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I live.
#by the skin of my mfing teeth#god#i ended up skipping a class even#it was a seminar tho#got some well needed chill time#because ahhh#sunny rambles
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RealAgeAU Drabble - Parentalbond Horror
*grinning* I am baaaaaaaack!! @spotaus get over here :D
So. I had the difficult choice on which drabble i wanted to write so For now I settled on this one because I haven't had the chance to write a drabble with Horror's pov since a while and that is a crime.
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Horror checks the windows again before turning back to the couch and seeing Nightmare just staring at him.
Horror tils his skull "sleep will be easier if you actually lay down...." And he looks pointedly at the couch.
Nightmare gains that stubborn glint in his sockets again as he huffs "I am fine. Not tired at all." he looks at the pile of bags in the corner of the room wishfully.
Horror has to keep his chuckling inside as he answers "Shame then that it is bedtime for young skeletons." And adult skeletons. Horror glances at the other three. All KO on the other couch, all still dressed in their normal clothes and none of them actually finished their meals.
Horror will have to pack up the leftovers. Make sure nothing goes to waste. But he will let them sleep for now and just make them eat a big breakfast. But all three had been running themselves ragged lately. Especially after the last encounter they had had with the Stars.
It meant they have been making more jumps and teleports and not going out as much to collect things to make it easier for them.
Horror walks over to them and puts one of the blankets in this apartment over them, he doesn't bother to try and pull them away from one another. The four of them always had the habit of sleeping in a pile and that habit only got worse once they started searching for Nightmare and reclaimed him.
Horror checks Ngihtmare's plate and smiles "You finished it all today." No wonder he is grumpier and more active than usual.
Nightmare pulls a face and crosses his arms. Horror walks over and nudges him at his shoudler "Sleep time." and he waits.
Nightmare grumbles more as he pushes the blankets and pillows around. Horror just crosses his arms as he waits. Nightmare huffs but lays his skull down on the pillow and glares at him.
Horror knows he is grinning but he is proud to say he doesn't actually snort or laugh at the grumpy face Nightmare is pulling. instead he moves closer slowly, the first week of watching Nightmare flinch at every movement and sound had been horrible, and puts the blanket over him as well.
Nightmare doesnt complain about it. Most likely becuase he just saw Horror do the same for the other three.
Horror nods and sits by him "Time to sleep." it is his turn to keep watch and he plans on taking ti seriously.
Nightmare huffs but just turns his face further into the pillow. Tiny body starting to relax with the simple comforts.
Horror tries to not be obvious as he keeps an eye on Nightmare.
Horror knows of course what is going on and he is trying to not give in. At least one of them should not give into the adopting.
Horror can admit he had been surprised that Dust was the first one to actually soul adopt Nightmare. Especially after only a week. It had been so fast and the transition between the before and after state had been so smoothly that Horror had honestly thought that Dust had done it on purpose and planned.
It would have made sense. Dust had been the one to find the book first and been the one to actually manage to get Nightmare back to them.
Only for it to become obvious that Dust had no idea what he had just done.
Soul adoption is a rather normal thing for monsters to do. Though in most universes they rarely happened as monsters don't tend to abandon children.
But well, Horror's AU had been one with starvation and a lot of fighting. People lost their lives in multiple ways. That meant quite a few orphans.
Soul adoption happened when an adult monster willingly took the role as caretaker for a younger monster who doesn't have a caretaker. There are a few more factors obviously but Horror doesn't know all of them of the top of his skull, especially not now with that hole in it.
What it comes down to? Nightmare is an orphan and has no one he could go to that could take care of them, and all of them know this. Dust found out first and surprisingly his soul was open enough to the idea to accept Nightmare as... well... his.
There are more hurdles in this situation of course. The fact that they Nightmare they knew was an adult, which is what Horror thinks is tripping up Cross. But Dust had been very quick with accepting that Nightmare is now a child and so immediantly treated him as one.
Killer took a bit longer but quickly fell into step as well. Calling Nightmare tiny boss and going from his right-hand-man to his babysitter, Killer's words not Horror's.
