#gonna tell my kids this was j2

[doggerell]

I FORGOT I WANTED TO MAKE A RPF JOEL/JIMMY TAG

[eisforeidolon]

Question: This is for my son, he is seventeen and he's seen me over the years watch your show, he has morphed into the both of you. He's got your hair, he loves it.

Jared: Lucky kid.

Question: Yes. But I'm a single mom, so he doesn't want to hear from me about dating advice. [both make kind of comical eyebrow raised faces] So he wants to know from the both of you what your dating advice would be. I told him to wrap it.

J2: [simultaneously crack up]

Question: So whatever else you have to offer. He doesn't want to hear any more from me.

Jared: Fair, fair. Also very important, in all seriousness. Um. Great question? So my oldest boy, my oldest child is twelve, so I'm not quite there yet on what I would say to my oldest when - he does have a girlfriend right now, but I don't know what that means - I don't want to think about what that means. Uh - God.

Jensen: You said you're a single mom, right?

Question: Yes.

Jensen: Are you dating?

Question: No.

Jensen: Okay. Tell him this. To treat any girl he wants to date like he would want a man to treat you.

Jared: [nods] Having been in a relationship for sixteen years, be with someone you can laugh with. You know? The whole, like, hey I'm cool -

Jensen: He's seventeen! He's gonna laugh with anybody.

Jared: Maybe not -

Jensen: This isn't like -

Jared: Maybe! Hopefully!

Jensen: He's not getting married!

Jared: I feel like if I was in a relationship -

Jensen: He's probably gonna date for five months and move on. But it's what you do in those small, you know - because also this is another thing, too. Is when you are that young and you are dating around? You're probably dating within a circle of people that know each other. And the reputation you build with one partner will for sure get told to the next partner. So -

Jared: Make them sign an NDA.

Jensen: Yes.

Jared: Non Disclosure Agreement. You can never talk to anybody else about what happened here.

Jensen: So treat them with respect, you know, all that kind of stuff. But let him know, like, the way you treat this one person, they're gonna - the next person's probably gonna know how you did that. So each dating opportunity is an opportunity to build your character.

Jared: Yeah, respect is a good word. Be with someone you respect and that respects you.

[takikojou]

PurCon - J2 Sunday panel

Question 7

Note from me: I cut quite a bit off of this question because that mother talked about her sick daughter quite a bit and how they grew up special because of her...

Question: Can your children go out without bodyguards to do something by themselves? Do their friends have to sign waivers, so they don't publish photos of you or your house? Are you afraid that your children or their classmates ever find the fan fiction about you and your children might get laughed at because of them?

Jared: I think from me, I don't know what kind of city or town you live in. Fan: [didn’t catch the name] near Munich. Jared: Okay, okay, I've been in Munich, love it. In Austin. It's it's a bigger city. It's not really where we live like we couldn’t walk downtown, you know, didn't reach downtown by any means? But I don't feel like the people that we're around and other parents think of us any differently, we're just parents, you know. And so our kids, we ended up becoming friends with the other parents and everybody knows something different. It's like cool. What do you do? People are cool. Oh hey, I heard you're an actor. Oh hey, I kept watching you on TV. And then, as long as it's sort of like, oh yeah, that's my job, you know? Like, but there's more to me than my job, you know, and more to them than their job and more to do your job. And so it doesn't feel weird. I'll tell you another answer, but you're gonna have to sign a waiver for me, okay?  No, there are no waivers. At least, not yet. But yeah, we try to make sure our kids have as a normal life as possible and normal is different for everybody. Right now than it was, when we were kids, whether you're a celebrity or not, like I don't have, we didn't have internet. We didn't, you know, I don't have a phone. So, that's a separate issue altogether of how to have your kid, get off the computer and go outside and play, and get dirty, and muddy, and find neighbors, and friends and stuff. It doesn't mean it's true. You're gonna read a lot of stuff that's that's not true. So treat a story and that's what it is.

Jensen: Yeah, what he said.

[hauntedwizardmoment]

I have thoughts abt j2 and his dilf husband in Jace + the Jaces universe bc. I know I/we joke and j2 having baby fever so as much as their relationship is solid I think it would be funny and interesting if there was tension bc like. DILF husband’s kids are literally like the same age as j2 (j2’s… origin.. since he was born sexy yesterday). And j2 is like I want to settle down from my career and have kids and a family but also dilf husband already has that (can you tell I like Friends)

augh... poor j2... he just wants a baby... his husband HAS to try and get him pregnant he has to. just so j2 can do a big pregnancy announcement photoshoot and announce it on his instagram. and his former bandmates are texting him like "you idiot you got yourself knocked up?? what are you gonna do when he divorces your ass? do you even remember all of us warning you to NOT let porter get you pregnant? what makes you think this guy's any different??" but he's not letting their false concern ruin this for him <3 he has his baby and everyone's just jealous!

(theyre concerned for very legitimate reasons bc the last guy who said he'd give j2 a baby was porter. and porter is So freaky about j2 having his kids specifically. but would it kill them to learn anything about j2's current life or respect his decisions)

(jace, in between calling j2 an idiot and telling him that he'll be lucky if his marriage lasts another year bc his husband will trade him in for a younger, tighter, bouncier model, in a severely uncharacteristic moment of kindness is like "and if he ever says youre gonna be his broodmare or any creepy shit like that, you're welcome to stay in my guesthouse")

[incarnateirony]

i love when angry j2ers scream denying reality into my inbox. like no guys they were documented living together in van for 3 years, Misha finally let the cat out of the bag so everyone talked about it. Everyone knew. YVR knew. Everybody in fucking Vancouver knew. You're the only motherfuckers that didn't know.

You dumb motherfuckers even stalked Jensen going to see Misha. Goss was abuzz that Jensen had boarded a charter plane that wasn't Jared's, and insisted that J2 knew they knew J2 knew they knew their charter number and Jensen had smuggled Jared on, but Jared's plane left a few days later. Meantime, Jensen and Misha were both spotted same night at the museum a few blocks from their place. pFfFFfFf.

I know observing the real world is hard, but if Misha and Jensen were both at the museum, a few blocks from their place, at the same time, odds are they went together. Jensen's picture with fans was a selfie. Misha's was from about 8 feet distance. Gonna give you five guesses who suggested the picture and caption of Castiel wearing the bedazzled suit and took it for him roflmao

Also, it's genuinely funny these people think that random people in remote towns that don't have SPN on any of their socials report seeing Jensen and Misha together at the place is just fake i guess? next door to one of misha's legal residences I won't disclose so you can't stalk them. Almost like. Wait for it. The real Jensen doesn't give a fuck about your fanfic version of him and is good friends with Misha.

Now, what's really going to bend your noodle is when I tell you that place is one in the same with the Cursed Mountains. And matches his voting registration. So he considers it his personal home, even if he's there rarely between seeing the kids in "LA" (lmao no it's central cali he just lands in LA) and Atlanta. He DOES have LA properties, but the kids aren't actually in LA-LA.

If I said where every motherfucker with statcounter could catch him on tumblr tho so.

