#gona be a blue week!

[the-anti-pianist]

Alright everyone!

We have t-minus 3 days until the Percy Jackson show comes out! It’s time to paint this site Blue!

ALL BLUE. Bluer than blue. Hatsune Miku noodles blue. Bluey blue. In honor the dyslexic/ADHD army that was raised on the works of Rick Riordan on this site, lets seep our dashboards in blue!

FOR CAMP HALF-BLOOD!

[nanstar200]

Emrmmm hi hello i made some more doodles over the past few days and I wanted to show 😼😼

IK I always say sorry for being interactive but I’ve just been real real busy trying to be successful, and I’m making a video game!! Yay!!! The next few weeks are gona be busy buuut don’t think I didn’t forget about any of y’all 😼😼🫵 stay fresh & keep it real

(Blue sneo and blue spam angel belong to @/Sweetnoodles1 on Twitter!! ((If they have a tumblr lmk💔))

[taggedmemes]

SENTENCE MEME JACK'S MANNEQUIN / EVERYTHING IN TRANSIT

what's a girl to do with friends like this?

she let me drive her car so i can score an eighth.

my hair is growing long.

we can live like this.

if you left it up to me, every day would be a holiday from real.

we'd waste our weeks beneath the sun.

we'd fry our brains.

it's so much fun out here.

i'll come back for another year.

the rents are high and [city]'s easy.

it's a picture of perfection.

you sure look fine.

you wore my favorite sweater.

being poor was never better.

let's screw this one up right.

that's when i spend the most time thinking about what i've given up.

this is a warning.

i'm writing you a symphony of sound.

this mix could burn a hole in anyone.

it was you i was thinking of.

i read your letter.

you said you meant it.

there's a piece of me in every single second of every single day.

tell me how it got this way.

i can't get to you.

this is my mixed tape for her.

it's like i wrote every note with my own fingers.

i had to give you away.

sometimes perfection can be perfect hell.

i swear i didn't mean for it to feel like this.

every inch of me is bruised.

can you make this last?

i am finally waking up.

you haven't shown your face here since the bad news.

i'm unraveling with every word you say.

just think of all the thoughts wasted on you.

all i taste is blood between my teeth.

i'm ready, so don't stop.

i am aware i've been misled.

i disconnect my heart, my head.

when did society decide that we had to change and wash a t-shirt after every individual use?

i need caffeine in my blood stream.

my life has become a boring pop song.

i'm done.

the ending got twisted around.

i've got friends who will help me pull through.

i'm dulling the day with a drink.

i'm far too unstable to settle.

i don't know what you could possibly expect under this condition.

this night's a perfect shade of dark blue.

have you ever been alone in a crowded room?

the world could be burning down.

this flood is slowly rising up and swallowing the ground beneath my feet.

tell me how anybody thinks under this condition.

as the water rises up, the sun is sinking down.

now all i can see are the planets in a row.

we were boxing the stars.

finally i'm letting go of all my downer thoughts.

in no time there'll be one less sad robot looking for a chance to be something more than just metal.

she's so good.

she's no good for me.

why treat him like he's dead?

i've found someone to dull this lonely scene.

it's biblical how fucked my sleep can be.

i would never lie to you.

whatcha sad for?

this hurts like hell.

i had that dream again where i was lost for good in outer space.

tell me how to shake a waking nightmare that is only worse when i am sleeping.

i am losing feeling.

i'd prefer not to be rescued.

i'm following myself just this once.

i'm finally numb.

say you'll miss me.

i'm sweating out excuses that would make your stomach turn.

we filled our cups and lit one up.

maybe we were made for each other.

is it possible for the world to look this way forever?

i didn't realize i'd gona crazy.

i didn't catch my bloody nose or that my heart tried to explode.

some people never change at all.

we're still the same impulsive drunks we were when we were small.

someone get this man to a hospital.

you can breathe.

the rain's the rain.

i deconstruct my thoughts.

this fishbowl life is all they need.

i'm slipping into the airwaves.

the static's where you'll find me.

the gold-soaked afternoon comes slow.

something's not so right inside.

don't panic, there simply is no need.

[spikrock]

ooooon the first day of christmas

idk im gona (try) to post a silly drawing of a mtp character every day with a present until christmas just for funsies. but also im in the middle of exam week and still doing ww so i may fall behind/forget

anyhoo adonis gets this squishmallow i think its name is waverly idk i just saw it in a walmart and was like "no way blue butterfly this might just be an adonis reference"

[erigold13261]

I’ve had this crack Eriverse AU idea with a Yinu ↔️Satoru, Peni ↔️ Suguru, and Shoko ↔️ Noir? swap AU… and I would like to hear what you think of it!/gen

Gona be honest with you, when I first saw that comment/ask thing earlier in the week, I thought it was for a Yinu and Peni swap, as tumblr cut off the full ask before it got to the JJK part, and so I immediately started thinking of things like Yinu killing her dad with plants and Peni being a prodigy techno kid or something.

But um, yea! I like that swap! I didn't look back at those original asks (i think it was multiple) that were sent before answering this!

Though, I honestly don't like to change ages all that much in swap AUs, unless it is something that can't be avoided, so it would be hard to have a swap AU that you are suggesting.

However, I am not totally against it!

Therte would have to be a MAJOR overhall to the universe though to make this happen. Since Yinu and Peni would probably be a bit older and possibly Noir being younger, while SaShiSu being younger overall in this AU.

Mainly I say an overhaul becauise Catherine was friends with Miguel and the whole Nueva York thing is pretty important to SaShiSu's story (and Peni's story).

Hmmm... I don't think I have the brain power to think of this all that much at the moment. But it definitely is a thinker! I think more would have to be swapped around in this case than just these three pairs for this kind of AU to work (I mean i could just make it work but I like thinking about this stuff way more intensly)

OH! YOu know what would be cool? Having Mama be in Miquel's place having Yinu be like a prodigy at controlling her powers, liek a shining example of what Nueva York (or whatever it would be called) could be for others!

Yinu ends up having a lot more freedom because she is Catherin's daughter and has pretty good control over her powers (other than killign her dad by accident) and she makes friends somehow with Peni and Noir!

The three do some shady business shit somehow, idk what, maybe selling flowers that Yinu makes and it turns out to be poisonous without Yinu realizing and she ends up killing people, or at least harming enough people, that the outside world can't ignore and so Catherine has to fully confine Yinu and her friends.

All the while Satoru is being paraded around as a prodigy violinist or something like that who plays for the Gojo family and NSR. Blue has friends with Shoko and Suguru who help with creating beats and stuff, but are very much more behind the scenes.

Instead of Neon J being the one to care the most about Yinu, it would be DJSS caring about Satoru and friends. So possibly a change in NSR is needed as well. But that is a later information piece to deal with that I can't process now!

But yea, I think this could be a very interesting AU idea! There was probably better ideas in the initial asks you sent, but this is what I got right now. Very cool idea, and can absolutely work with a bunch of tweaking (like I don't even know what happens to Miguel in this universe, possibly he goes to work for NSR instead? idk).

[smileymoth]

i was tagged by @etysky to shuffle my playlist and share the 1st 10 songs that came up :3

UMM i've only been listening to my los campesinos playlist for the past 2 months so i'm gona just use the liked music playlist on shuffle because otherwise it would be a top 10 los campesinos songs list T_T

Placebo - B3

Senses Fail - Bite to Break Skin

gameboy tetris - Incognito

boys night out - Dreaming

Hawkthorne Heights - Ohio is for lovers

Bleed the Dream - Legends Die

Drop Dead, Gorgeous - Daniel, where's the boat?

A Skylit Drive - Wires And The Concept Of Breathing

Let 3 - Tazi Tazi

Pet Shop Boys - Jack the Lad

i tag @pikslasrce @cactusringed and @varteeny1234 :3

BC THIS IS WHAT MY 4 WEEKS TOP TRACKS LIST LOOKS LIKE RN!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND ALL TOP 50 ARE LOS CAMPESINOS. WITH RTHE EXECPTION OF

24. Everything is fine and my guitar is perfectly stringed by Blue Foster 32. (nendest) narkootikumidest ei tea me (küll) midagi by 5miinust AND 50. BEING dancing star by PET SOHP BOYS

I AM SO NORMAL ABOUT LOS CAMPESINOS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!. i'm telling you i had to replace the hyperfix with another band T_T ...... and they have a longer discography than the ones who shall not be named

honestly blue foster is really nice it kinda reminds me of crywank but its a bit more cheery.......

[feytouched]

can't believe i have to shell out more money for consultations and treatment of a THIRD urgent and ongoing medical problem this month

[blanknamed]

I’m gae

yes i'm well aware of that blue thank you for sharing

[marune2]

The adventure of Ida Faust chapter 12

Ida wait in the moment as the shadow Palast show up

Ida:let’s go hahahahahahahaha!!!“ then in this moment coming horns wings out of Ida and they eyes going red

By Yami and jack they are shocked what they see in this moment see Yami Ida fly in the room and then the screaming elf’s wo are pisst

Yami:what going on here?!(sompfin is really wrong Ida’s Qi is not Normal it’s whas dark..)

