#guess that's a lesson for next time

[densewentz]

i think the turning point in my life both academically and professionally was realizing that. If you Go First, be it a presentation or an interview or whatever. If you go first, you are being judged based on NOTHING but yourself. They aren't comparing you to anyone else, you don't have an act to "follow". You are the Bar. You can literally just do the best you can and at that point it will automatically be the best they've seen so far. And once you're done you're done. You can mentally and emotionally check out.

Game changer insofar as being stressed about presenting because now I just bulldoze over everyone else to go first like a feral hog.

[caitlynmeow]

Yeah okay even in modern/human au the daughters are sensitive to the cold but they don’t die from it like in canon but they do get sick easily if they’re not dressed warmly.

It’s always one falling sick soon after messing around with the cold outside especially Cass and Dani because they think they don’t need to dress warmly and Cass even wear short skirts/ dresses thinking she can survive the snow outside but barely twenty four hours later she’s in bed nursing an upset stomach or dealing with a cold because she thought she’s stronger.

Alcina tried not to be that mom, but she can’t because a) she’s totally that mom and b) she needs to check what her daughters are wearing before they go out (and force them to change if they’re exposing a lot of skin for no reason). But this only works when she’s at home because when she’s out her youngest two daughters think that rules don’t apply and they neglect dressing appropriately and it’s always always them coming to her room in the middle of the night complaining that they’re not feeling well.

After a lecture including a lot of ‘I told you so’ mama goes on to take care of the sick daughter until she’s all better in a few days (sometimes longer depending on how long they plan on milking mama’s love and care)

[james-spooky]

this is a test

[arsenicflame]

i always see birthdays as a second chance at new years resolutions so. heres mine: i want to be a person

i want to go and do things and have fun, i want to leave the house without panic, i want to speak to people, i want to make new friends, i want to make art, to sew, to write (a little), to create, i want to laugh and play and feel fully and truly alive, i want to learn to drive, i want to stop caring what other people think of me, i want to be. i want to do the things i always did want to do, but was too scared to.

we're all gonna die, if we dont start living.

[newtness532]

im so annoyed with everything today, i think i need some tasty food and a million hours of sleep and then I'll be back to normal

[laughinglynx]

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[shilohtx]

i know I must be pretty normal cause my last two and most significant long running relationships ended with one of us in the mental hospital + one of us in jail. respectively

[frostycatblr-fandom-files]

if you're sitting there feeling sorry for yourself, wondering why no one's commented on your hiatus status(es), i'll help you figure out why

you're behaving like a selfish, entitled bitch. you're throwing a pity-me-party while you accuse people of favoritism in the same breath. like, no wonder your ~CoMmUniTy~ won't feel sorry for you, or interact with your bad artwork or your other uninspired bullshit when you bitchfit that no one's sharing your shit: no one wants to interact with that melodrama. there's better writers out there that don't cry about interaction bullshit.

you need to grow the fuck up, and maybe do people all a favor by not coming back.

Wow... thank you for sending me this present shortly before Christmas (Dec. 20th, to be exact). Real lovely stuff.

So listen while I break this down by section and say things later on that I don't mean:

If you're going to call me an 'entitled bitch' or criticize my content, you should really take ownership of your words like a grown-up first. You're welcome to those opinions, I suppose; but it means NOTHING when you send me this from a position of cowardice. If your goal was to hurt my feelings and upset me, I would only award you with partial congratulations, if that.

I'll concede it was a bit of a "bitchfit" if it makes you happy, because yes, it kind of was. I'll take ownership of that: I should have been better, and I wasn't. I should have been a lot calmer, and I wasn't.

Maybe then more people would have given a damn about me and what I had to say. Or maybe they wouldn't. I don't know anymore, quite frankly. I can't say I ever did.

Your point about "better writers out there [who] don't cry about interaction bullshit" is wrong, by the way. I can think of several fan writers (and I'm not going to compare content quality because that's gross) either on my dashboard or in fandom tags (many with larger followings + outreach than me) who've complained about lowered interaction these days at one time or another.

Or several times, even. It was largely and perfectly fine when they spoke up about it. Weird to me, anon, how it's okay when these unnamed and so-called "better writers" speak up, but not the little guys.

Some people are a little too comfortable telling those with smaller followings/outreach to just suck it up because interaction has been bad for everyone lately. Or placate themselves with excuses for why they didn't offer any sympathy to people who admit to struggling with feeling like belonging, or those wishing they felt more included. Noticed. Remembered. (Whatever the case may be.)

I mean I've seen who repeatedly makes the cut on these stale recommendation lists that float around… Your 'pool of so many talented writers/artists in this fandom' is more of a damn puddle. You'll have to fucking forgive me for just wishing to be remembered (for one or the other) and included in these little "~fandom enrichment activities~" at this point once in a damn while! Why's it such a fucking crime to you, anon, that I just want people to remember I'm here too?

I spoke my feelings about things feeling like a popularity contest rather than a true community back in December, and you thought that warrants calling me a selfish, entitled bitch? Telling me do people a favor and not come back?