MISHA STOP USING MICROSOFT EDGE WHEN YOU'RE WITH THE KIDS YOU STICK OUT LIKE A SORE FUCKIN THUMB. I INNOCENTLY GO TO FIGURE OUT WHO MY HATE ANON WAS AND BOOM!! MYSTERY MAN IN [REDACTED] WITH [DEVICE] WAS BACK AGAIN AT 2 AM ON FUCKING EDGE. (...not the hate anon)

i literally looked up the town once and landed on your old apartment by default dude stop. who needs to fuckin microchip misha when he tells on himself like a boomer

[jackinalex]

This is a bit late but I think you were right about Jack trying to make Alex feel better this tour. I watched the full Toronto show and Jack kept talking about protecting Alex. Also before Jasey Rae Alex’s guitar stopped working and he got visibly frustrated (he ended up kicking his guitar at the end of the song) and Jack was trying to ease the situation, saying to Alex baby I got this.

https://youtu.be/YHUiYj0jMhQ?si=Vi2p_h2-j2-kaRs_

Here are the time stamps:

53:55 - Jack protecting Alex

1:03:40 - Jack didn’t like Alex being in the crowd for SOLG because he couldn’t protect him 😂

1:09:40 - I think this is the perfect example of Jack just being silly and making Alex laugh.

1:28:20 - Jasey Rae guitar issues

Thank you so much for sending me this! It's so fucking precious. Jack will never stop telling Alex how hot he looks and that is just beautiful to me. Also love Jack saying he watches Alex sleep and protects him. I know he's being goofy, but I am choosing to take this literally bc I live in delululand, but I am happy. ALSO!!!! Jack literally saying he didn't like Alex in the crowd because he couldn't protect him??? Are you kidding me???? Jack's fucking killing me lately. I can't believe it.

Jack ABSOFUCKINGLUTELY was trying to make Alex laugh at 1:09:40 bc like he stopped when Alex finally looked over. Jfc. I know I say a lot od delulu shit, but I am confident that I'm right about Jack trying to keep Alex laughing during this tour to keep his spirits up and that is just the sweetest thing in the entire fucking world. Nobody touch me.

I really just don't believe that Jack doesn't remember how to play Jasey. One of his little bits is that he sucks at playing guitar when that's literally ridiculous (I'm gonna stop now before I turn this into something else). I could listen to nothing but Jack calling Alex baby for the rest of my life and be satisfied.

[mlobsters]

supernatural s11e15 beyond the mat (w. john bring, andrew dabb)

vaguely recall maybe reading something about.. was it j2?? watching the same local wrestling in texas growing up? am i imagining this or was it other people

DEAN He was Dad's favorite. Anytime that noose would come out, Dad would be on his feet. It was one of the few times I ever saw him actually happy. SAM Yeah. I remember that.

not sad at all

DEAN Yeah, Sam. You think I don’t know that? We’ve done nothing but mainline lore for a week, okay? We’ve got jack on another hand of God and Amara, and we’ve got even less jack on how to save Cas. SAM If he wants to be saved. DEAN He does... even if he doesn’t know it yet. SAM Dean...

~personally~ i think it would be more about getting lucifer out and back in the cage/dead, what with the massive and enraging fuckup saying yes to the springing the father of lies who turns out to have been a lying liar, something you were willing to die to prevent, but i admittedly rarely understand their writing decisions when it comes to cas so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

LUCIFER You're gonna look high, look low, far and wide. Search every warehouse, every farmhouse, every hen house, outhouse, and doghouse.

get tommy lee jones's words out of your mouth :p someone's grumpy (it's me, hi) the fugitive is one of my old favorites

like i said yesterday i can't really tolerate what's going down with crowley.

i'm glad dean's having a good time fangirling over the wrestlers but time and place, my dude. oh and another thing i've found when i'm finding something too uncomfortable to watch, i mute and read the captions. for whatever reason, i can tolerate way more awkward without sound. less of a full body experience

SAM Sorry. Uh... wrong place. It’s just y-you were my... my first crush. RIO Ah. You weren’t one of those guys that had my poster above his bed, were you? SAM What? No.

cute but what bed though exactly. did he put the poster up in every motel room.

forever and ever, amen

DEAN Did you tell her you used to have a poster of her over your bed when you were a kid?

again what bed, i'd buy maybe like folded up in his duffel or whatever :p

DEAN Now, that hardly seems worth it. Yeah, think about that. Town after town, putting your ass on the line for next to nothing? No money. No glory. Wow. SAM You realize you just literally described our jobs.

was thinking about the continued logistics of money just recently, if they're still doing the same rackets

SPECTATOR Beer’s cheap, kid’s entertained... parenting. Remember, don’t tell Mom how many I’ve had. SAM Yeah. Now, that brings me back. DEAN You want to not try and ruin one of the nicest things Dad ever did for us, please? Thank you.

could argue both sides of that honestly but you know me and my everlasting grudge against john

this wrestling match falls into the category of let dean enjoy things but it still makes me want to hide under a rock. while i watch this (muted, again) i'm trying to pick apart why i find it so secondhand embarrassment-inducing. that he's acting like a child? that i'm worried about him making a fool of himself in front of people because i'd be mortified to in that position? the perceived embarrassment he clearly never feels about that stuff? i dunno. it would be nice if i could logic my way out of feeling it :P

(that said, i am skipping the thing with him playing around in the ring)

CROWLEY I can’t leave. SIMMONS You can. You still have friends... people who want you back... who want Lucifer gone. I don’t know what he’s done to you. I can’t imagine... but you’re... you’re not a slave, a dog. You’re Crowley, and the Devil should be afraid of you.

was thinking yesterday of game of thrones and theon/reek, where a genuinely unlikable character became somewhat sympathetic after horrendous torture. and i already liked crowley. bleh. (also bumps into personal trauma stuff)

guess we're doin the jaws (1975) comparing scars scene now though less handsy

let's go

sam's face at drunk dean made me laugh

why does this rando crossroads demon want someone to kill for him in addition to the deal, man i am struggling to stay focused on this episode.

LUCIFER She, um, she hates you, B-T-Dubs. SIMMONS Yeah. I really do. LUCIFER Yeah, they all do. Like, every demon in Hell. Can’t really blame them, can you? I mean, maybe once you were the evilest evil that ever eviled... present company excluded. But now... you’re nothing but Dean Winchester’s number-one fan.

misha playing pellegrino's lucifer is a little smoother this episode i think. still don't like it. but i mean, at least misha gets to use his face for more than one expression and his regular speaking voice?

DEAN Okay. Okay. Look, you screwed up, all right? Trust me. I’ve been there. But it is never too late to do the right thing. GUNNAR You really believe that? DEAN I have to.

*cut to lucifer!cas* very subtle :p

so one lightning bolt and that hand of god was out of juice? meanwhile the one in the previous episode took out the sub and surface ship. okay. whatever, glad crowley zapped on out of there

SAM Dean, you know what? He made a bad decision. We’ve been there. DEAN Yeah, you, me, now Cas.

12:22am 4 people including 3 children upstairs sleeping. me: NOW????? are we calling this castiel's first big bad decision?? breaking sam's wall for all the hell trauma to rush in for a distraction?! sucking up all those souls from purgatory and being god for a minute and slaughtering people and angels--which led to the leviathans getting out too?? trusting metatron against all logic otherwise which led to the angels falling? i mean, sounds like trusting lucifer AGAINST ALL LOGIC OTHERWISE is par for the fucking course. by this logic, i think cas and crowley should be on pretty similar footing with the brothers 🤪

whatever, man. i had to have a come to jesus meeting with myself about cas a while back so i'd stop complaining so much about the disconnect of what's shown vs said but apparently this got me really riled up again

[seanwinchester]

since ur prev’d me I just wanted to let u know my ‘Im gonna tell my kids this is j2’ tag is actually my rpf ship tag for some guys who are called Jimmy and Joel as my own little in joke ausgeu. that drawing is not actually j2 💔

WHAAAT 😨

kidding lol I actually checked op's profile and knew it wasn't j2 but I thought you tagged it that to be funny bc eh close enough. but it's actually hilarious that you have your own j2 bit. my reblog still stands though <3

[arwenadreamer]

What`s in the 15.20 Script vs. what J2 gave us onscreen:

Script

Sam: I`m thinking about Cass, Jack … if they could be here…

Dean: I know. I think about them, too. Every day, but what happened – it`s never going to stop hurting, but if we don`t keep living, all that … their sacrifice … what was it for?

