#guys this made me so sad tho
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Remember how Donnie records everything?
Like everything everything?
Aaaaand do you also remember how in Turtle Dega Nights he has a whole ass log of when splinter talks to him?
What if they. Were. Correlated.
Like
What if he records everything bc he never knows when Splinter or a “parent aged adult” is gonna give him some kind of affection/praise, and he’s so starved for it that he rewatches those unexpected moments when he needs reassurance and a reminder that he’s not completely unloved and a failure-
If everybody already knew this and I’m just dumb, sorry but I blew my own fricking mind like four times today
#rottmnt#unpause rottmnt#Rottmnt Donnie#radio rambles#guys this made me so sad tho#like bro give your middle child some love#although Donnie is right it do be like that sometimes#Rottmnt splinter#Tmnt
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It’s crazy how expendable all the crew members were to the Pony Express.
A 30% chance that your shipment would be lost. Cargo and crew are inseparable if we are to believe the shitty layout of the Tulpar. People use it because it’s cheap. The labor is cheap. The lives are cheap.
They are all relatively easy to forget about. It’s implied Anya and Curly don’t have many friends or much family to be concerned about them back home. She mentions nothing and no one to fall back on and he feels like wasted his life with the company. Jimmy probably only has Curly, otherwise people wouldn’t care or ask. Of course Daisuke and Swansea have family’s but Swansea thinks poorly of his and Daisuke’s poorly of him. All people in the companies eyes that wouldn’t stir up too much trouble if they became part of the 30%.
It makes it so much sadder because that ladder they were climbing was so small and shitty. There were rungs, ranks, but even the highest was barely off the ground. Jimmy wanted to reach the top of something that was brutally cut off and knocked everyone else off just to not see it.
#like yes curly was slightly better off but he’s not getting a severance package he’s a top show pony to the company#but they will just shoot him if he becomes a horse with a broken leg#Anya was likely picked cause she had enough knowledge but not enough to concretely call malpractice and Swansea was already a cog in the mix#he was an alcoholic getting back on the straight n narrow he needed it Daisuke is forced on the trip and eager to prove himself#Jimmy also need the job and got it from nepotism and won’t care as long as he’s paid#complains but yknow and Curly likely doesn’t do much but work he’s like a perfect little face man and he kinda hates it#like it’s a misconception that he was bored at the top or he needed a new ladder because he was done with this one he literally is miserable#and feels like he unfulfilled and doing nothing with his life as he’s ONLY successful in his work like he has nothing else#which makes it so mad cause Jimmy saw Curly as this guy with a perpetual golden goose but he’s just like them#like shiny gold appearances aside he’s like the second saddest like next to Anya because shes like depressed#because yknow she’s a victim but she had hopeful and happy determined prospects like Curly is just sad with his life and Swansea is chilling#like he’s made his peace even if he’s not like clicking his heals and Jimmy is less sad more angry#he’s a sad mans tho like he’s like Dan vs to me#mouthwashing#the pony express#mouthwashing game#nurse anya#anya mouthwashing#captain curly#curly mouthwashing#daisuke mouthwashing#swansea mouthwashing#jimmy mouthwashing
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finally played thru the infamous if demo and had an excuse to make a goth guy. with Facepaint and a coontail and everything. so here's Dane aka Lacuna of Dead Rat Society
#infamous#infamous if#interactive fiction#iris de luca#maya holland#mine#*24#lacuna#try to stay on model challenge failed.whatever. also i made him under 5'3 after drawing the outfits bc i wanted to climb on counters in the#bus. that's that REAL manlet representation we need. also its so funny when that drunk guy calls u a fag indirectly. what gave it away#also 7 and dane exes is so funny. dane's like i'm over it tho i'm sad that we're not even friends + im happy you got friends but also.#are you in love with avina.like i don't care but ARE you? you have to tell me even tho i'd never ask. lol. but are you? its FINE if you#are i just wanna know. are they in love with you?do you want them to be. its fine btw.#taking everything in me to not start making yt spotify insta + twitter edits of the infamous peeps.
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*shoots your doomed yaoi with a doomed yuri beam*
Sailor Trigun at ALA!!!