Horror is however a bit surprised that Killer also soul adopted Nightmare. In theory it shouldn't have happened as Nightmare at this time already had Dust as his caretaker and so technically didn't need one anymore.
Seems like Killer's soul didn't agree with that.
Horror can't say a lot about it though, seeing as he can feel it happening with himself as well. And he has no doubt that Cross is very close to giving into his own instincts and feelings concerning this as well.
The whole thing with their last interaction with the Stars is a very big give away. Even if Cross felt very embarresed by his own reaction.
At least Nightmare is no truly convinced that they won't harm him and will help him. Horror is happy they managed to get there and with it having only been a month since they took him with them. Horror can say they did a good job.
Nightmare has falled asleep.
Horror move slowly and silently and puts two fingers to the the side of his small belly and feels.
Horror may not have a lot of magic himself but his AU was left him with a very useful skill. Wiht how little food there was available and how little magic there was there came issues. One of the issues was that after a while the magic monsters had wasn't strong enough anymore to digest the food that the mosnters did manage to eat. meaning that even if the monster ate food they would not get any energy or new magic from it.
Meaing that even if they ate they would continue to starve.
Wiht how difficult it had been for Nightmare at first to eat or even remember to eat Horror had worried something simular may have happened. That being in the goop form had caused his own magic to grow too weak to be able to function fully.
But all Horror feels is the soft and quiet purr of NIghtmare's magic working hard to use the offered food to rebuild the babybones' small reserves.
Horror sighs a sigh or relieve and just watches Nightmare for a moment. Nightmare, having noticed the pressure on him, makes an unhappy sound and his socket flutters open to give him a sour look.
Horror chuckles as he whispers "I apologise." Horror is unsure how clear his answer is as Horror himself is purring like a loud law mower at this point.
Nightmare blinks at him, still looking like the tiniest little grumpy skeleton this multiverse has ever known, before closing his sockets again and turning on his side. surprisingly not away from the touch and light hold.
Horror watches the other. It is strange. They are all different yet Nightmare still has them all completely under his control. Yet it is in a completely different way and Ngihtmare now doesn't even seem to realise it.
Horror leans on the couch and watches their tiny charge just sleep. Horror had managed to keep the need to complete an adoption at bay by reminding himself that Nightmare already had a caretaker- well two and a half now, Horror is sure that all Cross still needs to complete the soul adoption is a tiny nudge. Horror thinks that Cross is jsut thinking too much about it and doubting his own instincts and feelings.
But that still leaves Horror, and what he wants to do. He figured that it would be better to at least keep one of them unbiased in this nature, just in case that Nightmare suddenly turns into an adult again. But the longer this went on the less likely it seemed to Horror.
Not to forget. Horror doesn't even think Nightmare wants to be an adult again. Not now that he is a child but doens't have to vigilent every moment of every day.
Does he technically already have caretakers? Yes. Does Horror still want to count himself as one? Yes.
So. He just picks for himself.
Horror moves slowly and quietly as he picks Nightmare up. Nightmare grumbles in his sleep at being moved but calms when his magic recognises Horror.
Horror gets comfortable on the couch and lays Nightmare on his sternum. He can still feel the tiny soul beat and pulse fast even through two shirts.
Horror pulls the blanket back over Nightmare and waits.
It doesn't take long as Horror can feel the slight pull on his magic and energy. Hardly noticable and Horror doubts that if he wasn't so paranoid about his own levels he would have noticed.
It is something tiny monsters do. To help stabalise and sharp their own magic they try to take tiny bits of their parents, or caretakers in this case, to help guide them. It all happens naturally.
Horror just holds the tiny babybones closer and feesl Ngihtmare's soul slowly start to match Horror's own soulbeat and he feels all the calmer.
Now it is pretty much done. Horror will have to probably deal with this decision one day but for now he is happy. Their tiny babybones is comfortable and everyone is resting. Tomorrow they will have to worry about getting supplies and where they can go and eventually where they will sleep that night.
But right now? Right now he doesn't have to worry about that. and all he ahs to worry about is that their babybones is comfortable and healing.
