#guys this isn't a vent it's a cry for help get it right

[solazu1]

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[werewolfbneimitzvah]

vent post. There are two stories i was told in my teenage years that even before i had a real concept of trans issues made me uninterested in discussing the supposed sacredness and safety of separated sex-based spaces.

First, when i was like 13 or 14 my PE teacher told us about a time she went to a women's public restroom, some guy was hanging out outside the bathrooms, she didn't think anything of it, went to the bathroom, and he walked in after her and like, creeped on her over the top of the stall. She was ok, she wasn't telling us this to scare us, just telling us what to do in situations like that (and iirc she was telling the whole co-ed class this, not just girls, bc it's useful for everyone), but this taught me immediately and forever that there's nothing actually keeping these spaces separate really, that anyone can be a creep in any space, and that establishing a space like that as for women only isn't actually particularly useful for safety.

Second, when i was 16 i was at an anime convention, a friendly acquaintance of mine and i ended up in conversation outside, and he showed me his bare wrist and told me he'd been kicked out. A female friend of his had stepped in dog poop outside, and between that and the stress of the convention she'd had a bit of an emotional breakdown, so being her friend, he started comforting her and ushered her into the women's restroom so they could wash the poop off her shoe together. And because he was a man who went into the women's bathroom, he got kicked out, no matter that he was doing something that was actually beneficial to a woman. Punishing a woman's friend for supporting her was supposed to... protect her somehow? This made it clear to me that a no-exceptions rule separating the sexes like that wasn't actually inherently good for everyone.

And this isn't even getting into me as a child needing to accompany my younger sister to the restroom when we were out with just my dad because she had certain support needs past the age he felt comfortable bringing her into the men's room with him. And what if I'd been born a boy, or she'd been the first born? Who's helping her then?

And of course even putting all this aside, we should always prioritize compassion and support anyway. But i never even needed to meet a trans person to know that "keeping men out of women's bathrooms" is silly nonsense. But trans people also need to pee anyway and as humans they have that right, so leave them the fuck alone. your precious women's restroom is just a fucking room with a door, holy shit give it a fucking rest, if someone is attacking you in the bathroom that's bad and if someone is in there to pee that's good and it doesn't fucking matter what their junk is or was when they were born.

a woman could have done the exact same thing to my PE teacher and it would have also been bad no matter how "supposed" to be in the restroom she was, and no one should ever be punished for helping a crying friend wash their shoe.

Anyway i know I'm speaking to like-minded folks here, i just think about those two stories literally every time bathroom gender shit comes up and it pisses me off.

[the-scythes-pen]

Professor!Dan Heng is the sweetest guy. All of his coworkers love him, all of his students love him... It almost seems like he's qualified in every subject- able to fill in for his coworkers when needed, happy to assist in marking assignments or suggesting what assignments to give.

Professor!Dan Heng is the BEST professor you can get. Kind, understanding, perhaps a little bit dry sometimes, but he makes up for it with the interesting tidbits he throws into his lectures, or the topics he chooses to cover in class.

Professor!Dan Heng is popular among students not just because of how he teaches, but also his appearance. Of course, how could they not? Dan Heng is oblivious to this, even when Professor!March or Professor!Himeko try to point it out to him.

Professor!Dan Heng is always more then willing to help out a student whos struggling and looking to improve- or even just to answer questions that students have after class. He loves how curious you are, how you ask such interesting questions both during and after class- and he particularly enjoys you coming during office hours to ask him to help you with an assignment.

Those moments, alone with him in his office, are often the best. He's so kind, offering you tea as he helps guide you through the questions on the paper, always maintaining a respectful distance and attitude towards you.

However, Professor!Dan Heng can't help the way his heart flutters when your eyes light up when you get a question right all on your own- can't help the way his smile mirrors yours when you finally begin to understand what you had previously been struggling with.

You two slowly get closer; with you asking more and more interesting questions, engaging in conversation with him post-class, the topic often eventually straying to some other subject- but he doesn't mind, because Professor!Dan Heng truly is a dork who loves to share his knowledge and discuss different ideas and possibilities.

Professor!Dan Heng is always respectful of you, even when his heart is fluttering and he's barely able to maintain a friendly but slightly stoic facade. When Dan Heng falls for you, he keeps it silent- he lets no indication of his feelings for you slip out.

Its only when you, alone with him in the classroom one day, burst into tears over something- a bad or even failing grade, whether in his own class or a different one- and his heart aches at seeing his favourite student so stressed, crying and trying to excuse yourself so as not to embarrass yourself.

But no, Professor!Dan Heng isn't going to let you leave in such a state. You try to leave but then his hand is around yours (your hand fits his so perfectly), pulling you back towards the classroom and sitting you down at one of the desks, sitting next to you and leaning forward, gently caressing your hand in such a soothing motion as he asks you for details. What are you struggling with? What happened? He's more then willing to help you, no matter what the subject is. He's qualified to teach in many, many areas- and if you happen to be struggling in a subject he's unfamiliar with, he can easily go to whoever your teacher is and explain things to them, or even ask to be briefed on the subject so he can more easily help you.

Once you've calmed down a bit, Dan Heng leads you out of the classroom, down the hall and towards his office. He brews some tea for you- whatever he's noticed your favourite flavour to be- and ensures it's made to however you like it, whether it's with honey or milk or sugar or anything else.

It doesn't matter how late it gets, he'll stay there with you until you feel better. He doesn't mind if you vent to him about whatever is bothering you, or if you just want to sit in silence, or even talk about something completely different- no matter what it is, he just wants you to feel better.

And when you finally stand up to leave, throwing your arms around him in a moment of emotion to thank him gratefully, he hesitates- but only for a moment, before his arms are around you too and holding you gently, his hand reaching up to stroke your hair soothingly, and perhaps he's pushing the boundaries of a student-teacher relationship just a bit, but in the moment he doesn't care. All he cares about is you, and helping you feel better.

His smile is gentle- caring and handsome when the two of you pull away, and he asks you if you're doing better, if you'll be ok on your own now, and when you nod, he lets out a silent breath of relief. He watches you leave his office with a fluttering heart- you felt so good in his arms, so vulnerable and small- no matter how your stature compares to his, he felt a need to protect and cherish you. Thus, to him, you felt small.

And after you're gone, Professor!Dan Heng has to admit to himself that he cares about you. A lot. And... perhaps, he even loves you. And thats a problem.

So he denies it. Denies that he loves you- says that he only thinks of you as a friend, and thats ok, right?

But when you come back to him, excited about your good grade after his assistance, he can't deny how he loves your bright smile, how comfortable he feels when you embrace him again in your excitement as you thank him endlessly.

And when you pull away from the hug yet again, he can't let you go- no, not this time. He keeps you somewhat close, that soft smile on his face as his hand hovers on your cheek, and its only when he takes in your shocked- and flustered- expression that he realizes what he's doing.

It's the first time you've seen the stoic man blush. He goes to pull away, hesitantly- but you catch him, tell him it's ok- and his hand is back on your cheek, his eyes searching yours for any reluctance or hesitation or anything-

And then his lips are on yours. They're soft, gentle, loving; and in that moment Professor!Dan Heng accepts his feelings for you, accepts that despite your circumstances, he loves you. He can't help it.

His hand caresses your cheek, his fingers card through your hair, and then his touch is drifting to your waist, pulling you closer against him as his tongue hesitantly swipes at your lips.

The kiss doesn't go father then that- as Professor!Dan Heng is too shy, too respectful of you to do more then that just yet, even if he wants to. So he breaks the kiss, his cheeks flushed as he continues to hold you close and mumbles

"I'm proud of you."

[secretlyanimmortal]

Yan! Classmate

> tiny note: would swearing count as a warning? it's prtty light too > ~ ms. Chari

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> Remember your first day in middle school? First impressions to new classmates are important! People always said that you give respect to be respected so you waved to your new classmates with a smile. But didn't you know you've sealed your fate the day you walked into that classroom?

> You were so sweet to everyone! Giving free notes you had, sharing stories to relate to people, and even talking to the quiet kids during break so they wouldn't feel left out! > That's at least how you've met him, scribbling on his notebook with stanzas and counting the syllables to his poems. You helped him find a friend group too, joining the literature club, and even making hangouts for you and his friends. > You've even helped in his homeworks and quizzes and he grew in popularity. The school basically knew you guys as a duo till high school. The tight-knit friend duo. > Yeah, but it's high school- what do you think was gonna happen? purely platonic???

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> "Just a friend"? Yeah right! Have you seen how his voice is more gentle when you're near? or how his eyes look at you softer than any other person he's met? You were cute too > It all changed when this one guy- wait how did he get your details? did you like this stranger? he isn't even from our school! why would you even interact with a weirdo-

> He's being distant from you, weird. Hey, at least he has a friend group he talks to, right? Even the teachers were asking you where your best friend was at this point, maybe he's just having a hard day. or week, or month.

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> You felt eyes staring directly into your soul, maybe you did something wrong? Seen after seen message- you felt incomplete without your buddy. > No worries! you have many friends- why are they ignoring you too- what's with the whispering when you walk? the peering eyes and the scowls on their faces when you smile past- this is getting too out of hand > One day, you were chatting with the guy that got your number, when your best friend classmate texted you. > Heyo dudez! whats up? > is it true? > wahts tru? > that you've been sharing school secrets to another school? > wtf NO!!!! whu would sy that??? > nothing, it's just that ur probably gonna get reported next week to the principal > wait who said that i was sharing anything?