#I’m so happy with how these cosplays came out they look just like my concept sketches#and I’m genuinely surprised so many ppl realized what we were!#most ppl thought it was just fem vashwood but a lot of ppl knew it was magical girls specifically I’m v happy#hopefully will have milly Meryl photos from ala to show soon#patiently waiting on those from the photographer#bunny sewed me a new longer cape with a better collar and I remade my undershirt for her#ala changed their prop weapon rules mid con tho which was v sad bc I hand painted and made customized stickers for her milly gun all week#and then they stopped allowing any prop guns that weren’t 50% orange :(#we were able to bring it to the Trigun meetup luckily bc it was outdoors but not to our shoot#next time ig!!!#my cosplay#Trigun#sailor moon#pgsm#vashwood#sailor Trigun#magical girls#vash the stampede#Nicholas d wolfwood#what did I name these au guys#sailor gunsmoke#sailor hopeland#???#i think#Trigun maximum#Trimax#cosplay#au#ala 2024#anime los angeles
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I drew him being miserable (bcuz he’s a wet cat of a man) but felt bad. Gave him lollipop.
#tw blood#cw blood#it’s not blood it’s givanium but just in case#garten of banban#Garten of banban fanart#gobb#gobb fanart#he was born in a wet cardboard box all alone#and I adore him for that#he’s just Such a guy#am I the only one who’s actually kinda really sad about him#I’m listening to my sad playlist and thinking ‘omg this is Literally him’#he’s so ‘I bet on losing dogs’ by Mitski to me#do u think banban would like mitski. I think he would#idc if this is cringe#he’s SO sad. I have to make him worse#how to convey that I have to make him feel the Worst. even tho he’s my fav#love this creature. the bong bong#<- was gonna type something like that last tag but ig I’ve already made that joke.?#sorry for so many tags I just Love the tagging function#I can convey so many emotions in just one post with both Text and TAGS it’s the BEST#it’s late an I’m tired. need to sleep before I write more tags abt how I want banban to be sad
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#can i yap for a moment#im extremely sleepy but im feeling very upset and mad and confused#also lowkey questioning whether me feeling all that is justified or if i am overreacting#anyway#made out w a boy tonight#and he wanted to go to his place#and i was like no i wanna stay and dance with my girlies#and he gets upset??#asking why i'd kiss him if i don't wanna hook up and i said i just wanna have fun?#made me feel so stupid#that anger in me led to a little fight with another boy (who was unfortunately very cute) and i just wanted to punch him#i just hate when boys think they're so superior#so i argued with this stupid but hot man#until an ex? friend shows up and he was pretty drunk just yapping about things#anyway he basically told me he'd like to rekindle our friendship#but not in a heyy haven't talked in so long let's meet up again#it was in a heyy let's hang out again got a new big car and moved out of my parent's house 😋#which gave me the ick bc that's why we aren't friends anymore and i told him no multiple times#and got sad bc he was one of my closest friends#anyway and then we left the party#this guy pulls me aside the parking lot#and i was so embarrassed bc there were so many people and they were all looking and i could already see people gossiping about it#and i just wanted to die#and then he just CONFESSES??#gives me flowers and all which is saur saur cute#but i legit have zero feelings for him </3#and have commitment issues and have never been in a relationship and don't wanna be in one#actually grosses me out thinking about relationships </3#the confession was so random and i kinda lost another friendship? even tho i wouldn't rlly consider him a friend we just share sum classes#but yeah boys are so stupid and confusing and i dunno how and why i get myself into these situations :') m sorry just needed to rant </3
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just all of this from moa regarding frank/hazel/leo. the most uncomfortable romantic tension ever because nobody understands it and nobody involved wants it to be there
especially "Hazel's eyes glittered like gold. 'Gold is easy,' she said. It didn't seem that way to Leo--not when he looked at her." like we can interpret this in a few ways. what an interesting thing to think about a girl you just met
and the whole "if this is a private special thing that she's only done with her boyfriend then I either really don't want to try it or I really really do want to try it" like STOP cut the cameras