Onscreen

Dean: Yeah. Yeah, no. I think about 'em, too. You know what? That pain's not gonna go away. Right? But if we don't keep living, then all that sacrifice is gonna be for nothing.

xxx

Script

Sam looks to Dean, who leans up against the post. Breathing hard. Sam`s eyes find his brother … something`s wrong…

Sam: Dean?

Dean: The kids – they safe?

Sam nods. Dean smiles.

Dean: Good. That`s good.

And we see – BLOOD. Spreading across his shirt. Sam`s eyes go wide.

Onscreen

Sam beheads the last Vamp and puts his machete away, not realising something is wrong yet.

Sam: Let's go find those kids, get them outta here.

Dean: Sam... I don't... Mm. I don't think I'm going anywhere.

Sam: What? What are you talking about?

Dean: There's something in my...Something in my back. It feels like it's right through me.

Sam goes to Dean and very carefully reaches around his back. His hand comes back bloody.

  xxx

Script

Sam: Here, let me --

Dean: No, don`t. You move me – that thing feels like it punched pretty much all thae way  trough. I think it`s just about the only thing holding me together right now, so … You move it, I`m gone quick.

Onscreen

Sam: Alright. Um... Hold on. Okay. Uh, I got you.

Dean: No, no, no, no, no. Don't... Don't... Don't move me. Don't move me. It feels like this thing's holding me together right now. Just give me... Just give me a minute.

xxx

Script

Sam: I … I`ll call an ambulance.

Dean: Closest hospital`s forty miles. Don`t think they`re gonna make it.

Sam: Then – I`ll get the first aid kit, just –

Dean: Sam, stop. It won`t help, it – I`m sorry.

Sam: Dean --

Onscreen

Sam: Yeah. Um... alright. I'll call for help. I'll get the first-aid kit.

Dean: Sam, Sam! Sam... Stay wi- Stay with me. Can you stay with me, please?

Sam: Okay. Yeah.

  xxx

Script

Dean: You get those kids home, okay?

Sam: We`ll get them home, after we get you –

Onscreen

Dean: You get those boys and you get them someplace safe, alright?

Sam: Dean … We are gonna get them somewhere safe.

  xxx

Script

Dean: And that`s fine. That`s good. You gotta admit, I had one helluva ride.

Onscreen

Dean: It´s okay. It`s okay. It`s good. It`s good. We had one helluva ride, man.

  xxx

Scrip

Sam: No. If Cass was here…

Dean: He`s not.

Onscreen

---

  xxx

Script

Dean: I know, but … I may not have a lot of time, and – and there`s something I need you to hear: I`m proud of you.

Onscreen

Dean: I`m fading pretty … I`m fading pretty quick, so… there`s a few things that I need you to hear. Come here. Let me look at you. Yeah, there he is. I`m so proud of you, Sam.

  xxx

Script

Dean: I thought you`d say “no.” I thought you`d tell me to get lost. Get dead. And if you had… Hell, I didn`t know what I was going to do.

Onscreen

Dean: I thought you'd tell me to... to get lost or get dead. And I don't know what I would've done... if I didn't have you.

  xxx

Script

Dean: Because when it came down to it, it was always you and me. It`s always been you and me.

Onscreen

Dean: `Cause when it all came down to it, it was always you and me. It`s always been you ---- and me.

  xxx

Script

Sam: I can`t do this without you.

Dean: Yes, you can.

Onscreen

Sam: I can`t do this alone.

Dean: Yes, you can.

Sam: Well, I don`t want to.

  xxx

Script

Dean: And I`ll always be with you. Everyday. When you`re … out there fighting, living… `Cause you … you`ll always keep fighting. And I`ll be with you. Every step.

Onscreen

Dean: Hey. I'm not leaving you. I'm gonna be with you... (Places his hand over Sam`s heart.) Right here... every day. Every day you're out there and you're li... And you're living and you're fighting. 'Cause you... You always keep fighting. You hear me? I'll be there every step.

xxx

Script

Dean: I love you, Sammy.

Onscreen

Dean: I love you so much, my baby brother.

  xxx

Script

Dean: And I need … I need you to promise me… I need you to tell me it`s okay.

ON SAM. A long, painful beat. […] Sam reaches out, taking Dean`s hand. It kills him to say this, but he does it anyway.

Sam: Dean … It`s okay. You can go.

And he leans in, embracing his brother.

Onscreen

Dean: I need you to... I need you to promise me. I need you to... To... to tell me... that it's okay. I need you to tell me that it's okay.

Sam: (crying) No.

Dean: Look at me. Look at me. I need... I need... I need you to tell me that it's okay. I need you to tell me... Tell me it's okay.

Sam places his hand over Deans.

Sam: Dean… it's okay. You can go now.

Foreheadtouch.

Dean: Goodbye, Sam. Goodbye.

Dean`s head falls onto Sam`s shoulder.

xxx

Script

[Bobby explaining the new heaven.]

ON DEAN. Getting emotional now. This is … perfect.

[More conversation about beer.]

Dean: Yeah … just one thing missing.

Bobby: He`ll be along.

Onscreen

Dean: It`s almost perfect.

Bobby: He`ll be along.

  xxx

Script

Dean staring out at a soaring vista. The whole world, perfect and beautiful. Then—

We`re BEHIND DEAN, as a BOOT drops into frame. A footstep. Dean hears it – turns – and his eyes go wide to see… SAM.

Onscreen

Dean looks out over the water. Then he smiles, the moment he feels Sam`s arrival. He know`s before he`s even turning around.

xxx

Script

Sam: Hey, Dean.

Dean: Hey, Sammy.

Onscreen

Dean: Hey, Sammy.

Sam: Dean

 

They really upped everything up a notch!

[canonicallysoulmates]

J2 GOLD Panel Charlotte Con 2021

I have such a huge smile on my face. The boys were flirty, they were joking around, they were supportive hubbies full off admiration and love for one another- and there's still the main panel left!

The panel started off with some banter; and Jensen wanted Jared to sing the Applebees song but Jared claimed he didn't know it so Jensen said he'll teach him so he can sing it at the main panel 😂 I want so badly for Jensen to convince Jared to sing it at the main panel!

Jensen was asked if there's going to be more iPhone music videos for his music, he said there's no plans for that at the moment but teases that maybe when he goes to direct Walker he and Jared will do a fun little vid- maybe the Applebees song. Yes, please! I want this! I want all the j2 bts Walker content 🙏

Asked what the episodes would be about if spn was able to have 2 or 3 more eps after the finale with them in Heaven, Jared thinks the boys would go for a drive after reconnecting on the bridge and make their way to a beach where they could sit back 😭

Jensen thinks there should have been a whole ep of Sam and Dean in Heaven, and he sees Dean acting out, blasting music, driving fast, doing donuts in the Impala. Which led to the boys sharing a story about how one day they were shooting in the Impala and Jensen decided to do donuts in the gravel parking lot during lunch and was sending rocks flying everywhere x

Jared said, and Jensen agrees, that Sam didn't stay in the hunting life but he did tell his son what he needed to know to keep him safe and he definetely told him about his uncle Dean. And Jensen referred to baby Dean as DJ which is cute.