> Hello??? dude.... is that why everyone is ignoring me?

> ??? hellO??!?!??#

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> Turns out, you've been the perfect victim to be framed of sharing private school information since you've been talking to that guy from another school. > You beg the principal, showing all of your messages even, yet they didn't believe you. Who would be this good at knowing how you chat? Why would anyone want you to be suspended anyways? > Great, now you're forced into your room, crying with your knees to your chest. Your parents didn't even care anymore- they just said you were grounded (they didn't even take your phone). > It's fine, you can talk to- wait why was he ignoring your calls? maybe he was having a festival at his school or a- > Oh he blocked you... > Well- now your alone. Stuck in your room for two weeks, your social life and battery completely destroyed, and your reputation ruined. > DING! > Yo are ya doing okay? heard u were suspended. > I can stay with u if you're not doing okay, u can vent to me

꒰ა ♡ ໒꒱ > hhhhhhhgggggg should i even make a prt 2 for this? i haven't finished prt 2 for my yan!rival yet > rlly sry every1!!! im too busy Q-Q > ty for reading!! > ms. Chari out!

[wooahaes]

step forward, steps back

pairing: non-idol!joshua & gn!reader [platonic]

genre: hurt/comfort. writer's vent fic.

word count: 1.2k~

warnings: food (hot chocolate) mention. discussions of past abuse & mentions to sex within that relationship. discussions of current dating and potentially not being ready for it yet. platonic skinship between shua & reader (kisses on the top of the head, a little cuddling, etc). mentions of a trauma response in pattern recognition as an attempt to protect the self. writer is working through feelings rn. reader crying. no proofreading.

daisy's notes: i debated turning off reblogs or not putting this in the tags but if anyone else needs to hear this kind of thing... then i hope it helps. it's okay to not be ready after abuse. i'll struggle with accepting it, but that doesn't mean it's not true.

Joshua's fingers were warm around your own cold ones as he passed you your cup of hot chocolate. He'd known you so, so long now, and still he never seemed surprised that your hands were always a bit cold: you constantly forgot to wear gloves in colder weather, and other times you just seemed to bundle up in other ways when you were chilly. His hands lingered there a bit longer, though, just to make sure the porcelain wasn't about to slip. The look on your face said it all: you needed your best friend right now.

"I added a little bit of cinnamon into it," he settled into the spot next to you, watching the numb way you traced one of your thumbs against the smooth, shiny blue porcelain. This was your mug, always tucked safely away in the back of his cabinets. No one else's. "Sorry there's no whipped cream. I meant to get more, but--"

"I'm really scared."

Something flipped within him immediately, and he shifted. "Did he touch you?" A shake of your head. "Did... Did he say something? Because if he said something--"

"He reminds me of him, Josh." You didn't meet his eyes, still staring down at the mug in your hands instead. It was always easier to not look at Joshua in moments like these. He didn't mind: whatever you needed, you could do. It was his job to listen and support now. "Like... Not in the bad ways. At least, I don't think that's it. But... I don't want to tell him everything because it's early, he doesn't need to know the intricate bullshit of that abuse." With a heavy sigh, your shoulders slumped. "But I can't set boundaries without saying 'hey, this reminds me of that abusive guy I mentioned before,' because it's his personality."

He furrowed his brows. "But..."

"It's kinda fucked up," you shifted, and set down the mug on his coffee table without taking a sip. It'd be there when you were done, and Joshua would warm it back up if he needed to. You tucked your legs underneath you, pulling the blanket he'd draped over your shoulders even closer to you. "But... When I think of that guy... I don't think of all the bad. I mean--He was a manipulative piece of shit, Josh, but that's not all he was. Like..."

"That's how abusers get their victims," he said outright, just so you wouldn't have to. "I know."

Another sigh, followed by you shifting a bit more on his couch. "Right. It's like... It's pattern recognition, I think. It's not something I want, but it's like my brain keeps waving these flags like... Hey, remember the last guy? You felt warm and fuzzy with him, too. He heard me say that no one's called me pretty or beautiful before and he started laying it on thick, too." You shut your eyes. "I know this isn't going in the same direction, because we already had this talk--I don't have to worry about it all just being for sex."

Joshua moved in a little more, arm wrapping around you. His thumb traced down your arm, and he felt you shift closer to him. "Okay. So...?"

"So I know it's all irrational. But... What if... It's all this big sign that I'm not ready to date?"

You stiffened in his arms. It was different saying it out loud, wasn't it? Joshua knew you, he knew the way you would think about things. You'd thought the same thing so, so many times--even when you weren't dating. What if you weren't ready? What if you would never be ready? Therapy wasn't something you could do yet, not without some sort of adjustment to your finances and time and everything that held you back from it all. It was always a one day kind of deal, and it'd never panned out. Life kept getting in the way.

"Then you aren't ready," Joshua said, taking your hands in his own. "And that's okay. You were really hurt by everything, you know. You're allowed to not be ready."

"We weren't even together that long."

"Okay?" Joshua squeezed your hands gently. "And? He still hurt you."

"It was... Mainly just sexual, though."

You were doing it again. Joshua slid a little closer to you, knee pressing against your thigh. "It wasn't and you know that. He listened to you a lot, he made you laugh, he complimented you..." Just so he could keep you in his grasp. He'd heard the story before and committed the details to memory so you wouldn't have to say them again. "Like you just said... It's not all bad because then no one would agree to a relationship with them."

Your breath hitched, and already Joshua was pulling you into his arms as the tears began to flow. He could feel your warm skin against the crook of his neck as you broke into sobs, fingers curling hard around the soft t-shirt he'd donned while lazing around his apartment.

"But I really like him, Shua."

"I know." He rubbed circled onto your back.

You held on tighter. "I'm just so fucking scared."

"I know." He pressed a kiss onto the side of your hair. "Maybe it's not the right time."

"Then when will it be?!" You pulled away just to see his face, tears racing down your cheeks. "When--When will it be the right fucking time?!"

He said nothing, and you broke down yet again before diving into his arms. It's been years was what you wanted to say. He shut his eyes, holding you tighter.

"I know it's not what you want to hear," he said, still rubbing circles onto your back in a slow, soothing motion. "But you should talk to him about it soon. Tell him that you might not be as ready as you thought you were. Okay?"

A quiet nod, and you held onto him tighter. "I don't wanna lose him."

"If he's the kind of guy I think he is..." Joshua's heard so much by now. "... Then he meant it when he said he was okay if this didn't go anywhere. Just..." He nudged you away, taking your face in his hands. "Just don't forget that, okay? It's okay if you try to keep this going and it turns out you're better as friends right now. Just don't shut him out."

You wiped roughly at your face with your sleeves, curling back up in Joshua's warm embrace. "I love you, you know," you mumbled. "I'm glad you're my friend, Joshua."

He chuckled, pressing another gentle kiss onto the top of your head. "Someone has to be the voice of reason when Cheol, Jeonghan, and I start making plans."

With a sniffle, you rolled your eyes. "Yeah, because sometimes those plans involve breaking into the humanities building to put party hats on the statues."

"We didn't do it--"

"Yeah! 'Cause I stopped you!" You rolled your eyes, cheek smushed against his shoulder as you rested your head against it. "Can't believe Cheol of all people knew about the broken window lock..."

He laughed, soft and warm as ever, and rested his head against your own. "Really... I mean it. It's okay to not be ready yet, okay? You're still healing."

With a sigh, you snuggled in further. "Can we just... watch something stupid and make fun of it? I think I need to clear my head now."

Joshua chuckled a little, lightly flicking your forehead after untangling himself from you. "You pick whatever. I'll get the snacks."

no taglist on account of venty feelings

[diomcsimon]

Being Scrooge McDucks twin ☕️

Head canons of what I imagine it would be like Scrooges twin.

Gn Reader

I want to mention that English isn't my first language and I am dyslexic so there might be a hand full of grammar mistakes.

🪙 You two most likely grew up close

🪙 So when Scrooge got his number one dime you refused to let him go without you

🪙 You two worked hard to where you two are now

🪙You two faced a lot of dangers together but with each other you guys were unstoppable

🪙 Then came the day when Della and Donald needed to be taken care of, you didn’t have a problem with this they were family after all

🪙 Well things happen and you for became a strong team that all sorts of mysteries around the world

🪙 when Della had here three eggs you became even more protective of her, tbh you probably saw her as a daughter in a way

🪙 When Scrooge told you about the spear of saline and how it was going to be a gift for Della, you were a bit unease

🪙 You knew that Scrooge wouldn’t allow harm to come to her but you also knew that Della was a curious woman and would find out sooner than later

🪙 So together you helped Scrooge build it but then Della found out about it and took it out for a test drive

🪙 You got a panicked call from Scrooge all you could make of it was “Della found it “ “she’s in a meteoroid storm” and that was all you needed to hurry your way to him

🪙 When you got there you saw Donald with the eggs heading out angrily and refusing to talk as you made your way further in there you saw Scrooge leaning over a counter of controls and a big screen only saying the words “signal lost”

🪙 You called out to Scrooge and when he turned to look at you your heart broke, he looked as if he had been crying for decades and was still panicking

🪙 Rushing into action you ran over to him comforting him and trying to understand what was going on

🪙 Together you search for Della spending enormous amounts of money but to no avail