By Ida

Ida: this dimension is interesting no wonder it’s Korrupte my devil part and ged busted here and I can use more magic here

Then fell Ida this Qi from other wo ged closer to her she ged Fast in her shadows

As the elf’s com in and at time more and more people it’s not the right fing but ida let’s them fight and she looks just how it goin then see she the reason why she is even here the devil

At the point summon zagret what of his devil laughed the mana eating fings

Ida:oh it’s a *********** hope nobody die here ha joke na at leas asta and Yami i need them „ged in the full devil Form

And then wo Licht use his „gentidama“ see Ida here shanks

Zagret:your can’t kill my

Then out of nowhere coming ida out

Ida:oh wo say „we“ can’t my dear

Zagret/Licht/patri/yuno/asta/liumere/Zäkre:?!?!

Patri: 2 devil’s?!

Asta: ida?!?? You are ida!!!!

Ida:yes the one and only Asta let’s help you i don’t wana fight against you“smile

Zagred: something like you did I never see little nephelim but you don’t live long too

Ida:oh~I we will see lower devil

Zagred laughing:try

Ida :asta yuno you can have you fun too

Asta Go in attack ass zagred use his wapson to defend then use zagret his Magic but lumere safe asta and then use asta and yuno a combo Attacke

As zagred ged cray then jumps Ida on zagred‘s body and ged fast the neck bondage out of her shadow and put it on zagret

Zagret:what did you do?! Die filthy creatures gdgbvt gfjjfxj

Ida: here and now you are my Devil Servamp ‚,;teufels Bindung ab heute bist du mein teufel du wirst gehöchen bis zum Tode werde my Servamp meiner Begirde;,,,

In this moment glows the neck bondage and the bangle and then coming a tattoo on zagret neck and on Ida’s arm and the vanished zagred and the mana eating fing vanished too

Ida:holy shit it’s better as I tush

Asta: you did it Ida!!!

Ida:….sure I’m sorry asta four this what I going too do but let’s say I did care abaut you and Yami I did really do

Asta?:what are you talking abaut Ida???

Ida:;Wort magic; ged closer in this moment ged asta to ida in this moment ged Ida her dagger out and stabbed him

Asta?!?!

All people:?!?!

Ida: I’m sorry asta really plz survive this plz help all here they will need you

Asta:waht dooyouu mean?

Yuno:ASTA“im this moment attack yuno ida

Ida:….take care of asta yuno“in this moment take ida here dagger out of asta what have blue symbol’s now and the she vanished in her shadow’s

Yuno:…….“he go’s fast to asta whit Zegre

Zegre seal asta’s wound whit her magic fast

Zegre: she did lucky not hit something deangerus…….

Patri: wo is she go she is not here what is the deal ?!?!

By Ida

Ida go’s out of the shadow Palast and run of in the Fausr manner

Ida:……I didn’t want this so going but it’s too late now it’s whas many jears to late so you are my devil now

In Ida’s heat

Zagret:dam you !!!!! I gona kill you!!!

Ida:you can’t if I die you die too „smile:at leas if all in peace now I don’t die lonely

Zagret:you dam Nephelim!!!!

———-///:——/—

(((Nephelim are children in between

Angels/human and devil/Human

And angel/devil

What Ida is we know but how week she have the same parents as Nacht do ore is there more you will see my lovely Reader 😏

[nerdferatum]

About me

Thank you for the tag @winterkeys and @crackerdumortain ! Better late than never I guess. I’m a week late, so I won’t tag anyone, but if you want to do it too, go on and tag me so I can see it!

name/nickname: Sara/Saru/Sarusita/Sarita… my name is really versatile

pronouns: she/her ; star sign: virgo ; height: 5'3

time: 19:11 when I started this

birthday: September 21

favorite bands: i don’t really have A Favorite, but I’ve been obsessed with Måneskin lately

favorite solo artists: same as last question, but I guess Hozier and Pomme

song stuck in my head: Someone at work has been singing Barbie girl the whole day non-stop so… yeah

last show: Gilmore Girls

last movie: Pirates of the Caribbean

when did I create this blog: I’m not sure of the exact month, but between june and july 2020

what do I post: this blog is a mess, in theory I post about wayhaven, litg, buried love, mind blind, body count… with a sprinkle of stupid things that make me laugh. I’m starting to post more arte lately and I hope to also have here some fanfics soon.

last thing I googled: meters to feet converter, but before that blue bee so I can show a friend.

other blogs: nope, everything that goes through my brain ends up here.

why I chose my URL: it’s the same I use for most of my social media, it’s a dumb pun from the shadowhunters netflix show

do I get asks: yeah, sometimes! I reblog a lot of ask baits lmao but I also get some nice asks from time to time. I’ve been terrible at answering them though and i’m sorry for that

following: 286, but many blogs are inactive now

followers: 184

average hours of sleep: between 3 and 5

lucky number: a girl i knew who was into numerology told me it was 9

instruments: i learned to play guitar, but had to stop because of some issues with my wrists

what am I wearing: sweatpants and a bright yellow t-shirt with pugs with sunglasses on it, really fancy

dream trip: we are dreaming small this year, so I want to go through europe via interrail as soon as possible so i’m still considered youth

favorite food: spanish omelette and homemade gnochi

languages: spanish, english, french and I studied italian and german, but I’m not sure how much I can remember

favorite song: morirò da re

last book read: Souvenirs dormants by Patrick Modiano forclass, but i’m currently reading The starless sea by Erin Morgenstern

top three fictional universes i’d like to live in: these change every time so I’m gona say wayhaven, but the fandom one, the discworld, and The tea dragon society because I too want a dragon pet

[unoficialy-married-to-ace-austin]

Fustration

Darby Allin x Reader smut

This is. It a request, but You Gus said you would read it if I wrote it! This takes place following his match against Cody Rhodes in the TNT champion semifinals

Warnings- Smut, public, shaming?? Angry sex

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I winced as I saw Cody get the 3 count on Darby. He had lost to Cody multiple times now, and I knew he wouldn't be happy about it. I wanted to Comfort him, but in couldn. I was in a on screen love story with Kenny Omega, so I had to go out with him during his match.

I wandered around backstage waiting for Kenny's match, when I felt someone grab me by my arm, and pull me into a closet. When I looked up I was met by Darby's blue eyes. "Shit babe! You gave me a heart attac!" I said brething deeply, my hand resting on my chest.

He didn't say anything, but pulled me into a deep kiss. His hands ran threw my hair, tilting my head a bit so he could get his toung in my mouth. My hands rested on his shoulders, as he began to attak my neck with bits and kisses. "I just wanna take all my anger out on you." He whispered. I pulled his face up to look at me.

"Then do it."

He didn't have to be told twice as he pulled me into another kiss. He taped the back of my legs, telling me to wrap them around his body. He pushed me against the wall and him trapping me. He was still in his ring gear, so he had no shirt. I felt one of his hands slid down to rub me threw my underwear and skirt.

"You know, I'm the only one who should ever get to see you in this skirt." He growled, pushing his fingers past my underwear. I moned at the feeling of his rough fingers on my most sensitive part. I wimpered as he pulled his hand away, but stoped once I felt him pull my underwear down.

I felt his tip rub against my slit. "I hate the way Omega gets to hold you when you go out with him every week. Maybe I should leave you like this, a whimpering mess, for him. Would you rather that." I shook my head at this, praying he wouldn't. "use your word baby, would you rather have Kenny Omegas dick in you?"

I realized what he wante, he wanted me to beg. "Oh No please Darby! I need you! No one can touch me like you can! Use me like you can!" I was cut off as he slammed me down on him, as I let out a scream.

"Shit babe! Scream, let everyone in this building, every wrestler, backstage hand, and fan know who you belong to!" I felt the knot In my lowere stomach tighten.

"Fuck Darby! I'm gona cum!" I said, my nails racking down his chest.

"Fuck me to, come with me!" He grunted. I felt myself slip over the edge, as I let out a scream. I felt his cum shot into me. We stood there for a momen, trying to catch our breath.

"Fuck babe, feel better." I asked as he put me down.

"Sorry, I was so frustrated with the loss." He said pulling his pants back up as I pulled my underwear back up.

"Its fine, I know how much that match meant to you. Besides, I told you it was fine. I know you would have stoped if I needed you to." I said running my hands threw my hair to fix it. "But now, I need to find Kenny for our match."

we walked together looking for Kenny. We found him talking with Cody. Darby had his arm wrapped around my waist, and I could feel him tense. Kenny looked up at me with a smile.

"Y/n, good to see you, our match is-" but he stoped eyes going wide. "You may want to go to make up, and get that covered." he said pointing to my neck. I blushed when I released Darby had probably left marks. I pulled Darby in the Direction of makeup.

"I think they look beautifu." Darby said as we walked.