They were asked what their totally selfish wish would be as both themselves and their characters. For Jared his "selfish" wish is that he hopes he gets to meet his grandkids, and Jensen's is that he hopes his kids are well adjusted🥺 And for their characters, Jensen says Dean would want a larger engine. And Jared said Sam got his selfish wish cause he got to be back with his brother driving around. I'm fine, I'm okay 😭

There was a D question which I wouldn't even bring up but I wanted to point something out that I personally found kind of interesting. Jensen was asked about D possibly being featured in one of his future songs, he says not gonna happen (cause she doesn't have an interest) but what I found interesting is that for some reason this made them both crack up, especially Jared they even had to move away from the mics. [Also before this question was asked the fan said the question was for Jensen, and Jensen put his hand on Jared's arm and said he has Jared for support ❤]

They were asked about directing and producing, and Jared said he's never directed but Jensen stops him and says he has, that he just does it from a different perspective and that he directed and produced for 15 years 😭❤ And then Jared brings up seeing Jensen wearing double hats while on spn when he acted and directed and how cool that was for him to see someone he knew, loved, trusted, admired and respected doing that, I'm drowning in supportive!husbands feels 😭❤

Jensen also said that he feels like producing is a lot like putting out fires which they did for many years on spn cause they didn't have a producer on set. I've said before and I'll say it again, these men deserved producer credits on spn and the fact that they never got them is a disgrace.

Here's a timestamp to Jared touching Jensen's chest, you're welcome 😊

When asked about the major differences between playing Sam and Dean, and playing Walker and Soldier Boy, Jensen says Cordell's got a little bit of Dean in him and that he rubbed of on Jared, Jared agrees 😏 Jared called Soldier Boy, Soldier which for some reason I absolutely love. Jensen mentioned Rust and says he was using a lot of Sam for the character he was playing in the film 😭 Y'all gotta watch this moment cause I am overcome with the feels of these supportive husbands, making dirty jokes and talking about how much influence they have on each other x

A fan said they hope Soldier Boy kicks Homelander's ass, Jensen said there's a lot of ass kicking and a lot of ass. I will be staring respectfully sir 👀

And they finish off the panel joking around and laughing cause when answering the last question which was about somebody fainting in front of David Hayden-Jones Jensen said "going down" which caused some of the fans in the audience to burst out laughing cause their mind went right down the gutter 😂

This panel was filled with so many great moments! I can't wait for the main one!

J2 GOLD Panel Charlotte Con 2021

[doggerell]

I will explain myself a little but in my cryptic way. Cast Iron is exactly the vibe for the Apology Tour fic if I ever. write that. but now I wanna make it even more insane in the way that its not even abt the end of s4. “I think I know what you really mean.” Joel isnt even. really looking at the surface level hes trying to dig at even deeper issues that Jimmy doesnt even realize he has and *clawing my face off*

[eisforeidolon]

Hellers are honestly, actively, trying to ruin Jensen. He has had a lot of publicity lately, and hellers and Misha stans are foaming at the mouth. Twitter is filled with “Jensen is a homophobe” mentions. Eventually, with the state of media, someone will pick it up and run with it in an article. The scene where SB sees a gay couple? . Hellers are conflating Jensen w/SB and saying it was “Jensen’s idea to just be himself” and all that bs.

Why do I loathe Misha so much? Because honest to frikkin gosh this is so much on him. If he didn’t queerbait everyone so much, which by default made Jensen have to shoot everything down so much just to honor canon, this wouldn’t be what it has become. So now, every annoyance he felt has been manipulated into him being this bigoted asshole. He’ll honestly never outrun this- it will follow him forever. Who cares if he was treated like a sex doll? Told he should be forced to bend over? Who cares about the death threats and threats to his kids he got right? He didn’t agree with a ship, and he refused to queerbait fandom- he must be punished for it for all time. That’s on Misha. That’s on Berens.

I mean, they have been trying that on and off for years. It's cyclical. Jensen would shoot them down, they'd have fits and call him a homophobe, they'd salivate over Dean and Castiel making eye contact and build themselves back up again, Misha would bait them in encouragement for attention, Jensen would have to shoot them down again ... repeat ad nauseam.

I do think that there is an extent to which shipping fandom does this to itself organically. Look at SherIock, which had no Misha. However, Misha definitely exacerbated the situation by playing into it and effectively making everyone else the bad guys for telling the truth. Not even to mention pushing for that scene to sell merch on the hopes of his sheep and then continuing to bait long after the show has ended. Since the actors are front and center, the worst blow back naturally falls on Jensen, for being the other half of the ship they need the approval of, and Jared, for being "in the way" of what was never gonna happen anyway.

I expect there probably already are articles about Jensen's supposed homophobia on sites with no real editorial standards. I think it's fairly unlikely for a legitimate publication with professional writers to pick it up, though, because all their "evidence" comes back down to WAHHH MY SHIP ISN'T CANON and equating the actor to his character(s) which is obviously batshit crazypants can't-separate-fiction-from-reality nonsense.

I mean, after all the buildup about how Soldier Boy was going to be emphatically cancel-worthy and full of bad antiquated opinions? My response to that scene was ... that's it? I expected a lot more active disgust after all the buildup (which we may see more of that side of the character later, to be fair). But again, outside of moronic butthurt hellers, even if it had been more actively hateful? Nobody with two working brain cells to rub together is going to make that about Jensen.

So while I don't see any end in sight for them continuing to follow Jensen to his new projects and alternately screaming about them either "proving" he's a homophobe or that he wanted detestiel/Misha all along? I think the effect it will actually have on Jensen is unlikely to ever go above the current level of dumbasses trolling on social media. Which is still undeserved and infuriating - and seriously, fuck Misha for calling himself J2's friend and helping to create the situation! But I really don't think it's too likely anyone outside of the particularly stupid and gullible parts of the fandom bubble is going to take it seriously enough for it to impact Jensen more negatively than that.

[freakygirlie]

New(ish) to J2 fandom, just spent the past god knows how many sleepless nights reading through Speak the Truth, trawling through spn_gossip and rewatching old cons and I👏am👏going👏in👏SANE👏

I considered myself a relatively reasonable person, but when it comes to J2, I have ZERO control. Tinhatting aside, their obvious love for one another makes me want to put myself in a grave.

As an old hat, some questions for you..

1. when did you first fall for the boys and what made you start tinhatting?

2. what the hell is it about them that drives us (j2 fandom) SO insane? (why the hell do I care whether two random people are/are not *really* in love?)

3. any coping mechanisms to deal with this obsession?

hi anon honestly what a wonderful ask <33333 this is gonna be a long one so buckle up !!

WE ARE ALL INSANE LET ME TELL YOU THAT MUCH. ''sleepless nights going through tinhat stuff' BEEN THERE! DONE THAT! I am so in love with their love i have 0 control let me tell you that much. their love for each other TINHATTING ASIDEEEE makes me want to jump off a cliff it's so gorgeous it makes me insane all the time. i mean HOW CAN YOU NOT GO INSANE WHEN YOU SEE ALL THIS:

1. when did you first fall for the boys and what made you start tinhatting?