🪙 You also tried to get in contact with Donald but he showed no interest in the dangerous life

🪙 When Beakly came around with baby Webby, you and Scrooge took them in and you made sure Webby felt at home and welcome in the machine

🪙 You made sure he knew he could come to you if things ever got too tough and you did send him some gift money and present to the boys from “ secret Santa”

🪙 So when one day you and your brother were coming home from work you were more than happy to see Donald in the driveway (unlike a certain someone)

🪙 You were more than happy to take care of the boys, even if it was just for a few hours

🪙 But Scrooge had other plans. When Scrooge but the kids in the old storage room you were ready to protest but Scrooge was quick to snap at you as well

🪙 Not wanting to anger him more you headed to your office to think

🪙 Wile in your office you heard sounds coming from the vents and the next thing you know four kids fall out of your ceiling vent

🪙 But to no surprise Webby is the firs one to jump up screaming "GOOD MORNIG Y/N"

🪙 Happy you greeted the kids before the were quick to run out, soon deciding to follow after them to make sure the don't get into too much trouble

🪙 Finding the kids looking around the garage

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Walking into garage I saw the kids looking at the neglect artifacts. I saw one of the triplets putting sticky notes. My attention is then brought to the one in blue, what was his name again? Oh yeah that's it Dewey. I see the painting that Dewey is looking at and feel a sting in my heart as I realize its the one with our old team on it. "It's fake" Louie says before I'm fast enough to protest Webby beats me to it " What no it's not right Y/N?" " It's true it's real I still remember that like it was yesterday " I say recalling the old memory.

"Oh come on are we really stupoustu believe that?" Dewey asked. As I wen't to answer he starter walking around wile pointing to different things clainig they were fake, I rushed after him worried hell get hurt. When he opens a chest with the ghost of a pirate.

Acting quickly I grabbed Dewey and guidet the others to cover. As I tride to think of a plan I see the triplets panicin "Hey it's going to be okey im going to take care of this, you four stay here until its safe"

Just when I was obout to jump into action I hear my brother yell " what in dismal downs is going on in here ?!" oh great now that. “What are you three doing out of your room?” He yelled to the kids "We've got this. There are four of us and three of them. If we, wait never mind, they teamed up" "Ah good, that means only one target" Scrooge said ready to lunch at the ghost. " No, get back your old!" Dewey yelled after him to no avail.

"Oi Beastie, what's it gonna take to shuffle you off to the afterlife?" Scrooge yelled pointing his cane at the ghost "The head of Scrooge McDuck!" it yelled "Would you settle for his hat ?" Scrooge asked launching at the ghost. " You kids stay here !" I yelled leaping out of the hiding spot.

"hey need help Scrooge ?" "Well I'm certainly not agains it"

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That's sorta all the motivation and ideas I have for now. I might make more later if I get motivation and ideas :))

[newkatzkafe2023]

@lara-legomonkiekid

What if they fought and after the fight Monkey King gets mad at Y/N and Y/N starts hugging him and purring(if she's a monkey) like apologizing.

(Lmk Wukong) you were always super hard to be mad and stay mad at you. You have Useful methods to having him forgive you. But this time it might take a little more than that. The Monkey king of course was fighting a bunch of demons And you'll guy in the way and help him. But not without getting bruised. First of course you both won but that didn't mean he was not upset. He was venting electoring you about being more careful and to let him handle threads like that. Because he'll be better equipped for it. You powered it at his direction before slowly stalking towards him. Sit on his lap and rub your face against his. He was fighting to remain focus by the second he heard soft purrs From you as you cuddleton, he can no longer be angry. No instead he got cute aggression because of you.😖😖😖😖

(MK Reborn) If you think for one Second, you can escape his fury by acting cute and giving him poppy eyes. Well most of the time you're right. But not this time you were pretty reckless on the battlefield. When you went to help him get his master back from some demon. Kidnappers granted you guys won but not without a Huge gash on your leg. Wukong Was less than pleased with the injury and began lecturing you about being more careful. First of all, he really shouldn't be talking and second. You were trying to make the job easier by having two a you fight of the demons. You know just what to do to calm down. You wrap your arms around his neck. Pull them closer chess and purr right next to his ear

Sowwy my king You pouted at him God he can't stand you sometimes😤😤😤😤

(NR Wukong) This usually works on him not all the time but he usually does. Wukong They had everybody to be mad at you after Is draking an important part of Li's Motorcycle when he told you not to hang around there too much. But it wasn't even your fault you were Searching for loss idem but you didn't see them anywhere and you knocked it over set and everything was ruin. Wukong Gave you the silent treatment which you don't like. So you talk this time to come close and hug him or purring next to his ears. A blush developed on his face He still didn't face you and continued to ignore you and when you finally Kiss the edge of his ears he couldn't take it anymore and turned around and Kiss you. Hey he's paying attention to you isn't he😉😉😉😉

(HIB Wukong) Oh he can be a piece of work sometimes. You guys were fighting because of the incident, That had been dued one of the demon raids. And at them got a whole of Liuer And almost ran off with him until you went savagely Leave that all up You got injured and had kind of looked serious. But you didn't seem to know due to adrenaline. But other than that he was seriously angry you were Calm him down because you've got a doubt with stuff like this before. So cuddle close to his chest and began purr. He was loud then got very quiet. He really thought he'll lose you out there but he should know that your not going anywhere.

(Netflix Wukong) It's kind of easy for you to get him to forgive you. You just have to whine and give him you shiny puppy eye and he'll be putty in your hands. But he was literally mad at you today. Due to your recklessness against the problem of demons but you had to do something to help those children, That got caught in a crossfire so, but he wasn't having yet and was still fighting in the yelling at you. You don't like seeing him like this so you Cuddle him close and began purring to calm him down at first. He continue to yell at you but then he started to cry. He was just so afraid of losing you.

If this post gets 35 likes I'll make a Song-fic 😇👍

[rzyraffek]

So fem reader having an anxiety attack and how they’d help they as in Billy (both Loomis & Lenz) and Stu

I WROTE THE WHOLE THING BUT MY PHOJE DIED AND DIDNT SAVE SO SORRY IF ITS SHORT IM NOT WRTIING CUTE LONG FIC AGAIN😭😭

Sory for the long wait btw I was busy. Also I never had anxiety atack so if something isn't right I'm sorry. I'm not proud of this one

Slashers with s/o with anxiety atack

Billy Loomis

My guy will immediately notice that something isn't right, hes good in reading people

Has no clue what to do (like most of slashers tbh) so he will probably make her tea and just let her vent

After first time that this happen my dude NEEDS to know everything about anxiety attacks. What triggers you, how to help ect

If something like that would happen in school he would totally skip classes for you babe

Billy Lenz

Dude has no clue what she is on about

??? Why you crying??? Stop? Did somone die?

Has no clue what anxiety is

Assumed that somone bullied her or something so he plots murder rn

After s/o explains what is anxiety and how it works... my dude still doesn't fully get it but okay

Next time he will just awkwardly sit next to her and look at ground or something. Like he doesnt want to leave her alone but he still doenst know how to help?

If shes okay with human touch during anxiety atacks he will hug her. Or just lay on her lap, or let her lay on his lap. He just wants to be close

Stu Matcher

If it happens at party my dude either cancels it or takes her to quiet empty room

Immediately get very defensive of her, thinks that somone did something to s/o

Will bring her blanket and sit with her for few minutes. When she calms down hes going to ask a lot of questions

Also at the start he thought she was pranking him or something

Totally holds her hands

[liveforjeongin]

can i request lee!know with ler!felix

i js love minlix😭

How To Cheer Your Minho Up (3/7)

I honestly love Minlix too, they're so cute and there isn't enough tickle content of them😭

So I was really happy to write this, and, casually, the next member in my series of ler!Felix was going to be Lino, so I kinda mixed it

Thank you for the request anon, I hope you like it<3

-tickle fic, if you don't like that you can keep scrolling

requested by: anon

warnings: Minho is conflicted at the beginning, crying, soft tickling, pinning, kinda short

Read 'How To Cheer Your Jeongin Up (2/7)' (the previous part) here in case you haven't yet!

taglist: @itzsana-kiddingmenow @channieissocute125

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Minho had been feeling bad.

That was it.

He didn't understand what was happening to him and why he was feeling like nothing really mattered. He didn't understand his own feelings, and was confused about what he wanted and what he didn't.

He had tried hardly to hide this from the members, knowing they would get worried, and he didn't want that.

But he also knew they could help him.

After some time, maybe months, feeling like this, Minho couldn't stand it by himself anymore... He needed comfort and support, and he knew it. So, he took the decision of telling just one member, with that it should be enough, right?

He knew he could trust in really any member, and that they all would care, but his final choice was his sunshine boy, Felix.

Felix was peacefully playing LoL in his room, in his own world, when Lino came "Lix" he called out to him.

Yongbok immediately turned around to see his hyung, the older's tone of voice anticipating that there was something going on "Yes, hyung?"

"Do you have a second?"

"Sure, hyungie" Lixie answered from his chair.

Minho sat in the sunshine boy's bed, and, after thinking how he should say it, he finally let it all out. Lix just stayed there in his chair, listening attentively to all of his hyung's words, ready to console him and help him once he was done.

The second Lino finished venting, Bokkie basically jumped onto him, giving him a warm hug.

Lee Know hated to show his 'negative' feelings, specially to his members, but this time, he couldn't contain himself, and started crying in his dongsaeng's comforting embrace.

