#great now it’s stuck in my head….

[mingkilovur]

i’ve had writers block for the past like 3 days like it’s so bad😭😭 i wanna write but then when i actually try to sit down to write… nuffin☹️ im slowly getting there tho🫶🏾

[froggtogs]

gone fishing

[lemongogo]

anyways . silly thing

[pedripics]

saul.peregina: @/pedri Qué has hecho? 😱 Pedri cumple su promesa de raparse y dejarse bigote si España ganaba la Euro2024 🇪🇸🏆 Gracias por hacerme partícipe de este gran título 🙏🏼🫶🏼

[zishuge]

Story of Kunning Palace (2023) | Ep. 38

[snarkspawn]

shows up months late with another silly kenbig barbie redraw

porsche is not feeling the kenergy

[scenezfreak]

Hi again luv I hope your doing ok I'm sorry if I'm requesting to much but I had this thing going on in my head for DAYS and I was thinking if you could write a Jeff the killer x metal reader fem that writes songs and dose concert's but what if we sprinkled a little more smut into that like she acts all mean and mostly like flirty but then one night her boyfriend (Jeff) pins her down and fucks her so hard that the bed brakes like ahhhhhyfgy.I really hope you can do it but don't exhaust yourself and remember to eat,sleep,go outside and have fun we only have 1 life so live it at your best dear <333

A/N: Aww you’re so sweet, darling 🫶🏻 Thank you! And you’re not requesting a lot at all don’t worry, I appreciate your kind words and same goes to you! Take care of yourself <3

“You can take it”

Jeff the Killer x fem!metalhead!reader

Warnings: mean but also softie Jeff, bed breaking, degradation, reader crying (from pleasure), Jeff teasing reader

NOT PROOF READ, MINORS DNI.

You were setting up for your next concert, your band was testing and tuning their instruments. You were in the back, fixing one of the strings on your guitar.

Jeff wasn’t necessarily a part of your band but he traveled with you on tours because he couldn’t stand being away from you that long, even though he’d never admit it. “Am I that beautiful you have to stare, loser?” You glanced at him then back at your guitar. “Tch. Who said that?” He replied in a salty tone. “Hmm me.” This time you didn’t look at him. He scoffed and crossed his arms. You successfully tuned your guitar and let a sigh of relief out. You checked the time, “shit, I gotta get on stage. I’ll see you later.” You flipped him off as a joke and smiled at him before walking towards the stage. That damn smile of yours was going to get him in trouble.

-

You had finished and walked backstage after saying your goodbyes to the crowd. You grabbed a rag and wiped off your sweat, your band members told you how great you did and you returned the thanks and complimented them too. Turning back around you nearly jump out of your skin. “AH FUCK- Jeff you whore!” You sigh, not expecting to see Jeff there. “I need to put a damn bell on you. When did you even get there?” You asked, taking a sip of water. “Did your loud music playing ruin your ears or smth? Not like I was trying to be quiet.” He rolled his eyes. You stick your tongue out at him playfully, but you didn’t expect him to kiss you and take your tongue into his mouth.

You gasped into the kiss and he pushed you against the table behind you. Your hands flew up to clutch his hoodie. His hands rested on your waist. He pulled back, your salive coated his lips. Good thing you already looked a mess before he kissed you because one of your band mates came around the corner and asked if you saw his drumsticks anywhere. You shook your head, unable to say anything. After he sighed and left you looked back at Jeff, “if you’re going to fuck me then get on with it, baby” the last word was filled with your teasing tone.

-

…You don’t remember what exactly happened, you only remember Jeff dragging you to the car and driving home then immediately dragging you to the bedroom. Now..you were stuck in doggy style with him pounding you from behind and his hand tangled in your hit while his other one slapped your ass. “Wanna act like such a brat, yeah?” He thrusted in deep. “Then I’ll fuckin’ treat ya like one.” He leaned forward, his pace was brutal. You let out a whine at his next words. “Only good girls get to cum, brat.” Your hole clenched around his hard cock. “Ooh~? You like that?” His tone returned to teasing.