What the fuck??????

I think you're something of a rancid tar pit for hoping to kick someone while they were down, or whatever it was you intended by all that. Did you get the warm and fuzzies typing this out? Did you feel good about yourself for choosing to be malicious to someone going through a hard time? Someone admitted they were going through a hard time between Seasonal Affective Disorder, and being upset about a lot of trivial stuff, and you thought "Hey; let's pile on!" was the correct solution rather than offer any kindness where you had witnessed a lack of?

It would be so tempting to stoop to your level and wish you nothing but ill on top of telling you to do me a favor and fuck off; I'm going to encourage you to learn to have a little more compassion for people instead and be a better person than whatever you are now going forward. May you learn to be kinder to people in the future, anon… You make the world a far better place that way.

[ugartecoco]

despite the tree thing being sketchy ksfkjkf i still checked out the messages you guys have left (i cant leave such precious words unread!!!) and they made me so happy thankuu ❤️

[gatheryepens]

It’s finally the start of Easter break and the end of coursework week.

[gradling]

Been disgruntled about a teaching evaluation I got about how I didn’t give specific feedback on student writing because I spent so much time writing specific comments, and then I realized that one of the students who came into office hours hadn’t known that there were attached docs with my detailed comments in them

Did I just get negative feedback because students didn’t know how to use the course site

[gentlelarkspur]

The best part about this breakup is that I can finally admit how much I hate Chainsaw Man. It’s mid tier AT BEST.

[hcguesstheauthormessageboard]

i really wish i hadn’t…i just..now i miss my old work

—icky

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[bobendsneyder64]

Such a fun sport, archery 😅

[izzy-b-hands]

the idea of the crew having to essentially parallel park the Revenge has hit me and like

that's not. to my knowledge. really a thing?? (aka i will look it up to find out but later because i still feel crap rn lol)

but it's worth it to imagine Ed on the dock trying to give directions so the ship isn't fucked up, both of them barely able to really hear each other which is Not Helping of course

Izzy will end up off the ship next at Ed's insistence, asking him to figure out why this isn't working, they've been at it for fifteen minutes, this port usually isn't this busy even!!! and his fave restaurant here closes in an hour, Iz. Help, Iz 🥺

So Izzy stands there and attempts essentially what Ed was already doing, except now he's directing and critiquing Stede's ship parking attempts while Ed directs and critiques Izzy's directions and critiques lmao

Cut to the ship where no one is making fun of anyone being seasick rn because jfc the back and forth and back and forth aaaand they bumped another ship again (Lucius is rapidly writing notes to affix to said nearby ships with their insurance info because y'all didn't think i was letting that silly hc die did u ajdnfkgn)

Buttons has, several times now, offered to take the helm for Stede. As has Fang, and literally anyone else who's been behind the helm of the Revenge once or twice and not immediately fucked it up (most of them, but that's another fic idea for later maybe)

Stede refuses and Ed is shouting at Izzy and Izzy is shouting at him and he's shouting down at Ed why THE FUCK ARE SHIPS SO BIG ED. WHO DID THIS TO US ALL. WHY DOES EVERYONE HERE PARK LIKE A FUCKING IDIOT

In the meantime Olu sighs and has Lucius take down food orders for the restaurant Ed wanted to go to, because if they take the food to go they can absolutely get it before the place closes and be back just in time to see three grown men continue to fail to move a ship in an efficient manner

Jim is left in charge (will stab anyone who starts shit rn because look at this situation. we do not need More Shit going on. We were just gonna stop for fucking shopping and dinner!) while Olu and Lucius take a dinghy and make landfall like. max twenty feet from the main dock.

Lucius walks straight up to Ed and Izzy who are so invested in getting the ship to sit nicely without crashing into the two beside it that they don't even blink at him being there. Flat out does not register that they could definitely anchor the Revenge away from the dock and send everyone to the port via one or two dinghies and this whole thing would be over! It isn't even their only option to choose from!!

They return with bags of takeaway to the saddest two captains and first mate ever seen (the other ships' captains showed up and are Not Satisfied with the notes Lucius nailed to their ships, and there may have been a small battle. Note, Ed and Izzy and Stede aren't sad abt that, they're sad they didn't end up getting the ship parked correctly. Covered in blood, with Stede now on dock beside them after leaving the ship to help Ed and Izzy fight, bemoaning not the gore around them but how they could have done it!! Olu, could you have Buttons bring the ship back around and let them try again!?)

And yes, within that time, the helm was handed over to Buttons, who parked it successfully at one of the dock areas further away that was completely open. Yeah, they'd have to walk slightly longer on the beach to get to the main path, but like that's not the end of the world unless you're three lovely but entirely too stubborn pirates who insist that they can make the closer spot work, give them two minutes!

Two minutes.

It is not lost on any of them that they are sailing away, nibbling at their dinners, while the fucking sun sets.

Two. Minutes.

[room4creation]

me when i figure out the solution...........