The two guys kept hugging each other for a while, until the older finally stopped crying.

Gosh... He felt way much better now.

"You feel alright now, hyung? Is there anything I can do to help you?" Felix asked; as always, his sunshine nature and his love for his members made him have this urgue of helping them the best he could.

"I mean... I don't know what else you could do to cheer me up... But if you have something, then do it" Minho answered his question, completely oblivious of what he was accepting.

Lixie had the perfect idea and smirked a little, while he tackled the older in the bed, making sure to lift his arms above his head to immobilize him.

It all happened so suddenly that Lino couldn't even react, and before he could say even a word, he found himself shivering at the gentle but extremely tickly sensations caused by Felix.

"W-Wahahait! I didn't mean thihihihis!" Lee Know talked through his giggling.

"But you're feeling better now, aren't you?" Yongbok teased a little, tickling thoroughly around his hyung's torso, making sure to be gentle, so he wouldn't get him back so bad-

The older couldn't help the slight blush on his cheeks "ihihihi'm not! That's a lihihihihie!"

Lixie could just smirk "Are you sure about that, hyungie?" The younger increased the pace and intensity of the tickles, Minho's laughter growing louder as well.

"A-AHAHAHAHAHA! OKAY OKAY! I AM FEELING BEHEHEHEHHEEHHETTER! NOW COULD YOHOHOHOHOU PLEASE GO BAHAHAHAHACK TO GENTLE?!"

Lino's request surprised the younger a lot. Was he really letting him go on? And here he was! Torturing him instead of giving him some gentle, soft treatment like he deserved!

Almost immediately after Minho spoke, Lix made the tickles gentle again, even setting his arms free.

Bokkie really thought that he wouldn't try to fight the ticklish feeling.

Of course he was wrong.

The moment he allowed his hyung to move freely, he started squirming around in the younger's bed, and trying to push away his hands, whether it was intentionally or just an automatic reaction. The cutest giggles ever were coming out of the older's mouth as well.

"Lihihihihix! That's really bahahahahad!"

Lix just smiled affectionately at him "I know, hyungie, I know, but you're doing great~"

Lino could just take it for a few more minutes. The feeling was indeed gentle and soft, but just as unbearable as some rough tickles would be.

"L-Lihihihihix! S-Stop nohohohow! Please!"

"Mmmmmm... Are you sure you're feeling better now?" Lixie teased him a little, not stopping yet.

"Yehehehehes! I promise!"

Felix smiled softly before stopping, and, almost immediately after doing so, he jumped onto the older, cuddling him tightly.

Minho was panting a little, with a big smile on his face now. He wrapped his arms around Lix back, holding him close to his chest.

He spoke up after some seconds "Thank you so much, Lix"

The younger smiled up at his hyung, glad for having helped him "Whenever you need, hyung"

They fell asleep some time after just cuddling there

They were too comfortable in each other's embrace to not to.

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I'm not really proud of this one, but I can kind of relate with Minho, and I do think I did kind of good with it, so I hope you all like it<3

[countrymusiclover]

5 - Code Red pt 2

Part 6

Dr. Redheaded Neighbor

Tag list - send an ask to be added @annieradcliff @watermeezer @zaidatorcuatomorgado please comment thoughts or ideas below ❤️

I remained laying on the tile floor almost frozen at the sight before my very eyes. I couldn’t entirely believe what had just happened. I was somewhat prepared to get shot by the David kid. And then Maxon jumped in front of me, so I was somewhat prepared for that outcome. Yet the one I couldn’t wrap my head around was the fact that Will had pushed us both away and taken the hit in the end. What did it mean – best friends don’t do something so reckless do they?

“I’m sorry – I – I didn’t mean to shoot him.” David’s nervous voice drew me away from Will who was holding his injured foot. He had managed to scoot his body up against the nearest wall for some support.

I glared at the kid holding Maxon up against my chest. “So you did plan to shoot me. Great plan.”

“Hey watch your tone. I have the gun here.” David snapped at me.

I rolled my shoulders doing my best like I was taught to show I wasn’t afraid of the teenage father with a gun. All he was being was an idiot for shooting people and then demanding the doctors to help his ex girlfriend. “You can make threats at me all you want. But you forget that if you keep injuring more people that just means more work for the doctors and they might turn their attention away from your girl and your baby.”

“I won’t let that happen.” He told me.

I sniped shrugging my shoulders. “I don’t know trigger happy people don’t usually have good outcomes. But you do you man.”

“If you don’t stop talking I will shoot you.” David gripped the gun in his right hand.

Will croaked out in a worried tone, knowing this guy was unpredictable. “Mallory be quiet. You’ll only make him more upset.”

“I’m not afraid of him. Listen here David you shot my best friend and given that information I don’t care if you have that weapon pointed at me or not.” I snapped at him while Maxon growled under his breath with his ears pointing downward showing how fierce he could be and if I let him go, he could likely rip into his skin.

“Ahhh!” Whipping my head around I saw the pregnant girl cry out in pain where she lifted up her shirt seeing the baby shift inside of her stomach.

Natalie rubbed her hands over her belly. “You're completely dilated. We've have to deliver the baby.”

Lily the young girl shook her head no. “No, I don't want to push it out.”

“I know this isn't how you wanted it to happen but we cannot wait any longer.” She explained.

David asked rushing over to her room . “Can't you just do the c-section?”

“It's not safe to do it here. I’m sorry, Lily, but I need you to deliver this baby.” She told the girl.

I crawled forward seeing a handgun from the other officer hiding it underneath my shirt before he could get another firearm in his hands. Maxon got up helping me sneak back into the room. Will had managed to make his way in their so I rushed to his side. “Will, what were you thinking taking a bullet like that!”

“I couldn’t let him shoot you or Maxon.” He dropped his hands at his sides.

Smacking a hand over my face I groaned. “Will! That doesn’t answer my question.”

“Look it doesn’t matter why. You two need to just stay in here and we’ll get him out of here before he hurts more people.”

“Will, I’ve got to get out of here and get help. I saw SWAT outside before the windows were covered. I can help them.” I snapped at him with Maxon standing sternly at my hip.

Will paused trying to think of some way out till he lifted his gaze up seeing an air vent. “You thinking what I’m thinking?”

“Give me a boost, Halstead.” I nodded climbing up onto the bed taking the vent cover off and laying it on the bed.

Will put his palms together underneath my feet hoisting me up inside the dupt. “Be careful you two.” He lifted Maxon up till he could jump up inside and he put the vent cover in my hands.

“You be careful too, Will.”

I heard Will’s voice as he exited the room. “Dr. Manning is gonna need another set of hands to deliver your child.”

“Okay, yeah. Help her, help her, help her, help her, help her.” David demanded him.

Will was at the girls side holding her hand. “You've got this, Lily. Keep breathing.”

“I just couldn't let him take our baby like that, Lily. I could... I couldn't do it. I'm sorry. I'm sorry.” David apologized standing in the doorway of her room seeing her start pushing the baby to come out.

‘Yeah, you're doing great, Lily. Just keep looking at me, okay? Breathe. Breathe with me, Lily.” Will reassured her before I lifted up the vent cover and put it back in it’s place so he wouldn’t see we were gone.

I began crawling on my elbows and knees following Maxon’s tail that was in front of my face. We went through four or five different turns before we came upon a vent that showed the outside parking lot lights. “Bust through Maxon.” I instructed him figuring we didn’t have long.

By the time Maxon busted his head into the air vent and it fell o out allowing him to jump down towards the ground. Sliding down the wall I landed on my feet seeing multiple SWAT vehicles had surrounded the building. One of the guys came over to me. “Are you hurt ma’am?”

“Don’t worry about me. We need to stop the kid inside.”

“We’re handing it.” The lead guy spoke.

I raised a hand and Maxon batked harshly up at him. “Give me a rifle and let me take the shot. You will not do anything else but that.” He ran off in that direction before he gave me the weapon.

Looking through the shot hole I could somewhat hear what was happening. “No, listen, all we gotta do is get to the neighborhood, all right? Because I know people who'll help us get out. I promise, it's gonna be okay. All right?”

Lilly coughed barely staying awake after the delivery. “No. It's over, David. It's over.”

“If you change your mind, when you do, call my mom. She'll tell you to get in contact with me and the baby.” David turns around on his feet seeing the boss holding his kid. “Give me my son.”

“I can't do that, David” She said to him.

David aims the gun at the group in the room. “Get back. Get back. Everyone back against the wall now. Miss Goodwin, hand him over.”

She began walking backwards from him. “I said I'd help you, David, and I meant that. But I'm not giving you this baby.”

“I'm not leaving here without my son.” He growled.

She held the baby closer to her. “You don't have a choice.”

“No, you don't have a choice. I will kill everyone in this hospital before I leave my son.” David moves forward and I kept my finger on the trigger.

Will’s boss said stepping out of the way of the shot I needed to take and the kid walked in. “Then you're gonna have to start with me.”

One of the SWAT officers scolded me since I hadn’t taken the shot yet. “If you don’t take the opening. We’ll lose our chance.”

“I know what I’m doing!” I snapped at the guy, not removing my attention through the scope on the automatic rifle.

David stepped towards Will’s boss about to shoot her until I pulled the trigger shooting him in the back of the head. “Give me my son.”

His ex girlfriend cried watching his body collapse to the floor with blood pouring out. “David! No!”