He slapped your ass again, causing you to yelp. The hand that’s tangled in your hair pushes your head down so that your face is pressed against the mattress. Your back was impossibly arched and you gripped the sheets. “This’ll teach you to watch your tone around me, whore.” His voice only making your cunt throb more. You could hear the faint cracking of wood but paid no mind as you were too busy getting your pussy abused by your boyfriend. The sound of wet slapping, Jeff’s huffs and almost inaudible growls, your loud moans, and the headboard hitting the wall filled the room.

He almost didn’t catch it if not for his quick reaction skills, you whined and looked up when you felt the grip in your hair disappear and Jeff stop fucking you. You soon came to realize that Jeff caught the headboard in time right before it hit you. He shoved it off to the side and laughed before leaning down, “fuckin’ you so good the damn bed is falling apart.” He pushed for a second, “did anything hit you?” You shook your head, face heating up realizing the situation and him asking if you were okay. You shoved your own face back into the mattress and shook your hips back and forth to hint for him to continue.

He laughed and his hand found it’s way back into your hair again, this time pulling you back and turning your head so you’re facing him. “Such a damn whore, y’know that?” He didn’t give you time to answer before pounding into you again. You moaned into the kiss and tightened around him, causing him to groan. “Gonna cum” he whispered, he licked away tears that were spilling from your eyes at how good he was fucking you. He held back, moving his free hand in between your thighs to attack your clit, determined to get you to cum before he did. He didn’t think you could get any tighter, you threw your head back with a loud whimper of his name as you came.

He continued to rub your clit throughout your high then he leaned back up, placing both hands on your hips and resuming his pace. His cock twitched inside of you before he pulled out and rubbed his cock against your ass. You felt strings of his hot cum land on your back. He scooped it up on his fingers before leaning forward. “Open wide, darling.” You obeyed and he shoved his cum coated fingers into your mouth which you happily cleaned. He cleaned the rest up with a wipe from the bedside table. He moved you onto your back and got up and walked out of the room.

You sat up and rubbed your back, it was already sore. You glanced at the headboard on the floor and huffed out a laugh, he walked back in. “The fuck are you smiling about?” He handed you a water bottle and sat down next to you, his eyes grazing over your form to see if you were hurt anywhere. “Just thinking about how good you fucked me.” You hum and sip the water. You leaned over and gave him a kiss on the cheek. Right before you pulled away he grabbed you by the throat, “keep actin’ like a brat and I won’t fuck you so good next time.” Her tried to seem serious but ended up smirking and he leaned forward to capture your lips in another kiss.

[driftingthruspace]

listened to some of ART gatsby so far and HOLY SHIT IT'S SO GOOD I CAN FEEL THE PASSION THROUGH THE SCREEN

[thejadecount]

I don’t know why but I have a strong feeling that Separated! Donnie and B.E.A.S.T. Donnie would get along disturbingly well.

[dee-boop]

A sample of culty xtian song lyrics I sang regularly growing up:

“Be sure your sins will find you out, and you will pay for it without a doubt. If you are wise you will obey and live to please the lord in every way” from a “Patch the Pirate” song, which are audio drama musicals for children

“Are you washed in the blood, in the soul cleansing blood of the lamb”

“Though Satan should buffet, though trials should come, let this blest assurance control, that Christ has regarded my helpless estate and hath shed His own blood for my soul”

“Jesus sought me when a stranger wandering from the fold of god. He to rescue me from danger interposed His precious blood”

“He lives! He lives! Salvation to impart. You ask me how I know he lives, he lives within my heart” (they really think their little feelings are Truth 😤 then say everyone else is too emotional and sensitive)

Perfect submission, all is at rest, I in my savior am happy and blessed; watching and waiting, looking above”

“I’ll love thee in life; I will love thee in death, and praise thee as long as thou lendest me breath, and say when the deathdew lies cold on my breath, ‘if i ever loved thee, my jesus, ‘tis now’”

“O perfect redemption, the purchase of blood, to every believer the promise of God. The vilest offender who truly believes, that moment from Jesus a pardon receives”