-when i first started watching supernatural, i was IN LOVE with sam and dean's relationship. it was JUST <3 and i obviously saw the insane and beautiful chemistry the actors had. my friend who got me hooked on the show, used to ramble on about how beautiful j2's friendship was and i was like mmhmm cool cool. i started watching con videos and i was just blown away by their friendship, the easiness they had and the obvious love and affection. i wasn't a tinhat and while i did go 👀👀👀 at many things(only con videos till now) i was like- PLSDJFJG i'm just projecting my wincest fantasies on them ffs. anyways moving on to me venturing into the tumblr world, long before i made an account, i was scrolling through the j2 tag and it was all cute pics vids and stories and i was all aww! when i came across a post(I AM BEGGING ANYONE WHO KNOWS IT LINK IT TO ME PLEASE I CANT FIND IT) which was of a convention clip i had already seen: (x) (starts at 9:15) and it was the SPNMINN 2018 J2 Gold Panel- Jared got a box of cupcakes from a fan and while eating one there was frosting all smeared on him and Jensen took some napkins and cleaned Jared's mouth IT'S THE CUTESTTT and while jen's cleaning up uk he makes those ''ugh'' sounds, grumpy jensen <3333333 but still taking care of his boy <333333

the post was captioned if i remember correctly: ''his mouth is saying ugh but his eyes are saying oh'' (bc jared 's mouth was all shiny and pretty so ehem ;)) AND I JUST FROZE FOR A MINUTE. It took a minute for me to process it but when it finally loaded i was like W H A T. WHAT IN ALL OF ??????? IS THE OP IMPLYING- (be known that i knew the j's were married and had kids so anyone implying or saying that they were romantically involved was like ''are u crazy'' for me, pls i was so naive, also it was the first time i was so blatantly exposed to it, anyways) i was like shooketh. and then i looked at the tags and it was your average: ''jared padalecki'' ''jensen ackles'' and then ''j2 tinhat''. and i was ??? what the hell is a tinhat ???? ehem you can be sure that i clicked on it, it loaded AND THE FIRST POST THAT JUMPED OUT AT ME was this gif of Jared STROKING jensen's neck and the hairs at the back of it and I WAS WTFHJDJHFJFKFJ. ?????????????? THE HELL IS THIS ????????????????????

anyways i spent the entire NIGHT SCROLLING THRU THE TAG and my entire world like everything i knew was just flipped and scrambled and i was just ohmygod what the fuck and i found out there was a whole community of j2 tinhats who believed j2 were involved and the marriages were to cover it up and let me be honest, i thought y'all were crazy. i was like nope nope these are just people with too much time on their hands and too much of an overactive imagination. LIKE NO THERE'S NO WAY-

i spent so long being a fencesitter, scrolling, researching, trudging my way thru spn_g, all the blogs(and i learnt to keep an open mind that's very imp!) but i was still in denial. it was right in front of me BUT STILLLLL. and then. the thing that convinced me wasn't an elaborate theory, a slip up or anything like that. it was a tiny simple collection of gifs of j2 secretly touching each other's hands. and the gif that convinced me was:

it was 3 or 4 am in the morning and i was yet again scrolling through as much tinhattery stuff as i could and i came across it and i was just: ohmygod. they're together. OHMYGOD. THEY'RE IN LOVE. the- they are actually- ohmygod. LIKE JENSEN IS FONDLY CARESSING JARED'S FINGERS HE DELIBERATELY SEEKED THEM OUT WHILE HIS HAND WAS ON THE FAN AND JARED'S NOT EVEN STARTLED HE ALLOWS IT LIKE GOD ???? like idc how bro-y and bestfriendism you are- FRIENDS DON'T DO THAT. PLATONIC BUDDIES DON'T SEEK OUT YOUR HAND LIKE THIS AND CARESS THE FINGERS OF SAID HAND, SMILE ALL LOVE-SICK LIKE AND CURL THEIR FINGERS UNDER YOUR TOUCH AND THEN GO BACK AND DO THE SAME THING ALL OVER AGAIN LIKE SOME SMITTEN HUSBAND OKAY. AND IN SECRET TOO LIKE-

i was like again FLOORED but like seeing THAT just flipped me completely and it slammed into me like a car(and i've been hit by a car irl so I KNOW). i fell so deep into the tinhat hole and after that everything else just made sense. their actions that didn't match up with their stories, the slip-ups, the weirdness(look when i was a non-tinhat, i wasn't an overly eager het stan or whatever but i was so done with jared and gen repeating the same things over and over again and jensen and danneel's interactions were ehem with all due respect boring.) and THEM J2 THEIR LOVE THEIR INTERACTIONS THE LOOKS THE EVERYTHING !!!!! i've been a tinhat since and while i've had my doubts here and there i've never taken my hat off <3

2. what the hell is it about them that drives us (j2 fandom) SO insane? (why the hell do I care whether two random people are/are not *really* in love?)

-it's them anon *shrugs and cries a little*. them, their love for each other is so out of this world. they've sacrificed so much to be together, they love each other so deeply and are such an integral part of each other's lives and god they fit so fucking well ??? they connected the moment they met and they are each other's other halves!! it's something out of a movie or some shit like godddddd. they drive us insane by just being THEM !!! separately even i have never seen two better men who try so hard to be good, who give us their all and let themselves loose, who love so beautifully. and together they're perfect. their love story is one for the ages and i admire it and cherish it so much. they struggle with it all yet love each other so much and it's not like it's even subtle it's out their for EVERYONE TO SEE. The way they talk about each other, the way they look after each other, the little glimpses we see into them and their relationship. it's something that's so beyond our understanding, it's on a plane of it's own. j2 are WHY i believe so wholly in true love <33 ''why the hell do we care'' that kind of dedication the one they show us and the kind of love they send us, it creates a bond, fans, admirers, and people who are willing to stick with you no matter what. i look up to them so much, they are such a comfort to me and i love love love their relationship. they drive us so insane and how could they not!

there's 15003878398449 moments i could talk about but god i'm just so fucking insane for them and the love they share, we all are !!! and also think about it where did sam and dean get their insane-ness from ??? <333

(x) (x) (x) (x) (x) (x) (x) (x) (x) (x) - linking to a few <333(ok more than a few)

<3

they're soulmates ❤️

3. any coping mechanisms to deal with this obsession? -believe me anon if i knew, i would tell you.

[theyarebothgunshot]

[part 1/2]

Hi, I’ve fallen in the cockles dumpster years ago and I don’t know how to reach the surface anymore.

we can say I’m a newbie on your inbox and I just thought we could all tinhat a little bit about one of the things that sold me on cockles to be a real thing: honcon 2017.

Here’s the list of things I can’t find a platonic heterosexual explanation for:

(Funny but useless foreword, a few days before the con a fan tweeted a photo of a rainbow she saw when her flight land in honolulu and said she took it as a sign that was gonna be a gay weekend, and man she was right lol)

1- Misha flew to a hawaii on thursday just like all the other guests who were supposed to be at the con way before J2 did.

We know j2 stopped shooting the same day/the day after because on friday Jensen was spotted by a fan on a plane to honolulu even tho he was expected to be there on sunday.

while Jared preferred spending that bit of free time at home. (Gen posted a few instagram stories of jared and the kids in Texas.) Jensen went straight to misha instead.

Even tho at the previous con j2 talked about how the following weeks were going to be full of work commitments and between work and cons so close to one another they couldn’t see the families as much.

I’m not saying Jensen didn’t miss his wife and kid. He loves them and clearly meant it when he said he missed them so much. That’s why it was surprising seeing him join misha so early. I’m gonna go out on a limb here and say it was a planned trip to spend time together.

2- I think it’s positive to say he was there early for Misha and only misha since that night a fan took a picture with them at an hotel bar. She posted it on instagram and said it was just the two of them, then she had to put the account on private since too many people were asking questions.

It’s strange how we only got one photo of that night tho, they’re always super nice with fans when being approached and usually after the first brave soul finds the courage to ask everyone else follow through.