#also he's only riding with one arm around her??? on ARION?? bro relax 😭#a frank pov would have been so entertaining here like god I would have loved to see exactly what their loud argument looked like#leo is explicitly attracted to hazel but his romantic feelings are explicitly ambiguous. like he really doesn't know what's going on#he clearly feels Something. but what is it. mostly infatuation imo. he's a teenage boy with feelings that he doesn't want#towards a girl who doesn't want him like that. idk it's just kind of sad and relatable if you've ever been in a similar position#(this is where I remind everyone that hazel is 14 in hoo not 13. closer to being 15 than 14 really. frank and leo are not weirdos)#I love the detail about big bro percy being protective towards hazel even tho it sucks for leo 😔 poor guy#anyways this would have been more interesting if frazel were more slow-paced and didn't get together until hoh or something#like hazel is 100% off the table in this situation so the tension (and the resolution to it) feels kind of meaningless and inconsequential#frank is hazel's anchor to the present and leo represents her lingering inner conflict regarding sammy and her past#choosing between the two (present/past) would have been more thematically significant#but that doesn't really happen because she's already fully committed to frank so the choice is already made#one of the big questions you can ask about moa is “ok so what was the point of the whole sammy thing” and doing ^ something like this#would have helped imo. but everyone that isn't me hates love triangles so yk. probably I'm the only one who would have enjoyed that#or like all three of them should have kissed each other. in my head they did actually#the audience is gonna boo me for this but while I understand why leo and hazel were both weirded out by the sammy revelation#from a reader's pov I'm just like Ok but come on is it really that much weirder than being a demigod and dating your cousins#hazel levesque#frank zhang#leo valdez#pjo hoo toa#percy jackson#piper mclean#frazel#heroes of olympus#riordanverse#pjo#frazeleo#percy jackson and the olympians
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A DEVIL REBORN
Happy Halloween!!! A detailed ID will be placed under the cut (it's close to being 1K i could literally post this to Ao3)
p1. ड्याम्म (dyamma) - Nepali for "(feeling) full", "hitting something"
p3. Chutiya - Hindi for "idiot", "moron" and other related insults
p5. க்ரீச் (kreech) - Tamil onomatopoeia describing scraping/screeching sounds
[Extended Image ID: DYAMMA! Slamming his hands on a table, Achanba Okram finds himself in the darkness of his laboratory. He is wearing black clothes and a white lab coat on top, and has a bowl cut with rectangular glasses.
His thoughts whirl within boxes that are coloured gold and are outlined with red; they put a voice to the uneasy feelings Okram knows are stirring inside of him. The thought boxes read:
With Pavitr gone, I finally have time to string my thoughts together. Half-drowned answers bleed out of my pores. Coalescing like some great, abysmal creature of unknown origin.
Bracing his hands against the table, Okram is acutely aware of his body, of the gaping holes in his back that bubble with demonic energy. His thoughts narrate, My body quakes when I begin to question, wracked with paranoia. With dread, as if the idea of what I had to face was unbearable.
The holes in back — four of them, spaced evenly from each other — begin to ooze golden liquid, hot like fire and viscous like tar.
And yet, Okram thinks, I felt it all the same: that crawling, scintillating horror of my reality. Of my tainted flesh and blood. My being here is the work of demonic forces.
Golden arms, fluid yet bony, powered by some otherworldly thing, unravel from the void in his back. They flounder and expand around him, filling the lab with a cold glow. The fingers are tipped with talons, and, if he looked hard enough, Okram swears they are edged with blood.
I died years ago, Okram thinks. I lost my humanity to the fire of the devil's madness. Thus, the question remains: what is the future of Achanba Okram, a DEVIL REBORN?
The lights of the lab suddenly brighten, and Okram hears him before he sees him. His arms register the presence of the other person, immediately unraveling and slipping out of reality. Just outside, Pavitr Prabhakar's voice calls, "HEY, DOCTOR OKRAM! Sorry I'm late! Traffic was abysmal today."
Pavitr's entrance catches Okram by surprise, and he stutters out, "PAVITR?! You- ah- you have one of your shifts today?"
His thoughts reprimand him, You CHUTIYA! Pavitr always has his shifts on Tuesdays!
Pavitr is unaware of Okram's turmoil, sauntering into the laboratory while hefting up a white plastic bag. He's wearing a black and white flannel shirt, and he has circular earrings. Pavitr's eyes are trained on the bag in his hand. He answers Okram's question with, "Yeah, I do. I, uh, got a little hungry along the way (I'm always so hungry)." Pavitr whispers the last part as he lifts the bag up. He continues, "so I went and bought some vada pav, and—"
He suddenly pauses, his eyes locking onto Okram. He can't tell what is going beyond Pavitr's eyes, but the other man's analysing gaze unnerves Okram to a degree beyond description.
(In Pavitr's POV: his Spider-Sense was just triggered. Red and gold squiggly lines emanate from and surround his head in a halo.)
Pavitr lowers the bag slightly in concern. "Uhm," Pavitr says "are you okay, Doctor?"
Dread and fear floods Okram's system. Suddenly he is hyperaware of everything in the room, including the golden arm that has sprouted from his back and was lying on the workbench behind him, right in Pavitr's line of sight.