"Fuck off." I wispered.

[thebargainingchip]

Blood Colors - Chapter 15

-Masterlist

Pairing: Roan x Reader

Warnings: None

Previous Chapter

Chapter 1

                                 ***Super Long Chapter Warning***

“What happened?” Roan was there when you burst into the front doors, of course, Roan would have had reports from Guards as soon as you were in the line of sight of the Palace.

“Lay him down, we don’t have time to wait for the healers,” you ordered to whom the guards quickly obeyed as Cedree quickly explained. He was already dead, blue and pale.

“(Y/n)?” The King asked, you only shook your head. Nymph didn’t respond, still in a state of shock.

“Are you alright?” Roan asked her, she only nodded.

“Let's go, my Lady,” You said softly, recognizing that look in her eye a little.

“You two, come see me after you’ve cleaned up,” Roan said.

The walk to her rooms was silent and slow but soon you reached it, Cedree had come along. He opened the door for the two of you. “We will give you some time.” You said curtly but before you and Cedree could leave, she stopped you.

“(Y/n), stay a moment,” You nodded to Cedree who was clearly offering to stay. “I don’t know who you think you are but I must warn you that the King will be choosing me in five days and when he does, there will be less place for you here,” She said it so casually when you were finally alone as if she was only noting the weather. You were a little stunned. You opened your mouth to say something and decided against it. “I didn’t dismiss you,”  Was her last thing she said to you but you weren’t going to stop on account of her. You had so many bigger fish to fry

You walked to your rooms quickly and washed your face, also changing your clothes, everything was spattered in blood. When you had finally finished you walked to Roan’s quarters, you were bristling by now but tried your best to suppress it down when the guards opened the doors.

"Are you okay?” Roan asked when you entered stepping closer. You paused wanting to tell him everything at the forefront of your mind. You nodded, Roan gave you a disapproving look but before he could say anything, Cedree cleared his throat. “I shouldn’t have taken them, I knew it was dangerous.” You start

“You warned them,” Cedree piped in.

“I will make this right with Lady Nymph, and we need to somehow remedy the cause,” Roan said. “And then there’s the matter of Izobel.”

“Do you still insist on these... lighthearted matters when there is so much unrest around us?” You questioned.

“I have to,” You tried your best to hide your severe disappointment.

“What are we going to do about Aleksondria, everything she does has no signs of her involvement?”

“We need to wait until the slip-up,” Roan answered and you gave an exasperated sigh. “Thank you for your service today, Cedree. I would ask that you further lookout for (Y/n).” For the first time in your life, you didn’t object, even when Roan asked so openly, to your embarrassment. But you knew what was lying ahead, Nire would be here tomorrow. Cedree left then.

“We need to talk about the scars on your back,” Roan said. You hated that it had come to this, you wanted it to be so much different, you wanted to know yourself. “It means you are to be an Azgedan Queen.” You were completely stunned.

“I don’t understand, how would-“ you paused, too many questions at once “why would-“

“Nire has predicted this in your future which unless you believe in some unknown higher power, it means he intends to use you to get the things that he wants,” Roan explained. “(Y/n) if anyone knew then it would mean this all becomes true,” Roan emphasised.

“But Izobel already knew and we don’t know who-“ you hate how anxious your voice sound.

“That's in the past now, but no one else can know. We need to hope she told no one.”

“What would it mean?”

“It would destabilise my reign,” Roan was plain and simple in his explanation. “Get some rest, tomorrow will be a big day,” Roan bid you.

                                            ✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

You wake up and its pitch black, the moon shines through the window to give the only very limited elimination to the room. There’s a movement, a small shuffle and you immediately tense but as you din yourself wanting to draw the knife from under your pillow you find yourself unable to move.

The panic sets in then. Laboured breathing and you can’t even scream for a guard even though you try.

The bed dips but all you can do is lie there, a hand guides you to roll onto your back. A scrapping feeling slides itself into your gut as you beheld the intruder’s face.

Nire places his hand on the inside of your thigh as it slides up ever so slowly. You can’t move, you can’t cry out but inside you are trying to fight so hard, paralysed you stare up at him in horror as his hand reaches-

You scream yourself awake. Eyes full of tears, you quickly sit up to scope the room. You move back against the headrest as if Nire would be hiding somewhere, and wrap your arms around your knees. There’s a knock at the door which startles you/

“Yu laik ait, Jus Gona (Are you alright)?” You relax when it’s just the guard.

“Sha. (Yes)” You say but you must have said it too softly.

“Jus Gona?” He asks again.

“Sha.” You say, this time raising your voice. When there’s no other question you determine that he heard this time.

You can’t go back to sleep now, the fear of lying down completely overtakes your thoughts and actions, so you sit upright, even though it’s pitch dark and dawn is far off.

The first hour of staying awake came easily enough but as time went by, it weighs on you like carrying a bucket of water around. Eyes burning from soreness, you try to shake yourself awake. In the moment between the waking world and sleep, your thoughts mingle into a non-sensical, non-linear thought and just as you fade into the darkness, a hand grabs your neck.

You sit up again and to shake the feeling off, it felt so real, even though it’s just imaginative, you wrap your hand around the same spot. Your fingers are warm and familiar, not like Nire’s which is harsh and thick, you shudder violently. Harassed by your thoughts and dreams you feel awake enough to stay awake.

When you finally do fall asleep, birds have been chirping outside, the light easing through the window, in the light you feel safe to dose off. It doesn’t take long before you are rudely awakened by the closing of the door and still on edge you sit bolt upright. Sighing you get up, on the table laid out is your armour again, Nire must be here, you swallow the bile rising in your throat.

When you step outside your rooms, you spot Roan walking towards your quarters, clearly coming to fetch you, Cedree beside him, also dressed up for the glum occasion. “You look like you were the sheep being counted all night.” Cedree commented, his accent always present as he rolls his ‘r’s deep.

“Thanks, I feel beautiful too.” Your words drip with sarcasm.

“Right, let’s get this done with.” Roan declares and you're glad to oblige, the sooner this passes the sooner you can relax your erratic heart rate.

The throne room is packed with people as you stand on the dais beside Cedree, a new unknown.

“Would you standstill.” He whispers as Roan talks to a few of his men for a moment. It's only at the comment that you notice you are indeed frantically fidgeting, so you fold your hands to keep them occupied.

The King sits on his throne, and you can feel Cedree shuffle closer, his shoulder coming to brush up against your own.

“Today we welcome back, the greatest surprise of the past few weeks,” Though Roan’s words were positive his features and his tone had never been so grave. “Please Welcome, Lord Nire.” The doors swing open in a disgustingly dramatic entrance. Everyone’s clapping dissolves, upon seeing his face your body screams run to you and you have half the mind to do so, but Cedree bumps his shoulder against yours and it grounds you once more. Nire’s stark eyes catch yours and the smirk on his face remains, maybe even widening. You feel your face flush and your stomach turn. His head is shaved and you can see up until where the trauma you inflicted stretches with evidence of some form of stitching that was present, the wound is still pink but it has closed. You remember the sound and the feel. You quickly rush out of the room.

You make outside, the closest place and there you wretch up the contents from whenever last you had eaten, you couldn’t even remember.

"Pregnant?" Cedree asks firstly, you give him a weird look.

"No." You deny harshly.

"Just asking." He raises his hands in surrender. Cedree is contempt to simply stand beside you as you take a few deep breaths when you feel exceedingly ill.

“Faya Gona,” The voice rolls of you like you’ve been flung with the most horrible feeling you could ever experience, your neck hairs stand on end as you and Cedree both turn to face the owner of the voice. “That is what they call you now, isn’t it?” His grin widens as he comes to stand only meters away. “You look pale,” He comments, his face forming into a worried frown and you can’t help but pull a disgusted face.

“Right, that’s enough, maybe you should take yourself elsewhere,” Cedree says stepping in.

“Or what?” Nire challenges, there’s a long pause. “Fine, but I will say this. I hear the king is looking for a queen, I look forward to seeing you celebrating the same fate soon.”  He leaves then, Cedree’s head snaps yo you.

“What does he mean?”

“Nothing good.” You answer.

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She was quiet, too quiet and if you stare too long at her, she got anxious and started fidgeting with anything she could get her hands on. Roan had chosen the gardens to have a small luncheon with his newest date, of course, fall had started and the garden already had less colour. Roan asked her a question, you weren’t particularly listening to the question as you observed her. She was pretty, but to think that this could be Azgeda’s queen, hell you could do a better job. Reluctant to answer her eyes fretted up to you, Roan shot you a look and you turned away with a sigh. Spoilsport, you liked making the girl squirm, you knew Roan wouldn’t pick her anyway. The two were feasting on some of the most delicious fruits you had seen in your life, and you had missed your lunch, needless to say, you were very hungry. The girl barely ate, and when she did she chewed as if she was afraid for someone to notice. It seemed as if she was only able to answer questions, she’d barely ever started a conversation, so when Roan let the conversation die it was filled with long silences as he tried to give her chance to lead but she never came up. Eventually, she asked to be dismissed.