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#utmv#RealAgeAU#nightmare sans#deaged nightmare#horrortale sans#horror sans#bad sanses#gang as family#drabble#okay that are the notes :D#I love the different energy i gave horror :D#the others accidentally adopted Nightmare. Horror however knew damn well what he was doing and wanted in.#also cross is like. a tiny tiny nudge away from adopting nightmare as well#but he is stubborn so Cross managed to keep his instincts from doing the thing the longest#but yeah!! a bit more world building and lore in there :3#Love me some lore :D#I Got so many ideas for drabbles you all#I do worry what will happen once i run out of ideas because i am going through them at a FAST PACE#it is like i am speed running fic writing#but yeah that is it :D for now :3#I will also be uploading a poll soonish with different ideas for new drabbles. give you a sneakpeak#and see what you guys are more excited about#ALSO ALSO#be proud. a bit of a shorted drabble again :D#I need to chill with the length of these things#okay that was it for now. Time to fix some links#Will I ever make the links all look the same?#no. I won't.#but they will work and go to the right place!
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I'm SORRY but,,,,, instead of Legacy accidentally injuring Reader, what if Reader accidentally injures Legacy????
Poor guy is always so careful around them!! Careful with his claws, with his sharp armour, with his inhuman strength. Such a teeny tiny wife person cannot protect themselves from him so he has to be extra careful!!! It does not even CROSS poor guy's mind that they're not all that unable-to-fuck-up either, especially with how they're sometimes prone to being a little absentminded
:))
I'll leave it you your deviously beautiful mind to come up with the details, and whether this is going in the angst direction (YES) or the fluff one (ALSO YES) but,,,,
😌😌😌 yeah
oh, you're devious for this anon,,, however i am feeling fluffy tonight so we shall be silly!!!
it happens, like many injuries do, entirely by accident. the day is warm and sunny, beetles chirping in the trees and only a few clouds drifting across the sky- it's the weekend, too, so you and Foul Legacy are sprawled out in the warm grass, soaking up as much sun as you can before you inevitably have to go back to work. Legacy purrs beside you, stretching his claws happily as his delicate wings glitter in the light. you can't handle as much sun as he can, though- sometimes you joke that Legacy is powered by sunrays and snuggles- and after a bit of dawdling you haul yourself to your feet and wander back towards the house to prevent yourself from getting overheated and lethargic, slipping through the unlatched door and idly giving it a quick shove so it shuts faster
there's a sudden CRACK and a pained screech, and your blood goes cold
Foul Legacy whines faintly as you rush back outside, holding his head and letting out little anguished cries- he had just wanted to follow you back inside! but you hadn't noticed, so the door slammed shut right in his face, making a small crack where it hit. there's no blood, thank god, but you can't help but murmur countless apologies as you gently massage around the area to soothe the pain, Legacy leaning into your palms with a soft whimper. the chitin will repair itself rather quickly, a gauze patch over the crack for good measure, and Legacy insistently buries his head into your lap once you get inside and sit down, craving more of your tender care. he doesn't blame you in the slightest, your shoulder already laden with the guilt of accidentally hurting him- until he gives your hands a quick, careful nip in retaliation, hiding his face in your shirt and shaking with growling laughs when you let out an indignant yelp
#genshin impact#childe#tartaglia#foul legacy#foul legacy childe#genshin tartagalia#genshin childe#genshin tartaglia#i had a presentation today so i needed some fluff to relax#i think it went well#my group was chill and cool for once which was so nice#and i got neat markers out of it#which is good because someone took my green pen#anyways i kiss legacy on the forehead many many times#short scenario#other's stuff#good evening#chit chat#anon
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the x files au where everything is exactly the same except mulder takes home the child neanderthal from the jersey devil episode and raises them as his own