“Who am i without your grace? Another smile another face, another breath, grain of sand passing quickly through your hand. I give my life an offering, take it all, take everything”

“Empty me of myself until the only thing that’s left is more of you, less of me, make me who i’m meant to be. …Take it all I surrender.” (it’s really no wonder i dissociate)

“We are the chosen, we are royalty, we are Your children, you set us free. You alone are our identity” (hello White supremacy)

Etc. i could find the word limit for a textpost if I kept going

[umemiyan]

i mistakenly listened to electric feel once yesterday and now it's going to be stuck in my head for the next 10 days

[pinksilvace]

Truly one of the lyrics of all time

[carmen-berzattos]

So when he said Eat Your Young he was being very literal

[tj-crochets]

I have not forgotten the quilt while I’ve been making fall and Halloween themed stuff! One more set of star points to sew and I’ll be ready to start sewing the rows together

[notfreetoday]

What "Hia" means to Win, and to Team

So, after @ellaspore posted her really insightful thoughts on the significance of Team calling Win Hia, I went down many rabbit holes trying to find a way to articulate how I feel about this too. A big thank you to the wonderfully sweet @lutawolf and @ellaspore and the rest of the #coconutsmafia gang for giving me the confidence to post this!

Hia and Phi are both honorifics and kinship terms - a concept many speakers of Indo-European, Austroasiatic or Sino-Tibetan languages will understand. They bear similarities with terms such as the Chinese Ge, the Japanese Aniki, Senpai, and the Korean Hyung, Sunbae etc. But each of these terms carry slightly different cultural connotations - like the difference between saying This is my father vs This is my old man - it says something about you as the speaker, and about your father as the addressee, who allows (or at least does not dispute) your chosen form of address. So, beyond simply according respect to the addressee, what does it actually mean, culturally, when we use these terms? Specifically, what does Hia mean to Win, the Thai-Chinese vice president of the varsity swim club, and what does it mean to Team, his Thai junior and freshman on a swimming scholarship?

Or, a really long rambling about social hierarchy, power asymmetry and social groups, and why I think Team's "Hia!" is just so damn adorable.

I would like to address some Thai cultural norms - if you are a lover of Thai BL you'll probably be familiar with some of these already (skip to the next indented paragraph) but I think it's best to establish my knowledge base before we move on. These are all very brief summaries of complex topics as understood by someone whose context is derived largely from academic and grey literature, so I welcome any further discussions on the topic! I have included links where possible, but apologize that not everything is open source.

The Basis of Social Hierarchy in Thai Culture

Generally speaking, there are two ways in which one can achieve a higher status within the Thai social hierarchy - through achieving the Buddhist concept of Merit, and through the more conventionally understood concept of Power. The latter takes many forms - rich/poor, employer/employee, caregiver/dependent, teacher/student, senior/junior, more experienced/less experienced etc. Now, I understand many people balk at the idea that age or seniority automatically bestows power upon a person, but this idea is based upon the (not always true) assumption that age correlates to being wiser or more experienced, and is an extremely ingrained concept in many Asian cultures.

Power Asymmetry ≠ Abuse of Power

It is important that we get this straight - being respectful to someone higher in the social hierarchy than you does NOT mean you are giving them a right to abuse you. The relationship between the superior and the subordinate is bidirectional - there is a mutual dependency between both parties. More on this below.

The Assimilation of Thai-Chinese in Thailand

Chinese traders began immigrating to Thailand as early as the 1600s, and Sino-Thai trade had been established long before that. Most of these traders belonged to the dialect groups of Cantonese, Hainanese, Hakka, Hokkien, or Teochew, with the latter eventually rising to be the largest group amongst the Chinese in Thailand. They often took up entrepreneurial jobs and started businesses. Due in large part to political efforts occurring around the late 18th century, the Thai-Chinese are an extremely well-integrated ethnic group, and most Thai-Chinese these days speak only Thai, identify as Thai and do not have a strong connection to their Chinese heritage. That said, many words of Chinese origin can be found in the Thai language - Hia, for eg, originates from the Teochew word Hian (兄) for older brother.