“That was the hardest half hour of my life,” You plucked up a plum from the table.

“I would appreciate it if you wouldn’t watch the girl like you plan to kill her in her sleep,”

“You’re not going to choose her anyway,” You shrugged as you bit into the plum, juice running down your chin, you were momentarily stunned into silence at the taste.

“Maybe I should, I’d certainly have a lot more quiet time, You glared at him.

“Is that some sort of comment about me?” You questioned.

“I mean I didn’t compare you to her,” He pointed out, you’re cheeks burned slightly.

“She will be devoured by her people, you’ll be a widower within a year,” Roan didn’t answer but you could see he saw the truth in that.

“May I be dismissed?” You questioned feigning the girl’s meek manner earlier.

“No,” Roan stands from the table, “My sister Elodi is arriving soon, her governess is sick and will need to rest when she arrives. I have sent for other governess but they might only arrive within a fortnight. With Nire and Aleksondria here, I don’t want to trust her with anyone else.”

“Chaperone, Baby sitter, clearly I am expanding my job description,” Roan roles his eyes. “It’s fine, I’ll do it but kids really don’t like me.”

“I’ll introduce you too, again, I’m sure she has forgotten you.”

Roan walks with you to the stables, you don’t wait long before a horse trots up to the courtyard, the woman on it looks pale but the girl in her lap seems quite the opposite. She squeals when she sees her brother. And all that Roan can do is catch her as she almost flings herself off the horse into Roan’s arms, Roan laughs though the governess scolds the child for her reckless behaviour. You stand back observing the precious moment, Elodi has grown since you last saw her. She’s gotten taller and her wavy brown hair reaches her waist. “I’ve missed you,” Roan says when he puts her down on the ground bending to her height to talk to her. “Galia, you may go to your rooms and rest,” Roan said to the woman who had dismounted.

“Mochof, Haihefa Roan (Thank you, King Roan).” She says before she disappears. Roan picks up his little sister and walks closer to you.

“Elodi, dison laik (y/n), ai lukot (Elodi, this is (y/n), my friend),” Roan introduces

“Meika's slak (Nice to meet you).”

“Heya (Hello).” She says very quietly, there’s a smile on her face but you can see she’s shy.

“Em na gifa in kom yu kom taim Gaya ge fis op (She will take care of you until Gaya is better),” Elodi glances at you then back at Roan, clearly upset.

“Chomouda ai nou na set ruan gon yu (Why can’t I stay with you)?” She questions.

“Elodi, Ai  laik Haihefa, ai laik honsen (Elodi, I am King, I am busy),” She looked dejected as Roan paused. “Ai na choj op gon yu nat (Elodi, I am King, I am busy. I will eat with you tonight),” He added, she only nodded a little solemn.

Roan places her on the ground and you outstretch your hand to her, she hesitates but decides to take it.

“Weron emo osir gon (Where are we going)?” She asks when you lead her away.

“We need to find my friend and scare him,” You smile down at her, she smiles a little.

“Skai drag em (Goddamit)!” Cedree exclaims as Elodi lets out a laugh. “Of course your up to no good. And influencing the poor young one's mind. Who is this by the way?” Cedree questions, going down onto his haunches.

“Elodi,” She says softly.

“King Roan’s sister,” You add, as he shakes her hand softly.

“Babysitting are we?” Cedree questions when he straightens.

“Better than whatever the hell you’re doing.”

“Looking handsome? I would say it is a fine job that I seem to excel at,” He jokes, you roll your eyes.

“Right. Save me a seat at dinner,” You ask, he nods as you leave with Elodi.

You take Elodi to her room where all her belongings are kept, ready for her return. She decides to play with one of her toys so you simply sit and watch her. You know the type, the shy reserved child, eager to entertain themselves. Worryingly you notice a few times that Elodi has a cough.

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Cedree has saved you a seat as promised, you collapse onto the bench next to him after taking Elodi to dinner with Roan who had kindly invited you to join them but you declined, seeing as Elodi would be grateful for the time spent alone with her brother.

“Babysitting duties done for the day?”

“Children require twenty four hour care, they don’t become adults when the full moon’s rise like some twisted werewolf curse.” You state.

You had barely finished eating your food when I guard stood at attention by your table. “Haihefa don konge Jus Gona (The King has summoned the Blood Warrior),” He states then leaves.

“Babysitting continuous,” Cedree stated as you stood.

When you reached Roan’s rooms he was pacing, you first noted Elodi asleep on the bed, considerably paler then she was when you left her.

“I’m sorry to ask this of you but will you tend to her? I know this is a lot ask but I have business to attend to.”

“I won’t pretend I’m a doctor or healer like Abby but I can at least try.” You answer.

“Thank you, I owe you.”

“And I’ll be sure to collect.” You said, you picked up Elodi from the bed, she only stirred but didn’t wake. You could feel her fever ignited skin against you. “I’ll see you tomorrow after breakfast.”

“(Y/n) you don’t have to-“

“Cedree can watch Elodi for the hour if that long. And you need my opinion, how else will you navigate this sea of women.” You didn’t leave room for argument as you left.

Never in your life had you ever tended to a sick child but here you were. It was harder than expected, though equally tired, you tried to get her fever to break with a moist cloth, she was coughing but there was nothing you could do but give her tea mixed with honey and lemon to help soothe her throat. Elodi although awake, was in a sour mood undoubtedly she felt worse than she looked. Finally, by early morning she showed sign of tiring so you swayed her in her arms, her head pressed into your shoulder. Her fever seemed like it was breaking finally. You were almost whisking yourself to sleep with swaying.

There was a quiet knock at the door that caught your attention and luckily not Elodi’s as she dosed peacefully. You lay her down in your bed. “I came to see how she was doing?” Roan asked, whispering softly. “Better, I think the worst has passed but she might not be feeling well for a while.”

“That’s good, thank you again, (y/n). Well, I’ll leave you to get some rest.” Roan left again, you nodded.

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You kept your distance well when Roan had taken his next date through a stroll in the woods. Tayla was her name, unlike her previous two competitors, she was not of noble birth but raised her status by becoming a warrior. And she was beautiful too, maybe a little serious but no less expected from someone who has spent her life, fighting others. She seemed respectful and proper and truly you could see the next Queen in her. Which is why you felt guilty when your stomach twisted into a hot flare of anger when she touched him. Tayla had one quirk that ceased to annoy you but Roan didn’t seem to notice, she was too touchy. But she was a good leader and well-liked which is why it made all the harder not think the thought you were currently going through right now. But you kept your emotions in checked and simply observed.

Tayla and Roan clicked well, she was well versed in how to have a decent conversation and she was pleasant to be around.

Soon enough it came to an end, and when you reached the Palace again Elodi and Cedree came to meet you in the courtyard. You took Elodi back to your rooms after hearing Cedree had brought her down for breakfast. At least she was eating.

When the doors to your room swung open, however, you stared at the chaos, papers were strewn across the floor in front of your desk where it seemed as if every drawer had been turned out onto the table. The person didn’t even seem to hide it. They wanted you to know they had taken something, after putting Elodi down to allow her to rest you rummaged through the mess to try and see if what you suspected was taken and after a brief panic you hands brushed over something cold. Your bother’s necklace was still here thankfully, you clutched it tightly for a moment to allow your anxiety to dissipate. When it did, you were left clueless as to what had been taken, so you shuffled through the papers in an attempt to reorganise while still trying to account for the lost item. At last, you gave up and went to have a little nap to soothe your own tiredness.

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It’s quite late when you are in the bath, simply trying to relax, you had woken Elodi up to eat and bathe herself before she had asked to go to bed again no doubt she would be up early tomorrow. The doors to your room swing open to reveal Roan and Cedree, both men pause when noticing you, luckily the bathtub is milky with soap, still, you curl up a little. “Cedree take Elodi to her rooms, I have sent for someone to look after her for tonight,” Roan said, Cedree immediately springing to action.

“Why?” You question after Cedree has left and the doors behind him close, Roan stands, pacing. “What happened?” Something tells you that something isn’t right. Roan digs something out of his pocket as he steps a little closer to the tub, avoiding your gaze.

“Nire produced this in the council meeting today,” Roan said as he holds the page out for you to see. You reach out but you don’t grab it as your hands are wet, though you instantly recognise it. It was the page you drew the scars on your back on

“That’s what they took,” You mumble more to yourself.

“What?” Roan questions, alarmed.

“Roan will you please just turn around so I can get out?” He does so even though you can see his impatient to hear what you have to say.

Hesitantly you rise, as if testing whether he would turn back around, but he doesn’t, you step out and wrap your self in a patchwork towel.

“Someone had gotten into my room when we were out with Tayla today when I came back my desk was in chaos but I couldn’t figure out what was taken.” You say, Roan turning around at the sound of your voice, seemingly relieved that he can look you in the eyes again. “What did the council say?”

