balcony. He walked to the edge and leaned on the railing, his eyes slightly widening as he gazed at the stars.

You followed loosely behind, always being sure to keep distance, and looked at the pools of water below Wangshu Inn. Twirls of water lapping against the shores, flickering flames fading into the sand, a serene peacefulness as you gazed into a world you’d never know.

Cool winds grazed your face, you shut your eyes and took a deep breath.

“Stop.”

“What?” You opened your eyes when you heard Xiao's stern voice, his eyes were half-closed with a glint of anger, it wasn’t until you felt the railing biting into your ribs that you knew what was happening.

“If you keep leaning like that, you’ll fall. And you can’t rely on me to catch you.”

You straightened your posture and sighed, “I’m sorry, I-”

He grunted and turned back to the stars. With a slight tilt of your head, you could almost imagine how many stars the adepti has seen through his life. Hundreds? Thousands? Did they shine brilliantly in his memory, or were they dimmed like todays were?

“Do you think the stars listen?” You asked without thinking.

He left his hand on the railing and turned to you, confusion lacing his expression, “What are you talking about?”

You paid his silent judgment no mind and continued, “The stars. Do you think they hear us? When we wish and cry and pray, do they listen?”

“The stars don’t listen, adepti do.”

A sad smile flickered on your lips as you reached your fingers towards the stars, “You’ve always been so hard to talk to, Xiao.”

“Don’t talk like you know me.”

“Sorry, sorry. I just want to blabber, honestly. Do you mind listening?”

He grunted softly, “Mortals and their...” he sighed, “Fine.”

You gripped the railing and took a deep breath, “When I was a kid, I was always terrified of the adepti.” You laughed uncomfortably as Xiao stiffened, “I know it’s not... well, it’s not what you really want to hear, is it? I wouldn’t want to hear that. But, I remember I was, ahhh, 12? 13? I was young. I was very young when it happened.”

Xiao turned away from you, his fingers digging into his arms as he bit his lip.

“I was taken hostage. I don’t remember most of it. But, I... I remember when they took me.” Your voice quivered, “They killed my parents in front of me. It was my fault, y’know. My parents were already unconscious and if I came willingly, they would have survived. I have no family left, and part of me is thankful. I don’t think I could look any of them in the eyes and explain what happened that night. How their baby girl killed them.”

“Did you turn the blade on them?”

“Xiao, I-”

“Did you turn the blade on them? If not, it wasn’t your fault. You said yourself, you were a child. Would you blame a child for the failings of adults?”

“...no.”

“Then why are you blaming yourself?”

You sighed, “Xiao, you’re a... you’re a really nice guy.”

He flinched, “You should sleep. Mortals have weaker bodies.”

“O... okay. Goodnight, Xiao.” You called after him as he walked away. After he left your eyesight, you looked back towards the water, sighed, and went to bed.

You spent hours tossing and turning in your bed. In frustration, you leaped out of bed and walked down Wangshu Inn, stopping only at the shoreline so you could dip your toes in the water and relax.

With the splashing waves and your pounding heart, you couldn’t hear the footsteps crunch on the sand behind you. You hadn’t had the time to process what was happening until you felt yourself lose consciousness.

Dripping water.

Flickering candles.

Harsh wind.

You opened your bleary eyes and pulled yourself up. Where were you? What happened? The room you woke up in was small, with one bed, a door, and a window. With shaky steps, you walked to the door and pulled.

A sharp blast of electricity ran through your palms, you recoiled in pain and took a step backward as tears began to blot your vision. With an angry growl, you glared at the door and stumbled over to the window.

You felt your eyes widen as you looked down. Miles of bricks and dirt leading to ground you couldn’t see.

The door behind you opened, you spun and saw a woman with white hair and piercing blue eyes. She looked you up and down, her eyes scanning you in a way that gave you chills, and smiled sweetly.

“Welcome, dear.”

“Wh...what?”

“Do you know how hard you are to track down? Years and you seem to escape our grasp each time. It’s quite tiring, dear, I was just about ready to give up.”

“Years?” You echoed in a breathy voice.

“Years.” She confirmed. “Truly, I don’t know why we keep going after you. But the Princess gets what she wants. Ah, how she’s wanted you to join us for years.”

“What Princess?”

