#gonna add more stuff I am so not done
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
It's baffling how even though Dolores' abuse is painfully obvious people still consider lolita a love story. She hates Humbert Humbert, she calls him different variations of "disgusting old man", she always refers to their "love making" as rape, she's constantly hiding money in different places to try and escape, she's defiant as fuck. Even with the romantic writing style, Vladimir Nabokov made Humbert Humbert's "love" very obviously shallow and surface level. He starts thinking she's too old less than an year later and has a full on meltdown when she turned 14 about how she doesn't look 12 anymore. Even Humbert Humbert says "though I had fallen in love with lolita forever, I know she won't remain lolita forever" how do you look at things like this and go "omg tragic romantic love story"
Dolores never has a voice in this story, but Humbert Humbert constantly tells on himself about how miserable she is with him.
#im so sorry I literally don't shut up about this I have plagued the lolita novel tags with my rants#gonna add more stuff I am so not done#lolita#lolita novel#lolita is not a love story#dolores haze#humbert humbert#vladimir nabokov#classic literature#book rants#books and reading#bookblr
122 notes
·
View notes
Text
I want to work more on this before I'm gone pet-sitting but I don't know how much more I'll accomplish today so.,.,. I will just share this neow...
#this is the first time ive drawn all their true forms first for a line up#i always end up drawing foxgloves host and usually chings host too#im gonna of course do a version with all their hosts#tyv i know is technically in his host but i did draw his actual head#i just overlaid it with his tv#i tried to set up this line up so i could remove and add accessories#without having to erase or redraw stuff#thats also why hollys legs can be seen thru his skirt because i didnt color his skirt in yet lol#i also am trying to give any character with long enough hair to style an 'up' and 'down' version#this has been fun so far :3#brambleramble#when its done ill make a more HD link to the full pictures#i knowwwww i know tumblr compresses large images
77 notes
·
View notes
Text
see, even though i kept singing, i was still crying alone
in the music festival where i danced frantically
are the sounds reaching your ears? lomia, lomia!
i fell in an almost magical love with a sound,
which i had finally met after years of separation,
and i didn't even notice. 🌹
#mellohi draws stuff#tsukasa tenma#emu otori#emukasa#tsukaemu#project sekai#prsk#pjsk#wxs#wonderlands x showtime#tenma tsukasa#otori emu#skeleton orchestra and lilia#waow guys it's emukasa who'd have thought#i was gonna add rui and nene too but my hand was hurting and my drawing tablet was dying#i kind of thought nothing of it until i saw someone's wishlist yesterday before wondershow#of them wanting emukasa skeleton orchestra and lilia so i thought “alright bet”#so now this exists!#it's kind of boring in that i could've done something more with the composition this feels very. typical of me y'know.#kind of wish i had it in me to render emu's dress actually she looks so good and unfortunately i am not nearly strong enough to do more#i'm not drawing tsukasa with the fedora fuck you fuck you fuck you#sucks that they're covering the wxs colour stars but whatever
32 notes
·
View notes
Text
woahhh new archangel just dropped guys /j
#cassette beasts#this was annoying as hell to make but it was also pretty fun#never done a photoshop project like this#i was originally gonna add some more stuff but tbh it looks better like this#i spent so much goddamn time making the circular street and i dont even like it anymore 😭#but its ok im happy with the finished product#this guys probably hella annoying to fighr#puts up a bunch of walls and stuff#like a COWARD#his ultimate move is gentrificati- (i am pulled off the stage via hook)#urbaeternus#< thats this freaks name
28 notes
·
View notes
Text
hiei jagan surgery hallucination wip
#tw blood#tw art gore#tw body horror#lyrics are from tool's song third eye. which rules and also is about lsd and not surgery but. whatever#also no i am not making an animatic/animation for the whole 13 minutes of that song lol#think i might make the eye rip take two prying opens. really get the yanking in there instead of making the split so fast#he's. he's opening his third eye. literally. do. do you get it#whatever it feels cool to me#though without audio maybe a little less so#yyh#yu yu hakusho#hiei#anyway this is the stuff i've done in the past couple of hours. gonna add more frames to smooth things out and other shots#i really like how the blood smearing turned out like hellll yeah. realness#skrunkart#<- i forgor#animation#also im not good at lettering but i like how this went
23 notes
·
View notes
Note
Post. That. Sad. CHIAPTER.