“I was dismissed, they must first think of what is to be gained from my options. No doubt Nire and Aleksondria are poisoning the minds of the council.”

“I thought you could choose who you want to wed? And how did Nire get into the meeting?” You question.

“Yes I could choose from the options given to me but if they insist your carved fate to be true, then there will be no choice,” Roan explained, “As for Nire, he had produced another paper to say he would be representing one of the council members who is said to be ill.”

“Slythering slimy snake, I should have sliced his throat open when I had the chance,” You fume, then a thought struck you. “What does it mean if they don’t accept it?”

“It means you will be seen as an imposter and a threat to the throne,” Roan folded his arms.

“Meaning I will be executed,” You supply when Roan seemed unwilling to.

“Which would lead to all-out war not only against Skaikru but every clan in the coalition,” Roan reminded.

“You would lose your crown.”

“And my head with it,” Roan pointed out.

“So what our only options is to hope that we are allowed to get hitched or we both die?” You ask, Roan only nods. “If they choose that we marry, which is highly unlikely, what do they stand to gain by it?”

“Manipulation, the favour of the people,” Roan supplied.

“How would it inspire favour, when most believe me a murderer?” You ask, Roan doesn’t answer, you see the hesitation even though he knows the answer. “Roan?”

“If they were to remove you from rule after, people would feel joined again, like their voices are heard.”

“You mean killed?” Roan sighs. That was it, either you die or you die, there was no other way.

“How do we continue?” You ask finally.

“As normal. After breakfast I will be meeting with the second final contender, I have arranged to have someone else take care of Elodi for the time being, I knew you might want some time to think,” Roan said, you nodded. “We’ll talk in the morning,” Roan was about to leave when he paused. “It seems all I can give you is grave news in Azgeda, I’m sorry.” You still had no words as he left.

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It went down exactly as Roan said, you met Roan in the foyer the next morning after breakfast. “Anything?” You asked, Roan’s face looked grim.

“Nothing,” As the two of you walked outside into the courtyard.

“How can you just continue after you’ve heard this?” You question, trying to stay quiet, you were rudely interrupted when you Roan came to a sudden halt. You looked at who he was staring at. Nire bowed before the King, the grin on his face was clear that he was mocking Roan.

“Haihefa,” Roan took a few angry steps forward he didn’t need provocation to grip Nire by the lapels.

“You. I know what you did and what you are doing and you will pay for it in the dearest way possible,” Roan grit out, guards rushed up but Roan waved them off. Nire was cool and calm in his reaction as he glanced over at you with a cold look.

“Threaten me again, and much worse will ensue,” Nire said quietly, but you could hear it. You followed Roan as he rudely brushed past Nire.

“Roan, you can’t just-“

“My hands might be tied in some cases but no one, and I mean no one questions it, I am king,” Roan said turning on you, a little taken aback by the fierceness of his outburst.

“Fine, I didn’t mean-“

“I’m sorry, I don’t mean to turn on you,” Roan apologised softly as he came to a standstill with you beside him.

“It’s fine, we all know why we are so on edge,” You dismissed. Roan put on his best smile as his date appeared. “Olena,” He took her hand as she came to stand before him and kissed it. She didn’t react, only looked over at you. “This is (y/n), known as the Jus Gona, she will be accompanying us for our own safety.”

She managed a slight reaction as she regarded you for a while longer, “Is the rumours true have you also earned the title, Faya Gona?” She questioned.

“Though I’m not proud to admit it, yes I did,” You say curtly not in the mood to discuss your past failings when your certain doom was not far.

“Did you not kill rioters and revolutionaries?”

“I did but lives are lives, even when they are not exactly our friends,” You answered with a tight-lipped smile awaiting the backlash or insult but it never came, she nodded.

“What is our plans?” She asked Roan.

“I thought a game of chest might do,” Roan informed.

“Very well.”

You followed the two to the entertainment room and although there were guards outside you hung in a corner of a room. Barely listening.

“What do you say Jus Gona?” It was Olena that interrupted your thoughts after they had packed out the chess pieces. You looked to Roan for help but he gave you none.

“I’m sorry I was not listening,” You could see she was a little surprised.

“There must be serious unrest, I heard what had happened to Nymph.”

“Yes, unfortunately, we had felt the anger of the people through one casualty, there would have been more if Cedree and I hadn’t been there.”

“Oh I have no doubt and you think by marrying this might be remedied?” She turned to Roan.

“I believe what the people seek is security, to know that there King still has Azgeda and only Azgeda in mind, if I make the right choice and follow traditions it might ease some of the unrest,” Roan explained. That was another thing, if they decided that you would marry Roan, you would be stirring up more trouble, alienating him to his people. Why was there so much at stake?

There was a knock at the door momentarily interrupting the conversation until you stepped up and slightly opened the door. “What?” You asked Cedree, maybe a little harsher than he deserved.

“Letter for you.”

“Cedree why the hell do you tell me about a letter when I am currently busy, there are more important things,” You scolded him, trying to keep your voice down as possible.

“It's from your people,” He said softly as if he knew how important that would be. “It’s fine, I’ll tend here, you go,” He said before you think of words to form, you nodded.

“Haihefa, Olena, I have some urgent business to attend to but Cedree will be here in my stead,” You bid them. Roan simply nodded though you could see he was curious about what exactly you were off to do.

In your rooms, you find the letter on the desk and hastily tore it open.

Polis is in complete unrest, we fear for the safety of Skaikru in Polis but also fear that the alliance keeping the plans together might soon be failing.

If the circumstances were different I’d ask you to return, we could use your help but as it’s not, I just want you to be safe.

Marcus

The first person you thought to was Clarke, but then your worry dissipated, not only did she have Bellamy but also Lexa, even if one would be injured or worse, the other would protect Clarke with their life. You still wanted nothing more than to be there and especially with everything that was happening, you felt like you it would be the best option. It took everything in you to stop yourself from walking out those doors and out the palace and never come back but your first thought was that you would probably never see Roan again. It affected you more than you thought possible. So you sat down at your desk and began writing back. Not necessarily a reply but maybe something you would instruct Cedree to send should anything happen to you.

When Roan finds you later, the sun was starting to set and you sat with a massive headache because of staring at the letters too long. You were almost done, but your letter to Marcus might need to be rewritten since the words began to swim as you were writing the last few sentences. “What happened now?” He asked, clearly not ready for bad news but who would be? This must be placing a lot of stress on his shoulders.

“It was Marcus, he says there is a lot of unrest in Polis.”

“I also heard, what else did he want?” Roan asked, he always knew that there was something more.

You hesitated, “He wanted me to come to their aid.” You said at last.

“And you want to.” He added, certain.

“Roan, please. I know it’s not possible.”

“Yes but knowing what can’t be done and what one wants to do, doesn’t have to match, (y/n) you are only human.” Roan offered kindly, you sighed.

“How did it go? The date.” You inquired for a change of topic, Roan came to lean up against the desk.

“Fine, any idea who I should choose?” He asked.

“Nymph you’d known for a while, I guess you can easier judge her character. It’s a no on the shy girl, whatever her name is. Olena is very serious but sensible and to the point, she seems like she could be valuable in making a decision.”

“And Tayla?”

“Tayla seems like a good warrior, a good symbol for Azgeda,” You stated even though you were trying to avoid the enquiry.

“But?” Roan questioned, eyebrows raised.

“But she’s too pretty, too perfect,” You said.

“Those don’t seem like bad qualities,” Roan pointed out.

“No, I guess not,” You didn’t want to continue for fear of it looking suspicious, “There is also one more,” Roan shook his head. “Not?”

“No, Danik sends her regards, her mother died and she is in mourning,” Roan said.

“So she’s not an option?” He shook his head. “Do you still have to make a decision?” Roan nodded.

“It will be tomorrow night, then there will be an engagement feast after.”

“So many choices so little time,” You shrugged.

“Or it could be that this is all ripped from my hands. So I have one last question for you, how do you think (y/n) would fair?” He questioned.

“Don’t joke,” You scolded as you stood and drew the curtains on your windows.

“I’m serious,” He said even though he didn’t look it.

“Reckless, foolish, too young, impulsive, a bad example and not of Azgeda,” Roan gave you an incredulous look.

“Do you seriously think so little of yourself?” He asked, his words kind and gentle but you weren’t going to beat around the bush.

“Roan this isn’t just marriage, this is so much more, I’ve not been raised for this. I was meant to die as a nobody on a ship for something I did wrong.”

“So why are you here?” Roan questioned. “I believe it’s much more than a coincidence,” You don’t say anything even though you don’t agree.

“What’s this?” Roan asks plucking up the letter you wrote to Marcus Kane.

“Roan don’t-“ You jumped up suddenly to grab the letter from him, but he evades you quickly.

“Why did you write this?” You finally snatch it out of his hand and the other one, stowing it away in a drawer.

“You know why.” You give him a look.

“Really have you already decided your fate?” He questions.

“No but I’m not exactly the optimist here and it’s just in case I don’t get a chance to say goodbye.” You say, Roan nods, accepting your answer.