Play dumb! Okram's mind screams at him. Accordingly, Okram replies, a tad too tightly, "Of course I am, Pavitr! Why wouldn't I be?"
KREECH. The golden arm scrapes its taloned fingers across the table, no doubt giving away its location.
Okram chuckles nervously, sweating almost immediately, at which his mind howls, Not that dumb!
Pavitr narrows his eyes at Okram and at the golden arm on the workbench. "Are those...demonic arms?" he asks Okram, a shadow crossing his face.
(In Pavitr's POV: In the back of his mind, Pavitr sees a vague and faded image forming in response to seeing the arms. He remembers Doctor Octopus, the man with two extra sets of arms who had attacked him many years ago; he was one of the first villains Pavitr fought as Spider-Man. But... Doctor Octopus died a long time ago. Perhaps...?)
"Oh, Doctor..."
Pavitr's gaze softens as he asks, "Are you being haunted by demons? Have you been attacked by them? Why didn't you tell me? I'm so sorry this has been happening to you. I can't imagine how stressful this is for you." A moment, and then, "Do you want to talk about?"
Okram hides his face in his hands, quickly responding, "No, I'm alright, Pavitr."
Pavitr walks forward, placing his bag down and reaching down to place a reassuring hand on Okram's shoulder. "But, Doctor, men of your generation have ignored their mental health for too long."
"Yes, I know," Okram sighs.
"It'll be okay, Doctor," Pavitr promises, "we can figure something out!"
"And what?" Okram asks somewhat sarcastically. "You will be here with me 'every step of the way'?"
"One hundred percent!" Pavitr says.
Behind them, one of Okram's demonic arms reaches out to peer at Pavitr and Okram; if an arm could be happy, it certainly was. The arm is seemingly pleased with Pavitr's helpful and understanding nature. /.End ID]
#i finished this comic the night before an exam. pray for me#anyway THE COMIC IS HEREEEEEEEEE#this thing has been rolling around in my mind for SOOO LONG lmao#only real spidey fans will understand that this interaction is based on that one scene between peter and otto octavius-#-in the first ps4 spidey game#friendly reminder that pavitr prabhakar (at least in the comics) does not know the identity of his version of doctor octopus#so my brain knew it would be super fucking funny to have this scene happen in the mmau except the roles are swapped. how fucking funny#(please tell me it's funny i worked so hard on this hyperspecific joke)#also yes that picture of pavitr with the bag? that i've been reblogging where he picks up sad peter parker or gets jumped by miguel?#yes that came from here. I AM A COMEDIAN#but narratively-speaking. considering this is now canon for the mythic mumbattan au....#thinking about how i far i can push the insomniac spidey agenda into this universe. thinking. just THINKING. wait I JUST THOUGHT OF SOMETHI#and it is FANTASTIC oh you guys are gonna love it#cackling. you'll have to wait for it tho <3#spider man#spider man india#pavitr prabhakar#achanba okram#(also in case you didn't know. achanba okram ISN'T REAL. HE'S MY LITTLE GUY. I MADE HIM)#(he's like. half oc half established character)#artoftheagni#mythic mumbattan au#atsv#across the spider verse#atsv pavitr#doctor octopus
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“If I could go back, one thing I would do / Try to unravel, cut down, and unscrew / The first double helix that links me to you”
Wow, get a load of these guys. What’s wrong with them?
Also song inspo if anyone would like it! It’s where the top quote is from!