#you could make this super fun and invoke a sense of deep Guilt on behalf of mulder because he feels he got the mom neanderthal killed#and then you can also make it fun in “c'mon sport let's go throw the ball around kind of way”#i imagine him at the library checking out books on early humanoid species and how to parent at the same time#the librarian silently checking the books out and wondering what on earth this man could possibly be needing such resources for#imagine scully's reaction to this. i can't quite place it beyond initial Disbelief and then subsequent trying to be as supportive as she ca#and she would probably be also very Nerdy about the whole thing. because she strikes me as someone well-read on the subject and fascinated#we also know she at least has some experience wrangling children which would be relevant#i imagine a bunch of anthropologists perpetually hovering over the child to study him but they have to be Chill and not disrupt his life#so the kid just grows up thinking they have a ton of really cool and supportive aunts and uncles over all the time#meanwhile they scientists are taking notes furiously as they see if he can adapt to playing a gameboy with the other kids#idk someone probably thought of this idea before but it's funny to me#why would the kid go to him and not someone far more qualified? idk i'm just playing pretend in my brain :)#this thought was prompted by me wondering if you time traveled and brought an early humanoid to the modern era do you think the kid#would still play minecraft? i say yes. probably.#i saw a post about something similar years ago and i wonder about it. i hope you would like cartoons and subway surfers neanderthals.#1x05#fox mulder#the x files#txf
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Can't sleep, but I'm thinking about FulCrank(crankful? lol) in a silly way, and how it's like, technician x mechanic
Like, Fulcrum's long gotten used to responding to others bringing him "broken" tech with the whole "Have you tried turning it on and off again?", only for it to restart and be fine, because it just needed like, a hard reboot or update or something.
But then Crankcase pulls him aside, because maybe the TVs not working for reasons other than them physically damaging it, and Fulcrum's thinking it's the usual same old problem, so he sighs, and goes to ask the question that haunts his choice of work, but Crankcase interrupts, because of course he already did that.
He already tried restarting it, and checked all the cables, the antennas, and unplugged it a couple times, and checked the connections, and- etc etc. He goes down the list of everything he already checked before giving up and asking for help once he realized he was out of his depth, because, while this isn't his exact specialty, he gets it.
And its like-
Scene: Crankcase explaining everything he already tried, while Fulcrum's optics widen a bit, his breath catches in his vents, careless whisper starts to play somewhere in the background as Crankcase goes into detail about what he thinks could be the problem as a soft light frames his disgruntled expression, and Fulcrum's just like, oh..., he already tried turning it on and off again... I- I wonder if he'd be cool with making out sloppy style after we fix this...?
Idk lol.
They'd compliment each other on the cable and pipe management of the W.A.P's old shoddy computers and pumps. Just them being nerds about stuff like propulsion systems and data collection with eachother <3
Do they always understand and get everything the other's talking or complaining about? Not exactly. But they both bond over all the repetitive or crazy situations where they've had to fix and repair stuff, the thankless work they did to keep their respective stations functioning around them, and then maybe they kiss or something over the W.A.P's shitty GPS
#the idea of crankcase going down a list of things he tried. and fulcrum just itching to pounce on him suddenly. is greatly amusing to me#i kinda wanted to doodle it. but my computer is in my currently damp and musty basement. and therefore. unplugged until its less damp :(#so. im like. beaming it out this way. dumb nerds being smoopy about technological/mechanical stuff#them hunched over some part of the ship. working on the w.a.ps systems ig. while the rest of the scavs are like that one meme-#-what are you two fucking talking about?????- but its like. misfire. feeling excluded bcs this shit is going over his head#its also going over kroks head. but hes like. chill about it. and spin could care less. is the ship dying? no. great. not his problem#also. like. them as that one pic of the dude talking while the other dude is leaned back with a dreamy look on the floor. crank and fulc#idk how to explain it well rn. but like. yeah....#i need to sleep. got my sleep schedule somewhat under control. but uh. not anymore! hahaha ha... heh... ;-;#fuck old ass rusted sump pumps man... god#ok ok. sleep times. goodnight and good mornin
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new job is a graveyard shift and it's so weird... i woke up at 3 pm today and it wasn't even depression-induced oversleeping it was on purpose