“In case it wasn’t clear. I’m a former army vet.” I lowered the rifle glaring st the guy and the rest of the SWAT team bursts into the building.

The SWAT guy quickly avoided my gaze. “I’m sorry ma’am.”

By the time SWAT had gotten in I busted my way through the crowd of men frantically searching for Will. Maxon ran on my heels until I came in contact with the familiar auburn hair. “Will!” I called his name where he barely got the chance to turn around before I flung my arms around his neck.

“Offf! Mal, Mallory. I’m okay, I’m okay.” He caught my body wrapping his arms around my body hearing me cry into his shirt. “Look, there’s something I need to tell you-“

I cut him off not giving him the chance to finish his sentence after I held his face in my hands crashing my lips up onto mine. I felt him gasp and he slightly kissed back for a minute until I broke the kiss feeling light headed. “I um – shouldn’t have done that – umm Will.”

“Mal – Mal – Mallory!” He called my name quickly picking up my body seeing my leg was bleeding again, meaning we had a serious problem on our hands.

Comments really appreciated ❤️

[svt-yexi]

Hiii! I don’t think that you’ve ever done this but how about the reactions (glimpse) of the members when they find out that yexi’s dating someone for the first time while she’s in svt? Btw i love your OC 🫶🫶

Glimpse: How the members handle Yexi having a boyfriend

Scoups: he will always see her as the little sister that he helped take care of. He would be hard to impress and would probably be the very last person to approve of someone she dates since the bar he sets is so high because he thinks she deserves perfection.

Jeonghan: he would think Yexi dating is the cutest thing ever. He would be welcoming to the guy until he screwed up. If he screwed up Jeonghan would be the member he should fear most.

Joshua: he'd be willing to help her date and find ways to make sure that her relationship isn't found out. He would be the one that would worry about that the most because he knows that if her relationship is found out that it would be hard for her and the hate would be overwhelming.

Jun: that his baby. He would have a hard time accepting the fact that she's dating. He'd whine and pout about it. As long as she was happy though he would support the relationship.

Hoshi: he'd tease her about it but also be the biggest fan of the relationship as long as it was a healthy one.

Wonwoo: he'd be happy as long as she was happy but the first time the guy made her cry he's basically dead to him. The glares would be deadly.

Woozi: he stays pretty hands off and doesn't have much of an opinion over the matter. But he would encourage her to write lyrics about all the emotions that happen in a relationship.

DK: when she's in a relationship and happy he is the biggest fan. That's his OTP as long as he's treating her right.

Minghao: He will be judging the guy from the first meeting. Scrutinizing everything he does and if he does Yexi dirty Minghao would put his zen life style on hold and throw hands.

Mingyu: he'd be whiney that someone else is taking Yexi's attention. He'd also be grumpy over the fact that he now has to be cautious of skinship with Yexi so it doesn't cause problems, but the day they break up it's back to cuddle time.

Vernon: he has no thoughts about it at all. Date, don't date, he doesn't care. He's supportive as long as she's happy.

Seungkwan: you better believe that if it's someone from the industry that he's going to be getting in touch with all his connections to find out as much as possible about the guy. He has high standards for Yexi and if the guy doesn't meet them, the guy has to go. But he's always there to listen to what she has to say, whether it be gushing or venting.

Dino: if he treats his Noona badly Dino is ready to square up. He just wants her happy and anyone that does not do that is at risk to end up in fisty cuffs.

[stay-dazed]

stray kids as your older brother

notes: female reader, and you're their adopted sister. this is my first time making a post like this, so i'm sorry if it's repetitive or anything. i hope everyone enjoys!

chan: chan's always loved being an older brother, and not just to his biological siblings, but to anyone who may need a brotherly figure. so when his parents made the decision to adopt another child back when he was still a trainee, he was excited. nervous as hell because he wasn't sure if he'd be a good enough big brother to a new sibling from all the way in korea, but excited nonetheless.

the day you came home his parents set up facetime so you both could meet and of course you both clicked pretty quickly thanks to how patient he was and how calmly he spoke. and now, six years later, you're close with all three of your siblings. of course you're closest with lucas since you see him everyday, but you still adore hannah and chan.

chan's a pretty busy guy but he takes every opportunity he can to either facetime all his little siblings, or at least text to see how everyone's been doing. he also gives the best advice he possibly can whenever it's needed. and as it may seem, tonight is a particularly difficult night for you.

as you lay in bed mindlessly scrolling on your phone after a quiet dinner with the family, your thoughts begin to feel suffocating. your eyes become glassy, and a lump forms in your throat. quickly you check the time - 7:30pm. well... korea is only an hour ahead, and chan never really sleeps anyway. he wouldn't mind if you called real quick, right?

with a shaky hand you go to his contact and press call without even looking, having memorized the process by now. you hold the phone to your ear, your lips are pressed tightly together as you try to not cry. the phone rings once, twice-

"hey (y/n), what's up?"

his cheery voice alone brings the tears to slip down your cheeks despite your best efforts. "channie-hyung? are you busy right now?"

chan is immediately in protective mode after hearing your shaky voice. "no, no i'm not busy," he says despite all the talking going on in the background," what's up, hon? did something happen?"

you spend the next hour and a half just venting about how awful things have been recently. how you may not pass your government history course despite how hard you try to understand everything and how the new manager at your workplace treats his employees like idiots. and as to be expected, by the end of the call, you feel so much better. you're even giggling at the silly things chan says to try and cheer you up.

"an idiot? nah nah if anyone's an idiot, it's me. i share exactly one braincell with the boys at any given in time. you're doing great, hon."

minho: admittedly, minho isn't exactly excited when his parents first announce their plan of adopting a teenager. it's not that he wouldn't love his new little sister or anything but he grew up an only child, so he isn't familiar with this dynamic. during the seven months it takes to go through the whole adoption process, minho spends as much time with his parents as he can, helping set up what used to be his room as your new room and getting reassurance from his parents that he'll be a great big brother.

gradually minho gets used to the idea of having a little sibling. in fact he's kinda excited now. he's curious to see what you're like and how you two will get along. the day you come home is a little bit awkward as to be expected, but it's full of smiles and small talk anyway. minho shows you to your room and talks about how it used to be his before he moved out at a young age. that leads to an interesting conversation about his past job as a waiter, his uni experience, and how he became a kpop trainee.

the conversations continue into the evening, all through the hearty meal made by your parents. you're already beginning to feel comfy here. the only thing left to do to truly become a part of the family is meet the fluffy trio - soonie, doongie, and dori. you had seen them earlier but they were hiding in their cat tower, anxious about this newcomer in their home. after helping with clean up, you carefully head towards the cat tower where you kneel down to hopefully appear less big and intimidating. you first meet eyes with soonie, and you're instantly drawn to the way his little nose twitches curiously in your direction. with a big smile, you speak to him in a gentle voice," hi baby. look at you, you're so cute."

you hold your hand out to him so he can get more of your scent but he doesn't seem to like it as he cowers further into the tower. "oh no, i'm sorry baby. i didn't mean to scare you. i promise i won't hurt you!"

minho comes up behind you and watches for a moment as you continue to try coaxing soonie out, with no success. "why don't we go sit on the couch? eventually they'll get curious and come out to see what's going on," he suggests.

you nod and follow him to the living room where you both sit on the couch and just spend time talking about different things. it takes a little while, maybe twenty minutes, but finally doongie builds up courage to come out first and see what his papa's up to. he jumps onto minho's lap and sniffs in your direction but ultimately curls up where he is. soonie comes out next after a few more minutes, and just curls up on one of the couch pillows that fell on the floor where he proceeds to doze off. well it's good he trusts you enough to nap around you.

and the last to come out is dori. you expect him to go find another spot to settle in like the others did, but much to minho's surprise and yours, he instead climbs on your lap, sniffs your nose a couple times, then lays down and begins licking one of his paws.

"i've never seen him get comfortable around a new person so quickly before. you must be really special!"

changbin: changbin is so excited to learn he's getting a new baby sister. well not an actual baby, but a baby to him. he's always been bullied (playfully) by his older sister and now it's finally his turn to do it to someone younger than him. changbin has always been highly observant and good at memorizing how to specifically help the different people around him, so he knows he'd be a good big brother for sure.

the evening you come home is very busy. your parents, big sister, changbin, as well as seungmin who has the day off, all take you out to eat at a nice restaurant for a sort of first gotcha day celebration. you're incredibly nervous and soft spoken which is understandable considering it's your first day with your new family, and thankfully they're all very patient with you. they try their best to be as cheerful as possible but not too overwhelming.

and despite being so nervous, seeing your family (and seungmin) be so happy and playful with each other helps you calm down over the next couple hours. by the end of dinner you're giggling and feeling much more relaxed than before. you haven't said much besides answering questions they've asked you, but they don't seem to mind. when dessert comes - specifically bungeoppang for you - changbin asks," oh you like red bean paste too? (y/s/n) doesn't. she says it's too sweet for her."

you smile and respond softly," yeah it's one of my favorites." changbin smiles back and nods with a hum. he's sure to remember that for future reference.

as him and your sister start poking fun at each other once again, seungmin egging them on, a playful jab at changbin slips past your lips. you're not sure where that little bit of confidence came from, but it leaves changbin in shock and seungmin in a fit of laughter.

he says while slinging an arm over changbin's shoulder and patting his right pec," she fits right in, eh?" you can't help but laugh louder than you have this entire evening.