“Anyway, I need to check up on Elodi.” Roan says before he turns to leave. “(Y/n).” He turns around to you as you listen intently. “Say I can’t protect you but someone else might be able to, would you do it?”

“Do what, Roan? What could possibly offer me that kind of protection?"

“Marriage. If you are married then you can’t be seen as a threat to the throne.”

“Married? Roan to who?”  You question a little shocked at his suggestion.

“Someone you choose, you don’t have to choose now, but I won’t marry you off to someone whom you don’t know.” Roan states.

“Roan this is… crazy-“

“Think about it, if anything.” He says before he leaves.

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Its absolute chaos when you step outside your room. Cedree is there to give you the news that caused all this. “Lexa kom Trikru steduan (Lexa of the Tree clan is dead,” You are a little stunned by it as the two of you make it down for breakfast. “Did you know her?” He asks when you look a little devastated.

“I guess so. Didn’t think it would- Shit Clarke.” You panic a little.

“Who’s Clarke? Someone you knew?” Cedree ask as he watches you, you take a quick turn down a different hall and it’s as if Cedree knows exactly whats happening. Cedree grabs your hand and pulls you into a little a clove in the wall.

“Listen, you can’t do that. I know what you’re thinking, believe me, I know.” Cedree says as he presses your shoulders into the wall, your worry is quickly replaced by anger.

“Cedree I swear to fucking God-“ You struggle against your grip but he effectively keeps you pinned against the wall.

“Keep quiet.” He shushes you as people pass. “This is not a decision you want to make lightly, what about Roan? You would forever be hunted? Where would you go looking like Azgeda?” All the questions were starting to make sense and you stopped struggling but it didn’t mean your anger had disappeared. When Cedree was convinced you wouldn’t bolt to the stables when he let go, you shrugged off his hands and felt like kicking something with your frustration.

“I need to go talk to Roan.” You say but Cedree stops you again, he wraps an arm around your shoulders.

“I’m sure with the news, Roan is very busy, maybe let’s have breakfast first.” He guides you towards the dining hall and you oblige even though you felt upset, even more so when you knew it was true.

You couldn’t eat with the news, you wanted to know what it meant, you wanted to know if Clarke was okay, you didn’t want to sit here and listen to everyone gossip about what might be coming.

“You not gonna eat?” Cedree asks, you shake your head. So Cedree picks up your plate and scrapes the food onto his empty plate. “What? A mans gotta eat.” He says when you stare at him.

So you gave it some time until lunch came and gone and decided that surely Roan must have been finished by now. You made your way to Roan’s quarters, the first place you’d look for him but what you found instead was Echo waiting outside for him.

“The King is busy,” Was the first thing she declared.

“You came back, when did you arrive?” You ask a little confused.

“In the morning, the King can’t see anyone now,” She said again, always friendly, you thought.

“Echo, it’s urgent.”

“Not as urgent as what he’s attending to now, so move along, I’ll tell him you were here,” Echo said.

“Seeing as you weren’t getting through to her you turned around to leave.”

“(Y/n), he will probably want to see you later in the afternoon, before the announcement,” Echo informed, you nodded, thankful for the bit of information.

You slumped next to Cedree, where he sat watching the guards and soldiers spar, he was eating, again, of course.

“What now?”

“Roan’s still busy.”

“Aye, he is and he will be until he’s not, nothing you can do about that, sweetheart,” Cedree informed.

“Cedree where the hell are you from?” You question.

“It's a long story but I guess you have time.” He says rubbing your frustration in a little. “These aren’t the only people who survived prime faya. Many others on lands far away. Although there it's very different from here, we didn’t have anything to bind a band of people together, it has always been each man for himself.”

“More savage?”

“Say what you will about all the other clans, but Azgeda has formed its own society though war and fighting at it’s principle, there are the gentler folk, and the people who choose not and could not participate in what everyone thinks all Azgedans do,” Cedree explained, you saw his point. Azgeda was complicated more than Trikru, you had indeed noticed.

“That’s not my question.”

“You shush and listen to my story.” He chides playfully, trying to sound dramatic. “Well there’s lots of killing there, and we speak the same as you do still maybe the slang is different and the accents and you sometimes here a language that has not been heard in a while. I’m from what people use to call Ireland.”

“Why did you come here?”

Cedree’s look turned a little more solemn, “I was never meant to stay in one place and it became all the clearer when I lost my family. Only what they don’t tell you is that when you join Azgeda there is no leaving this place.”

“Would you leave if you could?”

“I’ve been here for so long I don’t think I would leave even if I could. I mean sure everyone leaves people behind but Azgeda changes a person and I wasn’t sure that those people would want what I brought anymore.” Cedree explains.

“It’s why you knew this morning?”

“You and I are much more alike than you may think.” Cedree remarks, it was clear to you as well. “Well I’d hate to leave you while you wait by yourself but I need to prepare for tonight. You should do the same, I’ll save you a seat (y/n).”

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After doing and re-doing your braids, you finally brushed your hair through once more before you decided you were done, you were far too early for the whole idea but you couldn’t sit still. The knock at your door drew you away from the mirror as Echo stepped inside.

“Now?” She simply nodded and you al but rushed past her.

Roan was getting ready when you found him in his rooms, his armour being strapped on by an assistant, he dismissed the servant and you stepped closer to help him, fasten the straps.

“I’m sorry, I couldn’t see you earlier, the news of Lexa caused utter chaos.”

“But the announcement is still on? No news from the Council?” You questioned, Roan shook his head.

“For now, at least, everything continues. You’ll be glad to hear that I received new that Wanheda is alive and well.” Roan said as you were stunned into silence, finally relieved.

“Can this news change anything?”

“It could, the fact that the coalition has shattered can work either in our favour or against us. It means my people will be looking for me to act and if I do it could strengthen my position with them.”

“Would it be against Skaikru?” You ask.

“Clarke is as much my friend as she is yours.” He answers.

“But this also means that if I die that I don’t become a martyr to my people or under Lexa’s rule.”

“You mean Skaikru.” Roan raises a brow.

“Yes, I mean Skaikru.” You correct quickly.

“(Y/n) you can’t make these slips around others, if you are to be safe here, you need to be careful that you don’t look to be a sympathiser.”

“I thought Skaikru wasn’t our enemy?” You question, confused.

“Not in everyone’s eyes.” Roan reminded. “But yes this could mean that there is less meaning if you die, which would give them less cause to try and kill you.”

“Could they simply dismiss it?”

“They could,” Roan said.

“So you’re getting married.” You stated, you couldn’t help but feel something at the thought, not anything good.

“I have to be engaged first.” Roan shrugged but it meant nothing to you.

“I thought about it,” You say, Roan looked confused for a moment, “And I thought about it and I thought about it and then I thought about it some more. If it can’t be helped, if it is my last option, I will marry Cedree but only if you trust him.”

“I’m sure, Cedree would be delighted at your intention to make him your last resort.” Roan joked.

“Roan this is serious. Would he even-?”

“You would be making a good choice and Cedree would accept, he likes you.”

“I’ve known him less than a week and I plan on marrying him.” You state.

“Welcome to the club.”

                                           ✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

It was done, the announcement was made. Roan had chosen Tyla and you couldn’t deny it, it hurt to look at them. Echo glanced at you as you sat at the table, Cedree on your other side with a few other warriors littered around. All you could do was stare at the Tyla’s glee as she stood beside him on the dais. “Oooh must hurt.” Echo was never really one to keep her mouth shut.

“Shut up,” You say taking a big swallow of the sour alcohol that Azgeda claimed to be experts in.

“What?” Cedree always curious quickly chimed in.

“Let's just say there might be an extra reason why the Tyla and buttercup over here wouldn’t get along, at least not after tonight,” Echo said a smile on her face.

“Less talking, more drinking,” You say sliding both Cedree and Echo’s cups closer to them.

“Now that is something I can get behind,” Cedree declared before finishing his cup.

The food was good but by the amount that everyone at the table was drinking, no one would actually be able to taste the food. It was so easy to get shamelessly drunk when that was what everyone did, even though it might not be for the same reason. You had avoided looking at the King and the queen-to-be the whole evening but now when the was no coherent conversation between anyone, did you glance up. Roan’s eyes met yours as if he knew you was looking but before he could hold your gaze a moment longer, Nymph drew his attention back. It was almost painful to watch, you stood up suddenly not really in control of your own actions as you walked out of the hall into the open courtyard. A steady snow had started to drift down, a reminder that summer didn’t ever last.

You’re not outside alone for long before you almost jump out of your skin when a cloak is wrapped around your shoulders. “What the hell?” You snap turning to face Cedree.

“Sorry, it’s a habit to keep quiet,” He shrugged.

“I don’t need it anyway,” You say a little stubbornly.

“Of course you do, it’s too cold out here for Skaikru,”

“Speak for yourself,” You shot back though a playful grin now etching itself on your face.