I genuinely appreciate this so much but that poll is not encouraging so far LMAO
#asks#fic#a little creature#i mean i know it's ultimately up to me and not even a big deal at the end of the day#so thank you for indulging my ridiculous people pleaser anxiety LMFAO mostly it's just#60% of the reason i even post my stuff is to make people happy so im kind of like. yeeg.#knowing that ffxiv 7.0 is going to fucking nuke my schedule for any non-work writing... this might be a little much#and it's like. i put it as a poll bc i know it's a huge bummer to tell someone *not* to post something they've been working on#and i wanted to gauge the general sentiment without putting that kind of pressure on anyone#i think at this point i am going to post it as soon as its done bc ive been working on it too hard#and if i start resenting it then it's all over#but i am gonna take some extra time to add in that final scene ive been waffling over to soften the blow#i was planning to cut it bc it's not like 100% necessary it just adds more flavour to the existing stuff#but if i might have to leave the next update for another couple months it's probably better to end it on like a softer flashback
16 notes
·
View notes
Text
not even gonna tag this properly bc i don't wanna get Involved but i do have some Thoughts i need to get out into the void so here we go
(aaa quick edit: CW for mention/discussion of Boothill leaks)
#today's gone Badly and i'm upset but instead of venting abt it i'm gonna channel that energy into doing a bit of tag rambling abt Boothill#well. less abt Him and more abt uh. self-analyzing my anxiety surrounding contributing to fandoms. he's just today's catalyst#like. i know it's mostly a me thing. i'm hypersensitive to criticism and very conflict avoidant + socially anxious + perfectionistic etc.#so I'm the one that keeps myself from posting more stuff out of fear of being criticized or called-out for what i've made#bc inevitably Someone's gonna see it and think its OOC or a problematic take or they'll misread my intent. etc etc what have you#but like. that's inevitable. there's no way to communicate every single thing with all of the nuance required to avoid misunderstandings#and other times it's not a misunderstanding it's just a difference of opinions and that's Fine!! there's no accounting for personal taste#there's no accounting for several things actually. taste‚ bias‚ lore-knowledge‚ differing levels of chronic-online-ness‚ etc#so this isn't me complaining abt the state of fandom culture (although i do think. sometimes. ppl take shit a bit too seriously)#but anyways all of this is mostly just anxiety-fueled. it's not like i very often actually even receive negative feedback or anything#if anything ppl tend to tell me that i'm overthinking it and killing my own fun and worried that my stuff is more OOC than it is#which like. yeah. Yeah u right :) but that's just the way that i am! always losing the idgaf war i suppose#anyways what's Boothill got to do w this ur wondering. well. i've been thinking abt the quickly emerging concept that he's illiterate.#and it just. has me feeling a lot of ways. and watching ppl disagree over it has me feeling some Bad ways. bc it's def a loaded topic!#if you'll pardon the pun there. and i don't rlly have anything new to add other than that i'm conflicted abt it.#like yeah i saw the leaks days ago. of him mentioning 'not hitting the books' much as a child when we ask him why he sends voice messages#or voice Transcriptions ig. ykwim. and like. *braces for impact* ...i liked it? like. it doesn't feel right to call it endearing#i'm not trying to infantilize him. ok that's not the right word either but ugh. you know? what i mean?? who am i kidding even i don't know#it's not quite right to say that it feels like Representation either. but it's something close i guess#as a southern person myself who didn't receive a 'complete' education due to factors that weren't to do with my intelligence#the concept of seeing him as a capable force to be reckoned with and respected who also happens to have not received much formal education#i like that. i do. but there's so many issues w it at the same time. like. as i said‚ being southern myself has me Wary of the way Hoyo is-#writing him. as well as of the way that the fandom is taking the bits of his lore and running away w them. and i'm Very aware of how ppl-#will see a southern character and be All Too Eager to agree that they're lacking intelligence based on our Redneck™ stereotype#sigh. and before we even go too far with this. it's not even confirmed that hes completely illiterate. which is a valid criticism i've seen#there's Multiple reasons that could make him prefer voice to text. but regardless. i'm just worried that ppl will misconstrue my intentions#like. example: that edit i made the other day of him saying 'no thanks i can't read'. wasn't me playing into the stereotype of-#'haha dumb country boy can't read!' it was. in my eyes. something he'd say as a joke to make light of a potential insecurity#like. i think there's far more depth to Boothill's character if ppl could look past the surface. and i dont wanna contribute to the problem#but sometimes ppl Will have stereotypical traits and i wish the same could apply to characters as long as it's done Thoughtfully.