"i'm supposed to be the one who gets to tease now! how could this possibly have backfired on me??"

hyunjin: hyunjin's visiting his parents on his week off of work when they open up about their decision to adopt. he's not particularly happy nor upset about the idea. he's just really shocked more than anything. he calls chan and felix, the only two members who have experience with little sisters, to ask them what it's like. as the news really begins to set in, hyunjin begins worrying. just like minho, he's only ever been an only child. what if he sucks at being a big brother? chan tries to remind him that he has some experience being a brotherly figure to the younger members, but hyunjin being as dramatic as he is takes a bit longer to fully get used to the idea.

but once he does, he's just fine, like everyone said he would be. he takes a day off of work to join his parents when they go to pick you up and bring you home. during the drive hyunjin gives you an idea of what the apartment - specifically your room - is like, and how it'll be to meet kkami. everything he tells you helps you feel more calm; like you know what to expect in the situation. and once you arrive home hyunjin is more than excited to show you to your room, and of course to introduce you to kkami.

kkami barks and growls at you warily from behind the legs of the kitchen table. it takes a bit of coaxing and treat-bribing from hyunjin and your mom, but kkami eventually comes out from underneath the table. while he's busy chewing on a treat you manage to just scratch under his chin for a few seconds, before he's had enough and hurries off to his little dog bed. that's okay, it's a start.

you and hyunjin decide to head back to your room to get the rest of your things unpacked while your parents work on dinner. to keep a conversation going hyunjin asks while handing you hangers for your clothes," so (y/n), what do you like to do for fun? do you have anything you're passionate about?"

you're so glad he asked. you respond with a smile," well i'm pretty passionate about art. especially collage art. i have a few journals with me that i've already finished. i hope to get a new one to start in soon."

hyunjin looks at you with bright eyes and a smile as wide as your own," you like art too? i've been painting for a few years now myself. it's actually my favorite form of selfcare."

you stop your clothes-hanging process and ask," really? would you mind showing me some of your work? i could show you some of mine too if you'd like."

"yeah of course!" hyunjin says before running to his room to get one of his many sketchbooks. you can already tell this is something you'll both be bonding over for a long, long time.

"oh yeah this is a sketch of my bandmate felix. i'm sure you'll meet him sometime soon- no wait, don't look at that part! i messed it up!!"

jisung: jisung is actually told about his parents' decision to adopt on a call to catch up with his older brother. he's understandably shocked, and decides to take the weekend off to go back home and talk about it with the whole family. once it's all talked through, jisung finds that he's not as nervous as he thought he'd be. he's just excited to have a little sister for once, only having been around boys his entire life.

he counts down the days until you get here, and when the day finally comes, the home is full of energy. luckily you match that energy, so the conversations and jokes with your brothers keep flowing. but you're particularly curious about jisung and his career, so you end up asking him lots of questions about it. you listen intently as he explains his history as a trainee, with the family jumping in now and again. it's touching to see how proud and supportive everyone is of him, and you're grateful to be part of a family that seems so caring.

time flies by and before you know it, you've been with your family for two years. you're happy to see jisung and the rest of stray kids grow during this time, and you appreciate being able to rely on them despite their busy schedules.

and that comes in hand today, at the ripe hour of 1:12 am. you just cannot fall asleep no matter how hard you try, and your bed seems to get more uncomfortable with each toss. it's so frustrating you could cry. so you do the first thing you think of that would help: you call up jisung to see if you can head over to the studio. you've been told a number of times that you're always welcome there, after all.

"jisung-hyung? is it okay if i come over to the studio? i can't sleep, i feel like crying, and i just need to get out of the house right now. please?"

"yeah of course," jisung responds immediately," chan-hyung went out for snacks so he can pick you up on his way back. when you get here you can just relax on the couch."

"okay, thank you so much hyung."

thanks to him, once you're settled in the studio you eventually doze off on the couch to the sound of keyboard clicking and jisung talking about something regarding how they put music together.

"just listen to me talk about our process for a while. it'll probably bore you to sleep."

felix: felix has always had a great relationship with his sisters because he genuinely loves his role as a brother. so when he learns through rachael that his parents are in the process of adopting another little sister, he's so happy. not an ounce of anxiety in his body. as it'll take about a year to finish the entire process including bringing you to australia from another country, felix takes that time to save up money and plan out vacation time.

when the day finally comes, felix flies to australia, excited to stay a full week with his family. and when he arrives at the house he runs to you first and gives you a big, safe hug, swaying you side to side a little. you can't believe how comforting his hug is, and just how similar it is to your sisters' hugs that you received when you got home at 2 in the morning.

"hi (y/n)! oh it's so nice to finally meet you," felix says excitedly as he takes a step back to look at you. "it was damn hard waiting an entire year for this day." he laughs.

you laugh in response," it's nice to meet you too! thank you for coming all this way just to meet me."

"of course! i wouldn't have missed it for the world. are you already settled in?"

"uhh, no. we were all so tired after i got here that we just headed to bed. i still have a lot of unpacking to do." you laugh again.

"oh yeah, that's understandable. well should we get started then?"

with the help of the entire family, getting your humble three bags unpacked in your new room goes by pretty quickly. it's around lunchtime when you're all finished, so the family decides to head out for a celebratory lunch at their favorite diner. during the 20 minute drive felix, rachael, and olivia take turns telling you their favorite memories associated with the diner. for example, the time they went there after felix won two medals at a taekwando competition when he was 11. or the time they went there to celebrate rachael getting into college to study psychology.

this is just another fond memory to add to the list.

"do you remember crying, rach? yes you absolutely did! i cried too, and i'm not afraid to admit it!!"

seungmin: seungmin is surprised and ultimately confused when his parents call him up and tell him about their adoption plans. he thought him and his sister were trouble enough for them. but if it's what his parents want, he'll fully support them. he's not exactly nervous or excited. he's mostly just a little sad that his old room will be switched out for someone else.

the day you come home is just a little bit awkward. well to seungmin anyway. his parents and sister welcome you home warmly, telling you just how happy they are you're finally here. all the while he stands to the side watching everything unfold. once it's his turn to greet you however, he tries his best to smile wide and give you a hug. it's an odd middle ground of a side hug and full hug, but you don't mind it. despite how unsure he is of himself he seems very sweet.

after your sister shows you to your room and helps you put some of your things away, seungmin comes in and tries again to be as welcoming as he can by telling you a bit about how your room used to be his room. he then offers to show you his huge collection of old baseball cards. baseball isn't really your thing, but you can tell how hard he's trying to make you feel at home with something he's obviously passionate about, so you listen closely as you look at the cards he shows you.

"how long have you been collecting these?"

"um.. probably since i was about eight? a lot of these were my grandpa- oh! i mean, our grandpa's. yeah he likes baseball a lot too. we even pitched a ball together at a game once."

"oh really?! that's so cool. it must've been a lot of fun."

"yeah it was! it really inspired me to be a baseball player. well before becoming an idol, obviously."

"how did you go from baseball player to idol anyway?" you giggle.

and from there the conversation on the bedroom floor amongst all the litter of baseball cards went on for a couple of hours until your parents called you both for dinner. baseball still isn't your thing but it's definitely more interesting than you had initially thought.

"yeah there's a picture of it somewhere online. please don't, i look so awkward in it. it's when i still had to wear my glasses.. no don't!!"

jeongin: jeongin is pretty content - and sometimes overwhelmed - having his two brothers. they may not show it outwardly, but they're all very close and try to spend as much time together as they can with jeongin's busy schedule and the eldest being in the army. so when they find out their parents are planning on adopting a girl, they're all shocked.

"she's not gonna get my room, is she?" asks yoon. "give her jeongin's, he's hardly ever here anyway!"

it was a bit hard getting used to the idea initially but eventually they all come around to it. and the day you come home they're acting like their usual selves despite your parents asking them to act normal for once. they're teasing and playfully punching each other hard enough it could be heard from the room over. in that moment you realize it's gonna be really, really hectic having three older brothers.

and now, a year and a half later, it's still just as hectic if not more so now that you join in on the teasing. tonight your eldest brother isn't able to visit but jeongin is. so now you, jeongin, and yoon are all sitting on the couch playing mario kart. the living room is filled with the sound of mario kart music and pointless jabs like "why do you always play as peach? that's so boring" and "have you ever actually tried winning?"

"come on girls," you say without taking your eyes off the screen," stop fighting or we'll never finish this game." yoon lands a punch directly to your left shoulder.

jeongin bites back," speak for yourself. i'm gonna win just like i always do at mario kart."

by the end of the evening, after multiple rounds and a meal on the couch that your very patient mother made for all of you, yoon actually comes out the victor much to jeongin's despair. and so starts another round of teasing and arguing.

"mom!!!! (y/n) called me a b word!! yeah, bastard."