(Skip to here!) Now with that out of the way, let's dive into the actual point of this post.

"Hia is more intimate than Phi"

This was the most common explanation I found when trying to figure out the difference between Hia and Phi. But what does "more intimate" actually mean? Intimate in what way? As a partner (as in the Korean oppa) or as family (similar to the use of Ge - older brother - in Chinese) or marking someone as part of the inner circle/social group (a concept shared across Kor/Chi/Jpn)? Is it all? It's often described as a term used for those of Chinese descent - but that also means technically anyone could call Win Hia and it would still be socially acceptable (as seen from how people call some small business owners this too, since a large majority are of Chi descent). Also, as mentioned earlier the Thai-Chinese have assimilated very well, which means it's unlikely that the term is used just as a way to mark a person's heritage. There must be something else that makes Hia special to Win, and, to Team.

Kinship Terms of Address

There were a number of comments I found that alluded to Phi being less special than Hia because you could, in general, use it for anyone older than you. To examine this claim, we need to backtrack a bit and compare Phi/Nong relationships to just purely formal acquaintance (Khun/Khun) - Is there a difference? Yes. The use of familial kinship terms of address when referring to non-family members specifically acknowledges the power imbalance in the social hierarchy - and it's a little more than just being polite. Broadly speaking invoking these terms initiates a two-way relationship - the younger gives respect and obedience and the older provides care and guidance. The common metaphor used is that the elder should be "a large tree in the shade of which the [younger] can rest and be content". That said, the steepness of this power imbalance varies - grandparent's generation vs parent's generation (including non-related "uncles/aunts") vs older sibling's generation (the one we are interested in), in descending order of steepness. There were 2 papers I found relevant to this topic - one examining the use of these terms and hierarchy in children's playgroups and another at the university level.

My conclusion is that Phi/Nong corresponds more generally to the Japanese idea of Senpai/Kouhai - the Japanese rarely use kinship terms to refer to unrelated people, although Aniki is an exception (Interestingly enough, Aniki can be used to refer to gang leaders, as apparently, Hia can too). When someone calls you Senpai, you're socially obligated to do a few things: look after them, guide them, treat them to food etc. In other words, it creates a relationship between 2 individuals and marks them as members of a particular social group. Yet, you don't go around Japan calling people Senpai if you have no connection to them and just want to catch their attention in a less formal, but still polite way - which you could do with Phi, when trying to for eg, order food from a street vendor. That usage is more akin to how Ge is used in Chinese. But again, going around calling everyone Ge is not as common as the use of Phi appears to be in Thailand. So, Phi/Nong is different from formal acquaintance in that it identifies 2 people as part of an in-group of sorts, and depending on the context, there are different societal expectations of either party.

What Hia Means to Win and Team

If we follow this line of thought, then Hia is a subset of the Phi/Nong relationship and also identifies Win and Team as being a part of a certain in-group. But which in-group is it? The "significant other" group or the "familial" group? There is a distinction because the hierarchy in the former is slightly more flattened and flexible than that in the latter. If we consider that Hia indicates Chinese heritage and thus identifies a particular in-group within the overarching "Phi/Nong in-group", then it follows that Win must invite Team into this particular in-group - Team can't just join it as he pleases. Thus, to Win, Hia means not only his desire to care for Team, but also to claim Team as a member of his in-group. Family is very important to Win, even though (or maybe especially because) he feels overlooked within his own. In 7-11 he lists all the terms Team can call him by - daddy, husband, wifey - these are all familial terms. He doesn't offer up boyfriend. Hia is Win's invitation to Team to be part of his family. And yet, there's an additional layer to this particular relationship because Win extends this invitation to Team just before they become intimate (and this is why I believe it was never a one-night stand from Win's POV). This moves this particular in-group beyond just the hierarchical and familial connotations of kinship terms and creates a group in which only Win and Team can claim membership. Ie, it combines the steeper hierarchy of "familial connection" with the more flexible hierarchy of "significant other". To Win, allowing Team to call him Hia marks Team as someone special and under his "umbrella" or "tree branches", if we follow the metaphor above (this ties into the possessiveness discussion @lutawolf shared previously), and Team's acceptance implies his agreement to accept the care and guidance Win wants to provide.