Again I think they clearly wanted to be alone that night. No fans no castmates.

Maybe they were celebrating something?

3- Then the panel happened.

We all remember Jensen showing us how bad his kink for misha’s weird accents have gotten, how cheerful and at ease they were on stage.

Even I could feel the love was in the air and I live on the other side of the ocean!

welcome to the dumpster, nonnie! i love all of this a lot. i *just* got your part two and i am putting it and my reaction under the cut!! 

[part 2/2]

4 - Jensen also bought matching shirts for his friends. One black shirt for him and an identical one for his bro. But misha’s was red cause he knows him well enough to notice he never wears black shirts.

I mean Jensen has a history of showing affection through gifts, (I have a few examples on my mind but no time to write it all down now)

That was a nice thing to do.

5- Least but not last

THE DINNER STORY.

I don’t care if it’s been years I’m still not over how sweet that moment was.

The question was an easy generic one, It took misha less than two minutes to answer.

But then mr. 10 years. same bar, same table. same company. grabs the microphone and procede to share with us one the sweetest memory of Misha he got.

I mean it was so unexpected. Unlike Jared and Misha he’s careful about what he think is appropriate and what’s not.

In my mind it sounded like: “Listen I know it doesn’t answer your question but I’ve just spent a good weekend with this person right here, that I clearly love and care for, and I’m feeling soft, so let me tell you about how I realized I was whipped on him since our very first date”

Again I find it curious Jensen was reminiscing about how they first got together on that particular weekend.

The same one he decided to join misha early just to be with him.

That was one of the moments I realized there’s no way this is a platonic relationship.

Ok this turned out way longer than I expected.

I clearly miss jenmish so much I can’t stop blabber about them.

I’m sorry

Polaroid anon

first of all: don’t be sorry, i truly loved this because i felt like i was seeing the panel again in my minds eye while i was reading your message. 

second of all: you are absolutely right about everything except for calling misha’s shirt red. it was orange, which is misha’s favorite color, which makes it even more special that jensen got that one for him. 

i also think that jensen went there early just for mish, which is just. a lot. it reminds me of another con, where jensen could have gone home already but he waited for misha who had to do something else there the next day, and then two days later they were spotted together i think at the airport. 

i 100% agree that the fact that jensen shared that story about one of their first dinners is very special and rare. especially because in the past, whenever somebody wanted to hear a story from them, they both never knew what to share (probably because of lot of their stories are not suitable to share tbh) and to me it almost felt like he really thought about what he could share and what he would feel comfortable with, after all those times where he just went ‘shit idk what to say’. 

and what he shared just felt so romantic? like. the look on misha’s face when jensen was talking was also so soft, he was clearly thinking back on that moment. a moment they both remembered all those years later. i mean at that point they had known each other for nearly 10 years and they still remembered that one particular night. it made an impression on both of them. it was a date. and then to top it off jensen added that he thought to himself ‘but i think i love him a little bit more too’. wow. 

see, no need to apologize for talking a lot, as i clearly do the same sjfhshf.

[hopefullystillatheatrestudent]

this might be a weird thought but the way jensen performs masculinity (and i KNOW it’s a performance cause like, have you SEEN the mockumentary?) is just.... so inherently queer to me lmao

ok. okokokokokok. you asked for this. i have a LOT of thoughts on this. it’s gonna be under a cut because i’m gonna be annoying and psychoanalyse a celebrity i’ve never met(and hope i never do) but trust and believe when i tell you i know what i’m talking about so

you want my opinion? here goes. there is absolutely no way jensen ackles is straight. i hear you, ‘how do you know that he’s bi? that’s invasive and creepy’ but may i counter that point by saying how do you know he’s straight???? why is the default for everyone heterosexual? that’s a toxic mentality to have; ‘oh you don’t know for sure so just treat him like he’s 100% straight just in case’ like....what? heteronormativity drives me wild i’m sorry

and also, um, just to, um, prove my point that this man is decidedly not straight™(i really don’t want to do this but like it has to be said) we KNOW he’s not straight because his d*ck has spoken for itself around misha, like, four times. I HATE SAYING IT!!!!!!! but, um, straight men don’t get aroused by men. ...do i really need to explain myself further???? that’s what i thought(and don’t give me the ‘it could have been for unrelated reasons’ or ‘that wasn’t a boner!’ crap because um good lord yes it was and misha caused every single one so no it wasn’t a coincidence i’m gonna move on before i collapse into myself like a dying star)

anyway, on to the topic at hand which is jensen and his performative masculinity. and it’s a juicy one.

after the unconscious amount of hours i’ve put into watching and subconsciously judging jackles, i have come to the conclusion that like, 90% of how he presents himself and talks and even moves is an act. it’s a facade. it’s a shield. he is not that person. it actually seems exhausting, because he tries to compose himself in this macho, manly, confident and effortlessly cool way, but he’s not that person he desperately wishes he was and wants to be perceived as. he’s on guard every second, even the slightest tilt of his head is like, pre-meditated in some way? if i’m going FULL body language analyst mode, i’ve noticed he has a certain posture he always shifts himself into, and it’s very ‘pursed lips, stoic faced, gruff voiced, square-shoulder, broad and manly’ but, not to be rude jensen, it kind of reads as a little kid imitating the adults he thinks are cool? oof i am going IN huh(it’s out of love though i promise)

he is trying to be this person at every second:

because that’s who he wishes he was, because that’s how he gets validation from the people around him that he looks up to; straight white guys. but to me, who he presents himself to be at conventions is just as much of a performance as this whole eye of the tiger bit is.

oh i should mention i know his body language isn’t naturally like that because how he naturally carries himself is actually pretty flamboyant? like he seriously must be toning himself down HARD

examples:

there’s no tension in his body here as opposed to the eye of the tiger gif. i’d describe it as...generally loose and free? he’s at ease when he moves like that and you can see it.

oh and dude!!! DUDE!!!! how could i not mention the fucking SPECTACLE that is his voice??? jensen. i watched season one. i know where your voice naturally sits. THAT IS NOT WHAT YOU SOUND LIKE. and there have been so many accounts of fans visiting jensen in his trailer and being surprised that his real voice is two octaves higher. again, his performance of masculinity is all encompassing. he can’t even talk normally because, in his mind, that’s a chink in his armour.

and, like you said, anon, this whole smokes-and-mirrors gong show of ‘i am the cool texan man’ is inherently queer. who are you trying to impress??? guys??? that’s pretty gay dude.(btw: gay[honorary])

i feel like i’ve already read this man for filth but i have to keep going bc i have so much to say

ok next thing i’m gonna talk about is how jensen says one thing but everything else about him tells us the exact opposite. another HUGE element of performative masculinity, ONE THAT DEAN WINCHESTER IS A MASTER OF. have i mentioned how dean and jensen are like mirrors of each other when it comes to their sexuality and queer identity??? because it is fascinating how everything i say about jensen also directly applies to dean.

allow me to introduce the grumpy face™. as in, the face he glues on when he’s enjoying doing something but doesn’t want to let anyone know it. and it’s ALWAYS when he’s doing something that could be seen as unmanly in any way. (and when i say manly i mean the ‘ideal’ version of manhood that doesn’t really exist but that jensen seems to be striving for[and dean too])

prime example is this video he did with daneel. the grumpy face™ doesn’t budge the whole time as he’s like,,,,playing an instrument and acting like he doesn’t want to bc i guess that’s too girly??? but i also find this video fascinating because the joke IN it is kind of that they’re both poking fun at him for being so insecure about playing a freaking flute. because, i mean, he gets into it, but he wants you to think he is not.

also this picture.

what is this. i hate them. jensen is smushing himself into misha’s forehead but noooo his face is telling us ‘i hate this’ because CLEARLY he does. also misha’s so happy ew gross

he does that face in photo ops with misha ALL THE TIME but how many times has he also literally asked the con goers if he can also have those photos on his phone too? because of course he actually loves touching misha and is actually a sentimental fool but he tries so hard to hide it and fails so spectacularly.

oh and this. and of COURSE this. actually let’s talk about the hitch kiss for a hot minute because it’s a perfect example of exactly what i’m talking about

(he is so transparent guys. he tries so hard but he’s so obvious.)