#it's 2 am and i'm in a store!!!!!!!!!! trapped in the same computer training i've done 40 times at every other job#the sleep schedule will be odd because like... i need to get enough sleep but also still experience Sunlight#or else my brain will attempt to kill itself#but otherwise i think it's chill. no customer interactions no people breathing and coughing on me#no starchy uniform shirts or stupid vests or anything either ugh#i'm also still working at the video game store because well why not#i had to get the new job because they started scheduling me like 3 hours a week -_-#got scared for a bit BUT it fine now -_- i have some bills and things to catch up on but i think i'll be good by march#anyway
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so my present for christmas this year was a pc (my first one ever!!!!!), specifcally going half an half on the payments and its running super well, just has some bits like bluetooth n wifi that need to be handled externally (wifi works semi ok bc it has the driver but not the usb it needs to properly work) since its refurbished from a super old model (they stopped in either 2013 or 2017 i dont remember off the top of my head) BUT the main reason i got this was so i could do stuff like blender and drawing and animation on it with less worries about space and functionality (blender makes my laptop flicker after a while for example) so really really looking forward to starting on things
#i feel so smart for fguring out what is going on with the drivers and stuff there was only minimal looking up i already knew most of what i#have to do yippeeee#csp is installed and upgraded to 2.0 as a little treat to me for the holidays AND im pretty sure my drawing tablet has a cd to install that#driver sooooo i dont need an internet connection too much just for the brushes but the dongles should be coming ether today or tomorrow#so im gonna be chilling with my laptop to listen to music n stuff while i work through the sketch comms i got and some of my own stuff too#getting back into the groove i love drawing so much#buuut rn im stretching my hands properly bc i was a fool and played video game on my self ban from drawing so my thumb is acting up still#at least i have disco elysium working well and can play that instead next time i do a ban since i can play that without my drawing hand#perks of being left handed i guess#where was i going with this?#right yes#i'm looking forward to trying a lot of new things in 2025 art wise#might try streaming too it looks so fun#just doodling clone armour for a first one most likely with no mic bc i dont live alone and my mother loves to call for me randomly and is#usually playing her tv shows fairly loudly
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if i dont get into [college redacted] im straight up dropping physics. that school is the only reason im taking this secret layer of hell disguised as a class. i am not gonna put myself through another semester of this bullshit if i dont have to.
#boycritter et al#ill find out if i got in december#so i have plenty of time to drop the class if necessary#THE TOPIC IS FINE I JUST HATE MY TEACHER SO BAD ITS SO BAD#SHE TALKS DOWN TO US ALL THE TIME#someone asked if we would have a review day for our test soon (very normal thing to ask in my opinion)#and she was like 'if you dont know how to study for this class by now then im sorry but yr not going to do well. sometimes you need to take#some responsibility in your life. if you havent studied before ever you need to start now.'#like CHILL OUT
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Me: Woo I'm taking a copyediting class! I've done tons of writing/communications courses but editing has always just been something embedded in it -- it'll be really nice to get a focused look at the craft, take time to learn it, and really master it :D
Professor: Yeah so here are 5 novel manuscripts by other students in the program, start proofing these simultaneously on tight deadlines okay? Remember, these are your peers, they're counting on you 👍
Me:

#asfghbgf????#thats so much pressure😭#im glad ive actually proofread a published book before -- but it was a chill relationship with an extremely detail-oriented professor so i#could be loose about the typical practices and he had a lot of the details covered no matter how thorough i was#this time ill need all the correct shorthand/notation and editorial letter etiquette -- as well as the grammar skills im trying to master#im excited to get some hands on experience (i guess it is way easier to learn that way) but asdfsdfds#and this whole semester is asynchronous which is gonna be so wild :0 it looks like a lot of work but ive never just Not had class times#i think itll be real nice#good luck to everyone starting classes now!! i hope all goes well ✨️#You got this!!! 💪#rose rambles
