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Bottoms (2023) dir. Emma Seligman

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HOTTAKE OF THE THE DAY

catwoman x poison ivy would make a better couple than ivy x Harley can you imagine their combined evil lair it would be so cozy with all the cats and plants. Also there is the little matter of fact that Ivy and catwoman actually are more closely aligned personality wise and in their desires. THEY ARE BOTH MISANTHROPES WHO OCCASIONALLY DREAM OF WORLD DOMINATION so they don't have to deal with anyone

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9 PM thought -> 12 AM rumination

made some bad decisions today got my hair done based off my idea for a halloween costume I have yet to even attempt to make and I'm losing interest in-- stuck with this hair color tho

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Pray for Sudan 🇸🇩 || Free Palestine 🇵🇸

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Major Idiot

Don't know a whole lot about the Jonathan Majors case but one things for sure, he needs to fire his management team. I didn't even know about the coretta comments that came out in court cause I specifically stayed away, but that GMA interview where he doubles down on those sentiments by saying he found his coretta is v cringe. It comes off kinda red pill lite, like "a high value man needs a high value woman" type shit. Someone should have told him to lay low like Aziz Ansari and Louis CK after their scandals.

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The color purple

I seen The Color Purple on Day 1, which was a big for me cause I'm not a see a movie on Christmas type of person. Afterwards though I was glad. I thought the movie was sufficiently more gay than the first one. The Shug Avery song they sang while Celie washed her back was amazing. I thought it was the best song in the musical. Then the dance scene before for the kiss was cute too. I feel like compared to the first movie they made it explicitly clear that they were queer. Though honestly, thats not saying much because I don't think the first one gave you any cue that they were lesbians until the kiss at the end.

Although to their credit, they were working within a v homophobic period in time so it makes sense that they downplayed things. Also the first movie was more emotionally impactful than the musical. Maybe the songs threw off the tone and the director made different choices like moving the scene where Celie puts the curse on Mister. In terms of the queer moments which I loved, I still wanted the actors to do more to develop the sexual tension. Taraji and Fantasia are big names so I didn't really expect them to give us a sex scene- it fades to black in the bedroom. I just wish they made more of an effort to make it feel as though those two were going to jump each others bones. It honestly came off like they were friends.

Overall both movies had their strengths and weaknesses, but I was proud of each of them. I just wish that in the next 20 when they feel the need to redo the movie again, they actually cast queer actresses who can carry the emotional weight of the roles. I want them to follow Alice Walker's vision more closely. I mean why is the source material there if no one really follows it. It's also sad that the creators of the musical specifically asked Alice Walker what she wanted from the broadway production and made sure to give that to her. Yet during the movie musical the team distanced themselves from those decisions. Autostraddle gives a good round up of the differences between book/ 1980's movie/ broadway/ 2023 movie musical.

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AYO EDEBIRI AND JEREMY ALLEN WHITE — 81st Annual Golden Globe Awards (January 07, 2024)

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Feeling very unhinged today and I want to put my craziest thoughts on here because somehow even though I journal as my therapist suggests this feels much more cathartic because people can see it and sometimes it feels nice not to be dealing with your particular brand of dysfunction alone but I say all that to say NOT TODAY SATAN I will not be giving into this impulse but I will complain about something that is concurrently vexing me-- The price of (dog) Adoption

Before inflation I've seen young dogs listed for about 350 and puppies in the 400-500 range. Now I'll see dogs from 3-7 years old listed for 500-600 dollars. Puppies start around 650. I've seen a 3 yr old mutt *some kind of French bulldog* with an overbite listed for 800 dollars. Before only purebreds given up by breeders would be listed for anything close to 800. Things have gotten out of control and I feel sad. It's as though I've been priced out of one of my biggest dreams-- owning a dog.

I couldn't as a child since my mom was against it, so dog adoption always felt like the thing I would gift myself when I got established. I've had some mental health issues, so it's taken time to feel like I was ready for that level of responsibility. Now I'm feeling better, but this is v discouraging. It's also distressing because looking for dogs is what I do when I'm distressed.

I've scheduled a therapy appointment to discuss what's really bothering me, but couldn't get one until a few days out. So for now, I guess I'm relying on the power of anonymous confession lol.

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AYO EDEBIRI wins for Best Performance in a Television Series – Musical or Comedy for The Bear (FX / Hulu) as Sydney Adamu

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A lil doodle for Vanuary(thanks! @koddlet)

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we need to always remember to love palestinians more than we hate zionists. amidst the anger…. let’s focus our energies on palestinians and their rights and lives, and less on the morons who say things that infuriate us. they are trying to sidetrack us. don’t let them. we must stay clear in our goals—to uplift, amplify and support the palestinian resistance and the palestinian people.

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Amnesty International ceasefire petition

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my toxic trait is that I believe deep down that I’m always bothering people. “oh I can’t keep blogging so much on my own blog, I’ll get annoying on peoples’ dash”, “oh I can’t text my besties, I have to wait for them to text me so I know it’s not an inconvenient time”, etc etc. I know it’s all bullshit because I love it when my friends bother me. I love to be bothered by the people I love. but here I am. worrying. as usual

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12:52 thoughts

TBH I've been really down. I usually try to make my virtual therapy sessions, but haven't been feeling up to that either. Most recently, my therapist didn't even show up for our appointment for some reason. So long story short things have been rough, but my emotional dependance on Cobra by Megan thee stallion and Snooze by SZA is going strong. That part of Snooze that starts when SZA runs across a field in the video is the sliver lining of my existence.

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NYAD

NYAD was a force of a film. It really had me in my feels and usually I hate sports movies. I was crying at multiple points throughout the film.

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GOD looks like Jodie Turner Smith

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I was going to talk about the conflict between Israel and Palestine briefly since I felt it was important to emphasis that everyone should be doing their own reading/ research on the events unfolding right now since I find it v difficult to trust the media to give an accurate representation of things.

I like to be well researched about current events before I offer opinions, so I won't do that yet. Though I will share a reading list from black women radicals, an organization whose content I trust if anyone would like to do any further reading on the crisis like me.

I know this reading list has an obvious bent to it, but it's a start. I'm open to other readings that would characterize Israel's actions differently, if only to feel like I'm being given a more well rounded view of things. I just don't want to feel as though I'm being manipulated to believe one way or the other. Honestly impartial sources would be best but I doubt that anything is truly impartial.