“What are you doing out here anyway?”

“I’m too sober for how drunk everyone else in there is,” You comment watching the guards pace the walls of the fortress.

“I get that,” Cedree was content to keep quiet after that, standing next to you and watching the guards too. You glanced at him, and suddenly all the hurt poured into your chest. You were going to move on in any way you could, the only way you knew how to, you had to marry this guy anyway.

You turned to Cedree and quickly cupped his cheeks, his soft beard rustling through your fingers, he didn’t react only watched you as you inched up slowly onto your toes and captured his lips between yours. He immediately returned the kiss, spinning you around until the wall hit your back. “Not to be a spoilsport,” Cedree said in between kisses, “But I have my boundaries, I don’t do drunken mistakes.”

“Do I look drunk to you?”

“Well no, I would say you could use a couple more drinks before you reach that point.” You kissed him again, and he chased after your lips but broke the kiss anyway. Movement caught your eye, and there pausing as he talked to a guard, was Roan, he saw. Sudden shame-filled you until Cedree drew you back again, you were going to marry him anyway, you reminded yourself again.

“Well Echo said-“

“Cedree, this is my offer take it or leave it.” You interrupted him, a little anger flared up within you.

Cedree stepped closer and this time cupped your cheeks. The cool air made your breaths visible as they collided, “I’ve been wanting to do this for a long time,” He whispered before his lips could reach yours you placed your hands gently on his shoulders.

“Somewhere a little more private, please?” You asked sweetly.

Next Chapter

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[coffeecrusadeclub]

Familiar Faces -Tyrus fic

Cyrus's POV:

"I know! I swear I want-" I cut my sentence off short and stared past my friend, Buffy, causing her to turn around and see what had rendered me speechless.

"What the-Is that TJ?" Buffy asked, a little too loud. His head turned towards us and I quickly ducked down to avoid being seen.

"Cyrus what are you-"

"Buffy Shh!" I cut her off, but it was too late. We were noticed and TJ had started over to our table.

"Buffy did we pay already"

"Yeah wh-"

Before she could finish her response I had grabbed her hand and rushed her out of the spoon. I was glad I had given up trying to sit at the counter and let Buffy choose a seat by the exit.

"Cyrus what the heck is going on" Buffy asked after a couple minutes, finally pulling me to a stop.

"I dont- I dont want to see him. Why is he back"

"Cyrus he probably is visiting family. When he left Amber said their mom sent him to some bootcamp program or something, that hed be gone for a couple years, it's been 3 years he might just be back"

"No! No no no! He cant be back I cant- I cant have him around after-" I stopped myself from completing the thought.

"Alright Cyrus come on we are going to your place and you're telling me what the heck is going on. You two were so close up until a week before he left"

Despite my protests Buffy dragged me to my house and upon heading down to the entertainment room in my basement, demanded I tell her what happened. I was hesitant at first, not wanting to relive the memories but the therapist in me thought it might be good for me to talk about so I told her.

**** 3 years ago ****

"TJ, you've had too much to drink. Where did you even get all this you're only 17"

"Ugh mind your business Goodman I get it's in your name but why cant you loosen up? You're being a lame"

I tried to shake off his words, I didnt know why he was acting this way but I tried to convince myself it was the alcohol talking not him.

"Baby you don't mean that, come on let's go wash up and go to bed okay? Come on" I gently took hold of his arm and tried to lead him up the stairs but he quickly yanked away from me.

"Stop calling me that I'm not fucking gay Cyrus. Whatever this is has to stop now it's getting old"

"TJ, I-"

"No dont look at me like that. I'm not gay I never was. Sure you're my friend but I figured I could win you and mess around some"

"I was wh- Is that all I was? Some prize to be won? A toy to be played with? You know what TJ no screw you!" I felt tears well up in my eyes and tried to stop them from falling but still they rolled down my cheeks.

"Don't cry. Cyrus dont cry please I'm sorry" TJ's tone and attitude changed and I didnt know what to believe. He was drunk and unstable.

"Just- just stop talking let's get you to bed"

"Cy I love you baby" he smiled softly at me, it was like he didnt remember the things he had said just a moment before

"Mhm come on into bed you go" I replied setting a trashcan down next to him. I decided not to sleep in his bed and took some blankets and pillows down stairs to the couch. I was woken up to the sound of TJ's voice the next morning.

"H-hey Cy goodmorning baby, how come you slept down here?"

"Do you not remember what happened last night?"

"No not really, but based on the massive headache I have right now and the fact that I reek of liquor, I assume I got drunk"

"That you did. As well as say some pretty nasty stuff"

"Oh no Cy I-"

"Dont. Just- Don't okay? Dont say sorry because itd be nothing more than empty air you dont even remember." I cut him off, a sense of bitterness in my tone.

"Cy what did i- what did I say?"

"I was you're prize, just a toy to be won.. You're not gay."

"Cyrus Im s-"

"Dont. Dont say it. Dont tell me you're sorry you dont mean it"

"I didnt mean for that to come out then I didn't-"

"So it was true?"

"No I-"

"Just- stop already TJ you're not helping. You were right about one thing last night. This needs to stop. I'm tired of being pushed around- pushed away when other people are around. The truth came out TJ, hopefully you can too" with tears running down my face I took my chance to leave at that. I never wanted to see him again.

****current time****

I looked up at Buffy who had a a soft expression on her face. I wiped tears away from my own as she pulled me into a hug

"Oh Cyrus you didnt deserve that. Not at all, nobody can treat my best friend like that. I'm gona go find him" she stated, getting up from the couch.

"Buffy no. That was 3 years ago, I should be over it by now"

"But you're not"

"I know I'm not Buffy but he probably doesn't even remember"

Buffy sighed but agreed to let things be and I heard a familiar knock pattern on my door.

"TJ's here..." I said a slight panic rising in me

"How do you know"

"That's his knock. Everytime he used to visit he would knock a bunch of times in a heartbeat rhythm"

"I'll kick him out-"

"No no just- you go home I'll call you later. Okay?"

"Fine okay"

We walked upstairs to the front door together and I opened it, sure enough it was TJ

"Hey Buffy.. Cyrus" TJ greeted us shly

"Kippen" Buffy responded coldly before walking out the door to leave "Bye Cyrus see you later" I waved for a moment before turning back to the blue eyed boy standing on my front porch.

"TJ..."

"Can I come in? Please we really should talk"

"About what? Theres nothing to talk about"

"About what happened before I left"

"I dont know what you mean" I responded playing dumb.

"Cyrus we both know that's not true or you wouldnt have run away at the spoon like you did." He looked at me with pleading eyes and I sighed stepping out of the doorway and letting him in. We sat down in the kitchen and I made him a cup of coffee.

"Cyrus I never meant to hurt you. The things I said- they weren't meant to be taken like that. I just I was drunk and I guess the delivery wasnt great"

"Yeah no kidding" I responded coldly, scoffing at him.

"I did love you Cyrus- I do. I just was scared. The day before.. my mom found out. She started screaming at me because she had seen us kissing. I- I panicked she had seen us on a nanny cam she told me to breakup with you. I never meant to but I knew the camera was there and I guess I just couldnt convey that I was acting.. she sent me away anyway"

"TJ.. I didn't- I didnt know.. I'm sorry"

"How were you supposed to?"

"I could have let you talk that morning... tell me..."

"It wasnt you're fault Cyrus"

I felt tears well up in my eyes, "yes it was! All these years I spent mad at you and it was my fault. I should have just let you explain and this wouldnt have happened I wouldn't have-" suddenly I felt TJs hands on my wrists as his lips pressed against mine. He started to pull away and then leaned back in, slowly loosening his grip on my wrists. Once he pulled away I took a deep breath

"God I missed that" he whispered softly

"Me too" I replied.

We sat there and talked for hours, we had 3 years of making up to do. And 3 years of anger, pain, and betrayal to deal with. But we had each other and that's what mattered.

[onepiece-imagines-bartoloclub]

Some answers

So, this might've been an odd way to pop up again after being away for about a week, but it was a jarring choice to make so I wanna give yall an explanation as to why I was gona for that long.

The decision to go offline for so many days was an out of the blue choice cause this month and the previous one were just stressful. I wanted to go online last week but I had to finish the presentation for Thursday, and I knew that if I went online, I would get myself distracted and not work on the project so what I decided to do was go on Tumblr after I was finished and go on like normal. The problem came when a new exam was announced for this Thursday last week and when my presentation went so badly that I was just done and didn't want to use my phone at all. I didn't go to any of my apps, save for Discord to talk to some friends once in a while.

Like dealing with those exams, then the presentation and trying to go on Tumblr every day was too much. I did feel bad for doing this cause I should've at least let yall know. The only thing that made the week tolerable was a surprise from my sister that we were going to Universal to see a few family members and a Halloween event during the weekend, and at that time, the idea of using my phone barely crossed my mind.

But yeah, that was it mostly, I just needed to get away and just not go on any social media site and take a break. I'm sorry about that, I have a hard time thinking twice about the choices I make so this was a spur of the moment kind of thing.