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#tag talk#HE JUST ADMITTED TO ME HE FELT KIND OF SUBBY YESTERDAY. THERE'S HOPE#my top era starts NOW#I will put on all my seductive charm and woo this dude so hard#it's happening it's happening the future is now#tbh I think they've got a bit of a misunderstanding about what dom/sub really mean but as long as the intent is communicated it's chill#I'm just happy in general about it. we had really really really good conversation and both had a great time.#I would have been more confident if I'd had a better idea of who they were ahead of time but I'm gonna be so so confident on the second date#I said something about being friends and they were like “wait I'm friendzoned now?” and I kinda had to backtrack to explain#because like.. I don't wanna date someone I'm not friends with. why would I want to?#I guess some people see friendship and Relationship as mutually exclusive but I prefer a sliding scale of both.#cause at first I was like I'm really not interested in him but he's cool so I wanna be friends. but then as I started to get a vibe read#it changed and I was like oh okay so I don't want the kind of relationship I thought I was walking in to but I can see a different kind of#kind of relationship happening here. hmmm. I have thoughts about how dating/hookup apps encourage us to predefine our identities#whereas meeting in person allows vibes to develop organically. if you decide “I'm only a bottom” you'll automatically filter out any#any potential for experiencing someone who might be the exception to your rules. you define yourself and then limit too.#one of the reasons why I hate character limits on bios and I try and keep my interests as open as possible. I want to experience everything#I don't want to limit myself to just one dynamic or relationship type. I can be anything for anyone. I want to taste it all.#how else do you find what you want? I get that some people know instinctively who they are and what they want.#but not all of us have that privilege. some of us are blind to our internal workings and need to see it play out to really know what's up#idk. I'm pretty hyped for where this relationship goes. the first meeting went SO well.
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I don’t usually comsume caffeine (my body just doesn’t handle it well) but given that I am starting work again and extremely fatigued as a result I fear I must begin experimenting with it again. Anyway. Time to see what 100mg of caffeine does to my (extremely exhausted, zero caffeine tolerance) body today.
#the wizard speaks#health tw#<- only kinda but tagging just in case lol#I have today and tomorrow off (though tomorrow I need to cook and Ranger has his training class#) so today felt like the best time to just really jump into the deep end and see how I react to an energy drink lol#gonna listen to my audiobook and try to do some crafts#maybe read some more fic if I can get my eyes to focus on words#hopefully take Ranger for a walk later if the caffeine makes me feel capable of that#poor boy hasn’t had a walk the last two days because I had work and his patience is clearly wearing out lol#the last couple days he was relatively chill but today he is very energetic and needy and clingy#gonna work out a system with my roommate to get him walked more often now that I’m working again and needing more rest#it’s just hard because he’s such an anxious dog#he’s made an amazing amount of progress with his reactivity and walks are a lot easier for him now but I’m#worried about him losing that progress if someone else is walking him and not following my process exactly lol#I fear I’ve become a bit of a helicopter parent#I am excited because well hopefully be moving into a place with a fenced yard in a couple months#which obviously won’t replace walks but it’ll be easier to get him a bit of excercise even on my low energy days#when I got him I didn’t think that it would be an issue to not have a yard for him to run in because#I didn’t know yet that my weirdly long lasting health stuff was going to become such a permanent thing#I thought I was finally starting to get over an abnormally long stomach bug or something but alas. chronic illness be upon me#so when I got a dog I expected to be capable of taking him on long walks and to parks and stuff to run every day#anyway that’s enough rambling about my guilt over not being able to take better care of him lol#I do think I set unreasonably high standards for myself#by virtue of animal husbandry being my special interest#he is better cared for than honestly most dogs I know#his vet says he’s very healthy and his trainer says I’m doing great work with him and he only rarely seems bored or stressed by#lack of activity or enrichment#and that’s really only when my health has been particularly bad AND my usual backup systems aren’t in place#like if my roommate is out of town or something
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cw child abuse but I thought maybe my mum would finally be chill w/ us talking about the time she repeatedly shoved me into a room as punishment for having a panic attack at 8 years old but it turns out it's not chill and bringing it up still Makes Me The Asshole