#drawing Gus sad made me feel like I was kicking an already sad wet cat why do I do this to him#supposed to be a weird dream sequence thing about a year later after the Geosenge Incident#believe it or not this piece is about Gus learning to move on#like my thought is that Gus has been trying to move on but he keeps finding Lys’s stuff or references to him#and after dreaming of Lys burning up (literally) and not being able to save him#he wakes up and finds he’s holding Lys’s coat#which finally leads him to finding all of Lys’s stuff around his apartment and throwing it all in a box to get rid of#and it would end with him finally grabbing the photo of him and Lys#and finally cutting him out of it#anyway I love them so much#I NEED THEM IN PAIN AND TORTURED#Gus gets to be happy and moved on later I promise#Lys either got his ass immortal or is dead beneath the rubble 💙#idk what happened tho I heard one song and got locked in and had to draw toxic doomed pokemon yaoi#what the fuck is wrong with me?#yeah I have so many thoughts on those stupid guys fr#I WOULD LIKE THEM OUT OF MY BRAIN THO#PLZ LEMME GO I WANT OFF THIS TRAIN#professor sycamore#professor sycamore pokémon#augustine sycamore#lysandre pokemon#team flare lysandre#pokemon xy#Spotify#rainbowpufflez art tag
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the most bizarre thing about ep8 is everyone repeating how this was Jones' best work
#?????????????#iwtv spoilers#some choices were made. not the best ones. not even good#louis saved by two white dudes from a very evil brown guy. the change that armand was planning to kill him. everything made about lestat#poor lestat tho ://///////////// so humble. so sad. how evil of armand#i'm lauging but lowkey pissed#daniel. no. eric looked hot. but no. a mess. too rushed#right after claudia's death to have this. not a single deep emotion because it got all mixed up in this rush#so did armand like louis? was this all for lestat? kill me. or did he sacrifice louis. again. for what. insecurity. again. because of lesta#i need to rewatch because my brain stopped working after louis had meowed on tv#vampchives
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no ones ever gonna understand how much i love daigo doin this stupid shit after dissolving the tojo
#snap chats#is this a gaiden spoiler. its been like five months catch up you nerds#ANYWAYYYYY NOO I LOVE HIM ....... this whole bit is like four seconds long but i love it so much#i just reminded myself i should probably make gaiden/y8 videos for daigo.. i'll make it a JP/ENG comp or somethn.. one day#not soon tho like its barely anything since he's not in those games Long At All but still. im lazy 💀#excuse me while i gush about daigo for twenty minutes now because hehee HE'S SO CUTE I CAN'T GET OVER IT#this is literally the middle aged equivalent of going yippee like YOU CAN TELL HE'S SO RELIEVED IT'S SO CUTE#got the energy of a student with crippling anxiety after they somehow get through giving a presentation without throwing up#AND his lil smile ......... thank you gaiden you made me wanna eat drywall with daigo's sad puppy dog eyes about kiryu#and then immediately made up for it a minute later#sorry i keep scrolling up to look at him and i love him so much. what if i threw up#i dont like using babygirl lightly but this is actually the most Babygirl frame of him ever ive decided#thats my boy .... i love my boy so much ..... he's so cute ... come so far in life congratulations king ..... ily ...#him lookin up at the sky for a minute just to breathe i know he thankin god for the fact he somehow isnt dead yet#im gonna ignore the fact all of this was for naught so i dont bash my head against a wall anyway stan daigo#im gonna be sick i love him so much#if i redraw this later shut up. i love him...#this is why i try not to look at cutscenes anymore cause when i do i feel my brain being put in a microwave and start to melt#its not my fault i love my guys so much .... ok bye i have work to do ....#and then when i finish that work i can go back to loving my guys YAAAAAY !!!!!!!
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getting into ben 10 is so sad bc I binge the entire OS and am like wow cant wait for more and then every other series doesnt have the things I liked about OS and even casual fans online say that 10yo Ben's character in OS is more compelling than all the others but theres barely any of him after OS
#how did that episode in ultimate alien when it brought back 10yo ben make him 10 times more compelling#but only his 10yo self and not his current self in the show#but fr it was so sad learning that they immediately jumped straight to a 5 year timeskip after OS#plus artstule change plus recast plus major personality shift plus redesign#like looking at alien force ben next to OS ben idk who the hell that is bc thats not ben#its fine like im chill with just being neutral/uninterested in the later series and just sticking with OS#thats the power of fandom#i dislike his omniverse characterization but that doesnt mean i dont love rook#and i wont stick him into OS as a self indulgent au#theres also multiple things i like about the later series for sure tho like#1 rook like i just said but also#ben and gwens relationship. i love that they didnt play around with them in AF#and doom dimension likeee#i dont like how theyre written in AF and UA but that stuff is bomb#i think it all boils down to me wishing the show didnt feel split up in eras with different versions of the characters#and it was more linear#like instead of instant 5 year timeskip it was like. now ben and gwen are 11 or 12. maybe even 13#it shows more development that isnt just a huge jump from 0 to 100#ben getting more mature is the natural progression of his character but also#its the fact that they gave him major development in OS then changed everybody so jarringly they didnt even feel like the same characters#like theres a reason OS ben is the most compelling#it should have been more linear close together and less broken up in my opinion#pandas.txt#they just made ben look so normal and boring in most of the clips ive seen in the later series#plus not even feeling like the same guy#maybe ill try and watch the reboot#it rlly is chill tho bc im fine with just liking OS its a great show#anything i wanted to see i can just think of in my head myself and now i have a bunch of stuff to play around with#once i get more into it#bc this show is so fun and great and i love it i rlly do wanna stick with it
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tape collection is growing….