13 notes
·
View notes
Note
🔥 pink floyd fanfiction
i have a lot of thoughts about pf fanfics so uhh sorry if this gets long and rant-y im just very opinionated #peaceandlove
idk if it's unpopular but a good chunk of the ones in ao3 are umm... not exactly the level of writing im used to compared to some my other fandoms. to put it nicely. (mainly talking about the slash fics) there are okay ones, but the best fic i read in ao3 was essentially a gen fic.. so... Yeah. anyway i've read a lot of good ones in livejournal but trying to navigate that site was like using a metal detector to find treasure and it's either i get a gold coin or some random piece of metal
also in the ao3 sphere i think that we need more fics about the guys being in messy unlabeled situationships rather than anything about them being loving boyfriends to each other (exceptions may apply in moderation). i don't think these guys have the emotional intelligence to say "i love you" to each other in a way that feels like they're in a normal romantic relationship do you get what i'm saying?
anyway that's all what i've thought of for now thank u for sending me this ask 🫶
#okay im being a hypocrite because i drew my silly rarepair doing cutesy stuff#at least i have the self-awareness to know they wouldn't fucking do that#unless i come up with an elaborate scenario in my head that i am unable to articulate and makes sense to me#oh right i have roger ships in the brain when writing this so idk if my points in the 3rd paragraph can be applicable but lol whatever#it does add more flavor though <3#i think that fluff fits rognick a lot. but on other roger ships i prefer it to be messy y'know#i think sydger has good fluff potential when done right in a way that there's an air of melancholy around them#btw all im saying is mainly about fics not fanart. i like fluff in fanart a lot but in fics it's like.. hmmm.. im a bit selective#different mediums different vibes y'know#also this is mainly a pf fic thing bc i do love fluff fics in other fandoms im just picky with this one lmao#well i rambled on the tags long enough im gonna stop here byeeee#ask#quiet-desperationn
13 notes
·
View notes
Text
i think, since there's so much, i should make my queue more active throughout the day and tag the things i'll be re-queuing so i can just go through the list in my archive to restock it easier
also i might restock the same ones i had in the queue before that it posted already just to start it over again so i can tag everything in better order without confusing myself
but it won't restart anyway until may when the 516 posts in there are done posting
or sooner if i increase the queue output
#me#as you can see#i have 0 plans to stop spamming everybody with the same russ posts repeatedly#i'm saying a lot of things about my queue but i haven't even done anything about it yet#i said earlier i have to add more to it#and then i immediately forgot and got distracted#and now here i am just saying things again without doing#and it's almost bedtime for me#will i actually act on any of this tomorrow?#hopefully#but we will see#anyway i have more gifs to post but i'll save them for tomorrow too#mostly because i want them to stay in my drafts so i can look at them before i sleep tonight#without worrying about reblogging a bunch of stuff and then having to scroll through my blog to get to them again#russ's smile is so very precious#and that's all i'll say about it#for now#i had another plan to gif something#but i think that'll be a bigger job than i thought it was gonna be#i mean it doesn't HAVE to be but it might bother me if it isn't#if that makes sense at all#i'm not explaining it either#but anyway#i'll stop rambling now
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
standing here in my star-patterned bathrobe holding a stylus while inscribing something onto my computer. it's wizard time baby
#just me hi#my mom came into the room n saw me doing all that + starting laughing and saying 'you look like a wizard' so i have achieved the Pinnacle#of my existence hhvsbhhfsv#my n my starry bathrobe on our way to cast spells (writing in a language no one can understand (regular handwriting) and portraying strange#otherworldly begins (drawing wet cat OCs))#/i should draw this though because it Is kind of silly now that i think about it#i'm a wizard >:3 my potions are store-bought and taste like cherry dr perpper and my spells are free from my brain#my runes? uhhh have you ever heard of drawing warmups ??#i lay out simple curses and it's words that make no sense and characters i actually talk about in secret like a little troll forgetting#other people can hear it Hfbhsv#my tower is whatever i'm standing on at the moment. which is a kneeling pad rn Lol :3#//which btw kneeling pads are Awesome for nearly everything#Except for sitting because everything will still hurt and maybe More than it did before Lmaooo#but like after a bit of standing it Sucks standing up and the kneeling pad is really good at helping me redistribute the weight doing that#ik it's better to stand than to sit but dude it blows so much harder hfhsbvhf#i am taking damage on all sides and with nearly every method but oh!! i will find a proper system well enough !!!#//anyway i think i want to get a wizard hat now lol :3#maybe a blue one!! i like blue :>>#//yea though i'm almost done with this ref!! !!!!#love it when things go smoothly. wheeee :D#i gotta add a couple things and then colour + shade + effects cuz i'll Die without my effects hfvbsh#really i learned how to do that little glitch thing and now i just can't go back lol :>#trying out new ways + new layer settings all the time so ~!~#//but YEA gonna get to that and then other things and stuffs!! you know :3#so tooooodles ~+~ !!