1. misha was never supposed to be onstage with him. so it’s a boldface LIE and OBVIOUS PLOY TO GET MISHA TO KISS HIM when he says ‘they’d like us to make out now’. but of course the way he says it is ‘oh my god can you believe what these crazy panel people are making us do haha but i mean what they say goes amirite’. same energy as ‘oh my god did you just dare us to kiss rn???’ ‘....no i didn’t’ ‘oh my god i can’t believe you’d ask that haha but i can’t say no to a dare lol’ it’s the SAME THING

2. the fact that he was in the worst mood before misha came onstage and FAKE KISSING HIM made him feel...SO?? much better? like not just a little better a lot better like, again, that says a lot, because if they weren’t dating he would not be in a better mood if misha kissed his cheek unprompted. bc that cheek kiss wasn’t a joke it was a genuine sign of affection and AHHHH

3. after the kiss happens. you know, the one that jensen actively leans into and is smiling like an idiot the whole time through and is quite clearly having the time of his life during....he says ‘well, that was uncomfortable’. .......my guy. um. i don’t know how to tell you that i do in fact have eyes and you are NOT pulling the fast one you think you are

like i’m so sorry jensen but i have you pegged. it’s literally no use.

god there’s so many instances of him doing this with misha specifically. the whole ‘ew gross lol’ but then everything about him tells us the exact opposite. like this(i hate this. how dare he say ‘he has though, hasn’t he?’ LIKE THAT?????)

so yeah my point with that is he really wants us to think he is one thing when he is the antithesis of what he’s trying to be. he really likes those things that he talks down about, and everything he’s loudly projecting is all to hide how he really feels. he went to a gay bar with daneel, for crying out loud. he wants to play a role in drag. he’s queer and he likes it. pov: you’re jensen ackles train of thought: ‘ok so i really like this thing that people might make fun of me for or call me gay for liking so if i just say ‘lol as if’ and make a grossed-out face they will be FOOLED. i am a genius. hey misha wanna blow on my ear lol i meAN GROSS EW’

i have two more things i want to talk about when it comes to this topic so PLEASE bear with me anon this is why you took so long to answer clearly lmao

ok so we’re now going to go over my favorite hot take of all time. which is ‘how do we know dean’s performing masculinity? because sam isn’t.’ only replace dean with jensen and sam with jared and oh my god do we ever have a case

jared is as STRAIGHT as they come. he is secure in that knowledge. and that’s why he is perfectly comfortable treating misha like this:

and not try to scream ‘i am not enjoying doing this!!!!!!’ at us. because he doesn’t care what we think of his sexuality like jensen does(because he has nothing to hide whereas jensen DOES)

something i found the other day that no one has brought up but i SCREAMED upon finding it is this one clip THAT I CAN’T FIND OH GOD but i promise i’m not making it up. i can’t believe i can’t find it guys it is gold. i need need NEED to talk about it. and if anyone knows what i’m referencing and can apply links in any way i will love you forever but here’s what happens off the top of my head:

ok so i’m a bit too braindead to explain it perfectly but um basically it’s a j2 panel and someone brings up magic mike and i think jared says ‘yeah i didn’t watch it’ and then jensen says ‘all the way through’. stupid joke. whatever. the joke is that jared is gay for watching magic mike.

and then i literally kid you not. jared gets this like ‘jesus christ ok dude? lol’ look on his face and then goes ‘projecting much, mr. ackles?’ and jensen gets a guilty look on his face and walks away. and jared did not say it as a joke. he was being dead pan and earnest. and jensen knew it too, he knew he was projecting. i wish i could show you guys the clip i promise if i ever find it i’ll link it but IS THAT NOT SO DAMNING FOR JENSEN????? like come ON. also proves my point that when you compare how they feel about watching magic mike. jared doesn’t care bc watching it just doesn’t interest him, but he also thinks that just watching it in itself doesn’t make you gay. jensen however.......has a different mindset, clearly.

‘projecting much, mr. ackles?’ is actually a great title for my next and FINAL section(we’re almost there folks) which is how jensen projects his insecurites about his own sexuality and relationship with misha onto misha.

i hope by now we’ve all seen this video of jensen impersonating cas. it is a blatant microaggression on his part. and like obviously homophobic. it’s like in his mind if he makes fun of them for being gay it makes them both less gay somehow??? it’s self-deprecation in a way??? let’s just tell it like it is: that impression was just jensen’s overt internalized homophobia rearing it’s ugly head. he does it a LOT too when it comes to misha.

i mean:

and that whole mess where he’s making fun of misha for being a bottom in their panel in 2016? ‘so you’re saying, like with football terms, there’s a handler and there’s a receiver heheheehe’ jensen you’re not exempt from being gay just because you know football terms lmao

oh and his OTHER impression of misha where he mocks him for...bicycling...because it’s not a manly enough sport??? jensen NO ONE else has ever thought this hard in their lives about what constitutes as masculine enough to be a sport before. that’s all you bud. we don’t find those jokes nearly as funny as you do. you are reaching, sir

the good news is that misha thinks it’s hilarious and knows it’s projecting on jensen’s part and will tease him endlessly for it. many stories come to mind, like that one photo op story where they’re literally dressed in rainbow banners and pride stickers but when misha goes to hold his hand jensen said something like ‘no way’ and then misha stepped back, put his hands on his hips and went ‘that’s the part that’s too gay for you???’ and jensen LOST it

or when that whole underwear thing happened(messy messY MESSY BTW) and then a fan asked a question about what dean and cas would do in rome and misha just said ‘when in rome’ and jensen makes a face like ‘are you serious’ and then misha says ‘you can’t look at me like that anymore, because of what you did!!!!!!’

OH and that whole story about when misha suggested they put jensen in the closet for that cat video....yeah um

and then when jensen was asked to do bisexual finger guns for a photo op and the con goer said ‘he looks bisexual here’ and misha literally said ‘oh he definitely looks bisexual here. i would say he’s actually closer to the gay side of the spectrum’ so..um...make with that as you will

OH MY GOD i’m finally done. wow. WOW. that was a lot. i hope i’ve blown your minds. ty anon i really wanted to talk about this and i hope you’re happy with the outcome!!!!!!

[charlesleclerc2003]

Going Home

Pairing: J2 X Reader (Platonic) Eventual Alex X Reader.

Summary: Four years after the season 15 finale of Supernatural, you and the boys are finally going home to film season 16. This is your journey from Texas to Vancouver.

Warnings: None I think. Maybe that there is a Season 16? Warnings will be updated with every chapter.

Based on the song Going Home By The Score.

A/N: In this story Coronavirus never happened. And J2 and you all live next door to each other.

Dividers By @firefly-graphics

Series Masterlist

My Main Masterlist

Chapter 1

You and the boys finished filming season 15 of Supernatural, a show you’ve been with for the majority of your adult life, in late . You were devastated when it ended, as were Jensen and Jared. The ending didn’t sit well with either of you or Jensen, but it was what the writers wrote. The good thing about it was that they left the ending open, your character driving off in the impala whilst the boys reunited in heaven.