#shes usually pre good about talking about childhood trauma stuff but for some reason this one subject makes her snap#she was like bragging about how she would always calmly talk us through our upset moments as kids and i was like... yeah 99% of the time#i was laughing a bit too trying to keep the energy chill#and she got defensive and asked about the 1% so i was like well you did lock me in a room for having a panic attack and her response was#it didnt lock from your side you could get out!!#like ma'am everytime i got out your 6'2 ass would charge down the hallway#pick me up and manhandle me back into the room as i desperately tried to escape#i can still remember the physical sensation of gripping onto my wooden doorframe while she pushed me in and thinking if i could just get to#the front door i could escape and ask an adult for help because my parents had turned on me#anyway sorry to vent just needed to get it out bc we spent hours together after i tried talking about it and its hard to act friendly when#im like hey can we talk about how you refuse to admit you had a part in abusing me#she wonders why i didnt talk to her re my dads grooming and its like ma'am i showed vulnerability and you rapunzeled me#i was not going to risk that twice
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'Cause I will, I will wait and hope
Your eyes aren't rivers there to weep
But a place for crows to rest their feet
#well today was a true rollercoaster day again#started with feeling emotionally exhausted#got an email that the first therapist for my hrt referral has no new spots#BUT they gave me an adress for another person#and i really am a lucky bastard bc#I GOT AN APPOINTMENT IN EXACTLY 1 MONTH#which means in like max 2 months ill have the letter saying i am a transsexualTM who needs t#so tmr i am gonna call the endo and hopefully get an appointment in about 2 months#and then hopefully the blood test etc wojt take so long so i can start!!#also today i had two vaccines#planned on doing them on seperate times but both could be done today so that saved time#and i was brave enough to ask the doctor if they are familiar with trans stuff and are able to give me a sick leave after top surgery#bc i hear some are difficult when you pay for it yourself bc then it technically is not a medical necessity#and at least the doctor i talked to was pretty chill about it yesss#also casually told my boss / phd supervisor i wont be able to work the whole of December probably and she was also auper chill about it#i am so lucky#lets hope the joy stays for work tmr so i can concentrate and get shit done at work
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ourghhhhhhh
#first all nighter ^_^ I am experiencing so much in uni ^_^#and I’ve got someone else’s hoodieee (the guy I stayed up with it’s his he’s. Bigger than me I am. Disappear)#very comfy it smells nice alsoo……. I feel. A new feeling I think. It’s not really bad. Hm.#he fell asleep should I wake him up the intention was to reset and get off Vancouver time and on Toronto time#but sleeping at 1:30 I think will not help that.#but also he’s. really grumpy. And supposedly hits ppl in his sleep if they try to wake him up— oh he’s up cool.#todays diary entry is. Mostly ourgh and also he smells good (platonically. I am so platonic about this.)#oh nap time 4 real. I don’t think the reset is going to work no. Alas.#^_^ I have class I need to stay up a bit more…#Hmmmmmm. I. Got some work done I think I stayed up just 4 fun. Cuz I haven’t done it bf. And he wanted to 4 some reason.#Well. I’m gonna chill 4 an hour then go 2 class.#good bye 4 now…
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Did you guys know i am into WH40k? Have some memes.
#art#traditional art#wh40k#one is just from the time me and my former friend thought what would happen if t'au got into black library#there are no ladders#harlequins are just doing some acrobatics to get what they need#this is canon TO ME#the second pic is a real situation from tabletop game we had#t'au vs aeldari and harlequins didn't go so well for my rangers squad#at least solitaire was spared#just because he decided to stay in the cover and chill
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decided not to drink for a week and i feel like i'm a mid thirties woman who has returned home to the countryside to get out of the big city and is remembering the beauties of the farm as she sits on the porch wrapped in a blanket in the evening cupping a mug of hot chocolate ..
#this can also be attributed to the fact that i've got a new winter duvet and bought new sheets so i have two sets of sheets .. real adult#stuff happening here#mainly this has just made me have some much needed alone + chill time#i've been watching movies and cooking some nice food :-)#this whole year i've basically just said yes to everything as like a challenge . a way to meet new people and do new things and well. i got#really tired#i'm going out on friday though cause my friend is here so will keep all posted#laura says some things
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