#not one but TWO different record stores within a 10 min walk from my apt…#& both have both new & used tapes 🤩#some of the prices were crazy tho like. why is hounds of love $23….do u want me to kms be honest….#anyway! now i’ve got these guys + rolling stones + sinatra + beatles tapes from my dad#+ classical music tape & 80s hits tape from the used bookstore…tried listening 2 the 80s hits today & it’s all wonky which is sad bc it was#literally unopened 😢 i’m only out 95 cents on that one tho so c’est la vie…#plus i’ve got a box of 15 of my dad’s tapes he made when he was my age!!! i love collecting items…
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akashi my good friend akashi
#art#traditional art#watercolour#fanart#vocal synth#virvox project#wakamatsu akashi#voicevox#the paper did some interesting stuff with the watercolour wash bg. the paint didnt absorb like normal so it ended up with nice splotches#you know. i will be sad to see their original designs go even tho i totally understand the circumstances. but on the bright side#the virvox guys original designs were tailor made to be difficult for me specifically to mix the colours of half their clothes#so maybe the new designs. will be easier. probably not. we are in a digital age and i am but a little analogue watercolour painter#all that to say is i can never match akashis sweater vest colour LOL its like this greenish goldish yellowish beige gray?#i give up and just make it a warm gray <3 close enough
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#A fe months after my dad died in 2021 a lady at my church invited me to a girl's night at her house#And another and another#And soon I had a group of Catholic friends that were exactly what I needed at that moment in my life#But then a year and a half ago the lady who hosted the girls nights had a baby and now she's running a mother's group at the church#so she doesn't have as much time to dedicate to hosting#And it's become a every few months sort of thing#And then some friends I used to see at church a lot started going to a different church#I also joined the young adult group at my church not long after my dad passed and went to the meetings and made friends there#But then the lady who ran it (who I was friends with as well) moved out of state#And it was sorta in limbo for a good 6 months until one of the guys finally started it again#But that was right around the time I got my new job and started working full time#so I have been to like one of 5 events in the last few months#And I felt rather sad cause a lot of my old friends from the group didn't come#tho I did get to know some new people and it was fun#I just feel like everyone is leaving me again#Just like when I graduated highschool and suddenly all of my friends from my homeschool groups vanished#I also stopped helping at the home school co-op I went to which I've been doing since i graduated because of my job#I just feel so lonely
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i hope you’re safe in your line of work. i’m sure it’s very difficult work and dangerous. it’s also very hot and sexy that you’re a firefighter so it’s really cool that you’re so brave
Well I'm still not dead so that's safe enough I guess lmao but this shit keeps dragging on, like it's crazy 😭 the work usually isn't too bad when we're not on incidents tho, like it's mainly just training and playing in the dirt ahdkaksk it's not as cool and sexy as you think it is unfortunately 😔 but I like to pretend it is and I have fun for the most part so that's all that really matters tbh lmao
#not snz#it's so sad seeing some of y'all with firefighter fantasies#and knowing we would crush y'all's dreams if you ever saw the things we actually do and how we actually act 😔#like i wish i was cool and sexy when i work but alas i am but a crusty little gremlin#also almost every single guy i work with is fucking disgusting in some way lmao#like the lack of hand washing is honestly appalling#tho by snz standards some of the shit that happens is actually hot lmao#shoutout to the one person in my dms who gets most of my stupid little fire stories 💙#anyway i am guilty of making exciting/horrifying things happen to my little ff ocs for funsies#but irl for me it's not that interesting ahdakksks like sometimes things happen but generally no and they're not that crazy#i mean i guess it's crazy rn but overall no#anyway ahdkaks#guess who's on night watch again lmao ✌️#they better fucking let me go home tomorrow tho bc i made plans#i wanna see the bestie 🥺#i think it'll be fine tho like I'm not supposed to be actually on an assignment#just driving around and checking on other high risk areas#I'm fucking tired tho#and i wanna be held 😔#allowing physical affection has absolutely ruined me ahdkaksk like what happened to never wanting to touch anybody ever#oh well 😔#anyway holding onto the hope that I'll be sleeping in my own bed tomorrow#i never sleep well even at home bc of the insomnia and it's damn near impossible to sleep anywhere else bc I'm such a light sleeper#so you can imagine i don't sleep out here lmao it's why I'm always on night watch
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