You were lounging around your house rewatching all the seasons, when your phone rang. Picking it up you glanced at the caller ID seeing a number you never thought you’d hear from again.

“Hey Andrew.” You smiled.

“Hey Y/N, I was calling to see if you wanted to come up to Vancouver for a while with the other two?” He asked.

“Wait, are you saying what I think you’re saying?”

“I think so.”

“We’re getting picked up for season 16?” You asked hopefully.

“Yeah, I’ve already called the boys. They said they’re both up for it.”

“You might want to pull the phone away from your ear for a sec.” You recommended.

“Why?” Andrew asked.

“Cause I’m gonna scream.” You laughed.

“Noted.”

You waited a few second before pulling your phone away from your ear and letting out a very high pitched squeal. You were going back to Vancouver to film, you couldn’t believe it.

“Oh My God! Thank you so much Andrew. When are we flying out?” You asked, already thinking about what you had to pack.

“Well I was thinking since you all have one of the impala's each that you could drive up, since we’re gonna need them. Stopping at a couple of places on the way, bit like a Welcome Home Tour.” He suggested.

“Yes that sounds awesome. Have you asked the boys yet?”

“No not yet I thought you might want to tell them.”

“Hell yeah. I’ll call them straight away. They’ll be stoked.” You replied, a massive grin painting your face.

You both said goodbye and hung up, dancing around the room you grabbed your jacket and threw on your shoes, bolting out the house to Jensen’s.

He opened immediately, a grin on his face.

“Okay I get why you’re grinning but why are you literally vibrating on my doorstep?” He asked, laughing at your behaviour.

“Let me in will you, I have big news and when I say big I mean, BIG.” You giggled.Jensen stepped back so you could hop in through the door.

“Is Jared here?” You asked, peering into the sitting room.

“Yeah, his in the garden with the kids.”

You smiled and ran towards the back door, spotting Jared with his back turned.

Taking the opportunity you sprinted and jumped onto his back. He grunted with the force and started laughing.

“Heya Jare.”

“Hey Spider Monkey.”

“What are you doing?” Jensen laughed finally making his way outside.

“I’m giving Jare a hug.” Laughing, Jared spun in a circle.

Shaking his head, Jensen helped you off Jared’s back without falling over. You quickly greeted Gen, Dani and the kids, before turning to Jared and Jensen.

“Alright you know we’ve been picked up for season 16?”

“Yeah?” They both agreed.

“Well I’m just going to come out and say it then.” Smiling you watched looks of confusion dance across everyone’s faces.

“We’re driving up in the Impala’s.” You yelled jumping up and down.

Smiles graced the garden, from the adults to the kids.

“That’s awesome, we should be able to get up there in a day or two.” Jensen grinned.

“More like about a week and a half.” You countered.

“What do you mean?”

“Well Andrew asked me, that since we each have an Impala each and they’re gonna need them, if we could drive them up stopping at a few places on the way. Bit like a Going Home Tour.”

“Awesome.”

You all burst out laughing at Jensen’s statement. They invited you to stay for dinner and a couple of drinks, bearing in mind that you had to drive all the way to Vancouver.

Spending the night, you all left to pack the next morning. Agreeing that if you were going to do this you were going to dress like your characters and use walkie talkies.

That made you all laugh.

After Supernatural ended, none of you knew what to do with yourselves. Okay Jared and Jensen had their own TV shows after. Jared with Walker and Jensen with The Boys. You had even done a few movies and commercials, but it just didn’t feel the same. You weren’t goofing around on set together, or sitting in each others trailers talking and having a beer. Yes there had been the conventions, you got to meet all your fans and share stories from set. But nothing felt right until you got that call.

When you got back to your place, you quickly started packing. Throwing flannel and jeans into your suitcase, along with some other clothes that you usually wear.

You were doing this as a Winchester. Once you were sure you had everything packed, you ran down to your garage. Opening the door, your gleaming Baby sitting there proudly ready to go.

Smiling you opened the door, taking in the black leather seats and cream dash. Sliding in you giggled at the memories.

It was your coverage and Jared decided to let one rip, the sound amplified on the leather. That take was ruined, you were laughing too much.

You pulled the walkie talkie that Jared had picked up, and clicked it on.

“Hey Boys, you there?”

“Yep.”

“Here.”

You smiled, “Lets do this.”

You opened the garage door and Cliff was stood at the end of your drive phone in hand, filming it.

“On three, turn on the engines.”  You put the key in the ignition, as you imagined the boys did as well.

“One, Two.” You gripped the key tighter.

“Three.” All at one the three engines roared to life and settled into a soft purr.

“All right.” You could hear the smile in Jensen’s voice.

“Go.” Jared said, and you heard the Impala’s rev as you all pulled out. Looking to your right, as your reached the end of your drive you saw both Jared’s and Jensen’s Baby’s pull out. You pulled to the left and both boys followed stopping just behind you. Sliding out you glanced back at Jared and Jensen, they both had grins on their faces as the walked over to their wives.

Watching them, a twinge of sadness stirred in your gut. You hadn’t had a relationship since high school. And that didn’t end well. You’d sworn off love and focused on your career. That didn’t mean you weren’t happy for them, of course you were happy for them it just hurt seeing them like that sometimes.

Leaning against the hood, you fiddled with your phone, keeping your head down.

What you didn’t notice was everyone watching you. A random tear slipped down your cheek, which you quickly swiped away, hoping nobody saw. But they did, their smiles faded as they watched. They hated seeing you sad, when there was nothing they could do about it.

Saying goodbye, Jared, Jensen and Cliff all walked over to you.

“Ready to go home?” Jared asked.

You nodded, not trusting your voice and peeled away sliding back into the front seat of your Impala.

Sighing Jared and Jensen got into theirs with Cliff riding with Jared.

You waved as you pulled off onto the open road ready to begin your journey, putting a fake smile onto your face.

When you hit the highway, you opened her up. Stepping on the accelerator, the power of the engine sounding like music to your ears. The scenery flying past you, the wind in your hair. You felt free, like there wasn’t a care in the world.

You couldn’t hear anything else. The entire world had been blocked out.

Slowing down your senses finally came back, you could hear your name being called through the walkie talkie.

“Hey Y/N! Where’d you go. One second you were in front the next you’re gone.” It was Cliff, he sounded worried.

“Sorry I pulled ahead, I’ll wait for you.” You answered, pulling over to the side of the road. As soon as the car had stopped, your broke down. Hot tears spilling down your face, landing in your lap. Why you were crying you didn’t know, you just were. Leaning your head against the steering wheel, letting it all out. You don’t know how long you were sat there for, before you heard the others. Wiping your tears, you quickly checked yourself in the mirror. Tears marks streaked down your cheeks and your eyes were red and puffy.

They pulled up behind you, Cliff hopping out and up to your passenger window.

“Want me to drive yours for a bit and you can ride with Jared?”

You looked across at him and shook your head.

“What about Jensen?”

You nodded softly, looking down in your lap.

He turned and gestured for Jensen to come forward.

A few seconds later Jensen was opening you door and helping you out, towards his car.  You stayed silent, you didn’t want to say anything. Jensen understood and let you slip in silently. Getting in he pulled you up to his side and wrapped an arm around your shoulder. Letting you rest your head on his shoulder. A few more tears slipped out as he pulled off behind Cliff.

He gently shushed you, holding onto you tighter. You fell asleep like that.

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