And Team does get this, on some level. He gets that Win sees him as someone different, though I think he is not quite ready to admit that Win sees him as "special". He gets that Win cares for him - but again he's unsure about whether or not Win wants to care for him (as opposed to fulfilling his duties as Team's senior/Phi), because at this point I believe Team doesn't quite understand the full significance of Win inviting him to call him Hia. Having said that, subconsciously or not, Team leans into Win's care - he drops Hia in nearly every sentence like it's a comma (which, as I understand from @lutawolf, is something subs do subconsciously too). It's one of the reasons why I think Team is so fantastically adorable tbh - you certainly don't need to use Hia so often in speech - but Team uses it all the time and most often as a form of entreaty - a request for affection, leniency, and care, as is his right as Win's junior, in exchange for respect and obedience. To be honest, in terms of being respectful and obedient, it may sometimes seem like Team doesn't fulfill his end of the bargain - but he does when it counts. When he says thank you sincerely, after Win helps him sleep, when he listens to Win's instructions, and when he lets Win take the lead in their interactions.

Team whines, but is NOT whiny (I will fight you on this!)

The way Team uses Hia relates to the Japanese concept of amae, the Chinese concept of sajiao, and somewhat but not quite to the Korean concept of aegyo, and I believe to the Thai concept of ngon. Again, these concepts are all slightly different, but suffice to say it is a behavior that the younger, or subordinate, in the relationship sometimes displays. It is often translated as "to act cute, as a child" or "to act affectionately", "in a manner that endears oneself to the receiver". To the uninitiated, it can be seen as being childish, manipulative even, and just downright strange that grown adults would do this - but it is a way of recognizing the receiver's power by appealing to their benevolence and generosity. It softens a demand for something into a request and smooths over many potentially conflict-inducing interactions (such as apologizing in an argument). Often times, it is a subconscious behavior that is naturally brought forth by the power asymmetry in a relationship. So Team whines yes, but he isn't whiny. On the contrary, it's super endearing - and the Chinese translation of Hia as Gege (typically the way young children call their older brother - usually changes to Ge as they get older) is driving half the Chinese fandom nuts because it's just too damn cute when Team does it.

In conclusion, Win's invitation to Team to call him Hia is a representation of his desire to care for Team and to guide him, and most importantly, a recognition that Team is a member of his in-group. He likes it when Team calls him Hia, because by doing so, Team acknowledges this relationship and even asks for Win's care and affection. And to Team, Hia means, at least subconsciously, care, affection, acceptance, and protection - though I feel he's not fully ready to accept that it also means that he is Win's, and is special. Hia Win means more to Team than he realizes currently, and that's why he has difficulty answering A's question.

[imabiscuitinthousandworlds]

I LOVE going everywhere by bike. Don't need to wait for a bus. Don't need to cram myself into a bus with (urgh) people. Or even worse, what feels like every single student in town. I still get home in about the same amount of time. I'm so so flexible including with places. Like yeah sure, let's go there! I don't care if the next bus station is far away. Doesn't matter to me.

Stayed out late with friends recently. Two of em had to get their family to come pick them up because that's too far to walk and it was too late for buses. A different friend lives like 30 minutes away but always walks and their way goes through a small park where literally no one is at with few lanterns so it's pitch black and I could literally just walk them home and then take the bike which is faster and has its own light and feels and probably is safer than walking those dark ass streets at night alone.

Like. I can just do all that. And yeah, sometimes when I'm not doing too well I feel like collapsing afterwards and yeah, maybe my fingers feel like falling off a lot at this time of year but that's like. SO worth it. I have no idea how people can live and NOT go everywhere by bike. Like if it's more than 20-30 minutes maybe but even with hills.... I fucking love my bike.