#graduation struggles

[ungekvsst]

I don’t know…

MLL

I’m currently writing my application because my father is stressing me to finish it. It’s actually not a big deal, problem is I don’t really know how to write one. So googled it and started writing, but suddenly I started crying for no actual reason. And now I’m sitting in the living room, crying, cause I only thought for a second about showing the finished application to my dad or my mum, though I feel like it will only disappoint them.

2019/04/16

[royaltea000]

POV they just told their da shixiong on you

[sofiaruelle]

ladies on some sewing rulers.

[ministarfruit]

"my oshis graduated" outfit swap

[motions1ckn3ss]

the special interest got so bad i had to sit down to write Orestes Fasting and Pylades Drunk: Classical Allusions and Homoeroticism in Victor Hugo's Les Misérables

[seulgishaku]

Jasico but unaffectionate Jason. So much so that he makes Nico look like the clingy one.

Nico has to constantly deflect and dismiss questions like "does he actually even love you?" And "are you sure you want to date him? He's seems cold and distant." Cause if there's one thing Nico's sure of, it's that Jason loves him. He knows that.

Jason on the other hand starts to question himself. Does he love Nico? Then why doesn't he want to do all that sappy stuff with him? Does Nico want to do that stuff? Does Nico miss doing that stuff with Will? Is Jason the worse alternative?

Nico assures Jason that they're fine the way they are, that he'd never ask him to do anything he's uncomfortable with, and Jason takes that as, "oh, he didn't say he doesn't want all that stuff, he just said its fine if Jason doesn't do it. He isn't happy." And that sets him even more on edge.

So he tries to start with small things. Holding hands is fine. Sure, they can cuddle for a few minutes. That peck on the cheek he gave Nico earlier was a power move. Nico notices his small advances and once again clears up that Jason doesn't have to do this if he doesn't want to. That Nico doesn't need that to know Jason loves him.

Jason constantly says how comfortable he is spending his time with Nico. He let's Nico wipe away his tears. He let's Nico help him with his projects. He let's Nico run his hands through his hair and that's enough for Nico to know how much Jason loves and trusts him. Truly

[21pacheetahs]

can't change what you've done? no problem! start fresh next semester!

[anarchotolkienist]

I'm going to finish my dissertation. I'm going to finish my dissertation. I'm going to finish my dissertation. I'm going to finish my dissertation. I'm going to finish my dissertation. I'm going to finish my dissertation.

[yustinamishka]

To my dad who is on the other side,

I finally made it. I'm keeping your memory with me. ❄️

[thestobingirlie]

“eddie is actually super smart and he didn’t want to graduate” or “eddie is actually a genius. all his teachers just held him back.”

boooooo. hiss. let eddie be bad at things. he very clearly desperately wanted to graduate, he was trying in lessons. he just wasn’t naturally good.

[ungekvsst]

Me: I think I gained weight because of all the a-level stuff

Me *weighing myself*: well, seems like I’ve actually lost a little weight

2019/04/05

[myketheartista]

Did some pride icons this year for some of my favorite ocs :3 !!!

[ingravinoveritas]

Really loving this photo of Michael at Eisteddfod and the support he has for so many wonderful causes...

[cherryblossomchronicles]

I'm halfway through the show, Queen of Tears, and something that I've seen floating across is the anti Hyun Woo sentiment regarding how he treated Hae In initially and was just trying to do it all for the will.

Something to understand here is that in situations such as his, where he was emotionally empty and just a shell of himself who was just functioning, he didn't have the bandwidth to understand the gravity of situation that was Hae In's terminal illness.

In Hyun Woo's mind, he didn't have Hae In's support anywhere, be it against his in-Laws or in the company. She is silent against her family and hostile and argumentative in the company. He doesn't know what all she does for him on the sly or in backstage. He is not aware and Hae In never made the effort to change that situation.

All that pressure, anxiety, gear and emotional drain took its toll on Hyun Woo's emotional capacity. Stuck in a state of constant negativity, his initial reaction to Hae In's illness might be a form of self-preservation. He shuts down completely, unable to process the additional emotional burden of her mortality.

Something to remember is also the fact, that although he was thinking of it, the one thing that pushed him to draft the divorce papers were the talk of their child, whose entire identity and life was being decided by Hae In's family while she had no opinion on that and couldn't care less. This entire situation fueled the fire of resentment burning within Hyun Woo. Here was Hae In, seemingly indifferent to the future of their potential child, the very thing that initially distanced them. It felt like a repeat of their early struggles, where her family held all the cards and Hae In remained silent, leaving him to battle alone.

This perception, however flawed it might be, explains his impulsive decision to draft the divorce papers. Exhausted and emotionally hollowed out, he saw the child issue as the final straw, a symbol of their inability to stand together. He might have been grasping at a desperate solution, a way to force a change in their dynamic, a cry for her to finally fight for him and their future.

Of course, this doesn't paint Hyun Woo as a hero. His actions were undeniably hurtful, a clumsy and emotionally charged attempt to solve a complex situation. But by understanding the immense pressure he was under, the constant negativity seeping into his core, we can see a flicker of vulnerability beneath his anger. He craved Hae In's support, her voice alongside his in the face of adversity. Perhaps, the divorce papers were a twisted plea for her to finally break her silence, to acknowledge his pain and fight for their future together.

Here's where empathy becomes crucial. While his actions are undeniably hurtful, it's important to consider if they stem from malice or a desperate attempt to cope.

Think about it this way: Imagine a cup overflowing with negativity. Hyun Woo's daily struggles with his in-laws, the lack of support at work, and the constant emotional strain have already filled his cup to the brim. When Hae In's illness is revealed, it's simply too much for him to handle at that moment. He doesn't have the emotional space to understand the gravity of her situation, let alone offer support. in fact, it's easy for him to consider her death as an easy escape since his capacity for empathy or his love for her was essentially buried under all that negativity.

[eliounora]

fucking when I graduate and have free time. I will play games. I will create art. I will watch old movies. I will read goddamn books. and I will be so cultured. I will draw my comic project. I will learn to cook meals. I will host fucking dinners and we will feast

[beskarfrog]

what good would i be to you? my hands have no memories of peace, my mouth no soft words of comfort