[quackspot]

Every single one of the talk about meme questions. Just kidding, pick any 6 you wanna do

m gona do whatever i can talk about bc i like to talk about myself

4: Talk about the thing you regret most so far.

getting addicted to th internet but of course i wouldn’t be here but i would likely be better off socially .  or maybe just being born as i am sometimes i think about how if i were born male things would be Much better for me like socially n stuff like that.. sometimes i jut wish i coud chest bump and cheer with friends n goof around and be crazy yeah i can be like that but it’d feel kind of weird (or just weird at first)

5: Talk about the best birthday you've had.

one year i got a club penguin membership and i was in chuck e cheeses and then another year completely different but me n some friends played a game called body body in my house and it was fun

6: Talk about the worst birthday you've had.

i dont think i did anything for my birthday last year so like oop

7: Talk about your biggest insecurity.

my forehead or my height

8: Talk about the thing you are most proud of.

im pretty proud of my art and writing!! 

9: Talk about little things on your body that you like the most.

my body is very cool i like how my hair bounces when i walk because of how i walk and how my hair curls in towards my face (kind of)

10: Talk about the biggest fight you've ever had.

probably a video game one to be honest.  cant really recall. uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

11: Talk about the best dream you've ever had.

i’ve had some weird dreams like when i stole the side of a locker and ran from some guy but i was late for the bus so i put the side back and it was all ok then uhhhhh one where people were doing like cheer leader pyramids and i think some dude named craig from dream daddy was there i cant quite remember if that’s the guy who was there i just remember being like “FSKLJFLKJKLF CRAIG DREAM DADDY WAS IN MY DREAM”

12: Talk about the worst dream you've ever had.

i went to someone’s house and i kicked a tree stump then bees chases me and i dont remember much else about it it was in like 3rd grade

13: Talk about the first time you had sex/how you imagine your first time.

bottom

14: Talk about a vacation.

i went to florida in 6th grade for a week and i loved it very much i got a wand (and a wand ceremony >:) )

15: Talk about the time you were most content in life.

never

18: Talk about something that happened in elementary school.

in like 4th grade someone told me someone else had a crush on me and i was like “ohhhhh yeah that kind of makes sense” and i just felt awkward around him since i didnt like him back 

19: Talk about something that happened in middle school.

OHOSHOSHODHSOHOEHO HO O O O N N NN N  THE BUSS!!! I met a good friend and the first words i said to her were something like “hi i have social anxiety” and she was like “me too!!!” hten we were friends and then i went to another school in 8th grade and we never talked ever again and im in 10th grade now o-o

20: Talk about something that happened in high school.

last year i went to the bathroom and said “let there be light” while walking in and hte lights came on

21: Talk about a time you had to turn someone down.

also last year someone who i considered like somewhat close friend (we dont talk anymore sadly he had fun games? i dunno he was rich and white and yeah he was fun to hang out with n stuff) and he asked me if i wanted to be his gf and i was like “nahh hahaha im not ready for that kind of thing” and i didnt like him that way also it was during challenge day aka  a day where people came in and were like “man we all sad let’s hug :)”

22: Talk about your worst fear.

either bugs or the horrifying fear of hte unknown and growing up

23: Talk about a time someone turned you down.

cant get turned down if you’ve only asked 1  person if you’d like to get together twice and they said yes both times but you started thinking you weren’t right for them then broke up B)

25: Talk about an ex-best friend.

someone i’ll call m&m because she didn’t like being called that uhh she was rather rude and had a trampoline and 2 dogs and was pretty bossy i guess

26: Talk about things you do when you're sick.

literally nothign new i just do what i do but maybe actually just. yeah thts basically what i did recently i had a stuffy nose and like mucus or something in my mouth and it’s still like that but the only thing i really changed was nasal spray ! i use that at night but i might stop soon since im feeling better

31: Talk about what you think death is like.

it depends on how you die. there’s probably like the last moments and then nothing. nobody knows what happens next. you might get revived or you might just be nothing forever and that’s rather scary to me

32: Talk about a place you remember from your childhood.

i remember my first house i lived in and i walked back home from elementary school and it was cool

33: Talk about what you do when you are sad.

tell myself “hey stop being sad” or cry if im alone 

34: Talk about the worst physical pain you've endured.

MY LEGS TODAY WERE GUCKNVIGTIORJ LKEKL JRIOFDJKLSAJIDFKEDSL ohh wait worst ok

so it was a period pain and i was on my bed and i was crying and i was curled up and a thught appeared in my head.... “what if i drew a pentagram on my hand?” because jamie said that brought her luck and i was like “fuck it might as well try it” so then i had a pentagram on my hand and satan didn’t help me with period cramps

35: Talk about things you wish you could stop doing.

stop being nervous abt talking to people i guess lol. . . . making friends hard if u cant say hi 

36: Talk about your guilty pleasures.

my little pony n stuff sometimes i just watch kids shows when im bored

37: Talk about someone you thought you were in love with.

idk i dont think i’ve truly fallen in love but im sure i was in love with kiley at least a little bit 

38: Talk about songs that remind you of certain people.

when i first listened to melancholy blues i thought of sparkling cookie i know he’s not real but songs don’t remind me of real people

39: Talk about things you wish you'd known earlier.

golden birthdays because my golden birthday was when i was 5  actually theyre nothing special but.. .  still wig

40: Talk about the end of something in your life.

we dont have fishies anymore and that’s becuase we have a dog and a cat now :(((( miss u fish....... 

[umamiclown]

rules: answer 21 questions then tag 21 people

tagged by: @nessms thnk u!!! its been years since i did one of these

name: vrinda (slightly uncomfy 4 me now cs of gender stuff but im workin it out)

nickname: closest friends call me vee!

gender: changes every blue moon but current pronouns r she/he

star sign: scorpio sun and rising so you know the stars made me mean as hell babay!!!

height: 5′5′’.not 2 vaguepost but im not short. yall know exactly who u are :/

current time: 14:08

fave artists: fuck idk uhhh *frantically scrolls thru my own music at the speed of sound* according 2 google play music ive listened 2 washing machine heart by mitski 23 times in the past week so theres that

song stuck in my head: interpassion by yelle

last movie i saw: i cried during bohemian rhapsody.......dark shoutout 2 younger me for not realizing tht every one of queens songs bangs

last thing i googled: enthalpy of combustion of ethanol. test week starts soon :/

other blogs: i only use like one other blog actively n its my aesthetic/stim blog @aesthetic-sloth

do i get asks: occasionally cs im not cool n theyre always @oddlykip fucken roasting me

reason for url: uuu i think i went to a random url generator in like 2013?? n then it became my Brand™

following: over 2000 people...............SPEAKING ODF WHICH i just hit 1000 followers i should.make a post abt tht

average sleep: this term has been hell so like 6 hrs at best

lucky number: 9

currently wearing: its saturday. im abt that pjs life

dream job: microbiology!!! means i have 2 get way fucken good grades tho :/

dream trip: ngl if i had money id be a rich tourist hoe takin a year long trip around europe but otherwise like. disneyland ig

fave foods: i JUST ate spicy chicken dumplings. definitely those but specifically frm the restaurant near my house

instruments: i played piano for like......3 years??? but then i lost interest cs i literally cannot commit to things so im doin singing now

fave song(s): changes every 5 mins or so but wuthering heights by kate bush (im a slut for 80s music n also kate bush)

hair color: black but im gona dye it maroon-purple the EXACT second i move out

favorite fruit: idk if berries count but i ate SO many blueberries ystrdy

favorite season: tht summer to fall midway time definitely

favorite animal: idk if i have one???but i love kakapos n sloths r cute

favorite fictional character: HOO boy!!! im not showing any favoritism whatsoever but i have a mini mettaton sacrificial altar on my desk so :/ (the sacrifices r my 7000 missing sets of dnd dice n also marbles)

favorite TV show(s): jojos bizarre adventure. yes im tht jojo mutual

cat or dog: you fools! you cowards!! i have two (2) pet holding hands

favourite colour: uhhh maroonish purple and like, royal blue? 

do you have a crush on tumblr: no i donnt INTERACT w anyone on this site

play(ed) any sports?: i like badminton n volleyball. doesnt mean im good at them though :/

language(s) you speak: umm english , hindi, finnish, sanskrit (to some extent), swedish (but im never takin or speaking it again fuck tht), n like....some spanish but w a hideous accent

random fact: uuhh i cant hear out of one ear (wait did it have 2 be wild personal)

describe yourself in aesthetic: i got a shirt frm the thrift store which i thot screamed Butch Rights!!™ the other day n my mom said it made me look like a yakuza member so i base my entire personality off of it now. also like every shirt in my closet is maroon

im gonna tag @oddlykip @stellathetumbler @lady-genesis @sirenswithnoharmony  @sc4ry3quin0x ​ @beadlizard  ok fucj i cant remember anyonr else no way in hell im taggin 21 people