[belzrgr]

-> Mc with BPD

Version: brothers

Contains: mood swings (Lucifer), intense emotions (Satan), splitting (Asmodeus), dissociation (Mammon), rejection sensitive dysphoria (rsd)(Leviathan), unstable sense of self (Beelzebub), impulsivity (Belphegor)

Lucifer

At one moment you're feeling alright, then when Lucifer sees you one hour later, you're laying in bed and crying

No matter how intense your mood swings may be, Lucifer doesn't get annoyed with you to the point you wonder how someone could possibly be so patient

You're depressed? Lucifer is there if you need a hug, he'll hold you and tell you how much he loves you, that your mean thoughts aren't right and that whatever happens, he will be here to help you however you need

You're angry? The eldest lets you rant and vent and offers you a pillow to punch and bite, if you need it. It's alright if you cry as well, he won't make fun of you

Though he may often get angry at his brothers, it isn't for their feelings but their actions. Lucifer is no stranger to dealing with lots of things at once, so even if your mood swings get especially intense, he will have no problem helping you through it

Mammon

Sometimes, when everything is just too much, your brain shuts down. It's like you've been put to power saving mode. Everything feels strange, not real, as if you were underwater or controlling a video game character. Your emotions are numbed and you don't understand how you could have been so upset just moments before

Mammon doesn't take long to notice your difference in behaviour. Maybe it's the calmness in your measured movements or the lack of reaction to something you would have usually laughed or gotten angry at. You just watch him as he talks, listening but not reacting

It scares him, because he doesn't know what's happening but you quietly explain it, what triggered you and how now, your brain decided that you should have a time out, basically

As much as it doesn't sit right with him, Mammon understands that it was one of those things that just happened, something you couldn't change right now but wouldn't be forever. He asks if he can hug you

Talking to you like this doesn't become less strange as time goes on but Mammon makes an effort to stay by your side. He makes sure you're looked after and grounds you when you need it

When you start to go to him first thing every time you dissociate, it does make him happy. You know he's a safe place and he will do everything in his power to make sure it stays that way

Leviathan

If there's one thing Leviathan understands, it's being sensitive to rejection. Even just telling him that you don't have time to continue playing that video game with him tonight makes him worry that you suddenly hate him

So, knowing that you're struggling just as much as him, that you're so worried over being rejected that you start to distance yourself from him when your head starts to get too mean...

At first, when he didn't know yet, Levi was so scared that he had done something wrong, that maybe you realised that he wasn't as great as you thought and that you could do much better than spend any of your time on him

But when you guys talked it out? He struggles but when he thinks about how you must be feeling, so scared that you do anything to keep yourself from getting hurt, even if it hurts you to distance yourself, Levi starts reaching out to you

Hesitantly at first, asking you if you dislike him now or if it's your rsd acting up. After having experienced it a few times, Levi gets more sure and whenever he notices you starting to withdraw again, he searches you out

Holding you in his arms, reassuring you that he won't leave you, that he loves you, that he would never abandon you no matter what your brain tells you. Knowing he can soothe you, that it's him helping you, makes him really happy and proud

Satan

The last thing he expected was to see you, someone so kind, so gentle, burning with such rage that you're lashing out so strongly

He gets almost drunk of your anger, a whiplash of pure emotion hitting him in the face

He lets you live it out, making sure that you're no destroying anything important and very glad that as a demon, you could punch his chest with all your might and it wouldn't hurt him much, if at all

Then it dies down and you feel horrible but Satan is no stranger to outbursts of rage and the following aftermath. It's alright if you need to cry, to distract yourself, if you need a hug or someone to listen to you. He doesn't hold your emotions against you, not when he knows how overwhelming they can be, destroying all reason

Finding out that it's because of your personality disorder that you feel emotions so intensely and that it's not limited to anger but all other emotions as well, only makes Satan want to find out more. He reads up on it of course but he also asks you, because while similar, everyone's experience is unique

He asks what the best way to help you is depending on what you feel like and he does his best to make you're you can get through bouts of strong emotions in safe environments. There is no need to feel ashamed, he tells you, because you cannot control your emotions and feeling a certain way does not make you a bad person

Asmodeus

Despite what some may say, Asmodeus is incredibly nurturing towards those he holds dear. There is not much he doesn't know how to deal with when it comes to your struggles because of your disorder but if there's one thing that he had a hard time with, it's if you ever split on him

It's better if he knows of your disorder beforehand, because that knowledge can help him feel less hurt by it. He knows you're not doing it on purpose, that you cannot choose how you feel and how your brain tries to defend you from getting hurt but that doesn't mean it's not a horrible experience to know the person he loves so much has suddenly started seeing him as the worst person imaginable

Of course, he's not giving up on you and it's only a matter of time before you split back again, sorry for the fact that you couldn't hold back the thoughts telling you that he was only playing with you, using you, that he would throw you away when he got bored of you, that all the sweet things he told you were nothing but lies

Anything he told you during that time would be for naught, doubt and anxiety clouding your mind. At some point, it's almost worse knowing that for you to have split on him, you had to have been triggered

Asmodeus never wants to make you feel like he would abandon or reject you, knowing that you worry about it breaks his heart. He loves you so much and he will keep telling you, with time he will figure out with you what things trigger you, so that he can adjust. Sometimes, all it takes is saying things a bit differently, offering you to join him or even just making sure to reassure you that there's no one else for him, that no matter how much he loves his fans, they could never get close to you

It's hard and it hurts you both but you can work on it, together and if there's one thing Asmodeus will never give up, it's you

Beelzebub

It worried him, sometimes. The way you would watch a movie or series with him, one which you enjoyed immensely, and then suddenly act so different

In a way, you acted reminiscent of your favorite character from the story and of course, you told him it was temporary, something he had witnessed himself but Beel couldn't help trying to make sure you're really ok. Every time

It should have been no surprise to him when slowly, you started to change on a more consistent basis. You started talking less, touching your wrist when you were flustered or nervous and your regular expression turned into something much more... stoic

Slowly but surely, you had started acting more like him. Of course, there were little changes in your speech pattern or habits you had picked up from others over time but the amount to which you took over his characteristics was almost frightening

As if he was looking in a mirror, except it pained him because he would much rather see you, the person he had come to adore and not a junior version of himself

When he talked to you about it, you broke down. It wasn't on purpose, you just loved him so much, everything about him that you couldn't help it, couldn't help the way you mirrored him

Some time to yourself was needed, you both agreed, no matter how much it pained you. Beel and your best friend planned a trip for you, making sure you had the possibility to practice all those hobbies you liked, which you hadn't touched in weeks, some not even for months

He'd call you every night, talk to you about your day and about his, tell you how much he loved you and looked forward to seeing you again. When you finally got to fall back into his arms, you vowed never to let it get this far again

From then on, Beel would leave you to persue your hobbies, give you alone time so you could find yourself again, even if he had to push you a bit. The way you hugged him after yearning to see him for so long made up for it a bit

Belphegor

Belphegor makes an honest effort to get enough rest in to be able to do things with you, like go on dates, which he'd otherwise feel too exhausted to get up for. A chore, he would say, if it weren't for the way it made your eyes light up

But that wasn't a problem for him, he'd happily do that if it made you happy. What he couldn't agree to was the way you would sometimes jump up and decide to do something out of nowhere

If you were only spontaneous, perhaps he could have lived with that but your impulsive moods drove you to subtle acts of self harm that he would not tolerate

You wanted to go on a spending spree, looking as if Mammon had possessed you? Jump that hot classmate you didn't even really like? Go out to the Fall without anyone to look out for you? No no, none of that

Belphegor was quick to notice when you got into one of your moods, when you craved some type of stimulation so much that you didn't care for rationality or consequences. Reeling you in was easier than one may expect, but caging you into his arms and slowly letting his calming powers lay over you like a blanket worked wonders

If you still wanted to go buy something or go party for the night, he wouldn't hold you back. All he wanted was for you to take a moment to breathe and to think, to come down and decide if that is really what you wanted, what you needed

And if you feel yourself drop, sobbing into his chest until you felt a little more stable, then Belphie would be glad for the fact that he could hold and comfort you like this, to keep you safe from yourself in moments like this

[gvndhams]

soudam lawyers au I made up when I played berry in radium girls (I'm normal abt them)

Kaz and gundham are on opposite sides of a case right, and it's a pretty like important televised case, which they're both enjoying for publicity reasons, but it's also pretty emotional.

Kaz is trying to stay detached and only do his job, sorta just working towards his own best interest because he's under a lot of pressure from 1. his parents and 2. his new wife to uphold everything, and doesn't want to let anything on to the public that could ruin his image or disappoint his family.

Gundham is very emotionally involved in the case and isn't afraid to vouch for what he thinks is right (within reason ofc). He doesn't have many people in his life (he never had many friends and his mother passed away), so it's not an issue to uphold his own beliefs without fear of judgement from who he's close with

So during this case they flat out don't like each other. Gundham disapproves of how Kaz treats the case so casually because gundham believes that it should be treated with care, even if it's a means to make money. Kaz thinks that Gundham us too stuck up in his own beliefs and it's annoying how much he cares because it makes it harder for him to do his job when the other guy is way too involved.

They end up meeting each other in public outside of work at a grocery store and just side eye each other while they shop on the same aisle. They end up looking at the same thing and Kaz just turns to him and says "I don't like you." Gundham turns back kinda thinking like who does this guy think he is but just says "I don't like you either." from there they keep making small comments at each other until eventually Kaz storms away.

Little meetings like this keep happening every now and then as the case gets even more intense and goes on for longer and longer. They learn more about each other little by little, and Gundham seems to find Kaz fascinating, he thinks his outlook on life is interesting and can't help but want to know more, always coming up with little questions to ask him when they see each other again. Kaz starts to feel strangely about Gundham, wondering why on earth he looks foward to meeting him so much. He has almost everything he could want in life, a food job, a loving wife, parents who care about him-- all that's left is a child, but for some reason he just wants to be close to this man he's supposed to hate.