“Oh.” Her eyes flared, “The Princess of the Abyss.”

“I-I have no idea...”

“What I’m talking about? They never do.” She stalked towards you, “Even now, I can sense the power inside of you.”

You pressed yourself against the window and felt your heart rate increase.

“I wonder what lies below your skin. What oozes from your veins.” She hummed, her voice low as she spoke, “I’d love to see.”

“I...” Your throat was dry as you attempted to reply. She stepped towards you, her arms on either side of your head, a polite smile on her lips. “I don’t...”

“It’s quite beautiful outside, isn’t it?” She pointed behind you and gazed at the night sky. “I’ve always thought the night was a bit boring, however, tonight seems to shine.” She leaned down and whispered into your ear, “I wonder if your fear is what makes them so brilliant?”

“Th... them?”

She laughed suddenly and loudly as she pulled away, “Oh, the stars of course!”

“The stars...” your voice fell quiet.

The woman crossed the room and smiled at you, “Well, darling, you should rest. You have a very busy day tomorrow.” She grabbed the door and grinned as electricity pulsed through her skin, a bounce in her step as she opened the door and left you alone.

You turned towards the window and took a deep breath. You pulled yourself onto the ledge and stood up. Slowly and shakily, you turned to face the window, clasped your hands in front of your chest, and let yourself fall.

“Xiao,” you whispered as you fell. “I hope you were lying.”

Stars fall from the sky and grab his attention. He breaks into a sprint and is long gone before anyone can recognize what happened.

Xiao was tired.

Xiao wanted to be faster, but he was tired.

Stars fall from the sky and cry.

Stars fall from the sky and talk to him on his lonely nights.

Stars fall from the sky and smile.

Stars fall from the sky and trust him.

Stars fall from the sky and call him good.

Xiao was tired.

Xiao wanted to save the stars. Xiao wanted to be better than he ever was.

Stars fall from the sky and Xiao hears himself scream.

Stars fall from the sky and he prays that he’s fast enough.

Stars fall from the sky and he takes heavy breaths.

Stars fall from the sky and land in his arms.

Xiao was fast enough.

“You idiot.” He growled as he landed, his hands curling around you, “What happened?!”

You laughed nervously and threw your arms around him in a tight hug. “You caught me.”

“It’s my duty.” He hadn’t realized he was hugging you back until his hands connected with the soft clothes you were wearing. “I’ll...” he stopped himself. Was he really about to say that? No. 

You pulled away from the hug and swiped your thumb under his eyes, “Please, don’t cry.” You spoke in a trembling voice.

“What? I’m not-” he shifted your weight to one arm and felt his eyes. “Oh.”

As Xiao gazes into your smile, his heart rate settles and he couldn’t deny the sense of calm. “I’ll always catch you if you fall.”

Stars landed in his arms and blush.

Stars landed in his arms and say ‘I love you.’

Xiao was awake.

Xiao was fast enough.

Xiao was good enough.

Xiao was enough.

Xiao smiled softly, “Mortals... always so dramatic.” He leaned forward and kissed your forehead, “I could get used to it.”

[marmartheimp]

Haha fnaf ocs go brrrr,

Vinyl, they're a artist who works on character design, and she mostly just works under El,

The first one is her first design. It could be him when they were in college. I still like the design but I wanted her to more colorful.

The right bottom one is Vinyl and Vanessa hanging out. It happened a little bit after the princess quest ending.

Elizabeth Glover, formerly known as Elizabeth Kowalski, was the head of animation team. Though she has ties to fazbear entrainment because her mother used to work for the company for small time in the 80s.

Vinyl and El are close, besides being apart of the few who are openly queer. They have a shared trauma that ties to the company. Both losing love ones to it.

Vinyl, before a legal name changed, worked on help wanted. They didn't talk, Vinyl only heard rumors that spread around the office about her.

I have more ideas, but that's all, well, I'm done being a cring nae nae baby brrr

[anendtopursuit]

“the reason i find comfort in silco as a character is because, due to mental illness tm and perhaps trauma, i villainise myself in my own head and find it easier to see myself in villains than heroes. furthermore, whilst i am not as bad as him, i find myself believing that we share some personality flaws, and that i have misunderstood and perhaps hurt the people i loved due to this” vs “haha evil goth dilf go brrrr”