3 notes
·
View notes
Text
i thought feeling perpetually overwhelmed was a uni thing but im beginning to think its just an adult thing
#i am So Overwhelmed#every time i tick something off my to do list i have to add like three more things#generally theres more fun stuff to be done now than when it was just deadlines#but also everything feels more important#like theres The Job Search#and the Figuring Out Where Im Going To Live Search#and two exhibitions to prep for where there will be recruiters and professional people#im gonna have to network so much over the next month which im am categorically not good at#and i need to organise driving lessons and driving is like my top big fear#i am just#so overwhelmed#i am not built for this i just wanna sit in the sun and cook nice food and pet dogs and draw things purely for myself#shoutout to anyone reading this#my life is actually pretty good and very thankful for that but also i wanted to vent because im stressed#ill probably delete this later
4 notes
·
View notes
Text
.
#sometimes i forget that . i am not immume to my.good things corrupting me#this is embarrassing sctuslly ..getting fuckign Anxious over a venus kazimi like.#dawg calm down oh my.god . ur gonna be fine. everything.sill be fine lol#for the greater good (my mental health)#but my god ppl om the internet know how to word things that do infact trigger me#n i can never tellcif i am being sensitive or not n i so infact .#it doesnt matter n yet . im crippling in fear over this shit ONCE again. for the rexord#i have bren doing my best toclike stay off the internet . it was doing my head in#but . anyeay whatever. its fjne im having a bad day apparently#n im staying home for wtv reason like . i wanna go out but im just .#i wanna try n save this money n get my cwllo fixed .#its the one thinf on my list im desperate tovget done#bc everything else will fsll into place after that . bc ill have something else i dnjoy to do w my time#n atm i want nothing more thsn tovjust practice . fuck the sheet music in tbe othet stuff i gotta organise#im . yea sorry .#WAITT my sister got a ptinter . i can print the sheet music i have ready to go.#besides im sure if i look hard enough i can find . my folder w my ensemblr worm#i have thought abt conquistador daily btw . she was so fun tocplay ah :(#n going out also means . Not e tirely sure if ill b awake before 1pm . bc this placr closes at like 2.#so . i do have to go to bed realtively early if i wanna do this . n i do. im biting thr bullet#im impuslivd but not when itll benefit me. go figure. anyway. i have just enough. ill be Fine .#worst case . my dad has these awful tailors i can chop up#and he can also buy my grocrties this week 👩🦯#worst case . i fkgure itnout somehow. i always do but . i gotta bite the bulley on this i cannot do this anymore#i need something else to occupy my time. n this is the one thinf i knoe for sure will be worth the investment#bc if not. i can literally just Sell it for like $300 (if its worth rven That lol)#like shes a good cello but damn shes dinged up and xhipped. im not paying for that to b fixed#it adds character.
0 notes
Text
Btw, my Arnold Palmer hairpin I'm making is so bad that I feel like I should pen a formal apology to the man himself.
Check it out 👇
Extremely simian-like... Idk how I did this nor how to fix it. Oh, well! He will just be extremely simian-like, I fuckin guess.