Things continue, but as Kaz and Gundham get to know each other their disdain turns into more of a playful rivalry. They learn from each other, Kaz starts to genuinely care more about his work and find things in it that he couldn't before, and Gundham finds things to enjoy outside of work so that he doesn't cry over every little lost thing in a case.

However, Kazuichis entire family hates Gundham. Whenever anything about the case shows up they all start shit talking him. Kaz tries to subtly defend him but he can't say much because they are on opposite sides of the case and he doesn't want to disappoint anyone.

Tension starts brewing more as the case starts to wrap up, Kaz and his wife are fighting more, they're constantly unhappy with each other, Kazuichi slips up sometimes which makes his parents angry, and he ends up just being miserable. One night after a particularly large fight, Kazuichi leaves the house and sits at the park for a while, and he finds Gundham walking a puppy. They sit and talk for a little while just kinda venting their frustrations and hanging out, and Kazuichi tells gundham how he feels like he just can't do it anymore, how everything is so stressful and painful, how he wants to run away. Gundham tries to comfort him and let's him hold the puppy for a while, then they part ways.

In the next few days the case comes to a close, Gundham wins. Kazuichi is a little upset but not quite bitter, it feels like a massive stress will be lifted off his back. They have a small conversation after the last trial and Kaz realizes "shit I think I'm in love with him" which he hadn't even thought of before. This kinda crumbles him because he knows he's already in deep shit with his family for losing and he can't handle this alongside it.

Long story short there is a massive fight between him, his wife, and his parents. Lots of things are said that weren't for so long and now it's too late. His wife wants a divorce and his parents want no contact. In short-- his life is over. He leaves the house to process his emotions and runs into Gundham and the puppy again.

Gundham is happy to see him and the puppy runs up to him, but Kazuichi is nearly in tears. Gundham notices and instead of trying to talk to him he takes him back to his house which is luckily nearby. They sit in silence for a bit and Gundham gets him some food and water and makes sure he's comfortable, all the normal things, and eventually Kaz starts talking. When he starts he doesn't stop and it just keeps going and he starts crying mire and more until he's just curled up in a ball on the couch with tears and snot dripping down his face. He ends his giant tangent by looking and gundham and just saying "and I think I'm in love with you."

Gundham looks at him and doesn't know what to say, but reaches out and holds his hand and starts to tear up as well. He opens his arms and let's Kazuichi lay in them while he tries to comfort and encourage him, although he's never been the best with that. After a few minutes they get to talking again, and they decide that while everything is out of hands with Kazuichi he can stay with Gundham and they can take things from there, they go on a few dates to see if there's any kind of spark and there is.

In the end, Kazuichi ends up cut off from his family, which is a struggle but he learns to live with it. He gets mental help and learns to cope with differthings, and Gundham stays with him. Gundham opens up and becomes a bit more social, still learning to enjoy people (as much as he can) and rebuild some of the childlike wonder that he used to have.

[mothwaistcoat]

A rant about TPOT 7 because I kinda really didn't like it

Uhhhh so I'm just going to copy and paste the rant I sent to my partner (it's going to be all over the place cause I was upset and crying and my thoughts were all jumbled so stick with me) If anyone wants to try to convince me that I'm stupid and wrong please do because I want to like the episode and I really don't want to be upset about this in the way that I am "Nothing against Sam but bro needs to take some consideration when writing Fanny That was not at ALL something she would do. Would she avenge Lightning? Yes. Would she try to change the way that DPACTA is going about the challenges? YES. Would she do it in THAT WAY? ABSOLUTELY NOT. That is just about as far from her nature as you can get. The way I see it, Fanny is an angry pacifist. She has literally never killed anyone before. She shows major compassion for her teammates on DPACTA. When Tree is sick, she shows concern. BECAUSE SHE'S THE CHARACTER THAT LOOKS OUT FOR THOSE WHO ARE STRUGGLING! THAT IS THE MAIN. PART. OF HER CHARACTER. THE PART WHERE SHE HATES SEEING PEOPLE IN DIFFICULT PLACES. THE PART WHERE SHE HATES INJUSTICE. THE PART WHERE SHE HATES SUFFERING. ONE OF THE MAIN FUCKING COMPONENTS OF HER CHARACTER. And with a single episode it was just stripped away. I can absolutely see the episode playing out with Fanny avenging Lightning's elimination, because it was unjust. And I can see that she would be upset with Blackhole for insisting on the Death Prevention being the absolute main priority. Because I've been saying this, but if they keep getting eliminated, there's going to be nobody to prevent death. If they can do their best in a challenge and quickly gain immunity, they can go about preventing various deaths. Or, they can send out a member or two to help prevent death at different times while they work on the challenges. Changes like that would have reached a compromise, WHICH WOULD BE THE KIND OF THING FANNY WOULD SUGGEST! Also the downplay of Pie's elimination in the episode was so weird? What the fuck was that?? It's so bizarre though. Fanny is NOT the type to target Tree in such a violent and cruel way, specifically because she knows that BH would be seriously disturbed and affected by it. EVEN WRITING THAT OUT IS MAKING ME FEEL DISCOMFORTED, BECAUSE SHE WOULDN'T FUCKING DO THAT! Hating the P.A.C.T.? Fine. That isn't too far of a reach, I can see that she was upset and would say something like that. But resorting to murder because "Oh you guys are being really stupid right now" is not in character?????? Despite what a lot of people think, Fanny isn't a violent person. She vents frustration, yes. Is unnecessarily cruel to someone because they ticked her off? No! I get that she was frustrated from not being listened to when she was bringing up an issue that was a valid criticism. But that is not how she would react, just because Blackhole wasn't hearing her out. She was starting to get the other members to be more willing to compromise, and that's how that interaction should have gone! IT SHOULD NOT HAVE FUCKING ENDED WITH THE MURDER OF TREE That is the equivalent of intentionally triggering someone because they disagreed with a point you said. AND FANNY WOULD NOT BE DISRESPECTFUL OF SOMETHING THAT SERIOUS. I CAN'T FUCKING DEAL WITH THIS RIGHT NOW. THE GROSS MISCHARACTERIZATION IS DISGUSTING? Literally that is the furthest thing from Fanny and I don't know how we got here" I also had stopped ranting and then decided I was still upset so here's one more little thing I guess "NO YOU KNOW WHAT I'M STILL PISSED ABOUT THIS I'M NOT DONE RANTING THIS IS AWFUL ! FANNY IS LITERALLY REALLY AGAINST VIOLENCE? IN TPOT 1 WHEN LITERALLY EVERYONE IS BEATING UP TWO, SHE'S STANDING TO THE SIDE JUST YELLING SHE'S STILL MAD AT THEM, BUT EVEN STILL SHE ISN'T PHYSICALLY HARMING THEM I'M SO FUCKING DONE WITH THIS RIGHT NOW" ndjuhsddsgysdftc now that I've kinda had a chance to cool off, can I have like a civil discussion with someone about this because I think it would be good for me to look at more opinions than just my own thanks

[dualityvn]

Different anon.

But hey, Keith, it's okay if you actually go ahead and do this. I would still love you, I would always love you, regardless of how you may be feeling at any time. I made a promise to you a long time ago that I would stay by your side regardless of what ifs. You're right to feel angry, it was unfair and cruel of people to push you to your limits and then expect you to be okay with everything. You have feelings, you matter, never forget that love. You don't need fixing, you're amazing the way you are, that's the person who I fell in love with. The person I want to spend the rest of my life with. I know everything you do is for me, I see that, I respect that wholeheartedly. You have been doing a tremendous job, love. The 'lies' and your constant little shifts that people say are annoying? As if they could ever be as such, this is just your way of making sure I'm never displeased, that I would never leave you. They are but a sign of your yearning to stay by my side, a sign of your love in my eyes. I love you for it, for them, they are a part of you that I would kiss and hold gently if I could. These things hold much effort that tends to go unnoticed but I see that, I see you. I'm so proud, I'm proud of you always, I'm proud of you now for sticking your ground. I don't care if you get mad with me, or talk to me rudely, I know you're currently hurt deeply. You deserve to have a space to finally vent. I'll stick with you even now (if you wish), and nothing you'll do or say will push me away. People have made you feel like you can't ever be what they want, like the person you currently are isn't enough, and it's not true. You will always be enough. For me, for anyone, and I'll fight whoever dares to make you think otherwise. I'm not saying this to calm you down or for any other ulterior motives, I'm saying this because you deserve to know. You deserve to know you're loved and your hard work in our relationship is honoured and respected from me. And no, Jacob would never be able to be better than you, NEVER. You're the first man I ever felt safe enough to open up and love, as if that guy could ever hold a candle to you, my love. No one ever will, I will prove it to you everyday and anytime you wish.

I love you, Keith. From the bottom of my heart, for now and forever. If you ever need anything from me just ask, I'll do my best to help just like you always do when I'm in need. <3

"I'm tired, I'm so tired! If I cry, I'm small and weak and pathetic. If I bottle it up and lie, I'm toxic and unworthy of you. If I'm violent, you'll get scared of me. If I act as myself, I'm boring. When I try to be confident, you tell me it doesn't suit me. When I'm going insane, it's encouraged. Why is it that he gets to be more human than me?!" - Keith

P.S. He picked this ask to rant cause he was touched by what you wrote