#rae rants#i mean. i said im not good at painting faces in the first place. i did say that. but at this scale it's not particularly easy either.#even my nail art brushes were too big for this.#to be clear: they're not finished. i need to add the metallic paint to the tops and the varnish. and two more arnold palmers.#and mayyyybe the word Arizona. for sure on the arnie but idk if I wanna do it on every single one is the thing?#... green tea is there just to make the branding clearer.#i am considering opening my ask box for suggestions on what other arizona cans to do. but also. i would not get them and i know that so.#also i used a bottle instead of a can for the green tea ref and uh. turns out the cam has a blue line at the bottom. but idw do that.#the hardest ones to paint are gonna be the ones w checkerboards. not cuz of the design themselves but cuz.#my paint can be inconsistent even when I DO keep track of how I'm mixing. so I'd have to paint the base color all at the same time.#which means I would have to do all of them on the same day. which means I'd have to dedicate a whole day to like. what? i think its 3 pins?#it's six. and that would probs fill up both of my palettes. if not more fuck me dude#ah. to be clear. after all the painting is done. I'll glue them to hairpins. that's all.#still trying to find the best glue for this stuff. wood glue is what I use for my actual pins. hot glue would probs work fine too#BUT. my hairpins are different. my pins have holes on the back the glue can connect thru. not so on my hairpins.
0 notes
Text
girl help, i am doing silksong to my 3d models
#ghost town... 2!#aka i just keep adding things which means the goalpost keeps getting pushed back gvhfjdvg#but to be fair it's less adding things in my case and more just. doing A LOT of polishing to make things less janky#(and also a little bit of adding/changing things i got wrong or forgot)#(for example the head looked weird to me and i couldn't figure out why)#(and then i realized you CAN see a side view in game and the problem was that i didn't notice the hood is a little pointy in the back)#(and also has a little foldy bit at the bottom too! so now it looks SO MUCH BETTER)#oh but also i am definitely gonna add some more features to beheaded since i know how to do more things now!!#i am LEARNING i am UNDERSTANDING#i may be able to start figuring things out on my own without using tutorials! feels good!!!#anyways all this is to say that i am still actively working on the model stuff; i'm just slow at it vghdfjgv#may or may not be done before 2024 at this rate but either way it shouldn't take TOO long
1 note
·
View note
Text
I haven't slept yet but i DID get another little bit of the modern/hotel au ouizzy (multi ship, but that's gonna be the main one) piece done, and I'm !!!!!!! over how well this draft is going (knock on wood so I don't jinx it lmao)
#text post#i have that and like six other drafts rn that I'm plugging away at#no idea if or when they'll be done and published or how long or short#just letting them go and taking breaks as i feel i need from them#jumping back in and writing however little or much more to add to them as i want#I really want one of them done and published but i don't want to rush any of them either#they're flowing better than some of my latest published stuff has so. I don't wanna jinx them#bc thus far im really satisfied with all of them and am hoping they'll turn out better than expected#unfortunately i did also write izzy making frenchie breakfast in this current bit and now im dying for breakfast food#but im gonna go to sleep instead. maybe Dream!Frenchie and Izzy will have breakfast waiting for me lol
0 notes
Text
joel and his family until the end 🎀🗡️
my boy joel winning wildlife is such a great way to (almost) end the year 💝
hello everynyan i dissapeared for a while, bc i was working on this thing lol … it took so long 😔😔 but im finally finished yipee !!! just in time for me to stop drawing and start studying cus my finals r a week away from now LOL (shaking in ma boots) oh but i still have to make a secret santa gift too oops
okay so, abt the drawing, the folours are very differnet from what im used to, i wanted to make it very dreamy like and stuff and happy cus my boy is happy and w his fam !! designwise, i’ve only designs for bamboozlers joel and gem, i had to improvise w etho and grian LOL in the end im just so fed up w this drawing i just wanna call it done so the lighting is kinda wacky 😭
i rlly need to paint etho more he is so fun to render (except his hair fuck his hair😭) scar is also very fun to paint 🙏🏻 i was gonna add hats or something but i forgot so scar and jimmy are both hatless 😔
i was drawing in the car and my mom sat next to me watching me draw and she said that all the characters i draw us nonbinary cos the boys look too pretty 😭😭😭 LMAO
i am gonna be more inactive next month bc i have my exams and i need to lock in frfr 😭 but hopefully i still have time to draw :33 okay that is all goodbye everyone have a nice day 😼😼
#han.art#mcyt fanart#mcyt#trafficblr#wildlife#wild life fanart#traffic smp#life series fanart#traffic life#smallishbeans#smallishbeansfanart#joel smallishbeans#jimmy solidarity#grian#lizzie ldshadowlady#ldshadowlady fanart#ldshadowlady#geminitay fanart#geminitay#goodtimewithscar fanart#goodtimeswithscar#grianfanart#grianmc#jimmy solidarity fanart#etho fanart#ethoslab#bamboozlers#i am dead
2K notes
·
View notes